#functional relationships are hard to find in the Deck

[stillxnunpxidintern]

Marco x Afab Reader x Ace

Smut/18+, minor dni or you'll be blocked

(This was just meant to be a fun little mild spicy thing and it turned in to this, I still can't write smut but I hope you enjoy)

You and Marco have been in a relationship for a few years now and with how busy Marco can get with his duties as 1st mate, 1st division commander and doctor, while you work in the 4th division being busy making food, getting to spend together can be a little tricky.

There have been times when you get pulled into a storage closet by Marco to have a few minutes with each other before going back your duties. When Marco works a "little" to much for your liking, you will entice him back to bed or go into his office and sit on his lap, stopping him from working and making him nap.

You have sat under his deck waiting for him to return and when he does, you free his cock and take him in your mouth as you tease him by running your hand and tongue over his cock before suck him, even when someone comes into walk to him you'll keep going. Sometimes he will hold your head to stop when someone is talking to him but you still do your best to tease him like that. When he comes down your throat you swallow it all and stare up at him like a cat that got the cream, as you lick your lips.

Marco always promises retribution when you pull those type of stunts and he always got you back with extras.

The two of you have caught in the act quite few times, you do try to make sure doors are locked or everyone is asleep or night duty, but sometime someone is walking around and happens upon you both.

Both of you always look sheepish at being caught but once whoever caught you is gone, your both right back at it though a little quieter. However if you get caught by Thatch or Izou, though half the time it seemed like Thatch was the one to catch you both, but when they did they will tease you mercilessly and that is the only time when you actually stop, as they won't leave till they see clothed and looking annoyed.

When that happen the phoenix from what Marco has told you, gets slightly possessive over you, which in turn causes Marco to get very touchy with you and snippy at others that only lasted a couple of days.

When Ace officially joined the crew, it seemed that he was always the one sent to find either of you and when he did find you both, there was normally a top and shirt discards on floor while you and Marco were making out with hand groping each other. Ace seem to always blushing and stutter that one of you were needed somewhere. Thankfully he had yet to catch you both in the act, cause you were sure he might just stop functioning if he did.

You teased him about going red when he finds you and Marco, and said that it's okay for Ace to watch as you and Marco were pretty to look at, which just left him redder and made him ignite sometimes.

When Ace was promoted to division commander, the celebration that was held for him was the first time that Ace caught you and Marco in the act in a empty supply closet. He quite tipsy so when he open the door to the closet thinking it was his room, he sees you with your legs around Marco waist as he fucks you hard against wall.

You lock eyes with raven hair man and grinned at him as he made a noise and quickly slams the door shut, shouting his apologizes which made you chuckle as you whisper something to Marco, making him laugh before calling you dirty and claiming your mouth as he snapped his hips forward getting a moan from you.

The following day when Ace saw either of you, his face went red and avoid looking at either you. Thatch picked up on that and asked if you traumatised him, but you shrugged and told him that Ace walked in on you both so it not your fault as you were in empty supply closet away from people.

It took about a week for Ace to look at you both again while speaking but there was still a little redness on his cheeks though.

You and Marco had been to watching him more and whispering to each other, usually when he sparring with some of the crew.

Lying together in bed one night, Marco tells you that the phoenix is starting to coo whenever he see Ace now, just like how the phoenix used and still does coo when you're around. He mentions that he want to kiss the younger man as well. You told him that you also want to kiss Ace and possible more, wiggling your eyebrows.

Marco chuckled as he said that phoenix knew how to pick people and talked about the best way to branch this topic to Ace.

However before either of you could talk to Ace about it, you were dealing with an attempted murder.

You were spending the afternoon fishing with Thatch when your commander reeled in a chest. Your surprise turned into giddiness as you shook him and told him, it had to be a devil fruit what other reason would a chest be floating in the sea for.

When he opened the chest there was indeed a devil fruit in it and you were so pleased with yourself for guessing correctly, as the two of you headed to Pops to inform him. As Thatch had found found it, it was his to do what he wanted with.

He said he was going to find out what it was first and then decide if he wanted to eat it or not. After that the both of you headed to the kitchen to begin cooking dinner, as the others had done the prep work for dinner.

Dinner was chaotic as normal and the whole time you and Thatch were talking about the devil fruit, the pros and cons. You ponder about what power it could offer and teased Thatch that it probably be some lame power just like him. Thatch decided that you were doing the dishes on own your own for that comment.

You gasped at him, telling him that he was overacting as you were only teasing and it was completely unreasonable to leave all the dishes to you. He just told you that you should of thought of that before calling him lame.

Once dinner was over and you had also eaten, Thatch left you to the dishes, you grumbled the whole time and swore you weren't gonna help him the next time reports were due, that will teach him.

When done with dishes, and making sure the kitchen was clean and tidy, you were looking forward to standing under the shower and getting rid of the sweat and grime from the day. You headed out on to deck to see if Marco might be out there but he wasn't but you did see Thatch hold his devil and notice Teach walking up behind him.

However something felt wrong and a voice was screaming in your head to move. You were moving before you even saw the knife in the Teach hand and screamed out Thatch name, which made him turn to face you and see Teach about to stab him.

Thatch was stabbed badly and you were able to reach him before Teach went to stab him again. You had grabbed one of the knives that your commander always had on him and used it to defend yourself and Thatch with. Teach went to grab the devil fruit but you were closer to it and without thinking you threw it overboard, which made Teach screamed out in anger as he looked at you with rage in his eyes as he pulled a pistol out and shot you point blank in the shoulder.

Thankfully all the commotion happening, had the deck filled with the crew as Teach was quickly subdued and hauled off to brig to be held till his fate was decided. Even though in agonising pain you turned to Thach and put pressure on him wound, telling him to staying a wake as only lame people died.

He gave a pained chuckled as he said he must then lame, and you pushed down, making him wince more and told him he ain't allow to die. A voice next to you repeated that sentiment as you saw Marco, looking over Thatch as he tied a quick bandaged the wound so that he could pull your commander up and carry him with to medical, with Izou helping.

Once everything began settling down, as much as they could given what had just happened, you lent back against the railing as you process that Teach had tried to kill Thatch over a devil fruit. There was movement next you which made you look and saw that Ace was sitting next to you.

You lent against him and placing your head on his shoulder, as he asked if you were okay and you told him that you were doing better than Thatch but would need to go medical at some point, as being shot point blank wasn't fun. Hearing that made Ace panic as he stood up and try to drag to you there but you slap his hands away, telling him that Marco and the nurses need to focus on Thatch first then you would go as you weren't bleeding out. You had picked up a few things over the years from being with Marco.

Ace didn't looked convinced but didn't say anything and just followed you around. A couple of the commanders asked what had happened so you gave a brief account of the incident and they told you go to medical and you waved off their concerns.

It was only after you saw one of the nurses and got news on Thatch that you headed to Medical with Ace still following behind worried that you still might pass out as the left side of of your top was covered blood.

Upon entering medical Ace left, knowing you would be looked after now. You saw Thatch asleep on bed hooked up an iv but you were just glad that he was alive. One look at you and Marco was dragging you over to an empty bed and he ripped off your top, discard the blood soak top on the floor and looked at your shoulder.

As he treated the wound, he softly scold you for not getting it treated sooner or say anything about it when he arrived, there were a few choice words but you didn't take any to heart as you knew he was just worried about you and Thatch, and given Thatch was asleep you were getting it all.

Once he was finished and had bandaged your arms up, using some of his phoenix to help with the pain then put your arm in a sling as he knows what you're like and knows that you will use it if he doesn't put it in a sling.

Marco looked at you and then at Thatch before the tension in his shoulders released as he rested his forehead against your, pulling you close against him and heard a soft coo. You told him that everything was okay and that was not the answer give, as he looked down at you eyes flashing blue and you knew that phoenix was not happy either.

He gave Thatch a quick once over before telling one of the nurses to come get him if anything changes and dragged you to the bedroom. He knew fucking you isn't the greatest idea but he needs something tangible. He fucked you roughly against the door, mindful of your shoulder, before moving to you bed and ate you out, making you cum a few times before having you ride him and coming more till you were begging no more as you tapped out, as you were overestimated and exhausted.

When Marco stopped and let you rest, he held you close almost as if you would disappear if he let you go. The following morning his and the phoenix anger was still simmering under the surface and watching Teach during his trial, made that anger start to boil but kept his composure as Pops commend Teach for his traitorous ways.

He was placed in sea-stone cuffs and forced to eat a devil fruit from storage and then lowered into the sea, letting the sea claim him.

Both you and Thatch joked that him being lame was what saved him cause if you hasn't called him lame, he wouldn't of put you on dish duty and wouldn't of come out at the right to help save him. Marco on the other hand didn't find this funny when he heard.

So with Thatch out of commission and you semi-out of commission, the meal times were even more chaotic than normal, you tried to be in the kitchen and help out but phoenix and Marco by extension was refusing to help you out of his slight and there were few people that he was trusting to be around you at the moment.

Ace was one of the main people he trusted to be around you as the phoenix was still cooing when he saw the fire user. Ace had apologised many times to you and Thatch even though you had both told him it wasn't his fault, everyone was blind to Teach's true nature.

It took over a month before you and Thatch were back on duty together, even though Thatch was still on light duty for a couple of more weeks. You had noticed that the phoenix was still more present, what didn't happen much as normally it would settle down after things went back to normal, and cause of that it meant Marco was still being over-protective and marking you.

If you're on dinner/late shift he would waiting for you at the end, and this particular night Marco pulled you into the shower room as he peeled you out of your clothes and under the spray of water with his hands wandering over you, groping your chest as his hand moved downward and his fingers entered you, teasing you as his thumb rubbed your clit in a small circle making moan out his name, making him go faster as curled his fingers hitting the right spot and making you cum with a cry.

Marco held you close as you came down from your orgasm with him peppering your neck with kisses. He then push you up against the tile wall as he rubbed the head of his cock up and down your slit making you moan as he filled you up.

He started off going slow before setting a faster pace making you moan louder and telling him to go hard. Marco then began pounding into you as you reached a hand down and rubbed your clit, bringing you closer to your 2nd orgasm as you started clench around Marco cock and soon you were coming for a 2nd time but Marco didn't slow as he began to chase his own releases.

There was noise behind you causing you both to pause in your activity, as you looked behind and saw Ace standing there, staring at you and Marco. While he staring Marco snapped his hips forward making you moan, making Ace goes red in the face as you breathlessly asked if he wanted to join.

He looked wide eyed as he made another noise and quickly left the shower room, so both of you went back to fucking as Marco went harder and faster again, which started the build up another orgasm and when you came for a 3rd time and clench around him, making Marco come.

You were both breathless as he pulled out and could feel his release dibble out and down your thighs. Marco pulled you up and held you close as he began kissing you softly then started washing your hair. Feeling his fingers in your hair made you sigh as you lent you against his chest.

When finished washing each other and back in your room cuddling on the bed you both talked about Ace, as you hadn't been able to talk to him about a certain topic with what had happened. The phoenix cooed when you talked about Ace and you called it a greed thing, which made Marco eyes flash blue as he claimed your mouth and said he was pirate, he was always greedy and wanted more.

Trying to talk to Ace was harder than either of you expected cause as soon as he see you or Marco coming near him, he quickly escape and goes off somewhere. It took a few days but you were both finally able to speak to him, as he came into Marco's office with reports from his division. While in the office he kept avoiding both your gazes but you were going to use this opportunity to talk to him.

You managed to coax Ace to come and sit next to you but he still looking at the floor, so told him that you and Marco have been talking about him, about having him join you both for one night at least if he wanted a threesome.

That caught him off guard as his eyes darted between you and Marco, his face going red at the offer and unsure of what to say or do, wondering if he was being pranked as he stuttered but no word were actually said, before asking What.

Marco spoke this time, asking Ace if he wanted joined and have a threesome with him and you. He asked if he was being pranked or if this was a dream, so you reached over pinched his arm telling him that it wasn't a dream or prank, and that you were offering him a threesome at least once and see how it went from there but it was completely his choice and there was no time limit on it.

He nodded his head at that and quickly left the office lost in his own thoughts over the offer. You walked over to Marco and held his head against your chest, fingers in his hair as he gave a soft sigh. It was all up to Ace now if wanted to join or not.

It was a few days when you were in the kitchen, chopping up vegetables, when Ace approached you looking bashful as he asked to talk about the offer. You smiled at him and said you would later on with Marco and will answer any questions he may have. He gave a nod and said he'll see you later.

You were grinning to yourself the whole time as you worked away. Thatch seeing what kind of mood you were in and decided not to ask why, he rather not know more about your sexual activities than he already knew.

Once finished with your shift, you went in search of Ace and when you found him link arms with him and went to Marco office knowing he would be there working on paperwork. Entering the office you grinned at your blonde lover as you pulled Ace in and closed the door.

He raised an eyebrow at you before smiling when saw Ace and pushed away from the deck and leant backward in his chair as you sat on the deck while Ace sat on a chair looking at you both. He tentatively asked why you offered him a threesome.

You and Marco told him how it came be, that the phoenix would coo in a certain way every time it was saw Ace, and the only other time it cooed like that was with you and the phoenix was still cooing like that with you. Then Marco told Ace, that him and you have talked about wanting to kiss him and that lead on to talking about branching the topic to him about joining you but then the Teach incident happen and put that on hold.

When he caught you both fucking in the shower, you knew it was time to branch the topic having a threesome if that all he wanted. Ace just stared looked at you both and asked what else you wanted from this as he thought it was a one time-thing. You let Marco take this one as he started to explain that the phoenix wanted Ace the same way it wants you, that it really wants Ace to join.

However both Marco and you knew that while the phoenix wanted it, doesn't mean that Ace wanted to join, hence why you were offering the threesome and who said it had to be a one time things as they were open to more threesome if that is what Ace preferred than joining the relationship.

You let all the information sink in and let him think over everything you had just said as you moved off the deck and around to Marco, sitting on his lap. His hands were rubbing your thighs as as you both watched the younger man lost in his own world thinking over everything.

Marco called his name after a few minutes, which made him look up and the first thing he asked is why you wanted him. That caught you off guard before asking why wouldn't you want him. Ace asked again why when there were clearly better people than him you both could chose from.

The ways he said it had you standing from Marco lap and moving over to Ace before taking his face in your hands in seconds. You told him just how amazing he was, that he's one of the most hard working crew member you had seen and always willing to help anyone that needs it. He was also sweet, funny and handsome so why wouldn't either of you want him, Marco agreed with what you said.

He looked so stunned at what you had just told him, as he was expecting something else to be said to him. You smiled gently at him and told him again, that you both wanted him but it was his decision in the end on what happens. He gave a little nod and said he need to think about some more and speak to you both when he has an answer.

You and Marco watched him leave lost in his own thoughts once again and hoped he had all the information he needed to make his choice. Wandering back on your lover and kissed him hungrily as his hand rested on your hips. You pulled away and grinned cheekily saying that he needed to get on with his paperwork before twirling away from his hold and blew him a kiss before leaving the office.

There was a groan from his office that made you giggle, you loved riling him up it was so fun especially when you could do it go easily. You headed back to the kitchen to annoy Thatch for a while as there weren't anything else that need your attention.

When Ace came to his decision, he found you both in Marco office as you were straddling the blonde on his chair, kissing him greedily while Marco had his fingers kneading your ass cheeks. Ace watched the two of you before asking if you two were always like. You turned to look at Ace with a grin and told him how could you not when Marco was so attritive and sexy, it was just impossible keep your hands off him.

Marco kissed your neck at that before taking his hands off your ass and moved you around, so you were sitting in his lap and looking at Ace, who closed the door and stood in front of the deck. It took him a couple of moment before saying he wants the threesome and anything else you might offer him.

You smiled brightly at him using your finger to tell him to come over and when he was front you of both, you got Ace to lean down and kissed him, what startled him for a second but returned kissed. You were grinning when the kiss finished and said not to forget Marco, so he lent over to the blonde commander and kissed him as well.

The look Ace had after both kisses was so pleasing to see and you were looking forward to seeing his face when he came undone.

You wiggled around in Marco lap getting comfy, earning a groan from the blonde as he held you tightly to stop you from moving any more and that made Ace laugh. Marco looked at the younger man and asked how he come to the decision of joining.

That got Ace going red in the face as he admitted that the image of you two fucking in the shower wouldn't leave his mind and had even jerked off a couple of times to that image and then after talking about the threesome he couldn't that image out of his head and knowing that there could be more than just a threesome was also something he wanted.

Hearing Ace give his reason made you happy and knew Marco was from the faint coo he was doing into your neck. You told him you could give him plenty more images that he could jerk off too, not that he's gonna to need to with you and Marco around.

