#god im so sleep deprived atm

[skitskatdacat63]

I really got home and then redecorated for like 6 hours straight. I haven't slept in 25 hours basically 😐 and the last time I slept it was like, less than 5. This is how I adjust to the timezone change LMAO

But hey at least my F1 shrine is now more complete :D I now just need to frame the poster of Nando I got at the gp, but I have no idea where to put it. I love when I have an obsession, and then I always put the "shrine" precariously balanced on the tiny shelf on my desk. So that every time I have to find something, I risk knocking everything down

[nerdie-faerie]

Texted my mum about being asked to stay an extra 2 hours because we were understaffed, so why did she follow that text up with asking me if I'm getting enough hours? Girl they won't let me leave

[thespineoftherighteous]

no but guys because

they're such parents

like that's PEAK parents.

it's so very "ok the kids have finally gone down so we can get in some quality time" of them.

so very "alright the kids are occupied with the movie lets sneak off for a second" of them.

[attex]

PLEASE ELABORATE ON PK HAVING OCD IM INTRIGUED

okay its mostly me just vibing with it big time but . ill try . Primarily interpretation off of canon . bolded for closer to canon ideas or what eva

He ruminates on things constantly. That is more of a personality thing, but I imagine him having repetition based rituals with phrases. This happens with everything he does, all the time.

Say he's working on some constructs; there is always a constant chant he has to repeat to at least feel like things will work out at all. It's at the state of him not bothering to go against it (the worst state compulsions can be in, IMO). He does this with a low voice, others can hear him whispering to himself. This obviously causes a lot of lapses in concentration.

I imagine this also linking to his "odd" behavior- like refusing to be visible to the public. It isn't just a random quirk, there is a slight element of unease and paranoia aside from being socially ambivalent (related to not grasping the social norms of normal bugs). Too bad mate you're literally a god so people worship you LOL...

Crowds are overwhelming, the same applies to talking to normal bugs who don't act anything like you do. Not to mention obsessions spiking up when stressed out. Plus, if he is doing something "unnecessary", he won't be able to overwork himself to give in to the comforting certainty of a routine+ritual combo.

Another much heavier headcanon of mine; he takes notes of every single thing rigorously. Counting, timing and repeating yet again.

Back to the ruminating, I'll say things not standing the test of time is the thing he fixates the most on. It gets applied to everything, a constant fear induced obsession. Said obsession clouds judgement, no matter how rational he is.

Also, I doubt foresight applies infinitely, it must have a limit for certain. You could say foresight would make someone less anxious- however it could easily be a nightmare if you add in a bit of neuroticism.

I take his failure to accept (or avoidance of) temporality as an intrinsic fear of disarray and (perceived) imperfection since that is related to his primary obsession.

okay sorry if this is written horribly AND IS VERY DISAPPOINTING i feel like im a bit too sleep deprived to be coherent atm and i had such a hard time putting everything into words and even then this feels horribly incomplete and not enough . maybe later in the future i could write a more in depth interpretation analysis but idk . half of this is barely anything close to canon bcz even if theres so much shit about him theres also nothign about him at the same time its fucking insane i feel so much about him but also nothing about him . its lowkey hard af to put ocd into normal words and have it Look as punchy as it Feels for real because its nearly all irrational and even when it has rationality in it its drenched in deep falseness makign it very unclear . excuse me if he jsut sounds autistic as fuck (he just does in my brain plus a lot of obsessional and ritualistic behavior is easily tangled together in these two things anyways but thats besides the point) i might regret this later this sucks

[katana-the-autobot]

THE MEGA RP PLOTTING SHEET / MEME

First and foremost, recall that no one is perfect, we all had witnessed some plotting once which did not went too well, be it because of us or our partner. So here have this, which may help for future plotting. It’s a lot! Yes, but perhaps give your partners some insight? Anyway BOLD what fully applies, italicize if only somewhat. Long post!

MUN NAME: Kawa

AGE: 25+

CONTACT: Asks, IMs, Discord (given via IM)

CHARACTER(S): Katana (and Flicker on main blog @/flicker-bot)

CURRENT FANDOM(S): Transformers. (Known medias can be found in the mun section within Rules page - but other TF medias and crossovers work, too!)

FANDOM(S) YOU HAVE AN AU FOR: Apart from individual threads, there’s no set AUs at the moment.

