Back again! I read chapter 3 late at night and now i had to reread parts of it again to get my thoughts in order.
There's grief of suguru's absense of course and his lack of presence permeates throughout the chapter. which is fitting, because that's what grief is, the ghost that haunts you. god, and the fact that reader knows what their last true conversation was like. dropping all pretenses and letting suguru be close and to touch her because. it's the last time she'll ever see him as he was.
for how twisted she is, i really did pity her when shoko and gojo express without verbally saying so, that they love her. but that they also resent/fear/hate her (i put hate because they didn't SAY it but, that was definitely the vibe i was getting. there's some things that dont need to be put into words)
she could not change the outcome, but she could at least make it so it's favorable (To her and to Him). what a bitter pill to swallow
It's interesting to know that we get a bit of a confirmation that Reader does have limitations on her technique. there are some things, like her mother's death that cannot be changed no matter what outcome she tries to find. but that doesn't mean she doesnt have some leeway (her orchestrating and plucking to achieve Haibara's death)
but what gives me pause is when reader tells Suguru that she's always known that she will kill her father. But then, she had also said that there was a version somewhere where Gojo had already killed him before the wedding. Since her mother's death preceded her father's, does that mean her mother had already been murdered? so her fathers death is always followed by her mother's.
it felt like that was what the implication itself but i keep second guessing myself lol which makes sense for her inaction. there are futures that are less favorable, and most favorable. and reader chooses the outcomes that are most favorable to herself and gojo.
oh god and they got married. yeah, the higher-ups REALLY fucked up in letting that happen.
also i desperately wanna isolate the Gojo making reader promise him to put megumi and tsumiki before him and analyze the HELL out of it. because i felt something when i read it and i wanna bite my own ankles because i DONT know how to verbalize or express it. something happened here, and it felt really important. and also shifted my perspective on Gojo in Godmaker a bit.
It makes me think about Reader and Gojo's mother's conversation from earlier, and how Gojo's mother had said that her son had hurt her but she loved him regardless. I mean she's toxic as hell. but in a fucked up way, whether it's true or not, i think Gojo's mom believes that she has put Satoru above else.
And Reader had expressed that she loved Satoru. And she DOES put him above everyone else. But he's her husband, and not her child.
it's that age old question i suppose. Who do you prioritize as the most important person to you? Most people would answer, if they have one: their spouse. because marriage means they have chosen that person alone above all else to spend and share the rest of their lives together. (i mean i dont believe in marriage but gsjkgjks that's definitely the "Norm")
But it's different when you have kids. No one likes to make a choice like that. But most would answer that they would put their children first.
and what this tells me is that Gojo would choose megumi and Tsumiki over reader. It's not expressed as such because the focus is on reader, but the fact that he made her commit a Binding Vow feels telling. And he made her choose them, because deep down he knew between the kids and him...she would still choose him.
which does not help that reader immediately worries and thinks "oh but i planned so that that WOULDN'T happen....unless?" and tried reaching for her pendant. so reader saw a future where she HAD to make a choice. and she's done everything to achieve a future where she never had to make a choice at all.
idk where i was going with this initially but. idk i feel like something shifted my interpretation about reader and gojo. like it's a fundamental difference.
and then that talk at the end of being birthed anew. it feels like another fundamental shift has happened. Childhood is the final shackle holding reader down, and now, it's all gone. she's an adult now and she can no longer be held under the thumb of her father, or the clans.
nothing can stop her now. (haha, we're in danger)
when i saw you had messaged me i got so excited LMAOOO i was with a friend and i was like okay. i need to Wait. until i can Take This In. first of all. you're ALWAYS on to me LMAOOO. i love it. it makes me so happy to see you picking up on these things.
gonna put this under a cut in case it gets too long lol
you are exactly on the nose with a lot of this. there are a lot of different versions of the future that the reader sort of...parses through. its very tricky because if you select one option, it changes several others, etc. etc. she can pull strings, but she's gotta be horrendously careful of which ones. and sometimes she HAS to let some unfold, for other things to take place.
i think there is certainly resentment or hate that shoko and gojo have towards the reader. ig, how could you not? but i also think...shoko in particular, is willing to trust reader to do what is Best, even if it's hard. or i think she sorta...turns a blind eye to it in order to love the reader. gojo does not trust her like that lol well...he does trust her. but he knows what she's doing is not always Morally Best.
