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Uploading all my Tomgreg art at once from the past few week before season 4 hits, who knows in what kind of mental state i'm gonna be once it does :')
#tomgreg#succession#dont even talk to me i started watching this show when i had nothing to do at work and now i watch it with averiel my good friend averiel#and we are going to watch s4 together and i feel physically ill from bein so excited#so ya thats what ive been up to... anyway. i love these idiots they desever nothing but the worst (affectionate)#im also a tomshiv lover btw. im the one who yells 'THIS IS HOW TOMSHIV CAN STILL WIN' while they are actively losing on screen#thats the kind of person i am#dont look at me (lying on the floor)#okay i was not going to say stuff in the tags and let the art speak for itself but i NEED to point out details in the wine Painting..#i put a lot of work into that one. thinly veiled metaphors and symbolism yknow..#greg is gripping the stem of the wine glass with his full fist. tom and greg are dressed in the same outfit (sock garters included)#greg look appalled but he is not doing anything about the spill. tom is fondly pouring greg more and more wine. he is doing him a favor#i colored the red wine the same way i would color blood :) oh and tom is not really touching greg#only holding the chair in place. greg is making himself look smaller than he is like usual#oh and @ the person who said that it's the inverse of the tom and nate scene i love the way you think. i did not think of that before#but god. yeah. i actually thought about the scene change from when roman uhh.. christens his office in s1. the one with the coffee machine#i always go insane at that cut. this is not exactly the same since it's more.. about emotions but yknow.. it can be.. the same...
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don't mind me, i'll just be sat here crying into my hands about girl dad!simon "ghost" riley who would do absolutely anything for his daughters.
girl dad!simon who watches with a fond smile as his children fail to mask their giggles from underneath the sofa, their little legs sticking out very obviously from their "hiding place" but acting as though they're nowhere to be found.
girl dad!simon who lets them apply the black smudging around his eyes, praising them with how gentle they're being, and only huffing out a laugh when he feels his youngest smear charcoal fingerprints down his cheeks.
girl dad!simon who always has time to play with his girls, going along with whatever game their imaginative minds conjure with not a single complaint. over the years, you've walking in on simon as a horse, a robot, a fairy godmother (you will never get the imagine of simon with one of your elasticated waist dresses on out of your head, the material fighting for its life to stay in one piece as simon merely stares at you, silently pleading you to not take any photos), there is nothing he won't do to make them happy.
girl dad!simon who never once hesitates to scoop them into his arms at the first sign of tears, battled scared and inked hands holding his daughter so carefully, though she was made of porcelain, rough fingers gently swiping across ruddy cheeks, "you're okay, sweetpea, it's just a little scrape, yeah? my brave girl can handle a tiny scratch like that no problem, ain't that right?"
girl dad!simon who has a photo of you and your daughters tucked safely in his pocket at all times, all his favourite people on one small piece of paper he keeps safe over his heart whenever he has to leave, making sure it never leaves his mind that 'this is who he's fighting for, this is who he's working so hard to get back to'
girl dad!simon who try as he might, always tears up when he finally arrives back, and hears his little worlds sprinting at him as fast as their stubby legs can carry them, screeching cries of "daddy, daddy, daddy's home!" echoing through the walls of his home, arms wide as he crouches on the floor and feels their small but mighty weight crash into him, finally whole, finally complete, watery eyes meeting yours where you lean against the wall, similarly emotional.
"welcome home, si."
finally, home.
#☁︎⋅writing#i had the thought of girl dad!simon at work#hoo boy#did that cause a distraction for the rest of the day#trying to do work meanwhile all i can think about his how soft he would make himself#physically shrinking down#letting himself become mailable and ply#just for his girls#to make them feel safe around him#GOD#HE'D LOVE THEM SO MUCH#LOOK AT THEM LIKE THEY HUNG THE STARS IN THE SKY#I AM NOT A BROODY PERSON I PROMISE BUT#SHEESH#HOW MANY DO YOU WANT SIMON#ILL GIVE YOU 10 IF YOU ASK#anyway#simon riley#simon riley x reader#simon riley x you#ghost x reader#ghost x you#simon riley x y/n#simon riley x gn reader#simon riley x female reader#simon riley x f!reader#ghost x y/n#ghost x gender neutral reader#ghost x female reader#ghost x f!reader
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what you have to keep in mind abt arthur being a dickhead and kind of losing it in s3 is that like. it was right after the prison pits. i'm not even talking about the emotional/mental impact here i'm talking purely abt the fact that the dude's physical body was shutting down for like 80 different unrelated reasons the whole time.
