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bAI I CANT- I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE. IM- IM SO ANGRY YOU ARE SO TALENTED LIKE WTF WHO SAID YOU COULD BE SO TALENTED WHY IS THAT ALLOWED HOW ARE YOU SO GOOD AT WRITING I CANNOT. I ALWAYS AM SO BLOWN AWAY BY YOU THIS IS A LITERAL MASTERPIECE SDFJHSLJDF AAAA OH MY GODDDD. i cannot i can't your imagery is INSANE your storytelling? INCREDIBLE. the way you paint a picture both of the physical surroundings which really just brings the story alive but also the picture of feelings and emotions AND GOD I JUST KEEP GETTING WOWED OVER AND OVER AGAIN !! the descriptions when yeosang first walked into the shop--STUNNING. and i loveeee the contrast of him being the sun god but wearing all black idk i just loved that detail and YEAH OH MY GOD that's a huge thing in your writing that i really admire is your attention to detail. THE MELON BREAD I LOVED THAT REFERENCE SO MUCHHHHH AAAAAAA SO SO SO MUCH.
"The coolness of the morning before dawn never felt warmer as his heart swelled with your encouragement, as if the sun really did set and rise in this bakery, home to nature’s magic and the adoration that he held for the world, reflected in your eyes that caught the hints of the rising sun. Nothing could be more beautiful." AGHHHH IM SO SKHFJKSD MMMMMM TOO GOOD TOO GOOD
and then oh my god the way you so carefully crafted their dynamic and relationship, again with those little details--when reader fixes his shirt as a habit and then that switching up at the end and then turning into a kiss???? YOU SHUT UP NOW OKAY STOPPPPP
gODDDD AND THEN THE SUNCATCHER ANTIQUE WHAT A GORGEOUS GORGEOUS DETAIL
"finally understanding the true meaning of sunkissed." OH YOU DID NOT YOU DIDNT OH MY GOD THIS LINE HAD ME ON THE FLOORRRR ON THE FLOOR !!!! and then the closing while the reconciling of the whole mortal immortal thing that just hurts a little bit despite how genuinely pure and true the love between them is. and even then the ending just felt so so so hopeful and pure. and god the love and care that yeosang holds is just too too sweet and you did the loveliest job of portraying it.
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🌅 pairing: sun god!yeosang x gn!baker!reader 🌅 genre: fluff, fantasy, soulmates, studio ghibli-coded 🌅 summary: when yeosang opens the door to your bakery, and a new chapter of your life begins, you cannot help but feel as though you had met before; yeosang is elated to relive every sunrise and sunset, and fall in love with you again. 🌅 wordcount: 5.4k 🌅 warnings/tags: solo edit, food/eating/making food, destiny talk, discussion of time, discussion of deities/olympus, kiki's delivery service-inspired setting, multiple lives, mortal/immortal, summer fantasy, seaside town, baker's assistant yeosang, his precious self, (not quite) strangers to lovers, falling in love again... and again, waiting for love, sun magic, mention of lacking sleep 🌅 a/n: when i say i listened to the playlist on loop, i mean it. this yeosang is dear to me, as is time, the sun, and the cusp of spring and summer, bringing transformation. this fic is also an early celebration of yeosang, our beautiful, talented malberman~ I hope you enjoy, love you, any and all reblogs, comments, asks and notes appreciated!
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Once upon a time, on a day when the weather forecast had promised, and the grim steely clouds delivered ceaseless downpours, and you were stuck inside watching rain turn window views into a hazy blur and scare away any potential customers with its ferocity, the sun, cautiously, with a bashful grin on his face, apple cheeks and a boundless kindhearted disposition hinted in every gesture, entered your store.
Raven locks, slightly curled and framing his heaven-sculpted face, inquisitive eyes that were a complex painting, an entrancing shade of grey - one which, much to your surprise, you were fond of, unlike the endless expanse of rain summoners hanging above your shop. You attempted to regard him like you would any other customer, but stopped on your tracks, barely finding the counter with your hands as his form became the sole focus of your vision. It was as though the rain had purposefully passed him by, left an avenue just for him to enter the bakery and keep his leather dress shoes and black outfit pristine, the man crowned by a lucky spotlight. As the young man fumbled for a way to proceed, you wondered if he was a ray of sun himself and that was how he stayed dry in that torrential catastrophe. Forcing your mouth into a more amiable shape than blatant gaping, you returned his shy smile and inquired whether there was anything in particular that he was looking for - after all, if the man was in your store, and managed to expertly dodge what had to be the worst rainfall in a decade, he had to be determined to buy something, anything. Silently, you were hoping that even if he were a passing face, that he could keep your business, and you, afloat.
You left him a moment to ponder and watched him amble towards the counter. This allowed you to study his features at proximity, with bated breath as he leaned towards the glass display and looked at some of the pastries. The drifting of a couple of unruly strands as he lowered his head revealed the hints of a birthmark, a rosy pink blossom on the left side of the beautiful man’s face. Delicate, elegant. You looked away in an effort to appear more professional than usual for the sake of first impressions - you were not sure why this particular man had inspired the urge within you, seeing as you were so used to serving only locals and speaking in an array of neighbourhood inside jokes that you would think any newcomer would instead inspire callousness and aloof behaviour. But the unmistakable warmth emanating from him, the soothing balm of a brighter day that he appeared to carry made you want to grow closer, aim higher, beam instead of scowling.
