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Hi, Lise......I can't help but want to ask (if you don't mind), what are your favorite (that you personally like) books or movies/ tv series that contains lesbias and gays? Thanks if you want to answer.....
wow I completely forgot this ask was sitting in my inbox and has been for a long while. and uhhhh the thing is here that I actually...feel like I don't have a separate category in my head, so much, for "media that has queer people in it" and "media that doesn't"? which like. feels weird to say, but when I get questions like this, or requests for recommendations, I always...struggle to parse these things out. and also to parse out, for instance, "books that read as having queer elements" from "books with explicitly queer characters."
but I guess if I'm gonna try...most of these are going to be books, with a few exceptions.
BOOKS
Doctrine of Labyrinths is a four book series that comes stamped with a whole list of content warnings (rape and child abuse chief among them, probably) but is also one of my favorite series of all time, so, you know.
The Masquerade series by Seth Dickinson also comes with a big "IT'S SAD. IT'S SAD AND DARK" warning, along with content warnings for serious societal homophobia, but is another one of my favorite series of all time. it's not that I hate happy queer stories or anything, I just tend to like stories that aren't happy
The Locked Tomb Trilogy by Tasmyn Muir which you've probably heard about by now, but honestly I think the common tagline of "lesbian necromancers in space" really doesn't...cover it? It's funny, it's weird, it's unique in terms of setting, story, and magic system, it's doing some very interesting things and I can't wait to find out where Muir is going with it. it's very much stylistically not something that's going to work for everyone, but I would recommend giving it a go and finding out if it works for you.
I loved the series by Lara Elena Donnelly that starts with Amberlough, but that one's definitely Rise of a Fascist State and therefore might not be everyone's cuppa right at the moment.
Oh, Imperial Radch by Ann Leckie is very queer, not in terms of, like, "these characters are explicitly gay" but more in terms of what she's doing with gender. I don't know that I'd say it's a central part of the book but it's an important enough piece of the worldbuilding at least that I'd put it here. I don't actually remember, textually, but Machineries of Empire also feels very queer to me in a similar sort of way. A queer theory sort of way, maybe? idk.
this one's a sort of...not for me exactly but it was cool rec, but The Priory of the Orange Tree by Samantha Shannon was very classic fantasy in a lot of ways, but gay, and with some fresh twists on old tropes.
COMICS
The Wicked and the Divine by Kieron Gillen and Jamie McKelvie. look, it's just really good and not just for the queer. I need to do a reread from the top.
TV
I am really enjoying Motherland: Fort Salem actually, which I feel like people either aren't aware of or watch the first couple episodes and get turned off, but. one of the three main characters is lesbian, and sticks her hand down another girl's pants in like. the second episode? maybe even the first one, I don't remember.
Person of Interest doesn't introduce its gay until later in the series, but if you're anything like me as far as what you want in relationship dynamics you're in for a treat.
Yes, it is an animated children's show, but She-Ra and the Princesses of Power gave me such a gift it still makes me emotional because I'm going like. is this what it feels like to get what I want, canonically, in a piece of media? wow.
look, I'm putting The Untamed on here because (a) it is based on a gay webnovel and is pretty fucking gay considering the limits of censorship, everybody in the cast knows it and is playing it, and (b) some of the secondary relationships come off, I would argue, even gayer in the live action, probably because there are actor people putting them right in front of your face. (because the discourse is what it is: censorship isn't progressive, etc., but this is my list and I'm putting MDZS on here too.)
THOSE CHINESE WEBNOVELS I WON'T SHUT UP ABOUT
like, seriously. I mean, look, they take some work getting into because reading works in translation that come from a culture that you (general Anglophone you) may or may not be familiar with on one level or another actually does come with having to learn some shit and get used to some new things about genre and style, and reading webnovels maybe even more so, but as far as I'm concerned it's worth it.
so far the ones I've read are (titles in English, with common abbreviation, mostly from the Chinese) Heaven Official's Blessing (TGCF), Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation (MDZS), Scum Villain's Self Saving System (SVSSS), The Husky and His White Cat Shizun (erha or 2HA), and (still finishing but at this point feel pretty comfy recommending) Clear and Muddy Loss of Love (JWQS).
there are several others on my list that I've had recommended and just haven't gotten to yet. my favorites personally are probably TGCF and 2HA, but I'm pending a reread of MDZS with a different translation to do my final assessment there and JWQS is giving me a lot of very good shit.
(I feel like I have to mention, because I'd be remiss if I didn't while I'm talking about ~personal preferences~, that the Coldfire Trilogy is astonishingly queer in my memory for one of the central relationships although it's been years since I read it, admittedly, and the Lymond Chronicles which is a series I love dearly is also incredibly queer, particularly for a series written in the 60s, and is like. juuuuust barely shy of having a canonically bisexual protagonist. and does have an explicitly lesbian secondary character, though fair warning, she, uh, does have it pretty rough.)
there's also some books that didn't make it on here even though they have queer characters because I felt like the queerness of those characters was not really key to the story, for instance the Broken Earth Trilogy by N.K. Jemisin, which is fantastic in its own right and I would recommend to everyone, but didn't quite feel like it fit this post.
I'm almost certainly forgetting stuff, but I did my best.
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Love Through the Ages (Jason Todd)
Summary: Â Love like baggage needs to be declared.
a/n: This is part three of a series that is a fic rec list disguised as a fic. For these fics, most of the characters will be speaking different languages, so unless specified otherwise assume that the characters are speaking in the first language I mention. Theyâre all vampires with centuries under their belt. Why wouldnât I make them all polyglots. Â Also, thank you to the proof reading gang for putting up with my shenanigans. Â I will have links to the fics I recommend in the fic itself. ALSO, y'all can thank @littleredwing89 for the poem that comes up.
Warnings: Everyone is dramatic.
Masterlist
Series Masterlist.
You tap at your phone screen, planting seeds in a satisfyingly hypnotic rhythm, the sounds of the train vacillating in and out of your periphery. It was soothing having your own compartment, a little world you can isolate yourself in while you anxiously await for the inevitable.Â
It wasnât a secret that you found Gotham stressful. It was about as much a secret as Tony Starkâs civilian identity. You pulled your knees up to your chest at the thought. Big cities were stressful but Gotham was a different beast entirely. It was a writhing monster of steel and smoke. You wrinkle your nose deciding to sweep the thought away.Â
Instead, you concentrate on your plants and your farm. You wince looking at your journal. It looks like youâd forgotten another quest. Pursing your lips, you decide to turn your phone off for a bit and pretend the NPCs can sort it out on their own as you look out the window.Â
You lean against the wall, pressing your cheek to the cool window. You canât help but smile to yourself thinking of a sea of black curly hair interrupted by a shock of white, sea green eye perpetually alight with mischief or intelligence (9 times out of 10, you really couldnât tell which it was.), freckles like star map, and a mouth permanently set in a cocky grin. Itâs hard not to smile like an idiot when thinking of Jason Todd. Â
   Your skirt flutters in the wind as you dance your way through the crowd, bobbing up and down on your tiptoes over the sea of humans. Sometimes the smell of them still makes your mouth water but not now, not when the smell of Gotham is so pungent in the air.Â
You see a gloved hand wave at you on the other side of the crowd. You pin your sunhat against your head as you rush through the crowd, your luggage dragging behind you.
Jason waves a two fingered salute at you in front of a motorcycle, his foot clearly stomping a cigarette. You toss your hat to him. It flutters over the crowd. Jason catches it easily, putting it on his own head.Â
"Hey Princess, welcome back." Jason greets, the syllables of your native French gliding off of his tongue so easily. Fighting down a blush, you swallow your own greeting. Jason would have been a great ambassador in a different life were he not inclined to murder someone with a desert spoon for being a jackass.
He offers his hat back to you, but you shake your head. "You might freckle too much in Gotham's sunny weather." He gives you a hearty chuckle keeping the hat on.Â
"Missed you too, princess."
You roll your eyes. Pinching your nose, you look around. "You forgot to tell me to bring a gas mask."
"Every city smells like this."
"Darling, you've been in Gotham for too long."
"And you've been in your French villa for too long." Jason says, putting his sunglasses on you. You glare at him through them.
"First of all, it's a cottage."
Jason snorts, "As if that makes a difference. It's still in the idyllic French countryside, isn't it?"
"I-"Â
"I rest my case."
You cross your arms. "You're welcome to visit, you know?" It was a hopeful suggestion at best.Â
"We both know the quiet will drive me crazy."
"I said visit," you say, "besides, I think the train ride alone would drive you up the wall." You remember how Jason is with tight spaces.
"Not with you there." Jason winks.
Your heart presses a bruise into your throat and you hate Jason Peter Todd all over again.Â
"Ah yes, you plan on driving me mad. Evil. Truly evil of you." You say, grinning back at him.Â
"Here's a wild idea, how bout we just not listen to Roy? How does that sound?" Jason gently suggests, handing you your offensively pink cup of caffeinated goop. Jason can smell the sickening amount of sweeteners added. He might gag.Â
"Nope," you say, smiling at him as you slurp your ooze. Jason's stomach rolls. Alfred would have an aneurysm. "He was even nice enough to get us both tickets." You hand him one, fingers brushing against his. They felt calloused as they always did. Jason suppresses any oncoming reaction.
He instead turns his attention to the ticket in his hands. Love Through the Ages: Gotham Museum Exhibition on expressions of love. Jason runs through the numbers. "These are $59 each."
"So sweet of him, isn't it?" You chirp adorably.
Jason makes a mental note to kill both of you. "You're only going along with this cus you want to watch me suffer." Jason says, slumping his chair. His foot kicks out to tap your foot.Â
"I'm doing it affectionately," you say, tapping his foot with yours. "Besides, it's a universal pass time at this point." You swirl your drink and grin at him. It was your real grin, all bright and eager and stupidly sweet. Something in Jason's chest twists. It's always hard to breathe when you smile at him but really Jason would rather all the oxygen in the atmosphere be burned up than see your smile disappear.Â
He sounds dramatic and he knows that but still he knows it's true.
"C'mon Jay, it'll be fun."
Shoulders slouched, Jason smiles at you indulgently. "Fun for who?"
"Mainly me but you can have fun too."
"You are so lucky you're adorable when you're being evil."
Your smile brightens and with a tap of his foot against yours, he thinks he'll survive whatever Roy has in store for him.
You and Jason have been walking around the museum for quite a bit with Jason's arm wrapped tightly around your shoulders and homicide radiating off of him every time someone even looks at you funny. He'd said that the arm slung around your shoulder was so that you wouldn't get lost. As for the homicide, he elected to ignore the question entirely.Â
You flush as Jason quotes another line from 'Master Valentine' back to you. You definitely regret letting him house sit. You regret even more not hiding your books. You squirm as Jason whispers the quote in your ear in a husky drawl. The erotica in the book is amazing and you're normally comfortable with talking to Jason about everything, but this- this was just cruel and unusual punishment. It's what you get for trying to make him suffer.
All the pet names he murmured in your ear crawled up your spine. You shove his face away hiding your own in your sleeve. He laughs into your hand enjoying your sudden bout of shyness.
Jason mumbles a half-hearted apology into your hand, pressing a soft kiss into your palm. You lower your head. You're still clearly avoiding his gaze but you let him press you to his side. Jason Todd is an asshole.
You point to a pair of ice skates so well worn and well loved that you almost miss the little penguins stitched on the side. "Love on the ice? That's so cute!"
Jason glances at them with mild interest. "Sounds like hypothermia." He says, shrugging.Â
Swatting at his chest, you pout at him. He rolls his eyes nudging your shoulder with his. You scowl at him and stick your tongue out. Jason leans down, unable to stop the urge to press a kiss to your brow. You scowl even harder.Â
"Admit it, doll. The whole exhibition is just Dickie's favorite fanfiction tropes."
"Professor Todd, be a dear and enlighten my troglodyte ass."
He snorts, "Princess, if I was a professor we both know I'd have the highest attendance rate."
"And the highest failure rate." You say cocking a brow.Â
"Probably."
"You're terribly humble today."
"I just know I look good."
No, you don't, you think. You shake your head. "That explains the leather jacket."
"You love my leather jacket."
"Well, Biscuit certainly loved your previous one."
Jason wrinkled his nose thinking of the yellow disaster. "That dog was a menace."
"She is the sweetest creature on earth."
"She destroyed my jacket and ate my wallet AND phone."
"I never said she was smart... wait, we're getting off topic."
Jason narrows his eyes at you then points to a crown. It was an intricate lattice of silvers and golds with diamonds that glittered like starlight. "Royal AU," he says simply, "go on read the description."
"A prince and a princess from rival nations are bound by a marriage of convenience. Through a series of missteps. They fell for each other.... that one was pretty easy. Do it again."
He points to a blue feather. "Mythology AU."
You arch a brow at him. He waves at it, urging you to read. "A god descended to earth to be with his mortal lover only for him to lose his memories of her." The feather's glow is incandescent. You can feel the power radiating off of it, a sure sign of divinity.
Once, you would have brushed it off as mere story. You've spent more than twice your lifetime now dipped into the world of myths. You glance at Jason. Simple divinity no longer fazes you.
"See?"
"I- Nope."
"You're just being stubborn."
"Would you have been my friend if I wasn't?" Would you have saved me if I wasn't?
You think Jason hears your unspoken question when he frowns. Instead, he turns on his heel to face the other direction. He points to a bouquet of wilted roses tied together by a green ribbon. They still smell of blood and something you couldn't identify. Your eyes drift down curious. Your eyes trace over the words feeling your stomach tumble.
"Gruesome." Jason vocalizes inanely. He hooks his head on the crown of your head, neatly slotting your body under his. You're safe, surrounded by walls of muscle. The crease in your brow softens. You would think that Jason would be less protective after you'd turned but now that you were a vampire, he was somehow even more protective. Roy always joked you only got Biscuit and your other dogs as lap dogs because you already had Jason. He may not have been too off on his guess.
"This should be in a horror exhibit," you say leaning into Jason's chest, "kind of reminds me of you though." You tilt your head up grinning at him.Â
"If you make a joke about me being jack the ripper again, I swear I'll-"
"-Bury me alive 6 feet under concrete with a recording of Roy singing Auld Lang Syne in a terrible British accent. Got it. What I meant was... you're just as protective as the man in the story." You say, smiling at him.Â
For good reason, Jason thinks.Â
Jason buries half of his face in your hair, hiding his answering smile. You smell like sugar and cinnamon. It's a familiar combination of smells that puts him at ease despite the atrocious amount of people in the museum.
You point to another artifact, afraid that you'd accidentally picked at an old wound.Â
"Star-crossed lovers." He mumbles into your hair.Â
"Bullshit!"
"Read it and weep, doll."
You read the plaque and the words 'meet' and 'different world' assault your eyes. You scowl at him. "Fuck you."
The grin on Jason's face is genuine. It makes something in your veins sing knowing how much fun he's having.Â
Your face softens. "You really love this romance stuff, huh?"
Jason narrows his eyes at you.
"You were the one bawling your eyes out when we binged Spaces Between Us. Who the hell cries during erotica?"
"IT'S TRUE LOVE AND YOU KNOW IT IN YOUR SOUL," you protest, pounding your fist against his chest,"besides, you're the one who was crying nonstop when we watched the IDHY duology."
"I was crying because they were accurate book adaptations."
You blink at him confused. "There's a book?"
"Yes, you illiterate heathen."
"You sound like a conquistador."
â....â
"At least they got their happy ending." You say, changing the subject. Â
"That's true."
"Still better than Titanic."
He furrows his brow at you. "What's wrong with the Titanic?"
"First of all," You pitch your shoulders like you're about to give him a lecture, "That was 3 hours of my life wasted on a shitty movie. It wasn't even that accurate."
"Princess, not everyone can survive the Arctic."
"And second, the most romantic scene in that romantic movie was the old couple staying together as they sank."
Jason laughs, a deep rumbling sound. It scrambles your brain, almost dissolving your annoyance until he opens his mouth again. "You sound like Damian."
"Jason Peter Todd, take that back." You screech, swiping at him.Â
He jumps back, his laughter still echoing. "Stop sounding like the demon brat first."
You run after him, telegraphing your murderous intent. Jason walks away faster, sticking his tongue out at you. Your growl and claw at the air. You screech obscenities as Jason continues to evade you. He is having way too much fun with this.Â
You chase Jason around the exhibition for a solid half hour before you come to a skittering halt.
Your eyes land on a vermillion book, leather bound and carefully crafted by skilled hands. You step closer to admire the swirling, arabesque patterns lining the leather. No title is embossed on the front. It's thick. You would wager it was at least 400 pages.
Your eyes drift down even further, finding a familiar scrawl. Below the book were photocopies of some of the pages. Pablo Neruda's 'If You Forget me', Beethoven's 'Immortal beloved', Ibn Hazm's 'My Heart', and a bunch of other poets you didn't know but recognized as ...
"Jason these are your favorites."
"What?" He says, walking over to you cautiously.
You look back down at the pages and your eyes catch on the one in the middle. From the numbering, it was the last.
Love is such a hard thing to define,
I donât know if I could ever find,
The words to truly express the complexity of such an emotion.
It is an emotion felt in the heart,
Long before it makes sense to the mind,
illusive and uncertain until suddenly it just clicks.
Like so many things in this world,
we tend to know it when we see it in others,
even if we canât be sure of it ourselves.
I think Iâve always known how much I love you,
When I look at you,Â
I see everything Iâve ever wanted.
When I look at you,
I see nothing else but your perfect beauty.
Inside and out.
I'm not a poet, (Y/n), but I will tell you anyway I can how much I love you.
-Jason Peter Todd
Jason is a stone next to you.
His mouth is filled with sand as he looks at the far too familiar handwriting. He knew. He knew the moment he saw the red book what it was. Hell, the moment you told Jason it was Roy who told you to go to the museum, he knew what it was. God, why can't he just turn to ash.Â
Jason can't make himself turn to you. He can't bear to see what ever disgusted expression you make. He just can't.Â
He feels a tug on his sleeve. He doesn't move. He feels another tug, this time harder. When he doesn't respond the second time, you lace your fingers in his and spin him around.Â
You squish his cheeks in your hands. "Jason, you actual sap." You say. You look like you're glowing. You beam at him, all toothy and scrunched faced. Jason's lungs stop working again. His mind can't process what you're saying. All Jason knows is that something warm is crowding his chest, pushing everything else out.
"Wha?"
"Jason, you absolute dork!" You repeat, unfazed by his temporary bout of insanity.
Jason is blushing, looking like a strawberry with his freckles. Jason is more adorable than anyone has any right to be. But that's ok. That's perfectly ok cus he's yours.
In a moment of uncontained affection, you pull Jason to you, pressing a kiss against his lips. It's soft and earnest and exciting. It was a kiss Jason spent lifetimes dreaming about. It was you and completely you.
"Jay, they're beautiful." You say in a breathless laugh.Â
Jason looked down at his feet. "I-" was never planning on giving it to you, he thinks. Because, why would you ever love someone like Jason? Especially, after what he'd done to you.Â
As if reading his mind, you press your forehead against his. "I love you too, Jay, and you can't argue me out of it. Sorry bud, you're stuck with me."
Jason can't help the smile as it curls on his lips.
He's happy. He's so stupidly happy and he blames you.
"Plus, I already knew."
"Why didn't you say it first?" He asks, his fingers brushing against his tingling lips.Â
"Cus," you say, pirouetting away from him, "you wouldn't believe me if I did."
"How-"
You put your hand up. "Trust me, Jay. I've tried before." You tilt your head back looking up at the sky light. The curtain of light fell on you like a spotlight highlighting everything ethereal about you. "Remember in Milan? When I told you I cared about you and you told me I didn't."
Jason remembered that. He was angrier back then. He snarled that to you like some wild animal and threatened to throw you out on your ass if you ever so much as spoke a word of that nonsense again. It was the first time he'd seen you look hurt. You face was wide open with shock. Jason felt something in his chest tear at that look. He stormed off, leaving you in that room.Â
When he came back, you offered him warm tea and a smile. You were quiet, inconsolably quiet.
It didn'tâŠ
He didn'tâŠ
It didn't occur to him that look in your eyes was heartbreak.
Jason curses under his breath.
You chortle at him, the mirth in your eyes incandescent.
"Yeah. Exactly." You say, clasping your hands behind your back. Jason would like to be buried six feet under with the only words carved into his gravestone 'I am so sorry (Y/n)'.
You snick seeing the look in his eyes. "Or that time in Paris. The one in the little patisserie when I told you in perfect Catalan that you meant more to me than anything else and do you remember what you told me?"
"I told you you were possessed." Jason's shoulders slump. "Please tell me you don't have a third example."
You smile at him pityingly. "I don't-"
"OH THANK FU-"
"I have 50. Well, 51 but the last one didn't count since I was joking that time."
In Jason's mind, his jaw hits the obsidian floor with an audible 'plop'. It would be loud enough that the entire museum would hear it were it real. He blinks at you. "You tried more than 10 times?"
"I was encouraged." You say shrugging.
"Of course, you were," he grumbles and you laugh. Jason's heart skips a beat but he pushes past the feeling in favor of pleading with you. "Please don't list them."
"Oh, I'm not." You hum.Â
Jason sighs with relief.Â
"I'm gonna leave that to Roy."
"Son of a- He knows?"
You look over your shoulder. "Yeah. Who do you think I complain to?"
"Who else knows?" He asks, trailing behind you as you walk to .... Jason doesn't know at this point and he doubts you do too.Â
"Oh just your family."
"I'm surprised they haven't given me shit about it."
"Oh I bullied them into not doing it."
"Impressive." He whistles and you preen.Â
"Always," you say smugly. You begin to walk a bit faster, craning your neck. "Now, let's go find out if Dickie installed that bakery I asked for."Â
"That's what you're after?" Jason laughs.
"It's a noble goal." You protest.Â
"You don't even need to feed."
"I need to feed my inner sweets monster. She's very fussy and is demanding crepes specifically."
Jason smiles softly at you, amused that of all the human traits you could have retained after being turned was a sweet tooth.
"Sorry to tell you doll face, Dickie still hasn't done it."
You look aghast like he'd slapped you in the face with a large baguette.Â
"What?!"
"He hasn't put in your suggestion from 10 years ago."
"Where am I supposed to get my fix?"
"Are we still talking about sweets or have you moved on to cocaine?"
"Dunno, have you tried snorting sugar?"
"No. Why- Have you?"
"...my lawyer advised against answering this question."
Jason cackles. "How am I the stupid one?"
"I-" Your scowl turns sickeningly sweet. "Yanno, the third time I tried was when-"
"OK. Stop." Jason's face lights up again. "I give."Â
"Pfff." You smile, looking far too pleased with yourself.
Jason straightens up, something sly passing through his eyes. You stop. The look in his eyes makes you nervous.Â
"I think I know where you can get something sweet."
You swallow nervously.
Jason leans in. Heâs so close to you. You can feel his breath brush against your lips. Nothing else around you seems to exist at the moment.Â
You lean in to kiss him but you freeze when you register his voice.Â
âIâm taking you downtown. Thereâs a new bakery there and I heard the crepes were to die for.â He chuckles, turning to walk towards the exit.Â
âWhat the hell?!â You call out falling into step with him.Â
He grins down at you, arms folded behind his head. âSomething wrong, princess?â
Heat rises in your cheeks and elbow him in the side.Â
âI want to take you on a proper date and I sure as hell am not starting here.â He says, rubbing his side and conspicuously not looking at you. Thereâs a dust of peach on his face. Your anger fades away. It gives way to a fluttering in your chest.Â
âWhere?â
He looks at you then, brow furrowed.Â
âWhy donât I take you to the fair, princess? Thereâs plenty of sweet treats there thatâll tickle your fancy.â
Your mouth waters when you think about all the cotton candy they have.Â
âI heard thereâs a kissing booth too, so if youâre lucky,â Jason continues, winking at you. Predictably, you blanch at him. You knock your knuckles against his chest. Jason chuckles, rubbing his chest. âSorry princess, I mean if Iâm lucky enough to get a kiss from you.â
The temerity.Â
The gall.Â
âAs long as you get me something sweet.â You huff, exiting the building.Â
Jason stops on the steps, turning to you with a sly smile. Crossing your arms, you pause bracing for whatever trick is up his sleeve. Jason tilts his head. He says something but the little noises of the city make the words hard to discern. You lean closer to hear him better. Jason steps closer to close the distance, his lips warm against yours. Youâre stunned. Your entire body divided on how to react, some parts stiffen while others turn to jelly.Â
He pulls away, wolfish grin unwavering. "That sweet enough for you sweetheart?"
