#ghost!martyn my beloved

[alienssstufff]

moar You Could've Applied Online fanart but its this duo in particular uvu

[raticalshoez]

a secret life session five compilation of my favorite silly moments (ft. my poor phone quality camera)

Transcript below cut (did it for fun; this is the first time I've done one):

[Jimmy]: No?

[Martyn]: Wait- so wait. You're not the ghost horse?

[Martyn]: I thought you were ghost rider! Who's ghost rider?

[Jimmy]: ...Who is that?

[Martyn]: I mean we could always punch them and find out.

[Jimmy]: Yeah.

(Immediately sword crits Lizzie)

[Martyn]: AH...

[Jimmy]: OH MY GO-

(Long Pause)

[Jimmy]: NO! NO. NO.

[Martyn, overlapping]: What did you do?!

~~~

[Mumbo]: Who wants to have a competition with me? How many times can yoou jump over this campfire?

[Martyn]: Uhh, sure?

[Mumbo]: 'Kay.

(Mumbo takes damage while jumping over the campfire)

[Martyn]: Oh, jeez.

[Pearl, exasperated]: Mumbo...

[Cleo, fairly amused] Mumbo...

[Pearl]: Zero, appearantly.

[Mumbo]: So, I- I've set the score at zero.

(Martyn tries and succeeds)

[Mumbo]: Ooo, okay.

[Martyn]: There you go.

[Mumbo]: You already got one.

[Pearl]: Mumbo...what are you doing..?

(Mumbo jumps again and takes damage again)

[Mumbo]: Okay...

[Cleo, laughing]: Mumbo..!

(Martyn tries it again and jumos over it flawlessly, again)

[Mumbo]: Zero again for me.

[Pearl, overlapping]: Mumbo, stop-

~~~

[Tango]: You got spleefed by an enderman. I love it.

[Etho, doing a poor imitation of Bdubs]: Sheesh! I'm late! Judas Priest! Let me park my horse. I'm coming up!

(Heart Foundation's laughs + Grian's hysterical laughter overlapping with his talking)

[Grian]: Hi, "Bdubs."

[Skizz]: This thing's not ready because-

[Etho, still doing that impression]: What is this?--

~~~

[Lizzie]: I'm going.

[Tango]: Lizzie, we missed your party!

[Lizzie]: Oh, did you?

[Skizz]: We're so sorry.

[Lizzie]: Oh, I didn't notice because I was having so much fun with the one person that turned up! Goodbye, everybody!

(Heart Foundation all "aww"-ing out of sympathy)

~~~

[Cleo]: If you go to- If you go and do levels in the end you can like-- like I got seven, so.

[Gem]: Wowww.

[Cleo]: Hi, biggest, bravest, boy!

[Bdubs]: Thank you! I am!

(Cleo wheeze)

~~~

[Bdubs]: Okay. Yes?

[Etho, overlapping]: Look at this guy.

[Grian, very monotone]: Bdubs, my beloved. You've returned.

[Bdubs]: Wait- both of you? I'm gonna puke--

~~~

[Joel]: What is Pearl building???

[Gem, hidden beneath Mumbo's laughter]: You should just...admit defeat, if I'm being honest.

[Joel, overlapping]: Pearl...

[Joel again, deeply distressed]: WH- WHY HAVE YOU GONE FOR THIS COLOR SCHEME, PEARL??? WHY THIS SHAPE AND THIS COLOR SCHEME, PEARL????

[great-axepectations]

P!Apo Theorycrafting

So on last night's stream viewers were allowed to ask one question regarding p!apo's lore. My question was "Who is the most important person in his life?" and the answer was a cryptic "a reflection". He also mentioned there's something in his first pirates episode that no one's been talking about. So of course that's been buzzing around in my head all day so here's an attempt to coherently present my thoughts:

Missing Moon God

In the stream where Martyn and Sausage were cursed, one of messages they both received was (verbatim): "The warmth of the Sun and Moon fully vanish from your skin... As if not even the Gods can help you now..." We've seen our beloved admin sun god, a sun god cult, and sun god artifacts and chapels. Where's the moon god? Why was the word 'Gods' plural? And 'sun' and 'moon' both capitalized? If there is no moon god then why mention it? I've seen a bunch of light vs dark dichotomy in pirates lore, with light not necessarily the 'good' side. A bit of a moral gray area if you will, much like pirates themselves.

