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Before & After Gif Challenge:
thank you @emziess for the tag!!!!! I always love doing these
I think the most obvious thing here is my obsession with trying to get the scene to look as neutral as possible. that translates into me mostly working with blue/cold undertones to combat the stupid yellow filter most shows have. it's fun except when it's not.
no pressure tagging @confessionseddie @rosettyller @stars-bean @magnusedom @lisa-cuddys @bilosan @s4buck @tvuniverse @crowleybrekkers
#my gifs#tag games#the sizes are all over the place#because i used the original ps files that i already have instead of making new gifs 😭😭#for multiple reasons all of them being that im lazy#i used that azi gif before for this challenge#but i have to show it off every chance i get#it and the 806 couch scene from 911 are my biggest pride and joy
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being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED
#which is dumb bc i have been formally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses i dont think they can just take it back right?????#this is so stupid and cliche but what if i have been faking it........ all along........ Argh.#when i was in res i was put on adderall (bc the house psych just kind of experimented w meds LMFAO) and i had to go off them after like#two weeks bc it was affecting my appetite in a way i couldnt afford at the time lmao. but i do genuinely feel like it helped during that#time.... which is why i want to go on it again!!!! but im scared theyll just be like nah and i wont be able to take any of my meds anymore#is that crazy. am i being crazy rn. idk i truly do think most of my experiences w school and like. life could be explained by adhd and#when i was a kid they thought i had it but the two meds they tried didnt work for me so they just. kind of gave up#and i was really extremely unable to do school and graduated hs w an insanely low gpa and then dropped out of community college. LMAO. not#that people w adhd cant be good in school i just couldnt make myself do homework and couldnt listen in class bc i was too busy focusing on#listening. if that makes sense#IDK. idk. i know it's become like. a trend to have adhd is the issue and everything is being attributed to having it so im worried that ive#like. accidentally fallen in w that? even though ive thought i had it for forever and everyone has been like girl do you have this. IDK!!!!#idk. idkkkk im just like. genuinely scared. it's not the end of the world if im not diagnosed obviously but that means that#im just like this for no reason at all. and there's no way of helping it bc it's just the way i am. and i actually am just shitty n lazy.#epic. which incidentally is the proper name for how fucking long these tags are my bad. if you read this far sorry for being insane ��
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IM BACK WITH ANOTHER REQUEST
i will most likely appear often so HAH
So like adam has a band right? And they make copious amounts of merch, like think adam plushies and shit, and ftm or male reader finds this merch in a random store and just decides to splurge on adam plushies and shirts and all this crap because he wants to support his boyfriend yea? It can be fallen adam or angel adam, adam’s adam lmao
(i wanted to add ftm because i am ftm, u can make it just plain male if that works better!)
Nuh uh bitch, you want ftm so we're making it ftm also this turned out a lil short but I hope you like it nonetheless.
That’s my fucking boyfriend, you intolerant cunts
pairing: Adam x trans!male!reader
warnings: language, reader gets misgendered (once)
note: not beta read bc fuck you
Having a famous boyfriend wasn’t always a good thing, especially when said boyfriend was Adam. It was bad enough that basically all of Heaven knew him for being the first man, the fact that Adam had decided to also be the lead singer and the face of his own band made it even worse, because that gave strangers an actual reason to walk up to Adam and talk to him. And now people did not only know Adam, they also knew you. He wasn’t very subtle about dating you - not that you wanted him to be, you found it quite adorable how proud Adam was of having you as his boyfriend. But Heaven’s people could be complicated and less tolerant - a thing you had to learn the hard way.
The intolerance of people had been way worse when the brunette and you had just started dating years ago, back then people didn’t even know Adam was bisexual. You and him were walking through Heaven’s streets, having a nice chat while also enjoying each other's company. The first man had his arm wrapped around your waist, he made it quite obvious that he liked you, not only by the way he looked at you every now and then, but also by his body language. The tip of his wing rested on your shoulder, he had you pressed close to his side - seeming a little overprotective and maybe even possessive.
That was when a small crowd of people surrounded the both of you, taking pictures of you and your boyfriend without your consent and asking Adam a million questions. Out of reflex you pressed your body against Adam’s side, trying desperately to escape the curious eyes and the flashing cameras. Adam was quick to raise his wing and shield you from their view. “How are you?” one of them asked Adam, not noticing that they were interrupting a sweet moment between boyfriends. “Can we take a picture together?” another angel asked as they took a picture of Adam without his consent. “Who’s the chick you’re hiding?” And that question made you tense up. A chick. They thought you were a woman. But before you were able to correct them, the first man pushed the noisy people out of the way - and let’s just say that he wasn’t gentle about it - as he hissed, “That’s my fucking boyfriend, you intolerant cunts.”
But then there were the bright sides of having a famous boyfriend - the merch. Well, actually there were more bright sides than just merch, but seeing shirts with your boyfriend’s face printed on it was quite hilarious to you and the fact that multiple stores in Heaven sold the merch of Adam’s band with such pride made it even better. The store you were in that very day made it even better. The brunette had told you a couple weeks ago that he and his band were working on selling plushies of themselves - he had explained that chicks loved cute shit and given that the majority of their fans were women that made a lot of sense. At least to you and Adam.
You stepped up to the shelves and took a closer look at the new plushies and you chuckled how inaccurate they looked. You didn’t know whether Adam and his band mates wanted them to look like that or if the production simply fucked up, but knowing your boyfriend and his friends, they most likely were too lazy to design them to look accurate. You grabbed one of the Adam plushies off the shelf - it was surprisingly soft - and without thinking twice about it you put the soft plushie in the shape of your boyfriend in your shopping cart. The other plushies on the shelf followed and the shirts hanging from the wall didn’t remain untouched either - let’s just say that you were quite surprised by how many different printed shirts they had with Adam’s face on it, because fuck, there had been a lot.
When you got back home from grocery shopping a couple hours later, Adam chuckled at how you tried to drag the quite heavy bags into the kitchen before he decided to help you with it. “The fuck did you buy? Rocks?” he joked as he lifted the heavy bags onto the kitchen counter. The brunette opened one of the bags to help you put away the groceries and when he was met with one of the plushies he and his band mates started to sell not so long ago, he raised an eyebrow at you. You simply shrugged, grabbed the bag filled with merch and pulled it off the counter, “Someone’s gotta support your ass after all.” And Adam couldn’t really argue against that.
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An Octopus's First Impression
I have so much brainrots but im not a good enough writer to put them into actual stories and stuff😭 AHHHH TEH PAIN (If it isnt obvious enough I have low confidence in myself with my writing ability TT) But yes, Hello! This is going to be my debut as a twst writer and perhaps for other fandoms too<3 for now I am most comfortable writing for twst though, but please do enjoy your visit on my page!
Azul has yet to make a proper introduction to you
Part II
>GN!ReaderxAzul
[disclaimer] A rather desperate and calculative Tako
[characters] Azul and the other sillies that get in his way X3
When you first arrived at NRC Azul was surely not one of the individuals you'd paid mind to. The first dorm leaders that made their appearances known to your acknowledgment first was Vil because of his striking awe-stunning and jaw dropping beauty, Kalim because of his outward friendliness and radiating-welcoming personality, and lastly Riddle because of his fierce strictness to follow the school rules accordingly (And along with other respective proper and prim mannerisms and clothing rules to abide by whenever your paths were crossed)
Idia of course did not make his presence known and you literally did not know of him only until later after meeting Orthro, and even then you've only heard of him and never actually seen him. I mean cmon, who has honestly?
Leona is always hiding away, lazing around somewhere as he naps away into his own comfort so you dont even encounter him until some magical fateful day, but thats a story for another time :)
Although perhaps meeting him already when everyone is asleep, you arent really formally introduced to Malleus. So until then, you technically havent met Malleus for multiple reasons that are rather lengthy to list.
And then there's Azul. oooooh boy. Despite how interested he is in you regarding your sudden magical predicament and trying to approach you, you somehow always seem to be going astray from your interactions with him
He's tried to approach you, ensuring he'd give a lasting impression on you as he's heading on over to greet you properly
though things dont go as planned when Lilia is suddenly snatching you away to go entertain a certain activity of his out of nowhere
Or when you're being chased by a random Savanaclaw student with a bread bun in your mouth and Grim buried in your side as your arm wraps around him securely, holding about 4x amount of food in his paws (Cater in the background taking pictures of this and posting it on his magicam #delinquent #hungry for some breadbunz #Getting chased #My junior is so cute and trouble some #Uh oh trouble!)
