#g gary gray

[worldwide-blackfolk]

[ed-recoverry]

List of free audiobooks on YouTube for anyone interested

The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins

Pride & Prejudice by Jane Austen

The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald

Diary of a Wimpy Kid by Jeff Kinney

The Adventures of Tom Sawyer by Mark Twain

Alice in Wonderland

Animal Farm by George Orwell

The Shadow Over Innsmouth by H P Lovecraft

Frankenstein by Mary Shelley

Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky

Hatchet by Gary Paulsen

Twelve Years a Slave by Solomon Northup

Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck

The Village by Caroline Mitchell

The Wonderful Wizard of Oz

Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone (fuck JKR)

Sense & Sensibility by Jane Austen

The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood

Twilight by Stephanie Meyer

Upside Down by Danielle Steel

The Fiancée by Kate White

The Silence of the Lambs by Thomas Harris

Percy Jackson & the Olympians: The Lightning Theif

Accidentally Married by Victoria E. Lieske

I’m Glad My Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy

The Collector (book one) by Nora Roberts

The Lies I Told by Mary Burton

Dead Man’s Mirror by Agatha Christie

The Hobbit

The Taken Ones by Jess Lourey

The Good Neighbour by R J Parker

The Island House by Elana Johnson

Desperation by Stephan King

The Healing Summer by Heather B. Moore

The Last Affair by Margot Hunt

To Be Claimed by Willow Winter

Romeo and Juliet by Shakespeare

The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy

The Inn by James Patterson

Wonder by R J Palacio

Faking It With The Billionaire by Willow Fox

The Lost Years by Mary Higgins Clark

Forrest Gump by Winston Groom

The Janson Directive by Robert Ludlum

The Catcher in the Rye

The Lottery Winner by Mary Higgins Clark

Where Eagles Dare by Alistair MacLean

Death of a Nurse by M C Beaton

Yours Truly by Abby Jimenez

Treasure Island by Robert Louis Stevenson

The Sonnets by William Shakespeare

Frozen Betrayal by Clive Cussler

The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

Line of Fire by R J Patterson

Don’t Believe Everything You Think by Joseph Nguyen

The Remnant by Tim LaHaye

The Magic of Reality by Richard Dawkins

The Secret of Chimneys by Agatha Christie

Payment in Kind by J A Jance

The Idiot by Fyodor Dostoyevsky

The Way of the Superior Man by David Deida

The Game of Life and How to Play It by Florence Scovel Shinn

The Richest Man in Babylon by George S. Clason

To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee

A Marriage of Anything but Convenience by Victorine E. Lieske

The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain

A Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens

The Inheritance Game by Jennifer Lynn Barnes

Ikigai: The Japanese Secret to a Long and Happy Life

Thinking Fast and Slow by Daniel Kahneman

How to Win Friends and Influence People by Dale Carnegie

The Kama Sutra by Mallanaga Vatsyayana

The Wisdom of Father Brown by G K Chesterton

Robinson Crusoe by Daniel Defoe

Robin Hood by J Walker McSpadden

The Poor Traveller by Charles Dickens

Days on the Road: Crossing the Plains in 1865 by Sarah Raymond Herndon

Oliver Twist by Charles Dickens

Atomic Habits by James Clear

I Have No Mouth, and I Must Scream

Trading in the Zone by Mark Douglas

The Art of War by Sun Tzu

The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett

A Short History of Nearly Everything by Bill Bryson

The Return of Sherlock Holmes by Arthur Conan Doyle

The Epic of Gilgamesh

Lord of the Flies by William Golding

A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens

Man After Man

Five on a Treasure Island by Enid Blyton

The Red Badge of Courage by Stephen Crane

Charlotte’s Web

Midsummer Mysteries by Agatha Christie

Out of Silent Planet by C S Lewis

The Valley of Fear by Arthur Conan Doyle

Eaters of the Dead by Michael Crichton

The Murder on the Orient Express by Agatha Christie

The Castle of Otranto by Horace Walpole

21 Lessons for the 21st Century by Yuval Noah Harai

Hamlet by Shakespeare

[fountainpenguin]

130 Reasons Why I'm Fairy Trash

🖤 Off the Rails Collection - Smaller FOP AUs

(August 2016 - Ongoing)

“Hey! Hey! Hey, do you mind? Watch the skin! Did your mother spend so much time writing books on how to raise a kid with bad manners, she forgot to tell you not to bathe your genies? My vest is tetrahydrochloride-wash only. Hey, if this is how you greet your guests, I’d hate to be around when you greet your enemies.” “Did- Did you just say ‘genie’? Like… You mean like the magical kind of genie?” “Ha! Heck no! I mean like the non-magical kind of genie. The cloud was all smoke and mirrors for the tourists, and I’m speaking to you right now from behind the curtain in the land of Oz.”

- A variety of tones, but likely some Angst, Fluff, & Drama

- I don't often write for these AUs because I'd like to wrap up existing projects, but if you see something that interests you, you're welcome to send Asks about it! I have a lot to say even if I haven't posted 'fics

Summary

Works that don't fall under the Cloudlands AU umbrella, and instead belong to less-written-for AUs. Swing by to sample random tastes, just for fun!

Potential for any rating, but these works are most likely G and T

Read these works on AO3

130 Sums | Full 130 Prompt Series (AO3) | Other Arcs

#ridwork guides - All my AU guides (for all my fandoms)

#130 arc guides - More posts like this

More Fairly OddParents 'fics

Only notable AUs have AU guides, but you can ask about warnings or worldbuilding if you like.

AUs at a Glance:

- Reedfilter Rules - A pixie named Thirty-Seven flirts his way up the corporate ladder to seize the Head Pixie position. Meanwhile, the Anti-Cosmo struggles to pick a ruling partner. They're also raising a kid together. Fewer animal instincts, messy fae lore! - Little Imperfections - Pixies with extra eusocial insect biology... H.P. is a figurehead whose life consists of staying home to birth and raise many pixie babies. Sanderson is his caretaker who might be a little too interested in "music" and "fun" for his own good. H.P. is captivated by his stories of "raves..." whatever those are. - A New Wish - Many works related to A New Wish (and New Wish AUs) will likely find their way here. I anticipate a separate polished series that follows a consistent canon, but Off the Rails will hold random one-offs that don't fit there. - King Me - Anti-Wanda was raised in royalty. Anti-Cosmo is some scrub who ran away to Pixie World when he was young. H.P. is desperate to set his two BFFs up. Anti-Cosmo has conversion disorder and can't fly because "it's illogical." Anti-Wanda makes many innuendos. - Pivotverse - Anti-Cosmo and Anti-Wanda are especially cruel towards their son (along with other world tweaks). In Cloudlands AU, this is the alt universe Foop ended up in after "Playdate of Doom" - A.J.'s Puzzles - Timmy considers A.J., not Chester, his best friend during "Fairy Idol," so Norm goes to college with A.J. The multi-chapter for this AU is titled Pulling Your Puzzles Apart after lyrics from the Coldplay song "The Scientist" (It's fully outlined and partly drafted; just haven't gotten around to finishing it) - Red and Gold - A study of Gary and Betty in a world where they meet at the Learnatorium and become close friends as teens, as opposed to their Cloudlands AU lives where they were raised together by the Pixies from age 8 (which I write about in a 'fic called Pink and Gray). Gary still lives with his mom in this AU, which... if you know anything about her, is Very Bad News. - Dust to Dust - My ChalkZone crossover AU, akin to Jimmy-Timmy Power Hour, but with Rudy and friends! I outlined a multi-chapter in 2016 to decide if it was worth writing and I wasn't captivated by it, but it might be fun to write snippets now and then. I still have a WIP of Rudy and H.P. arguing over Rudy being "too busy" to file universal paperwork, haha. - Nicktoons Unite - At the time of making this post, I'm not familiar with Nicktoons Unite, but you never know. - Other FOP Spin-Offs - Works for the Grow Up Timmy Turner & Fairly Odder series, if I ever write anything for them. Ex: Timmy as a fairy, or a Turner family reunion told through Viv or Roy's eyes. And who knows what else!

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"'That's not healthy,' they said, 'to live in your head,' but it hurts a lot less to me ... It's a little bit cliché, but I love it anyway!" (x)

[lara635kookie]

Okay...Not the ship analysis yet but a little snippet of it. To write the analysis I had to think about why I like Red Crackle so much. And I realized one of the reasons why is that they remind me of another ship I also love:

(Warning:Spoilers of both Carmen Sandiego and Spider-Man Into/Across the Spiderverse ahead.)

Yes, they got differences but also massive resemblance either that once you notice, you can't unsee it. It isn't noticeable when you try to compare Gray and Miles and Gwen and Carmen, but once you switch...