He caught you as you were smoothing your apron, your break in attentiveness allowing his gaze to travel over you the same way that yours had done when he had crossed the barrier into the delicious safe haven from the atrocious weather that he had to schedule - unbeknownst to the residents of the town, he had actually negotiated to carve a few more sunny days, more days for him to search. It was rare, for someone like him, to stumble across little paradises. After all, for the most part the planet was a blur for him, a daily task and a routine roaming that he had to carry out and maintain. The last thing that the young god needed and had to want was the experience of mortal pleasures - the responsibilities that the deity, in the form of a young man, had were drilled into him again and again, and none of them involved doing what he was doing right this second. But the calls had grown too persistent as he passed by this town, too strong to dismiss, and the sky was curtained by clouds, much to his fortune. It was not that anyone would notice if a blip in the sunlight ever happened. He knew what he needed, and he knew that it was time to achieve it.
“Um, sorry. Do you have melon pan?” the young man addressed you, his deep, dulcet tone like music to your ears. The tilt of his head as the question permeated the air, subconsciously mirrored as you broke into a series of nods, setting off to the bread rack that was located behind the counter, off to the right. Seems it was good to give into your own cravings sometimes and impulsively introduce new items to the menu.
“With cream or without?”
One thing that you would have never expected was that a sun god would make it a habit to visit you in his free time, and be it for a sweet treat or for reasons known only to him, would put on an apron and fall into your beloved routine. What the deity never expected, and remained pleasantly surprised about, was just how readily you had accepted him, and instead of obviously falsified reverence that he had grown accustomed to from mortals who were graced with knowledge of his existence, you treated him as ‘Yeo’. That was the nickname you had given him after he had introduced himself with a human name - Kang Yeosang; a key which, upon turning, made him your new friend, and he would be lying if he said he did not feel elated when you happily shouted out his name from the back of the store, instructing him to move some trays around, or asking him to help you with some bags or dishes.
If there was another heaven, it would be in the rhythm that he had rediscovered with you. In the cosy space of your bakery, Yeosang was at ease, in a tranquillity that he previously thought existed only in books and in mortal movies, in myths about eternal bliss, a paradise in the palm of one’s hand. Something that belonged to other lifetimes, other avenues that he had traversed. He thought that he was the one to have the better cards, the advantages, but it was you who had him figured out, despite his abilities, immortality and near-invincibility. After a particularly scalding hot day, the first words that you had spoken to Yeosang once he made the chimes that were hanging right above the door ring exactly at sundown, were: “you made the sun shine brilliantly today, Yeo,” leaving him awestruck. To you, it was only a matter of putting two and two together, making the man, or not quite exactly a man, into the legend that he truly was. After that, you simply delivered him a melon pan with cream, and pointed at the little table you had put out at the front of the shop, asking if you could enjoy the last of the rays together. He had happily obliged, stars in his eyes as you guided him out, balancing a jug of freshly made lemonade and a couple of glasses on a board resting
As the days grew impossibly long with the climb of the spring into the summer season, so did the opening hours of the bakery, right up until you were stretched so thin over the day that you introduced a midday closing time with a break for a few hours, much to the surprise of the locals. At the same time, it turned out to be a welcome one, seeing as with the arrival of Yeosang, the number of people coming through the green-painted door increased considerably. Of course they would never say it, but you could detect a curiosity and admiration in them as they spotted the beauty strolling around in the kitchens, and the dreamy sighs when Yeosang would peek out, and even interact with some of the customers were far too obvious to ignore. If you knew any less, you would probably find yourself jealous, but at the same time, how many people walked under the sun, day in, day out? That was what you tried to tell yourself when the crowds of students would blast past, buying up the stock on one occasion and simply loitering around on another after their gruelling hours of cram school, and the odd brave youngster would try their luck to flirt with the god. His responsive stoicism, however, dispelled any of your itching doubts, and with a couple of polite nods and a step in a direction farther and farther from whoever was his unwanted interlocutor, Yeosang returned to the rhythm.
He did not mind the visitors of the shop, nor the delivery men who brought you fresh produce and ingredients. In fact, he had made some new friends in this way. But it was when he could catch your grin, listen to your melodic laugh and feel a light playful tap on his shoulder that the light was truly brighter. Aside from the laborious maintenance of the glowing orb, patrolling his part of the world before he needed to pass it on, he was now a baker. Technically an assistant at best, but you proudly called him ‘the real deal’ when you applauded him for helping you with the brioche loaves. The coolness of the morning before dawn never felt warmer as his heart swelled with your encouragement, as if the sun really did set and rise in this bakery, home to nature’s magic and the adoration that he held for the world, reflected in your eyes that caught the hints of the rising sun. Nothing could be more beautiful.
“Good luck for today!” you chirped with excitement evident in your voice, adjusting his shirt absent-mindedly, a habit that he had allowed you to form, the few precious seconds where he could let himself imagine a timelessness with you.
“Good luck to you too, and see you this evening. We have the Summer Solstice event opening!” Yeosang answered, matching your joy. While you adjusted his collar and clapped your hands a couple of times, satisfied with the neat look, Yeosang remained more still than the verdant green trees that cast calming shadows over to the side of the shop in the early hours.