Spooky lore tweets from the official account say "look to the light in the darkness". The sun is a light in the day. The moon would be a light in the darkness. (Or stars, admittedly. There's a lot of star imagery on pirates.)

What Are Pirates About

There is a small section in the middle of Apo's pirates episode labelled 'What Are Pirates About' with the following dialogue:

Graecie: Listen, I know you're here for for the most glorious battles and stuff Apo: Well yeah, obviously. That's what pirates are supposed to be about, right? At least that's what I was told. Acho: Do you make all your decisions based on what you're told?

Acho's question could be conveyed as "Do you think for yourself? Or are you doing this because someone told you to?" Who told Apo what pirates are about? And why is he so intent on following their expectations? Are his motivations his own, or is he doing things because someone told/expected him to? Acho and Graecie then talk about how being a pirate is about being free to make your own choices. Is that the direction Apo's character growth is going in?

"A Reflection"

So how do these connect? The moon, while bright in the sky, does not technically shine with its own light: it reflects the light from the sun. And maybe it's the terminal brainrot I have from being a fan of the traffic life series and how that exposed me to the sublimely sad music of The Crane Wives, but I can't help but think of the lyrics to The Moon Will Sing:

The moon will sing a song for me I loved you like the sun Bore the shadows that you made With no light of my own I shine only with the light you gave me I shine only with the light you gave me

Now I'm not quite sure what a connection between p!apo and the moon could be (other than the fact that he safely washed up on the faction isles under the light of the moon), but the metaphor still stands. If the most important person in his life is a reflection, is Apo just the mirror? I also joked in the chat that it could be 'a ghost trapped in a mirror', but what if that were true? I haven't seen every stream, but the writings in his book seem to be addressed to a loved one, and I've seen people theorize it's someone who has passed on. Is he trying to preserve that light by reflecting it? And again, where is the moon god?

And knowing that cc!apo has a penchant for creating tragic little characters, is p!apo going to start finally living for himself and then die in a horrible traumatic way that fucks me up for weeks?

[beetlejuicesgraveyardrevue]

tagged by my beloved mutual @busyhearingvoices to spell out my username with songs!

B - Black Licorice - Peach Pit

E - Early Sunsets Over Monroeville - MCR

E - Elenor Rigby - Joan Baez

T - Two Coffins - Against Me!

L - Losing My Religion - Frank Iero

E - Elevated - State Champs

J - Jesus Saves - AJJ

U - Under The Milky Way - The Church

I - If You Have Ghosts - Roky Erickson

C - Coin-Operated Boy - The Dresden Dolls

E - Every You, Every Me - Placebo

S - Servo Manual Chapter 1 (Mandroids on Whisky) - Beautiful Small Machines

G - Get Disowned - Hop Along

R - Right On, Frankenstein! - Dearh From Above 1979

A - All We Ever Wanted Was Everything - Bauhaus

V - Vincent - Don McLean

E - Eyes On Fire - Blue Foundation

Y - You Must Be Fun At Parties - Forests

A - Accident Prone - Jawbreaker

R - Ramble On - Led Zeppelin

D - Dirty Night Clowns - Chris Garneau

R - Rainbow Veins - Owl City

E - Empty Glass - Thursday

V - Video Games - Radical Face

U - Undercover Martyn - Two Door Cinema Club

E - Everybody Wants To Rule The World - Tears For Fears

this was super fun! thank you for tagging me! i’ll tag @dykeredhood @gerardwaist @baskinsilence @phoeniceae @selenitecoffins @pippintookish @spacebronco @drakillya @cowlovely if any of you want to!

