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armandaughter · 2 months ago

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Interview With the Vampire + Perfumes

i posted about wanting to make this and people were also curious, so here it is :) i absolutely have no qualifications to be making this. i just love perfumes and iwtv and wanted to combine em!! lmk ur thoughts <3 fyi this gets pretty long-winded and analysis heavy at times

louis de pointe du lac (new orleans/paris eras)

very slow world in my mind. i think he'd gravitate to the warm spice of it and the hints of whiskey. this also smells a bit like incense, which i think is fitting for him. louis' religious upbringing will always inform how i approach him. but this scent also reminds me of the clubs in new orleans, cigars and rich drinks, and that transfers over to him exploring new sides of himself in paris with photography and engaging with art and cafe scenes. i question the inclusion of the balsamic top note, it's actually much more tea-aligned! this is also quite masculine to me, which makes sense as, particularly in nola, he had to be a little overly masculine-- older brother, man of the house after the death of his father, business owner, and a black business owner in an extremely racist setting. i like this for him, i'd even go as far as to say maybe it's not quite masculine enough.

runner-ups: full incense by montale, nothing but sea and sky by une nuit nomade (this one is very bergamont heavy, which i also think he'd like) foreshadow by curatrix (this one is in my rotation rn and i am almost out because i use it SO much. musk, tobacco, incense, cypress)

louis de pointe du lac (dubai)

this one isn't similar to the above at all, but i think it sort of stays in line with what we know of louis in dubai. it's a very fresh scent, with residual fruity and cedar/fig accords snuck in there that are more noticeable with longer wear. this feels performative like most of dubai, put-together and appealing to the senses but deceptive at the end of the day. i think it's still something louis genuinely likes, but i see him, when he's happy, wearing something a bit more explicitly sweet-spicy, less wood-spicy. this is an amalgamation of the above scent and other sweeter, floral accords he'd drift to, but not quite leaning into it the way i suspect he'd be were he actually healed, had he actually confronted his past in full and emerged content with his circumstances.

runner-ups: of true minds by liis (this is inspired by shakespeare's sonnet 116, also smells like sooo complex. floral spicy with a bit of suede) angel dust by fugazzi (cashmere, pepper, bergamont)

lestat de lioncourt

i actually took so long to decide for lestat. after consulting @operahouses (thank you for enduring my lengthy perfume character analysis) i'm happy w this. it's very very floral, mostly rose, with jasmine and iris too. there's also the underlying patchouli and according to what i read, a sort of rosewater wine-y feel about it. walks the line of intense and mysterious with an elegant softness that feels very true to lestat coming off of paris and finding his footing (and the love of his life) in new orleans.

runner-ups: l'olympia music hall by histoires de parfums (floral, also the name is very lestat in the vampire lestat to me) baccarat rouge 540 by maison francis kurkdjian

rockstar lestat

this is zoologist, which literally makes perfumes off of animal scents. i think that is so fucking cool. anyway-- this is a very bold scent that takes the sweetness of the initial perfume i shared and expands upon it with some really interesting notes. there's passionfruit, leather, teakwood, and incense. (INCENSE, which i think he'd intentionally wear for the nostalgia it could potentially evoke in louis!!) but, overall, a very impressive and borderline questionable miasma of smells. because of this, it's startlingly unique. verrrry memorable, which is kind of the desired experience of a rockstar trying to get his ex-husband back.

runner-ups: triumph of bacchus by argos (this one has such an insanely diverse array of accords i feel only he could pull off) do not disturb by vilhelm parfumerie (this leans into femininity a bunch, which i am down for with lestat. also has some questionable accords but again i think this era welcomes that)

armand

so i'm not even going to pretend i'm not projecting with my first choice for him because i am-- press gurwitz 0.3 is soooo criminally underrated. it's got the knockout combo of the cinnamon and vanilla but when the smoky spice of it hits... it HITS! it also isn't overly sweet at all. the vanilla subdues the sweet notes and leaves sort of a smoky yet clean spiciness over time. i think also the idea of him wearing a gourmand scent has a lot of interesting character connotations in it-- wanting to be desired, wanting to be almost edible, to attract that sort of temptation. if not a gourmand, i can see him preferring fresh, clean, sharp scents-- hence the choices for him as rashid.

runner-ups: milk by commodity (amber, firewood, tonka bean; ultimately the marshmallow accord felt a bittttt out of line for him but this scent is GOOD. a pinch sharp but in a way that's striking rather than obtrusive) female christ by 19-69 (eucalyptus, woody, with cashmere and cinnamon at the base notes, emerging the longer the scent is worn)

armand as rashid

this one has a lot going on but i NEED you to stay with me and hear me out. first of all-- there's notes of pineapple here, which i feel are soooo good given the 'honey and pineapple' exchange. there's also a lot of sweetness here and while the 'honey' part isn't explicit, i feel like it's still reminiscent of it. also, who's to say rashidmand doesn't wear honey body oil with this? wouldn't put that past him. otherwise, this is also pretty floral, fresh, and long-lasting. my one flaw is it is intense, especially for his playing as rashid. my defense here is this: he's already gone with the slutty shirts and the speaking out of turn, so a memorable scent doesn't seem suddenly too far, at least not to me. also, the bottom notes like the vanilla stabilize the intensity. for the first hour or two after application, i'm sure this lingers in a room (which is what he'd want) but as it fades, you'd have to be in closer proximity to notice it.

