#fucking freak just leave people alone why can't you be quiet stop talking stop breathing stop existing

[azurecatboy]

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[beels-burger-babe]

With You Always

***So I really really really love this idea, but I'm going to tweak it just a little bit so rather than only seeing them in mirrors, MC can just always see them when the brothers aren't around. This one is going to take place after they return to the human realm. I'm also going to be using he/him pronouns for the crush that'll be mentioned. I figured since all the dateables in the game identify as male, it'd be a safe bet. Thank you so so much for this creative request @gender-less-lemon (also I freaking love your profile picture. Monster Camp/Prom is hilarious)***

Summary: An average day of high school with MC...and the seven pact manifestations that haunt their vision.

TW: Bullying You were awoken not by an alarm, or your guardian, or even some random noise from outside, but rather a phantom gnawing on your arm. With a groan, you blinked open your eyes and saw just your regular old room, with one minor difference; a spectral red bear was happily teething on your elbow. You chuckled and pet the manifestation, noting the brightly glowing symbol of gluttony resting in its stomach. "Okay, Beel," you mumbled to yourself as you dragged yourself out of bed, pushing the purple translucent calf sleeping on your stomach, in the process. "I hear you." Ever since you had returned to the human realm, you had been followed around by spectral manifestations of the seven pacts that you owned. By the looks of things, no one else could see them, and they only appeared when the connected sin was active or needed, but it helped you feel less alone. You missed the brothers more than you had anticipated. It was more than a little bit of a culture shock to go from being loved and spoiled every day to being the misfit in your high school. Speaking of which, you needed to get going if you weren't going to be late. As you rushed around our room frantically grabbing the things you needed to get ready, the calf-like manifestation of sloth sat on your bed mooing in complaint. You sent a glare over to it as you finished collecting your belongings. "Trust me, I rather stay home and sleep too, buddy. But I have to go." Grabbing some fruit on your way out the door, you just managed to make it to school on time. Now it was simply a matter of surviving the day.

In all honesty, you preferred RAD to high school. In RAD, the subjects were interesting and grasped your attention without any problems at all. You had friends, even outside of the brothers. Sure there were always demons that would talk down about the kid human that clung to the demon lords, but you had the brothers to protect you. It was nice.

Now that you were back in the human world, you had none of that. In fact, you were even more of a misfit than when you were before. The teenager that vanished for a year and came back weirder than before; that was you. At first, you couldn't get people to leave you alone, but once they realized you weren't going to give them answers they backed off. You would occasionally laugh or whisper to the manifestations, which would earn you some more than weird looks, but you didn't care. These weird little ghost-like creatures were one of the only things you had connecting you to the Devildom. They meant more to you than anything else. As you entered your classroom, you had to bite back a laugh at the sight of one of your classmates looking around in confusion as, unknown to them, a golden yellow crow flapped around their head and pecked at the shiny earrings they were wearing. You took your seat in the back of the classroom and watch in amusement as the crow continued pecking at the various belongings of students, causing subtle chaos and confusion. Leave it to Mammon to make your day even when he wasn't actually there. Your teacher walked in and sat down in his chair. "Alright, class. Today we're going to continue with our history presentations. Remember these were subjects of your choice, so I do hope that you can at least pretend to be interested," he sighed and pulled out a clipboard. "Looks like the next person presenting is...MC." You winced and looked down at your notes. The topic was definitely one you were confident in, but to present it in front of your class. What if no one liked it? What if people laughed? What if- You felt a nudge on your arm. You glanced over to see a dazzling blue peacock, straightening its long neck out high as it puffed out its chest. The pride manifestation gestured forward with its head and almost seemed to smile at you. You smiled gently as you felt warmth grow from his pact mark on your inner wrist and stood up beside the peacock. It cawed and began to strut forward, leading the way to the front of the class. The mental image of Lucifer doing the same almost caused you to burst out laughing. You finally turned to the class and held your head up proudly as you began to speak. "My presentation today will be on biblical demonology and the way it has evolved throughout the eons of its existence." It was the best presentation you had ever given in your life. Riding off of the high from history class, the day seemed to fly by. Before you knew it was time for lunch. The bear was back, this time just softly moaning it continued butting your back with its head in an attempt to get you to go to the cafeteria faster. With one particularly heard shove, you were sent stumbling forward, directly into the chest of someone. "I'm so sorry! I'm a total clutz. I just tripped, I hadn't meant to-" you cut yourself off as you looked up and noticed you were looking at your crush. Your jaw snapped shut as you felt your face suddenly become uncomfortably hot. He smiled and waved off the apology. "It's alright. Just an accident right?" Your face became even hotter as you noticed a bright pink rabbit jumping up and down happily behind him. "I- Uh...Ehm...Y-Yeah! Yeah, t-totally an accident. I'm seat so I should go find my hungry. I-I mean!" He chuckled and nodded. "No worries, I get what you're trying to say. Enjoy your seat, MC," he gave you a wink, causing you to squeak as he walked off. You glared down at the rabbit running happy circles around your feet and the red bear that was sulking guiltily in a corner. "I blame you two for this." With an embarrassed huff, you entered the cafeteria and found yourself instantly wanting to walk back out. Everyone was laughing and talking with one another in their friend groups at their tables. Some gossiped eagerly over a magazine. Others sat silently with one another while they gamed or read books. There was even a table where a group of theatre kids were drumming out a soundtrack beat on the table while singing their favourite

songs. You ducked your head down and grabbed a tray of food before moving to the lonely table in the back, doing your best to ignore the giant orange snake that slithered between the tables, occasionally hissing and tripping students. You tried not to think of how you could be just like those groups of laughing friends, if only you were still at RAD. Your heart ached as you thought about the brothers. Maybe you could call them tonight. You let out a heavy sigh as you stood up and went to leave. You had almost made it to the door when a familiar face stopped you. Standing just a couple inches taller than you, surrounded by their groupies, was your tormentor, Taylor. You weren't entirely sure why they hated you so much. You just knew that they did, and that it got even worse when you came back from the Devildom. Taylor smirked with their arms crossed over their chest. "Where do you think your going? You haven't come to say hello yet." You scoffed and tried to walk past them. "Leave me alone, Taylor. I'm not in the mood for this today," before you could get very far, you were harshly onto the floor, stealing the breath from your lungs. You gasped and glared up at them. "What the fuck?!" The bully just sneered down at you. "You may not be in the mood for this, but I am. You know I heard about your weirdo presentation. Demons? Really? What are you, a satanist?" Their word choice was really ironic, for at that moment you noticed the large, white unicorn with flaming green hair and eyes appear behind them. The beast stomped its hooves and whinnied dangerously. You gulped nervously and looked up at Taylor. "Even if I was, it's not your business. I just find the topic interesting is all." You went to stand up, and therefore force the angry horse with a horn away from Taylor, but were stopped as they placed their foot on top of your chest. "I bet that's why you have all those weird tattoos, huh? What did you run away and join a cult for a year? Freak!" You could feel Satan's pact mark on the back of your neck grow hotter and hotter to the point that you were concerned the manifestation may be trying to summon him. Your eyes widen as you noticed it back up a few steps and point its horn at Taylor. You knew that the creatures normally could do small interactions with others, such as tripping or pushing, but you had never seen them attempt anything so violent. You couldn't just let it kill someone. "STOP!" The cafeteria fell quiet, but you weren't looking at them or even Taylor, you were looking at the unicorn. The manifestation neighed in frustration and jumped around, but obeyed your command. You slumped in relief. Looking back over to Taylor, you found them glaring down at you like you were nothing but a bug. They opened their mouth to degrade you even further when a teacher finally stepped forward. "What is happening here?" You walked over to the unicorn while Taylor fed the teacher a handful of lies. You leaned over to the manifestation and whispered under your breath. "Thank you for trying to protect me, but you can't hurt people. Just leave it be." The creature snorted and nuzzled your shoulder. In comparison to the hectic lunch hour, the rest of the day passed by with ease. In no time at all, you were back home in your room. You had just plopped onto your bed, when you heard a familiar ringtone. You smiled brightly and quickly grabbed your D.D.D. before immediately answering the phone. "Hello?" "Oh, you answered that quite quickly," you grinned at the surprise in Satan's tone. "I was just calling to-" "IS THAT MC?! GIMME!!!" You laughed as the sounds of Satan yelling and running from Mammon came through the other end. There was a yelp, a bang, and a victorious whoop before you could hear the device get picked up by someone. "'Hey MC! How was your day? I hope you didn't miss the great Mammon too badly. N-Not that I've missed you or anything just wanted to know how you're doin' is all." Belphie's purple calf climbed its way into your lap once more as you gently patted its head.

"I miss you too, Mammon. And today wasn't bad. I'd say it was pretty average overall." You could hear Satan growl in the background before there was a loud thud followed by a scream from Mammon. Satan took the phone back. "Just average you say? Nothing special?" You frowned and narrowed your eyebrows in confusion. "No, why?" To your right, the unicorn neighed softly and plopped down beside your bed. "Well, I could've sworn I felt our pact become triggered at some point today and...Well in all honesty I was concerned. We worry about you getting hurt without us there with you, MC." You couldn't help but smile softly as one by one each of the manifestations of your pacts made their way to your bed and laid down. "I know," you replied affectionately. "Though I'm never completely alone. So long as I have my pacts, you guys will always be with me." ***This was such an interesting concept to toy around with. I hope this wasn't too confusing and actually makes sense 😅😅 Thanks again for the amazing request @gender-less-lemon!***

Taglist @thegrimgrinningghost

@henry-and-the-seven-lords

@satans-beloved-riv

@cosmixbun

@sufzku

[i-need-air]

Truthful mess.

Summary: Truth quirk shenanigans. HCs type with Bakugou, Kirishima, Shouto and Shinsou.

Note: Still don't know how to add "Read more" on phone, still need to make a masterlist. At least I have coffee. [I’M DOING BOTH RN, BE PROUD;;;LOOKATTHEReADMORE] Ty for reading! ♥

Bakugou Katsuki:

× well, shit

× he fucked up real bad and now he had to pay for it

× noticed something was wrong when he thanked Kirishima for saving his life instead of giving him the usual snappy attitude

× made the redhead promise to keep the secret or he'll kill him

× seriously kill and incinerate his body and was 100% serious about it

× Bakugou tried his hardest to keep his mouth shut and everything went okay until you just existed in the same room at him

× he'd just get the fuck out because all he wanted to tell you was how good you looked in whatever you were wearing or how beautiful your face was when kissed by the rays of sunshine and he was so confused

× he literally wanted to word vomit all of that

× thankfully the police arresting the mf that did this to him informed Katsuki about the effects of the quirk itself

× approximately 3 days of spilling truths

× he could handle that

× easy

× but not really; the less he talked the more he needed to spill out his mind

× he'd still snap at people, they were just dumb and he voiced that but

× well, hello there, [y/n]

× he prays you don't waltz around him

× life can be a bitch though

× it happened while training, Cementos made an area for each of you to improve your quirks and guess what? you're placed just by his side

× you just waved at him and he ignored you

× asshole much; until you kick-dropped and broke a big piece of cement in half

× "Fuck, that was so sexy..."

× your head turned slowly towards Bakugou because that was his voice, definitely, no doubt

× but it was raspy and low and it did some things to your, ehem, lowers and holy shit

× Bakugou looked like a deer caught in the highlights; he was full "step on me" mode and????????

× instantly turned the other way and yes, he is blushing

× he just couldn't hold it in, man

× so you're confused, blushing, Kirishima is near-by shook as fuck because he's ✨ realizing things ✨ since of course he's now Bakugou's self-proclaimed guard dog

× and Bakugou is back at ignoring you, his friend and the world

× you decide to keep an eye on him because that was not normal and oh my god why is that voice still affecting you? did he seriously say that??

× meanwhile you catch him looking at you from the corner of your eyes

× boy is staring real bad

× so you just go his way

× he panics as you approach him and blows shit up

× "Don't fucking come closer!" you freeze because what the hell? you thought you were getting along? yeah he's been snappy recently but it's Bakugou, he has mood-swings

× but not like this? at least with you?

× also what he said before just gave you hope??

× so you decide Fuck it all and get closer, noticing how Kirishima also approaches, looking like a bodyguard

× you raise your eyebrow because Excuse you?

× "[L/N], you should leave him be for now–"

× "Get out of my way or I'll break you, Kirishima."

× so you're having a staring match with the red-head, almost nose to nose when legit a growl shakes you to the core

× "[Y/N]'s mine, Shitty Hair, back down." he said between his teeth, his palms sparkling, quirk ready

× so his friend backs up, hands raised in defeat but a knowing grin on his face

× even in full shock you expected him to ignore you again but he just stomps towards you angrily, teeth greeted

× "You have a thing for him, hmm? You like Kirishima?" he was glaring at you, breathing heavily but suddenly locked his eyes in your lips

× and while he's throwing this fit or whatever it was, all the class kinda stopped whatever they were doing to see what's going on

× but Cementos ain't having any of that so parts you guys with a cement wall and orders you to keep training

× Bakugou was never more thankful because holy shit what was about to happen?

× you're full mind-blown, remembering his words again and again not even focusing on training; you decide to talk with his dumb ass to clarify what he said and wAs he jealous? i mean he literally said you're his so—... HE FUCKING SAID YOU'RE HIS????

× after that he went back to his grumpy old man form, you don't talk again until days later, although you did try to approach him again, many times, because YOU'RE HIS????????

× it's when he finally realizes the quirk is wearing off and he's relieved because it got to a point where he couldn't sleep

× so when you confront him in the common room the next morning he shrugs it off with a "I thought I'd accidentally confess that I love you and that would've been a problem."

× he freezes

× you freeze

× he wanted to call you a dumbass and move on until he figures his shit up but...

× that's when he realizes the effect of the quirk was dying off in waves

× save him from the mortification and confess too, please?

Kirishima Eijirou:

× he's normally a truthful guy

× but not like this, man, not like this

× Fatgum saved his ass but it was too late since he already got hit by a quirk, although none knew what it was about, so his mentor was having a full Panic moment

× later on he was informed about it's nature and was confused because nothing changed?

× he still compliments people, he's still his old self and is actually so happy that's the case

× thinks he's manly because he's honest about his feelings

× although he forgot about a tiny little detail

× his big fat crush on you

× like he'd blush when you came around, almost stuttered when responding to you, would try harder when you were around because pretty please, notice him, shows off more, all the I-need-YOUR-attention bag

× because he's smooth but in a Kirishima way, you know?

× felt he had zero (0) game [so not manly of him]

× will hands down not avoid you; thinks it's lame to run away from this

× who would've thought this was the best thing that could've happened to him?

× still had his boyish charm, cute smiles, blushes

× but now we add the honest "You look amazing today. Well, more than usual." with a wink because if he can't stop himself, at least he'll make it work big time

× and oh, shit that's doing stuff to your poor heart because his compliments are all over the roof? wth is going on?

× everyone knew about his feelings for you but now they really knew

× literally takes him half a day to spill all out

× he did try to clear his mind of those feelings in class because that would be so awkward and weird; he spent so much time daydreaming how to confess before and doing it there was definitely not the plan, but something more personal and meaningful

× when Kiri saw you in the common room though, alone and minding your own business, a grin broke on his face and had hearts in his eyes

× Bakugou had to hear a lot of shit about you, tho just rolled his eyes; "whatever, shitty hair."

× because you're so flawlessly beautiful and you're not even trying

× your head snaps up at him, blushing

× OOP–did he just blurt that out?

× so he's laughing awkwardly because not like this, man

× but goes with it because We die like men here 😤

× cue word vomit about how great you are and this quirk hit him and god you're amazing and it's not a lie because remember when you first met at UA? well he thought you were an angel and when you smiled at him? perfection and your blushing face is adorable and needs to see it everyday and ok this quirk needs to stop–

× meanwhile

× [Y/N].exe has stopped working

× legit tho, he won't shut the hell up and it's adorable

× all day he's been super smooth about his compliments to you and now he's the sweetest mess ever

× and you only notice yourself smiling when he points it out and says it's the single most beautiful thing he's ever seen in his entire life

× and even if that almost makes you 404 again you laugh and walk towards him

× which he follows and steps closer to you too

× smiling

× so he calms down when you're not freaking out about what he's spilling and goes back to being cha-cha-real-smooth again

× "I want to be able to call you mine"

Todoroki Shouto:

× another guy that doesn't really notice it at first

× he got hit by this weird blue-purple dust while on patrol with his dad

× and Endeavor went feral on this low-life villain deciding to attack suddenly

× low and behold, seems the guy wasn't a villain, just a civilian that sneezed and activated his quirk by accident

× quirk that landed on Shouto here

× which just stared confused because what?

