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absolutebl · 3 years ago

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This Week in BL

July 2021 Wk 3

Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs.

Ongoing Series - Thai

Golden Blood Ep 4 - yay, my favorite part of any bodyguard romance: the homoerotic self defense classes! Many cute tropes in this episode like hand holds, high-low hugs, sleep facing. Also I am really starting to like the side couple. Super flirty sunshine meets mock-tsundere is a new favorite. I’m enjoying this show! It’s pretty much Thailand’s take on Where Your Eyes Linger and there is NOTHING wrong with that since it’s so much more cheerfully gay. (Nothing against WYEL, it’s just a different style and aesthetic.)

My Boy the series Ep 3 - there is a LOT of punching down humor especially where femme, trans, and women are concerned. AND I’m finding it duller than dishwater. I might drop it.

The Yearbook Ep 1 - it’s fine, I guess. It’s riding hard on the leads and I’m not sure they are strong enough to carry it. It’s not off-putting. It’s not on-putting either.

The Best Story Ep 2 - endearingly awkward and cute. Best’s friends are great and War gives pretty heart eyes. He’s not bad on the guitar either, so the sing your feelings could have been A LOT worse. (I still fast-forwarded though. I’m not a masochist. ) No idea what that note was about but with these two, it’s all still very cute.

Top Secret Together Ep 10 - I like the new couple, can we keep them? No one is surprise by the “not brothers” revelation, and if you were, I am VERY disappointed in you and all my efforts on tropes and romance arcs is for naught. NAUGHT, I TELL YOU. (See? Stepbrothers it’s so bad, it could be much worse.) Where was I? Oh right the “he’s too young to understand” conceit is stupid. Meanwhile, my babies are back in form and got a ton of screen time. This was the CopyNampu show and I am quite happy with that. They are such boyfriends, I don’t know why they’re pretending they aren’t, doesn’t fool anyone.

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

Ossan’s Love (Hong Kong) Eps 8-9 - honestly Tin elevates disaster bi to a whole new level of disaster, like 3 Stooges level. Siu Muk is just about the cutest little muffin ever, and if Tin hurts him, ooooo, I’ll be mad. I have to say the wardrobe for this drama is quirky as all goddamn get up. Their knitwear game is wild.

Friend or Lover (Taiwan) Ep 4 fin- I guess that’s it? If so, it has a sad ending. If there is more, MDL isn’t saying that. So under this context? NOT RECOMMENDED.

Be Loved in House: I Do (Taiwan) Ep 10 - future cafe dad side dishes got a lot of screen time, meanwhile our main couple were tiny idiots. Next week is episode 11 and I think we can expect a bit of trauma drama, but everything is so low stakes in this show it hardly matters. I love this series but it is kinda like the lite beer to the HIStory franchise’s coffee stout.

Given (Japan) Ep 1 - this is an adaptation of the anime (which came from a yaoi manga and i really wasn’t into either), but they are condensing it into only six 25 min episodes so maybe that will help? This is a high school rock star romance featuring the boy with the magic voice and the hot grumpy guitarist. I have to say IT’S OFF TO A GREAT START. And boy am I glad we are getting something from Japan this year! I missed their style of BL. Makes me very nostalgic and I might have to rewatch Seven Days now.

Monster in Law AKA Mẹ Chồn Dâu Cáo (Vietnam) Ep 13 - on hiatus? Or? We not sure.

Light On Me (Korea) Ep 5-6 - OMG SO AWKWARD. Why does it have to be so awkward? Stupid adorable shy inept soft boys. ARGH. Tropes are starting to pile up: symmetrical stare, uncomfortably close distance (lapel grab variant), catch me, baby is clumsy and weak, messy eater, heart knows, etc... Also I have decided TaeKyung falls into the adorable bean nugget category. The bit where he touches his own face after a tiny cheek caress just because no one had given him any physical affection in so long, broke my flipping heart. Poor baby. And we are getting a solid little love triangle going, so DRAMA is coming. Or what amounts to it in K-BL.

(Tell us about it, stud.)

In Case You Missed It

Rakutan did a massive take down serve on YouTube so if you were getting your Taiwanese and Korean BL there (HIStory, Color Rush, Seven Days, etc), it’s mostly been removed. Some of it is still on Viki though... which would appear the be the point.

We Best Love No 1 For You completed it’s special reissue run. I caught a little bit of the extra footage, some came from the Pei Shou Yi special and they tagged the full break-up onto the end. But there is very very little that we haven’t seen before. The rips are a slightly better quality than pervious, if that means anything to you.

I noticed this background rainbow for the first time, at Gao Shi De’s mom’s place, she references the paintings that Gao Shi De does inspired by Zhou Shu Yi and I wonder if this is one of them.

Super cute Thai BL microfilm Once in Memory. 17 minutes of charming, high school set, very winning, well written, and excellent flirting. Nothing major, all we get is a hand hold but it’s well earned. It’s supposedly getting a second installment of the same content from the POV of the other character. RECOMMENDED.

Breaking News

KinnPorsche is back on, with the writer rejoining the team? I don’t know. I do know writers throw hissy fits a lot (the natural consequence of surrounding an introvert with extroverted drama geeks). I’m calm. I’ll be happy if it happens and untroubled if it doesn’t.

Singto rumored to be leaving GMMTV. Still going to do Baker Boys.

OffGun Not Me update here. They’re workshopping, production is delayed, won’t release until after September.

Peach of Time dropped a making of BTS but it acts a lot more like a long trailer and it looks GOOD. Like really good: Korean production values with Thai talent (Mii2 AKA JimmyTommy). I’m suddenly super excited about it. I highly recommend watching the BTS as I think it gives better insight than the original teaser. And it looks like they are filming which means they got funded, so this one might really happen. Mixed languages, mostly Korean & Thai but also a little English & Japanese.

This is not the first co-funded co-acted BL venture: Call It What You Want was a Thailand & Taiwan joint project (language: Thai), and Present Still Perfect was Thailand & Japan (language: Thai, Japanese, English). There’s also Because of You which is Taiwanese but one actor is/speaks Korean and another is bilingual. (Ask me how much I want a joint Taiwan+Japan project? SO MUCH.)

Next Week Looks Like This:

Some shows may be listed later than actual air date for International subs accessibility reasons.

Upcoming 2021 BL master post here.

Links to watch are provided when possible, ask in a comment if I missed something.

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detective-gum-chew · 3 years ago

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okay okay okay

i know this isnt an orginal idea by any means but roleswap!narumitsu is just so good

so youll have to indulge me because this lives in my head rent free and i want to write it down concretely somewhere (also this gets LONG so ill pop a cut in here)

alright so:

1. at least in my writing of it, this is also a no-dl6/gregory lives au. but as well at that, miles and phoenix didnt go to school together

2. this means that there was nobody to defend phoenix at the class trial (yes i know the money stolen was edgeworths but shhh lets pretend it was someone elses, kay?) this lead to phoenix becoming not only bitter, but somewhat obsessive over the idea of punishing people that do wrong

(if someone can find that quote where phoenix talks about how he could have become a prosecutor because of the trial i will give u a gentle kiss on the forehead)

3. Edgeworth was raised by Gregory and ends up becoming a defense attorney

4. in this, Von Karma goes down and Franzy is adopted by Gregory, and she assists Miles in his cases. (she can still have a whip, as a treat.)

5. anyway with that set up, lets get into some cases

6. Larry gets accused of Cindys murder, Miles defends with Franzy

7. Lets say Mia was in the crowd of that trial and decided to contact miles, seeing as he appears to be another uncorrupt lawyer and asks him for his help in taking down Redd White

8. He agrees, and she sets a time for him to meet at her office so they can talk. Mia then calls her sister and updates her on how shes going to recruit another person (Redd White hears this)

9. Much like the original case, Mia gets murdered, but this time, Maya isnt here to be blamed. Instead, its Miles himself, as the name that White heard over the phone (so basically we’re speed running to the “defend yourself in court” part)

10. the prosecutor today is Phoenix Wright.

11. but before that lets go into some backstory actually. Phoenix had encountered Mia previously during the Terry Fawles case. He had respected her as a peer, if not for just her determination and deductive skills. (After all, he was young at the time and solely focused on punishing the wicked) After Diego’s poisoning, he had briefly reached out for condolences

12. but anyway, Phoenix had distantly respected Mia, and now that she was dead, he was going to be tough on whoever he thought murdered her.

13. Miles proves his innocence, although it takes some baiting to get Redd White out of his building and actually into court.

14. Wright is... not pleased about this, but theres not much he can do. His displeasure for Mias murder has shifted, but theres a new displeasure for Miles, the man who could beat him in court. (”well well well, you managed to save your own skin. But you should hope you get as lucky as you did in your next case”)

15. Next case! We know Miles is a steel samurai fan, so even without Maya it takes very little convincing for him to take the case. (Fran is not as amused but trusts her brother... enough.. to follow his lead)

16. Case proceeds mostly as normal, with Phoenix requiring Dee to re-do her testimony (maybe something deep within him still itches to put the true bad guy away, even if its harder than the accused)

17. I dont think Phonix would deliver the unnecessary feelings line, although there definetely is that moment in the lobby where hes like “hm. maybe you arent a bad person, but that doesnt mean i have to like you.”

18. and now, now now now, we finally get to the part where i somehow managed to put the most thought into. (for context it is nearly 2 am when i am writing this)

19. sleep schedule aside, you couldnt have thought i would made this WITHOUT some good angst, so here we go. case four is similarly structured to the original, but with an extra side of Phoenix angst.

20. Miles wakes up to Franzy shaking him. She points to the television. the news is on, but the voices are drowned out by a distant ringing as he stares at the image on the screen.

Famed Prosecutor Phoenix Wright Arrested For Murder

21. it just doesnt make sense. So he gets out of bed and into the closest clothes he can find and out the door with his sister in tow. He sits in the cold detention room, thinking about the other side of the glass.

22. Phoenix Wright looks dull. He asks what they want. Miles says he wants an explanation. Wright sneers and asks why. For some reason, that pisses Miles off. He slams his badge to the glass and Wright looks surprised.

“Do you know what this is? It’s my attorneys badge.”

“the badge doesnt mean youre a good lawyer.”

“Well Mr Wright, its 2-0, so i dont think you have any right to say that.” Miles glares at him and Wright sits back in his seat. He watches Miles for a long time.

“If im going to defend you, you need to tell me what happened.“ Wrights eyebrows shoot up and Franziska squawks at his side

“What do you mean defend him!”

“What she said.”

Miles narrows his eyes at Wright as he ponders to himself the answer. Why is he doing it? the answer comes to him.

“Because i dont believe you did it.”

For all his snark, Miles cant bring himself to believe that the man in front of him would kill someone. Theres something about him, either in his eyes or the way he carries himself that makes the idea itself preposterous. Wright looks at him for a long time after he says it.

“Very well.”

21. Miles doesnt seem him until court, but at least he testifies. The next person up, a red head by the name of Melissa Foster, gives a testimony that seems airtight.

22. that is, until he looks over at Phoenix, who is pale as he looks at the woman on the witness stand. Phoenix catches his eye, and very carefully, very slowly, mouths one name.

Dahlia Hawthorne

23. (I really wish i could continue with the more narrative parts of this but im honestly running out of steam and ill get to the point lol. Maybe ill finish it later.)

24. Terry Fawles dies on the stand. Diego Armando falls into a coma. Dahlia Hawthorne walks free. Even after what happened to Diego, Phoenix is convinced he can do better. He sets up a meeting with Dahlia.

25. Doug shows up, trying to persuade him away from it, saying he overheard Dahlia’s plan to kill Phoenix when she arrives. Phoenix is cocky, and the pair fight. Doug gets shoved into the powerline. Phoenix, thinking him dead, panics and runs.

26. Dahlia, having overheard, goes back and finishes him off, drops some poison into his mouth perhaps. With an accidental death with a cause so obvious, nobody bothers to run blood tests (until Miles)

27. Its years later, and Phoenix gets a note that tells him they know what really happened to Doug. Phoenix arrives to a meeting place to find a dead body. He picks up the vial of poison almost absently.

28. After all, Dahlia had gotten rid of Diego and Mia was dead. Now all she had to do was get rid of Phoenix

29. It plays out similarly to case four, with Phoenix being absolved of the first murder, then confessing to the old one. Miles has gone through the work to save his life once, that he cant not do it again.

30. but happy endings (ish) for all, with Phoenix being freed, Dahlia imprisoned and Miles having a better understanding of both him and Phoenix.

31. maybe more happens but we’re at bullet point 31 so its time to stop for now lmao. uh but yeah! roleswap au..... brainrot really.

#lmk what yall think #sorry to maya for writing her out but i couldnt find a way to put her in ;-;#sorry if it gets repetitive towards the end i did not edit this at all #roleswap au #defense attorney!miles #prosecutor!phoenix #ace attorney #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #aa au

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mc-lukanette · 4 years ago

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MC-Lukanette’s “No Context November” 2020 Masterpost

My personal “No Context November” was so much fun, and thanks to everyone who interacted with/enjoyed it! I adore Lukanette a ton and it was a blast getting out these 54,000+ words and seeing how people reacted to them.

As is appropriate since there were thirty posts involved (+1 more counting the bonus for October 31st), which may or may not be more than one can handle in a single month, here’s a masterpost of everything!

` = ficlet

* = one-shot (or close to being a one-shot if a few paragraphs/a little more context were added)

^ = part of a larger AU/hypothetical story

{AO3 link for No Context November}

(Halloween bonus) * (1003 words) - Loose Threads [Fairy Tale] [Creature Marinette] [Crafted Luka]

A fairy-tale-styled story about a lonely monster who believes in karmic justice.

Day 1 * (1601 words) - {Lukanette} [Festival] [Haunted House] [Confession] [Kiss]

After being shoved into a haunted house attraction by their friends, Luka and Marinette bond over being mutually scared and have a little talk about their feelings.

Day 2 * (2078 words) - {Lukanette} [”Party Crasher” divergence] [Crossdressing] [Marinette Wears Luka’s Clothes and He Doesn’t Know What to Do With Himself]

Upon seeing Marinette sulking outside the Agreste mansion in “Party Crasher,” Luka decides to help her out. When the direct approach fails, he takes her to his house for “Plan B.”

(bonus continuation - 1359 words)

Day 3 * (1781 words) - {Lukanette} [Cuddling] [Discussion of Visual and Auditory Interpretation] [Confession] [Kiss]

When Marinette struggles with her stress, she relies on Luka for comfort and wonders how he can do what he does. His lesson to her goes a little differently than he expected.

Day 4 ^ (2602 words) - {Lukanette} [Talks About Love] [Hurt/Comfort] [Luka Knows] [Dating Without Dating] [Gray Morality] [Mutual Selfishness] [Kiss]

In which Marinette is affection-starved and both she and Luka decide to be selfish about how they feel.