runner-ups: honey & crocus by jo malone london (this is the honeyed scent that could replace the pineapple one, with traces of saffron and lavender included too which go nicely) fleur de délice by reminiscence (VERY herbal and fresh)

daniel molloy (1973)

ok i am pretty sure i'm not the first to say this but he's SO jazz club. to me. this on top of probably perpetually smelling like cigarettes. and i've heard it's more masculine-leaning, with the rum, spice, and tobacco staying on the longest. i think in devil's minion canon armand would also be all over this like a bloodhound. not much else to say aside from boozy and kinda sexy. the kind of thing you'd wear to go out and score drugs or a fatal vampire encounter.

runner-ups: none! i stand by this one. possibly book by commodity, which uses cedar and sandalwood to come shockingly close to putting your nose in a book. also accomplishes a sort of smokiness.

daniel molloy

this is kind of like if jazz club matured a bit. from what i read (i haven't smelled this one) it's very leathery and dry with a slight sweetness at the end. it has some pine and dates in the list of accords, which works for me too. it is also a bit sensual and i think daniel would wear this in dubai to see louis for the first time since '73. not too intense, which i think he'd prefer. @operahouses suggested a new car smell and i STRONGLY agree.

runner-ups: ombré leather (2018) by tom ford (this went too herbal for me to attribute to him, but i still think leather is good for him)

claudia in new orleans

getting into headcanon territory. this scent is sweet, light, and rosy. i'm imagining this is a gift from lestat before things soured. also something to wear before she branched out and developed her own preferences. i personally think this one is a bit strong and just a tad like a bath, but then again it's very clean and satisfying when the initial scent sits for a little. the sugarcane there brings it together too. this would also contribute to the infantilization both louis and lestat force upon her, the shared--whether explicit or implicit- idea that she's theirs, only the 'girl' part of daughter and too young and naive to be the 'woman.' i feel like she'd grow to hate this smell eventually the same way she grew to resent what lestat and new orleans meant for her.

runner-ups: rose of no man's land by byredo (i didn't think the spices fit, but could be that's a stepping stone for her)

claudia (paris)

i haven't tried this scent but i do love curatrix. so i think in a similar way to daniel's progression this is an older, sultry, woody-sweet rendition of what a younger claudia would enjoy. knowing curatrix, it's probably a bit intense, but for a woman duelling with the reality she will not ever be properly seen as a woman, i think it's very fitting! the cloves and tobacco lend age to it while the honey and vanilla sweeten it up a bit, dries down into a suggestion of ginger. i think the name would attract her as well. claudia owns being a vampire-- she loves it, wants so badly to be loved by the coven for loving vampirism, so the idea of fatale is definitely something she would gravitate to in my mind.

runner-ups: hypnotic poison by dior (similar wood themes with a bit of floral and fruitiness mixed in, but mostly, the bottle is cute) carmilla by immortal perfumes (the name, naturally-- also has a blood accord!! was my first choice until i remembered fatale exists)

madeline

gets a classic. i wore this for years before i started to present less feminine. it's clean, floral, sweet, a bit powdery, and stays on forever. not too overwhelming but def alluring. one of thee ultimate femme lesbian choices to me!

runner-ups: immortelle by chloé (still white floral with some tonka snuck in. i like the name for her a lot!)

santiago

i really have nothing to say other than this scent doesn't get very good reviews and it kind of pisses me off and that's perfect for him. def wears way too much of this and it pisses off everyone in the coven. the HEIGHT of gay man who is about to infuriate you.

okay i had a lot of fun doing this. so if anybody else matched my freak ab this i would LOVE to do more.

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randomfoggytiger · 1 month ago

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I am having a hard time filling in the gaps. Are there more Emily's out there for Scully to find? We saw that there were clones of the man who said "they are our mothers". Could Emily really have just been only 1? Would all Emily's have been meant to die?

When Mulder found Scully's ova, were they being held in safekeeping so that they would not be used again for experimentation and were they already unviable when he took them?

EMILY SIM, FETUS SCULLY, AND THE EXTINCTION OF THE HYBRIDS

Hmmm, this is what I figure:

THE SYNDICATE IS ROBBED OF SCULLY'S DNA

When Mulder found (or was directed to) Scully's ova in Memento Mori, he reclaimed what the clones recovered from the Consortium. An important question emerges: we see other clones in tanks-- is that how these clones regenerate, or are they growing more of themselves? If they are growing more of themselves, then perhaps they were using the ova stored in that storage facility-- if so, then the ova were still functional; and the Syndicate might have salvaged and kept them when they obliterated the clones and any shred of evidence. If they weren't, then perhaps the ova were already contaminated via transfer. The latter doesn't make sense, since the clones had them on ice (and appeared to have the training to understand how to monitor and "care" for them.)

