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i found you in the future
#robin#HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE.................#a TINY bit late but pls forgive me#egghead spoilers#isn't it so romantic that she learned about ohara's survival on the island of the future .............#one piece#some added commentary: the little white bits can be seen as bubbles of air escaping the books#to symbolize that the lives poured into them continue to breathe on#and also the ashes of ohara thrown into the sea#so the water around robin holds death life knowledge and flowers#(callback in a way to the 'scattered in the sea are the world's grief / the world's secrets' line from my last robi drawinf)#ah and also her tears! which contain those multitudes as well#good things lay in wait 4 ohara :#'-)))
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#sarah j maas#sjm books#a court of thorns and roses#book boyfriend#throne of glass#book boyfriends#crescent city#rowan whitethorn#dorian havilliard#hunt athalar#ruhn danaan#elm rowan#ravyn yew#one dark window#two twisted crowns#rachel gillig#nyktos#casteel da'neer#fbaa#from blood and ash#flesh and fire series#jennifer l. armentrout#xaden riorson#rebecca yarros#iron flame#zodiac academy#the twisted sisters#lance orion#darius acrux#cardan greenbriar
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IMAGINE. working at ur stupid uhhh job or whatever. pulling into your drive way and ready to work on some crazy project in your garage. opening the door to the most unfamiliar silence. did your wife and kid leave for something? could you imagine knocking on your kids door, hardly getting an answer, and opening it to find the splattered remains of your wife across his room your child is scared! hes hardly consolable, in a state of shock and terror. you are too, but youre the adult here. you need to take charge. you need to protect him. you need to do something. you need to do something.
#cw gore#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi pd spoilers#ashe winters#LOOOORRRD HELP ME THIS IS A YEAR OLD AND I HAAAATE LOOKIN AT IIITTTT ALL I CAN SEE ARE MY MISTAAAKESSS RRAAGHHHGGG ITS FINE THOUGH#ITS FIIIINE ITS ALL FIIIIIIINE!! IM HARSHER ON MY ART THAN ANYONE ELSE ITS FIIIIIINE IIITTSFFIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINEEEE#ANWYAY SO I THINK ALOT ABOUT THE FACT HE KILLED HIS MOM. FUUUUCKED UP. POOR GUY.. i wish i could learn more about what that day was like#the lil scenario wrote is my own silly little headcanon. but what really happened on that day? was mark there? or did he come home to it?#how violent was it really? was ashe awake the whole time? does he remember exactly how he killed her? does he remember?#who was mrs winters? what was she like? i like to think she was the one that gave ashe the book. taught him what she could before. yknow.#did ashe or mark try to destroy it afterwards? i could imagine mark throwing it into a fire. only for it to reappear with ashe#maybe ashe couldnt destroy it but i could imagine him hiding it. hiding away from it. and yet when we find him he holds it so close#its the only thing he can do! no super powers or anything. this was it. why would he ever throw away the only thing hes good at?#AND GOOD GOD MARK... TURNING TO MERCENARY WORK OVER IT ALL... SELLING HIS SOUL TO A LAbortory that changed him in immense ways#when did it get bad enough for him to start covering his face? what was ashe thinking? he knew his dad was up to something but what?#maRK HAS SUUUCH A CRAZY KILL COUNT TOO. I THINK THE HIGHEST IN THE SERIES IF WE'RE NOT LOOKIN AT THE GODS OR WATEV#MASS MURDER. MAN HAS COMMITTED MASS MURDER AND BROKE OUT OF SUPER VILLAIN PRISON WITH A PEN. MAN BUILDS IRON MAN SUITS IN HIS BASEMENT#OKay okay enough of my ramblin okayokay i just REALLY LOVE THIS SSHHOOOOWWW DUUUDEE EEUUGHTHTHHRHGHGH I LOVE THE WINTERS FAMILY...