Day 5 * (1461 words) - {Lukanette} [Akuma Mention] [Hurt/Comfort] [Mentioned Confession] [Kiss]

After having snapped at Marinette due to an akuma, Luka goes to Marinette to assure her that he didn’t mean a word of it.

Day 6 ^ (2335 words) - {Lukanette} [Winged Marinette Dupain Cheng] [Luka has Cat] [Luka’s Song Sensing Taken Up a Notch]

When Marinette doesn’t meet with Luka and the others outside of school one day, Luka goes to find her and discovers something about her in the process.

Day 7 ` (600 words) - {Viperbug} [Concern] [Identity Reveal] [Kiss]

Viperion worries about Marinette on the way to an akuma battle. Ladybug explains without words why he shouldn’t.

Day 8 ^ (1212 words) - {Lukanette} [Magical Luka Couffaine] [Blue-skinned Luka Couffaine ala Silencer] [Injuries] [Meeting for the First Time]

Luka Couffaine, hailing from the Tribe of Chaos, wakes up injured in the home of a cute human girl who - to his surprise - only wants to help him.

Day 9 ^ (2178 words) - {Lukanette} [Adulthood] [Time Travel] [Apologies/Regrets] [Confession] [Kiss]

While on a date that Luka had gently requested for her, Marinette confesses to her feelings for him, along with a lot more.

Day 10 ^ (850 words) - {Lukanette} [Adulthood] [Housemates] [Luka and Marinette Are Just “Very Good Best Friends” (in denial)]

Luka has some issues to work out concerning moving. Marinette offers to help.

Day 11 ^ (1003 words) - {Lukanette} [Luka has Cat] [Luka and Marinette Know Each Other’s Identities] [Accidental Kiss]

Marinette meets Luka outside of school and notices that he’s acting weird. Just what is he hiding under that hood?

Day 12 ^ (1543 words) - {Lukanette} [Childhood] [Luka and Marinette Are Basically Neighbors] [Meeting for the First Time] [Paper Airplanes]

For the most part, Marinette didn’t have an opinion on the fact that her house was so close to the Seine. It’s only when she hears the sweet sound of a boy’s guitar that she changes her mind.

Day 13 ^ (1297 words) - {Lukanette} [Adulthood] [Multiverse] [Pre-Established Relationship... sort of]

Marinette could use some serious help in the romance department. Luckily for her, Sass knows just the guy to send her to.

Day 14 ^ (1536 words) - {Lukanette} [Spirit Luka Couffaine] [Possession] [Confession]

Luka, having been in a spirit state for a while, feels miserable about his plan to get Marinette together with her crush (via possession, one of his few capabilities) falling through. Turns out that Marinette doesn’t mind as much as he thinks.

Day 15 ^ (2502 words) - {Vipernette} [Miraculous Cure With No Ladybug] [Miraculouses Have Side-Effects] [Meeting for the First Time] [Hugs]

Viperion suffers through the drawbacks of his cold-blooded miraculous and Marinette helps.

Day 16 * (1525 words) - {Lukanette} [Clothes] [Unspoken Confession] [Kiss]

Marinette just wanted to sleep for the day, but being a normal person requires her not to. She just wishes that she could understand why everyone keeps looking at her weird.

Day 17 ^ (1190 words) - {Lukanette} [Shared Locker] [Communication Over Notes] [Luka is Juleka’s Twin Brother] [Luka is in Ms. Mendeleiev’s Class]

Marinette arrives on the first day of school to find that someone’s things are in her locker. What might’ve seemed like something bad at first ends up being a neat opportunity to make a new friend.

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Day 18 ^ (1838 words) - {Lukanette} [Adulthood] [Bus Rides] [Sleep-Deprived Marinette Dupain-Cheng] [Meeting for the First Time]

Marinette ends up meeting someone on a bus ride. The circumstances behind it weren’t exactly things she’d mention to others, but it turns out not being as bad as she thought.

Day 19 ` (818 words) - {Lukanette} [post-”Silencer”] [Guilt] [Nightmares] [Luka Knows]

Luka has been, to put it simply, excessively helpful as of late, and Marinette decides to get to the bottom of it.

Day 20 ^ (1922 words) - {Lukanette} [Adulthood] [Baker Marinette Dupain-Cheng] [Rock Star Luka Couffaine] [Meeting for the First Time]

When Luka comes back from tour with questions in his head, Juleka decides to solve the problem by sending him to a bakery, where he ends up being more taken by the woman working there than the actual sweets.

Day 21 ^ (1565 words) - {Lukanette} [Adulthood] [Children’s Books] [Author Marinette Dupain-Cheng] [Luka Knows]

While shopping with Ivan and Mylene’s child, Luka comes across a particular children’s book that reminds him of himself (as Viperion) and Ladybug. His curiosity is piqued and he wants to know more.

Day 22 * (2682 words) - {Lukanette} [Non-consensual Kiss] [Confession] [Kiss]

Lila is up to her usual tricks again, with Marinette silently seething in the background while trying not to make a scene. This time though, Lila goes after Luka, which might just end up working in Marinette’s favor in the end, if only in what matters most.

Day 23 * (3874 words) - {Lukabug} [Adulthood] [Cut Contact] [Long-standing Crushes]

On patrol one night, Ladybug meets up with Luka after she’d (as Marinette) cut contact with him for years. They end up talking and she learns that things are much different with him than she expects.

Day 24 ^ (1578 words) - {Lukanette} [Adulthood] [Coffee Shop] [Sleep-Deprived Marinette Dupain-Cheng] [Meeting For the First Time]

Luka finds an exhausted Marinette one day and decides to offer her his coffee. He expects not to see her again and ends up being very wrong.

Day 25 ` (1116 words) - {Lukanette} [Guitar Lessons] [Light Flirting] [Indirect Confession]

In which Luka just wants to continue Marinette’s guitar lessons and she returns the favor by assaulting him with feelings.

Day 26 ^ (1217 words) - {Lukanette} [Adulthood] [Fake Marriage] [Jagged Stone is Luka Couffaine’s Father] [Hereditary Song Sensing] [Meeting For the First Time]

Jagged has called Marinette for an abundance of strange things over the time she’s known him. This one, though, is probably the strangest of them all.

Day 27 ^ (1460 words) - {Lukanette} [Naga Luka Couffaine] [Dimensional Travel] [Confession] [Kiss]

Waking up in the middle of the night, Luka realizes that Marinette is also awake and notices that she’s acting suspicious.

Day 28 ^ (1432 words) - {Lukanette} [Adulthood] [Adrien and Marinette Are Friends] [Bonus Adrimi] [Relationship Meddling]

Adrien and Marinette talk while on patrol, and Adrien is both shocked and confused at the fact that Marinette isn’t dating despite being in love with Luka.

Day 29 ^ (1184 words) - {Lukanette} [Not-So-Secret Admirer] [Mutually Misunderstood] [Meeting For the First Time]

Luka is lamenting how people view him, given his supposed “bad boy” appearance, when he gets a surprise visitor.

Day 30 ^ (3726 words) - {Lukanette} [Childhood] [Adulthood] [Timeskip] [Promise Rings] [Jagged Stone is Luka Couffaine’s Father] [Failed/Newfound Goals] [Flower Shop] [Music Shop]

Luka and Marinette have been best friends for years, but when Luka has to be torn away from her on his quest to be a rockstar, they make a promise that they carry with them all the way through adulthood.

#lukaneventte: No Context November #Flower Arrangement Shipping #Lukabug #Vipernette #Viperbug #((54000+ words))#((Also known as ''half a Quickspinner fic'' ;D))#Lukanette #Pro LukaMari

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queenofthearchipelago · 3 years ago

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So I just finished episode 8 of superman and lois season 2, I know I'm like two months behind everyone else, but I needed to get my thoughts out there.

So I overall really liked this episode, Sam is the best dad. I loved watching Lana and Kyle's relationship develop after what happened at the Quinceanera. I loved pretty much everything Jordan did, helping his brother and ditching that weird dinner with Sarah and Aubrey. (You guys were right, what was Sarah thinking? It was super funny to realize there was no extra context, the spoilers I read for that were spot on.)

I mostly just don't like for Clark is handling Jonathan. I appreciate that Jon gets online classes and he now works at that convenience store (where that one girl who thought he was cute worked!) but Jon is still a good kid, and I think Clark should maybe just let him handle the consequences to his actions and stop bashing the poor kid with how disappointed he is. The first scene at the table was hard to watch, Clark really pushes it in how disappointed he is in a way that makes Jon thinks his dad maybe hates him. Like, I think that's what Lois should have said at the end of the episode. "Clark, don't let this go on too long (because the kid already thinks his father hates him.)"

I just wonder if this is a mischaracterization of Clark, because I really did not expect him to react to Jon this way, about anything.

I realize this is old news to everyone and I don't really have spoilers for episodes 10 and 11, so maybe this has all been resolved. But, my feelings about this are still complicated. I hope Clark realizes what he's doing to Jon, and I hope someone gives that poor kid a hug.

And also I guess Lucy is blatantly evil now, and my heart breaks for Sam.

#superman & lois #superman and lois #jon kent #jonathan kent #clark kent #superman #thoughtsfromthequeen

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dwellordream · 3 years ago

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“The marginalization of girls’ domestic labor is evident in the descriptions of work that enter the records of their lives. Virtually all girls had some domestic responsibilities. (One study in 1896 found that 83 percent of high school girls said they did some ‘‘general housework’’ or sewing on a daily basis, taking about an hour a day.) But this work was characterized by its partialness, by its incidental quality as one of many features which were intended to structure the lives and enhance the character of prospering girls.

…Like the ‘‘pert miss’’ in William Thayer’s book of admonition wondering, ‘‘How can a girl like me be orderly, when I have nothing to order?’’ middle-class Victorian girls learned that they could practice habits of ordering on their own wardrobes and their own rooms, their labor defined by its value in building their own character. And indeed, that was often how girls’ duties were defined: as the light work associated with keeping up of a private bedroom or with the genteel presentation of the household.

Emily Eliot’s chores, which were rarely featured in her journal, included sometimes making out a list of the soiled clothes (which were increasingly sent out to commercial laundries rather than done at home), organizing her shelves, and sometimes sewing. Martha Moore’s mother often called on her to arrange flowers for the parlors before she did her schoolwork. Lucy Breckinridge, like Martha Moore writing in the South during the Civil War, had the lightest of household chores because of the presence of black slave labor.

When she announced in her diary that she had ‘‘been a little more industrious and housekeepy this week,’’ she described chores remarkable for their seeming remoteness to the real work of the household. ‘‘I have crocheted bridle reins and breakfast mats, hemmed some ruffles, and made some ice cream and custard.’’ Sewing, especially ornamental needlework, was the prototypical girls’ work, redeemed by its suggestion of industry without urgency.

…When such household labor was in fact marginal, encouraged by advisers as ‘‘gratifying your mother in these little things,’’ and perceived by daughters as ‘‘sacrifice of my time and pursuits,’’ there is no wonder that girls did not take their responsibility to domestic labor entirely seriously, and sometimes chafed at or evaded those responsibilities. Especially when girls saw their house work as ‘‘helping mother,’’ a note of wryness or rebellion crept into otherwise implacable diarists.

Margaret Tileston, whose lifelong daily entries are notable for their flat, descriptive quality, revealed a saucy note in her contrast of her mother’s activity with her own quiet reading. ‘‘In the morning, Mother was very busy getting closets in order. I helped her a little, but not much. . . . Je n’ai rien à dire.’’ The next day, she noted that she ‘‘helped Mother somewhat by trotting up and down stairs,’’ her duties those of an automaton rather than a coworker.

…As Terhune suggested, when household work was defined as ‘‘helping mama,’’ even dutiful Victorian daughters felt infantilized and expressed rebellion. There were other circumstances, however, when a girl described her household work with acceptance, and sometimes even pride and a sense of accomplishment. This was when her labor was in fact irreplaceable, because she herself was filling in for an absent servant or an absent mother.

When the Baldwin family maid departed to nurse her sick cousin, daughter Jessie’s activities took a different turn from her usual genteel schedule. She wrote to a friend, ‘‘Now I’ll tell you what has been my occupation lately—Getting up at 5 a.m. cooking breakfast for H. and Papa at 7 a.m. washing the dishes at 8, dusting at 9, various odd things at 10, ditto at 11, and dinner at 12.’’ Jessie had inherited a full-time job.

For girls who already had full schedules, especially those who attended school, replacing a maid imposed real burdens. The sickness of her mother and her three brothers and the absence of a maid meant that Jessie Wendover’s friend Florence ‘‘has to do all the work and is completely discouraged about her lessons, she has so little time to study.’’ At the very least, it took a toll on a girl’s leisure pursuits, so that Florence Peck could win her competition with a friend in seeing who could read David Copperfield fastest, ‘‘for her folks are without a girl.’’

Daughters had a clear responsibility to replace mothers’ work when mothers became ill or were away, a responsibility which they accepted and sometimes celebrated. (When mothers died or were permanently incapacitated, girlhoods summarily ended.) Annie Gates’s mother broke her leg when Gates was twelve, and the girl commenced her ‘‘first experience in cooking,’’ a position which made her proud and which she ‘‘strove to prove’’ herself equal to, despite the disastrous results.

Mary Bartine, daughter of a wealthy New Jersey industrialist who employed several servants, noted that she had been ‘‘house keeper and sick nurse combined for the last few days,’’ when her mother had become sick. And when Eleanor Hooper’s mother was away, she wrote a friend, ‘‘I have been housekeeper and head cook and bottle-washer,’’ a phrase which she explained by allowing, that ‘‘although we have a capital servant who has been with us almost two years, I have heaps of work to do to keep everything up to the mark.’’

For seventeen-year-old Annie Cooper, a committed amateur artist whose family also employed servants, the managerial responsibilities of replacing her mother, away for the week in 1882, weighed less heavily. ‘‘I was housekeeper. Papa and I enjoyed it very much indeed, for I painted nearly all the time. and of course that was bliss for me.’’ The suggestion here is that for Annie, replacing her mother in her absence was less time-consuming than obliging her in her presence.

By the end of the century, cultural promoters of domesticity had almost given up on their efforts to reintroduce domestic apprenticeships among an urban elite. Instead, advice givers in periodicals found other ways to encourage girls to learn the skills of home work. The founding of clubs and the establishment of classes, like the writing of advice manuals themselves, were designed to encourage the practice of dying arts.

One Hamilton cousin prepared ‘‘peach creme’’ ‘‘for the cooking club,’’ in the context of a day which included reading, meeting with the Shakespeare club, a trip to town, another stint reading (this time Knickerbocker’s New York), and some crocheting, done while listening to the reading of another story aloud. Another girl organized a cooking club for the maid’s night off. A twelve-year-old wrote in to Harper’s Young People of her desire to belong to ‘‘the Little Housekeepers,’’ but lamented that she probably was ineligible because ‘‘I can’t cook much.’’ Even promotional schemes to restore the lost art of housewifery required at least a modicum of early experience.”