Are there more of Scully's ova that haven't been recovered? Unlikely: Melissa Scully interfered on her niece's behalf in A Christmas Carol; and likely would have done the same if Scully had had other children in danger... which would have happened after Dr. Calderon's experiments failed (to be discussed below.)

Why is this important? We later learn that Mulder had the ova he recovered tested during the cancer arc; and that they weren't viable (probably because they hung out in his pocket a few too many hours.) Yet, he stumbles across a Scully fetus, this one prepped and ready for womb transfer (more on that in a bit) in Emily. We know that couldn't have been created post Memento Mori because Mulder was given Scully's ova. So, that means the fetus was created and put on ice (or in an alien goop container) beforehand, ready to be used when it was "time." Why, and for what reason? And what does this mean for other Scully fetus potentialities?

ALIENS AND HYBRIDS AND CLONES-- OH, MY!

Emily Sim was born a few days before Scully's return (timeline here.) We've seen the method by which she was born in Emily: the babies are conceived in tubes, then transferred to baby pods-- a.k.a. older women in induced "beauty sleep" comas-- where they grow and are born in a month (or less.) This hybridization and quick conception-to-birth method seemed to create physiological instability in these hybrids as compared to pure clones; and their health had to be constantly monitored lest they deteriorated in a matter of days (hence, her weekly, perhaps daily, visits to Dr. Calderon.) But Emily (and presumed hybrids at large) were also more human, expressing her personality and fear on a multi-dimensional level. In a broader context, Scully's daughter was just another branch of the Consortium's inhumane experiments on their path to create superhumans: the Eves, the Sleepless soldiers, the End Game clones, the Memento Mori clones, and now the hybrid babies.

THE PROCESS OF CREATION

At the retirement home, Mulder discovered that all eight of the women living there gave birth to healthy children recently: all but one delivered a baby in 1994 (excepting a boy born in 1996.) He found six of the eight already prepped for "beauty sleep", and that another-- Anna Fugazzi, who gave birth to Emily Sim-- was waiting for Dr. Calderon's return to join them.

This, then, gives us a concrete date (June 1994-November 1994) to work off of; and an outlier year (1996) to factor in.

(As a side note: was Scully used as a baby pod, as well? I don't think so-- not only because she was extensively tested upon her return, mere days after Emily's birth, but also because the hybrid experiments followed a very strict regimen: older women pumped full of estrogen and progesterone were used as part of the process. Guinea pigs, too, for progress.

Further, we've already seen women in the exact position as Scully:

Mulder found them in Redux I's DOD, lying comatose on tables while being put through an array of tests. They, along with Scully and the other MUFON women, were part of the extract-and-dump group of return abductees that the Consortium considered to be lab rats: not "dignified" or "healthy" enough to carry their Project's offspring.)

THE DEATH OF THE CALDERON EXPERIMENTS

Back to the original question: are there more Emilys out there?

Emily Sim was carefully adopted out and closely monitored by Dr. Calderon himself-- she, and her kind, were his particular research, like "pure" alien babies were Dr. Parenti's (post here.) Mulder finds another Scully hybrid fetus in the retirement facility, but leaves it; and his attempts to investigate later are thwarted by a hasty cover-up. Both Calderon and his research-- unstable, sickly hybrids-- were probably deemed not only a risk, but a failure; and the Consortium likely stopped the experiments after they buried the evidence, i.e. the Eves (leaving them to rot in prison) the Sleepless soldiers (letting them run loose and kill each other), etc., etc., etc.

Here's what I figure: Calderon had a first round of "experiments" done around the time Scully was first abducted. The ova used before then facilitated clone or nefarious genetics research; however, he decided to take the alien DNA gifted to the Consortium and attempt to blend it equally with human DNA. The first batch included Emily; and he spent the next few years monitoring them to see if their conditions would improve or worsen. (In other words: what were their weaknesses and strengths? And how could their existence be used to fight back against the Colonists?) Canon points to the first batch being the only in existence because they were tied directly to Calderon's work, who oversaw them as his personal pet project. Secondly, I suspect more weren't being created until 1997: one boy was born in 1996 at the same facility, but it wasn't until Emily that the retirement women were being lined up for a "take two"; and it wasn't until A Christmas Carol that the doctor began pressing the Sims for more tests on their daughter (which led to Mrs. Sim's resistance, and their deaths.) Per the scientific method, the second group would need to have the same genetic material as the control group to accurately assess changes and results; hence, why Scully's fetus-- a backup from the first batch, most likely-- was carted in. And thirdly, all experiments were headed by Calderon: one man can only keep up with so much, even with the backing of a shadow government.

If we connect a few dots, it would seem Dr. Calderon was excited about this next transfer: he'd had three years, at least, to study and consider his past "mistakes"; and he wheeled in the valuable, irretrievable leftovers from round one (Scully's second fetus) to, hopefully, garner a second, greater success. His efforts were cut short by Scully and Mulder's arrival; and his life was cut short, as well, when his research became too great of a liability to the Project. And with Calderon's death, the rest of the hybrids would have died, too-- not only because they were directly tied to his work, but also because their life depended on his medical injections.

