#fuck they really destroyed me

[too-much-boobus]

i loathe being this fucking pathetic, but i dont know how to stop without resorting to playing hard to get, which i morally disagree with. i don't fucking know. i always figure shit out so what's taking me so long? am i actually still hoping they'd like it? even if im happy it makes them feel secure it doesnt make them like me any more, and i need to be a little selfish to get what i want. i need to stop being so disgusting and play everything right.

[sciderman]

well - webtoons is over, gang

[benevolenterrancy]

("Always. Continuously. With increasing apprehension, and decreasing hope. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture. I will love you no matter what happens to you, and no matter how I discover what happens to you, and no matter what happens to me as I discover this." -- paraphrased from The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket)

[landoffreaksandfrogs]

you could never understand the warriors bond between a lesbian and her IT guy

[shadystranger]

something about the way sam flinches when dean breaks stuff

[kindlespark]

in shock hearing people say that babel only takes a turn and becomes heart-wrenching at the end because that experience is so incomprehensible to my chinese diaspora ass that felt like their heart was being torn from their chest in the very first chapter likeeeee babel is underscored by such immense amounts of tragedy and loss and horror around colonialism and imperialism from the very beginning it's so crazy that white people can just read the first half of babel and not feel like every bone in their body was being dissolved in acid by the centuries of unspoken grief written in robin's experience SORRYYYYYYYY. average poc reading babel vs average white person reading babel truly LMFAOOOO

[s0fter-sin]

ghost fucking soap so hard and so good he passes out but he utterly panics about it

he thinks he must’ve ignored soap asking to stop; was it pain that made him pass out? how bad could it have been to make him pass out when he’s been shot and kept going? should he bring him to medical? he’ll never touch him again, he’ll never so much as look at him again; he’ll ask for a transfer- fuck that, a dishonourable discharge. there’s no coming back from this

he spirals, guilt chasing hatred chasing despair chasing fear, until soap finally wakes back up

soap's still floating, loose-limbed and buzzing; fucked so thoroughly out of his head that it takes him a while to notice ghost isn't in bed with him anymore. he frowns, lifting a heavy head off the pillow and freezes. ghost's on the other side of the room, curled up tight in the corner as far away from soap as he could get without leaving him alone

(he would've left, would've made sure soap never had to see his face again and be reminded of what he did to him, of the monster he’d let into his bed- but he couldn't just leave him unconscious; what if he didn't wake up, he had to make sure he was safe first even if he'll rightfully hate him forever when he does wake up)

soap's voice when he calls out to him makes him flinch, his head burying deeper in his knees. cold worry chases the bliss from his blood and soap pushes himself up but his shaking arms can't hold his weight

the sound of him collapsing back onto the bed makes ghost rear up, his panic growing and soap's heart breaks at his red rimmed eyes

it takes a long time for soap to coax him back to the bed, countless loops of, "sweetheart, please, come here, what happened? it's okay, everything’s going to be okay.”

(and how ghost’s self-hatred grows hearing soap comforting him; hearing the concern and love in his voice when he doesn’t deserve a drop of it)

it takes even longer for ghost to believe soap when he says that he passed out because he felt so good; that he never asked ghost to stop, never wanted him to stop. that he trusts him more than anything and knows he'd rather die than ever hurt him, especially like that

“you’re not a monster, love,” he promises, soft with conviction and it’s as much a surrender as a relief when he collapses into his lap and lets him hold him close

ghost believes johnny but he still can't bring himself to be intimate with him for a while; that fear still haunting him, but soap doesn't hold it against him, doesn't complain about ghost's perceived "step back" in their relationship

hell, ghost seems to hate it more than he does; he misses being with soap, misses the connection, the closeness they shared, the safety and quiet he found in his embrace, but he's always trusted soap more than he trusts himself

soap doesn't let him be consumed by his fear or worse, sabotage them and turn it into a punishment; doesn't let him even get through the suggestion of switching because he knows how much he hates it and he won’t let him twist something as good and pure as their physical love into something self-harming

instead, he brings them back to the basics, working through the steps to get ghost comfortable with intimacy again, to get him to trust himself again; spends happy months just grinding and exchanging handjobs like when their relationship first started

and it's a happy day for them both when soap finally falls apart on his cock once again, anxiety the farthest thing from ghost's mind when his arms are wrapped so tightly around him, kissing a smile against his lips

[srslylini]

Powder is a character that from the very start deserved to live. she deserved to get what she needed to not just survive, just as Ekko said btw. She was always called a Jinx, got everything taken from her, lost at any given turn

she was a character who, despite her own suicidal tendencies, NEEDED to live and to win for the audience. for her character. people like us deserve to see someone living despite this.

they killed her and for what? she needed to live.

