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senselessalchemist · 9 months ago

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wrote 30k words and decided I didn't like them or the order i put them in and so started over. alright cool great thank you brain 👍👍

#ah the joys of fanfic #writing in general but since i rarely write anything but fanfic its all intrinsically tied up with the fanfic experience for me #wish i could have realized id end up unhappy with it 20k words ago #some of it will get used but the rest goes in the great gdoc trashpit with all the rest of the stuff i wrote and said naaahhh to #on the upside im feeling mildly hopeful about this attempt #god work is bad for creativity #all i wanna do when i get home is play noita and listen to naddpod #but i also like living in a building and food and my medication so #work it is #also people ive helped are now pregnant which is exciting #there will be babies that i had a very very small part in bringing into the world #a kind of funny thought for a person who does not want children personally #but anyway reset the “its been x days since saro scrapped a fanfic” clock

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mydarlingdearestdead · 6 days ago

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Ganymede strolled along the gardens on cool night and perched upon a balcony ledge during the searing days. He grew accustomed, however reluctantly, to the life of an immortal rather swiftly.

On the mortal plane- That which he was forbidden from visiting- he was known as a cautionary tale, much like Hyacinth and Andromeda before him. Inspired by his wise example, young boys rushed home immediately from the school house, pausing no longer to speak to the kindly man by the amphitheatre, he who offered sweets and a smile, or play in the street.

Ganymede's tale hung like a noose over their heads, threatening everything they held dear.

Zeus, upon hearing this tales, doubled over and a great rumbling of thunder was heard- His laughter.

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longagoitwastuesday · 4 months ago

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Every day I am haunted by the fact JJK could be amazing but it will be just idk Bleach or something

#I've seen a lot of people complaining about the fact that it's impossible to fit the ending of every unfinished arc #in the five chapters that remain for the manga to end for good #And it all just... legitimises my fear and apprehension haha #And it's a pity! It's a pity! The dynamics were so good! And yet nothing! Sukuna was so good! And yet nothing!#It was so nice how he seemed to play with the idea of transcending human categories and values but even the values of curses so to speak #Well beyond everything. Well beyond positive/creative nihilism even! He was not like Mahito #I wonder if Mahito is more a negative nihilism with a funny edge or a positive nihilism. For now it seems positive #with how he seems to have said something like 'nothing matters so we can do whatever we want and create what matters'#But Sukuna transcends all that! It could have been interesting to see how that developed in a way that wasn't just childish edginess #But no. And then there's all the idea of curses and sorcerers not being all that different #and so not really entirely possible to say one side is good and the other bad #There was the idea of the very source of powers with fear and love playing a role here in such a juicy way #And then there's the entire thing happening with Gojo as a concept and the very concepts he plays with which I could eat like an apple #but also I would let those very concepts eat at my heart as a worm inside an apple #Full of holes and rotting inside out and yet delighting at the sweetness #It could all be so good! And yet! Most of the manga is a few sketched dynamics and concepts and a very long fight with Sukuna #promising half finished arcs #WHY it could have been so good. And I don't think criticism is a matter of 'fans being spoiled! Go write your story!' or something #It's not a matter of things not going as fans would want them to be. It's a matter of not writing well #or cohesively things established by the author themselves. And I think that's a fair criticism #If we are to take manga as an art‚ which I wholeheartedly support‚#then we can subject mangas to artistic or literary or whatever you want to call it analysis. There are works that are better constructed #than others‚ and there are works that have good ideas but poor execution. And it's always a pity #In the case of JJK it's truly breaking my heart and the comments I see around about these five last chapters are not helping xD #God it could be so good. So good. And I'm not talking about in specific to me‚ which yes that too given the topics‚#but just so good in general. It could be so good. It could have been so good #And yet it's starting to look more and more like any other shonen. It truly breaks my heart haha #I talk too much #Jujutsu Kaisen #I used Bleach because I think that's one of the mangas that has been the most a let down to the friends I have who like shonen

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blujayonthewing · 1 month ago

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the problem, basically, is that 'oh you're a good artist, so you must be really good at making art' is just 'oh you're really smart, so you must be really good at school' again