- Jane H. Hunter, “Daughters’ Lives and the Work of the Middle-Class Home.” in How Young Ladies Became Girls: The Victorian Origins of American Girlhood

#victorian #american #history #servants #class #jane h. hunter #how young ladies became girls

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transgenderer · 4 years ago

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the following is a lightly edited transcript of my friends and i discussing the life changing, british lads hit each other with chair

www.yahoo.penis 10/27/2020 [6:54 PM] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R9oZaP-my5E

www.yahoo.penis 10/27/2020 [6:59 PM] i need a team of anthropologists to start studying this video

prominent hentai scholar 10/27/2020 [7:01 PM] my first look at it [7:00 PM] ok [7:00 PM] it takes several techniques [7:00 PM] but the approaches i would use are lacanian and marxist, the marxism is verging into feminism, as masculinity plays a huge part. The masculinity displayed here is almost alien to an american viewpoint. Therein lies the humor for a lot of people. However, the same mechanisms are used in Britain to prove it, like enduring pain and feigning resistance to substances. this is exemplified in how the protagonist takes a final swig and then smashes the bottle and the still smoking (as demonstrated by his shirt wearing compatriot picking it up and taking a hit, which we will come back to later) cigarette onto the ground where he knows he may fall, both of which add a very real threat as consequences for his failure to “endure” at the highest standard. And no one makes him do this! he makes a bet on himself for his own benefit! [7:06 PM] Yet! [7:06 PM] He kisses his friend on the lips seconds before! [7:06 PM] Kinda gay, dog! [7:07 PM] it also affirms that the ritual they’re going through is not actually for dominance (another attribute of american masculinity, and possibly another difference) of any sort- similar to throwing the bottle on the ground, it’s all a voluntary ritual. It’s not a fight, and it’s not training; It’s a chance to show off, that his friend grants him as a favor, a display of mutual affection and trust. Anyway the cameraman is the most american-masculine man there. He doesn’t scavenge and he doesn’t grant anyone any favors, he never attempts to prove himself like the protagonist - but also never fails [7:10 PM] he laughs at them, as if doing this was not just absurd but without motivation. in the new context of the ritual failing, he distances himself from it by acting as a third party [7:11 PM]

whore of sumer 10/27/2020 [7:11 PM] YES

prominent hentai scholar 10/27/2020 [7:12 PM] Well

www.yahoo.penis 10/27/2020 [7:12 PM] YES

prominent hentai scholar 10/27/2020 taking a look at it from another angle [7:13 PM] Class is not the focal point of the video but an omnipresent part of the background. The style some of the young men have - like patroclus and achilles- conspicuously showing their wealth in muscular physique and and noble, well kept hair, like modern hoplites. but some appear like any other young man of their day; we don’t see the cameraman, for instance, and the young man who picks up the cigarette is also the young man who’s dress is least informed by nouveau riche tendencies; either he’s old money and does not see any need to affirm his place in the class hierarchy visually or (far more likely) he’s just an average income dude… and he’s the same actor that scavenges the cigarette. is he deprived of another carton at home, or is he scrounging up some of the honor of the protagonist who just made a huge show of his masculinity? either way he’s both embarrassing and flattering protag [7:18 PM] i think it’s probably the latter option and here’s why [7:19 PM] When the protag collapses, who runs in to steal his thunder? It isn’t that the protag proved it was safe; he collapsed [7:19 PM] he was trying to do him one better. [7:20 PM] i gotta eat dinner. maybe more later

prominent hentai scholar 10/27/2020 [8:00 PM] anyway [8:00 PM] one of the points of the video that give it so much panache - so much drama - is that through his presence shirtguy takes an almost antagonistic role. by receiving the first hit in the second round, he sets up the chair to hit him by the feet instead of by the back. and he doesn’t collapse; he scampers off. yet despite hijacking and doubly outdoing our protagonist, he isn’t the figure the audience cares about. mention of him is like, minimal, when you ask people what they remember about it [8:03 PM] example: this chat [8:04 PM] The thesis of the video is not “men are silly”; it’s not “this guy is pathetic because he couldn’t take getting hit by a chair, watch as someone defeats him”; it’s not “british people are aliens” (although this is a common interpretation, going back to what i said abt this being a different masculinity) [8:12 PM] the thesis is “british lads hit each other with chair”. There is only one lad hitting the others; there is no mutual hitting. But the title is still correct; the video hinges on the mutual nature of the interaction. The two shirtless lads, performative in body and spirit, do art with each other, mostly for proving that they’re Real Men, but clearly this is not all. The modification of the ritual - the kiss - his rescue by his attacker - the speed of this rescue, indicating that there was never any question of if this was for the protagonist’s benefit, just how (he is being a bit silly) - all of it comes to a head in their unconscious replication of the Pieta, a symbol of familial love even after being scorned in torture and death. The chair lad, the metaphorical mary, delivers punishment with the implicit guarantee of affection and care should the protagonist ever be truly hurt, a powerful parallel to motherhood. This is only one level of looking at the relationship hitting each other with a chair performs; the homoeroticism, brothers in battle and in bed, has been mostly forgotten in western culture, but the vestiges of it remain. The cameraman and the shirt lad, intruders, are forgotten, in time; their performance had no allusions to love and death, the two fascinations of any society. [8:15 PM] Despite their attempts to out-masculine the chair lad and the protagonist, without showing any vulnerability, they fail to gain any interest from the audience they didn’t understand or prepare for. This is another reason the video is so compelling; the spontaneous nature of the action suggests the bond between the men is genuine [8:17 PM] Anyway, final words: it’s funny because it’s absurd, and because the visible depth of the emotional interaction going on here under british lads hitting themselves with chairs in an alley is just as absurd as the premise. Something that silly shouldn’t be complex! it’s so weird! and it’s the weirdness that makes it funny [8:24 PM] honestly this could use a lot of polish [8:24 PM] now that im thinking abt it a lot of it is nigh freud tier acontextual [8:25 PM] bc i don’t understand british masculinity [8:25 PM] i also need to devote more time to the feminist angle [8:25 PM] ach

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ambidextrousarcher · 4 years ago

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Sarcastic StarBharat Reviews-Episode 22: In which horny deer rishis set off a chain of events.

Hello everyone! I’m back after a VERY long hiatus, had some real life issues to deal with, along with the aggravation of changing an url and some online drama too. And I’m right in time for Diwali, too, yay! Happy Diwali, people! Also Happy Children’s day!

Tagging my usual taglist: @ambitiousandcunning @medhasree @shaonharryandpannisim @hermioneaubreymiachase @hindumyththoughts @chaanv @ratnas-musings @whydoyoucareaboutmyusername @justahappyreindeer @milesbianmorales @allegoriesinmediasres @pratigyakrishnaki @iamnotthat @adishaktis @ratnas-musings. Enjoy your day, everyone!

Review is under the cut.

PS: Nila updates- The Sarcastic StarBharat review of episode 18 is missing from my blog for some reason, I’ll reupload it. Also, for anyone who’s listening to my song covers, the next items are Karam Ki Talwar from Arjun the Warrior Prince, Moh Moh Ke Dhage from Dum Laga Ke Haisha and Jo Beji Thi Dua, from Shangai.

Okay. Rehash is in order, along with some new nicknames. Till the last episode, Madri has reached Hastinapur, the precap of the last episode makes it clear that this is the episode with horny deer rishis.

I had made a numbering mistake in counting the number of canon fails, my bad, so, as of now, we’re at canon fail #49.

Here’s the nickname rehash and additions to be made-

1. Bhishm-Mr. Paragon of Perfection

2. Dhritrashtra- Mr. Drama Queen (Honorary mention-DisasterRashtra, courtesy of @iamnotthat)

3. Pandu-Honey Boy/Lord of Cheesy Lines

4. Gandhari-Ms. Always Patnidharma

5. Shakuni-Mr. Ominous Music/Mr. Annoying Poseur

6. Karn-Mr. Glitterwash

7. Kunti-Ms. Melodrama/Lady of Cheesy Lines

8. Amba (deceased)-Psycho Princess

9. Satyavati-Psycho Mum

10. Vichitraveerya (deceased)-Drunk Kid

Here are the new additions:

11. Vidur (finally)- Picking the line where he likens himself to a thorn during Pandu’s coronation, he’s Mr. Weepy Thorn.

12. Madri-Ms. Smarmy Tears

13. Krishn-(Parody version, anyway, also, FINALLY) Mr. Excess Gyaandaan.

Now, let’s get to business.

Alright, so, last episode, Gandhari was told that Drama Queen wants her in his chambers. Being the aadarsh, Ms. Always Patnidharma that she is, she goes immediately, and that’s where today’s episode of choice begins.

She stumbles in and stutters out her usual ‘Husband?’ (International viewers, please note, Hotstar has rolled out the English subtitles for your most unfavorite show. It translates ‘Arya’ as Lord, but I’m keeping the ‘husband’ variation, because no.)

Anyway. He shushes her. ‘Don’t say anything, Gandhari, just listen. The mind is so weird, isn’t it?’ Okay…why this sudden volte face? Ah, he’s trying to apologise, I guess? He says that he was absorbed in his negative emotions of hurt, grief and jealousy, but when no news of Honey Boy came from the battlefield, he realized that he still worries and cares for his little brother, and that he was merely unfortunate, not conspired against, concluding that he was unjust to Honey Boy. O…kay? Should I count this as a canon fail? Canon Dhritrashtra can be two-faced, so eh, leave it.

Ms. Patnidharma is shaking her head next to him, because of course, she’s that much of a doormat. ‘I was unfair to you too. I had rejected you, Gandhari, but if I realise my mistake, will you accept me?’ Ah. I see what this is. Anvil-shadowing. Just before Pandu ‘loses’ his ability to ‘be a husband’ Drama Queen and Patnidharma make up with each other. Newsflash, writers: Nothing is this clean cut.

Of course, that was precisely the opening Ms. Patnidharma was waiting for, so she feels her husband up as they hug. Drama Queen’s heart, apparently, very anomalously, is overflowing with happiness, now that he has unloaded his weakness onto Patnidharma, or so he says. Don’t believe him, though, don’t be the naïve idiot Patnidharma is, because that weakness of his wreaks bloody wrecking ball havoc in the future.

‘So what if I don’t become the King?’ Excuse me. I just choked on my water. What’s up with this volte-face? Just what? ‘I have more respect here than the King himself!’ I think I’m gonna count this as canon fail #50 because nah, he ain’t gonna say this in any adaptation that’s sane. And of course, since he’s randy too, it seems, he goes ‘When you give me a son, he’ll be the eldest son and King after Pandu. I’ll also get the pleasure of being a King. Will you give me the gift of such a talented son?’ Ah. So that’s what the volte-face is for. Canon fail #50 cancelled. Drama Queen would say anything at all to get his way, that’s right. Patnidharma, predictably, goes all gushy. ‘Yes, husband, for your sake, I’ll go to the portals of Yamlok themselves!’ Ah, sheesh, sometimes, watching this show makes me think that I should projectile-yeet myself to Yamlok.

He laughs. ‘When the time comes,’ he says, ‘we’ll go to the portals of death together, Gandhari.’ Well, that, at least, is true. He continues that they still have many happy moments to experience. She nods, melting into his embrace.

Scene changes to a green vista, the whickering of horses heard. Madri, henceforth known as Ms. Smarmy Tears, is laughing, Ms. Melodrama being stony faced and stoic. (That’s a change, though the music manages to make even THAT dramatic) The camera focuses on a deer, and Smarmy asks Honey Boy to stop, because it’s a beautiful deer. Okay…I know what’s coming up next. Anvil-shadowing, anyone? I realise it was very long ago when we were introduced to Ms. Melodrama, but I’ll give you a short rehash. She was introduced saving a deer from hunters. Anyone got the hint? It’s an obvious ‘Madri is an evil witch!’ gambit. Please do not take it. I know that in canon, Kunti and Madri probably had a fractious relationship given the whole fracas over the boon, but I refuse to believe Madri would be this transparently biatch-y.

And…bingo! Smarmy says that the deer is absolutely unique, and follows it up with a request for its skin. Melodrama, of course, is having none of it. She passionately launches into defence of the deer’s children who’d be orphaned, basically echoing her very first piece of dialogue on this show. Do you think there’s a chance that they dubbed it in? I mean…I wouldn’t be able to say that twice with a straight face. But, whatever gives, I guess. Fawn get orphaned often, goes Smarmy. It’s not like I’m asking you for the position of the Queen, can’t you do this much for me? Since StarB has a thing of making women either bitches or doormat ditches, its Honey Boy who cuts in. ‘Speak of good things alone.’ Did this guy get a theology class between the ‘war�� and this moment? ‘I’ll get the deer for you, the rest of you please stay here.’ And then the show takes yet another opportunity to set Melodrama as good and Smarmy as bad, as Melodrama tries to give Smarmy a moral lesson about abstaining from killing for no reason, and Smarmy going all casteist (not sure if that’s the right word, since afaik Kunti’s maternal family are also Kshatriyas? Yadava is not one family. It’s an entire dynasty.) And here’s canon fail #50 and #51. #50 is the fact that Pandu, in canon, hunts the deer because he wants to. Madri has nothing to do with it in the text. #51 because the jibe about Yadavs being shepherds that Madri makes smacks of a misconception about politics in the MBH. The idea of ‘Yadavas’ being shepherds is present because of the lore of Krishn and Balaram in Gokul. While I’m sure there might be some branches of the family that may dabble in those pursuits, typically, considering the social structure of that time, Kunti’s family is of quite royal pedigree.

The scene switches to Honey Boy looking for deer, listening attentively to the rustling leaves. Really, this question goes for canon too, haven’t these guys learnt a thing at all from the whole Dashrath/Sravan Kumar fracas? That it is TOTALLY not a good idea to just randomly shoot in a random forest, anyone? At least sight the prey a little, no?

Regardless, he shoots an arrow, the tell-tale thunk is heard, followed by a human scream (the typically serial-ish ‘nahi, nahi!’ aka ‘no, no!’). Alarmed, he sets off in pursuit of the sound. The camera focuses on a bloody arrow then showing us a rishi and a rishin. ‘Maharishi Kidam?’ exclaims Pandu. ‘It was you?’ ‘What have you done? You shot an arrow without recognizing me! I was dallying (read: deer hanky-panky-ing) with my wife in the form of a deer, and you shot an arrow without considering that the grace and the form of the deer could only mean it is such?’ Okay, for all that I want to call this canon fail #52, I’ll be honest…because such a scene, at least one of Pandu killing Kidama when he’s in sexual congress with his wife in the form of a deer does happen. Sometimes, *sigh* canon itself is quite strange.

But…in the whole of this thing, I have an observation to make, a few questions to ask, in the context of this serial:

1. Madri saw only one deer? What was the deer rishi doing, a deer mating ritual of some sort? Where was the wife then?

2. Does what he said mean that there might be…other rishis doing deer hanky panky?

3. Kidama was a rishi, right? He’d have figured out Pandu wants the ‘deer’ when he saw them and vanished? He could have, IDK, sprinted off real quick, or turned back into human, or just vanished once more. Why escalate it this much?

