#fuck calories

[covington-shenanigans]

shout-out to that time like five years ago when I did a minor vandalism in honor of my then-recently-deceased fat femme wife

[hell0kittyland]

UNPINNING

AT 60KG (GW1)

[lifeisnotsoslay]

so funny story... my 48hr fast did NOT work out. I held myself together through 5 hours of catering but my car broke down rly badly on the way home so my trip is probably off. embarrassingly ive been bingeing since last night. the stress and panic about not having a car is a huge trigger for me especially since I basicly go nowhere and see no one without my car so my brain thinks its ok to get fat or smth. I got high and ate a HUGE plate of leftovers plus some chocolate, and then have been snacking like crazy today. also have eaten probably 500+ cals of icing and cake today because I made punkin squares with cream cheese frosting. Im trying to be easy on myself but ughhhhhh. I actually lost some weight though and im at 100.8(!!!!!!) so I might still hit my gw by the 20th if I keep it up for a few more days.

[giveyoupeacee]

wish i could be a normal person and not want to die every time i eat something and not have calories consume my every thought

[jack-the-killler]

[housecow]

i love doing these weight gain shakes because every day i can tell im fatter than ive ever been before

[sofiisx]

I CARE SO MUCH

[inkskinned]

im gonna start a fight; and, at the same time, i need you to take this in the most good-faith way possible, but:

videos that involve body-checking and intentionally (and uncritically) show a mealplan of an unhealthy number of calories are just a revamped version of pro-ana food diaries.

and yeah, i know there's arguments. i address some of them under the cut. but at the end of the day, we're just coming back to romanticizing mental illness; we've just found a better platform for it.

this is already something we've done. we knew it was wrong and tried to stop it. and tbh. it just wasn't enough.

there are people who argue "well, what if you have an eating disorder, you can't help it if you don't eat!" except that as someone with an ED; we are not infants. we know what we're doing. part of having an ED is that you are like, maybe too self-aware. even if we can't help our own food choices, we don't need to fucking romanticize the disorder - something we've been warning you about since 2013. there are hours of setup, filming, and editing that go into these videos. they do not happen to fall into place randomly. there is a reason they are pieced together to be beautiful, bright, inspiring.

there's this woman who pretty much only posts daily plans under a normal amount of calories, and everyone defends her saying but it's better than nothing! and i'm like. except she opens those with images of her showing off her body and provides no context in the video or caption that suggests that she believes what she's doing is unhealthy. she has hundreds of thousands of followers on a platform designed for young kids and teens. i refuse to believe that by accident her content just happens to be cheery advice on "healthy" versions of starving.

for any other symptom of mental illness, we would be incredibly enraged by this kind of placid acceptance of a "tips and tricks" fast-start guide. imagine if people posted pink & pretty videos saying "best places to cut yourself" as if it was a fucking storytime. we, as a society, are so fucking fatphobic that we would rather accept blatantly harmful displays of self harm than admit that we are obsessed with a hyper-thin body type.

i am not suggesting someone never talks about their disorder. i talk about mine. actually, it's a plot point in my book.

here's the difference: i recognize it's a fucking mental illness. i am very careful to never mention a specific weight, eating pattern, or calorie plan. i always make sure to position it as something that ruined my fucking life. i do not put cheery music in the background and hearts and sparkles over my worst moments. i do not film it in bright light. i do not start each passage with an image of a thin body followed by "here's how to look like her."

eating disorders should not be framed as aspirational. and the problem is that society worships the "after" image, so long as you don't get too sick. there is a reason so many people who quit being "influencers" will later admit - i wasn't eating well that whole time; an obsession with food was completely destroying my life.

we let any uncredited, uncertified person write the most backwards, fucked up shit about how to get the body you desire! because the underlying, secret belief is: well, at least they're thin! and the real thing that fucking gets me each time - they make fucking money off of it. their irresponsibility and societal harm literally pays off for them.

"why do you care so much." "don't like it don't look." "so what if people experiment with new ways of thinking of food?"

thank you for asking. we're about to get extremely personal. it's because when i was 18 i discovered "thinspiration"/"thinspo." and it absolutely influenced, shaped, and codified my pre-existing eating disorder. i went from having some troubling habits and traits to being incredibly unwell within what felt like a matter of days. there were actual pages designed to train me on how to have an ED correctly. it was all so suddenly easy. i was sick; and the nature of the illness meant - i wanted to be sicker.

it takes an average of 7 years for a person to fully recover. i know this personally - even now, 10 years from the worst of it, i still fucking struggle. i am so much happier now and i eat what i want and i literally don't think about food at all (19 year old me would shudder) and yet - i still fucking know the calories of plain toast with butter.

an eating disorder is one of the deadliest types of mental illness. over 1 in 4 people with an ED will attempt suicide.

and i'm sorry. i just do not see the exchange rate of "high rate of engagement" versus "the value of a human life."

[auspicioustidings]

I'm not saying that Ghost would legitimately murder a photographer for having a smaller model wear padding to make her look plus sized therefore bitterly disappointing him when he kidnaps her, but I'm not not saying that.

[bunnyangelssky]

I NEED TO DRINK I NEED TO SMOKE BUT I DOMT HAVE ANYYYY

𐐪♡𐑂 I’m going insane 𐐪♡𐑂

[renthony]

We got the car taken care of and now we need grocery money.

Hey everyone, y'all may remember a couple weeks back when my family had to raise emergency funds to get our car fixed. Well, the car is doing great now, but all the money folks very generously sent us had to go toward bills, and there's not a lot of food left in the cabinets.

I fucking despise having to do this so often, but we've got four disabled adults who are staying afloat with a single night job and about twenty different side hustles in a trench coat.

If you can help with direct donations, here's our info:

PayPal: paypal.me/chaosqueer Venmo: @chaosqueer Cashapp: @chaosqueer

[wiisagi-maiingan]

No lie, learning about BMR (how many calories your body burns just doing basic functions like breathing, circulating blood, and maintaining brain activity) completely changed my mindset regarding calories. It was something I struggled a lot with even after recovering from my ED and getting more involved in body and food-positive communities, but researching BMR really drove home how much work my body does just by existing and how dangerous calorie restriction actually is.

If you count or restrict calories, PLEASE look up information on BMR that does NOT come from diet or weight loss companies. See how much energy your body is using just to keep you alive and what it means to be eating 1500 calories a day (or even less) when your body is burning 1400-1700 just by existing. Calories are not the villain, they're the fuel that your body desperately needs.

[tangledinink]

new gemini update was so good as always but I can't stop thinking:

big mama: there's nothing wrong with my sons

splinter: you fucked up two perfectly good kids is what you did. look at blue. he's got an eating disorder

wwhhhattttt? nooo, don't be silly. leo doesn't have an eating disorder.

leo and donnie have eating disorders--

[wannarexiccc]

you aren’t hungry, you’re just bored. stop whining and start exercising.

[iwanttobetinyx]

Cannot wait for him to come back and have the shock of his life

Wait she wasn’t lying…

[blackbackedjackal]

Arcane is a bad show because none of the beautiful women kiss eachother.