#former fp

[charliebraincharliebrain]

Thoughts on seeing my high school ex boyfriend for the first time in like seven years:

The familiarity is a yearning I didn’t know I had- it’s like knowing the words to a song I hadn’t heard in years- my motions were instinctual, I wanted so bad for him to linger in a hug, hold my hand, or anything in between. I felt myself initiating touch in any way I could- scooting closer, leaning on his shoulder.

When he left the room I noticed the absence. When we parted ways, I kept hoping he’d look back at me.

[dopamine-daydream]

It's been 17 years since I met you. It's been 17 years since you've had a hold on me. It's been hard to escape all the things you've said to me. It's been hard to cope with the fact that you knocked me down to nothing, that your voice is that of the darkness creeping in.

It's hard to see the damage you've done to my mind. There's evidence of it on my body. It's hard to trust anyone with freckles anymore. It's hard to say any version of your name out loud.

I met another man with your name, who called me horrid things, thanks to twisted brainwashing. I met another man who had hated me for no fucking reason other than the fact that I was trying to show love.

Does that sound familiar?

You told me that you were glad I was facing trauma for the first time -- how can you say that to someone who is grieving a death? - and that trauma was amplified threefold by the time I graduated high school.

Regardless of all that you did to me, I hate that I still care a little. I hate that I want to give you mercy for what happened for all of those years. You are a reason why I never developed healthy relationships. You are the reason why I am so messed up...

And you got off scott free.

Fuck. You. Jimmy.

[toosharpteeth]

every time i lose someone i love deeply, i go cold and dead and unreachable for a few years. and every time it happens, the duration of death gets longer. and i worry that one day, i’m going to wake up and realize i’m laying in a grave i can’t claw my way out of

[erisolkat]

MY EX GOT INTO PROJECT SEKAI?

[anyonghalimaw]

who wants to team up with me and kill john riccitiello

[beatcroc]

I had a thought

Fake Peppino remembers just how much of a bully the Noise was during the whole tower thing. But with Peppino in the picture, and with Pizzaface out of the picture, maybe Fake Peppino begins developing confidence, and actually confronts the Noise?

Which the Noise doesn’t expect & begins getting scared of bc if there’s one thing scarier than a messed up clone, it’s a clone that has had enough of your attitude

if this is abt the 'fuck my interpretation specifically' post , that was really more about noise's side of the dynamic and his being Very Obviously Not Scared of fake pep; fp in any of the stuff i've done would still react like that if noise [or anyone] yelled at him like that lmao. as far as "trying to justify my own takes to not clash with new canon" goes though, 1. i don't really care to actually do that! if it's disproven it's disproven and i'd rather play in the new space the game has provided, but 2. if you want some cheap throwaway reasoning, i just say Pizza Tower The Movie takes place long enough postgame that noise has gotten used to fake pep/realized he's not actually a threat.

ALSO i did make that post before i beat the game and saw it was set as a moive. re-evaluating it in that context, i'm pretty on-board with what everyone else has said about it just being acting, or fp getting yelled at for going off-script, or that fp was just startled in the moment because he wasn't expecting it; but whatever the case i don't think that interaction is representative of their usual dynamic since they both seem like. neutral about eachother's presence in the ending card. i feel like noise probably still doesn't LIKE him still but they're not gonna ruin eachother's day or anything

[applemccartney]

me when i accidentally made samuel derwhirst (gross groomer who i hate) look exactly like mark hoffman (my babygirl)

[fatuifucker]

why are people dating in 2023 like just breakup 🙄

[imagoodone-iswear]

Heather if you ever read this:

i miss you.

im sorry for how things went and how i behaved. i realized i had to open up more, i had to fix things and finally do something or i will never start recovering from any of it... not from the cen, not from my mental health issues, not from the abuse, the parentification or the other stuff that happened to me. i cant keep lying to myself and say none of that hasnt affected me and maybe the dissociative split we had adds to that realization but none the less it's a good thing...

im slowly recovering (therapist says im doing good progress), nearly 2 days sober and trying to implement more self-care stuff to not sink into things so much...

when we parted i was very freshly traumatized and had a hard time being anything, i just felt numb.

i just wanted to say that i miss you and that im getting better, even if slowly. maybe there is a tiny bit of hope left for us if this is any evidence of me getting better...

thats all. i know we might never be friends again but if anything i can atleast leave a note here and maybe itll find you somehow... ever...

(also i have cool, new, vibrant red hair now, youd love it)

📽️📽️📽️

[jiraimaxxing]

I haven't heard anything back from them in nearly a week now. I'm so worried about them :( I hope they're okay.....

