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#time to log off for a while because this site and the fucking people on it are giving me anxiety attacks again#fuck im this close to one right now#i am not well#i hate people so much sometimes#just let me live under a rock alone forever#time to go decompress and not think about this app for a little while#too bad i can't uninstall the app on my phone cause of i do id have to reinstall and it'd be the crappy updated one#stephs stuff#personal
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@nearsbday day 7 - fixation (+ day 1, toy!)
*turn brightness up ^_−☆
#DONT… loook at this picture too closely#im sorry near baby you deserve better its just that im in another Country right now i literally did like half of this in a moving vehicle#i really wanted to at least get one prompt out though!!!!#near day in 8 minutes where I am oh my god#anyways#nearsbday#near death note#nate river#moonriver#<-? if you squint#niatsuki#my art#edit. replacing the pic to not be fucking Crunched to Bits
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it doesnt need to be said but its genuinely so funny how at-the-hip charles and erik are in krakoa like they really had the green light- the OBLIGATION- to be as obnoxiously close to each other as possible and abused that right to the fullest extent
#xmen#xmen comic#krakoa#cherik#snap chats#until the divorce of course but until then its actually so funny#how you really couldnt go a page or two without one or the other and the other one was close behind#ice climber ass duo over here. the delightful children from down the lane kind of proximity what the fuck was their PROBLEM#i feel like if one of them was teleported the other would just materialize right next to them thats how close they were#fuuuck what was the issue where sabretooth and co are in like. Brain Prison or something#and victor imagines charles but everyones like 'wait its weird if its just him where's magneto'#ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY and i NEED to know what issue that was .... to add it to my collection ....#also killed me how in immoral x-men issue 1 charles was yappin bout erik bein gone#and- God Bless Who i forget i think it was hope- was just 'can you please shut up about your dead boyfriend im begging you'#moira stronger than me if i had to deal with thing 1 and thing 2 on a daily basis i woulda snapped sooner frankly#ig when you live ten times through The Most Bullshit ever youre numb to most things but still. my god theyre so obnoxious#sorry im cackling at the bit in HoX where charles is about to announce krakoa to the world and erik's putting his hand on his shoulder#and you justs see moira in the back like dawgggg right in front of her .... can you two get a room#GENUINELY no im GENUINELY surprised they dont share a bedroom#im not even talking sharing a bed im taking my shipper goggles off im actually baffled they dont sleep in the same building#obvi id be lyin if i said i didnt love it tho To Be Real .. genuinely love seein them work together as a team .. until they werent </3#in every timeline they WILL divorce each other that's just the rule. actual canon event it cannot be changed or stopped its integral#ok ramble over. but not really not in spirit cause ill never be over this ill die before i am#im gonna go eat now i think i think thats something i As A Human has to do at least once a day
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OOH YEAH BABY ITS THE SURGERY EPISODE BABY!!! ME AND THE HOMIES NEED SOME NEW FACES FOR OUR NEW PLAN, AND WHO BETTER TO GET THE JOB DONE THAN THE TWO MOST EVIL PEOPLE WE'VE EVER HAD THE MISFORTUNE OF HAVING OUR LIVES VIOLATED BY? I MEAN IT WOULD BE FUNNY. IT WOULD BE FUNNY.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#cw blood#cw gore#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#vex waylin#viv waylin#MY FAVORIT EP!! HAVNT SEEN IT IN FOREVER THO BC WELL. IM BUSY. SO BEAR W ME IM RUNNIN OFF ALOTTA MEMORY FUMES#ALSO EDIT BC FUUUCK I HADMORE TAGS BUT TUMBLR FUCKEN ATE EM. OH WELL. MY DMS R OPEN IF U WANNA UNLOCK RAMBLES.#I LOVE THE WAYLIN TWINS SSSOO FUCKING MUCH IM SO!!! CURIOUS ABOUT THEM!!! WHO WERE THEY WHEN THEY WERE HUMAN? HOW LONGVE THEY BEEN ARND?#I LOVE IT WHEN PPL SAY ITS LIKE THESE TWO WERE MADE FOR MMEE BC YES!! YES!! ITS EVERYTHING I COULD EVER WANT FROMA CHARACTER!!!