The three spoke for awhile longer, making double sure that this is what Ace wanted, that he's allowed to change his mind at any point and that leaded on to telling him that he'll need a safeword, as you & Marco explained how you use a system of red, yellow and green. That red means stop, yellow is pause and ease up and green was all good, and that if he unable to speak then two taps anyway is slow and three taps is stop.

Ace nodded along with everything that was being told to him and said that 'windmill' was his safeword. It was decided to wait a few days as that when you all had the evening free baring any emergencies. Over the following few days you had a spring in your step that Thatch once again picked up on and asked what happened, and immediately said nope doesn't want to know, when he saw the glint in your eyes and knew what it meant.

When the night arrived, you had made sure that Marco was at dinner with you and Ace, making them both sitting opposite you that you used as an advantage and took turns of running your foot up and down their inner leg, toeing their groins which made them both shoot you a look as Marco grabbed your foot the next time you did, telling you to behave but you just smiled and used your other foot to rub his groin so he let go of you foot and promised you would pay so you pouted at him and looked at Ace, asking if he would let Marco get you but he held his hands up and said it was between you two, which made Marco smile at you.

After dinner it didn't take long before the three of you were back in the cabin that you and Marco shared, with the door lock not wanting to be interrupted. You reminded Ace of the colours and safeword, before asking if he was sure he wanted this and he nodded saying that he did and that he remembered colours, so hearing that you pushed him on the bed, straddling his lap as you kissed him with your hands going up his cheat and neck as they went into his hair, pulling him closer to you.

His hands rested on your ass so you grinded your hips down him, slowly earning a little groan from Ace which made you smile as you pulled back to look at him. As you busy teasing Ace, Marco took this chance to pull your top and bra off, freeing your breasts as he squeezed them and rolled your nipples behind his fingers, drawing a moan from you that Ace swallowed.

Pulling your hands from Ace hair, you reached for Marco but he took hold of yours and held them behind your back with one hand, making you arch your back as he lent down and kissed you. With Marco claiming your mouth, Ace took one nipple in his mouth as sucked, pulled and bite down gently getting more moans from you as he swapped to the other nipple and repeated it.

While you were occupied by Marco, Ace took the moment and pulled off your shorts and underwear off in one go, he kept his left his hand on your ass while using his right slipped between your legs and ran his fingers up and down your slit making you moan Ace name as you buck your hips. Two fingers slipped into your needy little hole as he slowly pumped them in and out.

Marco pulled you from up from Ace, making you whine at the lose of his fingers but quickly shhed you as he turned you around in Ace lap, so your back was against his chest and looking at Marco. You were level with your blonde lover crotch and hooked your fingers around his sash and pulled him closer before throwing it away and then pulled his trousers down, licking your lips at his cock as you lent forward and swirled your tongue around the head, making him grunt as his grips your hair.

While teasing Marco, Ace slipped his fingers back into you pumping them faster making you moan, as you ran your tongue over his shafted before taking him in your mouth, bobbing your head up and down, having Marco call your name with a grunt. Ace slipped another finger into you and pumping faster as his thumb rubbed your clit, making you shudder and moan.

The faster Ace was thrusting his fingers the faster you bobbed your head and the same with if he slowed his pace. You were soon begging Ace to go quicker as you getting so close to your orgasm and knew Marco was as well with how tight he was holding your hair and how much he huffing. Ace curled his fingers and hit the right spot causing you cry around the cock in your mouth as you came, which then triggered Marco and you swallowed it all.

You released Marco cock and lent against Ace as you catch your breath and made a noise when he slipped his fingers out and went to clean them but Marco grabbed his hand and clean his fingers, sucking each of them clean earning a groan from Ace. Once you had your breath back you stood up and looked at the younger man, telling him to lose the shorts as it his turn now.

Once his shorts were discord somewhere in room, he was pushed down on the bed and you claimed his mouth, while Marco took him in his mouth and began running his tongue over cock, making Ace moan and huff what you enjoyed. Marco released Ace as he pulled you down and so you were straddling Ace hips as he rubbed the head of the cock up and down up your slit a few times, drawing out moans from both of you before letting you sink down on the cock, that filled and stretched you.

You let yourself adjust for a few moment before you began to move your hips slowly and Ace placed his hands on your hips. Marco was prising you both for being so good as he placed kisses along your neck. He moved away and went to the bedside table and took the lube out, while he was next to Ace he lent down and kissed him then called him a good boy before coming back to you.

He covered his fingers lube as he then worked his fingers in your back hole and began stretching it before coating his cock and eased himself in you making you breath heavily till he was seated in you and by the seas you never felt this full before. When you felt ready you told them to start moving and feeling them moving in sync rubbing against each other, as one in and one out felt amazing as the build up to your second orgasm was coming quick and with a rough thrust from Ace, hitting the right spot that had you coming and crying out as you laid down against Ace as you caught your breath again, and felt a hand stroking your hair and looked to see Ace smiling at you.

When you were ready to go keep going you pushed yourself back up and Marco pulled you against him with one hand pressed against your chest as they both started moving again and this time taking long slow strokes before doing quick rough stroke. Marco was kissing along your neck as his other hand reach between your leg and rubbing your clit, making you clench around Ace which made him groan as he gripped your hips harder.

Marco started going harder and quickly which meant so did Ace, and with your clit being rubbed quicker, you could feel the impending 3rd orgasm start to build but Marco told you that you weren't allow to come until after both him and Ace had, causing you whine as both holes clenched around them. They went back to doing slow long stroke and till you were begging them to go faster.

They both started to move more as they started chasing their own release, slamming harder and faster in to you as Marco fingers was played with your clit making you clench and beg more. Ace came first gripping your hips keeping you against him as he filled you up and you moaned at the feeling. Marco was holding you tight against his chest now as he began coming and filling you up once again.

That when you were told you come as Marco rocked in to you while adding more pressures to you little bud making you moan more as you were close and needed a little more. You begged for a more and Marco bite down on your neck and gave just thrust, that gave you what you needed as you came with scream.

It was quiet apart from the heavily breathing from the three of you, Marco recovered quickly what was normally cause of the phoenix abilities and gave short thrusts, Ace respond to by giving his own short thrusts as well as fingers still playing with you, but it was too much at the moment so you gave Marco arms three taps.

That stopped him immediately as he moves his fingers away and looked at you, asking if you were okay were and you nodded yes, he then asked if you break for now and you nodded again. He pressed a kiss into you hair as he gently pulled himself out and then pulled you off Ace. You made a little whine at the lose but was promised that you would be filled again later, the night was still young.

You could feel their cum dribbling down your thighs as you were laid down next to Ace, who was sitting against the headboard now and pulled you into his arms. Marco returned with a wet cloth and glass of water that handed Ace and who made you drink some, as he cleaned the mess between your thighs before sitting on the edge bed, stroking your hair.

There was a warmth at your nether regions as the discomfort disappeared and you looked down to see the healing blue flames of the phoenix. You got asked how you were feeling and told them that you feeling better but still wasn't ready for more yet. Marco told it was okay and prised you for doing so well and taking them both. You preened a little at his words as you lent up and kissed Marco, it was gently loving kiss and pulled away, smiling at him as you turned Ace and softly kissed him as well.

When you were ready continue on the rest of the night was spent going at it like bunnies and you were so glad that Ace was here now given how quickly Marco could recover and how many rounds he could go before he was sated, as much as you love the phoenix abilities you also disliked them sometimes.

The following morning even after the healing flames, your body was still sore as well as still being covered in bite marks and bruises from fingers, it was just your luck that both men enjoyed seeing you covered in marks they've made a little to much. Your legs still felt shaky when walking or even just standing for awhile, so they would picked you up and just carry you around the ship with everyone teased you. You were envious of both devil fruit users as at the moment it seems liked they hadn't spent the night fucking away.

Pops upon seeing how they were carrying you just laughed, he knew what you and Marco like but knowing that Ace had apparently joined the relationship, he smiled and congratulated you the three of you before asking when he was gonna get his first grandchild.

You nearly choked on air when you heard that and glared at Pops for saying but he just laughed saying an old man can hope. There was whispers going around you after that and you knew what they were, as just you knew about the bet that the crew had going about you and Marco given how often you fuck and how long it be before you get pregnant, that bet had been going on for a good few years now and still nothing but now Ace had joined the crew was talking about the bet again.

Pops was getting blamed for this and you told him that as you pout at him but he still just smiled and said he got good money on you, just like the rest of crew did. An arm curled around you keeping you still as hand covered your mouth as you started ranting. Your blonde lover whispered to you to be a good little birdy and behave or else, in a tone that made you shiver at the connotations of his words so you did.

You heard snigger coming from next to you and saw that your own commander was grinning and chuckling at you, the urge you to tackle Thatch to the ground was so hard to resists but you did, mainly cause you had an arm around you stopping but you gave him a look that promised payback.

True to the look you gave Thatch, you got your payback a few months later, taking your time and luring Thatch in to a fake sense of security. You set up the prank for him in the kitchen that would go off without you being in the kitchen but you made sure to be close by to hear his shrieks what was music to your ears and walk with a spring your step and a grin on lips, that when your heard your name being yelled and you legged it.

While avoiding Thatch you run by Ace and grabbed his hand, dragging him with you as Thatch was still yelling your name. You made it to Marco office, that was safe space, and pushed him into the current empty office and shut the door. Ace asked what you did but you just smiled at him as you made him sit on one of the chairs in front of the desk and got down on your knees.

Ace eyed you suspiciously but didn't say anything as you undid and pulled his shorts down enough that allowed you to pull his cock and you licked your lips but you looked at up at him and he gave a little nod. With that you lent forward and you took the head in your mouth, swirling your tongue around it and then ran your tongue up and down the shaft a few times before taking the head back in and started to bob up and down as Ace put his fingers in your hair.

You started to bob faster and taking more of him in, tongue swirling around the shaft when you slowed for moment and could hear the soft grunts from Ace. You looked at up him to see his eyes were closed but his grip tightening on your hair, roughly forcing you to take more as he hit the back of your throat as he got closer to coming. You added to a hand to help and gave a little hum and just as he came a few moments later the door to the office open as you opened your mouth as you swallowed his cum.

All you heard was the shout of why is it all me from your commander, you licked your dark hair lover cock clean before licking your lips clean as you looked up at Marco and Thatch smiling at them as you stood up and Ace tucked himself away. Marco pushed Thatch out of the office and said that he'll deal with it and speak to him later after. With that Marco closed the door and locked it as he looked at you, as you smiled at him there was flashing of blue in his eyes that told you that you were in trouble but getting Thatch back was worth it not you were saying that outload, you didn't need to add the punishment you were gonna get.

Marco walked over to you placing his forefinger and thumb under your chin, forcing you to keep looking at him as he eyes were still flashing blue as he spoke slight growl saying that maybe he should help some of the crew win the bet, by having him and Ace start breeding you so you finally got pregnant, so that you might actually learn to behave and would cause less trouble being unable to move quickly while you swollen with child.

A shiver went through your body at that thought and soft moan escaped your lips at the image of being with child after being fucked and bred by them entered your mind. That seemingly was the right answer as Marco called you a good little bird while felt Ace come behind and placed his hand on your stomach and said how good of Mama you would be as he placed kisses around your neck.

You just completely surrounded to both men in that moment and let them fuck and bred you all night long.

None of the crew saw any of you till the following afternoon and when did, you were being carried around again as you had no energy and how you looked said you had been completely and thoroughly fucked while your brain was mush at the moment. Both men whispered prises and sweet nothings in to your ears and gently touches across your stomach at times when no looking.

Thatch asked when he was getting his cook back and Marco gave his usual lazy smile and said you should be fine tomorrow but who actually knew as you might still be tired or have no energy. The 4th division commandeer muttered under his breather that the three of you were all as bad each other as he walked away.

[starsinkpop]

ATEEZ Song Mingi Tarot Reading - Future Spouse

Disclaimer: I do tarot readings for fun, so please read them with a grain of salt. Don’t take my words too seriously and just keep an open mind. Tarot is a divination tool that can’t predict the future, as every single individual has their own will and makes their own decisions. Tarot should be seen as a guidance and a good friend that just has your best interest and gives you advice when needed. I’m not putting anyone in my readings on a pedestal nor am I trying to harm anyone. One last side note, I’m not a native speaker, so please excuse any wrong spellings or poor grammar.

Date of Reading: October 19th 2023

Decks: Ethereal Visions Tarot, Dreamscape Oracle, Romance Angel Oracle, Love Oracle, island time wellness love Oracle, Angel Answers Oracle Cards

Seven of Swords, Queen of Wands, Five of Cups, VI The Lovers, XXIII The Artist (R), XV The Devil

Mingi’s fs is very clever and ambitious

they can be quite nosy, kind of being in everyone’s business and sometimes having a hard time minding their own

I don’t know how to explain but it feels like they kinda enjoy everyone else’s drama and could also kinda cause some drama just for the entertainment

this is someone who’s quite daring and brave and will go for their dreams no matter what

they like adventures and get easily bored

this seems to be someone who’s more on the extroverted side

their laugh is contagious and loud

this is also a very proud individual

I’m getting bad bitch vibes in the most positive way

like, they stand up for themself, know their worth and won’t take anyone’s bs

because of that they can be quite hard to please

could be a Leo or have some Leo placements in their chart

I feel like they have a very prominent light and sweet side but also a pretty dark and extreme side

very caring and loving, but that could easily turn into obsession

they generally seem to easily obsess over people and things, but should definitely keep away from alcohol and drugs

they don’t trust people easily

they have this confident energy and seem like nothing and no one can stop them but at the same time they often regret certain decisions and actually have internal fights with their own insecurities

that’s because they often make choices from the heart and sometimes forget to use their head

they’re very emotional and intellectual

at times their emotions make them mentally unstable and restless

this can cause mood swings at times

they’re very honest tho, always speaking their mind

sometimes they can be quite manipulative, but only towards people who aren’t treating them or they loved ones good

in that case they also tend to use their mental power and intelligence

they appear to be quite greedy, not only for power but also in a materialistic way

they have a hard time leaving their past behind and moving on in life

they will go on many pleasant dates with Mingi

Mingi seems one of the very few people they actually fully trust

it feels like Mingi will help them having an actual functioning relationship for the first time in their life

they will help each other finding themselves whenever they get lost

I think when they first meet it’s one of those “right person wrong time” kinda situation

one of them will be probably in a relationship when they first meet

I see them having multiple encounters until they actually get together, they will get multiple tries to meet at the perfect time in a way

Mingi’s fs feels comfortable in their skin and don’t have any issue with being in the nude or showing skin

for the looks I can say this is someone extremely attractive and sexy

but only Mingi will see the sexy side

in fact, they could appear quite innocent at times

white suits them very well

could be on the curvier side

they could have a bit lighter hair, like a dark blonde or light to medium brown

I’m getting a honey or darker skin tone

Love,

~Nicky 🫧

Masterlist

[setokaibasblimp]

seto kaiba nsfw hcs for anon!

as i said before, i don't think about this often because during canon he's too young and i'm not always in post canon mode, but i got an ask about it so i made an effort! also just as a heads up i'll be going with my trans hc for this, because... it's my blog :)

warning for nsfw under the cut!

• he's a power bottom, i know it. i can feel it. will ride dick like he'd ride a horse, and i mean that regardless of who he's sleeping with and what they have between their legs, through the power of the strap on all things are possible

• has a dragon dildo for every dragon in his deck except for the bewd. he knows there must be a blue eyes white dildo somewhere in the world, but he simply respects the bewd too much for that. the other dragons are fair game though

• alternatively, he tops using a futuristic techno dick he created himself, the ultimate bottom surgery. he's the guy that made a simulation that allows you to feel stuff like in the real world, a fully functional dick hologram would be easy

• is into the weirdest shit, bonus points if he genuinely can't understand normal sex and/or finds it repulsive. the type that would respectfully ask if his partner would consent to pissing themself or getting fucked in their sleep, but draws the line at idk, giving handjobs

• this is partially why i can see him having a string of relationships that didn't work out, it's simply hard to find someone he'd be sexually compatible with. other reasons include him being the most avoidant socially inept guy in the planet, and most of the people that show interest in him doing so as either part of a ploy to steal kaibacorp or a creepy plan to detransition him. keeping the celebrity gossip at bay would be a nightmare

• oscilates between being The mean dom, and being surprisingly sweet and caring, depending on how bad of a day he had. he already has to spend a lot of time asserting himself in his day to day life, i imagine he wouldn't allways have the energy to do the same in the bedroom

• pet play enthusiast looking for a dog sub. ironically enough, the loser dog thing with jounouchi wasn't sexual for him at the time, he was just coping with trauma by being an asshole. literal years later he connects the dots and goes

at the realization that he may have sounded like a perv, and that he can't even defend himself because he is, in fact, a perv

[tammyfeabakker]

Well about a week ago.... I listened to relationship woes... gobsmacked me... I went home wandering WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO WRONG????!!! All the men I ever had a relationship with... I CAN NOT BELIEVE THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT!!! I do realize there's 2 sides to every story... but when you find your girl friend on all fours with a flash light in her mouth breaking into your safe... you call it quits... spade is a spade. No he jus kept getting shit on... I'm having a hard time grasping it... gave her a luxurious life style... didn't work provided ... I have heard same stories in the past... I know beauty is skin deep. But she's definitely doesn't have it going anywhere.. I can't talk bad but it jus blew me away. Not that I want a man now.. I'm by far gone... I haven't a had a relationship so long. I watch other people's relationships... the woes I'm like forget that shit. I don't think I would know how to function in one. But there was a time... thats I hear in my head... WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO WRONG???? I'm not great woman... but I'm a good woman... I'm average looking... I'm not egotistical but I'm every queen in the tarot deck put it this I'm every female in the deck... I fucking deserved a good man out going man... and I ended up with. I CAN NOT BELIEVE THIS SHIT!!! There's other things that are on my mind... I made a list.... the list I made well I made it impossible... if I did meet a man. Not to mention things in my chart... I'm lost I'm totally lost. Life plays these fucking games. I made a list an impossible list... thats all I can give. That jus opens a can of worms... I'll be back when I figure this out.. I'm jus fucking bewildered...