“That’s right, so you better be prepared to work the till until you become the till,” you should have known that your attempt to move the blackboard sign would be intercepted, and the deity’s arms were already guiding themselves between yours to grasp onto the wooden frame. Whispering out an apology, a light blush coating his cheeks when your fingers barely brushed as you detangled yourself from the kind intervention, Yeosang moved the elaborate logographic art onto the street in its rightful place, continuing with his encouraging ponderings:
“First day sales are about to beat all records for this beauty.”
“They better, or the seasonal specials will-”
“I can always call my friends if you’re worried.”
“So I can have Olympus in my shop?”
“Why not? Your treats are heavenly…” he trailed off, partially in disbelief at his own choice of words. Rubbing the back of his neck with his hand, Yeosang decided to let the moment carry itself forward, listening to the trickling of time.
Again, the gentlest touch of your hand on his chest as a laugh escaped you, and what had struck fear in his heart dispelled to reveal a brilliant sunrise. It was always you behind those sun rays, wasn’t it? The question crept out of a deep slumber, having lied dormant for what had to have been decades, now crawling up the walls of his consciousness, melting away doubts that came with every first meeting.
“You really are too sweet. Now go, can't keep your colleagues and the world waiting.”
As you peered into his eyes, clear, bright, hopeful, you felt as though you were looking at the sky itself, admiring its infinite expanse and omniscience. An odd sensation hinted at its existence as you did not dare look away, letting yourself sink further into ever-changing blues and greys, highlighted with flickers of a mahogany flame right by the pupils. Almost as if you had seen these very eyes before, gazed into the summer sky and caressed the sun itself as though it was an ornate glass marble. Perhaps this was another one of the peculiarities that came with interacting with the divine, you concluded and brushed it off, simply glad that in the now, in the early dawn on what was to be a hot summer day, you could look forward to more than ever before.
Yeosang bit the corner of his lower lip, in nervous contemplation, before tentatively reaching for your hand which had been resting by your side, and giving it a soft squeeze, barely there until you responded, fingers intertwining, answering to his unsaid hopes. Gaze not leaving the unity, thumb running over the edge of your palm repeatedly in an attempt to memorise the presence, he whispered out, half to himself, half to the divinity above and around him in sacred promise:
“I’ll be right back.”
“I’ll hold you to it.”
Even as he departed, and you watched his figure evaporate into the morning mist as he approached the reddening horizon, the feeling of his hand in yours remained as vivid as that feeling that you must have known Yeosang before, or at least the irreplaceable, unique warmth that he shared with you was something akin to the idea of home itself. Supported, quietly cheered on as you continued your daily duties and finalised preparations to open the store for the first half of the day, Yeosang was there in your every thought and movement.
The glints of sun as the trees, having been ushered awake by the earliest hints of warmth that the red tiled roof of the bakery caught, commenced their serene rustling, were ciphers, music to your vision that danced over the concrete of the street outside. The way in which the colours changed as the sun grew more prominent and energetic was a masterpiece in the making, white paint turning into a glowing fantasy. When you closed for the day break, setting off on a daily walk around the neighbourhood in your favourite linen dress and wide-brimmed straw hat, you were embraced by the luminance that ambled across the ultramarine heavens, Yeosang matching your stride.
Running your hand over the top of the stone fencing that lined the hill on which your bakery found its home, you let your gaze rest over the breathtaking scenery of your beloved town, the terracotta roofs, the cream walls that were highlighted with wooden planks that stood the test of decades, the cobbled streets and hustle and bustle of squares and markets, and the glistening ocean that was always the first to wave to Yeosang, all shining thanks to the summer sun. It was fascinating, how with the marvel of the seasons, the town transformed into a fantastical land that you could only hope to spend all your years in. It had always been your home, your calling, and even in the times when you had gone outside of the town’s boundaries, your heart remained right here, come rain or shine. Perhaps this was the true reason why you were so drawn to Yeosang - in his eyes, you saw the same place, the same time, the understanding of a home that was so personal you were convinced he was taking the threads from your very soul, and singing the melodies right back to you. Your own, only sun that you could not believe returned your daring, unwavering gaze. You waved at the midday orb, chuckling to yourself as a flock of birds dashed past, hoping that your cheers would be delivered.
As you turned to give the bakery a once-over before turning the corner to head down the stone stairs that would lead you to a busier part of the neighbourhood, you gasped as the sign, a dainty metal pretzel right above the entrance rocked back and forth on the rod, as if waving back to you, and caught a sudden sun ray, reflecting the warmth for it to fall at your feet like a thousand stars, decorating the cobble to turn to an illuminated path of glowing marble. Unable to contain your beam, you bowed your head in gratitude and curtsied, wondering just what your neighbours would think if they were to poke their heads out from their bedrooms and shops. But you did not pay it too much mind, instead twirling around, and with a newfound lightness, found yourself on a mission to surprise the precious sunshine.
The longest day of the year, marking the moment when the sun would begin its slow journey to a hibernation for the northern hemisphere, and Yeosang would find himself growing that little bit less busy as a god, busier as your loyal assistant. He rushed down the streets as soon as his feet hit the concrete in a secluded spot that he liked to use for his returns, counting every second that passed and matching it to the start of the event. Seeing the small crowd that gathered by the bakery, waiting for their much adored pastries and cheerfully chatting away, pride swelled within him as he thought back to the wishes you had made, what you had been working towards and what you had now achieved. He glided into the store in efforts to find you, picking up the apron that you left for him behind the counter. You were in the middle of carrying a new tray of buns and motioned for him to take his position by the till - back to his favourite rhythm.
