#getting my new computer this week soooo

[civetcider]

Heeey ladies, how's it going? oh what's that, You wanna see my motorcycle? Oh of course

Pretty badass huh? Wait why are you walking away

[poursomesunaonme]

okay i found it <3

Will ‘saw you in a dream’ be continued? (also, congrats on your masters degree!)

omg two years later and yall are still here ??? :') crineeeeee

honestly ive been considering going back to it ! its been a while since i published anything seeing as i was dying going thru school lmfao but the storyboard is still there ! i actually think i left off writing the epilogue... i just wanted it to be done before publishing the rest to take the pressure off from having a schedule.

with my job still in the works ill have a lot of free time so perhaps ill type away at it until im satisfied :) (which may take a while bc i know way too much abt the brain now to be spreading misinformation abt brain injury LMFAOOO) thank you for following up though, it really does mean a lot to my dusty ass brain (and thank u for ur congratulations - they mean just as much) 🩷

[crybaby-bkg]

I have done. the last three weeks of my homework in the past two days save for two papers. and I am so. tired. and so frustrated bc I am bursting at the seams with ideas but I just feel so drained that all I wanna do is just lay down!!!! also pmsing which doesn’t help with exhaustion levels ☹️☹️☹️☹️

[cle-levanter]

I-

I think I’m going to Music Bank in Antwerp, Belgium next April? 😭

[absolutebl]

This Week(s) in BL - yes yes I KNOW

Organized, in each category, with ones I'm enjoying most at the top.

Dec 2024 Week 1 & 2

Ongoing Series - Thai

Your Sky (Sun iQIYI) ep 3-4 of 12 - Them on the rooftop together (and cooking) learning how to flirt and be comfortable in each other’s space was so damn darling. Fah is so gentle and so enamored. its just endlessly soft. I love the nickname negotiation. And then next we got an illegally cute date!!!!! Yes this is slow but I don't care.

Love Sick 2024 (Sun iQIYI) ep 12-13 of 15 - I like we get more Phun/Dad conflict backstory in this new version. I'm chronicling my experience with 2024 as compared to 2014 here. (hasn't been updated, I'm struggling here)

Caged Again (Fri Gaga) ep 5-6 of 10 - Family (elder gays) to the rescue is a wonderful trope to see! So rare.

Also a v well done first kiss. 

Not gonna lie, I found the second episode overly weird and rather slow and drawn out. Did not need all the cartoon stuff. Also not really into the penguin outfit thing either. Not cute.

ThamePo Heart that Skips a Beat (Fri YT) ep 1 of 12 - Oh I absolutely adore it but...... it’s slow. But I don’t care because everyone’s so pretty. Po is a bit too much of a pushover for me and his sister (or whatever) is a bit too much of a sasang. So I don’t like that part. Hopefully these flaws will get rectified. But my oh my are they PRETTY.

Did I mention the pretty?

Fourever You (Thurs YT) ep 10-11 of 16 - These episodes were a bit better and I am warming Johan (if not to North). I think my issue with this story arc is I never love a tsundere seme. North's hair was epically bad, like 2008 Japan level terrible.

Hill & Ter’s make out and discovery scene was truly spectacular and very tense.

In ep 11 I got very confused because I thought we already saw the rescue from rape in the street scene? Or am I hallucinating? Anygay, most awkward kabedon ever in a BL.

Good kiss though.

And now we are in a very working girl a relationship. Cool if that's your thing, I guess.

The Heart Killers (Weds Gaga) ep 3 of 12 - I like the Khun Mehhh Boss lady character. I cannot stand the music in this show! Fake metal, fake tattoos, I'm getting Hollyoaks flashbacks. Lap sitting was cute and kink was a nice touch. Not sure about the dance tho. Fight scene was much better. Lots of action this ep. ALL the action really.  

Episode 4, however, I inexplicably couldn’t find. I clearly have to use my old-fashioned VPN work-around. And I don’t have access to that computer right now.

Perfect 10 Liners (Sun YT?) ep 6 of 24 - I did really enjoy the twist that the uke character (who is not in love) was more into having sex than seme character (who is in love). That was fun. And quite modern.

I do love them casually just walking around campus in waffle robes. For those who don’t know this is another dig at a BL trope. Frankly, now that there’s a lot more communication (and intentions have been made clear) between the two of them, I’m enjoying their relationship more. I still don't LIKE it. Also the ever present language play is making me happy. For those of you who missed it, the nuance of that krap from a prior perennially rude Arc is basically the equivalent of a semi-sarcastic but also kind of sweet “yes, dear.”

Meanwhile, Sea just popping up out of nowhere made me entirely too happy. I hooted with laughter, it was so ridiculous. Episode 7 I didn't pay much attention because the sound effects were particularly egregious - or was it just me? 

Spare Me Your Mercy (Thurs iQIYI) ep 2-4 of 8 - I went on a journey with this one this week. Ready?

2 - Ooo its very good. I like it a lot. The doc is soooo awkward it's almost believable and yet still sus. Such a great actor. I do keep wondering if they’ve already slept together at some point though. Like they once had a one night stand in college or something.  3 - I did not call the pharmacist and the hospital head kink. Nice twist. I do enjoy how very adult the relationship is between these leads, but I don't get a ton of chemistry. 4 - Well this show turned into something I was not expecting. I thought it was gonna be a sort of mystery but it’s not. It’s more crime thriller is he a serial killer thing. sorry all, but this is too dark for me rn. So I’m giving it a pass until it’s over and others have deemed it safe. 

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

Our Youth AKA Miseinen: Mijukuna Oretachi wa Bukiyo ni Shinkochu (Japan Tues Gaga) ep 5-6 of 11 - Oh it’s the classic flip halfway through so we get the other perspective. I forgot that was coming. Silly me. Anther one for the 2024 sniff test list list. Oh they gave such an achingly sweet sex scene Triggers are rough with this one. We are in for a world of pain. Why am I still watching?

See Your Love (Taiwan Weds Gaga) ep 8 of 13 - gosh they are so sweet. The Daddy/idiot-brat side pairing is epic. Wish they got more screen time.

Teenager Judge (Vietnam Sat YT) ep 11 of ? - finally stuff happened. 

Love in the Air: Koi no Yokan (Japan Sat Gaga) ep 6-7 of 10 - ugh, they kept the violation of the journal reading bit in the JBL version. It’s really hard to watch no matter what. I actually think the Thai version of that scene was better acted. But ho boy how do I ever like that character?

Love is Like a Poison AKA Doku Koi: Doku mo Sugireba Koi to Naru (Japan Tues ????) 11-12 end - Went pretty dark. Both psychologically, emotionally, and physically. I still like how the leads remained loyal and connected to each other though. Nice to see battle husbands again after so long. We don’t get them very often in BL these days. it’s just us against the world is always fun to watch. All that said  there’s quite a bit of chin stroking dialogue that was v on the nose and twee for JBL. Pleasure to see Haruto fight like a man who can actually fight, like the actor had some training or something (no idea if this is true). The final ep was satisfying and all in all, an enjoyable show.

A fun little JBL about a repressed lawyer who partners with (and then falls for) a beautiful street-savvy conman. Charmingly, they both come out the better and stronger for the relationship. The return of battle husbands, this time in the courtroom. Thank you, Japan, we appreciate a look in on an oft forgotten trope. 8/10

Be Moon - Falling for my enemy's son (China YT) movie from HBD Studio airing in short bits - this is another series of shorts that popped up on YouTube. It’s very pulp I not wild about it. Although I do like a lot of the tropes. 

Eyes on You (Hong Kong YT) - trailer, oh it’s mostly incomprehensible and really not good. I'd tell you what it’s about but I have no idea. There seems to be some sort of mystery and some violence and people fighting and a pair of lovers at the center of it who are being reunited. Or something.

It's airing but......

Winter Is Not The Death of Summer (Thai Weds YT) ?? eps - Criminals who meet in prison fall in love. I did find it on YouTube, initially un-subbed, then subs happened by which time I got distracted. The first episode seems to be only six minutes long. It is very pulp. But it is intriguing. For now it's to the wayside until someone tells me it landed safely. Occasionally Thai pulps want to be edgy and it's not a good look on them.

Secret Love (? YT?) 13-?? of 81 eps - I don't know what's going on either.