he hasn't eaten in over a day or longer. he hasn't eaten anything besides raw meat and hasn't seen the sun and has been coasting juuuust at the edge of Organ Failure levels of dehydration for roughly Three Months. a significant amount of his blood is currently feeding wolves in the snow outside addison because of the neck wound and compound stab-through-skin fractures in his legs that he had to set by himself. also after the red right hand he's hungover or recovering from being poisoned or maybe both. of course he's having a mental breakdown. every single warning light is going off at the same time here. that's basically the only reasonable reaction.
#the nemesis speaks#mv liveblog#malevolent spoilers#this is tongue in cheek i know arthur plays fast and loose with the concept of Physical Consequences For His Actions#i'm just being silly goofy.#i just think it's funny to think about him biting into the apple and a little (+100HP) (HUMANITY RESTORED) popping up#and he just goes ''...oh my god what the fuck have i been doing.''#ok good news i have some vitamins and sugar in me I Am No Longer Mentally Ill#he's like that simpsons bit about ''it's like everything that WANTS to kill you is trying to fit through a door at the same time#so it all cancels out and you're fine''
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journalists underestimate the magnitude of my addiction and how far i'll go for the bit
#snap chats#im lying i physically could not marathon this i got school LMAO BUT IMAGINE#my god speaking of school i signed up for a japanese history class. because of course i did#i also needed an extra class and i didnt know what else to put LMAO but i might swap it or somn#thinkin i should get back into theater..... i got like two months to decide anyway#i was thinking about how im gonna play IW during streams... if the lord will let me i might stream for 2~3 hours or so#im putting such a small time limit due to Aforementioned School but also idk if my computer can record any longer than that#when i tried saving the video to my flashdrive it only lasted about two some hours right ? maybe 3 if i remember right#i decided to record to my computer's hard drive instead of the usb since it has more space so maybe i can record longer#ill prob do a test run later today and record a nonsense video. i WILL delete it i just wanna see what the limit is#cause my plan is to just Record One -> Upload It -> Delete OG yk. Lazy Susan type of plan#didnt mean to type out my whole gameplan in the tags LOL BUT HEY I WANTED TO TALK BOUT IT AT SOME POINT#my final message is that ive Hopefully preordered the ichi statue. i say Hopefully cause i am once again doing it through jp rabbit#and i didnt get the confirmation it was successful yet so I Will Simply Wait.#point is it was a lot cheapter than i thought it was going to be <3 yay <3#ok im running out of tags tl;dr im gonna marathon IW until my eyes bleed BYYYE
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ok so, i know im late, but i only refixated on mha recently and i wasnt really caught up on the manga beyond the ua traitor arc/a few spoilers here and there past that. so i just decided fuck it season 7 time right now.
but was anyone gonna fucking tell me that touyas first thoughts (upon waking up after being in a coma for THREE YEARS) werent along the lines of anger and rage and resentment. instead he rationalized his dad mustve just been busy with work and thats why he couldnt come to sekoto peak. and that the last time he saw his family he said/did some really awful things, so he wants to see them again to apologize. they must be so worried about him. and he was scared and alone and three years older, his body horrifically burned beyond recognition, but the only thing he wanted was to see his family again.
or was i just supposed to figure that out for the first time ten minutes ago and then cry my eyes out. what the actual hell.
#i have a lot of gripes with the way mha handles a lot of things#i have more things i dislike about it than like at this point i think#but oh my god. oh my fucking#the absolute tragedy of so many of the villain characters makes me physically ill with how horrified i am#sometimes i sit there like. man#touya and tenko and himiko they were just fucking KIDSSS. THEY WERE KIDS. HIMIKO IS STILL A KID#kohei horikoshi when i fucking get you#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#todoroki touya#touya todoroki#mha touya#dabi#mha dabi#mha spoilers#mha season 7
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no the "omg ur just a lesbian bc u can't get a man!!!1" thing is SO wild because it's incredibly easy to get a man meanwhile getting a woman (as a woman) is INSANELY difficult. despite what everyone says is2g ~wlw~ have higher standards (with women) than men do with women or women do with men
#god i wish i were a straight man so bad.#they dont know how EASY they have it#truly if theres male incels that cant get any there must be something seriously seriously wrong with them like#either a severe physical deformity or severe issues with hygiene or severe severe autism/mental illness or something just really really bad#i mean REALLY bad#i know i sound like a bitter incel rn thats because i am. leave me alone#and honestly i dont feel like being trans limited my dating pool by much if at all bc tbh? nobody was interested in me in the first place#and like honestly all the ftms i knew irl had more game than me as a ~cis dyke~ so like. Lol.#idk bro maybe i am just that ugly. whatever.