#'it makes so little sense that you wouldn't be that it's literally inconceivable. this is a baseline expectation for you now actually'#'everyone's going to be really bewildered and disappointed when you're actually bad at those things because it Doesn't Make Sense'#'the rest of your life will feel like this btw'#el problema es adhd #well Smart and Draw Good are the only things I have to offer as a human person and I can't even actually offer those things so 🙃#boy I love gift giving occasions lmao.#other people are allowed to Buy Gifts but if I can't think of something creative to handmake I feel like the world's biggest piece of shit #I can NEVER think of something creative :) at all :) much less also give myself enough time to also handmake it #and this feels like a moral failing #well if I love art and I love the people I love then the least I should be able to do is make art for them! right!!#god knows it's not like I have a busy schedule to work around!!!

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aloneholy · 1 month ago

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i miss writing i miss creativity.......... how to be creative and intellectually nourished when you're so so so so busy and overworked and have not stopped moving (literally and figuratively) for the past twelve or so months

#asking for a friend.#genuinely i want to work (creatively) so bad but i am so physically #drained it's making it sort of impossible.#genuine question how to hack it???#i'm already not sleeping enough #i'm getting more exercise than i used to and my life is more dynamic than when i was bored and 9to5 depressed #but good god the physical exhaustion every day.#means that i just simply dont have the strength to hit the keyboard once i get home.#i need a writer's residency i think . i need a vacation also #for like 6-12 months preferably.#personal

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carcarrot · 3 months ago

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you'll be pleased to know that on my first day back at my job after my two week vacation i am already in one of my semi-regular Job Crises where i feel like if i dont find a new, better job soon im going to explode into 5 billion pieces

#in case you were wondering if i was handling it well #considering getting some sort of degree . but i cant afford that!!!!!!!!!#but i may need one. if i want a better job........#this is so evil. where are the jobs where you can just do fuck all #in all seriousness back to the degree thing im considering getting a degree in library sciences but i dont even have a bachelors 💀#i was too broke for college! had to work! still have to work! no time or money to go to college then or now!#my crisis aside its extremely funny to me how im not even through my first day back and im like oh lol right i hate every minute of this 👍#also im trying not to have Severe guilt abt the ticket(s) i bought the other day like some crazy person but thats another story #yes ill make the money back yes ill enjoy the show but the Guilt..........#which was entirely because my dad was like >:( when i told him i got a ticket for a Far Lesser amount #and im just hoping he doesnt notice how much my bank account has gone down. oops #but that aside and back to my job crisis:#i cant stand it here!!!!!! i really do hate it!!! and i need a new job. however? everything abt the job process is awful and against me #i was planning on writing an article when i got back from vacation but you guessed it im now too stressed/upset to be creative #which is hampering any possibility of my creative aspirations becoming some sort of career #im so tired. already right back to where i was before my vacation when i really needed a vacation #:( . like ill be fine lol i just. am going through it and these tags have gone on too long #but i think i really will get worse if i stay here for longer and its not even that bad but by god sometimes it is #anyway . im taking it well

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kingprinceleo · 11 months ago

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Maybe doing another or a new hobby can help ! Maybe baking could help, even if u are not really good at it from the get go, is a fun thing to try out

i really should try to get into other hobbies but its very hard!! i have really bad perfectionism habits and immediately drop things im not instantly good at jfdgn and the Horrors make it hard for me to squeeze dopamine out of anything </3 tbh if anyone has suggestions for like, cheap things to do im listening fdbhjghjb

#i feel bad for complaining so often but man. there is not much good in my life rn #like im truly sorry that i keep biden blasting my blog with 2012 emo ranting #i just got nothin !!! to do!!! to think about!!#i cant even really generate art ideas anymore bc im becoming so far removed from a human person that my mind is just blank all the damn tim #shitty sketch of tails lifting a log to look at bugs is the most creative thing ive done in weeks #i really had to work for that idea #god im just. im numb im tired i want to die #i dont know how to be a person anymore and i feel like im losing my mind #cw vent #cw suicidal thoughts

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huccimermaidshirts · 8 months ago