Perhaps if it weren't for those troublesome classmates of yours, ah yes - Ace and Deuce - then you wouldn't be stuck in a tree branch right now with that troubling huntsman below you trying to help you down and he would by now be shaking hands with you
Why are you just all over the place?! You've already met with that Lazy Lion when all he did was sleep on the floor and you miraculously tripped over him, resulting in him catching you in his arms before you fell face first into the hard cobblestoned floor! He didnt even do anything to try and approach you so why is it that despite all his meticulous planning on trying to approach you and make an appearance, it just never happens?! Not only that but you're now indebted to that second prince just for you to do him a solid and fetch him a meat sandwich. Seriously, what a waste of a perfect opportunity
Do you perhaps already know who he is? Is that it? Are you actively trying to avoid him?! You're stressing him out already here Prefect, hello?! Its very important for a business man to expand his connections, you know. You two have never even properly met! Now that wont do at all, he must make his appearance now. Especially when you can offer that lovely little dwelling of yours for a branch of his add on of the Mostro Lounge with some talking and persuasion of course :)
He's been carefully looking over your schedule, trying to figure out what classes you go to at what time and when; will we be able to cross paths here? What about when you head on over to your chem class? You have lunch with who and where? Noted, now he can definitely prepare to approach you now. Is he desperate? Of course not, he's just ought to give you a proper greeting is all! Its not weird that he's trying to remember your schedule and trying to talk to you and-
You're in the library, studying up on some topics you don't quite get in your history class. The library was rather quaint and tranquil, a nice aesthetically pleasing place to help you go over your lessons and to study. You had a test coming up in Professor Trein's class and that was something you did NOT want to fail in again. Failing once or perhaps twice or maybe even a possible third time but who knows was already enough to bring your grade down to get a harsh scolding from Riddle and a sympathetic look from Trey
Your face all in the book, your notes plastered and sprawled out on the side where they rest on the table, and your other needed stationary next to you, you were in a environment where no one was around for you to focus up and study hard
Well, no one around except for Azul
Perfect! This is a great opportunity to approach you now! No one is around and he can even talk up into having you indebted to him by helping you study! This situation is rather perfect if he says so himself
A confident look spreads across his face as he walks on over to you, a perfect and professional air surrounding him
"Good evening Prefect, It's a pleasure to finally meet your acquaintance. I do apologize on interrupting your study session here but I would like the humbling experience to introduce myself."
A nice and firm smile is sprawled on his face as his hand is outstretched towards yours to make a formal shake. You look up from your book and stare at his hand, soon taking it as you sit and ponder only for a second
"Oh, aren't you that guy who couldn't get above 10 inches off the floor while riding his broomstick?"
Crack. After finally being able to introduce himself for GOD KNOWS HOW LONG, you know him for THAT?! For sevens sake! Not as Octavinelle's Dorm leader, BUT "that guy who couldn't get above 10 inches off the floor"
God he wants to go curl away and hide now. His hand flinching as you mention so but you keep a firm hold on his to give him a proper shake, a little oblivious to his faltering demeanor
"I think Floyd mentioned you before too. You're that boss running Mostro Lounge he said right? I think he said your name was-"
"Azul Ashengrotto." Clearing his throat a little before he continues "It's a pleasure to meet you (y/n)" Azul is quick to regain his composure and returns the firm hold. How strong you grip and how long you shake is incredibly important in dealing with business, especially when wanting to make lasting impressions to expand your social networks
In his mind though he wants to quickly eradicate that impression you have about him, and thus he asks to join you - to which you complied - in hopes of overwriting and hopefully making you forget that horrific thing you witness regarding his flight skills
And of course Floyd just had to meet you before he did. Its not really surprising considering his boisterous personality and extroverted behavior when in the mood, but perhaps Jade has also met you then too. Considering that those two tend to be near one another
No, of course he's not feeling bitter that even those two slimy eels met you first. Of course he's not feeling a little irritated that they didnt try to strike you up into making a deal with him. Or maybe the fact that whatever those two were doing they'd at least try to make you two meet! Afterall, he did tell them to send you over once due to his interest in you. But he then adverts his attention back onto you when mention how you are currently studying for an upcoming test
You dont know him at all yet, so you let yourself be completely vulnerable. Looking like the smart and reliable gentleman that he is, you ask him to help you study. Oh how you make it so easy for him, he didnt even need to offer!
With a pleasant smile on his face, his slick and gloved fingers pushing up the frame of his glasses, he happily accepts with a sweet tone in his voice as you both sit together and go over the lessons together
#I WANTED TO WRITE MORE BUT THE LIMIT IS PERMITTING ME TO DO SO#would so greatly appreciate it if you were to reblog<3#most likely will have a part two😭#twst azul#twst#twisted wonderland#azul ashengrotto#azul x reader#azul ashengrotto twst#azul twisted wonderland#azul ashengrotto x reader#jade leech twst#jade leech#twst jade#floyd twst#floyd leech twst#floyd twisted wonderland#cater diamond#cater twst#riddle rosehearts#riddle twst#trey clover#trey twst#ace trappola twst#ace trappola#twst deuce#deuce spade twisted wonderland#lilia vanrouge#twst lilia#twst dorm leaders
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Hey there, about the laxatives as a pharmacist with a decade of eating disorders and been investing over 4 months now in fixing the laxatives damage, here's all the info on it I've got
1. There are multiple types of laxatives, each working in a different way. All of them however have one main job and that is to pull out water INto the large intestine in order to soften the stool. Where it's senna, fibers or chemical laxatives.
The chemical ones also have effect on the intestinal motility.
All of them sooner or later if abused lead to addiction. The intestines start to need that "outside help" in order to move properly.
Another side effect is very similar to the purging. Water retention. Since they drag extra water your body needs more and retains it. Therefore you can witness weight gain even after using them.
*disclaimer* those effects are usually noticed after prolonged period of time or abuse.
Their only purpose is to get rid of stools, so no it does not help with weight loss overall. Easily to be mistaken, since the weight you loose can be drastic depending on how much stool weight there is. It doesn't stop from absorbing nutrients, so whatever you eat will be processed.
2. You should opt for natural safer for the organism options such as senna, lactulose, glycerin suppositories are also an option, avoid biacodil and dulcolax-like forms because it's very easy to slip and their overdose can lead to rectal prolapse and you definitely don't want that. Also especially the chemical-made laxatives due to the water loss cause severe mineral deficiencies. I've seen a case of a girl sent to the er with extremely low kalium levels and heart failure due to laxatives abuse and anorexia. They can cause kidney failure for that same reason too.
3. Remember that they can make you poop after the binge but aren't a cheat trick. The more the dosage doesn't mean more effect. No it means that what you would have normally pooped like a normal person will result in muscle cramps and explosive diarrhea and feeling like your intestines are being ripped
4. No. When you purge you get rid of the stomach content. Dangerous in many ways but anyway. Better option than laxatives tbh. You can throw up to 80% of what you have eaten in the past 30 minutes to an hour. Laxatives get rid of the digested waste
I'm sorry it was so...straight forward but I hope it helps and you stay safe
P.s. I have lazy bowels, ibs, esophagitis, gastritis and reflux due to ed as well as bone and joint complications(im walking occasionally with a cane). Stay safe please!
Ooookkk so maybe I won’t use l4x4tives. But thank you so much anonymous stay safe and I’m sorry you got so many negative side affects!!!
#tw ana bløg#⊂((・x・))⊃#ed but not ed sheeran#tw ed ana#anor3cla#i need to be th1n#light as a feather#4nor3xia#ana food diary#anor3c1a#lax abuse#tw ana rant#anadiet
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Ooooh how about the whole Astral Express fam but both Caelus and Stelle + Y/N at an amusement park? Like who would be grabbing onto who for dear life on rollercoasters, who enjoys the spinny and 100 mph rides and then all of them on those water raft rides or just some ride with enough room for them all?