MY LANGUAGE(S): English, Finnish (but rping only in English here)

THEMES I’M INTERESTED IN FOR RP: FANTASY  / SCIENCE FICTION / HORROR / WESTERN  / ROMANCE / THRILLER / MYSTERY / DYSTOPIA / ADVENTURE / MODERN / EROTIC(?) / CRIME / MYTHOLOGY / CLASSIC / HISTORY / RENAISSANCE / MEDIEVAL / ANCIENT / WAR / FAMILY / POLITICS / RELIGION / SCHOOL / ADULTHOOD / CHILDHOOD/ APOCALYPTIC / GODS / SPORT / MUSIC / SCIENCE / FIGHTS / ANGST / SMUT / DRAMA / ETC.

PREFERRED THREAD LENGTH: ONE-LINER / 1 PARA / 2 PARA / 3+ PARA / NOVELLA / ALL

ASKS CAN BE SENT BY: MUTUALS / NON-MUTUALS / PERSONALS / ANONS. 

CAN ASKS BE CONTINUED?: YES / NO / OCCASIONALLY  - only by Mutuals?:  YES / NO

PREFERRED THREAD TYPE: CRACK / CASUAL / SERIOUS / DEEP AS HECK

IS REALISM / RESEARCH IMPORTANT FOR YOU IN CERTAIN THEMES?: YES / NO (These are alien robots we’re talking about so I think we can safely throw some of the realism out the window, but I tend to do plenty of research while rping topics that can be researched easily (e.g. what kind of injury character gets from X). However, I don’t expect the other side to do any research since rping is first and foremost for fun.)

ARE YOU ATM OPEN FOR NEW PLOTS?: YES / NO / DEPENDS

DO YOU HANDLE YOUR DRAFT / ASK - COUNT WELL?: YES / NO / SOMEWHAT (when I’m not sleep deprived or busy lol)

HOW LONG DO YOU USUALLY TAKE TO REPLY?: 24H / 1 WEEK / 2 WEEKS / 3+ WEEKS / MONTHS / YEARS (May vary based on how busy or tired I am, but usually I’m quick to respond)

I’M OKAY INTERACTING WITH: ORIGINAL CHARACTERS / A RELATIVE OF MY CHARACTER (AN OC) (if planned together) / DUPLICATES / CROSSOVERS / MULTI-MUSES / SELF-INSERTS / PEOPLE WITH NO AU VERSE FOR MY FANDOM / CANON-DIVERGENT PORTRAYALS / AU-VERSIONS

DO YOU POST MORE IC OR OOC?: IC / OOC

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WITH FOLLOWING OTHERS?: YES / NO / DEPENDS

BEST WAYS TO APPROACH YOU FOR RP/PLOTTING:

Plotting: IMs, Discord

RP: RP memes, asks, IMs

WHAT EXPECTATIONS DO YOU HOLD TOWARDS YOUR PLOTTING PARTNER?: I admit that I have much easier time interacting with characters that I already know in at least some level, which makes it easier for me to jump right into things with canon characters. So, while I do enjoy plotting no matter what character I’m going to interact with, it becomes especially important with OCs I don’t know that well yet. If there’s little to no information about your character, it’s even more important to me that you’re partaking in the plotting and voicing your opinions, explaining what you think would work best with your OC etc. It’s completely okay if your OC is not super fleshed out yet, but it can become a problem if I feel like I don’t have anything concrete to work with and am doing all the work coming up with a plot.

WHEN YOU NOTICE THE PLOTTING IS RATHER ONE-SIDED, WHAT DO YOU DO?: I understand if the other side is having trouble coming up with plot ideas, especially when we’re only starting, and since I’m often brimming with ideas, I’m happy to share them and help out with the plot! However, if this keeps going even after our characters have started to get familiar with each other, it can get really tiring and I may start to lose my motivation for our RP.

HOW DO YOU USUALLY PLOT WITH OTHERS, DO YOU GIVE INPUT OR LEAVE MOST WORK TOWARDS YOUR PARTNER?: I’d say it’s something from between. I try to come up with ideas (preferably multiple ones) and share them with the other side to see if anything piques their interest. If I’m having trouble coming up with anything, I try to at least offer what I think would work with my OC and see if it helps the other side to decide what we could try.

WHEN A PARTNER DROPS THE THREAD, DO YOU WISH TO KNOW?:      YES / NO / DEPENDS - AND WHY?: If it’s a loose thread that doesn’t have much to do with the main plot, I understand if the other side simply forgets it, doesn’t feel it anymore etc and wants to drop it. However, if it’s the main thread, I’d like to hear what caused them to drop the thread and if there’s something I should do differently or something new they want to try instead. I won’t get mad about dropping threads so please don’t hesitate to reach out to me!

