#genuinely please feel free to dm me if you want a place to get started or have any questions

[ilumel]

your destinyposting looks very compelling but i don't know anything about the game besides that it's an mmo(?) and looks cool. could you please briefly tell about it because i'd like to hear from an actual fan rather than whatever description google throws at me

i will do my best for you anon!!

the basic premise is that you play as a guardian, a warrior imbued with the light of a paracausal force called the traveler. we just moved on to the next arc after ten years (!!!!!!) but in the light and darkness saga, you are stuck in a cosmic battle between forces that wield light and darkness, and it’s your duty as a guardian to protect the survivors of a calamity called the collapse, and prevent another collapse from taking place. basically, it’s your job to kill gods and repeatedly prevent the end of the universe. the story is told in seasons (now called episodes) that focus on a months-long arc that centers a few characters per season, and in expansions that offer larger campaigns.

from a gameplay perspective it’s mostly combat, grinding, and buildcrafting. movement is very fluid and there are plenty of playstyles to choose from, with three main classes, multiple subclasses per class, and countless weapon types. it’s super fun, but if you’re a person that prioritizes story over gameplay like me, there are definitely some dry spells! destiny being a primary special interest of mine helps with that a lot, but i know some people get burnt out pretty quick, and i understand why.

personally, and i’m sure you can tell from the things i post about the game, i think its strongest aspects lie with its characters. there are so so many and they’re all so compelling in different ways. you have a lot that show up in the game itself but many more that are only in destiny’s written lore, so there is a fairly endless pool of characters you can get attached to. it’s like my autistic heaven, lol.

destiny is definitely a little tough to get into nowadays (imo at least) just because most of the earlier campaigns (storylines, dlcs, and seasons) are no longer playable in-game, so they kinda just throw you into the chaos and it takes a lottt of effort to get caught up enough to enjoy the story, but it’s absolutely possible!! if you’re interested and want some sources to get caught up on lore i am a lore fiend and can help out 🫡

[xenteaart]

it's not about the roses

pairing: chan x reader (i wrote it with idol!chan or producer!chan in mind, but despite a brief mention of the studio it can fit any au, really) word count: 1,1k genre/warnings: er, fluff, a hint of angst if you squint but overall just tooth rotting sweetness. reader being kinda vulnerable author's note: inspired by my and @skzms 's channie brain worms, me crying over how boyfie he is in may's dms and her coming up with this little prompt. i'm manifesting a sweet healthy relationship for y'all, never settle for less <3

you were never the one for flowers, really.

it just didn’t seem anything meaningful or special, an occasional cute little bouquet on some first date you had ages ago, meeting someone completely new after mindlessly swiping them right on a dating app. plus, it’s always such a bother to take care for it. disassemble the thing, cut the stems, change the water, maybe cut off the leaves too.

at some point, you began to think of yourself as more of a practical person, taking gift giving to the point where it completely lost symbolism. always getting your friends and family either money or something they specifically asked for.

“at least, they’re actually gonna use it and get some utility out of it. ‘s good, right?” you thought to yourself, ticking a box on one of your friend’s wishlists for their birthday. it is good. no stress of choosing and endlessly pondering whether they’ll like it or not.

or is it avoiding the vulnerability of going down a more symbolic route if they don’t happen to respond to your gift the way you’d like them to after carefully planting hidden meanings and confessions all over a seemingly useless present? yeah, maybe, that’s the one, actually.

it was a regular saturday evening, no work, no plans, no big day or anything to celebrate. so, naturally, you were just spending the time at your place, resting after successfully having done all the house chores in one go.

purposelessly lying on the bed, you wondered what chris was up to. it wasn’t something out of the ordinary for you two to leave each other hanging during the day, keeping each other’s messages unread and waiting for some free time to give a thoughtful, proper reply.

but the little “1” next to your kakaotalk message was starting to feel unfriendly because... honestly? you just missed him. you wanted to know about his day, what he ate for lunch and whether work was okay today (knowing full well the man couldn’t care less about days of the week, coming over at the studio any time he needed or pleased).

distracting yourself with scrolling tiktok for a quick dopamine hit, you end up losing track of time a little. and the thing bringing you back to reality is chan’s short message, popping up on your notifications bar.

“can you come out for a sec? i’m at the door hehe~”

it takes you three times to read to finally understand what it actually means. he doesn’t have keys to your apartment yet, and you mostly hang out at his place anyways, so him coming all the way to the opposite side of the city makes your heart skip a beat.

you rush to the door and open it almost immediately, only to see channie, your channie, standing right in front of you with a nice bouquet of red roses wrapped up in kraft paper. the next thing you notice is chan’s wide smile, so sincere and endearing it makes you wanna cry on the spot.

you were never the one for flowers, really.

red roses always seemed like something either too vulgar or “easy”. something that becomes men’s first pick because they just never care enough to look for anything else and assume every girl loves it by default.

right now, however, it doesn’t feel like either of those.

the way chris is a bit nervous and really excited all at once; his hands gripping at the crunchy paper-wrapped base as he's waiting to give the flowers to you. the way his eyes sparkle and shine with warmth and genuine adoration for you. and you read past the roses, you learn so much more from it.

you learn how he’s been quiet because he was plotting a little surprise for you, trying not to be too obvious.

you see how he thought of you during the entire process, from an idea to carefully picking out the best flowers, making sure they’re fresh and pretty and will stay this way a while.

you can hear his timid little “thank you” to the florist as they exchange their bows and polite smiles.

you imagine the slightly awkward small talk with the taxi driver asking him about the occasion — the traffic and the parking area next to your building are awful, so you’re guessing he did take the taxi. and the drivers sure love to talk on the long drives, this one you had to learn the hard way.

gosh, chan looks so warm and… so soft, his lips making a familiar heartbreaking :] shape.

snapping out of your thoughts, you look into chris’s eyes and swallow down a salty lump in your throat.

“please don’t be alarmed, but i probably will cry a little,” you warn him before your voice gives out and take the roses, holding them close to your chest where the heart is bleeding.

“so pretty,” you stare down at the gentle velvety petals and sniff quietly.

chan looks worried for a moment but quickly pulls you into his embrace, stepping into the apartment and locking the door behind him.

“hey-y, i expected a smile, not your tears, baby. i didn’t upset you, did i?” to which you shake your head to reassure him.

“no, no, ‘course not! what do you mean? they’re so nice. i’m just… really happy? and i missed you. so much,” the last words come out like a weak mouse squeak as you close your eyes and let your emotions roll down your cheeks, staining your skin wet.

chan nods and takes your face into his palms, wiping away the tears and looking at you so lovingly you think you might actually break.

“i missed you too, baby. do you mind if i stay the night? i…- uh. i bought some face masks too, so we can just relax a little before bed and cuddle?”

you squeeze out a little “yeah” in response, headbutting his forehead and putting your arm around him, with another still holding the roses carefully.

“i love you,” you say slightly louder, making sure that he hears it.

maybe, gifts don’t have to be practical all the time. maybe, it’s okay to put sentimental value into simple, useless things sometimes. make them mean something.

“i love you too, baby,” chris hums still a little confused, rubbing soothing circles into your lower back and planting a chaste kiss on the bridge of your nose.

you reach for his plump soft lips and press yours against them. and even though your tastebuds can feel the salt, it’s the sweetest kiss you two have shared so far.