THE ASTRAL EXPRESS: AMUSEMENT PARKS
a/n: i hope i did your request right. i havent been to an amusement park in years so im honestly just assuming these rides all exist inside one park. i did think of writing for pompom but wondered if pompom can even leave the express. i enjoyed writing this, thank you! (ˊᗜˋ)/
March 100% enjoys thrill rides and ferris wheels. she acts like the ride is scary when she's in line but has no fear taking out her camera right before the roller coaster is about to drop. does her little peace sign pose and takes a picture as the people around are yelling and someone passed out. she'll even go on a ride multiple times just for a good picture. forces everyone to go with her at least once. if you say yes easily, great: you're going on the drop tower for the third time in two hours with March now! Welt holding his poor back, Himeko is a little dizzy, Dan Heng is sweating and feeling nauseous, Stelle and Caelus are both saying they're perfectly fine but their legs are shaking like crazy, March is completely unaffected though! she's running to the next ride and telling everyone to hurry up as if she didn't just make Caelus throw up inside a little. if you're unaffected like she is, pray for your legs because you'll be standing in line for hours going on the same ride again and again.
Caelus enjoys the bumper cars and bumper boats the most. there’s something therapeutic about purposefully crashing into people, according to him. he targets people but denies it. has nearly flipped another bumper boat open and was forced to apologize to the whoever was on that bumper boat by welt later. don't be surprised if Caelus begins targeting you for no reason, he does it for everyone!
Stelle loves the haunted houses and test of strength games. nothing better than going through it all trying to prove who's better. March happily goes along with her, Caelus will too, and Dan Heng will be dragged along whether he likes it or not! Himeko and Welt wait outside, still recovering from the rides March dragged them on. most of the time, you'll walk through the haunted house no problem. the most you'll get is a sharp gasp from Caelus and Stelle or an "EEP!" from March, and nothing from Dan Heng. but if it's one of those creepier haunted houses, well... you'll walk out, all of you holding onto somewhere on Dan Heng.
Dan Heng probably enjoys the lazy river the most. thats saying a lot since he doesn't exactly like nor dislike any rides at the amusement park. this is an activity the entire astral express will partake in! as much as thrills and fun rides and attractions are appealing, you can't beat a moment of relaxation in a chaotic day. Caelus and March have fallen asleep while floating down the lazy river while everyone else sits in comfortable silence.
Welt doesn't have a preference on rides and attraction. he's an everything type of guy! will try everything at least once, mostly because you and the others ask him. feeling too nervous to go on a ride but you still want to? ask him to tag along. don't want to line up for the overpriced amusement park food alone? he'll come with you. he's like a personal plus-one for everyone on the astral express crew!
Himeko enjoys the ferris wheels. something about being at the very top of the ferris wheel, overseeing the world from a different angle that is so, so nice. March likes the ferris wheel too! she and Himeko will take pictures in the ferris wheel. the entire crew is likely split into two cabins; one having Himeko, March, Caelus and you, and the other has Dan Heng, Stelle, and Welt. of course, Himeko doesn't stay on the ferris wheel the entire time, she can be seen going through gift shops and all that; a souvenir to commemorate this occasion.
#honkai star rail#honkai star rail x reader#hsr x reader#the astral express#the astral express x reader#march 7th#march 7 hsr#caelus#caelus hsr#stelle#stelle hsr#trailblazer#dan heng#dan heng hsr#welt yang hsr#welt hsr#welt yang#himeko#himeko hsr#the astral express family#the crew goes to an amusement park#pompom is currently watching over the express#can pompom even leave the express?#xieni's requests
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Sits across from you, one leg folded over the other, tell me about these blue lock boys as vampires…
૮ ͈>◡< ͈ა warnings — please read + mdni ! characters aged up to 20s, sfw, vampires, descriptions of blood, blood drinking, hunting, manipulation kinda, perhaps kidnapping, gn!reader — not beta read !
⭑ notes — i want to say more but im eepy!! so let me know if you like this…perhaps i will elaborate or make it a thing hehe.
now ok i havent got this entirely fleshed out or whatever but … the blue lock boys as a sort of vampire hoard. like they live together and have been for centuries in a way to protect themselves from humans in modern times. they move and act as a group — going out on group hunts together for animal blood even though it doesn’t suffice.
of course they’re always fighting, who gets to drink what and for how long (rin and shidou are always top contenders for this, bachira too). who’s being reckless with their hunts (kunigami hates when they don’t hunt in an orderly fashion so they don’t get caught) who hasn’t actually been out hunting (definitely chigiri and nagi, they’re too lazy or too pretty)
the forests are running dry and people are starting to catch on the boys never age, they’re suspiciously pale, way too fast to be normal and so they’re forced to uproot their little clan to a new town, new aliases, new blood.
and that’s when you come in, isagi stumbling upon the trace of your pulse one night when hunting through the forest. you’ve heard the rumours, the ethereal group of men living hidden amongst the trees — who look like they’ve seen more of life than what they show. you’re so foolish to have gone looking for them. you should have stayed home.
the weather picks up, the clouds turn a brutish shade of grey and throw down their tears, chills run rampant up and down your body…not just because of the cold and something tells you to run. but a stranger appears in the distance, who looks gentle and kind. he asks if you’re lost, if you need somewhere warm to stay and for some reason you find yourself entranced by the velvet tones in his voice and his youthful, handsome face.
you poor thing.
little do you know, it’s isagi - from a pack of starving vampires who charms you into their hold. with his boyish persona and bright blue eyes. he’s dangerous, but oh you, silly little human you — you don’t know that yet. he’s not being kind, he’s after the thick, viscous crimson inside of you that calls to him like the scent of a hearty stew. you’ll make a fine little blood bank for the hoard of vampires back home. that’s if isagi feels like sharing.
it’s late and the weather’s, he tells you, you should come stay at the manor for the night. he’ll keep you safe. little do you know that he’s had his eye on your carotid artery for the longest time, he can ear every droplet of blush pulsing through your veins and rising to the surface as he flusters you. the way he touches you around the waist is not out of kindness, it’s to make sure other vampires in the area know that you’re claimed prey.
isagi’s home is both magnificent and creepy — it’s very foundations intertwined with strong ivory, granite gargoyles and dusted with fallen leaves. it’s too large for him to live in alone, no wonder he offered you a place to stay. it must get lonely, scary living in a place that looks like it’s straight from a horror movie.
you don’t feel right when you enter the manor, it’s dark. there’s no light. you feel off.
the floorboards creek with heavy steps, voices of all octaves that sound hungry bounce off of the walls and they only seem to get louder when a hot flash of fear spreads through you and your pulse quickens. you try to run but there they are… a man in every corner. a man too beautiful to be alive.
then, multiple pairs of cruel red eyes appear from the darkness, accompanied by sick laughter and the figures of men slink out of the shadows. you realise then that isagi is not who you think and nor are his friends. for when you run to escape, he speedily blocks you at the door with eyes as rich as the blood in your veins and a toothy smirk, showing off his pointed fangs. looking down at you as if you’re nothing but a meal.
he tilts your chin up to face him, tender as if he can’t rip out your throat at any moment.
“i’m sorry little blood bank but i can’t let you leave. i’ve captured the perfect prey, so i think that makes you ours now.”
#✧ ₊˚✉️੭ — new notification#✧ ₊˚💬੭ — unknown messenger#blue lock x reader#bllk x reader#blue lock x you#LET ME KNOW IF U WANT MORE#i want to make this a thing actually#tw: blood#tw: violence#✧ ₊˚੭ — writing#tteokdoroki#⋆。°✩🕯️ — vampire verse
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ok after my post about the phone game earlier im aware this is going to sound like ive been hacked by advertising bots or something but i promise i havent
so anyway
i never thought i would be the kind of person who shells out for a box of pre-prepared meals to be shipped to me every week, however a number of factors have conspired to make that the case
i have never been the kind of person who cooks consistently. im just not. i always tell myself im going to do it and then i dont do it, i only cook when i feel like cooking and have the energy, and while i was working and now that im chronically ill those two things just dont coincide very often at all.
i can buy frozen meals at the grocery store like everyone else, obviously, but we can all agree most of them are not great right? bc most of them are just not great. and so there comes a point where im thoroughly sick of the like, 3 tolerable frozen meals i buy, which are nutritionally not the best in the first place by the way, and then
i impulsively buy takeout whenever im hungry an dont feel like eating something i already have in the house. this is also nutritionally not ideal.
i am also way too lazy to get up and drive out to pick up the takeout when i could just pay an extra $5-10 to have someone deliver it to me, so i waste a lot of money on that.
half the time i decide to try a new takeout place or something and it turns out to be bad. and then i eat enough of it that im not hungry anymore, and put the rest of it in the fridge, and never eat the leftovers. this is also hugely wasteful bc when i get takeout i try to get enough to have at least one or two meals worth of leftovers to justify the expense of delivery. so the upshot is i end up buying, at premium prices, a bunch of food im not going to eat.
so it turns out paying $10-12/meal for something i can just pop in the microwave whenever, that i am actually going to eat, in a reasonable variety of different stuff, with real nutrients in it and vegetables and stuff, is not only healthier for my lifestyle but i strongly suspect cheaper than what ive been doing. for, i cannot stress this enough, better quality food than what ive been eating.
so im eating my first factor meal right now, its actually delicious. its almost delicious enough for me to stop being pissed that they delivered it to the leasing office and i had to drive over there, have someone carry the giant box out to my car, then drive back here, bring grocery bags out to the car, and open the box and carry the contents inside in multiple trips, because i am a weak little kitten. but not quite.
