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guys path of pain finally done🙏😼
what if i exploded rn?
#hollow knight#path of pain#hk#pale king#hollow knight path of pain#fuck path of pain#as much as i hated it i had a lot of fun#guys…. i really love hollow knight#u could probably tell i love hk because of my username
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Don't talk to me i am coping
#this anime made me mentaly unwell#go watch it 💖#i swear it's an amazing watch#guh#okzy#oczy#however the FUCK you spell it#Badeni#jolenta#hmmmm how does one tag rafal#orb on the movements of the earth#orb: on the movements of the earth#chi: chikyuu no undou ni tsuite#camma the drawer#get rafal brown contacts petition#does this tiny sketch at the top count as#okubade#?#idk im tagging it anyways#the only reason i haven't drawn them making out is cuz i showed these sketch pages to my dad#who is ALSO in intense pain after episode 14#the fic is in planning. oh you know it is#i dont even wanna cry anymore I'm just resorting to dark humor now#watch me go down the path of insanity#DAMMIT#ahem#tee hee#rafal
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hey consider. trent's book essentially being about what ted's done and the effect he's had on all these lives and on the team and yes, it's his philosophy, but it's also him, so persistent and kind and sincere and brave, because maybe anyone could have done it but no one ever did, no one ever has, and even if trent doesn't directly say it in the book about how ted's changed his life, changed him, and how ted--not just his ideas, but ted--changed lives and changed nelson road for the better. and even if those ideas can persist after he's gone, even if it's a seed that once planted can flourish on its own, ted still planted the seed. and then the only feedback ted leaves him is that it's good, but it was never about him. it's good, but he disagrees with a fundamental pillar of the thesis. it's good, but trent's wrong. and trent, who wants him to like it, who cares about his opinion, who wants ted to like him and wants ted to like what trent has to say about him and what trent's written about him, trent who had said they could offer criticism so trent could tell them how they were wrong... takes the criticism. changes the title. out of respect or just because ted asked, and trent's helpless to refuse him. for ted. ted reads the book trent desperately wants him to like, that trent's spent all season writing, that trent's poured his soul into, and casually tells him he disagrees with a huge part of it. and trent takes it to heart.
#this isn't necessarily 'canon' considering we dont know exactly what trent said in the book and such but im saying CONSIDER#BECAUSE IT'S PAINFUL#trent crimm#ted lasso#gertspeak#this isnt to say ted's a bad person or anything man is fucking Going Through It#dont think hed realize how deeply it could cut--like the laugh police thing--esp bc hes kinda caught up in this idea#they dont need him#and he can leave and it wont matter#and that has to be true because he thinks he has to leave and if they dont need him if it was never really him in the first place#then that's okay isn't it?#and hes so determined so set on this path he's made for himself he doesnt see the hearts he's breaking#from his friends' to trent's to his own#tedependent
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You ever think about how in spite of knowing their exact locations, the game never gives any indication that templar Carver has reported his mage sibling, Merril (a blood mage) or Anders (an abomination) to his superiors?
I do think about that a lot, even though I tend to ignore the Templar Carver route because I know Warden Carver to be true in my heart and soul... but I totally get the appeal of Templar Carver within DA2's narrative, y'know?
It's so fascinating, really. I've never played a run with Templar Carver, I just can't bring myself to do it, so I know I'm missing out on smaller details of it. From what I do know, this drives me crazy in the best way possible.
Deciding whether to bring him or not to the Deep Roads is such an important choice, not only because it affects his fate, but how it affects his relationship to Hawke. He tells you that he wants to go, he makes it very clear that it's important to him that he goes, too... and Hawke can just leave him behind and it hurts him. I don't think that registers enough with some people just because of how Carver is, like it doesn't matter what Hawke's motivations are [staying behind for his safety, not wanting to bring him, thinking someone should stay with Leandra, etc] it still hurts him because it tells him that Hawke doesn't need him, and Carver wants to be needed.
And yes, there are other contributing factors to why he joins the templars, but it doesn't matter what your relationship is to him, it doesn't change the fact that he doesn't turn Hawke or his companions in.
