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I don't remember having this film reel in the storage room before, oh well.
#welcome home#welcome home arg#found footage#found images#drawing#digital art#film reels#god i wish it was real lmaoooo
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Like... I'm not exactly surprised that we only have a few choices to make for Veilguard since it's apparently a good jumping off point for new fans and various things like that. But on the main hand. Only having three choices is very :/. I think my main nitpick is not having at least the Well of Sorrows one, like????? I'm still excited about the game, but like.... this put a big damper on things for me. Even as a Solas enjoyer (in the most neutral way possible) I hope that it doesn't cater towards ppl who romanced him because that's so limiting.
#it all feels very solas. not centric. but similar#i just wish the hardcore solas fans on twitter would let people complain in peace and not go#'I’m gonna be real the doom posting is getting a bit much lmaoooo'#like what does that help? let people be fuckin haters. we'll go back to being enjoyers. sometimes you just need to be a hater lmao#as long as you balance it out with actual enjoyment#every time i peak at twitter (rare) the fy tab is either hardcore solas enjoyers being kinda uppity and holier than thou#and ppl who just like. romanced anyone else. being like. 'hey can we not act like everyone romanced solas?#or even romanced him with a f!lavellan?'#god forbid#personal
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yeah imma just chalk today up as not a great art day it was a day for duds i guess back at it again tomorrow tho
#at least i drew i guess#the overall anatomy is pretty much done#i’ll work on clothes tomorrow and make sure to study for an hour before hand#today my only real goal was to draw at all and i did#god i wish i worked less slow#and was less ruled by mental illness lmaoooo#lyriumsings txt#i need adderall tbh i wish i could go get tested
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just realised that as far as i recall it hwu mc doesn’t cry at any point in hunts date quests and i think this is the biggest evidence of them being weird. not that people who don’t cry are weird but hwu mc specifically is very weird for not crying
#pixelberry leaned on so hard on mc pursuing hunt so He wouldn’t be a creep. that not only it made mc a creep but just…#badly written as a person. that’s not a reason person lmaooooo#real*#they get nervous and like. sad i guess at some points but those are underwhelming reactions to what is going on in their life. when they ar#Not a person with small emotions. they are reckless and selfish and entitled#like mc is blackmailed by bianca and they uh. don’t get super fucking worried about potentially destroying hunts life and career??#they try to fight bianca and go against her wishes which is just so. immature and NOT how you would act in this situation esp if you Care#about the person you are dating? if you see how SERIOUS this entire situation is? if you are aware of how fucked up is for a prof and a#student to date? lmao. it’s not a joke man#okay i guess the problem is not even them not crying is that their reactions don’t match what’s going on. this is not a emotionally stable#person. they are not mature. for gods sake they bought a ticket and stalked their professor to a masquerade ball and kissed him under false#pretences. and i know i just said they react weirdly to bianca’s blackmail but what i mean is that it’s. inconsistent#and also lmaoooo hunt is being extremely mean to them and like they Deserve it but at the same time they don’t even bat an eye?#i guess they’re too delusional for that but come on it must hurt a littleee#at the end of date auction when hunt leaves they’re like well that’s life without thomas hunt :( and i’m like man. idk. i think this#should’ve gone differently#i don’t know these quests always read as if mc Was Right All Along and that justifies their behaviour which is weird but also. because mc#‘was right all along’ they also didn’t put effort into making mc react like a real person. since they were so convicted. and Correct#so like hunt being mean to them doesn’t hurt them because he’s just masking his feelings. and because mc is Correct this is True. and also#means they wouldn’t be hurt by it since he doesn’t mean it. which is not how human beings fucking WORK#actually a person like mc Should be really hurt because they’re entitled have no regards for peoples feelings and think they’re correct#okay about the inconsistency. they want mc to be super mature so it makes sense why hunt would date this person but that makes mc ooc and…#weirdly calm about everything. and then at the same time they need/want mc to do things that a mature person would not do to move the plot#this is rambly i’ve just been thinking ahout this lately because there’s a line in first date that really pisses me off
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ugh hate when I want content for a thing but I gotta make it myself
#personal#god forbid i like a rarepair lmaoooo#im already 3 fics in the ao3 tag#itll probably be more lets be real#but anyway i think ive seen all fanart for it ever so. ugh. gotta make my own goddamit#which means i have to DRAW#i have to learn more. Annoying!!!!#but also i enjoy drawing#i just wish i was better#but i know i have to draw more to get better#a very cruel cycle#at least i can draw hands#like stylized i cant do realistic stuff lmao but they still look nice
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s6 episode 6 thoughts
a christmas episode!! and i shall be watching it exactly one month after christmas. this does make me a little sad; i wish i could travel back in time with what i know now and watch it then. and then maybe i’d feel all festive. but! what can you do? i shall embrace it even though there stands between me and christmas 11 months.
i haven’t watched an episode in a week-ish, so i’m excited to get back into the swing of things. let’s gooo!!
post-episode thoughts: oh my god, this episode was incredible. what if we (platonically) went to the house where two lovers famously kill other lovers each christmas? and then those ghosts tormented us with our deepest insecurities? and when they tried to trick us into killing each other, our love was simply too strong and we wouldn't fall for it? would that be festive? would you hold my hand when we walked across the rickety floorboards and found our own bodies beneath them?
love... it's alive, and well. or, in some cases, dead and well <3
PLEASE tell me what you thought of this episode. i want to go into depth on each line and do intense character analysis.
but back to past me:
well, why are they in a haunted house in maryland on christmas eve?? is kersh punishing them with a christmas assignment?
(the answer is no. it was all mulder. honestly, i should have expected that by now)
let us open with some spoooooky organ music. while mulder has christmas songs on in the car!
scully pulls in late!! she was in the checkout line, buying gifts!! “if i heard silent night one more time, i was going to start taking hostages” <- lmaoooo, i love her!!!!! she is so real for that. she truly has endured so much.
he brought her here for a stakeout?! “on christmas eve.” “it’s an important date” “no kidding” <- BAHAHA, i love when she’s a smartass. now, why are they doing this!!!
she has wrapping to do!!! he looks in her car and sees she has gifts. and he sadly says "oh...." but she acquiesces and gets in his car to hear this spooky story
SHE’S GOT HOLIDAY CHEER TO SPREAD, DAMNIT!!
(this line KILLED me. seems she does NOT play when it comes to the holiday season!)
she has FAMILY ROLL CALL at 6 am?!?! oh. god bless her poor soul.
he locks the car before she can get out and says he’ll make it fast, bahaha (loud scully sigh)
he starts talking about christmas 1917, and did he mention it was a time of “dark, dark despair?” well, it was.
oh, now she’s hooked on this story of star-crossed lovers. i heard the interest in that “go on”.
maurice was “brooding” and “heroic”, and he loved lyda, who had a “light that seemed to follow her wherever she went”; they ended their lives together so they would never be apart. and now, each christmas eve, they come back to haunt this spooky house in maryland.
AWWW, she compliments how he told the story, and says it’s a good one, but she does not believe it.
“you don’t believe in ghosts?!” “that surprises you?” <- STOP, SHE IS SO FUNNY, LMAOOOO
“well, yeah! i thought everybody believed in ghosts” ohhhh… okay. yeah, he would think that.
she has to go now, and he starts to enter the spooky house. she asks “don’t you have somewhere to be?” and to that i ask, oh, my poor, sweet scully, where would he go? to the vineyard? last time we saw his mom, he was tripping on K, accused her of having an affair, and then she slapped him and he left scully at her house. i hope they made up for that. but i haven’t seen or heard any indication either way.
she does not want to follow his ass in: “i’m not gonna do it. my new year’s resolution” <- bahaha, but where are her keys???
oooo, spooky thunder!! clocks chiming eerily!!! she just wants her keys, and he claims that he does not have them!! do we believe him?? hmm… jury’s still out on that one.
scully knows the weather said there is an 80% chance of rain!! maybe even a white christmas!! oh, but instead of letting her enjoy such a thing, the doors crash and lock them both inside!!!
(something about her wanting a white christmas made me emotional in a way i cannot quite articulate. she's kind of a romantic. and i love that for her <3)
(intro time) ooooo, sooo spOoOOoky!
oh, so just when i think we’ll never see it again, they DO hit us with the full intro!!!! chris carter, i am onto your tricks. but i much prefer the full intro. it feels so right.
back to this spooky mansion.
LET HER OUT!! he is not helping her escape and is instead telling her there is nothing to be afraid of because “ghosts are benevolent entities…. mostly”
hey man. that's not super reassuring.
she tries to check the time- and the clock strangely matches her watch, which is super weird for an abandoned old house- and then declares that she REALLY HAS TO GET HOME, when some sort of figure in white appears in a crack of thunder!!!