Customers came and went, the event turning into a hit, and by the second hour, your specially decorated melon pan was officially sold out; all except one for a certain someone, tucked away, kept safe. You almost felt guilty for keeping this tiny secret from the god, taking notice of his momentary confusion and barely restrained pout as he caught sight of the empty basket, and his disheartened stance as he picked it up and removed it from the display. You swore you saw what was already the night hour darken, and stifled a giggle, instead tapping Yeosang on the shoulder to give him a thumbs up for his hard work and mouth the words promising a gift. With a re-discovered vigour, the deity hurried off to assist an elderly customer who was trying with all her might to contain a loaf of sourdough and make it past a busy line - your store being the only one in this part of town to sport one in such late evening. As the chimes rang out again, you thought back to the little present you had acquired during your afternoon walk, barely containing yourself, bursting at the seams as you imagined what you wanted Yeosang’s reaction to be over and over again.
With the last of the customers came the quietude, a lulling blanket of deep navy decorated with stars that had been lying in wait outside of the bakery, a moment of rest for the sun god, a cooling serenity that you could share with him as you closed up, cleaned up, and ushered him to the little table outside - previously folded away and hidden behind an antique delivery scooter bike out at the front of the shop, so as to not attract attention, nor occupy the space that had always been set out for idle chatter of the visiting locals. As you let Yeosang finalise the furnishing of your makeshift lounge, you recalled his curiosity of the wheeled machine, and your suggestion that one of these days, he could use it as a chariot, much to his child-like excitement. You turned and made a beeline for the store, almost running into Yeosang in the process, your balance restored only by a pair of strong hands on your upper arms.
“What’s the hurry?” as though electrified by the contact, his hands flew away from you just as suddenly as they had caressed your skin, though, much like the heavenly reassurance of his presence on your wrist, the ghost of him remained around you, seeking an embrace. Retraining your focus on the man before you, you huffed and continued past him repeating “just you wait”, over, over like a mantra, a spell that you wanted to use to keep him in place.
Thankfully, he did not follow, instead stepping closer to the window that was now exposed to the moonlight since he folded the ruby red awning, faded with the years of sunlight and rain storms. Yeosang folded his toned arms, smiling to himself as he watched you throw one item, another onto a wooden tray, and shuffle back outside, not once breaking focus from balancing what had to be priceless treasure, considering how carefully you set it down in front of him.
“Sit.”
“But you’re standing.”
“Yeo, come on, sit down, I am just energetic!”
“After that shift? Are you sure you are not a god or demi-god yourself?” he countered, tilting his head.
“I- hm. Okay so we are standing then?”
“I want to be energetic with you!” the innocent comment made your chest ache, and what had previously been utter conviction that what you were doing was casual, customary for colleagues, friends, passing faces who had grown familiar, shattered into a vulnerable confession.
You stilled, the nervous rocking on the balls of your feet ceasing to bring you comfort, the erratic motions and gesticulations as you struggled for a response disappearing into the night and leaving an entrancing clarity. There was no other way to present this, and you had accidentally pushed yourself over the edge, a stance, a dare that you were no longer able to back out of. Facing the sun, you stepped closer and closer to it, and reached for the first item on the tray.
“Here is a little… thing I kept for you.”
“No… no way, is that melon pan!” he exclaimed, taking the small paper bag from your hands and peering inside, amazed to find his, and your favourite sweet bun. The crisp cookie dough layer solidifying the neat, recogniseable hatching, containing a custard cream inside, another homemade specialty.
“You know, I recently found out that melon pan has another name,” dropping the bun back into the bag to give you full attention, Yeosang glanced back at you and pushed a stray strand of black hair behind his ear, preventing it from blocking his view. Gesturing for you to continue, he nearly squeezed the custard out of the bread upon hearing your elaboration: “a friend of mine, she works at a bakery in a city down south, and there, they call this sunrise bread. Funny, isn’t it?”
“So you bake suns in your oven?”
“Guess you could say that.”
How was it that you managed to leave him breathless regardless of the time you met was forever going to remain a mystery, but one Yeosang never wanted to solve. Instead, he was waiting with a fluttering heart for the moment you were going to say the words that had imprinted themselves in his eternal being, and travelled across from heaven to earth, from the east to the west, echoing in his mind as he searched for you over and over again until finally, your dawn could greet him. He remained silent, glancing at you and at the last hidden object on the tray, a box leaning against the glass jug, this time filled to the brim with a peach ice tea.
“I… was at this antique store today. Don’t really know what brought me there but as soon as I saw this, I knew I wanted you to have it. I-... well, I don’t know if gods have birthdays but since it is the Summer Solstice, and you are basically the sun itself, I wanted this to be a little celebration of… you?”
“Of me? But-” never, not a single time could the divine being find rationality in your kindness, only the crossing of stars that tugged the fragile lonely hearts together into an intricate waltz woven in the skies.
“Check it out!”