0.5D (Japan ????) 10 eps - Supposedly started 12/4 I couldn't find it though I'd like to watch. "Sales ace, Sada, has a secret that only his junior, Daiki, knows. He has pretended to have a gf for years, resulting in him being a virgin. But now Sada has fallen in love. Confused, Sada seeks advice from his junior." I sense another queer Cyrano De Bergerac. Info here.

Bad to Bed (Taiwan Sat YT) 10 eps - This is a little too low production value even for me + just very very odd. DNF

It Ended But?

Blue Canvas of Youthful Days (China Sun Viki) paused at eps 9-10 of 12 - I have been told the ending is OK if not great. I’m gonna hold off for a bit.

Bad Guy My Boss (Thai Sun Gaga) 10 eps - I DNF'd at ep 7, did anyone stick with this until the end? Thoughts?

Next Week Looks Like This:

No cal for you. Mine is borked. LIFE. Interfering with my BL. Again.

End of year drops:

12/14 & 12/21 The Renovation (Thai mini One31) 2 eps - Writer turns his blossoming romance with holiday resort owner into a novel.

12/20 Eternal Butler (Taiwan Viki?) 12 eps - When Ever 4, a sophisticated AI robot, becomes the personal butler to Luo Bu Shi, a spoiled yet lonely young heir, an unexpected love story unfolds. (Spin off from the first season, new cast.)

12/29 Sangmin Dinneaw (Thai ????) ??eps - trailer Childhood friends (Thai & Korean) reunite after being apart for ten years. As the boys reconnect, their bond matures and feelings of romance begin to develop, in Thai.

Impression of Youth (Taiwan ????) ??eps - rummors are thsi is supposed to start this month.

Upcoming BLs for 2024 are listed here. This list is not kept updated, so please leave a comment if you know something new or RP with additions.

THIS WEEK’S BEST MOMENTS

Peak humor. Very good.

STRAIGHT = wrong word

(All Perfect 10)

LOOK AT THAT FACE> GAH. (Fourever)

(2 weeks ago)

The tag BLigade: @doorajar @solitaryandwandering @my-rose-tinted-glasses @babymbbatinygirl @babymbbatinygirl @isisanna-blog @mmastertheone @pickletrip @aliceisathome @urikawa-miyuki @tokillamonger @sunflower-positiiivity @rocketturtle4 @blglplus @anythinggoesintheshire @everlightly @renafire @mestizashinrin @bl-bam-beyond @small-dark-and-delicious @saezurumurmurs

Don't complain you're lucky I got this done at all!

[yoshi17here]

⋆｡˚ ☁︎ ˚｡Sweet makeouts w/ Enha｡˚☽˚｡⋆

note: hey guys this is my first reaction. I hope you guys like it! it took me a while cuz I was a bit sick plus my computer turned off and it didn´t save anything. But now here it is! this reaction is kinda inspired by "Sweet Venom"

Warnings: fluff, suggestive, and lap sitting. pls lmk if I missed anything

paring: Reader+Idol enha

Words:669

⚝⋆.˚✮Lee Heeseung✮˚.⋆⚝

WAIST GRIPPER HERE!​

He starts his kisses slowly and as he goes on, he speeds up.​

If your lips end up sore, expect him to baby you for at least a week and a half "Sweets, I bought you Vaseline and lip balm!".​

And if you try you try to do anything for yourself you´ll have Bambi explaining why you have to let him do everything. "No, I can do this for you"​

While kissing you he wouldn´t like you to move so he would hold your hips down.​

Hee is a sucker for hickeys, just the thought of you marking him with a few hickeys makes him go carry.​

*ੈ♡⸝Park Jay⸝🪐༘⋆

Gentle and sweet, but so addicting. 

I feel like he would make out with/ you while being in the kitchen. 

Jay cooking while you are sitting on the kitchen counter, and he says “Now we need to wait 5 minutes for the food to be ready, so what do you want to do while the food is getting ready, princess?” 

"I want to kiss you," you say "ok," he says while taking off his glasses

So, he gets close to you and starts kissing you. 

One hand is on your back and the other hand is on the back of your head. 

He´s the quiet one, concentrated on you. 

⋆｡‧˚ʚSim Jakeɞ˚‧｡⋆

COPS WAIST GRABBER RIGHT HERE! 

So passionate about it. 

Wants you to sit on his lap. 

Looks for friction with his hands on your body like his life dependes on it. 

he forgets that you need air and will not let go until you tap or push him away. 

And when he pulls away, he says while breathing heavily “Sorry Babygirl�� “Is that your lips are so addicting”  

And less than 2 seconds later you find his lips right on top of yours again. 

જ⁀➴ִֶָ𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָPark Sunghoon་༘࿐

Waist holder! 

Hoon would be more chill about making out than the other members. 

Hoonie loves to hear you laugh so he would do anything to make you laugh 

100% gives you little praises while little breaks. 

“Baby you smell so good” or “Baby I want to feel you more, come sit in my lap” 

Chuckles at you blushing.

loves touching you or just being with you.

⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆Kim Sunoo⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺

You would be hugging him and then a quick peck would grow bigger into a makeout session. 

You two would giggle, laugh, and chuckle for no reason. 

If it is in a public space, people around you two would get jealous. 

He would act as if you were the most fragile thing on earth, he would be so gentle you just want to fall into his arms. 

His smell is so addicting that you just want to be in his arms 24/7. 

He would say reassuring words like “You're so pretty” or “I love you soooo much” and then give you a big smooch. 

ᰔ༘⋆🌷Yang Jungwon₊˚ෆೀ

You two are watching a movie and you give him a cheek kiss. 

He blushes, not understanding the unexpected reaction. 

Then he starts kissing you. 

Your hands wrap around his neck taking it slow but sooo sweet. 

The kiss is not long but it´s enjoyable, after the kiss is over, he gives you a few pecks around your face like your forehead, nose, and cheeks. 

and he would say things like "You know how much I love you right?" or "You´re so cute I could kiss you all day if you let me"

‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡Nishimura Niki𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.ִ ࣪𖤐

He would be playing on his computer, and he calls you over, so you sit in his lap. 

He says, “Angel I feel tired can you please kiss me?” while pouting 

You can´t resist him so you do as he wants

The kiss is deep but slow. 

His hands are wrapped around your torso, and yours are around his neck, playing with the hair on the back of his neck. 

Niki loves you and this is the way he shows it because he´s still new to relationships he feels a little embarrassed telling you he loves you. 

But he does more than you can think.

note: all of the pictures on this post aren't mine so credit to the owners

YOSHI's Shelf

[thehandmaidenofcreativity]

Pining Idiots (college edition)

Chapter 6: Favors and Friendship

WC: 4,628; Rating: 18+

Read Chapter 5 here!

As the freshmen's living situations become uncertain, relationships are changing - communication and careful consideration lead to beginnings, endings, and of course, a little more confusion.

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✧Chan✧

Chan is visibly nervous; Changbin can’t help but laugh a little. “You don’t have to worry so much. It’s not like it’ll be much different than usual.”

“I mean,” Chan rubs at the back of his neck. “I feel like it is, though. I’m really going to try to make sure he knows I’m interested.”

“By ‘make sure he knows’ do you mean you’re going to tell him you like him or are you going to do that thing where you try to hit on him but just giggle and turn into a tomato?”

Chan pouts. “I don’t turn into a tomato… and I’m not ready to tell him tell him. I just – I agree that it’s not as hopeless as I thought at first, but he is with Mingi. I can’t just be declaring my love to someone with a boyfriend.”

“Declaring your love? Damn, you’ve got it worse than I thought.” Changbin shoves at his shoulder playfully. “I get that, though. But it’s even more reason for you to be more chill about this. He’s your oldest friend; you can be just yourself with him.”

Chan looks at him thoughtfully. “Thanks, Bin. You’re right. I’m going to be calm and normal, and everything will be fine.” He gathers his things, planning to ignore the new text he feels coming in, but a glance at his phone tells him it’s Seungmin.

Seungmin: Chan hyung! I know this is super last minute but I can’t make lunch today I’m soooo sorry We were up super late and I’m still at Mingi’s. I need to shower and get a couple things done before my afternoon classes.  I’ll make it up to you later. Maybe we can get lunch or dinner another day this week?

Chan sighs, flopping back down into his seat; Changbin startles at the sudden movement. “Yah! Dude. I thought you were leaving?”

“I was, but there’s no point now.” He hands his phone over to his friend, who pouts at the messages. Giving himself a small shake, Chan gets to his feet again. “I guess I could just go see if Jisung wants to get lunch. Catch ya later. Study hard.”