WHAT COULD POSSIBLY LEAD YOU TO DROP A THREAD?: If it’s a loose/unplanned thread and I’m not vibing it anymore, I may drop it.

WILL YOU TELL YOUR PARTNER?: YES / NO / DEPENDS. I try to let them know, especially if it’s the only thing we had going on and don’t have any other threads left. Sometimes I may be so overwhelmed I fail to inform the other side about dropping the thread and I apologize for that.

IS COMMUNICATION IN THE RPC IMPORTANT TO YOU? YES / NO. - AND WHY?: I’m not expecting us to communicate about every single thing, but I feel like there should be a possibility to reach out to the other side when needed. A lot of things can be solved by communication and I’d rather talk things out than be left or leave the other side in confusion.

ARE YOU OKAY WITH ABSOLUTE HONESTY, EVEN IF IT MAY MEANS HEARING SOMETHING NEGATIVE ABOUT YOU AND/OR PORTRAYAL?: Yes, as long as it comes from a place of wanting to help the other side to improve rather than using it as an excuse to spread hate. Anon hate is never a valid option.

DO YOU THINK YOU CAN HANDLE SUCH SITUATION IN A MATURE WAY? YES / NO

WHY DO YOU RP AGAIN, IS THERE A GOAL?: For fun!!!

WISHLIST, BE IT PLOTS OR SCENARIOS: Nothing in particular, or rather, this kind of depends on who I’m RPing with.

THEMES I WON’T EVER RP / EXPLORE: All-out smut, some really dark themes.

WHAT TYPE OF STARTERS DO YOU PREFER / DISLIKE, CAN’T WORK WITH?: I tend to be pretty flexible so nothing comes to mind right now!

WHAT TYPE OF CHARACTERS CATCH YOUR INTEREST THE MOST?: Almost any kind of character, as long as they’re responsive!

WHAT TYPE OF CHARACTERS CATCH YOUR INTEREST THE LEAST?: When the character is so cool/distant/badass/etc. that they offer nothing to work with and turn down any attempt to interact with them. That’s no fun in a long run.

WHAT ARE YOUR STRONG ASPECTS AS RP PARTNER?: I feel like I’m flexible which makes it easy to match the other side’s length/writing style/etc, and I always try to include something in my reply the other side can react to, which hopefully makes it easier to reply.

WHAT ARE YOUR WEAK ASPECTS AS RP PARTNER?: I’m sure it’s sometimes painfully apparent that English isn’t my first language ;;; There’s also been times when I’ve tried to describe things to the point of overexplaining, like include time and place and weather and absolutely everything (a relic of the time when I still RPd in text forums), but I’ve slowly unlearned the habit to write longer replies just because.

DO YOU RP SMUT?: YES / NO / DEPENDS (it can be hinted that some bedroom action has taken place, as long as we don’t actually RP it in detail)

DO YOU PREFER TO GO INTO DETAIL?: YES / NO / DEPENDS

ARE YOU OKAY WITH BLACK CURTAIN, FADE TO BLACK?: YES / NO.

WHEN DO YOU RP SMUT? MORE OUT OF FUN OR CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT?

ANYTHING YOU WOULD NOT WANT TO RP THERE?

ARE SHIPS IMPORTANT TO YOU?: YES / NO / IT DEPENDS. If we’re talking about any kind of relationships, yes, they’re where my main motivation lies and character/relationship development is very important to me. However, it doesn’t have to necessarily be a romantic one (although I definitely want to have some romantic ships going on eventually)

WOULD YOU SAY YOUR BLOG IS SHIP-FOCUSED?: YES / NO / IT DEPENDS

DO YOU USE READ MORE?: YES (for non-RP stuff) / NO (for RP stuff - I’m trimming threads)

ARE YOU: MULTI-SHIP / SINGLE-SHIP / DUAL-SHIP  —  MULTIVERSE / SINGLEVERSE

WHAT DO YOU LOVE TO EXPLORE THE MOST IN YOUR SHIPS?: The dynamics and what characters bring out of each other!

ARE YOU OKAY WITH PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIPS?: YES / NO / DEPENDS. It’s difficult for me to jump straight into “already in relationship” stage, especially if I don’t know the other character that well. I need some time to feel our characters out and get a better sense of what their dynamic is like. However, it’s something we can plan in advance so it’s not an absolute ‘no’!

► SECTION ABOUT YOUR MUSE.