[cowboywithacunt]

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CONTENT WARNING ;

This blog is an 18+ only kink/nsfw blog. I'm going to be posting explicit text and images. Please be aware that some of my kinks may be triggering to others! A full list of my kinks and limits are under the cut.

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RULES BYF ;

��� DNI: Men DNI blogs, detrans/misgendering/trans fetishization blogs run by cis people, cishet men, weight loss/thinspo blogs, feederism blogs, MAPs, minors and ageless blogs

🐎 My asks and dms are open to anyone! Please respect my boundaries, and don't send me stuff that involves kinks I list as a limit. Also be aware that I might not always respond! Sometimes I just ain't got the energy, don't know what to say, am offline, or just aren't interested at the moment. I'm fine with sexting, pics, and roleplaying. Do not message me several more times if I don't respond to your first message.

🐄 I block liberally! It's nothing personal, just how I curate my experience. Please don't circumvent blocks for any reason.

🐎 Feel free to claim an emoji, but I will remove you from the claimed emojis list if you don't send anything for a long while. It's nothing personal, just a way of keeping organized! If you start sending asks again I'll put you right back on.

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INFO ABOUT ME ;

🐎 I'm Harvey! 22, transgender (FtM), he/him, bisexual, country boy who's learned to embrace it as a thing people are into lol. Currently living on the west coast, originally from Georgia. I'm fat and hairy and masc, take it or leave it. 5'5". Deer boy tbh 🦌

🐄 I'm strictly masc, have been on T for about 4 years, and I got top surgery done last summer. I don't have bottom surgery, and probably never will.

🐎 I'm happy to be a dom or sub for any and all genders! I enjoy both roles equally. Same goes for topping and bottoming. I'm about as versatile as a guy can get!

🐄 Asks and dms are open to anyone who's interested!

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KINKS, FETISHES, ETC ;

🐎 CNC; includes rape play, dubcon, somnophilia, intoxication, primal play, and kidnapping.

🐄 Fauxcest; may include some ageplay elements, such as MILFs/DILFs, cougars, etc.

🐎 Humiliation and degradation; includes exhibitionism, voyeurism, pet play, free use, force fem/masc, misgendering, and detrans.

🐄 Monster fucking; werewolves, vampires, tentacles, you get the picture. May include non-human genitalia references.

🐎 BDSM; mostly pertains to bondage, but some light impact play might also be present. Nothing beyond spanking or slapping!

🐄 Overstimulation and understimulation; too many orgasms and not enough orgasms. Edging included in this.

🐎 Breeding; including impregnation of others, not of myself.

🐄 Misc; wilderness sex, cowboys/rednecks, putting city assholes in their place, T4T, bears, butches, sex toys, fighting for dominance, light gun/knife play, medical settings, older men/women, trans supremacy, furries, leather. Open to trying new things!

🐎 I do not tag any of these on reblogs! If you genuinely cannot stomach one or more of these things, just do your mental health a favor and don't follow me. Keep yourself safe!

🐄 Please keep in mind that all fantasies I post about are in the context of consensual roleplay between adults.

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LIMITS ;

🐎 Heavy blood, gore, death, necrophilia.

🐄 Scat, watersports, emetophilia. Very light omorashi stuff is fine.

🐄 Choking, beating.

🐎 Detrans/misgendering directed at me.

🐎 DDLG and similar kinks that focus on infantalization.

🐄 Race play; if someone wants to call me a stupid little white boy or something, that's fine, but anything even edging towards white supremacy isn't cool with me

🐎 It's okay if you're into the above things! I won't yuck somebody's yum. You can follow and interact. Just please don't send me asks or dms involving those kinks, and be aware that I may not follow back if you post a lot of one of these.

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TERMINOLOGY FOR ME I'M OKAY WITH ;

🐎 Sir, mister, bitch, faggot, whore, slut, masc terms, sweetheart, darling, buck

🐄 Dick, cock, t-dick, clit, cunt, pussy, chest, hole(s)

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🐎 Daddy, puppy, fem terms

🐄 Tits, boobs, vagina, front hole

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If you're not sure about something, just ask! I don't bite!

[fckwritersblock]

die with a smile. - Chapter 2

Eren Yaeger x Black Reader

Description: TBA

Word count: 1.6k+

An: unedited as hell, I probably won’t even get to that point until I’m at least halfway through. That’ll probably be when I’ll go back and start editing it for now though if you see any errors, please feel free to DM me them respectfully so that I can make note with them for the future.

If you’d like to be added to the tag list, let me know

Tag list : @faerie-soirxx @sasuvkee

Master list

Chapter 1 | Chapter 3

It had been exactly six days since Eren last saw her.

Patsy, along with another male nurse—one who lifted Eren and placed him in a wheelchair—grabbed him from the shared room he’d been staying in and rolled him back to the same room he’d been treated in before.

Patsy did the same thing as last time, checking his injuries. This time, she noted how much they had healed; there were only a few left. Just like before, Eren wore a stoic expression and stared straight ahead. However, from his peripheral vision, he had already located the healer from before. She was in the same corner , this time a little closer, and he noticed her with a mix of anticipation and anxiety.

“Okay, Mr. Kruger, same as last time. We’re going to rewrap and treat your larger injuries,” Patsy said.

With a gentle pat on the shoulder, Patsy and the other nurse—whose name he learned was Whynthur—exited in the same manner as last time. The healer approached him with a friendly smile on her face.

Immediately, he noticed her hair, styled in the same burnished curls as last time but a little wilder. She didn’t look as tired as she had the last time, so he assumed he was one of the first people she was seeing today.

“Do you mind if I…” she made a hand gesture, asking for permission to touch him.

“Be my guest.” His voice was low but firm, somehow inviting.

“How are you feeling, Mr. Kruger?” Her voice was soft, filled with genuine concern as she began cleaning the dried blood from the exposed injuries Patsy had unwrapped and examined.

“I feel fine,” he answered plainly.

“It hasn’t been long, but I can already tell everything is healing pretty nicely.” She informed him, sounding both happy and focused as she studied her previous work now that it was clear from the dried blood. “Once you’re about 75% healed with your bigger injuries, you won’t need to see me anymore. They like to let them heal naturally.”

Hmm. Good to know, Eren thought as she revealed that piece of information. I’d best continue to make sure I slow the regenerative process to a normal pace; otherwise, they’ll notice.

Eren watched her closely, captivated by the little things. He took note of how she poked between her teeth slightly as she rewrapped the bandages, and how her eyebrows furrowed a little more as she concentrated on the spot she was healing.

“Penny for your thoughts?” she grinned, her eyes flicking to his for a split second before returning to her task.

“May I ask you a personal question?” he ventured.

“You may,” she replied, a playful curiosity dancing in her eyes.

“What do you remember about your old home?” Eren asked, his curiosity about another land evident, but he wanted to ensure he had the right girl before delving deeper. He couldn’t afford to make any mistakes.

After a brief pause, she began to tell him about the island she had come from—the breathtaking beauty of its lush landscapes, the vibrant colors of the flowers, and the warmth of the sun that kissed her skin. He studied her facial expressions as she spoke, her hands deftly working to heal the wound that still required attention.

“But that was before. Before they destroyed my island and forced all the remaining survivors to come here. We work for them now. I've seen it time and time again. It's why they are at war now. People like them—the citizens of Marley and other places in the world—know no bounds.”

Eren caught a flash of something in her eyes as she gazed into the distance, lost in memories.

