#fuck dee i can't-

[jtownraindancer]

@divine-victory I was saying to foxie the other day about how in about another year, he'll have had buck in his life longer than he had brooke, but now you're making me think about the fact that brooke's already been a ghost to him longer that she's been a physical part of his life.

Every day I wake up and cry because Bobby never gets to grieve his family. He is so consumed with the guilt that he never gets to just feel the loss.

He wakes up with a hole in his heart and he feels unworthy of even that.

[craacked-splatters]

These r the last silly scribbles for @pezhead 's Displacement au!!!

Thank you Pez for creating this fic it's very cool & delicious👍

Bonus Dee vers below

Dee finally got a vacation🥹 even if it only lasted a few hours

I couldn't get tumblr to stop crunching the quality but it still looks good I think

I've got 2 more works to go but those r gonna have more effort put into them & it will take a while😔

[literallysatanofficial]

S07E03

[glass-oranges]

New bandana dee kinsona ref who up!!!!!

[kennyomegasweave]

Taem softly but firmly turned down all of Yak's flirting attempts and, quite literally, skipped over to Ohm when he picked her up at the gym. But in the span of two episodes it turns out she actually did have feelings for Yak and Ohm is a nasty creep?

[hercarisntyours]

I think I'm cooking so hard with this hadestown au rn

[distant-screaming]

doctor roleplay. why not

[dennisboobs]

is this anything. do you guys see it.

no one was ever good enough for you, dude. gee, mac, it's almost like both of you are performing compulsory heterosexuality and aggressively asserting your masculinity via artificial means and it's making you miserable. trying to regain a self-assuredness that never was. idealizing the past. not wanting to move on. going through the motions of what you Think a man should be, what he should want, what he should aspire to be.

stay in the river. you were happy before, right? your cool car and your arm-candy made you feel good, once upon a time. you felt admired, respected, envied. but no one was ever good enough for you, dude. so i got self conscious and i stopped. because of you i changed who i am at my core. no more banging chicks, because they're not good enough for dennis. they're never good enough for dennis. just him and an undecided, unnamed babe. just him and his high school sweetheart. i don't love you, maureen. i never loved you. you like babes, bob? who doesn't like babes?

don't grow. don't mature. yearn for someone who will share in your misery and be perfectly content with it. you don't want someone to try and change you. you're perfect. you were perfect before they changed you. before you were their chauffeur. carting them around in your cool car. cut them out, they're getting too close. getting a little too comfortable filling those seats. the car is full. it's too much. too much.

were you really happier before, dennis? or have you simply grown numb to your past misery?

[ultravioart]

roughing out ideas for a "goth/punk chick" disguise that peepers wears so he isn't shot on sight by Dominator lol

[frontlinebicepsoftheninth]

in regards to my last rb if any more tlt artists want to use becky dee as a gideon reference i will give you my firstborn child. here are her socials

[professionalfixator]

when austin said dee was the only person he could fully trust and connect with on the island i was pissed.

drew:

[ghostzzy]

Fear! 27!

oooo these are fun ones river tysm!!!

'fear', dee having some thoughts and feelings about religion:

Nothing about this place was holy, not like the cathedral they used to visit every Sunday. Her grandfather used to take them, and then her mother. It was a show, like everything was—See, it said, vampires don’t burn on anointed land, don’t fear the cross, don’t fear Hell—but it always felt like more than that to Dee. A reminder that there was something bigger than her family, older than her blood. 

and a bit from 27, dee while puking up blood and bile from her vampire autoimmune disorder:

It didn’t matter how long she had left—hours, maybe days if she was lucky; she wouldn’t live long enough to miss the life she could never have. There was a poeticism in expiring quiet and alone on the floor of a motel bathroom, like any common victim; maybe that could’ve been enough for her.

play cursedwip games with me!