LMAOOOO, SHE IS JUST MONOLOGUING ABOUT HOW RIDICULOUS SOCIETY IS FOR EXPECTING GHOSTS TO BE REAL. i would have copied it down, but it just KEPT going and i kept laughing.
she admits to being afraid. and i love that. i love that her method for dealing with fear is to infodump. yeah. you tell ‘em, girl! tell them about the essence of humanity and the unconscious yearnings to live forever!!
but it’s an IRRATIONAL fear, she points out! i would be afraid, too! of spooky ghosts AND rabid bats, rotting wood, lead paint, and other dangers of creepy abandoned buildings!
she goes ahead to investigate this other room, and he says “i’ve got your back” bahaha
she asks if maybe someone lives here, because look!! the light is on in the library!! they have a LIBRARY?? woah, i don’t even know what this room is- it's got bookshelves on the walls, but almost looks like a ballroom on the floor- but it sure is cool!!
so the clock downstairs is somehow still keeping time which is super weird for an abandoned old building, and something is… smoking, it looks like? yeah, maybe it isn’t abandoned. hmm…
it’s the fireplace- it was just put out! “why would anyone want to live in a cursed house?” “mulder, it’s not enough for it to be haunted? it has to be cursed?” LMAOOO
oh, he just now CASUALLY drops that there have been 3 double murders (all of couples) in the last 80 years, and all of them were on christmas eve. GET TF OUT OF THERE!!! this seems like RELEVANT INFORMATION THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN MENTIONED BEFORE YOU BROUGHT YOUR PARTNER INTO THIS DEATH TRAP!!
and then the lights go out!! and a door slams!!! and there is some weird sound and creaking floorboards…. they’re locked in!!
he’s trying to listen to the floor….
AWWW, HE SCARED HER!!!! he held the flashlight under his face and she yelled “that’s NOT funny!” <- you tell him!!
he wants to free someone from beneath the floor boards? how did he hear someone beneath the floor? but it’s just a dead body. so i guess he was half right, as he declares. looks super dead. as in dead for a very long time. oh, and there’s another!!
a man and a woman!! shot to death. and she has bright red hair. coincidence….?
well, must be not, because scully points out that the dead woman is WEARING HER OUTFIT.
(he laughs) “how embarrassing” <- LMAOOO, NOW YOU STFUUUU!!!!!
(i'm so used to his dumbass one liners, but this one really killed me for some reason)
and at first i didn’t notice, because the dead guy had a winter coat on and mulder just had a leather jacket, but he is wearing his outfit!! they put together that it is somehow them, and they RUN!!
at first i thought it was the original couple that died, but how would they get under the floor? so maybe it actually is mulder and scully in some cosmic way. don’t question it too hard.
they ran into the same room!!! well, maybe if you have one stylish room, you just make it again. and again.
nooo!! the rooms are looping!! and they get separated somehow!!
i wish the lighting was better; i want to stare at these paintings on the walls. they look so pretty. i wonder if they built this creepy house just for this episode and decorated it all spooky, or if there’s a stock studio haunted mansion set that gets used for lots of shows and movies. the frames are so pretty!
but back to the problem at hand. where is scully?? he’s yelling, but she’s not responding!!
he shoots th,e handle of the door and opens it to a brick wall???
A MAN APPEARS!! “who are you?” “that’s a question i should be asking you, being this is my house you’re standing in” <- GET HIS ASS!!
perhaps they shall finally face consequences for breaking and entering.
mysterious man flicks on the lights.
mysterious man seems to be unable to tell that the door leads straight to a brick wall, or perhaps mulder is somehow seeing that. mulder says “we”, tipping off the man that there is someone else here. but mulder goes straight to accusing him of being a ghost! a bold move…
mystery guy laughs and asks mulder if he’s a ghost hunter, saying a lot of strange folks come around. he tries to deflect with a “strange folks? like those under the floor-“ but when he turns around, there is nothing there apart from some furniture!!
you know shit is going down when the mystery old man says “why don’t you have a seat, son”
oh plot twist, mystery man reveals he is in the field of mental health and specializes in “disorders and manias related to pathological behavior as it pertains to the paranormal”. okay, yeah, now i definitely believe that this dude is a real ghost and he is just doing all this to personally torture mulder.
the type of ghost hunter this mystery man encounters, and therefore he also he believes mulder to be, is as follows: a “narcissistic, overzealous, self-righteous egomaniac”; “you kindly think of yourself as single-minded, but you’re prone to obsessive compulsiveness, workaholism, antisocialism- fertile fields for the descent into total wacko breakdown” BAHAHAHA
well. yes!
while i do support generally roasting mulder for his various qualities, i also need to know where scully is.
“you know why you think you’ve seen the things you do?” “because… i have seen them?” okay, sassy!
“‘cause you’re a lonely man” <- OH DAMN. that shut him up.
mystery man is really being mean now… OH SHIT, did mulder steal scully's car keys to get her to stick around with him??? i hope that isn't true, but knowing him, it probably is, and that behavior seems to match some of those adjectives that were tossed about moments before
“you know why you do it- listen endlessly to her droning rationalizations. ‘cause you’re afraid. afraid of the loneliness” <- oh man. now you’ve got him sad and pondering. he looks like he’s gonna cry, but he’s gonna try and be tough about it and smile. and say politely that he would like to find his partner.
(and i would like to contemplate these lines- do we think they are true? or do we think mystery man just wanted to hit him where it hurts? "droning rationalizations" is pretty harsh; seeing scully as nothing more than a beacon against being alone doesn't seem to capture their dynamic accurately, unless you interpret it in the most selfish light possible, which is probably what that mean inner voice of mulder's head does. hmm...)
and now the brick wall behind the door is gone and mystery man can just walk through…. but mulder cannot!!! it is just a real brick wall!! and he slams his beautiful nose!!!
so... did he imagine all of that???
scully is still yelling for him!!
NOOOOO, SCULLY GETS SO SCARED AND SCREAMS AND PULLS OUT HER GUN WHEN THIS LADY APPEARS LMAOOOOO she’s absolutely SHAKING “please, i’m a little on edge” <- yeah queen, we can tell 💜
ohhh, poor sweet scully, apologizing for scaring this lady; it’s just that they found bodies! and when she tries to show her where the bodies are… there is only furniture!!
she very rarely gets scared. must have been the combo of spookiness on a night she associated with being cozy and warm. and also seeing what she does not believe in. AND being separated from mulder. truly multiple things factoring into her fear here.
scully has her gun aimed at this mystery woman, and her hands are shaking as she asks “where’s my partner?” - and when she goes to open the door, there is also! just! a! brick! wall!
how can this keep happening?!
she circling the mystery woman, holding her gun, and i guess we’re getting some psychoanalysis on both ends of this brick wall:
“oh, you poor child. you must have an awful small life. spending your christmas eve with him, running around chasing things you don’t even believe in” oh, wow... that is so mean.........
LMAO, mystery woman is going on about the “subconscious desire to find fulfillment through another” and “intimacy through co-dependency” (which. okay. yeah, that one is accurate) and scully's dirty little secret that “your only joy in life is proving him wrong”.
but unlike mulder, who was taking this analysis sitting down, she seems scared, but still spits out “you don’t know me!" i LOVE that about her!! truly!!!
“and this isn’t your house” “you wouldn’t think so, the way i’m being treated” DAMN! these ghosts are gagging them 💀💀💀
“well, then, why is all of the furniture covered?” “we’re having the house painted” “well, then where’s your christmas tree?” “we’re jewish” LMAOOO
enter mystery man!!!! scully is telling him to NOT MOVE or she WILL SHOOT HIM!!!! she needs to know WHERE MULDER IS!! and these ghosts better MOVE OVER THERE!!!!!!!
“this violates our civil rights!! i have friends at the ACLU!!” LMAOOOO
well, she makes them put their hands up, and mystery woman has a hole blown completely through her belly. so. not great. and his hat is hiding the bullet hole through his head!!!
i mean, it was pretty obvious that these here ghosts were lyda and maurice, but i wanted to go along with the mystery bit until the big reveal. and now i shall use their government names.
SCULLY!!! SHE PASSED OUT!!!! OHHHHH, POOR BABY
the ghosts are lamenting that they used to get years to drive the visitors mad, but now they get just ONE NIGHT!!! i would be pissed, too!!!
BAHAHA, WHAT? “look, if we let our reputations slip, they’re going to take us off the tourist literature” <- BAHAHAHA OH MY GOD. wait, hold on, that’s so fucking funny.
she picked christmas as their one night a year because that is when people have no HOPE LMAOOOO and maurice looks down and says “these two do seem pretty miserable”
they smooch over poor scully’s fainted body as they declare they must show them how lonely christmas can be!!
mulder is climbing up the bookshelves, trying to get tf out of this trap room, when lyda arrives!! she calls him a “masher” (i don’t know what this means, so i hope it is not offensive) and he fires back with “frump”, only to be met by ANOTHER brick wall
(dictionary.com says that a masher is "a man who makes advances, especially to women he does not know, with a view to physical intimacy". so now we know! she accused him of hitting on her!)