“All they do is take,” she seethed, anger lacing her voice.

Her vision blurred for a second, and she stumbled slightly concerned by the sudden spiking anger. Immediately Eren reached a hand out to steady her.

Seeing his touch through the glass window, two guards came running into the room immediately upon hearing the elevation in her voice, but she held her hand up while Eren removed his.

“I’m fine.” She attempted to assure them but one of the guards came forward anyway handing her a napkin.

She gave a slight nod as a thanks as they exited. With a deep breath she began to dab at her nose, wiping away her own blood this time. Avoiding his eye she got back to work.

“Sorry, sometimes if I use too much too quickly, I’ll get nosebleeds. They don’t like for me to overexert myself, you know, because I’m valuable to them. So they make sure I’m fed and have all the things I need to stay healthy in order to keep helping whoever.”

This led Eren to believe that she did work outside of the hospital as well.

That could be useful, he thought.

“You remind me of him,” Eren spoke, revealing his knowledge about her sibling.

“Excuse me?” Her hands dropped to her sides, surprise evident in her voice.

“I can see the resemblance, I mean,” he clarified, trying to gauge her reaction.

“What—” she frowned, her brow furrowing in confusion.

“Onyankapon.”

She froze, the name resonating within her like a distant echo. It had been so long since she had uttered it. Onyankapon. Her younger brother. The only family she had left when she arrived in Marley. When he came of age, he was ripped away from her, forced to fight for a place they didn’t truly understand.

The conditions of her existence and his survival dictated that she remain here, healing the wounded who came through without a fight. So that’s what she did. She stayed. Occasionally, they would bring her photos, assuring her he was alive and well. She could always confirm it was him by the small scar above his right eyebrow—a remnant of their childhood adventures, climbing trees against their mother’s wishes. Each photograph was a bittersweet reminder of the brother she had to watch grow up through someone else’s lens.

More than anything, she wanted to hold him, to protect him the way a big sister was supposed to. In a way, she was fulfilling that role, just not in the way she had always envisioned, and it tore her apart inside every day.

“You know my brother?” Her voice was barely above a whisper, but Eren heard her.

“We have an alliance of sorts,” he replied, his tone serious. “I’m here for business that doesn’t involve me directly.”

“An alliance? What business?” she asked, curiosity piqued she made she sure kept working, making it seemed as though nothing out of the ordinary was happening.

“What if I told you it has everything to do with getting you out of here?”

“Why would you do that, Mr.Kruger?” She paused for a second. “Why would you help me I mean? “

“Because we both crave the one thing neither of us can have. Not if things persist this way. Not with Marley in control.”

“What’s that?” she asked, voice barely above a whisper, her eyes never leaving his.

“Freedom.”

Her mind raced. She didn’t know what to think or how to process this. Freedom was something she had long given up on, something she thought she could never achieve as long as her brother was alive. But as she looked at the man in front of her, she felt something stir within her—a feeling she hadn’t experienced in a long time.

Hope.

“So what do you say? Will you help me? And in return, let me help you?” Eren extended his hand toward her, an invitation laced with sincerity.

Slowly, her eyes fell to the hand that was held out for her to shake. They traveled back up, locking onto his gaze as she searched for something—trust, perhaps. Eren said nothing, his heart racing in a way he was unfamiliar as he observed her uncertainty. Finally, she placed her hand in his.

“I’m Y/N,” she introduced herself, her voice steadier now, giving him her name for the first time. Eren’s hand enveloped hers gently before giving it a soft squeeze. She shivered at the contact, a spark igniting between them as he offered her a faint, encouraging grin.

“I’m Eren.”

In that moment, something within him shifted, awakened. He knew the girl in front of him was going to mean so much more to him than anyone ever had before.

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Meanwhile, across the sea, Mikasa sat listening to Armin try to find logical explanations for Eren’s behavior when suddenly, her tired body felt as if it were on fire, then abruptly cold. She let out a gasp, clutching her chest in bewilderment. Armin rushed over to her, concern etched on his face.

“Mikasa, what is it?” he asked, scanning her for signs of injury.

“I don’t know, it feels as if a giant weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I feel… “ she paused trying to find the right words to discribe this feeling. “lighter, even.”

Armin remained silent, confused but attentive.

“Eren…” Mikasa breathed out, a smile breaking across her face. “Eren is going to be just fine.”

[fizzypop0]

As of 2/28/2025, I am still unfortunately still unemployed and living off of shop leftovers and commissions and now I’ve been asked to move out. I’m only 22 and frankly have no idea what I’m doing. I have a small savings but it isn’t much. I am an pet mom of a senor bunny, bird, 3 reptiles plus three cats. I would really love to make with me as I restart my life for the second time. I’ve been living with them since a month or so after my mom kicked me out for very unhealthy and unfair reasonings so it is reasonable that I’ve overstayed my stay to no fault of my own. I am to get a place of my own by the end of this year on December 31st. I have no idea where I’m going and what this path is expecting of me as this has just been randomly sprung onto me. I am actively job searching

for a WFH job(If you know any hiring please feel free to dm me about it, I have horrible anxiety disorder so socially working genuinely doesn't fit me well from the many times I’ve tried). I really hate having to come out and ask for help but I feel like I’ve been pushed into a corner that I need to ask for help. Originally my plan was to find my own place by at least mid 2026-2027 but that process has been sped up. I’ve been trying to focus on getting caught up on my shop but now things most definitely have slowed down that process until I get a more stable income. I wanted to focus and still will try to build a community on pat3ron and K0fi. As of right now my commissions will stay completely open and I’ve opened up a commission/donation goal on K0fi. I’m going to be honest I don’t even know if a 10k goal is enough to start off. If anyone has any damn clues how to independently buy a house or honest I would appreciate any words of wisdom. Honestly with how everything is going this year I’m truthfully just scared. I would try to move back with my mom since we have a better relationship right now but she in the process of trying to figure her own life out with having to go to court on and off against a pedo for my younger sister on top of my nana and grandma dealing with separate health issues unfortunately both having different types of cancers- On top of my childhood dog being diabetic, I want to help her financially with that as well at the very least along with my own stuff. The world is a mess for everyone and being an black woman right now isn’t it with all the new law changes. I just want to live peacefully and do art whether it is commissions, merch making, and so on.. It really is my livelihood so please if anything repost, it would mean a lot to me <3

[theproverbialpen]

HIII FELLOW KABABAYAN i love ur siren saga sm 😭😭 inspired me to try writing too and i'm hoping i can get it out when i can!! i based it on old tagalog myths and i would love other filipino epic fans to read it 🥹 don't think u would recognize my user but it's fairyfalls ahhh what more can i say abt how much i love the series ur mc is just so endearing and finding out ur pinoy like WOOOO PINOY PRIDE !!! same when i found out about neal and wolfy being pinoy also like WE ARE SO COOL!!!

i legit reread the fic maybe everyday 😭 gets me thru these busy days as i move out... my final shred of sanity lol

MGA KABABAYAN KO!!!!!!! Idk what I did to start attracting the Pinoy EPIC community to my page but I am beyond thrilled, para sa kultura 😤🇵🇭

This is genuinely so sweet ahhhhh I love it when y’all tell me that I inspired you to start writing (again) like it’s literally such an honor to be a part of your creative journey 🥹 And to top it all off this concepts sounds DOPE I’m so excited??? Filipino folklore is so damn cool and I’ve been meaning to dig into it more, so this sounds like the perfect place to start hehehe. Please feel free to DM me when you get it uploaded, I will Devour That Shit like fresh lumpia on God 🤌🏽 (and I do recognize your user!!! Checking my AO3 notifs brings me so much serotonin y’all have no idea lmao)

Since you brought up Filipino culture x EPIC lol, I guess this is as good a time as any to give a sneak peek of my WIP Poseidon design:

Because of course I like to over complicate things for myself lol. I really wanted his coverup tats (for the 600 strike scars) to be inspired by Tatak, so I snuck some motifs from it in along with the more classic Greek ones! My paternal lola is from the Kiangan tribe and I’ve always wanted to have Tatak done on myself, so living through Poseidon vicariously until that day comes haha. And of course, had to give him a loincloth hehe iykyk (shoutout my Ifugao brethern).