Sure, the meta reason is it's a video game and you're playing the main character. You're never in any actual danger of being captured by templars, and you're not going to lose your companions to them that easy.
But if we look at it through the narrative and Carver's character, that's when it gets interesting. You can max out his rivalry and be an utter asshole to him [there's a point where you can call him a brat and mock him for being stuck in your shadow, like Hawke can be real cruel about it] but it doesn't matter, you're still his sibling. He even makes a remark about how you might not know what that means [referring to leaving him behind] but he does. He refuses to kill Hawke in the end when Meredith makes the order, too.
Which can I just point out that Hawke has the option to let Bethany die in the end if she's with the circle and they side with the templars? Just saying, Carver NEVER does that no matter what, but Hawke has the option to betray Bethany like that and it's fucked and interesting and it makes me want to eat my chair-
As for Merrill and Anders, I think he knows that if he turns either of them in, then the chances of Hawke being brought in as well skyrocket. They're all friends, they're in the same group... bring one in, and you'll probably get the other two.
I also think Carver just genuinely likes Merrill. Yes, I'm a Carver/Merrill shipper, so I have a bias, but even if you remove anything romantic from their dynamic I believe that's true. Of all the companions, Merrill is the only one who doesn't make fun of him, or find him annoying, in party banters. He never snaps back at her, like he's never defensive with her, he's just a little awkward and nice.
Like, HE'S SO NICE TO HER! He tries to find common ground with her! She asks him about "swording" and he's taken aback by her saying he's good at it, but you KNOW that if someone like Anders asked him the same question, he's be all, "shut up, you're stupid, stop talking to me >:["
Think back to that banter Carver can have with Aveline post-act 1 where they're talking about how the guard wasn't the right place for him [hard disagree with you there, Aveline] and Carver says he was a bit of a tit, wasn't he.... and every companion will agree except Merrill. She doesn't say anything, whereas other companions like Anders will be like "ugh maker YES" and if you have a purple Hawke, they'll go on to other ways Carver was a tit like?? I think Carver and Merrill got along and he doesn't want to turn her in because she was nice to him! And she's a blood mage! He knows what will happen to her if the templars get ahold of her! He doesn't want to see her made tranquil or killed!
At that point, he's witnessed what bad blood mages can do, assuming you've brought him along for those quests, but even so. He knows Merrill isn't like that and he likes her, so of course he's not going to turn her in despite that being his literal duty.
Then there's Anders who Carver doesn't like. If you're in a romance with him, Carver will tell him that's why he doesn't turn him in but c'mon Carver, you know that's not the only reason. My theory is Carver may not like Anders and he knows the man's got a spirit of justice inside of him... but Anders also runs a free clinic. If he's ever taken in by templars, then so many people [including a LOT of Fereldan refugees] will be without free health care and will suffer for it. I think in Carver's eyes, Anders might be irritating but he doesn't more good than harm. Carver knows first hand how shitty refugees and poorer people are treated in Kirkwall. Anders' clinic is the one place they can go for help and actually get it, and he's not going to be the one to take that away because the templars say "magic bad."
So yeah, I'm not as informed about the Templar Carver route, but I do think about how if I did do that route, he wouldn't betray Hawke or their companions no matter what and what that says about him.