[nho-jungle]

goodbye ranch

goodbye twin souls bound together goodbye canary, cursed forever goodbye zombies in the pool goodbye warden, doomed to fall goodbye trees and goodnight sand goodbye wounds upon the land goodbye deep dark and ancient city goodbye home-moaners committee goodbye love ranch and burning walls goodbye ringing goathorn calls goodbye box with angry face goodbye fishing-rod flight to space goodbye jellie-panda reserve goodbye tower with a fantasy curve goodbye heart above the ravine goodbye drama like a scripted scene goodbye mid-century modern house goodbye zombie pit with no way out goodbye ship, and pillager outpost goodbye server, full of ghosts. goodbye cake and dripstone spikes goodbye all-out fire strikes goodbye hope of an olive branch, goodbye server, goodbye ranch.

after martyn said “goodbye ranch” sounded like a kids book. shoutout rhymezone my beloved for helping me write this lol.

[reblogs help more than likes]

[moon1ee]

i’d love to hear mote about your 3rd life phasmphobia au !!

oooh treebark ghosthunting au my beloved. a slightly abandoned beloved but i might one day get the motivation to actually write the thing.

i will say that cleo is actually a literal zombie in this. she's been around for hundreds of years and no one has really picked up on it. she actually used to be ren's enemy, as duchess of a warring kingdom back when she was alive. cleo gives martyn an iron knife to protect himself with and when he first meets ren he does point it at his throat. jokes on him, ren in fact has a Certain Type that involves people who could step on him. cleo is also trans. so is bdubs. t4t crastle duo.

desert duo is hanging around, and scar ends up finding a ghost llama in the palace stables and adopting it. grian is just So Done.

i truly need to stress how incredibly stupid martyn is in this au. there are MULTIPLE paintings of the red king in the castle. ren has an entire army of people who follow him around that he calls his 'knights'. it is just. he is the definition of Dumb Jock.

i am still wondering over the ending of the story too--should i choose a happy ending where they revive ren like they revive each other whenever they die ghosthunting, or is that not possible and is martyn stuck loving a ghost that will never truly be his and will continue to wander the earth even after he passes?

thank you so much for the ask, and if you want to see more of this au, feel free to check out #"ghosthunting au", it has some tidbits AND the spotify playlist for the au :D

[lunarblazes]

my thoughts about the third life finale (SPOILERS AHEAD):

-grian do you know what friendship is. the “moral obligation” you are describing is called friendship

-SCOTT SAW THE FANART AND CHOSE VIOLENCE THIS IS OUR FAULT

-the final duel. wow. fuck. over pizza’s grave egged on by the ghosts

-martyn’s Mysterious Entity lore is terrifying thanks! i’m sure none of that will come back to bite us in season two no sir

-big b my beloved you deserved to win

-nobody wanted to kill big b and i think that’s hilarious. man is so chill that everyone immediately forgives him for everything

-impulse was known as a traitor until the very end and then was himself betrayed. fitting i guess HDJDKFK

-JOEL HOW DID YOU GET SO MANY GODDAMN DOGS WHAT THE HELL

-etho was so sneaky that i have watched like eight people’s episodes and i still have no clue what he was doing the whole time

-rip bdubs i’m sure cleo is happy to see u again sir, you were the best dude

-grian named his sword the avenger after scott’s red death in the desert. i stan the desert alliance dude

-scar saying that grian deserved to kill him for all the help he gave him and grian just... couldn’t do it, he couldn’t just betray scar like that even if scar had just killed him, and i am In Pain everyone

[redwinterarts]

Red King BELOVED

idk why i always think of red king and ren as different entities, canonically they are the same person, but in my heart they are. not.

