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I used to listen to this song and not mean it and not know what it was to be in love with my best friend. I think that’s so funny now. I’m so fortunate to be in love with (one of) my best friend(s).

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you and I 🌟

wallpaper set  //  prints      

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Oh also she’s going to play my favorite childhood computer game (aka longest hyperfixation) w me tonight and we get to have a sleepover and maybe I’ll fall asleep in her arms and OH MHMY GOD AND I GET CHICKEN NUGGETS???? THIS IS THE BEST DAY

Coming out of burnout (maybe?) because I am truly so autistically fulfilled these days. I just went to three days in a row of concerts where one of my favorite bands of all time played through three of their old albums in their entirety, I got to collage with my boyfriend for five hours today, and now we’re having a sleepover and gonna play Pajama Sam together. This is everything to me and I’m so, so grateful to be alive and unapologetically autistic.

At the concerts I got to jump up and down and flap my hands and hit my palm on my chest to the beat of all my favorite songs and close my eyes and feel the bass in my body and sway to the piano.

Today I collaged and junk journaled with my boyfriend for five hours and watched an entire season of Superstore while we did and we got to laugh at our favorite lines because we both know it so well and we went through stacks of magazines and I cut out a bunch of yellow things. Then we swapped notebooks and made collages for each other with little notes in tiny envelopes in them and now I have a piece of her (a hundred pieces of her) when I leave for my residency that I get to carry with me and a note that says that she chooses me every day and I am so grateful for that and for the honor of choosing her too.

Even though we’ve been in relationship with each other on and off for about a year now and in one another’s peripheries for longer, we’ve only been officially dating for a couple weeks and that New Couple limerent honeymoon feeling is SO wonderfully present. I miss her two seconds after I leave. I text her when I wake up, we FaceTime until we get sleepy. I dream of a future with her and it feels tangible and achievable. suddenly all of those then-seemingly aimless instances of yearning and aching and wanting are real, witnessed, held, and honoured.

I am so in love and I am so glad to be where I am and where I have been.

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Coming out of burnout (maybe?) because I am truly so autistically fulfilled these days. I just went to three days in a row of concerts where one of my favorite bands of all time played through three of their old albums in their entirety, I got to collage with my boyfriend for five hours today, and now we’re having a sleepover and gonna play Pajama Sam together. This is everything to me and I’m so, so grateful to be alive and unapologetically autistic.

At the concerts I got to jump up and down and flap my hands and hit my palm on my chest to the beat of all my favorite songs and close my eyes and feel the bass in my body and sway to the piano.

Today I collaged and junk journaled with my boyfriend for five hours and watched an entire season of Superstore while we did and we got to laugh at our favorite lines because we both know it so well and we went through stacks of magazines and I cut out a bunch of yellow things. Then we swapped notebooks and made collages for each other with little notes in tiny envelopes in them and now I have a piece of her (a hundred pieces of her) when I leave for my residency that I get to carry with me and a note that says that she chooses me every day and I am so grateful for that and for the honor of choosing her too.

Even though we’ve been in relationship with each other on and off for about a year now and in one another’s peripheries for longer, we’ve only been officially dating for a couple weeks and that New Couple limerent honeymoon feeling is SO wonderfully present. I miss her two seconds after I leave. I text her when I wake up, we FaceTime until we get sleepy. I dream of a future with her and it feels tangible and achievable. suddenly all of those then-seemingly aimless instances of yearning and aching and wanting are real, witnessed, held, and honoured.

I am so in love and I am so glad to be where I am and where I have been.

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I just wanna address the rumours real quick; I am NOT microwave safe. do not put me in there

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me today

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pixel daisy :p

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I could listen to you all night

So tell me, tell me what’s on your mind?

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Vocal Stim of the Day 1/17/25:

“Donna Miller” said in a bobs burgers accent

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Life is too short to be anything short of romantically cringe! Tell me that you miss me two minutes after I leave and let me give you five “ok one more” kisses before I do!

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The intro to “celebration” is so versatile I could swap it out with anything. Those first few notes I mean

“Slightly different sizes of tree!” Woohooo!

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I think of us as children on a playground who have met there before

reconnecting as if no time has passed, we build sandcastles and play tag for hours and suddenly it’s time for you to go

So I swing alone on the swings and hope we’ll meet again here soon.

I’ve never found my way back to someone so many times before. It’s like remembering the words to an old favorite song- the memories come flooding back because they never left. Meeting you as a teenager, then in the spring, now in the fading summer.

Sometimes I wish I could ignore the serendipity. Move on, find someone who can love me fully and shamelessly. But.

You’d have to stop the world just to stop the feeling.

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Oops it wasn’t nothing

I think a part of me will always love you. Maybe it’s not meant to be anything more than that but I’m realising that I need to stop pretending it was nothing.

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If you’re over 5’3” GET OUT OF THE FRONT ROW GA STANDING AREA. LET ME IN THE FUCKING FRONT. I do NOT want to stare at your tall legs and the back of ur bf’s balding head ESPECIALLY if you don’t know all the words and you’re gonna pretend ur too cool for the concert we’re at

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WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THIS

Not wasting energy on boys trying to be “friends” w me rn when the connotation is that they want me to do emotional labor for them and they don’t intend to reciprocate!!!!!!!! Ur gonna slide into my dms months after putting me in the middle of ur divorce and five months of radio silence from you???

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Not wasting energy on boys trying to be “friends” w me rn when the connotation is that they want me to do emotional labor for them and they don’t intend to reciprocate!!!!!!!! Ur gonna slide into my dms months after putting me in the middle of ur divorce and five months of radio silence from you???

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Another thing that makes me feel like I have my shit together; salad