Both Miles and Carmen are latino main characters, just that Miles is black and Carmen is brown. While Puerto Rico is a USA territory, in culture terms they share more with Latin America. And Even Miles not being born in Puerto Rico, his puerto rican roots and heritage are clear. 8/B in spanish is nowhere near as bad. As a Brazilian, we speak portuguese, which is a very similar language to Spanish(I myself know a little bit of spanish), but overall, both languages tend to sound very difficult, specially when you're learning in a place that doesn't speak any. Carmen didn't seem to be totally fluent in spanish either since in the Lupe Peligro episode she says her Spanish is getting better. So not fluent, at least in that point in time. Maybe that changes after that so I'll just assume both Miles and Carmen are working on their spanish. Another point is that they are both very smart. Carmen knows her geography and history AND can speak multiple languages and Miles is great at physics AND art, both very different areas from one another. Saying that, Carmen had everything to be a Mary Sue, just like Miles had everything to be a Gary Stu but instead, while they are extraordinary, we also see their weaknesses, flaws and mistakes. On the first two episodes of the first season of Carmen Sandiego and on the first spiderverse movie, we see Black Sheep/Miles Morales transition to becoming Carmen Sandiego/Spider-Man. And on that transition, someone was always by their side...

Both Gwendolyne Stacy(Spider-Woman) (or Gwanda ;) and Graham Calloway(Crackle) have a four letter nickname that starts with G and the protagonist always call them that(Gwen and Gray). Both have a surname that ends with Y. Both are a little bit older than the main character(Gray is two years older than Carmen and Gwen is 15 months older than Miles). Both are trans to a lot of people(I don't actually believe this, I think both Gwen and Gray are cisgender, specially Gwen, because of the comics and because while I think her revelation to her father was made in purpose to resonate and pass as a metaphor for coming out, I believe in the less popular theory that she was an ally and her Peter was actually trans and that is one of the reasons he suffered bullying and Gwen defended him and had that "Protect Trans Kids" poster in her room, this is literally the vibe she passes me:

Some time ago I saw a theory that the relationship of Miles and Gwen was a metaphor for one of the difficulties that interracial couples pass that the most privileged has to learn that the same society system that protects them, won't protect their partner in the same way, and that is shown through the way Spider Society treats Miles and I know there are more black spider people like Hobie and Margo but the parallel still works:he is not being accepted because he is different. The thing is, that theory kinda breaks the trans Gwen theory because if she was trans, sadly, the system wouldn't protect her either. I also don't believe it because of the voice actors. Some years ago, an adult could dub a children if he did the right voice. Nowadays, they cast a voice actor more similar to the character. Like, black characters need to have black voice actors, etc, otherwise they get canceled. And both of the voice actors for Gray and Gwen are cisgender, and I saw people complaining that if the producers wanted to make characters "potentially trans" they should have casted trans voice actors, for both characters. But anyway, I don't mind and respect the people who think they are trans). Both got competition for the other's affection(Gwen has now Spider-Byte and Gray has Ivy, Julia and pretty much everyone you can ship with Carmen in this show, which is a lot of people). Both are the lighter skin love interest not from where the protagonist is(Gray is from Australia and Gwen is from another dimension).

And now with the storyline similarities. Both pairings start as friends, so both lead to a slow burn. Both were an amazing partners in crime duo, working really great as a team, and being just the two of them or even with more people, their connection always stood out. Miles and Carmen never became official members of Spider Society/V.I.L.E. but disagree with them and escape from them to do what they believe is right. Both Gwen and Gray make a mistake and are expelled from Spider Society/V.I.L.E. (Gwen with the portal multiverse dimension go home machine or whatever and Gray by having his memories wiped) and then they realize too late they made a mistake with Miles/Carmen and now have to fix that mistake. Also both Carmen and Miles say "Goodbye Gray/Gwen." in the most DRAMATIC way possible before doing an grand triumphal exit and I love that for them. And the look Gray/Gwen gives them before they leave is THE EXACT SAME LOOK, I SWEAR. So as you can see, both ships leave a room for A LOT of angst and drama. Also just the way they look so fondly at each other and the way both Carmen/Miles and Gray/Gwen look sad when they have to leave or when the other has to leave them says it all. Platonic or not, both couples have an undeniable bond and just work so well together, being as friends, lovers, partners...They are each other's ride or die. They are each other's everything.

(Also just an personal opinion is that both Spiderverse and Carmen Sandiego have the MOST BEAUTIFUL ANIMATION I HAVE EVER SEEN) (Along with the new Miraculous movie) (Ladybug and Chat Noir are also very similar of Carmen and Gray but that's something more noticeable to pretty much everyone, I don't have to elaborate much on that matter) (I've got nothing to say about LadyNoir/MariChat being similar to Red Crackle that hasn't been said before)

The major difference about them is that, while both the Spiderverse movies and the Carmen Sandiego series don't have romance as their main focus, Miles and Gwen will most likely be canon in the films, just like they are in the comics. I think it will be a movie trilogy so they'll probably get together in the third movie(Beyond the Spiderverse in january? Anyway, 2024, save the date). I mean, Spider-Byte is cool and all but she's a game avatar or something so I don't think Miles and her can get together, even if he travels to her universe and decides to stay there or vice versa. They introduced her just now and we barely know anything about her, and Miles and Gwen clearly already have a whole build up story going on with a consistent arc so why mess it up? Besides, I think we need more main interracial couples representation in media. Aside from these two, the only GOOD main interracial couples I can think of are Druig and Makkari from Eternals(I never even watched Eternals and I know they are better than Ikaris and Sersi)(They are also an interracial couple but they clearly don't have the chemestry Drukkari does and Ikaris seems to be kind of a jerk tbh), Ricky and Gina(from HSMTMTS, which I don't watch either but their clips I saw on YouTube are just the cutest thing), Ben and Devi from Never Have I Ever, Daphne and Simon and Kate and Anthony from Bridgerton, and Julie and Luke(Juke) from Julie and The Phantoms(JATP) which is literally an impossible love story since Luke is dead(he's a ghost) and Julie isn't(she's alive) and the series was cancelled(still mad about it and will forever be). My point is:Couples with different ethnicities are not only little but the ones we do have are mostly either impossible to happen, unfairly treated/messed up by writers/not well executed or when treated right, we don't get enough content of them/they are forgotten, in the majority cases, and that needs to change. Anyway...Meanwhile, with Red Crackle, as Carmen Sandiego had a pretty open ending, canon can be whatever the hell you want, and for me is red crackle. That's it. Thank you for coming to my ted talk. Will be posting more "written podcasts" soon.

[penhero]

The summer 2023 Pennant is in layout and production and mail out to Pen Collectors of America members will be mid July.

This is the cover shot:  A later example of Rider’s Master pen in woodgrain hard rubber. The sculpted gripping area indicates that it was made after Rider moved from Rockford, Illinois, to Ann Arbor, Michigan.

This issue is packed with interesting articles:

CARBON FIBER: THE REINFORCER

David Nishimura explains how carbon fiber can be used in pen restoration.

IN THE BEGINNING: ESTERBROOK, PART II

Andrew Midkiff continues the story of a company that made a lasting mark in the history of writing instruments.

THE PENS OF JAY GRAY RIDER, PART II

Douglas Haugen adds to the body of research on the Illinois-based J. G. Rider Pen Company.

A PENCIL “AS GOOD AS THE PEN”

Jonathan A. Veley shares a portion of his award winning book A Field Guide to Sheaffer’s Pencils.

A PULLMAN FROM THE GRAVE

Laurence Oldfield describes his complex restoration of a pen that had been buried for decades.

A RETRO51SPECTIVE

Gary Weimer explores the popularity and collectability of Retro 51.

TECH TALK

NO. 13: PARKER’S AID FOR THE DISABLED WRITER

By Tim Laros and Todd Eberspacher��

ARTISAN PROFILE:

Ian Schon and SCHON DSGN

Let’s Hear It for the Locals:

Vancouver Pen Club by Maja Furlong

You can sample a PDF of past Pennant articles here:

If you aren’t a member of the Pen Collectors of America, you should be!