[themindelectricdemo4]

u know I will be mad if when I was just looking for someone to talk to during processing shit that happened gets turned into drama -_- after talking to people who really hated me & were completely against me (not even entirely unjustified in disliking me so thats not da problem) I was like ok I want to hear from someone who was hurt too to hear their experiences........& then I just mention like ok don't make this a thing pls...don't make this a thing. Pls. Pls don't. No I don't even want to be anonymous I just don't want this to be a thing. I don't even think ppl deserve a dang callout post I just needed someone to relate to when I felt really shit to be able to throw myself into different views before I would finally start to settle on my actual rational opinion (yay bpd) butttttttnoooo...sigigigggghhh!!!!! Ok I don't care about this other person blah blah idk these people. Whatever. Can you leave me alone u served the purpose in my lfiw

[skyllion-uwu]

God I need to come up with a good title for Jules and Professor Chronos' story so I can make a sideblog about the game they're from and start goncharoving them into existence

[inutaffy]

"sweet! 😆 do we get to carry guns?👀"

"absolutely not😐" "no😭"

[thorough-witness-enjoyer]

In the face of recent news about our beloved Destiny, I think it’s more important than ever for us as a community to come together and support each other in numerous ways.

It’s been a very hard week for all of us, especially those who lost their jobs and outlet for their passion in mass lay offs. Losing a position that allowed you to craft magnificent stories alongside some of the most ambitious people in the gaming industry, especially in worrying economic circumstances, must be excruciating to deal with and I wish the best for all those laid off from Bungie.

For us fans, it hurts more than anything to see the game you care so much for get put in headlines for how little that care is shared amongst the people responsible for making decisions on it. I’ve been into Destiny since it first dropped, making it the love of my life for nearly two-thirds of my whole existence , and to hear about how it’s just another product to be sold when it’s everything and more to me is just despairing. I wanted to become a writer and concept artist to create a game for others that made them feel as cared for as I did when I played Destiny and now I’m sitting here seeing all the people who helped foster that feeling be treated as another expenditure.

It’s awful, a lot of us are feeling really uninspired and betrayed at the moment, not sure we even want to see what will happen to this masterpiece of a game in the hands of the current executives. We are also dearly missing the developers, artists, writers, and more who made Destiny more than a fps looter shooter.

But it is times like these where we are torn and confused that we must uplift one another and not let the bitter taste of Bungie’s actions make us speak with hostility. This is not about decisions on whether to support Bungie or the actual game, but about refocusing on what truly makes Destiny enjoyable to so many.

Its world is immersive with care put into every story and that clearly shows in just how eager fans are to create masterpieces for it. It was never playing the game or the notoriety that kept me coming back for more, but the joy of creation I could share with others.

It stings to see a disinterest in nursing the potential of the Destiny universe from the executives with motivations other than monetary gain, but when the executives won’t care, we can. There are still employees at Bungie who adore their work and we can continue to support them by speaking up against horrible industry practices and show that we won’t abandon their efforts to make Destiny what it is.

Make ocs, write fanfictions, follow the former employees wherever they go, draw til your heart is overflowing, join Discords, roleplay, share headcanons, create aus with friends, do whatever keeps Destiny alive and flourishing for you!

Destiny will never die to me, even when it’s long forgotten and the servers shut down, because Destiny made me who I am and I intend to repay that gift an infinite amount of times over. The characters and universe will be alive and well to me until I die, regardless of the fate of the game and Bungie.

So go out and prove that Destiny’s themes of the power of community and hope are more than just morals behind a screen, that they are life changing messages that we will carry on despite hopeless news!!

Reblog charming artists, message people about ships you enjoy, leave questions and tags that contribute to conservations, write essays about what Destiny means to you!!

My messages and inbox for questions are always open if anyone would like to talk (I’m trying to get better at answering them, even if they are months late)! You are all welcome here and I want to start reblogging and liking more freely even if those things scare me sometimes!

We can decide our fates and we can decide the fate of Destiny’s presence in our lives as well! We can choose to care when others won’t and refuse to make our enjoyment debatable!! In troubling times, we should be able to reach out into the dark and find hands to hold onto tight!!

[sleepyconfusedpotato]

MWIII Campaign Thoughts and Reviews

(Played in the recruit difficulty because I suck at FPS games, and I want to explore and spent time in the campaign without dying too much). Leave some thoughts!

⚠️SPOILER ALERT⚠️

So… that was devastating. 

(+) To start things off, Makarov - Boy, holy shit. Yes. YESSS. They didn’t hold back with the new Makarov. He’s a mastermind, he’s a charming fella, he’s a psychopath lol. And the fact that he smiles a lot in this campaign just adds to the creepiness. I might get some side-eye here, but this Mak can go head-to-head with the OG!Mak. He’s always onto something, he’s proven destructive, had the 141 hauling ASS to chase him.