to your points about megumi and tsumiki...idk exactly when this story became about like...children, but it did somewhere. and i think also like what would you do for love? how far would you go? i think you're bringing up a lot of really good points of like...who do you prioritize? initially, i just wanted tsumiki and megumi to remain because i was following Canon. but then reader met them and kinda. took over. and decided they would mean more to her and make her contend with more than i initially planned. i think also there's an aspect of...her desire to appease gojo in there somewhere. she knows gojo loves megumi and tsumiki tremendously, so she will too. but now i will stop talking about this lest i reveal more lol
gojo knows more than he lets on. the reader has been pulling strings and making calculated moves but. gojo has been too. this was one of his–to make her give him a binding vow about the kids. i think the the interlude will reveal more.
reader has definitely done everything in order to not have to make that choice. and she will, in fact, continue to do more to ensure that lol
there is certainly a shift!!! reader is certainly changed!! and there is little to stop what she will do now!!
i am very excited to share more with you, always! always so excited to hear what you have to say!! THANK YOU!! for reading and taking the time to dissect this and send me this incredible ask. it means so much to me, as always!! i am gonna go work on the next chapter now because you've made me so excited lol 💕
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lil question, have you ever seen people adding lil details to maryo and luigee, and have you ever considered adding some to your art? (i personally add patches to maryo and flowers to luigee, since he owns a flower shop)
Hiiii oh my god yess I love it when people add little details to characters, not just mayro and luigee, I love seeing what little touches people add to their faves it's always so sweet to see! I tend to put more physical details onto characters, such as scars, tattoots, make up, stuff like that, but I love seeing clothing changes and stuff like that too!
I never really do it with the boys because I like their og desings so much, you can't go wrong with them. Though I thought I'd have a go at drawing them with details that I always love to see others use for them, just for fun! :D
I love them so much, might have to start doing this for real but we'll see lol :3
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hello hello i just read meine perle and it is the best thing i’ve ever read on tumblr and i just want to give you my biggest thanks and appreciation for delivering such a well written fic of konig!!! i will never be able to get over octo!konig he’s going to haunt all my dreams. it was such an amazing read it felt as if i was there experiencing everything and i held my breath unknowingly when they were escaping from the lab??? can’t believe i get to enjoy that piece for free it feels like premium content. what was you thought process if you are happy to share it?? or was it like im gonna pump out a 25k words after seeing that fanart because im so so inspired and ideas are just pouring out of my brain rn??
anyways thank you thank you thank you again!!!!! hope everythings well for you!!!!
okay hi first of all ily ily ily thank YOU for taking the time to send this you got me smiling goofy fr <3 <3 💗💞🩷🩷💗
i cannot BELIEVE y’all are still snacking on Meine Perle u lil freaks 😏😏
it was absolutely 100% inspired by Numelu’s brilliant fanart and i’m sure it would not have been a fic i created otherwise. i had such a blast writing that fic and tbh i’ve always struggled with motivation when it comes to hobbies so i am forever grateful for @numelu and their undeniable talent, and for sparking in me that excitement to create.
that fic was originally supposed to be a smutty little one shot but apparently i’m a ho for the drama of it all and it absolutely ran away from me. i think i remember making a post at some point that was like “this was just supposed to be smut but it’s at like 15k words and they still haven’t even boinked yet” lmaoo
thanks for ask-in sweet anon 💗💞💕💗💞💕
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consider episode 4 if you will. the way that stede just barely touches his fingertips to mary’s shoulder while they’re having their portrait done. the way they don’t touch one another at all during their wedding ceremony, the way mary only reaches out to take his hand once it’s finished.
and then consider the fact that the moment stede wakes up, before they’ve even given one another their names, ed is reaching out to take stede’s hand. consider, if you will, the way ed draws stede into his arms when the lighthouse fuckery is a success.
just. no hesitation. instant ease. what thee fuck. what thefuck. wha a t
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Marinette’s mascara was clumpy.
She meant to buy a new tube last week—it was on her mental to-do list, along with seventeen thousand other tasks that could probably wait until next week: washing her sheets, cleaning out her desk drawer, throwing out the pile of discarded fabric shreds from her last project.
As it always was in Marinette’s life, things had come up. Akumas, mostly.
She jammed the mascara wand back into the tube, over and over, but it stayed a thick goopy mess. She could either smear the tar-like substance onto her eyes and pretend it looked fine, or—well. Or nothing. She had thirty minutes to get downtown.
Thirty minutes until she needed to be seated for Alya’s award ceremony.
Thirty minutes until she had to be completely fine, chill, supportive.
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