× explanations happen, Endeavor is looking down at Shouto expecting something anytime now

× but Icy-Hot here just shrugs it off because it's okay, it's just 3 or 4 days

× funny thing is his dad asked him questions and realized pretty quick that Shouto has been really honest with him until now, which bummed him because Endeavor Is Trying™

× Todoroki Shouto was confident that nothing would go wrong so he forgets about it basically

× two days pass; class time happens

× is so fucking casual about it but it's so hilariously confusing

× he was honest before but he was quiet in general, that's why his honesty came in small dosages

× now he has no filter and won't shut up, he has this absolute need to share his thoughts

× my boy has opinions about everything

× but especially about [Y/N]

× oh yeah, he definitely tells you how that color enhances your natural beauty or how you're really smart

× is so casual and nonchalant, shooks everyone, leaves you full confusion mode while he just smiles and leaves

× legit doesn't realize it

× he complimented you before, that's the thing, but now he's really intensifying it but without changing the tone and execution and it's just a mess

× example:

× goes from "You changed your hairstyle. It looks nice." to "The way you style your hair now makes your eyes pop out more. I love it."

× lowkey proclaims his love about you; it's so obvious it hurts; you have to take it like a champ, man

× it takes Tsu to actually ask what's going on, in the first hour of class

× [even Aizawa is listening, pretending to sleep]

× explains why he's acting like this; "I got hit accidentally by a quirk that makes me speak only the truth."

× everyone just goes crazy while you're piecing stuff together in deep thought

× "Who do you think is the strongest in the class?"

× "Aizawa."

× lowkey a little shit

× "Between the students."

× "Me."

× big time a little shit

× it's until Mina asks who he likes that all hell breaks loose

× Shouto just turns to look at you, blinks and says your name

× just as everyone goes mental after a moment of silence, the bell rings signaling the next class, to which Aizawa [the mature man he is, acting as if this wasn't the best tea-spill he's gonna have at lunch with the other teachers 💅] wakes up, silences everyone and continues class

× every pair of eyes are on you all class

× Shouto is having an existencial crisis because he's actually realizing himself that he likes you

× a lot

× hands down he thought about how great you are, wondered deep in though at night why his heart beat so fast when you smiled at him, how come he got jealous???? when you'd pair with someone else to study or train... the boy didn't even know it was jealousy until now

× as in now he knew he wanted to hold your hand, have more inside jokes between you two, kiss you, marry you, wait what—

× you on the other hand are hyperventilating because Shouto likes you

× and you like him back and oH my god, wHAT just happened????

× lunch break comes, nobody moved from their seats while Todoroki just walks by, stares at you, slight blush on his face

× "I'd like to speak alone with you. About my feelings. Towards you. I like you."

× nice alone chat, Shouto 👏 👏 👏 👏 👏

× legit nobody is breathing, not making a single noise, waiting for your reaction

× so through stutters and all, you have to grab him by his wrist and get the hell out, the attention being too much

× before you reach a quiet place to talk he just stares at your hand

× "I like it when you touch me. Your hand is warm and it makes my skin tingle–"

× so you're a blushing mess when you let go of his wrist fastly

× "Do you not like me back?" [insert kicked puppy face]

× [insert you telling him that you do, but all the attention in class was killing you]

× "Good. Now hold my hand properly."

× that day Shouto learned that being bold with you was the perfect way to get the sweetest reactions out of you

× it's called teasing and Todoroki Shouto will never stop

Hitoshi Shinsou:

× Shinsou had a Reputation™, ok?

× Calm, cool, collected, that's Hitoshi Shinsou

× so how come Monoma did him so dirty?

× it seems the blond borrowed a quirk from someone he knew and fled to school to just bring Hell on Earth

× but the only person he managed to throw the quirk at was at Shinsou

× it wasn't even intended for him, but for Bakugou to embarrass him

× so here he was, Mister Tired-of-this-fucking-world now having another reason to be done with everything

× the boy wasn't dumb

× made a strategy just as Monoma was apologizing for the mistake

× somehow the blond took a liking on him and even if he was now part of class 2-A, Monoma proclaimed he was a 2-B at heart; moving on...

× 3 to 5 days of not talking lies

× great, amazing, marvelous, incredible, fantastic

× Rule #1: Avoid [Y/N] at all costs

× which would prove rather difficult since you're part of the same group he was in

× and you were starting to be really good friends

× something he loved/hated because yes, he wants your friendship but he also wants much more

× so when you came to class, would you look at that! Shinsou is sleeping!

× when you went to lunch with the squad? he fled the scene, not opening his mouth

× asked to borrow a pen in class? didn't even look into your eyes as he just gave you one

× after 3 days of this you were starting to get annoyed

× and Midoriya was writing shit down in that notebook of his mumbling stuff every single time Hitoshi bailed

× what you didn't know is that the whole Dekusquad caught on to Shinsou's shenanigans and demanded answers

× well, Ochaco did and she instantly got them because she's terrifying when serious

× so Izuku is in deep fascination with the quirk, Iida is stiff as fuck and Uraraka has this really creepy I-know-something-you-don't smile on her face; Shouto was existing there too, minding his business 🍵

× you really tried to grab a hold of Shinsou but he wasn't even answering your texts

× time to make a game-plan

× and the easiest way to understand what's going on was through Deku and that suspicious notebook of his

× it wasn't even that hard to get it because you got the perfect opportunity basically thrown in your lap

× he was mumbling your name as he was writing down

× you literally demanded to see what he's writing about involving you

× the boy went full panic but before he could manage to escape the situation, the guy that's been avoiding you grabs you by your forearm and tugs you in the hallway

× there he was, purple messy head you wanted to smack, looking all uncomfortable, rubbing the back of his neck

× "Ok, listen, I have something to tell you and I want you to know through me, not through that notebook" he sighed, eyes avoiding you

× and while you're hurt and exhausted he just mumbles "Who knows what type of embarrassing stuff he wrote there..."

× hold up, he blushing?

× so while you're processing that he explains

× "Been hit by a quirk..." yada-yada, this and that

× "Ok, but why have you been avoiding me of all people?" you just go hard on him for a little bit, not hiding that you're hurting "Do you not trust me?"

× he's caught off guard

× "Because I love you and I'm scared you'll never look at me the same."

× longest silence of his life

× he never felt the need to fill a silent moment more than now

× so he mumbles

× oh, yah, he just blurts it all out while looking everywhere but you

× "I mean you deserve better than a guy with a quirk like this. I didn't want to make things uncomfortable between us so I thought avoiding you was the best, just so we can continue being friends and–"

× he's a fucking mess and it hurts you that he's saying stuff like that because holy shit you love this sleepy idiot?

× of course you kiss him to silence his rant

× and when you separate from it and start to reassure him he's just a m a z i n g, how dare he say stuff like that and how dare he avoid you for so long; now it's his time to kiss you back slowly and sweetly

× cue instant, lazy smile

× "You're adorable..."

[artsyxloner]

Not Just a Monster

Warning: blood,Voices, violence

4: Green Roof Apartments

It was dark by the time I had gotten to the green roof apartment building. I was coming up near the font where it looked like they were doing construction work? but Spotted something laying on the ground.

Its limbs were all Sprawled out getting closer making sure it was dead before I went in.  Half of its head was chopped Capitated it had looked-like its face was beaten in my something big?

Its teeth were all yellow and dirty as its skin was a sickly bluish-gray. But one of its ears stood out the most. It was enlarged, I was sure to remember this and put it in my field journal.

I was about to check the front out when I heard the monster utter some words. " I can't see?!" It spoke my eyes went wide as I turned to look at it.

My feet Accidentally hit some gravel making the smallest noise. Its enlarged ear started to twitch. " I can hear you!!" I mumbled its fingers moved when all of a sudden they shot out spikes. Until it hit the concrete building wall making a crashing sound.

I jumped out of the way before it could hit me. I rolled on to the payment as another shot of spikes came. Laying on my stomach it was either fight or flight since I didn't have a weapon I chose to leave knowing I could get killed.

The only reason I didn't before was because of the golden If you didn't know already. Getting up I ran away, not able to fight well I wasn't a good fighter as you have seen before but I was extremely lucky.

Going in behind the building there  I checked for a possible way in. As I moved stuff out of my way I found a door hidden behind a white tarp. Moving it out of the way there was a sound of a huge thud making the group shake.

I wobbled a little bit trying to steady back my balance. Knowing I shouldn't have looked back but my Curiosity got the best of me. I nearly fainted seeing a monster about the size of Wait no it was the size of the hulk.

It kept saying " Protein" that's when I knew that was one of the monsters that ate people. Grabbing ahold of the door handle I twisted it opened running in quickly I shut and locked the door behind me.

I signed out a heavy breath feeling sweat run down my forehead and back. If this place has these kinds of monsters there's no telling what is in this building.

I should have known, there can't be a place without some type of these things living in it some more than others. Inside the back building was dark and it gave me the creeps.

Lights flickered on and off creaking sounds coming from the old busted pipes and the floor was kinda wet with water they made have had a water leakage somewhere.

I made my way down the hallway as my footsteps splashed the little amount of water. It Echoed making the place give me goosebumps my arms my whole body shook.

I needed some sleep because I have been through a lot today my body was sore even though I healed. Checking every door it was locked until I came to the end of the last door.

Opening it Carefully as the Hinges made a squeaking sound I cringed hoping nothing heard that I was surprised to see a closet. It was those that had a little cot where the people slept on if they need to borrow one.

I smiled, it even had a pillow. Slipping off my duffel back after a while of carrying it I felt relieved hearing my bones and muscles stretch and pop. I flopped down my side hitting the comfy cot.

My breathing slowed as my eyes began to feel heavy they flutter for a few seconds before closing that's when I knew I was going to have some fucked dreams tonight from the things I saw.

...

There was nothing but loud screaming everywhere I went. Everybody was running away as they knocked each other over them jumping over seats and them hiding behind stuff.

I was confused at why they were doing this? What was wrong I didn't see anything out of the ordinary?

At the time I wasn't aware they were all running from me. I didn't have any control over my body just only inside my head, I could think.

I mean I could feel my body moving but and something wet was gushing from my nose. I was confused about what was happening? It was just a nosebleed wasn't it? that's normal.

That's when I looked in the window and was horrified at what I saw my reflection was smiling back at me with pitch-black eyes and blood was all over the bottom of my mouth dripping down to my neck.

That's when it began.

I sat up breathing hard, remembering the horrific image of myself. I quickly pick up my duffel bag and unzipped it bringing out my opened water bottle pouring some in my hands I splashed my face with some to cool me down.

I wiped my eyes rubbing them until I couldn't see it anymore until I saw stars. Signing I ran my fingers through my frizzy, red hair, I've had this dream since the night they were killed and it's like the inner monsters inside me want to keep reminding me.

I'm starting to hate it, next time I see it I'm going to tell it to fuck off! Getting up I drank my water and took out some Oreo pocky Munching on them Quietly.

I know all this junk wasn't good for me but it was the only thing I had. As I did I felt my nose dripping wet, making me Drop my pocky stick.

" shit!!" I grabbed the ends of my sleeve trying to soak up the blood that was constantly flowing. " Now! Now! that's what you get when you say you were going to tell me to what's the word... fuck off?"

I almost choked on my food hearing its damn voice. " it's too bad I didn't get to talk to you when you fell." I covered my ears not listening to the inner monster inside me wanting to come out.

I stayed silent not listening. " fine ignore me, but when the time comes you'll need me." I still stayed quiet " It wasn't my fault it was yours why would I need your help!?" I fussed getting down on my knees.

" When the time is right Soo-Nico." This made me scoffed no more like a laugh like a crazy person. If someone saw me from their point of view they would think I am.

Then the voice left like it was never there. My fist clenched as I started to bang on the floor. " I'll never need you!" I whispered as tears beamed my eyes.

I cried quietly for a few minutes leaning my back on the edge of the cot. Then I heard the sound of instrumental music coming from the speakers go off. Seconds later there was a young man's voice.

I nearly jumped out of my skin, " uh, uh," it went Static " Survivors, the first floor is safe now."

" come to the first floor. We'll be safer together." The guy paused then spoke up. " We survivors must stick together. Please come down. Come down here now."

" –I said please come down..." the man's voice went static again followed by a long Frequency that hurt my eardrums. I couldn't think for a moment there were people here? There were survivors.

I wasn't alone, I hurried I get up but stopped a thought coming to mind. What if he was trying to trick someone like me to get me to come and then take my stuff and keep it for himself? He just is saying it's safe and lies.

But for some reason I knew he wasn't lying, it sounded like he was calling for someone to come down that was being stubborn. If they were stuck up there? I only had two choices to go or not.

I decided to go I needed some social interaction if there were people there? but I would be wary and careful of them.

I wasn't going to trust them that was for sure just stick around long enough to see what type of people they are.

Getting up I grabbed my bag slinging over my shoulder carefully opening the door it was still the same as last night the same creepy eerie feeling I didn't notice before but there were cobwebs.

With dead bugs and flies in them ready to be eaten. My face crinkled up, feeling bad for them I knew how they felt now, Well in some way.

I moved down the hallway going to the entrance that's probably where they are at. I stopped every few seconds hearing strange Noise this was the first floor He said it was clear right?

Maybe he was saying one part of it was clear and blocked off. That means there could be monsters Roaming free around this section of the first floor.

I felt fear creep inside my chest and up my throat. Seeing the monsters I saw last night, there could be some-more like that or worse.

My arms got goosebumps, making the hairs on the back of my neck stand. It was like I was trying to freak myself out. I just wanted to turn back and hid in that closet and never come out.

It was promising but I knew being a wimp wouldn't solve anything. So I forced myself to go on my feet talking a right at the end of the blinking light that hung down from the Ceiling.

I passed a bathroom door that said out of order, Ignoring it I passed on seeing the walls that had wallpaper were all ripped up with mold spoiling over them.

Toys and clothes were all sprawled out all over the floor I bent down to pick up a shirt but dropped it when I heard screaming and crying.

My eyes turned to where the sound was coming from them landing on a pair of double doors. I ran towards them stepping on my tip-toes to look through the small glass window to see what was happening?

There was a group of people holding back a woman that was most likely in her late forties. With the front entrance open they all looked terrified.

[willykappymarnsmatts]

Wish It Was Real: Chapter 3 (A. Matthews)

Gif by @nylanders

Usually on Saturdays Auston and I would hang out at home all day, listening to music and doing chores around my apartment until it comes time to get ready to go to the arena. It's abnormally quiet in the apartment this Saturday, with no Aus bouncing around the halls, trying to distract me while I fold the laundry, blasting music until I yell at him to turn it down.

I miss him. It's only been a couple of days since I've seen him and I miss him. I don't bother turning on music, but I go around the rooms, picking up old glasses and plates to wash before I get ready to go. I shake my head and wonder how terribly wrong I read the situation on the couch with Auston. I spooked him, and now he'll never look at me the same ever again. He's probably disgusted with me. He's never expressed he wanted anything more with me, our relationship seeming strictly friendly until the fake-dating. But apparently, the entire thing was acting. If he's going to give me the cold shoulder from now on, I don't know how much longer I can go playing pretend with him.

•••

AUSTON’S POV

Why the fuck did I run off like that, I think to myself, lying on my back on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I've picked up my phone at least a hundred times, opening her contact on my phone, wanting more than anything to text her, to see her.

To hear her voice.

But something stops me every time. Something inside me makes me throw my phone across the room and try to force her out of my head. I can't get her out, though. She's all that I can think about, has been for years. Stupid fucking flings don’t even come close to making me feel the way I do when I’m around her, when she smiles at me and its like time stops, when she jokingly flirts with me when we’re alone. The way she's been looking at me, while we've been pretending, I literally cannot focus. It takes all my fucking willpower not to kiss her while we’re in the company of the team, or her friends.