I feel you on the moving pain, we got this tho! The horrors persist, but so do we! Wishing you all the best, friend 🫶🏽

[electricea]

on being 30.

my birthday is this weekend and i don't really know how much free time i'll have to spend on here, so i did want to poke on here and at least say something - thank you for another year together, whether we've just met or have known each other for ages, i genuinely appreciate being able to spend another year on this website with so many great folks, sincerely - i appreciate every dm, every image, it doesn't go unnoticed or unappreciated.

i've sort of touched on before on how 2024 has been a sort of a slump for a year for me - i've always sort of battled with self doubt and self loathing and just for some reason this year, it seems to just keep coming back and i hate that i actually doubt and question myself - if there's still a place for me here and when i get in my own head like this i really isolate myself and try to just deal with it in private because i don't like being a downer so if you have noticed me not exactly being the most responsive or talkative lately, that’s why - i’m not angry with anyone, i’m not trying to be cold with anyone - going back into my shell is just what I do and how I cope, it always has been, i don't even like writing this. and to make this clear, this is a me problem - not an anyone else problem, period - this isn't a vague or to point fingers, the issue is with me.

i think what sort of prompted this was seeing a lot of people open up about their own feelings and insecurities and I get the sense that 2024 hasn’t exactly been a great year for a lot of people either and my mindset has always been so long as it's not being passive aggressive or directing the blame at others, i honestly think it's good to have an outlet to just say how you're feeling once in a while - how else will people know what you're struggling with? of course what they choose to divulge is up to them and no one has to divulge if they don't want to, we're all just here for rp and for fun but i think sort of seeing others also struggling with having a crappy year and seeming to be in similar slumps was what really prompted me to write this. i hope it's just down to 2024 being a cursed year or something, lol.

like i said, i do genuinely appreciate all of you - i think more than anything else, more than rp or writing, the people are what keeps me coming back to tumblr - getting to write with and meet so many different writers from across the world (and possibly even talk with some of them and hang out with them??) is honestly a privilege and honour and even if i may not respond right away, please just know i appreciate every interaction, every message, every person. thank you all for being a part of my tumblr experience for another year and for already getting this birthday off to a lovely start. take care of yourselves.

[tnypawzz]

where can I find a good cg..?

☆nsfw dni☆

you might have to work a little to find a genuine good cg unfortunately not everyone is who they say they are but a good place to start off is by making a Google form and seeing who answered it (this might take awhile just be patient)

talk to the people & see how it goes but remember to build a relationship before a dynamic please be careful about online cgs though again not everyone is as good as they say :(

if you're looking for an irl cg I'd suggest looking at a trusted friend / partner (if you want / have one) who you think will keep you safe however make sure you communicate with them how you are when regressed so they know what they're getting into

finding a cg isn't easy so just be careful about who you trust & block people who are ruining your healing space

also don't see a cg as solely a cg (not saying you will) see them as a person too & don't force them to care for you if they're not feeling it today

I'm sorry if this wasn't helpful but that's how i found cgs but feel free to dm me (this applies to anyone btw) if you have questions / need help finding a cg

[anglebunnie]

Hihihi !!! ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹

My name is Angel! It's the name I use online in and out of kink. I have 0 intentions of ever sharing my IRL name or posting photos of myself publically. I'm 20 FTM. I've been on T for soon to be 3 years and will (hopefully if all works out right) have top surgery in 2027 and bottom surgery a few years after that. IRL I'm a passing man and mostly stealth. I'm probably autistic and have some sort of anxiety disorder. Everything you see on this blog is exclusively fantasy and 99% of it I would not be willing to do IRL with anyone. This is ALL FANTASY AND FICTION!!

READ THIS BEFORE INTERACTING WITH ME

Important information will be highlighted in blue and red for those of you who need sparknotes

I consider myself generally m4fem, I don't really like to lable my sexuality, to me gender and sexualty are very very fluid, but typically I find myself attracted to femininity, but not always! When I'm indulging in my detrans kink I find myself more attracted to masculinity, and obviously that's not a strict thing.

I am somewhere on the asexual spectrum and generally avoid engage sexually with people who I don't know. If you want to engage sexually with me please start with a "hello!" And a nice little SFW chat first. As fun as it is to pretend to be a little bunny rapetoy, I am still a person💔

I am not looking for a partner! As fun as it is to roleplay and post about wanting a daddy or mommy, and as lovely as I'm sure yall are, I'm not looking for a partner on Tumblr. I'm down to roleplay and chat with yall, fantasize, maybe even become friends, but as of right now the only places I'm looking for love is Hinge and real life out in the wild. (That being said if your a billionaire willing to pay for my college, fund my transition, and get me the fuck out of America 👀)

This is all just a fantasy and something fun to indulge it, I don't genuinely ever see myself detransitioning or have a desire to detransition, I just get off on the humiliation of it and the loss of agency. Forced feminization falls under my cnc kink, and if I was a Cis man I would still have a forced fem kink <3

I'll indulge in the medical aspect on occasion (restricting HRT, fantasies about getting a surprise boob job instead of top surgery, etc) but generally I'm less interested in the idea of medically detransitioning and more interested in being made to wear girly clothes and being sexually degraded.

I exclusively top IRL, I do not and will never indulge in bottoming, it is uncomfortable for me physically and mentally. That being said it's still very fun to fantasize about, just not to do!

I am a switch, but generally more submissive. I have a non detrans kink blog, but I don't really plan on sharing it since it's mostly reposts. The content is honestly pretty similar to what I plan to post on here just more geared towards my love of being dominated by women and with a bit less cnc/detrans stuff.

I would say please ask to DM but im afraid i have to say please don't DM me at all! Not because i dont want to talk to you lovely people but this is a side blog and as far as I'm aware I don't think I can answer DM's from it? If I'm wrong about that then please feel free to correct me. If you want to chat im happy to do so through asks!

Although I do have a forced fem kink and do think being degraded by being forcibly feminized is hot, I am still very much a feminist! I don't equate femininity to humiliation, it's more about control and being turned into what my partner wants me to be/being turned into the opposite of what I am. I understand why some people and especially women, are put off about forced fem/sissy kinks and I do think the forced detrans kink falls into that category, I'm not sure if there's an "ethical" way to get off to forced them stuff, but I do want to let it be known that I deeply respect women, femininity, and there is nothing at all inherently sexual or wrong about it

Please also respect other people’s limits and practice safe kink. If someone is making you uncomfortable in any way it’s probably a red flag. We only practice safe consensual kink here. All of the content here is fantasy and should be contained within a safe kink setting and peoples individual limits. Boundaries and aftercare are very important and should be respected.

