#fuck relationships

[vorpal-doll]

"Why is it so hard to move on?"

I guess it's because of the nights you spent together talking about your dreams, their fears, your insecurities, the times they made you feel so happy that your lips ached from smiling so much. Maybe it's because you felt safe around them. I think moving on from someone you thought would stay is hard because we never imagine any moment without them. Maybe it's because with them you felt you were at peace and even after they left, your heart was always clinging onto the last bit of hope that they would look back and see that you still cherished them. You were still willing to put everything aside just to see them beside you. It's so hard to realize that the person you thought would never hurt you, suddenly became the very person to break your heart. I guess the worst part about doing away with their memories is realizing that they no longer belong there and you can't even tell them how much it hurts.

[justuffsworld]

I knewu liked them better you could just fucking said so what did it give u to let me suffer like this?! I really really loved u u know even if I knew that you'll never love me the same way I'll love you goddam I wished I've never loved u...

[alostbeautynomore]

Well I did it - I broke up with my boyfriend. I am heartbroken and questioning if I did the right thing. He is hurting so much too. I really feel like I just threw my future away 😭😭😭 please message me anything positive or animal related bc those make me smile. I just need all the support I can get rn so I don’t spiral

[gabygirl99]

Well damn… fuck relationships.. this is why I’m better just alone

[vulcanstarr]

when a single well written fan fiction fulfilled you emotionally more than a long four year relationship-.. 😐

[angeliahuffman]

So don’t even judge me for the fact that I have make up in odd spots on my eyes. Got to admit here guys… I was crying seconds before I took this, which is fucking hilarious, because goddamn bipolar as fuck much? Crazy bitch anyways. Life‘s been fucking worse than usual Actually believe it or not. but hey, I wanted to let all y’all know that have ever liked or commented anything I’ve posted to know that I appreciate you a lot. You’ve probably kept me going more than I’ve ever given you credit for but hey, here’s your credit. Y’all are saints truly. Especially when it comes to the comments where somebody’s telling me that I’m actually kind of cute cause I know I told myself I’m cute stuff on here but like I don’t actually believe myself ha ha. Insanity. I know either way thank you guys. Your comments are honestly the only ones I’ve gotten in a really long time from anybody so you can’t imagine how much I really do appreciate it. Life sucks right now it’s not going to though because I’m gonna make it beautiful again and I’m gonna do so alone. Have a good day y’all.

[almxndrekitou]

Something about love and how loving someone can hurt you so unexpectedly

(my way of dealing w a heartbreak)

People see a couple and all they see is love

The word has become too modernized, i think

People use it so carelessly, i observe

Its come to an extent where its now almost lost all of its value as the word it once was

What do you mean when you say “I love eating strawberries” or “I love gardening” or “I love spending time with you”?

Do you love or do you like doing these things?

There’s a difference, you see

You aren’t sure of what you love, you’ve been conditioned all your life to be “a lover” and you barely have any comprehension of the word itself

So,

What do you mean when you say “love”?

Don’t think of the answer that comes to your mind immediately, that’s not it I’m sure, love certainly resides deeper than that

The layer below all layers is love

What you have yet to discover is love

What you think you understand is love

What you abruptly assume and adore is love

What you accept unconditionally is love

But you don’t understand this, do you?

So tell me,

What do you mean when you say “I love you”?

It’s not love,

That i can assure you

What it is,

Is obsession.

It is some comfort, some warmth

It is what you craved for, it is what solidifies your needs so flawlessly

It is what you call perfect.

It is not love, however.

It is obsession.

Your “love” for me is not love, it is your longing for me, for my palms, for my sounds, for my heat and for a piece of me for you to possess and call yours

That is not love but it is what you call love

You stab and you scratch at the word’s very existence like that

It’s upsetting my warmth for you’ve stolen so much of it

I gave my warmth to you so unconditionally

I did not know what to expect, but all i wanted to do was love

All i wanted to do is adore

All i wanted to do is let you hold me close when my heart pounds in my ears for my anxiety never healed

My heart beats faster and my face grows pale

And all i wanted was for you to say that you don’t want me to become better but to accept my warmth, my beating heart and sweaty palm

All i wanted was for you to love me, perhaps, I’m not certain

Things have been so inconsistent, i gave up on rational thinking

Things have been so different ever since… i gave up my love for you

You always wanted something from me, i noticed

I told you these things were impossible, you never listened

I told you, you must be considerate, you said you’d change yourself for me

But that’s not what i wanted

I wanted you to love you, i wanted you to love me

It took me 6 months to realise that you were incapable of understanding what love meant

You were like a stray cat in the cold, looking for shelter not because of the shelter but for your own comfort

It wasn’t that selfish but you needed the warmth when all you witnessed was chaos

In a situation like yours, affection mattered more than love

You don’t understand attachment, you understood survival

I don’t blame you

I hope you get a good shelter

Because i can’t give you the warmth if you don’t even recognize how I’m holding myself up for you

I value myself more than that now, i know im not a shelter anymore

I’m a stray like you too, in a way

I radiate heat, i radiate love, i radiate everything you’d want

But it’s not for you anymore

Its for me, and its for my heart

I need to heal

I must heal

[midnightcrisisstuff]

actually no, we're not "dating". we're bound together for infinity. like the stars. so, fuck you, actually.

[inkskinned]

she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.

my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.

my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.

my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.

at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.

my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.

i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.

two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.

it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.

[lyeox]

Are you happy with yourself? I lost friends of eight years because of you. I no longer felt comfortable existing in the same spaces as you and I had to leave those servers because of you.

I know you're watching my Tumblr. You'll keep me blocked for a while, unblock me, and edit your message again. You don't know how to let things go. You don't know how to leave my friends alone.

You got everything. I was left with nothing. I hope you're happy.

[noelledeltarune]

EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt

[justuffsworld]

Guys I'm just so so sick of never being loved the same

[gabygirl99]

Being single again is nice. I get to have fun and meet new people if y’all know what I mean 😘😘

[shyblogger]

when you don’t care about how I feel, or when you don’t care about me in general… it almost feels as if the whole entire world doesn’t care about me anymore… your love made me feel so important, and now I mean nothing to you after giving birth to your child. It’s as if you used me for pregnancy and after I am nothing to you but a body to fuck. And I let you to make it feel like you love me. Sex only buys your love for so long. 💔

[ew-ugh-sigh]

Disappointed but not surprised

[lonelyandpretty]