#find yourself a partner who'll look at you like this

[merakiui]

Hey, so you've written step-bro and step-son scenerios for the twst boys. But do you have any thoughts about a step-dad scenerio?

(cw: yandere, nsfw, unhealthy behaviors/relationship, stepcest, age gap but reader is written to be 18+)

Stepfather Crewel who loves you so much (and not in the platonic way). He wants you to know real, true love so that you won't fall for someone with a rotten personality or a penchant for doing scummy things! You should have high standards when it comes to your partners! Don't settle for the bare minimum. After all, your stepfather always has your best interests in mind. When it comes to fashion or makeup, he offers the best advice and insight. So this (allowing him to train your body to respond to all of his touches and words) shouldn't be any different. He's just getting you ready for when you inevitably do this with your lover (which will likely never happen because you only need your stepfather).

Vil is much the same. Your stepfather is so critical of your partners. Every one you've since brought home to meet him has yet to pass his test. You understand that your stepfather is only looking out for you, but does he have to be so harsh all the time? His standards are much too high. T_T at this rate, you don't think you'll ever find someone who'll he'll approve of. And so what? It's not like you need his approval; you're an independent adult. But then your last lover breaks your heart and the only one there to offer consolation is your stepfather. And with the alcohol numbing your logic and lowering your guard, you find yourself falling into bed with him.

Stepfather Floyd took to you right away! He's so sweet and caring, thinks you're the sweetest thing. You think he's very fun. He always brings you a little something from his time at work (he never discloses the exact specifics of his job, though). Sometimes it's a fancy-looking ring or a cute plushie. The gifts range in opulence and price, but you love all of them because they're genuinely thoughtful. To anyone else, this just looks like a stepfather spoiling his stepchild. But all of these gifts are courtship. Floyd loves you.

Stepfather Riddle... oooo maybe you sleep around and he doesn't like the fact that you're always sneaking out and being so disobedient. He's all for a spot of (safe and legal) fun every now and then, but you live such an unsafe, carefree life. As your stepfather, he worries for you. So he thinks he'll teach you a lesson. It's easy to catch onto your pattern. You think you've outsmarted him, so it's a shock when he pokes his head out the window and offers his hand to help pull you up. Oh, did you think you were being sly? Please, nothing slips past Riddle; he's not stupid. Obviously you don't know any better. You argue you're an adult, but Riddle's older and wiser. He bends you over his knee and spanks you for every week you've taken to slipping out of the house. You're his only stepchild; he just wants you to be safer and to stop opening your legs for anyone and everyone.

STEPFATHER ROLLO. orz he makes you help out around the church. You'd rather be doing anything else, but Rollo insists it's good for children and adults to help their parents when it's needed. You stick your tongue out at him. He's not your real father; you don't care. Rollo tries to build a happy rapport with you, but you're having none of it. It's frustrating, even more so because he genuinely cares for you (perhaps more than what's considered normal and healthy). He's not quite sure he wants to let you leave the house when you start expressing your desire to move out and pursue work/school elsewhere...

[symphonic-scream]

Okay.

New Arcana Swap

(tag for now is Transboy Haru I need a new name for this I know)

Anyways. It's been like 2 hours here's everything I have so far

So it's a Fool Haru au, but as a trans guy. He's been transitioning since the year before he started high school, and he's had top surgery. Now he's in his final year, and he's being shipped out to Tokyo after a summer in Juvi, all for something he didn't do

Toranosuke Yoshida as the Hierophant with Goro as the Hermit too it's. This ex politician who has been adopting these kids who's rich and important parents abandon them

Emperor Makoto. And then with Makoto, she's been "staying" with Kobayakawa as a pupil and StuCo Prez, and once he's confessed, she reaches out to her sister and returns home to live with Hanged Man Sae. She's sorta non-binary genderfluid? She doesn't have a term coined yet. But pronouns vary each day

Makoto: thanks, so much. For saving me, for helping me find my sister again, for accepting who I am, and- and for loving me,

Haru: oh, Mako dearest,

Makoto, crying: d-dont look at me like that, Loverboy. Just- let's hurry, the others are waiting

(in case you couldn't tell yet, this is Okujima)

Haru: hey why are you so close with that pharmacist?

Yoshida: oh, cause. I take pills?

It's cause Goro's on anti-psychotics lmao

It's how he so easily got Haru in with the counsellor Death Maruki

Maruki: yep, I see your files are completely true. So, I'll get you set up with your old regime of hormones

Haru: just like that?