You can find more information about joining the PCA and subscribing to the Pennant at this link:

[acertainevilcreature]

The weird character alignment chart in ruin

So at the start of security breach ruin there is what looks to be a character alignment chart graffiti one the wall next to more graffiti saying “I spent the night here and lived”

I have not seen anyone talk or theorized about these (and I personally can’t think of any meaning behind it) but I thought it’s be fun to take a closer look and see what names are on it

First of: the chart itself

There are 4 categories(? Idk what to call them) if the chart

“Wizard” (at the top)

“Cryptid” (at the bottom)

“Filled with anxiety” (to the right)

The last one is covered by vanny graffiti but from what I can see says filled with [short word that ends in y] (my best guess is either funny or agony)

Onto the names

There are 7 names that I could find some more readable then others

First (and most notably) is Mike placed between “cryptid” and “filled with anxiety”

Then a name just above Mike with an arrow pointing at the “filled with anxiety” line

It seems to start with a C or a G and end in y, at first it looked like Cassy but the more I looked at it I could see it being other names like Gary Gray or again Casey

Closer to the middle but between “wizard” and “filled with anxiety” is a name partly covered by a broken heart graffiti

It seems to say either Lina or Dina as the first letter is unclear (notable this name has a heart draw in front of it)

Right next to “cryptid” but on the “filled with [obscured]” side is a much clearer name

Cedar

Next is a longer name that I honestly have no idea what it is

It seems to start with a V had a J or G closer to the end and seems to end in sus?? Yet again have no idea what name this could possibly be but it’s right underneath “filled with [obscured]”

Another one that a can’t tell what it is, it seems to start with a G the next letter is obscured and then a g? Then what looks like 3 more letters and who more or less look like E or A

this one is on the “filled with [obscured] side but higher up closer to “wizard”

Lastly is a similar one

I thought it was to smudged but the more I looked at it the more it very clearly said “Lucas”

This one is next to “wizard”

If steel wool has said something like this is just a reference to steel wool employees or something (which I could totally see be the case) and I’m actually just looking to far into it then let me know but for now this is just an interesting observation

[brasilconspiracao]

ETs / Aliens são demônios

Jacques Vallée, um astrônomo, cientista da computação e o maior ufólogo, acreditava que OVNIS não são somente manifestações materiais, mas também sobrenaturais, já que muitos afetados tinham premonições ou outras experiências fora do comum. Os relatos de abdução são iguais aos relatos demoníacos e muitos demônios se parecem com aliens.

Lam, o demônio que Aleister Crowley encontrou, tinha aparência de alien.

Veja abaixo esses links e um artigo sobre Brian Butler, ocultista que teve uma experiência com Lam quando veio aqui pro Brasil.

Agenda alien: O maior engano de todos os tempos

http://aeliteoculta.blogspot.com/2018/07/agenda-alien-o-maior-engano-de-todos-os.html?m=1

O tema sobre alienígenas não difere muito do caminho do ocultismo, na verdade, são praticamente o mesmo caminho, até porque muitos que dizem estar em contato com esses seres são adeptos de práticas ocultistas que envolve rituais de invocação, meditação, etc.

Podemos citar o exemplo de Aleister Crowley, que usou rituais de magia para fazer contato com o primeiro alienígena "gray" conhecido como “Lam” (palavra tibetana para Caminho ou Estrada - sugerindo que a inteligência alienígena é a chave, ou o caminho para a "iluminação")

e também entrou em contato com outro ser chamado Aiwass, que lhe ditou um livro que veio ser a religião da Thelema.

Ao longo da história, os "aliens" (demônios) assumiam aparências condizentes com o imaginário popular da época. As pessoas que geralmente tem contato constante com os aliens são as que praticam religiões New Age.

The Truth Behind Aliens with Gary Bates

https://youtu.be/v56IMrrPKuA

Aliens são demônios:

https://youtu.be/PvVyI7w5_N4

Presidente Ronald Reagan falando sobre alienígenas na ONU:

President Ronald Reagan on an "Alien Threat" at the United Nations

https://youtu.be/MAAHgAuti84

Sam Tripoli on Operation Highjump: Nazi's, Aliens, and Antarctica (Joe Rogan)

https://youtu.be/jn5p-fExsL0

EPISÓDIO COMPLETO: ALIENÍGENAS DO PASSADO - Pirâmides da Antártida | HISTORY

https://youtu.be/aYEhn6ktLwE

No “segundo impacto” do anime Neon Genesis Evangelion, eles fazem referência a esses “alienígenas” da Antártida, esses que na história da série são chamados de “anjos”:

https://youtu.be/okgwEK2Pa-g

Ancient Aliens: Secret Nazi Underground HQ in the Arctic

https://youtu.be/tXPQUsH5OP0

Hitler's Obsession With The Occult | Nazi Temple Of Doom | Timeline World History Documentaries

https://youtu.be/ieXR3L_DLHk

Aleister Crowley entrou em contato com o demônio Lam após realizar o ritual “Amalantrah”.

Artigo que fala sobre Lam e Brian Butler, um ocultista adorador do demônio que teve uma experiência com o Lam quando esteve aqui no Brasil:

Magickal Stories - Lam

https://www.vice.com/en/article/mvpvyn/magickal-stories-lam

When Aleister Crowley was living in New York, doing various magickal experiments in a place on West 9th, he did what’s called the Amalantrah Working. It’s theorized this process created a deliberate channel in ephemeral cosmic influences so that extra-dimensional entities could enter our universe. In short, he likely created a portal for what we know as gray aliens to come visit us.

Eventually Crowley made contact with an entity known as Lam and drew its portrait, and damn if it doesn’t look like the pictures we see of Grays now. (Incidentally, “lam” is the mantra linked to the root chakra, which is associated with survival.) This was around 1917. While there are possibly ancient accounts of extra-terrestrial visitations in other parts of the world, this was one of the first-known Grays to have popped into Western consciousness, although Crowley didn’t explicitly say this.

Crowley introduced Lam for the first time in his commentary on the Voice of the Silence by Theosophy founder Madame Blavatsky.

[...]

When we last left off in our Magickal Stories with Brian Butler , he talked about how his demon-worship experience in Brazil culminated in a Lam visitation. Let’s pick up where we left off…

[...]

Brian Butler falando:

When I was in Brazil, it was related to those events that I explained last time. All of a sudden Lam came up [in my consciousness] and I got a communication that I was to contact it. Years ago, when I lived in New York--close to where Crowley was doing those rituals--I did what’s called the Lam Statement, which is written by Kenneth Grant. He became interested in Lam and wrote a bit of his speculations of what Lam was and his relation to Crowley and how to investigate and contact that entity. It’s a pretty simple operation.

[...]

How would you describe that contact?

It could be like a classic gray experience…. How to explain it? It’s all really strange.

[...]

Yeah. It’s eternal. It’s ancient. And it’s also futuristic. It’s from a dimension that’s beyond what our perception of time is, too. So not only is it not a warm-blooded creature, it’s also transcending the barriers of time and space.

Aliens ou demônios?

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Hey I don't have links myself but re: that post about DuckDuckGo: I've seen a different version of the post with links to the CEO's Twitter where he refuted that (and explained why independent outlets fall lower in results) and I don't think it's true. There are a few reblogs in the notes with links. Also many of the alternatives in that list are Google or Bing clones posing as "independent" search engines to lure in people who are cautious about the big names.

Thank you so much for this info! TBH it's a relief because I've been quite happy with DDG, and I will now be on the watch for poser search engines!

4 notes - Posted June 19, 2022

#4

Tag game!

Thanks to the ever-lovely @akamarykate​ for tagging me! <3 

Rules: Tag nine people you want to know better.

Three ships: Most recently, Jiang Cheng/Wen Qing from The Untamed, but I gotta go with Luke Skywalker/Mara Jade from the Star Wars EU, and Gary Hobson/Toni Brigatti for the longest-lasting ships!

First ever ship: See the above two! They were going on around the same time. L/M probably predates G/T by a year or two, but G/T was more viciously shipped (at first).

Last song: “Queen” by Loren Gray

Last film: Film? Ah geez. I honestly don’t know. I’m going to cheat a little and say “Frozen II” not because I recently watched it, but I’ve had a strong hankering for it so it’s got a 99% chance of being the next movie I watch!

Currently reading: I’m technically in the middle of “Because Internet” by Gretchen McCulloch, but tbh I’ve been reading a metric shitton of MDZS fanfic on my Kindle.

Currently watching: I’m taking a very brief hiatus from The Untamed and just finished up rewatching BBC’s The Musketeers, a.k.a. Man Candy the Series.

Currently consuming: Alyssa’s Healthy Chocobites

Currently craving: Reaching That Point In My Life Where I Regain A Smidgen Of Energy. And also the inspiration to continue some WIP fics!

Tagging: @themoonstarwarrior, @cat-a-holic, @fallynleaf, @threadsketchier, @squirrelasinthewoodlandanimal, @pityen81, @shaelit, @lucife56, @ancientstone but seriously no pressure on the above and loads of encouragement to participate to anyone else! To anyone who wants to play, please just tag me so I can see your answers! <3

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#2

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love! 💖

My sideblog was tagged by @ancientstone and so I decided to post there AND on my regular blog!

Okay, so, I've been writing and not completing fandom stuff since I was at LEAST 16 which means over twenty years now, but I looked through my folder and I *think* these are my faves in no particular order:

1) Sinbad and the Garden of the Hesperides: a Proteus-heavy sequel to Dreamworks' animated "Sinbad: Legend of the Seven Seas" because Proteus deserves ALL THE LOVE dammit! >:[  (currently over 41k words and unposted but stay tuned because I know the first 4-5 chapters are done at least...)