Yeosang counted the seconds that passed once more, this night, this fateful night being so cruelly short, but so full of promise. His hands, trembling ever so slightly as he attempted to remove the lid, a trepidation taking a hold of him. Your infinite pools hurried him on with their anxious darting, and inhaling the sweet scent of the sea and his earthly home, he opened the box to reveal just what he had been anticipating, a relic, centuries-old masterpiece passed on from one you to another. Forever yours, finding its place in the same antique shop to return to him and to you, making another beginning.
He searched for the ring at the top of the sun chimes, stained glass beauties attached by sturdy strings to a hook that, the next dawn would find purchase at the base of the bakery sign above the light grassy green door, there to remain for a measure of time. Lifting it out of the box, Yeosang admired the stars, the crescent moon, the sun that had been crafted and immortalised just like himself, ready to attract and dissipate every ray that would grace them. A miniature galaxy contained in impossibly intricate artwork, with every sparkle appearing to house a memory and still hold space for the near and far future. Your future, his future. Lost in the relief of meeting the object as though it was a good friend, he barely registered your diffident approach.
“So… what do you-”
“I love it, Y/N.”
“You do?”
“I do. And I think I know just where to hang it. If you do not mind, of course,” upon seeing your nod of approval, he lifted his arm to turn and point at the pretzel, gleeful when he saw your face light up brighter than the sun he was tasked to carry. “Let’s do it now, before it is too late to sleep and before the sun rises. So that I can visit you more while the days are still too long.”
Insisting on saying your morning goodbyes to him, even though barely a few hours had passed between the hanging of the chimes and the palette of the skies gaining lighter blue, lilac and pastel pink hues, you stood under them, huddled in a wool blanket to minimise the contrast of the cosiness of your bed and the breeze travelling down the still, somnolent streets, alive only thanks to the the scattering of lamps and the world surrounding them, watching over them. One blink, another as you tried to rid yourself of sleep to convince Yeosang that you were perfectly fine and ready to start the day. In reality, you simply wanted to catch the first glints on the chimes and follow his journey across the sky, dreaming of his sunset back in your bakery.
Hands concealed by the thick material and unable to smooth his shirt, you could only take a step towards the divinity, the action turning symbolic. What you did not anticipate, however, was that this dawn, he was more than happy to take over your duties and instead of him melting under your softness, your ears were turning red as he pulled the blanket tighter around you, taking its edges that were close to your face, adjusting the ticklish fabric like it was a one of a kind ball gown - unbeknownst to you, that was was exactly how Yeosang saw it, and when he saw you trying to nuzzle into it and away from his amused expression, he could not resist any longer, and with one final pull rested his forehead against yours, noses colliding briefly causing you to let out a feeble yelp.
“I’ll see you in the chimes later, yeah?” he whispered against your skin, the proximity proving intoxicating as you could only just register and make sense of his words, initial shock wearing off to lay down the path for the return of the same feeling from the earlier night, only this time more real, more certain fully reciprocated.
“And later. I’ll make more sunrise bread for you.”
“I think I know something even sweeter. If you will let me indulge, of course.” the last moment before the break of your dawn, a question by which the world was hanging in intimate suspense.
The past, present and future collided as, in response to Yeosang’s careful request, you boldly closed the already practically nonexistent space between you, finally understanding the true meaning of being sunkissed. It did not take any time at all for the god to return the revealed fondness that you had kept guarded until it only felt natural to bring to light. Like the balmy immersion of the elements, suspended on the cusp of spring becoming summer, Yeosang leaned in with immeasurable affection as if he had been carrying it for all his eternity and kissed you like a long-lost lover who wanted to, through every movement, recollect the memories made, the days spent together, retrace the unity of two beings colliding into one entity, set alight like the brightest star in the universe.
As he tried to remain more level, gentle in an effort to not expose you to the early dawn’s winds, you grew frustrated from the lack of true warmth, wanting to fly closer to the sun, into it, be consumed by it. Gliding your hands out from under the blanket, you reached for Yeosang’s shirt and pulled him towards you, dragging him impatiently to the open door where you promptly shrugged off the material. Perplexed and worried, Yeosang momentarily broke away from the kiss to ask you whether the action was comfortable.
“Aren’t you going to get cold?”
“Are you saying the sun god cannot keep me warm?” chuckling at the fluttering of his eyelashes, abashedness at your ambiguous choice of words evident on every part of his face, you let your arms rest on his broad shoulders, gleaming back when his own found your waist, playing with the material of your top.
Touching your nose with his own, he was shy in his advances, seeing every wrong turn and prospective hurt unfold in accompaniment to the tragically perfect duet of a mortal and an immortal soul. Knowledge of the lives you had lived, while it was a blessing, at the same time was a series of unbearable lessons that decorated Yeosang's heart like untreatable scars. The mark on the side of his face, your first ever caress, a peppering of butterfly-like kisses on his face, celestial stardust, which has manifested itself as a symbol joyously tying you to him, now emitted that familiar dull burning, having re-encountered its creator. This was an ache that he would give up the sun to experience again and again, the pizzicato thrill warmer than the coming heatwaves, than the surface of the galaxy's centre.
"I don't want you to ever burn, Y/n." He murmured, understanding that the words would not hold as much weight in your interpretation. You took another step towards him, pressing yourself close, surrounding yourself with his solar flare.
"I trust you. Do you trust me too?"
"More than the skies above us, always."
"Then I know that we will be a beautiful sunrise."