#asks#dragon age 2#da2#carver hawke#da2 merrill#da2 anders#listen i love carver hawke okay he and bethany are my favorite companions in da2#i could talk endlessly about the twins and their roles in story and how unfair it is that only one of them can make it to kirkwall#meaning we hardly get to see them interact with each other before one dies and UGH#like i get it their stories rely heavily on them being the only mage or non-mage in the sibling trio so both of them living#would've meant writing two different origins stories for them with different attitudes affected by having another siblings that like them#but also i think if hawke's a rogue then leandra should've died and we could've worked it out okay#ANYWAY... templar carver amirite? i know i should go that route just to say i have and to see it for myself but hhhnnnggggg...#it physically pains me to think of not bringing him to the deep roads though it's so important to him and my hawke works so hard#to repair his relationship with his brother okay i max out carver's friendship every time and it's so worth it#you don't understand okay friendship carver is the best he's so goddamn sweet i can't handle it#it's actually so interesting how bethany and carver start out versus how they end because bethany starts out as the super sweet one#whereas carver's surly and bitter... but past act 1? it's like they flip?? at least on the warden paths like bethany is BRUTAL#she's so fucking bitter and rude and I love it?? like her relationship with hawke is in the trenches whereas carver's is vastly improved#again no matter your approval with him when you reunite in act 2 he will ALWAYS tell hawke that 'i'm sure you did your best'#referring to leandra's death but bethany's response will change depending on your approval with her#and if i remember right the rivalry response is OOF#carver and bethany turn me into a little giggling gremlin i love them so much
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Suddenly smacked in the face by the implication of Romeo's message where he says "I remember you, so there's no reason for us to fight. I suppose."
I always thought the wording was weird, but didn't think too much on it... Until recently after we discussed some datamined stuff in the Carmeo/Promeo server. There's a scrapped line (where P was supposed to speak) that says "I may not remember, but I'm still your son" during the NP fight, and while the scrapped lines are their own can of worms, let's focus on the memory parts.
I had always thought that once a puppet woke up, they would just get their memories back. But the fact seems to be this: There are select memories that come back to give bits and pieces of their past that "wake" them up-- cause them to change, as we see with P and the necklace; As we see from the spliced memories at the Black Seaside. However, it might not be all one's memories that come back. Whether those spaces stay blank or come back over time, who knows.
What I'm trying to get at here is...
Romeo's memories might only consist of Carlo at the time of waking. Carlo was what woke Romeo-- "I remember you"-- He had the necklace, he knew from who it was; He recognized the face P was modeled after. "So there's no reason for us to fight, I suppose"-- there's a lack of confidence in the wording here. Friends aren't supposed to fight, right? That's what his memory tells him, at least.
And the only memories P tends to get in regards to his past? Those in relation to Romeo, his aspirations, and of his own death. Seemingly, these are the things most important to him.
They were the most important people to each other; They remembered each other, just one too late than the other.
#Lies of P#Lies of P Spoilers#The “I may not remember” part hit me like a sack of BRICKS before I went to bed and I was like#“Oh shit oh fuck oh shit wait what oh sHIT--” fhsddfd I was way too invested in everything else at the time#and then that hit me. And then Romeo's message hit me. And the necklace flavor text and his ergo flavor text.#And I just went-- “Does Romeo... JUST remember things relating to Carlo?... Would he.. not remember other specific stuff?”#And it all crashed down on me and I suddenly had to draft the thought real quick on my phone before sleeping on it adhdfs#But wow. Yeah. I. It makes sense?? Like... maybe they don't remember everything at all just bits and pieces. Or maybe they do with time.#Both paths are good and interesting tbh I should...incorporate that in my stuff~ mmmMMMMMMM VERY COOL TO THINK ABOUT#and painful. So and so painful uGH I LOVE THEM
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Guys what the fuck.
My campus now had two lifts not working (one has been out of service for like almost a month now) and the third lift only goes up to the third floor. my class is on the fourth floor. My class is also Critical Issues in Disability. this sounds like a critical issue to me. Plus, this is the room I have to wait in at the moment
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the irony of me waiting here for accessibility. I am. so tired of this shit.
UPDATE: the class is being moved somewhere more accessible, instead of the fourth floor. Now I feel awkward for making it a big deal but also now I’m happy because I might’ve just brought attention to something maybe people haven’t noticed before? I don’t know how to feel but it’s some feeling
UPDATE 2: I have to go into one building and walk through three other buildings to get to my class now
#disability#cripple punk#disabled#cpunk#cane user#chronic pain#cripplepunk#actually disabled#mobility aid#crutch user#described#inaccessibility#at least the student services person I spoke to was really nice#oh and not to mention I had to go up a steep sorta path to get to this third elevator#how the fuck am I meant to get to class#plus I know someone in my class uses a wheelchair#how they fuck are they meant to get to class too?#moony talks#moony speaks#moony describes
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Lady Bone Demon: "Do not lament your fate child, you can rest knowing you served your purpose—destiny has found you."