2) The Sense of Her: a FMA Royai one-shot taking place over multiple points in the series, each scene focused on one of the five senses (currently on AO3)

3) Gunslinger: written in a different narrative style than my usual (Old-West stylized omniscient present vs alternating third-person POV) it's a retelling of Roger Corman's (yes, I know) movie "Gunslinger" starring Beverly Garland that is one of my favorite MST3Ks (yes, I know) but still has really good bones to the story (unposted and honestly barely started but still has some damned good lines if I do say so myself)

4) No Miracle for the Likes of Us/Rebirth/Codename:Teen Idol 'Dite: *CHEATER ALERT!* These are _three_ Venus/Kunzite-centric Sailor Moon fics, but are set in the same no-Stars-AU, with the first detailing the fall of Silver Millennium, the second beginning with the Shitennou being revived immediately after the manga's SuperS arc, and the third being a plot line so heavily intertwined with Rebirth that I haven't decided whether or not to make them one big fic featuring Codename as specified interludes o_O;;; (overall size: *drops face into hands* it... it just keeps GROWING... *sobs*)

5) She-Ra: Princess of Power: a massive retelling of the original She-Ra series as a continuation of the Mike Young 200X animated He-Man and the Masters of the Universe series, with each chapter an "episode" (currently a highly disjointed >57k monster, but the first two "episodes” are on AO3)

Tagging @akamarykate @fallynleaf @rhysiana @threadsketchier @adriannasharp and anyone else who wants to participate! Tag me if you reply so that I might properly appreciate your efforts and genius! <3

7 notes - Posted April 3, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Offered Up

Abel you placed the stone in my hands Told me that God prefers innocent lambs Strike hard strike true my own my brother Then He’ll prefer you favored over another

Offer me up

Don’t worry don’t worry my own my brother I’m happy I’m happy my own my brother Release me release me my own my brother

Offer me up

The stone sat heavy and thick in my hands The blood ran heavy and slick on my hands This murder it seemed like a trick on my hands

Who is the victim? Who was the victim?

(inspired by @zelkam’s gifset)

22 notes - Posted March 29, 2022

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In small-town Texas, affable and popular mortician Bernie Tiede strikes up a friendship with Marjorie Nugent, a wealthy widow well known for her sour attitude. When she becomes controlling and abusive, Bernie goes to great lengths to remove himself from her grasp. Credits: TheMovieDb. Film Cast: Bernie Tiede: Jack Black Marjorie Nugent: Shirley MacLaine Danny Buck Davidson: Matthew McConaughey Scrappy Holmes: Brady Coleman Lloyd Hornbuckle: Richard Robichaux Don Leggett: Rick Dial Sheriff Huckabee: Brandon Smith Rev. Woodard: Larry Jack Dotson Molly: Merrilee McCommas Carl: Mathew Greer Townsperson: Marjorie Dome Townsperson: Tim Cariker Townsperson: Fern Luker Townsperson: Jack Payne Townsperson: Sonny Carl Davis Townsperson: Chris Humphrey Mourner: Jesse Lucio Townsperson: Ann Reeves Townsperson: Kay Epperson Townsperson: Ira Bounds Townsperson: James Baker Townsperson: Kay McConaughey Townsperson: Kristi Youngblood Townsperson: Kenny Brevard Townsperson: Margaret Bowman Townsperson: Mollie Fuller Townsperson: Tanja Givens Townsperson: Glenda Jones Townsperson: Travis Blevins Townsperson: Sylvia Froman Townsperson: Martha Long Townsperson: Jo Perkins Townsperson: Reba Tarjick Townsperson: Dale Dudley Townsperson: James Wilson Townsperson: Teresa Edwards Townsperson: Billy Vaticalos Townsperson: Rob Anthony Larry Brumley: Tommy G. Kendrick Townsperson: Pam McDonald Townsperson: Kathy Gollmitzer Townsperson: Cozette McNeely Professor Fleming: Richard Andrew Jones Friend of Deceased: Charles Bailey Mrs. Pebworth: Suzi McLaughlin Mr. Estes: Grant James Mrs. Estes: Juli Erickson Dwayne Nugent: J.D. Young Dwayne Jr.: Charlie m Stewart Lewie: Joe Stevens Esmerelda: Raquel Gavia Church Goer: Amparo García Oil Worker: Toby Metcalf Chainsaw Artist: Doug Moreland Pianist: Edward Ji Guys & Dolls Performer: Jill Blackwood Mel: David Blackwell Kevin: Gabriel Luna Photographer: Deana Newcomb Assistant Director: David Steakley Bank Manager: Peter Harrell Jr. Deputy Sheriff: Joe Leroy Reynolds Truck Driver: Christian Stokes Generator Operator: John Hornbuckle Sheriff’s Deputy #2: Wray Crawford Café Waitress: Margaret Hoard IRS Agent: Charles Allen Eskew TV Reporter: Quita Culpepper Cashier: Mona Lee Fultz Judge: Jerry Biggs Lead Juror: Robert Works Community Theater Group: Chris Barfield Community Theater Group: Taylor Bryant Community Theater Group: Colin Bevis Community Theater Group: Jacqui Bloom Community Theater Group: Joshua Denning Community Theater Group: Ellie Edwards Community Theater Group: Alaina Flores Community Theater Group: Jennifer Foster Community Theater Group: Leslie Hethcox Community Theater Group: Jordan Hill Community Theater Group: Berkley Jones Community Theater Group: Trevor McGinnis Community Theater Group: Mika Odom Community Theater Group: Chell Parkins Community Theater Group: David Ponton Community Theater Group: Gray Randolph Community Theater Group: Rachel Hull-Ryde Community Theater Group: Ian Saunders Community Theater Group: Madelyn Shaffer Community Theater Group: Larissa Slota Community Theater Group: Daniel Rae Srivastava Community Theater Group: Ellen Stader Community Theater Group: Lara Wright Mrs. Senior Carthage Pageant Contestant: Betty Andrews Mrs. Senior Carthage Pageant Contestant: Marcia Bailey Mrs. Senior Carthage Pageant Contestant: Umpy Bechtol Mrs. Senior Carthage Pageant Contestant: Nita Bouldin Mrs. Senior Carthage Pageant Contestant: Nellie Hickerson Mrs. Senior Carthage Pageant Contestant: Jeanette Kloppe Mrs. Senior Carthage Pageant Contestant: Geraldine Miller Mrs. Senior Carthage Pageant Contestant: Sharon Rigsbee Mrs. Senior Carthage Pageant Contestant: Debbie Shaw Mrs. Senior Carthage Pageant Contestant: Flo Weiershausen Mrs. Senior Carthage Pageant Contestant: Gina Wooten Juror: Gary Askins Juror: Ben Bachelder Juror: Meredith Beal Juror: Stacey Bruck Juror: Michelle Briscoe Juror: Lesa Brooks Juror: Gayla Bruce Juror: Brenda Bunton Juror: Kristi Copeland Juror: Jeff Davis Juror: Orion Gallagher Juror: Kenneth C. Liverman Juror: Linda Rudwick Juror: Mary Stifflemir...

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Friday Releases for January 12

Friday is the busiest day of the week for new releases, so we've decided to collect them all in one place. Friday Releases for January 12 include The Beekeeper, Self Reliance, Penalty of Leadership, and more.

The Beekeeper

The Beekeeper, the new movie from David Ayer, is out today.

In The Beekeeper, one man’s brutal campaign for vengeance takes on national stakes after he is revealed to be a former operative of a powerful and clandestine organization known as “Beekeepers.”

Self Reliance

Self Reliance, the new movie from Jake Johnson, is out today.

Tommy receives an invitation to win $1 million by playing a game where he must outwit hunters attempting to kill him. He realizes the hunters can only attack him when he’s alone, but none of his friends and family believe the game is real.

Lift

Lift, the new movie from F. Gary Gray, is out today.

A professional thief and his expert crew attempt the ultimate heist: stealing $500 million in gold from a vault on a plane — 40,000 feet in the air.

Role Play

Role Play, the new movie from Thomas Vincent, is out today.

Emma has a wonderful husband and two kids in the suburbs of New Jersey – she also has a secret life as an assassin for hire – a secret that her husband David discovers when the couple decide to spice up their marriage with a little role play.

The Book of Clarence

The Book of Clarence, the new movie from Jeymes Samuel, is out today.

From visionary filmmaker Jeymes Samuel, The Book of Clarence is a bold new take on the timeless Biblical-era epic. Streetwise but down-on-his-luck, Clarence (LaKeith Stanfield) is struggling to find a better life for his family, while fighting to free himself of debt. Captivated by the power and glory of the rising Messiah and His apostles, he risks everything to carve his own path to a divine life, and ultimately discovers that the redemptive power of belief may be his only way out.

The Night They Came Home

The Night They Came Home, the new movie from Paul G. Volk, is out today.

Based on true events, The Night They Came Home chronicles the ruthless exploits of the Rufus Buck Gang, Native American outlaws who terrorized the Indian Territory of Middle America at the tail end of the 19th century. The combined force of local lawmen and Indian police aim to take down a cold-heated band of fugitives with vengeance on their minds in a western thriller starring Brian Austin Green, Robert Carradine and Danny Trejo.