When he gets to the computer science office, Chan is a little surprised to see Jeongin sitting at Minho’s desk again. He acts like he’s only tolerating the kid half the time, but he looks at him fondly when no one is watching. 

Suddenly, someone is whispering in his ear. “Watching people through the window like a creep today?”

“Jisung!” Chan’s scowl is at half strength. “You know, I was thinking of treating you to lunch, but –”

“No!” Jisung shouts. “No ‘buts’ please. I’m so hungry; my stomach is eating me from the inside out, Channie hyung. Please take me to lunch.”

Chan tries and fails to hold in a laugh. He throws his arm around Jisung’s shoulder, and they head to a nearby ramen shop. Chan relays the messages Seungmin sent him, bringing Jisung up to speed. 

“Ah, so I’m just a replacement for your boyfriend today.” Jisung turns to tease him, then runs into the guy in front of him. 

“Oh! Jisung, right?” Hyunjin turns around, no worse for wear. “Chan hyung! Hi! How are you guys? Sorry Seungmin had to cancel on you, too.”

Jisung rushes to apologize, but Hyunjin waves him off. Chan gives him a wide smile and a side hug. “Stuff happens. Plus, you definitely have nothing to apologize for; I know he had a late night.”

The guy beside Hyunjin seems to be sizing him up. He sticks out his hand. “Sorry, didn’t mean to be rude. I’m Chan, and this is Jisung. Are you Hyunjin’s –”

“This is Hyunjae!” Hyunjin rushes to say, a pretty blush painted across his cheeks. “Hyunjae, you remember we’ve talked about Seungmin’s old friend Chan? This is him.”

“Oh yeah, nice to meet you.” He shakes both of their hands. “Would you guys wanna grab a table with us?”

Chan and Hyunjin are both a little surprised at the invite, but they agree. Jisung leans into Chan with a giggle. “I personally refer to you as my geriatric friend, but old works, too.” He’s wheezing as Chan glowers at him while they take their seats. 

With Hyunjae’s presence, Jisung is a little subdued throughout the meal, but it’s not uncomfortable. Later, when he’s dropping him off at the office, Chan discovers that it’s not just that Hyunjae was a complete stranger to him that made Jisung nervous. 

“They’re both so pretty, man,” Jisung complains. “I mean, how am I ever supposed to make Hyunjin fall in love with me when that’s who he’s dating?”

“You sound like Chan, except more ridiculous cause you’ve known him for five minutes.” Minho rolls his eyes. He cuts off Chan’s argument when he grabs them both by the cheeks. “You both need patience and more self confidence. You’re hot and nice and eventually it’s all gonna work out. Now get out of my way, I’m gonna be late to class.”

And with that he leaves them, looking chagrined.

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✦Seungmin✦

“You had lunch with Chan yesterday? Without Seungmin?” Felix looks confused. 

“Not on purpose!” Hyunjin doesn’t really need to clarify, but he does anyway. “And it wasn’t just him. I was actually getting lunch with Hyunjae, and we ran into Chan and Jisung. Well. Jisung ran into me. Sounded like Seungmin wasn’t the only one who cancelled on him, so I hope he was happy for the extra company.”

Seungmin perked up at that. “What do you mean?” 

“Jisung was saying that he was a replacement for Chan’s boyfriend for the day.” Hyunjin pulled the door to the library open for them. A joking air in his tone. “Wonder what duties aside from lunch he took up.”

“Dang, could’ve been you, Minnie.” Felix adds. “Too bad you were too tired from –”

“Shut up, both of you.” Seungmin feels the tips of his ears heating up. “We’re getting off topic. How was lunch? Did Hyunjae like them?”

Hyunjin rolls his eyes. “It was good. Chan was Chan. Jisung seemed quieter than he was at brunch. Hyunjae didn’t say too much about it. He did text me later about something Chan almost said, though.” 

He trails off at the end; Felix and Seungmin share a look upon seeing the strange expression on his face. They’ve been doing it more and more lately. They silently agree to drop it as they enter the private room, though. 

Seungmin’s eyes find Mingi almost immediately. He’s smiling so brightly, and Yunho clearly has adoration in his eyes. When he feels his gaze, Mingi gives him a small wave. Yunho subsequently looks over with a tight smile. Seungmin knows that he knows about him, to an extent. He can tell that Yunho is evaluating him, comparing the two of them, and trying to figure out why Mingi’s with him instead. Seungmin can’t understand how Mingi could ever have thought Yunho didn’t want him. He decides to let them stay in their little bubble, sidling up to Seonghwa. 

“Hyung, do you think you can go over a couple concepts with me today?”

The room is mostly quiet after a while they all work, keeping conversations just above a whisper. Heads pop up at Jongho’s question. “Is your dorm really being shut down because it’s been condemned?”

“It’s actually just because the amount of mold in the building has reached such a hazardous level, to the point that someone on the first floor has been hospitalized because of it.” Felix’s voice is so monotone when he says it that San can’t take it and breaks out in a laugh. 

Everyone else follows suit until Seonghwa is shushing them, reminding them they’re in a library, even if it is a private room. Once it’s quieter again, he gets a concerned look on his face. “So how are they handling moving you all out then? Are there even enough open rooms in the other dorms to resituate you?” 

“They’ve already started sorting out reassignments. Some will go to the other dorms, some will go to those crappy off-campus-not-really-off-campus apartments on the east side.” Seungmin explains before eyeing his roommate. “And some people will move in with their boyfriend and his roommates.”

A deep blush covers Felix’s face. “It’s not for sure yet… we’re just talking about it.”

“What about you, Hyunjin?” San looks over at him with a sly smile. “Are you thinking about moving in with your boyfriend?”

Hyunjin’s eyes go a little wide. “You guys think he’s my boyfriend, too?” 

“Do you… not think of him that way?” Seonghwa asks, once again looking a little concerned. “Are things okay with him?”

“Things are fine.” Hyunjin’s eyes are on the table. He loses a bit of that lost look when Felix takes his hand. “I guess I should call him my boyfriend; it just feels weird for some reason? He’s great, and I like him, but -” his eyes flick between Felix and Seungmin “- I cut someone off when they were going to call him that in front of him yesterday. I think it hurt his feelings? Even though he never actually asked to be my boyfriend.”

That must’ve been Chan, Seungmin thought, observing his friend. Hyunjin seems so delicate at times. Seungmin is happy when Felix moves to wrap an arm around him instead of just holding his hand.

“And he did ask if I’d discuss moving in, to make things easier, once he found out that Juyeon and Felix were talking about it,” Hyunjin continues. He glances at Felix again. “I know you’re really excited about the idea, and I love that for you. But why don’t I feel like that? I really do like Hyunjae, but the idea of moving in together just makes me feel a little panicked?”

They all sit with the new information for a minute before San speaks up. “You know it’s okay if you don’t want to, right?”

“San’s right,” Seonghwa lays a hand on Hyunjin’s head. “It doesn’t mean anything’s wrong; you’re just moving at a different speed than Felix and Juyeon.”

“And maybe as Hyunjae?” Hyunjin sounds small.

“Maybe.” Seonghwa cups his cheek and gives him a gentle smile. “And that’s okay, too. Just try to communicate that with him, and if he has a problem with it, then maybe you aren’t meant to be together.”

“And if he’s an ass about it, maybe we beat him up,” Jongho adds helpfully, pulling a laugh from everyone while San smacks him on the back of the head.

“Violence isn’t the answer to everything, you neanderthal.” San says it with a smile, though, and turns to mock whisper to Hyunjin. “He’s 100% right, though. If he hurts you, we’ll hurt him.”

With that the conversation winds down and they all try to get back to their studies. Seungmin keeps his focus split between Mingi and Hyunjin until he determines that he’s not going to be able to get anything done. He knows Hyunjin’s struggling to concentrate on his work, too. The two of them decide to go for an early dinner so they can discuss rooming alternatives and prep Hyunjin for a talk with Hyunjae.

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✧Chan✧

Jisung walking into their apartment unannounced is not uncommon; they’d long had an open door policy for their friends. It isn’t even that unusual that he’s brought a couple take out bags with him, though he typically tries to get Chan or Minho to treat him instead. But when the first words out of his mouth are “Hi hyungs,” they know something is up.

Minho fixes him with a glare. “What have you done, Ji?” 

“Why do you automatically assume I did something?” Jisung’s pout is prominent. He sets the bags on the coffee table and starts pulling out containers. “What if I was just missing you guys and thought you deserved a token of my appreciation?”

