#girl. i would rather die
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everytime i go out driving with my mom i consider crashing the car and killing the both of us lol
#cal rambles#call me henry oak the way i go i to a blind rage around her a la henry with barry#sorry for. not having +15 years of driving experience and not fucking knowing about shit you never taught me bc URE TEACHING ME HOW TO DRIVE#she will say. the vaugest or sometimes straight up WRONG directions and then be mad that i dont understand what the fuck shes saying in .01s#she'll be like how did you not know that !!! IDK MAYBE BC YOU DIDNT FUCKING TELL ME AND U WERE LOOKING AT UR FUCKING PHONE#girl. i would rather die#sorry for prioritizing safety over going fast and doing shit without thinking !!!!!!!!#she doesn't even answer my questions on the off chance that i have them. like. okay.
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girl who constantly feels like they're in trouble and did something wrong
#omg kiera no one cares#the precursor to girl who needs reassurance but would rather die blah blah#anyway nothing happened im not in trouble I just feel guilty
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I am determined to take Shen Li home.
#cdramaedit#cdrama#the legend of shen li#zeng li#zhao li ying#äøå¤č”#happy mothers' day to those who celebrate#trying and failing not to think of this scene in the meaning of backhugs#+ liu yu's last words as she foisted a living baby to the shijie who loved her so much#through her faults shen muyue coming to terms that she actually holds ah'li dearest in this lifetime will never not be my favourite*#only she would dare approach after that ferocious circle of fire#only she would not care in the proximity of that smoldering chimei aura (what's more weakening after a millenia?)#only she may have picked a moment too late in saying those affirming words of security#*in the closing arc that i thought was too interested in the action rather than driving home the stakes#tbqh as much as i wanted shen li to drop all suspicions when she was able to come back to a still-ailing shifu who waited for her#the shortcut to shen muyue on the field as the last vanguard of their realm and who is the girl she raised but one as stubborn as her#Never Doubted the care that raised her. vulnerable but will only succumb to grief & guilt & gratitude i-shall-die-before-deserting-you arms#let's go home indeed ;~;
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just remembered i have to go back to school
#fallingtomykneesinslowmotion
#kill me#god save me#i need drugs#i canāt do this sober#i would rather die#girlblogging#hell is a teenage girl#girl interrupted#girlhood#this is what makes us girls#iām just a girl#tumblr girls#girl interupted syndrome#this is a girlblog#girl in pieces
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henshin!
#hsr#honkai star rail#firefly#firefly hsr#sam#sam hsr#sam looks bad but i would rather die than actually try to draw all the designs on that robot#anyway shes very sad machine porter robinson coded#thank you for the transgender mech stellaron hunter girl#toasted art
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Women can 100% rape and assault others Iāll never deny that but as someone whoās been assaulted by both the threat simply isnāt there for me. The risk of pregnancy and the violation of a throbbing meaty dick is the worst part. When I see ftmās try to be dominate rapists on here it always looks so performative.
Like, youāre going to make me eat your pussy?? At most Iāll be a bit grossed out or uncomfortable when smothered but itās not like I fear serious choking or throwing up. And the ātdickā is statistically barely a few inches, and not wide enough to stretch me or make me gag in the slightest.
Obviously they can fuck me with a strap but at that point itās more of a standard sadism-induced assault rather than actual rape. We both know you arenāt feeling anything besides maybe the satisfaction of seeing me uncomfortable. At this point you punching and kicking me without any sex involved would suck more and might have a chance of actually being traumatic. Seriously, what happens next? Are you just going to keep thrusting until your hips or hand get tired? Itās not like youāre going to cum from this, and if you somehow do thereās no risk involved for me. Youāre biologically incapable of filling my womb.
Itās even funnier when they try to be misogynistic about it. Oh, girls are built for rape? Iām fuckmeat? The only difference between us is that you have a self induced hormone imbalance and I have some amount of self awareness. To actual men we are viewed the same.