What you will find on my blog

Misgendering

Cnc

Forced feminization

Petplay

Somewhat ddlg/mdlg I guess?

Humiliation & degredation

Manipulation

Ocassional monsterfucking

Breeding

Lactation

What you won't find on my blog (hard limits)

Blood/gore/death

Scat/vomit

Bioessentialism

Ana/feederism/anything to do with food

Birthing

There are more kinks and stuff and I'll probably add them as I think of them but for now we can call that the list!

If you are cishet men or a lesbian you can stay and interact but don't talk to me <3. Cishet women you are on THIN ice.

IF YOU ARE MAGA/A TRUMP VOTER, A MINOR, TRANSPHOBIC, A TERF, OR ANY OTHER KIND OF BIGOT GET THE FUCK OFF MY BLOG! THIS IS NOT FOR YOU! I WILL BLOCK YOU! DNI!

[b4b3tte]

Jealous Hearts

Gosling!KenXReader

꒰ ⊹ ˚ Summary — Ken gets jealous when you and Barbie start spending a lot of time together

Pairing — Gosling!Ken x Reader

Contains of — Jealousy,insecurities,doubting,confrontation and good ending

My note : IM JUST KEN ANYWHERE ELSE I’D BE TEN. sorry 💀 but anyway enjoy also this is very short im sorry but I wanted to put something out there and ALSO REQUEST MORE KEN STUFF PLEASE 💙

Ken walks into the large bright Barbie dream house, only to find you and Barbie laughing and talking. His heart stank when he saw you laugh at Barbie’s jokes, the way your eyes sparkled when looking at her, he felt jealousy,envy for the very first time

He never thought you would look at anyone else that way, he thought he was the only one who made you laugh like that,made you giggle and smile that bright and loud, it made him question your guys relationship and was it really like how he thought it was?

He tried to brush off his feelings, reminding himself that you are free to be friends with anyone you chose to be with. But as the days passed, Ken found himself struggling to hide his emotions. Every time he saw you and barbie together, it felt like a punch to his heart slowly feeling replaced day by day.

Sitting alone in the dimly lit room, Ken pondered over his feelings. He realized that his jealousy stemmed from his fear of losing you to someone else. He had always believed that he was the one who made you smile the most, and now he wondered if he was genuinely being replaced by barbie.

Unable to bear the weight of his emotions any longer, Ken decided to confront you. He found you in your bedroom, arranging your collection of accessories. Taking a deep breath, he mustered the courage to speak.

"Y/n, can we talk?" Ken's voice wavered slightly, betraying his inner turmoil.

You turned around, your eyes filled with concern. "Of course, Ken. What's on your mind?"

The way you said his name made him all fuzzy inside, he always felt at peace, at warmth with you and he was realizing that the more you talk to Barbie, the more he is getting replaced which meant he wouldn’t be able to speak to you again, he wouldn’t be able to hear you talk to him and he didn’t want that

So deep in thought ken hesitated for a moment before pouring out his feelings. He admitted his jealousy and insecurity, explaining how it hurt to see you with barbie. He confessed that he feared being replaced in your heart. you listened attentively, your expression softening with each word. When Ken finished, there was a moment of silence before you spoke.

"Ken, I understand why you feel this way, but I want you to know that you're irreplaceable to me. You've always been there for me, and our connection is special. Barbie is a friend, and nothing more. You hold a special place in my heart, and that will never change."

Ken felt a weight lifted off his shoulders as he absorbed Your words. He realized that his fears had been unfounded, and he had let jealousy cloud his judgment. He apologized for doubting your bond and thanked you dearly for understanding.

From that day forward, Ken vowed to trust your guys relationship. He learned to appreciate the friendships you formed with others and understood that it didn't diminish what you guys shared. Together you guys continued to embark on adventures, your love and bond stronger than ever before.

BarbieLand became a place of love, laughter, and understanding, where jealousy was conquered by trust, and hearts grew even closer.

Thank you for reading!!! Likes,comments,reblogs mean the world and I appreciate all of them!! I hope you enjoyed and if you want to be tagged in my next ken post, please dm or comment!! Request box is open so don’t be shy or scared I’ll write it SFW or NSFW <3

[gendermuddledenby]

YOU MUST BE 25+ TO DM ME WITH NSFW MESSAGES. NO EXCEPTIONS.

(I'm noticing my life balance is getting thrown for a loop due to hyperfixating on this atm, so I'm laying down a new rule for myself. I'm only allowed to be active on here from 2100 to 0400 Brisbane, Australia time. If you want to know when that is smart phone alarm apps have a world clock you can use to follow times in cities all over the world. If it's not somewhere between 2100 to 0400, I'm not supposed to be on here/hopefully won't be on here.)

[This is KINK ONLY detrans blog. I am really sorry to anyone I led on while trying to figure out what I was up for only to discover I genuinely don't want to play that hard because my brain suddenly threw up a 'NO' banner. I really thought I could handle it/have fun with it, and discovered that was not the case after all. I hope I've at least caught this before it went on too long and that you all can feel safe communicating with me anything you need to around what you want going forward/if you need to dip as a result of this, etc. And hey, this is why we have strict clear communication baselines, so when someone like me dabbles and finds out the more hard-core variant is more hard-core than they thought and they aren't actually having as much fun as they wished they were, they can call a stop, apologise, and get everyone's needs sorted out to either end the interaction or move forward with a better understanding of each other's needs.]

(I'll update this as I go but so far this is what I know/am exploring about myself:

I've been identifying as nonbinary for about 4 years now I think. I've been on T for about 6 months and my voice is just starting to drop and it's extremely euphoric for me. :D

Then one day I found this random contradictory kink entirely on my own when I started fantasising seemingly out of nowhere about being clocked by cis men who decide to teach me a lesson about what I 'really' am. This escalated to finding some general feminisation and bimbofication hypnosis files where I ran into MistressLillith's site and it all went downhill from there. I haven't had top surgery - can't afford it - and I've been enjoying using my big breasts in my fantasy so much I'm using that as a way to be happy with having to keep them. XD

I've never told anyone this outside of this kink space and I won't be except to people in this kink space on whichever end who understand why I'm like this/that this is kink only and doesn't define who I am or my beliefs in real life.)

[25+] PLEASE FEEL FREE TO DM ME

[KINK ONLY. I DO NOT WANT THIS IRL.]

Any ftm breakers/fixers are welcome to message or send in asks degrading, misgendering and aiming to detransition me so I can reach my full real female potential. Teach me how delusional I am and demand things of me. I won't be posting real photos of myself on my blog I think so far (partly for privacy partly to avoid tumblr annihilating me lol) but I may post photos of myself with lots of encouragement in dms (face blurred) after some time feeling you out.* You can tell me to do all kinds of things and I'll figure out as I go where my limits are on those and update the limits list as needed. Don't be afraid to ask for something you haven't seen me list as a limit or ask for further communication around the soft limit list; we won't know what I'm ok with if it's not there yet or specified in more detail until you ask.**

If you - Straight or Queer - are feeling particularly adventurous/malicious, you are welcome to try breaking me of ALL my queer delusions and 'fixing' me to be 100% Straight in every area of my identity and sexuality for the betterment of knowing my place in society.

I want my identity meticulously broken to pieces then put back together into the perfect, horny, cock-worshipping, feminine girl ready to be filled with seed and bred until my belly and tits are impossible to hide any longer no matter what I do.

