#going to sleep now goodnight bye bye

[ayyy-pee]

waking up freezing and shivering, teeth chattering every night because your husband is a blanket hog. you know it's not on purpose. he just can't help it. doesn't even know he does it most times. you'd think after years together you'd be used to it, but waking up curled into the fetal position as you try to retain even a smidge of warmth is something you don't think you'll ever adjust to.

so you reach behind you, feeling your spouses large form wrapped snug as a bug in your shared blanket and you grip onto the fabric. you pull as hard as you can but you don't manage to move him even an inch. you try once more...same result.

"ken..." you whisper, wrapping your arms around yourself. no response. "kento..."

he doesn't budge. you're tempted to just get up and go grab another blanket, but your husband, despite his seriousness, can get quite pouty when you do that. so you tap him hard instead sure to jab him in the spot you know is his most sensitive. this seems to do the trick as he grunts in response.

"I'm cold," you tell nanami and he sits up quickly, realizing what he's done. his pajama top hangs off one shoulder. his blonde hair is pointing every which way and sleep is heavy on his eyelids, threatening to weigh him down again any minute.

"I'm sorry, love," nanami speaks, voice rough and deep with exhaustion, but the sincerity in his apology clear.

then he's throwing the blanket back over you both. only he adds in a little extra warmth as he wraps his arm around your waist and throws a large leg over your body.

nanami buries his face in your neck, adjusting himself so that he can be as close to you as possible. only a few seconds pass before you hear his light snoring behind you. and you know the warmth you feel is from more than just his touch.

[900revolvingwheels]

so wgat if dearh just isnt fair at all whay if it sucks so much like im so scared fhat after you die fot some reason your brain stays conscious but in a way that living humans cant pikc up but youre still conacious cause neurons are so insane for exisiting its insane thatbwe exist and since theyre so insane and we cant fully understand why they exist or how we exist who says we dont just stay conscious after death even if we have no way of expla8ning it and thats horrifying thats so scaey yoyre conacious but you cant move your body and you wait there as people lock you in a coffin and bury you underground ajd you watch your own body decompose until the sun grows so large it destroys earth and all those neurons are cooked excpet what if desturction in thqt form cant evenfully kill your conscious but at least its better to eixts in fire and floating around in the air than underground thats why i wanna be cremated im gonna be so ficking mad if i dont get cremated anyway i keep tjonking that theres no way death is jorrible cahse everyone experieces it so it wouldnt be fair for it to be bad for eternity that judt wouldnt be fair but since qhen wqs the universe fair the universe doesnr care if death is boring and l9nely and frustrating becausr rhe universe isnt sentient even if it cared about us it wouldnt be able to do anytuing about it cause stuff just happens death just happen an wjatevers after death will just happen and theres no way around it i hope that death is complete nothingness i hope i have absolutelt no sentience past my life thats my worst fear fuck the afterlife cause sometimes i think about what if i was alive for eternity and that sounds boring but would i actualy ever get bored. maybe i wouldnt like is it possible to get bored of just being alive. idk. cause i still think of death and eternity in terms of me being there like i imagine death as just what it is when i close my eyes but that cant be death death is so mucy more or less or wtv idk and infinity is just like. so long. anyway

[eternalstateofoctober]

— 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔦 𝔴𝔞𝔫𝔫𝔞 𝔟𝔢 𝔦𝔰 𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗𝖞𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖆𝖙 𝖔𝖓𝖈𝖊 | AMC’s IWTV

also known as ”local woman is roused to learn editing to deliver everyone this fandom classic” (the video's synced better on desktop)

transcription/video description under the cut:

[video description: a fan video/edit of amc’s ”interview with the vampire” by tumblr user @eternalstateofoctober (me!!) set to a shortened version of lenka’s ”everything at once”. the video clips are cut to the rhythm of the song and its changing lyrics. the song is catchy and upbeat with a light, bouncy rhythm and a whimsical but also slightly melancholic vibe at times. it has a steady beat with repeating piano notes and some xylophone. the video clips are muted so only the song is playing, save for a few voiceover lines and sound effects.