(i have already contacted customer service to make sure they bring it to my door in the future. if it happens again im raising hell.)
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So the craziest of things just happened and i feel the need to document on the internet like its a reddit horror story. So hi person happening to read this. Im pes. But call me anything you like. It is currently 12:20 Central daylight time on the morning of October 16th 2024. I literally had an epiphany in the middle of the game. I literally in read time realize how lazy i was being.
It may not sound like alot but everything just
Clicked.
So i was playing brawlhalla. and will continue doing after i finish typing this. I have been playing like six years and im like low plat. But i was terrible for soooooo long.
Like 250 wins in silver. But i kinda just died alot and learned the hitboxes that way. Like i refused to look at tutorials. I literally didn't know anything. I just played Caspian and hit them before they hit me.
So when i got friends eho were good at it. Like very good. I realized all the shit you could do in this game. And then i watched the videos and tutorials.
Then i actually started training the muscle memory for movement and jusy how much freedom you have if you actually use your head and strip away all the bullshit thoughts and stop being scared.
Like im barely paying attention to one thing at any time. I need music and a game and another game on my phone.
I forever have multiple tabs open. Im realizing im having the epiphany while i type this.
Its interesting .
And im realizing i do this with literally everything. Everything i read and watch and play. Anything i can devote brainpower too
I should be learning everything.
Because why not.
The stuff i like is getting boring. Reading anything. My pride and joy
Whats kept me sane.
I just was to share them before i get more. I want a reason to read.
But if youve read this far. For whatever reason. Feel free to say hi. Im so bored. Weirdness would be interesting. Im leaving this here so that i dont forget this moment. As an anchor in my memories. To be my center. To be in the moment. How it feels.
#halloween#brawlhalla#Caspian#Caspian brawlhalla#adhd#i got like 97% on the test#but it was online so im not really sure#relatable#i hope#high#i should mention that im very high#immortal#immortal smokes#epiphany#that sounds too pretentious#but i can't think of another word#interesting#reading#boring#readers#booklr#bookworm#manwha#gaming#im scraping the bottom here#horror#copypasta#new to tumblr#storytelling#weird
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You know kawaki being weaker than boruto feel like writing mistake in the same series with sasuke and naruto having back and forth between who is stronger in their ideals
No fr it is a huge writing mistake and a lazy one, because if the purpose is to set up this 'development' Ikemoto teased for Kawaki then this is a piss poor way to do it
For starters Kawaki should've started OFF weaker than Boruto and we steadily see him getting stronger as time goes on, then it would justify Boruto being ahead of him in the timeskip because hes always had an edge over Kawaki from the get go so it doesnt come outta nowhere.
That wasnt the case tho, if anything Kawaki was CONSISTENTLY shown to be able to keep up with AND overpower Boruto MULTIPLE times with AND without his karma
The ONLY reason Kawaki lost this fight was instead of dodging, he subconsciously tried to use Karma to absorb it, forgetting that he no longer had it which is why he got hit by the attack and lost.
Other than that you see Kawaki keeping up with Boruto easily and even overpowering him despite him using shadow clones, Kawaki easily takes them all out forcing Boruto to use his karma to absorb his attack, which was an unfair advantage he had over Kawaki but despite that Kawaki was still keeping up with him regardless, it was only because he subconsciously tried to use karma which he no longer had that he lost. This is made very clear in Kawaki's thoughts afterwards.
In his fight with Isshiki we see Kawaki use one handed hand signs which is something only very skilled shinobi are able to do, Kawaki also says that Naruto told him that he had a knack for ninjutsu, and when training in chakra control Kawaki effortlessly learned it in a single day.
At this point in the story the only ppl we've seen able to use one handed hand signs were Haku, Minato Namikaze, Naruto Uzumaki, Sasuke Uchiha, Shojoji, and Koji Kashin, just 4 in the OG alone and only 2 [excluding Kawaki] in the NG, so this was a big deal and a true display of his talent
Kawaki was essentially a prodigy just like Boruto and was progressing FASTER than Boruto despite only just starting his training, Kawaki learned chakra control in a day, how to use fire release, and how to use shadow clones in an extremely short amount of time, this was nothing short of impressive for someone with NO formal ninja training AT ALL in his upbringing, to rapidly learn as much as he did in such a short amount of time, imagine how much stronger he could've been if that had continued? along with all the karma abilities he gained later on when Amado snuck it back on him? he would've been a DEMON.
This is Kawaki with a full power only karma vs Momo and look at how evenly matched they are
There was a reason they paid homage to Naruto and Sasuke in this panel, its because like them, they were EVENLY matched.
This is Momoshiki he's fighting, a being with far more combat experience and skill, plus with Borutos abilities to use at his disposal, and yet Kawaki who had only JUST reawakened his karma with ALL of Isshiki's abilities attached, he quickly figured out how to use each ability and kept up with Momo, he was such a problem for him that he even asks Boruto later NOT to let Kawaki know about them communicating because he didnt wanna deal with him again, even Momo, despite being evenly matched with him, DIDNT wanna risk another fight with him, that alone tells you just what another level Kawaki was on at that point.
Now lastly the Hokage mountain fight
Once again Kawaki overpowers Boruto and according to KK would've killed him here if he wasnt halted by Shikamaru and co arriving just in time.
So all throughout part one we see the clear gap between Kawaki and Boruto, Im not saying Boruto was weak because no he wasnt, what Im saying is they were EQUALS but it was very obvious that Kawaki was above Boruto in many aspects, how? lets look at Kawaki's training as opposed to Borutos
I eventually started thinking...that I really wanted the strength...to kill this bastard whose face I couldnt stand. And thats when I started rapidly improving. So even though Jigen was a total bastard...it turns out his methods were actually rational and made sense.
Kawaki's training under Jigen was VASTLY different than Boruto's training in Konoha, Boruto barely put in any work because he was a prodigy and everything came easy to him so he never had to struggle, the most work Boruto had EVER put in to learning something was the Rasengan, and that was the one and only time you ever saw his clothes get dirty from actual hardcore training, but other than that Boruto never experienced REAL gruling training the way Kawaki had and THATS why he had an edge over him.
Boruto always had it easy, but Kawaki actually STRUGGLED he was at the BOTTOM and Jigen pushed him to the absolute limit to get where he is now, and once Kawaki started embracing the training to get revenge on him he began to progress even faster.
This is why Kawaki understandably had an edge over Boruto, he not only had much harsher training and put in twice as much effort than he did, but he was also trained in how to use his karma whereas Boruto wasnt, so it made SENSE for Kawaki to be a little more ahead of him.
Heres where things get goofy, we end with Kawaki being way above Boruto even with his karma activated now because unlike Kawaki he cant use Momos abilities the way Kawaki can Isshiki's, in a battle between Kawaki with his karma activated vs Boruto with his its a one sided slaughter in Kawakis favor, and vs Borushiki their evenly matched to the point Momo doesnt wanna test him if he doesnt have to until the time is right, this is how we leave off before the timeskip, Kawaki clearly > Boruto in power
Fast forward to now in the timeskip and they try to repeat what happened with Naruto and Sasuke in shippuden with Kawaki and Boruto and it...fails miserably because the contexts are completely different and doesnt work
Sasuke was a prodigy while Naruto wasnt, Sasuke also had special clan abilities that gave him an edge over Naruto unless he was using Kurama, overall Sasuke WAS the stronger of the two unless again, Kurama was involved. Now in the timeskip Sasuke really is WAY stronger than Naruto and is even able to subdue Kurama meanwhile Naruto still obviously had a long way to go to catch up which he eventually does.