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[pressagie]

Hi, how are you? I saw you were offering free readings and was interested in asking a question. I would like to know what’s coming towards me next in love? I’m single. Can you use the lenormand deck. Can you also add a song? Please 😊 Thanks! - JD

JD, what's up? We're finally doing this, let's go!

Note: I added some info to the bottom of my pinned post, and I recommend (to everyone who sent in questions) giving it a read :]

Situation

— your anchor to the topic

THE MOON

The way The Moon card came out indicates a sense of loneliness, and being aware of it – not just being alone, in a neutral/positive way, but feeling somehow uneasy in that (single) state. It seems like this comes from (and becomes worse because of) you acting, without reason, like that will always be your reality. Might be something to unpack, and I don't think it would be too hard for you, if you decide to do so.

Context

— external factors at play

THE CROSS

In the past, you used to hold some beliefs that were more hopeful in regard to how you felt about (and even acted towards) love, connections, yourself, and love for yourself. This may not be (immediately) clear to you; at the time you could have done it without even thinking and/or due to outside influences – but it is somehow connected to The Moon issue, as it could be a reminder and inspiration to present-you.

Focus

— what really matters

THE STORK + THE CHILD

The Stork speaks of positive action you take towards other people or a person – this does not necessarily mean a romantic relationship (what, I'm assuming, you asked about); it could be searching for a community, a family or any kind of connection that helps you feel good, and more a part of something, with those who function like you, and aim for similar places in life. Where do you (figuratively) want to go?

The Child, on the other hand, points to you thinking about a bad past experience, when you might've been taken advantage of, and it burdening this present one (The Stork) – even though they are not the same! Try to keep that in mind and recognize where you actually stand, and you can have a better time.

Advice

— results taste better with a grain of salt

THE SCYTHE + THE ANCHOR

The Scythe and The Anchor came out hand in hand, meaning these are tools to utilize together.

On the one hand: make the most of this/these new connection(s); find your space, and allow yourself to grow from there.

On the other hand: be sure that you're not in a group or with a specific someone because you'd rather have anyone than no one, ending up in situations that do not benefit you – or in which the other(s) feel(s) used. Don't lose track of yourself, as well as why it all started.

To clarify: none of this seems like it's about manipulation and abusive dynamics. More like miscommunication and similar mistakes that can still cause some harm. So, remember to maintain and respect everyone's boundaries, including your own.

Overall (and the most probable scenario): if you check in with your feelings, and let them guide you, you'll be happily surprised by what you take from this experience.

Outcome

— one possibility within reach

THE OWLS

The Owls card comes towards the end of this timeline, in a disruptive position. It signals a conversation or encounter that you won't understand for what it is, and that will be incompatible with the peace you might have established by then. It demands an active response to clear up.

Don't despair! There's no need to worry about The Owls right now. For better or worse, nothing lasts forever. When the time comes, and everything settles, this could even end up being a favorable change or, at least, a learning experience. Either way, you'll know it's coming, and can deal with it according to what you discover along this journey, as well as the paths you choose.

The Chain by Fleetwood Mac in Rumours (1977)

Thank you for trusting me to read for you. I would love to know what you think: if this resonates with your circumstances, and what comes of it. Don't be afraid to give me honest feedback and suggestions, after all, it'll help me become a better reader :]

Do you want to expand on this or have another topic to explore? Leave me a (follow-up) question!

You can always include the numbered tag associated with your reading(s), and I'll add it to the future posts as well, so they are identified as belonging to the same querent, and easier to find – check below, next to #OMEN DEAL.

For Ko-fi tips (zero pressure)

I honor the spirit who helps with my practice – for winding and guiding my path, learning how to sit with me, and being a light to read by.

Elioth Gruner's Milking Time / Araluen Valley

[melbournedecksandpergolas]

Deck Builders' Secrets: Tips and Tricks for a Smooth Construction Process

Hey there, fellow outdoor enthusiasts! Are you dreaming of a perfect deck to soak up the sun or host lively gatherings with friends and family? 

Well, you're in luck because, in this blog, we've got some amazing tips and tricks from experienced deck builder Melbourne that will make your construction process a breeze. Whether you're a seasoned DIY enthusiast or planning to hire a pergola builder in Melbourne to do the job, these insights will surely help you achieve the deck of your dreams.

Planning is the Key

Before diving into the nitty-gritty of deck building, take a deep breath and plan it out! Identify the purpose of your deck, the location, and the materials you'd like to use. A well-thought-out plan will save you time and money in the long run.

Permits and Regulations

No one likes paperwork, but it's crucial to check your local regulations and obtain the necessary permits before starting construction. It might seem like a hassle, but compliance will prevent headaches later on.

Choosing the Right Materials

Now comes the fun part - choosing the materials! Opt for high-quality and durable materials that can withstand unpredictable weather. Your deck builder Melbourne can guide you to make the best choice for your specific needs.

Budget Wisely

Deck construction can be a financial investment, so it's vital to budget wisely. Consider all the costs involved, including materials, labour, and any additional features you want to add. Remember, quality is key, so it's better to invest in a well-built deck that will last for years.

DIY vs. Hiring a Pro

Deciding between DIY and hiring a pergola builder in Melbourne is a big choice. If you have the skills and experience, going the DIY route can be rewarding. However, if you're unsure or the project is complex, it's best to leave it to the experts.

Safety First

During construction, prioritize safety at all times. Use appropriate safety gear, follow instructions carefully, and keep the work area tidy to avoid accidents.

A Solid Foundation

Just like a strong relationship needs a solid foundation, so does your deck! Ensure the base is well-prepared and level before proceeding with the rest of the construction.

Optimal Design and Layout

Consider the layout and design of your deck carefully. Think about the flow of movement, seating areas, and any additional features like pergolas or railings. A well-planned design will make your deck not only visually appealing but also practical and functional.

Weatherproofing for Longevity

Melbourne's weather can be unpredictable, so weatherproofing your deck is a must. Apply sealants and stains to protect the wood from moisture and UV damage, ensuring your deck stands the test of time.

Add Some Greenery

A touch of nature can elevate the charm of your deck. Consider adding potted plants or even creating built-in planters to bring life to your outdoor space.

Regular Maintenance

Congratulations, your deck is now complete! But remember, regular maintenance is vital to keep it in top-notch condition. Clean the deck regularly, inspect for any damages, and make repairs promptly.

Enjoy Your Dream Deck

Finally, it's time to kick back and enjoy your hard work! Invite friends over for a barbecue, host a party, or simply relax with a book on your beautiful Decks in Melbourne.

In conclusion, building a deck doesn't have to be overwhelming. With proper planning, the right materials, and the help of skilled professionals like deck builders, you can create the perfect outdoor oasis. So, what are you waiting for? Start your deck-building journey today and turn your backyard into a haven of happiness!

Remember, when it comes to finding the best pergola builder in Melbourne or seeking expert advice for your deck, don't hesitate to reach out. Happy deck building!

[crescendeyes]

A Friday to remember

Before I begin, I would like to start off this entry with the fact that last night was absolute shit with Aaron. Ever since I moved out, because I've been so busy trying to juggle 2 jobs, moving into and settling in to this new condo and opening for Joji this coming Sunday.

You would think that for someone so introverted such as me, I wouldn't have such a social life (which is true) but I have to much going on in my life that the contentment I feel every day is fuelling me to work twice as hard to keep this place and to find myself some serenity and peace.

Moving into a new place isn't a one day thing; I now recognise. It's constantly fixing and cleaning and eventually spread out throughout the entire month before you figure out what you hate and love about a place, what works and doesn't, your sleeping vs working schedule - and now you have to top it off with having a renewed long distance relationship. It's tough.

I have to give it to Aaron for constantly being a support in my life despite me not being able to fulfil his love languages from afar. The best I could do is quality time but being an introvert, I value my alone time and sometimes when I've had the full day of giving my energy to people, I find myself having very little left to give to myself let alone to Aaron.

We've been fighting since last night over something ridiculous and it spilled over to this morning when I woke up. I was so upset that I think for the first time ever I leaned onto my avoidant side of things and just wanted to leave everything behind (even-though I knew it was an impulsive feeling but I truly just can't deal with it).

I definitely feel the heavy sense of burden whenever it came to arguments. The sense where (whether if its bias or not) I have to always give in to his emotions and forsake mine in order to fit the peace back together. It's difficult to resolve lately because I have no patience. It's not Aaron's fault entirely but this leaves me feeling unsatisfied and unjust. Its never the case of me being upset and he makes me feel better; instead its him getting upset at me for being upset (not in a red flaggy way but in a sensitive manner)

And I know he is SUPER sensitive because I've seen his interactions with his friends and even with me. It's very volatile.

I had to let my ego down and make him feel better when he started crying....sigh...and I was late to meet Chyen and Dan but I ended up being earlier than them (or so I thought). Today was so hectic, cause I had to push out a live website for a client (which btw successfully happened by night time) + rushed to the wrong location for the Van Gogh Exhibition (wtf?). It's so messy lately, I feel like I really need to note down every single thing on my to do list before I lost track of what I have to do.

I had such an amazing time on edibles with Chyen and Dan, it was such a great way to get my mind off things tbh. Had some pretty dope photos too and that helped me forget all the issues I had with Aaron for a bit. Meanwhile, I was functioning on edibles while working and continuously taking photos and videos of my time in the exhibition.

Being the millennial girl boss I am, right after successfully launching my client's website and finishing the Van Gogh Exhibition, I came home to have a meeting with uPledge team and manage to show great numbers and next steps to come.

This weekend is all work and play in full speed.

Saturday

Pack for the weekend to go back to my parents house

Finish uPledge next steps and reporting deck at home

Have dinner with parents

Have a meeting with the uPledge team

Sunday

Have lunch with parents at home

Rush to Peakstorm Festival for soundcheck

Get hair and makeup ready

Perform for Peakstorm Festival

Go home and get ready for the new week

I'm truly so proud of myself for whatever I'm achieving this year. It's been a great start and I have a great goal oriented mindset to follow. It's amazing! Other than the fact that Aaron and I are a little rocky, I'm hoping March will change that.

[boasamishipper]

So curious to know about the TGM Spy Kids 3 AU you are writing (⊙_(⊙_⊙)_⊙)

first of all, all blame for this one goes to my bestie @lilalbatross, who messaged me like Woe This Idea Be Upon You, went to a meeting, and returned to find me screaming biting clawing at the walls over this. the fic is super not high on my priority list right now, but here's my current outline below the cut. main ships as always will be Iceman/Maverick, Phoenix/Rooster, and Hangman/Coyote, with Bradley and Mav's relationship at the heart of it all.

Admiral Cain / the Drone Ranger shuts down the Darkstar project and sends Maverick off to work on his experimental unmanned aircraft program before Ice can intervene.

A year passes. Ice has gotten texts and emails from Mav during that time and has seen the reports indicating the program's success, but he knows that something is wrong - which is further evidenced by the people he's spoken to about the program, who cannot remember what they did there after they left. He and Warlock and Hondo assemble a new squad of test pilots for Admiral Cain’s program with the goal of them finding Mav, bringing him home, and giving them the evidence they need to shut the program down. The squad consists of Rooster Bradshaw, Phoenix Trace, Coyote Machado, Payback Fitch, and Fanboy Garcia. Rooster is still angry about Mav having pulled his papers and set his career back four years, but when Ice tells him the real purpose of the mission, he still chooses to go.

Upon arriving at the super secret base where this program is housed, the squad are all taken to separate rooms and told that they will be flying missions in a virtual reality landscape, and the data from said flights will be transferred to the unmanned aircraft that Admiral Cain is investing in. However, there's a catch - the VR system is designed not to activate your hippocampus, which houses your long-term memory. As a result, inside the VR world, none of the detachment remembers the outside world - and upon waking, they don't remember any of the details of the missions they fly. Rooster, Phoenix, Coyote, Payback, and Fanboy fly three virtual missions together, and do not remember each other at all in the VR world. In the real world, the five of them do their best to investigate Mav's disappearance, as he is nowhere to be found on base, and too many questions earn suspicion, which is the last thing they need.

After his fourth successful mission, Rooster runs into Bob Floyd, an engineer on the project who is kind of twitchy and quiet and weirds him out. Little does Rooster (or any of the detachment) know that Bob is their handler while they are in the VR world; he is the voice that runs them through their pre-flight checklists. In the VR world the next day, while Rooster is going through his pre-flight checklist with Bob's voice in his ear, Bob flashes an image on Rooster's NAV system that reactivates Bradley's long-term memory. Bob informs Rooster (and the others, once he wakes them up too) that the missions they run are not hypothetical, that they’re actively participating in civilian airstrikes, and Rooster is horrified. Bob says Mav found out about this and tried to shut the program down from the inside, but disappeared into The Grid - the Matrix-y world behind the VR world - and Bob hasn't been able to contact him. Once everyone is woken up, the six of them team up to find Mav. At Bob’s call, Rooster, Phoenix, and Coyote fly into some sort of glitch and end up in the Matrix world and search through it for Mav. Payback and Fanboy attempt to follow, but are forcibly recalled back to reality by Cain, who forces Bob to comb through the VR world for the missing pilots.

The area of The Grid Rooster, Phoenix, and Coyote find themselves in looks like the inside of the Hard Deck. Upon exploring the bar, which looks very realistic, Rooster is attacked by Hangman, who Phoenix neutralizes and Coyote calms down. They learn that the Hard Deck functions as a loading screen of sorts, where pilots involved in the program rested between multiple missions in one day. Hangman has been there for...a very long time. (He may be a little unsteady because he's been alone for so long. He has also gotten very good at darts and pool. Coyote, feeling sorry for him, plays a few rounds with him.) Rooster, Phoenix, and Coyote find a way out of the Hard Deck and Hangman comes along after proving he knows who Mav is and has an idea of where to find him.

Once they're out of the Hard Deck, they find themselves on a beach that Rooster recognizes but isn't sure why. Phoenix and Rooster talk about Mav, what Rooster will say to him when they find him. Coyote and Hangman bond over their love of flying. Cain starts fucking up The Grid Coraline-style and the five of them make a run for it across the rapidly deteriorating landscape and escape through another glitch in The Grid, reappearing in an abandoned hangar, where it turns out Mav has been hiding all this time.

Mav has been plotting a way to shut down the VR world from the inside so Cain can never use it for his unmanned program again, and he has no idea how long he’s been here. He is stunned when Rooster tells him it's been over a year. Rooster is equally stunned when Mav reveals he has been manipulating the glitches this whole time and saved them from Cain. An explosive fight breaks out when Mav tells them that Hangman is an enemy pilot designed by Admiral Cain to root out the chinks in the unmanned aircraft's armor, so to speak. That Hangman is not a real person. Mav knows because he'd shot down Hangman too many times to count, and tells them that this is how Cain has been able to track them across The Grid. Hangman vehemently protests this, but when Mav asks him to tell them anything about the outside world, what his real name is, Hangman can’t remember and breaks down, begging them to believe that he's real. Coyote believes him and promises to get Hangman out of here.

One thing leads to another, and the five of them work together, manipulating the glitches to shut the VR program down from the inside. Mav sacrifices himself for this purpose, trapping himself in The Grid as it shuts down and effectively rendering his real world self brain dead. Rooster, Phoenix, and Coyote wake up in the real world under heavy guard; Payback and Fanboy free Rooster, Phoenix, and Coyote, and Rooster goes to save Mav. Phoenix, Coyote, Payback, and Fanboy hold off Cain while Rooster hops back into the VR world with Bob's help to bring Mav out of it. Mav is trapped in his own mind (VR version of G-LOC), reliving Goose's death over and over again, and Rooster successfully guides him out, absolving Mav of his guilt for having pulled his papers and for Goose's death, which Rooster (and Carole) never blamed Mav for in the first place. Bob reawakens both of them in the real world; Mav and Rooster hug.