(instrumental intro, repeating piano notes)

the théâtre des vampires orchestra starts playing and another member checks the projector. a watermark with the username @eternalstateofoctober flashes on screen and disappears at the same time as a projector light flickers.

🎵 as sly as a fox 🎵

two clips of daniel after the trial script reveal. first he tosses the script to louis, then he pushes his glasses up and casts a hard look at an off-screen armand.

🎵 as strong as an ox 🎵

armand uses the mind gift to make the coven fall asleep at the dinner table in 2x04, voiceover of him yelling ”enough!” angrily and banging the table. table settings clattering. then lestat using the mind gift at the trial to manipulate louis’ sentence. his left ear starts bleeding. VO lestat: ”banishment...”

🎵 as fast as a hare 🎵

louis sprints at daniel in ’73, making him stumble back.

🎵 as brave as a bear 🎵

clips of young daniel being tortured by armand. first he lifts his gaze, then there’s two clips of him being slammed down by armands powers. last clip is him closing his eyes while armand holds his face. VO of daniel’s grunts and whimpers.

🎵 as free as a bird 🎵

claudia on stage as baby lu mimes opening a window made of projections happily.

🎵 as neat as a word 🎵

claudia writes in her diary in season 1, the clip has a double exposure effect with her pen moving on the page.

🎵 as quiet as a mouse 🎵

a wide shot of the sewers the children of darkness inhabit.

🎵 as big as a house 🎵

establishing shot of the théâtre des vampires building. suddenly the screen flashes black and there’s a quick flickering shot of the talamasca logo on daniel’s laptop screen and a glitching sound effect.

🎵 as mean as a wolf 🎵

close-up of santiago on stage in 2x02, he looks right at the audience seductively.

🎵 as sharp as a tooth 🎵

shots of the vamps baring their fangs. lestat ripping the priests throat out in 1x01, claudia in madeleine’s shop, louis in ’73 showing off to daniel, armand hissing at lestat in 2x03.

🎵 as deep as a bite 🎵

extreme close-up of lestat biting louis at the altar.

🎵 as dark as the night 🎵

madeleine lights a candle that illuminates her face during a power outage. she’s watched from outside her shop window by a curious claudia.

🎵 as sweet as a song 🎵

young daniel embraces armand after armand has manipulated him to accept death. armand strokes his hair and there’s armand’s calm whisper as a voiceover: ”i’ll hold you…”

🎵 as right as a wrong 🎵

claudia’s real turning. lestat looks up from an off-screen louis who’s begging on his knees. in the second clip he’s kneeling next to claudia on the floor and lifting her upper body while louis’ back is still turned to them.

🎵 as long as a road 🎵

louis’ finger taps a spot on a map in the warzone.

🎵 as ugly as a toad 🎵

the vampire bruce cocking his head.

🎵 as pretty as a picture, hanging from a fixture 🎵

lestat’s portrait hangs on the wall in the théâtre’s green room in 2x02, jumpcut to it in flames in 2x08.

🎵 strong like a family 🎵

the de pointe du lac and frenière families pose for a portrait at grace’s wedding. the clip changes to the next with the camera’s flash going off.

🎵 strong as i wanna be 🎵

VO Madeleine: ”mais j'ai survécu.” (”but i survived” in french). shots of madeleine’s past, the trial by mob. extreme close-up of her crying face, the angry crowd surrounding her, her screaming while her hair is shorn. the segment ends with her throwing an iron through her shop window where a group of locals has just painted a swastika. sound effect of glass shattering.

🎵 bright as day, as light as play 🎵

madeleine’s vision of claudia as she’s turned. claudia in a yellow dress in madeleine’s shop, smiling to the camera—at madeleine—and turning to the mirror. the whole scene basks in warm, bright afternoon light.

🎵 as hard as nails 🎵

grace looks up at a slightly off-screen louis in 1x05, a hard, difficult look. they are at louis’ fake grave at night and grace is holding a funeral bouquet.