When she's wearing my sweats, her hair hanging loose with no makeup on, I can't think straight. When she dresses up to go out somewhere, I imagine my hands roaming her perfect body, the things I'd do to her if I could. She makes my heart stop. She's funny, and kind to literally everyone, she's loyal, beautiful…

She’s my fucking favourite person and I want her all to myself.

I'm gonna make her mine. I'm done playing games and pretending and flirting. I sit up on my bed and push myself onto my feet to get ready to go to the arena. I'm not going to wait around anymore.

•••

Y/N’s POV

I smile politely at the people who make eye-contact with me on my way to the section where the guys buy seats for the WAGs. I take a deep breath when I see the group of blondes chatting and drinking a few metres away. I nod at the strangers in the seats between me and the girls and slide past them when they get up.

“Y/N! Hey!” Paige exclaims when she sees me. She gets up from her seat to hug me and sits back down, taking her purse off my seat so I can do the same. I wave at the group, and while most of the girls are nice enough to me, Steph glares at me slightly. I shake my head to myself, but my face breaks into a smile when Paige turns towards me. “So, how are things going with Auston?” She drawls. Paige had quickly become my closest friend out of the girls when Kasperi started dating her. They have an on-off relationship, and when they're on I see a lot more of her, but she's probably the only one out of the girlfriends that I keep in touch with outside of with the guys.

I grimace slightly, and her face falls. “You know how the guys all went out for Will’s birthday the other night?” She nods, her eyes searching mine. “Since that night, I haven't seen or heard from him. I know he’s alive because he’s been posting and the team hasn’t posted a fucking announcement that he died, but he’s been ignoring me for what seems like absolutely no reason.” I pout a little, this being the first time I've spoken the situation out loud, even in its half-truth.

“Want me to get Kappy to kick his ass?” She asks, her expression sombre until she sees my face light up and I giggle. We laugh and continue to chat until the lights dim and the light show begins on the ice. We whoop and cheer with the rest of the arena, and Paige and I yell especially loud for Kap, Mitch, and Will. When Auston’s name is announced and the arena starts to shake, my heart dips and breaks a little. He gives a small nod to the arena, which is displayed on the scoreboard, then looks in my direction. I watch him as he squints to look for me in the crowd, as he does every game I come to, but instead of smiling and waving when he sees me like a little kid, he nods to himself and looks away.

My heart breaks and I slump in my seat a bit, which catches Paige’s attention. “Hey, what's wrong?”

“He barely even looked at me.” I admit, and she puts an arm around me and rubs my shoulder. Her bracelet catches on a loose thread of my jersey, and she grins a little.

“His name is still on the back of the jersey you're wearing. Everything is fine. He would’ve taken it with him when he left if he didn’t want you to wear it. And you're going out with him tonight, right?” I nod, still frowning.

“Okay, so then you talk to him tonight. Ask him why he's being a little bitch. And if he does break your heart, I swear I’ll get Kap to beat his ass.”

I giggle again at the thought of the two best friends having it out. “Thanks for being such an amazing friend,” I tell her, and she smiles.

“Babe, you never have to thank me for that.”

The game speeds by and it’s halfway through the third period with the guys down by one to the Panthers. Auston gains possession of the puck and skates into the opposing end. He passes it to Mitch, who passes it back to Auston, who skates around a defenceman and shoots from his backhand…

The arena starts to shake as people jump up from their seats and scream and cheer. I stand up and clap as the guys jump on Auston in celebration. As he skates towards the bench, he looks in my direction and winks, and butterflies blossom in my stomach. Paige sees, and she wraps her arms around me in celebration.

Mitch scores the game-winning goal seven minutes later, to which the fans erupt, and the game ends three minutes after that. Everyone is ecstatic and I leave our section and go into the concourse with Paige on my heels.

“Do you need anything before you go to see him?” she asks me, gently fixing my hair.

“I think I'm okay,” I laugh. “We’re not meeting for the first time or anything.”

She nods and pats me on the shoulder. “Have fun, don't let Steph drag down the night too much.”

I nod and she kisses me on the cheek before letting me find my way to the stairs to get down to meet Auston.

Most of the security recognize me, so I don't have to pull out my access card, but there's always a few new guys who assume I'm a fangirl going to harass the guys. I groan and fish around my purse, but before I can find it someone comes running down the hall and envelopes me in his arms. “Auston!'' I exclaim and hug him back.

“See my goal? Just for you,” he winks, easily falling into fake-affection.

“I saw,'' I grin, and he plants a kiss on my forehead, right in front of the security guard. He clears his throat and Auston nods at him, then wraps his arm around my shoulders to lead me to his car. When we get in, my smile falls, but his doesn’t.

“We can't just act like nothing happened,” I frown.

“Why not?” he jokes, but immediately drops it. “I know. I'm sorry for the way I acted, I really am. I was stupid, I just freaked because-” he cuts himself off when Mitch bursts into the back of the car, a huge grin on his face.

“Mitch! Game winner!'' I smile and high five him, and he pats himself on the back.

“No big deal,” he laughs. Stephanie steps into the car moments later, and the light mood darkens slightly, but I'm able to ignore the glare she gives me.

“Where are we going?” I ask Auston, telling him with my eyes that our conversation is not over.

“Uhm, the usual place.” I nod, my lips in a tight line, and Auston nods back, expressing that he gets that we’re gonna talk alone.

The night is far from over.

[angelamazing]

In The End III

Genre : Angst, Fluff

Warnings : Gore, Violence, Mentions of Blood and Cursing lots of them (:<

Summary :

It was ironic really how the world changed because of a deadly virus, the once beautiful landscape filled with families and joyous people now filled with the undead, a flesh eating monsters that we're once known as human now became the most feared creature, all it would do was smell you and when they did, will find you and eat you alive, it wasn't what people are mostly scared of they would rather be eaten alive than get bitten and become one of those disgusting creatures.

Jooheon woke up at the crack of dawn just like he said yesterday .

He was going to talk to you alone, and maybe, just maybe you would change your mind.

He sneaked off not even bothering to tell Hyunwoo where he was going, and it was too much of a hassle and he couldn't be bothered with it.

It had been awhile since he traveled alone. The last time he did was four months ago, just like what you thought that traveling alone was much safer until he had a close call with death.

But luckily, Hyunwoo and his group had saved his ass, and as much as Jooheon hated it, he owed his life to the large statured man.

Getting into town was alot quicker when he was by himself than him with his group .

A group of people managed to attract some walkers but manged to avoid many so he had to kill a few.

Just like always the town was silent, way to silent for Jooheon’s liking and it kinda freaked him out.

He pulled the hood of his jacket over his head to cover the cold breeze brushing past him.

It didn't take long for him to find himself out of your window.

Just like yesterday, he gathered some rocks to throw, he aimed the rock to the window and just as he was about to let go, he was grabbed from behind.

A hand found it’s way to his hair with a harsh grip, pulling his head back a cold object was placed on his neck it was something sharp, he tried to fight back but the leg of his attacker was in between his. If he stumbled now, his life would be over.

Slowly, the attackers gripped loosened and the blade was removed from his neck as the attacker pushed him forward.

Keeping his balance, he immediately turned around sighing in relief upon seeing it was you “Fucking shit”

You smirked at him “Sorry, sweet cheeks, didn't realize it was you with a hood”

He watched you as you twirled the blade in your hand before you slid it back on your jacket sleeve.

“Stop calling me sweet cheeks” He glared at you “I came here to talk to you”

“Why?”

“Because”

“Because what?”

“Listen here woman, can we talk or not?”

“Can't see why not” you shrugged.

You climbed back up on the drain pipe motioning for him to do the same.

He followed you up before taking a seat on the floor, taking a deep breath before speaking.

“You do know why i’m here so let's cut to the chase and go straight to the point”

You nodded at him indicating that you're willing to listen.

“As of right now, our group is very weak and only a handful of people can or willing to fight, most of them are cowering when it comes to fighting those things and we only have Minhyuk to research on those things ”

You tilted your head to the side.

“Research?”

He nods.

“ Yeah, like finding out if they have any other weaknesses or patterns on their behavior”

“I already have that”

Jooheon's eyes widened slightly.

“Are you willing to share the information you have?”

You shrugged your shoulders “I don't see why not”

Jooheon stood on his feet waiting for you to follow.

“I'll make a deal with you, you, come with me and share the information you have, you can leave right after with no questions asked and that's if you choose not to stay with us”

You got up to your feet, holding out your hand, as he shakes it.

“Deal”

****

“Why Did you save Jungwon?” Jooheon asked as your gaze settled on him.

“He just reminds me of someone I know” you mumbled as you picked up your pace walking ahead of him.

It was clear that you don't really want to talk about it, so Jooheon just watched you letting the conversation drift off.

Moments later, Jooheon decided to take a break he wasn't in a rush to get back to the camp he already know he would get his ass handed to him once he got there.

“You didn't tell them you were leaving, are you?”

He shook his head as she let out a hum.

“What was that thing about trust you guys said yesterday?”

Jooheon scoffed rolling his eyes.

“It’s not I don't trust them, I just couldn't be bothered by Hyunwoo and the others with their shits”

An amused laugh escaped your lips.

“Have you been with them since from the start?”

He shook his head .

“No, I was actually traveling alone at first. About two months in, I almost lost a chunk of flesh by those human eating bastards, but luckily Hyunwoo and his group was there to save me so I really owe them my life”

“Ah I see, so, you joined to pay the debt you owe”

Jooheon nodded before asking the question that he has been really curious about.

“So, how the hell did you managed to survive for six months being alone?”

“it’s not been easy actually” you shrugged “But, I got used to it, and started to pay attention to my instincts, from there on I learned how to survive”

“So why is it that you don't trust people?”

You turned towards him, your eyes meeting his before looking away.

“it’s not that I don't trust, it’s just that I don't want to be attached and end up losing them”

You stood up patting yourself down.

“shouldn’t we be going?”

Jooheon stood up sighing “I guess”.

****

You and Jooheon made it back to his camp, luckily unscathed, the rest of the trip was quiet between the two of you, not that you actually minded, it was actually nice since it made it easier for you to listen if there are any undead nearby.

Upon your arrival, you noticed that the group seemed to be panicking and disorganized, Jooheon walked with you, following closely behind, the group seemed to have calmed as they laid their eyes on him.

“Jooheon, where did you go? You didn't tell me you were leaving” the tall man which you knew as Hyunwoo scolded Jooheon as if he was a child.

Jooheon sighed before responding “I went by myself, because it's easier to talk to someone, one on one rather than a group with guns”

You stepped forward as Hyunwoo eyed you curiously before looking back at Jooheon.

“She agreed to share information with us about the walkers, and had an agreement that after this, if she decided not to stay, we should let her go with no other questions asked”

***

The group huddled in a small circle surrounding a small fire as you sat beside Jooheon.

“So what do you want to know?”

“Just anything you know” Hyunwoo spoke.

So you went from the beginning explaining each and everything you know not missing an ounce of information since you knew they would be helpful.

“and oh, one more thing, they're also blind-”

“then how the fuck did they know the difference between undead and human?” Jooheon asked.

“I was getting to that Jooheon” you said giving him a side glare “They have a heightened sense of smell, they can smell the difference between rotting flesh and human flesh”

“How do you know this?” Hyunwoo spoke.

“Well, when I was walking around the city, that was crawling with lots of undead, I watched them and looked like as if they were sniffing one another when they came into contact, so I decided to test this theory by killing one undead and basically rolled on its guts” you could already see Jooheon cringed from the corner of your eye “As you can see, I was able to walk out of the city filthy but alive”

“That’s fucking disgusting” Jooheon mumbled as you nodded your head in agreement.

“That’s all I have”

Hyunwoo nods.

“thank you for sharing these information with us” Hyunwoo said before turning to face Minhyuk whose busy scribbling furiously on his notebook.

“have you gotten any information about the vaccine?”

You narrowed your eyes towards Minhyuk.

“Ah that, No I haven't it's really hard to work on that without any equipment” Minhyuk sighed.

“A Vaccine?” you asked

Minhyuk turned to you nodding eagerly, before explaining “yeah we are actually working on a vaccine that could possibly save humans from turning into one of those filthy bastards, but we lack of some equipment so it's kind of hard to work on that now.”

You sat back for a moment and thought, if the vaccine they were saying could possibly save humans from going extinct, why not just help them with it, right?.

“Actually, I know someone who exactly have the equipments you need, it’s not actually from from here if any of your vehicles are working, if you want I can take you there”

“Oh, so miss ‘i ride solo’ Is willing to help us” Jooheon snickered having a smug smile plastered on his face.

You smiled back at him sarcastically before slapping him on the back of his head.

“fuck” he hissed

You smirked watching him rub his head before Facing Hyunwoo.

“So, Hyunwoo. What's the plan?”

[tobin-heaths]

Steamy (NSFW)

request: Maybe something involving steamy, rough shower sex and biting to keep quiet to not get caught. Top Hope, stong goalie gf basically pinning R against the shower wall and ravishing her.(It can be in a shared hotel room or locker room after practice) they almost get caught but Hope doesn't stop, even teases reader and speaking erotically/dirty.

pairing: Hope Solo x Reader

words: 1612

Panting you hurried into the locker room and slammed the door shut, leaning against it you tried your hardest to calm down.

You were so turned on, your panties probably a wet mess, your legs shaking and your face was flushed.

To anyone else it appeared like you were overly exhausted from training but no, oh no, Hope and you knew that wasn't true.

Your eyes scanned the room, luckily most of the players have already left. You had stayed behind to wait for Hope since you would be leaving together anyways.

Closing your eyes you thought back to the moment just a second ago.

"You know you're pretty obvious right?" Abby walked up to you resting comfortably on the grass.

"Jesus, you scared the crap outta me." Your body twitched in surprise, one hand grabbing your left chest area.

"Stop being so dramatic," She laughed and sat down next to you. "What's going on here, lil one?"

"I have no idea what you're talking about."

"Oh really? So you're telling me I didn't just catch you undressing Hope from all the way over here?" Abby looked at you with a raised eyebrow and a huge smirk.

"Oh my god, can you stop," You groaned in embarrassment. "I did not undress her with my eyes." You protested.

Your eyes wandered back over to where Hope was currently taking a small break sipping from her water as Ash went to work.

"It's happening again, love bird," She said and giggled. "I'll leave you to it." Abby stood up patting your shoulder as a goodbye and walked over to Carli and Becky.

And yes, you were ogling Hope because why wouldn't you? She was wearing one of her tank tops, her muscular arms on display.

There was so much happening that at one point it got too much for your poor gay brain.

Hope's arms flexed delightedly, her skin covered in a thin layer of sweat, her big gloved hands catching the ball any chance she got.

It made you think about what her hands and arms are capable of, wether that might be soccer or anything else.

Alyssa was shooting the ball and Hope was diving left and right, her groans whenever she hit the ground music to your ears.

Your poor body was tensed, your balled fists grabbing the grass roughly, as if that could ever save you.

Damn her, why did she have to wear a top and shorts today? She might as well play naked then.

You didn't know what was going on but everything Hope did seemed to turn you on today. You swallowed hard and tried to calm your nerves.

Unbeknownst to you Hope knew about the effect she had on you, thoroughly enjoying it. It was easy for her to catch you checking her out, any other player could easily see that.

Hope used that chance and teased you to no end, groaning twice as loud and much every time she fell, flexing her arms, lifting up her top to look at her stomach abs. The list was endless.

You wanted to run away, back to safety, away from your dirty thoughts but your body was glued to the grass.

Hope seemed to be done with her training now, high-fiving Ash and Alyssa she began walking in your direction, a bottle of water in one hand and her gloves in the other.

Her predatory grin and that mischievous glint in her eye told you she knew all about it, a promise of what was to come once she gets you alone.

With eyes wide open and cheeks flushed you quickly scrambled off the ground and ran back to the locker room.

Feeling relieved that you were alone you dropped your cleats and went into the bathroom to take a cold shower.

You knew Hope would arrive sooner or later and then it would be over and done for you but you couldn't stand to wait any longer, like you were hiding from a predator, just waiting to get pounced on.

Taking off all your clothes you stepped under the ice cold water, goosebumps rising along your skin, from your shoulders to your legs.

The feeling was refreshing but also not really helping at all.