#I LOVE THEIR RED WHITE N BLACK COLOR SCHEME. I LOVE HOW THEYRE BOTH SO INTELLIGENT AND GENIUS N YET THEYRE DUMB AS FUUUUCK#COOOMICAL SUPER VILLAINS. OOH ILL GET YOU NEXT TIME SHAMIA SHAMAI!!! HOW DARE YOU FOIL MY PLAN!! MY PLANS OF MUTILATING AWAKE N ALIVE PPL#COMICAL AND YET. GENUINELY HORRIFYING. VIV CAN MAKE UR BONES EXPLODE JUST BY THINKING ABOUT IT. VEX CAN BECOME SOUP#WHY DONT WE TALK ABOUT THAT MORE? THE TURNING INTO RED MEAT SLIME?? METAL AS FUUUCK. I ALSO LOVE HOW SCARED THEY GOT SO QUICKLY#THIS LIL FUCKEN RRRRRAT COMES IN. AND WELL. HES JUST LIKE ALL THE OTHERS. WE FUCK HIM UP N TOSS HIM INTO THE SUN N LET HIM BURN#SURE HE HAD ONE MORE TRICK OF REBELLION UP HIS SLEEVE BUT THE SUN HAS TAKEN HIM NOW. ITS FINE. WE'RE FINE. HEY IS THERE SMTH IN THE CEILING#OHHH WE KILLED HIM ONCE N HE CAME BACK. WE KILLED HIM AGAIN N TOOK HIM APART BUT THEN HES BACK?? HE GETS AWAY AND THEN. COMES BACK. AGAIN.#WE CANT GET RID OF HIM. THAT FOUL SHAMIA SHAMAI. A MOUSE IN OUR KITCHEN. FUUUUCK HES GONNA SPREAD DISEASE! KILL IT! KILL IT!! AAAUUGH FUCK!#I LOVE THAT THE WAYLIN TWINS AGREED TO HELP THE BLONDE TWINS MOSTLY ON THE BASIS OF 'IT WOULD BE FUNNY' BUT ALSO#OOHHH WE ARE SO CLOSE TO REACHING SOMETHING TO MAKE HIM NNEEVER FUCK WITH US AGAIN. HIS ILLUSIONS WILL HAUNT US NO LONGER#THEY WERE SSSOOO PARANOID W ALL THE CAMERAS AND BOMBING THEIR OWN LAB AND RUNNING AND RUNNING AND GETTING AWWAY FROM THIS FUCKEN! MOUSE!!!!#OHHHH I THINK IM RUNNIN OUTA ROOM so ill talk about da art real quick.BEEN WORKIN ON THIS FOR A WHIIILE.ALOTTA THESE were started when the#ep came out.so OLD!! BUT DONE!!and im very very happy w my colors n gore n EXPRESSIONS!! the top right corner comic keeps making me chuckle#I ALSO rly love the lil convo between arthur n viv.theyre SO CUTE TOGETHERR they should go ona museum date together or somethin#they need more time to just talk abt da World together.ALSO CAN I BE PETTY.I MADE ARTHUR UGLY CORRECT-STYLE#THESE BOYS KNOW NOTHING OF UGLY.I MADE THE VAMPIRIC FLESH EVOLVE N ROT N BLOSSOM AND THERE IS SQUIRMING WITHIN THE TENEBRAE#UHHH IEAH THIS GUY W A ROTTED N DISTORTED FACE WALKS INTO MY BIKE STORE IEAH IM SCREAAAMIN LIKE WADDA HELL!! MONSTOR!!!
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Here’s Ship Art I did
I am A gabv1al fan I can deny it no longer
AND DAMNIT I REACHED 30 TAGS.
#ultrakill#gav1el#v1 ultrakill#gabriel ultrakill#I used to not really jive with the ship#being so real here#I was kinda off put with how unhealthy the pairing COULD be#(ofc not shaming anyone for anything y’all enjoy what calls put to you !!!/gen)#but BUT- I couldn’t get Gianni’s support off my mind YES IM BEING SERIOUS LMAO#and I kept on thinking and THINKING AND THINKING UNTIL I PEICED THINGS TOGETHER ONE:#V1 is a war machine we all know that. a war machine capable of very very stylish killing that requires VERY close attention#to rapid incoming detail.#so what if that was… emotionally too? what if#with their super duper observing powers V1 can basically Psychoanalyse#anyone it so desires#it could be a therapist deadass but it’s a war machine. okay not let’s turn to it’s most obvious client turning to Gabriel this broken#this broken broken angel#up an coming Angel right when DAD LEAVES. council in SHAMBLES oh I have several thoughts about the council but but so Gabriel is#living in a stressed environment and V1 winning several times is like- throwing this guy over the EDGE so much here that I do not have the#words to properly express my thoughts. uh I have a feeling that Gabriel bases his worth on how others around him react? on how his actions#are acknowledged?#ANYWAYS SO V1 AND GABE… I feel like V1 is the perfect ultraobservant subject to be the ‘only one that listens.’#DO YOU GET WHERE IM GOING?#As Gabriel’s opponent#V1 watches and listens to Gabriel’s taunts and attacks.. and eventually digs into the pattern to find more patterns linking some taunts Toto#‘oh shit this Angel is projecting.’ ‘oh fuck this Angel doesn’t have a great home life now does he?’#and then I don’t know how yet but V1 some how communicate’s their finings to Gabriel and he’s just taken ABACK like#‘omg you actually listen to me what?’ cause I imagine that he isn’t really HEARD up there they just work work work and don’t meddle or humor#emotional shinanigans#quote on quote.