I know for a fact that if I ever got assaulted by a real life trans woman it would be heavily traumatizing and I would not enjoy a single moment of it. I hate cock. Itās fun in fantasies when Iām at my lowest but when I think about it too hard I get nauseous. Meanwhile if I was seriously raped by an FTM with nothing but āhisā fingers and big clit involved I would probably be the horniest Iāve ever been in my life.
#idk. I was technically raped by an older woman when I was a teen and it sucked she was fucking evil#but it was nothing compared to male degeneracy#now that Iām an adult another adult female trying to take advantage of me has almost no downsides#the only time Iād be seriously afraid is if she has like. an STD or something.#or if sheās a genuine sadist who just wants to hurt and snuff me instead of making her nonexistent cock feel nice#tbh would rather die than get pregnant so even then the threat isnāt as big lmfaooo#fakeboy#terfbreaking#dykebreaking#ftm misgendering#ftmtf girl#detrans kink#also phallo exists so I guess if a ftm fully passes Iāll be a bit scared#well until I see the scar on her arm at least lol
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I'm sorry but 'dying of a broken heart' =/= 'suicide' and it's actually pissing me off to keep seeing it stated as such.
#Padme's death is not some 'girlboss' feminist choice ffs#i wish people would stop trying to turn this into 'Padme was such an icon for 'choosing' to die. u go girl!'#just.... what. she was a victim and ended up with a broken heart and that's all there is to it.#if Anakin is not in some way responsible for Padme's death (even if indirectly) then the tragedy simply doesn't have the same impact#the irony of the story is that Anakin tries to prevent her death and then instead his fall to the Dark Side brings it about....#insisting that Padme just consciously 'chooses' to 'nope out' is ' is....not that.#can't believe i'm seeing takes like this#'dying of a broken heart' is a very welll-established trope#and i've never before seen it equated with 'suicide'. i'm honestly gobsmacked.#Anakin and Padme's story is supposed to be old fashioned and rather fantastical and Romantic with a capital 'R'#stop trying to insert realism or modern sensibilities into it
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why should it just be steve who has all the torturous purgatory realm fun?
#dbd#myart#wip#quick clarification for those only familiar with the american version of ringu: sadako is 19.#anyway. I love that dbd lets me explore steve and nancy's characters outside the bullshit that the show is.#because the whole steve and nancy dynamic is Interesting. but the dustbags are plagued by cerebral hetrot so that story never GOES anywhere#it's just the āWaaaah love triangle OMG!!! will they? won't they?ā crap. idk man. idc. why're these dumbasses breathing in Upside down air?#some people here have seen lucy before-- he is the ghostface pictured. and he's an OC. different person entirely from danny.#I won't explain his full lore here but-- he was a drag queen before the fog who started out by only killing those who he felt deserved it.#his entire persona satirises catholicism and he calls himself āthe holy ghostā rather than ghostface. the entity made him an actual devil.#he's obsessed with steve because he LIVES his own role so he sees steve as his heroic opposite or some fucked up gay shit like that.#he's clutching kate's heart because if he were a real character in the game-- he'd have two moris.#one standard... and one for if a steve is present in the lobby. the second would involve him carving out the heart of a survivor as a gift.#he never harms steve though-- so it makes steve's penchant for self-sacrifice pointless.#steve instead has to do what he can to open the gates as fast as possible-- or watch everyone else die! :)#as for the toxic yuri-- it occurred to me that sadako's backstory bears some striking similarities to barb's story.#as soon as I realised this-- it was like I had suddenly gained the ability to see a new colour I could not see before.#sadako wanting to torment nancy as sick revenge for what happened to her but using barb's death as justification for this...#...nancy being unable to escape the ghost of barb... even in this hell dimension full of terrifying monsters--#it is still the memory of the girl she feels she āletā die in steve's pool that scares and hurts her the most.#not to mention that sadako's powers are reminiscent of how the upside down related fuckery appears...#the screwy technology. the telekinesis.#I just REALLY love seeing characters be forced to confront difficult parts of themselves even if that shit REALLY hurts.#dbd makes it so easy to do that to any given character. of course this goes both ways too-- it'd force lucy & sadako to change too.#which opens the door for torment on their end too because killers who disobey the entity are tortured into obeying.#a rock and a hard place on both ends. and that is Exactly how I like it. intense. complicated-- a puzzle to be solved.