You pressed both hands against the tiled wall and held your head under the water. "Decided to take a shower without me? That's not very kind, is it, babygirl?"

Hope's voice and sudden presence behind you startled you, wanting to turn around to face her but she wouldn't let you. Her naked, strong body roughly shoved you against the wall and held your arms behind your back.

You groaned as your cheek made contact the tiles.

"Say, baby. Did you get all hot and bothered watching me work out?" She asked with a grin you weren't able to see.

"Uhhh– I- no, not exactly." You lied, mentally slapping yourself for such a cheap lie.

Hope chuckled and swept the wet hair away from your neck, pressing her lips to your cold skin, delicately kissing it with her lips until she reached your ear, smiling as you whimpered.

"Do you know what I think though? I think you're so turned on you had to run away from me." She whispered into your ear.

At the same time one hand went around to the front of your body and between your slightly spread thighs, easily finding the wetness that was collecting in between.

You held a desperate moan back and pushed into her body.

"I've been waiting for this all day." She said and roughly kneaded your ass, even spanking it.

"Hope, please. Don't tease." You begged and closed your eyes in pleasure.

Staying quiet she placed one hand on your hips and the other went back in between your legs to circle your needy clit.

The feeling was overwhelming, Hope and you hadn't been able to fuck for the last week, so all your pent up horny emotions made this twice as good. Your hands clawed the wall, anything to not get swallowed by the intense pleasure.

Her rough goalie hand kneaded one of your breasts, flicking and twisting your nipple until it hurt, sending shocks of pleasure straight to your pussy.

"Yes, just like that! Don't stop!" You moaned, throwing your head back against her shoulder.

Hope smirked and enjoyed having you at her mercy in such a public space, secretly hoping someone would walk in and just catch the two of you. She loved to show you off, no shame in that.

True to that the door to the locker room opened and her hand quickly covered your mouth. "That was a great practice. Can't wait to get back to the room though, my legs are killing me." Your eyes widened as you heard the voice of Carli and what had to be Abby's laugh.

Footsteps seemed to grow closer and you started struggling against Hope as she didn't seem to slow her movements down, no, she only doubled her effort and inserted two fingers into your wet heat.

You cried out against her palm and rocked against her hand as much as you could without your legs giving out. Luckily Hope had you trapped in between herself and the wall.

"That's right baby, moan for me." She whispered and fucked you roughly. Oh how she enjoyed this.

The moment Abby heard one of them showers running and seeing that pile of clothes in front of it, it was clear what was actually happening and so she made sure to drag Carli out as soon as possible.

You couldn't lie, getting fucked in shower by freaking Hope Solo while there were other people in the room had you insanely turned on.

Her fingers hit your sweet spot repeatedly with the right amount of pressure. "Hope!" Her hand muffled your small scream of pleasure.

"What's the matter baby? Like getting fucked in the open like this? Where everybody could easily see what a little slut you are?" She laughed and removed her hand when it was clear that they had left the room.

Her hands turned you around and slammed you back into the wall while she wrapped one of your legs around her waist.

Wasting no time she shoved her fingers back into your pussy and rubbed your clit with her thumb.

Your mouth hung open, your eyes rolling back into your head as she hit your g-spot and simultaneously bit your neck, rolling her tongue over the faint marks that would for sure take the form of a big hickey later on.

"Are you gonna cum for me, baby?" She asked and wrapped her hand around your throat as you nodded, not able to form any words.

She quickened her pace and it didn't take long for you to reach an orgasm.

A few more rubs on your swollen clit and the hand around your neck that was stopping the blood flow to your brain made you tense up, your head falling onto her shoulder and biting it to muffle your loud scream as you finally climaxed.

"That's it baby. Good job! You looked so pretty coming for me like that." She praised you, pressing her lips onto yours.

Turning the water from cold to warm she picked you up and placed both of your legs around her middle, holding your ass and letting you warm up for a second.

"That was- intense." You said, taking a minute to get your breathing back to normal.

"It was. You know Abby caught us, right? She'll tease us relentlessly for the next week." Both of you giggled at that.

"It was worth it."

[liljungie]

Young Blood | Mafia AU

▸Pairing : Jimin ↮ Reader ↮ Taehyung.

▸ ！warnings ！= agnst × future smut × verbal abuse / guns and blood and violence × crime × mafia and all what comes with it.

▸Word count: 4k

▸Part one ❝ Past Phase  ❞ | Part two : ❝ Mission A23 ❞

▸Masterlist

A/N: I am SO sorry for being m.i.a for the past month, I had my finals and I got sick and been through a lot but yea I'm back!! Also I'm sorry for any mistakes in this part!

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The drive to the warehouse felt like it took forever with your heart acting the way it did you were positive that you're going to die before you got there because of how fast it was beating.

You were nervous and a bit scared because you knew what was awaiting you, as much as you loved vivian no good news ever came out of her lips, maybe honesty was what you needed especially if it has to do with your daughter. You tried telling yourself. But nothing seems to work when you were trying to calm yourself it only made you more anxious.

You parked the car a few meters away from the warehouse gate as you waited patiently for vivian to walk out, you checked your phone for messages but you only got a text from jimin a few minutes ago updating you on Luna. you typed a quick reply before your screen turned dark and taehyung's name flashed bright. Signaling that he's calling you.

You could feel your body set on fire as panic rush through your vains, you threw your phone on the back seat it kept vibrating in your palms or started to feel heavy or maybe that was the panic attack that you were about to have.

You looked outside terrified that he might be lurking in the woods around you or he could see you from inside his office in the warehouse, you couldn't call Vivian to tell her to rush because taehyung was blowing up your phone. You bite your lip for what's about to come.

And knowing taehyung you were in deep shit.

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"I'm sorry! Cracking the code took longer than it should" vivian smiled at you warmly before she took you in for a long awaited embrace.

She laughed lightly against your head "I missed you V!" You tell her as you pull away "hurry drive away!" She exclaimed and that you did speeding far away from the warehouse...

"Do you want to tell me what's going on?" You begin to say after you passed the warehouse she sighs clearing her throat before speaking "I'll tell you everything once we're home" you turn and look at her "you have a home? What happened to your roommate?" You ask her with a confused gaze.

"Well I dated said roommate..." she tells you and you gasp, you loved them together and suspected that there's a relationship between them but never asked. "but you know how my job is and I didn't want to risk it so I-" she looks away from you as you keep glancing at her from the rare view mirror your eyes go wide "don't tell me you kil-" vivian cuts you off "no!" She said loudly "no I broke up with her and moved out" she says swolling the lump in her throat.

"I'm sorry about that v.. I didn't know" you smile sympathetically at your best friend and she returns the smile "______ she loved me and I broke her..."

You sigh, funny how you too broke someone for their safety but ended up questioning if it was worth it for the rest of your life..

"You did the right thing" you didn't know if you were telling that to her or yourself "she can't know or get involved it's dangerous" you tell her softly referring to her job in the mafia.

"I had a thousand others way to leave her but I chose the worst way out" she spoke in a tone where it felt like she was scolding herself "I made jimin pretend to be my boyfriend so I can convince her that I wasn't into girl- her anymore"

Jealousy crept up on you slowly feeling like you have been splashed with gasoline and burning up, you knew how jimin had a soft spot for his friends and always up for help no matter the cost, in the past you hated this trait of his but it made him who he is and you couldn't help but love him even more for it.

"So...what did he do?" You bite your lip anticipating the dreadful answer. But apart of you didn't want to imagine vivian and jimin together. "he pretended to be my boyfriend- I broke her in two...the look on her face will haunt me forever" vivian looked away as you sigh remembering the look on jimin's face when he saw you walking out of taehyung's office half naked. "you know it's for the best...she's safe now at least" you tried to cheer her up and it looks like your words soothed that ache but very slightly.

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You and vivian settled to go to your favourite spot instead of her home, besides you both needed a little getaway.

You were both finally at the top of the mountain. You parked the car further away so you can get a bit if fresh air, you have been cooped up in the car for a good while.

you and vivian walked side by side arms locked as you were talking about new things she bought.

She rubbed your arm soothingly "I want you to not lose your cool okay? You need to hear me til the end" she starts looking at you with worried eyes.

You take a deep breath and nod as you face her, the wind around you picks up making your hair fly around "tell me I can't take it longer"

"Mr.kim has been visiting taehyung twice a week.. I couldn't hear much but yesterday I heard just about enough to alert you.." she looks away from your eyes and your eyebrows furrow with worry "and?" You ask searching for a glimpse of good news in her features but it looks...bad.

"Mr.Kim wants to take Luna from you and taehyung"

"What?!" Disbelief hit you like a brick. it felt like every blood vessel stood frozen in your vains not able to process the words you just heard. "Taehyung is Fighting back but he can only do so much because Mr.kim is still his father after all" vivian tells you with a hint of sympathy for taehyung.

"I don't get it why does he want Luna?" You feel your knees weaken so you take a seat on the rocks that were beside your feet, you feel the world collapsing all around you the moment you sit down.

"I don't know....he-he talked about making her the new weapon and that her being spoiled won't be useful to the mafia- " you interrupt "who is he to get to say that about my daughter?! What fucking weapon?" You yell frustrated feeling the very last bit of patience run out "what did taehyung say back?!" You ask your heart hammering against your ribcage. Did he fight back at all?

"I'm not telling you this so you freak out______! I'm telling you this so you be careful of your next steps! and that you protect Luna! Mr.kim is going to take her and raise her somewhere that not even his own son knows about as if right now he's asking taehyung to give him Luna willingly and taehyung is doing all he can to deny him but I'm not sure how much patience mr.kim has left so ______ you must do something!" Vivian falls to her knees infront of you as you weep softly.

You really could lose your daughter, she would be gone without a trace the thought alone made you tremble.

"What if taehyung is in on it what if he takes our daughter just to please his father!" You cry and vivian shakes her head as she holds your hands in your lap "he's not ______! god if you can only hear how angry he was at his own father! he loves Luna too much to give her away ...I even think he loves you because I heard him yell after he kicked mr.kim out of his office that he'll hunt down whoever comes for you or Luna"

Your eyes widen, taehyung kicked out his dad? Vivian picked up on your shocked expression and nodded "yes he did, he couldn't tolerate him I guess"

You look up at her sniffling "really?" Vivian smiles "Taehyung is with you not against you" you shake your head "I don't know V, he was once my boss I just can't see him being good towards me or that he cares about me I just can't-" you wip away your nose and the tears that fell helplessly from your red eyes as you stand up dusting your jeans looking away from her eyes.

You hated feeling helpless you hated crying and you hated that you didn't know what to do next.

"Taehyung is difficult but Luna is his baby...his own blood! I don't think he'll ever give her away" vivian replies back trying to ease your worries but you can't be calmed you feel the adrenaline pick up and your mind won't stop racing with thoughts, bad dark twisted thoughts.

"I'm not saying this because I'm his right hand but taehyung is doing so much to prevent you and his daughter from getting hurt" you turn around to face her once again, you stayed quiet not knowing what to say, your tounge was tied you couldn't speak even if you wanted to " you never realized it or took it into consideration" vivian smiled sympathetically at you "just give him time and he'll show you" she hugs you. You let out a deep breath hugging her back.

You closed your eyes as you remember vividly the first time taehyung started to "protect" you...

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It was a cold January afternoon as taehyung passed back and forth behind his desk his hands on top of each other at the small of his back. Overthinking and trying to come up with ways to prevent you from being exposed to this side of the world again.

A knock sounded at the door "come in" he said loud enough for the people he called over to enter. he heard the footsteps stop near the two chair on each side of his desk he cleared his throat "I want _____ traces to disappear I want you both to make it look like she vanished of the face of this earth do you understand?" Taehyung firmly spoke, his back facing them. He was watching the supply truck unload and he was hiding his nervous state.

"Yes sir!" Vivian nodded quickly. she heard silence on her right side where jimin stood

she turned and nudged him to speak up. he rolled his eyes "we're on it" he finally said ready to turn on his heels and be out of taehyung's office.

Taehyung let out a sigh "You may leave hitman..." he ordered making jimin raise his eyebrows, he couldn't help but send dragers his way. taehyung spoke again "vivian please take a seat" he said while turning his chair over and sitting on it.

Vivian gulped as jimin snickered and took off to start on his mission as the office door closed shut. taehyung turned with his chair to face vivian he sent her a warm smile, oddly she returned it but it felt unsure and forced "you're her best friend so I want you to know if her pregnancy is troubling her...she refuse to visit the doctors but I just want to make sure she and my baby are okay" he spoke rubbing his hands together nervously. Vivian was...shocked bureau happy that taehyung isn't as cold as he pretends to be.

You denied visiting the hospital at the early stages of your pregnancy, where most people were worried about their pregnancy but you; you just couldn't stand the thought of going to the doctors with taehyung. Not only you had a phobia from hospitals but you also had a semi phobia of taehyung himself. So you rejected him every time he offered to take you to check on the baby.

"I don't think she's in any pain sir I just saw her enter the training room-" vivian informs him speaking with a wary tone, obviously she was aware of the reason why you didn't want to go to the doctors but she can't possibly tell taehyung, at her words his eyes widen with rage "training room!? She'll get hurt!" He immediately stood up from his leather chair to dial a number on his phone the minute he place the phone to his ear the other line answered "kick _____ out of the training room!- tell her I said so" and with that he slammed the phone on the table.

He let out a loud sigh, rubbing his face. frustration and annoyance were drawn on his features the air turned tense and vivian felt so awkward. knowing you you'll lecture her about saying anything to taehyung so she immediately tried to come up with something to cover up your tracks.

"Sir ______ is perfectly okay! I don't see why you had to-" her voice came to a halt when you barged into the office, your eyes if they could, they would have burned the whole building down.

"What the fuck taehyung!" You yelled, you were sweaty and your belly was poking out of your crop top, you glare "I have a mission with jimin in a couple of hours I need to train!" You exclaim.

"No you don't ______ because you're fired!" Taehyung replied back angrily, why couldn't you just understand him and where he's coming from and why he's doing what he's doing, he couldn't tell you so why didn't you pick up on it. It frustrated him. But between him and himself he hated arguing with you.

"What!" You screamed "I'm going weather you like it or not!" You said with a sarcastic smile, he can see how the anger was eating you but he just couldn't risk it, he can't lose you or your baby, right now you were testing him and his patience and that he abouslouty couldn't endure. He stood up from his chair slamming his fists on his desk.

"You're not going and that's final!" He yelled you flinched then huffed in annoyance as you turned on your heels. slamming the door shut loudly behind you.

Vivian shifted in her seat feeling extremely awkward after witnessing your argument with taehyung, no matter how many times she was here when you fought with taehyung and heard it all she still felt extremely uncomfortable. She blames herself for the argument that just happened. And wished she left with jimin or told taehyung she needed the bathroom or something.

Taehyung let out a loud sigh falling back on his chair rubbing his face "have I done the wrong thing?" He asks, vivian didn't know if he was asking her or himself but regardless she cleared her throat "the A23 mission is important and jimin alone won't survive it" she informed taehyung.

Since she was responsible for hacking. the building that was supposed to be ambushed by you and jimin was preoccupied with a lot of the enemy gang members. It would be impossible on jimin to attack alone.

"_____ is in no position to go through with it so jimin has to do for this mission I'll find him a new partner soon...you're excused" taehyung said without giving the mission another spare thought vivian knew taehyung didn't understand how difficult it would be for jimin to go alone.

"But sir the mission- jimin can't go-" she tried to say feeling panicked. "I said he can do it are you questioning my orders?!" Taehyung said abruptly glaring her. vivian flinched as her head hanged low with sadness "no sir" she softly said making her way to the office door closing it shut behind her.

Vivian walked out of the office feeling the fear overflowing she made her way towards jimin to warn him.

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You were in a trance while you drove back to the city, so many emotions took over your mind you couldn't separate your thoughts.

You felt so lost wondering what and how and when, the only thing that was on your mind is your innocent child being torn apart from you into this underground world, you can't help but think of the worst out comes.

Should you talk about it with taehyung? Or should you just run away with her? How far will you go? How far enough do you think taehyung will let you get away?

A loud honk broke you out of your dazed state making you make a sudden turn hitting the breaks of your car suddenly as you jolted from your seat, your head almost hit the glass of the windshield.