Coyote learns from Ice, Hondo, and Warlock upon their arrival that Hangman is real; he was one of the first test pilots for Cain’s program but was cast aside and forgotten about once they'd gotten all the data they wanted out of him. Bob finds a way to wake up Hangman (comatose in the real world) when everyone else who'd tried had failed, and Coyote and Hangman (his long term memory reactivated upon waking up) kiss for the first time. Cain is arrested and gets the book thrown at him; Ice personally sees to it that the unmanned program is shut down; everybody lives happily ever after.

[dreaminginthedeepsouth]

BOOGA :: Art car

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I lack the peace of simple things. I am never wholly in place. I find no peace or grace. We sell the world to buy fire, our way lighted by burning men. -Wendell Berry

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The only reason to do this stuff is for the relationships. My collaborators over the years on this project are among the core of my weird extended chosen family. There's no way to name names without leaving people out.  Everybody mattered.  The mark of family is that you still love each other after driving each other insane with unreasonable behavior because you are there to grow together. I believe that we all made something beautiful and highly improbably pop off this year at the burn better than we ever have before on any other project, after working together for years. I cherish all of these relationships deeply, and tending them was at the core of my burn this year.

This stuff is incredibly fun and incredibly hard and takes all day if you invest wholeheartedly in contributing to the event. As with most things in life, the bigger the investment, the more fun you have and the more you learn. My primary $$$ clients (I don't get paid for working on Thunder Gumbo) are also burners and producers who understand why I'm doing what I've done, and I'm very lucky to have them help make it possible. I lost five pounds, and have probably eaten about 200,000 calories since getting back to Reno six days ago. I gave a couple thousand dollars and a few months of my life and efforts to hard work on the project this year between helping produce on three major fundraiser parties (with two more to come this fall), a kickstarter campaign, a thirty five person camp (with kitchen / shower / shade / lounge / workshop / car parking), and an elaborate trucking, breakdown, and financial reconciliation process that is still going on. 

The event wouldn't have been the same without investing in it so heavily-- sometimes the object of devotion isn't as important as the devotion to seeing things through in general, no matter what it takes. Even if it means that I was tending to my responsibilities to the point that I brought out a record player and a stack of vinyl, three decks of tarot cards, and a six foot inflatable hamster ball without using any of them once. 

Like most difficult things, Burning Man is not for everybody. There's lots of goofy stuff about lots of the tribes that go, it's a pretty self indulgent event in a city that gentrifies steadily every year, some of the internal politics are extremely wack, it is expensive and dangerous and time consuming and classist and dusty. I acknowledge all these things and remain a fan regardless.  

Every critique of Burning Man is true, and I honor the festival for being able to contain everything-- it is a Tantra, not a Sutra. It has, love, hate, beauty, ugliness, skill and lack therof, computer programmers who call themselves spanky and dress up as gay aliens, impoverished mystics, kind older people, children, fire spinners, burnouts, prodigies, trolls, real danger, injury, sex, death, cops, life, freedom, an FAA sanctioned airport and a functioning post office, dubstep, waffles. I guess I like that there's a little something for everybody.

My experience at the burn this year was extremely life affirming, but I feel no need to fetishize the experience. I was there and now I am here. It was a great party. There is no way I can give as much of myself to this set of tribal forces next year, having joyous demands on my time in the temporary city of New York like professional development and yoga teacher training, but it has been an incredible ride and I regret nothing. I am completely energized by all that has transpired, and am ready to make my entire life the best it can possibly be every day that I am alive on this planet.

[Shalin Scupham 20 Sept, 2015]

[aphrostarot]

Who Are You Pick a Pile

How are you seen by your friends, family, you, and society? How do you want to be seen and who are you actually?

Remember that this is a general reading and some things may not apply to you. Do not try and force it to fit. If you would like a personal reading you can click here. There I have my shop where I offer all of my readings. Or you can dm me with what you'd like.

*Please read before you pick a pile*

I say spirit when I am channeling and writing out your readings, if you do not believe in spirit that is totally okay, this message is still meant for you if you feel that it is! Whatever you believe in is valid and you can ignore when I say spirit if you don't believe in it or, replace it with whoever you believe is giving you this message. If you have any questions or you just want to talk about this feel free to dm me!

Pile One (Rose Quartz):

How do your friends see you?

Three of Wands: In this specific deck the three of wands is depicted as a long journey ahead, one that you are just starting. That being said, this would mean that your friends see you as someone who is starting a journey, maybe of self-discovery, a career journey, spiritual journey, etc. Your friends see you as someone strong, knows what they want, and is driven to get that.

The Avenger: The Avenger is made, not born. Her state of mind evolved from a primal desire for vengeance - and she has the drive to carry it out by whatever means necessary. The Avenger is distinguished by her ability to weaponize her innate knowledge and her surroundings and forgoes other elements of her personality until justice is served. In revenge films, the Avenger functions as karma personified - and her payback is defined by its symbolic, poetic flourish. Your friends think you’re strong and that you are someone who has fought to become who they are and will continue to fight until they become who they want to be.

How does your family see you?

Five of Pentacles: This card represents poverty, a great loss. Your family sees you as someone who has lost a lot and is currently in a dark place, in a low. They think that you are going through a tough time. You have lost a lot and that you need help.

The Goth: The Goth lives in a romantic world of horror and death. In genre fiction, the Goth often finds herself as the keeper of a mystical secret, an explorer of unholy ground, or an unknowing link to the realm of the dead. She often makes her home in a remote, decaying property, and her solitude allows for her to fully embrace every instance of terror. While the Goth’s inquisitive nature and innate resolve allow her to stand up against corrupt forces, both human and supernatural, she may also allow herself to be seduced by dark passions. This is how your family sees you, as someone who has accepted the darkness and is not willing to come out. They also see you as someone who wants to go against the grain and does their own thing.

How do you see you?

The Sun: Happiness is the meaning of this card. You see yourself as someone who is happy, successful, optimistic, and confident. You feel like you have this warm energy surrounding you, yellow may resonate with you. You feel like you are a light in a lot of people’s lives like you are the person people go to when they need someone to brighten their mood.

Two of Pentacles: The primary meaning of this card is, balance and all things that come with it such as; adaption, flexibility, and resourcefulness. Again, you view yourself as someone who is resourceful, the person that others go to when they need help. You feel as though you have your life in check, you know what you want and how you’re going to get it. You feel like you are good at balancing things and keeping everything in order.

The Muse: The Muse speaks to the soul. In fiction, the Muse is a woman who embodies the spirit of a particular moment so much that she’s upheld as an inspiration. While the Muse may be kept as a source of personal inspiration for an artist, her life is an artistic expression in itself. She may exude an attitude, philosophy, or appearance that makes her emblematic of lifelong creative or romantic partnerships. Even if her je ne sais quoi is short-lived, her impact can be crystallized forever. You think you are the person who is an inspiration to the people around you, that people center their lives and pursuits off of what you have done and continue to do.

How does society see you?

Seven of Pentacles: This is the card of growth, of hard work paying off after some planning. Society sees you as someone who has gone through a lot and has grown from that, that you’ve planned the way you want your life to go and that you execute those plans. You do everything you need to in order to get to where you want to be.

The Spinster: The Spinster is unbothered. In romance fiction, the Spinster is a woman who has remained single past the age deemed desirable, and as such is typically childless. The Spinster’s isolation from traditional domestic roles of wife and mother makes her solitary life a source of speculation and projected anxiety. The Spinster is generally used to caution young women against the dead-end of an unmarried life, and her solitude is seen as a consequence of curdled femininity. Whether by choice or not, the Spinster has the ability to rely solely on herself. Society views you as an independent person, someone who doesn’t need anyone, someone who chooses to be single because they don’t need anyone other than themselves to make them happy.

How do you want to be seen?

The Hermit: This is the card of solitude, of self-reflection. Meaning, you want to be seen as someone who is independent, working on themselves, and growing. You may like the idea of people viewing you as a hard-working self-indulgent person, a person who keeps to themselves and has persevered through everything thrown their way. Someone who makes their life work and has gotten what they want because they worked for it.

The Earth Mother: The Earth Mother is in sync with her environment. In genre film, the Earth Mother represents a connection to the terrestrial, often by rejecting modernity and embracing life in nature. She may present as a hippie who prioritizes the health of the environment, or as the maternal figure in a commune, offering motherly guidance to those seeking a more pastoral life. She may also be upheld as a symbol of growth, harvest, or fertility, and possess a mystical connection to the secrets of the natural world. You very much may want to be seen as someone with cottage core energy.

Who are you actually?

Nine of Wands: You are someone who has a lot of emotional baggage from your upbringing or previous relationships. This makes you a people-pleaser who wants others to like you because, deep down, you feel unworthy. Therefore, you’re the type of person who others walk over and take advantage of. On the opposite end of the scale, you could be unwilling to let anyone into your inner circle. You do not trust easily and are suspicious of others. The Nine of Wands, however, is a sign that your mistrust may be justified, which is a positive aspect of the card; you’re not quick to let just anyone into your life.

The Maid: The Maid sees everything and tells nothing. In pulp fiction, the Maid is typically a meek domestic worker who peers into the daily intrigues of the family she’s working for. Be it excessive consumption, familial corruption, or adulterous affairs, the Maid is expected to sweep the scandals of the every day up and out of sight. Due to her exclusive access to people’s lives, she may often palsy as a star witness in a trial, or get caught up in a blackmail scheme. But the Maid typically represents some form of class repression or exploitation - until she gets the chance to turn the tables. You have been on the underside of life for a long time, that doesn’t mean you will always be that way, you can turn the tables after a bit of work

Pile Two (Sodalite):

How do your friends see you?

Page of Pentacles (reversed): The Page of Pentacles reversed represents someone who is; foolish, immature, irresponsible, lazy, an underachiever, and a procrastinator. This is how your friends see you as someone who is not reliable and is childish.

The Cyborg: The Cyborg is a transgressive blend of human and machine. In science fiction, the organic, human form can be supplemented with technological enhancement. As such, the Cyborg has the capacity for mechanical perfection, working in tandem with human thought, emotion, and values. While often a figure of fear for their ability to rewrite and surpass human flaws. The Cyborg may use their abilities for destruction, but can also offer a glimpse into a perfected human being who is able to transcend human history and work towards utopic harmony. Your friends see you as someone who needs an upgrade. Someone who needs to change so they can be like the cyborg, able to use their powers to bring about harmony or destruction.

How does your family see you?

Seven of Swords (reversed): This is the card of truth being revealed, of having been manipulative in the past and now coming out and revealing that truth. So, your family sees you as someone who has something to reveal, something that you have been hiding from them.

The Headmistress: The Headmistress rules with an iron fist. In fiction, the Headmistress is responsible for overseeing the entirety of a school, typically one for girls or young women, and for managing its students, staff, and grounds. While the Headmistress is typically a strict disciplinarian with an eye for getting results, she can also function as a maternal, albeit authoritative presence. Her reputation often precedes her, and being summoned into her office is enough to strike fear into the heart of any student. Your family views you as someone who is to be feared, someone who does whatever it takes to be heard and in control.

How do you see you?

Seven of Wands: You see yourself as someone who needs to stand up for yourself no matter what, defend yourself and your territory. You may have gone through a lot to get to where you are and you don’t what to lose it. You feel like people are constantly trying to question you and bring you down, so, you defend yourself.

The Empress: You view yourself as the Divine Feminine, as someone who embraces all things feminine. You think you are someone who is loving, warm, sensual, and that you are as charismatic as you are beautiful. You defend yourself because people don’t understand the real you, in your eyes.

The Siren: The Siren’s call is irresistible. In horror and mythology, the Siren is a beautiful amphibious creature who appears as a human woman or a human and animal hybrid. The Siren typically lives with others of her kind in the rocks and cliffs of coastal areas. Together, the Sirens use their powerful voices to lure passing sailors towards shipwreck and death. While the origins and goals of the Siren vary, she is ultimately symbolic of the challenge of resistance. You feel like you are irresistible, that you are someone that nobody can resist.

How does society see you? The Magician: The Magician is someone who is; spontaneous, skillful, creative, original, someone of quick understanding, excellent reasoning, intelligent initiatives, and intellectual curiosity. This is how society views you, as someone who is extremely intelligent, someone who uses their brain and is quick with it.

The Gamine: The Gamine strolls the side streets straight into your heart. In genre film and musicals, the Gamine appears as a young, often waifish woman with a penchant for androgynous style and frank speech. Her rejection of what’s ascribed as feminine is characterized by her embrace of the masculine, opting for a short chop or pixie cut and boxy clothes, and presenting a boyish, unpolished demeanor. The Gamine may pursue an independent, bohemian lifestyle in defiance of gender expectations, but is too charming to thwart off attention from suitors from all walks of life.

How do you want to be seen?

Queen of Swords: The Queen of Swords has very high standards and can be highly critical of herself and others, she doesn’t allow anyone to use her, she puts people in their place. You want to be seen as someone who stands up for themselves and is loved but slightly feared. You want people to understand where they stand with you and to not test you or cross you.

The Coquette: Flattery has gotten the Coquette everywhere, and she has no plans to stop now. In genre film or musicals, the Coquette has a way with words and a knack for reading people - particularly people who have something she wants. She can be an adept conversationalist or an emotional card sharp, but she’ll make you feel so good about yourself you won’t even miss whatever it is you’ve handed over. You want to be seen as someone who is charming, a little intimidating but still, charming. You want people to fear you but also love you.

Who are you actually?

Ace of Pentacles: You are or are meant to be very clever and full of ideas. You are very innovative and clever and you do best with intellectual activities. You use the power of your mind to achieve what you want and need. You will apply reason and intellect to confront issues occurring in your life. You have great literacy skills and rarely lose an argument or discussion. You are someone who is very competitive and will not let go of your position easily. You love taking risks. You usually become an expert in any field you work in. A part of you is very restless and you need to be constantly stimulated. Sometimes you get lost in your head and need to be grounded. It is worth mentioning that the Ace of Pentacles represents new money coming forward, so, it is worth saying that you may be meant to make money in some way.

The Diva: The Diva has a gift from heaven that can make your life hell. In genre film, the Diva is a commanding artistic presence with an impossibly unique talent. The Diva is highly sought after and showered with praise but can become indignant and fickle when she’s not in total control of her ability. She may demand that conditions be met perfectly in order for her to perform, and storm out if she’s denied. Ultimately, the Diva needs her talent to shine just as much as the people around her, and she will do what is necessary to stay in the spotlight. You are meant to be in the spotlight, whether that be literally famous or just in the spotlight in your personal surroundings.

Pile Three (Fuchsite):

How do your friends see you?

Ten of Wands (reversed): The Ten of Wands reversed represents that your friends see you as someone who is truly burdened by circumstances that are not necessary in your life. They think that you are shouldering too much responsibility, that you fail to delegate because you may fear asking for help or you truly believe that you are capable of handling it all on your own. They think that if you continue to go on this way, you will reach a breakdown.

Six of Pentacles (reversed): The Six of Pentacles reversed means that your friends think that you are someone who is extremely generous, to your own faults. You give too much, more than you are capable of giving. They think that you are extremely nice and caring but that you need to take care of yourself. This could also mean that they think that you are someone who gives but at a cost. That when you are “generous” it always comes with you expecting things in return. They think that you are selfish.

The Dancer: The Dancers body is their instrument. The Dancer presents a mastery of control over their physical movement and expression and is a subject of fascination across a variety of genres. In the psychological thriller, they may obsess over perfecting their performance to the point of mania; in horror, they may perform a physical expression of moral corruption; in erotica, they may move to seduce and entice. Regardless of their particular presentation, the Dancer commands attention through perseverance - their refinement of skill even if just performing for themselves. Your friends see you as someone who puts a lot of their body, as someone who works hard and doesn’t take care of themselves enough. They also see you as someone who is extremely talented at what they do regardless of whether they ask for help or not.

How does your family see you?

Seven of Swords: Your family thinks that you are sneaky, that you operate in the shadows and gather information that might later serve you. They think you may be planning to betray someone, or a group of people, in order to assure self-advancement.

On the other hand, they may think that you are trying to better your situation. They think that the people you surround yourself with may be causing you great misery, hindering your progress, or your road towards self-improvement. If that is the case, they feel that you need to escape your current situation without insulting or hurting the people around you.