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okay ive now read like 3-4 romantasy/fantasy books where its enemies to lovers and like immediately after the main characters decide they love each other and have sex, the MMC betrays her????? like “get naked, i love you” and then boom the third act twist is IMMEDIATE BETRAYAL. usual like public, messy betrayal also. which means the sequel then starts the whole enemies to lovers dynamic over again as the FMC is like rightfully pissed and then the author has to be like “no he had a good reason i promise” just for him to barely redeem himself to the FMC so she can forgive him and they can get back to fucking in between battles. like. once was shocking. twice was like okay sure. THREE TIMES?? FOUR TIMES?? no more. if another enemies to lovers MMC betrays the FMC, i want her to just kill him. if you want to use the enemies to lovers trope to sell your series, simply make it a slow burn, my guy. also i dont buy that she would forgive this like “ultimate betrayal” based on the fact that he has dark hair and shes horny for him. like if hes gonna betray her, stick to your guns and make him evil but nooooo hes always somehow right so she doesnt even get to be mad. its starting to feel like a cop out
#im DONE#romantasy#enemies to lovers#like maybe your book doesnt need to be a duology or a series if you need to revert the character arc to write a second one#or maybe we could just flesh out the dynamic more and stretch the romance for two books#from blood and ash#casteel da'neer#fourth wing#xaden riorson#the serpent and the wings of night#raihn ashraj#a fate inked in blood#bjorn#poppy balfo#violet sorrengail#oraya nightborn#freya#jla#rebecca yarros#carissa broadbent#danielle l jensen
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As a big sibling with a lil sib with epilepsy, when they read TBC they Honestly thought if they got struck with lightning reciting the lord's prayer they'd be cured like Shadowsight is from their epilepsy. I had a discussion with them on how that's not how it works, but ge was so upset they took it away from Shadowsight that he hasn't picked the books back up and has stated that 'he hopes Ashfur wins and starts a new religion.,'
I do not even know how to respond to this besides saying that your little sibling is 100% right to be pissed and I now also hope Ashfur wins and starts a new religion.
#Legit I did not know that Shadow's epilepsy being taken away was so deeply upsetting to SO MANY people#I put it back because putting it back was just the right thing to do (even asked the small following I had at the time what type to portray#(they picked the full tonic-clonics. I would have just done localized or absence if they'd asked me to)#And I did all that research for one single anon who asked for an epilepsy herb guide#So holy cow I didn't know that SO MANY people were snubbed and upset by canon's choice to do that. I'm so sorry#Your little sib isn't missing anything btw they do just go on to confirm that Shadow no longer has seizures.#In book 4 of TBC they say that it was all Ash all along and that's what they've stuck with into ASC#I'm sitting on an essay about... That plot thread. The Ashfur Grooming one#But it's in my drafts because I was a bit afraid of controversy#because i think it was written poorly. Even on top of Book 4's pivot to retcon away Shadow's seizures#I know a lot of people like and are invested in the grooming subplot of TBC. But. I think it was executed AWFULLY#and its really telling that THIS is the plot they tout as grooming *by name* in-canon.--#--and that Shadow has to 'pay' for what he 'did' in some way as if there was ever a choice in the books they wrote--#--But seemingly didn't even seem to clock that what was happening in Spotted's H was grooming until there was intense backlash#and a big part of my contention is the way that Book 4 suddenly tries to retcon that Shadow was groomed from the time he was a child#when it was actually part of book 1 that Shadow was able to personally tell the difference between a real vision and Ash's suggestions--#--BECAUSE he didn't have an accompanying seizure#So like... just know it's also NOT just 'you' if you connected to the character that was epileptic. It WAS there. It was a BIG part of him#Book 4 retconned it so that his epilepsy was part of a long scheme when before that point it was part of him#''ohh ur destiny is to see into the shadows'' BULL SHIT!!#bone babble
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Let us not forget that Dorian Havilliard canonically fucked Manon while she was wearing nothing except for her crown (his demand) 🥵🥵
#so kingly of him tbh#and kinky#booklr#books and reading#throne of glass#manon blackbeak#tog#dorian havilliard#manon x dorian#manorian#tog spoilers#empire of storms spoilers#kingdom of ash spoilers#empire of storms#kingdom of ash#really had me screaming there#Manon getting the Queen treatment from day one#her man is there to SPOIL her and ravish her#all in the same evening
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I think a 'surviving as a maid' oneshot where Ash and the queen run away together would cure my depression actually
Same for a fic just about Mio and archmage Ciel interacting in literally any way tbh bc what the fuck the author really thought they could pull a "and there was only one bed" and just have us (the readers) let that slide???? Bitch I see you and I'm so here for it— honestly both from the casual familialness of it and potential shipping. I adore both possible angles of this dynamic
Mio, Ash and archmage Ciel as a dysfunctional little family / maybe throuple (but also it's incredibly unclear what's even happening there) is so compelling to me I'm sorry I'm fully checked out of like all other ships bc that dynamic is so interesting in literally all directions
Rolling it back to Ash and the Queen too, they have such good chemistry and I adore every scene they share together. The Queen has such this like gentle, elegant, tragic air to her that you can just tangible feel. The way I lose my fucking mind whenever Ash gets any real emotion out of her, just, ag. I love them. Fuck.