You heard the driver of the truck yell incoherent words at you while driving past your car, you let out a loud sigh tucking your hair behind your ears.

You knew overthinking it while you were driving will get you nowhere. so you took deep breaths and turned on the radio to distract you until you got to jimin's apartment. Then you'll think about it however long you wanted.

Focusing on the lyrics of the song that was playing you began to drive carefully.

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You knocked lightly on the hardwood door then moved a bit back waiting for the door to swing open you heard footsteps on the other side and soon enough the door creeks open, jimin's head poked from the side of the door then he smiled warmly when his eyes met yours. opening the door wider stepping aside to let you in.

He placed his pointer finger on his lips "Luna is sleeping" he whispered as you tiptoed inside nodding, you glanced at her briefly then you turned to jimin. the way he was looking at you made your heart flutter inside your chest and you couldn't help but let the feelings you kept grounded out.

You were trying to think of the right words to say as you take off your coat and hang it beside jimin's "thank you for...babysitting her I hope she wasn't a bother" you speak gently he chuckles "never..." he glanced at his arm making your eyes travel to where he was looking at. you giggle when you see colors covering his skin and scribbles "I'm sure she'll be a great artist one day" he jokes as you cover your mouth to suppress your giggles.You spot the wetwipes on the top shelf and make your way towards it then you turn around and walk towards jimin.

Your chests almost touch and you feel the giggles and laughs die down as you examine his arm, the colors were out of the tattoo lines and she littered smiley faces in the empty spots on jimin's arm you couldn't help but smile as you looked over at his arm.

He smiled warmly before he remembered her words 'daddy makes mommy cry' he cleared his throat "she told me..." you look up confused "Luna told me about Taehyung.." you sigh and look away as you start to wip his arm "jimin please don't-" "why are you still with him?!" He asks clearly he has had enough of hiding his emotions and had enough of you sticking around with someone else "because Luna deserves to be happy and taehyung makes her happy" you look up at him and you could see just how angry his eyes were you look away "and you don't?" He asks after a few seconds you stare at him "I'll never be happy...the things I've done...I'll never forgive myself-" you murmur he placed his thumb under your chin lifting your face up "it's in the past _____ it's over and they were bad men they deserved to die if they stayed alive they could have killed innocent people" you shake your head as tears fall from your eyes "we're just as guilty!" You whisper he sighs his hands were placed on your upper arms soothingly rubbing them up and down to calm you down "that doesn't matter now...what matters...to me- is to see you happy"

You look up at him and you can see the tears that he held in his eyes "I am happy as long as you're around" you tell him not caring about the boundaries you two had not giving a fuck that you were married to another man you were in love with jimin, you will always love jimin.

He creased your cheeks with his thumb and leaned forward placing a kiss on your forehead his lips lingered a minute too long before he pulled away, the heat of the moment made you shake nervously, the butterflies in your stomach were going crazy and you couldn't help the smile that broke out on your face. trembling you moved backwards afraid that you won't be able to control yourself if you stayed infront of him like this "it's- it's not coming off" you mutter gesturing towards the colors on his skin.

He laughs "I know, I bought a soap that takes it off it's in the bathroom" he turned around making his way towards the bathroom you followed him closely behind. "I knew how much Luna loves to color in my tattoos so I bought it just in case she comes over" he laughs. His ears turned red feeling slightly embarrassed.

You smile at the thought of him thinking of your daughter while he was grocery shopping alone and buying a soap specifically for when she wants to color his tattoos. Things like this made jimin a much better father figure than taehyung you shake your head at the thought, even though it felt nice but why do you think of jimin like that?

He pulls out the can of soap from the cupboard that was underneath the sink he winks at you before taking off his shirt you gasp when you see she also colored the angle wings tattoo he had on his back "you let her have her way with you too easily don't you?" You laugh shaking your head "how can I not when she has your eyes" he murmurs as the blush on your cheeks creep up turning them into a rosy color.

You squeeze some of the soap onto the towel that was hanging on the side of the sink then you start to scrub his arm, the colors run down with the soap in the sink.

your legs were starting to hurt from standing for too long he sees how you shift your weight from one leg to another so he pulls you by your waist and lifts you up on the counter. you yelped when you felt his warm palms on your waist lifting you up until your bum was on the countertop.

"That's better" he smiles moving the strands of your hair that had fallen on your face behind your ear, your face felt too hot and your heart was hammering against your ribcage. You used all your might to not wrapp your legs around his waist and let him have his way with you however he wanted. you didn't know that he is thinking of the same thing.

You look away from his piercing stare. drifting your attention to his arm as you moved further down, in the corner of your eye you saw a scar on his hip. you look up at him because you knew he was staring at your every move, with a confused gaze "where did you get this from?" You ask as your finger carefully grazes it. He looks at it the he sighs "Mission A23" he replies softly looking away from you "they outnumbered me" your head hangs low with sadness you can't imagine how he must have felt going alone. If you went with him he wouldn't have been hurt.

And the fact that taehyung probably hid the news of him getting hurt from you and probably ordered everyone to keep their mouth shut about the mission made your blood boil.

You felt this fire crawl up your body, your throat tightened "I'm so sorry" the tone of your voice made it clear that you were trying to suppress your tears, in that moment the hatred you had for taehyung rose up to the surface leaving a bitter taste in your mouth as regret consumes you, if you only fought taehyung and went with jimin he wouldn't have been hurt.

Jimin looks at you with admiration and runs his fingers through your hair he hears your sniffles at that he chuckles. You still cared about him? He lifts your head up gently making you look deeply into his eyes "I'm okay...it's alright" he reassures you but that only makes you break down more.

You just couldn't handle the weight of it all, living with taehyung and taehyung's father wanting to take your daughter and the fear of being caught by another mafia, everything you were pushing away started to pour out you felt so overwhelmed, you curled up on the counter and started to sob.

Jimin felt confused and concerned but moved quickly to shut the bathroom door so Luna doesn't wake up.

"______ what's wrong? You're freaking the hell out of me!" Jimin says in frustration looking at your figure curled up. the sound of your cries was agonizing.

"It hurts!...make it stop-please I can't do this anymore-" he pulls you towards him by your thighs. burying your head in his chest, he feels you shake against him as he hush your cries while he rubs your back "talk to me...tell me what's wrong" his heat was breaking he hated seeing you cry.

You don't speak for awhile you just cry against his chest. your arms wrapped around his waist hanging onto him for dear life. You felt like if you let go of him he'd vanish. it was only a few minutes before you found the strength to speak again "Taehyung" was the only word you could say, you lost all of your energy with the tears that fell.

You sigh and pull away jimin turns on the water faucets wiping your face with the lukewarm water gently. he nods for you to continue."they want to take Luna from me..." you cried. Jimin froze in his place your words seemed to have broken something in him because his eyes turned colder, angerer.

So the rumors were true?

"what the fuck are they on to now?" He tugs on his hair pacing in front of you as you wip your face with the end of the towel you used minutes ago. You look at him and he looks so livid.

He looks at you briefly then looks away. biting his lip as silence takes over the small bathroom both of you had no idea what to say he slides down the titled wall and you lean against the wall behind you.closing your eyes, your eyelids felt so heavy from sobbing earlier, vivian's words never left your mind they played over and over again like a broken record.

It felt suffocating not being able to know what to do, because your fear of taehyung was far more worse than what his dad is capable of doing, even though he threatens to take Luna away taehyung won't let him get far or anywhere near her at all.

Or so that was what your mind was trying to believe because you have no idea what you're going to do.

You glance down at jimin, he looks deep in his thoughts, concerned you decided to break the silence "penny for your thoughts?" your voice sounded horse and barely audible.

He looks up at you licking his lips before looking away from your eyes again "you won't like it" your eyebrows furrow as you hop off the counter sitting down in front of him placing your hands on top of his "try me" you couldn't say that with your whole chest you were still uneasy about what he might suggest "let's take Luna and runaway" he tells you.

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Nine Lives To Short Part 1:First Life of Many

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Pairing Hitoshi Shinsou x Reader!

Genre: Angst

Tag: @foxypuppy

Plot: You only have 9 days to tell him how you feel....but maybe 9 days just isn't enough

The bus finally pulls up breaking the tension between you and Hitoshi you let out a sigh of relief as the doors to the bus opens.

You both step onto the bus and try to find a seat, Hitoshi nudges your arm gentle "Hey you wanna sit in the back?"

You don't respond to him....I mean how could you with that stupid question you asked him still looming over you like a vengefulspirit. "Maybe I should've stayed quiet" "Did I say to much?" "H-how much did I say?!" .

Your mind begins to think of the worst possible scenarios but then you snap out of it as you feel something warm cover your hand.

It's Hitoshi's holding your hand as he takes you to the open two seater in the back.

Y/n suddenly feels her face heat up as her cheeks blush red this feeling is something that can happen only once in a life time so....you enjoy this short tiny bit of contact like it was your last.

Shinsou hold out his hand giving you access to the seat next to the window "Here you go I know you like sitting next to the window so-" he stares at you and notices your blush and can't help but to do the same.

Seeing you look up at him with genuine happiness makes his chest feel warm and his throat tighten.

"Thanks Hitoshi...". Y/n sits down and scoots over to the window while Shinsou sits down next to you.

Shinsou takes out his headphones once again and puts them on resuming his paused music however before he puts his phone away he receives a text from Izuku Midoriya.

" Hm? What does Midoriya want?"

The Promblem Child🥦

Izuku: Hey Toshiiii~😜

Shinsou: ......kaminari why the fuck do you have Izuku's phone......

Izuku: MY PHONE DIED🥀😪 so I swiped Midoriya's phone while him and Bakugo are arguing in the living cuz bakugo sucks a uno and his sweaty hands are fucking up the cards but they not important rn

Shinsou: ok so what do you want with me

Izuku: Me and and guys are gonna go bowling tomorrow and we wanted to see if you wanted to come 🥺

Shinsou: I don't know I'm kinda busy after school🤷‍♂️sooooo....

Izuku: COME ON YOU GOTTA GO YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN SHUTDOWN BAKUGO'S YELLING

Shinsou: Sounds like I'm baby sitting 😑

Izuku: YOU WON'T BE! YOU CAN BRING Y/N IF YOU WANT SO YOU WON'T BE COMPLETELY ALONE PLEASE ANAJHSHSHAJJS

Shinsou: Ok! Ok I'll go but I'll have to ask y/n about what she thinks

Izuku: I KNEW YOU WOULD COME AROUND TOSHI!

Shinsou: Dumbass go put your phone in your mouth you doofus🥱😴

Izuku: I-

Shinsou turns off his and focuses his attention towards you as your head is resting on his shoulder. Shinsou tries his hardest not to ruin the moment so he obviously he stupidly asks " Y-you wanna...hold hands again? I'm getting cold over here".

You normally brush off Hitoshi's stupid flirting because he sucks at it but hearing that he wants your warmth....he need your warmth...Hitoshi needs you.

You and Hitoshi locks hands together both completely quiet but internally freaking out.

Shinsou's brain starts going into overload as he starts think about every romantic movie and think about how they would fuck up a situation like this "Oh no she's really close shit! SHIT DOES MY BREATH STINK?! I DON'T KNOW! BUT I DON'T WANT HER TO FIND OUT,DAMMIT HOLD YOUR BREATH!" Shinsou does just that but you see him oddly do this.

Then you start thinking,"He's holding his breath? Why...did he sniff me...DO I STINK OH GOD I HOPE I DON'T IM SORRY HITOSHI!!!".

The bus hits a speed bump to causing all the seats to jump and it cause the two dummy's to bump heads.

"OW! DAMMIT! Hey are you ok?" You both say in unison then there is a short pause before the both of you burst out laughing.

"We're both so stupid haha!".

"Nah were not stupid great minds think alike " Hitoshi snickers.

You lean in closer to Shinsou as you poke the bump he got on his forehead from crashing into you " OW! HEY!" "That's what you get".

Sometime passes and the bus finally reaches the home bus stop in front of your house. Hitoshi and you get off watching it leave. "Hey Y/n are you busy tomorrow?"

"Umm no actually I'm free why you wanna hang out?"

Hitoshi beams as he scratches the back of his head just then a creepy smile form's on his face " Oh that great! Denki invited me to go out bowling and I wanted to bring what bakugo would call an extra"

You playful punch Hitoshi in the arm " Hey! Don't call me an extra! Ohhhh I swear I'll go feral on Katskui!"

"Oh I know you will... you always do but before you go in I wanna ask are you really ok...?"

Once again you ignore his question he notices and sighs "Y/n i won't use my quirk to make you talk....i promise ...".

Y/n stops smiling as she turns her back on Shinsou walking to the door.

"H-hey did you hear me y/n come on talk to me what wrong?", " I'm really glad I got to meet you Hitoshi Shinso.....You're such an amazing guy and... I just-."

And with that the tears began to fall down your face you look back at Hitoshi to see he's completely shaken up bye your sudden rush of sadness.

" Everything you've done for me there no way words can describe how happy I've been being friends with you and how much you left a impact on me"

Shinsou stops her " what up with all this crazy talk y/n? why are you acting like one you walk through that door I won't see you again?"

You think it would be better then wasting away until you day in 9 days then maybe your heart wouldn't be hurting so much like it is now, hell this pain feels like it's hurts more than the pain the quirk will bring.

Hitoshi brings you into his arm embracing your body in hug. "I promise you that we will be together always and besides-...."

"We got all the time in the world"

Hearing that one line....it finally sinks in that y/n is gonna die...so she does the only thing she can.

You clench Hitoshi uniform as you bury your head in his shoulder and began to breakdown in Shinsou arms. "Y/n?! Hey hey don't cry it'll be ok"

You scream and beg Hitoshi not to leave " You can't leave please don't! I don't wanna lose you Shisou!". "Woah woah lose me? Y-you're not gonna lose me...let's go to my house and clean you up I don't want you parents to see you like this".

Hitoshi takes you to his house right across the street. He quickly opens the door and sits you on the couch "I'll be right back just stay here ok", you nod and Shinsou leaves.

"I don't wanna bring Hitoshi into this and get him all worked up because of me he does so much for me as it is...you know what I mean right?" Shinsou's just meows back at you.

"Of course you get it Kabuki...Hitoshi is always taking care of both of us" you say while petting Kabuki. "I guess liking Shinsou isn't the only thing we have in common huh...".

A few minutes go by and Hitoshi is sitting on the couch wiping your face "Hitoshi come on I know how to whip my own face!". " If you stop moving MAYBE me can get this done quicker!".

Shinsou sighs and lays back on the couch "There now you're all clean up, you're welcome". You lay ontop of Shinsou patting his chest "Looks like the day is saved thanks to pro hero Mind Freak~". He pushes your face smushing it with is hand.

" Ew I told you I'm not calling myself myself mind freak!"

" IT'S COOL!"

" IT'S SCARY! IM TO TRYING HELP PEOPLE NOT TO SCARE THEM OFF" "We'll I'm here and I'm not scared of out you!".

Hitoshi softly puts his hand on your cheek "what I said out there wasn't a lie, Y/N I'm here if you need me...every step of the way...."

You hold Hitoshi hand as your hearing starts to diminish and your body begins to fell light that you begin to wobble and sway back and forth.

"Yeah.....we got all the time in the world...."

Y/n suddenly fall sideways onto the floor lying there motions while Hitoshi eyes widen as he screams " Y/N!!!!"

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡💔 As the the first day has come to an end so has 1 of the many lives. And so far Y/n has lost her first life.....🥀

[dayawantstosleep]

Love & Zombies Nov 4, 2020

Summary: All I wanted to do was survive, not get involved in a love triangle with Changbin and Chris. Things spiral out of control from there.

Genre: Dystopian, Apocalyptic

Word Count: 2,834

Warning(s): Swear words, implied cheating, jealous 3RACHA

I ran a hand through my hair for the billionth time and shut my eyes tightly. The bed seemed too big for me now that Han is not here anymore.

A quiet sniffle came out of me and I wiped my tears with my hand covered in my sleeve. I turn around to bury myself in my pillow and sobs wracked my body.

"He's still here with us." Changbin's hoarse voice said next to me. I must have woken him up with my crying.

"I should've been bitten instead of him." I said, sitting up. I hug my knees and bury my head on my arms.