The Avenger (reversed): The Avenger is made, not born. Her state of mind evolved from a primal desire for vengeance - and she has the drive to carry it out by whatever means necessary. The Avenger is distinguished by her ability to weaponize her innate knowledge and her surroundings and forgoes other elements of her personality until justice is served. In revenge films, the Avenger functions as karma personified - and her payback is defined by its symbolic, poetic flourish. When she is reversed though, that means that rather than being focused, of having the motivation to get things done, and of seeking justice you are; cruel, filled with rage, and obsessed with the wrong things. This is what they think of you. Going off of what was said above, your family thinks that your friends are doing this to you.

How do you see you?

Page of Cups: You see yourself as someone who is highly intuitive and sensitive to the entire world and various dimensions around you. You think you have a loving, gentle, and warm personality and a strong desire to be around kindred spirits, who help you to feel needed and special. You think you’re highly creative and emotional, that you can be as shy as you are desperate to avoid conflict. Although, you won’t back down from a fight if a fight is what’s called for.

The Spinster (reversed): The Spinster is unbothered. In romance fiction, the Spinster is a woman who has remained single past the age deemed desirable, and as such is typically childless. The Spinster’s isolation from traditional domestic roles of wife and mother makes her solitary life a source of speculation and projected anxiety. The Spinster is generally used to caution young women against the dead-end of an unmarried life, and her solitude is seen as a consequence of curdled femininity. Whether by choice or not, the Spinster has the ability to rely solely on herself. Now with this coming out reversed, instead of you thinking you’re like that you actually think you’re timid, full of fear, and in disarray. Yes, you think that you’re highly intuitive maybe even an empath but still, a part of you thinks that you are small and full of anxiety.

How does society see you?

Justice: Society sees you as a decent, law-abiding individual. They think you make decisions carefully, weighing all the pros and cons. That you are good with words and place a high value on education. Also that you are practical and cautious, but remain a romantic at heart.

Two of Cups: Society thinks you’re warm, loving, and sweet. That you are keen on building and maintaining strong, long-term relationships. That you will marry young and/or remain in a devoted relationship. They think that nurturing relationships are at the core of your belief system, they think you are a great friend, child, siblings, and lover. That you are a natural healer due to your ability to listen to your partners and give great advice in return.

The Cat Burglar: The Cat Burglar is at her best when you never see her at all. In genre fiction, the Cat Burglar has a knack for sneaking into places she’s not wanted and sneaking out with more than she had before. While she prefers to work in shadow, she’s also a master of disguise and can situate herself undetected in plain sight. She can also function as a lady thief, who only seeks impossibly difficult targets or the rarest of valuables, and seldom uses physical force in conquest. Society sees you as someone who is able to blend in wherever you go, but not because you are not noticed, it is your own choice. They see you as someone who is willing to do whatever it takes to get what you want.

How do you want to be seen?

The Hanged Man: You want to be seen as confident — perhaps overly so. This card can also represent indecision, and as such, you may be at risk of not recognizing these opportunities when they do come to you. Consequently, you remain forever in limbo, trapped in your indecision, your primary action being non-action. You want to be seen as the person who is extremely confident, not aware of the things around them, just happy with what they have, and happy to be where they are.

The Mystic: The Mystic is in touch with the divine. In fiction, the Mystic may appear as a visionary or prophet who receives messages from outside the earthly realm. She may also appear as a sorceress or alchemist who can manipulate natural materials for her own ends. In any iteration, she is well versed in esoteric interests and shrouded in mystery and can use her knowledge to better herself or provide guidance for others. You want to be seen as someone who can help others and who has abilities.

Who are you actually?

Queen of Wands: You are meant to be passionate and ambitious. You are meant to be quite extroverted, with a radiant and friendly quality about you. At your core, you are a highly social creature, with a natural tendency to spread happiness and joy.

You also have a high sense of self-worth and will not let others belittle you. You aspire to be successful on a professional level — and almost always attain it

The Cyborg: The Cyborg is a transgressive blend of human and machine. In science fiction, the organic, human form can be supplemented with technological enhancement. As such, the Cyborg has the capacity for mechanical perfection, working in tandem with human thought, emotion, and values. While often a figure of fear for their ability to rewrite and surpass human flaws. The Cyborg may use their abilities for destruction, but can also offer a glimpse into a perfected human being who is able to transcend human history and work towards utopic harmony. You are meant to use your abilities of spreading happiness and joy for the greater good.

Remember that this is a general reading and some things may not apply to you. Do not try and force it to fit. If you would like a personal reading you can click here. There I have my shop where I offer all of my readings. Or you can dm me with what you'd like.

[oraclekleo]

Kleo + Park Jin Young (GOT7) Libido Reading

Hello and welcome!

I’m Kleo and I’m here to present some k-pop related tarot readings to you.

C'mon! I was curious! I had to do this!

Disclaimer:

I would like to state that all these readings have a purely entertainment nature and their purpose is to bring some fun into my and hopefully yours lives. I have never ever met any of the idols / actors / celebrities in my readings, I don’t know them personally. Tarot reading isn’t an exact science and I can never guarantee any of it. Most of it is my intuition mixed with fantasy. Don’t take these readings seriously and don’t base any important decisions on tarot readings only, use your common sense.

If you wish to request a tarot reading, please read the pinned post on my profile first to see the instructions on how to request. I only do readings for idols / actors / celebrities of 18 years of age or older. Requests for readings including younger people will be automatically dismissed. If you feel uncomfortable with these tarot readings, do not engage in reading my posts. Thank you for understanding.

Reading Info:

Rating: 18+

Reading Type: Single - Couple

Requested: Yes - No

Deck: E. A. Poe

Spread: Libido

Questions:

My position

Their position

My libido

Their libido

Chemistry

Kink

Full Name: Park Jin Young

Stage Name: Jinyoung

Group: GOT7

Park Jin Young

Kleo + Jinyoung (GOT7)

Deck: E. A. Poe

Spread: Libido

My position - III The Empress

I’m a sensible and nurturing dom in this relationship. I keep our home neat and organised, I cook and make sure everyone is healthy and happy. I’m creative and resourceful, I think outside the box and take pleasure in creating new things out of nothing. I like to pamper Jinyoung and crack his hard crust, making him all soft and dropping on his knees in front of me because soon he simply can’t live without my touch.

Their position - V The Hierophant

Jinyoung is the authoritative dom and he genuinely believes he runs the show, that he’s the head of the family and that he holds the reins of the relationship in his hands. He’s likely trying to boss me around and come up with whole lists of rules I should follow. Little he knows I’m creative enough to find all the loops. His rules get bent and eventually he’s the only one following them rigorously which makes him so vulnerable and predictable for me.

My libido - Knight of Pentacles

I'll likely stay cool for a long time, resisting his charms and carefully timing when to pretend to surrender in order to make the biggest impact. I go by meticulously crafted schedules in my head and I dose my attention and affection precisely to drive Jinyoung crazy, till he’s so horny he has no other option but to beg.

Their libido - 6 of Wands

Poor Jinyoung! Such an open book he is. He can’t hide how horny he is, his face tells everything. His dirty thoughts and fantasies are like an open book to me. His sex drive is strong and while he can control it to certain level, there are times when the tension makes him burst into flames and he can’t function before he reaches the release. He’s an avid and keen lover, he’s in the game to win and will do his utmost to give his lover the best ‘O’s in their life. Lucky me…

Chemistry - Ace of Cups

Despite the fact that we actually constantly try to manipulate each other and get an upper hand, the relationship as a whole works. As surprising as it can be, we just match each other, keep the spark alive through mind games and psychological wars. It’s all fun and games and in the bedroom we both like to take our time to do the other one properly and completely.

Kink - II The High Priestess

It’s likely we will both share a sweet spot for tantric sex. Something that requires self-discipline and can drag for hours and hours.

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[ursaminortarot]

I’m really fixated on romance right now for some reason, so here we are with a soulmate reading. I’m of the belief that we don’t just have romantic soulmates but platonic and familial ones as well. However, for this reading, I am choosing to focus solely on romance.

I’m experimenting with a new format. I linked each of the readings to a google doc, this is mostly because they ended up being way longer than I’d anticipated (story of my life). I also thought that it might be more organized to do it this way. I’d appreciate feedback on whether or not I should keep doing it.

Piles to choose from:

Pile 1 - Cobra

Pile 2 - Fish

Pile 3 - Cheetah

Pile 4 - Zebra

Pile 5 - Hawk

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[Decks Used: Modern Witch Tarot, Wild Unknown Tarot, Wild Unknown Animal Spirit oracle, Tarot Cats, standard playing cards, and a homemade oracle deck]

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Pile 1: Cobra

Who They Are:

Queen of Wands, 9 of Wands, 8 of Pentacles, King of Clubs

10 of Cups, 7 of Cups r, Justice r, 5 of Hearts

7 of Cups r, 9 of Pentacles r, 6 of Wands, 9 of Diamonds

Death r, 7 of Wands r, 8 of Wands r, Ace of Spades

The High Priestess, The Fool, The Hanged Man r, Ace of Hearts

Mother of Cups r

Winter+New Love

I’m getting some self-made energy here, they are likely a very hard worker who puts in a lot of time and energy. Their success, while appreciated, makes them feel very alone. There’s a lot of wands energy here, so they are generous with their money and it’s possible that other people take advantage of that. The Mother of Cups reversed reinforces this idea as she brings the message: “you give too much of yourself to others”.

The High Priestess, Fool, and Hanged Man being pulled together makes me think they function in two very different ways. Either, they overthink literally everything to the point of never making a decision, or they just do things very impulsively without a second thought.

They want a big, happy family, whatever that means to them. It could involve having children or just having a lot of pets. However, due to past relationships, they no longer feel as though they could trust anyone enough to live out that dream. 

They feel disillusioned with love, which gives them a lot of conflicting emotions. Because, again, there’s a lot of wands energy, so they’re a very passionate person. Their current belief that love isn’t real is a direct contradiction to who they are at their core. Winter and new love could be taken literally, like you’ll meet and fall in love with them in the winter. Or, if you wanted to look deeper at it, it could mean that you help them get out of this place of being unable to consider love.

How You Can Recognize Them:

8 of Cups r, Son of Wands, 7 of Wands r, King of Diamonds

5 of Pentacles, Father of Cups, 3 of Swords, Jack of Hearts

The Devil r, The Fool, The Devil, 2 of Spades

10 of Pentacles, The High Priestess r, Queen of Hearts

The Hermit, 7 of Pentacles r, 10 of Cups r, 7 of Diamonds

Hanged man, 4 of Cups r, 10 of Diamonds r

“You’re having trouble getting in touch with your emotions”

“You’re not seeing clearly”

Ex

This person has an unmistakable light about them. Being with them is like sitting outside on a nice day soaking up the sun. However, they are still holding on to the past, and this is to their detriment. When you meet them, if you haven’t already, they will be extremely hung up on their ex. They are going to be obsessing over what went wrong and whether or not they can fix it. I can’t tell if they want to fix it to get back together with their ex, because they think it will give them closure, or because they think it will help them avoid making the same mistakes in their next relationship. But, they also don’t actually want to fix anything because that would mean confronting their emotions and they would really rather not. They will likely seem to be existing outside of reality, they are going to be so distracted by this internal conflict that they aren’t going to notice the world around them.  

In all honesty, they will be very difficult for you to recognize. You’ll probably notice them because of their light, but you won’t (and shouldn’t) consider them a potential partner - at least not until they’ve dealt with their issues and moved on. I want to stress that while they are so focused on their past relationship(s), that’s not all they have going on. They are a 3 dimensional human being like the rest of us, but this is just the information I was able to get.

I also want to mention that their family is very important to them, they’re the type of person to call or text each member of their immediate family every day. I also get the impression that you two will be friends for a while before getting into a relationship. 

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Pile 2: Fish

Who They Are:

Queen of Swords, 9 of Wands, 9 of Cups r, The Tower r, Jack of Spades

King of Swords, Daughter of Wands, 3 of Pentacles, 8 of Diamonds

Judgment r, 2 of Cups r, Daughter of Swords r, The Chariot r, 3 of Spades

5 of Pentacles, Temperance, 7 of Wands, Jack of Hearts

The Emperor, 8 of Pentacles, The Magician r, Ace of Wands, 4 of Spades

“I’m sorry”

Best friends 

Between the Emperor and having all of the court cards of the Swords suit, this person has a very powerful presence. They’re almost the kind of person that makes people stop and stare, I say almost because they’re intimidating and people don’t want to be caught staring. Not intimidating in a scary way, they just - and I can’t stress this enough - exude power. They are also very ambitious and highly intelligent. So when they put their mind to something, they will execute it perfectly. Or, at least, they want people to think it was done perfectly. They have a very “everything’s under control” look to them, but they’re barely hanging on by a thread. I feel like one bad day would send them into an existential spiral, because they don’t know who they are if they’re not perfect. 

Nothing’s ever come easily to them and they’ve had to fight their whole life to get the things that they have now. They’ve never had the option of giving up. If they gave up, they were worthless, they were nothing - that’s how they’ve always seen it. I imagine there’s a lot of parental pressure at play here. It’s turned them into a workaholic, there’s no work-life balance to be found. I’m getting the impression that the “I’m sorry” card has to do with this aspect of their life. 

The “best friends” card speaks for itself. With the Jack of Hearts and Daughter of Wands, there’s a playful energy to them. But these are the only cards pointing this out, which tells me that they restrain this part of themself. I think that you being their friend, as well as their partner, will show them that they don’t need to be so serious all the time. This is something buried so deep it’ll need some time and energy to be coaxed out of them.  

This is pretty obvious, but this person’s biggest fear is failure.

How You Can Recognize Them:

Knight of Wands r, 4 of Wands r, 8 of Cups, 9 of Swords

King of Pentacles, The Moon r, 7 of Swords r, Queen of Spades

5 of Pentacles, Mother of Swords, Queen of Wands, 4 of Hearts

Queen of Cups, Daughter of Swords r, Knight of Wands

7 of Cups r, Son of Swords, 4 of Pentacle, 5 of Diamonds

The World r, 9 of Wands r, 8 of Hearts r

You feel as if you aren’t getting the recognition you deserve

Seperation

We’re definitely seeing their more sensitive, playful aspects. However, these are still vastly overpowered by their Swords energy as, once again, all the court cards are out - the Queen’s out twice. Seriously, this person has such powerful energy that it’s the first thing you notice.

I feel like you’ll meet either at work or at school, somewhere where you’re working on a group project together. The people you’re working with aren’t going to take your contributions seriously. But, once they realize you’re right, they’ll claim they were  their ideas all along. The Swords family is very fair-minded, so I think this person’s going to have a problem with that.  

They have this very detached, uninterested persona and once you’ve spent time around your soulmate, you’re going to pick up on the fact that they are deeper than they want people to think they are. When they’re more comfortable with you, which will take some time, you might catch glimpses of them being competitive/hot-headed or they’ll start making jokes around you. If you’re patient enough, they’ll eventually be vulnerable with you.

They have a fear of the unknown and love is foreign to them, so this is definitely a slow-burn. 

In both of these readings I got a wave of pretty interesting energy. It wasn’t anxiety or dizziness, but felt similar to both. I felt like I lost my balance, that’s probably how you'll make this person feel. They have a lot of plans for life and you’re not one of them, so they’ll be thrown for a loop. 

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Pile 3: Cheetah:

Who They Are:

Page of Swords r, Son of Cups, The Hierophant, 9 of Clubs

Page of Wands, Mother of Wands r, Page of Cups r, 4 of Hearts

9 of Cups, The Tower, 2 of Swords, 2 of Cups, Ace of Clubs

Queen of Wands r, The Chariot r, Queen of Pentacles, 4 of Spades

Knight of Pentacles, Ace of Wands, Emperor r,  6 of Clubs

8 of Cups, King of Wands

You can’t help everyone

Over-investment in work

Aries

The first thing that I’m seeing is that this person will probably have some self-esteem issues. It seems to be tied to their abilities more so than appearance.

They have a lot of ideas for projects that they want to work on, but they never seem to start anything, let alone finish. I think this is because they try to be everything to everyone and don’t prioritize themself. They find contentment in the idea that everybody likes them, but this can make them a people pleaser. This can lead to them taking on long hours at work to make their boss happy. It’s also unrealistic because there’s not a person on Earth that’s universally liked. I think this is something they’ll come to realize in their own time.

They may come across as indecisive at times, they aren’t. They always know exactly what they want, but can have a hard time asserting themself. 

There’s a fire that burns bright here, this person has a lot of drive and ambition. This is where that aries energy comes in, they don’t have to have aries placements so please don’t get fixated on that. But, like I said before, they hold themself back by prioritizing other people and neglecting their own needs. They have the potential to be really successful, however they need to start putting themself first. 

This seems like a very sensitive individual, just the thought of doing something under-handed stresses them out. Which is a good thing for other people, because your soulmate’s very charming and could probably talk themself out of anything.