Why doesnt this work for Kawaki and Boruto? because they put BORUTO in SASUKES place which DOESNT work from what we know and whats been established, in reality this should be Kawaki in Sasuke's place not Boruto.
Tell me what sense does it make for the guy who challenged team 7 to serious combat training in his impatience and desperation to get strong enough to fight Code, the guy who asked Naruto to teach him ninjutsu so he could get stronger, the guy who was irritated at Boruto just sittin back actin like everythings ok despite the severity of the situation their in now, the one who vowed to kill Boruto and every other Otsutsuki that threatens Naruto and Konoha including himself once hes done, to sit on his ass for 3 years?
When Sasuke had a goal, getting the power he needed to avenge his family and murder his brother and he spent those 3 years doing whatever he needed to achieve that goal, but Kawaki? his goal is to kill all Otsutsuki and get rid of every threat to Naruto and Konoha, and he spends 3 years doing...nothing.
Literally, Kawaki apparently did NOTHING for 3 years straight but keep watch for Code and shrinking any claw marks that popped up, thats it, thats all he did for 3 years straight despite having such a massive goal to achieve, you want us to believe that Kawaki would settle for just having karma as his only defense and weapon against them? you want me to believe KAWAKI who has always been self aware of strengths and weaknesses? the guy Ikemoto himself says has very low self esteem, yet you want me to believe hes arrogant enough to think hes strong enough at present to do it all as he is and doesnt havent to put in any effort at all to get even stronger?
And dont you DARE try and tell me that he thought Boruto wasnt training this whole time, dont you DARE try and play us like we're stupid enough to believe Kawaki knew Boruto and Sasuke ran off together and just thought they spent the whole time hiding not doing anything. PLEASE dont try and play us like we're that stupid because if they do Ima be pissed cuz no way Kawaki is that stupid, he knew Boruto was working on getting stronger over these years and gonna come back and confront him again eventually.
This is why Kawaki being as weak as he is makes no danm sense, because he KNEW Boruto was definitely gonna be training during this time he remained on the run and the stronger Boruto gets the stronger Momo gets by extension, but he also has to worry about Code WHO IS UNLIMITED NOW that its still debatable if Kawaki is or isnt a match for him since we only have one statement by Mitsuki to go off of which is hard to take at face value because neither he nor Kawaki has ever fought Code without his limiters themselves to really know that for a fact.
But lets for the sake of the argument say Mitsuki's right that Kawaki cant beat unlimited Code, do you know how ridiculous it is that Kawaki was DESPERATE in 58 trying to gain power in order to protect Naruto from Code because of what a massive threat he was? WITH his limiters still ON? yet you want me to believe with his limters OFF that Kawaki would be this lax? you want me to believe Kawaki is so ARROGANT that he thought with his karma back and Isshikis abilities that he was so overconfident in himself that he believed he could take Code and anybody else? so we just gonna forget the wake up call he already got from Daemon that even with his new power only karma that he could still get his ass whooped?
So you telling me Kawaki hasnt already learned that he isnt invincible? you want me to believe that for 3 years he was just arrogant the whole time and overestimated his abilities?
Kawaki has NEVER been arrogant, he's always been self aware and even if he would miscalculate and get humbled he would ALWAYS learn from it and do self reflections and most of all take ACTIONS to try and improve and not fail again.
This is why the writing for Kawaki in TBV is such a writing failure, because they try to put him in Narutos position, but they WROTE him in SASUKES instead.
This is why its so jarring, he was clearly written in Sasukes position, slightly above the MC with certain advantages over them, a prodigy who was able to both quickly learn ninjutsu as well as how to use karmas full power in a short amount of time, everytime Sasuke got humbled in a fight he worked his ass off to get stronger just as Kawaki did after every loss, Sasuke refused to accept staying weak, if he lost he worked hard so he wouldnt lose again and Kawaki was the same way, anytime he lost he reflected on it hard and wanted to find any way possible to prevent it from happening again
Yet for the timeskip Kawaki has done zero reflection, no training, not taking any of the situation seriously enough to do more than just stand watch and shrink claw marks and you expect us to think this is the same character we left off from chapter 80?
You want me to believe the guy who said THIS about himself would suddenly be so arrogant and overconfident as to think he didnt need to train for those 3 years straight?
The guy who even with a karma thats purely a weapon, with all of Isshikis power and abilities, calls himself a 'powerless piece of garbage' and yet you want us to believe that for the 3 years Boruto was gone and Code was makin his army that Kawaki would just sit on his ass content with being a powerless piece of garbage? you really want us to believe that? FOH
This is why I HATE when ppl mischaracterizes him as being arrogant because he is the furthest thing FROM it, if anything the one thats arrogant is BORUTO himself, HE was the one constantly overestimating himself, being way too overconfident and sure of himself despite the gravity of the situation he always had a nonchalant attitude that everything would be alright and that all they needed to do was 'train' the normal way and everything would be fine. He was so arrogant he stopped taking the pills that were somewhat subduing Momoshiki when he'd break loose because he arrogantly thought he could 'better control' Momo now when he literally had no reason to believe that after he had JUST taken over him and almost killed his own father IF not for the pills pushing Momo back into his subconscious when it did for it to allow Kawaki the opportunity to kill him before Momo regained control
Boruto CARELESSLY removed that only safeguard and what do we see? him later get easily taken over again but thankfully Momo didnt rampage that time and instead just saved Kawaki, but in the timeskip we see the situation has gotten so bad that if his karma resonates even a little that he has to flee far away from Kawaki to try and fight it back or he'll lose control, meaning Boruto has actually gotten MORE out of control than when he left.
Every time we see Boruto in the timeskip he is the very definition of arrogant, he is SO overconfident in himself and his abilities that its actually OOC even for him to be THAT sure of himself to the point he actually looks down on other ppl, sure Boruto would talk down to his enemies, but he'd never talk down to his FRIENDS and ppl he cared about the way he does now.
Dont Mitsuki. If he doesnt stand a chance against me, neither do you. So this fight is pointless.
More is not necessarily better, you know. You're destroying the enviroment.
I may be to blame, for sure...but I cant die yet. I have a ton of things to do. Which is why...I dont have time to play around.
That aint what I asked. And on what basis should I trust you?
Pitiful. Havent you been training at all?
Now let go of me, Kawaki. Or I'll cut off your arm.
These are actual quotes from him to his friends/allies that he said dead seriously. If you never read TBV and I told you those were actual Boruto quotes to his friends you wouldnt believe me, because lets be real Boruto always had some level of arrogance about him and he always talked some type of shit to ppl as his father also did back in his younger days, but it has never been THIS obnoxious and more often than not unwarranted.
He talks down to Mitsuki like Madara would talk down to his opponents, he called their fights with him a 'dance' to degrade them, they were ants compared to him and fighting with them was no more than a dance for him. Madara KNEW he was above danm near everybody and acted like it, he was very arrogant and only ever acknowledged Hashirama as his equal and worthy opponent, everyone else was insignificant wastes of time.
Boruto has the same attitude as Madara, the way he speaks to Mitsuki you wouldnt even think that was once his close friend, and dont give me that hes trying to act like Kawaki to not expose him because Ikemoto says Boruto is adopting Sasuke's persona, which is another flaw because Sasuke been humbled himself and dropped his former arrogant attitude and understood not to overestimate himself and his capabilities. So if this is Boruto's attempt at being like Sasuke then he fails miserably, but I dont believe thats what this is, I believe this is Boruto himself just amplified by the fact that KK gave him essentially cheat codes to speed up him getting stronger and surpassing everyone else currently because he had that unfair advantage.
Boruto's arrogance stems from the same place Madara's did and thats the fact that they both knew they were above everyone else and therefore didnt respect them and talked down to them as they were beneath him. You cannot tell me the same Boruto 3 years ago would ever talk to Mitsuk this way even in this exact same scenario because back then Boruto still had some humility and self awareness despite his arrogance, he had times where he got humbled and would acknowledge hes lacking and still needs work.
Compare that to Boruto now and he's literally just Madara with Boruto's face, and thats only because KK gave him cheat codes to speedrun past everyone else that now hes to the point where he is exactly the person Itachi warned Naruto not to be or else he'd risk becoming another Madara, ironic right?.