“what happened to the star crossed lovers?” “oh, let me tell you, the romance is the first thing to go” <- that is a CRAZY thing to say about the guy you ended your life with 💀💀
he realizes that she is lyda, and the man is maurice!!
she summons books from the shelves!! and says she was young and beautiful once, just like your partner. she hands him a book telling their story. so i guess you can still age in the afterlife. who knew?
she’s sitting down and he’s standing in front of her, but the focus gets all fuzzy and weird when the camera turns to him. i can’t tell if this came from reshoots or what, but lyda is crisp and clear and he is not 💀
she assumes they came here “to be together for eternity”, which gets him giggling
“you knew this house was haunted, maybe you two should have discussed your real feelings before you came out here” OHH! SHE IS GOING THERE!!
taunt him. he just confessed his love a few episodes ago!!! do not think i forgot!!
and lyda shows him the hole in her CHEST??? i swear it was just in her belly with scully. “i don’t show my hole to just anyone” is INSANE, LMAOOO
“oh, you’re trying to tell me that scully’s going to shoot me. scully is NOT going to shoot me” AWWW, i love the certainty with which he said that
“maybe she shoots herself” “i wouldn’t let her” ohhhh…. he is so confident… but trickery is afoot, so who knows??
(also, i think lyda's line, “if you shoot first, for her, the rest is an act of faith” is a very fascinating one. one i want to unpack for years to come. but i do not have the capacity to do it now, so i am simply noting it)
OH MY GOD??? she’s trying to tell him to end their lives together???
(he sighs) “we’re not lovers”
“and this isn’t a pure science. but you’re both so attractive, and there will be a lot of time to work that out.” (she hands him the gun) “think of it as the last christmas you’ll spend alone”
she drops the gun and disappears
so, do lyda and maurice need people (couples, specifically) to either kill themselves or be killed in order to maintain their spooky reputation? and maybe their spooky power? maybe since they haven’t had a couple’s death in a long time, that is why they can only haunt people on christmas? like, they only have enough spectral energy from the blood sacrifices to show up one day a year? i’m trying to flesh this out here.
scully wakes up!!! she’s alone with her gun and flashlight, and she still can’t get the door open!! when maurice reappears!!
“i am quite capable of pulling this trigger”, she warns him, and we know that to be very true!!
OH NO!!! i see where this is going… maurice is going to try and convince her that mulder wants to kill her… so she will shoot him first, and then they can be together forever or something…
she says that it is all just a bad dream, and it’s in her head, but. well. here she is. interesting rationalization on her part. i would have expected her to pull the folie a deux card.
maurice hands her the car keys, saying that mulder is acting out "an unconscious yearning from the deep-seated terror of being alone” <- so would that make him a threat? does he genuinely want to convince her that mulder is going to kill her so they can always be together?
mulder’s pounding on the door and yelling for her. she takes the keys and tells maurice to open the door. she has her gun trained on him….
she doesn’t believe him that mulder wants to kill her!!!!
mulder opens the door… and asks where scully is… AND HE SHOOTS???????
WHAT!!!!
okay, but he’s not shooting HER!!! he's shooting nearby though, so please be careful. she’s scared!!!
why is he being crazy!!! look at that physical acting!! he's deranged!! he says all that is out there is loneliness!!! AND THEN HE SHOOTS HER FOR REAL????
she falls over as she bleeds into her white blouse…. he stands over her, saying “merry christmas, scully”
but!!! it was really lyda that took his shape to shoot her!!!!
so he didn’t REALLY do any of that???? but scully thinks he did!
he runs in, finds her bleeding out on the floor!!! “i didn’t believe that you’d do it”
OHHHH, but then it must not really be scully either, because as she is bleeding out, she shoots HIM!!!
but it was really just lyda and maurice playing around???
SO IS SCULLY HURT OR NOT????? JUST ANSWER THE QUESTION!!!
scully is crawling away dying as "have yourself a merry little christmas" plays, and mulder is also crawling with a gaping stomach wound- or are they really the ghosts taking their forms? i don’t KNOW!!
they’re crawling toward each other, their blood and gore all over the floor, and here i ask: what the fuck is happening? mulder’s yelling after her, and they both have their guns pointed at each other.
she asks if he’s afraid, and she says she is, and he admits he is too; “i didn’t shoot you, you shot me!” so their stories diverge...
they’re rolling around in their blood and dying. hey guys. merry christmas.
but then he gets up, and says she’s not been shot, and neither has he!!! it was all a trick!!!!
they run outside, and there is no blood on them at all!!! they get into their cars and drive away!!!!
so, were they in pain like they WERE shot? did they feel like they were dying? or did mulder realize that it was weird he was in no pain despite being shot and then got up and defeated their ghostly tricks?
lyda and maurice lament how they almost had those two, and how christmas is another joyless day of the year- but not for them. “no, we haven’t forgotten the meaning of christmas”; they hold hands and then fade away
STOP! they’re making me sad!!!!
mulder’s at home, watching a christmas carol alone. and it seems to be his usual couch he has back, so i wonder if he managed to restore all of his things after the morris redecorating incident!!! he looks so sad, though!!!
there’s a knocking at his door…. he is suspicious…. it’s scully!!! she couldn’t sleep!!! oh, she asks to come in- she must be so nervous!! she never asks to come in!!! he grabs her by the shoulder
he poses a great question: “aren’t you supposed to be opening christmas gifts with your family?” (she did mention it around a billion times)
“mulder… none of that really happened out there tonight. that was all in our heads, right?” <- ohhh… what do you say to this… a proposed collective hallucination??
he waits a second. “it-it must have been”
(this, too, is FASCINATING. he never agrees with her rationalizations! why does he do it now? does he want her to have some peace for the holidays? i suppose a collective hallucination is less concerning than upending your entire belief system, but not by much!)
they’re both sleep deprived and mumbling about the ghosts poking at their biggest insecurities:
“not that, uh, my only joy in life is proving you wrong”
“when have you proved me wrong?”
“well, why else would you want me out there with you?”
“you didn’t want to be there? oh, that’s um, that’s self-righteous and… narcissistic of me to say, isn’t it?”
“no… maybe i did want to be out there with you”
AWWW, they have no idea wtf is going on, but look at the way he is LOOKING at her as she nearly falls asleep standing up, OH!!! i could cry!!!
they said they wouldn’t exchange gifts, but he has something for her!!! when did they say they wouldn’t do that?!! and he broke that promise anyway!!! look at his big stupid smile!!! look at her face when she sees it!!!!
and she has something for him too!!! and they run to the couch and open each other's gifts! but we don’t get to see what they are!!!
and as the camera pulls away, we see snow falling out of the window!!!
OHHH, MY HEART!!!!
man…
lyda and maurice might actually be the ideal relationship. because i want to haunt people romantically forever. that is so beautiful.
oh, how did we manage to get such excellent character analysis AND silly fluff in one episode??? i feel like i’m going crazy!!!
okay, my biggest question: did he really take her keys??? no one says it outright or not!! it’s implied, but not confirmed either way!! if he did take her keys, that is not a point in his favor. but it would speak to the character flaws maurice accused him of having, in a drastically oversimplified sense. did he steal her keys and make her come out there so he wouldn't be alone on christmas? how can someone be so selfless and selfish?
hold on, i need to watch them open the gifts again… he’s shaking it around, trying to figure out what it is!!! and she’s laughing as she tries to pop it open!!!
ohhh my GOD. i need to go take a nap…….
they’re not lonely!!! they have each other!!! and even the ghosts tease them about having feelings they aren't admitting!!!
scully was completely ready to just die on that floor, LMAO
oh, she was so scared!! but she still meant business! she was going to have those ghosts stand against the wall and lift their hands, even if that meant she was going to faint!!
(when faced with people with holes in their body, usually she would not faint, but alas. she is used to this on dead people and dead people alone)
there are definitely some thing in this episode i am still trying to work out logic-wise (was lyda shot in her stomach or her chest? did she change where she was shot to mess with each of them? was lyda pretending to be scully for like, the whole thing after they first met? so how much did they actually experience in their own bodies? and therefore, it was the ghosts that were shooting them, not scully and mulder shooting at each other- but they both ended up fake shot in the end, and then the ghosts hoped that if they have them real guns, they would finish the job- right? how can we analyze the different strategies the ghosts used on each of them to convince them to shoot the other- telling scully that mulder is a danger to her, and telling mulder that if he does this, he will never be alone? is that a foreplay thing for lyda and maurice?)
but overall, i got the gist of it and enjoyed it very much. i think there will be plenty to turn around in my head and analyze for many moons to come.
and i might sound like a rabid MSR truther, but i would very much like to think that they fell asleep on his stupid little couch after exchanging presents and felt each other breathe for a bit to make up for their exhausting evening before scully left to go deal with her family.
she needed to talk to him first before she did all of that family stuff… she was so bothered by it… and the way he just agreed with her that it was probably all in their heads… is he doing that to try and reassure her everything is okay, or is he agreeing because he doesn’t want to think there is any meaning to it???
GOD! i need to turn this one around in my brain for a bit.
the set was also super cool. i wanted to pause and look at stuff!!!
i am very pleased. i would have been likely even more so pleased had i watched this a month ago, but now i can go back and watch it every christmas as i desire! definitely a nice change of pace from the previous christmas episodes that shall not be spoken of in this post.
but it was a very good episode, even if i am trying to crack the specific character implications (which will continue at length in the tags). some of y'all have had 25 years to do a deep dive into every line, reflect on how the characters see themselves vs who they truly are, and so on, but given that i have had 1 day, i have a lot of catching up to do!