We never return to the hybrid possibility until Cassandra Spender; but because the rest of the mytharc is stuffed to the gills with clones and aliens and conspiracy, it's safe to conclude the powers-that-be only had a teeny, tiny fraction of successful hybrid clones, and that that faction is no longer drawing breath.

CONCLUSION

In short: even if there were other Scully babies out there, they would have been abandoned in favor of other more "successful" endeavors shortly after Dr. Calderon's death (in line with the Syndicate's other ruthlessly abandoned projects.) Without his supervision, there would be no more "tests", e.g. no more necessary, stabilizing injections. It's safe to assume the other hybrids, too, would have deteriorated and died within a matter of days (if that.)

A rather grim idea, this; but isn't that what makes the Consortium's evil so... evil?

Thanks for reading~

Enjoy!

#asks #anon #xf meta #Scully #Emily Sim #Mulder #S4 #Memento Mori #S5 #Emily #A Christmas Carol #thoughts #thanks for droppin in~#S8 #Per Manum #mine

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kittesencula · 1 year ago

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#Fugazzi #Forte Prenestino #Roma #Rome

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mulders-too-large-shirt · 2 months ago

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s5 episode 7 thoughts

(voice cracking) hey guys. how are you doing? because i’m fine. actually super incredibly fine. have never been better, in fact. (heavy on the /s)

this episode feels so final, in a way. there is before this episode and after it, and there is no going back. and we have had plenty of those episodes that involve a shedding of innocence, but we’ll reach a point where you think, surely it cannot get worse than this. and you’ll never guess what happens next: somehow, it does.

sniffs. scully always chooses love, bro. and mulder chooses her and therefore chooses love. and they choose each other. and they deserve to be happy, to be a happy little family.

take me back to around 14 hours ago, when i pressed play on this episode immediately after watching the previous one, not even bothering to make this writeup until now, because i was too invested:

okay. so yes. i broke my rule and i’m watching this episode right away. and yes i feel sick. (author’s note to past self: girl if you felt sick then imagine how you feel now LMAOOOO)

“it begins where it ends…. in nothingness. a nightmare born from deepest fears, coming to me unguarded” <- girl what are we opening with? she's in these black robes, striding across sand...

is she looking at death itself??? again?? how many times must this happen??? is SHE death itself???

she picks up her necklace… and declares herself alone, as ever. but you're not alone, scully!

bum bum bum bum… intro time…

mulder, please come and provide emotional support if nothing else. you are desperately needed

YES, HE IS HERE!!!!!! he is watching scully watch emily color.

OHHHH MY GOD. hold on. she introduces him to emily as her friend, and he immediately is making funny faces to get emily to laugh. stop. i need to be sedated.

he notices her cross necklace on emily. and he doesn't say anything but he doesn't need to, because that says enough. the cross that hung from his neck when she was gone, returned to her as she returned to life, and now placed around the neck of this little girl.

he had frohike hack into the system to find her surrogate mother omg… frohike is an ally… her birth mother is named anna fugazzi…. fugazzi is a slang term for fake??? he thinks they made a whole fake profile to hide her origins??

oh my god….

mulder is telling her that being around emily is incredibly dangerous; whoever it was that killed her adoptive parents would clearly go after her next. “i can protect her, too” “yeah, but who’s gonna protect you?” <- PLEASE KILL ME IT WOULD HURT LESS

“i’ve considered that, but i‘ve also considered that there’s only one right thing to do” <- ohhh, scully and her Need to do the Morally Correct Thing……… it’ll haunt me forever. she's willing to drop everything she has in her life to give this child a better life. and she didn't even knew she existed until a few days ago.

man, i miss s1 sometimes. bitch take me back…

HE CAME TO TESTIFY AT HER HEARING TO ADOPT HER??? and he says he shouldn’t have come because he doesn’t want to see her hurt like emily's adoptive parents were 😭😭😭 but he did. because he supports her through anything. and he knows that this poor little girl was never supposed to happen.

this man is nervously cracking sunflower seeds outside the hearing room. and bill is glaring at mulder like he didn’t just fly down here to save the day. fuck him for real.

oh, this judge guy is immediately tearing into his facts about the abduction. this never stops happening to mulder when he presents his theories. it must be getting old.

she was gone for four weeks when she was abducted. did we ever know the length of time?? huh. not sure if i picked up on that if we did.

he cannot explain to this guy why anyone would do this to scully and put the child up for adoption, but that is her child!!