🎵 as grand as a whale 🎵

two clips after one another. first is louis being buried alive in 2x07, a silent scream as the rocks rush to cover his face. second one is his feet stepping onto the rocks in the penthouse’s sundial room. VO old daniel: ”where’s your coffin?”

(the music quiets and slows down slightly for the next line.)

🎵 as warm as the sun 🎵

close-up of claudia burning in the sun at the trial. she is turning into ash but still looks at an off-screen lestat.

🎵 as silly as fun 🎵

several clips in rapid succession. murder family laughing at a movie theatre, them dancing together—holding hands, claudia cheering riding the sidecar of a motorcycle in paris during the théâtre’s group hunting, armand smirking wearing malek’s glasses, vamp daniel’s tv interview, him laughing at the host.

🎵 as cool as a tree 🎵

real rashid steps slightly forward, hands clasped behind his back with a neutral expression.

🎵 as scary as the sea 🎵

two clips of armand in ’73. first his eyes shake as he slams daniel down with his powers in the background, then him turning slowly—eyes wide—to face daniel that’s sitting in front of him.

🎵 as hot as fire 🎵

three clips showing fire in the show. first: daciana throwing herself into the flames, second: armand’s fire gift, him looking at a flame in his hand, third: the théâtre’s fire starting behind louis as he looks into claudia’s mirror backstage. the mirror reads ”tweedily deedily dead”.

🎵 cold as ice 🎵

louis cuts off santiago’s head, louis smirking, looking down. VO: louis’ satisfied chuckle.

🎵 sweet as sugar and everything nice 🎵

VO louis and old daniel: ”would you like a sample?” ”i’m a savory man most days.” with first a clip of armand-as-rashid’s blissful expression as louis drinks from him at the dinner table in 1x05, then three clips of sweet treats: the strawberry dessert from 1x02 being set in front of daniel, daniel taking a bite of it, then young daniel sipping his grasshopper at mary’s. the clip ends with old daniel’s hand pushing his coffee cup forward, requesting a refill.

🎵 as old as time 🎵

armand stares at a painting depicting him in the louvre, eyes wide, brows slightly furrowed, head slightly turned.

🎵 as straight as a line 🎵

the recording on daniel’s laptop flatlining, him looking at armand, armand smiling warmly at him.

🎵 as royal as a queen 🎵

lestat basks in all his king raj mardi gras costume glory, he smiles widely up at the camera positioned above his head.

🎵 as buzzed as a bee 🎵

lestat on stage in 2x03, wiggling his shoulders, smiling playfully, flipping his coat tails up and bending over for the audience.

🎵 as stealth as a tiger 🎵

estelle and celeste spying on louis and claudia in paris.

🎵 smooth as a glider 🎵

armand floats up the louvre floors as louis and dreamstat take the stairs.

🎵 pure as a melody, pure as i wanna be 🎵

first, a shot of louis and paul dancing at grace’s wedding, smiling at each other. then, a close-up of paul sitting of the roof, turning to look at an off-screen louis as the screen slowly fades to black and another watermark appears. the voiceover is paul and louis’: ”i love you, louis.” ”i love you too, baby brother.”

/end video description]

[moonchild-in-blue]

dawn chorus 🐦

Taken at 6:06am, just a few minutes ago, from my corridor window. Please watch it with sound - there are so many birds singing at this hour 🎶

That one cloud looks like a heart 🩷

Tagging the sunset golden girlies specifically @lifemod17 @melit0n 💛🧡

[babygirlgiles]

I never understood people freaking out like “my ex is ENGAGED now” like who cares what they do after you’re broken up, they’re welcome to do whatever they want with their life as part of moving on bc I’ve also moved on (and for the better) but. Also. My ex is ENGAGED now. Hey anyway totally unrelated to this does anyone wanna go set shit on fire in the backyard with me?