Maruki: yep, but I also have to give you anger management sessions. Your parole demands it

Haru: ...I understand. Just, thank you. For understanding who I am

Chariot Shiho and Lovers Futaba, and the Temperance is Kanji-

Cause his husband is the Judgement and their wife is Fortune-

Moon Joker, Magician Ryuji (he's a lil lizard), Star Ann, Empress, uh, Yusuke?

Shiho a recovering amputee. She got in an accident that ended her volleyball career, but she's trying to not get too depressed about it

She cost them the national title. She ends up starting her training again to aim for the Paralympics, and manages the school team

Shiho: hey, why was Shit Head calling you a girl?

Haru: I, I'm trans,

Shiho: THAT BASTARD! Urgh, I'm so sorry, I know a teacher who'll help report that bullshit. I'm Shiho Suzui, school cripple. Nice to meet you, transfer boy

Haru: thanks, I'm Haru Yoshida. Thanks for not, freaking out on ke

Ryuji's a little bearded dragon in the real world

And MORGANA! He's like, Shinya's age? Human

He's playing the hero, trying to take down the Yakuza that ruined his family and left him alone, but he's young and scared, and the group saves him and he moves in with Yoshida too and he's like Haru's little brother

Goro: you're getting soft, old man.

Yoshida: maybe I am. Or maybe, I'm finally doing what I was meant to all along

He runs a homey beef bowl shop and Haru helps out, and Morgana sits at the counter slurping his noodles and Goro studies away in the back booth. Little family of three brothers

Goro: thanks for changing my heart, I guess

Futaba: no problem, man

Goro: ...I, feel like I need to tell you all. My mom was schizophrenic, and I've been being treated for it since Yoshida took me in. I, I'm gonna get myeds adjusted too. So I can be reliable for you all as navigator

Shiho: whatever you need to be yourself, and to be healthy

Haru: and if you end up like that again, we'll race back in and save you

It's shown in how his palace would change every other day. Like if you wait too long the infiltration route changes

Once he's doing better again, he gets back into school, and ends up in the other third year class with Makoto

Goro: your partner is a pain in my ass. They're making it hard to get that #1 spot

Haru: isn't my love so smart?

Goro: fucking gross. Bleh. I'm going to go watch a documentary on serial killers.

Toranosuke and his three sons, such a proud dad

Haru doesn't leave Tokyo at the end of the year. He gets formally adopted, and moves from the attic to the proper Yoshida house

Naoto: so. You're the leader of the Phantom Thieves?

Haru: ...what's it matter how I answer? They got their signed confession.

Naoto: I knew it, there was no way they'd have gotten a genuine one so quickly... Those bastards... Well, hopefully our chat can clear things up. Tell me, why'd you do it? How? The more I know, the better I can help you out

Naoto recognizes the boy from his husband's class roster, from his chats about the transfer boy that seemed to affect everyone around him

Naoto: so. Your dad kicked you out?

Haru: yes. Not for being a boy, he accepted that part of me. No, I caught on about some of his shadier business deals. So, he framed me for assault, disowned me. I got lucky, that Mr Yoshida agreed to house me, otherwise I would have probably ended up back in Juvi,

Okay this is getting too long so MORE UNDER THE CUT BUT WHAT DO YALL THINK LEMME KNOW

Okay. More

Shiho with her slight hobble cause of her prosthetic, and when she just *can't* wear it, she's on crutches, Like at the beach

She wears her leg to the beach, but takes it off when Makoto and Morgana egg her into running out to the water with them. Makoto loads her onto their back until they reach the water and then it's just. Splashing and fun

Goro's reading a book while Ryuji lies on a towel in the sun, soaking in the heat. Haru and Futaba are munching on popsicles and watching the others

Two Jokers

Moon is Akira, and Ren was in Shiho's role

They're Futaba's foster brothers. So that's why Futaba really wants to join up. To avenge Ren. And it's why Akira helps out

Futaba: hey, so Ren's awake. He's going to need physical therapy, but he's keeping all his parts. He's, also going to testify. He won't be returning to Shujin,

Akira: he's going to finish at Kosei. It'll be a better fit for him

Makoto, fluid, having more they or he days but still having she days. Masc she days, but still

Coloured bandanas around their upper arm for their different days. Now embracing their baby punk side

And smiling so much more, back home with their sister and able to be themselves with support, and having friends and a sweet boyfriend

Hifumi for the Faith and. Justice Kasumi and Sumire TRSUT ME

Haru: hey!

Makoto, wearing a dark red bandana: hey Loverboy, can I get a kiss?

Haru: course, love. How's my girl today?

Makoto: feeling great, Sis and I are going out tonight. She said you're welcome to join if you want? And then maybe come over after later to "study"?