Ren/Red King is such a interesting character just because his thrive to protect around him, him and martyns whole thing? amazing.

i have a whole little au about Red being a god that Ren summoned and followed Ren to HC and now follows him around like a dumbass little ghost cus he’s stuck with ren lmao

i’m quite proud of this, i think i got his whole demeanor down quite well? hm. i hope it reads as such lolz

also long hair hermits beloved lmao

ver w/ blood under the cut

[stevemybeloved]

last life ghost podcast rankings

the beloved @bobisnolongerhere and i like to refer to the post-permadeath spectating of last life members and the chatting with other ghosts as the ghost podcast. here is the official ranking of them (by me, clearly the most qualified person to do this /s) 

SKIZZLEMAN MY BELOVED: thank you for your service king

cleo: most we get of the post- grian+joel v everyone else battle

ren: most we get of the after(life)party

pearl: it's cut a bit but decent podcast pov of the final battle royale

grian: only podcasts to when joel died (not very long after he does smh) + bonus haunting tho

etho: podcasts to the end of the grian/joel battle and cuts before the final battle royale

tango: just does the scene of his death and cuts after. bonus points for lengths he went to not spoil

scott: hard to rank bc tbf he won so there's not a lot of podcasting to do (cuts BEFORE ren does tho)

joel: only a couple lines from podcast (immediately after he dies (but it is funny)), then does outro in different world

bigb: goes into spectator for a bit for the rest of the battle (ft. ghost bdubs my beloved) but has mic off. half points for podcast

mumbo: no one was there to meet him so it rly shouldnt count as a podcast :( (not much happened immediately after he died either for him to spectate)

no ghost podcast:

scar: he spectates but floats up to do his outro so he isn't rly giving us a view of whats going on

impulse: clicks spectate, cuts immediately (does show up in the skizz podcast)

jimmy: didn't even go into spectator just hung around the death screen and then did outro

martyn: forgoes ghost podcast for watcher lore

lizzie: no podcast, goes straight to outtro

bdubs: NO FINAL EPISODE WAHHHHHHH CRYING SOBBING PAIN AGONY

[acerace]

Two Birds!! I put that on my 3rd life playlist too!! Tell me about that one?

(And just some more of the songs I recognized and am curious about if you're up to them!!)

-Blood in the Water (I love this song!!)

-Viva la Vida (Scar? 👀)

- Soilder, Poet, King (the possibilities!!)

Ohohoh *rubs my hands together*

Editing Clover here, uh, it’s been a hot second since you sent this. Oops. It got extremely buried in my drafts (like post 140 out of 250 buried) and then it got very long so uhhh to recap for everyone else, I have a 3rd Life playlist here which is in order with detailed explanations from People I Don’t Like to In Our Bedroom After the War. There's a bunch more songs after those that haven't been sorted (yet?) but are still very much 3rd Life vibes. Send me asks about the songs I go wild for this stuff :D 

So have some (very late) rambling about the above songs below the cut! 

Two Birds, aka "oh I am going to cry now thanks". This song is one of the hardest to pin down for me just because it's so emotive? Like to me the wire can be So Much but I think this interpretation- of pessimistic Grian and optimistic Scar- sits best with me

I think of it as a Grian and Scar song, with them being the two birds, plus the general vibes of "we know this can't last, that this won't end well, but let's pretend it's all going to be okay anyway". Also bird imagery for Grian my beloved

The wire is reality I think, the fact that they both can't be the last survivor, and Grian is the bird that can't let go of this fact- Scar considers him a genuine friend, that they're partners, and Scar knows this is going to end in blood and death but he believes in Grian anyway but Grian can't really accept this? Like Scar is aware of the wire and the reality they live in, but he wants to leave it behind, to live without that knowledge weighing down on him. But Grian can't- he can't fly away with Scar, as much as he wants to, he can't leave. He's playing the game of thrones and he can't put the pieces down, in a way. He's firmly stuck in harsh reality and nothing Scar can say can get him to put the worry away :(

"Two birds of a feather / Say that they're always gonna stay together" desert duo my beloved, with Grian realizing he can't leave Scar, can't leave him to die, they're partners, but it's session 8 and everyone is dying around them,, reality is crashing down and it's not going to be kind to them,,

And then the outro,,, paired with the finale,,,,, with Scar flying away as his death and the song ending as Grian jumps-

Pain.