[random-kido]

[hi1stuff]

[phagodyke]

every morning I'm like wow.. birdsong and sunshine.....hm.. u know what. maybe there is hope in the world. and everything will be ok :3 and every evening I'm like I Hope A Meteorite Crashes Through My Window While I Sleep Hitting Me On The Head And Killing Me Instantly. and I switch between these multiple times throughout the day and alsosometimes they happen the other way round and theres no sense or reason or order or pattern just the labyrinth forever. yeah I'm good why do u ask

[pussyeater8000]

I'm super tired rn and it's like 2 am but i had a vision

[very-uncorrect]

It's so weird seeing posts online of people being like "why does my cat sleep on me and rub its face against mine and vibrate when I snuggle it and go 'mrrp!" when it notices my presence in the room and sit on the window waiting for me when I leave the house and kneed my legs and follow me around the house and-"

You see people giving basically a checklist of "things cats do when they love you" and acting confused as to why the cat does it like-

[friedfriedchicken]

I watched ep 1 of Castlevania today and all I can think of is this

[gingerpeachtea]

✅ 🤔🔥 💕 <33333

procrastinating four different finals YAYYYYYYYYY

(fic writing ask game!)

✅ list one or two favorite lines you’ve written and explain why they’re your favorite

from wms: Laurel stared and let the line of her lips twist. He wasn’t asking about the fever. Even just that was hard to admit to, though, let alone...everything else. (Let alone the times she’d awoken in the middle of the night shaking. Let alone the guilt that ate her alive whenever her fingers skimmed over that black dress she’d shoved to the back of her closet after the funeral. Let alone the grief.) literally trying to think of like real words but all i can h=thiink is mmmm setnecnes loooove sentences mmm sentence i loooove sentences Yes sentences.....sentencessss ugh. yes another from wms: He took her hand from her lap, and watched her carefully for a moment—all her close-kept anxiety, the pallor of her skin—and said, “Let me take you home on my lunch break. Please.” Hey so like are you fucking kidding me. YER JOKINGGGGGGGG UGH.... UGHHHHHHHHHHHH THIS LINEEEEEEEE i hear let me take you home on my lunch break. please and like he may as well have just shot me. wyould have the same effect. blood and gaping wound and everything. i like it cuz well i like it and writing fanfiction is about writing things thst i like. thats it baby thats all there is to it!!!! having fun. love blood love illness love tenderness. love projecting my very very very specific issues onto characters so im not alone. love catharsis biiiiig big big fan of her. huuuuge fucking fan like seriously. there are two things it's all about. having fun and catharsis alsoooo giving characters what i do not have irl UGH SO GOOD CANNOTT RECOMMEND IT MOREEEE so i guess there's three things it's all about. yeah

🤔 why do you write fic?

I LOOOOVE HAVING FUN my favorite thing everrrrrr. also all the sruff i just said <3

🔥 what’s something that’s currently going really well?

not my finals that's for sure LMFAOOOO but to actually answer the question. bitch charlie post-florida is gonna be my charlie fic magnum opus bitch i was Cooking in that shower both literally and figuratively when the fic started formulating in my mind like the synapses...... the synapsessssssssss girl. like im using the same neural pathways as when i was first writing siye like oh btich its' gonna be so good

💕 what's your favorite part of your writing process?

having fun and loving life. jk. ummmmm hmm i have different things i like about all the steps!!!!! or else well i simply wouldnt do them. LOOOOOVE when u get that Inspiration that makes you feel like a rabid dog with no chain or collar just you and a document and sickos cackling in the dark

[kallablog]

Okay goodnight to all my loyal fans and followers i’m going to sleep i finally took my meds and now im SO sleepy!

[spiritless-1]

I love sleeping. I do a lil dance every time I put my bonnet on.

[demoniccrowz]

Night chat

love y’all more than you’ll ever know<3/p

stay safe, stay alive, do murder

please sleep before three

[puppybeetle]

oki oki last post but i love death so so much he means the world to me and i woulg litrlly do ANYTHING to make it happy alllll the time because it deserves to be happy all the time . idc im going to treat him like the softest , littlest kitten ever give it a soft litol kiss on its forehead