WHAT COULD POSSIBLY MAKE YOUR MUSE INTERESTING TOWARDS OTHERS, WHY SHOULD THEY RP WITH THIS PARTICULAR CHARACTER OF YOURS NOW, WHAT POSSIBLE PLOTS DO THEY OFFER?: Katana is a serious and dedicated femme, yet she’s open to teamwork and not so cold or proud that she’d push others away which hopefully makes it easier to interact with her! She’s gone through a lot, yet she’s also overcome stuff, and it allows her to relate to others who have experienced traumatic events without being overly angsty or pessimistic about life in general. She also has other sides to her, although it takes some effort to draw them out of her, so there’s hopefully a lot of room for character and relationship development.

WITH WHAT TYPE OF MUSES DO YOU USUALLY STRUGGLE TO RP WITH?: I don’t have a lot of experience about RPing with Katana yet so no opinions here.

WHAT DO THEY DESIRE, WHAT IS THEIR GOAL?: Katana thinks all is fine and dandy now, but she doesn’t realize that she’s not happy. She’s been to the Earth for a few years now, but she has not really made it her home or built her life there yet.

WHAT CATCHES THEIR INTEREST FIRST WHEN MEETING SOMEONE NEW?: Are they an Autobot or a Decepticon, or a neutral? Are they even Cybertronian? Are they dangerous? Are they in danger? Katana approaches new faces in a very practical and cautious manner until she’s found some answers.

WHAT DO THEY VALUE IN A PERSON?: Loyalty, bravery, honesty, being true to yourself.

WHAT THEMES DO THEY LIKE TALKING ABOUT?: While Katana doesn’t care to do small talk, she’ll gladly listen to whatever others want to talk about. She’s the type who may remain silent for hours unless someone addresses her. When she does initiate a conversation, it tends to be about something practical.

WHICH THEMES BORE THEM?: Small talk like chatting about weather.

DID THEY EVER GO THROUGH SOMETHING TRAUMATIC?: Yes.

WHAT COULD LEAD TO AN INSTANT KILL?: Katana has been on the brink of death several times, but she’s survived so far, partly because she’s survivor by nature and partly because she’s driven by her loyalty to Autobots. If she was to be expelled from Autobots, betrayed by them or something similar, she might not have the determination to keep going on.

IS THERE SOMEONE /-THING THEY HATE?: Katana has mixed feelings about bots who change sides, but she’s not sure if she necessarily hates them. Other than that, no.

IS YOUR MUSE EASY TO APPROACH?: YES (hopefully) / NO. BEST WAY TO APPROACH THEM?: Have something to do with them. When there’s some action they can both participate in, their interaction doesn’t rely completely on talking.

SOMETHING YOU MAY STILL WANT TO POINT OUT ABOUT YOUR MUSE?: Pet the cat :3

CONGRATS!!! You managed it, now tag your mutuals! ♥

TAGGED: stole it uwu

TAGGING: anyone who wants to do it (although it is kind of lengthy)

[babyflossy]

exposed | p.js

pairing: jisung x reader

requested: i’m working on loads of request atm but when i saw this i had to write it straight away lmao

summary: when dispatch reveals your secret realtionship with jisung to the public, the fans aren’t the only ones surprised.

warnings/genre: unedited, kinda just self-indulgent fluff, lots of words, not much happens

word count: 1.7k

a hand on your shoulder breaks you from your slumber, words already being spoken at you. in your sleepy haze, they floated straight through your head, mind still groggy from being woken up so suddenly. as soon as you recognise the voice as your manager’s,  your eyes snap open, meeting equally wide ones over the head of your manager. haemee, your leader, shoots you an apologetic look, something unsettling for so early in the morning.

“what happened?” the words are quiet and tired and your manager sighs in pity, handing over their phone. your eyes squint in response to the brightness, stomach dropping when your eyes finally focus on the news article.

BREAKING; DISPATCH REVEALS UQS’ Y/N AND NCT’S JISUNG ARE DATING.

the title is accompanied by three photos; one of you at a fansign, smiling at a fan, one of jisung waving at a camera in the airport, and then a blurring photo of two figures walking hand in hand through a park at night. the park you and jisung had visited two weeks ago. 