“not in any legal definition” “well, if you can show me a precedent for this case, i’d like to see it” <- ohhhh tell him!!!

ohhh my god... “dana has known for quite some time that she can’t bear children. she hasn’t known why. now, however that happened, the fact that she can adopt this child- her own flesh and blood- is something i don’t feel i have the right to question, and i don’t believe anybody has the right to stand in the way of” <- that is best friendship. they love each other so terribly. terrible in the sense of a storm, or a natural disaster, in the sense of love being a force

oh my god man hold on. hold on. so had they talked about it before?? how she couldn't have kids?? and did he tell her why?? i don't think he did, because she is looking on at him with such horror as he shares these facts

there is such a terrible feeling of never being able to go back to before associated with all of this…

mulder is at bill’s house now, fidgeting with their nativity, while scully descends from the stairs. she was helping tara get into bed. oh my god. she loves her family so much.

OHHH the big reveal: “why didn’t you tell me? mulder?” “i never expected this. i thought i was protecting you” <- so she never knew that he knew… which is why she looked so horrified when she heard him say that to the judge…

he thought he was keeping her safe??? because he must have known that these people were willing to kill to keep their experiments in order. it reminds me of when he was at the evil honey farm and the alien said the clone children don't need parents....... the utter lack of humanity...

he says he knew children were being created, but not for who or for what purpose. :(

she gets a call, seemingly with no one on the other end, and with one look he has his phone on him, calling to get it traced. their ability to communicate without language is fascinating. within seconds, he has the location

it’s the children’s center where emily’s being held!!!

so is it still the ghost of melissa calling them somehow?? or is there an informer in there???

they’re at the door of the children's center right away!!!! is someone going to hurt emily????? they barge right in despite it being the middle of the night

emily’s in bed, with a horrific fever. mulder picks her up (oh my god, this made me feel terriblly emotional things) and he notices there is something on her neck.

IT IS A TERRIBLE GREEN POISON LUMPY THING?????

the doctor says there is some kind of infection, and they’re having the thing on her neck biopsied.

there’s an awful pause as they're standing outside the hospital room, and he asks if they are the parents…. mulder steps to the side and lets her say that she is the mother, which is so insane to hear, while mulder watches, terribly worried.

he watches as they’re about to cut the thing on her neck…. but he realizes it is the green alien blood (which he can see, so NOT red/green colorblind) and starts banging on the door, telling the doctor to get away!!! but she doesn’t listen!!! the doctor collapses right then and there from the exposure to the alien blood gas, while they look on in horror.

so emily is one of the alien hybrid children... i had thought that those were all clones, but i guess there are some unique ones as well. or maybe the ones we have seen in the past all shape-shift to look the same? CSM, this is your fault. evil has a face and a name and he writes bad fiction.

emily is on a mild sedative, and the ER doctor somehow made it. scully asks mulder how he knew what was going on, and he says he had the doctor put in an ice bath like she did when he was exposed :( he remembered.... :(

the dr. calderon that emily was seeing before refuses to transfer her information over!!! and says that scully has no authority over this child!!!! he is straight up willing to let her die.

she refuses to leave her.

mulder is sent instead to interrogate him; he asks what he can say to convince dr. calderon to convince him to transfer the files over. but dr. calderon says it’s about business reasons. mulder asks how much money is worth letting this child die.

OHHHHHH HE IS THROWING HANDS…..

holy fuck, i need a moment. he calls calderon and his team "medical rapists", a term i was previously unfamiliar with, and says now they’re just going to let her DIE??? AND HE PULLS OUT A GUN???

“why don’t you tell me whose life is worth saving, yours or hers!!” <- DAMN!!!

mulder is willing to kill for scully and that baby she just learned existed... i need a moment

he only puts his gun away because the police are at the door… but he’s gonna follow him.

meanwhile, emily is watching cartoons while scully is in scrubs. she wants to talk to emily… she’s explaining that she has to do some tests. "mommy said no more tests" <- now what does that mean?

they insert the child into the machine. poor scully watches.

god, scully must feel so strange at the moment. and she gets flashbacks to her abduction from hearing the MRI machine beeping….

dr. calderon is running into a fancy gated home. and the other men who were watching scully before are here!!!!!

OH MY GOD???? THEY STABBED THE DOCTOR'S NECK WITH THE NEEDLE, AND THE GREEN GAS CAME OUT???

and the other one morphed into calderon??? SO THEY’RE THE ALIENS????

but mulder is here……..

(i’m torn between genuine devastation and the sheer absurdity of this plot)

back at the hospital, we learn emily has some sort of infection into her brain that is expanding along her nervous system

and the guy who is pretending to be calderon is here!!!

scully and the real doctor are talking medicine, what can and cannot be done for her.

NO WHAT? THE ALIEN THAT TOOK CALDERON'S FACE IS HERE WITH THE NEEDLE GAS STUFF??? he just left emily's room……

scully's going after this guy, but he switches faces the minute they catch him!!!!!

mulder is still tailing the people from the pharmaceutical company. he tells scully he doesn’t think they want emily dead either, but for different reasons… they want their experiment to work, i assume is what he implies, but he hangs up then to go do some more tailing.

detective kresge is here!!!! scully tells him she thinks these men killed emily's adoptive parents because they stopped doing the tests!!! and that must be why that mysterious man came in to see her!!!!

i’m ready to see some heads roll over this whole matter.

mulder lets himself into the weird huge gated house he saw dr. calderon go into, which seems to be an nursing home, with a label on a shelf for a. fuggazi. she’s a real person???? and she’s 71 years old???

but now emily is getting worse, with the growth spreading; it is killing her. the doctor says they should be grateful she isn’t in pain.

chambliss shows up to tell scully that the court is freaked out that she’s making choices for emily, but she points out that she is “a medical doctor, and the decisions that i make are reasonable and right” and we know this to be true!!!