Honey Boy is very contrite and begs for forgiveness. Canon fail #53. In canon, he basically goes, well, Kings hunt deer, why cry about it? (That is, the dialogue given to Madri to establish her as ‘bad’) The deer rishi brings up the Dashrath point I gave above and says that Honey Boy’s crime can’t be pardoned, that he shouldn’t have killed a man in congress with his wife, so he curses him that he’ll die the moment he’ll have congress with any woman. Canon fail #54. The original curse specifies ‘his loved one’ not any random woman.

Cue dramatic panoramic shot and dramatic title bgm. Honey Boy is in tears. The rishi dies.

Scene changes and we’re back in Hastina, where the court fool is entering. He says he has a lot of questions. Mr. Weepy Thorn prompts him to ask his questions. So there’s this long drawn out riddle session that’s set up to predict that Gandhari is pregnant, and Drama Queen will be experiencing the love of a son soon. There’s happiness all round, lots of hugs too. Of course, this show takes no rest from anvil shadowing either, so exactly at this moment enters Honey Boy with his wives. Honey Boy is welcomed with joy and immediately apprised of the news. In his head, the dying deer rishi’s words echo, even as his wives smile by his side. (Ah, apparently, there’s anvil juxtaposition, too! Whee!)

Anyway. Satyavati notices he ain’t looking happy and she asks him if he got what she said. He manages to sponge her off, hug his brother and congratulate him. When he does that, Annoying Poseur closes his eye.

As he ascends the throne, deer rishi’s words come back to him, asking what kind of a King he is. Honey Boy refrains from climbing the final stair, turning. He says that he has something of great importance to announce, confessing that he has killed Kidama and is no longer worthy of being a King.

His announcement is met with shock all around, as he renounces the throne of Hastina. Cue dramatic title bgm again. Camera focuses on Satyavati (who’s quite less psycho nowadays), then panning one by one to Drama Queen, Paragon of Perfection, Smarmy, Melodrama, Patnidharma, Ambika, Ambalika, a grinning Poseur (both eyes open), back to Honey boy and Mr. Paragon as he drops his angvastr limply.

Scene changes as Mr. Perfection walks inside Honey Boy’s chambers and they have an argument about his responsibilities. Honey Boy puts forward that for all that Satyavati wants a worthy King, he is no longer worthy, that even Indra renounced heaven for the killing of a sage and meditated for eons, that mere charity and abstinence as suggested by Mr. Thorn and Kripacharya won’t be enough. He continues that the duty of a King, the man who holds the royal scepter is to dispense justice to his people. He asks who would mete justice out on a King? The camera pans out to Mr. Perfection, standing mute, ending the episode.

Alright, this whole thing is canon fail #55. Pandu does not go back to Hastina, he sets out immediately to atone. Also #56, his wives know everything as he does. He doesn’t keep it hidden from them.

Precap: ‘But the crime was ours’ says Smarmy. ‘the punishment, however, has to be borne by our yet unborn children!’ ‘You can’t ever have children.’ Announces Honey Boy, going on to inform them of the curse.

#sarcastic starbharat reviews #scribbler scribbles #nila writes #nila rants #nila gets salty #pandu #aka honey boy #kunti #aka ms melodrama #dhritrashtra #aka drama queen #gandhari #aka ms always patnidharma #madri #aka ms. smarmy tears #bhishm #aka paragon of perfection #diwali update

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pinksh00tingstars · 4 years ago

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So I need closure so I've compiled relationship highlights from the show, from Kang Tae's POV vaguely prettified+featuring maybe some of my own addition+context that was not known to us when we watched it (if any) in text form and then I can live and let go of this show.

1. He's just annoyed when he sees her. After all, who smokes on hospital grounds. So when he goes to her to tell her she can't smoke here, his coffee cup still in his hand and she looks at him, he doesn't expect it- the memory her expression and demeanor combined trigger. It's not her. He thinks it so hard, he half expects her to respond but she just puts out her cigarette in his cup talking about fate and walks away. It's not her.

Well, turns out it is her. He's actively tried not to seek her out and when his brother had developed a liking for her books he hadn't done anything to stop him because it had felt like cheating on his promise to run away from her because he still got to keep some part of her. He's never read any of them, it feels like reaching for too much of the non-existent something between them, but her presence, even by proxy through the books is something. He's well aware of the burden the circumstances of their meeting has put on them. Even as a child he knew he'd never really be able to get Sang Tae's forgiveness because he's never had the courage to ask him for it. His best case would have been one where his brother simply forgets it. So he's in the hospital, looking for a suicidal, possibly dangerous patient when he meets her again and she stabs him in the hand, he's sure of it. It's Ko Moon Young. Not a doubt in his mind.

His brother insisted on an autograph. He's practically on his way to the hospital when he hears about Ko Moon Young's presence but Kang Tae stops him because she's a loose canon and she's never held back from firing at anyone even if she's firing on a whim. It's for his brother's well being, Kang Tae rationalizes but some corner of his brain just whispers I'm not sharing her. He isn't proud of it.

2. It's categorically a bad decision, leaving his brother alone in the queue to see her and when disaster strikes and his brother has a meltdown in the crowd, Kang Tae is there as soon as he can and he's there to be strong for the both of them. It's something he's used to and fully capable of doing. Then she's there, loudly demanding justice for his brother, taking the heat for him. It's terrifying. It's easier to do it alone and not expect any help, Kang Tae thinks as he tries to swat the memory of her saving him away from his mind.

It would've been easier to not have stuck around and seen the impact her intervention for him had on her. She's non-plussed by the skeevy journalist's jabs until he runs his mouth about her mother. He's already between them holding her back, preventing her from making it worse for herself.

When he teaches her the butterfly hug method, he does it simply because he's professionally in a position to help. It has nothing to do with her. But when she turns herself right back around pulls him closer, telling him trauma should be dealt with head on, his breath hitches.

3. He's aware that he has to move, and honestly, it feels exhausting but it's something he has to do. When his brother doesn't seem to have any qualms about moving back to their hometown, he thinks, it's not a bad idea. Besides, he thinks there's an advantage to putting as much distance between them as possible. She's unpredictable and a force of nature he can't match, won't match.

So he moves and does the motions of unpacking, resettling and going to work. In fact her absence is so much more familiar than her presence to him he's comfortable with it. He goes to work and he's fine because his brother is happy to be free of the butterflies. He expects it to be peaceful. It's a tiny town in the middle of nowhere and it's pleasant when the sea breeze hits him when he takes his breaks. In all honesty, he likes it here. He doesn't yet dare to call it home because he knows he'll move soon enough anyway or even indulge in the nostalgia of being from here. He's comfortable.

As if he's cursed his own luck, that very night she shows up at the hospital. Something about being fated occurs to him before he pushes the thought away immediately. He blames her for putting the thought in his head.

4. She's teaching a class here. It's just once a week, he thinks. His routine is not so fragile that it can't withstand her, he thinks. It's chaos soon enough. She's run away with a patient and he tries to stop her only for her to speed away and he swears she's just doing this to spite him.

Maybe there's nuance to her yet, he thinks. As he watches the Assemblyman's son dance around the stage and he recognizes it immediately. What the Assemblyman's son is craving, reaching so desperately for isn't just attention. That's skin deep. He's just looking for some version of happy. Kang Tae wonders what it's like to touch it. A version of happy.

He would've dismissed it to her having given this man the one gift he really needed as an outcome of simply sowing in his life the seeds of disorder but she looks at him knowingly and smiles. She knew. He wonders if she's made a habit of saving people. Should I just play with you? He wonders if he even can. If it's an option he's ever had. Would it be nice?

5. I hate spring flowers he admits. It's not what he craves but it's all he can share with her right now. It's enough. They're in a convenience store and Lee Sang In warns him- she'll eat you up alive. He's reminded of her fingers running up his body. Steeling himself, he goes back into the store and she's clearly not a fan of his choice for where they'd "share a meal". It's amusing.

He's partly just making small talk, partly curious and partly seeking permission, he thinks when he asks her about her book. She's not aware of his weird cheat to hold on to some part of her and he thinks maybe if she just tells him herself it's not reaching for it, the non-existent something he's held close for some time now. You should read it. He doesn't really know how that applies in his complex self imposed framework. It's annoying and he just rebuffs her I'm too old for fairy tales.

It never goes the way he expects with her. Because I can see that you want to be loved. It's so completely disarming. Her hands run through his hair and he's never felt so seen.

6. She won't walk her father. There's more to it, he can tell, but she hasn't volunteered the information to him. He knows enough about painful memories with parents to not pry. He back off. Heads to work and she demands he walk with her instead. She's throwing a fit and he's not engaging with her. So he walks away and he's not even bothered until she yells at him. I love you. It's powerful even though he knows there's no intent to it. She doesn't mean it. So he walks it off.

7. He sees her again with his brother. He's already raging from the interaction with the Assemblyman and he's trying his best to suppress it but she's actively gone against his wishes to leave his brother alone. So he pulls her aside to tell her to leave his brother alone but she spots the mark on his cheek and is immediately defensive. For him. He just wanted her to leave him alone. He knows he can't have this in his life. He's not going to play this game with hope and trust and he's definitely not playing it with her. You're like an empty can. He can see the hurt in her face as she looks back up at him silently. He hates it. But maybe she'll stay away now.

8. It was curiosity that got the best of him. Zombie kid is definitely set to a harsh backdrop and he doesn't really think he can predict where it's going. Doesn't think he'll relate to any of it until he reads the ending. He's so struck by it. He's craved warmth his whole damn life. He can practically see his mom turning away from him.

So when he goes downstairs and Jae Su tells him about how her father tried to kill her, the image of her walking along the road while he'd taken the bus hits him. What if she didn't have anyone looking for her? What if she had been looking for warmth from her father? He doesn't really think it through, he just runs out on instinct looking for her in the night.

9. He finds her in the rain and it feels...momentous, meaningful even. In that moment, as she falls into him, he doesn't think of what he can and can't do for the first time.

He ends up hiding her in his room. This feels stolen, like a moment he never had the rights to but has somehow accessed and so when she keeps rolling over onto him that night, he puts her in a corner to stop himself more than her. We're like Romeo and Juliet. It's a petulant thought but he believes it still. Him and her, they were ill fated too. He can't have any of this.

10. Jae Su asks him if he likes her. He could've lied. He should've just said no but he can't bring himself to. So he deflects but Jae Su is so sharp about these things. He reminds him of the knife she'd put in his hand the first time they met. It's a slip up, in all honesty, the smile that creeps onto his face at the memory. He's growing forgetful of himself. Of his brother, of the butterflies. He remembers her though.

11. Of all the terrible ideas, his brother would not be living with her. He's almost tempted. A version of them as a family manifests itself in his mind unprompted and he's exhausted of putting these invasive thoughts away. He's trying his best to reason with his brother that it isn't an option but his brother will not listen. So he yells and throws the contract away only for his brother to get furious at him. It hurts. It hurts so much as his brother keeps hitting him not realizing how hard he's hitting and Kang Tae doesn't expect it to stop anytime soon until she holds his brother's hand over him, stopping it in it's path. He's too beaten down to do anything about it. Moon Sang Tae belongs to Moon Sang Tae. He does. Kang Tae's always been the one trying to be owned by Sang Tae. Anything to make up for it. Anything for whatever adjacent to forgiveness he's got. But it's so difficult sometimes. She offers him her hand to get back up and he wishes she'd stop offering him help. It's not going to last and he doesn't want to start expecting it. So he turns away from her and walks home.

12. He schools himself to not get attached. He's excellent at it, but he walks into her house with their stuff and Sang Tae apologizes instantly and suddenly it feels like home. His previous ambition forgotten, he just settles his brother and himself into the house. The next morning he's set up breakfast while his brother cleans the house. Moon Young is all but shocked at it. He wonders if she likes it, the house like this. I want a lot. He thinks it's cute.

13. He's never seen her look like that. Mrs. Kang is talking to her in hushed tones but he can hear her anyway. She's claiming to be her mother. And she looks... vulnerable. Is it really you? He should've stopped it earlier. He can hear the hope in her voice. So he splits them up and takes Mrs. Kang away. He was going to go find her when Lee Sang In asks to speak to him. I'm her man. So stop taking up my spot.

He has no right to feel the jealousy that tightens his jaw. He wants to say very different words but he can't dare to say them yet. So instead he says a different truth. I don't want to. I won't move aside. It feels like fighting for her somehow and he's going to keep doing it as long as he can.

14. She's shut them out. She doesn't come down for dinner and he sees she hasn't touched the food he left her. He gives her the space she needs. He isn't sure they're close enough for him to ask her to let him in. So he takes on the passive role of waiting for her to let him in. Like Bluebeard needed, he thinks with a fondness.

He can't sleep. He's worried about her and she's shutting him out and he's driving himself up a wall. Until he thinks he hears her crying. He's on his feet inching towards her room, not sure if he's allowed to but opening her door anyway. He recognizes it instantly. She's having a night terror, possibly sleep paralysis and he runs to her shaking her awake as gently as he can. Go away right now. She's inconsolable, yelling at him terrified of something neither of them can see right now but she's clinging to his shirt for dear life. He's never had the strength to deny her when she was like this. Vulnerable and terrified. So he holds her close and promises he'll stay. He means it.

15. He wakes up to a Moon Young he's much more familiar with. Shut off and defensive and she asks him what he's doing there. He takes the day off for her. It's a tiny fraction of his life he's reclaiming for himself and it feels stolen but he doesn't care. He drops his brother at the bus stop and returns to find Sang In trying to pull her off a post on the stairs. He's uncharacteristically upset and the moment she requests it, he moves to throw Sang In out. She won't take medicine so he suggests fresh air to remedy her mood. He apologizes for calling her an empty can. She's let his outburst colour her view of herself and he immediately needs to set it right.

Their "date", he doesn't call it that, she does, he justifies, is eventful. She asks him difficult questions he doesn't really have answers for. Could he have dated her if he wasn't him?

16. He's emotionally exhausted from purging his resentment towards his mom and he's about to leave when he remembers Mang Tae. So with unsteady feet he embarks on a quest to find the doll before taking a cab to head home. She's demanding as always in her texts, telling him to come home rather than ask but it feels so familiar. Like they're something. And he replies and forgets in his drunkness as he tells her to wait.

She's on the stairs and he's not sure why she has chosen to sleep there. She snaps at him that he told her to wait. It's warm. The feeling of someone waiting for you. He simply smiles like a fool and offers her Mang Tae before she can entice him into drinking with her and crossing some line that he can't even see clearly when he's sober.

17. She's remarkably good at spotting people's leashes. At the baggage that traps them and she's got an extraordinary skill for setting people free. He's impressed, when he finally walks over to her looking at his brother's mural, he's really proud.