Two Birds is such an emotional song and putting it into words is hard but tl;dr sand people becoming genuine friends as the world demands they kill each other,,,

Blood // Water was first listed as a general Red song, everyone is pissed and fighting and it’s no holds barred, but it’s also a vengeful!Scott song. In the first chorus and verse 1 Scott is thinking about how the Flower Husbands couldn’t escape the violence and death, and the “knock at the door” is the Red Army showing up with their book. The first drop is Jimmy’s death </3 and the rest of the song is Scott red and furious, out for vengeance, bloodthirsty, unable to process his grief or emotions so he lashes out again and again and again. And the last verse, the drop at the end, is Scott dying </3 

Viva la Vida is another general song with specific lines written out to correspond to images in my head. Also I’m pretty sure I had this written down from before the final session so bits might not line up anymore XD 

“I used to rule the world / Seas would rise when I gave the word”- teams at their castles looking proud- Scar and Grian, Bdubs and Cleo, Ren and Martyn, Etho Impulse and Tango, Scott and Jimmy, and BigB Joel and Skizz in their own homes 

“Now in the morning, I sleep alone / Sweep the streets I used to own”- split up- Jimmy and Cleo and Skizz are dead, yellow Grian and red Scar looking at the blown up desert, Ren, Martyn, Etho, Tango, and Impulse divided and looking at their damaged bases 

“Now the old King is dead, long live the King”- Martyn killing Ren to make him red  

And I discovered that my castles stand / Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand”- bases collapsing- tnt, fire, changing loyalties 

Chorus- battles, allies 

“Once you'd gone, there was never / Never an honest word”- deaths, permadeaths, being left alone after your partner dies 

“People couldn't believe what I'd become”- the bloodlust 

Revolutionaries wait / For my head on a silver plate”- more fighting, battle at the desert, Cleo trying to kill Ren, Impulse siding with the Crastle 

“Just a puppet on a lonely string”- Grian and Scar, reverses to Grian killing everyone with a smile 

“Aw, who would ever want to be king?”- Grian as everyone dies around him, realizing he is alone 

And Soldier, Poet, King is a Red Army song! The soldier is Skizz, the poet is Martyn, and the king is Ren <3 you can imagine it at any point in the story but I have it as an early song, before people started permadying, before the big battles broke out. But it can also be each of them dying- verse 1 first four lines is Skizz defending Dogwarts, then charging into the Crastle, then dying in the last line. Same idea for Martyn, he lives proudly and victoriously in the first four lines and then gets shot on “slay” reaching for Ren, who is offscreen, and we can’t see what’s happened to him. “There will come a ruler / whose brow is laid in thorn / smeared with oil like David’s boy” is the sacrifice on the altar, the Red King rising, and “he will tear your city down” is Ren defending Dogwarts for the last time, with him dying on the pause after the “oh lei oh lai” bit. The outro could be anything- the end of 3rd Life as the ghosts watch, flashbacks to happy memories and how the group formed, or, on a happier note, Skizz Ren and Martyn reuniting at the Hermit Raiders Twitch Rivals event <3 

[jackiebrackettt]

okay let me copy past my word doc reactions under the keep reading:

OH YEAH THE RED KING! I remember hearing about that.

Also i am curious about ur designs ^_^

Oh goodbye Jimmy )): I remember flower husbands upsetting me akffkjks hope they are having fun in heaven (although I heard it didn’t carry over to last life? Idk I will see how that works i suppose!)

oh goodbye cleo )):

Grian has made like 1 successful trap so far I think everything else has either failed or not killed ppl ajfjdjs king… get it together ur evil genius crown is slipping…

Oh goodbye Skizz )):

YEAH YEAH I SAW THAT SCOTT CLIP IT MADE ME REALLY EMOTIONAL! I was going to say sad but I don’t think that’s the right word bc it ends on a happy tone all things considered?

Goodbye Joel )): NOOOO HIS DOGS!!!