I can not find a single fic for this webtoon and this saddens me deeply. I think I need to fix this fact immediatley tbh
#im re reading it rn#i stopped around chapter 80(?) i think(?)#just hit chapter 33 in my re read and we are entering the zone of peak shit I care about tbh#back to back scenes and characters I find compelling and interesting#I remember I got bored / kind of pissed off at the red haired knight in my first read#kept shaking my screen yelling “NOO GIVE ME BACK QUEEN ADVENTURES AND QUEER PLATONIC THROUPLE ASH/MIO/MAGE” when we got a whole arc for him#already dreading hitting that arc tbh Ill probably end up skimming it#anyways its a good webtoon#im not really there for the romancs but it has some romance if thats what people like?#love the set up tho#amazing concept tbh#i fucking love a good “story told from the side characters POV and they *stay* a side character in this story”#where we get to watch shit unfold from the sidelines through the eyes of someone who does care but doesnt have too much at stake#it adds a real air of tragedy to it#one of my favorites tbh#(one of) the books Im trying to write takes a similar approach#love to see it !!!#webtoon#birds fic talk#surviving as a maid#ash tolkein#Mio Zodiac#Ciel Copperfield#surviving as a maid webtoon
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they did this to shane
#and i'll forever be mad ab it#i used to think his death was necessary for the narrative but now i believe the exact opposite. killing shane was a poor writing decision#shane as a redeemed character had so much potential but we barely got to see that new version of him before he died#and no he did not have to die for abeke to forgive him. just look at how she talks about him in the burning tide - she KNOWS he has changed#she would have forgiven him with time and honest communication between them‚ both of which they were denied#there was so much buildup towards Redeemed Shane having an important part to play in the days to come -#yumaris's words about him “walking the line between light and shadow” -#him raising an army from the ashes‚ giving them a new purpose‚ calling them to serve and protect the world they tried to destroy -#hell even the flirting between him and abeke in the burning tide. it all pointed towards a future for him.#but they wrested it out from under our feet and i wholeheartedly believe it was the wrong decision#why set him up to be erdas's new protector if he was going to die in the first book he properly returned in?#it's mystifying.#of all the bad writing choices and wasted potential in spirit animals‚ this is the one that haunts me the most#text#original erdas#spirit animals#spirit animals books#spirit animals series#shane
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Chapter 89
I just finished Chapter 89
#I just finished Chapter 89… I don’t know what else to say… I have a lot to say… but… like… no. Just no.#Kingdom of Ash spoilers in tag and I guess kinda post but not really#90s only gonna hurt more with Abraxos & Narene & I hate reading reactions & Dorian’s not there & Manon my love like what do we do now what#first read#reading reacts#live updates#read with me#cry with me die with me idk cause why with me all I have now is bad rhymes cause my brain has been evaporated too (too soon?)#read along#Chapter 89#Kingdom of Ash#Sarah Jessica Maas why did you do this to me#I miss ACOTAR where no one dies#I mean it’s well written#and I’m fangirl heartbroken#but also real world crying#cathartic read world grief Maasverse moments and love and loving and hope and destruction and despair and fangirling and feels and agh#this better have a happy ending#I can’t keep calm but I guess I’ll read on#I don’t know the last time a book made me actually cry this much and broke my heart so deeply… I miss you already Asterin… Vesta… Sorrel… 13#stupid tag letter count cut off stopping me from listing them all but my loves … always … until the darkness claims us… and even then…#I am not okay#I am dead inside#I will never recover#KoA actually stands for Killed Off All of my soul that’s what the KOA part means#SARAH WHAT DID YOU DO#I wish I could hug fictional characters#haven’t finished the book yet just the chapter that finished me#once 13 always 13#I prefered live Fenrys since it ACTUALLY INVOLVED LIVING
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Happy Worldbuilding Wednesday! What would you say is the defining trait of any of your settings?
Omg, this is a very difficult question to answer because I do a LOT of worldbuilding, haha. But let's see...