(i would be interested in reading an analysis on this episode, or many other episodes, but those analysis posts tend to always have spoilers in them for things that happen down the road. so i shan't)
oh, scared, shaking scully, starting out apologizing for spooking lyda, then waving her gun around until they did what she said so she could find her mulder…. lifting up maurice’s hat and then passing tf out… rambling all about human nature and irrational fears as she was spooked by the scary old house… refusing to believe mulder would hurt her, and then having to confront the vision of him doing so... UGH!!!!! i just cannot TAKE IT!!! i hope they had the merriest christmas ever after this!!
it looked like she got him a video tape?? maybe a book? but it looked more like a tape to me. and what did he get her in that tube!! a poster of some sort, maybe?? i can’t think of many things that come in tubes. maybe he got her a nice print for her apartment walls. she loves her prints.
tonight, i shall dream beautiful dreams of being a ghost with the one you love forever and making sure that you keep your scary reputation, lest the tourists stop visiting you.
#still turning things over in my mind regarding the character analysis provided by the ghosts who torture them#i mean you could see their takes as accurate if you were committed to interpreting their characters as negatively as possible#which makes sense if you consider the ghosts saying out loud what their deepest fears tell them they are#but still they don't make entire sense#like scully's only joy in life being proving him wrong just seems blatantly false even if it is a funny idea#lyda got her ass though with the whole intimacy through codependency thing. no lies were told there.#interesting that mulder seems incredibly aware that the things he does and the way he acts make him seem like a self-righteous egomaniac#and we know that scully also sees him as such thanks to the conversation on the rock#but it's like he cannot stop doing it because it's just the way he is. what does that say about a person?#much to consider. and consider it i shall.#juni's x files liveblog#6x06#the x files#txf
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AGATHA ALL ALONG EPISODE SEVEN SPOILERS AHEAD
YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED
Back at it again with the thoughts on Agatha all Along episode 7. I’m ready for this ride. Buckle up cowgirls.
OMG LILIA DONT DO THIS TO ME
Okay. I didn’t really need the recap but I totally watched the recap.
RIO HAS BEEN MENTIONED.
2:50
EX
best friend
Iconic. I knew there was something between them.
2:56
HOW DARE YOU YOU LITTLE BITCH YOU DONT DISRESPECT WANDA MAXIMOFF. SHE (possibly) GAVE HER FUCKING LIFE FOR YOU YOU UNGRATEFUL CUNT
3:30
HAH this had me literally cackling bro ✋😭😭😭
It’s so iconic though like. Me too girl
3:42
What in the hotel Transylvania?!
3:45
You can be my mistress
3:52
SHUT THE FUCK UP I HATE YOU BITCH
Guys… I hate that little twink
4:14
You can see the hurt in her eyes. That cut deep. And I hate teen for it. There’s no way bro. I’m so angry. She is gonna be a meanie now 😖🔫
4:40
FUCKING WIZARD OF OZ (and wicked. Come at me) I FUCKING LOVE THIS SHIT I LOVE WICKED TOO IM SO EXCITED
I might love Angelina Jolie and her role but fuck you Billy. (I forgot to mention I will be jumping back and forth between Billy and teen now lol)
6:06
That’s a lot of swords bro ✋😭
6:30
YEAH SHES BEING FUCKING TRUTHFUL YOU BITCH TAKE THAT SWORD YOU BITCH
7:04
Damn. Kinda wish you didn’t move
7:35
LILIAAAAA YEAAAAHHHHHH
8:02
Oh lorrrddddd
TEEN IS THE SON OF THE SCARLET WITCH HOW DO YOU KNOW?!
So iconic
8:35
She’s so real for that. Fuck you Jen
9:12
Wtffff I’m terrified. She’s terrified so I’m terrified
9:33
Poor baby.
10:25
POOR BABY I LOVE YOU BABY
10:50
I HATE YOU
10:52
Nvm. You’re chillin. Still don’t like you but I don’t hate you. Take care of my baby
11:30
Wait. Noooo I’m so scared
11:41
NO YOURE LYING STOP
11:51
LMAOOOOO PFTFFTFTFTTTT
12:07
DO IT FOR ALL OF US WE ARE NOT COOL
12:13
BAHAHAHHAHAAAA “damn using his full name” WTFFFF
12:40
Nah shit lol
12:49
FUCK YEAH
13:20
Me every damn day
14:13
Okay we’ll time is not of the essence right now
14:44
LEAVE MY BABY ALONE
15:20
Just a baby guys. My baby. My baby. You’re my baby say it to me.
15:58
So fucking real but quit with the attitude Jen. I’ll punch you
16:09
IS THAT TEENS BOOK?!
16:23
DONT HIDE IT BRO
16:30
Me too gurl.
16:41
That is traumatizing
17:21
CALL ME BABY BRO…. Oh my god. I’m so bad. I’m so so bad. She’s an older esteemed gentlewoman and I am 18. I’m a fucking slut bro ✋😭
17:39
Querent? More like queerent WAIT OMG WE TWINS LMAOOOO
17:57
That’s so real
18:08
You’re a bitch. That’s what you are. I’m not as angry. But the way you treated my wife earlier… I hold grudges. And I hope rio does too.
19:10
Yeah. Enormous potential to get absolutely socked by me.
(Maybe I’m a little salty)
19:32
REJNION BRING BACK MY WIVES
19:38
Me with my essay bro ✋😭
20:02
IM MISSING A WIFE
20:26
That’s so fucking sad baby. I love you. I’ll take care of you.
You know what?? I bet she was terrified of getting sick even a little bit after this.
21:00
NOO I STG YOU BETTER STAY AWAY FROM TALP THIJGS BRO
22:13
WHY THEY LOOK LIKE THAT WHY THEY WALKING LIIE THAT BRO
22:35
Logically. I know Jen joins her. But I still feel like I’d believe it if she left
22:39
Awwww okay. I don’t not like Jen anymore. Sisters. We’re sisters. There were never much devoted sisters
23:02
YOU KNOW SOMETHING. YOU KNOW SOMETHING AND IF IT IS MORE THAN JUST YOU FALLING THEN ILL FIGHT YOU
23:05
Okay. I got it lol
23:20
Who is this diva?
23:57
THE COVEN HELL YEAHHG
24:30
Slay
24:40
DONT PLAY WITH ME ILL KMS SO HARD
24:54
If youre about to tell me that I’m not actually about to find out that Wanda’s tower reversed I’ll fight.
25:07
OH LAWD IM SCARED
25:09
OH LORD THAT WAS AGGRESSIVE
25:28
THAT SHIT ACTUALLY MADE ME GASP AND SCREAM IN MY DORM AT 11:09 AT NIGHT BRO
HELP WHAT IS THAT?!
25:32
NO RIO I LOVE YOU YES RIO BUT DO NOT KILL HER PLEASE DONT KILL HER RIO I LOVE YOU. PLEASE DONT KILL HER
25:52
THEY JUST CINFIRMED WHAT WE ALREADY KNEW BRO
25:59
I LITERALLY JUST SAID OUT LOUD “oh that’s hot”
✋😭😭
26:02
YAAASSSSSS WE BEEN KNEW THIS THOUGH
26:30
OH SHE ANGRY
26:43
Dayummmm she angry angry. I mean. I guess I would be too.
26:48
Idk what y’all heard but all I heard was MOMMY
27:02
HELL YEAH BABAYYYY
27:17
If it is Rio calling her a coward I will actually shoot someone.
27:23
Why the captions spell magic like magick? Anybody know that one? I’m not a witch so I wouldn’t know
27:35
OH FUCK NOOOOO
28:20
OH FUCK NO DONT LET THEM TAKE YOU BABY
28:35
GRAVITY
28:39
Okay little boo thangs Salem seven lollll they be swimming ✋😭🤣
28:57
WAIT IS SHE KILLING THEM?!?!
29:04
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO KM GONNA CRY IM SCTUSKKY GONNA CRY SO HARD DONT LET GO BABY DONT LET GO
29:11
NO FUCK NO NO NO NO
Omg I’m gonna throw up I’m getting so worked up
29:26
Thank you for not showing us that. I’m okay with gore. I’m not okay with heartbreak. Even though my heart is broken.
29:46
Awww she’s just a baby. Just a wee baby.
I have a love hate relationship with Jac Schaeffer
I’d much rather blame Kevin fiege. He’s def behind this all. Also. I’m a man hater so yeah lol (not fr tho)
In conclusion: I’m kms.
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gmmtv 25 ql musings :0)
ok so gmmtv went into oprah mode and said you get a series you get a series you get a series you get a series you get a series you get
Dare You to Death
JoongDunk said "no, we are not turning in our fake guns after the THK shoot". i like their sexy and cheeky flirting, it fits them. and speaking of things that fit... that slim cut suit, it really fits Dunk 😜
i like the plot, with the slasher, mystery, whodunit vibes... and i liked seeing the new faces as side characters (the victims, more like) especially Ohm and Pahn.