On that note, maybe you'd like to break&fix me via notes? Below is my Detrans Notes Game Challenge, which you can participate in if you want to inundate me with feminisation training, with the aim of breaking my mental defences and identity, then remoulding me body and mind into a proper girly girl, to offset the nasty bad influence of my masc-leaning nonbinary identity.

🧑😥😳😖😣😵😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫🥵🤤😊👧

(18-24 allowed to like, reblog and interact within specific limits. Please check writing in red about 25+ only if you're 18-24 for those specific limits. Transfemmes [25+] are welcome to NSFW interact directly on this post if comfortable with helping my brain try to get over past trauma and normalise healthy consent-respecting kink interaction with transfemmes again)

THIS GAME IS SUSPENDED FOR FURTHER COMMUNICATION, SELF-REFLECTING, AND REVAMPING. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PATIENCE AND UNDERSTANDING.

Read this instead.

THINGS I LIKE OR SEEM TO LIKE SO FAR

[THESE ARE KINK ONLY]

- forced detransition

- becoming someone's detransition project [KINK ONLY. I'm very sorry for overestimating myself in the past and am changing everything to reflect my discovered boundaries. Let me know if I've missed any.]

- Play-acting stopping my Testosterone

- misgendering

- orientation play/bi-breaking [new one; still feeling it out but feel free to give it a go]

- brainwashing through forced hynosis/tied down and brainwashed via hypnosis... at least until I become happy and compliant and begin dropping so easily and effortlessly for the desired alterations to be properly cemented and consistently reinforced so I can never even think to try to undo it let alone succeed.

- feminisation/forced feminisation

- bimbofication/forced bimbofication

- impregnation/forced impregnation/breeding/forced breeding/etc

- patriarchy kink

- misogyny kink

- male superiority kink

- r@pe kink

- monsterfucking/alienfucking/robotfucking

- Furry [picky with what type though; nothing too human but also not too close to an actual real life animal so for eg a talking cat is a NO, but a Skyrim Kajiit can be a yes if sufficiently big-catlike but that is on the very edge of the limit on human-ness as well.]

(I'm also pansexual so I don't have a preference I just don't have any experience playing with afab bodies either. By the time I figured out I'm pan I wasn't in the physical dating scene anymore. Hopefully one day I'll get to expand my skillset. 👀)

Speaking of kinks, since first writing this Pinned post I lost a wager and was required as part of paying up on said wager to write a post with what he told me to say, then link it in the Pinned, so here you go.😅

IMPORTANT NOTE FOR MESSAGING ME

(Anything in brackets is absolutely being said out of kink. Please keep responses out of kink if they're connected to anything I've said in parentheses ->().

I will do my best not to use parentheses outside of that context.

It's especially important to keep some kind of clear line somewhere with CNC related kinks due to their naturally otherwise blurry nature. I know I'd rather be told very quickly about things I need to be aware of/careful of rather than letting it become a real problem down the line, so I'm trying to do the same thing.

I am still figuring all of this out kink wise, what I am and am not ok with, etc, so I will be trying to give reasonable room to others for me not knowing or thinking to communicate something because it's totally valid to make mistakes especially while I'm figuring out where those lines are myself. You can't read my mind. If I haven't clearly communicated something - because I didn't know myself or I said something in my head instead of out loud etc etc - then you can't know it and it's not a reflection on you if you miss something because of it.

I appreciate everyone's patience with me so far as I'm figuring myself out and learning how to keep healthily on top of CNC type kinks to be respectful and fair to everyone involved.)

(CW: Mentions below of having experienced real life non-consenting situations.

Soft Limits:

- Anything anal.***

[We can talk about it/it can be referenced/it may even be ok to instruct me to do things to myself, but we'll need to feel out what's ok. I'll communicate if something is wrong, just be aware it's a more complex area]

- Transfemmes in NSFW engagement

[PLEASE HEAR ME OUT!! I believe in trans women's rights I've just had trauma because my sexually/emotionally/psychologically abusive ex happened to be a trans woman. I'm working through this and I hope one day to be more comfortable around trans women in sexual contexts again. I consciously know there is no actual problem and trans women are NOT inherently abusive any more than any other demographic on this planet. That's TERF bullshit and I do NOT stand for it and if anyone ever tries to use abusive trans women existing as a reason to write off the entire transfem community I will absolutely stand by transfem people against that. Unfortunately my subconscious brain where all the trauma shit is kept is bad at understanding that so I feel it's better to keep my distance so random transfems aren't dealing with any subconscious bullshit from my end because of one individual who doesn't represent them in any way.

I promise I will try to work through this and get better because it does suck and I really don't want to be discriminating like that regardless of what happened to me. One day I hope to have developed enough good rapport with a transfem who understands my problems/has the patience for working with them, and if she's up for it try exploring a little further and keep showing my brain the reality of the abuse not being connected to transness in any way and try to make it let go of all that so I can get over it and open up easier again to all the safe and wonderful transfems out there in whatever way we all want at that time, no bullshit baggage attached.

Until then, I am comfortable following you/you following me and engaging with each other's posts etc if any sexual content isn't specifically directed at me, and I'm fine with talking and engaging with things directed at me in nonsexual contexts. While I'm still fixing myself though, transfems please do protect yourselves however you need. I will not be offended if you block me over this. You have a right to stay away from people you don't feel safe around and a right to be fully and unconditionally accepted. You are beautiful and valid and absolutely a real woman - if you identify that way - and you ALL deserve to be treated as your identity, no exceptions, even my abuser.]

- Intox kink.****

Hard Limits:

- Fauxcest [I can compartmentalise if it pops up but I'd really rather not; I don't get it]

- NO MINORS. GET OUT.

- 25+ ONLY FOR ANYONE DOING NSFW WITH ME. THIS IS NON-NEGOTIABLE. [I'm turning 30 this year and I personally find it extremely inappropriate and uncomfortable actively engaging with anyone any younger than 25 in a kink way. I know what it's like to be in a relationship with an older adult and the risk of abusive power dynamics - regardless of who is in what role - is just too high and I don't want to perpetuate that. Maturity often comes a lot later than 18. I am fine with the youngest character in a fictional ship being 18 as it's fiction, but as with many things I hold different beliefs for real life. Also even if you're 25, if I get the vibe that you are a young 25 year old, I will respectfully disengage until you mature to a point safer for interacting with me. As you are still an adult, how you conduct yourself elsewhere is none of my business, but please respect my boundaries for interacting with me.

However, as above with Transfemmes, I don't mind interacting with anyone between 18-25 in an SFW manner and reblogging their NSFW posts, so long as none of the NSFW is directed at me and I don't direct it at you either. ]

[Your Kink Is Not My Kink And That's Ok]

- Actually going off T irl

- Anyone trying to detransition me irl [I was curious, dipped a toe, stubbed it and realised I'm not equipped for the deep end. My apologies again.]

- Daddykink/Mommykink [BIG SQUICK NO; mommykink is also pretty much a trigger for me honestly]

- Scat/piss play [squick no]

- Ageplay [Also BIG SQUICK NO]

- Incest

- Rimming [same reason]

- Anything in general that would viley disgusting in an unhygienic/disease-risk dangerous way in real life eg: licking a toilet seat or some other really dirty/mouldy/whatever thing etc.