Chan raises his eyebrows at that. “Well, I didn’t necessarily think you did anything before, but now I’m concerned. Min, what classes did he have today? Did you insult a professor? Assault a professor?”

Jisung’s hand flies up to his chest as he gasps in mock hurt. “You guys really have so little faith in me; I’m insulted.”

“I’m sorry, Sungie,” Chan folds, almost immediately. “Of course, we believe you’d bring us food with no ulterior motive.”

He can’t make out what Minho mutters, but he’s pretty sure it’s not an agreement. Still, they both accept the containers and chopsticks Jisung hands them. Minho raises his own brows at Jisung, clearly communicating without words for Jisung to just spit it out. 

“Okay, maybe I have a small request –” Minho lets out a loud ‘ha!’ “– but it’s not for me! I just wanna put this out there. Promise you’ll consider it carefully?”

“I make no prom–”

“Minho!” Chan cuts him off with a roll of his eyes. “Of course, Ji. What’s up? What’s wrong?”

“So he hasn’t talked about it much,” Jisung keeps his eyes on his food, feeling nervous even though he knows he shouldn’t. “But you’ve heard Innie talking about the mold issue in his dorm, right? Turns out they’re moving everyone out. In’s roommate is moving in with other friends, and since they seemed to work through reassignments alphabetically, the option they gave him is living with randos in one of those shitty apartment-dorms on the east side.”

Chan and Minho look at each other, figuring they know where this is going. They’d really lucked out with this place; rent is relatively low, and they have a third, albeit smaller, room that currently acts as a home gym. It wouldn’t be a big deal to move things around to free up the space.

Oblivious to the silent conversation, Jisung presses on. “He seems really stressed and unhappy about it. I know he doesn’t want to ask you guys about your extra room, but I feel like we all really like him, he’s already part of the group. If Bin and I had the space, I’d ask him to move in, but –”

“Okay, okay,” Minho huffs out. “Give it a rest, Ji. We don’t need to hear anything else.”

“Minho, I know you don’t like new people in your space, but –”

“Shut it. Obviously we’re asking him to move in. Channie just needs to move the punching bag, ‘cause I’m not doing that.”

Chan laughs. “Well, guess there’s no need to discuss. Do you know when he has to move out?”

Jisung looks a little dumbstruck, but he snaps out of it quickly. His grin is like sunshine. “Wait really? You guys are the best!”

“I can’t believe you thought you’d need to do all this.” Minho grabs another take out container. “What, were you scared to ask?”

“Minho, don’t tease him.”

“I don’t know what you mean, Chan; I wouldn't tease him,” Minho deadpans. “I’m always so approachable and welcoming; I don’t see why he felt the need to make it a production.”

This pulls a true laugh and sigh of relief from Jisung. “Yeah, what was I thinking; you’re a delight.”

Chan starts laughing as well, while Minho pouts, asking what’s so funny about the statement. They ignore him and start talking about what they should get to help Jeongin with the transition, until Minho throws a dumpling at Jisung. This turns into a playful fight about Minho’s shining personality that lasts way too long, all things considered. They resolve to ask Jeongin to move in the next day, since Minho will see him anyway.

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✦Seungmin✦

“Hyunjin’s at Hyunjae’s now?” Mingi pulls Seungmin in closer to his chest, resting his head on his shoulder to read over his shoulder. 

“Yeah. Felix is at Juyeon’s, so if things go south, he knows he can go there, but I said I’d pick him up if that happens.” Seungmin turns to press a kiss to Mingi’s cheek. “And by me, I mean we.”

Mingi laughs, catching his face so before he turns back to his phone so that he can kiss him full on. “Got it. I hope he doesn’t need it, but I’m happy to help him out if need be.”

Seungmin sends off one last message of support and sets his phone aside, picking up Mingi’s in the process. He swipes to unlock it, holding it up to Mingi’s face. “On to more pressing matters. Update me on Yunho.”

He can almost feel the smile stretching across Mingi’s face as he reaches to both arms around Seungmin to take the phone into his own hands and pull up their messages. “Read from here! I actually haven’t replied to the message he sent when you got here; I might need your help.”

Seungmin takes the phone back as his eyes scan the messages. They’re really not as telling as he’d like, though he’s proud of Mingi for maintaining a flirty but ambiguous tone. The last text is pretty clear, though. He glances back at Mingi again.

Yunho: so… I have a question… about seungmin I’ve seen you guys together a few times and you’ve posted him on your insta a few times. you look really good together… but like. san told me you guys aren’t dating. then we’ve been talking and when I’ve seen you together this week he doesn’t seem to care that we’ve been.. getting closer. basically I wanna know if you guys are like together or like am I misreading things between us?

“This is good, right?” He watches as Mingi pulls his lips between his teeth. “He’s basically just admitted that he likes you.”

“Yeah, it seems like it.” Mingi hesitates, his fingers fidgeting with the hem of Seungmin’s shirt. “I guess I just don’t wanna say something that makes it seem like I’d want a relationship with him like the one we have.”

Seungmin cuts him off when he starts to sputter. “I know what you mean, don’t worry. And I get that. But maybe it’s best to just be honest. May I?” Seungmin types out a response. 

Mingi: I know how it looks, but Seungmin and I aren’t together. We’re just good friends.  You’re not misreading things. I’m really happy that we’ve been talking more.

Mingi reaches up and hits send after reading it over. He buries his face into the crook of Seungmin’s neck, murmuring something unintelligible.

“Wha– oh Ming, he’s typing!” When the message comes through, they continue texting him in this fashion: Mingi’s hands roaming over Seungmin’s body in nervousness while he types out messages, making minor adjustments when Mingi says something he can actually hear. 

Yunho: ngl I’m super happy to hear that I was kinda bummed when I thought I missed my chance

Mingi squeezes around Seungmin’s waist when he reads the message. They decide to play it coy.

Mingi: Missed your chance?

Yunho: you’re stupid hot, min and since we’ve been talking I’ve realized that you’re more than that, too  I wanna learn more about you… would you wanna go to dinner with me tomorrow?

They’re giggling and kicking their feet. Mingi is shaking Seungmin side to side, a chorus of “oh my gods” raining from his lips. 

“Mingi!” Seungmin laughs, trying to pull the phone back up. “We have to respond! Hold on!”

Mingi: I’d love to

Yunho: awesome! I’ll pick you up at 7?

Seungmin wonders briefly if making out is a strange way to celebrate your friend getting asked out by a boy he likes, but decides not to question how Mingi chooses to thank him for his help. It’s hopefully not going to be something they’re able to do much longer anyway. 

Their celebration is sadly short-lived. Mingi nearly has Seungmin’s shirt off when they notice the vibration of a phone call. It’s Hyunjin.

“Shit.” Seungmin picks it up immediately. “Hyunjin? Is everything okay?”

Mingi pulls his own shirt back on, sure that they’ll be heading out in a minute.

“Yeah, I’ll be there in a few, just wait in the lobby.” Seungmin mouths ‘I’m sorry’ to Mingi, who just shakes his head in response. “Don’t worry about it, Jinnie. I don’t mind at all. I told you that I would. I’m glad you called.”

They don’t really talk once Hyunjin gets into Mingi’s car approximately 7 minutes later. Seungmin gives Mingi a kiss on the cheek before he gets out, telling him again how happy he is for him to be taking this step forward in his relationship with Yunho. 

Seungmin doesn’t even pretend to consider dropping Hyunjin at his own room, leading him up to his and Felix’s as soon as they’re in the building. He gives him a pair of shorts to change into, encouraging him to get comfy, before pulling Hyunjin into bed with him. 

“Do you wanna talk about it now or wait til Felix gets back?”

Hyunjin sniffles and it breaks Seungmin’s heart just a little bit. “Will he be home tonight?”

“He didn’t say,” Seungmin pauses, thinking about the fact that Felix has spent half the week sleeping at Juyeon’s. “But even if he didn’t plan to, you know he would for you, if we ask.”

Hyunjin buries his face in Seungmin’s chest. “No, I don’t wanna do that. I already pulled you away from Mingi.”

Seungmin frowns. “You know that doesn’t matter, Jin. I wanna be here for you. We both do.”

“Can we just cuddle and talk about it tomorrow?”

“Of course. Whatever you want.” Seungmin plants a kiss on the crown of his head. He can feel tears creating wet spots on his shirt. “Love you, Hyuni.”