I Did It My Way

I Did It My Way, the new movie from Jason Kwan, is out today.

As the secretive, complex world of online drug trafficking increasingly targets Hong Kong, the police launch a risky, top-secret sting operation to bring down one of the most notorious drug lords in Asia.

Mean Girls

Mean Girls, the new movie from Samantha Jayne and Arturo Perez Jr., is out today.

From the comedic mind of Tina Fey comes a new twist on the modern classic, MEAN GIRLS. New student Cady Heron (Angourie Rice) is welcomed into the top of the social food chain by the elite group of popular girls called “The Plastics,” ruled by the conniving queen bee Regina George (Reneé Rapp) and her minions Gretchen (Bebe Wood) and Karen (Avantika). However, when Cady makes the major misstep of falling for Regina’s ex-boyfriend Aaron Samuels (Christopher Briney), she finds herself prey in Regina’s crosshairs. As Cady sets to take down the group’s apex predator with the help of her outcast friends Janis (Auli’i Cravalho) and Damian (Jaquel Spivey), she must learn how to stay true to herself while navigating the most cutthroat jungle of all: high school.

Destroy All Neighbors

Destroy All Neighbors, the new movie from Josh Forbes, is out today.

When prog-rock musician William Brown’s worst mistake meets his worst neighbor, Vlad, it’s a killer nightmare come to life.

Penalty of Leadership

Penalty of Leadership, the new album from Boldy James and Nicholas Craven, is out today.

INSANO

INSANO, the new album from Kid Cudi, is out today.

ORQUÍDEAS

ORQUÍDEAS, the new album from Kali Uchis, is out today.

american dream

american dream, the new album from 21 Savage, is out today.

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Coming Attractions January 2024

As usual, we present monthly previews of new movies being released. These are the movies that will be hitting your local cinemas (and streaming services) this month:

January 5th

Self-Reliance (January 3rd) - Jake Johnson and Anna Kendrick star in this comedy thriller, written and directed by Johnson, hitting Hulu this month.

Night Swim - James Wan and Jason Blum cement the merger of their two companies with this supernatural horror film starring Wyatt Russell and Kerry Condon about a haunted swimming pool.

The Bricklayer - Aaron Eckhart stars in this action thriller from the director of Deep Blue Sea and The Long Kiss Goodnight.

January 12th

The Book of Clarence - LaKeith Stanfield is Clarence in this biblical comedy-drama from writer/director Jeymes Samuel.

Mean Girls - Coming this month is the film adaptation of the 2017 Broadway musical based on the 2004 film of the same name.

The Beekeeper - Jason Statham leads this action-thriller from director David Ayer.

Lift - Heading to Netflix this month is this heist-comedy from F. Gary Gray starring Kevin Hart, Gugu Mbatha-Raw, and Billy Magnussen.

Role Play - Kaley Cuoco and David Oyelowo star in this action comedy for Prime Video with a plot almost identical to last month's Mark Wahlberg film.

January 19th

I.S.S. - When war breaks out on Earth, what are the astronauts and cosmonauts on either side of the conflict on the International Space Station supposed to do? Find out when you see I.S.S. starring Ariana DeBose and Chris Messina.

Which Brings Me to You - Lucy Hale and Nat Wolff star in this romantic comedy about two people taking each other on trips down memory lane.

January 26th

Miller's Girl - Martin Freeman is Miller and Jenna Ortega is the girl in this drama about the relationship between a teacher and his most talented student.

The Underdoggs - Nope, the extra G isn't a typo. Snoop Dogg stars in this sports comedy about a former NFL player forced to coach a youth football team to stay out of jail.

Now for a quick look ahead to February my top picks for next month are Argylle and Madame Web.

-MB-

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Antenne Vorarlberg Chillout Lounge (August 28, 2023)