“there’s a meeting at the company. can you get ready quickly, please?” despite the ‘scandal’ and the stress your manager was most likely under, she shoots you a comforting smile and ruffles your hair before leaving, phone already ringing. 

as soon as you and haemee are left alone you reach for your phone, feeling the bed dip as she sits beside you. she rests a hand on your shoulder, rubbing her fingers down your back soothingly. your lockscreen in full of text messages. you thumb through them, seeing many from jisung, along with the other nct members you were close with. you ignored them all, only searching for the ones from your boyfriend.

jisungie <3: have you seen it yet?

jisungie <3: call me when you see this

jisungie <3: are you okay?

jisungie <3: i know you didn’t want ppl to find out like this

jisungie <3: let me know you’re okay plzzz x

“it’s gonna be fine, you know?” haemee’s hands abandon your shoulder and take your phone out of your grasp, tipping your chin so she can look at you. there’s still a smile on her face and you’re reminded of why she’s the group’s leader instead of anyone else; always able to keep things calm. “think about all the other idols that have dated. i bet the fans were expecting this, anyway.”

that was probably correct, you knew. ever since you and jisung had starred on a dancing show in america together, your social medias were full of edits of the two of you, compilations of your interactions from the vlogs you had filmed. as jisung wasn’t fluent in english you had translated for him and done the speaking whenever you ordered food, giving the fans loads of things to include in their edits.

the show had been fun and you had kept in close contact with jisung after it ended, eventually deciding to start dating after months of pining over each other. since then, only haemee, taeyong and the company knew, although you expected chenle knew as well due to the teasing you got whenever you met jisung outside of your training hours. 

when haemee left you to get ready you took your phone back, unlocking it and calling jisung as you flicked through your wardrobe, trying to find your hoodie. the call connected after the first ring, jisung’s voice echoing over the line and into your bedroom.

“are you okay?” although there was high chance you were about to be scolded for days, the worry in jisung made your heart beat just a little faster, a reluctant smile taking over your face. 

“i’m fine. what about you?” spotting the lilac hoodie at the end of your closet, you pulled your sleep shirt, jisung’s shirt, over your head, replacing it with the warm softness of the purple material. you followed it with a pair of jeans, slipping a face mask on after realising there would probably be reporters outside the SM building already.

“yeah, i’m fine now. i freaked out at first, though,” he chuckled, shouts coming through from his end. “jaemin came in screaming about how he was so betrayed i didn’t tell him, i had no idea what he was talking about.”

“what’d you think is gonna happen?”

there was a pause before he spoke and you had time to grab your bag, throwing in your headphones and a spare mask along with a pair of sunglasses incase. “i’m not sure, taeyong said he’s hopeful, though. so it might not be that bad. it’s not like the company’s finding out about it, though, so it might just be press and stuff.”

“yeah, i hope so. i’ll see you in fifteen minutes i guess,” before you left the safety of your bedroom, you reached for the bucket hat hanging from the corner of your chair, pulling it over your face to hide your eyes. you looked ridiculous, like you were planning to rob a bank, but you guessed it was better than the alternative; hundreds of photos released of your sleep-deprived, drooping eyes.

no one else in the dorm is awake and you’re able to slip out the front door before haemee catched you again, taking a deep breath before heading outside to the car waiting. as it’s just you and your manager, you’re able to sit in the front seat, something you would normally be ecstatic about but due to circumstance it feels lonely and cold. not a word is spoken until the car reaches the entrance to the SM building, throngs of people with cameras waiting outside the front door.

“we’ll go in the back entrance.” you manager says with a frown, eyeing the reporters with concern. “god, it’s impossible to get any privacy nowadays.”

after security escorts you through the back door, pushing reporters out the way when they got too close, you can finally breath properly. for the most part you ignored their questions, signing the first song that comes to mind in your head to distract yourself. ironically, it’s chewing gum, and you realise with resentment it’s going to be stuck in your head throughout the meeting.

upstairs, taeyong and jisung sit on the opposite side of a glass table, two seats left open for you and your manager. their manager stands and motions for him and your manager to talk privately outside, leaving you with the two boys. you take off your hat as you sit down, pulling you mask down so you can talk properly. jisung’s tired eyes crinkle with a smile when you do, a smile you return eagerly.

for a moment you see taeyong think over what to say in his head, trying to find the right words for the situation. eventually, he settles on what your own leader had already told you. “i’m sure this will be fine,” and as if he realises how cliche his words are, he adds “in the end.”

“in the end? what’s that supposed to mean?” jisung tears his eyes away from you to look at the older boy.