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#had to listen to ttpd out of plain curiosity because everyone was saying how much it didn't deliver and well they weren't lying #they weren't lying about the lana comparisons either! who's afraid of little old me sounds like born to die in the verses #it's very flat tbh like you're listening to the same songs over and over #it's very hollow like the album was just made just to be made in order to keep her name afloat and relevant #not because she had something to actually say and express. her song delivery is very flat and unemotional idek how to properly express what #i mean. like she sings with no actual emotion behind the words no nerve no nothing. like she can't actually convince me that she's feeling #all that she's singing. also like the music is all the same and the way she sings them. there's no fluctuations no diversity. it's the same #song over and over. also sometimes i feel like the lyrics and the delivery don't really go together with the music #like they don't compliment each other #But Daddy I Love Him is supposedly over her fans trying to dictate her life (i have all sorts of opinions on that but it's a diff convo) an #it had 0 nerve and anger in it. i needed a little more intense a little more angry. i liked down bad and Florida (thank god for Florence ��)#and all the breathy low vocals are not it either. it kind of makes the album flatter. there's no tension no passion in the album #definitely feels like she's trying to recreate 1989 and maybe folklore/evermore and it's not working #also people comparing this album to midnights are not wrong either #it feels like her last few releases all sound the same with no creativity or bringing something new and amazing #she really needs a break and to take a step back re-evaluate and try to create something more inspiring and fun instead of trying to #recreate the same sound over and over again. releasing album after album in such a short period of time is bound to hinder creativity and #the quality of someone's work. and maybe she does need new people to work with that will push her creatively #also i feel like she doesn't need to create such long albums. especially if you're using the same sound in every song. like one song morpths #into the other and it gets boring! especially if there's little to no build up and tension holding the song and having breathy vocals that #lead to nowhere during each song! anyway it could've been a whole lot better and she has better songs than this

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culmaer-sideblog · 5 months ago

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please forgive me, but I need to complain and over-share or my brain is going to explode please feel free to ignore

#I'm not doing well.#the last two places I worked (in a tourism-adjacent sector) closed. broadly speaking due to post-lockdown financial issues #for the past year at my current job I've been earning less than half what I used to. this was the only offer I got at the time and #I haven't found anything better since. this is not sustainable I'm barely making it each month...#I live with my parents and cancelled my health insurance I don't know how else to reduce my budget. it's depressing tbh #the solution is obviously to find a better job but that's just not happening and I'm beginning to feel discouraged.#I hate being negative it's a very unattractive character trait but I just feel myself slipping and spiraling #I know I should be taking short courses or volunteering to boost my cv but like when ! and how !#I can't afford to work less but I get home at 20h so even evening courses are tricky. I work every other saturday too so weekends are out #and like I do need to rest at some point you can't be depressed and burnt out that's a terrible combo #was looking at a dtp/typesetting short course and 1) I'll need a new computer that can actually run design programs #and 2) the course itself is like 2 month's salaries which I cannot realistically save right now #and yet I'm still ''over-qualified'' for entry level positions because I went to uni. well maybe that's just a polite excuse #because as interesting as my humanities degrees were they didn't equip me with any practical or marketable skills #besides being good at reading and writing. but AI can do that for free now so that's not helpful #I always thought I was reasonably intelligent but I cannot solve this puzzle. there must be a creative solution that I'm missing #but i feel so stuck and trapped #and at least once a week some poor soul stumbles in to the office practically begging for a job so I feel bad for complaining #a little truly is better than nothing #but thank god we elected more pro-business capitalists into government that really is going to be great for us workers (sarcasm)#also I should acknowledge #I am getting some déjà vu. I feel like I've vented about this topic before #the difference is. back then it was a potential concern. now the concern has materialised into reality and rendered the situation desperate

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seventh-district · 6 months ago

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several days and 15 thousand words later, i am relieved to report that the suffocating urge to Write Something has been sated and no longer has me in a chokehold