23:55 Super Flu - Mygut (Solomun Remix) 23:51 Sans Souci - Take My Breath Away (Original Mix) 23:45 Coastline - Adriatic Sea (Milews Remix) 23:40 Christopher Von Deylen - Free 23:36 Ac Venture - Rain In Spain (Roberto Sol Remix) 23:30 Vargo - The Moment 23:27 Daniel Steidtmann - Pigeon Lake 23:22 Anrey - We Are The Mirrors (Extended Mix) 23:18 Simioli, Provenzano, Scarlet - Ain't No Sunshine 23:14 Dennis Kruissen Feat. Liza Flume - Another Soul 23:05 Coldplay - Clocks 22:59 The Last Atlant - Twin Of The Sun 22:54 Finland & Aaskoven - La Balbianello (Dosso D'aveto Mix) 22:51 Alok & Timmy Trumpet - Underwater Love (La Vision Remix) 22:44 Rodriguez Jr. Feat. Liset Alea - What Is Real 22:37 Heather Nova - Aquamarine 22:34 Shallour & Riah - Lie 22:31 Bernward Koch - Lonely Dream (Solo Piano) 22:27 Rank 1 - T.t.c. 22:22 Scotty & Wilcox - Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! (Wilcox Extended) 22:20 Blank & Jones Feat. Coralie Clément - Cest Mieux 22:16 Worm Is Green - Electron John 22:12 Sum Wave - Beach Memories 22:07 Mr.da-nos - San Francisco 2k20 22:05 Trentemoller - Moan (Original Mix) 21:59 Kygo & Sasha Sloan - I'll Wait 21:54 Leslie, Ben E, Falki - Help Myself (Original Mix) 21:52 George Geccoo Feat. Maik Pinto - Dolce Vita 21:49 Twisted Harmonies Feat. Mougleta - You & Me 21:42 Royksopp - Sordid Affair (Maceo Plex Mix) 21:34 Hraach - After Dark 21:27 Christopher Von Deylen - Opaque 21:23 Kygo & Selena Gomez - It Ain't Me 21:19 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Good Things 21:15 Dvine - Unknown Reality 21:11 Zero 7 - In The Waiting Line 21:04 Dale Anderson Feat. Anil Chawla - Pimento Grove 21:00 Mefree - Horizons 20:56 Lenny Bizarre - El Viejo Pescador 20:49 Blank & Jones - White Light 20:45 Elmara - Sky In Your Eyes 20:41 Monoir, Eneli - 3 To 1 20:38 Morgan Page Feat. Lissie - Firewalk 20:35 First Aid Kit - My Silver Lining 20:31 Lstn - Undecided 20:28 Nora En Pure - Epiphany 20:22 Gary B - Love Rain Down 20:17 Deep Dive Corp. Feat. Dennis Le Gree - Water 20:14 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Daylight Is Falling 20:10 Jp Juice - Cette Planete 20:08 Christopher Von Deylen - Arco Iris 20:03 Dreamerproject - Horizons (Glenn Main Remix) 20:00 Major Lazer Feat. Dj Snake & Mø - Lean On 19:54 Beyhude - Terso 19:51 Ennio Morricone - L'estasi Dell' Oro 19:46 Tinlicker Feat. Roos Jonker - Come Back Home 19:44 James Carter & Ofenbach Feat. James Blunt - Can't Forget You 19:40 Aromabar - Winter Pageant 19:36 Sono - Keep Control (Artbat Remix Edit) 19:33 Gibbs - Waiting For Lonely 19:30 Klingande - Jubel 19:27 Rene Rodrigezz & Tristan Henry - Let Me Go 19:22 Pete Tong & Tale Of Us Feat. Jules Buckley - Time 19:17 Schiller Mit Moya Brennan - Falling 19:14 Younotus Feat. Chris Gelbuda - When I Think About You 19:08 Nora En Pure - Trailblazer (Club Mix) 19:02 Dario G - Voices 18:58 Golden Tone Radio - Glück 18:52 Wd2n - Sultans Of Swing (Original Mix) 18:48 Above & Beyond Feat. Justine Suissa - Little Something 18:44 Eli & Fur - Come Back Around 18:39 Ancient Astronauts - Until The Stars Go Out 18:33 Rìfìs Du Sol - On My Knees (Oliver Schories Remix) 18:30 Wave Wave Feat. Lena Sue - Repeating 18:27 Blank & Jones With Jan Loechel - Secret Hideaway 18:22 Thomas Lemmer & Andreas Bach - Deep Ocean 18:18 Mandala Dreams - Mirror Lake 18:15 I Will, I Swear - Long Days 18:11 Kyla La Grange - Cut Your Teeth 18:08 Hbz, Anna Grey & Agent Zed - Aloha Hey 18:05 Avec - Under Water (Club Edit) 18:02 Avian Grays & Azteck - Endlessly 17:58 Vargo - Get Back To Serénity (J. Bar Mix) 17:55 Tiësto & Karol G - Don't Be Shy 17:50 Faithless Feat. Nathan Ball & Caleb Femi - I Need Someone 17:47 Karsten Kiessling Feat. Zach Alwin - Live It Up (Peace, Live And Love Mix ) 17:42 Lamb - Wonder 17:38 Lost Frequencies & Mathieu Koss - Don't Leave Me 17:35 Hagen Feetly - Not The One 17:31 John Summit & Hayla - Where You Are 17:27 Thomas Lemmer & Andreas Bach - Embracing Love 17:22 Fluff - Late Night Session 17:15 Mahmut Orhan - Way To Life (Boral Kibil Remix) 17:12 Jeremy Loops - Til I Found You 17:05 Hazy J - Silver 17:00 Atb & Anova - Route 66 16:55 Massive Attack - Protection 16:53 Tiscore - Fire To Smoke 16:48 Eelke Kleijn - Woodstock 16:44 Madonna - Nothing Really Matters 16:41 York - On The Beach (Kryder & Jenjammin Sax Edit) 16:41 Filous - Let It Snow (Original Mix) 16:35 Alle Farben - Bad Ideas 16:31 Blank & Jones - Alone In This Rhythm 16:28 Sum Wave - Milkyway 16:23 Aphrodelics - Rollin On Chrome 16:19 Klangperlenspiel & Puzzls - Kyoto (Wish You'd Move On) 16:13 Blond:ish Feat. Shawni - Wizard Of Love 16:07 Morcheeba - Trigger Hippie 16:04 Hugel - Can't Love Myself (Feat. Mishaal& Lpw) 15:58 Marvin Gaye - Sexual Healing (Kygo Remix) 15:56 Filatov & Karas - Au Au 15:49 Shkoon Feat. Fruiterama - Napauken 15:46 Sal De Sol - Another Chance (Single Mix) 15:42 Avira & Kiko Franco Feat. Nathan Nicholson) - Ocean 15:39 Pulsedriver & Tiscore Feat. Anna Grey - We Are 15:35 Karen Ramirez - Looking For Love 15:32 Armin Van Buuren & Avira - Illusion (Mixed) 15:25 Armen Miran - Nani Jan 15:20 Van Bellen - Morning Awakening 15:17 Möwe - Bad Intentions 15:14 Junge, Junge Feat. Jamie Hartma - Wicked Hearts 15:08 Alex Sail Feat. Al I Bo - Symantec Clime 15:01 Armin Van Buuren & Avira Feat. Sam Martin - Mask 14:57 State Of Sound - Wake Up Where You Are 14:52 Goldfish - Love Everlasting (Extended Mix) 14:49 R3hab, Timmy Trumpet, W&w - Distant Memory 14:44 Rue Du Soleil - La Francaise 14:37 Miyagi, Sascha Braemer, Dan Caster, Jan Blomqvist - Woodpeckers Love Affair 14:36 Antenne Vorarlberg Chillout 14:30 Hraach & Armen Miran - Nowhere 14:27 Nightmares On Wax - You Wish 14:20 Colyn - Lightyears 14:16 Brendon Moeller - Emerging 14:14 Dennis Lloyd - Nevermind 14:11 Mount & Illian - Fool 14:08 Lucy Neville - Shameless 14:04 Calum Scott - You Are The Reason (Tiësto's Aftr:hrs Remix) 13:59 Kid Massive, Yuji Ono, Dtale - Pray (Wolf Krew Remix) 13:56 Klangperlenspiel - Before The Sunrise 13:49 Röyksopp Feat. Susanne Sundførd - Oh, Lover 13:46 Matoma Feat. Jonah Kagen - Summer Feeling 13:43 Tom Tyler - Chewin' The Chew-z 13:36 Beyhude - Rüzgar 13:34 Chris Avedon - The Letter 13:29 Mikael Delta - The Last Storm Of Words 13:22 Atb - No Fate 13:20 Deepend & Graham Candy - Belong (Deepend Edit) 13:16 Schiller Mit Heppner - Dream Of You 13:13 Nora En Pure - Stop Wasting Time 13:06 Monolink - Otherside (Club Mix) 13:02 Jamiroquai - Love Foolosophy 12:59 Blank & Jones - Coastline 12:55 Jazzamor - Song For Maggie 12:52 Robin Schulz - Never Know Me (Radio Mix) 12:50 Rita Ora - You Only Love Me 12:45 Remady & Manu-l - Another Day In Paradise 12:43 Fedde Le Grand Feat. Vince Freeman - Devils 12:40 Hypnosis - Pulstar 12:32 Framewerk - Electric Religion 12:27 Mike Candys & Jack Holiday - La Serenissima 12:24 Chaël Feat Kaii - Don't Speak 12:19 Worldwide Groove Corporation - Besame Mucho 12:15 Glockenbach Ft. Clockclock - Brooklyn 12:13 Klingande & Bright Sparks - Messiah 12:07 Nebu Mitte Feat. Jaselle - With You (Oriano Remix) 12:04 Chicane - Capricorn (Back Pedal Brakes Remix) 12:00 Naomi - Anybody Here? 11:56 Sons Of Maria - Elevate 11:53 Reece Lemonius, Munich Monstrs - Miss You 11:50 Blank & Jones - Wyb (Deeper) 11:46 Chicane Feat. Bryan Adams - Don't Give Up 11:44 Zaz - Demain C'est Toi 11:37 Sans Souci - Seaside (Extended Mix) 11:33 Klangkarussell And Givven - Follow 11:29 Tinlicker Feat. Hero Baldwin - Rebirth 11:24 Chris Malinchak - So Good To Me 11:22 Max Johann & Layrz - Tell It To My Heart 11:18 Tinlicker Feat. Nathan Nicholson - Be Here And Now 11:14 Beatkonexion - Heart 11:11 Vinai - Hide Away 11:06 Boozoo Bajou - Caminoux 11:03 Tiësto & Ty Dolla $ign - The Business, Pt. Ii 11:01 Feder & Ofenbach Feat. Dawty Music - Call Me Papi 10:53 Menachem 26 - Hal (Anatolian Sessions Remix) 10:50 Lstn - Sky & Sand 10:45 Blank & Jones - Sunny (Summer Vibe Mix) 10:40 Massive Attack - Teardrop 10:32 Timboletti - Dhunche 10:28 Edx - Vommuli 10:21 Caf Bar Feat. Sara Allman - Gimme Shelter (Chilled Buddha Session) 10:18 Lucas Estrada & Henri Purnell & Neimy - In My Fantasy 10:15 Mount & Emdey - Venus 10:11 Teri Richardson - Shadows Of My Love 10:08 Felix Jaehn Feat. Zoe Wees - Do It Better 10:01 Electribe 101 - Talking With Myself 09:57 Three Drives On A Vinyl - Greece 2000 (Sebastian Davidson & Melosense Remix) 09:54 Edx & Amba Shepherd - Off The Grid 09:48 Fous De La Mer - Waiting For The Sun 09:46 Sons Of Maria - A Kiss Like This 09:36 Christopher Von Deylen - Heaven Can Wait 09:33 Schiller & Schwarz - Avalanche 09:29 Schiller - Once Upon A Time (Cahill Remix) 09:20 Moby - Too Much Change 09:16 Nombe - Wait 09:13 Sam Feldt & Sam Fischer - Pick Me Up (Vavo Remix) 09:10 Together Alone - Ain't Nobody 09:08 Sans Souci Feat. Pearl Andersson - Sweet Harmony 09:04 Tonenation - Hijo De La Luna 08:58 Jakatta - So Lonely (Blu Mar Ten Mix) 08:55 Kryder & Natalie Shay - Rapture 08:52 Twopilots - Take My Breath Away 08:47 Syntax Error - Träumen Im Gras (Syntax Experience Mix) 08:43 Nora En Pure - World Of Rules 08:39 Moli - Cloud No9 (Montmartre Remix) 08:32 Blank & Jones - Chilled Cream 08:29 Sans Souci - Fenton 08:25 Daniel Portman - Vulnerable 08:23 The Avener - Fade Out Lines 08:19 Maxim Lany Feat. Freya Alley - Anymore 08:13 Twocolors - Together 08:09 Alan Walker Feat. Anthony Keyrous & Henri Purnell Feat. Romy Wave - Alone (Remix) 08:07 Buchs Feat. Nokyo - Cheverolet 08:02 Bissen & The Crossover - Quicksand (Chillout Mix) 07:59 Vize & Tom Gregory - Never Let Me Down 07:55 Kidsø - Finja 07:50 Deep Josh & Jose Rodriguez Feat. Lisa Rose - The Clouds 07:46 Laniia - Fireflies 07:44 Iossa, Ken Holland - The Seed Feat. 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The summer 2023 Pennant is in the mail! Pen Collectors of America members should see their copies starting later this month. This is the cover shot: A later example of Rider’s Master pen in woodgrain hard rubber. The sculpted gripping area indicates that it was made after Rider moved from Rockford, Illinois, to Ann Arbor, Michigan. This issue is packed with interesting articles: CARBON FIBER: THE REINFORCER David Nishimura explains how carbon fiber can be used in pen restoration. IN THE BEGINNING: ESTERBROOK, PART II Andrew Midkiff continues the story of a company that made a lasting mark in the history of writing instruments. THE PENS OF JAY GRAY RIDER, PART II Douglas Haugen adds to the body of research on the Illinois-based J. G. Rider Pen Company. A PENCIL “AS GOOD AS THE PEN” Jonathan A. Veley shares a portion of his award winning book A Field Guide to Sheaffer’s Pencils. A PULLMAN FROM THE GRAVE Laurence Oldfield describes his complex restoration of a pen that had been buried for decades. A RETRO51SPECTIVE Gary Weimer explores the popularity and collectability of Retro 51. TECH TALK NO. 13: PARKER’S AID FOR THE DISABLED WRITER By Tim Laros and Todd Eberspacher  ARTISAN PROFILE: Ian Schon and SCHON DSGN Let’s Hear It for the Locals: Vancouver Pen Club by Maja Furlong You can sample a PDF of past Pennant articles here: https://pencollectorsofamerica.org/pennant/featured/ If you aren’t a member of the Pen Collectors of America, you should be! You can find more information about joining the PCA and subscribing to the Pennant at this link: https://pencollectorsofamerica.org