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dear... whoever | b.b.
summary: a mandated series of long and short diary entries from the new head of R&D for Stark Industries.Â
WARNINGS: swearing, LOTS of fluff, mentions of drinking and sex and hospitals and guns, general fun and witty attitude, small angst, big jealousy, obviously au after civil war. everything after does not exist. pairing:Â bucky barnes x fem!reader word count:Â 9.5k
a/n: written for @softbikerâ and 100% inspired by @sunmoonandbuckyâ with the format. my prompt was let me love you by rita ora and i wrote it from the perspective the singer is singing it to rather than the actual singer. this was super fun to write. enjoy!
July 31/20
DearâŠ
Whoever is going to read this. So⊠me, in the future probably. So, it should be dear WHOMever, I think, but it sounds wrong.
Is it too clichĂ© to say dear diary? I donât know. After all, I donât WANT to be writing this but unfortunately I am because itâs mandated. Apparently, the psychiatrist that works for Stark Industries thinks itâs necessary that I write down my feelings and show that Iâve adjusted to working part-time superhero, full-time head of Tonyâs stupid R&D department.
Something about how that much stress can cause psychotic fractures in the worst case scenario.
Cute.
Anyway, I donât know what to write. Currently, itâs 4:23AM. The only reason Iâm awake is because I have trouble sleeping on the best night. I heard Barnes messing about and because I am the Hermit of the Rec Room Couch (catchy, I know), I can hear him just walking about.
What the hell is he even doing?
To be honest, Iâve never talked to Barnes besides the occasional greetings because heâs the sort to keep to himself, I guess, and, valid. Iâm not saying itâs not, considering his history, but you know.
I think Iâm a friendly person, and Iâm bored. Heâs eventually going to hear me writing noisily because of super-soldier hearing or whatever, so I might just get up and introduce myself.
Not that Iâve been working here for years, but whatever.
Iâm really bored and hungry, honestly, so a trip to the kitchen would be considered normal (and warranted) in such circumstances.
Fuck it.
Time to make a new friend or die trying. If you never hear from me again, youâll know why.
.
Aug. 1/20
Dear Jane,
I finally got the time to write in here and you may be wondering why I have named you. Well, after the conversation at roughly 4:30 AM, here are things thatâve changed in a disorganized list. None is more important than the other. I'm just writing what comes to my head.
One: Barnes said he doesnât really let anyone call him James. I called him James once because I forgot. Profuse apologies followed. He said it was okay and didnât mind me calling him that. Now, in my mind, I think heâs just saying this to be polite and really just wants me to call him Bucky but he seemed sincere. Weâll see how it goes.
Two: Barnes was awake because his cat woke him up. I didnât even know he had a cat but itâs a gorgeous white cat named Alpine that Barnes carries around in his half-zipped up hoodies sometimes. Itâs adorable. Heâs super soft and friendly and I love him already. He showed me all the tricks Alpine could do. Amazing.
Three: Barnesâ favourite movie is the Godfather. Totally surprising there. Please tell me you understand sarcasm.
Four: He said he liked the name Jane when I told him what I was doing up and also in the rec room (couldnât sleep, writing in my diary) and that I didnât want to say âDear diaryâ
âWhy donât you just give it a name?â he eloquently suggested and Jane was his answer to my question of âWhich name?â
Five: Barnes, or James, I guess he is now, is my friend.
Six: We said weâd meet up at 4:30AM or earlier again because I told him I wanted to show him my sâmores dip recipe.
Seven: Wish me luck. Hope I donât get murdered.
Eight: I think I might be in love with him.
Bye.
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Aug. 5/20
Dear Jane,
In an effort to summarize what has happened in the past four days, I will open with the fact that James Buchana Barnes is the cutest motherfucker on the planet. Heâs super old fashioned, but thatâs a given. He opens the doors for me, offers to take my bags up, and in the past four days, weâve met up at around midnight to just eat and chat. Then he walks me back to my room with a glass of water and Iâm left fanning myself because itâs so sweet and heâs so sweet and OH, MY GOD, I am a child.
This feels like a crush. Like, butterflies in my stomach, self-conscious every time he looks at me, canât stop staring, and wanting to impress him at every turn sort of crush.
AKA, a middle-school crush and I feel completely ridiculous but that is besides the point because heâs just the loveliest person.
Someone should tell him chivalry is dead. Steve thinks heâs just being sweet on me, and Sam says I should flash some ass just to get a rise out of him which would be funny. Heâd look absolutely adorable blushing his head off.
Weâll see. I am considering it.
What else happened? Iâm drawing a huge blank.
As explained in a previous entry, I was to show Barnes my sâmores dip recipe. Huge success. Crowd loved it. Thatâs how I learned he has a huge sweet tooth like me. Got an email from Pep about a board meeting which I ignored. If itâs really important, sheâll see me in person. Went swimming with Sam. We started planning Tonyâs big Christmas party even though thatâs MONTHS away.
But, you know. Weâre so busy all the time, it might be worth it planning ahead.
As head of R&D, itâs vital to me that this goes well because theyâre fun when they do go well, and a chaotic disaster when they donât. Also, I have to find a date but details will follow.
I think thatâs it.
If thereâs more to follow, then Iâll just come back but there really isnât.
Oh, Alpine found my room. Heâs in here right now and he snores. Itâs cute, just like his owner.
Okay, goodnight.
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Aug. 7/20
Dear Jane,
Sam, James, and I went swimming.
Pro of the day: James is ripped and that man was GLISTENING.
Con of the day: I AM STUPID in front of hot ripped men.
Pro of the day: We got ice cream together. Strawberry for me, mango for James because he wants to try new flavours, and Sam ordered some monstrosity with vanilla ice cream, chocolate and raspberry syrups, and a bunch of banana slices. A swirl of whipped cream to finish it off. It looked like diabetes in a cup and thatâs coming from me.
Con of the day: James used his thumb to wipe the ice cream off my lip and my brain short-circuited. Sam teased us about it, but James very stubbornly and convincingly said weâre just friends.
Con of the day x2: We are just friends and that is NOT going to change. I cannot explain how much my heart literally fell out of my body in disappointment.
God, and James and I are meeting up at 2AM tonight so he can show me this new stupid stuffed celerey recipe he learned.
Itâs not stupid.
Itâs really, REALLY cute he researched it.
This sucks.
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Aug. 11/20
The worst day ever. I donât want to talk about it but might as well make a note on it. More on it later, I guess.
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Aug. 15/20
Dear Jane,
Sorry, Iâm dramatic. Must get it from working with Tony for so many years.
Letâs just review what occurred on August 11, 2020, at approximately 3:23 in the afternoon.
I learned that James went out on a date. A DATE. From SAM. When James had ample opportunity to tell me at our regular meeting at witching hour over celery sticks.
EXCUSE ME? WHO IS THIS WOMAN?
Iâm not even mad. Iâm just angry that the man I became friends with only 2 weeks ago and caught feelings immediately for is seeing other people.
I sound like a raging bitch. I promise you, Jane, that I am not. Iâm just the insanely jealous type.
No, Iâm not.
God, what is happening to me and why does it have to be James.
I never get crushes and the instant I do, itâs for the most emotionally and physically unavailable person ON EARTH.
Also, work was work. I was distracted, drank soup from the canteen, and generally accomplished nothing. Alpine came for some snuggles while James was out. Thatâs the only good thing.
Thanks, universe.
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Aug. 16/20
Dear Jane,
So, I brought up this mystery lady over homemade sundaes.
James seems pretty serious about her because he a) apologized for not telling because he wanted to keep it private and asked me not to tell anyone and b) has a second date with her later today.
Oh, GOD. There is no point to this.
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Aug. 19/20
Dear Jane,
Whatâs the point of asking someone intimate, personal questions if not because you guys are best friends?
James called me his best friend today. He says he knows me, but if he did, heâd know I feel like throwing up whenever heâs around and that his stare burns through every layer of clothing until I feel like he just knows my secret.
I told him weâve known each other less than a month, but he said something stupidly charming about âintuitionâ and feeling and that this feels right and how he knows he can tell me anything and that I was an easy person to talk to.
I shouldâve been a shrink.
At least, my trip to Wakanda is going to give me distance. A solid two months of no one else but me, tech, and new faces. Going there to collaborate with Shuri is definitely exciting and taking up more space in my brain than James these days.
Maybe Iâll fall in love with some soldier over there because apparently, Iâm catching feelings willy-nilly these days.
See you on the plane, Jane.
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Aug. 23/20
Dear Jane,
On the quinjet, itâs fairly quiet. Itâs one of the things I love about it. The silent yet soft engines that can lull me to sleep. We should be arriving in a few hours so I thought Iâd write. Iâm getting the hang of this, I think.
There's a press conference later, too, in the trip with the UN and itâs not that I canât handle it, but that I couldâve done this in my sleep and wished Tony sent someone else. I hate the press, not gonna lie.
Anyway, this gives me time to be introspective.
Is it just me or James always Okay, is it just my imagination that whenever I try to get close to James, he just kinda pulls away? Not in a romantic way. Iâm not stealing anyoneâs man because girl code, but he wonât even let me just stand near him anymore. Itâs like I have an infectious disease only transmitted through physical contact and itâs just weird.
I donât know.
Before I left, he said heâd miss me and that we should keep in touch through calls (Obviously, I would) and that he hopes I wonât forget him.
So, you say those things but you wonât even let me even hug you?
Youâre a manipulative asshole, Barnes.
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Oct. 20/20
Dear Jane,
I am so sorry that it has taken so long for us to reunite.
In hindsight, Iâm a fucking idiot.
I left you on the quinjet which went back to New York and a different quinjet came to pick me up. I came back like two days ago so these past few days have been spent searching for you.
James offered to help, and he seems normal again.
Weird. Guess he was just in a mood with the new girlfriend and adjusting to having me as a friend, too. Guys go through that, I guess.
In Wakanda, I did not, in fact, fall in love with a soldier or anything. I curse every day that I didnât, trust me. Iâm just as disappointed as you are because I just want to get over this stupid crush. For the two months I was gone, it was like I didnât like James at all like that. Even during calls, I could pretend we were just two teammates keeping each other in the loop. He talked about his girlfriend, I listened, I explained science because heâs a nerd, and he asked questions like he was interested.
It was FINE.
Then, he was waiting for me when I came back to NYC and it slammed into me like Bruce in Hulk-mode.
James asked if I wanted to meet his girlfriend because sheâd be coming around for the Halloween party anyway, and he thinks weâll get along swimmingly.
He really said swimmingly. He is stuck in the wrong era, but we all knew that.
I said yes, to be polite.
Hereâs to hoping sheâs a vindictive bitch and I am justified in hating her entire being.
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Oct. 22/20
Dear Jane,
I met her. Sheâs small and pretty and mature and normal.
If I wasnât stupidly in my feelings about James, Iâd love her, too.Â
Sheâd treat him right, give him a good home to come back to.
Best not to notice the people fighting beside you in that way, I guess.
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Oct. 25/20
Dear Jane,
God is dead and NO ONE has eyes on the road.
Jesus isnât even taking the wheel on this one.
Itâs a fucking disaster.
I do not want to describe in every little detail the intricacies of dreaming about James Buchanan Barnes fucking my brains out, so I wonât, but this is for the record that it happened and how the fuck am I supposed to come back and see him in his probably gorgeous attempt at his recreation of Brendan Fraser from the Mummy AKA my favourite movie (which HE KNOWS THAT IT IS?? GOD, the audacity.)
Girlfriend (his girlfriend. âGirlfriendâ is the name which she shall be henceforth known as in these entries because petty wins are all I have right now) is dressing as Rachel Weisz. Because âcouples goalsâ or whatever.
I wouldnât know. Sam and I are dressed up as sexy salt and pepper shakers (his idea, not mine) and he made me take the salt stick because I think he knows. Steveâs not dressing up because heâs more focused on handing out candy as Captain America.
Tony is⊠Tony. Iron Man and all that.
Anyway, Iâm out of town in DC for a meeting with the Secretary of State for a few days, but Iâll be back in New York on the 30th so Iâll have a few hours to adjust to being around James again before he dons on that outfit that I know will be totally hot.
He called me his best friend again in his latest email.
Made me smile like an idiot, but I digress.
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Nov. 1/20
Dear Jane,
Halloween was killer. Sam and I won best duo for costumes because weâre that good. Ate a lot of candy and it seems to be looking up.
I dunno. I didnât mind James and Girlfriend on the couch that much in the after-party. Mostly stuck by Nat and Sharon and Tony. An ood trio, but a fun one nonetheless.
It was fun, but I still have to go to work no matter how many jello shots and vodka gummy bears consumed.
Wish me luck, not that I need it.
Why do you think Tony hired me?
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Nov. 4/20
Dear Jane.
Natasha said I smile at James in a way that utterly betrays every emotion I want to hide in my chest.
Note to self: Donât smile at James, or at his jokes, or at anything he ever does again. Avoid him. Put a stopper on this friendship.
Note to note to self: I canât. He just makes me smile whenever heâs around and heâs always around. Thereâs no simpler way to put it.
Iâm gonna try this hiatus thing, though. Distance myself a bit. Weâll see how it goes.
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Nov. 13/20
Dear Jane,
Day nine of this hiatus business and it sucks. I miss my best friend.
Weâre scheduled for a mission together, and weâre leaving tomorrow so I was going to have to talk to him during the briefing and the op either way.
Well, glad to know this didnât work.
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Nov. 15/20
Dear Jane,
Guess who just got fucking shot!
ME!
Guess even scumbags canât take a holiday because some stupid arms dealer got a cheap shot on me while I was downloading their whole computer system and other tech mumbo-jumbo I am too high to write about.
James left a few hours ago with the rest of the team, but not before he got me a bunch of ice chips and said he was worried and that he hopes I get better soon. He even promised to get me some flowers to spruce up the room and to say my HEART went CRAZY is an understatement.
He came to my rescue, essentially, as soon as he heard I got pinned. He carried me to the quinjet the instant he cleared the area and stayed by my side the whole time even though the bleeding stopped and I was in good hands. He was just so protective, barking at doctors and nurses. It was embarrassing but also really, really sweet.
Is it weird of me to say that I want him to stay by my side forever?Â
Iâve never fallen in love before.
Is it always this fast and this hard? I feel like Iâm crashing instead of gently and wonderfully falling. Everything is dumb and awful.
Is this what love is like? Because it hurts worse than getting shot because I think Iâm going to vomit flowers or butterflies or something.
God, heâd never love me. Weâre just friends and even though we have a lot in common, heâd never. Itâs just too much of the past in the present or whatever.
Also, he has a girlfriend but it seems very surface-level. God, that makes me sound like a âone of the boysâ type of girl whoâs a bitch to one of the boyâs new girlfriends, but I donât know. James told me they donât really talk about the deep stuff like we do. But she makes him happy, I think.
In hindsight, one may ask what the deep stuff is.
More on that later. Iâm tired.
God, why him?
I HATE THIS.
goodnight.
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Nov. 16/20
Dear Jane,
James visited again today. He sat beside me and we talked until the nurses had to kick him out. He also brought the flowers.
I asked about Girlfriend casually. I said I liked her.
He said he did, too.
I donât know why I think heâs lying. No, I do.
Itâs because jealousy is the green-eyed bitch from highschool who still shows up in my life because she thinks sheâs relevant to society.
That was mean. Unrequited love makes you mean. Side effect noted.
P.S. The deep stuff includes his past, his arm, his memory, his favourite colour. I dunno why that matters. It just does.
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Nov. 17/20
Dear Jane,
Got out of the hospital today because of advanced technology and all that. Nothingâs left but a scar and residual soreness. James helped me to my room and said to call him if I had a problem.
I joked that he has a girlfriend and for some reason, he got really weird about it. Itâs hard to describe. I dunno. Nat dropped by for popcorn and movies.
Itâs 2:32AM. Iâm wondering if heâs in the kitchen but Iâm confined to bed rest so I donât know. Also, Nat is asleep beside me and I donât want to bother her.
Hopefully I can get up and move in a few days. Life is boring.
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Nov. 24/20
Dear Jane,
Sorry we havenât caught up in a moment. Workâs been hectic and Iâve been working overtime trying to make ends meet. Most days Iâm in the office or lab, just trying to get enough things done so I can take time off come Christmas.
James stopped by tonight with Chinese takeout and some sweet buns.
He broke up with his girlfriend, too.
Guess thatâs why he was being weird about it.
I tried being as casual as I could asking why, but he didnât want to talk about it, so I asked why he came by. Couldnât be for the company because when Iâm in work mode, I just donât talk and he knows that.
He said something about his arm feeling funny so I gave it a quick diagnostics check.
I think both of us knew his arm was feeling fine.
Everything is stupid, life is meaningless, and Jamesâ lips are the prettiest shade of pink in the ugly lights of the lab.
I would very much like to have kissed him, but I didnât.
Girl code.
Itâll probably be a while before I get another chance to actually have time and energy to write another diary entry. Christmas seasonâs coming close and Pepper is gonna need help with the party.
Yay, me.
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Dec. 4/20
Dear Jane,
Morgan asked me in less eloquent words if I had a boyfriend (it was more like âYou boyfriend?â But whatever. Who even taught her that word?) and I swear to GOD Nat could not make it anymore obvious looking at James.
Remind me to absolutely throttle her. I donât care if sheâs the infamous Black Widow. She has clearly never seen me hopped up on nothing but a negative amount of sleep and rage/embarrassment/spite/all of the above.
On another note, Pep asked if I was bringing a plus one for the party. I said Iâd think about it. Normally Iâd just take Sam but he has his eyes on someone at the VA and I like my friends getting laid so no go there.
Might just go alone. I donât know.
Pep said I should take James, but I donât really think she knows the truth about that situation. Luckily, Tony instantly rejected the idea and said heâd find me a date if I couldnât.
Thank the universe for at least placing me in the close circle of the most well-known and richest man in the world because he also gave me his card and said go wild.
He knows me so well. Iâm thinking about Christmas shopping when I have another free day, and Iâll pay for that with my own money, of course, but clothes shopping is a free market.
I cannot wait.
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Dec. 12/20
Dear Jane,
I wish I could show you my haul, but I got so much stuff Happy had to drive to help me. Besides obvious gifts, I also managed to snag a gorgeous dress for the party.
Thoughts on black and gold?
I think itâs beautiful. Hopefully Nat and Sharon think so. Weâre having a girls night tonight and showing off outfits, so thatâs exciting.
James asked if we could meet up tonight.
I told him I had plans and he looked so downcast.
I dunno. Everything feels weird between us. Like weâre fine, weâre best friends still, but somethingâs changed when no one was looking. Heâs single now. I guess that energy is different because I had gotten used to his energy with ex-Girlfriend.
I donât exactly mind but itâs not ideal either. I miss summer. Itâs much less complicated than winter. Winter, one has to worry about wind and chills and snows blocking roads, black ice, dry skin, freezing fingers.
Summer: thereâs just a lot of sun, wind, bugs, and the vaguest notion of being bored.
Look, I love winter. Itâs my favourite season. Itâs quiet and gorgeous and dreamy, even though it gets dreary in New York. The snow falls slowly sometimes, Christmas is gorgeous here, and Iâd rather be cold than sweating buckets, and there are no bugs to bother me. Also, it gives me a good reason to stay in the labs or in my room where itâs warm and toasty.
I just miss the relative simplicity when James and I were just strangers on the edge of being friends, which is, in retrospect, a selfish reason to like one season and hate another.
Well, some philosopher somewhere probably said something about humanity being selfish.
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Dec. 16/20
Dear Jane,
T-minus nine days until the party.
No date in sight.
Maybe Iâll ask Anderson from HR. We had coffee together a few times and heâs nice. Good catch: smart, not too bad looking, and really nice. Iâll head down tomorrow and ask.
Alpine had purred when I told him my plan and headbutted my hand, so I guess I got the Alpine-Seal-of-Approval.
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Dec. 17/20
Dear Jane,
Operation: Ask Anderson from HR to Tonyâs Christmas Party failed. Granted, it couldâve been because that was a god awful title and that that name, in itself, prophesied catastrophic failure, but also because I was accosted by my best friend.
I wish I meant Sam.
Nope. James caught me in the elevator and we made small talk. Sounds fine, right? Then we turned the topic to the party. Talked about clothes and prospective celebrity appearances and drinks and food. Just about everything, so might as well turn to talks about dates, which meant I had to explain why I was in the elevator in the first place.
Going down to ask Anderson ended in James revealing that he didnât have a date either.
He doesnât know who Anderson is, which I thought would be the case, and he popped the question before the doors opened.
Notice how I said âdidn'tâ have a date.
Guess whoâs going to the party with James, clearly stated as friends, platonic soulmates, etc.?
Me.
Yippee.
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Dec. 18/20
Dear Jane,
Itâs 3:42AM and Iâm in the rec room as usual. I was gonna not write here today but it normally helps me sleep to just write a bit, get what little thoughts are in my head out. Yeah.
I hear James in the kitchen talking to Alpine and itâs making me smile like an idiot.
Oh, shit, he knows Iâm in here. Heâs making milkshakes.
I am morally obligated by best friend duties to join him.
Goodnight, Jane.
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Dec. 24/20
Dear Jane,
Iâm not sleeping with James Buchanan Barnes tomorrow night.
This is a resolute promise. An early New Yearâs resolution.
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Dec. 25/20
Dear Jane,
Merry Christmas!Â
In between jovial festivities, Iâve finally found a little nook thatâs quiet enough to write in. We opened presents, had a big family breakfast, went skating and just lounged around, and frankly, Iâm exhausted. Need to recharge the old social battery.
Among the assortment of gifts is one that stands out to me. James got me a gift that said âOpen When Aloneâ and I did before I started this entry and it was a fucking necklace. Like, a gorgeous one. Itâs gold and thin and it feels wonderful. Thereâs a little cat paw charm on it and itâs so pretty because he has a matching bracelet for himself and I have still not yet recovered.
Itâs just so sweet and it reminds me why I love him.
Yes, love has made me unbelievably sappy. I just heaved the biggest sigh in history.
Unfortunately, I have to go earlier tonight. To the party, as written in previous entries. I remember my oath of one-night celibacy and I intend on keeping it, despite how fucking endearing this gift was, because he said it best: weâre just friends. Iâm not about to coerce my best friend into sleeping with me out of a piteous, unrequited love. Thatâs just gross.
You will either see me hungover tomorrow, or very drunk later tonight. Itâs all very depending on how this night turns out.
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Dec. 26/20
Dear Jane,
Fuck.
P.S. He REALLY does not mind me calling him James. Take that as dirtily or as clandestinely as you wish.
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Dec. 27/20
Dear Jane,
I spent the entire day in bed with very pleasurable company.
I am SO GLAD we havenât gotten called in because James doesnât leave unless to go to sleep in his own bed or to eat, and I do NOT want to explain to the team that James fucked my brains out for two days straight because my heart is bursting.
Heâs a good kisser. His lips are soft.
Intimate knowledge of that is now burned into my memory for future reference.
God, this is a dream come true. He doesnât even question it, he just
Itâs like Iâm a goddess to him. He treats me like one, at least, and itâs like heâll do anything I ask. And we act like itâs normal, too. Midnight trips to the kitchen included.
Best Christmas ever.
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Dec. 28/20
Dear Jane,
I feel like Iâm ignoring you but Iâm also having the best sex of my life. Heâs just⊠so fucking good and itâs a holiday and holy shit my mind is blown.
Love at first meeting isnât real.
Well, maybe this one time, it was destiny.
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Dec. 29/20
Dear Jane,
It isnât just the sex, you know? Itâs the pillowtalk, too. He just makes me laugh so much and everything is so easy between us and it feels real. Popcorn and chips in bed, some mojitos, just each otherâs presence. Itâs enough like that, you know?
Some quote about how the one you love should be both your lover and your best friend is in my head but Iâm too lazy to look it up. Jamesâ head is in my lap and heâs just reading while Iâm writing and everything seems perfect.
He doesnât ask what Iâm writing because he knows itâs private and I trust him.
This is perfect.
I think I really am IN love with him.
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Jan. 1/21
You know that clichĂ©/tradition of New Yearâs kisses?
WELL THEN.
Best (and worst) New Yearâs ever. Iâll explain more later. Iâm too tired and too angry and also sore and bruised.
See you when Iâm not hungover.
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Jan. 5/21
Dear Jane,
Iâm finally stable enough to write.
In a crazy turn of events, Barnes and I got into a fight because of what happened after New Yearâs Dayâs events: I caught him leaving before I woke up and at first, curious questions ensued, and it wasnât a fight but then it became one and I donât even know how it happened. I wasnât even mad. He just started being weird and I got annoyed and we tried and failed to keep our voices down. Luckily, my room is pretty soundproof.
Things just got out of hand and I feel like tearing my hair out. I wanna storm up to him and just yell some more.