Head 2 Head
i dont know anything about these actors. apparently they are beloved enough to get a second series but i never saw anyone i follow talking about them, ever. most of the time i watch series through my following's incessant posts lol but w them, i am in a blind spot. and it seems that will stay the same w this series as well.
Burnout Syndrome
hey, did anyone see my wig around? it seems i lost it the moment this trailer come on?
when it first started i was like WAITTTTTTTTT am i getting that SATC Gun series by Jojo but the mood was too mellow for him. but the universe had even better plans for me. i am not embarrassed to admit i DID a little jig when Nuchy's name came on the screen. maybe God is real because all the collective praying about OffGun working again w Nuchy paid off. i am attracted to Off always and forever but he is even hotter through Nuchy's lens like she knows how to serve him up... Cold, sexy, confident, smoking Off... Call boy Gun, a love triangle, just mess all around. The way it already looks like not a pilot but a final trailer. Thank you for your service Nuchy, you are unmatched. I will be tuning in every week with drinks and snacks.
Whale Store xoxo
My girls MilkLove out of the uniforms, now that's a sight i like to see. i like that this time the main plot is more relatable to me: nightmare that is being in your 20's. very cute without being saccharine and i like when Love gets flirty. and no comments about Milk licking cat food, i understand how lesbian flirting can get very strange.
Only Friends : Dream On
can i just say upfront, the trailer was just gorgeous?? i loved the perfectly choreographed beginning. i was watching it with my mouth wide open, just trying to register all the information. and it DID look like a fast paced ensemble theater play. very meta haha
siren Mix in a frilly shirt, Earth in those glasses, Leng twinking it out, Ohm playing the saxophone???, JOSSGAWIN again, that Challengers ass music, everyone in those slutty tank tops and see through shirts, BOSTON my favorite troublemaker showing up just to bless this mess... i wish i can delete this from my memory and be gagged again and again and again
i love Only Friends' chaos and i think its stupid to take these messy shows THAT seriously. even though there is a hefty amount of loud shipper fans demanding for their fav actors to ONLY play morally good characters, ONLY in their brand pair, i ADOREEEEEEE that they didnt back down and doubled down on this entagled, morally gray mess with even more beloved actors to piss off more delulus... yes, I will be tuning to the mayhem on the screen and on the social media every week.
also, cant wait for the rock theme song sung by Gawin, bc they would be stupid to not do that!!!!
EDIT: lmaoooo i thought, as the trailer had lots of Jojo-isms (he loves his Shakespeare and energetic trailers), he would direct this but he will be only the producer (i was actually surprised he would come back to this project as some people act like he killed their dog because the series ended in an disappointing way). so, okay, WHOOOO is the director then bc i didnt catch it?
That Summer
hmmm, okay. these unrelated plots piled over each other sounds exhausting to me, like here is an unruly kid sent away to get disciplined, then someone gets washed up ashore, identity mystery, then he turns out to be a PRINCE, there is mystery behind that too?? i am not smart enough for this… but i am sure WinnySatang will improve as a duo and actors even more w this project.
that shot of Satang holding up a pair of undies with abject horror on his face did make me genuinely cackle like, i love Satang's comedic timing (his performance was one of the best things about We Are).
alsooo, Neo must be the luckiest BL actor ever bc while some actors get flack for breathing next to a woman, he gets to not just openly be w his gf but also star in series w her now. i mean, i am glad for him, that's how it should be. and i cant believe i have to defend heterosexuality because of insane delusional fans.
My Romance Scammer
i love that after the wake of Thai Marriage Equality, instead of going full on romance drama about the sanctity of marriage with sentimental vibes... GMMTV decided to make a slapstick romcom about scammers using marriage law to deceive and steal. Love that. Big brained shit haha. I dont really care for these actor pairs but who knows... Plot made me laugh and I like being surprised.
Melody Of Secrets
i know this might sound VERY stupid but the reason ForceBook sometimes feel repetitive isnt just they keep playing the same dynamic (stoic Force, innocent Book) but also because they LOOK repetitive. they seem to always have the SAME styling, same makeup and even the same hair. Let's change it uppp, someone slap some fake tattoos on Book or put them in leather or something. Or at least, give me Force's long prince hair from Enchante back...
but I do like they went darker w the plot this time! and Jan looks hot and all serious in this role, i will be skimming to get to her scenes.
Love You Teacher does this count as born sexy yesterday lol? only BLs can get away w these weird plots, its their charm. i dont know if can watch this though as i still suffer nightmares from my teaching English to kindergarten & primary era. i felt it deeply when he was screaming about hating kids lmao (i DONT. but that teaching in a exploitative school really tests your mental health).
but as always, happy to see Sammy!!!! hope her screen time will be even more than the trailer and i love that it features an established couple, we dont get them often.
Mu-Te-Luv
every time i thought the trailer ended, new actors showed up. i am positively confused but kind of intrigued. and also positively gagged by Neo in that wig. happy to see Fluke, Lego, my queen Jan. also GMMTV dont play about OhmLeng, didnt foresee that, wow...
Cat For Cash
not for me but i feel like this specifically was made as a compensation for the ones who shipped FKT in Moonlight Chicken and were disappointed w the crumbs. I am sure FKT will have the time of their lives with surrounded by all those cats but filming with animals is a such a pain in the ass so i wish patience and luck to the crew...
Girl Rules
more like, girls rule, am i right :dddd the messy ensemble GL we were begging for finally arriving by Jojo himself........... NAMTAN AND LOVE KISSING??????? confident, kinda asshole-ish playgirl Milk?? Love bouncing on Milk to make out against a wall???? like did you read my diary or something??? also i cant w Film's name being Bambi... yeah, look at her, she is Bambi.
we know MilkLove and NamtanFilm will BRING it but curious to see ViewMim as well!!!
Boys In Love
GMMTV said "we have BEEN doing Heartstopper way before Heartstopper but just in case you forgot, here is us doing Heartstopper again." very cute, very lively. happy to see they decided to forgo the uniforms and opted for a pastel, colorful styling. that way, it does differ from other high school bls aesthetics-wise and it fits the youthful tone. PoddPapang as the sides... maybe it was too ambitious of us to imagine them getting mains immediately, they had just let been out of the basement, might take a while to get used to the sun and all...
what the fuck is up with that lazy title tho?
My Magic Prophecy
maybe bc it came on when i was at the point of "when is this showcase endingggg" but i am not feeling this. but glad to see jimmysea not separating this year and acting in a series w a layered and intricate plot again. plots wise, they really do have one of the most varied filmographies a BL couple could have.
A Dog and A Plane
so Jojo wasn't joking when he said he would have a sweet love story for 2025. Tay with those tattoos, New as a flight attendant, MarcPoon being lil weirdos again, the guy from LYKN, OAB??????
this kind of comedy is perfect w Jojo's fast pace. i can see like, remnants of maybe The Warp Effect but mostly i think this is a new territory for Jojo. its fun to see his evolution as a director and i trust his vision for this show as well.
Me and Thee
people asked and cried and begged for Phuwin to be the one pursuing Pond for once and GMMTV deliberated on it and said, "No. But you can have Est in a suit." Okay, that last part was for me. I decided to imagine this is the new gig of Est's character from Naughty Babe.
i think this is a great role for Pond bc he is perfect for goofy comedies (see Dirty Laundry), maybe because he is goofy and funny in real life too haha.
Wu
i think it would be hilarious if this turned out be another bromance...
Memoir Of Rati
period drama is a good choice for both couples but like. literally fuck everything else, did you see how Aye looks GORGEOUS in those period costumes??? are you kidding me?????? looking that good and she is playing the black cat lmaooo i wish she had her own couple so would have more screen time :(
yes, i am focusing on my attraction to Aye to suppress my rage about AouBoom being put into side couple prison again.
Ticket To Heaven
ohhhhhhhhhhhhh this eatsssssssssssssss. do i need to put that bald ariana gif again?
sometimes BLs do tackle heavy subjects but kind of shy away from fully opening up discussions (it happens a lot w SA and homophobia). glad to see this series going full on w the themes of religious guilt, homophobia, figuring out and developing your sexuality in an hostile environment, complex relationship between queerness and faith. and ofc Aof and GeminiFourth are skilled enough to pull it off. excited for this one. what a perfect one to finish this exhaustingly long showcase.
#gmmtv 2025#dare you to death#head 2 head#burnout syndrome#whale store xoxo#only friends: dream on#that summer#my romance scammer#melody of secrets#love you teacher#MuTeLuv#cat for cash#girl rules#boys in love#My Magic Prophecy#a dog and a plane#me and thee#wu#memoir of rati#ticket to heaven#this long ass post#it will be fun to come back to read these when these shows get released in like. at least 2 years lmao
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Pengu Ep 7 liveblog time!!
Oh boy.