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"i didn't have a horrible horrible cavity pain moment today :) that's great they hurt really really bad so I don't like when they happen" <- doesn't know they're about to brush their teeth and have a horrible horrible cavity pain moment
#usually it is Food that will just caught in yhe cavity. so i am training myslef to not eat on that side of my mouth. but in this inst#instance it was. Im Pretty Sure. my toothbrush bristles poking it.#it. do you knowhow it feels to be a zero on the pain scale and then have it shoot up to 10 in an instant and its In Your Head. its like that#HXBDGDHDHSJIHD#also like i knew that Pain Makes You Tired. Physical Pain Exhausts You. but oh my god. oh my god .#it makes me lightheaded and dizzy and i Shake. and no amount of Holding On Tightly makes it any more bearable.#and im genetically predisposed to cavities according to my dad. ill never be over that. i bet he thinks this is my fault still.#words from the monarch#tooth trauma#jic#i think thats usually applied to like. tooth pulling. tooth gore and whatever. but jic
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INVADER ZIM HEADCANONS BECAUSE. YAAAYYYYY
!! some zadr !!
Main characters:
-Irken show affection by entangling their antenna together. So Zim wraps his antenna around Dibs hair spike
-Zim shoplifts candy from the store (and Dibs fridge) other times he gets Gir to steal stuff
-Once Dib ate cup noodles for 3 weeks straight. He hasn't done it since
-Dib still has the snarl beast
-He's also very good at drawing, most of his drawings being of him and Zim
-Dib probably gets dizzy when he stands up too fast
-Gaz and Tak like playing games together, Tak is super bad at them though
-Gaz is really into robotics, that's why Professor Membrane doesn't pressure her into science like he does with Dib. In fact she programmed her "security" plushies all by herself
-Gaz HAS and WILL doxx people
-Gir and MiMi are very lady and the tramp coded
-Gir would be best friends with Jenny Wakeman
-Gir CONSTANTLY steals drinks, not only from people he knows either. Like in a restaurant he will just take a big sip of someones drink and walk away
Other characters:
-Zita is a theater kid, she puts the most effort in school plays compared to everyone else
-Carl has literally anything and everything in his beanie. Need a spare pencil? He's got it. Need a notebook? It's in there. Need a bag of chips? You know he has it. But he won't ever give it to you. Like Pinkie Pie except Carl isn't helpful
-Gretchen actually can tell really good jokes, she just doesn't tell them
-Jessica and Letty are lesbian I swear to god they are
-Poonchy is a lot like Tobias from the amazing world of gumball except maybe a little less mean
-Mr. Elliot is Ms. Bitters son, he likes being around her so he got the same job as her (despite her protests)
-Mr. Dwicky probably killed that guy in the vents. Among us imposter ass
-Miyuki and Sporks tallest uniforms seem to be slightly different than Red and Purples, the slight adjustments are there to prevent Zims monsters from eating them
General:
-Hugs from behind are very beloved since you're basically hugging their PAK which is like, their everything
-Irken relationships are heavily looked down upon until they are officialized
-Tallest DNA is used for reproduction by being put in a lil tube until a smeet develops
-Tallest colors are passed down (I don't reaaally headcanon this but I think it's a cute idea)
(Not super invader zim related, but it's one of my favorite headcanons)
-Alien hominid landed on earth after the Irken empire took over his planet. He really hates Zim
(I DON'T KNOW A LOT ABOUT ALIEN HOMINID so like, sorry if I'm ignoring already established lore idk)
#invader zim#invader zim headcanon#headcanons#not tagging every character sorry! i am NOT doing that man#sorry this took literally so long to type out i had to remember a lot of them#i wish i had more headcanons for the main cast... ill think of some more eventually#probably after i finish reading all the comics#ALSO??? i literally cannot find the 4th deluxe edition comic anywhere. i have the first one right#i found 2 3 and 5 online#like for purchase#but 4 is nowhere to be seen??#god forbid i wanna complete a book series man#i already have all the comics um... legally obtained online#but i just want it physically to have it around. i like collecting yknow#sorry i literally talk so much SHUT UUUPPPPP#do i add my talking tag.... yea#shut up hazel#oh shit i forgot#nickelodeon#MY PHONE IS LAGGING HAHAJSJJS OKAY BYE
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ohhh my friend came over and we somehow ended up watching the entirety of tpn season one and ray still makes me so fucking sick. im goig to tear apart steel beams with my teeth