OHHHH MY GOD chambliss says that she has no authority, and scully says that if they take her out of the hospital, she will have it known that all of them are responsible for emily's worsening health…… holy fuck

“what do you want me to tell them you’re doing for her?” “i don’t know yet. but i will” <- she thinks there has to be hope…. :(

frohike is on the phone!!!! mulder is reading the names of the women in the nursing home, while frohike looks them up. and somehow they all gave birth to children in the last few years??? despite being 70+ years old????

and frohike wants to know if they are attractive. mulder says he might have a shot with these ones LMAO <- rare moment of levity in what may be the darkest fucking episode of all time

these elderly women are being prescribed estrogen and progesterone, which are in abundance in pregnant women……….

anna comes to mulder and says she wants to start her beauty sleep??? and it’s taken years off of her appearance??? do the aliens turn them young somehow??? and then use them to have children???

holy fuck. horrific commentary on the intersections of reproductive rights and elder abuse....

emily is now being inserted into a new tube for testing, with scully saying she will be right there the whole time. the air in the tube hurts emily's ears??? and makes her veins pop out??????? she is yelling at the doctor to stop running the test, but i don't even really understand what is going on, beyond that emily cannot handle it

mulder is still at the nursing home, where he finds a bunch of the old women in bed, attached to IVs with the hormones he mentioned earlier!!! so they get the IVs in their sleep and then they... no, it's too disturbing to even say

so he looks in the fridge and inside he finds some papers…. HUH???? it has scully’s name on them???? and inside is ANOTHER BABY IN A TUBE????

what the fuck??? this is messed up!!!!

he also finds vials of the green stuff that you use to kill the aliens!!!! but now the shapeshifting alien guy from before is here!!!! so he's running out with the vials!!!

but detective kresge is here and stops mulder!!!!! IS THE DETECTIVE WORKING FOR THE ALIENS???

NO!! kresge is trying to keep him safe!!! the alien picks him up and tosses him like a rag doll!!!

but kresge gets up and shoots him despite mulder’s many warnings, so he hisses as his alien body releases that toxic green gas!! NO, KRESGE!! you were mean at first, but i grew to like you!!!

the alien takes kresge’s face and dips while mulder is trying to get backup!!!!!!!!!!!!

poor scully is watching emily through the window; she has gone into a coma. mulder suddenly arrives. but before mulder can say anything, she claims she’s okay.

“but if you could treat her?” “i wouldn’t. i wouldn’t do it to her” “are you sure?” <- oh my god? is she going to take her off of life support? does she think it is wrong to keep her alive with no quality of life? we know she believes that in her own will... is she realizing there is nothing she can do? and why does she always lead with "i'm okay" when she isn't?

“mulder, whoever brought this child into this world didn’t intend to love her”

“i think she was born to serve an agenda” (a horrific thing for a human to be)

“i have a chance to stop that. you were right. this child was not meant to be”

but she is. she is here. and she doesn't have much longer.

he rubs her back and says he’ll stay with her. STOOOOOP

but she says she’d like to be alone. so he quietly walks away.

oh my god. he was going to stay with her while she watched her baby die... but she said she wanted to do it alone.......

he still has that one vial of green stuff in his pocket, and pulls it out in the hallway. while she’s going in to presumable say goodbye. she lays her head next to emily, crawling into her bed. oh my god.

then we see a stained glass window of mary holding baby jesus while scully sits in a pew. maggie is here, asking if she’s ready. she tells her she’ll get a ride back with mulder. and she hugs her family, smiling at tara’s new baby, kissing him on the head.

there is a little casket, and scully stares at it as mulder comes in, laying flowers upon it.

“who are the men who would create a life whose only hope is to die?” “i don’t know. but that you found her… and you had a chance to love her… maybe she was meant for that, too” <- oh my god??? oh my god.

“she found me” “so you could save her” <- and she did save her... she saved her from an unhappy home and unethical experiments and loved her in the week that she knew her, and let her go peacefully instead of suffering....

then she asks about kresge, who somehow made it, but the nursing home has been cleaned out, and no one else knew of calderon’s work. but there is evidence of what they did, she says, staring at the casket.

she takes the flowers, lifts up the lid, and mulder turns around to give her space. but the casket is empty, except for the cross necklace. which she holds, closing her eyes. so they took her body, too???

the sand… the necklace… the opening scene… the parallels… i’m, like, blubbering as i type this

what the fuck!! who came up with this?? it is so fucked up and horrific and why. why. why. why did they make her undergo that and where do we go from here? no seriously, how is she going to just. clock into work the next day. not knowing she had a daughter except for a single week they had together and then she watched her die.

i honestly think scully is a saint because. if someone told me my autonomy had been taken and they made a baby out of me without my consent, i think i would be horrified and want nothing to do with the poor child. i would think, i have no relation to that little person. it was done without my knowledge, and how can i claim any connection to something i never knew?