18. She's cut her hair and she looks messy and ruffled but she looks so happy when she runs down the stairs to greet him, he can only laugh. She's cut off her own leash, she says and he wonders how long she's had it on her. How long she's been aware of it. So he helps her make it presentable and when she says he's the only person allowed to touch her hair, he feels softly possessive. The fact that he's claiming back more and more of his life as his own when it's still indebted to his brother in lieu of forgiveness is forgotten. She smiles at him and it's stunning.

19. They're eating jjampong and he remembers that his mother never even got to eat a portion. It hits him so hard because he's so starved for memories where she was warm to him. She's always so sharp with these things and between her and his brother they have him laughing.

He's holding his umbrella over his brother s he walks zigzagging the the street. He's used to getting slightly wet until Moon Young yells for them to wait for her and suddenly he's shielded from the rain too.

20. He's jealous. He's starkly aware of it and he's annoyed that he's jealous and it's only a vicious cycle that exacerbates itself. He had meant to subtly alert the man to back off when he'd mentioned his hand on her waist and she just pulls it closer to her, her gaze back at him almost challenging. How many people is she fated to be with? He doesn't really begin to calm from it until he lets loose at Sang In. Once he's calmer, he wonders if he'd rather have her around once a week at the hospital than not. So when the opportunity presents itself, he asks for her classes to be reinstated but really it feels like some proxy for permission to be with her. Even if it was just once a week.

21. It was a fucking pen. She's been fawning over some pen not the man and before he can even start to feel the relief settle in she leans over and says he's prettier sending a shiver down his spine. She's lying on his lap drifting into sleep and he's gingerly getting used to the feel of it. She's always so alluringly close. He reaches out to hold her hand because he's wanted to all day. Until it feels wrong. He shouldn't be reaching for people he can't really hold.

22. She's so fucking pretty. It messes with his head as he watches her before he goes to work and when she asks him to come home early it feels so domestic he doesn't dare to do anything with the feeling but remember it. He's sitting during his break and all he can think about is her. He really must be going crazy. He's talking with the patient when he recognizes it, and get doesn't even dare to think the word love.

23. He snaps when it happens. She's doing the right thing, protecting a patient who needed help and he's heading their way quickly but not too quickly so as to not alarm the patients when the man suddenly hits Ko Moon Young. It makes contact hard enough to send her tumbling down and Kang Tae is running immediately. The man has his fist raised to hit her again when Kang Tae reaches him and he hits him with everything in him. He's furious enough for his ears to ring and he's raised his fist to hit him a second time as a nurse held him back. He can't think through it yet and shoves the nurse off of his arm and moves to punch him again. The patient he originally intended to attack begs him out of it. And he finally lets the man go. Are you okay? He's so worried when he picks her back up and it's the first time she yields vulnerability to him. No, it hurts.

He's in trouble. By all accounts, the head nurse fuck you Park Haeng Ja is furious. He might get sued. Or fired. But all he can think is he's broken past his impulse to not want her and it's so freeing. So when he runs to her and asks her to go on a trip with him, it's glorious when she smiles back at him.

24. He hadn't thought through the logistics. She makes him forget everything but them and he's terrified about not measuring his expectations. She says it feels like he's taming her. He's glad to have any meaningful impact on her, really. He keeps doing things he wouldn't have done because of her. She says he was magnificent. And he really feels magnificent. Because she's said it. He's been chasing this something between them that's sprouted into existence from the non existent state he's tried quite hard to keep in. It's instinctual, he leans towards her, seeking purchase on her lips and they're so, so close when the deer screeches in the woods. He's lost his nerve and backed away already. The moment is lost and he's sprinting away from her with a quick let's go tomorrow then.

25. She's terrified of the bridge. It's such a funny juxtaposition on Moon Young, who saves people from what they fear all the time masquerading as a witch. Her strength is so integral to who she is. But she does it anyway for him and it's warmth. So that night, as she jumps onto him and he deflects and tries to escape before he gives in to letting her sleep on his arm, running his fingers through her hair, he gives up. He's never had enough resistance to quit her anyway.

So he gets her flowers and a quick kiss and it feels like closure of something from so long ago because it is. As they're walking back, her holding the flowers she's finally accepted from him and him holding her hand, he really thinks they're fated.

26. It crashes down around him. His brother hasn't forgotten and he's not going to take lies or half truths and he's locked outside the room his brother is in waiting to be let in. Being with Moon Young is not an option. It never was and he's been a forgetful fool running after a pipe dream that shouldn't ever even have been his. So he tells her to leave his life, that this has been a mistake and none of his promises held water. He wants so badly to be able to reach forward and take her hand. A firecracker. A one time event. He's hurting her on purpose and he's half terrified that she'll genuinely walk away from him forever but he's so much more terrified that she'll stay and he won't be able to fix things with his brother ever.

That night his brother finally, finally forgives him. Moon Kang Tae belongs to Moon Sang Tae. He misses her. It hurts and it hits him in waves. He's looking at photos of them and says this is enough over and over and over but there's a lump in his throat that he's trying to breathe over and the whole damn apartment feels stuffy when he thinks of her. He's sitting outside and the sea breeze is pleasant and he thinks her absence hurts him so much more distinctly than her presence. God he misses her and as he sits in the open air, still letting the breeze wash over him, he thinks, he can't breathe.

27. He's sick all day. He knows it and he doesn't want to acknowledge it because it feels like the lack of her is physically making him ill and if he acknowledges it he'll have to acknowledge missing her. So he tries his best to work through it without interventions and ignores her texts and just wills the day to end. He can't keep himself from looking by the time his shift ends. So he goes through her texts, not still daring to reply and he's on his way out when he spots the nurse with the head injury. Park ok Ran attacked him and left saying something about it being a special day. His blood runs cold. What if? What if she's going to Moon Young. What if she got hurt while he wasn't there, while nobody was there because he's decided to leave her alone? And he's honestly terrified beyond articulation. And he's rushing into her car trying to call her.

The house is so fucking silent. He's burst into it yelling for her but is not patient enough to wait to see if she'll come out and he runs into her study only to spot blood. He can't even get her name out of his mouth without his voice breaking and because what if she was bleeding out somewhere in this massive fucking house? And he runs out to look for her in a different room, panic rising in his blood as she calls his name. She's here. And he's hugging her and asking her if she's okay until he spots the wound on her hand and she's barely started explaining how Park Ok Ran gave it to her. He's not quite settled yet and he's terrified she'll be back but he's passively aware he's yelling at her asking her where she is. He's rushing to find her immediately until she asks him if he came for Park Ok Ran or her.

He can see in her expression that she's convinced it was Park Ok Ran. And he reaches out to grab her hand that had been holding his just moments ago and he's looking for the words to explain himself when she pulls away from him and goes back upstairs. He waits a few moments, looking for the correct words but he couldn't really come up with any. He goes to her room anyway, reaching for a handkerchief to patch her wound but she's hurt and furious and she tells him that his words hurt so much more than this and he's terrified for a moment that he's broken them beyond repair. She's escalating, working herself up and he can see the hurt in her eyes and he just tells her to count to three. He's done this so many times. He's always used it to stop himself from doing things he might regret. So he counts with her. One. She says, fiery and still angry. Two. And she's mellowed already, calmer and he thinks, preparing for him to hurt her again. Three. He says with her. And he doesn't hesitate. Because he's sure he'll regret not doing this his whole life. She's the closest thing he's got to a potential for happiness and she's here and they're fated after all, he thinks. So he reaches out for her and kisses her with everything he's got. Stay with me. Please. And as she kisses him back, he feels it in the rush of her gasp against his lips as he pulls her up, he can breathe again.

28. When Sang Tae finally accepted her, he's ecstatic. He gets to stay with her without hurting his brother anymore and he's free, for the first time from his heavy, heavy life. Of course it catches up and he finds out her mother is the person who killed his. And he's upset and terrified of hurting her by telling her when he's already hurt her so much. He'll carry this for them all, he can do it, he convinces himself

She finds out and she's distraught. She blames herself, and he tries so hard to get her to stay, to not leave but the words don't come out and all he can say is please. Please don't go. She's out of his grasp anyway. She's out and she's gone and she cries in her room and he waits for her to let him back in. He confesses I forget everything when I'm with you. And he's never missed a person so badly while being so near to them. He's terrified she'll leave.

29. He remembers it, her holding him, crying, begging him to wake up. When he wakes and she tells him to leave and leave her alone again, he's already decided he's going to fight for them. But it still hurts when she says she wants him gone. It hurts a lot.

She isn't eating. He notices it with increasing concern and he wishes she'd just let them heal her too. He knows she can't live like that again even if she's willing to make the sacrifice for them. So he tells her Sang Tae's story and tries convincing her and yelling at her but she isn't responding. At least not correctly.

He watches her walk her house like a ghost but he's gonna follow his older brother's lead on this. He's going to win. So when he asks her to eat dinner and she just asks him when he's leaving, he ignores the fact that she's asking him to leave and lies about the water pipe. She doesn't buy it. But she leaves him alone. He finally gets her to eat the next day it's a multiple man mission but he's happy she's eaten.

30. He's following her. He wonders if this counts as an ambush if you live with the person anyway. She's apologizing to the tree he's dedicated to his mom and he promises the tree silently that he'll try as long as it takes. So when she moves to walk away again, he's clutching at straws, what about my injured hand, he asks and she apologizes. I love you. He's fairly sure that'll do it. But she looks at him and then walks away and all he can try is to say it again. It's not until much much later that it strikes him that she did the same to him once. He follows her home and he's still saying it to her. It feels like he's held back on saying it for so long that he doesn't even mind saying it so much. Particularly if it'll get her to stay. So her asks her if that's not it, what was it then and she snaps at him If you say I love you one more time I'll rip your mouth . And it's not much but it's a reaction that emboldens him. Do what to my mouth ? He asks boldly before kissing her. And she stills looking at him more surprise than malice. That's all the indicators he needs to pick her up and put her on the table. They're fated after all, he thinks. And leans forward chasing the ghost of a kiss between them. Until they're interrupted by the god damn cockblock of the year deer. He just yells at it instinctively and he realizes he sounds so much like Moon Young as they laugh. So he tells her he loves her one more time and finally, finally kisses her again.

This, Kang Tae thinks, makes it all worth it. When he wakes up the next morning, for the first time, he's holding Ko Moon Young and there's nothing stopping them from being together. He's happy.

#psycho but its okay #it's okay not to be okay #it's okay to not be okay #ko moon young #moon kang tae

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Yaaasss!!! Jelous Ben was si cuteee and we love a supportive mother, her mom is fantastic and a savage. I hace a question, how did you come up with reader's character in x-men?? I legit googled it as I thought it was a real character, so welk done.

i love her mum so fuckin much, dude, she’s supportive but can still be embarrassing at times. i wrote her, not like my actual mum, but like my dad now that i think about it. dude literally told me over the phone that he’d physically fight people for shittalking me (not just in general, there’s more context, but the point still stands). idk i think it’s disingenuous to not let parental characters have certain flaws, like they’re allowed to be overprotective and spiteful, as well as caring and supportive. i love her too.

oH SHIT DUDE LEMME TALK ABT MY GIRL CASSIDY TEMPLE I LOVE HER SO FUCKING MUCH AND I”VE PUT SO MUCH THOUGHT INTO HER THAT THIS WILL HAVE A READ MORE

so cassidy’s powers are actually based off of an xmen oc i’ve already written 70k about, Aoibheal Cassidy, younger sister of Banshee, Sean Cassidy, and Cassidy Temple’s name is a reference to her, since originally I was going to essentially have Y/N playing Aoibheal (because it’s my fic and i can include an homage to my xmen oc as a treat). the powers themselves are based loosely on Multiple Man from X-Men: The Last Stand, except Cassidy’s clones can’t live a life of their own like his can. In the xmen fic, aoibheal starts off with having unlimited clones, and they can explode because i thought it was neat tbh.

From the original fic, Molotov Heart, chapter 3, rubatosis:

[Context; humans experimenting on mutants between X-Men First Class and X-Men Days Of Future Past have caught Sean and Aoibheal and they experiment on them even though Aoibheal’s powers have not manifested (she is approximately 13) and they kill her brother in front of her]:

Stunned into silence, she can feel something white-hot building inside of her, all the rage and fear and pain becoming almost tangible.

She mutates.

Copies of Aoibheal, clones, appear around them, filling up the space between the now screaming and bewildered 'doctors'. Aoibheal herself doesn't seem to notice the clones, bawling her eyes out, an action the clones themselves are mirroring, and she thinks of nothing but freedom and escape, focusing on the white-hot feeling inside of her until it overwhelmed her. With the force of a bunker-buster bomb, the clones began to combust, began to explode, first a few, and then all at once. Killing the human personel who had kept her hostage, the blast reduced the warehouse to mere cinders, freed Aoibheal and left her clothing in tatters, but she was alive damn it.

The reason Cassidy has a limited number is because i needed a way to have her powered up as a horseman, like a distinct power up, rather than just something unseen like heightened reflexes and strength.

I would like to point out also, that it’s not stated, but Cassidy’s explosions (NOT AOIBHEAL’s) are never to do with heat, they’re always about force. the explosions themselves are never hot, never have anything to do with fire or anything like that, she builds up force inside of the clones, and lets it tear her apart from the inside out as a wave that destroys the things it comes into contact with.

The scream was originally hereditary, like Banshee, it developed as her secondary mutation.

From the Marvel Wiki:

The Secondary Mutation (or "Second Mutation") is a phenomenon in which an existing mutant undergoes another mutation, gaining additional powers, such as healing, or a change in appearance.

Secondary mutation is noted as the appearance of new powers, or an increase in existing powers.

It was stated by Beast that the secondary mutations usually occurred in the twenties of the subjects, and generally appeared in time of great stress.

From the original fic, chapter 8, nodus tollens:

The appearance of the secondary mutation:

The world falls apart in a blur of movement. The gun goes off just after Raven jumps and makes a break for the window, the bullet curves as she crashes through the glass, following her on the way down. Tackling Erik earns Hank a mean right hook to the jaw, but Aoibheal’s there, looking at Trask like a dear in the headlights, memories whipping through her head like a hurricane - the sick fuck looks pleased to see her – her mouth falls open and she screams. She and the clone scream in tandem, their voices supersonic as the surrounding people clutched their ears for dear life; struggling to keep a hold of the feeling in her chest that caused her to explode, the clone detonates like a firework, scorching the wallpaper while Trask is stumbling to the door. There’s blood leaking from his ears but Aoibheal can’t move, can only scream and relive the memory of her brother’s murder over and over again.

Hank discussing it:

"I've never seen a secondary mutation so vastly different!" No longer blue or furry, [Hank’s] smile is excited as he looks over at her. Sharing the cockpit feels almost familiar by now, with Aoibheal curled up in the passenger seat nursing a glass of water. "It makes sense though, your original mutation – the explosions – would be an extension of your temperature immunity, but your secondary mutation is hereditary."