(2x10 This is the End!)
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Lady Bone Demon: "A reminder: it seems you can not be trusted to willingly follow the path of destiny. But know this: If you betray me again—one misstep, one failure in any way—I will erase the very memory of you."
(3x04 The Winning Side)
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Tang: "You're wrong. I know I'm not a strong as they are. I may still be searching for my purpose—but what I do know, is that doing it alone is not the path I'm destined to take. Deep in my heart, I know my place is alongside my friends."
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Lady Bone Demon: "I sent you a task—you were to retrieve the Monkie King and his protégé, yet you refused the path of destiny and so there will be pain."
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Tang: "STOP! It was me! I mean, yeah, Macaque forced me to do it and I am definitely starting to have second thoughts on the whole thing now but- I don't know how and I don't know why, I just felt like I had to. Like it was...destiny!" Lady Bone Demon Voice Over: "Destiny can not be undone Sun Wukong."
(3x10 The Samadhi Fire)
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Lady Bone Demon: "No matter what you do, you cannot change the path of destiny." MK: "I don't know if this all happened because it was destined to, but I have to believe that I found the staff so I could use it for good." [...] "If you really believed that destiny can't be changed, you wouldn't be using every ounce of power you have to keep him contained!"
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Lady Bone Demon: “Know this, monkey, you and I are not so different. We both fight for what we think is right—that pursuit only leads to one thing." MK: "Hmmhm. To destiny, right?" Lady Bone Demon: "No. To pain."
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MK: "I can't believe that worked!" Tang: "Eh, if that was destined to go wrong, then it would have!"
(4x03 The Great Tang Man)
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Tang: "If your bonds of friendships our strong, then you will always find your way back to one another!"
(4x04 Pig Napped!)
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Macaque: "Wukong was on a path of self-destruction, we all were. But when he met the monk, it set him on a different path." MK: "Ah! The path of the good guy! Making those good life choices?"
(4x11 A Lifetime of Mistakes)
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Purpose, Pain, and the Path of Destiny
#originally this started as like ''huh Tang said the thing LBD said'' and then it turned into a 3 way thing between Tang LBD and MK#Like 2 sides of the destiny coin and the guy who undoes/changes destiny#''Destiny has found you'' ''You will always find your way back to one another!''#I FEEL FUCKING CRAZY#THE JOURNEY. THE PATH THERE. FINDING THE SCRIPTURES. YOUR FRIENDS. YOUR PURPOSE. DESTINY. IDK#lmk really was like ''Everyone's destiny is pain. Cope with that fact'' and I've been losing my mind for a year#Like whatever#''No matter what I do it's going to lead to pain''#LIKE THAT'S. THE PATH OF DESTINY (''path of self-destruction''). Okay. Okay#Not even that relevant to the post I'm just in so deep rn#''All doomed to play a role in tearing this world apart'' and then s5 being the world literally tearing itself apart. Like jesus#They really just wanted to completely decimate MK's little positive growth from the special like. Immediately.#''At least we fixed something for a change- instead of destroying it'' AND THEN THEY DIDN'T FIX ANYTHING#WHICH I'VE BEEN SAYING WAS HOW IT WOULD GO FOR A WHILE. BUT ON GOD TO BE PROVEN SO RIGHT#You know I hope Mei also has a terrible time next season I really feel like she was going through it in s4. But like subtly#Not MK's monkie mental breakdown way#*cough* tag rant over#lmk#lego monkie kid#lmk parallels#lmk Tang#lmk LBD#lmk MK#lmk theme: destiny#to pain
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been replaying hollow knight again. this guys pretty cool :DD
#gamble the queue#art#my art#artists on tumblr#drawing#fan art#fanart#hollow knight#hk mister mushroom#hk mr mushroom#doodle#sketch#im stuck in path of pain again please help. how does one platformer the stupifd fucking. spikes
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What if the Pale King locked himself away in the Dream Realm to recreate what he did to the Hollow Knight? After the Vessel leaked and he realized that it most likely had capability enough to suffer, but far far too late to even hope to do anything to fix it. He was beyond the point of no return, there was nothing he could do to undo the Sealing. And even if he could, there were no other options that he could think of of what to do about the Blazing Light.