Hyunjin’s hold on Seungmin tightens for a moment. “Love you, too, Minnie.”

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✧Chan✧

As soon as he walks in the door, Chan hears three voices calling out his name.

“Channie! How’d operation ‘Tell Him How I Feel at Dinner’ go?” Changbin misses his wince at the question.

“Damn, Bin, don’t you listen?” Jisung calls from the couch. “Boyfriend brought his boyfriend to dinner.”

Jeongin comes up behind him, couch cushion in hand, and swings it down on Jisungs head, eliciting a loud ‘oof.’ “Binnie might not have ears, but you don’t have sense. Sorry, Chan. Was dinner okay at least?”

Chan can’t help but smile fondly at his new roommate. “All things considered, yeah. We had a nice time. How’s moving in going?” He considers peeking into Jeongin’s room, but opts to flop down onto Jisung’s stomach.

“Bro!” Jisung gasps out. “What gives, why is it suddenly pick on Jisung time?”

Chan leans down, attempting to kiss Jisung, while the latter pushes at his face yelling “Worse! Worse!”

“It’s probably going slower than it could.” Jeongin casually grabs Jisung’s wrists, pulling his hands away so that Chan can nuzzle his face into his cheek. “Bin insisted on building furniture, and Minho refused to let him do it alone, so after arguing about following directions or not, Minho started building furniture while Changbin started bringing up my stuff. We were in charge of dinner.”

“Speaking of,” Jisung has given in and instead is holding a now struggling Chan to him. “Can you order dinner for us, hyung?”

An “I’m hungry!” comes down the hall from Jeongin’s new room. Chan rolls his eyes and gets out his phone when Jisung releases him. He ignores the muttered “whipped” from Jeongin and places an order for takeout. 

“You fools have to go get it, though.” He moves to flop over on the other couch. “And I didn’t get drinks. You should leave now so you can pick up anything left in Innie’s room and some bubble tea.”

Jisung’s groan is cut off by Jeongin’s fist in his stomach. “Got it. Thanks Channie hyung. Let’s go, Ji.”

“You know I’m your hyung, too, brat.” Jisung grumbles but follows him to the door. 

“Buy me dinner and give me a place to live, then I’ll think about calling you hyung.”

Jeongin grumbles, pushing him out the door.

Chan lets his mind drift back to dinner and further still to another dinner about 5 years prior. Seungmin had brought his boyfriend then, too. 

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“Channie hyung!” Seungmin was waving from halfway down the block, dragging someone behind him. “Chan hyung! I’d like to introduce you to Derek, my boyfriend.”

“Boyfriend?” Chan felt a little dumbstruck, with this almost burning sensation in his chest,  and he took a touch too long to extend his hand out. Derek got a hard glint in his eye.

“Yeah, boyfriend,” he snaps. “Got a problem with that?”

Before Chan can even say anything, Seungmin is interrupting him. “No, no, Chan’s not like that, don’t worry. He’s just surprised to hear that I’m dating, right hyung?”

“Yeah, right.” Chan tries to laugh it off, reaching out to shake the guy’s hand. Luckily he reciprocates. “Just wanna look after Seungminnie, y’know. Nice to meet you, Derek.”

The three of them headed into the restaurant. The entire time Derek either had his arm around Seungmin or was holding his hand. Chan did his best to maintain his typical upbeat attitude, but he stayed bothered. Obviously it wasn’t because Seungmin had a boyfriend, Chan had known for a long time that both he and Seungmin were into guys. Derek seemed nice enough. So why was he feeling so… put off. 

The longer he sat watching Seungmin, the more confused he was. Until he wasn’t. When he watched Derek pull Seungmin into him for a kiss, the knot in his stomach tightened into a constrictor. Oh.

Seungmin had told him about crushes before, and it didn’t really bother him; they were celebrities or characters, so nothing was going to come from it. Now he realized that Seungmin had never talked to him about anyone in their actual lives. Suddenly seeing him kiss a guy, another guy, was devastating. 

How could he have felt this strongly and not known it? Not realized before it was too late? How was he supposed to go on feeling this way when there’s nothing he can do about it?

After that night, Chan started distancing himself from Seungmin. It was painful to see him happy with someone else. So he would make plans with other friends, spend less time at home, whatever he could do to have less free time. And it helped that Seungmin spent a lot of time with Derek. Still, he felt bad every time he told Seungmin he couldn’t meet up with him or them, especially when he asked in person; seeing the crestfallen look on his face got hard to bear, but after a while the invites were fewer and far between. By the time Chan headed off to college, they were only seeing each other a couple times a month outside of school.

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Chan barely notices the hand waving in front of his face until it snaps. “You with us, Chan?” 

He gives himself a small shake. “Yeah, of course. Sorry about that, just got a little lost in thought.”

“Thinking about Seungmin with his boyfriend again?” Minho pouts a bit, likely wishing he could help take his mind off it.

“Yeah, something like that.” Chan trails off. “Did you finish up in Innie’s room?”

“Yeah, no thanks to those lazy asses,” Changbin huffs just in time to be heard by said lazy asses returning with their dinner.

“You say that like you didn’t yell at us every time we tried to help.” Jisung thrust a cup in his face. “And to think, I went to all this trouble to bring you good food and boba.”

“That Chan paid for.”

Jisung shushes Jeongin. “I bought the boba, didn’t I? He doesn’t need to know the rest.”

Chan just looks on with a smile. He might not have the exact relationship with Seungmin that he hopes for, but his friends are the best, even when they’re bickering. He resolves to put a pin in his feelings until a better opportunity to act on them arises, and until then, he’s going to enjoy what he has.

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[bear-boi-5]

Update

Soooo there won't be any computer digital art for a while

My battery has expanded all of a sudden most likely due to gas build up as it's hot. Keep in mind that it's been off and unplugged for the past two weeks. So until further notice, all art will be done traditionally or on my tablet/phone

We have gotten the back off and relieved the pressure from where the battery has expanded but the last 2 screws holding the rest of the battery on are not budging

Good News: Pressure is relieved and the battery is not hot or smoking.

Bad News: No computer art until further notice and the last screws are not coming off.

We currently don't have a car cause my mum is at a Christmas party but I've notified her. She'll have a go at the screws when she gets back but we're taking the computer into Harvey Norman either way. Once we get the battery replaced, everything should be a-ok. I'm a lil panicky cause yk.. expanded lithium battery... And cause this computer has a lot of important things on it...

But that's as it stands for now, Please Stand By

[oriley42]

BUCKLE IN, LOML, THIS IS GONNA BE A LONG ONE.

hi !! i'm bea, aka meekspeeks on AO3, and i have only recently managed to properly sink my teeth into House MD, being exam free and all. and, akin to any other Normal, Sane person, i immedietly went onto ao3 to cure my bone rattling depression by immersing myself in fics. any kind, people, any kind. and then i found yours.

and my GOD.

you, my dear, dear, sweet friend, are the best writer . ever, dare i say? i have downloaded your books onto my phone for easy reading when i'm... actually, when i'm doing anything. just woke up? ah, yes, the sound of birdsong and an oriley42 fic to sweeten the summer morning. about to go to bed? well, why not get comfy with an oriley42 classic. i highlight them. i seriously, seriously consider getting them tattooed to the inside of my eyelids. all of them. i am not kidding.

in fact, if i was a tech savvy bastard, which i am not (sometimes i Glance, i Peek, i even bloody Breathe in the direction of my ipad, and it restarts. same goes for my phone. and my computer), i would have made an entire new collection on my ao3 account, simply yet perfectly dubbed "oriley42: The Saga", and thus announced to the entirety of the internet my undying love for you, of which there is A LOT. you are amazing and sometimes i wonder if you're even real and not some kind of... demigod?