Cassidy’s scream, however, unlike Banshee’s, only effects things with ears, not inanimate objects like glass. Of course she could learn the right pitch to get glass to shatter like an opera singer, but generally speaking, her scream only effects things that can hear.

OKAY LETS TALK ABT THE STUFF I FABRICATED FOR THE FIC

oh GOD I WANT TO TALK ABOUT HER RELATIONSHIP WITH MAGNETO

not as in romantic, as in he is literally her character’s main inspiration in the films. i’m literally making a fake trailer right now that’s intercut with moments from his DOFP speech that was broadcast to the whole of america.

i love dofp (possibly to my detriment) but i always thought it was weird that no-one was ever like.... magneto has a point. BECAUSE HE HAS A POINT. he’s speaking directly to disenfranchised and SCARED mutants across the nation, and yet everyone’s heralding Mystique as the new face of mutant kind. YES she made a point, but like.... did no-one vibe with magneto when he promised the destruction of mankind? i would. anyways.

so i thought it would be interesting for this character, Cassidy, to have this hero-worship of Magneto, taking his words to heart like scripture, ultimately making her a foil for Phoenix, Xavier’s protege.

it’s why i specifically included this:

“You should be,” you hissed, putting your all into the words as you spoke them, and you hear Ben inhale sharply beside you, “we shall inherit the Earth.”

“What follows is a struggle as Cassidy and the figure – revealed to be her clone – proceed to kill the man. When they’re finished, and the man’s dead on the ground, Cassidy straightens her outfit, and we hear –“ as the director reads, Michael begins to slowly clap, “a slow clap, and it’s revealed that Apocalypse, as well as Storm, Angel, and Magneto, had all witnessed the event.”

“We are the future, we are the ones who shall inherit the Earth,” Michael reads as he stops clapping.

“Magneto,” you breathe reverentially, and when you look to him, you and Michael share a sharp smile.

which is a direct quote from magneto’s speech in Days of Future Past:

You built these weapons to destroy us. Why? Because you are afraid of our gifts. Because we are different. Humanity has always feared that which is different. Well, I'm here to tell you, to tell the world, you're right to fear us. We are the future. We are the ones who will inherit this earth, and anyone who stands in our way will suffer the same fate as these men you see before you. Today was meant to be a display of your power. Instead I give you a glimpse of the devastation my race can unleash upon yours. Let this be a warning to the world. And to my mutant brothers and sisters out there, I say this; no more hiding, no more suffering. You have lived in the shadows in shame and fear for too long. Come out, join me. Fight together in the brotherhood of our kind. A new tomorrow, that starts today.

which ALSO is what turns her into the next big villain for the franchise, because she sees Magneto, the man she kind of thinks of like a god, turn on and help kill Apocalypse, the man who claimed to be an actual god, and side with the people who, ultimately, don’t want to destroy the human race like she does, and also killed the man she loved. she takes Magneto’s ideologies and turns them up to 11. he fucks off to create a mutant paradise away from prying eyes and is happy, she won’t be happy until all humans are punished.

it’s why, in the beginning, she and raven can’t still work together, because raven wants to rescue mutants, but not at the expense of unnecessary human lives, and cassidy sees all humans as complicit in the torture, and therefore deserving of punishment.

she has deemed herself judge, jury, and executioner of human kind, and they have all been found guilty.

i’m so excited to see if i get around to writing some of the next film because i really want to explore the dichotomy of Xavier’s ‘no-one is ever really gone/there’s always hope’ and magneto’s ‘you were right to be afraid of us, we are the ones who shall inherit the earth’. Everyone has given up on Cassidy in one way or another, whether it be by betrayal or death, and so when she finds this symbiote who literally becomes a part of her, makes her stronger, and is happy to kill people with little regard for who they are, she’ll take it.

EDIT: here’s the first 26 seconds of the fake trailer (Y/N here is played by Jurnee Smollett, aka Black Canary from Birds of Prey)

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ANGEL & RIOT

i wanted y/n to kiss ben hardy that’s literally it.

actually no that’s not it 100%, i think it’s super amusing in a kind of bleak way that he got fridged for her, like his death, both in the “””comics””” (as in the comic universe for the fics) and in the film, causes her to seek out a force that would help bring him back to life. in the “””comics””” she originally seeks out a mutant, but when the mutant who can bring people back refuses to help her, she’s told of experiments at The Life Foundation, who are working on engineering the next step in human evolution, and she’s thinking that they’re experimenting on mutants again, like trask, and goes in guns blazing, but instead finds symbiotes. she bonds with a symbiote, thus becoming Riot Control, and the symbiote initially promises her all these things, including being able to find a way to ressurect angel, but eventually (in the “””comics”””) the power he gives her overtakes her need to ressurect her love, and riot ends up using her to try and build a ship to bring more symbiotes to take over earth.

IN THE FILM

okay OKAY okay OKAY so she’s looking for a way to ressurect angel at first, but riot’s in her ear while he’s seeing all her memories, and is convincing her to get revenge on the people who are responsible for his death (nightcrawler, jean, and Magneto specifically) so its not that the xmen are just in the plot by happenstance there’s like actual beef, love it.

I also love that Cassidy’s powers are handicapped when she’s got Riot, since her scream would injure or even possibly kill him. Yes i specifically paired her with a symbiote for that reason, which is also the reason why her clone explosions aren’t heat based.

but anyway, can i spoil the ending? i wanna spoil the ending;

so there’s this big showdown between riot control and the xmen, and jean confronts cassidy, trying to talk her down like ‘what would angel think if he saw you? What you’ve become?’ and Cassidy’s furious, thinking that jean’s trying to guilt her, like, angel would be so ashamed

“Keep his name out of your fucking mouth, you have no idea what he’d think-”

“He’d be terrified of you.” And it’s so fucking like, cruel and cold coming from Jean.

“Shut up.”

“You have become a monster; you have maimed your idol-” [we cut to a shot of magneto looking all fucked up and bloody, watching with anger in his eyes] “and you have left Angel for dead. If you’d really cared about him, you would have already gotten him back. Instead, you come for revenge against the people who could have helped you -”

or something like that, and riot control has a whole breakdown, lashing out, snarling that no-one could help her, and when they tried, they ended up dead (angel, apocalypse) and she starts losing control, and her voice starts to distort in and out of riot’s, making it clear he’s taking control of her completely.

there’s this big, final fight, which culminates with jean grabbing cassidy’s face and trying to burn riot out of her.

“No-one is beyond help.” And Jean’s like, got tears in her eyes, desperate to save this girl who’s caused so much pain, but who sees herself as so wretched and beyond help, and we see the symbiote burning away and screaming, but also the physical signs of cassidy’s mutation as like, peeling away in embers, like the black scales around her eyes, and the way her whole eyes are seen as black is now clearing away, and she takes both of Jean’s hands and forces her to keep holding on, to keep looking in her natural fucking eyes for the first and last time as she burns out too.

“You can’t save everyone.” and then Cassidy’s just ash in the wind.

also this ending, in a meta-sense, makes sense, because after this Disney buys Fox and there’s no more this-universe X-Men films, so they had to do a self-contained story, there couldn’t be things left super unresolved.

OR maybe she’s fine, maybe she gets saved and riot burns out of her (spoilers, he fucks off and doesn’t die, hence, Venom (2018); it takes him about 20 years to recuperate) i haven’t decided.

#the angry lizard speaks #hyniels #dreashappyworld

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Episode 13: Only the Good Die Young

Sources:

Ryu Gwansun

History Channel

Internet Archive

Wikisource

Korea(.)net

Further reading/viewing: Pantheon, Memories of Cell No. 8 (YouTube), A Resistance Trailer (YouTube)

Brittany Murphy

Investigation Discovery

ET Canada (YouTube)

Biography, Brittany Murphy: The Mysterious Circumstances Surrounding Her Untimely Death

Rotten Tomatoes, 11 surprising things you probably didn’t know about ‘Clueless’

Buzzfeed

CNN

Alice Ball

Biography

National Geographic

Oxford Museum of Natural History

ScholarSpace University of Hawaii Manoa

Chemistry World

Click below for a full transcript of the episode!

Alana: So the title of this episode is Only the Good Die Young, right? Haley: Yeah. Alana: And I know it's a song. But that's not even true, because people are complicated, first of all, and all dichotomies are false dichotomies, even that one, because there are some true dichotomies. And goddammit that's a Hank Green quote. Lexi: Yet another episode where the Greens slipped in. Alana: Because I love one man and his brother. [INTRO MUSIC] Alana: Hello and welcome to Lady History; the good, the bad, and the ugly ladies you missed in history class. I'm not quite with Lexi. Lexi, what's the worst part about doing this on Zoom? Lexi: Dang. The worst part about doing this on Zoom is if I wanted to make cocktails and give them to you guys I would have to mail them and then the ice would melt so that would really suck. Alana: Also almost here is Haley. Haley, what's the best part about doing this on Zoom? Haley: Seeing your lovely faces. We spent like three, four years together just seeing each other every single day and that was the worst part about going to grad school was I didn't have you guys. Alana: And I'm Alana and I haven't spent this much time in a closet since 2014. Haley, laughing: Oh, shit. Lexi: That's good I love that. That adds a little light. Alana: A little levity. Oh my god Haley’s losing it. Lexi: A brief warning about the following story. This story includes police brutality and torture. If these subjects are uncomfortable for you, please skip to the next story. Archival Audio: Arirang Lexi: You just heard the song Arirang, an approximately six hundred year old folk song which is on the UNESCO Intangible Cultural Heritage List. During the fight for Korean independence, protesters sang the song as a symbol of Korean spirit. We will tell the story of one of those protesters today; Ryu Gwansun, listener suggested by my sorority sister Kate. Shout out to Kate. My sister from George Mason. I love her and she suggested this lady and it was a really good suggestion. Alana: Wait it's– it's another Korean lady. Lexi: Yes. Alana: Which is the language that you studied in school. Lexi: Yes so it all comes back. And I actually had heard of Ryu Gwansun before, so I was excited to dive deeper into that story and share it with other people because every Korean teacher I ever had brought her up at some point. And if you take Korean history in a college setting, one of the days will be about her, inevitably. So every year in Korea, the people celebrate Independence Movement Day on March 1, and Koreans call this day Sam-il, which literally means three one. This annual event commemorates the protests that took place on March 1, 1919, a large resistance of Japan's military rule of the Korean people. For some context, in 1910 Japan annexed Korea without the consent of Korean leadership. Japan's rule in Korea sought to assimilate Koreans to Japanese culture. It would take a whole episode to explain this entire story and how the U. S. is involved in a whole bunch of other things, but for our purposes it is important to understand that this was like overall a really bad time for the Korean people. Korean culture was restricted, Japanese individuals moved into their land, and violent military rule by the Japanese became the norm in the Korean Peninsula. Additionally, Koreans were forcibly removed from the peninsula and taken Japan to work as forced laborers. So, as you can imagine, there was a lot of resistance to the Japanese in early 20th century Korea. One act of resistance was a protest that occurred on March 1, 1919, Sam-il. On that day, thirty three activists gathered in Seoul and read aloud the Korean Declaration of Independence, which begins “We herewith proclaim the independence of Korea and the liberty of the Korean people. This we proclaim to all the nations of the world in witness of human equality. This we proclaim to our descendents so that they may enjoy in perpetuity their inherent right to nationhood.” Obviously that was said Korean, translated to English for our listeners. This moment was just the spark that began a fire of resistance with communities across the peninsula beginning to protest the Japanese occupation. One protester was Gwansun, who had represented this moment in history for generations of Koreans and today serves as the main symbol of the March 1st movement. Gwansun was born in modern day South Korea, but of course at this time Korea was still one unified nation, so that doesn't really matter, but she was born in a province that's now modern South Korea. She was born on November 17, 1902 so happy birthday to her two days ago when this episode airs. Her father was a reform-minded Methodist and an enlightenment thinker. And in 1918, Gwansun was admitted on scholarship to the Ewha Girls’ School. It's a school that still exists today and has a long list of famous graduates. It is not to be confused with Ewha University, which is a prominent women's university in Seoul, but it is in Seoul and it is Ewha’s girls school so I can understand why people mix them up. The school, along with many others in the country, had become a hub for young activists to learn and discuss the Japanese occupation. Together, they dreamed of Korean independence, so it was very much a young people's movement, and they protested actively cheering “long live Korean independence!” Japan, noticing the schools were becoming organizing hubs for young activists, shut them down. So, Gwansun was sent back to her hometown where she continued to rally support for Korean independence among her community. The school closures were catalysts for national unity among the Korean people and ignited a wave of new activism. So everyone was like “they closed our schools, let's all get together and really start to protest.” So Gwansun recruited people to participate in protests with her on March 1, 1919. The protests would take place at the Aunae– I might be saying that one wrong, I couldn’t find in Hangul, only in English so I'm reading the Romanized version not the Hangul which is why I'm pronouncing it really badly– the Aunae Market. And soon Japanese police forces arrived and began to shoot the Korean protesters who were unarmed. And the police killed nineteen people, including both of Gwansun's parents. The police arrested many of the protesters, including sixteen year old Gwansun. In custody, Gwansun was offered a deal; if she pled guilty and outed her fellow activists who organized the event, the Japanese police would lighten her sentence. When Gwansun refused to out her co-conspirators, the Japanese police tortured her. Despite being beaten, she still resisted giving up any information, thus maintaining her role in the fight against Japanese oppression and violence. Many other women who fought for independence were imprisoned with Gwansun at Seodaemun prison. One year later, on March 1, 1920, women in the women's walk of Seodaemun prison began to chant “long live Korean independence.” The chant spread across the prison. One of these young women was Gwansun. I actually got the chance to visit this prison when I was in South Korea in 2018, highly recommend going there it's now a dedicated history museum with exhibit materials in English, Korean, Chinese, Russian, and a couple other languages. And I got to see cell number eight in the women's branch which is where Gwansun was imprisoned, and it's now dedicated in her honor and it’s set up as an exhibit for her. They had really immersive exhibits to explain her story so it was a very moving experience. After the chant, Gwansun was transferred to solitary confinement. Just two days before the end of her sentence on September 28, 1920 at the age of just seventeen, she died in prison from injuries sustained during torture. Never abandoning her beliefs, she continued to advocate in prison, writing in her diary “Japan will fall. Even if my fingernails are torn out, my nose and ears are ripped apart, and my legs and arms are crushed, this physical pain doesn't compare to the pain of losing my nation. My only remorse is not being able to do more than dedicating my life to my country." It would be another twenty five years until Korea gained independence, with Japan being defeated in World War II. Gwansun has been remembered in popular media, including in Korean films and books, and the trailer for one such film that just came out last year will be on our show notes in the tumblr, it's called “Resistance” in English, it looks really cool. I haven't had a chance to watch the whole film yet but I watched all the trailers that are on YouTube because I was just so captivated. The young actress who plays her seems really really talented so I will be watching the whole thing. Join me in watching it at some point, definitely check it out. And Gwansun is seen as a martyr for the Korean independence movement. She is still honored by Korean people to this day. A shrine was erected to her in home city. It's a really cute statue of her holding up a flag and protesting. And many scholars refer to her as Korea's Joan of Arc, but I don’t like when we compare women to each other. I really think Gwansun is Korea’s Gwansun. She is a woman who died far too young, fighting for what she believed in, and we deserve to remember her in that way. Haley: I love your note on not comparing women to women because… Lexi: It bugs the shit out of me. I just… Like, why does she have to be compared to particularly a white woman, white Christian woman. But why does she have to be compared to anyone else? She did something incredible for her people. Maybe Joan of Arc is France’s Ryu Gwansun. Archival Audio: Before you lies the most glamorous city on Earth. Hollywood, California. A city where men and women skyrocket to fame or crash to oblivion.