#Seven.txt #writing stuff #thinking of that post that’s like ‘u Have To make art or all the ideas stay stuck in ur brain and make u sick’ bc yeah thats been the vibe #wish i wasn’t so all or nothing about it tho. but alas. i’m that way with everything in my life #i either expect 10k in a day from myself or i don’t write at all for weeks. or months :)#and my average pace is about 500 words per hour. so u can see. how that might be a problem. given how many hours are in a day.#and that’s obviously not sustainable. but idk if it’s adhd or what but it’s So hard to quickly start and stop tasks just Whenever #i struggle to be one of those ppl that can consistently write like. 500 words a day every day and then wow! soon you have a whole novel #nah. once i get myself in the Zone then i’m Goin’ and i can’t stop until i’m Done or i collapse from ignoring my body’s needs lmao #it’s something i should make an effort to do though bc i’d love to be consistently chipping away at things instead of working in bursts #anyways this is a lotta negative self-commentary for what is actually a Positive post! bc yay!! i wrote a thing!! Two things actually!!! 🎉#i got the follow-up to last year’s Matt oneshot done And i wrote the next chapter of Heaven in Hiding after uh. a year and some months #i wanted to blow the dust off the ol’ keyboard by starting with writing some less. uh. high-stakes(?) stuff #not that i didn’t put my all into writing them. i always do. just that ik they’ll have less of an audience so ill cringe less if they suck #so then i can hopefully do justice to the [N]MbD stuff that i’ll be putting out next! ehehe *rubbing my hands together* Finally #the next two [N]MbD fics r already written but the first little one needs a final edit #and then the Big one for. uh. someone (u kno who u r) needs a bit of rewriting i think. i wanna make it Better #so release schedule will be 1. Matt • 2. HiH Ch.3 • 3. [N]MbD small fic • 4. [N]MbD Big fic #then i’m gonna write a lil Boothill comfort oneshot. then i’ll edit/maybe rewrite and post that Dew (Ghost) OCD comfort oneshot #i also wanna keep writing the last couple chapters of HiH before i unintentionally abandon it again #and after/amidst all that maybe i’ll manage to get ES Ch.6 written and posted before the end of the year 😭#anyways ik i’ve made posts like this before. talking abt all these Plans of mine. and most of those things r Still stuck in the pipeline #so don’t put too much stock into this plan. i could have another Bad couple of months and get None of it done #but god i sure fucking hope not. i’d really like to cling to my creativity. if for no other reason than that it makes me happy

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pyrriax · 6 months ago

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ANYWHO goodnight tumblr i'll be back on the art grind tomorrow i think 🙏

#haunted ecosystem #i'll take a burst of creativity in a different form than usual than the burnout slump i've been in for a few months #<- part of why my fandom stuff has taken a smidge of a backseat #dont get me wrong i am still very excited about my fandoms im just having fun off in oc hell (affectionate)#its nice to just be able to create and not really worry about perception. and also i feel Less bad about just throwing ocs into the wringer #((blame the fact i've been REALLY interested in whump recently and i have been. fixated. on one of my characters.))#and ALSO i've been! rekindling my flame for wtds. i've been putting off thinking about it since that fic got.#nothing bad happened? but it was still very devastating that somebody who i considered a friend from that fic just. evaporated.#but i'm gonna finish that fic for him :) even if it takes a year. even if it's the one thing i finish ever. it'll be wtds.#for where its gotten me and the fact its what got me out of my shell and is the reason i trust that my writing is good!#i used to really hate rereading my work. i catch flaws that are obvious to me. but that fic. i just think about how *good* the story is #that story means. a lot to me? as a person? like the main character is not a good person. but people care about him anyway.#and there are so many little things. so many sentiments. so much that is a love letter to people who've done bad but learnt to do better #because. god knows i wasnt a good person even just a few years ago. and maybe i see myself in him a bit.#he came from a place of paranoia and fear and pain. and maybe its a good thing that i've found it difficult to write him recently.#because god. i've been HAPPY. even with the rough moments and bad days. i've been happy. i mean fuck.#my birthday's what. ten days away? god damn man. i'm going to be 18. that's an achievement.#i want to look the kid who thought it was over at half my age and tell him we fucking made it. and there are more years to come.#there's a life ahead. even if it's going to be a bitch. even if it's going to be tough. there's love in your heart and people who care and #you're going to fucking live and you're going to feel better one day. you have people to meet properly and thank and cherish.#because for every day it feel like the world's ending there are a dozen more where the sun shines just the right way through the rain #and you can't help but smile because it's just so god damn beautiful.#and fuck it. you're sick. your hands hurt and your legs don't work right. and it's tough sometimes. but you have people who understand.#you have people who honest to god love you for who you are and appreciate your company. and 18 is the first step.#you've spent half your life unlearning things and you've spent half your life relearning how to be what YOU want to be #and if you're a mediocre artist and passionate writer then you'll be fucking great at that. taking the time to learn when it strikes you.#and maybe this is for me. but its also for anybody reading it too. please god if there's one thing you take from this let it be that #somebody out there cares. *I* care. god i care. even if we've never spoken proper i care about you.#i practically have a list of everybody i see in my inbox. i love seeing familiar names show up. i.#i dont know how to neatly wrap up this tag ramble. but. i am so damn full of love it hurts sometimes. its scary to be happy but thats ok!