(i love your fics so much that i get a little e-mail every single time you upload. that's my level of devotion.)

i have never ever laughed harder at anything than i do your fics. when i add said fics to my hilson collection, i make sure that i have a section devoted to a portion of the bits i've highlighted that made me Lose My Shit. i love randomly quoting phrases to my baffled, non-house-loving friends, and even they giggle. you are a riot, my good lord, and i owe you my life.

i'm a true oriley42 expert, i've read them all. no one knows oriley42 like i know oriley42, apart from you, oriley42.

it's a fun name to type. oriley42.

anyway! this is long. my sincerest apologies. but, coming from a frazzled kid who's just finished her a levels, you kept me going through all the horrid, hasty revision that i had to conjure up out of Thin Fucking Air, by making me laugh when no one else could. thank you so much, and i look forward to any other fics that are Brewing in that Lovely Head Of Yours !!!

have a great... day, week, month, year, life !! i love you !!! <3

my buddy, my pal, my dear new bff, thank you so very much! it means the world to hear this, and I'm so deeply touched that my stories could be companion to you, especially as you fight your way through what sounds like a very difficult bit of schooling (wishing you all the success there btw!!)

to give someone Real Feelings, and most of all a Real Laugh, is my greatest aim in sharing my writing--thank you for making me feel like the frankly terrifying vulnerability of posting these stories up where any old Tom, Dickhead, or Harasser can make jackass comments is worth it, because of the chance that my words will cross paths with a kind reader like you <3

your own writing voice just here in this ask is charming and clever, and makes me once again grateful for the incredible talent and kindness the internet allows us all to connect to and enjoy (cheesy, I know, but I really do get teary thinking of all the wonderful people who draw and write and comment and reblog and contribute to these magnificently silly fictional worlds we weave together!)

I hereby grant you a Master's Degree in ORiley42 studies from the University of Internet Friends--much like my own advanced degree, it will not get you a job anywhere, but hey, it's about the joy of learning ;)

Thank you for stopping by, I hope to see you on the digital streets of House MD fan-land again!

xoxo

PS - I have soooo many hilson WIPs brewing, too many to keep straight, but I'm hoping to pick one, focus, and get it posted in the next week or two...stay tuned! 💖

[rainmustfallts4]

Rain Must Fall (Reaper’s Rewards Special) ◇ #001

⊶⊰Information & Index⊱⊷⊶⊰Ep. 1⊱⊷⊶⊰Chronological Tag⊱⊷

Reaper's Rewards Special: ⊶⊰Latest⊱⊷ ⊶⊰From the Beginning⊱⊷ ⊶⊰All Reaper's Rewards Posts⊱⊷

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Nobody panic, it’s finally here!!

Okay so I stayed up until nearly 9am waiting for the event to start – if my calculation was correct, which it should be since I used a website and not my own brain, it should have started at 7. I wanted to stay up longer but I was soooo tired.

BUT! It was here when I woke up c:

This is what popped up as soon as I loaded into my save. Of course I had to use my Super Sim! If his memory is really getting that bad… can I just say we’re married even though we’re not? >.>

The tasks for week 1! There’s two different ones, which I didn’t realize at first haha

Here are the first three tasks we need to complete. She already has a bit of gardening under her belt so this should be easy peasy.

I planted three of each c:

And by doing so, I unlocked my first two rewards! The first one is a book which, lame~ I don’t think I can use it because my level is too high in gardening. But I want to collect all the books anyway so I don’t have to buy it later.

The freezer boney, though? SO COOL! I adore it ❤

Look at how cute it is ;_;)

Next, we had to research a plant – which my dumbass forgot to screenshot the task of c: I already had a snapdragon growing so I went ahead and researched that.

Oooo this looks fancy 😮

I really like the black variant, it’s so cool!

Next, we had to read the newsletter from the Ambrosia Society. I’ve seen a few people have an issue with this but, thankfully, I was bug free for this event (subtle flex who.)

She’s far too happy to have earned a cookbook lmao

There’s a new option to research Ambrosia so we headed over to the computer. She had this thought bubble a few times during this and it was SOOO cute so I had to add it c:

Now, I spent too much time on this but I regret nothing.

Here’s a closer version if you have trouble reading small text like me c:

And here is the actual popup. They don’t mention the price and that’s how they get ya shaking my head.

[bribritenma]

(Long-ass post ahead, just to lyk)

Soooo, about the "It's Starkid innit?" matinee in London...

I was supposed to go with a dear friend of mine. Unfortunately, she won't be able to go (😭), mainly due to work not letting her off that weekend 🙃.

Meaning that I have 1 (one) extra ticket for the matinee. 🎟

It is a seat in the stalls, row R. I decided to check on here if someone would want to buy it (unfortunately can't give it for free as I do need the money back, so please do not ask).

A sort of tumblrina to tumblrina kind of thing, my small giving back gesture to the tumblr Starkid community who was so welcoming to me all those years ago.  💜

If you are interested, please do manifest it in my DMs.

As I'm not at home, meaning anywhere near my computer, until Sunday's evening (Feb. 25th, let's say 7pm~ish, France time zone), I will not sell it until then. Don't worry if I don't answer until then and please don't ask me several times about it, it will get you off the list if there is one.

Just putting this out there now so there is more time for you lovelies to find this post and react to it.

If more than one person reaches out to me, I will literally put your handles in a bowl and pick one of them, not playing faves here as I don't want to be the judge of anything. Please don't contact me from several accounts, play it fair. 😇

The payment will be through PayPal or we can agree to a person-to-person ticket selling platform.

If through PayPal, I can send you the ticket or give it to you on the day (yay to meeting a fellow Dikrats), your choice. It just will be done after payment as, once again, I do need to make sure to get the money back (struggling french artist who is making unreasonable financial decisions for what seems their only chance to see their idols live after what will be the 15th year in the waiting speaking here).

I will put some new stuff on my Etsy over the next weeks so please check it out if you're interested! (Notably musicals related stuff😉)

Of course, you're welcome to follow this blog if you like it. 😉

Please do share this post to any SK fan whom might be interested! Share the love!

Can't wait to meet you all on the day!

[twotangledsisters]

My First Week Learning 3D

Do I ever stop picking up random skills and hobbies? Nope. It's my horde. As a dragon I must collect them forever and ever.

Last Friday I decided to learn Blender! Here's how that went:

First I did CG Fast Track's Begginer Tutorial.

There I build a minecraft scene:

Then joyfully tore it down :D

Then in the next parts of the tutorial I made a sword!

And some quick animations with said sword:

After that I needed to just, make sure I had some control over the movements, habit of changing into the right modes, habit of applying stuff, so I did 3DGreenHorns Smooth living room tutorial.

Which may or may not now have me obsessed with the idea of tiny isometric rooms...

I then did Polygon Runway's Spaceship Loop tutorial so I could practice animation.

I learnt soooo much with this one! Like... key framing in blender is AMAZING! I love it! I am obsessed with the idea of animating in this program!

After that I decided to learn to do characters... I tired to make a little Cassandra using Eve Sculpt's character modeling tutorial... But I just got really confused (my fault 100% the tutorial was really good!) and eventually gave up.

But here's some nightmare imagery for you!

This had me feeling a bit sad so I decided to do a quick and easy tutorial, and cause I loved Polygon Runway's first tutorial, I went with their little coffee shop tutorial.

This was so fun to do! It was quick, easy, and I learnt about lighting! :D

After this I allowed myself to indulge in a quick personal project and made a lantern:

Not much to say about this, it's a lantern xD don't ask about the sky, I'm learning, okay!

Then I indulged in yet another personal project as I wanted to test out physics and it's almost October soo....

Little ghost!!

I technically tried to animate it but umm.... my computer does not have that sorta power XD

Finally, having picked up my moral I knew I had to learn character modeling so I chose Keelan Jon's character modeling tutorial and this time I pulled it off!

I love how cute this little character is!

There are a few glaring mistakes but.... shush.

I learnt sooo much from this tutorial! It was sooo much fun! And I'm definitely feeling like character modeling isn't too far out of my reach now.

So yeah, that was my first week with Blender. I actually wanted to do a final personal project yesterday to complete the week, but my ex came over and I didn't get the chance. But despite the week being cut short I'd say it was still a very successful first dive into a new program!

I have a few projects planned, but I'm also aware to really get the hang of a program like blender doing a bunch of tutorials is super important, especially just getting used to the keyboard shortcuts, navigation, etc..

Anyway, that's where I've been this week xD

Also, I kinda lied... I said first week with blender but I actually downloaded blender back in February and did one singular tutorials before quitting....