For some reason I get the impression that they have a bit of a sweet tooth.

How You Can Recognize Them:

2 of Swords r, The Empress, Queen of Cups, 3 of Hearts

9 of Pentacles r, Judgment r, The Moon, 10 of Spades

The Fool, Mother of Wands r, Hierophant r, Jack of Diamonds

The Chariot r, The Hermit, 4 of Wands, Joker B&W r

3 of Pentacles, 4 of Wands r, Knight of Wands, 4 of Spades

King of Cups r, The Magician r

You’re having trouble getting in touch with your emotions

September

Think before you speak

Let’s start with the reinforcements of their self-esteem issues, as well as their people pleasing tendencies. It’s exhausting for them, emotionally and physically. They are well and truly holding themself back, and I think that by the time you meet them they’ll be starting to examine these aspects of themself. This will be something they struggle with for a while and there may be a period of time where they withdraw to think things through.  

The joker in black and white in standard decks is my fool reversed card, but it’s reversed so its the fool reversed reversed. The fool upright, I feel like there could have been a simpler way for my cards to get that message to me. But I also feel like it represents the way your person talks to themself, they make everything just a little bit more complicated than it needs to be. They think in circles, eventually getting to the point but it may take them a while. This may be a contributing factor to their perceived indecisiveness. 

 They want to make a home with you. I get the impression that when talking about it with you, they’ll appear to be cool and collected. Like it’s not a big deal to them. But then they’ll turn around and shout it from the rooftops. It won’t be possible for people to not know you’re together, they’ll just be so loud about it. 

Outside of the need to make everybody like them, they’re a pretty care-free individual. It will be important to them that you have fun together. I think this playfulness is their most defining feature and probably the first thing people notice about them.  

In the first two piles, it looked like they’d be friends for a while before getting into a relationship with their person. That’s not the case here, like I said before, when this person knows, they know. They’re not going to waste time with you.  

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Pile 4: Zebra

Who They Are:

The Fool, The Hanged Man,  Queen of Swords, Ace of Clubs

6 of Swords r, 2 of Wands, The Hanged Man, Ace of Hearts

Ace of Cups, Mother of Pentacles r, 4 of Wands, Jack of Spades,

3 of Swords r, The Magician, 10 of Pentacles, Queen of Cups r, Jack of Diamonds

3 of Cups, The High Priestess, Strength, The Fool r, King of Spades

Soulmate 

Hostile

May

The first thing I’m picking up on is that your soulmate is someone who is very carefree. They also have a lot of romantic energy to them, so they are definitely a hopeless romantic.

The amount of Major Arcana here tells me that this person is likely very spiritually gifted, they might not be consciously aware of this.

This person is kind of a go-getter. Once they decide they want something, nothing’s getting in their way.

There are some conflicting energies here because as happy and carefree as they are, there’s an equal amount of pain and hardship. This is someone who’s faced a lot of hostility, so at first will be fairly guarded. They love the idea of being in love, but have difficulties opening themself up to the reality of love. It’s not all bad, they are making an active effort to heal and not let past heartbreak hold them back.

With the Magician and High Priestess facing each other, this is someone who is likely very in touch with their spirituality. Not only are they able to  trust their intuition, but they also have everything that they need to follow it. Once they have a gut feeling about something, whatever it is, they will trust it more than they’ll trust you, and be right 90% of the time.

 They are very compassionate and probably are used to giving more than they take, which gets them taken advantage of. Part of their growth is going to be finding a balance in this aspect of their life. 

This is someone who values family and most likely wants some kind of family unit, whether that be having children or pets. 

The month of May might be important, it could be when you meet or one of you could be a Taurus or a Gemini.

How You Can Recognize Them:

Ace of Cups, 3 of Pentacles r, 8 of Wands, 2 of Swords

Page of Cups, Justice r, 5 of Cups, 7 of Clubs

King of Pentacles, 10 of Cups, Strength r, 2 of Diamonds

2 of Pentacles r, 9 of Cups r, Queen of Wands, King of Diamonds

Death, The Hierophant, Page of Wands, 9 of Spades 

Sensitive

Peaceful

There’s still time to change your mind.

One of their prominent characteristics is their sensitivity. This doesn’t mean that they’re crybabies, they are just very mindful of everybody's feelings. This paired with what we learned about the painful parts of their past probably makes them a little insecure. This insecurity is only a problem when it comes to relationships. They may come across as very confident and flirty, but as soon as it moves past that they start clamming up and getting nervous. It could be bad enough that they have a hard time believing that you actually want to be with them.

They invest a lot of time into their projects, whether work related or personal. It’s likely that they struggle with finding a work-life balance. This is someone who needs to feel productive at every moment of the day. They keep themself busy so that they don’t need to be alone with their thoughts. This isn’t someone that knows peace. It is something they’d like to experience, but they don’t know how to. They have too many thoughts and can’t quiet their mind, their inner-demons get the best of them at times. This isn’t something they express outwardly though, everyone around them probably sees them as someone who, while busy, is fairly laid back. They need a lot of guidance here so if you’re someone who meditates, this could be something you help them with.

It’ll be easiest for you to recognize them based on their sensitivity and active lifestyle. They will be extremely helpful to their friends and family, and would drop everything to be there if needed. They are also, surprisingly down-to-earth. 

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Pile 5: Hawk

Who They Are:

5 of Cups, Judgment, Queen of Wands, Queen of Spades

Knight of Wands r, 10 of Wands r, 5 of Pentacles r, 3 of Diamonds

7 of Cups r, The Fool r, 10 of Pentacles, King of Spades

2 of Swords r, 9 of Cups, 3 of Cups r, 3 of Spades

The High Priestess r, 3 of Pentacles, Magician r, 9 of Diamonds

“You’re my everything.”

You need to hold yourself to more reasonable standards.

This is someone with a lot of pain, they are overwhelmed and feel defeated. I’m getting the impression that it has to do primarily with work/co-workers. It could be that they put a lot of themself into their work and seem to always get passed up for promotions, or they could have even been recently laid off. They’re very ambitious and intelligent, so if they did get laid off, it would be a big hit to their ego. Alternatively, they could have almost reached a long-standing dream, only for it to fall apart at the last second. 

Your soulmate has a lot of fiery passion that they don’t always know what to do with, so they turn everything into a competition. The thing is, they’re only competing with themself. They’re always trying to be better than they were yesterday, even when it’s unrealistic. 

As passionate as they are, they can be very patient when it comes to getting what they want. They know that not everything can be rushed, even if that’s frustrating to them. They try to avoid making reckless mistakes, but sometimes this can lead to them not making decisions in a timely manner. 

They value family and friends greatly, this could be the most important part of their life to them. They’ll test you to see if you can gain the approval of their loved ones. If you don’t, they may begin to have second thoughts. This is a soulmate though, so you’ll likely be very compatible and win everyone over with relative ease. 

How You Can Recognize Them:

5 of Pentacles, The Moon, 4 of Swords, 5 of Clubs

King of Pentacles, Judgment, 5 of Swords r, King of Wands r, 7 of Diamonds

2 of Swords r, Daughter of Pentacles, 5 of Pentacles r, 3  of Clubs

Temperance r, Son of Wands r, High Priestess r, 7 of Swords r, Jack of Clubs 

6 of Swords r, The Tower r, Page of Pentacles r, 5 of Hearts

You are not seeing clearly

Hesitant

When You meet this person, they will be coming out of a very rough period of their life. They are going to be at the start of their healing journey and they won’t have a lot of time or energy for romance. They’re likely very hard on themself, they don’t want to be seen as weak so they don’t express negative emotions. This is something they have to confront in order to heal.

They are going to be in a complicated headspace, there’s going to be difficulty separating the past from the present, and there’s not a lot of balance between their spiritual and physical lives. They either reject the spiritual to embrace the material world, or neglect their physical well-being and focus solely on their spiritual self. 

You know how some people use their trauma as an excuse to inflict pain on others? This person’s the opposite of that, everything they’ve gone through has made them a patient, compassionate person. This will probably be one of the first things you notice about them, how kind they are. They are also very dependable, they’ve experienced going through hard times alone and don’t want anyone else to feel like they have to. 

Overall, they come across as a very good human being, but there’s an underlying tiredness to them. They might be dealing with a little bit of brain fog, so at times they’re slow to process the world around them.

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🌷 April Tarotscopes Readings 🌷

Happy April! Read these tarotscopes for your sun, moon, rising, and Venus signs to see what this month has in store for you 🌫️



Aries

Two of Swords, Reversed

You already know the decision you need to make. You've been pulled between these two choices for a while now, but you've been too afraid to make the one you want to make. The way is clear for change now. No matter how afraid you are, you need to make the decision now or you will find yourself trapped and unhappy in your current situation. Make the choice. Create the change. It's time.



Taurus

The Tower

Big change is coming to you this April, but don't panic. So often the premature panic surrounding the appearance of the Tower card is what does most of the damage. Submit to the change; when things fall apart, it's only so something new can be rebuilt. Big things are coming your way, but your life doesn't have room for them all without clearing out some of the old. Change is good. Change is a natural part of life, so let everything go so you can rebuild something greater.



Gemini

Justice

All that is meant to be will be. All that is meant to pass will pass. You will get what you deserve, one way or another - and you deserve good things. No matter your circumstance, you deserve good things. Just make sure you continue to be deserving of them. Justice is a double-edged sword; lashing out at others unfairly in the meantime won't do you any favors (and might cut much needed ties). You're on the right path, so trust that you will receive what you deserve. Good things will come your way; just wait.



Cancer

King of Pentacles

The wealth you need is coming. It may not come in the expected way, but it is coming. Abundance is yours; peace is yours. Claim it. You will have what you need and more, whether that's through an actual influx of cash this month or the beginning of a new relationship that provides stability. Either way, this month, everything starts to change for you. There will still be struggle down the road, but this is the beginning of the quality of life change you've so desperately needed. Accept it with open arms when it comes.



Leo

Page of Pentacles

Your path isn't over; in fact, it's just beginning. That may feel overwhelming, but see it for what it is: a blank slate of new opportunity. You have the potential for so much growth. You can create this new life for yourself from what you have already been given, so trust the path. Growth is necessary to proceed, so take a quiet moment to ask yourself: What's next? What can be changed, and what needs to be left behind? Abandoning part of yourself may seem terrifying, but in the end, it'll all be worth it. Start your new beginning with joy for what's to come.



Virgo

Six of Wands

This message for you is incredibly urgent: Stop second guessing yourself, or you might find yourself faced with the unintended consequences of your own self-doubt. You are finding success on your path; who cares how other people define it as long as you, yourself, are happy? Trust your instincts. Charge forward with power and faith in what you're doing; nothing can get in your way but yourself.



Libra

Knight of Swords

The time for talking is over; the time for action is now. What's the point of talk if you don't back it up? You can't claim one thing and behave completely contrary to that. That's falsehood, not balance. Keeping the peace doesn't mean taking the path of least resistance, it means doing what's right even when it's hard. Do what's right. Shift your path accordingly; this is your sign for change.



Scorpio

Nine of Wands

You've just begun, and already you're burning out. Don't worry, though: you're far more resilient than even you realize. You have the strength to push through, so finish this out. And whatever you do, don't take on any more projects - you have more than enough on your plate as it is! Finish out what you have before you go back for seconds. I promise there will be time for everything you want to accomplish, so there's no need to rush it all at once. Take your time and finish strong; then, you'll be more than ready to move on to the next chapter. Getting ahead of yourself will only overcomplicate things.



Sagittarius

Queen of Wands

There's a lot of anxiety here, but what's its root? Have more confidence in yourself on this. Trust that you know how to get things done. You already have the inner drive and fire to complete your goals, so what's making you falter? If it's lack of confidence in yourself, it's time to find it; if it's lack of confidence in those around you, maybe you need to change your inner circle. Either way, you know the way forward - all that's left is to take it. Trust yourself; you know what to do next. You've already gotten things started. All that's left is to finish it out.



Capricorn

Eight of Pentacles

You're working so hard towards your goals; don't let up now! You've put in the time and careful, delicate effort towards this, so don't back out at the last second just because you're worried it might not be all you hoped. You're moving towards even better things, so keep working. You'll get there sooner than you think, but if you stop too soon, you might find yourself stopping just short of all you've ever wanted. Keep working; you're almost there!



Aquarius

Five of Cups, Reversed

It's okay to mourn; just remember that not everything is lost forever. There's always a chance to recover what you lost in some form or another. Things don't have to be as they once were. So often, change is for the better, so don't be afraid to take a couple steps back to move forward once more. Remember all you've learned, but don't let the ghost of the past hang over you as you move forward. Change the meaning of the words and find what is forgotten once more.



Pisces

Three of Cups

All will be well. You're going to find the community you've been searching for this April, so open yourself up to the chance to meet new people. Let yourself feel faith in others once more; yes, you've been hurt, but remember that everyone has. Everyone has their own demons. They are no less because of it, and neither are you. Search for function in a friend group rather than perfection. Shallow relationships have their time and place, but that's not what you need right now. Release all that, and look for something real.

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Post-Destroy Ending

I bring from the grave of the beyond a fix-it fic serving up fresh angst and some fluff. Mass Effect destroyed my heart and with that major fucking cliffhanger, I just had to write something. But since there's a lot, I decided to break this up into chapters. Well, who knows how many chapters there will be, but just stick around I'm sure you'll have a great time. My writing is still rusty as hell, but I needed to get SOMETHING out. Anyways enjoy this! It's also on AO3 if you want that link.

Go!

It was the last thing she had ordered when she ran off into the jaws of death. He hated watching her go. Hated seeing her run back towards the beam with Harbinger raining down death. Tali had to tear him away from watching her run, dragging him back into the Normandy.

Garrus was on his fourth bottle of alcohol. The other three bottles were littered across Shepard’s nameplate. He ran his fingers across each letter of her name. It had been a couple weeks and Garrus still refused to put her name on the memorial wall. He couldn’t bring himself to do it. And he sure as hell wasn’t letting someone else do it.

They were still grounded on the uncharted world they had crashed into after the blast from the Citadel. While the Normandy was relatively fine, there were still some repairs that had to be made. There was also the issue with EDI. When the blast caused the Normandy to crash, EDI had suddenly collapsed, no longer functioning. Whatever the blast was, it didn’t kill just the Reapers.

The mass relays were destroyed, comm buoys were in pieces, so communication was very limited. Whatever happened back on Earth, whether people had recovered or not, was not making it to the Normandy anytime soon. The Reapers were defeated, but at what cost?

The door to the lounge opened and Liara sat next to Garrus. She grabbed a bottle of wine and began to pour herself a glass. “How are you feeling?” she asked, taking a sip.

Garrus grumbled to himself. He was drunk, his mind fuzzy and numb. “I’m fine,” he mumbled.

Liara nodded, not buying his story, but knew he hadn’t been okay in a while. “Tali has been working on EDI. She also brought Glyph back. In return, Glyph has been helping Tali with bringing EDI back,” Liara explained, hoping some good news would brighten his mood.

He looked at her, his face plates shifting. Part of him was annoyed that she would bring that up, knowing the possibility of Shepard truly being gone was most likely. But he was happy for Joker at the very least. “That’s good,” he mumbled, returning to his drink.

Liara frowned, worry crossing her face. “Garrus...I know you’re hurting, but...” Liara stopped herself. She didn’t know what to say. “I’m sorry, Garrus. I know Joker has been talking about trying to make it back to Earth. But with the mass relays out, who knows how long it’ll be until we get there. Communications have been scrambled too.” Liara put a hand on his back. “It’s going to be okay Garrus. I promise.”

He stayed silent. He had nothing to say. He wanted to go back to Earth, back to the Citadel. He wouldn’t put Shepard’s name on the memorial wall until he had seen her cold corpse himself.

After a few minutes of silence, Liara finally decided it would be best to leave the turian to his sulking. She left with comforting parting words.

༻✧༺

“There’s a body over here!”

Her head was pounding. There were noises. Faint. Distant. Her body burned, stung, felt battered and bruised. She was breathing, but it stung. The voices came closer. She could no longer make out words, but she saw blinding lights come into view. She felt a weight lift from her, probably some rubble, and she couldn’t make out any faces. There were just blurred shapes and bright lights.

“Holy shit, it’s Commander Shepard!”

More shapes rushed over to her. Rubble was being dragged off of her. The light began to fade, her breathing slowing. She felt something cover her nose and mouth. Air filled her easily now. Her eyes fluttered shut and the noise faded away.

༻✧༺

“EDI!” Joker cried out as the robot sat up, blinking. He hugged her, tears forming in his eyes.

“Hello, Jeff,” EDI replied, slightly confused. She returned the hug, tentatively patting his back. He moved out of the way, allowing her to stand on her feet. “What happened?” she asked, looking around the room. She was in the AI core, Tali, Liara, and Glyph all stationed behind Joker, watching with held breaths as she was brought back to life.