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as a little treat i am sharing with you little Aya doodles I've done over the last few days to unwind ww just little expressions based on lines in-game because those are always fun to draw. nothing too special just biscuit
it's Aya because upon doing bizarrely throughout playthroughs of the game for still unspecified project purposes I've gained a soft spot for her she's my daughter now my mental tier list on my favorite characters is so confusing right now
#re:kinder#fanart#aya re:kinder#aya hibino#i state shes my daughter NOW because before i didnt pay too big of a mind to her#but honestly in each different playthrough of this game i gain new appreciation for each character#because fun fact ryou was my favorite character at first just because he seemed nice and was a healer and was nice#second playthrough brought in rei and shunsuke in my mind because they ate it up wirh their roles in the story#meanwhile as time passed yuuichi started to grow on me as i realized he was a little too relatable BASICALLY THINGS LIKE THAT#and spoilers for the unspecified project mentioned in the text just because i feel like it#i also did this because having a transcript of every line just spurred me on becquse of how easy it made things#its much more fun to start doing these kind of line based doodles when you dont have to manually go througj hours of gameplay to find stuff#so just being ablr to ctrl f through a document made me very glad HEUEHEHEBEHR#im still working on it it needs proofreading and polishing on some sides but overall it should be here soon i hope#if anyones interested in it do let me know HUEHEHEBRB i will post it regardless but it would be nice to know if anyone is interested#ANYWAY#as to why Aya seems to have a purse when her sprite doesnt its because her equipment mentions her carrying a yellow pouch#its meant to be that!!!#she looks very goofy with it on made me giggle ngl#(as in. amusement)#it adds more interest to her visual design so its nice to have it there im glad its there#OH YEAH SOME COMMENTARY ON ONE OF HER LINES HERE THAT REALLY PIQUED MY INTEREST#if sayaka dies and shes there to see it (thus. you chose to bring her with you) she has this line#where it implies that shes afraid of dying which makes things sad when she's suicidal#she already states i think her desire is more to disappear than to die exactly but even then it's quite sad#like even if she wants to disappear with how gloomy she's feeling and all the things going around with her parents#shes just a little girl who doesn't want to diešš#it really adds a sense of realism to how depression is tackled in game at least for me#that when one is depressed and suicidal a lot of the time it's the wish for this state of suffering to end rather than to actually die#SUCH A GOOD CHARACTER ITS ONE OF THE THINGS THAT UPPED MY APPRECIATION FOR HER
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class of 09 the flipside
#i always thought the games were at their best while exploring the inner worlds and interpesonal relationships of girl#but ig sbn3 just likes writing women in pain i hate cis men so fucking much never trust a cis male writer#i got abt halfway through the gameplay when i realized i just wasnt having fun. ive rewatched the prev games about 4 times each.#also if u dislike the flipside bc 'they did jeffrey dirty' i think something. should happen to u#u experienced a woman centric narrative where most of the cast is girls with rich inner lives and ur fav is the adorkable misogynist#give me a fucking break some of you would rather die than think about women#and ig the writer is like that too#so maybe im the clown for class of 09 was a purposeful yet cheeky portrayal of living as a girl in the late 00s#š½#ngl i scrolled through a lil bit of the dudes twt b4 the flipside came out and i was like. oh this guy is a dumbass#so at least im vindicated in thinking that teehee
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Thatās it, thatās every Jeeves and Wooster story
#jeeves and wooster#reginald jeeves#bertie wooster#book memes#book shit post#shit posting#Jeeves is a agent of chaos#if my British friend told me his butler was gonna help me Iād start sobbing#I mean they have happy endings but at WHAT COST????#we are at the whims of Jeeves#no dude why is like āte he SIKE im gonna fix everythingā after ruining a old chaps life???!?#leave it to Jeeves? girl Iād rather leave it to die#Bertie is always just. there like some lamp#I would give any amount of money to get into jeeves head for 3 minutes#this bitch just fucks with people for fun#his hobby is mal practice and scheming#Jeeves ruining a childās life because his twink wouldnāt let him dress them up like a Barbie doll#fandom posting