Oh we are starting strong with a flashback huh
Oh no we are starting strong with some brotherly jealousy. Two minutes in and I am already leaning towards Oz killing his siblings to monopolize his mom's attention
"Is [Rex's car] made of real gold?" "It's just paint"
Not Jack smarter at 15 than Oz is at 50
NOT THE "PARENT NOT BEING PAID ENOUGH" COMING BACK
Also I was wrong Oz is the middle child it seems.
Oz such a lil cheater lol
Oh my god.
Ohhhh my god. That's almost worse than anything I could have expected.
I should have realized. I should have realized. A single moment of stupid, thoughtless, selfish cruelty is all it takes. And an unwillingness to ever face the reality of what he did.
And this makes his snapping at Vic for the Jack thing so much worse. Jack was the son who got shit done. And Oz killed him.
THE TAPPING AND THE BANGING AND THE TAPPING AND THE BANGING AND I CANNOT DEAL WITH THIS FUCKIGN SHOW OH MY GOD I CANNOT DEAL WITH THIS FUCKING SHOW HOW IS IT SUCH A BANGER EVEN WHEN IT MAKES ME WANNA DIE
Oh shit Vic's here lmao.
Why is there a gap between Sofia nabbing Francis and Sal showing up. Did sofia go it alone. I bet she did.
Fuck the guilt get me results
Love Sofia sending one of her boys to make sure Sal doesn't kill Oz. Sofia doesn't trust Sal, and Sal refutes the idea of Sofia leashing him. In any other show this would telegraph a late episode betrayal between them but with this show i really don't know
Love the scraping noise coming in before the visual
do you feel better ahhhhh
i need more sal and sofia
Sofia why cant you bring me breakfast too. i'll eat a singular toast for u
I love Francis ngl. She's so caustic even in the face of danger.
They didnt' have their umbrellas
Hahaha ngl sofia deserved that
oh my god i legit thought she was gonna brain julian with the kettle lmaoooo i love the way they do diegetic sound design
I kinda hope francis gets to kill julian ngl. i love julian but i just think its what francis deserves
"The Gigante and the Maroni families" not sal putting sofia's name first. this feels too prominent. i am scared
Oh boy oh boy oh boy if this wasn't a penguin show this would feel like a perfect place for Sal to twoface his opponent
Wow is sal dying of a heart attack. Right now? Bro. Timing.
Huh. I see what they're doing, with the stolen valor and the robbed victory. But I wish they'd set up the heart condition earlier.
Oh boy is this where Sofia breaks bad and kills a kiddo. Oh my god wait Gia is in a kid's psychiatric hospital Sofia literally reenacting her own trauma on this preteen she is so full of problems
SOFIA TURNING INTO HER DAD AND ALSO JULIAN HAHAHAHA
THIS IS A GIFT SOFIA BABY YOU NUTCASE
god i am glad she confessed though. like it was in the worst way possible to say that to a child but.
this is the only time we have seen sofia cry. not even when she found alberto.
DR SUBDROP DOING RAVE SHIT
sofia speedrunning self awareness in the penultimate episode
i am slightly afraid again that julian is gonna lobotomize sofia
sofia you were so close baby. you could have just walked away with your boy toy and a bag of cash and gone to metropolis
she should have gotten free wahhhhhhhhhh
we all know it's not gonna happen
we all know its not gonna happen
my heart is fucking palpatating rn
i need to pause my fucking blood pressure
IS SOFIA RUNNING FOR MAYOR. I WANT SOFIA TO RUN FOR MAYOR
AHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
OH MY GOD BOMB SHELTERING IN HIS BROTHERS GRAVES
HAHHAHAAH my prediction of Oz blowing it all to block sofia + sal was the wrong way around oh my god i love her so much
Oh wow. Wooowwwwww. Young Oz really breaking his mother and making her into the woman who makes him a monster.
is it bad i want him to find his brothers skulls down here. is that bad.
boo it didnt happen.
Wow mr cop actually came back huh.
well i was totally off base on everything!!! i am so happy
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No one asked, but I thought it was funny so here's my friend's assumptions and comments about the DMMD men from yesterday's morning:
(Aoba)
Me:"Ok here we go. Ultimate Gayboy. Blue hair and pronouns. What are your thoughts."
Her:"Aside from being Ultimate Gayboy he looks like he speaks in a stupidly high pitched tone and all *clicks tongue and goes aaaaahhhhh*. Softboy who probably uses children's perfume."
Me:"NOOOOO SHWTYSFGSHGGG"
(Noiz)
Me:"Ok he's a fan favourite AND I think he'd be your type since he's malnutrioned, a loser, and obviously autistic."
Her:"........He looks like he came out of 2020's Dream era. Fucking Minecraft Youtubers type of shit. He acts like an asshole, probably bullies you, then goes home and watches My Little Pony."
Me:"FUCK LMAOOOO"
Her:"AM I WRONG?? LOOK AT HIM!!!"
Me:"NONO YOU'RE SO RIGHT ACTUALLY"
(Koujaku)
Me:"Ahhh my favourite repressed bisexual let's go."
Her:"Good Lord he's there for the fanservice. Straight up. Fucking edgy man with the dark backstory; LOOK AT THE FUCKING SCARS COME ONNNN, THE DARK FRINGEEEE; is cold and distant and all that."
Me:"LMAO you're like. Right abt the backstory but he's a softie. Like the softest of the bunch. He was my fist fav cus he's so down bad for Aoba and utterly pathetic HAHA"
Her:"Ok I like him a bit more now."
(Clear)
Her:"What the fuck is that why does he have a mask."
Me:"Do you want to see him without it?"
Her:"Yeah please he looks like Einstein with that thing on."
Me: *swipes* "Here"
Her:"....Put the mask back on please."
Me:"HUH???"
Her:"He scares me!!! His eyes look vampiric. That green little scarf is a crime against humanity. Is he wearing women's clothing why are the buttons on his shirt and the one on his coat on opposite sides."
Me"I didn't like him either at first then he became a fav so trust me."
Her:"You're not gonna change my opinion."
Me:"I bawled like a baby at the end of his route."
Her:"I'm so scared."
(Mink)
Her:"Ok this man has a daughter full stop cus there's NO WAY a dude that looks as threatening as this wears a colorful bracelet like that if not for his kid. Beats people up then goes home to his daughter and plays tea party with her drinking from those toy cups (there's no tea in them just water), and getting his nails painted by her, and if you tell him anything about that he'll cry."
Me:"God how I wish it was like that man."
(Sei)
Her:"....That's a dude?"
Me:"Yeah."
Her:"Ok he's a trans guy for sure. The black straps poking out from his shirt are from his binder. The gloves with the skull hands are offensive and I can tell this game's old even just from those, and I HATE the layered choker."
Me:"What??? I love his outfit!!!"
Her:"It's not bad, it's just that either there's a mess going on behind his neck, or he made that choker out of a belt and is now suffocating."
Me:"I find the fucking Fedora hat more offensive if I'm being honest"
Her:"Fair enough."
(Ren) (I refused to tell her about the dog thing.)
Her:"(About his human Rhyme form) What the fuck? Is he a Pokémon? What is that?"
Me:"Wait hold on lemme show you his other look (the one in Sei's body)"
Her: *long, exagerrated sigh* "....Smash."
Me: *hysterical laughing fit ensuses*
(Vitri)
Her:"(About Virus) What the hell is that hair please tell me it's tied up and not styled like that for real."
Me:"Huh..."
Her:"Anyway he's a snobby cunt who probably went to private school thanks to daddy's money and brags about it. Probably calls people slurs."
Me:"JAHYSFGSDFJHHHDHG. Ok here's his friend. No, they aren't twins. (Shows Trip)"
Her:"......Ok, he scares me, and that outfit is ugly as fuck. These two look like they go to a tailor to get their outfits done personally just to show how rich and posh they are."
(Mizuki)
Her:"He's cute, but he looks like he'd be a member of BTS in 2015-2016. Look at him and tell me you don't hear the 'FIIIIIIIIAAAAAAAAAYYYAREEEEEEE OOOOEEEEEOOOOO' playing."
Me:"LMAOOOO YEAH..."
Her:"Anyway. He acts all tough, talks a lot of shit but probably gets his ass handed to him on a daily basis then cries about it. A bit of a loser."
Me:"YEAH ACTUALLY HE'S THE FIRST ONE TO GET INVOLVED IN SHIT ACTUALLY SO"
Her:"SEE???"
#i plan on making her play the game once she comes over lmao#i always involve her in my fixations and she has just accepted it#(dw i'll tell her about all the warnings and shit but anyway she's a bit of a freak too so she should be fine)#but still#later on we played swords with sticks we found in the park as if we were 5y.os and at some point she went#'if I scratch you on the face i'd make you look like the fanservice dude' LMAOOOOOOOOOOO#moon likes to rambletm#dramatical murder#queued
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Hi. I quite like the changes to the original Lloyd Frontera, which are a bit different from the novel. And I felt like there were two panels that I thought would be a good opportunity to ask other people what they think. So, what do you think about these two panels?