Tony came into my room and didnât say shit about my hickies and the fact that James is avoiding me like the plague. He gave me a really good hug, though and then gave me a few weeks off extra. I donât know how he knows, but then again, itâs Tony.
He just said loveâs tough sometimes.
Yeah, tell me about it.
Iâm thinking about just taking a long vacation and disappearing. It seems like a good route to take at this point.
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Jan. 6/21
Dear Jane,
James is looking at me right now as I write this. I wonder if I should look back or if heâs going to come up to me. Weâll see.
Iâm only writing this so it seems like Iâm busy. Iâm running out of things to say, honestly. Can he just go? Whatâs the point in staring like that? Whatâs the point?
I could ask myself the same question. Whatâs the point in loving someone whoâll never love you? Yeah, heâs sleeping with me but he pulls away every time I try to do something more. Outside the bubble of my room and the small time frame of post-11PM to around 4:45AM, he acts like heâs allergic to intimacy.
It was never like that with ex-Girlfriend.
Maybe itâs something to do with me.
I donât know, but he keeps looking and I want to get up and leave, but I wonât. Iâm not gonna let him win.
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Jan. 6/21
He didnât. He just went out. Sam and Steve asked if I was okay because as soon as he left, I got up for the bathroom and screamed into a towel.
I donât think either of them knows whatâs going on, but they have a notion.
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Jan. 9/21
Dear Jane,
He apologized. Still no explanation as to why, but it feels weird.
I told him Iâm going on a vacation to Switzerland. Go skiing or something and asked if he wanted to come.
It was stupid to ask, but he said yes.
Shit.
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Jan. 14/21
Dear Jane,
Switzerland is lovely.
No work is relaxing. Awkwardness between me and the other traveller on this vacation. Weatherâs supposed to be nice when we get there. Sunny snow days, pretty mountains, other Swiss things.
No other comment.
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Jan. 21/21
Dear Jane,
I lasted all of a week.
Yep, I slept with him again, and yes, he was back in his hotel bed come sunrise.
I dunno. Iâm over it. We donât apologize and hope everything gets back to normal because neither of us want to say anything to ruin it any further and we both have a major fear of the complicated. To be fair, he said he didnât want to sleep with me if I was completely against it.
Also, I tried calling him Bucky at dinner like ex-Girlfriend (and everyone else) does and he made the most disgusted face.
He said, and I quote, âBucky? When did I stop being James?â
I told him I was trying something out and he said it failed. Snarky bastard.
I guess if heâs still James, that must mean Iâm still special.
Thatâs the Tony-inherited ego talking.
But it does make me exceptionally happy to play with the idea that Iâm special to him. Best friend with convoluted benefits. Sounds like the title of a very long-winded self-help book that doesnât really help much but that does sound like the story of my life so I canât complain too much.
Weâre going home in a few days.
Iâll probably sleep with him again. Bet Steveâs shield that I do.
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Jan. 24/21
Dear Jane,
I get three Steveâs shields because I was right every single fucking day.
Heâs like a habit I canât quite kick and donât really want to.
We snuggled afterwards last night. His arm was around my shoulders, we were naked, I was resting my head on his chest. For a moment, it felt like something couples do and then I fell asleep and woke up alone.
Quantum physics is easier to understand than this but I think weâre being mutually exclusive right now, so itâs almost dating.
I dunno. I donât mind it anymore. Itâs better than nothing.
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Feb. 2/21
Dear Jane,
Iâm absolutely miserable.
Iâm still getting laid, but thatâs not related. Correlation and causation or something.
Why is New York so dreary and when can everything just stop?
I donât know. Winter is ending and now itâs in that awful transition phase between seasons and itâs mucky and rainy and disgusting. Tony got these limited edition ice cream flavours though so Iâm gonna ask James if we can make milkshakes out of them or something.
He doesnât like the muck either. Thatâs not really relevant, I guess.
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Feb. 14/21
Dear Jane,
I got flowers and chocolate from the department because I think they can sense Iâve been in a bad mood since forever. Then, there was an anonymous delivery and inside was this gorgeous chain bracelet that matches the necklace sort of. I lied and told the department it was from Pepper.
What a wretched holiday.
Yours truly.
.
Feb. 18/21
Dear Jane,
Normally, when boys get their haircut, they look ugly for a day or two after.
Not James.
He got his hair cut shorter and he looks really good. Like unbelievably good. Short hair fits him just as much as long hair does.
No other observations.
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Feb. 25/21
Dear Jane,
It was Morganâs birthday party today. James came in one of those brown jackets with the sheepskin wool inside and he looked so good. We mainly stayed apart to prevent any dalliance because one does not disappear from the Madame Secretaryâs birthday party and the team doesnât really know whatâs happening behind the scenes except for Nat and Tony, really.
I really wanted to kiss him in front of our friends. I caught him staring a few times, and every time, the smile seemed to vanish off his face.
Iâm lying in bed and it feels pretty empty.
It occurs to me that Iâve been in love for a pretty long time and Iâm not even in a relationship with the guy.
Energy couldâve been devoted to so many other things and Iâd hate being in love if it werenât for the fact that itâs James.
Again, love making me sappy and all that.
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Feb. 28/21
Dear Jane,
Jane is such a common name. Some would call it plain yet it means gift from God.
I wonder if James knew that.
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Mar. 10/21
Dear Jane,
Itâs Jamesâ birthday. Birthday sex is a requirement and a desire. I also got him a gift which is a pair of new black Timbs. I hope he likes them. Iâm excited for cake, I guess. Morgan did my makeup but Iâm gonna have to wipe it off for the small little party tonight.
I think, ordinarily, Iâd be in knots because itâs Jamesâ birthday and I love him and heâs my best friend, but I just donât know. March is fairly boring and contemplative and rainy. Work is work. Helen Cho did a presentation on her Cradle technology. Very cool.
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Mar. 20/21
Dear Jane,
Itâs raining and doesnât feel like spring. Alpine vomited on my bed a few days ago because heâs not feeling well. James and I took him to the vet and heâs on antibiotics. Poor boy. Heâs sleeping in the corner of my room right now while James is away on a mission. I think Iâll just work from my room for a bit until heâs feeling better.
Nothing much to report, which is why I didnât write anything. The month passed by too quickly. James should be back by the end of the month. I miss him and not because of the sex. No one else who doesnât work for me or pays me listens to me ramble on their own free will. Talking to screens just isnât the same.
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April 1/21
James got back really early this morning and I, by tradition, was awake. I sort of wish I wasnât though. In true April Foolâs tradition, I made fun of him for being a day late to which he genuinely apologized. I told him to shower and get to sleep but he was in that mood where youâre so exhausted youâre wide awake.
James suggested we make really strong cocktails for each other as a celebration for an extraction mission completed successfully.
Who am I to say no to celebrating?
He really likes grapefruit juice so I made a REALLY strong Grapefruit Paloma. He made this really interesting drink that was purple and tasted like oranges and cranberries. A lot of blue curacao was in it so it was pretty bitter but it hit like a fucking truck which is probably why I didnât understand anything he said at first.
He told me he loved me.
I think, somehow, he managed to get drunk after the Grapefruit Paloma and two more bottles of vodka. Donât ask me how because Steve NEVER gets drunk. Maybe HYDRA-brand serum is faulty? I donât know.
I asked if he knew what date it was. He laughed really loudly, said no, realized, stuttered apologies and then said it again.
It was the most perfect sound in the world and it was the best moment in recent history.
Or, the sickest practical joke.
Consensus not yet reached.
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April 2/21
Dear Jane,
I asked if he remembered what happened yesterday morning.
He did not.
Sickest practical joke confirmed.
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April 9/21
Dear Jane,
Iâve been avoiding writing because Iâve felt a whole lot of nothing. Everything is abysmal and Jamesâ confession is all I can think about. Tonyâs on my ass about slipping and he has half the mind to put me on paid leave until I get my shit together, both as the head of the department and as an agent.
Drunk words are sober thoughts, all that garbage.
I wish I could live my whole life drunk and honest. Maybe then I wouldnât be in this situation where Iâm stuck in eternal limbo with my best friend whom Iâm in love with. Minus the drunk part.
Duty demands I return to this weathered journal until itâs finished so weâll see. I might be back this month. Maybe not.
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May 1/21
Dear Jane,
It rained a lot in April so now the flowers are blooming early. April showers bring May flowers. Guess it has some merit to it.
Limbo sucks. Its inescapable nature, its terrible facade of everything seeming fine when it really isnât.
Of course, James still makes me smile, but nothing seems really okay when I let myself stop for a second.
Iâm going out with Steve to a charity thing tomorrow. Should be a few hours worth of not thinking and free booze. Oh, and James and I made out in one of the quinjets after dinner today.
Felt weird considering we arenât a couple, but it happened spontaneously as that is the nature of our relationship, it appears.
The cause also happens to be the cure of melancholy. Weird.
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May 6/21
Dear Jane,
For context, itâs 5:23AM.
Went for a walk in Madison Square and then Central Park with James yesterday, although in my head itâs still today. We met up with Nat for some training at the gym. Got a bit mobbed by fans and the paps who asked if we were dating like weâre the tabloidâs biggest scoop.
We werenât even holding hands, but I guess itâs just another reason why we shouldnât be TOGETHER together in public.
We had another deep stuff talk again in bed after the usual business. I wanted to ask what this is between us and if heâs pursuing other options, because Iâm not and I wanted to know if I should, but I also didnât want to ruin the vibe.
He was in a good mood today, and seeing as sometimes he has nightmares, I thought it was best I donât ruin it. He thinks I donât notice but how do I not notice? Heâs my best friend.
I kissed his cheek when he got up to leave and he kissed me goodbye on the lips.
I guess that means something.
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May 17/21
Dear Jane,
In a moment of complete boredom, I listened to Imagine Dragonsâ new album. It wasnât too bad, to be honest, but Sharon thought it couldâve been better. Whatever.
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May 22/21
Dear Jane,
Ran into ex-Girlfriend today. She still has that whole sunshine thing going on still. We had coffee and she asked if I got together with James yet.
I choked on my coffee and nearly died on the spot.
Thatâs how I learned that James apparently broke it off softly and ex-Girlfriend had, very wisely and knowingly, said that he should chase the apple of his eye before I (the apple) rotted alone and forgotten at the trunk of the tree. Or, as any sane person would say (and ex-Girlfriend DID say), get picked from the tree by another hand.
She said it was quite obvious that I was in love with James even months ago. She also thanked me for being so nice, anyway, and that it mustâve been difficult. What a fucking SAINT.
I set her up with a date with Steve because they have the same energy, honestly, and thatâs going down on the 26th barring any emergencies.
Call me Cupid, but I think I just constructed the perfect match made in heaven.
Mentioned this meeting to James minus the apple detail. He asked if she was doing okay, which she was, and seemed glad for that. Between kisses and his sneaking hand beneath the covers, he also asked if there was anything else. Not really much to say on that front.
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June 3/21
Dear Jane,
Itâs starting to dry up consistently, now. Itâs getting warmer, too. Sam brought me flowers and told me to at least turn the air-con on if I was gonna be stuck in the lab all day. Oh, the simplicities of summer are hopefully returning. Got out early and hung out with Morgan at the park in the evening.
Itâs nice to hang out with someone so blissfully unaware with the stupidity of love. All Morgan cares about is grass and buttercups she grabs from the ground. She doesnât have to worry about how to tell the guy sheâs in love with that she loves him.
Oh, didnât you hear? Nat said I should just buck the fuck up and tell him.
And Nat is scary when not listened to.
Much to brainstorm about.
.
June 14/21
Dear Jane,
Just here to brainstorm some ideas for future Stark Industries projects and thought Iâd preface it with a small diary entry. Nothing really happened. Workâs catching up for some reason and bad guys are acting up. Iâve pulled a few all nighters, not gonna lie.
Really tired, but in a good, productive way. Havenât thought much on the James front. Gonna have to focus on that after everything calms down.
.
June 20/21
Dear Jane,
Itâs officially summer and yet today was awful with only subtle hints of being okay.
So much for simplicity.
In the evening, I read on the hammock on the balcony. No one really bothered me except James, but heâs never a bother.
Steve and ex-Girlfriend (who will now be reidentified as Girlfriend) are pretty cute, and she meshes well with the group. Thereâs nothing really awkward between her, James, or me, so I guess two peopleâs summers are going well. Bully for them.
Didnât really eat. Was too busy working. James got me dinner. Didnât feel right and just kept working. This whole agreement between us has been very flexible but we really need to fit in a session soon.
Iâll make it work somehow.
.
June 22/21
Dear Jane,
I got my wish and didnât at the same time. We spent the whole day in the sheets (very blissfully relaxing) and I, stupidly and with very little sleep, let it slip.
In less elegant terms, I told him I loved him. It felt very real and genuine and very-out-of-a-movie, but his reaction was less so.
What did I say? Allergic to intimacy.
He tried to play it off as best friends and even that was uncomfortable, but I, very seriously and very foolishly, corrected him that âno, James Buchanan Barnes, I am IN LOVE with you.â
He left a few minutes ago, saying something about heading down to the gym, but I know heâs just trying to avoid me.
God, how am I so stupid?
.
June 25/21
Dear Jane,
I havenât seen James in a few days. I thought he was avoiding me but turns out heâs out of the country. Something about protection for whatever dignitary is travelling at the end of the month. I donât know.
I wasnât assigned to that op so the details werenât shared liberally. Sam just said itâd be a while during the ambassadorâs entire stay. High threat level which is why the Avengers were contracted.
I just hope he stays safe. I know he probably took off to take his mind off things, but I donât know how heâs focusing when all I can think of is those three little words.
I love you.
Seems so fake the more I hear it in my head, but his reaction was so real that I think I mightâve just irreversibly messed things up.
.
July 12/21
Dear Jane,
Itâs been a hectic couple of weeks. If future me finds this with blotted words, itâs because I am indeed crying while writing this.
James was medically evacâed last night and transferred back to New York. Helen Cho was flown in from her medical conference in Minnesota where she was showcasing the newest version of the Cradle.
There was an assasination attempt and James is fucked up bad.
Holy shit, Iâm so scared. Iâve never been so scared in my life. Itâs like an invisible demon has my heart in his claw-like hands and heâs squeezing with all his might. I think my heart might explode.
I just want to hold his hand but heâs so high risk no oneâs allowed to see him right now.
The waiting room is too quiet. Steveâs holding on to Girlfriendâs hand so hard I think her bones are broken but sheâs taking it like a champ. Natâs pacing, slowly patting a sleeping Morgan who sheâs carrying. Sam and Tony are talking about stuff.
Itâs too quiet.
Iâm so scared.
.
July 13/21
They got him into the Cradle. Thank God. I think I might cry some more out of relief, but he was conscious for a few minutes earlier and heâs stable now.
Itâs really late at night but they extended privileges to me to stay with him so Iâm just sitting here, writing. Listening to the Cradle do its thing and the monitors do theirs.
When he was conscious, I was with him. He said some stuff under his breath but the one thing I could make out was âIâm an idiot.â
Granted, heâs right. It was supposed to be Steve or Tony on that mission. You know, people with more defense op experience, but he had to go out and volunteer himself.
I feel sort of guilty.
Itâs partially my fault, isnât it?
I think Iâll try to tuck in for tonight. I wanna be awake when he wakes up, too.
.
July 14/21
Dear Jane,
James woke up today. Heâs still in the Cradle (lots of internal damage spread throughout the body) but heâs conscious. He saw me and immediately tried to sit up which was sweet, but when he couldnât, he just told me to come closer and then told me that he loved me.
I called him an idiot for running away. I told him he really scared me. I told him that I loved him so fucking much. I told him that I feel so guilty and he just held my face and said that it will never be my fault.
Heâs so fucking romantic, even when heâs lying down with a wound being stitched closed live in front of my eyes.
Oh, and he kissed me. I donât think I noticed how much I actually missed him until that moment.
I donât know how to describe the feeling in my chest. Itâs a mixture between super happy and super scared and super, super warm inside. Summer might be looking up.
.
July 18/21
Dear Jane,
We got home today. James is staying in my room. The team doesnât say anything about it. Weâre best friends, after all, but I think theyâve known for a long time that thereâs something more. Some of them are just too polite to say so.
I wonât have much time to write over the next couple of days. James has to be kept on a strict, extremely healthy diet and medicine regime.
I donât care. Iâm just glad heâs home.
Heâs kissing me a lot more, now. Alpine likes the fact that his two humans are now in the same room. He purrs so loudly, I can hear him from where heâs dozing, curled up underneath Jamesâ chin. He (James) is resting after his second round of antibiotics for the day while I work from my room, and sometimes I catch myself looking back just to make sure heâs okay.
Iâm going to go kiss him now.
Be right back.
.
July 21/21
Dear Jane,
Itâs almost Natâs birthday (the 26th). Super exciting. James is back on solids and Iâm helping him around with walking. Even with the Cradle and the healing factor, heâs still super banged up, so itâs better safe than sorry.
We had a really long talk about love and stuff. Itâs good to finally have it out in the open. It was mostly me talking about my side of things and he just nodded a lot. I know he was listening though.
We also kissed a lot, like seventeen year old couples who are heavy on the PDA, but within the privacy of my room. I dunno. I like the heat of his arms and the way he kisses the shell of my ear when heâs bored or itâs a commercial break.
It feels very natural.
I am very much in love with him.
I tell him that and he always looks skeptical, but whatever. He doesnât have to say it back (I tell him that thereâs no pressure) and heâll get it through his thick skull eventually that heâs now stuck with me.
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July 25/21
Dear Jane,
We made cookies in the early AM as tradition for the party tomorrow and I told him that I love him (again, but this time he didnât run, nor has he the past few times. Fantastic).
While the cookies were baking, he explained everything on his side of the story: how he was scared to be vulnerable, how opening up to me is just different and new and scary and I get it. I really do. I know how it feels to think you donât deserve good things and sabotage feels like the only way to save everyone from hurt.
He smiled a lot more after that. I guess heâs just glad I get it.
One day, Iâll successfully convince James that he deserves everything good this world has to offer.
Until then, Iâll just keep trying.
P.S. He said, with less hesitation than the first time, that he loves me, too. Best. Day. Ever.
P.P.S. The cookies are so good and I want to devour them all. I could barely stop James from eating all of them. Again: Best. Day. Ever.
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July 26/21
Dear Jane,
In summary of today:
Happy birthday, Natasha.
James has been given the clear bill of health which is exciting. Also, I asked him about the Jane and gift of God thing.
He knew. âIntuitionâ and all that. He also said I looked âlike a royal dameâ in my swimsuit. Smug idiot just trying to be charming.
I love him and thatâs the only reason it works.
Back to the festivities.
.
July 27/21
Dear Jane,
Good morning to you and to James whoâs still in my bed at a ripe 6:23AM, fast asleep.
Progress. Now, back to sleep.
.
July 27/21
Dear Jane,
Itâs now 9:49AM and James greeted me with orange juice and waffles. He said I was cute when I slept. Creep.
He also said he tried so many times to stay in my bed after, before we were like we are now, but he never could, and now heâs upset that he missed out on my cute sleeping/waking up for the day face every time he did so.
He is exceptionally cute when heâs pouting.
I think weâre officially boyfriend-girlfriend, but weâll work out the semantics on that later. For now, itâs another summer day together. He suggested Chinese takeout for dinner because I have to go dip back into the lab later today to check on some samples.
I agreed and he kissed me in promise like it was our âthing.â I canât stop smiling like an idiot.
Massive progress.
.
July 28/21
Dear Jane,
He told me I was the only one for him.
Also, he kissed me in front of our friends for the first time. Natasha yelled âFINALLYâ and pushed us into the pool. Sam laughed and then I grabbed him and threw him into the pool. Ensuing: a water fight for the ages.
For a day: 10/10
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July 31/21
Hey Jane,
I think Iâm happy.
Iâm sorry I ever doubted the effects of writing down my feelings.
James has a romantic trip to uptown planned for our first date and he said itâll take the whole day so I thought Iâd get this entry in the morning. I dunno. Itâs really early and the happy thought was the first thing that came to my head.
Weird, but itâs a good weird.
See you in a bit.
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Wizards Hearts Smut Recs: First Time
Wizards Hearts was a four-month-long Drarry reading fest. Players were given a playing deck of 52 tropes, and were asked to find 52 different fics to read and comment on to fill their decks. To prevent the same few fics from being read, fics were restricted to only being used for the game three times before being considered ineligible for further points. The tropes and submissions list can be found here. Players could opt in to an additional suit of 13 cards, all themed around various popular smut tropes.
Check out the masterlist of fics for this trope below the cut!