"It's not your fault. He wouldn't want you to be like this." I snort softly. Han gone must have taken a toll on Changbin if he was comforting me.

"I just miss him. He's my buddy and I let him down. I was supposed to have his back, but I didn't. Now he's one of them."

"Just go to sleep, Aria." He said exasperated. I sighed and laid down on the bed again, the jackass I know making an appearance.

"Goodnight, Changbin." He hummed and I took that as a goodnight before closing my eyes.

It was past midnight when I woke up to go to the restroom. Chan words echoed in my mind.

We have a buddy system. If you want to leave at night tell your buddy. Things will be bad if you don't.

"My buddy was turned, Chan. Turned into a monster." I said rubbing the sleep from my eyes.

I sighed deeply and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked pitiful. Dark half circles perched under my eyes and my skin looked paler than usual.

I unlocked the door and turned the lights off, heading to my room. I stopped in front of the door and sighed again.

I slipped inside my room and walked towards Changbin's sleeping figure on the far end of the room. I took a deep breath and prepared myself mentally.

"Changbin." I whispered, but the sleeping boy didn't even move. I sighed and reached for his shoulder.

His eyes shot open and he grabbed my waist, slamming it into his mattress, knees on either side of me. I let out a yelp as he glared at me menacingly.

"Can you get off me, Changbin?" His eyes soften slightly as he rolled off of me. I sat up and I heard him grunt.

"What were you thinking?"

"That I could wake you up. I need to show you something."

"Why?" I rolled my eyes and sighed. Why did I think this would be easy? When it comes to Changbin, things are never easy.

"You're my new buddy." Was all I said before leaving out the door. I heard footsteps behind me and I ventured further into base.

"Where are we going?" He asked. I didn't answer until I stopped outside.

"Don't freak out, ok?" I asked as I walked towards a ladder on one side if the building.

"What do you mean?" He asked, following me up the ladder. I walked towards the coffee table in the middle of the roof and clicked a small switch.

The coffee table parted and a large thin glass tube appeared out of the floor. Inside, a beast stared back at us; its eyes were a dull brown and the skin was grey and decaying.

"What the hell is this?" Changbin asked loudly.

"What do you think? This is him." Tears appeared on my eyes as I stared at the beast. The beast I used to call a best friend and confidant.

"How the fuck did you bring him here without none of us knowing?"

"Easy. Remember when we had Chris' party last week?" He looked at me as if I had two heads.

"No." I nodded.

"Yes. He was Chris' huge present. I feel super bad for lying, but I couldn't just leave him at the shopping mall. You know how much he means to me." I looked sadly at the beast before me.

"So, you've kept him here for a week?" I nodded again.

Han let out a gutteral sound and clawed at the glass. With one bite, my best friend had been reduced to a mindless being, with a knack of biting people.

"It's been really hard and Chris almost figured me out the other day. I need you to keep the secret." I turned to him.

"What?"

"I know you don't like me, but you're my roomate. We need to have each others backs, Changbin."

"What we need to do is kill that thing."

"No. He's my best friend. Han is gone and I know its selfish of me to keep him here in this state. But if there's any way to save him, I'll take it."

"This is for our survival, Aria." I suddenly felt consumed with rage. He was closer to Han than any of us, and he wants to kill him just like that?

"What do you know of survival?" I ask. He tightened his jaw and frowned.

"I lost Han already. I don't want to lose you too."

"Excuse me?"

"You're excused. I'm killing that thing." He walked closer to Han and took out a knife from his jeans.

"You can't kill him. He's-"

"He's what, huh? He's not just your friend. You love him. I've seen the way you look at him." His voice was growing louder.

Love him? Have I really loved Han all along and not notice? No, Changbin is just misinterpreting things.

"No. I don't look at him in any way." He sneered.

"What would Chan think?" My blood ran cold. What would he think if he knew I had Han locked up in here?

"He would want to save Han."

"So, what? You can dump him for Han?" What the hell is he on about?

"No. Listen, I-"

"No. You listen. You think I like it that Chan is with you? Or that Han used to talk about you every fucking second you weren't there? When you were with Chan."

"What's that gotta do with keeping Han a secret? You're mixing up your shit."

"No. You just don't want to talk about this now."

I walked closer to him and flipped a switch on the tube, making it slowly go down from where it came from. Changbin's frown deepened and he let out a tch.

"You're clueless." He crossed his arms and shook his head.

"Don't patronize me. Now, cut the bullshit and talk straight."

"What's the point? None of it matters now." His eyes turned sad and he turned around, walking away.

I stood there, watching his receeding figure until I walked into the base alone.

Changbin didn't speak to me the next day or the day after that. Whenever one of the guys asked about his behavior, he would either shrug and give one word answers or ignore them.

"What is up his ass?" I asked Chris after a week of Changbin being unresponsive. He shrugged and put an arm around me.

"I think having Han gone hit him hard." My breath hitched and Changbin's words resonated in my head.

What would Chan think?

I turned to Chris and saw Changbin sitting at the dining table, looking at something behind us. I'll confront him later, when I'm done with Chris.

"I have to tell you something." I said. He nodded and turned to me.

"What is it?" He looked concerned and I suddenly felt my stomach started hurting. I grabbed the arm that was on my shoulder and pulled it off of me.

"This is kind of hard to say but-"

"You're not breaking up with me, are you?" He let out a nervous laugh and I shook my head furiously.

"No. No of course not. I just...it's a bit more complicated than that."

"Complicated?" I took a deep breath and prepared myself mentally.

"Han's not dead." His eyes widen and his breath became ragged.

"What!?"

"He's a zombie. And he's on the roof."

"He's what?"

"I trapped him on the roof and I know this is wrong but we can save him. We just gotta wait a little longer."

"What a little longer? Aria, why didn't you tell us?"

"I didn't know how you'd react, Changbin said-"

"Changbin? You told him before me?" Please tell me this wasn't going to be a fight? Please, please, please.

"He's my roomate, Chris. I couldn't just not tell him."

"It's good that you told him, but you could have told me first."

"You're kidding, right? What does it matter who I told first? That's not even the damn point. The point is that I want to save Han." Out of the corner of my eye, the guys retreated to the kitchen.

"You want to what? I'm sorry, but he can't be saved." My heart broke then and there. My best friend can't be saved.

"Bullshit." I whispered softly.

"What?"

"Bullshit. He's one of us, he's always have been." He ran a hand through his hair, seemingly trying to formulate words.

"Where is he?"

After showing Chris and the rest of the guys the zombified Han, they freaked out. Half of them wanted to save him and the other half wanted to kill him. It was chaotic, until all of us went back inside.

"What is wrong with you?" I asked Changbin as soon as I walked into our room. He was laying on his bed with earbuds on.

I walked closer to him and yank the earbuds off, making him curse. He glared at me and sat up.

"What do you want?" He barked out.

"What did you mean back there?" He let out a tch and looked away from me.

"Changbin." I growled. I sat next to him and he turned away from me again.

"Why have you been so mean to me? You never liked me and it bugs me so much."

"You really wanna know?" He inched closer to me, we were centimeters apart.

"Yes. I want to fucking know." I growled. His lips slammed into mine roughly and pulled away.

"What the hell?" He didn't answer me just unbuttoned his jeans and took them off.

"You think that just because you kissed me everything is fine?" I was beyond pissed. All this time he was jealous of Chris and Han. That's bullshit.

He inched closer to me and kissed me roughly again. He pulled away and smirked his usual 'you're beneath me' smirk.

"Shut up."

"Don't fucking tell me what to do."

"What are you gonna do about it?" There he is again, feeling superior. Well, I've had it.

I raised an arm and slapped him. He just stared at me, I didn't wipe that smirk off of his face.

"That's hot." He pulled me in again and I pushed him away.

"I'm with Chris, Changbin."

"That's not fair. You can't pull that shit on me. You can't let me kiss you and pull that shit on me." He glared at me expectantly.

"You can't just kiss me and expect me to come running to your arms. It doesn't work that way."

"So, you just expect me to throw my feeling away?" He was getting angrier.

"You can do whatever you fucking want." I growled. His lips crashed into mine but this time, I kissed him back.

I don't know why I did it. Maybe I wanted to release my pent up anger at him for being an inconsiderate asshole all this time. Or maybe at the very back of my mind, I knew I liked him back.

He pulled me closer to him and I laced my hands on his neck. The kiss became more heated, and his lips travelled down my neck.

I grabbed his shirt and pulled it off of him, glazing over his well toned abs. I suddenly remembered the first time I saw them, when I barely got to base.

I didn't think nothing of it because he was rude to me and I didn't like him at all. But now, I find myself oogling.

"Look at you, Bin." I barely registered that I called him by his nickname.

"Don't call me that." He growled, capturing my lower lip with his lips and bit me.

"I'll call you whatever the fuck I want." I growled, biting where his neck and shoulders meet.

He moaned out and I would be lying if I said that it wasn't sensual. He grabbed my hand and led me to his bed, getting on top of me.

The beast in front of me tried clawing it's way through the glass. The attempt was futile, Han stopped and just looked at me with soulless eyes.

"I don't know what I'm doing." I whispered. Last night flashed in my mind and then I sat down on the couch.

"This really wasn't supposed to happen, you know? We're in the middle of a zombie apocalypse. I didn't come here to sleep with anyone. I came here to survive."

Han just stared at me, dull brown eyes staring into my ones. I ran a hand through my hair and looked at the tube.

"You must be lonely in there, huh? I can't exactly let you out, but I can do this." I stood up and clicked a switch on the tube.

A small opening parted in front of his facex big enough for one hand only.

"Rawwwr!" He snarled and reached his hand out towards me through the window. I sighed deeply, taking out my dagger from the inside of my jeans.

Changbin is right. I can't save him even if I try. He's my best friend and I'll always love him. But, having him here is a huge risk.

"I'm sorry, Jisung." I raised my dagger and sung it. I winced, blood coming out of my hand.

"Fuck it. I can't." I looked at the sky and let out a yell. I looked at Han and then I heard the door to the base open.

"Aria?" I walked towards the edge of the roof and look down. Chris was looking at me as he climbed up the ladder.

"Yeah?"

"I heard someone shout so I came looking for you." He said as soon as he got to the top.

"I'm fine. Just talking to Han." I put my dagger behind my back but he quickly grabbed my hand.

"Aria what did you-?"I cut him off and yanked my hand back.

"I said I'm fine." He stopped and let his hand hang at his side. I sighed, feeling guilty for raising my voice at my boyfriend.

"Sorry. I'm just very on edge." I turn to the tube where Han is imprisoned and frowned.

It was now or never. I flipped a switch on the tube and the glass slowly started opening.

"What are you doing?" Chris asked next to me.

"What I should have done a long time ago." I take my dagger out and then Han pounced.

I heard Chris shout my name and the dagger went flying out of my hands. Han snarled and bared his teeth at me, trying to claw me.

I put an arm under his chin to try to stop him. He roared and I did the only thing I thought of. I grabbed his arm and bit into his grey skin.

His eyes rolled upward and he fell on top of me. I scooted away from him and felt Chris arms around me.

"That was risky." He said kissing my cheek.

"I needed to do something, he was gonna eat me." I turned to Han and gasped.

My best friend stood up and started walking towards me. His skin wasn't grey anymore, and his eyes were soulless either. They were brown.

"What happened?" I malfunctioned. He could form sentences. He was human again. What the hell?

I ran to him, arms extented and he extended his arms too. I slapped him as soon as he was within arms reach.

"Oww." He said, rubbing his cheek. I ignored him and pulled him in for a hug.

"Don't you fucking do that again." Tears pricked my eyes as I began sobbing.

"You were gonna get bit. I needed to do something." I let out a laugh.

He was still the same Han I knew. I pulled away and he grabbed my hands.

"I've been meaning to tell you something, but I just couldn't. And then when I got bit, I was gonna say it but...well, you know" I nodded and then he cupped the sides of my face and closed the gap between us.

My eyes widen and I pulled myself away from him. This is what he wanted to tell me? That like Changbin, he's been liking me all this time.

"I- Han...I'm sorry. I can't. I'm with Chris." He turned to Chris behind me and his face fell.

"Oh."

"Yeah. I um, have to go..." I clicked my tongue and pointed at the ladder before walking away.

[stanbillyhargrove]

Ghosts Chp 10

Billy x Katrina

A/N: this is a multi chapter series that will contain smut, angst, fluff, substance abuse, MENTIONS OF DEATH

Katrina's POV

"I see dead people."

Billy's eyes narrowed, "excuse me?"

I bit my lip and lowered my eyes to the ground, "I can...see ghosts...and memories."

"You were gone for ten fucking minutes and you were able to get your hands on drugs? Are you serious?"

"She shot herself, right?"

Billy stopped and stared at me as I continued, "your dad tried to hit you but she put herself between you, cracked her head on the counter when she fell."

"How...I didn't..."

"She was in so much pain, Billy. She was just a shell of herself most of the time so she made sure she would be alone and she found your dad's gun."

I could see the hurt and confusion on his face and the way his chest started to heave with heavy breaths. Behind his shoulder stood Olivia, hair loose around her shoulders and swaying gently with the slight breeze.

She nodded when I met her gaze, "go on."

"She put that gun in her mouth and pulled the trigger. But she wasn't alone. You heard everything, saw everything."

Billy's jaw clenched, "who told you all that? Max? Steve?"

"Olivia did. And when you were telling me about her, I could see bits of your memories."

He shook his head, "that's impossible."

"That's why I freaked out when I saw the picture. I grew up being told I was crazy, that the people I saw were hallucinations. When you showed me the picture, I knew they were real, all of them."

"I don't...that is crazy, you know that, right? Someone had to have told you about her, that's how you know all this."

"I know it sounds crazy but I swear, I swear it's true."

"This is insane," he mumbled, "why can you see her but I can't?"

"I don't know, Billy. I was just born like this."

"Who else?"

"What?"

He crossed his arms, "Who else do you see? I need more proof."

"There's a girl, Ally, she likes horror movies. She keeps to herself mostly, just know she killed herself. Susan has been following Max around, can't handle how tangled Max's hair gets. And...Elle is the one I was always fighting with...my fiance."

Billy smiled wistfully at the mention of his stepmom, "Susan used to have to bribe Max to brush her hair. Wait...your fiance? I thought you ran away from her? That you were in an abusive relationship or something."

"No, she died and I was running from that. I thought if I left then I could leave the pain behind too but she came with me. She was amazing though," tears burned my eyes as I talked about her, "we were planning our wedding when she died."

--

He was quiet for a moment, letting everything sink in, "come back downstairs, everyone's gunna have a lot of questions."

"Wait...you believe this?" Max looked at her brother with a scowl.

"She knows things. Things that she wouldn't know unless she was telling the truth."

Max turned to me, "how did my mom meet Neil?"

"Max," Billy murmured, "we already know."

"Yeah, we do. But she shouldn't! None of us talk about them to anyone."

I looked across the kitchen at Susan, who was standing against the counter with Olivia at her side. Two women who couldn't be more opposite but connected by the same man.

Olivia laid a comforting hand on Susan's arm with a smile.

I listened to Susan's story and repeated it for everyone to hear.

"I met Billy first. He was seven, Max was only two. I took her to the park one day and this little boy with wild blonde curls came barreling up to us. Talked my ear off and let her hold his hand to keep her steady while she walked around. Talked a lot about surfing," she smiled, laughing a little, "I loved him right away. Then Neil came to collect Billy. He was gorgeous. Tall, dark and handsome. Very forward. Asked me if Max's dad was around, told me Billy's mom had died. We started dating right away, married within the year."

Billy's cheek had turned pink hearing about himself as a child but his jaw tensed as soon as Neil was mentioned.

Max had tears in her eyes when she looked up from her hands, "that's exactly how mom used to tell us the story. Why...how?"

Steve exhaled hard and I saw him shiver when Susan crossed behind him to stand between Billy and Max.

"Wait," I mumbled, "Steve. Come here, I have an idea."

His eyebrows scrunched but he stood up to come closer to me, "what?"

"Remember the sleep paralysis? I was touching you when that happened and you just shivered when Susan walked by you. Maybe, if I touch you, you'll see I'm telling the truth."

I grabbed his arm and watched his face drop in disbelief.