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look at my zombie adukin doodle
10000 gela for the first person who can get adukin to admit she has issues & go to therapy. or like any of the numas really
#ekurambles#mo4#adukin mo4#letting my arm rest because i got blood drawn in order to start testosterone soon so im the imperfect doodler for right now#i really like her if you cant tell.#im going to get back to drawing the rarepairs as soon as my arm stops feelig weird..i really like some of the ones ppl have been suggesting#-for me 2 draw & its making me excited to get back to drawing full pieces when i can#i should post more of the doodles i draw but im shy to post any of the rarepair ones because i get a little self-indulgent w my ship doodle#ive been doodling my mo4 gijinkas more..maybe i shoul post some of those#ah have i even posted my drawings of the rest of my mo4 gijinkas?!! ishould draw fullbodies of them all whn i can#tw blood#even if its cartoony i need to tag it & i almost forgot to!! a thousand bombs sent to my home for failing my people(the mo4 fandom)#ok i need to shut the fuck up forever now *closes eyes*
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There's something about deep m/f platonic relationships that hits different. Platonic cuddling, holding hands, all that-
It's just really cute to think about a friendship like that
#in movies and shows this sorta relationship always leads to a romantic one#and i wish we could see very close platonic relationships between men and women where it doesnt turn romantic#honestly right now im thinking about how daredevil in particular handles relationships#the romance in daredevil feels natural. foggy and karen go on one date and it doesnt go anywhere#but their relationship doesnt change in anyway. they just stay friends and theyre close friends who care so much aboht each other#same with matt and karen#and just. the way s3 ends with them just being friends??? i fucking love that okay?#stiff talk
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HAPPY [late] BIRTHDAY TO MY FAVORITE SONG ILY FINE IM FINE
pretend its fine im fine day & not 9/11 okay shuuuush it took a lot longer than i thought
[going into the photo looks better i swear. Also, close up & time it took below :}]
also add like 30 minutes for lighting i did in a sepearate art app.
#I love this song so so much man#number one listened to song#its rlly rlly hard to pick a favorite overall but this and TLoB&W win for me prolly#dtip ysllb & backlit by moonlight are close seconds tho#also count eleven & thermo#...and tfar two wuv & greener#also mayday & grew on me..#i rlly like music i cant pick help#anyway. this took SO FUCKING LONG#I WAS SUPPOSED TO POST THIS ON THE ANNIVERSARY OF THE SONG#ITS NOW 10 DAYS LATER#Its done now tho#thats all that matters#chonny jash#-atlas art-#cj singles#cj fine im fine#also fuck sunglasses & jeans. pls stop wearing them cj i cant draw them#the fit is sick ik but like. its so difficult to get the shades to look right & to make the texture of jeans#i got lucky with the hat idk how
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bros do NOT watch the latest episod e of dandadan if you saw your dead parent in a dream last night and felt kinda somber about it all day and are also moments away from getting your period you will HAVE to do somatic exercises to recover from it
#And i never cry at shows either cus im too coldhearted and obsessed w my composure but i fucking cryedddd#i crew#Also got pretty choked up at work earlier when Bridge Over Troubled Water came on the radio cus my dad loved simon and garfield and that was#always one of my go-to songs to feel close to him#it was strange timing too cus every day ive worked so far they jhst play xmas music but today it just came on while i was alone in an aisle#and i was like Oh.... if i was at the cash register right now i wouldnt of been able to even hear it but im right here..#Now im kinda craving to listen to it again and cry more LOL
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THE BROTHERS SFORZA
augh. there sure is a lot going on between them. tfw you know your older brother is wary of you so you have to navigate that fine line of proving you're useful, but not dangerously so. tfw your younger brother has the potential to be a knife in your back, but he's your brother. don't think too hard about what happened with the galeazzo. unfortunately, you're both visconti as well as sforza, and the visconti were prone to conspiracy. fucking RIP.
this definitely won't be upsetting years down the line when ascanio is near death and ludovico will be desperate to figure out how to bring his brother's body back to milan so ascanio can be interred in the same place as ludovico's recently deceased wife, beatrice d'este, and where ludovico himself has been haunting in a perpetual state of grief.