Haley: I'll be talking about Brittany Murphy, and with this a brief warning of death, poisoning, murder, and eating disorders. I really struggled with picking a lady today because it was either someone who recently died, which I felt very awkward talking about, or a very small child, which I just, again, mental health needed a break. However, I recently watched Clueless and there is a new ID Mystery or Investigation Discovery coming out so drum roll I had to pick Brittany Murphy. And a lot of me in remembering my deep dive of her life when she died in 2009 and she's one of the first celebrities I remember as a– like a death, like they're dying being reported, and me as a young child having that connection being like “I know who that is I've watched her movies, I've seen her, I had a connection. Also I believe it was around the time my grandfather died, so I kinda– it's been very strange. Whenever someone significant in my life has died another celebrity that had a significant impact in my life also dies around then, so that also had an impression on me. So we all know her as Tai Frasier from the 1995 classic Clueless. However, her big break actually came from becoming a regular on the sitcom Drexell's Class at age fourteen, and honestly it was no surprise that she became such a huge star because around age eight she was begging her mom to start acting, and by age twelve her mom was like “you know what, sure. Let's do this thing. We'll see what happens.” And almost immediately she was booked for gigs, and it was like gig after gig. Back to Clueless. As if - heh - I were gonna just not talk about that movie. Brittany’s character Tai is a new student who's described as hopelessly klutzy and who gets pulled under the wing of popular socialite, Cher, and once she gets that classic makeover, her popularity skyrockets. And yes, this is the movie where the main character starts dating her ex stepbrother who's Paul Rudd. Utter classic. I believe it's still on Netflix. Do yourself a favor and watch it. Alana: It’s based on Emma… Haley: Yes, yes. Alana: And at the end of Emma, Emma starts dating her brother-in-law, so… Haley: So along with the movie being absolutely iconic, it's over twenty five years old so we get a lot of like the fun facts or the tidbits being released. And honestly, not many reference Brittany Murphy. I was really surprised by that. A lot of them of course are on like Cher, being the main character, but a lot on like the director, creator and the costume designer. But for Brittany Murphy I was like oh my gosh I just have all these fun facts in my brain that I just remember from her In Memoriam reel but I couldn't find like the evidence to back it up. But my two favorite were the insult that Tai and Cher like were arguing and Tai goes “you’re a virgin who can’t drive.” Alana: Way harsh, Tai. Haley: Chef’s kiss line. Well, Brittany Murphy was actually the virgin who couldn't drive, which I thought was hysterical. And at the time I watched Clueless I was also a virgin who couldn't drive, so I don't realize like why that was an insult like yeah, what? Alana: I still can't drive. Haley: Like do you not have a license or you’re just a bad driver? Because I’m a shitty driver but I have like– Alana: Oh, my license expires in January. Haley: Oh, okay. Also the scene where she gets hit in the head with like a clog in that like house party, it was a little bit of movie magic if you will because they did the scene with like a prop and it just looked really really fake so when they went in post they superimposed a shoe or whatever like hit her, I believe it was a clog, so the movie would look more realistic. And now I really want to rewatch the movie to see if I like they got it just right with the editing. Now doing a one eighty to her death. As I said, Investigation Discovery has a new episode documentary. In the show notes, I’ve linked it, it’s free. It calls it like episode one or something and I believe it's like forty minutes long, so it's something you can do while you're building a bookshelf, cooking dinner, trying to fall asleep; that's how I watched it, please don't read into that. And the episode documentary is not necessarily on her death that she died, but investigating it as not actually an accident from the perspective of her father really spearheading this. So her father, before he died in 2019, was like “I need to investigate this more,” did a bunch of interviews on how he believes that there is a little more to the story about his daughter Brittany Murphy dying at the age of thirty two. And a lot of my notes come from the documentary or commentary from it and I'm doing a warning in addition to my previous trigger warning that there are a lot of nine one one calls and as Investigation Discovery does, it covers the tragic story without holding anything back. So if that might be a little too much, you'll have a snippet here today. A very abbreviated version, if you will. So her official death from like LA county or like the coroner there in 2010 was said to be a combination of iron deficiency, anemia, pneumonia, and a combination of prescription drugs- like heavy doses of cold medication. But originally, the report was written as a heart attack, and I believe that one of the coroners told news outlets that her death appeared natural. I just want to pause and say a thirty two year old should not have like a natural death if it was ruled as a heart attack. And even kind of with the like documentary, I was having a hard time with like which coroner said what. Maybe that was just me watching this after my stressful life just being my stressful life with work and school. I really want to watch it with you guys too. There are also rumors that she had a drug problem and an eating disorder which could have contributed to her death, but when I was reading like some news outlets and it was like the really crappy tabloids it was like “she died of an eating disorder” and like no or like if she didn't have an eating disorder she would've lived. And there was nothing to say that she did or did not have an eating disorder per se, like at that time. I couldn't find any credible sources from 2009/2010 that she did have an eating disorder. All I could find was like “Brittany Murphy is looking really skinny” and that that’s… as a person– I’ll go out and say it– who has struggled with like eating disorders in the past, I will never say this person had an eating disorder, this person didn’t. I could not find Brittany Murphy coming out and saying that she had an eating disorder. This is all speculation. Even if it comes from a doctor, even if it comes from her dad, speculation. I’m not a doctor. Before her death, both Brittany and her husband Simon Monjack believed that they were being watched by the US government, and Brittany was reportedly a witness to Julia Davis, the Homeland Security employee who called out some of the problems within the organization. So that was kind of like a part that I– people are like “oh she could’ve been murdered, taken out by the government.” And I really didn't know where to put this note in, because it was kind of like she was saying it before she died as well, and she was, I think, a little paranoid from this. Also before her death, Simon and her mother were both sick in Puerto Rico. Brittany was filming The Caller, they went along for a vacay and things just turned nasty. You get sick, that's also like just like a common thing… getting sick on vacations. However, she was reportedly fired on like the first day and some kind of like pointed to her husband causing a nuisance on set for being like drunk and such. So things are just like being very weird. Like a lot of first like the government coming in thinking that she was being followed or watched and now being on a film set and her husband causing a huge disturbance. And sometimes still while on this island, like I said Simon and her mother got sick, so much so that on the flight home, Brittany had to give her husband CPR. And someone, I believe it was Simon claimed he was having a mild heart attack. So again we have this heart attack cause of illness coming back. So of course we get to the part where Brittany now gets a little cold, and it isn't just a little cold. She gets laryngitis. Apparently she got her second period in a month, hence the anemia. A lot of list of just the dominoes hitting the fan of she was essentially sick for six weeks, which takes a toll on any body, regardless of if you were healthy before or not. And she even had a doctor's appointment for the Monday after she died and I believe she died like on a Friday night at home. So fast forward a few months to now her husband dies, of like similar causes. And this was also sketchy because not only did he die like in the same room, same bed, his death was also ruled as quote “severe anemia and acute pneumonia.” So now like bells should be ringing off like what the fuck what the fuck, this is just a few months after her. And another weird part was that there was like an alleged scandal that he also had a relationship with her mother. Things are not adding up. Just to like wrap this whole thing up, like her father said in one of his last interviews he just didn't feel right. This didn’t sit well, and he continuously made allegations against other family members, and he just really wanted to get closure on her death. And that's basically where it ends– where it’s we don't know, we just now have all this new information and people like Investigation Discovery documentary episode are just trying to put it together. Alana: That's a heavy one. Archival Audio: From the Middle Ages, down to modern times, the magic of chemistry has fascinated mankind. Alana: So I don't have a content warning for this one aside from like she died when she was young and that's hard to talk about. Alice Augusta Ball was born on July 24, making her a Leo, 1892 in Seattle, Washington. I'm gonna make that my thing that I just note the star signs of my ladies. Both of Alice's parents and her grandfather were photographers, which meant that because of like photographic technology in the late 19th century Alice grew up around the chemicals that were used for developing photographs at the time. In 1902, when Alice was ten, they all moved to Honolulu, hoping that the change in climate might alleviate her grandfather's arthritis and other medical conditions. Alice's grandfather died two years later and the family moved back to Seattle where Alice graduated high school in 1910 with stellar, amazing, incredible, top of her class grades. She earned a degree in pharmaceutical chemistry in just two years and then a degree in chemistry in four years, both from the University of Washington. She went back to Hawaii to get her master's degree in chemistry from the University of Hawaii which was then called College of Hawaii. She was the first woman and the first Black woman to get a master's degree from the university of Hawaii. She graduated in 1915 and then that fall she became head of the chemistry department. Her thesis was about isolating the active ingredients in kava root for medical purposes, and this is why Dr Harry Hollmann, an assistant surgeon at the local hospital, sought her help. At the time, the best treatment for Hansen's disease, A. K. A. leprosy, was a pill or an ointment made from chaulmoogra oil, which was derived from the seeds of a tropical evergreen tree called the chaulmoogra. So isolating these active ingredients in plants would be an excellent skill to have if you were to research further on chaulmoogra oil and cures slash treatments for Hansen's disease. She juggled teaching and research as a twenty something. And the time management skills of this woman, that within a year she had created a water soluble solution of chaulmoogra oil which meant it could be administered directly into the bloodstream and be much more effective. It. Worked. The practice for people who had been diagnosed with Hanson's or leprosy was to group them together and isolate the group. This is where you get the phrase leper colony. One of my sources called this treatment only partially effective, but holy shit! Because of Alice, those people got to go home to their families. So I don't– partially effective? No. I hate you. I don't hate you, thank you for writing something that I could read for free, but come on. Alice died December t31 1916 at the age of twenty four, after a lab accident while she was teaching gave her chlorine poisoning because lab ventilation wasn't required yet. Her work was stolen. And this you'll see when we talk about– when I talk about Rosalind Franklin in January that stolen work of women in STEM is kind of a theme for me. Arthur Dean, the college president who took over her work after she died, but basically all he did was publish it, only mentioned her name once in the publication and started calling it the Dean Method. Luckily, Dr Hollmann was like “um. No ma’am.” and actively started calling it the Ball Method, and that's the name that stuck. And this method was used until the 1940s, so for twenty years, until sulfone drugs came onto the scene, and they work better or something. I… As previously mentioned, I am not a doctor. Just a little bit about her legacy, as of 2000, February 29 is officially Alice Ball day in Hawaii which… February 29? Really? The twenty ninth? A date that doesn't really exist? Come on. The University of Hawaii Manoa also offers the Alice Augusta Ball scholarship for students majoring in chemistry, biochemistry, biology, or microbiology. They also have a little plaque for her on their chaulmoogra tree, which is just small but I think it's cute. But Alice's work basically cured leprosy. And was just like– people weren't contagious and could go back to living with their families and living their lives and just being people. And then this is one of those things like in a general sense that I'm like, how many great, incredible, fantastic, smart, brilliant minds are we stifling due to systematic oppression? because Alice was so amazing and smart and was able to accomplish all of these things as a Black woman and overcame like– every single source that I read was like this was so strange for a woman, for a Black person, for a Black woman to be doing. So like, larger than anything that she personally could have done, which I think if she had survived this poisoning or if there were… if ventilation was a thing in labs, could she have found the vaccine for leprosy? That I don’t know whether or not we have. I can't really tell. They were working on it at one point according to one of my articles, that was in 2018 and it was promising so it might be done by now. But like what are we as a society missing out on by making life so difficult for anyone who isn’t a cisgender straight white man. Like all of these amazing… Lexi: Snaps. Snaps to that. Alana: Thank you. I'm very frustrated by systematic oppression these days. It's like Covid, systematic oppression, how systematic oppression is making Covid worse in places… Lexi: There's gonna be a Black woman in the White House. Alana: There’s gonna be a Black woman in the White House. Lexi: Just to make you feel a little better. Alana: I do feel better about that. Haley: It makes me so happy. Alana: I do like that. And then her husband is the first Jew in the White House. Haley: Really? Alana: Yeah. Haley: I really wish like we could've called him like the First Doug, because I feel like that's awesome. Yeah, the First Doug. Lexi: Second. Second, because it’s a VP’s spouse. It’s the Second. Alana: Yeah, Second Doug. Lexi: A Doug that really went up the ranks. Alana: I think the vibe that is going to end up happening is First Gentleman– Second Gentleman because that’s what they do for governors. Haley: But like I want Second Doug and then like forever it just be Doug. Lexi: Oh, it becomes Doug, even after. Haley: Yeah. Alana: I like that. Lexi: Kinda love it, it's like oh the Doug. Alana: I'm not a fan of Second Dude, I don't care for that I think that's like… Lexi: Yeah I don't like that. We need like a Spouse of President. No like a SOP. Alana: SOP! Lexi: You can find this podcast on Twitter and Instagram at LadyHistoryPod. Our show notes and a transcript of this episode will be on ladyhistorypod dot tumblr dot com. If you like the show, leave us a review, or tell your friends, and if you don't like the show, keep it to yourself. Alana: Our logo is by Alexia Ibarra, you can find her on Twitter and Instagram at LexiBDraws. Our theme music is by me, GarageBand, and Amelia Earhart. Lexi is doing the editing. You will not see us, and we will not see you, but you will hear us, next time on Lady History. Haley: Next week on Lady History, it's our U. S. Thanksgiving episode, and we’re doing a deep dive into Native slash Indigenous peoples’ history. [OUTRO MUSIC] Haley: Are raccoons like ducks where you can just like pick one up off the street? Lexi: That’s not true for ducks, we talked about this. You can’t steal wild animals.

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pointlesstrashyexistence · 4 years ago

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Any idea why my reblog wouldn't go through? Since I obliterated every single point you made, you ought to read it. The reply I posted tagged you instead.

No idea. As far as I know I haven’t blocked you and I don’t know what post you are talking about since I haven’t been tagged in anything.

Never mind. I realized that you were in fact were a racist and I blocked you’re other account so you got bitter and tried to argue using information that is innacurate. And if anybody would like to know the other account of this person, it is thoughtsandreplies.

So I’m going to go over each statement the person made with the exception of what originally began this, Immersion (Piss Jesus). Art is a very personal experience, but how you interpret art does not give you the right to use it as an excuse for racism.