Blender Guru's Donut Tutorial amazing tutorial but... I might suggest starting with something a little less comprehensive xD

[kuu-stuff]

07 January 2025

I started playing Skyrim again recently. Usually I lose interest easily because I know this game verrrry well already, but I did my best to take it slow, hang around little town, talking to everyone and doing small lame quests. Plus I started the game joining the Dark Brotherhood, and despite having spent hours drawing it's characters in the past, I only finished the whole quest twice, so it's a good occasion to do it again. Also this time I do half destruction magic and half dagger what is neat. Even after all those years, walking around in a truly free open world with cool mountains and rivers and snow and flowers, with two great moons, cool statues and ruins, full of all sort of animals all behaving in different ways, cool ingredients, cool books, clothes and all the lore, is so great ! I just enjoy this kind of environment and I hardly ever found an open world game this close to my favorite aesthetic. Hopefully the next TES game will be good and not an empty husk only better by it's graphics that I will have to buy a whole new computer to play and still get lags and performance issues ... I still can dream.

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It's finally cold for real out there. I'm happily sitting in front of my heater, enjoying the feeling of warming myself up instead of melting under the sun. It will only stay for less than a week but I'm enjoying it to the fullest, going out on walks, putting on my nice cold weather clothes, drinking hot drinks (even more than in usual),... My body and mind yearn for the norther regions, though I'm not missing the constant rain and unpredictable weather.

✶✰✶✰✶✰✶✰✶✰✶✰ I've been soooo lazy this week. I mean, I drew quite a lot of nice things, I'm still learning my latest art style so just drawing one thing takes a lot of my focus and tires me out... But now I think that I'm doing well. I opened my commissions again so I will certainly not work on my comics for a little while, or maybe I will, who knows, I don't have commissions all the time after all. I need to use that time to reread all my comics and notes again, I feel that my lack of motivation comes from not remembering most of it and focusing on the next part instead of the whole picture again. I still feel quite tired but I think that I just spend too much of my energy worrying about art styles and watching youtube videos. If I force myself a little bit more, I'll be able to endure it and not giving up after a few hours... At least I have definite styles to work on instead of searching myself for them. It's still not perfect and having two different ones is not the greatest to evolve fast but I couldn't reconcile my desire to have a cool fast style for my comics and being able to render cool and more delicate illustrations.

[kujo1597]

Oh geeze. I didn’t mean for it to take this long to do another one of these. I’ve actually been dealing with persistent vertigo for... over three weeks. Kind of made me not really want to spend too much time at the computer. (But for some reason it did make me finally get around to playing Cyber Shadow.) Don’t worry about the vertigo thing by the way, it’s likely due to lack of sleep.

Well anyway. Let’s pick up from where we left off.

Oh yeah, everything is on fire.

Everybody manages to evacuate the burning building but we see Ashley run off towards the inferno. After doing a quick head count Jerrica notices that Ashley was missing and then sees the girl running out the house while holding the Honor Jar.

Naturally Jerrica tells Ashley that she is worth more than all the money in the world.

The fire crew arrives and they put out the fire. Although there really wasn’t much house left to save.

Sooooo....

This bird is dead.

Poor thing.

We see everybody wrapped up in blankets sitting on their lawn before Rio shows up. After a hug he assures Jerrica that everything will be okay. So, I will say this here. In the early episodes of the show Rio is actually a very solid guy. I don’t really have a problem with him at this point. I’ll talk more about Rio and his evolution into my least favourite Jem character over the course of this series.

Let’s put the Rio ramble to the side for now.

The Misfits arrive at the scene shortly after him, I wonder if the fire was on the news, and Pizzazz and Roxy gawk at the fire, Stormer stares too but she really seems like she feels bad for the people who just lost their home. Pizzazz on the other hand says, “Couldn’t have happened to a better person” in a very uncaring way. Class act.

Deirdre being twelve and homeless asks Jerrica a very good question. Where are they going to live now?

Jerrica’s answer, Howard Sands’ mansion he’s put up as the winnings for the battle of the bands competition. She asks the girls if they want to help Jem and The Holograms put on a concert. And then Jerrica and her sisters load up in the Starlight Express and drive off to meet Synergy. Rio takes the children to Howard’s house in his van.

We get an exciting chase scene where the Misfits follow Jerrica and The Holograms and using Synergy to transform the car into a garbage bin they lose their rivals. But only temporarily as Stormer notices Rio’s van and they start to follow him.

Yep, totally inconspicuous. Good job Synergy. Well, to be fair, this is a drive-in theatre. But it’s also one that’s been shut down for years. Soooo... yeah.

After a quick change of clothes our titular band heads on over to Howard’s house that he lives in to wake him up with a concert.

To be honest, I’m not the biggest fan of this song. Can’t really put my finger on it. I think it goes on for too long. The songs in these first five episodes are a minute thirty long and get kind of repetitive. But later on when the songs are better written I'd love it if they were longer than a minute.

Anyway, Howard gets woken up by the impromptu concert and rushes out of his home to see why there are twelve kids on his lawn, seventeen if we’re considering Jerrica an older teen at this point in the series.

The Misfits climb out of their van and starting booing Jem and Pizzazz announces that they’re going to make trouble. Rio warns Jem who sneaks off to change into Jerrica. But Stormer is sent by Pizzazz to follow Jem around. Jem hides behind a bush and summons a hologram of Jem who just fucking, sprints towards the mansion. I wish I could make GIFs because she’s so fast! It’s awesome.

Meanwhile Kimber tells Howard that her sister will explain the situation.

Jerrica gets away from Stormer and joins up with everybody else who are arguing about the fact that one of the bands in the competition has just crashed Howard’s living quarters. Jerrica tells him about Starlight House burning down.

And we get another moment showing that Stormer might not be that bad of a person. She tears up while listening to the story. Roxy elbows her in the gut though putting a stop to it.

Naturally the Misfits oppose to the idea of Jerrica living in the winnings with all her children and Howard’s like, “I still own the mansion. I’m giving Jerrica the keys.” because he probably doesn’t want to leave sixteen or eighteen people without a place to live. I know I keep putting an emphasis on how many people lived in Starlight House but it’s an awful lot. It was a pretty big house though.

Anyway, Pizzazz hates this decision and pushes Howard into a pool, then Roxy steals a bulldozer and starts running things over. Then Jerrica tries pulling Howard out of the pool and ends up

flying like, ten feet through the air and into the path of a runaway bulldozer. I had to post the GIF because it’s just *chef’s kiss* So good.

Cut to commercial before we see Jerrica get plowed over.

Rio does save her though and they do a pretty good job of showing how in love they are. Like I said! Rio was perfectly fine in these episodes! They’re actually kind of sweet together.

Aja manages to leap into the bulldozer and turns it off before anything else could happen.

Then the Misfits speed off in their van and judging by the animation give Rio’s van a nice scrape.

Howard being understandably mad at them says that he’ll do what he can to help Jem and The Holograms. But if the Misfits do win the contest they do still get to keep the mansion.

Now we cut to Starlight Music where the Misfits are complaining to Eric and he tells them that he’s doing everything he can to keep them from getting sued by Howard.

They take this well and trash the office before going to the mansion. Meanwhile Eric phones Zipper and tells him he has another job to do.

Here’s our first look at the mansion Howard put up as a prize. It has a pool which takes away the sting of losing everything. I adore how Kimber is just as excited as the younger girls to look around their new home.

Rio buzzes in and tells Jerrica that he’s here with a camera crew for their magazine shoot for an article on up and coming rock groups. The crew comes into the courtyard and Zipper manages to sneak in before the gates close.

We see a scene inside the mansion where Ashley says to Lela and Becky that she shouldn’t still be held accountable for the money she stole from the Honor Jar because they’re now living in a home that isn’t falling apart. But she’s told that she still owes them money. And Ashley makes the point that she saved the Honor Jar from burning in the fire. But Lela tells her that doesn’t make up for stealing it. And honestly Lela, I think saving the couple hundred bucks in the jar does make up for stealing thirty. Ashley is understandably frustrated. She heads outside and sees an opportunity to make some money.

The Misfits are complaining about not being able to stay in the mansions and Pizzazz is saying how badly she wants through the gate. So Ashley tells them that she’ll let them in if they give her thirty bucks. Stormer ends up having to pay because she’s a bit of a pushover.

After Ashley runs off to open the gate we see Zipper sneak into a room.

Now we get a very fun music video. Click Clash which is performed by both of this season’s bands. I really like whenever they do this. The mix of musical styles is so interesting.

After the music video we see Zipper hide a bomb in the couch.

He’s very good at his job.

Eric arrives on the scene and warns Pizzazz and Roxy about the bomb. Not Stormer though, I guess she’s too nice for his liking.

Then the bomb goes off.

JESUS! I forgot about that! Let’s add this to our “Kimber almost dies horribly count.” Yeah it’s a recurring thing for my favourite character. Hm. Maybe that’s why I hit her with a car.