He had no choice but to keep the Vessel sealed. No choice but to watch his kingdom crumble. There was nothing he could do.
Nothing, but to seal himself away in a self-imposed punishment in the exact same way he imparted onto his only (known) living child.
A weak attempt to impose the same agony onto himself as he forced onto them.
And should the people of his kingdom stop worshiping him and forget he exists, dwindling his power and life to a pathetic end?
Well...
Perhaps that might've been for the best.
#hollow knight#Pale King#Potential Headcanon#Thinkin about this soggy worm again#I don't actually think this is the case I just think it's an interesting concept#Though perhaps not entirely out of the realm of possibility from what we know of PK's character#PK locked his most shameful memory behind the Path of Pain and the Entirety of the Dream White Palace could be an extension of that#in a sort of ''No one's allowed in but also HE'S not allowing himself to leave either'' way#The Sealing was meant to be permanent and eternal so I don't think PK made a 'back door' in case things went wrong either#Back doors are weak points and a potential escape route is something you don't want when dealing with the Radiance#So even if PK WANTED to get Hollow out of there I don't think he was actually ABLE to do so#Presuming he didn't know about the Dream Nail#Which had to of been fucking AGONY for him#''Oh shit my Vessel-child is actually alive and I just put a pissed off god inside of them aND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT FUCK FUCK FUCK'#*chucks depression meds at PK* Boi get off ur ass and at least try to do smth don't just wait around till u die ffs
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My legs and arms hurt from the climbing I did to get some of these views, but it's well worth it.
#crater lake#most of the pass around the perimeter was closed off cause there's still a shit ton of snow#but it was nice#my headcanon in the death stranding fandom is that crater lake was caused by a void out that happened 8000 years ago#still stands lol#ive only swam here 1 time and it was the weirdest experience ive ever had in a body of water no shit#also word to wise if you visit and want to swim or go on the boat: the path is steep and a pain to crawl back up#make sure you got a walking stick good shoes and your breathing is well for that#same goes for some of the trails theres plenty of places to slip and fall make sure you don't go off road no matter how tempting it might b#i had to help 2 people today who fell down pretty good not off the cliff thank god but the trail and climb up i did#to get the closer pics of wizard island#i also mimicked the clarks nutcracker bird up there and had a full convo with a flock#funniest shit ever getting looks of awe and horror from people passing as the birds kept cawing back#and one flew right by my face it was majestic af#this place is eerily silent#which is why i like it#but theres spots here i don't go to much like water itself said places give weird or off vibes#i wouldn't tempt the gods of fuck around and find out here
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some shippers when solas has had important relationships from thousands of years ago and he can't just forgive himself for failing those closest to him then and go "okie dokie!" when his wife tells him he can come back home
#dragon age fandom critical#solavellan#im sorry some of you are not serious he literally says in the cutscene i wish ur forgiveness soothed my faults but unfortunately#hes been on this path for CENTURIES before lavellan was even born like yes he would like to apologize to mythal#AND HE LEFT LAVELLAN CLUES BC SHE WANTED HIM TO TRACK HIM SHE WANTED HER TO STOP HIM#unfortunately sometimes you kinda need your best friend turned master turned opp to say it's ok#like she literally came in went well lolz we both fucked up teehee i release u from indentured servitude PCE#and some of u are still mad#RELATIONSHIPS DONT EXIST IN A FUCKING VACUUMM!!!!!!#mind you mythal got betrayed by her own deranged husband who then got locked away and she was lobotomized#and then after she protected her people in this new world solas showed up and went well im bombing it#LIKE UNFORTUNATELY. SINCE HE KILLED FLEMETH HE KINDA NEEDED TO ATONE FOR THE NUMEROUS GRIEVANCES HE CAUSED IN MYTHALS LIFE TOO#also like even tho it was mythals choice to follow her husband and it was her own undoing#solas as a spirit of wisdom who knew better and warned her still thinks he failed her and not vice versa bc it was his Nature.#i also think it would be largely out of character for solas to just go okie after lavellan forgives him#he literally broke up w her bc he felt he was betraying this path of repentance he made up for himself#he wished it was as easy to just cast aside & get over it and adapt like mythal clearly has but#in his core he feels deeply. his regrets his losses his pain. he is a spirit#he is not a man. he is weighed down by emotions the mortal coil cannot comprehend#it is also why he did not want cole bound or inq drinking from the fountain#he made a choice and he failed and he carried that burned for centuries#he would not have that thrust upon someone else#and he also cannot wash away the guilt without confronting it. and he hasnt been confronting it until hes trapped#and even then his last confrontation w mythal b4 vg was when he gutted her to seize power and do what HE thought he must
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what do you say?