“well, i mean, it’s gonna be a big deal at the start,” he states matter of factly, eyes switching between the two of you. the voice he uses is just as level and calm as the one haemee uses whenever she’s trying to sort something out, it must be a universal thing. “the press and the fans will go crazy for a bit, let alone everyone you didn’t tell.”

the reminder makes you dread going back home, knowing the rest of your members will blow this way out of proportion. you were the youngest, and they always managed to be overdramatic whenever it came to you ‘growing up’ as they had put it so many times. none of them knew you were dating jisung, and you could already picture the gloomy pouts you would get for the next few weeks.

after your managers returned, a few more staff entered, filling the last few seats and closing the door, successfully locking you in. they talked for what felt like hours, only occasionally asking you or jisung a question. they decided the easiest thing would be to just come out and admit it, allowing you and jisung a moment to disagree. you locked eyes for a moment, having a silent conversation between yourselves. you raised you eyebrows in question, taking the minuscule nod he sent your way to be the go-ahead.

“i don’t see why not,” you answered for the both of you, smiling at your manager who nodded in agreement back at you.

you don’t get a chance to say goodbye to jisung properly before you leave the building, the staff ushering you in opposite directions to get your schedules for the day started. in the car on the way back to the dorms you send him a text promising to facetime when you both have time, mentally preparing yourself for the confrontation from your members.

“you’re dating jisung?” is the first thing you hear when the front door opens, closely followed by “why didn’t you tell us?” which is swiftly followed by “i can’t believe you’re the first one to date anyone, it’s not fair.”

“that’s mean.” you smile back at the oldest, laughing at the disbelieving smiles covering their faces. “why are you guys so surprised? you didn’t think i could do it?”

“whatever, but, why didn’t you tell us?”

“in my defense, the company told us not to tell anyone.”

for the next few days, your group’s twitter was hectic. you trended on twitter for nearly a solid day, photos and edits and memes of you and jisung together filling your timeline. there were the negative comments, obviously, from jealous fans of both fandoms, some even claiming you should both be removed from your respective groups. they were easy to ignore when the positive comments and the text messages from your boyfriend outweighed them astronomically.

jisungie <3: as much as i hate to say it.. taeyong was right x

a/n: if you got this far im acc proud of you lmao i rlly dont like this but it's been a kinda mentally exhausting day for me so im gonna post anyway and edit tomorrow x

[softmafia]

help i just got to the fight between hisoka and chrollo, it really got me good, i was so,,, overwhelmed at the sheer amount of things going on, my heart was racing so fast too! all in all, too much for my brain to handle since im also sleep deprived atm,,, oh and i should mention on something hisoka did but i dont wanna spoil T~T -the lurking anon

Oh god I know what happens kind of,

Not the whole thing but *spoiler alert* I’m just glad Hisoka didn’t actually die I’m glad he’s still alive ugh my big handsome man even though your nose and almost all of your facial features are gone.

[s0miad0r]

2, 3, 5, 11, 13, 20, 37, 40, 44, 52, 57, 63, 68, 78, 83, 89, 90 & 98!! (een beetje veel whoops) Ik hoop dat alles goed met je gaatt and I wish you the best!

2. If you could have dinner with any 3 living or dead people, who would they be and why? Kurt Cobain and Frida Kahlo probably 

3. What makes you laugh? So many things, it’s hard to pick a few rn 

5. What is your biggest goal? I don’t know, i have some small goals but the biggest rn is to find some inner peace 

11. What is your favorite TV show now? Its hard to pick a favorite 

13. Tell me one surprising fact about you. These questions make me question who i am haha 

20. If you could only listen to one song for the rest of your life, what song would you choose and why? The cure - A forest (still the same answer as 16y old me) its calming in some way

37. Who do you look up to? im looking up to the people around me

40. Drunken story time! Go! one night i went out with a friend and we didn’t have a place to stay so we went to our high school for some reason, met some new people there, decided to go for a walk and eventually we broke in to some botanical garden nearby to watch it at night, when we left we roamed around a park for the rest of the night, it was quite magical and peaceful in some way. 

44. How are you feeling right now? Exhausted to the core due sleep deprivation

52. What are you listening to right now? Precious - Depeche Mode  

57. Have you ever been in love? yes

63. What are you thinking about right now? new ways to approach my art 

68. Is there anything you want to say to anyone right now? not specifically 

78. If you believe in a God or Higher Power, what one question would you want to ask Him or Her? why 

83. When was the last time you tried something new and what was it? this week, one of my best friends and I did a stick and poke tattoo on our other best friend, it was our first time and it turned out quite alright

89. If not now, then when? I have no idea, might procrastinate 

90. Is it possible to lie without saying a word? yes 

98. What is your guilty pleasure? i don’t really know atm 

thank youu Stein, ik hoop ook dat alles goed gaat met je en ik wens je hetzelfde toe, u deserve it x (besef ook net dat ik ook gewoon in Nederlands had kunnen antwoorden haha) 

[lesbiansforandrew]

21 Questions

I was tagged by @scarfy36 and @loveonmanes 💓

Rules: Simply answer the following 21 questions and tag 21 people (or more!) you’d like to get to know more!