Ooohh goodbye Etho )):

I feel like this staying together and going against everyone else is not going to work for them eventually. Only one winner and all that but good luck kings.

Goodbye tango )): we are losing ppl fast.

OH! Goodbye Ren and Martyn! This is the thing I was referring to actually in my earlier reblog: I misremembered. I find it really tragic ))): like teeechnically martyn is “sacrificing” himself for ren because he’s trying to get revenge and fails but I remembered it more as a: martyn takes the fall allowing ren to escape for a little bit kinda deal so yeah I was wrong. “maybe the king and his hand were lucky in that they never had to betray one another” cool!!! (I’m emotional)

Oh cool a clock whyyyy would you take that deal but also fair enough I guess! Goodbye impulse )): I did actually hear about this I just forgot.

And goodbye Big B! then there were three.

Oooohhhh betrayal. This is why being evil never pays off ur allies and friends will turn on you easily.

Goodbye bdubs )): yeah okay this is the other big part I heard about. Ghosts chanting for blood is really funny but from a narrative standpoint… amazing, iconic,

Oh omg he doesn’t even survive in the end akdjs?? Goodbye scar and grian. I think if they put some dramatic sad music over the top the laughing would definitely sound like laugh crying.

:O!!! the loyalty theme is so interesting I love when mcrps do that. Like it’s completely accidental but it works really well narratively.

And yeah I can def see if as shakespearian lol it has all the classic tragedy vibes. I think I remember Shakespeare having the five act tragedy going on or something but I am. Not going to apply that here because I don’t want to Shakespeare analyse again I did that too much in English akfkjd

OOOHHH the difference between allegiance and friendship… okay I take it back be friends with villains I suppose akfkdj Llama in 3 acts omg…

Thank you rendog for setting off this cool story king ^_^

Poggers trailer :3

LAST LIFE TIME BABYY

Trading lives sounds absolutely bonkers wtf.. awesome mechanic

YYEEAH okay I heard about the red lives not being able to ally with the green lives and also the boogeyman (among us)

LOSE ALL THEIR LIVES SO THEY HIT RED HOLY SHIT????

This is a very good chart thank you ^_^ also Tango is winning with his lives holy shit (edit: I’ve found out about the deal now but still.)

Okay this enchanter seems like it will be important.

M. marinat. He��s marinating the. amogus. (I’m sorry I’m a big among us fan it’s good to watch for my attention span akfjd)

LOL! Bye Grian. Dramatic music love that.

Nine lives like a cat.

Cleo and Big B sound like they have the right idea honestly.

Lucky Grian scammed that extra life or else he would be in trouble.

For some reason it just did not occur to me that the enchanting table could be taken lol.

Also side note I appreciate ur bolding my default is skim reading so this helps me not miss out on important stuff lol.

Communication my beloved,,,

Damn good luck Joel.

Akfhsjkk scar failed so badly at killing him at that is very funny to me.

Hell yeah lifelong bonds!

Goodbye joel ! one imposter remaining.

Okay scar has redeemed himself with those fail kills on joel earlier bc this was a good and dramatic kill. “welcome to magic mountain!” I love a showman murderer they’re very funny to me. Part of the reason I really like the monologue in the fall it has villain showman vibes.

OH as mentioned previously: damn good luck joel. Ooohhh they can’t be friends anymore )):

Ooohh wait ur right about the coffin chests thing akdkjdj that’s so fun.

Gaslight gatekeep Girlboss hell yeah! Hope being allies with like half the server doesn’t end up badly for her.

B.E.S.T. alliance is really funny to me I’ll root for them arbitrarily based off the name.

Oohh dramatic search scene! This kind of reminded me a bit of like… early disc war stuff when tommy hid the disc and they were trying to fight dream off from finding it (but he hid it in a diff area to where dream was searching)

Yeah the drama of the kills and the bystanders is all very cool! OH WOW LOTS HAPPENING!! I think I read something sort of poetic about these events but it was vague so I didn’t know what was going on.