Keep Giles alive and send a false report of his death to the people close to him
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The angst potentials r so much more than if Giles would just die, too
I DONT KNOWWWWWW
#on one hand: the fucking PAIN of knowing that Giles is dead and his death was completely meaningless#it was his own fault and his own fate because HE chose this path in the first place#and now hes DEAD and the people that knew him now have to deal with that#and on the other: he comes back ???#and. and. reunion with joseph ??? (and claudia too. leading too much awkwardness)#MAN i have no idea 😭😭😭#amrev#amrev oc#redcoat alexander au#giles eleison#asks
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man arcane writes women like no other and it's not even close
jinx, torn apart by her own mind, haunted by her past and her mistakes, unsure even how to move forward but instinctually driven to do so no matter what
vi, the opposite side of the coin, driven to rage by the same kind of trauma but begging the world not to change even as she herself has
mel, a pragmatic and graceful leader, eternally poised in both her strategic judgment and compassion
caitlyn, once merciful even as she outgrew her naivete, now spiraling down into incorrigible hatred as she tries to control an uncontrollable and unknowable future
ambessa, the ultimate wolf mother, cutting deals and resorting to betrayal and manipulation as long as it means she can protect those she cares about
#arcane#insights#arcane spoilers#every one of the main female characters is strong without ever saying it - they're strong because everything they do belies strength#i know these are super distilled summaries but i just am so grateful to see women depicted so fully from a wide variety of personas#it's just fucking incredible#not a single character falls flat#and it's both painful and so blessed to be able to see caitlyn traversing the path of pain into corrupted judgment#because that kind of depth is usually off-limits for women! :))) can't be complicated and angry and desperate!#anyways thank you riot i may hate arams but you make good stories
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#oh lads. lads. lads. lads. im being sucked back into the world of academia#i dont even kno what happened. a week ago i was crying bc i was like: this is impossible. i simply cannot do this.#and then i went into the lab sunday and miraculously i was able to easily read some papers. like i dont kno how to discribe how baffling it#was. like reading papers is like pulling teeth and this was somehow easy. i think maybe it was bc i let myself get distracted and wander#thru it. and then after that i got so much done this week and i was tired but having fun. and like the thing is: i fucking love evolution#it's like puzzling out the code for life in both a metaphical and literal sense. its fucking incredible. and my project is also very#interesting. if a bit intimidating in its scope. ya kno. just in the way photosynthesis is generally intimidating#but i think i have a strain thats lost chlf which is really interesting and my advisor said we might have the money to try some crispr for#my cyano children. hypothetically. maybe. and i get to do some poking around in genomes. theres so so much to love there#how could i possibly want to do anything else? and yet. and yet. here at the end of the week im so wrung out and i kno i just have to start#again on sunday and i kno im gonna have to step it up in terms of reading if i want to make it through a committee meeting and proposal#defense. not to even mention a comprehensive exam. and what do i get at the end of all this? a lifetime of academia draining my life away.#bc what i do is so academic. so whats the point? its just so frustrating.#and on top of that ive got all this data from my old lab that i kno i have to work on. and i will. i will. but with what time?#anyway the point is. i can see a path forward now where i stay here and decide the pain will be worth it despite not knowing where im going#after that. im just so tried#but right now it feels like im gonna stay until someone kicks me out#but that doesnt exactly make me feel happy. ugh. but if i stay i want to get my old pi to come here and give a seminar. ill warn her how#intimidating the department is tho. we've had 2 talks in the last 2 weeks that were... not good. particularly the one this week#like she couldnt answer a single question they thru at her and didnt seem to kno her data sets. it was hard to watch. anyway. i just want#to see my academic mother again. send me back to the desert! let me rot in a field full of sage#but send me back to the hills of an older mountain range. where i can climb sandstone cliffs and lay in carpets of moss. except i wouldnt do#that bc of all the ticks and threat of lyme disease...#anyway. im still tired. still sad. and there doesnt seem to b a way out#unrelated
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ok so the fun thing about that mind control au idea is it is not only traumatizing for leon. but chris, too!