Name / Nickname: amber / am / amber two (that last one hasnt been used in almost 7 months im deprived and i miss you bitch @loveloveolivia) 

Sign: capricorn sun , aries moon and rising 

Height: 5’9 / 1.80m 

Hogwarts House: hufflepuff 

Last thing I Googled: the imdb page for into the spiderverse bc i wanted to know who voiced who

Favourite musician/s: bmth, the wombats, halsey, god idk thats what i listen to mostly atm i guess 

Last song I listened to: here with me by dido but thats mostly bc my roswell nm playlist starts and basically ends with it rip

Song stuck in my head: old town road remix , had it fucking stuck in my head for weeks yeehaw bitches 

Following: ive had my tumblr for almost 10 years (yes hello grandma) and i mostly try to keep it around 400 else i’ll lose my mind 

Followers: as mentioned above ive had my blog for uh ages but most of my followers are inactive

Do you get asks: nopes not really , idk if its a blessing or a curse

Amount of Sleep: probs around 7/8 hours nowadays, which is a LOT in comparison with back home

Lucky Number: 28 , i love any number with a 2 or an 8 as long as it doesnt involve a 3 

What I’m Wearing: really oversized cinco the mayo tshirt that we got at a bar

Dream Trip: this is so weird to answer when im currently living one but um i guess every place i still want to visit in europe, and then australia and nz i think 

Favourite Food: pizza always baby

Instruments: nothing, meanwhile my brother back home is taking drum lessons and living the life ive always wanted rip 

Languages: dutch, english, german, 2 words of spanish and norwegian 

Favourite Song/s: of all time? what a feeling by one direction (my og brand) currently? nightmare by halsey 

Random Fact: idk man one of the kids im watching was going on about how hotdogs are actually made of dogs in a very detailed story, he is 4 years old and when we asked where he got that from he said he thought of it himself. so ive kind of been thinking about that ever since and how i might fear for my life

Aesthetic: i have many different ones but anything to do with nature and greens, or soft pinks and that time of day at the beginning of the evening when traffic and car lights start to be a little brighter but the sky is still clear and light

anywayssss i tag @chaoticbisexualalien @vlamis @cylonbarnes @thefvlcon @catfasteve @rogersbf @nightwideopen @grungebucky @oldbrooklynsoul

[clairelutra]

Fic Meme!!

Tagged by: @sebayard ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

WHAT IS YOUR TOTAL WORD COUNT ON AO3?

308,159. //lays down

HOW OFTEN DO YOU WRITE?

it uuuused to be every day or every couple of days, but then i started feeling better and stopped using it to escape the worst of the existential crisis, so now i only end up writing when there’s a deadline giving me the stinkeye.

DO YOU HAVE A ROUTINE FOR WRITING?

caffeine overload, ‘oh my god! I HAVE THE GREATEST IDEA!! im a GENIUS!!! HOLD MY FLOWER’, stare at blank word document for at least 10 minutes, start typing and do not stop until i have written the joke i intended to write in the first place, flail towards suitably conclusive ending, hit post

WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE KINKS/TROPES/PAIRING?

KINKS: enthusiastic consent and xeno/teratophilia (don’t look at me) TROPES: if it’s hella ridden with sexual/romantic tension and awkwardness, it is my jam, bread, and butter. shirt riding up the tummy? accidental groping? horrendous flirting? hardcore pining? i live and thrive PAIRINGS: uhhh kinda between otps atm but i love the allurance aesthetic, and shance is just...so good

DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE FIC OF YOURS?

uhhhh not atm? daydream makes me //smug cat face// whenever i think about it tho, and it’s all about the team still makes me laugh

YOUR FIC WITH THE MOST KUDOS?

check yes juliet, still.