(I hope they don't ruin the good things we got this week in the next episode)
Oh and yes, what do you think webcomic! Javier will be like in the next episode? He now knew that Kim Suho was the fake Lloyd Frontera (I really don't like this change,) and from the look he had after knowing that the other voice talking to Kim Suho was the real Lloyd Frontera's, I have a really bad feeling about this. Is there a possibility that they will make Javier a meanie?
honestly. best two panels of the entire episode i'm not gonna lie. i am always down for getting more lloyd&arcos&marbella hugs and i know we already saw this one but it's from another angle so i'm counting it.
and it's a perfect adaptation of that very heartbreaking moment in og lloyd's internal monologue. not much i can say i think it was a great moment!
it is sad and heartbreaking and completely justified. arcos and marbella aren't happy here because they think their son has been replaced by a stranger, they're happy because they think their son has turned a new leaf and stopped destroying himself and others.
the webcomic apparently didn't do a great job at making this clear, but the issue with og lloyd wasn't a simple matter of him being annoying, or lazy or even him being alcoholic. he was being genuinely harmful to the people around him, he was violent and abusive and he didn't want to change. he had plenty of chances to be, if not amazing, then at least decent. hell, him just doing nothing would've been a step up from where he was.
but no, he was angry at being born in the middle of nowhere and decided to take it out on everyone around him. nevermind that he was a noble, heir to a estate, with plenty of chances to make something of himself if he so wanted to.
that's something ep 115 did pretty well actually, made it very clear that it wasn't about skills or talent or opportunities. it was very much down to what they did with what they were given. and og lloyd didn't do anything with what he had.
god what a great moment i wish we could get this level of quality and seriousness every chapter
but yeah! i think the beginning of this episode was amazing and very well adapted. i have my doubts about the grim reapers cause,,, those aren't in the webnovel and i'm always a bit wary of just throwing stuff at the already shaky worldbuilding of tged but like. who cares at this point akjshdka
as for what they're planning with javier. i have no fucking idea. i don't know what's their plan with him. his whole deal after the reveal in hell completely depends on him not telling lloyd he knows and initially being conflicted about trusting lloyd after figuring out he's a fake but,,,, well, that doesn't apply to the webcomic anymore. so we're officially on uncharted waters. don't like that <3
it would be really silly of them to make javier suddenly have an issue about it when they already made him not give a shit a couple chapters ago. it would make no sense from a character standpoint and it'd be just,,, tedious to see him go back and forth on a topic he'd already reached a conclusion about. so i doubt they'll go that route but also. i have no high hopes about lee hyunmin's ability for good character writing lmaoooo
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ANNUAL WRITING SELF EVALUATION 2023
List of works published this year:
Wanted: Dog Walker // Louis needs a dog walker. / Harry answers the ad. A Social Construct // Five times Harry and Louis try to lose their virginity and one time they finally do.
Tongue Tied // Louis’ new bestie placed a hand on his shoulder; he turned with a sway and looked into his blue eyes. ”What do you wish?” / The world spun for a moment, and Louis shrugged. It was easy. The only thing he wanted. “I wish that I could tell Harry that I love him, instead of getting all tongue tied and chickening out.” / The Irishman winked. “You never know, your wish may just come true.” / “From your lips to God’s ears, mate.” He gave the man a hug. “I gotta go before my Uber leaves me.” / He stumbled to the door, and that was the last thing he remembered from the night. ‘tis the damn season // Harry returns to her small hometown over the holiday season and starts to think about the road not taken.
Work you are most proud of (and why): ‘tis the damn season because I have always said that there was absolutely no way I could write an advent fic day by day. And yet, when Nov 30th came around and I only had two chapters, my fomo won over my fear of failure and I thought I’d give it a try, because the worst that would happen is that I wouldn’t finish it, which would’ve been fine! But then with the help of everyone who read along, I actually did it!
A favorite excerpt of your writing: unlike most years, when I quickly scrolled through my works, nothing specific jumped out, so I’ll just say that I really liked how ch 6 rolled into ch 7 in ‘tis the damn season!
Share or describe a favorite review you received: literally every single one.
A time when writing was really, really hard: oh boy. Okay. so if you go back and read my 2022 recap, and 2021, you’ll see that writing has consistently been hard for me for a few years. So, this year I told myself not to worry about it, that I could not write a single thing and not feel bad about it. I didn’t do a ton of writing this year, but having the internal pressure off sure helped. Even though I really miss the way it used to be.
A scene or character you wrote that surprised you: I’ll say Zayn in ‘tis the damn season, because I didn’t have a role for her when I started, and I really liked her as minor threat slash Louis’ bff and sometimes hookup. I want someone to write a story in her pov. lmaoooo How did you grow as a writer this year: I really tried to get rid of my perfectionist tendencies and tried to write without putting pressure on myself.
How do you hope to grow next year: i dont even know, tbh. I’ll be very happy if I match my 2023 fic count.
Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc): I adore everything that @disgruntledkittenface put out this year. The way she keeps pushing herself is really inspiring.
Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year: ummm, I guess the ‘moving back home thing’... idk. Nothing i wrote this year hit particularly close to home.
Any new wisdom you can share with other writers: i love you. please keep going!
Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year: what I would give to be able to write the next installment of Swallow My Words. Thank you so much to @kingsofeverything @allwaswell16 @lululawrence and @haztobegood for tagging me! @phdmama want to join in the fun? @disgruntledkittenface did i miss yours? anyone else??? (also, here’re my responses from 2016, 2017, 2018, 2019, 2020, 2021, 2022)
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hi future me this is a free pass to answer all the questions you want to >:))
hi past me, thank you for this opportunity >:))
Cruel Summer: Was there anything that stopped you from shipping with your f/o at first or was it love at first sight? Are things more complicated than they appear?
> FUN FACT: i remember watching the s1 finale for the first time and when kendall was going through it for a second i was like "hm. that's awful. that's so good. maybe he will be my guy...." which IS WILD. HE WAS NOT MY GUY.
i'd found tom handsome and interesting as a character but like, he didn't really become important to me until like. season 2 finale. i recall very vividly suddenly feeling Something over his struggles, and it kinda brought him to my mental spotlight so to speak. and then i started to look out for him and it kinda spiraled from there... so it wasn't love at first sight, i think that i had to see his development and the way the story and events began to affect him to start catching feelings. and it caused it to be a bit of a slow burn to me (if you can count a WEEK-ISH a slow burn LMAOOOO). but once he stepped into my noggin he has not left since <3
The Man: What strengthens your f/o in your opinion? What do they believe strengthens you?
> i'd call it his adaptability. being able to take blows while pretending that things don't faze you and fawning and groveling but also holding all the grudges and shittalking when the others aren't around. i love that one description of him that is something like "he's adapted himself to the conditions perfectly" and i'm just like. yeah....... i know..... :') like that is such a "good" skill (as in i wish it wasn't good but it totally is), i relate to it A LOT and i feel like it really carries him.
as for me, sort of a total opposite, he thinks what strengthens me are my sincerity and that certain kind of earnestness i just CANNOT stop expressing no matter how hard i try to appear nonchalant. i have strong emotions about things and more often than not i will make that clear. often it also means i'm very dead-set on things and my opinion cannot be very easily changed. but he thinks that it's really admirable.
Death By A Thousand Cuts: How do you and your f/o handle bad times/how are you there for each other when life gets rough?
> i'd say prior to the cruise drama, we would seek out reassurance but without really getting too deeply into what it is that is bothering us. we would be there for the other physically, maybe say some generic reassuring BUT still sincere things. it wouldn't really be until we have to sit down and talk everything out around s3 that we would dare to like. properly express our worries and truly tell the other what's actually the problem. no longer hiding the real issue. we'd become more honest and communicate much better. i think the biggest thing that'd help us would be to just. unconditionally accept the other's thoughts and feelings and not judge them. making each other feel safe without the fear of a negative reaction or a downplay of the other's emotions. little things like that <3 and handling the humiliation of being vulnerable by being vulnerable together, an even exchange if you will....
False God: Do you think of you and your f/o as soulmates? Why or why not?
> secretly, YES. not sure we'd ever admit it to each other because while we are silly romantics, that might be A BIT too much. especially on my end, i wouldn't dare to say it out loud. but we'd both have moments where we'd realise we're totally meant for each other on a soulmate kinda level <3333
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Since you’re asking for BoB headcanon ideas - what about something with Skip Muck? There’s so little content on him but he’s lovely. Maybe friends to lovers/mutual pining HCs with Skip? Just a thought 💕
hey, thank you so much for this request, I think this is so cute!!! I’ve never written for Skip but I feel like he’s honestly the sweetest cutest man in Easy ever- ok let’s go…
Friends to Lovers / mutual pining with Skip Muck x Reader…
Ok first of all this guy is a literal ray of sunshine, so I think he’d easily make friends with everybody who is anybody. He has no issues forming friendships- and I read somewhere that EVERYBODY LOVED Skip and still missed him 60 years on after his passing. This shows what kinda guy he was- a literal Angel.
So anyway, let’s say you’re in Toccoa together, maybe it takes a while for the two of you to talk/ acknowledge one another due to the lack of weekend passes- but maybe you’re both staying in Georgia and a couple of you head out to a bar.
