#getting old sucks y'all

[msviolacea]

A New Year's Eve contemplation of family, death, and emotions under the cut. That should give you the warnings necessary.

I realized, as I was sitting here this morning, that I missed the 20th anniversary of my sister's death, a little over a week ago. There are reasons - you know, everything else that's happened this year, but also I've been dealing with a merry-go-round of hormonal birth control for my perimenopause that as of yet hasn't given me anything but shitty side effects, so yeah. It's been a whole few weeks. But yeah, fuck. 20 years without Susan. Which is only 6 years less than she was alive.

I don't want to feel guilty for forgetting, but then my dad's voice comes to me, reminding me of the times he called me cold for not grieving in a way he recognized. The rational part of my brain can recognize that for the bullshit it is, but it's hard to be 100% rational where parents and their opinions are concerned.

I remember the one time I tried to give him a Christmas gift that showed him how much I loved, missed, and thought about Susan - I gave him an electronic photo frame with all the good photos of her/our family I could scrounge up. This was probably around 7-8 years after she died. He opened it, turned it on, and started sobbing uncontrollably. Not in a happy/grateful way, just in a full on grief spiral way. And I had no idea what to do with that. Just absolutely no fucking clue.

I never saw him use the frame when I visited, and I never gave him anything like it again.

Family can be a fucking mess, and sometimes I feel guilty for being vaguely relieved that I don't have to deal with it anymore. But that doesn't mean I don't miss them. That I don't think about them. That I don't wish things were different. Just because I didn't wake up on the 20th and immediately remember "oh, I got the phone call about Susan 20 years ago today" doesn't mean I don't still feel the shard of ice in my chest when I think about it.

20 years without Susan. 3 and a half without Dad. 36 without Mom. I remember the numbers. I don't know if the numbers mean anything, but I remember them. That has to count for something.

[flying-cat]

Preparing myself to read a Persona 5 fic because it sounds super interesting but Maruki is a tagged character which means there's like a 70% chance that he's being mischaracterized

[notmoreflippingelves]

Thinking about how aggravating it is that fandom boils down a lot of really fascinating Ace Attorney ships to "oh, so we're copying narumitsu's homework again, are we?" --as though the only reason that someone might find plausibly these ships (romantic and/or platonic) interesting is surface-level similarities to the fandom juggernaut pairing and not like the compelling characters and their established bonds in and of themselves.

[incorrectpinescone]

hey, just checking in. yalls havent uploaded since june of 2023, and i was wondering if yalls were good?? ive recently gotten into pinescone and stumbled across this blog :P i get it if yalls just arent posting anymore, but i thought id ask

Oh yikes I'd completely forgotten ab this ask my bad ^^;

Yea I'm still good! Lotta life issues but like. that's got nothin to do with why I haven't been postin so dw-- idk if you're still even around to read this (this was sent two months ago) but I've just. fallen out of love w the otwg/gf fandom, and with that pinescone too,, things happened AGES ago and I've just moved on to new fandoms yk

I would still like to post quotes but like. idk man. times are a weird! I thank you for checkin in tho, I appreciate it ^^

[soaps-mohawk]

Soooo ya warned us to NOT read the latest chapter in public… GUESS WHAT I DID!? LMAOOO- I was too impatient and read it during my break yesterday 😔🙏then I reread it again when I got home- UGH IT WAS SOO GOODDD- I can’t wait till the next one 😘🥰

I warned y'all those are there for a reason 😏

I am glad you enjoyed it though 😉

[smartzelda]

Pouring one out for the fox-boy (Tails) enjoyers who also hate watching people take every excuse possible to depict him as a lil uwu baby boy who doesn't know anything about anything and is super naive and is team little brother when depicting him in canon/post canon settings

[whysamwhy123]

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[arttrampbelle]

You want shang tsung?

Don't fucking like him only because he looks like he's in his 20s. Like that's disturbing. Im sorry. Shang tsung is supposed to look in his 30s or 40s at Youngest.

Making him look like he could be some 21 yr old is disturbing to me. (Like why are people so obsessed with looking young or youth. Like people have face lines,wrinkles,they age! Wtaf is wrong with people?! Plus shang tsung is supposed to be 500yrs old with a curse that fucking ages his ass! ACTUALLY BOTHER TO DO RESEARCH PEOPLE!!!!! MK1 2023 IS A FUCKING RETCON AND A BULLSHIT GAME!!!! Fucking hell. He's not supposed to look like some anime uke uwu fucking twink. He's a sexy,sinister,classy,bastard who takes souls to live. He's legitimately a Dracula archtype. Wtaf. How is that hard to fucking understand?!!!! )

Shang tsung looks like this

Period.

(Also i love tagawa's shang rejuvenated look in mk11. Buuuuut....im a sucker for his old man shang look. Fr. Also his bearded look in mk conquest and mk9. But thats cuz i grew up with mk2 and mk shaolin monks. And that was how he looked. However shang tsung lools best in mk11 and in the mk95 movie and holy crap how did we fall so far?! *sigh* how could nrs fumble that so hard?! )

Like that is a handsome man. Y'all are shallow,blind,and i don't understand how you could NOT think this man is cute af?!

Like just because he doesn't look like some uwu pretty boi fuck boi Instagram model to fit your tumblr brand needs don't mean he's not attractive. In fact he's way more attractive in mk11. Period.