So 1) No one is actually saying that Lincoln was a racist. They’re arguing whether or not the depiction of the Black man in the Emancipation Memorial, a real former slave named Archer Alexander is racist and if it should be taken down because of that. This specific instance is not about the white man involved, but the black man being represented and if his representation as someone physically and what could be taken as symbolically lower than a white man is degrading. This is a complex issues that even two of his descendants are have opposing opinions on. Muhammad Ali was a direct descendant of this man and his third cousin, Keith Winstaed, and his oldest daughter, actress Maryum Ali, have opposing opinions. Winstaed is in favor of keeping it because he is more focused on the historical context, that the sculpture of Alexander was meant to be seen as empowering because has broken his chains and beginning to rise. However, Ali is viewing with the eyes of someone living in the 21st century who expects better representation for minority communities that have historically been vilified in art, literature, television, and politics. She believes the statue is degrading and offensive because even if Alexander’s chains are broken, he is still below Lincoln, a white man, and is in a position that can be interpreted as him bowing to him. As I said before, art is personal and both people have valid interpretations of this piece. This is not the same as tearing down statues of actual racists. We put up statues of people to honor them, but we must be able to recognize that we can no longer honor people who were legitimately horrible. I don’t see any statues of Hitler in Germany so what’s your excuse for why you want to keep up sculptures of racists?

2) off the bat I could tell you were a racist who hasn’t bothered to examine their words and actions by referring to the Black Lives Matter Movement as a “historically illiterate mob”. Most of the people in the movement are black so I can assume you are perpetuating the stereotype that black people can’t read which is enforced by the fact that it was illegal for slaves to be literate and black and brown communities have historically and continue to receive less funding for their schools, which leads to lower quality books and teachers, which leads to students who have difficulty in their studies, which leads to students who have lower grades, which leads to black and brown communities being forced to accept work at lower paying jobs, which leads to black and brown parents that are not able to spend time with their children in order to make enough money for food, water, electricity, and housing, which leads to kids who don’t receive the attention they need, which leads to students who are being taught by these same lower standard teacher with old outdated books, which leads to students being frustrated over not being at the level of their studies that they should be but are unable to seek outside help because of a lack of tutors and familial help, which leads to students who “act out” because they were not able to develop the emotional tools necessary to monitor behavior and are then forced into prisons by teachers who have called the police on them, which leads to another lack of education because the U.S. prison system does not want to rehabilitate prisoners and help them become better people, it just wants to find a way to legally continue slavery.

3) It does not matter if someone had doubts about whether or not someone had doubts over their racial superiority. What matters is that they still willingly continued to be a part of that system that benefitted them because it was more convenient to not do anything. Also, nice job on conveniently leaving out the fact that Jefferson was known to have raped his slaves and produced multiple children with slaves, but still did not bothering freeing any of his slaves.

4) Don’t bother bringing up almost any of the other founding fathers also since they were also slave owners perpetuating the system because it helped them make money. And don’t try to excuse it by claiming that it was just accepted at the time. Abolitionism was a thing during that time. Even when Columbus began raping and pilaging, there were people who knew what he was doing was bad. There is writing about how people already knew Columbus was fucking insane and even Queen Isabella and King Ferdinand of Spain, you know, the ones who started the Spanish Inquisition, was so disgusted by rumors about Columbus that they had him investigated and took away his titles when they found out about what was happening. They’re not off the hook though because they were still, you know, the reason for why many Saphardic Jews were imprisoned, killed, and forced to run away.

5) No, I don’t use the word “racist” too lightly, you’re standards for what count as racist just don’t include enough things that are racist.

6) Black people live in fear because they have historically and systemically have had legitimate reasons to, not because I’m calling out things that have been blatantly racist.

7) Yes there has been property damage. Yes there are people who are going to use these events as an excuse to do whatever they want. That will always be a part of protesting. But don’t act like cops aren’t doing this same thing, intentionally planting themselves in protests and then creating violence or causing property damage in order to give other cops a reason to attack protestors. If you know enough, you can spot them based on whose wearing shoes that can be run in or heavy combat boots, whose wearing nondescript clothes that you can see protective gear under, and who is wearing the “color of the day”, a tactic cops have used in order to disguise themselves among protestors but signal that they are cops to other cops by wearing matching accessories like armbands, headbands, or wristbands.

8) Funny how you don’t want to bring up the fact that these are populations with large black and brown communities that are usually overpoliced. Also, just because someone is a Democrat does not make them a liberal. The only reason I’m in preference of Democrats is because of the multiple marginalized communities that will hold them accountable for anything they do.

9) Not every single time a black person is killed is it because of racism. That “black-on-Black crime” people like to bring up? That’s not racism, that’s just the fact that people in close proximity to each other are more likely to kill each other and there are still heavily legally segregated parts of America due to wealth disparity. That example you brought up about a black cop killing a black man? That’s not racism. That a person knowing that they are untouchable because of the power that they have because the only good cops are cops that have quit. If you haven’t quit or been fired, you are likely a member of the blue wall of silence that refuses to condemn offices who intentionally act violently knowing that they will not be punished. Also, let’s not forget that people can also be prejudiced against people in their race or ethnicity because of the shade of their skin and the socio-economic class.

10) When have you seen any white man being bashed for having a black wife or being a “big brother” to black children? Often the only people who have problems with black women getting married to white men are black men who feel like they own black women and then claim they are “betraying their race” when they seek love from men in other races and ethnicities, but expect black women to stay silent as they chase after snow bunnies who fetishize mixed children. The only other case I could think of would be racists not wanting races to mix. And the “big brother” thing? The only reason I could think of would be complaints about wanting more black men to be “big brothers” because white men just cannot relate to the experiences of being a black child.

11) You conveniently left out that despite being one of the smallest racial communities in the U.S., black people are also the most policed, and will get arrested for things cops would let a white man go with like weed charges. Look no further than lovely white wonderbread comedien John Mulaney saying in his second comedy special “the comeback kid” “it’s (weed) always been legal silly goose”. This means that they have a disproportionate amount of black people in their records because if black people only make up 13% of people in the entire nation, they should only make up about 13% of all crime to, but they make up more because policemen have quotas to fill for how many people they arrest in order to receive more funding, and its easier with a racist system backing you up to arrest Black than white people.

12) Again, people in close proximity to each other are more likely to kill each other than people who do not know each other and people who live far from each other. Also, it’s the ultra extremists who really want to abolish the police. I still think we need a protective system, but we need it to work for the common people, not corporations and politicians. I think that every district should use the same system as wealthy white neighborhoods, where anyone who wants to be a policeman must be assigned a position in the neighborhood they are from because anything they do wrong will make them accountable to their neighbors, family, and friends. Also I believe that all cops should undergo mandatory psychological evaluations every 3-6 months, especially cops who have worked on extremely traumatic cases. I also believe that the U.S. should require at least 3 years of school for anyone wanting to become a cop because no one is actually able to learn the law, learn to enforce it through peaceful means unless in dire circumstances, and care for the wounded, mentally ill, physically disabled, or anyone mentally impaired by drugs and alcohol in 6 months.

13) Another example of how this person is racist because they are actually suggesting that we enforce racial discrimination and black poverty. Also, if you want to bring up gangs, the biggest gang in the U.S is police force using propaganda that promotes the idea of “belonging” and economic stability in order to entice people who do not feel like they belong wherever they are, and then giving them a gun and badge that basically means “kill whoever you want because we will cover it up for you”.

14) Unless a woman feels like she is able to provide a stable enough home environment for her and her child, NO ONE WILLINGLY CHOOSES TO BE A SINGLE MOTHER! Single motherhood is caused by multiple events. A woman was impregnated by someone who left her, a couple with a child divorced because of legitimate reasons because divorce is a long and financially exhausting process, a woman was raped and decided to keep the child, and woman was raped and forced to give birth because she lives in a state that limits women’s healthcare, which includes abortion.

15) Fatherless homes do not equate to a rise in criminal culture. If that were the case, all wlw couples and single mothers would raise criminals. Do you know what does equate to criminal culture though? Teaching people that they are superior to someone else because of their race, gender, ethnicity, religion, or sexuality and then promoting violent behaviors in that child.

16) Black families were never more intact during slavery than after slavery. Slaveowners and slavetraders intentionally worked together to make money and create a lack of unity among slaves by selling individual families members to different regions. One of the first things that former slaves did after they were freed was go out and find their stolen family members.

17) I can’t say anything about economics since I don’t have much knowledge about the economic system before the New Deal. However I will say that this is the only valid point you have made. Politicians have historically tried to get as many black votes as possible when they realized what a reliable voting community they were and then never actually done much to help the black community. However this is a very general statement.

18) How is group called Black Lives Matter that is focused on gaining racial equality attempting to sow discord in a nation by basically say “can you stop targeting us just because you’re racist and don’t like the color of my skin”.

19) How is a group asking for racial equality a lie? Are you really going to deny racism when we have seen shootings, lynchings, and people getting run over by cars all within the last month and a half?

20) WTF IS A LIE ABOUT A CHANT THAT MEANS “I HAVE NO WEAPONS, DO NOT KILL ME”

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Quarantine Diary, lovingly referred to as quarantime: (this is 100% for me to look back on and remember how i spend my time when left to my own devices, also hopefully so i am slightly productive in a day)

DAY ONE: I think I might lose my mind. This morning I got a new game for myself and spent a good portion of the day playing that. I also taught myself the beginning of Halloween from Rent on piano. At night I really started to lose it and watched a full lengtg documentary on foreign surrogacy. As of now I go back to school on the 31st

DAY TWO: I’m not sure I’ll survive for two weeks, but much less a whole month. School got pushed back to April 15th. Help me. I once again spelt an embarrassing amount of my day playing two separate games I’ve just started. I also taught myself most of Johnny Can’t Decide from Tick Tick Boom on piano, however since my wrist is broken and Jonathan Larson has abnormally long fingers some of the chords posed a minor challenge. It was also Saint Patrick’s day, so my dad put on Irish punk music for my baby brother (and us) and we made cabbage, fake corn beef because we’re vegetarian, and french fries because the store didn’t have potatoes in any other form.

DAY THREE: Having a sense of time is only a distant memory. I’m running low on lucky charms. My herbs did sprout this morning though so that was pretty thrilling. I taught the baby what noise the cow makes. Spoiler: it was moo. Me and my dad made veggie burgers, and then had our first tabletop game night in months. (We used to do it every thursday, but we’ve been way too busy for that recently).

DAY FOUR: I wasn’t sure if this belonged in yesterday’s or not but technically it was this morning because it was so late at night, but I officially got the first scene of the screenplay I’m currently writing done! I’m writing it specifically for a film festival for short films, and I only really have one *very long* scene left!! I woke up, and immediately took a nap because it was like 6. I cooked me and the baby breakfast and then composed a whole two measures for the score. Currently playing the “sit on the kitchen floor and fake sip unopened gatorade, and then say “ahhhh”” game. (after i wrote this I also went for a run, i ran a sub thirty minute three miles!)

DAY FIVE: animalcrossinganimalcrossinganimalcrossinganimalcrossing also I drew Cthulhu (I end every one of my sketchbooks with a Cthulhu, perhaps I will post my first Cthulhu vs most recent Cthulhu) I also ran way too aggressively yesterday because I am Sore.

DAY SIX:

very little change. Piano, animal crossing, etc. I did listen to A Chorus Line today; I got really into A Class Act, which is a show about Edward Kleban, the dude who wrote A Chous Line’s life. I remember listening to that in the car with my dad when I was really little, but then again I remember listening to Book of Mormon with him around then as well, so it probably wasn’t the best way to judge what the show was going to be like. (Fun fact my dad also took me to see Book of Mormon when I was 11!) But I also know my grandmother really likes it and so I just thought it’d be a little more Watch With Your Grandma Friendly. It was not. Not like,, super inappropriate just not what I was expecting

DAY SEVEN:

Again, I’ve learned I only have so many activities. I’m trying really hard to think of another idea for my screenplay, since there is absolutely no way for me to get enough middle aged people to film the one I was planning. I was also on call with my bf for four hours straight today so that was fun

DAY EIGHT:

Worst day by far. I didn’t do much of anything, and I feel really guilty about how little I got accomplished. That’s about it.

DAY NINE:

Got a lot accomplished!!! I organized my whole desk (which, for context towards the end I was getting to things from 2014, that’s how big of a job this was) I also started my vocab for one of my classes, and I set up my journal for next month! I thought I’d start using it a little more since I have nothing else to do, plus updating this every day has hopefully gotten me back into the habit of actually using something daily.

DAY TEN

Okay honestly it’s been a minute since I updated this so I don’t really remember what I did,, but I’ll use this day to define what I’ve been doing daily. I’m pretty sure I haven’t say yet, but I’ve been stretching every day. I used to be a very serious gymnast, but I got to the point where essentially I had to choose between attending public school, or continuing with gymnastics, and like the average parent of a twelve year old, my dad was not about to let me stop going to school for something I physically couldn’t keep doing past my mid twenties. But I really miss having any control over my body, so I’ve decided I’m commiting to trying to gain back a little flexibility. It drives me crazy, I do theater obviously and the fact I’m such a mediocre dancer now is not doing good things for my ego

DAY ELEVEN

DAY TWELVE

DAY THIRTEEN

DAY FOURTEEN

I ran pretty well today. Sub nine minute miles, not super speedy, but fast for me at least. I mean I ran two miles in close to 15 minutes, so if I can do that for another mile I’d PR my 5k time for sure. Other than that, I procrastinated my speech, but I did get a bit of it done tonight on call with my boyfriend

DAY FIFTEEN

The speech was really eating me up. In an effort to ignore it I blew through 200 pages worth of a book today. I had a call for my acting class from 5:30-8:30, and I’m kinda looking forward to some of the stuff we’re doing in there. I start school again tomorrow and I have never been so excited for school to start back up in my life (and I’m never particularly unhappy; I quite enjoy the first week of a new school year)

DAY SIXTEEN

So school was kinda a dud. The website couldn’t support every kid in the county trying to get on it at once so it just,,, didn’t work. I spent most of the day filming my speech and I’m superrrr proud of it (I love giving speeches with all my heart, I go so overboard when we get assigned them for school though, no one else put as much effort into theirs as I did)

DAY SEVENTEEN

I got all of my class work for the week done, except for one class that isn’t doing it the way the rest of mine are. Don’t really remember what else happened today

DAY ???: I got my last two lab reports done. Also it was easter, so we hid eggs for the baby and looked longingly at the Easter egg bread we made (half jewish half italian, an unfortunate combination during Passover) Got my three hour mandates boyfriend call in and we looked at early humans and what we evolved from. Turns out I hate looking at that shit and I think Lucy will never leave the realm of my mind

DAY ???: Not a super interesting one but a good one. I filmed a monologue for my long form improv class, and did it on my Fancy Filmmaking Camera, which was completely unnecessary but very fun. We did have to deal with some legal stuff that I both don’t feel comfortable sharing and don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable with. I had acting class, and that was absolutely it. Today my boyfriend and I talked about how shitty cops are, and his adventures in growing vegetables

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