leon gets to remember what it's like to be controlled by a parasite and chris gets to remember what it's like to have a good friend try to murder him. and also try to remove the thing that's making him bloodthirsty :3c
#except chris sees the extent of it all.... and sees that's not leon's veins... not all of those lines in his arms.....#which chris pulling that fuckin thing out of jill?? insane man#pulling that out of leon would not at all be good...#but the 'artificial' plaga thing -> allows for remote control without the consequences of the plaga's desires#so the puppeteer is whoever the fuck [redacted] is lol. but a less invasive plaga controller ... maybe like a headset of somethin#i was thinking for less permenant damage it's wired up in leon like artifical nerves#it could be a lot darker but i don't like *that* much pain lol#the pain of 'leon's dead no matter what' kinda thing#he's allowed to have a spinal cord still because [redacted] doesnt want to babysit#and i don't like that path of forever angst! lol
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on a note to all: my plotting style is something i like to call i have adhd and if i see you on the dash and have an idea chances are i’ll im you about it. i’m an anxious little dude who isn’t always active in a broad scope, and it’s always been my nature to reach out to people. that doesn’t make me even remotely anxious. not even remotely expected to answer me — i totally get it, sometimes you don’t feel the vibe — but a general psa about how i work. i come from the dinosaur era where the only way to communicate with one another on any level was to directly talk to them and frankly i don’t even know how else you’re ever supposed to plot with a person otherwise. like… how do you write if you never talk????
#CLAWS RETRACTED.#[honest to god this isn’t shade at anyone im literally just trying to explain i am never on the dash and when i am i take handfuls of rando#snapshots to send to whoever’s in my scope at that second. which is i know ridiculous but when you’re me and you’re mobile 100% of the time#because the other 75% you’re doing everything for everyone in your life it becomes exceedingly hard to WANT to stare at a laptop screen.#even if im home im 100% mobile most of the time. basically what im saying is: as an rper i will totally drop into your im’s randomly if#something strikes my fancy. if that’s not your bag i totally get it. the plotting call life has never been mine to own. a lot of the time#it’ll be a person likes it and then you reach out and it turns into ‘haha neither of us have an idea’ which then kills the whole thing.#hence why -i- tend to approach especially if you reblog something or wishlist it and it crosses my path. like. im so happy to try almost an#anything someone wants to give a shot so long as you feel like playing ping pong with me about it. I’ve always been an exceedingly social#person because i just… love people. and for a person literally exploding with anxiety… I don’t do anxiety about talking to people. I USED#to long ago until I LITERALLY forced myself to just… not give a fuck. but honestly? do it scared and now it’s just fucking do it. I#apologize in advance if I can be a pain in the ass and if it’s not your dig I comprehend an unfollow. im a very involved and interested#writer and frankly it’s how I keep myself able to enjoy this hobby by not making it too serious. like. sometimes I read someone’s rules and#im like Jesus Christ I would love to remember all of this but my brain only has so much ram. idk when the big invisible book of online#etiquette was written but I must have been sleeping in class for that one.]
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