"No fucking way," he murmured, rubbing his eyes with his other hand, "she's telling the truth. They're here."

Billy reached out and grabbed my arm, frowning when he couldn't see anything, "why doesn't that work for me?"

"Steve's special," Olivia cooed, "sensitive. That's why he can feel us."

Steve smirked, "your mom says I'm special."

"Special's one word for it," Billy grumbled.

Max ignored them and stared hard at me, "what happened the night she died?"

"Max," Billy warned, "don't."

"Don't what, Billy? Nobody told me anything other than Neil crashed the car."

"Cause it's my fault, Max!" He blurted out, "they were supposed to go out and he told me to stay home and watch you. But I didn't want to and we started fighting before they left. It's my fault he started drinking and crashed the car."

Susan shook her head, "no, hon, it's mine and Neil's fault," she looked to me, pleading, "please, tell him it's not his fault."

I started repeating what she was saying again.

"Neil was so hard on him. Made him believe everything was his fault, beat him for it too. I didn't know until after we got married, he hid it from me. When I finally found out, I tried to take us all away from Neil but I didn't have any money. He kept it all and only gave me enough for groceries. I started buying cheaper versions of some things to scrape together some money but I was too slow. That night Neil was taking me out as an apology for yelling at me the night before. I told Neil that Billy had plans with friends, that we could find a different babysitter, but he wouldn't have it. Neil went on a rampage, screaming at Billy until I told him I was going out with or without him. At the restaurant he started drinking and just kept slamming them back, never stopped until the cheque came. I never should have let him drive...but he slapped me, right there in the parking lot. And I was so tired...tired of fighting so I just gave in. Let him take the wheel...it was my fault. I'm sorry, I should have done better. I should have stepped up sooner."

I looked over at Billy, saw his jaw clenching before he turned and stormed out of the apartment. A teary eyed Max ran after him, leaving Steve and I alone in Billy's apartment with Olivia and Susan.

"Maybe I should have kept this a secret," I murmured.

Steve wrapped his arm around my shoulder to give me a light squeeze, "it's just...a lot. They'll come around, just give them some time."

@charmed-asylum @champagnesugamama

[rogue-barnes-16]

SOMETHING ELSE

Request: May I please have a Roger Taylor imagine where you have really bad anxiety and he doesn’t know but he comes to see you having a panic attack and helps you and lots of fluff???

Pairing: Ben!Roger Taylor x Reader

Genre: angsty fluff

Tags:

Requested by: @serpentwithatardis

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Warnings: anxiety attack, some language

A/N: it took me soo long to finish this, I'm really sorry, I'm falling behind due to the exams. Also, I hope you enjoy, and about the rest of the requests, they're coming <3

ROGER'S P. O. V.

Y/n wasn't exactly shy.

She wasn't exactly quiet.

She wasn't exactly distant.

Y/n was something else.

I didn't notice that something the first time Deaky had introduced her to the group as a potential second vocal and piano player. At that moment she was just a melodic voice and a pretty face.

She soon became a member of the band, though, and the more time she spent with us, the better I got to know her, and the clearer it was for me that she was something else.

However, and even though I really tried for a while, we never turned out to be close friends —mostly because she seemed to avoid spending time with me alone—. Maybe she didn't like me that much, maybe I had rubbed her the wrong side.

"That was amazing" I commented when Y/n finished singing her part for Bohemian Rhapsody. "really beautiful"

"Thanks, Roger" she gave me a small smile whilst taking off the headset to give it to Freddie, who was the next to sing. "Your falsetto was very impressive"

"Thank you" I replied, helping Freddie with the microphone. When I turned to look at Y/n again, I saw her putting on her jacket. "Where are you going?" I asked confused.

"Oh, I need some air" she answered, grabbing her cigarette pack, along with a lighter. "too many hours in the studio"

"wait," I walked to the bench to grab my jacket "I'll go with you, I could use some air" before I reached the bench, though, we heard the door shutting and when I turned around, Y/n was nowhere to be found. "I... What the-" I shot a glance at Freddie, who was already looking at me. "why does she always do that?"

"why do you care that much, darling?" Freddie teased with a knowing smile on his face. When I stayed shut instead of replying with a snarky comeback, he let out a chuckle. "she told you, Rog. She needs air, give her a break."

After Freddie's teasing, I realized I really liked Y/n in a way I hadn't liked any girl before. Her amazing self was enough to attract all my attention like a moth drawn to the light.

It was due to the amount of attention I paid to her every day, that I felt terribly disappointed with myself when I finally got to know what was that something else in Y/n.

It was after our first press conference. It was more intense than we expected, and, even though most of the questions were for Freddie, a surprising amount were for Y/n too, related to the fact that she was the only girl in the band.

"Y/n, some people say that John was your boyfriend and that's how you got in the band." I first looked at Deaky and then at Y/n. "is that true?"

"who said that?" she asked, quite confused.

Before the previous reporter could keep talking, another one took their place. "Y/n, it is said that you're not attracted to men, what do you have to say about it?"

"I thought we were here to talk about our music?" Deaky asked, noticing that Y/n was getting uncomfortable.

"are you romantically involved with Roger Taylor?"

Y/n took a deep breath, trying to calm herself. "is there any bloody questions related to our songs?" I growled at the microphone.

"Is it hard to be a girl surrounded by men?"

"are you the one choosing the band's outfits?"

Another deep breath. Y/n rested her forehead against the palm of her hand while her foot tapped fast against the floor.

"do you get jealous when your band mates are seen with groupies?"

"are you open about being with more than one of your band mates?"

"fuckin' hell" her breathy whispered was too quiet for it to reach the microphone in front of her, but it was enough for me to hear it. "fuck fuck fuck fuck-" her breaths turned short and shaky.

"Y/n" I called her name, trying not to seem worried when I saw her eyes shutting and her jaw clenching. "Y/n..." the moment I put a hand on her knees to stop her leg from bouncing, her eyes opened widely.

"Okay, seems to me like you're in the mood to waste your opportunity to interview us" Freddie stated, hitting the table before getting up. "c'mon darlings, let's go"

"Lead the way Freddie" Brian stated, getting up to follow Freddie out of the press conference room. Deaky did the same, and Y/n and I followed him closely, leaving behind us the reporters' protests. "I already hate this part of our job."

"it's only the first" Deaky reminded Brian. "what are you planning on doing when-" he stopped talking when Y/n jogged past us and got into the bathroom. "shit."

"is she Okay?" Brian asked as we stopped walking to stare at the bathroom she had gotten in. "should we wait or...?"

"I... Think we should give her space" Freddie stated, gesturing us to keep moving to the exit. When they realized I wasn't following them, they stopped off once more. "Rog-"

"no" I plainly stated, making my way to the bathroom.

"she needs space" Deaky warned me.

I scoffed.

Space. She needs space. She needs air. She needs to be alone. She needs a moment.

"she needs a bloody friend, John" I retorted, stalking to the toilets' door. "you can go, but I'm staying." before they could reply anything else, I entered the toilets, closing the door behind me. "Y/n?"

I heard her before I saw her, since they were huge toilets.

I heard her gasping for air a couple of times before I rushed towards the noises. "Y/n-" her forehead was resting against the tiles of the wall, her chest going quickly up and down "are you-"

Her legs gave out and she felt on her knees, pressing one of her hands against her chest with her eyes wide open. "I c- I can't... I can't b-breathe" she tried to take a deep breath and she ended up gasping once more. "I-I-I- I'm I ca-"

It suddenly hit me, she was having an anxiety attack.

As soon as I realized that, I kneeled besides her, pulling her forearms for her to face me. "Y/n you have to- try... Try to breath deeply" I tried sounding as calm as possible, not wanting to make it worse with the fact that I was freaking out.

"I c- can't I-I'm sorry I-" she tried to do as I told her but she ended up gasping harder. "My chest hurts! Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck"

She attempted to bend over and I made her sit up again, caressing her cheeks "Y/n, love, deep breaths okay? It's- it'll be over soon. Just- just take deep breaths" I moved closer to her, and, not knowing what else to do to calm her, I pulled to my chest.

"I can't-" she repeated, this time letting out a frustrated sob. "I'm sorry- I'm- I c- I'm sorry" she gripped the hems of my partially open shirt, attempting to hold onto something.

"You're gonna be okay" I whispered, rubbing circles on her back and trying to pull her even closer to me, something that was proven impossible when we only ended up almost lying on the floor. "it's just a moment, you'll be okay. Can you try to br-" she nudged her face against my chest and I couldn't feel her fresh tears on my bare skin, which made my heart break. "can you... Try to breathe deeply again?"

She nodded and I let one of my hands comb her hair. "o-okay... J-just... I-" she shifted slightly to rest only her forehead against my chest, before starting to take slow breaths.

I planted a kiss on the crown of her hair while she finally managed to slow down her breathing to an average rhythm. "see? You're okay" I whispered, letting her exhausted body rest over mine.

"I'm sorry" she mumbled, loosening the grip on my shirt. "I'm really sorry... It's been a while since I had one as strong as this one."

I stayed in silence, processing what she had just told me, before speaking. "you... You have... Anxiety?" She nodded against my chest, not daring to look at me. "why didn't you tell us."

"I... Deaky knows" she whispered, shifting her position when I moved us to rest against the cold wall. "but I asked not to tell you all." she sighed. "I thought I had it under control. I didn't want you to see me... D-different?"

I moved her to be able to face her. "different as if... Fragile" she nodded at my guess, shunning my gaze. "Y/n? Does... Do you avoid me because of this?"

"I don't avoid-"

"you do" I argued, rapidly regretting it when I saw her shying away from me. "I'm sorry- this- this isn't the moment to talk about it, I'm sorry" I apologized raising my hands in surrender. "I just- I... Fuck I shouldn't be saying this but I- I really like you"

"I-" she opened her mouth a couple of times before she spoke. "I know... Freddie told me" I opened my eyes widely, feeling my cheeks reddening. "Sorry"

"fuck... See?" I questioned passing both my hands over my face. "I shouldn't have said anything, I knew you were avoiding me. I'm sorry... Can we pretend this didn't happen?" I dared to look at her and I saw her with her lips parted and her eyes dug into my form, making me blush even harder because bloody hell, she was so beautiful.

"You're blushing"

"I know, can you not say it out loud?" I groaned, covering my face once more. "shit." I felt her hands tugging mine, moving then away from my face before her lips brushed against mines. "what..."

"I didn't want you to deal with... This" she said, letting go of my hands, only for me to hold hers. "that's why I... Was avoiding you. That's also why I didn't say anything. Also because I don't think I'm your type and you're-"

"my type?" she whispered a doubtful 'yes' while my hands moved to hold her hips, rubbing circles with my thumbs over them. "I've never liked a girl the way I like you, Y/n. I don't know what's my type, but you for sure are above all that shit" it was her time to blush. "If you want to try... I'm down for it."

She started to chew her lower lip and I leaded one of my thumbs to her lips, to stop her from doing that. "I mean... Even with the anxiety thing?"

"yeah"

"well then..." she inhaled deeply before nodding. "okay. We can try... Because I really want to."

A smile former on my lips and I leaned on, capturing her lips on another kiss. "thanks for giving me a chance" I whispered, looking at her eyes.

She smiled back and rested her forehead against my chest once again, this time feeling peaceful instead of distressed.

[lydiaphantom]

Imagine: Theo Raeken finally came back

Set during season 6B episodes 15 and 16

What happened between these two episodes and why Theo's truck was out of bullet holes when we see it in the further episodes

Pairing: Theo x Reader

Warning: Bad words

(Sorry! Bad grammar!)

It was a long night and the infamous McCall's pack still didn't finish. Even though those two werewolves from Satomi's pack have been free and safe now that didn't mean that Scott and other members could have the rest as well. They have to figure out the plan of how to survive this war by winning it, and the faster they will find a solution the better it is for them.

So, for now, they all were stuck in the Sheriff Stilinski's office to establish what to do next.

Theo was leaning on the wall, standing a little too far from the pack to be at least included in the discussion. The pack members didn't trust him and never would listen to him so what was the point in trying. After all, the only reason why he was out of the prison cell was that Scott needs all the supernatural support he could get right now to win the war. Even the murderous chimera.

Noticing a pretty old and shabby couch, Theo made his way toward it with only one dream, have at least a few minutes of uninterrupted sleep without annoying deputies, whose the main goal was to make a Raeken's life in his truck, which he had no idea where was located right now, a living Hell. Finally setting comfortably enough on the couch Theo let his eyes to be closed, while he was barely listening to Liam's plan.

"I mean, this could work," Liam said, a little distant to the sleeping chimera. "While Theo and I will be in the zoo-"

The loud crash interrupted Liam and immediately woke Theo up. Someone nearly broke the door while opened it with too much force.

"What the fuck, Stilinski!?" you shouted and came right to Sheriff, hitting your palms of his table when you were close enough to do it. All eyes were instantly on you.

"Sheriff, I swear, I tried to stop her," Parrish said in his defense and Noah sighed. The pack was just too confused to say anything and Theo still was trying to wake himself up completely, hoping it wasn't one of his dreams.

"Y/S/N, what-"

"You know exactly what I mean, Stilinski," you hissed and pointed at him. "We had a deal, I signed every fucking paper that your deputies gave to me, made and filed all necessary documents and forms, repaired a freaking truck from all bullets holes and pass a fucking driving license exam!" at this Theo raised eyebrows clearly impressed and now absolutely sure that he was awake. "So why the fuck they just took hi-my truck from where it was parked on the driveway in front of my house!? It's my now! You can't take the last-"

"Y/N," Theo's soft voice interrupted you as he was standing up. You felt a cold shiver run down your body as you heard him. Slowly you turned around and finally saw Raeken.

"Theo," you whispered not trusting the scene in front of you. He nodded and made his way toward you as fast as possible ignoring everything and everyone around him. You were the only thing that mattered.

"Theo," you whispered again meeting him halfway and wrapped your hands around his neck pulling him incredibly close, feeling his strong arms on your waist as he hugged you back.

The pack was confused and wasn't understand a thing but stay quiet. Watching with wide eyes as the emotionless chimera of death blinked a few tears.

"Y/N," he breathed and that all it takes for you to start crying too. "Shhh, it's okay, you hear me? It's okay," Theo muttered as he was covering your face with kisses. "It's okay."

"I t-though you were dead," you stuttered and felt as Theo tensed. "T-they found your truck, it-t was covered in bullet holes a-and b-blood, there was so much blood, y-your blood," you continued and Theo hugged you tightly.

"Shhh, it's fine now, I'm here, with you," Theo responded as he felt hot tears running down his face. He closed eyes for a moment fighting the blow of the emotions he wasn't used to fell.

"They said that you w-were most likely dead, and I couldn't, I just c-couldn't," shuttering you looked in his green eyes. "I couldn't live with the thought that t-the last thing what I s-said to you was during our fight," even more tears were running down your face now as Theo run his hand through your hair, pulling them away from your face. He leaned a little on pressing his forehead to yours. "Y-you were gone, I didn't know where you were, were you in pain or were you dead, the uncertainty was killing me."

"I know, I'm so sorry," Theo whispered. "I'm sorry."

There was a silence in the office interrupted by soft sobs every now and then. No one would admit it, but tears were even in some pack's members eyes.

"It's like you again were in the Hell," you muttered and something inside Liam shattered. Probably the thought about you all those months while Theo was in the Hell, sitting alone not knowing where he was. He guessed that it was a shitty vacation for Theo, but what a torture it was for you?

Even if no one knew about your existence until now.

Because even a blind fool could see how much you care about Theo. And that he cares about you even more.

There was a silence again, but Theo knew he should be completely honest with you right now.

"Y/N," Theo started not caring about how much his voice was shaking. "I need to talk to you. It's really important," you didn't like the way he said it, but nodded.

"Okay, let's go," you said willing to go somewhere more private.

That was until Parrish blocked the exit and you heard the Sheriff's voice.

"Like Hell, I'm going to let you two to leave this room," that comment made you and Theo turn around. "Knowing her," Stilinski pointed at you. "She will most likely to kidnap you, and we still are not done here. So you two speak here."

You have already wanted to argue when you heard Theo asks.

"Y/N, what on the Earth did you do when I was gone?" he sounded amused and you just shrugged.

"Tried to find you," you smiled innocently.