I think, technically, the most defining traits of my settings is how different they are? I hop around the (in-universe) world in each individual story, and each in-universe country is inspired by real world cultures. But mostly drawing inspiration from ancient cultures because I explicitly prefer ancient history to modern. Plus, it's more fun to research. Which--ha--I'm definitely in the minority for feeling this way, I know!
I actually mentioned this recently toward the very end of another post I made recently, but I'll restate it for convenience's sake, haha... and then go into more detail.
Glavnran (tAR) is Slavic (drawing primarily from early Slavic history, while I do my absolute best to figure out what the folklore was like before Christianity got its grubby hands on it. A polytheistic spinoff of Christianity exists in my story, appropriating a lot of its themes and imageries. That religion exists nowhere near Glavnran, so it has no place there. Also I think I've made it clear I dislike Christianity.)
Jhandar (tAR) is Indian (off the top of my head, I can't recall if I was taking from any specific era, but I'm drawing on inspiration from Hinduism and there's a prominent caste system. Jhandar is also an empire, drawing inspiration from Rome and especially the rule of the Qin Dynasty of China. While not exactly thematically relevant, it's fun and helps explain some things I wanted happening in Glavnran/the surrounding countries. Oh, yeah, Glavnran is under the thumb of the Jhandan Empire. It's why there's so much tension between the Glavni and Jhandan peoples.) (Also, the blue-and-red coloration here isn't a "good-and-evil" thing. To anyone who's read anything about my writing, it should be VERY clear that Glavnran isn't a great place and is, in fact, full of crime and -phobias of all sorts. It's based on their temperatures/climate, haha. I would've put Glavnran as orange but that fits other countries better.)
Lynsmouth (SaS) is Western European (the Western World gets a lot of focus in media, so Lynsmouth and the country it takes place in that I've definitely named get to be the Token "West" in my writing. It gets inspiration from all over Western Europe, but I've primarily focused on France and the Netherlands for it. It's also got Italian-style mafias, haha. They have the Christian-adjacent religion where they glorify a single god. It is, however, subtly dying out, because of Lore and immigration of a sort. The "new arrivals" so to speak have their own religions.)
Kihroin (RFtA) is Northern African (as in Islamic. I'm most likely leaning most strongly into Morrocan inspiration for anything "modern", but obviously most strongly leaning toward ancient history. Islam itself obviously won't appear in my writing, as I'm working within a fantasy world with provably real pantheons of gods. I haven't decided how I'll adapt their hyper-religiousness into Kihroin, especially because I'm personally uncomfortable with religion (though I bet you couldn't tell) and yet want to adapt something that major to their modern culture(s) into my writing. Yet another reason RFtA isn't a current project.)
Cirrane (RFtA) is Latin American (given that actual Native American history is incredibly difficult to get our hands on--cough cough THANKS COLONIZERS, THANKS CHRISTIANITY cough cough--it has a lot more modern inspiration(s) than ancient. Howeverrrr... that's not necessarily a "bad" thing considering that Cirrane is a very bad place and I know plenty of people will @ me accusing me of racism for it anyway. Nah, man, it's pretty much everywhere in my writing! It's almost like it makes for a better story! Also my Mexican gf approves of what I'm doing with it, so take THAT, SJWs.) (Oops, I ranted there for a second. Long story short, it takes a lot of inspiration from all over Latin America! That applies to the other two "Latino" countries too, though, haha. Besides that, it's also stolen quite a bit of imagery from Rome. Ah, that must be where the Evil's from. /hj)
Tzakah (RFtA/tCC) is also Latin American (one of my favorite places in all of my worldbuilding!!! Is also extremely tropical. It's a lot more "original" of a culture due to worldbuilding stuff, but it still takes a lot of Latin American Inspiration.)
Minogua (RFtA/tCC/???) is the last Latin American country (explicitly has a previous history of colonization that they've (relatively) recently shaken off through rebellion and ousting the authorities from other countries. Tackles a lot of those issues a lot more directly and has them more modern than the other two. Though it makes sense considering Tzakah was previously part of Cirrane. Regardless! There's lots to possibly tap into, but Minogua so far only has characters originating from there. Well, and minor plots relevant to those characters but y'know. I definitely want to eventually make a story placed there eventually to more directly explore its themes!)
Honorable mentions/speedrun:
Isagnea (tAR, though idk how much it'll show up, and ???) is Italian (not very worked on, but it's the home country of some side characters... hence why it's not really worked on. It'll definitely see more attention if and when it becomes relevant. Most likely, it won't be until if/when I work on another story focused on those characters. Or, y'know, it appears in another story.)