#skye's ramblings#THOUGH IM ALSO JUMPING AROUND SOO FAST BC SHE LIKED IT. shes like my only irl friend shes known abt my illness since the start#i take my ray plushie when i sleep over at her house she calls him my little guy. i genuinely didnt think it'd interest her much#we were literally just bored and she randomly picked up v1. 2 pages in she was like 'oh this is really addicting can i borrow this'#FELT AUTUSM KICK INTO MAXIMUM OVERDRIVE. said we could watch the anime n after ep1 she was like oh this is really good#cant describe how much i am jumping off tge walls in my mind. shes never been able to get into anime till now. i think i just won at autism#of course w the excitement comes escape arc ray once again hitting my brain with hammers god i love him so fucking much guys. i'm nauseous#it'll be 3 years since my first watch soon btw i wonder if ray emotions will ever stop making me physically ill. ifuckng love yuou raaay...
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guys how do you explain to your friends who have suffered for months hearing u yap about one specific character that youre losing intrest in said character
#I ALWAYS FEEL SO BAD WHEN I START LOSING HYPERFIXATIONS😭🙏#hehe guys im havinh a conundrum#my brain worms have decided werehog and stupid vampire man from old book are silly#i never thought at any era in mh life id be into twilight#god please helo me#edward cullen WHEN I GET YOU#you too sonic youre not out of this either#mf werehog bro#PLEASE HELO ME MY POOR PINTREST MOOTS WHO FOLLOWED ME FOR TTS😭🙏#sorry fam my brain had other plans!!!#ngl this is probably one of those hyperfixations i get for like 2 months because of the dopamine kick i get#and then i go back to beinh chronic over my previous fixation😭🙏#so if u guys start seeing me beinh less active/postinh about other things not related to tts just know thats why#also hunger games#i think my brain is making me read#like i have bad data at my house so i cant use ao3 so i moved over to physical books#and ive never read twilight before bcuz i thought it wasnt for me#thats always how i am oh my god#but like my teacher told me to read it#and my mom has all the hunger games books and i havent read anythinh from that series either(but i have watched the movies)#so like#im having a book lover mentally ill teen girl moment#hey atleast bbg pintrest has my back❤️#pintrest is my og#yall dont fw pintrest like i do
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whenever you're playing phighting do you ever just look at the characters the opposite team is playing as and think ''we're gonna lose''
oh all the TIME, I think the worst ones are when I see a all skinned double healer (medkit and vinestaff) combo with skateboard, katana, and hyper,, those rounds are always the most miserable things in existence /silly
#Cro chatter#To. Everyone asking me stuff in my ask box I am so genuinely sorry I’ve been so unmotivated to answer any of them#I swear to god I’m not just ignoring asks I see every one and I’ve been trying to get to them for awhile :’DD#I’m gonna be answering a lot of them today but YEAH LOL#Also to mutuals/friends/etc I’m so sorry I’ve been neglecting all of you as well#I’ve just been very very drained both physically and mentally so I haven’t really had too much time for stuff :((#Ill try to be a bit better but so far if you guys wanna interact with me i highly suggest you all go to my twt for it since#Ive been a bit more alive there LMAO#But for now I’m gonna try not to neglect you all LOLLLL
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Do I really have to make myself breaking-down-sobbing miserable over not doing something every single time I am not perfectly productive for you to believe that I have a disability that disables me from being perfectly productive
#nathan's notes#this is aimed towards my mother#like i am fucking sorry that i am not physically disabled for you to actually see that i cannot do some things#the way you'd expect a normal person to#i just thought that maybe the OFFICIAL DIAGNOSIS I HAVE MADE BY A PROFESSIONAL PSYCHOLOGIST WOULD HAVE FUCKING CLUED YOU IN TO THAT FACT#JESUS CHRIST#I KNOW IT IS LITERALLY THE SAME ''EXCUSE'' WHENEVER I DON'T DO THINGS#BUT I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN TO YOU THAT A MENTAL ILLNESS DOESN'T STOP DISABLING ME ONCE IVE USED IT TO EXPLAIN MY CURRENT UNPRODUCTIVITY#YES. IT IS STILL ACTIVE. IT DOES NOT HAVE A COOLDOWN. IT FUCKS ME UP EVEN IF IT'S ANNOYING FOR YOU#IT FUCKS ME UP EVEN IF IT'S ANNOYING FOR *ME*#IF I COULD GET RID OF THIS BITCH I COULD BUT UNFORTUNATELY THIS IS NOT THAT TYPE OF WORLD#AND NO. PILLS DO NOT ''HEAL'' ME. THE ADHD IS STILL THERE. IT'S JUST LESS INTENSE *SOMETIMES*#oh my fucking god#vent#having a normal one lads
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wdym good omens season 2 is coming out in 9 hours and it wasnt fake and this is real and im getting crowley and aziraphale back what do you mean.