đ Another Heart Whispers Back by slytherco Rated: Explicit Words: 53,693 Tags: Friends to Lovers, Auror Harry Potter, Potioneer Draco Malfoy, Pining Draco Malfoy, Oblivious Harry Potter, Virgin Harry Potter, Unrequited But Not Actually Unrequited Love, Unresolved Sexual Tension, Unresolved Romantic Tension, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Casual Intimacy, Humor, Comedy, Blind Date, First Dates, Bets & Wagers, Meddling, Love Confessions, Idiots in Love, Making Out, First Time, First Time Blow Jobs, Rimming, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, Post-Coital Cudding, Shower Sex, Tattooed Harry Potter, Magical Tattoos, Taste of Smut 2020 Summary: At twenty-five, Harry Potter is still a virgin and sorely lacking in options to change that state anytime soon. To help him find a plus one for Ron and Hermioneâs wedding, and maybe kill two birds with one stone, Harryâs friends set him up on a series of blind dates. The only problem is, thereâs something not quite right with each of their candidates. âEvery heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing always find a song. At the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet.â â Plato In which Harry learns that some things are worth waiting for, that looking and seeing are two very different things, and that his heartâs song has been heard a long time ago. â€ïž Read on AO3
đ The Heart's Honest Truth by bixgirl1 & carpemermaid Rated: Explicit Words: 16,020 Tags: Hogwarts Eighth Year, Awkward First Times, Truth Spells, Alternating POV, Magical Accidents, Getting Together, Magical Theory, 2017 Draco's Merry-Making Mini Fest See work for more tags Summary: "Don't you think I would have gone to Pomfrey if I thought she could help me?" "Then what can I do?" "I nee--" Malfoy broke off with a soft grunt and a pained expression. He took a shaky breath and tried again, his voice wobbling. "Will you touch me, Potter?" Draco is cursed to speak in questions. Well...Spelled, thanks to the stupidly improper archival practices of the fourth century. Harry Potter is there to save the day, but Draco isn't going to give in to his help so easily. Fortunately, the method of saving might be more satisfactory than Draco expected this time. â€ïž Read on AO3
đ When All Your Dreams Come True by Drarrelie Rated: Explicit Words: 9448 Tags: Harry Potter Epilogue What Epilogue | EWE, Hogwarts Eighth Year, PWP, Porn with Feelings, Threesome - M/M/M, dubcon, Mistaken Identity, Pining, secret crushes, Plot Twist, virgins, Birthday, Draco Malfoy's Birthday, Birthday Presents, POV Draco Malfoy, Birthday Sex, Birthday Smut, Sexual Fantasy, First Time, First Time Bottoming, First Time Topping, Don't copy to another site, Fanart Welcome, Podfic Welcome Summary: Six weeks ago, Draco gave his friend-with-benefits a most unexpected and precious gift for his birthday. It's only fair Blaise should reciprocate if given the chance, right? â€ïž Read on AO3
đ Take a trip into my garden by Andithiel Rated: Explicit Words: 5974 Tags: Harry Potter Epilogue What Epilogue | EWE, Porn with Feelings, Established Relationship, Smut, Fluff, Fluff and Smut, First Time Bottoming, Draco in lingerie, Bisexual Harry Potter, Rimming, Anal Sex, Really there might be too much feeling for it to count as pwp, As usual when I write, Enthusiastic Consent Summary: Harry has only been dating Draco for about two months, but heâs already obsessed with the git. And he knows that today, Draco has something special planned, something that includes him being dressed in skimpy lingerie. â€ïž Read on AO3
đ Inside Your Mind by lazywonderland Rated: Explicit Words: 36376 Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Top Harry, Bottom Draco, Harry Potter POV, Hogwarts Eighth Year, Bullying, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, FlirtingVirgin Draco Malfoy, Loss of Virginity, First Time, Anal Sex Anal Fingering, Smut, Angst, Overstimulation, Submissive Draco, Rimming, Multiple Orgasms, Protective Goyle, very very minor d/s elements, revolving mostly around subspace, Dominant Harry, Forced Orgasm, and lavender's alive bc i said so Summary: Goyle's taken it upon himself to act as Malfoy's personal, one-man guard and Harry can't help but feel like it's only making the bullying worse. â€ïž Read on AO3
đ By Your Hands  by GiRa Rated: Explicit Words: 7625 Tags: Smut, Fluff and Smut, First Time, Virgin Draco Malfoy, Established Relationship, Bottom Draco Malfoy, Top Harry Potter Summary: After being together for months, Draco wants to try going a step further with Harry. The only problem is that he actually has no idea what he's doing - but thankfully Harry is more than happy to guide him through it. â€ïž Read on AO3
đ Sexplanations (Of the Horrible Sort)  by bixgirl1 Rated: Explicit Words: 7048 Tags: Hogwarts Eighth Year, Secret Sex, Secret Relationship, Humor, Snark, Confused Relationships, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, Dirty Talk, sex injuries, Semi-Public Sex, Embarrassing Situations, Bottom Draco Summary: Harry's willing to put up with a certain amount of injury, as long as he and Malfoy can keep doing... whatever it is they're doing. Maybe. Mostly. Especially if there might be more to it than sex. Based on a tumblr headcanon. â€ïž Read on AO3
đ The Gentlewizard Club by Sophie_French Rated: Explicit Words: 28129 Tags: Pining, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Sharing a Bed, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, First Time, Humor, Explicit Sexual Content Summary: Draco wants what Draco wants. And if he has to snuggle up to Harry to get it, well, surely, Draco can handle that. Problem is, not sure Harry can. â€ïž Read on AO3
đ You Set My Soul Alight by parkkate Rated: Explicit Words: 54075 Tags: Post-War, Auror Partners, Case Fic, Enemies to Lovers, Mystery, Adventure, Romance, Pining, Getting Together, Sharing a Bed, Banter, Unresolved Sexual Tension, Loss of Virginity, First Time, Mildly Dubious Consent, Consent Issues, Secrets, Misunderstandings, Miscommunication, Sleep talking, Frottage, Rimming, Face-Sitting, Intergluteal Sex, Anal Sex, Switching, Blow Jobs, Fluff, Angst, references to suicidal thoughts, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, References to Depression, Mental Health Issues, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Minor Character Death, Arguing, Reconciliation, Harry Potter Epilogue What Epilogue | EWE, Angst with a Happy Ending Summary: Students are going missing at Hogwarts, but that's not the only mystery Draco is determined to solve. Somethingâs going on with Potter. He can deny it all he wants. Draco is going to find out what it is. Unfortunately, trying to get to the bottom of it has some unexpected consequences and if Draco isnât careful, heâs going to jeopardise their mission. â€ïž Read on AO3
đ Sincere Gratitude from the (Heart) Hand by _Melodic_ (Sae) Rated: Explicit Words: 1325 Tags: Hand Jobs, Anal Fingering, Anal Play, First Time, POV Harry, Smut, Humor, Shameless Smut, Porn With Plot, Prostate Massage, Hogwarts Eighth Year, Alternate Universe - Hogwarts, Hogwarts Era, Students, Pining, Sexual Tension, Sexual Content, Sexual Inexperience, Virgin Harry, Oblivious Ron, Awesome Hermione Granger, Seduction, Sneaking Around, Classroom Sex Summary: Two weeks later and Malfoy has yet to repay his debt to Harry. Does Harry even want him to? Oh Merlin, yes he does! â€ïž Read on AO3
đ You Are Safe (I Know) by hephaestiions Rated: Explicit Words: 42568 Tags: Harry Potter Epilogue What Epilogue | EWE, Post-Second War with Voldemort, Hand Jobs, Voyeurism, Exile, Racism, Person of Color Harry Potter, Panic Attacks, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Past Abuse, Minor Character Death, Blood, Azkaban, Drinking, Implied/Referenced Underage Drinking, Hyperventilation, Dissociation, H/D Erised 2020 Summary: Draco Malfoy is sentenced to one year of exile following his participation in the Second Wizarding War. Harry Potter tags along. â€ïž Read on AO3
đ The Spoiling of Sex From Enthusiastic Ignorance by Cibee (Cibeeeee) Rated: Explicit Words: 6087 Tags: Humor, Fluff, Mutual Piningm Friends to Lovers, Misunderstandings, First Kiss, Making Out, Loss of Virginity, Awkward First Times, Eventual Enthusiastic Fucking, Vulgar Language, Rimming, Blow Jobs, Premature Ejaculation, Post-Hogwarts, Harry Potter Epilogue What Epilogue | EWE, POV Draco Malfoy, Virgin Draco Malfoy, Flustered Harry Potter, Switch Draco Malfoy, Switch Harry Potter, Thirsty Draco Malfoy, Quidditch Player Harry Potter, Minor Pansy Parkinson/Ginny Weasley, H/D Sex Fair 2020 Summary: Draco is going to lose his virginity, so help him god, and he's going to lose it to one Harry Potter. Why? Because of his big cock, his status as The Top Five Quidditch Players in England, and Witch Weekly's Most-Eligible Bachelor for eight years straight. At least that's what he tells himself. Too bad first times rarely go as one plans, and now Harry is looking miserable and Draco doesnât understand why. â€ïž Read on AO3
đ Lost Boys by Dahlia_Rose_83 Rated: Explicit Words: 32278 Tags: Hogwarts Eighth Year, Party Games, Secret Relationship, Falling In Love, First Time, Smut, Clueless Harry, Insecure Draco, Helpful Luna, Oral Sex, Anal Sex,Top Draco Malfoy, Bottom Harry Potter Summary: On his way to meet Voldemort in the forbidden forest, Harry ran into Draco, who kissed him. Now they're both back at Hogwarts for their eighth year and he doesn't really know how to act towards the blond. â€ïž Read on AO3
đ Wings on Fire by CapricornBookworm Rated: Explicit Words: 1938 Tags: Coming Out, Enemies to Lovers, Banter, Clubbing, Dancing, Semi-Public Sex, Kissing, Grinding, Blow Jobs, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, Rimming, Bottom Harry Potter, Top Draco Malfoy, Morning After, Virgin Harry Potter, First Time, Wizarding Media, Idiots in Love Summary: Harry was sick of being everyoneâs angel, the 'golden boy,' the Chosen One. And if he was going to go out of favor, he was going to go out flaming. â€ïž Read on AO3
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Shamelessly stealing @foxmagpieââs monthly rec thing without the ability to get my life together to do these on a monthly basis so, seasonal recs! So excited to see if I manage to do this again with anything remotely resembling consistency but iâve been keeping the notes for approximately 43 years (or since ~september, whatever that means) so by god iâm gonna use them.Â
found my thrill - s_t_c_s / @sothischicksheâ
Turner POV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
guys turner is SO OBSESSED with Beth and Rio
both canonically and in this fic
itâs gr9
also features a weirdly soothing and relatable cord untangling moment as a metaphor
truly disturbingly relatable turner pov tbh
relentless boomer disdain, always a plus
led to the creation of this monstrosity, not sure what kind of a monster would do that
War In My Mind - mintletters16
Backread!!!!
post-213, gorgeous character studyÂ
guaranteed to make you feEl stUfF
I really love the like, cyclical, fractured pattern of Bethâs internal monologue, it gives the whole thing a really affecting at times dreamy, at times haunted vibe
the end twist is *chefâs kiss*
mourning bells - Ejunkiet / @ejunkietâ
Backread!!!!
Later s2 era, Rioâs at a funeral, gets drunk and calls Beth
V short, kind ofâŠ..mmm, not sweet, but almost? Idk
Itâs got a wistful sort of almost/i can be quiet with you vibe that i go extremely bonkers for
delinquents - foxmagpie / @foxmagpieâ
Lol are any of you actually not reading this yet?
g o d ch 8 where do i start
First off how ABSOLUTELY VERY DARE for the tragic angst that is delinquents!beth boland. This poor baby, this precious bean. MUST PROTEC
SHEâS TRYING HER BEST AND I LOVE HER
zero percent deserves deanâs clammy hands, no i have not forgotten, tattooed on my brain, will never forgive
I also love love love love LOVE the ruby/stan subplot happening
(and rubyâs mom!!!!!) (seriously though you write the best moms)
oh god and baby beth starting to have confusing feelings about rio?????? *chefâs kiss*
p sure i was just like, straight screaming the entire end of the chapter
the dugout is like, pure serotonin
I canât even talk about the closet
tHe teNsiOn
thank you i will take eleventy billion
don't give it a hand, offer it a soul - medievalraven / @medievalraven
am a desperate heaux for any fic that features rio and mick friendship
you are all incredibly shocked i know
still would not be mad if this swerved into rio x mick fake dating but beth x rio is cool too i guess
Speaking of things i am a desperate heaux for: DIANE!!!!!!!!
and DATING ANNIE???????????? Blessed
honestly this fic is worth it purely for the assertion that mick watches queer eye
Why don't we go to Venus? - watermelonriddles / @bensonstablersâ
another grief study!Â
apparently i was working through some stuff in september, idk, that was like 4 years ago
considering itâs the premise of the fic, i donât think itâs a spoiler to say this fic is canon divergent and working with the premise that rio killed beth in 302
he is uh, not coping well
extremely haunted you might say
lots of marcus and rhea which is a delight!
rhea is to good for him tbh
i said what i said
truly top notch dream (nightmare?) sequences
the conversation at the end is extremely uncalled for
drop the game - Ejunkiet / @ejunkietâ
Backread!!!!
Am going to die mad Beth and Rio didnât hook up in 211 but luckily this fic scratched the itchÂ
(temporarily, itâs a fairly permanent itch)
Bonus rec: missing scene series i wanna do bad things to you featuring 2x02 and 2x04
Viva Voce - zetuslapetus / @querenaxxâ
Whoops we woke up married Vegas shenanigans!!Â
So cute!!!!! So sexy!!!!!Â
What more do you want?
am desperately obsessed with how beth canât help stalking rio
feels right, feels organic
this makes me feel a lot of stuff about how they could be without their canon garbage between them
đ¶ we couldâve had it aaaaaaaaaaall đ¶
you showed me colors (i can't see them with anyone else) - gild_fire / @gild-and-fireâ
really into the use of color to illustrate bethâs emotional state, i feel like thereâs a word for that but idk what it is
UNIMPORTANT
really nice job capturing bethâs inner vulnerability balanced by her outer stubbornness
am DESPERATELY into Mick playing matchmaker
more please???????
Both Sides of the Law - JoeyLee / @joeyjoeyleeâ
LAW SCHOOL AU! I suuuuuuper love Beth and Rio here (alt pov!! a gift!!!!) I love how initially prickly they are, I love how itâs evolving into a grudging respect, I love how INCREDIBLY AND HILARIOUSLY OBSESSED WITH EACH OTHER THEY ARE and neither one of them seems to see it
listen I know weâre all already foaming at the mouth over this one but as itâs gonna go down as one of my all time favorites it bears repeating/rereccing
cannot stress enough how masterful the use of POV is here, both voices feel completely true and distinct and I love how the alternating chapters revisit, reveal and emphasize pieces of each other
i canât talk about this fic without hyperventilating
I LOVE IT SO MUCH YOU GUYS
the slow burn is going to ACTUALLY KILL ME
rip, no regrats
Earned It - wakeupflawless / @wakeupflawlessâ
spanking
thatâs it thatâs the pitch
H O T
living for bethâs exit in the first chapter, rio and i are both incredibly into it
second chapter also features violently possessive Rio who cannot deal with anyone messing with his girl so if thatâs your thing boy howdy get on it
shake, baby, shake - openhearts
backread!!!!!
according to my bookmarks this was a reread but ???????
mustâve read it in the fugue state that followed reading for a moment we were strangers which is gr9 and I believe I have recced it before. If not, horrible oversight, reccing it now
beth and Rio POV lead up to the bathroom break, beautifully done, low-key feel bad reccing it bc the end point of both chapters makes me want to throw things but itâs super worth it for the tEnsiOn. ENJOY
What the Sea Wants, the Sea Will Have - flashindie / @pynkhuesâ
Iâm assuming all of yâall are already reading this
If not OH MY GOD FIX YOUR LIVES
P I R A T EÂ A U
Iâm sorry maybe you didnât hear me piRaTE aU
meticulously researched, brain-meltingly vibrant, already painfully sexy slow-burning PIRATE AU
god where to start okay so first off, the world-building here straight up breaks my brain, sophieâs put in the work and it SHOWS
second, the atmosphere. iâm generally a pretty like, vague mental picture sort of reader but the sensory detail here grabs you by the throat and like, forcibly hauls you in whether your brainâs wired that way or no
and hey speaking of throats if you, like me, go a little funny about the knees at the idea of beth holding a knife to rioâs throat (heâs fine, calm down), thereâs a v excellent beth-in-a-barrel moment for you
oh christ and the sexy tension
itâs gonna be a race to see which slow burn takes me out first, this or law school
Stunner - foxmagpie / @foxmagpieâ
Another high school AU, this time with baby Rio absolutely head over heels for his older sisterâs bff
stunner!Rio has an emotional earnestness about him that I feel like delinquents!Rio has already outgrown and itâs so SWEET I canât get enough
Desperately cute!!!!!!
alL he waNts iS foR beTh tO bE hiS girL
also unreasonably angsty???????
ANN ARBOR IS NOT THAT FAR MEGAN
A Heart's A Heavy Burden - tooshyforthis / @bathroombreaksâ
Howlâs Moving Castle AU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love Howlâs!!!!!!!!!!!
perfect opp to roast Rio for being a Dramatique HeauxÂ
and itâs gonna be 9 chapters?????? H Y P E
authorâs note boldly presumes I did not know I needed this AU when the reality is I did in fact know I needed this AU, I just wasnât expecting anyone to deliver
so blessed
author also claims to not be team nose stud and yet it features prominently in all its magnificent glory
what is the truth dot gif
A Bit of a Stretch - septiembre / @septiemburâ
SO????? CUTE?????????
would be on this list for Rio calling Beth E alone tbh
really really really really really love this Rio POV of being settled into a relationship with Beth
It manages to be sweetly domestic af while still holding the edge that makes brio brio which is a neat trick
@septiembur may be a witch
bethâs approach to getting rio to do yoga with her is hilarious and exactly right, canon-typical amounts of subtletyÂ
1000000/10
Post Break-Up Sex - femalegothic / @bethsuglywigsâ
stg this was called Hit Shuffle
no matter
h O T
with a side of damn iâve made some questionable choices in my life havenât i introspection
(no regrats tho)
(esp not with this fic)
not the point of the fic by a long shot but iâm also extremely obsessed with Weed Eddie, so real
She drains my soul... she drains it not - niham87Â / @niham87â
ABSOLUTELY OBSESSED WITH THIS CONCEPT
am a complete sucker for paranormal world building that satirizes bureaucracyÂ
Is that a trope? If so thatâs my favorite
I did it. Iâm picking a single favorite. You know what that is growth dot gif
ANYWAY i love the concept, i love the humor, i love beth instantly clicking with annie
I love her and mickâs sort of grudging professional courtesy
Love beth as a champion of environmental responsibility and all of the underworld being like âŠ...okay??
cannot wait to see where this goes
Nine-Tenths - riosnecktattoo / @riosnecktattooâ
*INCOHERENT PTERODACTYL SCREECHING*
sometimes i think about rio putting bethâs hair in a ponytail and have to go lie down
science please explain why this rUinS mE
wait hold on i skipped ahead
HEY KIDS DO YOU LIKE UNBEARABLY CUTE DOMESTIC TENDERNESS
opens with rio sleepily holding bethâs hand to his heart so thatâs the kind of thing youâll be dealing with
uGH theYâRE sO CUTe
idk why precisely but rio adding hair ties to his bracelet collection is my undoing every time
Missed Call - foxmagpie / @foxmagpieâ
Rio doesnât come home from a job when heâs supposed to. Beth (and I!!!!!!!) slowly loses her mind
Truly a masterpiece of rising tension
Will literally never forgive her for calling this light angst
I was SO STRESSED OUT
The first person to point out there was an authorâs note at the beginning I obvs didnât read is getting blocked
crush - foxmagpie / @foxmagpieâ
Listen even though this is centered around two OCs, they are OCs FROM a (n iconic) brio fic AND Beth, Ruby and Rio all make cameos (I mean, Rioâs pretty present since he lives in Marâs mind rent free bc they are THE SWEETEST MOST ADORABLE BEST OF FRIENDS so idk if iâd call it a cameo but whatever)
and even if it didnât feature any official GG characters Iâd still rec is bc thatâs mY SON AND this fic is TOO CUTE
I have so many feelings over mar and rio growing up and not knowing how to cope with girls becoming a Thing in their life and how it affects their friendship and mar feeling left behind but (SPOILERS) at the end of the story rio starts feeling that too and itâs so poignant knowing how thatâs going to continue in delinquents
while mar may be my son, i also claim elenaâs #1 stan status
before youâre like meg youâre only reccing it bc itâs a bday present ask yourselves do i really strike you as the kind of person that wouldnât be equally obnoxious about this either way?
truly cannot fathom how hard i have fallen for these OCs i donât normally do that
@foxmagpie is definitely a witch
The Ottoman - Niham87Â / @niham87â
look i will be the first to admit that i donât go near as bonkers over the ottoman line in 308 as yâall do
(donât get me wrong, i love it!!! I love that he laughs and i love that sheâs pleased it just doesnât hit my lose my whole mind button like idk, the dubby or the 306 convo, idk why)
BUT i v v v much love the context this delightful Rio POV pwp gives it
am also absolutely feral for 209 missing scene fic
and anything that captures the complexity of Rioâs s3 feelings for Beth and how twisted theyâve become
so this scratches a bunch of itches, is what iâm trying to say
Bet On It - zetuslapetus / @querenaxxâ
*INCOHERENT PTERODACTYL SCREECHING*
Thatâs what my brain does when I think about Beth and Rio meeting in ch 1
am DESPERATELY OBSESSED WITH the tension between the two of them in this fic
I love how it plays with the ways they have to rely on but donât trust each other
plus FAKE DATING and BED SHARING (fair warning hasnât happened yet but the set up is there)
originally supposed to be 2 chapters, already up to 4, prayer circle it goes on forever
do you like drugs (tonight) - s_t_c_s / @sothischicksheâ
v important focus on hydration, other fic should take note
extremely about the use of cut to and then flashback to enhance the âwe were on drugsâ vibe
speaking of, beth and rio absolutely would take ecstasy to prove they are fun bc they are the exact kind of idiots that would peer pressure themselves
so glad beth kept her purse, got a bit stressed there for a second, clutches in that kind of circumstance are A Risk
not that i would know
FLAWLESS USE OF VOICEMAIL TBH
really love the ongoing denial that they are remotely into each other while proceeding to demonstrate how they are in fact, extremely into each other, great vibe
rio dances
I know my brain broke too
mmmm bacon
Navigate A Broken Path - flashindie / @pynkhuesâ
*INCOHERENT PTERODACTYL SCREECHING*
I have a long standing tradition of getting unreasonably obsessed with side characters so iâm not like, entirely surprised by how obsessed i am with both Mick and Mary Pat but i never in a million years considered them as a ship
AND Y E T
they fit????? so perfectly?????? Itâs amazing how she developes them individually enough that i look at them together and think ah yes this makes perfect sense for both characters
and theyâre such an amazing foil to Beth and Rio?Â
can ships have foils? do i know what a foil is?Â
unimportant
GUYS you dONâT uNDERStAN dÂ
hell i donât understand
how absolutely very dare you make me care about YET ANOTHER set of gg âverse children
do not read this fic if you have no interest in feelings you zero percent asked for
wHA t hAPPeNED iN aLASkA?????????
A Momentâs Silence - femalegothic / @bethsuglywigsâ
*makes sign of the cross*
yâall are gonna make me rediscover religion
extremely appreciate the authorâs note approach to backstory top notch prioritization
listen itâs basically 3k of beth deep throating rio idk what more you need me to say about it
it isâŠ..good stuff
bless the kinkmeme or fest whatever weâre calling it
praise - civillove / @blainesebastianâ
I mean you had me at âthree times rio calls beth a good girl and one time he really means itâ
ephemeral rio
I left that note for myself in here in the middle of the night and havenât the foggiest what i was thinking but i stand by it none the less
okay okay i think i know what i meant, this fic (as do all of my fav civillove brio fics) has this sort of like, liminal, in the quiet moments feel to them that makes the moments and feelings somehow feel like iâm catching a glimpse of something secret and precious???
idk i just really like it okay
Heart and Soul - riosnecktattoo / @riosnecktattooâ
oh look more unbearably sweet domestic tenderness, this time to music
thank you maâam for my life
rio remembers beth used to play piano and gets her one and revoltingly cute shenanigans result
also hilarity
and sexiness
this fic has it all, truly
shout out to mick who sees no reason to keep rioâs feelings to himself
good girls tumblr fic - prettylittlementirosa / @hypermaniaââ
cheating and reccing a whole series
Itâs my list and i can do what i wanna
stop crying about it, itâs four fics and theyâre all AMAZING absolutely impossible to pick a fav
truly flawless characterization, next level ability to capture evocative mood, cannot get enough
threeâs a crowd: who knew ballroom dancing while dean watches and grinds his teeth could be so sexyÂ
(trick question everything about that premise sounds A++++ and boy howdy does it live up)
feel it on the way home: rio tries to break up with beth, it goes about as well as youâd expect
(thE angSty tenSioN)
i want to play the game: [from the floor] iâm still not ready to talk about it
(rio/turner, missing scene, 10000000% a taste of what went down in that hotel room)
june after dark: pitch perfect annie pov, really really love the take that Annie is the baby whisperer, canât fully explain why but it feels incredibly right
(ANNIE X NANCY COULD WORK SO WELL YOU GUYS)
#fingers crossed these links are right i did not double check#i like to live on the edge#truly mind boggling amount of fluff on this list i surprised myself on that one#no i will not at any point get my shit together enough to write out thoughtful commentary this is a shit posting blog first last and always#fic recs#gg fic#nbc good girls#i'll come up with a tag for these if i ever do them again#check back 37 years from now#or ~~~~~~march#whatever that means
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Xicheng AU Rec List
This time I compiled my favorite AU fics for @waterandsilver! Hope everyone will enjoy this list too â„
Just Two Lost Souls 46,978
Even if it is a truth universally acknowledged that a single man in possession of a good fortune must be in want of a wife, husband, or companion, all Jiang Cheng really wants is to run his company, take care of his pets, and maybe get some sleep. Unfortunately the new job promotion to CEO comes with a loaded social calendar and a need for some sort of companion.
So clearly the most sensible answer is to start dating the man he's had a crush on since he was a teenager.
Because nothing could go wrong there. Sequels:Â Hold Me Like You Want Me;Â I Am Yours, If You Are Mine;Â Jiang Cheng and the Lans;Â You Get a Torch and a Flame and Burn The Path You Want.
i don't really care how much silence kills me 15,611 [Part 1 of all the lights couldn't put out the dark] Itâs been around 2 years since Jiang Cheng has last seen to his brother, and a little over a year since the last time he spoke to him, when they locked eyes at Nie Huaisangâs art exhibition. Jiang Cheng had only come because Huaisang had explicitly promised him he wouldnât be here. He knows Wuxian and Wangji have just moved back into the area after traveling, and he has every intention of avoiding them at all costs, just like he avoids his college-era crush Lan Xichen.Â
But it would seem that the universe has other ideas.
charcoal on newsprint 2,151 [Part 1 of fine art] Xichen distantly realizes that there is no way Huaisang had actually told Jiang Cheng that this is a nude modeling session. He can already hear Jiang Chengâs clear baritone, dripping with sarcasm, telling the entire dinner table âSo, Zewu Jun wanted me naked in front of all his students.â at the next Lan-Jiang family dinner.Uncle is going to have his head.Â
Madam Yu is going to skewer him alive before that. Or, Jiang Cheng models for life drawing in his spare time.
Family 2,514 [Part 1 of The Lan-Jiang Family] Jiang Cheng stops dead in the doorway as he takes in the horrendous state the apartment is in; toys and clothes everywhere, new furniture, child-furniture, all over the place, and no matter where Jiang Chengâs gaze drops, itâs been taking over by stuff that belongs to a child.
A child that is still screaming, almost drowning out Lan Xichenâs attempts to calm it down.
âWhat the actual fuck is happening here?â Jiang Cheng blurts out and while it does nothing to stop the child from screaming, Lan Xichen freezes.
Worthy of a god 1,859 [Part 1 of The most faithful] Jiang Cheng knows that there is a chance Chifeng-zun will choose him; he is the god of war and rage and ever since Jiang Cheng was old enough to scowl there had been talk at Lotus Pier, how well he would fit with that.
But Jiang Cheng also knows that there is a bigger chance of no god choosing him at all.
Not just a vacation [Part 1 of The best catch] The next night Lan Xichen goes back to the beach. He keeps out of sight at first, hoping to catch the man unawares first, his mind still reeling from the research he did during the day.