Makarov had stolen American missiles from ULF, caused false flag missile attacks on Russian Military base, and successfully orchestrated a false airplane hijacking, all under ULF's name - everything in the span of 48 hours since he got out of prison. I saw people saying that this Makarov ain't got nothing on the OG one has to be inhaling some shit copium because this is only in one single game and he's destroying shit.

I know just one game with rushed development won’t be enough for an iconic character like him, so I’m glad they didn’t kill him.

(-) I absolutely ABHOR, DETEST, LOATH the Open Combat Missions (OCM). It is so very not Call of Duty campaignesque. it doesn’t help anything with the narrative, and if anything, it even took away the narrative for us. The former missions in former games are iconic in their own way because the mission designer put a lot of thought into how the game will be played, the situations we found ourselves in.

But OCM's, we're like... Left to our own devices without any story-driven dialogues.

I think one of the reasons why MWII was so close to everyone's heart was because of the banters between the characters, especially in Alone. Here, because it's literally our choice and our time, it left us with no actual given time to know and love the characters more than we already did. Yes we love the characters, MW19 and MWII did that for us. But in this one? They said "character development is done, mate. Now go to war.”

Then again, is OCM a product and evidence of MWIII’s rushed development? 100% yes. I don’t give a shit if they cover it with “oowh we make OCM so you can play the missions differently each time without repeating the same mission over and over again!”. Let me ask you this, Activision - Have ‘repeating the mission over and over again’ been a problem with us campaign-enjoyers? No! I played the MWII campaign like 5 times, in all difficulty (except realism I still love my life), and I enjoyed it, because the mission designers took a lot of time and thought to it instead of just creating a map, putting a bunch of loadouts scattered around the area and throw us in it. So yes, it’s clear that OCM is a product of rushed development. It sucks the life out of the campaign missions.

Some people may enjoy it, but I play the campaign exactly for the linear style missions, not DMZ style.

(+) Look, I said it before that I will go to the campaign with the lowest expectation possible. I expected Mak to be sub-par, I expected them to play safe with the characters, and BOY WAS I WRONG. Setting aside the point above where the character feels stuck on the character development (which is a huge minus btw), all the characters have time to shine in their own missions, especially Price because I feel like we play him the most. However, I do also love the fact that the girls get shit done here. Farah and Laswell did their work so beautifully and apparently it was revealed that Laswell will be a MP operator, so that’s cool. 

(+) Ghost being a menacing presence, can stood his ground. Price being level-headed though at the same time unhinged as usual. Gaz being the voice of reason throughout the entire fucking game LMAO. Soap being the brave man he is, the passion and fury is evident throughout the campaign. Farah being badass and dependable as usual. Alex being the main supportive guy to Farah (Faralex is canon at this point argue with a wall). Nikolai being our most reliable get-away guy.

And of course, Graves and Shepherd being the fucking goofy ahh duo I actually find interesting. The trial cutscene was such a goofy scene LMAO the fact that they backstabbed each other in the ass is real funny. I side with Graves though. However wrong and unhinged he may be, Graves is just a guy doing his job and did what he’s told to do.

(+) I love the fact that Mak tried to frame Urzikstan to pin the blame on them. It's exactly what the OG!Makarov did but in HD. The Passenger mission is phenomenal and more damn traumatizing if only it was a bit longer and more stretched. There are many more reference to the OG games and I absolutely love it.

Now…

Soap’s Death

Remembering all the MWII missions with Soap... It hits differently now, man. 

(-) I've read a lot of people's arguments about it that the fact that it happened is just for shock value and kind of disappointing. Because let’s be real here, Soap is an SAS who got the name Soap because of how much of a slippery bastard he is. Granted, Mak is an ex-Spetsnaz and can fight with Soap. But how he went down in a goddamn takedown without any chance of fighting is just… it’s not it.

To add to that, the reaction from the boys is just... Underwhelming? Like I get it they're battle-hardened SAS soldiers, but let them show some damn emotions for fuck’s sake. One of the main reason why the OG!Soap’s death is really painful is because of Price’s reaction to it. How he said “NO. NO NO NO SOAP!!” While he shook Soap’s lifeless body in the table. At least let Price kneel to him, straighten his body, touch his vest. Close his eyes, gather Soap’s hand and PUT HIS GUN ON his chest all the while Ghost and Gaz knelt beside them. I do love the fact that they literally went to Scotland to let go of his ashes with Ghost holding the urn though. I cried in this scene. 