#good omens#good omens 2#good omens season 2#im soooooo nuts rn#i cant do this#i feel physically ill#help#getting one of my biggest comfort characters back today#and shes homeless#what am i gonna do for 9 hours oh my god
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Addressing the situation.
okay, i’m sorry. Look, dude, what the fuck? I wasn’t even aware there was drama with Dommar. Honestly? I just wanted to have fun. My reblog of Sunnflower was meant to defend my friends, not to ‘harrass’ anyone or ‘continue the drama.’ Just because somebody was involved in the drama doesnt mean everyone else should be! So i’m fucking sorry if that’s how you saw me. And no, I’m not gonna pick a side or some bullshit like that. I literally just wanted to make sure MY friends weren’t being harassed without meaning, or specific evidence to back the harassment pointed to them. But NO! Of course now everyone that has even mildly interacted with Dommar, or follows Toaster or TheOku is NOW INVOLVED IN THIS?! And for what? I’m not ‘supporting’ any of them. But someone has made assumptions about me and Sunny, and now we’re on the blocklist? Like, i’m sorry, but what the fuck did WE do? Honestly this is going too far and it needs to stop. Justifying a situation and then getting messages like this:
For it is just WRONG. So i’m sorry for bringing all of this back up and involving people in it and generally making it worse. But just because a few interactions with one mildly problematic person doesn’t make me OR SUNNY a problematic person. We don’t deserve to get blocked for something we didn’t do.
yeah.
fuck this.
thanks for reading this shitty defense.
@amanerealz @isthatsayorifromddlc
sorry for the tags.
#charlie rants#SHUT THE FUCK UP#OH MY GOD#I AM PHYSICALLY ILL.#This has gone way too far and honestly#Like just stop please
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i feel absolutely insane while saying this, but watching all of season 2 of good omens and looking at the progression of aziraphale and crowley's relationship felt like being fed soup. but like, the BEST soup ever.
i eat a spoonful of it. "good soup", i say, absolutely delighted and craving more of it. and the more i got, the happier i was.
and then. and then, suddenly, around fifteen minutes from the ending, everything stops. confused, vaguely upset, i say "please sir, I want some more", just like fucking oliver twist when he asked for more food.
And suddenly i am fucking beaten to a pulp, bench pressed, UTTERLY AND ABSOLUTELY DESTROYED, and as i lie there, on the bloody ground, all i hear is "wait and see"
#i swear i feel better now#but i am not joking when i say i felt physically ill while watching the ending of the episode#the kiss made me gasp SO LOUD and stare at the screen in abject distress and surprise#the music in the background of that moment. dear god.#incredibly rabid over this while also feeling slightly better at the same time#nobody talk to me i am but a frail puppet boy and that ending is still so painful and fresh in my mind#good omens#good omens 2#good omens spoilers#aziraphale#crowley#ineffable husbands#aziracrow
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lmfao 😀 here’s what i did this weekend 😀 lmao 😀 haha 😀 holy shit 😀
#oh my fucking god#ha ha#oh my god#i am dead#she#she she she#i cant talk ab it yet#house in nebraska IN nebraska holy shut#shit#god#she look me in my eyes#wow#i’m ill#like physically#and mentally#spiritually i am changed#tortoiselore#i guess#i don’t fuckinf know
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