He peered into your gorgeous eyes, looking for anything to stop him, convince him that he needed to step away, knowing full well that he would find nothing except his love returned, amplified by your own. Such was the merry-go-round of life that had been set out for you and Yeosang, an unstoppable turning of the gears that were set in motion by destiny. Now, the light began, soon there will be darkness, and in the future, foreseeable by the god, there will be more light. The sun will peek out from the edge of the planet, crawling across the foaming waters to call the residents of this town awake again and again, whether there was to be a town here, or not. The sun remained, and so did Yeosang's eternal wait for the next turn of the divine clock's hands. As he shut his eyes and kissed you once more, feeling heaven and earth collide, his musings reduced to a simple melody. He was happy that in this lifetime too, the sunshine found you.
#i could go on and on and on#truly because every little thing you did in this was just too good#like i just adore adore adore your writing style to the ends of the earth#it's was all so so lovely and SO VERY GHIBLI CODED#like actually i need this to be a full studio ghibli movie rIGHT NOW#RIGHT THIS INSTANT#YOU CAN SHUT UP BAI I HATE YOU (i love and adore and admire you so much please never stop sharing your talent with the world)#GRRRRRR ITS TOO GOOD I CANNOT I CANNOT#OH MY GOD I CANT GET OVER IT IM NEVER GONNA GET OVER THIS FIC#never ever#can't fathom how good this is i cant do it#someone save me or something what#flabbergasted actually is what i am#speechless#in love#feeling every lovely feeling in the world rn#uH anyways i'll take my leave otherwise i'll never stop talking about this#ateez
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pov you just talked during saiko-samas info dumping time
#this is in reference to a sub story of the psi battle christmas story where not only saiko but also takahashi are flabbergasted#that nendou didnt pay attzntion to what saiko was explaining#and also what murata said abt being impressed that saiko knows a lot about all sorts of things#its really cute to me that they actually enjoy listening to him ramble about whatzver stuff he knows!#saipsi#this is a joke that probably makes only me laugh but thats fine i am my target audience after all#$quad#saiko metori
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i stopped watching toh at “eclipse lake”/“yesterday’s lie” last year; started rewatching a couple days ago, and just caught back up, and—
—literally 30 seconds into s2ep12–
THEY JUST MADE THE CANON AROACE CHARACTER AN ASSISTANT CURATOR OF (SUPER)NATURAL HISTORY?!?!????!?! I SCREAMED
#SHE’S JUST LIKE (my aspirations) ME FR 😖🤯😳#I ACTUALLY AM FLOORED FCKING FLABBERGASTED RN#YOOOOOOOO#toh#lilith clawthorne#LITERALLY EARLIER TODAY i was browsing the wiki for the owl house and then last night was looking at the wiki for aroace flag since i#didn’t#actually remember what the blue/orange stand for (i typically use the purple and green) and at the bottom of the wiki were like 5 characters#of list of canon animated aroace characters and i was like ‘wow that’s crazy…. and lo and behold lilith toh is there’#lol#and then next day (today) freaking walloped by them making her a (super)natural history curator???? wtf?!!!#like i knew about her being aroace basically as soon as it was canon from the fandom#but i had no idea they made her a curator lmao this just blew my mind 😦#mine#aroace
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imo the season finale for wwdits is a bit underwhelming. but what i gotta hand it to them, is how we see nandor as a character. we always treat him like how the other characters treat him, an oblivious idiot (i mean, it's true lol but hear me out) who lost his touch as time went on. and in the episode finale, we completely got bamboozled and made us realize how we've underestimated him. like damn, he knows how guillermo's gonna react once he became a full blooded vampire. the fact that he was the only one who figured out about the van helsing DNA and drinking actual human blood is just WOW yknow? he still sucks at the love department tho.... unless?
#andre talks#wwdits#wwdits season 5#wwdits spoilers#wwdits fx#guillermo de la cruz#nandor x guillermo#nandor the relentless#im juyst flabbergasted with the last episode ngl#underwhleming cause the ending is basically season 3 ep 1 but with derek fkjghkfj#now we gotta wait for the sixth ep whenever that will be#which i am fine with#they can take their time#what we do in the shadows#what we do in the shadows season 5#i still want to see these two idiots fight to the death#like actually fight to the death#guillermo not giving him a chance to do whatever the fuck
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besties what does it mean when a straight man bakes bread and steam mops his entire house and goes out and buys sweet treats before you come over
#this wasn’t normal bread either he made a HERB AND GARLIC LOAF and then proceeded to dice shallots and onions to make a lil flavour burst#on top after it came out then made a chili infused oil to dip it in…#THEN ASKED IF (WE) WANTED HIM TO MAKE A BOARD WITH CHEESE AND MEATS LIKE???#HUH????#and yeah steam mopped all of their floors cleaned top to bottom#he did about 20x more than my actual friend would ever dream of 😭#THEN ALSO WENT TO A BAKERY AND GOT DONUTS?? HELLO???#i am still flabbergasted hours later#he also got play angry at me that i got in the backseat of the car and was like ‘no you should take the front’#and after i refused cause he’s TALL he got in the passenger door and then proceeded to move his seat all the way up so he was cramped and#i had a ton of room#i was just like… is this… what men are really capable of?#today truly made me enamoured with the kindness men can apparently be capable of AND HE DOESNT KNOW ME SUPER WELL#we’ve hung out like three times prior and two of which were within this last week#anyway what a kind man again my friend would never lmao#forgot the most important part: this man is a guy friends’ roommate!#talk time