The police and press shortly arrive on the scene. They ask Eric how he knew about the bomb and he claims he got an anonymous phone call from a fan of Jem and The Holograms saying that they’re going to blow up the Misfits. Jem apologizes to Howard and he tells her that he doesn’t believe Eric’s story for even a minute.

As thanks Jem offers to help clean up the mess. And Rio runs up to the group asking where Jerrica is. One quick hologram of Jerrica waving from the top floor later and Rio is satisfied.

Then suddenly a blonde woman appears, she is Howard’s friend Countess Danielle Du Voisin, he introduces her to his new favourite band and she invites them over to a party on he yacht. Then after her invitation is enthusiastically accepted she bumps into the Misfits who are less than charming. And the countess tells them that they’re not invited. I wouldn’t be surprised if Howard told her about the mess they caused earlier in the morning.

Jem gets rid of the Misfits in a fun way by asking them to help clean up the rubble.

And then we cut to the yacht.

Everybody climbs onboard and frankly, Kimber is severely under dressed. I love the outfit but it’s not really one for a back tie party. Oh, and Rio says that he wishes Jerrica could have come along, Jem tells him that Jerrica asked her to show him a good time.

And now we see the party on the yacht. It’s full of movers and shakers in the entertainment industry. Including Lindsey Pierce who I’m quite fond of.

By the way, the music that’s playing makes me wonder about the production. I recognize it as a song from episode 9. So it must have been added in after they stitched together the shorts. I suppose it’s also possible that it was included with one of the Jem fashion dolls or a playset but I don’t recall “We Can Make a Difference” being included with anything. But I also haven’t looked up the entire list of cassettes. I wonder what was playing in the Super Sunday airing during this shot, if anything.

Back to the show. Lindsey introduces Jem to a cinematographer, Anthony Julian who Shana is very attracted to. So Jem played wingman and told Anthony that he should really be talking to Shana about the music video.

Then we cut to the Misfits sitting in a speedboat looking at the yacht and plotting to crash the party. As you do.

So, something interesting about Roxy here is that she has a heart tattoo near her armpit. That tattoo is the result of the person making the model sheet misreading the artwork Roxy’s outfit is based off of. There was a shape used to indicate shading but because the sketch was in black and white this shape was misinterpreted as a heart. So Roxy ended up with a tattoo. I honestly do kind of wish she got to keep it. Oh well.

Now we see some romance, Anthony’s talking to Shana and is shocked that her group doesn’t have any backing from a record company. And then we cut to Jem and Rio. I don’t know what exactly went through Jerrica’s mind here, but as Jem she asked Rio if he likes her. And Rio says that he hardly even knows her. Jem says that maybe she should tell Rio who she is and then leans in for a kiss.

And then cue The Misfits cackling and spraying seltzer on the upcoming love triangle involving two people.

They tear up the party and even cause a guy to get pied so hard he’s sent to the Shadow Realm.

The countess complains about their presence and the Misfits run off and enter the ship’s control room where they mess with some dials and send the yacht onto a crash course with a gigantic ship.

Well, this was episode 2 of Jem. Things really got crazy in this one. Somehow more crazy than a lantern causing a fire that engulfed fairly big house.

I actually don’t have too many final thoughts on the episode. It was just really fun. Jem’s a very fun show.

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Is your phone working ok?

The truth ???? Not so much I hate using my phone for various reasons one being if I exist out of the web page and go to another one it refreshes the previous page and erases everything that i wrote 🙃

I'm trying to write everything down first and than type it up which is pissing me off because the way I write is I always go back and forth between the previous chapters and the new one so I'm not missing anything as well as being consistent so I'm trying to write it down and hopefully this goes well I apologize for not updating but until I get my computer fix it's gonna take a while for updates I'm hoping that I can stick to last weeks schedule this week and have updates ready for you guys

Anon: Soooo any updates on a03 yet? I’m sorry if I seem to be bugging you btw

My dear your never a bother so please don't hesitate to ask for updates ^^ sadly as I mentioned above it's gonna take a long while buy I'm hoping for updates this week let's hope it happens fingers cross you guys ^^

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Oven repair still isn’t going well. I just can’t seem to get those two damn screws out. Excuse me I ramble/vent/moan/bore about things. (I am waiting a few minutes for some WD-40 to soak into rust, and the farmer sprayed the fields, AGAIN, an hour ago so I can’t go outside. I could do something useful, even with these grungy hands , or I could….)

I’ve had to stop working on the computer and the rest the tech issues. Which had already stopped my working in plumbing. Which had stoped me working on the roof. Which had stopped me working on the kitchen floor and wall at Mom’s house. Which had stopped me from working on the floors at my house. Which had stopped me working on….

Yeah.

So why the stove gets top priority?

Because, damn it, I like to have bread! I have toast every morning. Toast with cheese and fruit. That’s almost every breakfast. I count on having bread! **

And there is the mac and cheese I was going to fix to eat on for a week. And that sweet potato I was going to use last night. And the crust for the grape juice pie I was going to make in a couple weeks to use up juice (cluttering up the fridge) that I made from those fox grapes. And the bagels I’ve been craving**** I was going to make once I used up the bread. And roasting some of the peanuts from the field when they get harvested. And pumpkins and their seeds at Halloween. And turkey at the holidays. And cookies! And…

Okay, I also just like baking. I’m good at baking. Baking is so easy. And yummy.

I dunno. I can survive without an oven and a stove with a burner that goes full volcanic on low, but do I want to?

I have had my life’s pleasures whittled away from me. Like, at first it was just no trips or going out to eat. Fine. But then it was no going to the movies. No going to bookstores. Dropping all my comics and magazines. No buying books, or DVDs, or even little treats. No buying shrimp when the ground chicken is cheaper. No new clothes when I still have my parents’. No getting an internet provider good enough to watch videos all the time. No new sculpey or paints!!!

No family goes without saying.

And it isn’t just normal decay, with poverty (and the neglect that can lead to) speeding things up. Worse, thieves and vandals have repeatedly shown up lately to wreck my, already held together with duct tape, world.

Ok, yes, I have a few things left I get to enjoy. I’ve still got the pool (I almost refilled it after repairing the storm damage, but damn it’s cold) and the woods (when I get time, and the swamp is going dry again…gotta write about that sometime). And there are the animals, of course (but caring for them is soooo expensive). I appreciate my luck to have any of that.

But it all feel so precarious.

Any of them can be taken from me so fast. One tree can take out the pool, and sooner or later one will. Or maybe I will get so I physically can’t clean it any more first. The person that owns a quarter share of the farm and woods can still cause me to lose my woods. As it is, the people that own the next property seem to have it in for the swamp. The pets will all die eventually (old age I hope!) , and I should want no more strays show up. I’ve reached the “Oh no!!! Not another one!” stage every time a new one shows up.

As it is, I never go anywhere. I never do anything fun. I can’t buy things. I have no social life or any way to get one. Everything is broken or breaking around me.

My cooking may not be fancy, and I’m not a fan of the actual process of cooking, but having something yummy to look forward to eating at the end of the day has been something I counted on. During a day working on repairing, cleaning, or cutting brush, knowing I have leftover pizza in the fridge or that I can always make myself oven fries as a treat or that I’ll have brownies for dessert makes it easier to keep shoving through pain.

Ah well, it’s out of my hands. The problem will either be something I can afford to fix or it won’t. I’ll just have to adapt if it turns out to be “won’t”.

But first I have to get those damn screws out!

(Wanders off to go get a hack saw, chisel, hammer, drill, crowbar, and dynamite….’cause those suckers are coming out!!)

** I have no taste for store bought anymore. Mom went from occasionally making bread to making all our bread (when Pop developed stomach issues) thirty years ago. Then when Mom injured her arm*** in the shop, maybe fifteen years ago, I took over. After all those years of home made, when I’ve had folks give me store bought I realized I kinda hate it. So it isn’t just the cost of buying bread from a store (when every penny counts) but I don’t actually like it.

***Long story. Dislocated shoulder. Screw up by hospital folks. Mom with a completely paralyzed arm for six full months. Docs could do nothing but wait and see if it came back, and luckily it did.

**** If you think I hate store bought bread, the bagels are worse. I never liked bagels until I tasted properly made ones at a shop near my brother’s. It was a revelation. Too bad the shop is over 100miles away! There are NO bagels but grocery store plastic bag ones in my damn county. So it’s homemade or nothin’.