Itâs probably not what Lan Qiren and Lan Wangji wanted for him when they sent him on this vacation, but Lan Xichen needs to know whatâs going on here. The only thing his research turned up were tales of mermaid and Lan Xichen is not ready to believe that.
Until he catches sight of a rather huge tail, flapping out of the water.
What Happens in Vegas Comes Home to Taiwan 3,120 [Part 1 of What Happens in Vegas] What do you do when your brother is getting married to someone you canât stand?
The answer probably shouldnât be to marry his brother, but in Lan Xichenâs defense, he didnât know Las Vegas would allow drunk people to tie the knot at three oâclock in the damn morning.
A Lionheart 19,916 Wherein Xichen is a Crown Prince and Jiang Cheng is his bodyguard.
Emergency Help Wanted 76,819 EMERGENCY HELP WANTED I lied when I got my job. I told them I had a kid so I could leave early from work to pick him up from daycare, take him to doctor's appointments, and occasionally miss a day when he's sick. Long story short, I'm in too deep. I didn't think it through. Looking to rent a kid for bring your child to work day. Must be a boy ages four to six, longish dark hair, likes soccer. Must also be artistic as the macaroni noodle paintings I made seem a little advanced for his age. Also, I will pay extra for someone willing to play the role of husband when dropping him off. He's a prosecuting attorney who often brings his work home. Message me for further details. Serious inquiries only.
how to not fall in love in a broken elevator 2,741 [Part 1 of a guide to falling in love (for runaways and heirs)] Jiang Cheng and Lan Xichen get stuck in an elevator together.
Stream 4,494 Heâs in love with Lan Xichen.
Jiang Cheng blinks once, twice and allows the feeling to fill him completely, at least once, before he ruthlessly squashes it down and locks it into the deepest parts of himself.
By the time Lan Xichen stops laughing and turns his attention back to Jiang Cheng, itâs as if nothing ever happened. Sequel:Â Umbrella - Savor
Jiang Cheng knows what heâs worth, after all, and itâs definitely not enough for the First Jade of Gusu.
How to get revenge on your brothers: A Guide by Jiang Cheng and Lan Xichen 8,339 âThatâs it. Thatâs the solution.â
Jiang Cheng opened an eye confused. âWhat do you mean?â
There was a weird light in Lan Xichenâs eyes and for a moment Jiang Cheng thought the other had gone crazy. âWe will make them understand what it feels like seeing their brothers being⊠intimate with each other.â
Talent Hunt Crew Finds Angry Guy Shouting On College Campus, Recruits Him For Vocal Projection Abilities 80,575 Jiang Cheng, resident Angry Guy and heir to a conglomerate empire, has never been the apple of his fatherâs eye. Quashed under the shadow of his brilliant brother, the music prodigy Wei Wuxian, Jiang Cheng sees his chance to turn things around when he is recruited by the All-Stars Lan Talent Hunt. One problem: he canât sing to save his goddamn life.
do you eat pringles with or without the shell? 32,291 Wei Wuxian smiles at him, the bastard. âIâm proud of you for figuring this out. That means Xichen-ge is your gay awakening.â
âDonât put it like that,â Jiang Cheng sighs but he isnât wrong.
All This Could Be Yours 17,337 After transferring to the main branch of his familyâs publishing business and into his newly-acquired responsibilities as its CEO and managing director, Lan Huan finds himself stressed and burnt out. His brother recommends a solution.
Jiang Cheng is too gay to deal with this shit.
how should i know what tomorrow will bring 1,630 âIf they canât accept the fact that Jin Ling will always be there, then they might as well fuck off.â Jiang Cheng points out.
âWell, sure.â Wei Wuxian concedes. âBut you donât even give them time to know if they want to be involved with you before youâre kicking them away. Thatâs not how first dates are supposed to go.â
âHow would you know,â Jiang Cheng grumbles, annoyed that Wei Wuxian is right. This time. âYou havenât been on a date since like, 2002.â
Children's Secrets 5,225 Jiang Cheng and Lan Xichen swap nephews for a weekend. Some revelations are made.
the Magical-Realism of Awkwardness 10,168 Jiang Cheng thinks things can't get worse when he is forced to third wheel Wei Wuxian and Lanzhan's date.
Then Lan Xichen shows up and proves that things damn well can.
(Or, what shapes up to be one of the worst days of Jiang Cheng's life takes an entirely different turn.)
in the incense is tangled a cool moon 3,614 Some loves aren't meant to be, Wanyin knows.Â
Pay me in love 2,770 Madame Yu watches Lan Xichen walk away, until he is out of earshot, before she turns towards Jiang Cheng.
âWhat are you paying him?â she wants to know and Jiang Cheng can do nothing but stare dumbly at her.
âWhat?â he asks when she doesnât say anything else.
âDid you really think I would believe youâre dating Lan Xichen, CEO of Lan Enterprises? Nice try, Jiang Cheng. Now tell me what youâre paying him.â
a slight tilt of perception 5,238 It was just a dance.Â
Jiang Cheng, trying to avoid the society matrons and their matchmaking-themed whispers, accepted a dance invitation from Lan Xichen, an old friend.
He forgot that his dance partner was probably the most eligible bachelor in the room.
He forgot that was all it could take: a moment, a look, hands intertwined in a danceâand everything could change.
Not at all fake 3,070 âTomorrow,â Jiang Cheng gives back and then makes a noise as if heâs dying. âFucking hell, Iâm a dead man. If I show up tomorrow without anyone in towâwithout someone in tow who can give Lan Wangji a run for his moneyâthen I am dead.â
Thereâs a beat of silence and then Lan Xichen says âTake me.â
Jiang Cheng blinks a few times, processing the words, but even after a full minute they donât make any sense.
For better, for worse 6,713 People forget marriage vows are more than pretty words. It's easy to honor them when it comes to good things but they're easily forgotten when it comes to darker times. Lan Huan, however, always keeps them in mind. To love someone like Jiang Cheng, who wears his emotions on his sleeve due his terrible parents, is to remember that love is not simple.
Glow 3,033 [Part 1 of Eldritch!Lans AU] Jiang Cheng carefully turns his head, maybe the absence of his boyfriend is what woke him up, but when he looks at Lan Xichenâs side, heâs met with something so dark it even stands out against the darkness of the night.
Thereâs a void next to him in bed and Jiang Cheng throws himself out of it, Zidian already crackling and sparking, illuminating the room in a faint purple.
White Lotus in Bloom 7,147 As the Crown Prince from Gusu Lan visiting YunMeng Jiang, Lan Huan was beyond excited to attend the region's famous Lotus Festival, where he meets a boy in purple and black.
Never Had I Ever 56,263 Nie Mingjue is almost certain that Jin Guangyao has an ulterior motive for dating his best friend, Lan Xichen. However despite voicing his concerns, his best friend seems unconvinced and Lan Xichen continues to date the said man. Unable to give up just yet, Nie Mingjue tries a different tactic--convincing his best friend the man is not the right person for him by setting him up. Fortunately for him, Wei Wuxian's youngest brother is very much single and seems to be just the kind of person his best friend needs. Can Jiang Cheng truly change Lan Xichen's mind, or will Nie Mingjue's plan is a disaster from the beginning?
As he struggles to develop his nascent singing abilities, Jiang Cheng finds himself sucked into the whirlwind drama of reality TV, helped along by his adoring siblings, his irritable vocal coach Wen Qing, and strangely enough, the unfairly attractive host of the All-Stars Lan Talent Hunt, Lan Xichen. Somewhere in the glare of the stage lights and an unexpected first love, Jiang Cheng stumbles upon the thing he was searching for all along: the courage to dream â and to attempt the impossible.
Comfort 1,838 Wei Wuxian always pisses him off, this is common between them. Some fights, however, make Jiang Cheng sad enough to lock himself away from people and Lan Xichen has taken on the role of always being there to comfort him.
midnight comforts 1,946 At 11:36 his phone buzzed next to his ear. Lan Huan had a strict sleeping routine, but even so he was a fairly light sleeper. He answered the callâno one he knew would call him this late without reasonâand murmured a groggy greeting.
âLan Huan?â
He sat up, already rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.
âA-Cheng?â
âI know itâs late,â he started, voice sounding odd through the phone, âbut you,â he stopped again with a gasp. Now that he was more alert, Lan Huan realized with mounting horror that the hitch in his breath, the odd thickness, was from crying. âYou said I could come over whenever,â he finished, voice much shakier.
To The Beat 1,859 [Part 1 of Fever]
"The bathroom is over there you fuc--"
His words caught in his throat as he saw the person on the other side. He looked a lot like Wei Ying's boyfriend, but he was smiling and his eyes were somehow kind; comparatively, the most expression he'd ever seen on Lan Zhan's face was mild disdain.
Jiang Cheng must have been staring dumbly for a while because the man cleared his throat. There was a blush rising on his cheeks, and oh fuck, that was kind of cute.
"I apologize for interrupting your night. I was told that this room was where the people who were 'no fun' were supposed to go," the man said. His voice was deep and somehow just as smooth as his skin, which was flawless.
It Took Me So Long To Find You 6,349 [Soulmate AU]
But it didnât take him too long to realize that he was simply not worthy of the other.
So he hoped at least that they could become friends.
Lotus Pier burned down before Jiang Cheng could think of telling Lan XiChen. And after the Sunshot Campaign, he understood, being Lan XiChenâs soulmate would not just be a burden to the other, it would be a curse.
paint my skies with your skin 15,473 [Soulmate AU] âThereâs no point in this, is there?â Jiang Cheng scoffs, âWe both know I am not who you want your soulmate to be.â
âSoulmate or not, you have my heart and my ribbon. Only if you want it, Wanyin.â
once upon a dream 18,438Â [Part 1 of once upon a dream] An au where your dreams are small snippets of your soulmateâs day. Theyâd show small things like buying coffee, reading a book, or hanging out with people from their perspective.
The problem was that people always have expectations and Jiang Cheng knows he always falls short of them. Time and time again.
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Ouroboros: fics you read over and over and over
Happy Writers Appreciation Month (event info link). For today I am tackling the prompt, "Ouroboros: you just finished reading, and you're already starting it again, and again, and again..."
To be candid, when I saw this prompt nothing for FE3H came to mind, so today I'm doing a few beloved fics from other fandoms. This is by no means a comprehensive list--I am always rereading something, but these have stuck with me even as I've changed fandoms
1. "It's Insanity, but..." by rosepetals42.
Fandom: Teen Wolf
Rating: M
Ships: Derek/Stiles
Approximate Length: 79K*
The doorbell interrupts what had turned out to be quite the epic shoe hunt but, really, heâs grateful for the break. Or at least, he is until he heads down the stairs to grab the door, trips over a stuff animal of some kind, bashes his head on the wall and barely manages to catch himself from falling down the entire flight of stairs. As with all things, Stiles would like to state, for the record, that this is Scottâs fault.
Or: Scott and Stiles are raising seven children. Derek is the entertainer they hire for a birthday party (not a clown though, he's very specific on that fact.)
*This is one of those fics that is marked as complete, and it's totally satisfying as-is, but you should subscribe anyway juuuuust in case the author comes back and adds another chapter :)
This is maybe my favorite "we adopted a bunch of kids" fic of all time. In theory, the main narrative is how Derek meets Stiles, and they start to date, but in practice it's about how Derek meets Stiles-and-his-whole-pack-family and gets folded into the pack.
Stiles and Scott are co-parents, they have seven kids they adopted. It started with an orphaned kid they found who was a werewolf, and once they adopted the first one the others... happened. Their family is a mix of humans and werewolves, multiple ages and ethnicities.
I really admire how the author manages to give all the kids their own personality and their own relationship with Stiles and Scott (and Derek) and each other without them feeling flat or like caricatures. Seriously, give this fic a read, it's like a masterwork if you're into foundfamily kidfic.
Also despite the premise, and despite the fact that this fic is on the lighter-and-softer end of the spectrum, the emotional weight and complexity of the characters' situations--the kids' traumas, the stress of being an untraditional family and living in a society, trying to have a relationship with someone who really has their own family already--is still there, but it's handled gently and kindly and I just LOVE THIS FIC. Ahem. Go read it :)
(Bonus fanfic rec: literally any of the teenwolf fics by KouriArashi. Like, damn. I love all their stuff. "Adult Wolf" and "Divided We Stand" get special shout-outs. In Adult Wolf, Sheriff Stilinski gets bitten instead of Scott, so the whole series unfolds very differently. "Divided We Stand" is excellently written in every way. It has plot and adventure, and there is romance and feels, and there's character growth, AND it's the first in a series. 11/10, always recommend).
2. "Love is for Children" by Ysabetwordsmith.
Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe (MCU) / Avengers
Rating: Gen
Ships: none/gen, but plenty of strong non-romantic relationships
Approximate length: 16.5K*
Phil Coulson is SHIELD's best handler for a reason: he can deal with the broken people that nobody else can manage but desperately need anyway. So he comes up with an unusual teambuilding technique to shore up the Avengers.
*This is the first fic in a series, and it works as a standalone too.
Alright, so: the Avengers basically all had some kind of terrible childhood, yes? In this fic, Phil Coulson (handler extraordinaire and admirably competent caretaker) manages to convince the Avengers to try nonsexual ageplay as a way to sort of... go back and fix the things they wish had been different. He doesn't call it that to their faces, but that's what they're doing.
I've never really read any other fic like this. I've read other nonsexual ageplay fics, but this one is The One for me.
There is something very comforting and pleasant about reading about people who have been through difficult, traumatic events getting cared for, and the fact that this takes place outside of a romantic or sexual relationship makes it special (at least, compared to the sort of fics I generally read).
The author's notes are also a treat, with lots of links and information.
3. Promstuck: A homestuck adventure (with prom) by shelby, urbananchorite, and cephied_variable
fandom: homestuck
rating: T
ships: multi. John/Karkat, Terezi/Dave, Rose/Kanaya
Approximate length: ??? upwards of 22K.
This is a story about love. This is a story about betrayal. Of heterosexuality, Heee Haw, and growing up.
This is a story about prom.
OH MY GOD, Promstuck. *ascends to the heavens*
This fic is just so fun. You can just tell, sometimes, when the creator(s) of a thing had fun making the thing. The enthusiasm and joy is infectious.
Alright. Ahem. This piece features art as well as the narrative itself. It is silly, but it also wraps up in a satisfying way. The art is just great, the writing is unhinged-fun, and the narrative voice is fantastic. (Note about the narrative voice: it's not trying to sound like Homestuck, it's its own thing, and it's awesome)
I only hope that someday, I can write something as joyously unhinged as promstuck :D Even writing up this description is making me smile
#weWAM2021#fanfic recs#homestuck fanfic#teen wolf fanfic#mcu fanfic#fanfiction#fanfiction recommendations
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Harry Potter Fanfic Recommendations continued...
I did one of these lists back in June, and yâall KNOW! that I have even more to share with the world.
This list is a mix between crossovers and single-fandom fics, and are drarry or rarepair-centric, but either way Iâll mark which are which when I get to it.
If you want to see what Iâve been enjoying lately, check out my bookmarks on the Archive
Man of Iron, Child of Magic by zathara001
Harry Potter and MCU, no slash, 107k word count, 32 chapters, completed, teen
In the aftermath of the Chitauri invasion, Tony Stark sorts out his priorities - including one he didn't think he had.
Okay I followed this one from the beginning as a WIP because this is exactly the fic that I was looking for. Tony being Irondad for Harry is the most wholesome thing ever, and Uncle Steve is also 20/10. I will say, this fic is not as dark as a lot of this hp/mcu fics of this trope because it happens in Harryâs younger Hogwarts years and his childhood isnât too ruined just yet. It focuses a lot on Tonyâs growth as a father rather than working through Harryâs trauma (which, donât get me wrong, that happens as well). Harry still has the naive outlook on life that a child should have and it just makes my heart swell.
Although this fic is done, the sequel has not been uploaded yet, as this fic was just completed late August, but donât let that deter you. The author is a sweetheart to interact with on new updates (which were quite frequent).
Golden Boyâs Dance by Madriddler
Harry Potter, Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy/Blaise Zabini, 57k word count, 13 chapters, completed, explicit
Two years after the defeat of Voldemort and Harry is feeling useless. Jobless and suffering from PTSD, Harry spent his days going from horrible interview to horrible interview hopelessly looking for a job. Feeling completely useless, Harry, with the help of George, turns to a new profession that Harry never even thought of : being a camboy. Pleasuring himself for money and people's entertainment, Harry hopes to find a use for the Savior of the Wizarding World in this Peaceful Era.
Yeah so uh,,, this is a total guilty pleasure kink fic and Iâm not at all ashamed for putting this fic on here. I wonât even lie, sometimes it felt a bit cheesey, but the porn was so well written it didnât even matter. I swear to you this is porn with plot and lots of it. Harry works through his post traumatic stress disorder in ways that may or may not be slightly unhealthy, but beyond the porn, itâs really about Harry being okay in his own skin, as someone with mental health issues and as a sex worker. It was a hell of a good time to read and I definitely cried for Harry a time or two.
A Dented Old Street Sign by orphanghost
Harry Potter, Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy, 27k word count, one-shot, completed, mature
Draco knows they aren't the only students who will be completing their NEWTs this year, but they are the only ones whose home fireplaces were disconnected from the floo network by the ministry.
At least, Draco assumes as much until he sees the light falling out from the front door of one of the other rickety old houses in front of them and the three figures cast in its warm glow. For a moment they look like some sort of strange, many legged creature. An acromantula, or a particularly massive Blast-Ended Skrewt. Then Draco hears Pansy make a disgusted sound beside him and the light falls in a less blinding way, and Draco can see that it is actually Potter and the Weasel carrying a large couch between them, and Granger fluttering around them with her wand out, seeming concerned.
I donât think Iâve laughed this much reading a fic in a long time. The golden trio and the Slytherin gang live in the same neighborhood while attending their 8th year at Hogwarts and i swear to fucking god, the amount of mutual pining and angst between Harry and Draco is fucking ridiculous, but you canât help but love them anyway. Sometimes I wanted to throttle them and then shove them into a closet together so they would just t a l k but like in a good way. also the Christmastime atmosphere is something I just live for.
Words Unread, Things Unsaid by PinkCrupps
Harry Potter, no slash Harry & Snape, 18k word count, 7 chapters, completed, teen
What if the Dursleyâs were a little crueler, and a little smarter? What if they didnât want Harry going to school because they didnât want anyone to see the bruises?
What if Harry had to leave for Hogwarts, carrying a shameful secret? One that Severus Snape is determined to discover.
When I say this one hurt, I mean it h u r t. I feel so bad because when I first read the tags I laughed when I saw the illiterate tag because I make the âI canât readâ jokes often but then I read the fic and i felt SO BAD OMG.
I am no fan of Snape, let it be known, but this fic, I think made me feel like he actually deserved a bit of a redemption arc (even if itâs fanon). This whole time, all I could think of is giving harry a big hug and never letting him go.
I said this in the notes of my bookmark, and I stand by it:Â â
I feel like the hurt/comfort tag on this one is also meant for the readerâ
What Happens to the Heart by Mossycoat
Harry Potter, Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter, 33k word count, 18 chapters, completed, mature
With no girlfriend, no job, and no idea what he wants, Harry has decided to let life go on without him. If only prophetic dreams, demanding ghosts, and Draco Malfoy would let him.
If you need a pick-me-up after the sadness for the prior fic, may i recommend this one. Seer!Harry is a headcanon that I had never seen before this fic, and I was not let down whatsoever. We love a fic where the OCs are wonderful and the writing style is immaculate. The incorporation of tarot and divination into the chapter names and plot also makes my babywitch heart s i n g!!
Wrong Place, Wrong Time by Relevant_Peach
Harry Potter, Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter, 70k word count, 15 chapters, completed, no rating specified, but probably teen/ mature for mental health tingz
Draco Malfoy would do anything to find a cure for his son's life-threatening disease. When he crosses paths with an old acquaintance, it unleashes a string of events that will uncover secrets and deceptions. Will Draco be able to look past the misdeeds of his old lover's past? Will Harry ever find the family he longs for?
Ah yes, who knew that pain could feel so good. Everything seems to be fine until it isnât with this one.
Turn by Saras_Girl
Harry Potter, Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter, 306k word count, 14Â chapters, completed, explicit
One good turn always deserves another. Apparently.
oh my goD yes a classic we love to see it. This is one of those fics that is long but doesnât reallly feel like it is? This is definitely another feel-good fic, even if it doesnât seem that way in the beginning. Not only does it focus on Harry and Dracoâs relationship, but also their relationships with their family, specifically their children. Itâs just really heartwarming whenever Harry getâs all fatherly with his kids. ugh I swear I donât want any but this is just SO ADORABLE! Plus Blaise Zabini rights thank you very much.
Also Boris can suck my left toe.
Thereâs a Pureblood Custom For That by Lomonaaeren
Harry Potter, Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter, 105k word count, 36 chapters, completed, mature
The day that Harry stops Draco Malfoy and his son from being bothered in the middle of Diagon Alley starts a strange series of interactions between him and Malfoy. Who knew there was a pure-blood custom for every situation?
This is another fluffier one, and I have absolutely no shame. Draco is just trying so hard to get through Harryâs thick, clueless skull and Harry is just trying to understand. Theyâre just so adorable I canât. And Harry defending Dracoâs and his relationship after people are like fuck naw just warms my heart. Like yes Harry, protect ur mans you adorable himbo you.
Our Own Demons by Emmalie22
Harry Potter, MCU, Harry Potter & Tony Stark, Harry Potter/Peter Parker, 119k word count, 24 chapters, WIP, teen/mature
Tony Stark. Genius. Billionaire. Philanthropist. Ironman. (Reckless. Lonely. Father.)
Harry Potter. The Boy Who Lived. The Chosen One. Wizard. (The Master of Death. Survivor. Breaking.)
Tony Stark never thought he would be a father. But when a lawyer comes knocking and truths become evident, he realizes that he canât let his son walk out of his life. For Harry, acknowledging his relationship with Tony is a last-ditch effort to gain freedom and control over his life. Although the journey might not be easy, Tony and Harry learn to heal and become a family, facing trials and tribulations on the way such as a scheming Death, a Mad Titian, Dark Wizards, dangerous Doctors, and living Wards.
Iâm so sorry to give you a WIP that hasnât been updated in 10 months, but I couldnât let this one slide. Iâm so attached to these characters itâs unhealthy. Iâm not gonna lie, this fic was the product of a very hyperspecific filtered search on AO3 but Iâm not even mad at it. Tony is Harryâs father but unlike the other fic on this rec list, Harry is a bit more grown up and bears a lot of the scars of 5th year (yâall donât need me to specify with that one). Itâs a lovely family dynamic and super fluffy Peter and Harry wow we love to see it. Harry is also super fucking smart AS HE IS! I will never get over people calling him stupid ugh Harry rights. But yes, author friend, if you see this, update when you can Iâm so in love with this.
If anybody wants me to do more specific lists, I will totally do so. Just reblog or private message me. And if you have any other fic recs, please do so too because Iâm always looking for something else to read.
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please I am in dire need of some slightly unknown/underrated daisuga fic recs master
forgive me anon it took me so long to reply :( but here are the following fanfics i recommend you to read. These fics deserve more kudos and hits! and I added some famous fics on the list because i forgot to add these fics on my previous fic recs list: daisuga fic recs 1Â . And if you wanna discover more there are other fic recs posts;Â daisuga fic recs 2 | daisuga fic recs 3
hereâs my fave daisuga being dorks to cheer you up!!!!daichi leaning on suga (sugaâs legs)
LONG POST AHEAD AND PLEASE READ THE TAGS AND WARNINGS BEFORE READING!!!
amor et anima by theroyalsavage (cupid and psyche au)
The god of passion falls in love with a mortal man. The rest, as they say, is history.
me, i fall in love with you every single day by earlgrey_milktea (fluff)
They wrestle a bit, Daichi dropping the ladle into the pot as Koushi clings to his middle, refusing to let go. Their laughter fills the kitchen as the curry pot bubbles merrily, and Koushi thinks---not for the first time and definitely not for the last time---that there is nowhere else heâd rather be.the story of daichi and koushi, how they fall in love and never really stop.
Anywhere Else He'd Rather Be by hobbitfromtheshire (fluff)
Suga gets cold. Daichi helps him warm up.
Strike That Pose by fog_mind (Model au)
Daichi 'These shorts are too small for volleyball' Sawamura
In which Daichi is called by a modelling agency to help out and he meets a certain angelic model
First Snow by Feelsripper (First kiss/Fluff)
Walking Suga home had started out as a joke between the two of them, until Daichi realized he sort of liked it way more than he should have.