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I Found You | Lisa Jewell | Published 2016 | *SPOILERS*

In a windswept British seaside town, single mom Alice Lake finds a man sitting on the beach outside her house. He has no name, no jacket, and now idea how he got there. Against her better judgement, she invites him inside. 

Meanwhile, in a suburb of London, 21 year old Lily Monroe has only been married for three weeks. When her new husband fails to come home from work one night she is left stranded in a new country where she knows no one. Then the police tell her that her husband never existed. 

23 years earlier, Gary and Kristy are teenagers on a summer holiday with their parents. Their annual trip to the quaint seaside town is passing by uneventfully, until an enigmatic young man starts paying extra attention to Kirsty. Something about him makes Gary uncomfortable - and it’s not just that he’s playing the role of protective older brother. 

Two decades of secrets, a missing husband, and a man with no memory are at the heart of this brilliant new novel, filled with the beautiful writing, believable characters, pacey narrative and dark secrets that make Lisa Jewell so beloved by audiences on both sides of the Atlantic. 

Alice, a 41-year-old mother of 3, finds a strange man on the beach outside of her cottage during a rainstorm. Concerned, she brings him a coat that once belonged to a tenant of hers, and goes about her day. However, when she returns, she still sees him sitting outside in the rain. Alice offers him food, a drink, a hot shower and a place to sleep, which is thankfully, albeit reluctantly, accepts. 

Unsure of who he is, where he is, how he got there, amongst other things, Alice’s youngest child, Romaine, dubs him Frank. Frank is suffering from what Alice later finds out as memory loss, or of a fugue state. Something traumatic has happened in Frank’s life that has brought on this sudden memory loss, and has led him to the small seaside village of Ridinghouse Bay. 

Back in London, we are introduced to Lily Monrose. Newly married to Carl, a financial adviser, she is becoming increasingly worried after her husband doesn’t return home from work despite having heard from him. She calls him continously, until finally her calls stop connecting indicating that his phone has died. She reports him as missing to the police. Lily, a Ukrainain, has only been married to Carl for a few weeks, and their love story happened quickly. She is young, 21, to his 40 years of age. In a country wher she knows no one else, she is finding it difficult to cope. 

With flashbacks set in 1993 in perspective as well, we are introduced to the Ross family. Tony and Pam, with their two children Gray and Kirsty. Gray, 17, is having a hard time coming to terms with his younger sister’s, 15, growing up. She is blossoming into a young woman. When they meet a seemingly kind stranger on the beach who invites them to his aunt’s posh home on the cliff’s, Mark Tate, 19, Gray struggles as he is thinking there is something off with Mark. They meet Mark’s aunt, Kitty, and Kirsty even goes to the fair with Mark after they agreed to meet up later. Gray follows them, and sees his sister’s first kiss occur before his eyes. But something changes. Kirsty begins to balk at Mark’s advances, and begins to avoid him. Gray tells Mark that Kirsty appears to be no longer interested, but things change quickly. 

After dinner at a pub, Gray is invited back to Mark’s aunt’s house for a small get together with friends from his hometown, including Izzy, who performed at the pub that evening and Gray has taken a liking too. They go back to Gray’s home and bring Kirsty along with them. They find themselves deep in a mix of alcohol and drugs for the first time. They attempt to go off on their own to find the peacocks that Mark’s aunt keeps in the garden, but Mark attacks them, keeping them hostage in a room on the upper floor. Gray and Kirsty fight back, and after stabbing him with a knife he was using to keep them hostage, Kirsty and Gray run for their lives, eventually running into their dad on the beach. However, Mark has also caught up with them and takes Kirsty and throws himself over the edge of the cliff into the sea below. Gray and Tony attempt to find them and rescue them both, but Tony is plagued by a sudden, and fatal, heart attack. 

Gray is found next to his father’s body, his first bought of memory loss occurring as he couldn’t remember who he was, who his father was, or the circumstances that led him there. After days of searching, both Mark and Kirsty are believed to have drowned. 

Frank begins to spend more time with Alice and her children. Jasmine, the oldest, is hesitant to be around him, as he has clearly come from somewhere and may have a life waiting for him, including a wife and children of his own. But, she quickly comes around, as does her middle child, a son named Kai. Romaine has taken to Frank quite quickly, as does Alice’s three dogs. The more time he spends in Ridinghouse Bay, the more he begins to remember, and the more he begins to believe that he isn’t a good person and that he may have killed someone. 

The morning that he is meant to be taken to the police station by Alice, they’re out for coffees when Lily walks in. Having come to Ridinghouse in an attempt to find Carl’s mother whom she has never met but spoke to on the phone, she is looking around for any information she can find. Alice introduces herself, and thinks that this may all be connected somehow. Luckily, Lily doesn’t recognize Frank. 

Derry, Alice’s best friend, hears back from a journalist who reported on the story back in 1993, and they meet. And it all begins to come back to Frank. He is a maths teacher, and during an outing with some of his students for a competition, he saw Mark Tate, long since believed to have drowned 22 years ago. Taking a leave of absence from work, he begins stalking Mark, eventually taking him hostage in the abandoned apartment complex next to his home. It is here that Mark confesses everything: he had attempted to save Kirsty, but was unable to, and that she simply faded away from him in the sea. He called his aunt for help, and he has been in hiding ever since. Frank, turns out to be Graham “Gray” Ross. His anger gets the best of him and the last thing he can remember clearly is strangling Mark before his mind goes blank. 

Lily phones Carl’s friend Russ, who goes to the building but Carl isn’t there any longer. They are back at square one. Lily, Alice, Frank and the journalisst Lesley, go to the white house on the cliff’s where the attack on Gray and Kirsty occurred so long ago. They find an address for Kitty, and they go to her home. She allows Frank and Alice inside, nobody else, and confesses the actual truth: 

She received a call from Mark at 1 AM that morning stating  he had been in trouble. She knew this call would be coming, as he had had a troubled upbringing before being adopted by her sister and brother-in-law. After an incident that occurred with Mark’s older sister’s friend, his parents decided to abandon him at 18, when he began to live with Kitty and her husband. Their relationship was fine, until her husband passed away and Mark thought it was Kitty’s fault. Kitty, growing tired of his antics, was trying to get away from him, but then, Mark met Kirsty and it appeared to be turning around until Kirsty decided that she no longer wanted to be involved. When Kitty received the call, she found him on the beach injured, hypothermic. She also located Kirsty’s body, where she was unconscious but breathing. Mark attacked his aunt at this point, telling her that she needs to get them out of there. Unfortunately, Kirsty died on the way back to Kitty’s homestead. For two days, they expected the police to appear at any given moment, but when they didn’t, Mark buried Kirsty in the garden of the home and Kitty placed a rose bush to mark where she was laid to rest. 

When they meet back up with Lily and Lesley, and the story is retold, Lily decides that her marriage to this Carl, who was never really Carl to begin with, was over. She reports to the police who are working on his missing persons case what has unfolded. When she returns to London, she begins living with Russ and his wife to care for their new baby, and she will continue to take her abroad accounting classes she was pursuing before everything went down. 

Frank and Alice remain close, and he explains to her that now that he has regained his memories, he will be going to therapy and placing himself in an in-patient psychiatric ward in order to figure himself out. They agree to speak when he is able too, and that Alice will attend the funeral they have planned for his sister once he is better. 

At the end of the novel, Alice comes to London in order to bury Kirsty. Frank is happy, though he is now preferring to go by Graham, the person he was always meant to be. He and Alice continue to discuss the potential for them to have a relationship with each other, so long as they can handle each others baggage. It appears that they both can, and a happily ever after for Graham and Alice is in the works. 