- Wound fucking [squick no]

- Raceplay

- Zoophelia/Bestiality [ie: sex with actual animals. If you keep it fictional, I'll just mind my own business and block you like I do any other kink that grosses me out personally. If you actually do shit with real animals however, I'd like you to consider the fact they are incapable of informed consent by virtue of not having human brains to begin with. If sex with an intoxicated human who hasn't given prior explicit and well-communicated consent while sober to be fucked in that state is assault, don't you think that applies to a creature who straight up can't conceive of complex sexual interaction, can't communicate complex needs around sexual interaction, and therefore does not meet the necessary baseline human standards of informed consent? Maybe try not doing it, and instead buying a knotted dildo from Bad Dragon or something. They make horse cocks and wolf cocks and all sorts of things. I get wanted to be knotted; bitch, I love knotting. Actual dogs ain't where it's at though.]

- I'll add more to this as I remember or discover them.)

Actual transphobes will be shot on sight.

*(Obviously this is done with the understanding that consent has ONLY been given to YOU to see those photos and you are to keep them to yourself. Consent is imperative in any kink space and if you don't respect that you shouldn't be here until you do).

**(Asking is ok. Badgering and boundary crossing are not.)

***(I had a bad experience with the mentioned shitty ex who was very much NOT respectful of informed consent rules and pressured and even forced me in real life into sexual encounters before I was ready, including anal, and didn't even lube/prepare me properly and made me really turned off from anal for a long time but it's been years now and I tried putting a finger up there when I'd orgasmed several times and was highly aroused and relaxed and it went right in with barely any discomfort so I do have anal play on my soft limit list as something I want to try taking back control over very slowly and gently so she's not my only experience with it and I get to enjoy it on my own terms again with someone I trust who respects real life boundaries and proper consent negotiation etc).

**** (I actually do want to explore this at some point because that's something else my ex did to me in an actual real life nonconsenting context and I want to take it back from her and make it my own to enjoy.)

[pale-plasma]

Fuck it, it’s been 200+ years and I have the ‘Dragon Age Veilguard is finally out after 10 years and I am deeply unwell’ disease.

Here’s the DM gang and what faction in Thedas I headcanon them as:

Atem:

Mournwatch

This is genuinely VERY difficult. I landed on Mournwatch because I like the idea of a 1000+ year old spirit somehow coming back in an ancient Nevarran crypt and adjusting as he explores the world of Thedas. Thedas also has many encounters with spirits who have come back into a version of their body but worse, and I think that the Mournwatch would Identify this, but unlike other factions, nurture his spirit and have him return to his actual personality. Plus I think that Necropolis would be the best place for him to find his memories so it makes sense he's poking around there.

Yugi:

Veil Jumpers.

Ridiculously Veil Jumper coded. Please let our favourite punk kid go solve weird elven artefact puzzles in the big spooky forest. Hell, maybe even let him get possessed a little too. Not to be a giant nerd either, but in the Season 0 manga we have Yugi saying that he'd be an elf in DnD and given how Dalish coded this faction is, this feels like less of a headcanon and more of a "well duh". ALSO TRIANGLES AS A DESIGN MOTIF!!! (!!!)

Seto Kaiba:

Grey Warden

I umm-ed and ahh-ed about this or 'Shadow Dragon' for longer than I care to admit. But ultimately, especially given how long it took for his ancient Egyptian self to give a shit about anyone other than himself, this man is not going to work with a secret rebellion to free slaves in a society that believes wealth and magic make you superior. However, a one-off instance that means he has to ascend to a position of nobility and reverence after coming from nothing? Absolutely Kaiba is a Grey Warden. The dragon obsession even works (this dude's lifelong ambition is to slay an archdemon before he succumbs to the calling, hell, he probably thinks he can outsmart The Calling) and this allows him to keep his silver and blue colour theming. This bad boy is absolutely from Tevinter and don't even get me started.

Tea/Anzu:

Shadow Dragons

Pretty popular girl with a heart of gold absolutely wouldn't stand for the oppression in Tevinter and I could see her working with the organisation. Her sense of justice and love for her friends absolutely lends itself well here. I don't think she's high-ranking necessarily, but I think her values align deeply with the faction.

Joey/Jonochi:

Lords of Fortune

Scrappy baby boy who loves found family and dragons? Put this man on a pirate ship with Isabella and let him hunt for treasure. He absolutely strikes me as a Lord who starts with the crew and eventually leaves for a 'higher purpose' (idk like literally fighting god) and returns. He would be sensitive to the cultural parts of the job and I can see him VERY QUICKLY rallying and trying to help others.

Honda/Tristan:

Lords of Fortune

Wherever Joey goes, this man follows him. I think it makes sense that they both start off here and that maybe Honda is more reluctant to leave than Joey is but ultimately succumbs to whatever adventure he goes on. I did briefly consider Shadow Dragon for him because he does come around to sticking up for the little guy, but he has to start somewhere first and his growth is ultimately due to friendship so he is a Lord of Fortune that I could see becoming a Shadow Dragon or working with them later.

Mai Valentine:

Antivan Crows

You're telling ME that the high fashion, beautiful woman who would grift people and has a 'hot bird woman' themed deck WOULDN'T be a high fashion, beautiful assassin with wings and bird theming? Outlandish. We could even tie the weird perfume fake psychic schtick back into this if we wanted to. Give Mai a dagger and poison, let her complete her contracts in style, and have her wearing a fun Harpie Lady outfit while she does it.

Ryou Bakura:

Mournwatch

I MEAN COME ON?!? Sweet little goth guy working in the crypts late at night pursuing the academic study of the dead. Maybe he even finds a deeply cursed amulet that ruins his life forever and means that an old evil god returns to destroy everything. This boy is forever doomed by the narrative and it wouldn't be honest if I didn't do so here as well.

[cupcakewebkinz]

I'm just gonna put this out here at like, 3 am because I'm so exhausted and I'm honestly starting to care less and less lol

A long rant about my life below, if you want to know where I've been for a while. Any trigger warnings will be put before the read more promise (and tags)

Oh and, quick mention, if you want to reach out but don't want to read any of this, you're absolutely valid please feel free to reach out whenever you want. I need friends right now, even if you don't want to know why. My dms are always open I just sometimes struggle to reply sorry-

Tw: Politics, depression, s/h + suicidal thoughts

Fandom mentioned: Dandy's World (a whole ass explanation of why I'm so obsessed ngl-)

Hey, I'm Kai, as I'm sure most of the people who follow me are aware. Irl, nobody calls me that though, and for good reasons now.

Ever since Trump has taken office again, I've been slowly going down further and further into a deep depression spiral, and every time I think about reaching out for help, I realize I'm stuck in one of thee worst places for a severely depressed gay to get help in. I live in Florida, and if you know why this is so bad, I am so sorry for you. If you don't, I won't go into detail here, but please research when you're in a good headspace, I genuinely don't want more people getting hurt because of me.

I've been slowly attempting to reach out to people again, to find someone, anyone, who could make me feel loved and okay again, but my brain keeps screaming at me that I don't deserve it and that I'm just... Not supposed to find the love and support I need. It tells me I'm not supposed to find a good partner, that I'm not supposed to feel wanted, that I don't deserve to breathe some days even. It's been such a struggle to even talk to my closest friends... And I will never be able to apologize enough for accidentally ignoring them. Some days I just lay in bed, hoping something would just come and kill me already, other days I wish I wasn't so scared of blood so I could hurt myself like I feel like I deserve. I should've gotten a job by now... But every time I get close to getting one, something happens to make it impossible. I feel trapped... I have always felt trapped in this state.