Theo heard as Malia groaned and nearly roared at you.

"Talk you two already! You don't have the whole night here!"

Theo wanted to say something to her, but you asked him.

"We don't?" you looked confused.

"Y/N, look," the pack was ready for another wave of lie from Theo Raeken, but what they got instead surprised them. "I need you to go home, pack all your things, take the car and drive away from this fucking town. It's not safe here now, I need you to be protected and I'm afraid that I won't be able to keep you away from danger," Theo said seriously and by the tone of his voice, could say that whatever happened it's bad. But then something caught your attention in his speech.

"What about you? Are you going with me?" judging by the way he avoided your eyes he was not. You shook your head. "I'm not going anywhere unless you go with me, Theo."

"Y/N, listen-"

"No, you listen to me, Theo Raeken!" you snapped and came closer to him. Anger and fear boiling in you. "Whether you go to our home with me right now, where we pack our things and leave this bloody town together, or you're staying here with," you looked around finally noticed who was surrounding you two. The fact that it was the same people who sent your boyfriend to the Hell, piss you off even more. "With those people and help them with whatever happened here, but I'm staying too. I can go to our place and be 'safe', but I'm not leaving. Not alone," you finished and crossed your arms.

Theo felt a warm feeling in his chest when you said 'our', but he shook his head and crossed his arms too.

"Y/N, you don't understand-"

"No, Theo, you don't understand. I can't!" you were feeling tears in your eyes. "I can't lose you. Not again! I have already lost you two times, I don't think I can survive the third one. So please stop asking me to leave, because I won't. Never again."

You closed your eyes and felt as Theo hugged your thigh.

"Sorry," he whispered. "Looks like we are staying," Theo said and looked at the pack above your head.

"Seems like it," you responded.

Scott, who with the rest of the pack, was enjoying the show, looked at Theo and you and with the firm nod started:

"Okay, if we set in that nobody leaves this room, we probably should continue with a plan. Liam, what were you saying?"

Liam with noticeable difficulty looked away from you and repeated his plan.

"So as I was saying..."

The rest of the night went smooth, the plan was ready and everyone knew their roles. And you were more than happy practically run away from this station with your boyfriend after the meeting was over.

It was a war and no one knew what tomorrow will bring to them, but with Theo Raeken by your side, you felt that everything will be okay.

[jennsmischievousmind]

EXSOMNIS

CHAPTER 4 - Two birds, no stone

Exsomnis: Wakeful, vigilant

Summary: Fresh Doctor out of residency you didn’t expect Conyers to be this uneventful until everything happened at the same time. From the outset, an odd meeting with what seems like a steadfast Detective but it was only the beginning.

Notes: English is not my native language, I’m trying to get better at it, please be indulgent.

Based on the movie Prisoners by Denis Villeneuve (so I don’t own any of the OG characters) if you haven’t seen it, I recommend you do (maybe before reading) :) The story takes place before and through the event in the movie.

 Thanksgiving was around the corner, meaning you were short on staff at the hospital leaving you no time to spend at home. Erin and Rachel were at Rach’s parents, they had tried to convince you to come but family dinners were not your thing, even more with a family you practically don’t know.  

2 days before Thanksgiving you crossed paths with Detective Loki. Since last time you didn't really have time to meet, so you took a few minutes around a coffee to catch up. He noted that you were alone on Thanksgiving’s night so managed to invite you for dinner. 

 “Dr Y/L/N, I’m sorry but we need you to stay on shift tonight, we’re shorthanded.” The HR announced as you were taking your break. You cursed under your breath, the HR gave you an apologetic smile. Phone in hand, waiting for Loki to pick-up you hoped he was busy too, it would make it easier.

“Hey,” he answered, you heard rustling papers, he was surely at work, you huffed alleviate.

“Hi, uhm, I’m sorry I won’t be able to make it tonight. Got to stay at the hospital. Understaffed.” You announced at once, ripping off the bandage as fast as possible. He could understand, it’s kind of the same at the station. He inhaled on the other side of the phone.

“Duty is duty, don’t worry.”

“Come out next year, and we'll do it all over again ok?” you heard him chuckle

“Let’s do that but not next year.” He offered hopefull.

“Agreed, see you soon then.” You bid goodbyes wishing each other a happy Thanksgiving.

 Little did you know after your call he asked to stay on shit for the night.

  A few hours later, you were finally free from the Hospital but you frowned as soon as you put a foot outside. By the time you reached your car you were soaked, the heavy rain whipped your windshield, making driving difficult indeed it took you twice the time to head home. It was 2 am on your kitchen clock, you wondered if Loki was still up, you texted him not expecting an immediate answer so went to bed immediately.

You woke up around 9am, dragging your overly tired self to the coffee machine, checking your phone while the hot liquid filled the big cup. Rach and Erin had ranted about how Thanksgiving at Rach’s parents went horribly awkward. Erin had even sent a ‘rescue me’ video from Rach’s parents’ toilet in the group chat, you couldn’t help yourself to smile and blessed yourself for not going.

No answer from Loki, you felt this inescapable pang in your stomach when you find yourself led, in the blink of an eye, to question your own emotional life.

Then your phone buzzed.

“Busy, talk to you soon, sorry. Loki” you stayed silent reading the text multiple times, somehow relieved that he had answered but not quite sure of how to render the text. Trying to find something to say, you finally decided for an “Ok sure.”

You drink your coffee lost in your thoughts, heading to the living room. The news on TV blurting the Thanksgiving usual hazards: Snowy roads; traffic jams; accidents; lost items in turkeys...

“Yesterday in the usually quiet town of Conyers, Thanksgiving turned into a horrid day for two families. Two little girls disappeared in broad daylight. Soon one suspect was in custody, he was apparently driving an RV that was parked in the girls’ neighbourhood early in the day. He tried to run away with his vehicle when found at a gas station parking late last night. The two girls are still missing as we speak.”

“Damn it.” you shook your head sighing, what is wrong with people you thought while listening to the news and at the same time checking your sns.

“Detective Loki from the Conyers Department of Police has been appointed to the case.”

Raising your head from your phone, mouth agape at the TV, you rewind all the pieces of information in your mind. If you had known sooner you would have said something else in the text. Long minutes passed, during which you wondered if you should send him another message. The blinking cursor in the box "new message" seemed to became impatient until the buzz of a call made you jump. 

“Y/N, have you heard about ...!? A honk made you put the phone away from your ears. Only two words “Loki”, “abduction” were audible.

“Hello to you too, yes I’ve just heard, that’s awful!”

“Yeah, hi, definitely not good timing for you though!”

“Erin!” you scolded and heard Rachel do the same. 

“Okay okay, just trying to lighten the mood.” she apologized.

“Where are you by the way?” you turned the TV off.

“Traffic jams.” She sighed, another honk resonated in the phone, you heard Rachel swear at another driver.

“Tell me when you’re home. And ... we should stop the night’s run for now just in case.”

“I wish we had to stop for another reason.”

“Yeah, call me okay.”

“Yeah bye.”

Instead of the usual run, you met with the girls for board games, usually, it involved a bottle of wine and Rachel’s exquisite cuisine. 

“Okay, hear me out” she put her glass on the ground, you rolled your eyes. All night she had asked about Loki.

“What about your needs Y/N? I feel like you're waiting for him to finally give you some time of his, as you're not a priority.”

“I'm not a priority right now Erin.” You sipped on your wine. 

“You know what I mean. I am just afraid that you're making his needs overpass yours without taking care of how you feel in all of that.” Her hands making big gestures, you grabbed them.

“We’re not even a couple or something, calm down! you smiled, I'm not blinded by the guy, I know what I worth, what I deserve. And my needs, for now, are fine thank you.” You stifled a laugh at her frowning face. 

“I shouldn’t have pushed for something to happen between you two.” she said questioning her cupid skills

“Ok, you released her hands and continued, look at me back in Cleveland, the exams took over me, the internship at the hospital was a disaster and how many times did you present me a guy?” 

“Lots of times…” she mumbled

“Yeah, and you want to know why it never worked out?”

“They were assholes.” She grimaced

“Hm mostly yeah, but I wasn't ready to be in a relationship! My mind was elsewhere, I had no time to take care of my physical and mental health as much as I should have. It was a hard time, you witnessed it.”

She nodded admitted it.

“I’m fine now but I can't crash into his life like that and take his focus out of this case especially because I know it won’t work out since he is concentrating on his duty.” 

“I got it okay, but there will always be another case and did he text you or something …”

“I know but I like to think we'll have a moment of respite. And he’s not quite the texter but that’s fine by me, you know I’m not a good morning and good night's texts kind of person.”

She stared at you squinting her eyes, you mimicked her wondering.

“You really want the guy!” she caught you so off guard that you almost spit your wine.

“Miss the point by miles, you cough, but yeah let's say that.” You both cracked into laughter. She was still a bit concerned, but she got around in the end.

40hours after the abduction, no sign of Loki except on the news, thankfully you had lots of work at the hospital so you didn't have time to let your mind wander.

When you heard the indictment of the paedophile priest, you almost threw a tantrum in the break room.

“How the fuck that asshole is still in charge of a church, he is surrounded by children all the fucking day!” you screamed at the tv, scaring the surgeon next to you, some students looked at you from the lunch table. The ringtone coming from your pocket made you walk out and step outside on the emergency staircase allowing you to take some fresh air.

“Hi there..,”

“Hey, I'm sorry I didn't call sooner”

“No no, it's okay I've seen the news. I know you have a lot to do ... and the freaking priest ... I mean why is that guy still out there.”

“I don't know Y/N, I'm not a judge.” He answered with a tight voice.

“Right sorry, I jumped on you, it's just that..it's really upsetting.” you sighed rubbing your eyes.

A 2-seconds silence felt, giving you both opportunity to breathe in and change the subject.

“Are you all right?” You asked

“Tired mostly, he inhaled, I wish .. I could see you without feeling guilty .. but my mind is on the case..” 

“Hey hey, you shushed gently, it's okay, they are the priority here.”

“Why didn't we met at another time.” He said gravely.

“At least we've met, even though you had to be stabbed for it to happen.” He chuckled over the phone. “I have to go back, be careful out there.”

“You got my word.”

He hung up, you took a big breath of fresh air before stepping back in the building, thinking of what he said. What would have happened if you had met at another time?

Erin bumped into you. 

“The community is organizing a vigil in front of the Birch’s house tomorrow night, she handed you a flyer, you’re coming?”

“Yeah, I’ll drop by your place so we can go together.” she nodded and you sighed looking at the face of the two little girls on the handout.

Chapter 5: Respect all, trust few soon

[littlespoonevan]

Say in ep 5 Isak didn't bump into Emma at the party and instead he did manage to reach Even before Sonja got there, what do you think Isak would've said to him? I can't help but wonder how that confrontation would've gone, because poor baby was so hurt and even was looking like he's on top of the world.

oh mAN that is such a hard question bc isak getting to even before sonja has the potential to change everything???????????

(I would kindly ask that no one send me prompts for the time being while I answer all the ones in my inbox, thank you

okay let’s think about this:

okay so i think our perception of even in that scene is warped a little by isak and i also feel, because of his bipolar, even has become very adept at hiding how he truly feels/putting up a mask

I also firmly do not believe even and sonja got back together after the locker room scene. i think sonja didn’t believe even’s feelings for isak were genuine and i think even told her what happened but i think the kisses at the party were the only ones they shared 

but now let’s get into the nitty gritty

let’s say isak gets into the party and doesn’t run into emma. he sees even, standing at the wall alone, sonja nowhere in sight at this point. and he makes a beeline for him

he shoves through the crowd until he makes it out the other side and when he’s a couple of feet away he manages to catch even’s eye

even freezes when he sees him, watching warily as isak makes his way towards him

there’s a moment when isak finally reaches him where they just sort of stare at one another, suspended in the moment, before eventually isak mutters a soft “halla”

it’s far too quiet for even to hear in the middle of a party but he recognises the word anyway

“halla,” he replies and it’s awkward. the air around them is heavy, full of all the things they haven’t said and are bursting to say

why did you do it? why did you give me hope and then leave? what’s wrong? what did i do?

i’m sorry i left. i didn’t want to leave. i’m bipolar and you don’t want mentally ill people in your life and i don’t blame you. i’m sorry, i’m sorry.

isak worries his bottom lip between his teeth and he doesn’t know what his next move is supposed to be but he knows he needs to talk to even. he just wants to understand

so he swallows down his nerves and asks, “can we talk?”

and goD, even is so fucking helpless. he thought he could let isak go, he knows he should. but seeing him stand in front of him is killing him. seeing that sad, unsure look in his eyes is killing him. he wants to touch isak and kiss him and hold him and soothe him even if he doesn’t have that right anymore

so he says, “okay,” and catches isak’s hand to begin leading him somewhere quiet

and part of isak is freaking out because a boy is holding his hand and they’re in the middle of a crowded party with everyone from school but another part of isak is freaking out because it’s even holding his hand, so he just squeezes even’s palm and follows him

they end up escaping out the backdoor but the garden is pretty packed too so even keeps walking, making their way around the front of the house

isak panics at first in case his friends are still out front but they’re nowhere to be seen so they must’ve gotten in afterall

even keeps walking, down the street and away from the party and it isn’t until the next street over that he actually begins to speak

“i’m sorry,” even breathes, gaze flitting to isak’s briefly before he looks forward again as they continue walking

(he’s still holding isak’s hand)

“you deserved more than a text message,” even continues but he’s still not explaining why he said what he said in the first place

“why did you- I mean. Did i do something wrong?” isak tries to keep the insecurity out of his voice but he can tell he doesn’t entirely succeed

even pulls them to a stop and turns to face him, his free hand reaching up to cup isak’s cheek. “no isak, of course not. it’s- I’m- it’s my fault.”

“how?” isak whispers and he hates that even still, his voice shakes

even smiles sadly, thumb sweeping over isak’s cheekbone. “you don’t want someone like me in your life, trust me. you’d be better off without me.”

the words are a flicker of familiarity but isak’s not sure why

“why do you get to decide that?” he asks, voice slightly stronger than before but still timid. his eyes are burning and he wishes they would stop

“i just know,” even answers and he sounds so sure but how fucking can he when that answer is so vague??????

“i think you could be good for me,” isak admits and it’s the closest he’s ever come to admitting he wants this, that he believes in this, that he’s willing to try for this

even’s throat bobs and it looks like it pains him when he drops his hand from isak’s cheek

isak watches him as even spins away from him, seemingly battling with something inside as he alternates between looking up at the sky and down at the ground for some kind of answer

“just talk to me,” isak whispers eventually, a traitorous tear finally spilling over. he wipes it away before even looks at him

he hears even mutter a, “fuck it,” before he’s meeting isak’s gaze and saying, “I’m bipolar.”

and that’s.

“I decided my life would be better off without mentally ill people in it.”

that’s why what even had said had sounded so familiar and fuck, fUCK

isak doesn’t know much about bipolar other than general knowledge. he doesn’t know what it means for them or if he could handle it but he does know he hurt even with what he said in the locker room and that’s probably why he pulled away

“i’m sorry,” he utters after what’s probably been too long. “i’m so sorry. when i said that in the locker room I-”

even flinches and isak closes his mouth, taking a hesitant step closer

“things with my mom are really, really complicated. my whole life is fucking complicated right now. and i don’t really know a lot about bipolar disorder but i do know that when i’m with you is the only time things don’t feel complicated. so,” he pauses, wetting his lips as even’s expression changes from pained to wary. “so maybe we could keep walking and you could explain it to me and then, if you’ll forgive me for what i said, maybe i can be the one to decide whether i want you in my life or not?”

even is staring at him in utter disbelief, like he can’t believe isak is actually here and it’s enough to make isak feel a little brave and take his hand again, threading their fingers together

“I’m pretty sure i’m the opposite of not complicated,” even tells him and he sounds so scared and this is completely unlike the even isak knows but he’s thinking maybe this is just another side of him he’s getting to uncover

“explain it to me,” isak requests quietly. “and then we can figure out how to uncomplicate it.”

even kisses him once on the cheek. it’s soft and it’s lingering and it’s enough to make isak’s knees weak. but then they’re walking again and even is speaking - hesitant but trying -  and isak thinks no matter how complicated it’s about to get, this part will always be easy