Like come on. I'm sorry not everyone needs to look like a k pop star or Instagram model/kim k or megan fox to look attractive. Or legitimately some uncanny valley shit. Like they don't look that great in mk1 and I'm not understanding the appeal. They have no personality. They just copyed the mcu thats it. They watered him down. Tried to imitate tagawa. And slapped a wish brand fake ass tumblr brand dot com loki on him. And pussyfoot around the fact they can't write to save their asses. And fans eat it up because they dont fucking care. Or even bother to know why its shit. But its no use in me saying this because half the people here dont care or bother to listen.

Social media has warped some of y'all's views on beauty,aesthetic,and attractiveness.

Fr.

Maybe it's just me but y'all have that gross mcu/marvel/superhero movie brain rot and y'all need help. Srsly.

Bottom line is and the point is.

Y'all shallow. Tagawa's shang tsung is way hotter. Mk11's character models are way hotter and have character personalities. And dont have same face syndrome. Are way more believable too.

[imaginarianisms]

hi hi hi your native starks got me thinking abt lily gladstone as lyanna

👀👀👀👀

[femslashspuffy]

Found out that my college is a lot of people's default school that they go to when they can't get into any other school and honestly... skill issue. I graduated with a 4.1 and I got a 1420 on my SAT. All the schools I applied to wanted me carnally (gave me a ton of money) and this school was my top pick bc my high school was tough and I wanted to go to a chill and stereotypical college..... so maybe stop shitting on the college we both go to and shut the fuck up forever huh?

[skrunksthatwunk]

not rascal's deadbeat owner coming around when im not home and telling my roommate she's taking him for a week (our break is 4 weeks or so, implying he's gonna be back here even though That's Her Cat Not Ours) and then just picking up the new toys i bought for him and taking them with her without even asking. hey. hi. those are mine

[en8y]

im sorry for changing some titled SoS flags but if things aren't uniform my autism will explode in my head and injure passerby

[theglizzardwizard]

My 2019/2020 opinions weren't exactly polished but I'm also not going to backtrack. I said what I said back then and if you have a problem with it you can slam that mfing block button, whitey.

[k6tzie]

COD P☆RN LINKS | PT. 3

ghost: always so quiet and reserved, seeing you like this is refreshing. so humane having ur guts rearranged after doubting your lieutenants skills! dove, you're so needy. but luckily for you, you have a patient, big bf came back from prices' baby shower now u and si want a baby of ur own, but u can't wait:( doughy ass bouncing on his long cock that no one's sucked in over a year, thankfully now ur here! sharing the captains daughter with soap<3 trusting is hard for him, so once he has you, he doesn't wanna let go warm winter fuck with ur gentle boy price: once you taught olderbf!price how to make hotter videos, he thinks he's so much cooler but that old man lives within him💔i mean look how he's holding the phone! you feel a big, throbbing thing in your tummy, hopefully he doesn't press down on it D: when u took him to meet ur parents, you just looked too good not to fuck afterwards :( as much as he loves his quiet girls, he can't say no to a bubbly one night stand now can he he didn't wanna have to do this but this IS what bad girls get... dadsfriend!price taking you upstairs during the bbq. there's so many people so no one will hopefully notice ur gone... soap: totally something soap would do, fucking you levitating 😭 first time having a crush this intense, taking sneaky photos of you, drawing you in his sketchbook, leaving you little gifts anonymously - now that you gave him a chance, he's too shocked to even do anything! honestly his dream is hot gf x loser guy he's a messy boy who likes his sex quick! so so much cum dripping out, it's like your boys' in heaven filthy gym partner can't keep his hands to himself only one person can eat you this well when you're sick, soap! gaz: your drunk sex was so good, you won't forget it even when you're sober <3 appreciating that pussy with the love and tongue it deserves so wet and tight like ur ex boyfriend did nothing at all smh, must've been tiny deeeeep in ur gfs womb! pretty boy barely ever gets angry, but when price has been on his back the whole week, and now you're giving him attitude - he can't take it anymore! hot belly bulge - who would've thought from the serene, goofy guy? graves: ah, so THAT'S how you passed recruitment i see, interesting... what a baby, never been with a real woman. actually a very soft, sensual man. don't mistake him as rough cuz of how he acts at work lucky shadow of the week gets to record the barracks bunny and graves kept trying to draw milk out of you but he didn't realise not everyone just...lactates :(he can't stop rewatching this video y'all took, how your greedy pussy just swallows his dick whole :o purposely just teasing you so he can see u angry konig: an efficient way to wake up his beautiful baby✨ his cold tongue and your warm socks make an interesting contrast🤔 he caught you masturbating all by yourself and you didn't seem to reach ur full potential :( loser!konig coded, once he finally gets his rough hands on you, it's hard letting a beauty like you go ruined ur cute little panties smh, greedy big boy mean colonel punishing his secret fuck buddy after he found out you've started talking to another person💢 bonus!!: surprise ;)

@xtrrdnrypotato @livingdead-g1rl

[arolesbianism]

Thinking abt the random card au again. Why must it go so crazy hard I miss it sm

[gamebunny-advance]

You know what it is?

The people doing that don't follow this blog, so they're probably just liking/reblogging the old mix because it gets recommended when you like the other posts.

But still, that would imply that these people are coming from the tags, where the new version should still be showing up, so I still don't get it ;w;