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āWhat do you mean heās scary!! Look at him!ā
ā taking artistic liberties to scrunkle the face of @shepherds-of-havenās Blade Bronwyn - a man with 0.6% body fat lol
#shepherds of haven#if games#blade bronwyn#this is mc privelage at work#hc mcs but especially the ladies are like no heās fine!! look heās a lamb!! but if someone else tried this theyād get their wrists broken#being an artist (like being a writer) makes your proclivities rly obvious because in this instance you can tell that I love#babying men who could kickflip me into the sun#picking fights with famed assassins likeā¦ wow blade ur so confident for your height! and leave#blade likes girls with good hearts and Halle is not quite that but she IS an efficient worker so she always comes back with the winā¦#and a bunch of rescued orphans and mages and stuff itāsā¦ not a reflection of her personality but rather her work ethic which even then#is reluctant and put-upon#she didnāt want to be a captain let alone commander she was meant to be using this gang of do-gooders to fulfil her fate and then bounce#but theyāre all so wholesome and now she loves them despite her better judgement#and heās so cute!! with his poetry and plants and the googly-eyed clam he keeps on his desk and talks to about his feelings!!#whatās a girl to do?#thereās only so strong you can be in the face of a man who tells you straight-faced heād mcfucking die for you#talking the talk and walking the walk even to the most wary of wilderness orphans#as always blade you are a nightmare to draw I lost sleep over your skin tone#my foe of four years aka bladeās left elbow is cunningly hidden#their child would be a serious force of nature and also really tall#fanart#shoh#can you imagine the name? between austere ket names and whack mage namesā¦#these are my parents: blade and halwendi. my name is steele mechanicus and I DONT want to talk about it#just realised that if his brother saw this shit heād get blade stoned for being a public hussy gosh sorry better make an honest man of him#new blade hairstyle is a shaggy wolfcut bc I think itās cute on him lmao#this is a really autistic couple honestly#not quite sure where to put his hands#like when you flip a shark upside down
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cill bipher
My amazing boyfriend helped and did the arms and legs <333
#billford#dorito#doritos#bill cipher#caution sign#i have a boyfriend and hes amazing#help me im being held at gunpoint#i love you jesus#trisha paytas#im just a girl#totally not held at gun point#dont come near me or my boyfriend will gang up on you hoe#i heart my bf#my boyfriend wrote most of these#hes so creative and smart#save me#im too gay for this#straight person core#heterosmexual#plansexual#no there's not enough tags#start doing your work#no i would rather die#i love you jesusss#oil up jesus#im coming#you need jesus#art
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I wish I had a babygirlicious man next to me to keep me company right now š¼š
#maybe Spencer Reid if he was real tbh#I love you Spencer Reid ššš#I literally wrote#doinā it for Spencer Reid#in my book instead of doing my work LMAO ššš#I also wrote#smart is kewl#and okay werk now š#I hate doing work why is it so boring actually#Iām real I suppose#ššš#are you guys still hereā¦ reading thisā¦ guys?ā¦. guysā¦. guysā¦. guysā¦. šæšæšæšæ#I love this app actually sometimes I can just come on here and yap and post random things itās so fun#but Iād rather die than like post about my real issues cause idk whoās reading that shiz and I find it a tad embarrassing x#but if thatās you idc do you girl nobody really cares#because why would they#if they care then theyāre the weird ones#unless youāre like posting pictures of sh or like actually hate criming someone or something then thatās messed up#anyway#yeah#idk#bye guys fr now ššš#love you guys#oh and I also wrote this in my note book instead of doing my work#just to let yāall know#itās a direct quote#I felt like sharing#and also itās still applicable#OKAY NOW FR IM FOING ACTUALLY BYEEEEEEE
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i love being autistic cause sometimes i get a glimpse into how regular people perceive things and its like. what the fuck. what the fuck is that? you live like this? and its normal?? i think YOURE the weird one actually. im fine. thanks though.