“The blast from the Citadel took you out,” Joker explained, his arms on her shoulders. “But the Reapers were taken down too. Tali and Glyph have been working day in and day out to bring you back.”

EDI looked back at Tali and Glyph and smiled. “Thank you, you two. I did not realize I had...died.” EDI looked down at her hands, stretching her robotic fingers. “It felt like I had just stopped working. There was no afterlife.”

Joker put a finger under her chin, lifting her eyes to meet his. “It’s okay, you’re here now.” She smiled and took his hand.

“So what did I miss?” she asked, as they left the AI core. Awkward glances were shared between Tali and Liara.

Joker cleared his throat and took EDI to the bridge of the ship, letting her settle back into her usual co-pilot seat. The door to the cockpit closed as Tali and Liara stepped in. “Shepard activated the Crucible,” Joker began to explain. “Whatever it did, it destroyed the Reapers and other synthetic lives including you. But it also destroyed the mass relays and left comm buoys in scrambles. We’ve been stuck on an uncharted world for about a month now, trying to get you working again.”

“We didn’t feel safe, nor comfortable, taking off without you working again,” Liara added, offering a small smile to EDI. “That and the fact that the Normandy is currently offline.”

“You keep the Normandy in full function,” Tali tagged on.

Joker nodded. “Now that you’re back online, we’re hoping to make it back to Earth. The only issue with that is...”

“We don’t know how far away we are, nor how long would it take, or if we could even get there via FTL,” Liara explained, her voice low and sad.

“Is there a specific reason to going back to Earth?” EDI asked, pure innocence and naiveness in her robotic eyes.

Joker looked at Tali and Liara, asking for some backup with his eyes. Tali rubbed her hands together nervously. “We want to try and find Shepard.”

EDI tilted her head. “Is Shepard alive?”

The three of them exchanged looks once more. “We...we don’t know,” Liara sighed. “But Garrus seems determined to find out.”

EDI lowered her head. “Oh. Right. Garrus and Shepard were in a romantic relationship weren’t they?” Everyone nodded. “I will begin to run diagnostics on the ship then, to see what repairs will be required to get us off the ground once more,” EDI said, more optimistic and hopeful. It seemed to work as Joker, Tali, and Liara smiled a little more.

“I’ll let Garrus know,” Liara said before leaving the cockpit. She went to the crew deck, in the lounge looking for Garrus, but he wasn’t there. She went to the other side, the starboard observatory, but he wasn’t there either. She went to the main battery, wondering if he had gone back to calibrating to distract him, but he wasn’t there either. Liara could think of only one other place he would be grieving in.

As she suspected, the door to Shepard’s cabin was open, a somber tune of a piano playing through the speakers as she stepped out of the elevator. Laying on the bed was Garrus, a picture in his hand. Liara could tell it was the picture of the Normandy crew they had taken back on the Citadel. “Good news, Garrus,” Liara greeted, standing next to the fish tank. He looked up at her, his mandibles parting in curiosity. “EDI is back online. She is going to run a systems check and see what it will take to get us back to Earth.”

Garrus sat up, putting the picture on one of the bedside tables. “That’s what everyone wants to do?” he asked, not looking at her, still looking at the picture.

Liara moved closer, sitting on the end of the bed. “Garrus, you’re not the only one who wants to find Shepard. I, for one, do not want to see her name on that wall either. I want to at least see her body if she is...gone.”

Garrus snorted. “Weren’t you the one who recovered her body last time? After the Normandy’s first destruction?”

Liara nodded. “I was. Until I found her, I never lost hope. Even when I recovered her body, I still didn’t lose hope, especially since Cerberus planned to bring her back. I thought it was crazy, but they did it.” Liara smirked. “Death and Shepard are not good friends. She defies him at every turn.”

“I just...I don’t want to put her name on that damned wall. Because if I do, then it may be as well saying she’s gone. I...can’t accept that.” Garrus’s voice faltered, weak and strained. Liara couldn’t hear his sub-vocal very well, but she knew it was worse than his regular voice. She knew the pain of losing Shepard would be hard on him.

“Then let’s hope we can make it to Earth soon,” Liara comforted, putting a reassuring hand on his shoulder.

He silently nodded as she left the cabin.

༻✧༺

Another month had passed by, the Normandy was still grounded, but basic functions were online. Power kept the basic necessities alive, powering Liara’s room where she spent most of her time, using her Shadow Broker resources trying to gauge the aftermath of the Reaper War. No matter how much she tried to get any information, with comm buoys out of commission and them being on an uncharted world, anything she received was scarce at best. She still had received no status about the Citadel, Earth, or what state the galactic civilization was in. The only information she could glean, was what everyone already knew; the Reapers were dead and the mass relays were broken.

Voices were raised in concern about food supplies. There was still plenty of food for everyone, including Tali and Garrus, but supplies would run out soon if they didn’t restock. James, Cortez, Tali, Garrus, and Javik all decided to explore the uncharted world in hopes to find some food. Tali had a scanner in her suit that could identify whether something was poisonous and dextro-friendly or not. The only thing they had managed to find was some berries for everyone except the quarian and turian.

“Great, we’re going to be living off berries,” James groaned, picking the bright red fruits from the bush Tali had just scanned.

“Be lucky we found anything at all,” Tali retorted. “Garrus and I still have to find food that we can eat.”

“To be fair, you guys are the only dextros on board so you’re not going through your supply as fast,” Cortez pointed out.

“Hopefully we won’t run out in general,” Garrus said, looking aimlessly at the horizon. The system’s sun was equal to the sun, Sol, providing the same warmth and light on this world’s surface.

“If we do run out of food, we can just eat one another,” Javik suggested. Everyone turned and looked at the Prothean.

“Of course the Prothean would say that,” James cackled. “Talking about salarian soup and shit.”

“Let’s try to avoid that outcome,” Cortez suggested.

The idle conversation continued as the group continued looking for more food.

“Liara.” EDI stepped into the Shadow Broker’s cabin, her arms behind her back as she waited patiently for the asari to notice her.

“What is it EDI?” Liara looked up from her computer screen, frustration painted on her face.

“I found something. Upon doing an internal scan of the Normandy, I discovered a signal that was sent about two months ago. A distress signal,” EDI explained.

Liara looked at EDI in curious surprise. “Oh?”

EDI motioned for Liara to follow back up to the bridge of the Normandy. Joker was sitting in his pilot’s seat, the seat turned to face the door of the cockpit. His hands were templed together and worry was bright across his face. “Jeff and I have already listened to the signal. I had to clear it up in order to understand it since the signal was so ruined.” EDI explained as she stood next to Joker.

“Keep in mind, it’s two months old,” Joker grumbled as EDI used her omni-tool to play the signal.

There was a lot of crackling in the beginning and then a cough. “Help...” Liara strained to listen to the static in the voice. “This is...Com...mander...Shep...ard. I’m...still alive...Please help...” The signal cut off then with one more cough from the sender.

Liara’s eyes widened as EDI and Joker looked up at her to gauge her reaction. “Don’t get your hopes up. The signal is two months old,” Joker repeated.

“Do you...do you know if this signal was received by anyone else?” Liara asked, her voice soft and quiet. It was hard to determine what her reaction was.

“No. As I said, I just received this signal when I was doing diagnostics on the Normandy,” EDI answered. “I cannot determine if the signal was sent to any available ships or if it was sent to the Normandy specifically.”

Liara crossed her arms, bringing a hand to her chin, stroking it thoughtfully. There was a reason Joker reiterated the fact that the signal was two months old. With no knowledge of whether or not the signal was received by anyone else, there was no guaranteeing Shepard was alive. Liara sighed. “There’s nothing we can do about it. But whatever you do, don’t show it to Garrus. Unless we can find out whether or not the signal was received by someone else, there is no reason to bank our hopes on this.”

Joker nodded. “I agree. And honestly, Liara? As much as I want to hope...I don’t think she made it.”

Liara smiled sadly. “We can only hope she did, Jeff.”

༻✧༺

Not sure if turian heaven is the same as yours, but if this thing goes sideways and we both end up there...meet me at the bar.

She was standing in the forest. There was no child there this time. No copy of herself. She was alone. There were voices surrounding her. She looked around. Her body didn’t hurt. She couldn’t feel anything. There was a bar on the opposite end of the forest. She could have sworn she saw a turian sitting on one of the stools, a bottle in its hand.

Her legs began moving, but like all the other dreams, she moved slowly, felt weighed down by a crushing force of gravity, moving impossibly slow.

Shepard.

She heard his voice again. All around the forest. She reached out towards the turian sitting at the bar. She wanted to call out for him, but her throat tightened and no sound escaped. Fire started to form around the turian and the bar.

Not again. Please. Not again.

Come back alive. It’d be an awfully empty galaxy without you.

The flames consumed the bar and the turian, just as his head turned to look at her; the blue eyes, the blue colony marking across his face, his visor, his mandibles parting at the sight of her.

We’re in this until the end.

She tried crying out, but the flames consumed him and the noise of the Reapers echoed all around her. A bright flash of red came into her view. She felt sluggish as she brought her arms up in a futile attempt to block the beam from disintegrating her. But the pain never hit.

༻✧༺

Six months had passed since the Reaper War ended. Food supplies had started to run short, even for the dextros on the Normandy. Despite all the exploring the adventuring party had done, they still found nothing more except for berries for everyone else. However, progress on getting the Normandy back online was going well. EDI had predicted that the Normandy would be airborne within the week.

The mood on the ship was tense. Everyone was excited to be airborne again. Garrus still kept Shepard’s nameplate close to him. People stopped talking about the possibilities of Shepard’s fate, not wanting to further upset the turian and the rest of her close friends. Games of poker were used to distract crew members from the low running food supplies and the restlessness of being grounded for so long on an uncharted world.

“Man I can’t wait to get the hell off this planet,” James chattered, fixing himself a plate of berry flavored scrap food. “We’re pretty much out of food and have been surviving off of berries and MREs for six goddamn months. We haven’t been getting nearly enough proteins we need in a daily meal.” He sat down at the lunch table where the other crew members sat. Tali and Garrus looked at him pointedly. He lifted his shoulders. “What? You guys still have food.”

Tali scoffed. “Barely. There wasn’t that much dextro-food compared to your guys’ food. So we started running out around the same time you guys did.”

Cortez smiled, offering some hope around the table. “It’s okay guys. EDI said we should be taking off here soon.”

“Yes, but how long until we get to a known system?” James countered. “The mass relays are still screwed and we haven’t even received communications in forever.”

“Not to worry,” piped the synthetic voice of EDI who had just rounded the corner of the mess room. Liara stood next to her, a small smile on her face. “Communications have been reestablished.”

Liara sighed softly. “The only problem is that the communications we do receive are delayed. Say, if something was sent four months ago, we would just be receiving it now, or later. So any news we do get is going to be late.”

“Fantastic,” Garrus mumbled, looking down at his plate. He had barely touched his food and Tali was half-tempted to snag what he didn’t eat.

“Getting communications up at all is a start,” EDI admitted. “As I said, it shouldn’t be long before I can get the Normandy back into full motion.”

“Please hurry,” James begged, leaning back in his chair. “I’m sick and tired of this planet. If we had more resources, I wouldn’t mind living here. But I’m gonna lose it if I managed to survive the Reapers just to die to starvation six months later.”

Cortez raised a glass towards James. “Cheers to that.”

Liara rolled her eyes just as Specialist Traynor rushed around the corner. “Everyone! Come quick! I just received a message from Admiral Hackett!”

Everyone perked up a bit at that statement. Most of the communications they received were garbage or were so insignificant that Liara had immediately deleted them. But a message from Admiral Hackett? This had to be good.

Everyone rushed to the elevator, cramming inside of it before stepping out into the CIC. Traynor rushed over to her computer and pulled up the message. “I haven’t listened to it yet, I just saw who it was from and decided to call everyone up.” Joker was leaning on the opposite side of Traynor, by Shepard’s personal computer. There was a glint of hope in his eyes at the news of the message from Hackett.

Admiral Hackett played a huge part in the Reaper War, commanding the forces that brought the Crucible to the Citadel. If he was sending a message directly to the Normandy, then hopefully it was good news. Or news in general.

The message came up, but the frequency was all scrambled, too much static to even hear words. A few tweaks later and the old man’s voice finally came through.

“Normandy. This is Admiral Hackett. With the comm buoys in disarray and mass relays destroyed, I don’t know if and when this message will reach you, but you need to come back to Earth as soon as possible. Do whatever the hell you have to to make it back.” There was a pause in the message as everyone looked at each other. Then the voice spoke again and the words that came out struck everyone.

“We found Commander Shepard. She’s alive.”

[absconditum-imaginaerum]

Off Limits | Juyeon

Juyeon | Off Limits Words | 4,900 Notes | Professional!AU, Female!reader, in which the reader attends a work party with Juyeon whose coworkers can’t help but approach. Notes of relationship issues and jealousy, but only minor. Fluff with a dash of angst. 

Summer was the busiest part of the year at work for Juyeon. Summer kept him away from home a lot, kept him occupied when he was at home a lot; it was a time when the highest amount of trading and activity took place within the business he worked, so summer was pretty much an all-hands-on-deck for as long as possible three-month-long event. He was lucky to have someone as understanding, and patient, and compassionate as you by his side to come home to every night. The biggest perk of this job, you claimed, were the elaborate and expensive dinner parties that were thrown at the end of summer to celebrate a job well done, to commend everyone who stuck through it for all their hard work and for surviving yet another year—for those who had been there for a while, including Juyeon. Naturally, you were his plus one to these events, and what a happy significant other you were.

A soft touch slithered across Juyeon’s middle as he stood in front of the mirror in the bathroom, fixing up some final things while his tie hung around his neck, intending on being the last thing finished before heading out. Aside from feeling them, he could see your hands in the mirror slip around his middle while a soft smile tugged at the corner of his lips. His large hands, warm and inviting, engulfed yours against his middle with the intent to relish you half pressed against his back for a little while longer before you were tugging your hands out from under his. Finally, he turned around to face you, and you looked him over.

He donned a suit that was somewhere between baby blue and light gray, it could be mistaken as both in any change of light, and a printed shirt that definitely pushed some values of blue, which made his suit appear far more blue than it was. You eyed the tie hanging around his neck while you could feel his eyes look you over—noting every detail of your patchwork lace topped dress, elegant yet simple, knee length flare at the bottom and the baby blue ribbon that hung untied around your waist.  

You ignored the way he moistened his lips for a moment, tapping your index finger against your chin as you thought about what to put in place of his tie while he begged to kiss you. His mouth was in view, so it was hard to miss the way his jaw shifted, the way his lips puckered trying to bring your eyes a little bit higher. You tugged the tie from around his neck, completely dismissing his otiose attempts and disappeared back into the bedroom to return with a small gold chain that would fit nicely in the button holes of his button-down shirt, but not without listening to the way he pouted from the bathroom awaiting your return.  After affixing the chain around his neck, you placed both your hands against his chest and leaned up as far as you could to place a chaste kiss against his pleading lips before turning him around so he could see your work.

“It’s a work party, but it can’t be all business,” you muttered from behind him while you watched him reach up to touch his new accessory that went with his suit a lot better than any tie he would be able to find in the closet.

“How is it you always know just what’s needed to bring everything together?” he asked, slowly turning himself around again to lean up against the countertop, but not without taking the two long strands of cloth ribbon that dangled playfully around your hips up into his hands to tie the most immaculate bow you’d never be able to do on yourself—that was good enough replacement for not getting to tie some complex knot he’d seen on the internet days prior.  “And you always have just the right amount of subtlety to make us match,” he added with a smile, taking both of your unsuspecting cheeks with both of his hands to place another kiss against your mouth, unsatisfied with the first one, before kissing your forehead.

“We’d better go so we’re not too late; and while I don’t like the idea, we’re supposed to mingle, but if any one of my coworkers so much as looks at you sideways—”

“Darling,” you cut him off, “it will be fine; I can take care of myself.”

“Sometimes, I don’t want you to have to take care of yourself, especially at my work function,” he almost growled, pinpointing the exact guys who would most likely cause problems in his mind so he could be prepared.

You cupped a hand around the back of his neck, albeit he was quite a bit taller than you, and gently tugged him down enough to press a soft and lingering kiss against his forehead. “You worry too much; let’s get going,” you muttered into his skin before turning to leave him in the bathroom to follow you out.