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I swear to god, if me and Michelle end up in an honest to god relationship I'm selling the fucking rights (to myself) and getting it made into a million dollar blockbuster movie (forcing my otp at the time to live through the 400k word slowburn I fear I may be trapped in)
#panda posts#michelle#she confessed to the girl she had a crush on (thea) and got rejected (i am genuinely flabbergasted)#and michelle said she could accept being rejected she just didn't want to lose thea as a friend but now thea is ghosting her and to try and#comfort her i said 'i want you to know i'm here for you and also to promise that you're stuck with me for life at this point and you're#never getting rid of me ever' and she responds back with 'i am more than okay with being stuck with you for the rest of my life Sammi'#followed immediately by 'til death do us part' SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPPPPPPP#SHUT UPPPPPP I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT MISS 'LETS GET MARRIED IF WE'RE BOTH SINGLE AT 40'#MISS 'LETS HAVE A CODE WORD SO WE CAN FLIRT WITH EACH OTHER WITHOUT IT BEING TAKEN SERIOUSLY'#(that one may have been my idea actually i shouldn't put that on her)#MISS 'EVERY TIME I SEE A SUNSET I THINK OF YOU'#MISS 'A QUEER PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP? ISN'T THAT WHAT WE ARE?'#SHUT UPPPPPPPPPPP#anyways i do not have romantic feelings for her though we would make a horrible romantic couple#but uhhhhhhhh subtle foreshadowing or whatever it is they keep saying on tiktok#who the fuck knows#going to tag this with#panda pines#because it feels like it should go there#waiting for the hilarious news to break that thea has had a crush on me the whole time and me and michelle were in another sorta love#triangle thing which i think would be hilarious#not really but also yes
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Y’all, don’t do this.
I already don’t reblog posts that guilt-trip people info reblogging, I think those are incredibly distasteful.
So, reaching out to someone privately like this?? That’s absolutely wild.
I would be more than happy to if they were, like, an artist or someone with a donation campaign and asked nicely.
But like…actually wtf.
#I’m not crazy for being flabbergasted by this am I??#idk what /nm means. google showed multiple results so I’m not entirely sure what they were trying to convey#this was actually sent to me a while ago but something just reminded me of it now#just#don’t do this lmao#reblogging
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Actual conversation I just had on discord dot com:
(Talking about the state of the world)
Me: yeah I just think the entire system sucks
Other guy: yeah same
Me: YEAH you get it-
Other guy: we should bring back monarchies
Me: wait what
Other guy: like unironically
Me: what.
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idk i feel like i will probably be sadder about this later but having the artistic director just hit everything that's been bad about this company in one conversation rlly does have me feeling like kind of totally okay with no longer being in the company
#like yeah it's disappointing and sad#but my god you are a TERRIBLE leader#i had a whole list of feedback written out#that i do stand by#but ultimately all i actually told her was like ''y'know it would have been helpful and valuable to me to have some level of this conversat#ion DURING the season''#and even that got her all defensive and i was like dude.......this is the gentlest of the feedback i had for you#it's not even about you being a shitty leader (true)#it's just like ''hey you should like. actually communicate with folks occasionally''#bc she has never bothered to know anything about me#at one point i think she was weirded out by me sort of being chill and like. not surprised#but then was also SHOCKED when i was like yeah i have spent much of this year not feeling very wanted or like i had a place here#and im just like. girl. woman. what the fuck do you think happens when you treat ppl like they don't exist (at best)#anyway#i'll explore other opportunities later but for now i am just going to wrap up all my work tomorrow#and have a fantastic vacation next week#personal#SHE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I HAVE A REAL JOB#okay. im done. i just. am flabbergasted by that one
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AOUGH I DOOO KNOW CINDY CHEN SHE WAS ONE OF THE FIRST PPL I SAW i think rachel ocool was probably the one who got me to want to Try doing things although i haven't gotten to more intense things! all this time has been training to learn how to draw big wings lmao
EEEEE YEAH
honestly one of the best things abt the pandemic for me was getting to fuck around with makeup in the middle of the night. i could obviously still do that but it is less common (especially now that i am not stealing my sister's stuff lmao)
#i have surrounded myself with so many creative makeup artists on social media#that i am flabbergasted when regular brands have very limited colorful stuff#like what sephora doesn't have neon eye shadow pallets?? /j#but yeah basically i just put shapes on my face until i was like oh! yes this works actually#also pinterest my BELOVED#ask#sunsetstarving#pen and ink#(also you neeeed to show me what u do. like if u want to ofc)
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#fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off#sometimes i forget this perfect little work of fiction i have created is not actually real. and the mind. it boggles. because.#how can you say something like this and not have it mean what i think it means#i am fully aware i am talking to myself here but i do not care#it's like part of the process or whatever. gotta own your shit.#i was the ideas guy. you think i'm just gonna kill all my ideas?#no. what the fuck is he talking about#this is from the witness btw thank you theonlygoldeneye for bringing it to my attention#i am just baffled. flabbergasted even. what do you mean it never actually happened what do you MEAN#i should start a tag for this#the 2009 theory
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So. I think I do fixate on people, huh.