But enough about that, pay attention attention to this quote right here because this is what really hammers in how bad this 'parallel' is
Pitiful. Havent you been training at all?
This line right here is a clear reference to what Sasuke said to Naruto when they first fought in shippuden, that the time he used chasing him should've been spent on training, but heres why this doesnt work for Boruto to Kawaki.
For starters Boruto was the one who left to train, Kawaki never chased him, he waited for him to return to the village of his own accord.
Both Sasuke and Naruto left to train under different masters, two of the legendary sanin, Jiraiya and Orochimaru, so during those 3 years BOTH were training for their individual goals and eventual rematch that would occur in the future, but only Sasuke gained massive results whereas Naruto still clearly had a long way to go to catch up.
That did not happen with Boruto and Kawaki, instead only BORUTO had a master, and not just one master, but TWO, Boruto had TWO masters teaching him and training him throughout the 3 years, 1 yr with Sasuke, and the other 2 with KK.
And what makes this such an unfair advantage is that they were not normal masters, Sasuke was the student of one of the legendary Sanin who surpassed both him and Madara by the end of the series, KK is literally a Jiraiya clone who is another legendary sanin, but not only that, he has PRECIENCE which is essentially future vision that gave him the insight on what Boruto would learn and how to speed up him learning and mastering it in a short amount of time.
Compare that to Kawaki who had fking NOBODY this entire time, nor did he seek anyone out himself despite the huge end goal he has in mind, apparently we're supposed to just believe that Kawaki was content with his current power level and never sought out to get any stronger despite knowing thats exactly what Boruto was gonna do over these years, apparently he just didnt think he could be surpassed and defeated? FOH
So this is why this comparison doesnt work, Sasuke and Naruto were treated EQUALLY so when Naruto came back still weaker than him, it was understandable for Sasuke to taunt him about his lack of improvement despite being trained personally by a sanin himself as well.
Boruto taunting Kawaki and calling him pitiful for not training doesnt have the same effect because he KNOWS Kawaki doesnt have anyone that WOULD be training him to begin with, the only ppl Kawaki trained with was Jigen and Naruto who are both gone so who was the person he was supposed to be training with? how did Boruto expect him to of trained over the years? did he think he'd train himself? that still wouldnt be as effective as Boruto got to see himself how he nearly got caught once he was on his own without Sasuke and only rapidly improved after being taken in by KK.
So tell me, how exactly did Boruto expect Kawaki to of trained over this time? this interaction doesnt hit the way it did with Sasuke, with Sasuke it was him mocking Naruto for his lack of progress despite all his training, with Boruto this just comes off as downright bullying because he KNOWS hes way stronger than him because he had an unfair advantage and KNOWS Kawaki had absolutely NOBODY teaching him over this time so calling him 'pitiful' for 'not training' is just straight up bullying because he knows he had nobody TO train him over this time.
Picture it like this, imagine a tall person taking a short persons hat and their saying give it back trying to reach for it but cant cuz the person is too tall and their response is 'Well if you want it back then just take it from me' knowing danm well they cant cuz their too short to reach and then they call them 'pathetic' for not being able to take back the hat.
Thats Boruto essentially, calling someone 'pitiful' for not training when you knew there was nobody training them to begin with is just bullying, beating up someone and calling them pitiful because you hit the jackpot with 2 of the best possible masters you could have guiding you these 3 years while Kawaki had nobody is again, just downright bullying.
And this is where Ikemoto fked up trying to make this comparison, because he missed the entire point of that scene in shippuden, it wasnt Sasuke bullying Naruto who he already knew was weak and couldnt put up a fight, it was him mocking Naruto for his lack of progress vs his despite them both having equal training, yet only one of them made massive progress and that was Sasuke.
Kishimoto said that he always wanted Sasuke and Naruto to progress together, if one got strong, the other would catch up and vice versa. It was never Sasuke is just inherently stronger than Naruto and Naruto is just pathetically beneath him, one might have an edge over the other at one point but the other would always catch up because as I said, the two always progressed together, which is why by the time of the war they were both equal in power.
With Boruto and Kawaki this is just very one sided, Sasuke nor Naruto ever had massive improvement while the other literally didnt do anything in the meantime, ppl make fun of Naruto not learning much over the 3 years he trained with Jiraiya and say that Kawaki is supposed to represent Naruto by having also not learned much but the difference everyone is missing is that KAWAKI DIDNT TRAIN WITH ANYBODY.
Naruto was a joke BECAUSE he had a master who was teaching him all those years and yet didnt make much progress despite it compared to Sasuke.
Kawaki had NOBODY so what the hell do you expect? their situations are incomparable and I hate that Ikemoto is trying to paint it like it is only validating the misconception more when it simply isnt true.
Him teasing some future development for Kawaki, again, trying to paint him like Naruto who also had to catch up, just again doesnt hit the same way because Kawaki will be starting from SCRATCH whereas Naruto actually DID have 3 years training put in already that just needed to be taken up a notch to gain more results, Kawaki will literally just be starting at square one which leads me to yet another and probably the biggest fatal flaw of this writing decision.
Kawaki is most likely not gonna get stronger by training, but by Amado just giving him various enhancements to put him in Boruto's level which if true, will be such a huge spit in the face and the most laziest way to even them out. Even with Sasuke taking the pills to enhance his curse mark power to even him to Naruto that was only that ONE instance and every other power up Sasuke got from that point on was through his OWN efforts and training.
But for Kawaki I can already tell their gonna take the easy way out, hes not gonna actually work for anything despite what he said in 58, Ikemoto is gonna completely disregard everything we knew and loved about Kawaki up till this point and make him cheat to win just as Boruto did but worse, instead of Boruto usin cheat codes, Kawaki will have the equivalent of taking steroids. Both are bad but atleast one you actually have to put some effort into achieving, whereas the other you just swallow or inject and become insta buffed.
Now I could be wrong and I hope I am, because I would hate to see a character who so consistently tried to WORK for the power to get back at all the ppl who wronged him and hurt or threatened to hurt the ppl he loves, end up just askin for a quick powerup in a lab by the very same man that traumatized him and modified his body against his will all just to 1up Boruto.
So yea, this plotline doesnt work because as usual, Ikemoto put zero effort into MAKING it work.
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whining about personal irl introspection stuff
since my friend groups mostly consist of trans peeps it always has kind of wormed its way into my head my own thoughts abt my gender and stuff but like for my whole life ive always been pretty comfortable as a cis dude and like for the most part despite growing up with very traditional parents ive also never really felt pressured to like follow the same gender roles they have like my parents are basically the one foot in the door type where like if for whatever reason hypothetically i come out as trans and gay double whammy them my dad whose a pretty Mans Man type of guy would still love me but i know he'd think that he did something wrong (out of ignorance not malice he would absolutely maul someone if they made fun of me) vs my mom who would also be accepting but it would become the next hot topic of her friend groups gossiping and neither are malicious but ive also seen them make themselves suffer over their own gender roles (men do this v women do this) and like i honestly think the reason i dont put much stock into gender as a concept is because most people focus on the roles aspect of it and even with my best efforts ive never really deprogrammed that out of them but honestly above all else im lazy as hell and wont impose more arbitrary rules like that onto myself so when i say im cis im not cis plus im like cis hasnt touched the personalization settings and forgot the login and ofc this would also bleed into ideas like romance and sexuality with aforementioned roles and when it comes to romance this leads more into my experiences with my asshole brother who would always be bringing girlfriends and bragging about being a sex beast but he could never hold onto a relationship and was always dumped and cheated on multiple times (and with modern context and Adult Brain i know its likely because he was a fucking asshole) while my parents would always argue but theyd also been together for 35+ years and wouldnt trade each other for the world so neither of those would be a good reference point for romance but this one also came down to me Not Really Caring where I wouldn't mind a romantic relationship if it happened and im p sure if I liked the person enough to where said stage of romance would even be happening i would invite it but im also not really agonizing over it and can be pretty comfortable being without a partner and on the sex side of things this one is a little weird because ive also Not Cared about it however i know I do have desire for people so im not ace and when it bleeds so intermittently with the romance aspect i just kind of assumed i was ace for a while in my teens until i learned the Words and Terms and such so i was like oh huh i guess i just dont seek romance and thats not the same as liking other humans physically and on that front i guess im just ok with any type of partner so like with neither of these considerations ever being a factor for gender or presentation esp when im a 6ft behemoth of a guy with a strongman body build and never had any type of body dysphoria with that i was and honestly still am perfectly comfortable just being a cis dude and for the past decade it has literally not changed im here for a good time not a long time
anyways this is a very long winded wordy way of saying that im pretty sure im cis aro and bi/pan because ive never cared about gender never wanted a partner and also i appreciate mens tits and cockenbalsen too much to be straight and this post came about because I was thinking of getting an anime man body pillow cover and was imagining the scandalized looks on my parents faces lol
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im supposed to be doing an art project right now, but I'm requesting instead.