(i mean, that is all i can imagine i would do; i know nothing of what it feels like to want or have or learn you have a baby. so keep that fact in mind if i don't fully grasp the weight of everything here. but believe me, what i am grasping is weighty enough)

but she said, i have a baby and i need to love her, because the option to make my own decision was denied, but i need to do the right thing. she just barrels in and loves her. no hesitation. and then she watches her die.

and what the fuck?? from a writer’s perspective are they just trying to overtly comment on the lack of women’s healthcare?? because this hits different in the current political climate in a way they couldn’t have seen at the time. and i do feel somewhat inspired to write an essay on the subject. and using the elderly women as incubators... holy hell. it really speaks to the lack of agency women have over their own bodies and the terrifying nature of government intervention into women's healthcare...

mulder showing up right away to testify for her… scully being willing to throw her whole career away for a child she never knew she had… i need a few days and maybe a drink.

where do they go from this? how do you move on from learning you have a child, choosing to love it for the week you knew her, and then watching her die? how do you just go hunt bigfoot after that?

i feel like this show throws too many emotional punches and doesn't give us time to let the aftershocks sink in and the grief be processed. i hope that this time we get that chance.

and oh, how tender both of them were with emily... i just know that if they have kids, that child is going to be so loved... i am gonna cry at the thought. because we have always been able to see that mulder wants a family so desperately, but with scully it was more simmering under the surface until it boiled over, and now she knows what that feeling is like, but it was taken away from her and it can never come back, but maybe someday she can find happiness, and they can find happiness together, and raise a little kid who they can hold and carry and read books to and fuck i'm emotional!!!

i'm thinking about how even way back in season 1 we see them dealing with kids and the foreshadowing to this, this glimpse of what could have been in another life, but what isn't in this timeline. and how he was there for her while she waded through entirely incomprehensible emotions. and again i come back to the fact she chose to love this little girl despite having no knowledge of her.

and how they choose to find meaning in that week they knew her, with mulder telling her that she saved emily, that she let her experience love and happiness. to try and find any purpose to their inexplicably cosmic suffering.

fuck!!!

as always, please tell me what you think!!! what was your reaction when you saw this for the first time?? what was the reaction of the wider public? did you also cry a million tears? did you also cry at the mental image of them having a little baby? has your perception of the episode changed over time? if you have kids now do you cry even more? will chris carter ever work on whatever it is he has going on with making women suffer? i need to know every last detail.

#damn. just staring at my keyboard honestly. what to even say after all of that?#i hope we explore the implications with the appropriate emotional weight they ought to be afforded which usually does not happen #i thought we got that pretty well after the abduction arc but in other areas of tragedy (her dad's death or melissa's death #or the cancer arc or mulder losing his father or his mother having a stroke)#we just kinda. jump into the next thing. and don't let that weight sink in. because i can only imagine you don't recover from that ever #let alone in a week! which is why i think fanfic is great. because they can explore that.#anyway. they need to find a kitten.#please give me 80 fics of mulder trying to be there for her without suffocating her and the inevitable clashing of her being like #“i don't need you to PROTECT me” and then him being like “i'm just trying to be there for you” and then the fighting #and then the crying and then the healing. please and thank you. signed with a heart.#yeah. mulder finds a kitten in the dumpster outside his apartment and they must clean it up.#this is law. it has been written and it is such.#anyway. as always please share thoughts and link to fluff fic.#juni's x files liveblog #5x07 #the x files #txf

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GIVE ME FUGAZZI BEING HAPPY RIGHT NOW! HE HAS BEEN TORMENTED ENOUGH, NOW DRAW HIM HAVING A GREAT TIME!

URGH. FINE.....

Pizzahead takes him to some nerdy museum.

#fugazi #pizzahead #pizza tower

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deathcupcake · 1 month ago

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DATV Characters and (mostly) Niche Perfumes

I have a long daily commute which gives me a lot of time to think (when I'm not reading, that is). I love perfume. I am currently all about Veilguard. Ergo, I'm making some of my hobbies collide. Please indulge me.

Methodology is fairly simple:

I must own a full size or a tester of the perfume, therefore am very familiar with it, and

Going with my gut feeling and ignoring whatever the creator/house says the scent evokes

Obviously, this is only my interpretation, either from playing the game or the head canons I have created for my own Rooks. But I'd be really interested in whether others have also thought about this (I'm thinking this is way too niche - no pun intended - but still).