Ilyich (tAR, tho it likely won't show up more than once) is Slavic (country Glavnran was once a part of, before they split off (not peacefully) over religious differences. Methinks a Christian-esque religion might actually be rather hated by the Glavni people...)
Shilyma (tAR, mentioned but not visited) is a Slavic/Asian mix! (so, yknow, likely would take inspo from Mongolia? Not too developed, but is like Tzakah in that its origins are unique.)
Anispe (tAR, end of series, and ???) is Greek (spoilers! 😁 But Jhandar is actively at war with it, trying to get them under its thumb as well! I have Plots to eventually make a story centered on Anispe before it was Anispe, too!)
Shaoraigh (SaS) is Celtic (an oldie but goodie! I did a good bit of worldbuilding here in the past even though it's never appeared in my writing. One of its gods are VERY important in the worldbuilding, however.)
Drønhals (SaS) is Celtic/Norse (Freya's home country, was once part of Shaoraigh (in-universe) but they separated over religious differences!)
Tulidin (tCC) is Chinese (I'm probably changing its name eventually, though. Also has minor worldbuilding and a character originating from there.)
Shoutout to misc unnamed countries that exist, but I've never gotten around to naming them for one reason or another! Like, for example, the Jhandan-Glavni colonies Rieka and Adilzhan are from and the Hawaiian-and-Japanese-inspired country hidden away from the rest of the world. (Wish I could make it Pure Hawaiian, but... you try doing research on Hawaii. Join me in my hatred for Christianity.)
Can you tell I've been writing/working on this world for ten years?
This post has gotten WAY longer than I was expecting (though really I should've figured, smh) so I'll make this last bit quick:
The technology contained within each country/story is very different, both due to wealth gaps and time period jumps! There's... a lot of worldbuilding. The Arcane Rifts takes place approximately 200 years before Sun and Shadow and Rising From the Ashes (which are connected to each other), so that on top of the exploitation from Jhandar means they're not going to have the greatest tech for example. Sorry this was so long! Hope you enjoyed reading!!!
Also, apparently I have more of Western Europe in my worldbuilding than I thought. Now I'm disappointed in myself.
Also-also, I misread this Ask. I thought it was asking for the defining traits in everything... whoops. I made this WAY harder on myself than I needed to.
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#the feychild worldbuilding#rising from the ashes#the arcane rifts#sun and shadow novel#answered asks#autistic writer#oh yeah btw that's probably a huge part of why I'm so obsessed with this stuff. Basically everything relevant to worldbuilding is#one of my special interests. Sooooo...#my writing#world building#fantasy worldbuilding#fantasy world#high fantasy#urban fantasy#fantasy#magic#magic world#worldbuilding#diversity#inclusivity#inclusive writing#inclusion#diverse characters#diverse books#diversehistorical#writers on tumblr#writeblr#writing#writerscommunity#writers
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BOOKS I READ IN 2022 (and their ratings)
BOOKS I READ IN 2023 (and their ratings)
#throne of glass#acotar#from blood and ash#shatter me#crescent city#kingdom of the wicked#devil's night series#twisted series#made series#haunting adeline#a good girls guide to murder#the love hypothesis#praise sara cate#it happened one summer#the spanish love deception#book lovers#verity#the mindf*ck series#the fine print#booktok#goodreads
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was chopping potatoes for dinner last night when i had the realization that it was extremely inevitable i would become an adar and galadriel enjoyer during season 2 of rings of power considering the number of books i like enough to have a permanent spot in my brain which contain the romance dynamic of "we are fundamentally opposed enemies who deeply distrust each other but we must set aside our differences to unite against a common enemy, develop a grudging respect for each other, and then fall in love." i am predictable in my tastes but at least i know myself!
#me discovering yet another pattern of what characters and dynamics i enjoy: ah. there's another one#the fact that i was chopping potatoes is irrelevant it's just what i was doing at the time#pie says stuff#rings of power#trop#adar#galadriel#adariel#wait hang on i want to see if i can list the books/characters#let's see…#innisth and kehera from winter of ice and iron by rachel neumeier#(who did not just exchange a magic ring but also fully got married for magical alliance reasons)#both of the couples from the wilderwood duology by hannah whitten but ESPECIALLY solmir and neve#since he's literally the villain of the first book#sierra and rasten from children of the black sun are i think on their way there but i have to read the sequels#marian and guy from sherwood by meagan spooner aka my favorite robin hood book#also i'm still in the middle of reading it but definitely farrin and ryder from a song of ash and moonlight by claire legrand#anyway. this was very funny realization. fellow adariel enjoyers you would probably also like those books
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I'm pretty sure you could draw a straight line from the 1980's Satanic Panic to the creation of Project 2025, but I'm also convinced if Ronald Reagan was not president during the 80s, then the actual spread of the Satanic Panic would not have been as big as it eventually was.