Juyeon had never mentioned anything to his coworkers about a long-term significant other, so arriving with you was a bit interesting. You put on your best jovial smile, trying to leave a good first impression to anyone you met coming through the door to the ballroom the function was taking place in. There were decorations littered about, big congratulations signs with balloons—the works for a half-decent celebration.  In the back on a buffet table was an assortment of hors d’oeuvres, appetizers, finger-foods, charcuterie, and anything alike that a handful of people were picking over.  While Juyeon had already gotten caught up with a coworker as they exchanged sighs of relief about the most intense quarter of the year finally being over for the most part, you made your way to the punch table to help yourself to half a can of grapefruit sparkling water.

“When I said mingle, I didn’t mean ditch me right away,” he muttered from your side, able to escape his coworker long enough to relocate you as he stood to your side, fixing a cup of his own which was much the same since neither of you were drinkers.

“You were busy, and I was thirsty,” you said, clinking your cheap plastic cup against his with a smile.

“You haven’t even let me introduce you to anyone,” he almost complained and reached out to lace his hand with yours. He liked that you were so independent, so willing to make your way through this function without being attached to his side at all costs, but just to reiterate his point about you not having to take care of yourself at his work function, he wanted to let you know that you were allowed to be at his side if you wanted to be.

“You’re right, I should have waited for you,” you replied, earning a chaste turn into your temple for a quick kiss before he was ushering you over to a very important looking man who you assumed, correctly, to be Juyeon’s boss.

Your nerves set in a little bit as you stood in front of him, letting Juyeon introduce you before you exchanged pleasantries and told him a little bit about yourself including how long you had been with Juyeon and what you did for a living and a handful of your accomplishments and commendations, resulting in Juyeon’s boss looking over at him with what you assumed to be an approving look.

“Seems like you’re the one who keeps this ball of fire a little grounded,” he said to you with a teasing wink. Juyeon couldn’t stave off the blush that pricked his cheeks like a thousand needles and you could feel his hand tighten on yours for a moment.

“Sometimes he gets a little lost in the clouds, but I think he always knows when it’s time to come back down to earth,” you replied sweetly, looking over at your man with the most affectionate gaze. “Besides, we both keep each other in check.”

Juyeon excused himself to the appetizer table when it felt it was appropriate, offering to get you something while you mingled a little bit. You didn’t wander too far, striking up conversation with other girls who were there as plus ones, talking about your significant others who were all coworkers, but some split off in divisions. A couple of them, including some men whose significant others were a part of the company, spoke of how difficult it was sometimes dealing with the long hours and spontaneous business trips and how rocky it had made some relationships. It made you reflect on yours, about how even-keeled you and Juyeon were, that you knew it was the two of you as a team and that you could talk about anything and everything. Granted, the two of you had your problems, and there was no counting that out, but when you were put on the spot, being asked how you dealt with it, you froze for a second.

“We often forget that just because they’re the one who is away doesn’t mean that they aren’t feeling the separation too,” you started after your tongue reconfigured how to function in your mouth. “Sharp words are often exchanged because we think of how we’re feeling, but seldom think about how they’re feeling.”

“This is the first function I’ve seen you at,” one of the wives mentioned, a significant other of one of the higher-ups.

“We both work,” you replied with a smile, although it was a bit forced, “which makes the distance even harder. I typically work evening or night shifts which offsets our schedule and makes it more difficult. I’m typically not able to make it to these functions, so I’m glad I could make it this time.”

A wide palm touched against your low back—a touch you would never mistake for anyone else as he alerted you of his presence to your side, joining the circle as it went quiet. A paper plate littered with all kinds of things was held out in front of you for you to pick off of to fill the new silence.

“And you, Juyeon? How do you deal with it? The distance and demands of the job?”

You could feel Juyeon’s nerves in the air, and he looked at you as if he was being quizzed just to meet your encouraging nod.

“Sometimes, it’s not easy. I won’t lie and say we don’t fight. It’s frustrating; sometimes all the time we get with each other is three hours of sleep before someone’s getting up to go to work, or after just getting home from work. As long as you can look into their eyes and know for certain there’s a place for you, I think everything’s okay, everything’s right. It’s both of you versus the problem, not you versus each other.”

The way his eyes glittered as he looked at you while speaking sent a shiver through your spine, a shiver he could feel in his fingertips still soothingly pressed into your back. Fingertips that soon rose to tuck a stray lock of hair behind your ear that was hanging in front of one of your eyes.

“Funny the things we can learn from people half our age or less,” an unfamiliar voice mentioned as it entered from the side to take the waist of one of the women you were speaking with to press a chaste kiss against her temple. “The air felt too serious, this is supposed to be a celebration!”

Juyeon’s lips broke into a smile, and so, subsequently, did yours as you finally broke the somewhat intense gaze between the two of you to lean into him for a comforting armless embrace before picking at a couple of things on his appetizer plate as the conversation lightened significantly.  

You got to know a few people quite well, and were introduced to their significant others too and you all spoke easily about mindless and trivial things, about your thoughts and opinions on certain things and playful banter about why this was better than that; it didn’t matter as long as the air was light and there was a smile on everyone’s faces. But soon the group broke so you could mingle with others, and you reassured Juyeon you would be fine on your own if there were people he wanted to talk with.

You followed one of the wives from the previous group to a new group, being introduced to her and her significant other; you were quickly finding yourself on the ins with the girls in the company whether they were spouses or employees. It was only natural at a company party with a group full of younger plus one ladies that there would be some interested looming going on. A couple of boys you’d only seen in passing since arriving to the party joined the circle to join in on the conversation—ladies laughing with each other was like vultures circling prey to the wrong types of guys.

One of the boys was a handsome and well-built man; he looked a little bit older than Juyeon but you couldn’t be for certain. You offered your name and shook his hand as he offered his: Sangyeon. He didn’t do much talking in the beginning, just trying to pick up on the conversation where it had left off for a moment to invite more people in.  While you typically weren’t the type to be mistaken for naïve, the way you let Sangyeon settle in close and close to you may have had people second guessing. He brought you away from the conversation for only moment.

“That’s a very lovely bracelet,” he commented, noting your sterling silver set opal bracelet.  

You glanced at him for a second before looking down at your wrist, and brought it up to shift the cool metal against your wrist. “Thank you,” you replied.

“Let me guess, it was your mother’s?” he asked suavely.  You had to chuckle, too. It was a very mother-esque bracelet for you to be wearing, but you shook your head.

“Juyeon got it for me for my birthday,” you replied with a sweet smile, and he seemed to be taken aback by that reply.

Speak of the devil and he shall appear; Juyeon emerged from behind you, giving a startling touch against your hip and you jolted against his chest.

“Speaking of my doting man,” you said, and looked up at him. He looked down at you tenderly, noting your empty hands that were occupied with the bracelet around your wrist. “We were just talking about this pretty bracelet you got me for my birthday.”

He smiled a bit, eyes closing gently. “It looks very lovely on you,” he replied before acknowledging Sangyeon, someone he knew well, and greeted him appropriately. “Can I get you something to drink?”

“I’m okay for now, thank you, darling,” you answered, feeling his warm plam against yours as he took your hand for a fleeting moment, giving it a squeeze before heading over to the refreshments. You turned back to Sangyeon to continue your conversation but the look on his face was different for obvious reasons.

“You and Juyeon seem very close,” he commented, giving one more gauging observation.

“We’ve been together for a long time. Since before he started working here.” You could see the math going on in the glazed over expression he was giving you. It had been quite a while indeed, if he could remember exactly when Juyeon started working with them. He gave you an affirmative nod, being reabsorbed into the general conversation since his purpose with you was through, especially as Juyeon took his place at your side again.

“Your bow is coming loose,” he mentioned and handed you his drink for a moment so he could fix it up. “What did Sangyeon want?” he asked you, even though he already knew the answer. You looked for Sangyeon who had already made his way away from the circle again before choosing your words.

“He wanted to pick me up; asked if my bracelet was my mom’s. It didn’t get far before you showed up, with the usual impeccable timing,” you chuckled back and handed his drink back as he fixed your bow properly.

“I knew these guys wouldn’t leave you alone; this is why I never want to take you to work functions in the first place, some people here have one goal and sometimes won’t stop even if you ask,” he replied.  

You rolled your eyes playfully at him and turned into his side to place your hand against his chest and your head against his shoulder as you casually listened to surrounding conversation. For the time being, the contact soothed Juyeon’s nerves. He was less concerned about you—he knew you weren’t the problem, but he knew sometimes you liked to play naïve a little bit more than you should which he sometimes considered opening a door you didn’t want to open.

For a bit, you followed Juyeon from circle to circle as he found someone knew he wanted to speak with, or who wanted to speak with him. You held on to his arm as an intellectual addition with actual knowledge about the company and what they did, so it was easy for you to keep up with conversation where other plus-ones would just daze off into the abyss and disengage with the conversation.  Juyeon appreciated the way you contributed to conversation; it really illuminated just how much communication the two of you shared, almost as a warning sign to not step in between you because it would never work anyway. He couldn’t take enough precautions after the antics already started with Sangyeon.  

Once a few circles were dried up for conversation with him, Juyeon excused himself to the restroom to leave you to your own devices for a moment.  You made your way to the punch table again to refresh your beverage, meeting the presence of a man about Juyeon’s age you hadn’t paid much mind to, although you’d seen him looming around.

His smile was somewhat greasy, but dashing for the right person all at the same time. His eyes were charming as he looked over at you, watching what you were pouring into your cup. His voice was melodious as it exited his lips and fell into your ears, giving you a soft greeting and offering some small talk about your grapefruit sparkling water until your gaze was finally meeting his.  His eyes were swirling pools of amber that attempted to captivate you almost immediately, but he could tell you weren’t the type to be so smitten by that alone as you took half a step away from him and crossed an arm against your body. He offered his name, which made the conversation a little more comforting—at least you knew who he was.

“Charmed, Hyunjae. Have you been with the company long?” you asked him, attempting to divert the conversation to something a little more relevant, especially since it was a one-on-one conversation with a man you’d never interacted with before.

He spoke loosely about his affiliation with the company, not offering up any information of some real substance, but you could tell he was trying to perpetuate the conversation even as you left the punch table with him in tow. He asked about you, about what you did, but never bothered to ask who you were here with.

As Juyeon made his way back into the ballroom from the hallway, his eyes scanned the vicinity for you, and when they fell on you, he caught a displeased noise in his throat. He could tell you were holding your own with the way you were standing, disinterested, but if he knew anything about Hyunjae it was that he was persistent and didn’t typically take no for an answer the first few times.

“Pretty girls like you typically aren’t interested in guys like us or the job we bring home with us, you must have come as a favor to someone with a lot of persuading,” he mentioned, “and to look so dazzling. They must have really wanted to look good arriving with you. Baby blue is really your color—”

You unceremoniously slapped his hand away when it touched at the playful ribbon tied around your waist with care. Your chin tilted up to look at him over your cheekbones with a quirk of your brow, as if to question what exactly he thought he was doing.

“Didn’t your mother ever tell you not to touch things that aren’t yours,” you jeered, “to not beg so pitifully for things you can’t have.”

Hyunjae scoffed with a sneer on his face and spent a few seconds licking his wounds but he was bound and determined not to give up. “Perhaps I overstepped,” he offered to try and smooth over the situation. “But can I just say your personality is positively fiery. A man would be lucky to have you.”  

You were about to reply, something else sharp queued in your throat when a familiar aura washed up against your side. His grip was a little tighter this time, tugging your far hip into him, into a body a little tenser than it usually was. Your hand almost fumbled your drink.

“I’ve been looking for you, my love,” he said calmly, as if he hadn’t just witnessed Hyunjae attempt to put his hands in places they particularly did not belong, which was anywhere near you, and pressed a searing kiss behind your ear that made your eyes flutter. It was unusual for Juyeon to use terms of endearment with you, so you knew he had seen what happened. “I think we’re getting ready to settle down for dinner if you want to find our table?” he asked, pressing another kiss against your temple, and took your hand to press another kiss against the back of it to really drive the point home that you were off limits.  

You took the hint, and left Juyeon to deal with Hyunjae as you made your way out of that particular ballroom to the one across the hall where dinner would be had. But not without giving him a particular look, sliding your hands down his forearm to lock hands with his for only a moment before you were giving him the space he was requesting. Juyeon watched you go to make sure you were out of ear-shot before he turned to Hyunjae.

“I like you as a person and coworker, Hyunjae,” he began, “don’t jeopardize that.” It was the most patronizing, threatening, and offensive three words he’d ever said to Hyunjae, followed by a couple of pats on the shoulder before turning on his heel. “In case that’s not clear, don’t ever touch her again,” he paused to say over his shoulder before following after you.

He made it into the ballroom across the hall and glanced over the tables until he found you. There were a few other couples among the room who had enough of the mingling much the same as himself and were just looking to escape for some quiet time. His legs glided him over to you in an instant and he took a seat. He could see the look in your eyes, like you’d disappointed him.  

You waited for him to speak first, but he didn’t seem interested in talking. Instead, he occupied himself with your hands, noticing the redness on the back of your right hand which swatted Hyunjae’s hand away from you and soothingly rubbed over it with his thumbs. He looked down at it, few thoughts running through his mind, just that he wished he was there to prevent the whole thing—albeit, also pleased it wasn’t worse.  You watched the way he gnawed at his lip, the gears turning in his head.

It boiled Juyeon’s blood when he thought he wasn’t there for you the way he should be. He leaned forward against his legs, resting his elbows against them as he brought your hand up to kiss the back of it, against the knuckles that were reddened. You knew he was micro-focused on that, on the fact that you displayed signs of having to defend yourself, so you pulled your hands from his and gingerly cupped his jaw, sliding soft hands against his cheeks, against his neck, through the hair on the back of his head—anything to soothe him with your presence even if it was just a little bit.

Little needed to be said between the two of you as a majority of it was understood, but nothing was said as he relished your touch, finding comfort and the ability to center enough to get through dinner, at least for a moment.

“I’m sorry for leaving you,” he muttered into the pad of your palm as he turned his face into it.

“Hush,” you soothed with a gentle shake of your head, the worry knitting your brow together—he didn’t need to apologize for that, none of it was his fault; Hyunjae overstepped a boundary knowing that you were uninterested and that had nothing to do with Juyeon.  

“That’s the trade off, I guess, for having someone as smart and beautiful and dazzling and charming as you by my side,” he whispered, looking up at you with those gorgeous glimmering eyes to flash you a subtle wink.  “Let’s just go home and have takeaway and a warm bath and a movie in bed?”

It didn’t take any more convincing, and the both of you left Juyeon’s work party without saying so much as goodbye to anyone to meet your takeaway at home—it was far better than any over-the-top expensive food you could get in the ballroom of any hotel served by the tens, anyway. And a warm bath with your love, having hot water run across your achy muscles as you rested against him was far beyond any conversation you could be having with anyone you had met in your time there. It was the right call, to be spending time one on one with the little time you did have together.

Juyeon’s chest expanded and contracted behind you, his even breath against your shoulder as his head tilted to rest against yours, a few of your flyaway hairs tickling his nose now and again. His hand was threaded with yours beneath the water’s surface—all was serene, all was right. The relaxing rose essence that wafted through the water was making the both of you even more sleepy.  

“This is so much better than some stupid work party,” Juyeon’s deep voice reverberated in your ear before he kissed behind it. “I can’t even remember the last time we took a bath together.” His lips grazed across the top of your shoulder, from your neck over to the curve, leaving little kisses in his path.

“My birthday,” you replied.

“Too long ago,” he answered. Whatever your answer was, he would have said that anyway.  You couldn’t help the soft chuckle that fell from your lips, especially with the way your head leaned back to rest against his shoulder. The smile on your face would have melted him into a puddle, if he could see it, but he was too busy peppering every inch of skin he could reach with gentle kisses until he popped the plug on the bath as the water was getting a bit too cold.

He put your robe around you first after stepping out of the tub, fluffy bathmat under both your feet. Not even slightly taken aback, he leaned into your kiss when you took the lapel of his robe, embroidered with his initials, and tugged him down to meet you.  You danced around each other’s feet after he turned to maneuver you back to the bedroom, kissing all over your face until you were giggling mess and lying beneath him, against the cool duvet of your shared bed.

“Next time I ask you to go to a work function, tell me no,” he purred against your forehead before giving it a sweet kiss.

“How about I ask if you’d rather stay home,” you reasoned with him, watching the way his eyes glittered in the pale yellow light of the bedside lamp, the only light illuminating the room, and the way his eyes sparkled was like all of the stars in the night sky compacted into his beautiful irises.

“Where did I find you?” he asked rhetorically.

“At the laboratories in the south district,” you replied anyway, referring to your work place.

He wanted to be disappointed in your answer, but the more he looked at you, the more a smile broke on his face even though he tried to bite it back.

“Let’s put pajamas on and pick a movie,” you suggested quickly, watching the gears turn behind is eyes as he thought of something snarky to say to your previous comment, and immediately his expression softened as he gave a gentle nod and lifted you back up from the bed.