[kelin-is-writing]

Touya responding with “Oh really? My condolences. Giving me all your attention after everything’s over is easy, you coward.” when Enji said that “The Hero Endeavor has burned to death” it’s just so satisfying. Like— GO. OFF. YOU ABSOLUTE KING.

He will never not be a menace for this guy and I love Touya so fucking much for that 🤧💜

[slut-strut-satan]

I might be alone in this sentiment but this game genuinely made me despise Varric. And that sucks, because he was formerly one of my favorites. Now just seeing his name pisses me off because all I can see is the utter cynicism and pointlessness of what was done with him.

He just wasn’t Varric anymore. He’d been reduced to a mouthpiece with the sole intention of making another character look bad and then dying pointlessly for the same purpose. Not because it was in character, not because it served the story, but because the creative director was a petty little asshole who’s spite was so massive and so all consuming that he’d waste one of the most beloved characters in the series to accommodate it.

It was mean spirited to the very core, and that’s all that’s left of Varric’s character for me now. A mean spirited little man who champions ignorance and spits on the idea of critical thought. That’s what he represents to me now. Because I don’t see Varric anymore, I just see John Epler’s mouthpiece, and John Epler is a mean spirited, ignorant, spiteful little man.

[glassesweirdo]

Im thinking about how many people are mad about Singed getting a happy ending, but like, wasn't that the point? I feel like we're always so ready to praise characters for their devotion until its a character like Singed, he's a father, he's a mad scientist, he's killed people, he was banned from piltover due to his dangerous and morally wrong experiments, he was kind to a young and lonely viktor, and most importantly he did almost everything in the name of bringing back his daughter. He was blown up, disfigured, threatened by a kingpin, and he never stopped thinking about her and working for her, every move every breathe was for her, wanting her back because he is a father who loves his child and that greif can become twisted in the dark corners of a laboratory. This has just turned into me talking about Singed, but he's just such an interesting character to me, and I don't understand people praising jayces devotion to keeping viktor alive with the hexcore, yet lamenting that Singed got his happy ending. Has he not worked for it? He burned the world around him like he swore to, we knew he would, yet suddenly were shocked? All he ever wanted, from the very start, was his daughter back, and you doubted that he would get what he wanted?? That's just stupid.

[atlaslovesedm]

tales from the watercooler was peak

[luuxxart]

finishing persona at the same time i got a part in mamma mia has lead me to some places

[benevolenterrancy]

May your hardened heart be woken By the soft and distant song Of all you left here unspoken All the shards we keep stepping on - Take this body home Take this body home Call the wind, and let her know Take this life outgrown Take this broken soul Call the stars, call them all And take it high, take it far, take it home

[huginsmemory]

Reading journal 3 again is a reminder that... Well Ford is kinda an asshole towards Fiddleford. It's not just Stan. Like he's so focused on himself and his project and his ambition that anyone/thing else blurs out (him disregarding Fiddleford's nervousness around the gremloblin because he wants to sketch it, and when it goes sideways, him talking about the safety of the project parts BEFORE how Fiddleford was doing in his journal, multiple times. Priorities much?) and he's demeaning towards Fiddleford's own project (which ends up being wayyyy more important then Ford's discoveries)... Like damn Fiddleford, u left ur wife and young son for this guy?

[cherry-pop-elf]

Small Mouthwashing Break

Hey guys. I know so many of you are hyped and excited for another mouthwashing fic/update to my series but the whole RussianBot situation just. I can’t

I’ve seen things that have left me painfully traumatized. Its made me scared to even open this app. I’ve seen things no one deserves to see. Enough where I won’t even mention what they are

Until the situation is solved I just can’t be part of the fandom atm. I’m already painfully traumatized as is. I have enough going on in life. I don’t need more shit like this

It’s genuinely given me nightmares and taken a toll on my health, since fibromyalgia reacts to stress. What a way to start my thanksgiving break. Just peachy huh?

I’m super sorry to everyone that’s so eager to see more of my content, who want updates, to have asks left unanswered, but I deserve to take care of myself

Hopefully a few days away will make the situation resolve itself on its own. Maybe tumblr will actually do something. Who knows

Just know I’m super sorry, but I gotta take care of myself. I love the mouthwashing fandom/game but Jesus Christ those Russian Bots man

Keep me updated on if that stupid thing gets solved. If things go get fixed. That it’ll be safe to return

I wanna keep posting and doing what I love after all. Don’t we all?

Love yall