ANYTHING YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOUR WRITING?

at the moment, i’m very bitter about inspiration-based it is, especially with my general lack of inspiration lately :’D

other than that... i’m pretty satisfied with it, actually? i know i forget to include crucial details sometimes, but that’s usually when i’m sleep-deprived and/or have been staring at that particular piece for too long. i don’t think of that as a ‘flaw’ so much as a ‘get over yourself and ask someone to beta for you, you nitwit’.

in the future, i’d like to work more on including emotional resolution in my pieces—i’m good at doing ‘outtake’ type fics, but not so great at tying up the loose ends. it’s not something i dislike, precisely, but i do think that fixing it is something that would improve the... quality? of my fics.

NOW SOMETHING YOU DO LIKE (ABOUT YOUR WRITING)?

i like the lines i come up with sometimes!

(Marinette was built like someone had thought heavy artillery should come in the form of a teenage girl — compact and powerful and present and confident in a way that made his mouth go dry when she smirked — and if it wasn’t for Ladybug…

Well.)

(--from this)

She kicked off her shoes, the soft thumps of them hitting the floor ringing in her ears like a gavel, order in the court, order in the court, but there was no order, just him and her and the electric pressure that was building in her bones.

(--from this)

[while riding a motorcycle] "I'm the granny representative at the motorcycle club," was what he said instead, because Lance just had this way about him that loosened all of Shiro's filters. "I can't go fast. They'll take my creds."

(--from this)

And, true as a compass finding north, Keith found Shiro. 

(--from this)

Tagging: THE WRITER FRIENDS and the writer strangers ARE ALL WELCOME TO STEAL THE MEME, but the people who come to mind are... @metawohoo @sixsaltysweets @miracufic @isadorator @nasigorengart @herebedragonflies @soundofez @girraffepancakes @ash-is-boss lmao i have no idea who i’m forgetting. if we talk and you write and you’re not on this list, call me out for being an idiot when you do the meme :’)

[theydontknowabouthem]

HELLO HELLO this your beloved holiday pal <3 im soo sorry i have mia for these past few days. its been sooo hectic right now with finals and all sigh but nevertheless im here and how are you??? i hope u are doing great! do u have any expectations for 2022 ??? Its insane how its already 29th December like WHERE'S HAS TIME GONE oh my god truly weird. the year is almsot ending so do u have any memorable moments from this year???

i hope u have a lovely day and DRINK WATER!! this is ur reminder to hydrate yourself from time to time 💓

oh hi there lovely person!!🌸

yeah i get it it.. im in in the middle of that as well.. and all i can feel atm is sleep deprivation. xd

i am alright!?well.. im doing my best! lol how have you been!?

as for 2022, i think or i wish it will be the year we'll be able to get back to being closer with friends and family, before the pandamic put that invisible wall between all of us.. and get acquainted with this slightly different version of them.

omg yes!! we are 3 days away from 2022 and it does NOT feel real.. 2021 has gone by in a light speed!!

2021 fave memories....i liked my summer holidays, they were quite fun.

~im asking you while drinking water~ how about you? what's your 2022 expectations and 2021 fave memories?

i wish you are doing fantastic beloved holiday pal! stay safe!!xx

[pemberlaey]

it's me again! i saw in one of ur answers u said that u like the victorian era, and if you don't mind i would like to know what you like specifically/why? i'm studying for a literature in context exam and i'm great with the romantic era and modernism but the victorian era... oh boi. i can't stand it. we have to read north and south by gaskell and i physically can't bring myself to touch it. maybe i'll find some positive aspects by seeing it through your eyes :) because it's unbearable atm xx

north and south is one of my favorite books ever! I’d recommend giving it another try, Margaret is such a fascinating heroine. I think one of the reasons why i’ve been drawn to the Victorian era is the duality of it. Victorians were simultaneously the most overtly emotional and emotionally repressed people i have ever seen. After the French Revolution people were afraid that an over warm heart was a recipe for malicious behavior so people desperately tried to suppress themselves. Society taught them that you lost respectability if your made public displays of passion or emotion so people had to find ways around this. For instance, authors used to write characters blushing as a covert way to express desire without soiling their good name. Victorians also invented floriography where they assigned meanings to every flower so that friends or lovers could send messages via bouquet. Also from an aesthetic point of view all of the fashion trends are incredible, i think its one of the only eras in which top hats were a gender neutral clothing item. I think what really draws me into the time period is the literature. You have your gothic novels like The Picture of Dorian Gray or Jane Eyre and your industrial novels like North and South or Hard Times. Both styles offer a fascinating commentary on the values and limitations of Victorian society. Victorians were also so god damn weird, opium was a major trend and people were bedridden if they got too stressed. Sorry for this nonsensical ramble I just think this period is so fun and im extremely sleep deprives so I hope this is coherent…