And the fact that it happened with the shortest campaign out of all the reboot MW games, it just felt rushed. Yes. It’s completely rushed, there’s no doubt about it. Again, the result of rushed developments.

(+) Now, with that said, I kind of want to shed light on how Soap is literally the youngest guy in the group. He had so much to live for. He's a sunshine in the middle of this gruff emotionally hardened man. He's such a joy to be around. He's brave. He's fresh. The fact that he's got so much to live for adds to the sadness and bitterness, which I actually like.

Sometimes I do kind of like those kinds of deaths, where the character is too soon to die,  because it hit so much harder and in a different way than the OG! one. We got to see the OG!Soap went from when he was an FNG, turn to a captain, to a man of fortitude that  earned Price's honor and sacrificed himself to protect Price. We saw how he developed and changed. We saw his entire career with us throughout all the OG!MW trilogy.

Reboot!Soap's story barely even started, and the fact that he's still so young, imagining how he'd be one hell of an officer, how he'd lead his team in the future. 

OG!Soap’s death is sad because all the times and memories we’ve been through with him, but Reboot!Soap’s death is equally sad for the times we could’ve gone through with him.

I want to say this though, some people said that Soap's death is sudden, but I wouldn't agree with that. I think the telltales are all there.

In the helicopter scene after Price and Soap caught him in Verdansk, Mak literally SAID HIS FULL NAME. That is a literal pinpoint death sentence from Makarov. And how emotional Soap’s reaction is compared to the other boys when the airport blew up. The signs are literally all there! I saw it coming actually. 

So is Soap’s death rushed? Yes. Could it have been executed better? Yes. Is it for shock value? Yes. But is it as sad? Yes. Honestly, I blame the rushed development and due dates for this. Activision is a cash grabber who wanted a yearly release so they can catch more money. I fucking bet my ass that initially they didn’t want to kill Soap, but it’s like a last-minute decision to make this game actually look like it’s worth 70 dollars. 

Like by the end of the game, nothing has been accomplished. Big Bad Guy is on the loose, and we lost Soap. Yea we did stop some of Makarov's attacks, but we ended with a loss. It's a completely sad ending. I just wish we get to continue with more missions after Soap's death like in OG!MW3 though :(

WHAT'S NEXT?

Now. Shepherd is positively fucken dead. Price is now an actual criminal and a fugitive. He just killed a 4-star US Marines general in his own office. Price is entering his insane and unhinged era. I do wonder if he'll go even more unhinged than this.

The story will undoubtedly continue in the MP seasons (although probably only 2 seasons that mattered because it'll also undoubtedly be filled with skins and collabs and shit). I think it will also focus more on transitioning to the next CoD games, which will be Black Ops (It is confirmed that for the 2024 and 2025 CoD, it will be Black Ops games).

We're talking future here, so if there's going to be a CoD MWIV, It might be possible that this is the game where we'll finally defeat Makarov while the 141 copes with losing Soap. I do wonder if Price will become too unhinged and will get rid of everything on his way to kill Mak. Price's reckless acts will become too much for Gaz that it's starting to hurt other people and himself, and Gaz will do something against Price's command or wish - and Ghost will have to choose a side. Now that's the kind of drama I want to see.

What do I score this campaign, what do I score this campaign... The story is actually good, but because the development is evidently rushed, the packaging feels a bit hollow. It's a 7/10 for me!

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Wait you know what

We get to pet a dog named Riley. 10/10, Game of The Fucking Year.

Reboot!Logan/Hesh (?) 👀

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So there it goes! If you've read this far I love you and Activision will pay for my therapy (ʘ ͜ʖ ʘ)

[h0neybane]

NEW TWST OC!! i think the fairies are very cute so i made one! this is aprilla belrose!

Aprilla Belrose

Information:

Gender: Female Age: 110 (equivalent to 16-17) Height: 0'5 | 12cm, can use magic to grow to 5'3 | 160cm Homeland: Fae Land Family: Unnamed parents, unnamed sister

Dominant Hand: Right Favorite Food: Strawberries Least Favorite Food: Grapes Dislikes: Rowdy Students Hobby: Gaming Talents: Impressions

Other Notes:

she's been working at NRC for 10 years!

she helps out in the botanical gardens with crewel a lot

one of her close friends is a former-ignihyde student. she now rages at fps games

she tries to be cutesy but she's a little unhinged...

i based her off the wrinkled peach mushroom !

after working at nrc she's pretty used to humans and doesn't mind them! shes even friends with some

she's made herself a little hideout inside one of the botanical garden trees! she just eats strawberries and naps there

she is slightly taller than an apple