Poly Vbs with a reader that has really really fluffy hair?
they just play with it
hcs - poly!vbs with fluffy haired reader
tags: gender-neutral!reader x poly!vivid bad squad, reader has wavy or curly hair, headcanons bc i'm lazy :3
an: this took four days longer than it should've teehee 😁 if it's any consolation i've been procrastinating on multiple projects that are due tomorrow so . gl 🫡
i hate how tumblr formats lists but we ball ☹️
for the record i'm interpreting "fluffy" hair as dry-ish wavy-curly hair (banger bc i have dry ahh curly hair 💪 easy peasy to write abt lmao)
an makes you do your hair with her in the morning - it's self-care slash affection time all rolled into one !!
i feel like it'd take her a while to do her hair since she puts so many clips and bobbles in it, AND she has really long hair
props to her i would've chopped it all off by then 😭
but yeah i feel like she'd be all peppy and cheery in the morning while the two of you do your hair
being the sweetheart she is, she'd probably help you style it if you're sleepy :p
akito probably wouldn't think much of your hair, but not in a dismissive way !!
i feel like he wouldn't pay much attention to your hair until he realizes he's fiddling with a lock of it mindlessly in the middle of a conversation
assuming you're both a part of vivid bad squad and a normal person, you'd put your hair up for dance practices and stuff like that
dancing without putting your hair up is a bad idea would not recommend
while taking a break after dancing for a while, you'd be recuperating and all that without noticing a stray lock of hair fell out of your pony tail
damn
and then boom there's akito twirling it around his finger while talking to kohane about pointers and tips
he'd SO get shy if you were to point it out - please do !!
i feel like kohane's love language would be acts of service, so it's only fitting that she'd frequently offer to do your hair
braids, pony tails, she knows it all for some reason
you could be sitting upside down on the couch and she'd start braiding it
would it look incredibly dumb bc gravity works like that?
yes
would either of you do anything about it?
no
i feel like she'd come up with and look for new hairstyles to do and make you sit down and let her do them on you out of the blue
let her cook ‼️ she's your go-to for music video hair-styling trust 🤞
toya toya toya ...
i feel like he'd be the type to help you out on wash days
he'd also be down to chat meanwhile because it takes so long
assuming your hair is fluffy because it's textured, it'd probably be a hassle to wash it because . that's just how textured hair works
it sucks !! especially when you have to wash your hair so frequently in between dance practices and performances since it gets all sweaty and icky and OUGH
you probably wouldn't go the full mile and do it all in the shower oh HELL nah
who has the energy for that ?? not you
so basically imagine this
you're trying and failing to detangle a knot in the back of your head because it's conveniently at an angle where you're struggling to reach
toya to the rescue !
you explain how to detangle hair and boom it's gone
toya to the rescue :3
overall i feel like having fluffy hair wouldn't really matter or actively affect the way they love you or show affection
but would they play with it and point out how cute it looks?
possibly. probably .
#asks#reqs#ask: whoswony#pjsk#vivid bad squad#vvbs#akito#kohane#an#toya#polyvbs#pjsk x reader#vbs x reader#vvbs x reader#vbs headcanons#vvbs headcanons#polyvbs headcanons#akito headcanons#akito x reader#an headcanons#an x reader#kohane headcanons#kohane x reader#toya headcanons#toya x reader#good god my hands hurt i hate tagging#works#fics
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Why I think the Minecraft Mob Vote Isolates it's Players
I think it's fair to say this year's Mob Vote (2023) brought up a lot of long standing issues that have been reintroduced into the Minecraft community throughout the years. Everywhere between basic marketing practices and outright revolution, I want to try and make sense of the chaos I feel is somewhat warranted.
To be blunt, I will be sure to disclaim that I don't like Mob Votes. I've played since a few years after launch, and have since then off and on. Not really due to Minecraft itself (there are some factors), but due to the fact that usually I'd rather just play other games more. That's not a bad thing, and I attribute more to growing up and learning about other games. The reason I mention this is to show I have been through many of a mob vote before, even back when they were Biome votes. From the start, my indifference turned to annoyance.
I believe where I and many others lost our trust in the mob votes was back in during Minecon 2017, the very FIRST one. This presented the community 4 rough ideas of a new creature mob to be added. At the time the Mob Vote was insanely popular, and Mob B, the Phantom, won. However when it did finally get added to the game, I remember many expressing disappointment in what the mob's role would be in the game. On top of that, back when the votes first started happening. Mojang is on record for saying the votes did not decide what got added entirely. They specified it was what was being added first and prioritized, but in later updates the losers of the votes would be added and updated in an appropriate update. And while some biomes as promised have been updated and revitalized, the same cannot be said for the mobs. The very first mob vote was in 2017, and in the 6 years since then, not any of the losers (besides frogs, but I am not counting it because it was in a biome vote.) have been added to the base game. If a bit ironic, they've been added or almost added to side games owned by Mojang.
Because of this, I can absolutely see why people are frustrated with Mojang. Especially when the own the most successful game in the world is Minecraft. That is not an exaggeration, Minecraft is still the best selling video game in the world overall. Multiple activity websites still show millions of players on Minecraft and playing it. It's a big enough game to have a convention just for this game year after year. To call them outright lazy might be a stretch, but there seems to be a fundamental disconnect between Minecraft and it's players. It feels like the line of communication is completely gone. When that communication ends, and you have a growing number of disgruntled gamers, that's how you apparently get Mob Vote revolution, demanding all mobs be added despite the vote, and for it to be removed. It's been nothing but "Feed the Machine" edits demanding to the end of the mob vote. While some are made in good fun, in normal internet fashion, many have expressed their anger in less productive ways. Many outright saying the devs are lazy, when really we don't have any idea what the devs are doing. I don't think I've ever seen this community directly related to the game's development this toxic or plainly pessimistic about the game as a whole. They need to start keeping their promises as a gaming company, or more and more people will become dissatisfied. What do you all think? Im... honestly 50/50, I see both sides.
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In response to the other anon asking if you guys look for our identities, frankly i couldnt care less if you know who i am, its fairly easy to figure out. i just like reasons to relate myself to Deer. I did a self portrait once as a deer mount pouring blood. it was quite...something. definitely got a lot of responses to that one.
as for art being subjective vs objective:
i can see where each of you in coming from in that sense. some things ARE blatantly what they are and it would be kind of wild to say otherwise. like who am i to tell Da Vinci that the Mona Lisa is actually an space cat alien, not a woman. but i do still think its possible to get multiple interpretations out of her.
i will also be the first to say im not a fan of the genre of what is technically in the art world called a "ready-made". basically like what you said, taking an object that already exists, fastening it to something, setting up lighting for it, etc. ya know, MINOR changes and calling it art. im not a big fan. its lazy and unoriginal in my blunt opinion. it doesnt create new ideas and thoughts in my brain unless i BS them. like if i see an apple on a pedestal, im taking it at face value, because its simply an apple on a pedestal. it being placed on something doesnt make it any less or more to me. its just an apple. and according to your definition, it would not be art since it does not cause or create new ideas or conversation to flow. it furthers nothing.
unfortunately, in the art community, its hard to have this debate because the widely used definition is the "everything is art" one and some people cannot take criticism to save their life. if you tell suzy sue that her michael jackson x barack obama fanart is not visually compelling and offer her advice, she might cancel you on twitter. we all need to stop being wusses and also stop being rude in the art world. its important to give your fellow artists helpful and meaningful critique and feedback without being harsh or condescending. and it is of equal importance to learn to accept that feedback and use it to better yourself as an artist.
i think another big thing for me and whether something is actually art is the design itself. does it have an interesting composition? does it use an impactful color scheme? does it have a focal point? etc, etc. if these points can be argued for a piece, im more willing to call it art.
realism is also a point of contention because some will ask "whats the point if it just looks like a photo?" the skill, the effort, the time. the unique touch of human hands that gives it a slight charm even in the most hyper realistic pieces. that is the point.
have another piece as a treat. a drawing i did from life for class last semester, its a plant. about as opposite as you can get from the other piece i shared:
https://imgur.com/a/hkcqYKK
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Ooh, that's interesting. Why the choice of deer, though, so specifically? Is it for some reason, or just an instinctive decision?