Speechless by tricerasaurus (Hotel au)
Daichi Sawamura had never in his life had trouble finding the right thing to say.
That is until an unexpected guest enters his life.
Koushi Sugawara and the Heir of Slytherin by Killthespare (Hogwarts au)
The Chamber of Secrets has been opened. Enemies of the Heir beware.
Meanwhile, Suga struggles with his family's reputation. A few trouble-making Gryffindors (and one Slytherin) meddle in Daichi's love life. And, through it all, Hinata finds a very strange diary.
i love you by sugacookie (Fluff)
Daichi and Suga were sleeping shirtless in the same bed. So what? Itâs not like that hadn't happened before. They had sleepovers all the time, and often chatted as they changed after practice. It was nothing new, so Suga shouldn't be acting this way, but he couldn't help it.
I Don't Love You (I Always Will) by shingekinoboyfriends (Slowburn)
Things take time. Anything thatâs good, anything that matters â things like love donât happen in an instant, the way they do in movies. They grow. They bloom.
Root of the Root by SedentaryZebra (Canon compliant)
When an extremely famous pop star comes out as gay the day before Sugaâs third year of high school begins, he thinks the only impact on his life will be the extra chocolates he will need to buy to console his mother.
Heâs wrong.
And That's The Way It Should Be by ofperspicacity (soulmates au)
AU where you only see your colors when you meet your soulmate (and you lose them when they die)
Everything in Sawamura Daichi's life was completely average, thank you very much, until the day he saw his colors and Sugawara Koushi was to blame.
somewhere i have never travelled, gladly beyond by themorninglark (confessions)
Suga has learned to solve his problems, save for one.
It's their graduation day, and he's staring at it.
if i tremble by crunchrapsupreme (smut)
Suga is trying to stay pieced together, but he's gradually being torn apart, broken up into a thousand little pieces, self doubt weighing his body down like a ton of bricks.
But luckily for him, Daichi isn't willing to let him break that easily.
a heavy leaf to turn by lavendrsblue (slowburn)
Thereâs a part of Daichi that burns steady and silver, a part that wouldnât be there without Suga and everything heâs given to him in the years theyâve known each other.
Daichi never thought he would see them grow apart.
Iridescent by All_My_Characters_Are_Dead (dragonriders au)
Each year, flocks are formed by putting two senior dragon/rider pairs, two intermediate pairs, and five rookie pairs together. This year, Riders Sugawara and Yaku have been put in charge of Trainee Flock One. They'll have to convince the rider trainees to get along, get the dragons to cooperate - no one is sure how they ended up with every single "problem" dragon - and hopefully keep their intermediate riders, Oikawa and Nishinoya, from arguing too much over whose dragon is better.
winner in the whirlwind by tothemoon (fluff)
In which Suga beats Daichi at games and the latter finds someone to cherish.
(Or, snippets of encouragement and care under the guise of foot races, mischievous bets, and late night sessions of Mario Kart.)
You don't have to lie to me by flabmil (fluff)
Sugawara is strong, but Daichi is there to remind him that he doesnât always have to be.
Answers Without Questions by SecretMaker (slight angst and smut)
Koushi had learned a long time ago to stop wanting things. He learned to stop wishing, letting his eyes linger too long, wondering what it would be like if only.
There were no if onlys in Koushiâs life.
Years by dawnstruck (fluff)
New Year's Eve. Koushi claps his hands and prays.
A Moment's Grace by shions_heart (smut)
After a botched mission, Daichi and Suga flee to a safe house. A black eye and bruised ribs do nothing to decrease Suga's libido, however.
The Difference Between Kisses by Navybluewings (fluff)
Sugawara isn't expecting much attention when being paired up with Daichi for the kissing booth. It's no secret that the captain is attractive inside and out, a feature that hasn't been lost on the female population or the third year setter. Still, Suga is in no rush to tell Daichi this, content with pining for his best friend in silence.
But the reveal of Suga's sexual orientation and Daichi's curiosity will change their relationship forever. And Sugawara isn't sure if that's a good thing or not.
Big Dai Energy by LessonsFromMoths (single parent au)
Two years ago, Daichi's world turned upside down when his sister and her husband died, orphaning their kids. Daichi made the decision to raise all 3, hoping to make his sister proud. When he decides to move across town to be closer to his friends, and a new person is thrust into their life: Sugawara Koushi, kindergarten teacher extraordinaire.
Chaos, love, and family ensues.
Sugar and Spice by RiChanasaurasRex (omegaverse au/smut)
After constantly seeing each other on campus but having no idea who the other is, Daichi and Suga are both dragged out by their friends to make them forget about each other. Of course, they end up at the same club and, of course, smut ensues.
i could show you incredible things (in the shower) by bishounen_curious (merman au/college au)
Being a siren at college is hard. But finding time to sing in the shower while also not accidentally putting your roommates under your thrall is even harder. Especially when one of your roommates is kinda cute.
bring it here, lover by melonstars (canon compliant)
"Y'know, my students think I have a wife."
Koushi doesn't keep it a secret that he's married. He just hasn't said who it is to his class of 8-year-olds.
I love you enough to give you my everything by Nishinoyass (fluff)
Sugawara is terrified of coming out and he's also in love with Daichi.
Make Out With Me? by GordandV (college au)
âDaichi, I know this is weird and I donât know you, but my friends dragged me to this party and my ex just walked in so please make out with me,â begged Sugawara, Daichi immediately setting his drink down on the floor and cupping Sugawaraâs face between his hands which were surprisingly cool before kissing him.
Captain of the Year by Uniblabblab (smut)
Daichi has won the Captain of the Year award, and the team decides that they will go out for BBQ. Suga can't wait to feel up his Captain till they get home, and for some reason he keeps reminding Daichi about a bunny that he needs to take care of when he gets home.
amor et anima by theroyalsavage (cupid and psyche au)
The god of passion falls in love with a mortal man. The rest, as they say, is history.
me, i fall in love with you every single day by earlgrey_milktea (fluff)
They wrestle a bit, Daichi dropping the ladle into the pot as Koushi clings to his middle, refusing to let go. Their laughter fills the kitchen as the curry pot bubbles merrily, and Koushi thinks---not for the first time and definitely not for the last time---that there is nowhere else heâd rather be.
the story of daichi and koushi, how they fall in love and never really stop.
Anywhere Else He'd Rather Be by hobbitfromtheshire (fluff)
Suga gets cold. Daichi helps him warm up.
As much as you want by twilightlynxx (fluff and smut)
In which Daichi had too much on his plate to worry about the stress of exams and Sugawara makes the perfect tutor.
âSuga youâre⊠kind of beautiful,â Daichi heard himself say the words, but he couldnât remember saying them. His vision only seemed to consist of Sugawara.
Booty Call by stillnotovermylordsixth (canon compliant)
âYou are not framing a teacher just to get in my pants,â Daichi warns.
âAww!" Suga whines. "But why not? Itâs so romantic!â
âSuga.â
Suga crosses his arms over his chest with a pout.
dogs are great by aalphard (fluff)
prompt fill for "i met you last night when you were drunkenly patting my dog in my backyard at 3 in the morning and when i asked you what the hell you were doing you slurred something about dogs being great and then you threw up on my feet and then fifteen minutes later you were passed out on my couch so that's why you're here right now also what the fuck is your name and why were you patting a dog in a stranger's backyard in the middle of the night" | or the one in which daichi finds a drunk guy in his yard after going for a walk with his dog and lets him crash in his couch for the night.
we live in the now by laurenshappenstobemyhusband (future fic)
"Daichi, quick, you have to come with me to the bar."
I'd go anywhere with you. "What is it, Suga?"
"Oikawa's going to be there with Iwaizumi, and we're going out to drinks with them. Also, we're dating."
The only thing Daichi could bring himself to say was, "Oh, alright."
A Simple Man by daphnethewriter (smut)
Daichi isn't hard to please, but that doesn't mean Suga won't put in the extra work to make sure his boyfriend gets exactly what he deserves.
A study in love by phroobin for Telenovela (fluff)
'Really, Suga and Daichi just make sense.' (A study of the relationship between Suga and Daichi)
Destined to Love by 1redblackflannel (omegaverse au/smut)
It was all because Daichiâs father and Satoshi, the head butler of the Sawamura family, had decided to interview applicants for a vacant butler position.
Daichi is the alpha-heir of the Sawamura family, a very rich and influential group who owned many multi-million dollar companies.
Suga is an omega who has applied to be a butler.
They meet again after many years and decide that maybe, they were destined to love each other.
you are not immune to the boy of your dreams by bokkun (canon compliant)
Before starting his day, Sugawara Koushi remembers five things:
1. Always eat breakfast 2. Always check your stuff before leaving the house 3. Say goodbye to the demon sleeping under your bed 4. Pet the stray cat (or cats) outside your home 5. Donât fall in love with your cop of a best friend
Itâs really simple. Just five things Koushi needs to remember.
Forgotten Papers by letsdoaskit (fluff and slight angst)
Daichi asks Suga to bring him some papers he forgot at home, but why can't Suga enter his classroom?
when the letter says a soldier's coming home by karasunonolibero (angst with a happy ending)
Koushi grabs his arm, hand shaking as he scrawls his address on the inside of Daichiâs wrist. âThatâs my college address. Write to me there. And when you come back, Iâll be waiting for you, so find me. Please.â
The smile Daichi gives him is tinged with melancholy. âYou shouldnât wait for me, Koushi. With your looks, youâll have boys falling at your feet. Take one of them.â
Koushi shakes his head. âPlease.â
âOkay.â Daichi brushes a lock of hair from Koushiâs face, squeezes his hand, and then heâs gone.
or, the year is 1968 and all Koushi can do is wait for Daichi to come home.
Weather the Storm by HamletsProzac (smut)
âYou could download Tinder.â
Literally nothing good ever comes from following that advice, but Daichi had gone and done it anyway.
Nothing good ever came of following Kurooâs advice either, and heâd done that too. But really, considering the circumstances, what else was he supposed to do in the middle of a hurricane?
A Tinder hook up turns into kinky sex turns into two nerds pining: a saga.
Ice Bath by stumblinginthestars (fluff)
Coach Ukai decides to test out a new cool-down technique after summer practice one day. Daichi tries not to worry when Sugawara doesn't seem to be handling it as well as the others. He fails.
stupid about you; or, the misadventures of one sawamura daichi by asphodehls (fluff)
Daichi thinks early mornings are shit.
Then the most beautiful man in the world starts frequenting his usual coffee shop, and maybe the early mornings aren't so shit anymore.
If only he could work up the courage to talk to him.
What it says on the box - Daichi has one brain cell and it's entirely dedicated to falling in love with Suga.
Devil's Trap by farethy (talonyth) (smut)
There is a devil hidden in everyone, even in the most angelic being called Koushi Sugawara.
Punishment by carriecmoney (fluff)
Suga must've been a bad man in a past life; not only is he cursed to be a distance runner, but he also has a crush on a discus thrower. Aesthetically, of course. Track and field!AU.
I Could Have Danced All Night by Rinoa11 (12 dancing princesses au)
Daichi has returned from the military, an injured useless soldier with a sick mother. He is taken in to become a palace gardener under Keishin and is sucked into the mystery of the six beautiful princes of the castle who disappear each night and return with ruined dancing shoes. When times get desperate Daichi can no longer ignore the mystery of the six princes before him. Who are they? What is going on? And will he discover their secret or face the punishment of death?
sugar and salt by foreverwonder (detective au)
When a dead body was fished out from the waters of Tokyo Bay, Detective Sawamura Daichi and his partner were assigned to the case. What was first thought to be a straightforward homicide turned out to be the prelude to something more dangerous and Daichi vowed to get to the bottom of it.
He just never expected to fall for the victimâs lover.
The Beast Dancer by Rinoa11 (fantasy au)
The Legend tells of a great Beast bringing destruction to the town, sent down by the gods to punish them for their mortal folly. For ten days and nights the Beast wrought tremors and chaos on the earth, causing panic and terror to spread throughout the land. Until one day a brave hero sealed away the beast after a grand fight.
The Legends also say that the Beast Dancers who seal the Beast away are destined for paradise. Suga wondered about what paradise was like. The priests in the temple told him that he would live a life of bliss as thanks for helping to seal the Beast away. All Suga hoped for was that it would be filled with fields of flowers as far as the eye could see.
It is an honour to be chosen.
a little lost by lavendrsblue (fluff)
Daichi slaps a hand over his face, muffling a groan. Having a kissing dream about Suga while theyâre literally sharing a bedâwhat could be worse, honestly.
The night before Nationals, they're supposed to get eight hours of sleep. Daichi gets considerably less.
not the same night out by suhoya (fluff)
In which Kuroo thinks it would be a good idea to invite his friend Sugawara to their weekly night club visit. Daichi gets easily distracted (forgets how to dance), thinks a lot (and imagines), drinks (doesn't know what), and meets love.
Thatâs all i can recommend you to read! thereâs a lot of amazing daisuga fics i didnt mention here and i wanted to add more but thereâs a limit so keep searching for more. Kudos to all writers out there!!! Iâll try my best to make more fic recs so we can appreciate more writers and their stories! Have a nice day! Donât forget to compliment the authorâs work(s)!!!
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may I ask for a style fanfic rec list? đ„șđ„șđ„ș
I have a couple of requests for this and Iâve been thinking about how to respond, because to be honest, I very rarely read fic these days. And by âthese daysâ I mean like, since 2014. I always have things I intend to read, but then time goes by and I donât get around to it. So nothing Iâm going to rec is new and youâve probably already read them fkjds.
Anyway, sorry to be predictable by just being like âread Hollycombâs ficsâ but...
The Scenic Route - 116k words, should be rated E for the final two chapters (I literally have no idea why itâs rated T on AO3, it was definitely M when I first read it on ff.net years ago)
Summary: The boys embark on a six day road trip to California before separating for college. Cartman is a pain in the ass, Kenny has no future, Butters is in crisis, and Kyle doesn't know how he'll say goodbye to Stan.
Why you should read it: The yearning. This fic is written entirely in Kyleâs POV, and Holly does such a brilliant job of getting into his head and really capturing that feeling of already mourning a friendship/relationship before itâs even over and kind of intentionally setting the bridge on fire to make what is (seemingly) inevitable hurry along, as if that will make it hurt less (it doesnât). The first six chapters, the actual road trip portion of the fic (where the T rating actually does apply), are where it is at its strongest, and Kyleâs gradual descent into panicky, angry desperation is painfully real. I canât stress enough how in character everyone is, each retaining recognizable mannerisms and dynamics from canon while still clearly being grown people entering adulthood. Thereâs a reason this fic is THE Style fic.Â
Leave the Pieces - 251k words, rated E (though that rating only represents a small portion of such a long fic)
Summary:Â Stan and Kyle meet as strangers in their mid-twenties, shocked to encounter someone else who can't remember the first ten years of his life. They form an instant connection, but only one person in South Park remembers them, and Kenny can't explain why they disappeared or why the rest of the town forgot them.
Why you should read it: Itâs a lengthy epic with supernatural elements, a complicated plot that fits right into the showâs universe, and the kind of love that quite literally transcends time, space, and memory. I canât explain it much further without giving away the plot, but this behemoth is gut wrenching and powerful. It is equal parts a story about Stan and Kyle finding each other as adults and falling in love despite not remembering who they are, or each other, and a deep exploration into Kennyâs character and his curse. Kenny is really the MVP of the story, despite it initially seeming like âjustâ a Style fic, and his relationship with Wendy is written beautifully and convincingly. One caveat, though: some parts of this fic... Iâm not a fan of. I greatly dislike Cartman/Butters just as a concept, and there were times, particularly in the first half of the fic, where I almost quit reading because of their scenes. I also feel like this fic fell victim to fandomâs earlier tendency to mischaracterize Craig as borderline sociopathic (but in contrast, heâs absolutely perfect in Hollyâs oneshot Other Peopleâs Tupperware). However, Iâm such a sucker for supernatural memory loss not being able to sever soul connections, and Stan, Kyle, Kenny, and Wendyâs respective journeys more than make up for my reluctance to stomach Cartman/Butters or other comparatively minor issues. And honestly, everything does fall into place as the plot unfolds, so all I can say is... if you hit certain scenes and think âwtf IS this??â, just stick it out, the payoff is worth it, especially if youâre looking for high quality Kenny content.
Amalgamation - 78k words, rated T (but should be rated M imo, because there are sex scenes, though they arenât very explicit, just intimate)
Summary: In 1862, Kyle's family is forced to move from New York to a tiny mining settlement at the foot of Pike's Peak in Colorado. Kyle is sixteen years old and miserable until he meets Stan, a fellow transplant who has been in town for three years. Their feelings for each other are shadowed by the town's haunted history, and for Kyle the local legends begin to feel more like real nightmares.
Why you should read it: I know â1860âČs gold mining settlement AUâ doesnât sound very fascinating, but it is. This is another one thatâs written in Kyleâs POV and again Holly does a wonderful job of expressing his emotional turmoil, the guilt and shame he feels, his self-righteousness, and the depth of his love for Stan. Everyone is as they would be if the clock was turned back 150 years, made different by the time period and the demands of their circumstances but still obviously recognizable. The old-timey atmosphere and world-building are so seamless and never feels unrelatable. There are also supernatural/ghost/mystery themes in this one and the fear is palpable.
From the Queen of England to the Hounds of Hell - 170k words, rated E, includes major character death (aside from Kenny)
Summary: Ten years after the execution of Terrance and Phillip, the war with Canada has not ended. Stan and most of Kyle's friends are planning to join the army after high school graduation, bound to be drafted anyway. Kyle doesn't believe in the war, but he's not willing to let Stan go without him.
Why you should read it: This is.... a perfect fic, and I donât say that lightly. It is quite possibly the ONLY perfect fic I have ever read, in any fandom. I canât actually describe all the ways in which itâs perfect without giving the plot details away, but, God, if you commit to reading just one of the long-ass fics Iâm reccing on this list, make it this one. Please. It honestly makes me mad that this one never got the same attention as like, The Scenic Route, or âNight Schoolâ did, because it so deserves to be up there. Only Holly could take the concept of the fucking movie and turn it into a completely devastating, bittersweet, epic romance. There is no caveat here, no âI loved it except for this and thisâ, just thorough, soul-crushing perfection. Just... Kyle. God, Kyle. I canât elaborate, my heart isnât up to the task. This fic will haunt me for the rest of my life.
The Ascent of Stan - 32k words, rated E, though it is like 95% domestic fluff
Summary: Stan sells his small pest control company and Kyle thinks they should use some of the money to go to Hawaii, where he proceeds to grill Stan about the mid-life crisis that Stan claims he's not having while their kids frolic nearby.
Why you should read it: This one is everything a domestic fic should be. It basically just chronicles the events of a week-long vacation to Hawaii that nearly-40 Stan and Kyle take with their two kids. This one is written fully in Stanâs POV and it works so well... heâs exactly the kind of dad that I imagine he would be, doing his best to provide for and protect his familyâs little bubble and resolving to be better than his father while quietly fighting the lingering shadow of his alcoholism and cynicism. Thereâs no real conflict in this one, just 30,000 words of a very typical family vacation: not exactly blissful, irritating at times, but ultimately the foundation for perfect memories.Â
Never Change - 115k words, rated E
Summary: Thirteen years after his high school girlfriend's pregnancy upended his life, Stan is still in South Park, working with his partner Bebe as a local cop. They're in the process of investigating a series of possibly connected murders when FBI agent Kyle Broflovski returns to town and informs his old friend Stan that this is his investigation now.
Why you should read it: This is equal parts a murder mystery and a romance. It features exactly the kind of Stan/Kyle situation I hate to think about - a decade-long estrangement of their own making that comes to an abrupt end due to extenuating circumstances. It hurts because of how likely it is to happen that way, and it works especially well in this fic because of Stanâs reluctance to embrace his own bisexuality until heâs nearly 30 and Kyleâs tendency to put up walls to protect himself. Also, Bebe features prominently in this fic, which is always a huge bonus. Â
Bonus Oneshot Rec:
The Reformation of Fart Boy - 7k words, unrated but probably T, just barely
Summary: Five times South Park has brought Kyle to the brink of sanity and Stan has brought him back.
Why you should read it: I love thinking about the ways in which canon-typical nonsense continues to impact the characters in the long term on a serious psychological level. Kyle has suffered a lot in canon and itâs obvious even in the show that it is gradually changing him and wearing him down, so I really love this fic for focusing on his responses to some of the more traumatic moments, as seen through Stanâs eyes.Â
I feel sort of guilty only reccing one author for right now, because there are other fics out there that I liked and am planning on revisiting, but this post is long enough as it is. Chances are youâve already read some or all of these, but theyâre my favorites. I reread all of them while making this list, and they still hit me hard after all these years.Â
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Reylo Fic Recs: Modern AU
The Other Promise by @kuresoto
Rey knows she's not normal. Why else would she be subjected to four foster families before she aged out of the system and took life into her own hands? It could have (definitely does) something to do with the fact that she can see how long people have to live.It doesn't bother her (much) anymore, and with her being--well, her--she's resigned herself to working in a morgue for the rest of her life where the only people who keep her company besides her boss, are the dead. No friends, no family. No one.But everything starts to unravel when a new neighbor moves in next door. The walls she's built come crumbling down for the uniquely handsome man who always wears a three-piece suit, complete with a pair of leather gloves, regardless of how hot it is.The chance encounter turns into frequent run-ins, with the single most important factor that had ruined any relationship she ever tried having in the past being absent. He has no life timer.
Where No Thing Gleams by @maq-moon
An online DNA test sends Rey on a whirlwind journey across Europe. When she hits a roadblock in her travels, the enigmatic Kylo Ren offers to solve all of her problems. The catch? She must simply go on one date with him.Or so she thought.
The Skeptic and the Medium by @shelikespretties
Rey Niima fought for a logical, no-nonsense life as a scientist and skeptic of all things that go bump in the night. Kylo Ren is a famous medium for whom bumps in the night show off. So of course they have to make a Netflix special together.
Dear Mr. President by @shmisolo
Dr. Dameron shifts and slides a manilla folder across the desk to her.  âUnder ordinary circumstances, Iâd let you keep the folder.  I hope youâll understand why I canât do that this time around.â She opens it and stares.She stares and stares and stares.Dr. Dameron has to be kidding.  There have to be hidden cameras here, this has to be some elaborate prank.  Thatâs why itâs him here and not Dr. Wexleyâthat was his name.  Dr. Wexley. But instead of getting to her feet and tossing her hair and saying he was cruel for playing with her heart like this, all she does is ask, blankly, âSo...Ben Solo is my soulmate?  Our new president is myâŠâ She swallows.And Dr. Dameron nods.
Carry In My Core (That Voice I Adore) by @shmisolo
Starring in her first opera would be stressful as is, but Rey, always one to outdo herself, just had to go and make things even more complicated with Kylo Ren. Â Itâs hard enough looking him in the eye, much less pretending to be in love with him. Â She can make it through this. Â She has made it through worse. Â She can make it through this.
the star to every wandering bark by @abstractragedy
There is something else as well, an instinctual drive thatâs making him go, almost calling Ben to Takodana; much like an idea for a novel, a terribly persistent and gnawing thought at the back of his mind that will not go away until he does something about it.A change of scenery is always good for oneâs mind. By alternating oneâs perspective the reality might change as well.--When Ben Solo travels to Takodana in the name of his second novel, meeting an impossibly intriguing woman named Rey wasn't exactly what he envisioned. But the universe has a funny way of working things out.
Yichud by @shmisolo
Mazal Tov - The expression comes from the Mishnaic Hebrew mazzÄl, meaning "constellation" or "destiny".  Borrowed from Yiddish ŚŚŚÖŸŚŚŚÖż (mazl tov), from Hebrew ŚÖ·ŚÖžÖŒŚ (mazĂĄl, âstar, constellation; fate, luckâ), from Akkadian (manzaltu [UD.DA]) + Hebrew ŚŚÖčŚ (tov, âgoodâ); literally âgood stars, good luck.â
crossfade (cursed and blessed) by @shmisolo
The Talmud states that on Purim one is to drink to the point of not knowing the difference between âcursed is Hamanâ and âblessed is Mordechai.â Â In other words, youâre supposed to get so blitzed you canât tell your friends from your enemies. Rey and Ben might be taking this a little too literally at Leiaâs annual Purim Party.
Convergence by @kuresoto
Other, also known as âsoulmateâ for people who wanted to believe. Not everyone had an Other, and the only way to find your Other was by saying their name. When that happened, memories of their life, where they grew up and the steps that led them to you, would be condensed into a single flashback that passed in a blink of an eye. The fact that someone had said Reyâs name and didnât bother approaching her hurt, especially since she had a good idea why. Her parents tossed her aside when she was barely five, so she shouldnât be surprised that her soulmate had done the same.