I've honestly felt so isolated too, having no car and only one friend who knows me irl, I hardly leave my house anymore. I've been curled up in bed for months now... Only getting up to use the bathroom, eat, drink, stuff like that. I felt so confined for so long, felt like a massive waste of space and money, it really took a toll on me physically and mentally. My chronic pain has never been higher, my depression is the same way, I often find myself wishing to just disappear or just giving up on having valid relationships - platonic and romantic - altogether because of everything making me spiral. I've also had some problems in my family, but that's staying private, I'm only going to say that I'm not the only one going down the mental crisis spiral right now. That too has been making it hard to believe I deserve love and support... I'm not as sick as they are, so I've been put on the back burner, and probably forgotten about as I learned how to mask my horrible mental health honestly.

However, lately, I've come across Dandy's World on Roblox and found out one of my siblings plays it, so I started to play with her. The people there have been so funny, so uplifting and just so... Fun. It's been so much fun. I fell in love with the characters and even related to quite a few of them, especially Shelly and Vee, different aspects of them both yeah but I really grew attached to them. I then found out about the ship between them and how absolutely fluffy some people make it and... It's honestly been my escape now. I bought Vee two days ago in game, and I've been slowly learning how to play her in the best way, and I've made so many dear friends already from it. I've been delving deep into the lore and writing my own au and devouring all the Shellevision fanfics I can possibly find 😂

I know this isn't the most healthy thing to do, I completely understand that, I really should be job hunting and doing my best to be an adult. But honestly, it's been such a peaceful escape from the dark thoughts that have been suffocating me lately. Moral of the story is, even though life can be a fucking shitshow, there's so many people out there who can and will make you feel like you belong somewhere. Even though a fanbase has a reputation for being a toxic disaster, there will always be people who are genuinely kind and loving and caring in there. Life will give you ways to remind you of how beautiful you are, and I found that in silly Roblox games as I slowly start selling Kandi bracelets and necklaces for a living irl.

There's a place for everyone, you just have to find it.

Also I'm reblogging a shit ton of Shellevision and Fruitcake sorry but I'm not actually sorry I am indulging to feel better tonight lol

[roleplayfinder]

(All characters and participants MUST be 18+!!)

Good morning/evening to you all! Today, I'm searching for a MM (or MxNB) plot taking place in a fictional world inspired by the early 1800s/Victorian Era!

I want to play as Muse A, an odd but endearing royal who's the child of a corrupt king and queen. They're cruel, and rule over the land with an iron fist. Muse A has reached the age where it is time for them to find a suitor as in a few years they will be ruling.

Muse B (you) is a shapeshifting monster (obviously whatever he looks like is up to you both in human and original form! However, I'd prefer if the original form is at least humanoid) who'd disguised himself as a noble and is determined to win over Muse A. What's his motive? Is he genuinely interested in the start and wants to get closer? Does he want to kill/harm them at first, but gradually fall for them? It's up to vou!

This will include darker (and possibly ) themes such as death, blood, NSFW (I think a 50/50 split down the middle is good), regicide (the murder of royalty), running from the law, and more!

I've just been dying to play as a monster fucker so I'd prefer if your character took on a more dominant role (in bed! People tend to think this means in general) for my switch leaning sub! Everything else will be discussed in DMs! I write exclusively on discord, so if you're interested, please feel free to message me anytime!

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[darkrpfinders]

(All characters and participants MUST be 18+!!)

Good morning/evening to you all! Today, I'm searching for a MM (or MxNB) plot taking place in a fictional world inspired by the early 1800s/Victorian Era!

I want to play as Muse A, an odd but endearing royal who's the child of a corrupt king and queen. They're cruel, and rule over the land with an iron fist. Muse A has reached the age where it is time for them to find a suitor as in a few years they will be ruling.

Muse B (you) is a shapeshifting monster (obviously whatever he looks like is up to you both in human and original form! However, I'd prefer if the original form is at least humanoid) who'd disguised himself as a noble and is determined to win over Muse A. What's his motive? Is he genuinely interested in the start and wants to get closer? Does he want to kill/harm them at first, but gradually fall for them? It's up to vou!

This will include darker (and possibly ) themes such as death, blood, NSFW (I think a 50/50 split down the middle is good), regicide (the murder of royalty), running from the law, and more!

I've just been dying to play as a monster fucker so I'd prefer if your character took on a more dominant role (in bed! People tend to think this means in general) for my switch leaning sub! Everything else will be discussed in DMs! I write exclusively on discord, so if you're interested, please feel free to message me anytime!

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[hexedwinchester]

Promise I’m not trying to start shit, genuinely curious. What do you think of Sam’s ending, specifically the flash-forward?

hi @catsconflictscopicsandchamomile

No worries at all. This blog is a safe place.. :)

IMO Sam's ending sort of depends on the future of SPN. What i mean by that is, if that's it and there is no new season or a movie, then to be honest with you, it's a satisfactory ending and here's why:

Sam literally got what he wanted from the start: get out of hunting and to live a safe life. He is someone who dreamt of marrying a woman he loved, start a family with her and knowing Sam, I am 100% sure he would have gone back to college and completed his studies

He raised a child, and had a loving wife. And in a way i am glad they never revealed the blurry wife. As much as i liked Eileen for Sam, there is a wee bit of melancholy to know that after Dean's death, Sam was alone. Despite that, he was strong enough to keep going, you know what i mean?

He died a natural death, went to Heaven and was reunited with Dean.

So yes, if the show ends there, then I am satisfied with the ending

Now, if we were to consider an extension of the storyline, then yes, I can see how this ending wouldn't make sense. I have read a lot of theories, including the ones you put in the comments (good ones btw!) and some of the ones that I did like and would be fun to explore are:

Chuck being a Tulpa instead of God. (Sorry, not sure who came up with this but please DM and I can credit you) This theory explains why Chuck can warp reality around him and is in fact not God which was quite an interesting one because yes, Chuck as God was not played well. They could have done a better job with that.

Your Eileen as a Djinn theory was great too! Having Sam trapped in a perfect reality whilst draining him. This is something i did kinda complain about in one of my SPN re-run reviews S02E20 where i mentioned how we haven't seen Sam infected by Djinn whereas Dean was already a victim on two different occasions. so if this is where the flash-forward was headed, it would be a good one. I also liked the touch of Eileen's Irish folklore. Not much has been explored here.

Personally, i feel like the perfect Sam-ending happened in S5 already. Sam fulfilled his destiny of being Lucifer's vessel but turned it around. The whole martyrdom arc was beautifully written. Sam sacrifices himself for the greater good, Dean learns to move on without his brother (god, this was so needed). It was unfair but quite how life works!

For S15 ending, i would have loved it to be a bit darker like S5. Maybe this time, both brothers die and they die bloody but their deaths mean something, unlike what happened with Dean. His death seemed very random, i mean out of everything that could kill him, it's a rebar? really? I wanted the ending to be a bit darker for Sam than a happy flash-forward. the "it had to be" had a beautiful ring to it. Don't get me wrong, i do love happy endings but something about Sam dying a martyr death would have been amazing!

Thank you so much for this ask! it was fun to explore different perspectives! Feel free to send me more if you have them :)