#ash talks#satanic panic#this is just me talking#but it's interesting#that Reagan's presidency was during the era most noted for the Satanic Panic's height#even though it also happened right on into the 90s and 00s and resurfaced in the 10s and 20s to a frightening degree#but I think if it wasn't for Reagan's appeal to Evangelicals then the Satanic Panic would not have been as great as it was in the 80s#up into the 90s and today#you really don't understand how prevalent that narrative of the Satanic Panic was#Oprah did a whole show on it as well as a number of other talk shows#they also spread misinformation#it should also be noted that it wasn't merely DnD they were targeting but books and tv shows as well as toys music people practices#and public schools#watch any Satanic Panic video made by a religious organization at the time and they'll target public schools as cesspools of evil#stuff like meditation yoga and therapy were also targeted by Evangelicals due to them being from other cultures and for mental health#don't believe me? there's a whole 13 part series which covers topics like Halloween meditation freemasons the occult and yoga#people only talk about the Halloween one though
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#sarah j maas#sjm books#a court of thorns and roses#book boyfriend#throne of glass#book boyfriends#crescent city#rowan whitethorn#dorian havilliard#hunt athalar#ruhn danaan#lance orion#darius acrux#zodiac academy#butcger and blackbird#lachlan kane rowan kane#leather and lark#fourth wing#rebecca yarros#xaden riorson#ravyn yew#elm rowan#one dark window#rachel gillig#casteel da'neer#fbaa#from blood and ash#nyktos#flesh and fire series
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hey siri, play the boys are back in town
#I JUST FINISHED A FIRE IN THE FLESH TODAY AND I CURRENTLY HAVE SKETCHES OF SERA AND ASH#fbaa#fbaa series#casteel da'neer#kieran contou#from blood and ash#but I had to finish what I could of this just bc#left to right on bottom : delano Kieran and Cas#left to right top: Emile and Naill#I’ll draw them properly one day#Casteel x Kieran#I CAN’T BELIEVE ALL THE CONFIRMED THEORIES#I CAN’T BELIEVE THE NEXT BOOK ISNT UNTIL MAY#COMPENDIUM DOESN’T COUNT#at least she didn’t leave us on a cliffhanger lol#fbaa fanart
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omg y’all!!! i just remembered that throughout tog the Blackbeak Matron kept threatening Manon that she’ll find another heir if she doesn’t get her shit together???
why is this woman giving her more anxiety than what she already has? no wonder Manon was struggling between doing what’s right and following her grandmothers orders (grandmother wins. Every time.) she does so because she knows that if she fails at any task, her grandmother will just disown/exile her and pick someone else to be her heir which is why Manon was so wired into obeying her grandmother’s every command.
and later on in KoA
WHEN DORIAN LEFT FOR MORATH???? FOR MANON TO WAKE UP AND FIND HIM GONE LIKE THAT?????? Dorian my guy I love you so much but you’re only making Manon’s abandonment issues worse by taking off in the dead of the night like that
#booklr#books and reading#throne of glass#manon blackbeak#tog#dorian havilliard#manon x dorian#manorian#empire of storms#kingdom of ash#blackbeak matron#i just realized this now and omg the way i was ugly sobbing for my girl#she literally has no one the matron is her only parent and said parent kept threatening to ‘replace’ her like she doesn’t matter at all????#Manon is definitely a perfectionist and has this deep seated fear of disappointing her grandmother#if she’s not good enough than she will be replaced which is why she does these things without asking any questions#she tried so hard to be perfect for her grandmother but the woman never acknowledged it#then Dorian just make it worse by leaving like that#I mean Manon was so desperate to the point where she proposed just to keep him from leaving#and he still left#it kills me everytime I remember that she woke up to an empty cold bed#that hurt her so deeply im still angry at Dorian for doing it to her#she needs assurance not him just disappearing like that
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