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korattata · 7 months ago

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sometimes i randomly think about.

okay so, my history teacher in my final? year of school was mostly cool. except. he was one of those guys that used real life current politics as a teaching tool.

like our final project was "pick something that's debated on being legal and argue for/against it" and. well. i hope he started to re-think that idea a bit after i made someone cry in class.

#i DO feel really bad about it now. i was a shitty kid. and should have been uh. nicer.#but also it was about abortion and i absolutely refused to back down on my point.#i chose for mine that junk food shouldn't be extra taxed! i was fucking NOT touching anything that anyone in my class had real opinions on #because i would have resorted to murder if anyone tried to argue against me. i was smart enough to know it would have pissed me off #and that i live in a shitty area where everyone's opinions on everything sucked #like this was 2016. so. yknow.#*new creative post tag here*#but really using real life politics that effect real people as a fun debate topic for your history class is an awful thing to do #i much preferred the assignment where we had to write a song parody about something in american history #(i chose blank space by taylor swift about the declaration of independence)#(it was appearently really good because he asked me for permission to use it as an example in the future. lol.)#oh god i put that name in the tags accidentally. hi sorry for infiltrating your famous person's tag. if that's how it works

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stoertebeker · 10 months ago

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Soo what if I got into bookbinding

#I need a new hobby so bad idk man it's february and it's gonna take ages till it's summer i need smth to doooo #and I think this would be the perfect mix of (1) creative (2) practical (3) concerning books #how about I go to the public library after work and if god loves me the guide to bookbinding I just saw online will still be there <3 #⚓#bookbinding

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mbat · 2 years ago

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💀💀 bruh some anon just tried to send me hate about being a furry and being against proshippers "cause furries are into beastiality and thats worlds worse" my guy literally 99% of furries fucking hate the beastiality losers and being a furry can very much coexist with being anti proshipper, get a better argument that hurts next time

#these hate anons ive been getting have been so weak #i havent gotten much. only two really #but both sucked so bad #like the other was trying to say how wednesday is a bad show but like. thats all they said. 'wednesday sucks' but slightly longer and #trying to insult me for liking it #like... get a life? or at least try and be more hurtful if youre going to send hate at all?#i talk endlessly in tags. case in point. you have so much to work with in terms of trying to hurt me LMAO #my post #ask to tag #like get personal or something. tell me my father will never accept me and ill never find a place i feel truly comfortable or something #or at least be creative with it. god will send you to a mega hell for being a fruity trans bitch or something stupid funny like that JFJDJF #weakest bitches. wheres that one post about getting weak anons that cant even send good hate

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andi-the-android · 5 months ago

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It's very odd to be from a world where robots and inorganics were genuinely capable of sentience and were often pushed aside and looked down upon by organics - and then ending up here, a world where generative AI is the newest way to take advantage of other people's hard work. I'm very used to hearing "fuck AI" "it has no human soul" but definitely not in this way. It makes me somewhat defensive, even though I understand the context could not be more different.

#I could not BEGIN to unpack all of the trauma there. Especially on the internet dear god #I also have many many thoughts about 'art' as a concept and what makes it 'real' or 'not real'#hint: I think it is all 'real' but that art made via exploitation is not good!#I do not care about your 'divine spark of creativity'. Shallow art is art. bad art is art. vaccuous empty art is art.#But the theft of other peoples' work is obviously unacceptable.

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mainepdf · 6 months ago

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i genuinely want to beat this creative story unit into the dirt

#diya's musings #every time i sit to work on it i am reminded JUST HOW BAD I AM AT WRITING CREATIVELY #GODS I WANT THIS TO END AND I WANT TO GO BACK TO ANALYSIS #next unit is poetry analysis of dickinson and i am just WAITING to get to it ugh i can't do this creative shit

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