Rook

F!Rook | Frederic Malle - Carnal Flower M!Rook | Carine Roitfeld - Kar-Wai N/B!Rook | Fugazzi - Orange Crush

Companions

Other Major Characters

And the rest (I haven't yet found a scent that fits the following)

Ghilan'nain Antoine Evka Solas Varric (maybe Kouros) Morrigan Irelin Illario (I really want to assign him something really loud and obnoxious like an Axe or Drakkar Noir or Kouros, but I don't own the first two and I refuse to associate Illario with a scent I remember fondly haha) Caterina Asher/The Viper Tarquin

#dragon age #dragon age the veilguard #datv #da:v #niche perfume #things no one cares about #amusing myself over here #dragon age personal

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the-moon-in-the-gutter · 3 days ago

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Perfume Headcanons

Part 3 to the series of Ghoul fragrance headcanons, all inspired by the dragon-esque perfume hoard I have. Maybe there will be a fourth part dedicated to the Papas? Who knows at this point lol

Lake as Vanilla Vibes by Juliette has a Gun

Top notes: sea salt. Middle notes: natural vanilla absolute, orchid absolute. Base notes: Absolute brown musk, benzoin absolute, sandalwood, tonka bean.

A beachy, yet sensual and fresh fragrance. Long lasting and perfect for summer. Reminds me of the sun glimmering along the breaker waves. Lake just has that sensual vibe to me that I cannot describe, but it's certainly there.

River as Sandalwood in Oak by Scents of Wood

Notes: Sandalwood, guaiacwood, burnt sugar, smoked sage, pink pepper, iris and vanilla bean.

While it sounds as though it would be a more woody scent, to me the burnt sugar and sage shine through most. It reads rather mysterious, a feeling I have towards River. A Ghoul who keeps his mind rather squared away from others, aside from his mate.

Delta as Plum in Cognac by Scents of Wood

Notes: Caramel, tobacco, cinnamon, nutmeg, plum, cognac, vanilla, and vetiver.

Delta, the first Ghoul to make an Elemental transition. Another scent with a more mysterious personality, which makes sense for a Quintessence Ghoul of Delta's making. Notes of tobacco and vetiver, both used in spiritual practices. The spice notes seem to deepen the scent of plum. Intense and leaves a trail, much like the Magick of a new Quint.

Mist as Juliette by Juliette has a Gun

Top notes: Dark cherry and pink pepper. Middle notes: Cashmere flower and Jasmine absolute. Base notes: Ambroxan and tonka bean.

I'd be remiss if I didn't give Mist the signature fragrance of this perfume house, one that's in my top 5 of all time. Cherry is a scent that many men find repulsive, for reasons unknown. However, I feel Mist would use it significantly to her advantage, as one who does not yearn for male attention. But also, this fragrance is powerful, one for someone who wants to stand out- and the First Ghuleh does stand out.

Pebble as Milk (Personal) by Commodity

Notes: Marshmallow, toasted sesame, tonka bean, mahogany wood, skin musk, and white cedar.

The first Earth Ghoul to be given such a delectable, sweet gorumand. Yet it just feels so.... fitting. Not in an infantalizing way. But in a more, cautionary aspecct. Pebble, a Ghoul who looks to be sweet, innocent, demure, can be anything but when the moment calls for such. The scent luring one into a false sense of security, because after all, he can be sweet. (Also one of my top fragrances and I'm almost out)

Cowbell as Not A Perfume by Juliette has a Gun

Top, Middle, and Base note: Cetalox.

Cowbell, the first Mutli-Ghoul, one who disappeared as suddenly as he appeared. Mysterious, unknown, yet deeply alluring. The singular note in this fragrance makes it such a fitting choice, an odd perfume for an odd Ghoul. Cetalox has an musky, woody, ambery scent, that gives on that fresh skin scent. Rather than to cover or alter, it merely enhances.

Ifrit as Casa Blanca by House of Bo

Notes: Creamy minerals, white tea, labdanum, copal, desert fig, white suede, tobacco, white oud, and vanilla bourbon

Admittedly, I had a hard time deciding if I should give this fragrance to Ifrit. Yet there is something so inherently Fire Ghoul to it. A different sort, yet it shares notes with both fragrances I have chosen for Dewdrop and Alpha. An intense, long lasting fragrance that too, leaves a trail everywhere you turn.

Ivy as Gold (Personal) by Commodity

Notes: Juniper berries, vanilla, sandalwood, amber, benzoin, and iso e super.

To my nose, on my skin, Gold smells vastly similar to Milk, yet more skin like. Which is why I have chosen it for Ivy, as I picture he and Pebble as a packaged deal, Ivy dragged to the surface as Pebble was summoned. The Earth Ghoul secure in his differences, ever so slightly from his closest companion.

Zephyr as Angel Dust by Fugazzi

Notes: Cashmeran, Calabrian bergamot, pepper, cashmere, and white amber.

This is my most complimented fragrance in my collection, a scent that will leave a trail everywhere you go. One that has everyone around you obsessing with you, and how good you smell. Light, floral, yet with a depth that will turn anyone into a fan of bergamot. This one leans Zephyr in a way that personifies just how alluring and captivating he is as a performer. Invading the minds of those around him.

#the band ghost #lake ghoul #river ghoul #delta ghoul #mist ghoulette #pebble ghoul #cowbell ghoul #ifrit ghoul #ivy ghoul #zephyr ghoul #shitghosting

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