Siman tov uâmazal tov by @shmisolo
âI didnât get to have a big wedding,â his mother had told him when theyâd finally spoken about it. âI was pregnant and it was a lot and your dad and I just got married. Itâs my time. Iâm having a big wedding.â She sounded nervous, almost defensive, as though a woman who is nearly sixty doesnât have a right to want a big wedding. She wasnât no young blushing bride. She has a thirty-year-old son for godâs sake.But his mom was going to have a big wedding.And Ben had taken a deep breath before saying what heâs sure Leia was even more nervous about hearing.âIâm not sure Iâm coming.â
How Our Song Goes by @lariren-shadow
Rey is a struggling student who would love to have at least some money to save rather then just paying her debts. Â Kylo Ren would love to get his trust fund, the only problem is there's a clause in it that states if he wants it now he has to get married.Rey is willing to be Kylo's bride to her own cut. Â The only problem is that they'll have to make their relationship look real to everyone else.
Puppies by @lariren-shadow
On a crisp autumn day Rey and Ben meet in the park while walking their dogs. Â Things don't exactly go smoothly.
burn sky until you see lines by @solikerez
He writes a letter for every time he feels like the world is shattering around him, and it is still not enough.
306.73 or: How to Woo a Librarian by @reylotrashcompactor
She was back again. Ben called her The Scavenger in his head because she liked to pick collections dry. (Though he knew from her library card that her name was Rey. Pretty.) There wasnât a pattern to her hauls, only that sheâd take almost an entire shelf with her in that ratty little messenger bag and leave him to pick up her mess. But, Ben didnât suppose he was fooling anyone but himself: he had it bad for the Scavenger and she was back. Heâd talk to her tonight. He would.
What you don't know by @thewayofthetrashcompactor
Rey wants to see the local haunted house and drags her reluctant boyfriend and friends along with her. It's not quite what she expects.
Between Sky and Sea by @moonshotsandarchimedeslevers
When Rey finally set out to find her parents in the innumerable islands of the Jakku Archipelago, the last thing she expected was a mysterious stranger to drop out of the sky with his story of hidden treasures and secret wonders.
Blades Crossed by @the-reylo-void
Notorious figure skater Kylo Ren has had a rough few years; once a decorated competitor, now it's hard to say what he's losing faster, sponsors or partners. With Nationals just six months out and no qualified partner on the horizon, Kylo finds himself begrudgingly skating with college hockey phenom Rey Kenobi, a scrappy forward coming off injured reserve who doesn't know a lutz from an axel. It's only for six months, but family drama, a twisted coach, and a budding closeness to his new partner ensure that this will be the most eventful competition season of Kylo's career.
it's you and me (i know it's our destiny) by @shmisolo
Itâs just a kidâs game, he thinks when jealousy pangs in his heart.  But itâs more than just a kidâs game.Itâs PokĂ©mon. Itâs the only good thing in his life.
happy cockus day by trasharama
She prefers the nip of New Hampshire winters, heavy winds blowing in her hair, being bundled up in three layers with pens whose ink freeze fast and thaw slow. She loves warm buildings, and Christmas breaks, and slurping down huge bowls of ramen in the evenings, but being on the ground, a clipboard in her hand, boots on a voterâs doorstep? Thatâs where she knows she belongs.So there are a lot of things going against Rey Johnsonâs introduction to Ben Solo, his moody personality probably the least of her worries, since heâs the reason sheâs not outside, making some sort of tangible effort to get his mother elected as president.
A More Perfect Union by fangirl_outlet
Rey, new to DC, tags along to a stuffy networking event with her friend -- they're both poor and, hell, there's free booze. Ben, a recruiter for the lobbyist firm he works for, finds the intern with the soft voice and angry eyes a fun challenge -- especially when he finds out she works for his estranged mother Senator Leia Organa.
Spending Valentine's Day Solo by @jyn-z-solo
 She places his scentâwoodsy and warm, like sandalwood and gingerâbefore she recognizes the large, gloved hand outreached to steady her or the sleeves of his black wool coat. âRey,â he blurts outâis the pink on his cheeks from the chill outside, or is he blushing?  âBen! Hi!â  Sheâs trying desperately to sound nonchalant, but at the rate her eyebrows continue to rise, they may end up past her hairline.  âWha⊠What are you doing here?â he asks, running a hand through his hair.Â
Unshakeable by @shmisolo
Rey is performing in another fucking musical and Ben goes to see it.
My own modern AU fics:
what is past is prologue: Reylo in Washington, DC
A collection of my Tumblr-based Reylo fics set in Washington, DC. Prompts and prompter will be in chapter titles.
My other fic rec lists:
Fic Recs Under 100 Kudos | Smuggler Ben Solo | Fantasy, Fae, Magic, Fairy Tale, and Mythology | Historical AU | Dark Side Rey | Canonverse | Smut |
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Hi, hope youâre having a great day! I want to ask if you have any anime/manga rec? I havenât watched any for years, but your blog made me nostalgic
hi anon!!
i definitely do!! i mean, im not sure what youâre into so ill give you a great long list with lotâs of different options!!! this will mostly be anime but at the end ill include a few manga. i tend to watch anime vs read manga.Â
violent/horror/gore/supernatural (& i mean it. skip this first set if you cant handle gore or graphic content)
berserk. both the 90s / new remake are great. thereâs also movies that go through the entire story arc. but this one is VERY dark & very graphic.Â
attack on titan. AMAZING.Â
goblin slayer. so fucking good. 10/10. still waiting on the next season.
blood+ great story with a great love story.Â
elfen lied. creepy and fantastic.Â
another. i dont think this one was as graphic, but creepy. i havent seen it in a while though so i could be wrong.Â
re:zero. a thriller sort of anime with some graphic content.Â
boku dake ga inai machi / erased. HOLY SHIT SO GOOD. main character can reset 7min before accidents happen & he sets out to find out what happens to a childhood friend.Â
higurashi no naku koro ni kai. cute killer girls. kind of dated, but still worth the watch. has amazing music.Â
kiseijuu sei no kakuritsuÂ
slice of life / chances are it will destroy your life & make you cryÂ
 koe no katachi / a silent voice. itâs about bullying & the aftermath of it.
kimi no na wa / your name. this one is a movie. boy and girl wake up in each otherâs bodies.
ao haru ride. SOOOOOOO GOOD HOLY SHIT. incredible love story. incredible characters. fantastic all around
ano hi mita hana no namae wo bokutachi wa mada shiranai. be prepared to cry many tears. a story about friendship & ghosts.Â
your lie in april. i wasnât okay for hours after finishing this one. truly a beautiful story. also, lots of tears.Â
5 centimeters per second. story of friends who are forced apart due to family moves. fantastic.Â
kimi no suizou wo tabetai / i want to eat your pancreas. MANY TEARS, SOOO GOOOOOOOOD. also a movie.Â
nagi no asu kara. beautiful animation, wonderful story. about people who live under the sea and on land.Â
fruits basket 2019 reboot. this is my first time enjoying this series. i love it. cute animation, awesome story.Â
action anime (could have hints of violence but not like the first list)
akatsuki no yona / yona of the dawn. SO GOOD. I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH HOW GOOD THIS ONE IS. it only has one season, but the manga? read it if you enjoy the first season. itâs about a spoiled pampered princess & her forever loyal bodyguard + the loyal âdragonsâ that come to follow her. lots of action, romance, and amazing relationships between the entire cast of characters.Â
seirei no moribito. female lead character protecting a royal boy. fantastic.
the rising of the shield hero SOOOOO GOOD.Â
demon slayer. brother sets out to save his sister. itâs a nice story. great animation.Â
fate / zero. lots of seasons + a movie or two. has a touch of history.Â
sword art online. just the first two seasons.Â
is it wrong to try and pick up girls in a dungeon? on the side. this one is the same story as this one  just from another point of view. both are good.Â
classic anime that everyone should watch just becauseÂ
sailor moon / sailor moon crystal. crystal has done through infinity arc & the dream arc is coming next fall. it follows the manga a lot closer than the 90s anime ever did and even if a lot of people didnât like the animation, i loved it. especially for the second season / r arc.Â
inuyasha. fantastic story, amazing love story. the characters are great. and despite being older, it doesnt feel dated. the final arc was fantastic & tugged at my heartstrings over and over again
trigun. i havent watched this one in YEARS but i always enjoyed it. probably a little dated by now.
yu yu hakusho. also a little dated, im here still hoping for a reboot someday.Â
chobits. really cute!!
naruto shippuden. literally no reason to watch naruto (220 episodes lmao) because a quick google search would explain the story. just watch shippuden but for the love of god skip the filler  thereâs also a bunch of movies. dont bother with boruto. also has amazing openings/endings.Â
rurouni kenshin / samurai x. you can honestly jsut watch the movies. ESPECIALLY TRUST & BETRAYAL. that movie is one of my favorites. i actually rewatched this series⊠two summers ago? its held up well despite being older.Â
avatar the last airbender.Â
anything studio ghibli.Â
mangaÂ
sailor moon, the manga is so fucking good. ive read it so many times, it never gets old. itâs my favorite canon of the series.Â
akatsuki no yona. i cant even with this manga. again, 10/10. its one of my favorites. if the first season of the manga interested you, watch it and continue the manga. itâs still ongoing.Â
love so life. age difference romance. a high school student is the babysitter for two adorable twins that are being raised by their uncle. literally so good.Â
faster than a kiss. another age difference romance. a teen girl and her baby brother are orphaned and eventually alone. her teacher takes them in. another amazing story.Â
sorry this got kind of long, i hope you find something here you like!! let me know if you do!!!!Â
#anon asks#anime recommendation#manga recommendation#anime / manga#personal recs#sailor moon#inuyasha#attack on titan#goblin slayer#naruto shippuden#kimetsu no yaiba#fruits basket#akatsuki no yona#atla
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I just wanted to put out the ask to you joy, and any others. I have been diagnosed with food allergies, and I have two thoughts / questions. One, has anyone ever had an allergy that was present, then went away? My doctor diagnosed me as allergic to eggs, and then when I went back 6 months later, that allergy was gone, and replaced with two others (foods that I had been eating up to that point, and was now allergic to.) Next, what's a good pasta replacement for allergy to rice corn and wheat?
Hi @lilnizzie Iâm going to throw this under a cut as it got pretty long, but I hope you are able to view this. Let me know if the readmore breaks it.
Allergies can and do fluctuate... but not typically in that way for most people.
Some people grow out of allergies, while others grow into them. And then thereâs the people like me whose bodies cannot regulate histamine, (something which we all produce and need for important cell functions like healing and keeping us safe from pathogens) and who can develop fluctuating allergies depending on how overstimulated their mast cells are, which are the cells that regulate histamine release into the tissue and blood.
You may have seen me refer to my condition as MCAS, or mast cell activation syndrome. Basically, those all-important cells of mine donât work quite right, and as part of that, I have developed a severe histamine intolerance or HIT for short.
So for instance, eggs, particularly the white of eggs, are high in histamine (the yolk is not, weird how that works right?) and some folk with histamine regulation problems (HIT) may not be able to eat them at all, while others are able to eat the yolk, or some folks like me who are able to eat eggs as part of an ingredient (say, cornbread) provided our âhistamine bucketâ isnât overflowing.
Which okay, how do I explain this... so have you heard the phrase âwindow of tolerance?â As in, your threshold for being able to cope with things? Well, they used to refer to this reaction as being âhistamine window of toleranceâ, but since more research has come to light that suggests our inability to self regulate histamine is down to a stacking effect, hence the analogy of the bucket. The more you put into an already full bucket, the more things will overflow, and before you know it you are dealing with the overspill of problems.
This can either be caused by diet, elemental factors such as pollen, dust, pet dander, etc. etc., heat, cold, exercise, and yes, even stress. (This is because mast cells are in every tissue in the body, including the brain, and they do not like stress hormones, no they do not.) For some people, the reactions are mild and fleeting and may even be mistaken for hayfever, causing only minor ailments that can be regulated by taking anti-histamines. Some others are unfortunate enough to develop full-blown MCAS (or other mast cell issues) and are at risk of anaphylaxis and must carry an epi-pen at all times. Iâm one of the latter. If it helps, think of it as a sliding scale disorder, with mild HIT on one end, and âWhat-in- the-name-of-God-is-this?!?â level of reactions on the other.
The condition can be managed, usually through diet and lifestyle changes for those with a mild case of HIT, and with the addition of mast cell stabilizing meds for those with the more severe MCAS.
So, why am I detailing all of this? Well, it might help to know that yes, the body can and does go off the deep end sometimes, and healthy people can and do develop new allergies over time. But Iâll level with you, all the foods you listed up there are poorly tolerated by folks with HIT when their âbucketsâ are full, and your fluctuating egg allergy might also be a clue that something isnât quite working the way it ought to.
Of course, Iâm not a doctor and I cannot give you any real concrete advice, only my own experiences of learning to manage this condition over the last 8 months after an astute nutritionist looked at all my food intolerances and allergies, and finally after years of suffering, offered me a diagnosis.
But what I will say, given that youâre already talking to an allergist, is that it might not be a bad idea to get your blood tryptase levels checked. Itâs not an entirely accurate test, as you need to be in the midst of a flare to get a result, but for some folk it can tell the doc right off the bat if something is going awry, making it a good first stage in ruling out more severe conditions which may be causing your allergic responses to fluctuate in this way.
Now, I know thatâs a whole wall of text right there, and Iâd hate for you to be reading it and panicking, so allow me to say, if you do have issues with regulating histamine on your own, it is manageable. Since getting my diagnosis 8 months ago, I am a lot more stable than I have been for...probably my entire life tbh (Sure my pernicious anemia didnât help, but the MCAS is its own ordeal.) Iâm even getting to eat more foods as my body stabilizes and stops being in a state of continual meltdown. Which is amazing! Fruit! Iconic!
Sure there are some foods Iâll never be able to eat again, but eh, thereâs better things in life :)
Also, just in case anyone recs it in the comments or reblogs, yes there is such a thing as a low histamine diet, but it is not a long term solution and should ideally only be carried out under medical supervision. The low HIT diet is extremely low on nutrients, and if done for too long can cause all sorts of other health issues. I was left on mine for over 2 years by a negligent doctor, and am only just now starting to recover from the extreme malnourishment this caused. Apparently, the longest you should do it for is 2-4 weeks to see if symptoms improve, and then you try adding foods back in one at a time to see what you can tolerate. Who knew? (I wish I had.)
Again, not a doctor, I canât diagnose you and I am not even saying this is what your problem is, but given what youâre asking me, I feel it prudent to share my knowledge about the wonderful world of fluctuating allergies that seem to come and go with no rhyme or reason.
As for things you can supplement, oatmeal can be used to create a savory dish that is similar to rice. I used to cook mine up with a stock cube to make it savory, then add my vegetables into. It was like a very Scottish version of risotto, but I liked it lol. ETD tells me it tastes like âstuffingâ which I dunno if thatâs good or not, but he always eats it when I make it. If you have issues with stock cubes, cooking it up with salt and using things like fresh herbs will have a similar effect.
You may also be able to use things like coconut flour, or spelt flour, though not everyone can eat spelt if they have a wheat issue, so watch out for that. Tapioca flour is also an option, as are nut flowers if youâre trying to bake. Watch out for a lot of boxed gluten-free stuff though, xanthum gum is typically derived from corn.
Another option would be to make âvegetable mashâ which is basically what it sounds like. I like to use potato for mine because itâs one of the few carbs I can get, mash it up, then dice in my other veggies (and meat of choice) and thatâs basically how I avoided grains for as long as I did. Sweet potato works well for this too. Basically, if you have to avoid grains, which it sounds like you do, veggies are a good way to keep your carbs up.
Anyway, I hope some of this was helpful... I feel like I rambled, but... yeah, I know way too much about this kind of thing for someone who went to school for liberal arts lol
#chronic health tag#allergies#life with allergies#life with mcas#histamine intolerance#food#food mention#anyone got any recs for food?#lilnizzie
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AO3 Page:Â https://archiveofourown.org/users/itsreallylaterightnow/pseuds/itsreallylaterightnow
Order: Newest to Oldest
19. Love, MichelleÂ
Peter Parker and Michelle Jones have been friends since meeting at Midtown. Their relationship has had many up's and down's, the universe seemingly cursing them to never cross paths no matter how desperately the two want each other.
Or
The Love, Rosie AU that I didn't know I needed until I saw @seek-rest post about it
18. Irreplaceable You
Then she learned that she didnât have to worry about that anymore. Because her story was going to end. She didnât need to worry about what she was going to wear next, or her payments, or her assignments. It didnât matter anymore because she was going to die. And she never knew that she was living her life for the next moment until she realized that the only moment, she was waiting for was her death. But the one thing that she would always worry about, was Peter Parker.
or
The Irreplaceable You AU that took over my life and is going to make me cry a whole lot
17. There's No Shelter From the Storm
With the Accords having fallen to pieces, Secretary Ross will do anything to take out enhanced individuals. Even if that means paying scientists to create a biological weapon carried by non-enhanced individuals that only effects those with mutated genes. Tony pulls Peter out of school, quarantining him into the tower, but how hard is it going to be to keep a teenaged ball of energy from getting himself infected?
or
Peter Parker is really bad at quarantining himself when there are still people that need Spider-Man's help and Secretary Ross sucks.
Author's Note: This is a fic obviously inspired by the crazy events happening outside our doors, but this fic is in no way meant to be insensitive to those affected. Stay home, stay safe. My prayers are with those infected, families who have loved ones infected, those who are quarantined with abusive families, first responders, medical professionals, and those who have lost jobs.
16. To Look Down Upon You is Enough For Me
âA wise man told me once that fathers werenât always born to you. That-that sometimes the best fathers are the ones that step up to the plate when no one else is there. I didnât truly know what having a father was like. But now I know what having a father should be. And Iâll miss him every day.â
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Peter went on the mission thinking that he and Mr. Stark would be back in time for him to apologize to Michelle about being late for supper again.
He never would have imagined the outcome that happened, or how much it would affect who he was as a father.
15. Now All Our Memories (They're Haunted)
âI want to stay.â Peter stated indignantly, ignoring the blood that dripped from his nose, a waterfall of pain and dread. His head pounded like a river breaking on the shore over and over and over again. He could feel it. The energy that was racing through his bloodstream. His mind was a supernova. Flashes of lights and stars and images of things he had never seen â things he could never understand. Time warping around his consciousness, bending his thoughts into an everlasting loop. He felt the world at his finger-tips and he wanted it to go away. Like a black hole coming to wrap around him as he tried to claw his way back to the surface. Peter took a ground shattering breath â the earthâs plate shifting every time he inhaled. âI was going to be with you⊠forever.â
14. Let's Just Order Take Out From Now On?
Peter always knew that May's cooking was bad... he just never expected to almost die from it
or
Peter gets botulinum poisoning and stress ensues
13. Nothing is As it Has Been (and I Miss Your Face Like Hell)
Pete is grieving. And he just needed to say goodbye. Needed the chance to say goodbye. When he gets the oppurtunity, of course he won't pass it up.
or
The author is grieving and just really needed to live vicariously through a fic so she wrote this.
12. 5 Times Tony Got Peter Out + the One Time He Couldn't
Tony is always there for Peter. Always. But God, it can be exhausting when the kid has the worst self-preservation skills in the world. But, that's why he has Tony.
or
5 times Tony got Peter out + the one time he couldn't
11. My Bones Have Found A Place (To Lie Down & Sleep)
Prompt from Irondad-Fic-Recs on Tumblr: Prompt: So I just saw little women and Iâm just thinking about the scene where one of the sisters dies. Like the older sister Jo, fall asleep by her bedside only to wake up to see her younger sister is gone. So how about peter and tony in this situation. Tony dozes off by Peterâs bedside while heâs hurt or sick and wakes up to find he passed away while was sleeping
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Why you got to hurt me like this? What if itâs like an IW AU where people die, and the body is left behind after Thanos snapped? and Peter clings on to life long enough to get back to earth and the compound where they hook him up to machines to try to save him (his heart is failing or something idk) but then that happens.
so basically that, just check it out.
10. It's Just MedicineÂ
Peter has an old injury that flares up once in a while, he thought for certain that he would be able to keep it a secret from Tony, until it flares in the middle of them testing out a new suit.
or
Tony Stark is a worried dad, and hates to see when Peter is in pain.
9. So Leave Me In The Cold (Wait Until The Snow Covers Me Up)
Peter has been missing for three weeks. Tony just needs to get his kid back. Just needs to hold him again.
Whatever it takes.
Or
Another rescue fic because we could always use some protective Irondad
8. Run Into My Arms Again (walk with me into the light) - FebuwhumpÂ
Tragedy strikes Peter Parkerâs life again. He wasnât ready for it, and he knows that he will never be the same, but after four months of college, he is beginning to think that he will learn to be whole again. He has his family; May and Happy, and the support of the Starks to help bring him happiness again.
Then, the unthinkable happens. When Peter finds himself in the clutches of someone that wants nothing but to see Tony Stark burn to the ground, how will he find the strength to hold on until help arrives? And will he be able to protect his newfound family in the process?
7. Sometimes I Feel Like I'm Being Pulled in So Many Directions
Peter knows he did poorly on his final, and he feels bad enough. Then May finds out. Peter doesn't know how to handle all the pressure of being a normal high-school teenager on top of trying to balance the responsibility that comes with being spider-man.
Thank fully he has Tony Stark and May Parker to keep him in check- and comfort the stressed teen along the way.
6. When I Was Older
Peter Parker never thought that something like this would be a problem, he always imagined with the spider-bite came a sort of overall health and wellness... well besides being shot at constantly. So when this terrible illness bites down on him suddenly, how will it effect the few days he has left?
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Peter Parker contracts an illness that he has never heard of then learns that it has no known cure... will he lose his mind before getting the chance to say goodbye to the ones he loves?
5. Whumptober 2019
spooky season=whumpy season! Here is whumptober 2019 from the prompts I created on my Tumblr itsreallylaterightnow! Please enjoy!
WARNING: this is whumpy stuff- so violence, graphic violence is to be expected. There will be blood and injuries and sadness, but it should mostly have a happy ending to each chapter!
4. Diamond of the DayÂ
Peter couldn't let Mr. Stark die. He wouldn't let him die. He had lost Ben, he wouldn't stand by and not do anything.
Or
The Avengers Endgame/Merlin crossover that no one asked for and made me sad
3. Saturn
Penny Parker lost May a year ago, and as she is coping with what happened, her life just seems to be one trial at a time. Within seconds her life changes forever. Will the knowledge that she still has a family, not by blood but by love, be enough to get her through the challenges that come her way?
or
Penny lives in the tower with the Avengers, but Ross has a plan for revenge. He knows that Tony would never show fear or pain, but in order to hurt Tony Stark, you hurt what he cares about. (I suck at summaries I'm so sorry)
2. Tumblr Drabble/One Shots
Archives from my tumblr - itsreallylaterightnow
Remember that I take requests over there! If itâs irondad whump/fluff odds of me accepting it are like... %100!!! Love you all!
Enjoy the fluffy whumpy goodness :)
1. Use Somebody
Peter Parker lives the average life... school, being an intern to the biggest company like-ever and fighting criminals while wearing spandex. Who knew that being close to Tony Stark would hold such deadly consequences
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Yoga 101 | pt 2
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x fem!reader Guest Appearance: Natasha World: AU.
Warnings: fluffy, mentions of smut in the form of thinking too much about how sexy bucky is, language.Â
Summary: Yoga would be the perfect activity for relaxing and just letting your mind go blank, if the yoga instructor wasnât so fucking nice and so damn hot.Â
A/N: written for the #omnomwritingchallenge1.1k. My word choice was yoga, so I present to you, Yoga with Bucky, part two. @omnomsauruswritesâ
Smooches! xoxo L
REQUESTS ARE CLOSED
Huge huge huge thanks to @delicatelyherdreams, @caitfairwrites and @sunmoonandbucky. Through the almost a month that took me to write this, they helped me with typos, cheering me on and assuring me this was worth writing. I will forever be so grateful to them, and they are now stuck with me loving them too much so whoops. NOT MY GIFS
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PART ONE HERE
a recap:
Your best friend Natasha leaves you, to fend for yourself and try to survive an open air, one-on-one class with Bucky, the hot yogi youâre crushing hard on, that you met by pure mistake in your search for a stress relieving activity.
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Your hands are trembling when Bucky walks you back to your car. Natasha is nowhere to be seen and you donât know if thatâs good or bad.