#THERES SO MANY WEIRD RULES#LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN PEOPLE PAY ATTENTION TO HOW SOMEONE WALKS LIKE HUH????? WHY????????????#can someone fucking explain the dude head nod thing to me why do we do that. whats that about. ive never seen anyone do that irl before#is that an american thing or do i just hang around too many afab people#i am learning the intricacies of cis people gender rules and i am. what fucking planet have i been on the last 17 years like what is this#was there some like. rulebook they handed out at somepoint they forgot to give to me or something#ābest way to learn is to observe the men around youā OBSERVE WHAT. YOU PEOPLE PAY THAT MUCH ATTENTION TO EVERY LITTLE MOVEMENT????#bruh i can barely make eye contact w people...#my ass has never intentionally copied someones mannerisms ever.#i do it subconsciously. but doing it actively feels weird and wrong and like im breaking someones boundaries#āmen dont smile at people.ā well they should.#ive decided cishet men are the most boring people on the planet#ādont move with your handsā YOURE BREAKING MY POOR THEATER KID HEART#i need to meet more gay men irl to absorb the vibe of cause i only know like two. not counting myself#i want people to look at me and go. ah yes. fruit.#at this point im just going to accept being misgendered for the rest of eternity. id rather die than be boring in the way cishet men are#my flavor of being trans is so influenced by my autism cause my perception of genders is completely off from what everyone else is doing#im like. yeah i want to be a man. and then i look at what the majority of men are actually like and its like. wait no. not like that#shoutout to flamboyant gay men where would i be without them#i think the thing that bothers me the most is that like#in my mind peoples genders are just. the way they express themselves.#its not like. this super big complex deal like how everyone else treats it. if that makes sense? like.#regular people have so many rules for what counts as a man or what counts as a woman or what counts as neither and its like???#you can do what you want???? why do we care????#and ive been doing this since i was little. on account of the autism#i just. dont get why its such a big deal to people.#i cant wrap my head around it at all#not nonbinary not a girl not aegender not a man but a secret fourth thing#(man but i do it my way instead of everyone elses way)#unfortunately doing it my way just. leads to the misgendering dimension. for some reason
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... do i dare say this is misao whenever she tries to get herself amped up for actually opening up to people JSJSJ
#ALL POWER DEMANDS PAIN AND SACRIFICE: musings.#kind of a shitpost once more BUTTT oh well lol#i just can't help but make posts like these to break up all of the... āØļøtension āØļø / j SKSKSK#nah i know i haven't been posting anything sad or overly dark lately but. this meme just reminded me of her for some reason ok š LMAOO#tw: mentions of social isolation.#no but seriously all jokes aside she will sometimes withdraw even further into herself at even-#the THOUGHT of sharing her feelings with people so she will engage in socially isolating behaviors like-#staying at home for lengthy periods of time and avoiding any sort of contact with other people including those at work / her patient's.#like although she usually hates missing work as a rule because... you know a girl's gotta eat / hj ( JSJSJ ) she will take off and just.#bed rot for like a week if thing's get too bad because her hyperindependence sometimes gets so bad that-#she would rather die than talk to someone so... yeah. it's not good
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