Also omg Cleo omg… revenge time…

This life trade thing is so cool I love that they keep doing it! And that less ppl run every time!! It’s such an interesting dynamic in this world.

ODHDGHFSLDFLHSDLJFSDHLFJ THE FANART!!!!!!!! Oh no he’s kicked out )):

Okay lots happening!!! I think I had questions but I forgot them while I was writing/taking breaks akfkf it was only small things though and I think some of them got explained anyway. Oh wait: can a green person trade a life to a red person to bring them back to green?

And I’m assuming it’s the same concept of like… green ppl can’t attack red ppl/the boogeyman unless they’re attacked first? Also third question: is last life a completely separate universe from third life?

Also that would be cool!! I’d prob read whatever fics u wrote about it tbh I’ve read fics for things I have less info on lol. And I love to see art so if you dooo want to set up a queue I would enjoy seeing that!!! Hope the sessions you’ve been catching up on have been fun!

anyway this whole thing has been so interesting to read thank you so much for writing it!!!

You mentioned not knowing anything about third life/last life, and like feel free to just delete the ask if unwanted, but I am VERY willing to just gab about this series if you wanna know anything. Mcyt hyperfix go brrr

-mimick

i cannot promise i can read well rn but if you want to tell me about it feel free!!! idk if i'll be able to watch it anytime soon but i like hearing about things :D

(also i found out i have an assignment due tonight so unfortunately ur fic request won't be out until like.. tomorrow night lol. but i am getting to it!)

[acerace]

Every day I think about how Curtain Fall by Area 11 is a perfect 3rd Life song and lose my mind and by that I mean I start crying

Verse 1- concept as a whole like hello, toxin as bloodlust, last two lines as everyone chooses sides, plus Impulse vibes and Grian telling Scar he can't talk his way out of things anymore

There are some ways to win / The primal games we’re in / I’m bleeding out the toxin / Waiting for the curtain / Where white and black collide / Ground one foot either side / You’re bleeding out your options / No more words of caution

Verse 2- FLOWER HUSBANDS, literally walled inside a garden plus drowned Jimmy, choosing sides out of worry

Back when I thought I was / Built that way, just because / I’m walled inside a garden / Deep within an ocean / Inject ideas with life / Through fear and not despite / I’m bleeding out my options / Bleeding all the options

First chorus- general vibes, Martyn pov, the shadow being bloodlust and Martyn's voice

Oh, you better believe / The shadow haunting me / It knows what I could be / I can see / The serpents inside me / Contorting, warping me / Finally

Verse 3- Red Army my beloveds, Ren and the Impulse betrayal

No matter, time dethrones / Oh, speak to me, you stones / I’m so tired of waiting / For the bloated and deceptive / Where white and black collide / Speak truth reveal the line / I’m bleeding out my options / Bleeding all the options

Second chorus- everyone dies ! Pain ! The bloodlust and revenge and hurt all end in death and bloodshed

A cure to shame the disease / The shadow haunting me / It knows what I could be / Silently / The serpents inside me / Contorting, warping me / Finally, I believe

Post chorus- the first time I heard this line I jolted upright ok. Double meaning of Watchers- Evo Watchers and the ghosts gathering around Grian and Scar in the desert

The Watchers gathered in the sky / Don’t let the curtain fall

Bridge- desert duo enjoyers we lose these. Quicksand, we'll be alright, scars that prove it all?? Ignite as Scar as fire?? We'll make it anyway because they're the last two survivors no one look at me I'm crying again

When you sink in the quicksand of the night / Persevere ‘cause I know we’ll be alright / Cling to me and my scars that prove it all / Don’t let the curtain fall / You ignite in the fever of the day / Knowing smile ‘cause we’ll make it anyway /Cling to me and my scars that prove it all / Don’t let the curtain fall

Outro- same lyrics as bridge, except Scar is dead and it's just Grian, alone, and the song ends as he jumps on "fall"

I am not over 3rd Life and I never will be anyway here's my 3rd Life playlist again if anyone else wants to cry with me </3