I feel like one of the other men, maybe Liebgott or Malarkey would ask you to join them in a bar- and you all oblige. That’s when you get sat across from Skip!
I think the feelings would be mutual immediately? Or at least there’s the initial attraction there- the conversation between you both would be so energetic, it would be hard for anybody to catch up or join in half way.
Skip by the end of the night would definitely be thinking ‘oh my god who is this literal Angel, she is fucking perfect for me’.
but of course fraternising isn’t allowed in the army, but before all that, Skip doesn’t think you see him that way!! Of course he thinks you’re stunning and beautiful, but almost a little too good for him?! Something heartbreaking like that- and maybe you just think he’s being chatty and friendly, the way he is with everybody else.
anyway, there’s no indicator to either of you that you both felt that initial attraction, however, the pure excitement you both feel to see each other again is unreal.
I feel like Skip would (not so subtly) ask Penkala questions about you- to which he doesn’t have a clue cos he just met you too, duh. But then he kinda gets loud mouth Luz involved who tells other people, and then a weird rumour would probably spread about you that you’re already married or some shit.
You’re not, obviously, but this is just another reason why Skip remains completely friendly with you, and doesn’t pursue anything else? I think this is a real ‘indicator’ for you that he just wants to be your friend. So you’d just kinda sit and go along with it.
I feel like Luz or Guarnere would bring up your husband one day and your nose would scrunch as you fired back immediately. “What husband?” “Ya know, the one you’ve been married to for the past six years.” “first of all I’m only 21, second of all I literally don’t even have a boyfriend, never mind a husband!!!”
Penkala nudges Skip not so discreetly, as if to say ‘you’re in buddy!’
“So… you’re not married?” Skip, dumbfounded, asks. I feel like you’d most definitely blush a scarlet red colour out of slight embarrassment about the rumour, and to think Skip thought you were married and off the market?! That made you panic!
the men become way more flirty with you when they realise you’re not a taken lady. (Not that it stopped some of them before lmaoooo).
“It makes me feel so embarrassed, ya’know. Getting hit on in front of all my friends. I wish they’d lay off it for a while.” One day you and Skip are walking let’s say back from the pub together, or through Toccoa. You’re explaining to him about how sick of the flirting you are.
Skip wishes they’d lay off it too. “Well you’re a pretty girl, you know. They’re probably just dying for a chance with you.” The words slip out of his mouth quicker than he realises.
I feel like both your eyes would go wide and you’d both start blushing and stammering. That’s the first time the two of you get an inkling that the feeling of your friendship being something more might exist.
even though there’s the prospect of you two being together, I think the both of you are kinda worried that it wouldn’t be true thag you both have the same feelings- or you’re worried about ruining what you already have.
at some point in the friendship I think you both become comfortable becoming more touchy feely? I’m talking about hugs, grabbing each others hands, hands on each others backs. Or maybe you’re just moving Skip’s hair out of his face and suddenly you’d realise fuck fuck fuck you’re in love with him.
There’s no specific moment when you both remember being in love- it’s a culmination of things over time, and with the dangers of war, all your feelings are intensified and the longing for one another grows.
small glances from across the room/ area when you’re being briefed.
checking up on one another after every single day.
there’d be small ways Skip would find excuses to speak to you. Like “oh I found this I need to give it to her” or “I’m gonna go see if she’s got all her supplies because so and so said she’d lost her scissors.”
everybody has caught on, but Skip doesn’t know.
Big time jump to Bastogne, Skip has a narrow escape with his foxhole being bombed out- and you watch the whole thing.
Let’s say you’re on your way out to help somebody when you see your life flash in front of your eyes. I think you’d yell out his name in horror, and stunned by what had happened, Skip races over to you but only to make sure you’re okay.
there’s hot tears streaming down your face and Skip has never seen you cry before, he can’t stand it- it absolutely breaks his heart. He’s never felt so much adrenaline rushing through his body before, so when your hand is cupped over his face you just KISS.
Neither of you break apart to question wtf just happened, because oh my god it’s been such a long time coming- and just feels so right.
the concept of losing one another is beyond thinkable and too painful. You two are so deeply in love and Skip decides there’s absolutely nothing to stop the two of you being together now.
your feelings are out in the open, thank god, and you’re still each others best friends- yet the two of you are so in love and honestly just the happiest couple going.
without one another neither of you could’ve made it, you’d really be each others rocks, and Skip would still sit and question how the hell the two of you are finally together.
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aw cute, I’m so sorry this took so so long to write, but I hope you enjoy!!
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when ethel cain said "i always knew that in the end, no one was coming to save me, so i just prayed and i keep praying and praying" & "god loves you but not enough to save you" & "so, baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself" & "god doesn't love you, not like i do" & "you and me against the world [...] we had nothing but each other, you were my whole world" & "your mama calls me sometimes to see if i'm doing well and i'd lie to her and say that i'm doing fine when, really, i'd kill myself to hold you one more time, and it hurts to miss you but it's worse to know that i'm the reason you won't come home" & "you know, i still wait at the edge of town, praying straight to god that maybe you'll come back around, i cry everyday and the bottles make it worse 'cause you were the only one i was never scared to tell i hurt [...] and you might never come back home, and i may never sleep at night, but god, i hope you're doing fine out there, i just pray that you're alright, and i feel so alone, and i feel so alone out here [...] and i feel so alone without you, i'm so alone" & "i'd hold the gun if you asked me to, but if you love me like you say you do, would you ask me to?" & "i tried to be good, am i no good, am i no good, am i no good?" & "i just wanted to be yours, can i be yours, can i be yours, can i be yours?" & "but in these motel rooms, i started to see you differently, 'cause for the first time since i was a child, i could see a man who wasn't angry" & "i thought good guys get to be happy, i'm not happy, i am poison in the water and unhappy" & then "preacher's saying god will save me, if god is real, he's a fucking bitch" & "i didn't ask to be this crazy but since we're here, i'll give them a show" & "if you try to hurt me, i won't stop you, but there's something you should know, it's that my daddy's fucking crazy and always ready to blow" & "the first boy i ever loved was a brother i never had, i thought, with him, maybe i'd make it, maybe it'd be half as bad, spent my night under the covers just wishing he was there, draw his portrait in my diary just to hold when i got scared, now i'm fucked up and i'm nasty, but they say i make it look good" & "what's gonna scare me when i've seen it all? [...] if i can't live, can i just fucking die?" & "am i not good enough for you? is there something wrong with me? baby, don't you lie to me, am i just not what you want? am i just not what you need? is there someone in your heart that keeps you gone away from me? is she prettier than me? is her skin softer than mine? can she give you what i can't? the thing i cry for every night?" & "i think about you everyday, 'cause i love you more than i thought i could [...] 'cause i don't hate you like i know i should, was i not good enough for you? was there something wrong with me? i just cry by myself at night but you'll never know and you'll never see" & "sometimes you make me wanna put my fucking head through the wall, sometimes i wonder if i ever even knew you at all" & "and we've been cursed since the start, jesus didn't want us [...] and fuck the cops and fuck god and fuck this town for ruining us" & "in the corner, on my birthday, you watched me dancing right there in the grass, i was too young to know that some types of love could be bad" & "you poor thing, sweet mourning lamb, there's nothing you can do, it's already been done" & "bless the children, each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence" & "stop, stop, stop, make it stop, stop, make it stop, make it stop, i've had enough" & "i am the face of love's rage" & "and i spend my life watching it go by from the sidelines, and, god, i've tried, but i think it's about time i put up a fight" & "i forgive it all as it comes back to me" & "dancing with the windows open, i can't let go when something's broken, it's all i know, and it's all i want now" i& just. okayokayokayokay okay yeah alright hahahaha lmaoooo im& totally fine i& just
#arcana.txt#tw; long post#& 'THE FATES ALREADY FUCKED ME SIDEWAYS SWINGING FROM MY NECK FROM THE FAMILY TREE [...] THEN LEAVE ME HANGING SO THEY ALL CAN LAUGH AT ME'#''YOU NEED TIME I KNOW BUT JESUS IS THIS ALL YOU THINK OF ME? A PORTRAIT OF MY L.OVE IN ALL W.HITE AND ON HER KNEES?''#''STRANGERS TOUCH ME IN MY D.REAMS IF I GO TO BED SOBER WHEN THE CURTAINS TURN W.HITE I'LL KNOW THAT ITS OVER''#''YOU DONT KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TRYING TO LOVE WHILE YOU HEAL & YOU DONT GET TO PREACH IF YOU DONT KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO HAVE EVERY LAST INCH+#OF YOUR BODY INVADED LIKE I DO'' & ''WOKE UP A SAINT & FELL ASLEEP A MARTYR WOULD YOU DO THE SAME THINGS TO YOUR OWN DAUGHTER?''#& ''DOES GOD MAKE DELICATE THINGS JUST TO WATCH THEM GET HURT?''#LIKE ... MAN MAMA CAIN DIDNT HAVE TO EXPOSE ME& LIKE THAT😭
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