& the background of the first panel are public domain scans of two cards out of the visconti-sforza tarot deck.
Ascanio Maria Sforza: la parabola politica di un cardinale-principe del Rinascimento, Marco Pellegrini
#ABSOLUTELY BANANAS PHRASING abt one of these paragraphs btw#'metafora della sottomissione del figlio al padre' okay!! like going into that dynamic with your older brother is so. sooooooooooooo#like it makes sense. this is a dynast family. the father is dead. the eldest son was assassinated.#so now your older brother who was not the eldest brother WOULD assume the father-head of household role#and in the case of an emergency. you would fall into place as his right hand#which was. which was formerly occupied by your mother. and your older sister to the assassinated brother. so. WELL#that IS how you would prove you were useful to the state-household. it's just that.#NOBILITY IS SO FUCKING INSULAR ALL THE TIME. christ#the claustrophobia of being suspicious of your brother but having to rely on him#better to follow the plan your parents and eldest brother had in mind and marry him off to the church#italian renaissance tag#ascanio sforza#ludovico sforza#komiks tag#drawing tag#anyway eventually i'll figure out an art style i like for the renaissance cast. i think im getting close#but AUGH im still missing that feeling of 'yes. good.' im leaning towards the dead lineweight tho. that feels Right.
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How the fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk
#guys i have shit going through my brain right now#im so gay#she's prefect#were both Midwest saphic alt kids#and i was one highway away from knowing her#i mean for fuck sake she wore armor#and i dont have the money for armor so i make my own#anyway i drew this while having a crisis over how close i was to meeting her.#digital art#chappell roan#gay#my art#renaissance#lesbian
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And would it really be a milgramblrgram attack if I didn't post indulgent Fuuta art?
A redraw of this stunning Dungeon Meshi art!! The original caption was "eat or be eaten" but I'm calling my version "girl dinner" 👍
#hiding this one under the cut as usual but theres nothing shocking#when sketching it i was like hmm i know food is a nice symbol and everything but objectively theres nothing suggestive here right?#theres no skin showing and hes not making A Face#his tiddies arent even out like in the original art!!#but then drawing it i was like oh god oh fuck someones gonna see me drawing some anime boy lying down all cringe-like just kill me asdfsadf#but im really happy with how it came out :3#even working closely with the reference the pose/angle was a challenge and im really proud!#ive been sitting on this one a while but i figured now would be a good time to post it hehe#like the others ill wait a few days to character tag but LMAO i did make a specific tag for these from that one meme:#thou shall discard vulgarity
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My real Christmas present was Athena coming back for this saga anyways ty Jorge
#epic the musical#the ithaca saga#Athena epic#yall dony understand ive been squealing about her for hours i just love her so fucking much#it's about Learning To Be Human like i just love her sm i can't even be coherent about it#it may be called The ODDYSey but like dead ass no one else exist to me right now#sorry i live here now ( i saw as though Warrior Of The Mind wasn't what Grabbed Me from fucking Jump )#shes This Close to being the character i Doodle fucking everywhere like I don't Have favorites bc i identify w oddy and Telemachus Ple n ty#and also Circe could step on me and id thank her#but also Athenas My Favorite i know no favorite but her rn she's beeny girl from jump and like#nah i screamed when she was revealed ots im fucking Gone mam hyper fixation go Brrrr#i keep thinking of shit i wanna add here thats how bad im gone lmao#( and i have so many thoughts about circe and looking at her as A Victim Of Violence and her interactions with Odysseus there are actually#i could make tiktoks at full length#but rn athenas all i think about so rip#i just love her okay i just love her
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dumbass supreme says 'yeah ill play a quick game of rivals before lunch why not' and gets mvp more at 1
#marvel rivals#snap chats#closing the game so i can live off the high of me thinking im actually good at this game ☝️#please ignore the losing streak i was on last night I WAS SO PISSED LIKE PLEAAASSEE IM NOT /THAT/ BAD AM I#I WAS LIKE 'ok ill just play until i win that should be like a game or two' AND THEN. i just never won.. i had to stop to finish my work...