Discussion Questions 

1. Before they ever speak, Gray has a decidedly negative impression of Mark. His family chalks it up to jealousy and possessiveness. How big a role do you think those biases played in shaping Gray’s apprehension around Mark? Is it possible to determine when you should trust your instincts and when you are being unfairly prejudicial? How might you tell the difference? I think it was a mix of both instinct and possessiveness. He has watched his sister grow, and it’s hard for anyone, siblings included, to watch your younger counterpart blossom into a young man or a young woman. To see them do things that you yourself want to do, like relationships and sex and intimacy. In this case, Gray’s apprehension of Mark turned out to be for good reason. 

2. Mark reveals his jealousy of Gray and Kirsty when he says, “you live in your lovely, cozy little mummy-daddy-brother-sister bubble. Did it surprise you that Gray’s envy and resentment was reciprocated? Considering what we learn about Mark’s family background, did you feel sympathy for him? Why or why not? I feel no sympathy for Mark, because despite what he had growing up, he was brought into a home that was more than willing to love him and he chose to not accept it. He was close with Kitty, but he blamed her for her husband’s death despite her not having anything to do with it. But, it’s normal for two people to be jealous of the other, to have what the other has. We likely wouldn’t even know, except when being told. I’ve felt jealousy for my friends, for wanting the lives they live. Or even celebrities or people I don’t know. That’s the harmful part of the technology age. Though for Gray and Mark, this was a face-to-face jealousy that turned deadly. 

3. Gray notes that there were plenty of girls on the beach who were, by appearances, a better match for Mark, and who weren’t accompanied by their families. What do you think initially attracted Mark to Kristy? Why was his attention drawn to her rather than other women on the beach? Discuss. If Lily is any indication, Mark appears to like younger woman. Maybe it is their vulnerability or their innocence, but he never seemed to be interested in any one his own age. I think he liked to be the one to take that innocence away from them, which is actually quite charateristic of a psychopath. To want to take something from them that they’ll never get back, but that he’ll get to keep forever. 

4. When asked about how Carl treated her, Lily says “he worshipped me...it’s more than love. It’s obsession. Later, he writes her a letter saying “i love you more than I have ever loved anyone or anything in my whole stupid life.” Do you believe he loved her? Why or why not? I believe he did love her. Mark has the capacity to love and be loved back. But, it’s like he doesn’t know what to do with it once he has received it, or in Kirsty’s case, it was reciprocated. He turns into a crazy person. But, I do believe he did love Lily, otherwise he wouldn’t have gone through the motions with her. Same with his first wife. He wouldn’t have gone through with marrying her if he hadn’t loved her. 

5. After discovering what Frank did before he lost his memory, Alice chooses to forgive him. Would you have forgiven him if you were in her position? Absolutely. Frank’s anger and ultimate kidnapping of Mark was entirely justified in my eyes. Contrary to popular belief in this day and age, I totally agree with people who are the victims in tragedies being allowed to take out their hatred and revenge on the people who have wronged them, only in extreme cases like Kirsty and Gray’s. Kirsty was sexual assaulted, and Gray was there to witness it. He had every right to want to protect his sister’s livelihood, and eventually, her death. 

6. Both Lily and Alice are attracted to men who have done terrible things in their past, and feel on some level they shouldn’t love anymore. In what ways do these two loves parallel each other? In what ways are they portrayed differently frome each other. Compare and contrast, discussing the reasons behind these similarities and differences. They love the people they have come to know, and despite the people that they learn the person they love is. For Lily, she couldn’t handle the fact that the person she ultimately married was a rapist or even capable of doing something that he had done. But, she is smart, and left. For Alice, she is basically me. She believes that Frank had the right to do what he had to do in order to fight for his sister. 

7. When Lily reports her husband’s disappearance to the police, she pretends to understand what a policewoman is saying because she’s already sure this woman thinks she is an idiot. Discuss with your group examples from your own life in which you saw or experienced someone making assumptions about intelligence as a result of cultural or langauge barriers. Have you ever inadvertently made similar assumptions yourself? Absolutely I have. It’s human nature to pass judgement on someone you don’t know. For Lily and the policewoman, the policewoman only sees a young woman who married a man from outside of her country: he an Englishman and she is from Ukraine. It is easy to believe that there was something more sinister there, maybe she was only marrying him for his money, or to gain access to the country. 

And I’m absolutely sure someone has passed judgement on me withotu getting to know me. In fact, people have told me before. A few years ago, I worked for a car dealership, and worked in a tiny office with three other girls. At first, it was just me and my co-worker answering phones, but when it got to be too busy for just the two of us to handle, they brought in extra help. One of the girls told me she was afraid of me because I didn’t seem like a nice person. And it’s true. I come off as someone who is not nice because I’m protecting myself. But, the truth of the matter is, I’m a fairly easy person to get along with, and don’t have that many expectations out of my friends. 

8. In response to Alice offering a lost stranger a jacket, her friend Derry tells her not to get involved. Repeatedly throughout the novel, various characters question whether Alice’s geneorsity is adviseable, or if she is unwisely endangering her family. Did you see her actions as kind, or foolish? If the stranger had turned out to be Lily’s missing husband, would that have changed your ultimate opinion of Alice? Where would you draw the line between being charitable and leaving yourself overly vulnerable? I thought Alice was being kind. She saw someone who seemed to be in peril and wanted to help. And simply offering him a jacket isn’t the worst thing in the world to do. However, they have alluded to problems with men in the past when it comes to Alice, of which she admits. All three of her children have different dads, and some of them have even been criminals themselves, and she knows she is not the best judgement of men in her life, and for the last 6 years, has basically kept to herself. But in this case, Alice finds herself a true gem. He just needed to find himself first. 

9. When Frank is trying to remember who he is, some of his memories are more accessible than others. For example, he is unable to remember to cut a bagel in half before toasting it, but he quickly rediscovers his ability to draw. Which of your memories or talents do you think would remain or be easily regained if you forget who you were? Oh gosh, I’m not sure. I don’t really have any talents to begin with other than being an OK singer. I would hope I was never in the position to lose any of my memories. They’re too precious to me. 

10. Lily unabashedly describes herself as a very dark person. What do you think she means by that? Do you think that is an accurate self-assessment? Do you consider yourself or any of your loved ones dark people? Lily was the most god-awful character until the end. She was brusque and didn’t give a damn about anyone other than herself. I understand she’s in a new country with nobody around. But simple kindness goes a long way for the majority of people. 

11. Frank insists that he is not as bad a person as Mark, saying his actions “makes me wrong, but it doesn’t make me a monster. Do you agree with this statement? Are there circumstances in which revenge - even violence - is justified? If so, where do you think the line should be drawn? How do you differentiate justification and simply the motive for a crime? Go back a few questions, and I actually answered this one. However, I do agree with Frank’s statement. His actions do not make him a monster. 

12. Mark’s aunt says of his parents, they thought they could heal all wounds and make up for all the hurt and unfortunately they were wrong. It was hardwired. Do you agree that there is a ponit in a child’s life when it is too late to heal the effects of trauma, or to rehabiliate selfish and destructive behavior? Whether you agree or disagree, what do you think Mark’s family could have done differnetly to help? No, I don’t agree with this. Do I agree that Mark likely went through something horrible as a child that left him in foster care or the system to eventual adoption? Absolutely. But, what he went through in his past does not give him permission to do the nasty things he did as an adult. Therapy, drugs...there are so many options out there for people who are dealing with traumas of all kinds. Mark could have gotten him the help that he needed, or Kitty could have taken him for the help that he desperately needed, but instead, his parents, Kitty, everyone around him chose to ignore it and hoped it would go away “when he met a nice girl”. Meeting someone and having a relationship with them does not solve the problems. 

13. One of the major themes I Found You contents with is how our memories shape us as people. Are there aspects of our personalities that are innate? Do our memories determine who we are attracted to, as Frank wonders when he questions whether he would have been attracted to Alice if he met her before his fugue state? Are some perosnal attributes more or less impacted by our experiences than others? Discuss. I think Frank and Alice would have been attracted to each other, regardless of his fugue state or not. He was still attracted to her even after his memories were restored, so I have no doubt in my mind if they had met under different circumstances, the end result would have been the same. 

But, I think memories help determine who we’re attracted to, but isn’t the endgame of it all. I’m attracted to my husband because he is strong, independent...something that my mother and father were not. So, essentially, I have daddy issues and my husband is helping to “fix” them, in a way. However, can I be independent without my husband? Absolutely. I’ve done it, in one respect during his deployment a few years ago, and every month and every year when he is away for military duty. It’s a bit harder for me now, as I don’t work and have no means to take care of myself or my children WITHOUT him, but that’s not saying I couldn’t find a way to make it work should something happen between him and I, and he wouldn’t leave our kids high and dry, though I likely wouldn’t be as lucky. LOL. 

But, personal attributes and experiences definitely have more of an effect than others. For me, my own personal traumas and experiences have essentially led me to live the life I live now, and I’m not perfect. But I’m hoping to end the cycle of childhood trauma with my own children, though I myself am a work in progress.