[asterdeer]

so has it ever been confirmed that michael stabbed jon with his actual inhuman fingers or is that something i came up with myself/fanon i absorbed. it's not like it's out of the realm of possibility that michael just had a knife since avatars do like, live their lives (altho i'm still not convinced that michael was an AVATAR avatar and not just like, the imprisoned incarnated yellow door distortion, but i'm not sure that changes how he would like, exist on the physical plane, i don't think he exists in a pocket corridor dimension and only pops out to laugh and drive people up the wall, anyway). i know his hands being Weird are one of his Things but sasha only ever talks about them feeling heavy and like sandbags (iirc), not that they're sharp. although i suppose an avatar/creature of the spiral could conceivably shapeshift. but i'm not convinced that purpose wouldn't be "make people doubt their own senses" rather than "stabbing killing maiming." idk. i'm about to have to do something w/ it for a whumptober fic and i'm overthinking it. hands or knife. what's it going to be. cast your votes now

[bison-appreciation-club]

apparently the 1953 version of peter pan would destroy me a little bit

[azatas]

thinking about tasi pulling an uno reverse on astarion twice as a catalyst for him actually confronting his feelings for her

first when she turns him down the second time like "sorry but i was in a dark place and i used you to try and feel something and that's not fair to you" as he stands there like 😨 because one, "yeah we're using each other but i thought we weren't acknowledging that??" and two this is the start of her ruining his plan because he's actually a little disappointed and it's horrifying

and then uno reverse again when she starts offering to let him drink her blood in act 2. his "you deserve a reward let's have sex" becomes her "i tried to kill you in your sleep do you want to feed on me?" and miraculously astarion is the one that's finally like "okay we should probably talk about this"

[nerdynikki94]

BITTERSWEET RANT ABOUT QUEER (MLM) CHARACTERS IN CURRENT MEDIA

I used to think it was impossible for me to hyperfixate on a show/ship without reading and writing nonstop fanfic about it. But then, a year and a half ago, I watched OFMD and I staunchly refused to read or write any fanfic, because I needed to wait it out and see how the amazing writers planned the story to continue. (I'm ecstatic for October 5th.)

I still considered myself to continue obsessing over my queer ships, especially when I watched Galavant and fell into a bit of a Richard/Gareth hole (but there are very few fics, I planned to write one but kept going back to my Macden fics).

Then, I watched Hannibal, and I tried to read fics, planned one too, but I just couldn't get into it, and preferred obsessively rewatching the show instead.

Now I'm literally refreshing fanvids of our Ineffable Husbands from Good Omens on YT daily, but completely unable to even glance at fics.

It's funny to think how far we are coming with queer characters in media, and I'm just so excited to see shows that refuse to queerbait. They aren't using a viewership by playing with never-ending hints and nods but zero follow through. They are acknowledging that acts of abandonment or betrayal have consequences, regardless of the initial intentions. They refuse to do that kind of disservice to the respective narrative journeys of these characters.

Yes, they may be angsty and a bit sad right now, but Goddammit, we are finally getting sincere, star-crossed gay love stories. Tragic, but not in your typical heartbreaking Brokeback Mountain -esque media from the past (no hate, love the movie, thought the short story was okay).

These queer love stories are giving the same kind of painful passion as some of the best dramatic romances around (one of my fave genres). What a time to be alive! Because it's not an unhappy ending until it ends. The best love stories have to have nearly impossible obstacles. That is how the relationships are tested.

Just thinking about how I've always hyperfixated in the past vs. how I do now. I realized it's because I finally have hope. I can't consume fics because I trust the creators and writers of canon so explicitly that I know they will continue showing how they respect the viewers while also acknowledging the significance, the absolute necessity of delving into the arcs and development the characters need to find within themselves.

I believe David Jenkins and Neil Gaiman are determined to do right (as Bryan Fuller would be, if ever given the chance to continue), not by all the vastly different opinions of the countless countering fans, but by the way they have shown genuine acknowledgement to the romance and enough respect for the love interests to make them face challenges that help them grow. Queer characters are the leads' now, and they are fully-formed yet ever-changing, unique representations, flirting with fun stereotypes, without reducing them to the worst and most inaccurate social stigmas.

So, I'm ever-resolute to hold out for canon, because I don't want to get my head so full of incredible fanfic that I have my opinion change from constantly switching perspectives.

These writers are changing the game so much that I can't help but trust that - even beyond just the romantic aspect - they actually care about the development of the characters, they aren't defined by just being gay, they are complex.

In other words, I'm in a perpetual state of refreshing Macden fic updates every time I want to read something, and trying to conjure the desire to write again, so I can get back this other Macden fic, after having spent the past two years straight writing the most fics I have for any ship in my entire life.

But, yeah, it's totally crazy to realize that the reason I can not read any of the amazing fics out there for Our Flag Means Death, Hannibal & Good Omens is because these shows are already so enthusiastic and welcoming of their queer characters.