#NO CAUSE i was just doing some practice stuff and being more comfortable with magneto's kit#note: please use the enhanced sword when wanda's on your team i promise. she wasnt on my team this game but just in general#i always forget i have it 💀 BUT ITS DPS IS GREAT FOR ERIK no wonder that shit has a thirty second cool down#in any case. i was sufficiently locked in so i guess thats why i was hitting shots for once 💀#no chat you know what my ultimate high is playing this game. ult canceling vaJELVKAJERL#SPECIFICALLY IRON MAN'S like you just look at him and throw up a barrier .... hello .... im a master at this from ow ok. ... you are nothin#now if only erik said cutesy one liners when blocking an ult then my life would really be complete#for the first time i was caught in a magneto duel today. there can only be one you chucklefuck im bullying you#i have no idea how magneto is meta wise The Game Just Came Out but idc i will give him a menacing reputation#its only right !!!!! its lore accurate. me in the big Fuck You red and purple outfit I NEVER SEE OTHER PEOPLE WITH THE SKIN. BTW.#its worth it idc. ... . id buy it again really ..... its such a good skin .......#love how when i first saw it i was like 'eh idk' but now i wanna eat it and make out sloppy with it#IT JUST LOOKS GREAT IN MOTION LIKE OKKKK i woudlnt have minded a simple classic look either tho ...#... but ill take the emperor vibes ... theyre cool ...#ok bye ima actually eat now
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do you guys ever have days where you’re just absolutely losing
#cause me today#tmi below if you’re a pussy#but here’s my day so far#woke up with a uti#AWWWW 🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭 killing myself#went to urgent care to get antibiotics#97 minute wait and my only airpod that i brought dies abt 20 minutes in#the book i kept in the car for exact situations like this wasn’t there so i had to read my second backup#bc my phone was dying obviously why wouldn’t it#went back peed in the cup got my rx#got to the pharmacy the minute after they close for lunch#so i said fuck it im getting comfort food#as im driving to this local chain that has my comfort food jm waiting at a light#at this light there’s a turn lane that’s a little cramped and i’m in an suv right now#this elderly man nearly hits my car and then WAGS HIS FUCJING FINGER AT ME#LIKE IM THE ONE DOING SOMETHING WRONG#WHAT ARE YOU LATE FOR YOUR DYING APPOINTMENT???#then the restaurant has a line out the door so i say fuck that not getting food i guess#as i’m driving back to the pharmacy my low tire pressure light turns on#i inflate my tires (the last one i checked was the one with low pressure btw i know you were curious)#pick up my prescription#and then almost hit a squirrel as i pull out#HOW#HOW DOES THIS HAPPEB#i’m going to lie down in the dark and just try again tmrw#off my rocker
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post ankle-twisting clarity
#i slipped in the mudddddd the other day LOL i twisted my one ankle and scraped up my other knee#so the past few days ive just been kind of needing to waddle around.....#LUCKILY its healing well and fast <3 but yknow i was like#so stressed out over shit that doesnt matter in school. and like this is an awful unintentional habit i have but i will get like#overly stressed over shit and then i'll start getting SUPER careless with everything. and then i'll injure myself foolishly and Calm Down#happened last year with my foolish midnight woodcarving incident LOL its always november....#BUT yeah luckily this years foolish injury is a quick one at least!!#but yeah like genuinely i was so stressed out about all my fine arts major shit. teachers have been really getting on my case recently#my main professor said that it was a good thing people get so riled up with my work because it means its impactful#tbh i didnt believe her at all i thought she was just trying to placate me but then i listened closely to the things faculty say when#they look at my fucking. cartoon wolf drawing or something and i think. she might be right actually. people keep getting frustrated with me#because i think they see a lot of potential in me but i basically only have to drive to draw cartoon wolves etc HFKJSDHJVKRFEds#which is great for my ego. maybe too good for my ego. that my mark making and colour use etc is so evocative to these industry and#instutition people. but on the other hand i was told like thrice now that my work has no place in a gallery. which is fine although im not#totally sure how true that is. but also afterwards one time i was suggested to go into animation instead which is. um.#so its not out of nowhere i mean i did want to be an animator when i was like 10 but if you know anything about the current state of the#animation industry its like genuinely wild to tell someone who you've only seen 2 dimensional watercolour and acrylic painted#sketchy lined drawings from and who has said they cant do digital art anymore that they should get an animation degree?#brother they would kill me. i would be killed. i had an inkling but it really made me notice so clearly how limited the experiences my#faculty kind of have with certain industries. which is fine. or maybe not. for a professor LOL but yknow. but i was like huh. i guess i can#just kind of chill lol if i just keep doing things maybe something will come of it. i may not get as much help in my artistic development#rn as i would like. but its chill i think i'll figure it out if i just keep doing stuff <3#doesnt really matter that my teachers dont know what to do with me. my kneeeee has a booboo so i am CHILLING out :)
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