And I agree with your point on what you've referred to as "ready-made". I guess, for art to be meaningful, it has to mean something in the first place, and an apple sure as hell doesn't mean anything to people. Honestly, it seems like lazy artwork to me, even though I'm not an artist. But I'd like to ask you: what exactly would you define as 'ready-made'? Would that mean, then, that photographers' work are technically also 'ready-made', as all they're doing is taking picture of something preexisting and hence not creating, in that sense? What's the boundaries between something that's art, and something that's 'ready-made'? Is it something that you can define at all?
There's this branch of art called 'Dadaism', and there are some works inside that may be considered 'ready-made' in a way. For example, Marcel Duchamp's Fountain and Bicycle Wheel are famous examples of that art movement. And Dadaism was actually made up of artists who wanted to use this nonsensical, crazy form of art to express horror and disgust of the bloodshed that occurred during World War 1. It was commonly known as the 'anti-art' movement, and its main purpose was to create art that would confuse, shock or even aggravate the public.
This ties in to what you'll see Ryuzaki discuss below. Perhaps the occurrences of this 'ready-made' art isn't really the art itself, but it's the thoughts and emotions the artist wanted to express when making the art. And, if this 'ready-made' art exists because of a true effect the artist intended to create on the general public, then it's arguable that it could be considered as art, because isn't art used to express your feelings in the first place? Even though I still don't really consider 'ready-made' pieces as art...it's still interesting food for thought.
And your piece is wonderfully drawn. I love how you rendered the leaves; it looks really beautiful. Kind of reminds me of Chinese bamboo paintings...I'd love to see more of your work, if you'd like to share!
Lastly, thanks for your ask. I love having these kinds of discussions, even though I unfortunately took a long time to get back to you..
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wow.. the plant piece is beautiful.. all of the strokes come out so nicely and eloquent. it really makes me want to see this deer self portrait now. that sounds even more intriguing. no pressure though, of course. i just think it's a really fascinating idea.
and as much as i despise "ready-made" pieces too, i honestly have a slight respect for them. i would still consider them art, because i do think it evokes a conversation, but specifically the kind of conversation that makes you question it's existence, if that makes sense.
for example, that duct-taped banana i mentioned in the last ask, that's actually what made me question the whole idea of art in the first place. if something so insignificant can be considered so valuable to people, then who am i to tell them that it's not really art? maybe it is. or maybe the questioning of what it is was the whole point. maybe, the conversation it was actually sparking was more-so like.. a rebellion. a taunt. almost as if it were saying: "you want art? i'll give you art. and you'll be forced to take it." if i remember correctly, there was actually another artist who did that exact thing. his name was richard mutt and he submitted a urinal with a signature of his name as an art piece. it was stupid, and absurd, and that was the point. he submitted it to prove that if he signed his name on it and paid the application fee, the group he submitted it to would've accepted it no matter how thoughtless. he made an art piece that was meant to depict what stupid art looks like, and it worked. so as much as i despise the pieces, i do still think they're art, at least to an extent.
it's things that are made with the intent of gaining either popularity, money, or whatever else there is that i don't consider art. i'd go into more detail about it, but there's already a video out there that depicts it really well, so i'll just link it here. it's by cj the x and he's known for being very chaotic, so it might be a difficult to listen to at first, but i personally really like it. their points always wrap together really nicely as the video continues and the humor is my style, so i swear it's worth a watch, hah.
anyways. i'll stop myself there so i don't annoy you too much, but i do also agree with your points on the design, process, and overall thought that gets put into art pieces. i really like this discussion overall, actually. i apologize if i sounded rude at all, i have no intention to. i enjoy being able to converse about these topics, haha. so thank you for letting me, truly.
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hi! i just wanted to post a question about the sentimoster theory. would you gen find it less fucked up if A. its MEANT to be abusive. (astruc as mentioned multiple times that gabriel and nathalie "arent abusive" and its like??? HELLO??? WHAT DO U MEAN???? so like, if it WANT intended for this to be abuse is what im posing here) and B. its WASNT being done in the context of a "kids show" (thus, allowing them to actually EXPLORE the topic of WHY it's fucked that he's a senti) tldr: do you think it'd be any better if it was intended to be a horrible thing, or do you personally believe there is NO fixing the "senti adrien" situation? ty in advance, i love how ur brain works /gen
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would you gen find it less fucked up if A. its MEANT to be abusive.
not really (also i don't keep up with things astruc says anymore so i have no comment on what he says about gabriel and nathalie). My problems with sentidrien that i've posted about are all under the assumption that it is meant to be abusive and i still think it's royally fucked up, a really bad idea, and they shouldn't do it.
B. its WASNT being done in the context of a "kids show"
I mean I still wouldn't like it. under the context of it not being a kids show would just highlight how unnecessary of a thing it was to. In the eyes of a lot of people it being a kids show is framed as a reason for why it was necessary so it not being for kids erases that idea entirely even if it's wrong which it is, and just leaves it being lazy and not needed.
it's like... it wouldn't just have to be "not a kids show" it would have to be either literally Madoka Magica or one of those genre subversion shows that obviously hate the source material and are using subversion as a means to complain about the parts of the genre they don't like for it to justify sentidrien's existence. ML is not madoka magica, and i'd rather the show not be made at all than see the latter happen, but hey that's just me.
tl;dr: no there's no way to make sentidrien not fucked up
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This is a kind of silly one BUT like havd this cringe weird au where like cartman has another kid in post covid (I called her jane cuz she reminds me of rtc jane doe for her personality) and for some reason I see her sm with kyle's daughter (aubrey) kinda like menorah and eli and it would be so funny like cartman realizing that both of his kids are dating/have a crush on his rival's/enemie's kids but aside from that I see jane totally like freaking aubrey out and aubrey being kinda scared of her at first because she literally appeared out of nowhere all the time spooking everyone even if she doesn't mean to I feel she got curious about aubrey because observing a bit she realized they didn't seemed as bad as her dad told her,so she tries like get closer to her but accidentally spooks her a lot at first
Jane:"you know what I find kind of really super hurts?"
Aubrey:*turning around in fear* "maybe later thanks— SORRY—" *runs away*
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But I see her slowly realizing that jane isn't actually as scary as she thought and slowly start spending more time together
Theres more I could say about these two but I am lazy and also dont know how to phrase everything so that's it for now!
op u need to share more rn and YOU NEED TO TELL ME IF SHE LOOKS LIKE JANE DOE FROM RID ETHE CYCLONE OR YOU HAVE DIFFERENT DRSIGN IN MIND.
I FUCK W THIS AU. I WILL DOODLE THIS AU ONCE IM NOT DEAD FROM SWIMMING TRAINING. THABK U SM FOR SHARING UR OWN SILLY AU IDEAS WITH MY SILLY AU IDEAS TO FORM A NEW, EVEN SILLIER AU IDEA.
akhdksjaja srry if this sounds rlly aggressive but wowzs!!!! im so very excited and very happy to hear more since i haven't really watched rtc in it's entirety (i just listen to the what the world needs and ballad of jane doe over and over again and watched a few funny conpilations on youtube 😭✌️), and im sure your jane's personality isnt a direct copy of jane doe rtc's personality so!!! please!!!! share!!!!
personally i see aubrey as being cautious towards jane bc her and moisha do not get along at all, and in gen the rivalry is a family wide thing, so while she's polite to the other members of the cartman family that don't bother her (totally on her own volition bc she's such a mature child and not bc her dad has severely reprimanded her for severely injuring moisha in multiple fights, no sir!) they're all on thin ice really.
so she's probably really jittery around her most of the time, but kind of has a revelation that. out of all the weird encounters she's had with jane. jane hasn't really. done anything. and decides to try talking to her and they become good friends and she adopts them into her friend group bc she's very extroverted in a female himbo kinda way. (not a bimbo. well actually ig, she's a bimbo but in a masc way. so like. girl himbo. listen she's just a dorkass kid sometimes that's all you need to know)
anyways thank u sm for sharing!!! hope to see u in my inbox again soon :DD
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