He taught you the basic movements, keeping it simple yet entertaining. This time around you did feel a bit more relaxed after the session. There was a lot of learning involved and a lot of long sighs when a stretch felt like it was doing its job, even at a beginner level. Bucky would grin at you every time, making your cheeks feel warmer and warmer, not only from the afternoon sun, but because he was Bucky, and that was enough to have you hot and bothered to begin with.
Bucky made jokes here and there, as if it wasnât hard enough for you to focus on the task at hand. Each time he switched positions, he had to run a hand through his hair and youâd be lying if it didnât make you feel some type of way â horny, thatâs the type of way â but you had to give yourself a medal for keeping it cool despite the long looks heâd throw at you and the husky voice he would speak in when giving you directions.
As you neared your car, you were a little sad the afternoon was coming to an end. As hard as it was to make sense of the english language when he was around, you wanted to spend more time with him. He was funny, kind, nice, gentle, and hot. Honestly a dream come true. A man like that doesnât come by easily. But another little detail the afternoon had brought to your attention was exactly that. A man like that didnât stay single for long; there was no way he didnât have someone waiting for him back home â you could only hope you were wrong to think that.
âWell, I hope to see you again soonâ his cheerful tone snapped you out of your thoughts and you spied Natasha leaning against your car as you approached. Her all knowing grin was still there, perfect teeth and silently mocking, as usual.
âUh, yeah, maybe. I feel a little better now, thanks for today.â
âIâm glad you do. And Iâm here to help, anytime.â the warmth in his eyes was almost as unbearable as the summer sun: too bright, too consuming, too much to handle. Youâre thanking the universe that you are close enough to your car to get support, because once more, this man has turned your legs to jelly with a single phrase.
âHmm, fun session?â Nat interjected, her tone filled with mischief and playfulness, the smirk now twisting upwards and you could smell trouble. âSay, Bucky, Weâre going for coffee now, would you like to join us?â She throws her arm around your shoulders very casually, her perfectly manicured nails tapping at your arm while you fisted her shirt on her back, trying to get her to stop.
Did you want to spend more time with Bucky? Sure. Did you want it to be with Natasha around playing mind games? Hell to the no. As much as you loved her and knew her glances and smirks seemed harmless â to Bucky at least â you knew her looks are a double edged sword, and you wouldnât survive getting coffee with both of them. Not when Bucky is a little sweaty and looking very, very good; and Natasha has some sort of unknown plan sheâs dying to set in motion, that you donât want any part of.
To your relief Bucky is quick to chuckle and shake his head, excusing himself.
âThat sounds wonderful, but I have some business to attend to.â
âOh well ââ Natâs dismissal is cheeky, you know her too well ââsome other timeâ Thereâs another pinch to her side, a warning to stop right now, and you give Bucky a tight-lipped smile. âSome other timeâ He nods and waves goodbye âHope to see you Wednesday, Y/N?â he says as he begins walking away, still facing the two of you.
âWeâll see,â you tell him back jokingly, and he rolls his eyes at you in mock annoyance.
âDonât make me beg, please.â he laughs and shoots you a wink, before finally turning around and being on his way.
Your brain is stuck processing what just happened. Between the one on one time with him, the friendly banter, Natasha and her schemes and that wink. Specially the wink. How come someone looks so hot when winking? Damn this man.
Youâre too busy replaying that in your head â and saving it to daydream about during your break at work â Â to hear the beginning of Natashaâs teasing. Sheâs holding you by your shoulders at arms length before you know it.
âI never understood the concept of hot yoga, but I think I do now.â You shrug off her hands and open your car door, getting all your things inside and sitting on the driverâs side. Nat is quick to run around and hop in, eager to continue messing with you, you assume.
âShut up.â
âNo way! Here I was thinking I had sold you on yoga when in reality Mr. Amazing-Ass was the one to rope you in â oh, wait, youâd like thatâ
âOh my god!â You bury your face in your hands at her words. Sheâs unbelievable. Note to self, never tell Natasha about any fantasies, ever again. âThatâs not it!â âPsh, youâre going to tell me youâre not considering yoga anymore?â You remain silent. âYouâre seriously going to pretend youâre not going to class on Wednesday to see his fine ass?â She clicks her tongue and her eyebrows arch in that âyou canât fool meâ way of hers, her nails tapping over the console, annoying the hell out of you â not the nails, but the fact that she knows sheâs right.
âUgh, whatever,â you mutter, setting the car into drive and pulling out of the parking space and into the not so busy roads.
âOk then. Iâll let Scott know youâre not making it to his dinner on Wednesdayâ
You open your mouth to protest, to bite back, anything⊠But who are you kidding? Youâre going to that class.
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You were resting in Corpse as the last few minutes of Wednesdayâs class went by. It had been three full weeks of coming to Buckyâs intermediate classes and Saturdays at the park and your progress was incredible. Not only were you learning poses by their name, you felt more relaxed, well rested and flexible â back ache be gone!
Natasha tagged along for a second Saturday, the teasing strong as ever, but sheâd thankfully skipped last time. You hoped it would stay that way, there was only so much you could take of her cunning tone. Good thing you didnât have to deal with her sassy grin at the center on Wednesdays and Fridays. No, those were the days you got Bucky all to yourself⊠And another 9 people.
But for a moment before class, at Buckyâs request, you and him would go over poses and your progress, so yeah, you did get him a little bit to yourself here and there, and it was both joy and sorrow.
Time with Bucky was great, he just kept adding to the âreasons this man is amazingâ list you had started in your head, with his jokes, and his kindness, and, his warm, inviting smile. All of those things were also incredibly hard to ignore, thus making you crush on him harder, which lead to you always stuttering in his presence. Seeing him so much meant more chances to embarrass yourself. A tricky feat for sure.
The class finished up, people filtering out of the room and spilling out into the lobby feeling refreshed. Any other day and you would have waited for Bucky a little longer â discreetly though, always discreetly â but today there were⊠Some distractions.
He had let his hair down again, oh what youâd give to hold on to it, and his beard was a little trimmed, making him appear stronger if that was even possible, and heâd decided to wear a tank top, showcasing his arms; tempting, mouthwatering, lean muscle. Neither of those could be good for your blood pressure, or your way too imaginative mind.
Besides yoga poses and breathing exercises, youâd also learned, these past weeks, how to shift your focus from Buckyâs body to something else, but just like with your Camel Pose, you still had to practice more to get it perfect.
Thunder and rain greeted you when you walked outside and stood at the entrance. People opening umbrellas and skipping to their cars to get back to their daily activities. You could have sworn the weather app on your phone said sunny, so your umbrella was nowhere to be found, no matter how many times you rummaged your bag in search of it. You groan, right as Bucky walks out and whistles, surprised at the rain. Heâd put on a zip up jacket â thank heavens â no hoodie in sight, though.
âJeez, my phone said itâd be sunny,â he stands there, hands on his hips as he takes in the environment. Itâs not too violent of a storm, but definitely strong enough to know youâd be drenched before you made it to your car. A small laugh escapes your lips at his comment.
âYeah, mine too. Liars.â
âLooks like itâll be a whileâŠâ Bucky says, reaching a hand out of the cover under the entrance of the rec center, getting the tips of his metal fingers wet under the rain. He smiles at the sensation and youâre entranced by how ethereal he looks. The juxtaposition of his hard metal edges, and his soft flesh curves; his chiseled jaw, and tender looks; the authoritative husky voice, giving soft commands... Bucky Barnes was a living poem you wanted to devour.
A shake of your head to get rid of your thoughts, and you wrap your arms around yourself, as if trying to keep all of that in your chest, warning it not to go anywhere without your permission.
Bucky looks at you, and then past you, the smile on his face growing, the now familiar crinkles by his eyes making their grand appearance, and he lifts his chin, as if pointing. Thereâs a cafĂ© in the plaza across the street, about half a block away.
âYou mind getting a little wet?â
More than I am? You think, and are quick to scold yourself; this is not the time for such thoughts, Bucky just asked you to get coffee with him.
Wait, what? Bucky had asked you to join him for a coffee? You blink, drawing a complete blank. You should say something, and not just any thing. You should say yes. Why are you not speaking?
âUh, itâs fine, sure,â you eventually spit out, praying the silence wasnât awkward while your brain rebooted to answer his simple invitation. If he notices your nerves, he doesnât mention it, instead he shakes his hand, ridding it of the rain droplets, and walks up to you.
Like two teenagers, giggling and hopping over puddles, you huddle under your bags â now makeshift rain covers â rushing to cross the street, and youâre very focused on not slipping and cracking your skull with how clumsy you can be.
No one gets injured in the venture, and you and Bucky enter the warmth of the quaint cafĂ©, shaking droplets off your hair and shirts on the welcome mat. He bellies up to the counter when itâs your time to order, his hands busy putting his hair up in a bun, and then they rest on the marble, all veins and yet so delicate â you fight away memories from times heâs helped you into positions, his warm hands touching your arm to remind you to straighten or bend it. The coffee shop suddenly feels a little warmer.
He bites his lip as he studies the menu, your eyes running over his side profile. From the tip of his brow bone, down the curve of his nose and the dip of his lips, you follow a single raindrop as it disappears down its course over his cheek. When his azure orbs settle on you, meeting yours, youâre not so gently reminded that staring is creepy, and you should snap out of the trance he puts you in.
Orders are placed, you insist on splitting the bill, and Bucky laughs as he agrees and guides you to a booth. For a while now, all your one on one interactions happen with a heavy chant of a mantra: âfocus on something other than Buckyâ.
This time around, itâs different.
Sitting in front of him, at a cafĂ©, really sends you for a loop. Thereâs no space for any distractions, all thatâs left is focusing on Bucky, and with good reason, because before you know it heâs talking, asking about your day and getting to know you, and youâre surprised at how well you manage the nerves and bat away images of him in that tank top doing Crane â youâre going to categorise that as a crime. That man doing anything resembling that pose, is an actual felony.
The rain continues to fall outside, whenever you need a breather from looking at Buckyâs pretty face, you turn to see the cars whizz by, the droplets racing down the windows of the cafĂ©, and then you stare at your hands, wrapped around a warm beverage, mimicking his hands.
You donât know how long itâs been, but itâs after endless rounds of jokes and questions, two mugs of something warm for each, and a slice of pie, when you dare ask more about him. So far heâs been doing most of the asking, with you throwing the same question back at him or laughing at his stories. More specifically, you wanted to know how it all happened.
âSo how did you end up here? Teaching yoga, loving it so much, tricking me into joining...â
He laughs at that last part, putting his hands up after he places his fork down, tongue poking out to collect crumbs of pie, and youâre almost spiraling. âHey, no trickery.â Thereâs that soft smile of his again, his body leaning in, elbows anchoring over the table and he looks adorable with his cheek smushed against his palm when he rests it there. âWell, I guess I have to tell you about this guy,â his flesh hand points to the metal appendage. Black shiny hardware and delicate golden lines. âSo, when I was around 20, I joined the army.â
Your eyes widen at the thought.
Bucky is so gentle, so soft and chill. Heâs like that jock in college that, despite looking strong, you might find him with a butterfly perched on his index finger as he tells you heâs actually an english major who writes poetry before every game. Maybe thatâs an exaggeration, but regardless of that, Bucky is just⊠Not the type you could see fighting a war, handling guns and having to witness or cause terrible bloodshed on the field.
âIt was⊠Chilling. Wrong place, wrong time kind of thing. A moment of hesitation, and before I knew it⊠Well, long story short ââ he coughs a bit and shifts in his seat â âI got sent back home with less limbs and more confusion than when I left.â He pauses, trying to find the right words, but instead he chuckles and shakes his head, licking his lips. You feel bad for even asking, and reach out an arm to stop him, tell him he doesnât have to say anything else. His metal hand covers yours on his forearm.
âBuckyâŠâ
âItâs fine, really. I was lucky. A friend of a friend knows the Tony Stark, got a sweet arm and, well⊠Yoga helped⊠a lot.â He smiles then, squeezing your hand before letting go. You can sense how the mood shifts, now more relaxed, his shoulders drop back down and his hand isnât almost clenching into a fist. The smile on his face seems more genuinely happy, and now that you know what not-so-happy Bucky looks like, you can tell with certainty that happiness is your favourite look on him. âIt helped me relax, it helped me re-learn my body, this black and gold intruder. I fell in love with it, with how good it could make me feel physically and mentally.â
âThatâs why you want people to try it so badly?â he nods.
âI donât mean to act like I know everything about you, but you looked tense,â he shrugged nonchalantly, âand if anything yoga sets out to do, is remove tension, so I just pushed, and Iâm glad!â The two of you laugh at that, you finally let go of his forearm, but itâs not long before Bucky reaches out himself, to grab your hand again. Thereâs goosebumps raising all over your skin and his smile lets you know itâs all okay.
âIâm glad as well. I really like it, and I canât lie⊠Itâs helped me a lot.â
He shrugs casually. âThen my job has been doneâ
âDone? Are you breaking up with me?â You place a hand on your chest, faking offense and his head throws back in laughter at this.
âNever! Thereâs still a lot more for you to learn. You canât leave until you can hold King Pigeon for 20 seconds.â
âGee, I can barely do Table for 10, take it easy, soldier.â
He bursts into laughter again, and now the mood has truly changed.
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Youâre glad it keeps raining for another 30 minutes, and that they sell drinks other than coffee at the shop, because you and Bucky are ordering smoothies and chatting away until the sun is almost gone and the puddles on the road are the only proof that there was ever any rain.
Bucky walks you back to your car, still in the middle of a story about his best friend Steve and their college roommate Sam, the first time he saw Bucky with his prosthetic. Your belly aches, maybe because of the butterflies, maybe because of the long time spent in Plank back in class, maybe it hurts of laughter, from your afternoon with Bucky. Either way, itâs a pleasant little burn that youâre taking home with you to dream about, along with images of Bucky biting his lip, and having whipped cream from his coffee, on the tip of his nose.
Itâs your turn to bite your lip, when you finally reach your car and itâs time to part ways. After a day like this, it almost hurts to say goodbye, but the day has been too perfect to complain.
âHey, so⊠Got any plans Saturday?â He asks, leaning his body over the side of your car. Itâs not the best moment to think about how he looks like a model, but the thought runs through your head at the speed of light, too fast to catch it before it makes a ruckus.
âUh, not reallyââ you giggle, remembering â âOh well, duh, yoga. At the park.â Bucky laughs along with you, a hand coming up to scratch the back of his head as he stares at his feet. Itâs a little dark but you can see a faint tint of red cover his features.
âWell, yeah, I justâŠâ he stumbles over his next words, and you donât mind one bit. Seeing him a little flustered, when itâs always you scrambling to find words to say, itâs a nice change of pace, though you canât imagine why he would be flustered. âI was thinking, maybe I can take you up on that offer for coffee after class next Saturday? Like your friend said? I just- uh⊠You know, j-just us?â
Itâs suddenly hard to breathe. None of the techniques come to mind now, and the belly ache is definitely because of the butterflies, because they are wild right now. Out of the blue they have multiplied to thousands and thousands.
âSure.â Youâre 100% sure that your smile reaches from ear to ear and it makes it hard for you to pronounce the short word properly, but Bucky seems to have understood whatever you chirped, and thereâs a smile of his, mirroring yours.
âCool⊠Uhm, well, see you Friday?â
You nod eagerly. âSee you Fridayâ
You had gotten used to a certain kind of proximity from Bucky. Either because of a pose you werenât holding right, or had just learned and he was there supervising, or from moments like today, when you somewhat held hands over the table as you sipped your drinks. But none of that compared or could have prepared you for the close proximity that was Bucky leaning in to kiss your cheek. His warmth suddenly almost suffocating, his scent filling your nostrils, the slight stubble tickling you in the most delicious of ways, and the chills running up and down, and up and down your spine.
Soft pink lips, warm and tender, pressing a gentle peck to your cheek, the tip of his nose caressing your face â thatâs a memory you want burned into your brain.
Itâs over way too quickly, but youâve registered every detail, and it costs you a lot not to hop on the balls of your feet right there and then. Bucky is waving you goodbye, walking over to his own car, parked on the other end of the lot and you fake cool as you open the door and slide inside.
You wait until the door is closed and allow your brain and your heart a few moments to process what just happened â not just this last bit, the entire afternoon â before you let out a scream, a kick, and a squeal, praying to the world Bucky didnât see that.
In your thrashing about you almost miss his silhouette punching the air in celebration before he gets in his car as well.
All in all yoga had been a wonderful decision.
Fin.
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Hope you guys liked this! Hnnngg isnât yogi Bucky the absolute sweetest? Youâre welcome to sound off about how you think their coffee date went, I wanna hear your ideas.
I want to hear what you thought of this in general! Please, pretty please, let me know, anything counts! Call me beep me if you wanna reach me.Â
Have a good day lovelies!
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xoxo, L.
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My Top 20 Fanfic Recommendations
Aka what to read to understand me/my tastes or what fanfic Iâd bring to a desert island to avoid boredom.
First off this is my personal favorites and most highly recommended list, you may not like some or all of them, thatâs fine.
Secondly, Iâve been wanting to make this sort of list for a while - a collection of my favorite fanfics and authors in one place which I can refer back to/up date as time goes by.
This will be mostly Naruto fanfic, since Iâve been in that fandom the longest, though I have included works from other fandoms such as; The Hobbit, Harry Potter, Star Wars, Inuyasha, MCU, American Gods, Girl Genius, Labyrinth, Van Helsing, and Batman The Dark Knight Rises.
Links to fic, and author page, included. I try to mention if I know someone is on tumblr. Let me know if I missed anybody.
Be sure to read the tags, and pay attention to the warnings before reading any of these - you are in control of what you consume in fandom. If you are feeling unsure about a fic and want to ask someone about it before reading, feel free to contact me! I try to check my messages regularly.
Please try to leave a comment/like/kudos if you enjoy the fics, the authors all deserve them. (If you canât leave comments, thatâs fine too - real life be like that sometimes. Donât stress over it.)
20. To Trammel Some Wild Thing By Anon E. Mouse
This is completely self indulgent and a delight to read. The characterization is good and its plot is so much fun. Iâm an unrepentant Dracula fan, in all his forms, and this ones damn entertaining. Incomplete - Anna/Dracula - Van Helsing
19. Nukenin By WhisperingDarkness
This fic, and the works inspired by it, are so much fun to read. Basically a 3 for 1 recommendation (be sure to check the links at the end!) A great Kakashi centric work, their characterization is excellent and the kids are great! Complete - No Pairing - Naruto
18. Fear By Almighty_Hat
I know, I know this isnât the OT3, but bear with me, this is a really good series, looking at what ifs and giving us All the Jagers. Great slice of life Girl Genius style. Complete with an Incomplete series - Agatha/Jorji - Girl Genius
17. Klepto By DeGlace
This so much fun! A rare pair for sure, but it is so good. The chemistry between these two is amazingly portrayed. This fic is sexy, itâs vicious, it holds no bars and delivers on every promise. Also be sure to check out their fic Marrow, which just missed this list. Complete - Catwoman/Bane - Batman Darknight Rises
16. More Fair Than Snow By Jalen Strix
Oh man, this is such a good series. This author in general is very good, and has several other excellent fics, but this series is my favorite of the lot. Great balance of magic and real world, interesting use of fairy tales and a wonderful romance. Complete - Jareth/Sarah - Labyrinth
15. The Woods Are Deep, My Dear by Azzandra
Baby Agatha! World building! AGATHAS AMAZING GRANDMA! A delight to read, it is so fricking cute, and Grandma here kicks ass. The author also has some other great Auâs so check those out. Incomplete - no pairing - Girl Genius
14. RED KING By VesperChan but also on AO3
This author has so many great fics, but this is my favorite. They are also on tumblr! This fic is so gripping and atmospheric, a real feast for the mind. Can recommend the Obleisk series too. Complete - Sakura/Madara - Naruto
13. Lost and Found By NovusArs
Fem!Bilbo Baggins finds and adopts baby dwarves and the adventures thereof. The fic is cute, the characters are cute, the lore is great and this is so fluffy you guys. So fluffy. Incomplete - Bilbo/Bofur- The Hobbit
12. Lord Charming by forthright
This fic is sooo good. The drama, the lore building, the execution, all perfect. Now I know the chapter numbers look intimidating, but they are written in 100 words chapters, so donât fear too much, youâll get through it! Complete - Sesshoumaru/Kagome - Inuyasha
11. The House that Luck Built By TheBlackestFrost
This is so well researched, itâs use of belief and mythology is superb. I had so much fun reading this, but also I cried during some of it too. An amazing fix that convinces you of the romance with one of the parties being dead for most of it. Author on tumblr! Give! Them! A look! Complete - Laura/Sweeney - American Gods.
10. The Company of Trees By theroadkillcafe
This is my favorite Mokuton!Sakura fic ever. Itâs amazing, it really captures the trials and tribulations of a young girl whoâs life is changed so drastically. The supporting cast is really good too. Incomplete - No Pairing - Naruto
9. Kill Your Heroes by TheLightAtLastAndAlways aka Evil Is A Relative Term
Aaaaaaaaaa this is so good!!! The lore! The character growth! The plot twists! This is a masterpiece of writing, and I adore it. This author is never afraid to give gritty consequences, while keeping it fun and action packed. Incomplete - Itachi/Sakura sort of - Naruto
8. Retrograde Motion by Crunchysunrises
This is a fantastic example of the Time Travel trope, and tackles some really interesting lore and world building. I unreservedly love the part were we see Sakuraâs seals from her family. It touched me so much I reread the whole thing 3 times in short order. Incomplete - No pairing - Naruto.
7. Amaryllis By silverfootsteps
This author is on tumblr, go check them out! And also this fantastic AU fic! I fell in love with this world, and the characters in it. A rich setting to sink your teeth into, with masterful twists and turns. Itachi is a very delicate flower and itâs great. Incomplete - Itachi/Sakura - Naruto
6. Sansûkh By determamfidd
This fic is amazing, I was able to get my mother in fanfic with this. I think itâs really well written, it feels very organic with the Tolkien world. Iâm gonna get this hand bound in leather once itâs complete and gift it to myself, I want this in hard copy. Bilbo/Thorin - The Hobbit & LotR
5. Meeting Like This by FettsOnTop
And also the rest of the series. This Author is a prolific Boba/Leia writer, and all of itâs good, so give it a go and check them out! This series really defined this ship for me, and is my favorite work by the author so far. Complete - Boba Fett/Leia Organa - Star Wars
4. The Pilgrim Soul By jachap
Holy heck in a hand basket this fic is a feast. You will drown in this, the richness of this world will linger long after the final chapter ends. This is a historical fic, starting in the 1920âs and just keeps going even in the sequel. So much research has been done for this, and you can tell. Be warned you will cry. Has a sequel thatâs just as good and being updated. Complete - Darcy/Steve/Bucky - MCU
3. Hermione Granger and the Serpents Renaissance by epsi10n.
This is my absolute favorite Harry Potter fic, itâs incredible. The author is very good at building tension, and then ending their chapters on cliff hangers, so you spend plenty of time on the edge of your seat reading this. Incomplete - Hermione/currently undecided. - Harry Potter
2. The Eyes Have It By Shana the Short
Written for FaNoWriMo. I adore this, and itâs incomplete sequel. Itâs. So. Good. I can not recommend this enough - itâs fun, it explores interesting lore on what it would be like to develop a brand new Kekkei Genkai, and it has great character development for those who would usually go over looked. Complete - Sakura/Chojuro in the sequel. - Naruto
1. Five Kingdoms for the Dead by Evil Is A Relative Term
This is it, this right here is my favorite fanfic of all time. I LOVE this. I love the characterization, the plot, and is one favorite depiction of Madara Uchiha in fiction. Of all time. This author has already appeared on this list before, and I cannot recommend enough going out and checking out their work. Complete - Neji/Sakura - Naruto
This is not the be all, end all of good fic Iâve read, let alone all the good fic that exists, and I am very tempted to just add a list of authors I like too, but that would be a very ambitious list. Seriously, the number of stories I had to put aside because I love them but they are not quite on the list.... I have 1760 subsripctions just on AO3 alone. I couldnât fit them all on here.
P. S. If you wish to reblog with any fic recs of your own, please do so! Iâm always looking for new reading material!
#my fanfic recommendstion list#The Hobbit#Naruto#Star wars#Labyrinth#Van Helsing#Harry Potter#MCU#American Gods#Inuyasha#Girl Genius#Batman The Dark Knight Rises#Sakura Haruno#Hermione Granger#Madwife#Wintershieldshock#Anna Valerious/Dracula#Bane/Catwoman#Jareth/Sarah#Thilbo Bagginshield#Bilbo/Bofur#ItaSaku#Sesshoumaru/Kagome#Boba/Leia#Fanfic recs#i wish could add all the authors and their works to the tags but i dont have room#long post#MadaSaku
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