#i think part of it is that when i notice ppl paying attention to me#i get very conscious of it and start thinking about them a lot#i am pretty sure that is what happened the last time i convinced myself i had a crush#now i definitely think it isn't a crush#but that person was actually paying attention to me and remembers so much random shit that I didn't expect 😭😭😭#it was a bit of a creepy realization ngl. but it was all things i have either said or posted on my insta story so it's not “stalker creepy”#just... unexpected and weird ig#anywaysssss#now I keep on thinking about stuff he said yesterday#or things I could have said#and the fact that he was paying so much attention to me is just... doing things to my brain#i don't know if i like it#HSBSHDHSUA I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HE KNEW WHAT THE GRISHAVERSE WAS but he remembered my love for Wylan#and said that I am probably a big wesper fan and that I love wylan cause I relate to him and am probably a hufflepuff#which... none of it was wrong or difficult to see. just wtf SINCE WHEN DO YOU KNOW SIX OF CROWS#i was too curious about his analysis of me to actually ask about that#but know i can't stop thinking about it. got me totally flabbergasted. has he read soc??? or did he watch the show???? none?? both???
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Why do they say dragon is luffy's father but doesn't look much like him... I mean it is true but why point it out... in that way he doesn't look like garp either
#i thot we were gonna get baby luffy but no.... old man luffy.....#also the opening is so intense 'dreams save all of us' and the arc starts with luffys dream i might throw up#zoro and brook staying behind to protect them from the government.... yeah.... VEGAPUNK AND DRAGON??? ACTUALLY FLABBERGASTED#maybe vegapunk is part of the rev army but then he modified kuma on the behalf of the gov??? thats so cruel.....#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 1094#the fucking opening..... dream save all of us like okay damn it goes hard#incredible how they just take the hit from the laser.... minor injuries that's all... seraphim jinbe has mr pink's power???#how come sanji hasnt immediately jumped on the seraphim like god. and nami not being able to hurt children yeaaahhhh ROBIN GO OFF!!!#zoro conveniently being the only one who doesnt see the seraphim..... come on....#york what an icon i wish thay were my job too. eat shit sleep amazing#900 YEARS AGO???? EMPTY CENTURY TIME!!!!!!!! LETSGOOOOO D LORE D LORE D LORE#episode 1095#and that is IT for today. yesterday i watched like 5 today we are measured.#<- this is when you find out i stack episodes on my posts even if i dont watch them one after the other...#i am sensitive rn and the preview has ohara and robin crying i am not making it out of this one folks#YEAH YEHA THE KINGDOM (OF THE D I AM SURE) VS THE WORLD GOV usopp hitting his head against the floor akdjka#clover and noland have to be related the flora on head has to be genetic or smth#also now they showed lulusiq being obliterated we can assume imu was responsible for destroying this advanced kingdom right#THE BOOKS FROM OHARA MADE IT????!!!!! DRAGON IN OHARA??? THEY HAVE THEM??? BUT THEIR BASE BURNED????#luffy calling the robot robo ace. should i end it all rn be honest. and the robot turned on. nvm someone was in there#vegapunk meeting with luffy knowing dragon oof also ohara was in the west blue???? wow#episode 1096#that giant was the one in dressrosa??? hierjudin??? omg dragon without his tattoo... 33?? damn he is 55 now...#OMG JAGUAR D SAUL GIANT FROM ELBAF????? VEGAPUNK DIDNT JOIN THE REVILUTIONARIES??? SELL OUT!!!#dragon pacifist???? god this lore. sanji didnt know about ivasan??? the books are in elbaf... with saul.... omg.....robin ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️#jinbes face reacting to vegapunks fruit ajdjsjs did vegapunk cut off his head? is he stupid?? -luffy#vegapunk wants to make wikipedia.... omg lucci already too... the robot attacked marie geoise ✍️✍️✍️#episode 1097
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As an NSR fan myself, Master Wolfe needs more attention. That’s why I’m working on an Arrangement version of the game, like what Namco did with Pac-Man, Dig Dug, Galaga, Mappy, and Rally X back in the day.
That's neat~
I wish you the best of luck with that project. If you're able to release it, I'll probably play it ^o^.
#master wolfe was pretty fun#though i've never actually beaten the boss for i am a scrub gamer U_U#i mostly played it on the switch#where the graphics are bugged out and appear blurry no matter what you do#(as opposed to when the graphics disintegrate over time due to memory leakage)#so an arrangement version would be interesting#i was utterly flabbergasted to find out that it *wasn't* supposed to be like that#i thought it was a part of the retro aesthetic#but no. shit was just f*cked#yet another failure of the switch version#y'all know i love this game. i 've been talking about it nonstop for 2 years straight#but i will never forgive the switch port for being just an objectively shoddy port of an already 6.5/10 game#I can't give it the full 7 because i hate playing half the game UmU#find me a person who plays the approaches for fun and i'll show you a liar#sorry this turned into a tangent#but i dunno what else to say
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when one of your pro jedi meta posts breaks containment enough that someone puts some nonsense in the tags
#'antifun'??#'ANTIFUN'???#bro WHAT#in what fucking--#have you actually watched anything with the jedi or have you just read stanakin fic like#WHAT#i am genuinely flabbergasted
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I can’t quite describe what I experienced, I just know that everyone needs to go see it.
#and actually it’s 2am#child I don’t forget what time is that’s how flabbergasted I am#😂😂😂#I’ll post another short summary of what I experienced and fill look tomorrow
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