Haru: how can I say no to you?

[andhumanslovedstories]

I’m looking for a second career after working corporate. I’d like something away from a computer, workin with people, in demand, and more flexible. I do have some autistic traits though (one therapist floated it but never officially diagnosed). Do you think nursing would be a bad choice?

Here's a useless answer: it depends! I'll also give my usual caveat that nursing is a very broad field and a school nurse versus a dialysis nurse versus an ICU nurse versus a home health nurse vs a community health nurse are all going to have different experiences. You'll probably spend more time at a computer than you might like (documenting......), but if you get efficient at it, you can blast through it alright. Except when you can't.

And you will work with people! In any part of nursing, you'll be working with people, often in intimate and vulnerable ways. You meet a lot of cool people and get to be there for a lot of cool moments, cool and funny and profound moments. Working with people when they aren't at their best can be exhausting. Working with people when they aren't at their best and also you're understaffed and also someone is complaining of new onset chest pain at the same time someone else is calling to be cleaned up because they've been incontinent--it's really easy to exhaust yourself out of compassion. You have to care and actively engage with people's often tragic situations, but you also have to protect yourself from secondhand trauma. It's okay if this is not something you're comfortable or good with, but if so, you should probably think critically about whether nursing is for you.

And flexible--maybe??? Again, different jobs will have different perks. A lot of nurses work prn which means they have to pick up a certain number of shifts a month, but they aren't on the schedule normally. You just pick up as you want. Very flexible! But also a lot of these nurses are getting their healthcare elsewhere, usually a partner. Like any shift work, you can always swap shifts with a coworker if you can find one who'll do it. When I worked in home health, it was very hard to adjust my schedule because there wasn't necessarily another nurse that could fill in. And often units in the hospital will have various schedule stipulations--work every other weekend, work a certain amount of holidays, work night shift until you get the seniority to go to days or become a nocturnal little freak (me). I currently work in float pool, which makes it way easier to call out and adjust schedules because I'm not assigned anywhere specific until like ten minutes before the shift starts.

And with regards to the last bit, the autistic traits, I don't know exactly which ones you mean, but none of them are an inherent obstacle to being a nurse. We need neurodiversity in nursing. Some patients might find you cold or awkward or weird or whatever way you worry you might come across. Other patients will resonate with those exact same traits. No one's the perfect nurse for all people. Some people want to that extra care, some people want competent work and then to have space for themselves, some patients want to learn everything about their situation, some patients don't even want to know what pills they're taking. Think of yourself as a specialty nurse. An oncology nurse can take care of a variety of patients, but they're most well suited and situated to take care of cancer patients. There's a patient type that is a perfect fit for you. And the same way cardiac nurses deal with strokes, and orthopedic nurses deal with respiratory infections, you work competently outside your specialty because you have a good base for your practice, but you also know that you have specialties that you are uniquely equipped to handle. Specialties like cheerleading through physical therapy, calming down dementia patients, knowing the shit out of telemetry, making sure patients get a bed bath and clean sheets, using a machine to pump a patient's blood outside your body--whatever you most like, you're most good at, what gives you energy to work. I think mine are working well with "difficult" patients, managing pain, and stealing cranberry juice from the patient fridge. for me.

I'll say too if you're worried like a lack of empathy or easy understanding of other people will be an impediment to care--I'm not saying I'm autistic, but I don't think I'm particularly empathetic. I NEVER know what people are thinking or feeling. I struggle to tell when patients are like "talk to me more!" versus "I am being polite to you, but please leave." I have never once been comforting a crying person and thought, "I am NAILING this. I am making them feel better." But I don't think I'm a bad nurse. I reverse engineer empathy by finding a situation that I was in that's similar to the situation a patient is in, and I think about what I would have wanted and appreciated in that situation. I think about what evidence says is a good thing to do in this situation. I think about what experience tells me has worked in this situation in the pas. I also just ask patients what they're feeling and what they want and why they do what they do instead of assuming I know. (That last one is so choice, we should all do it more.)

The job puts you in a lot of Situations that are hard for anyone to manage. So you can study up for a lot of Situations. I read conflict resolution books and writing by sick people, I think about how adherent I am to my own treatment plan when I get judgy, I ask patients a lot of questions in part so I can understand them but also so I can understand the next patient like them, I practice difficult conversations I can predict before I go into rooms, and I make sure I have certain phrases and reactions in my back pocket in case I'm caught by surprise. I've figured out my safe topics of conversations that I can chat about with patients that are personable but not intimate (cats, how long you've been in the area, how hard it is to sleep in the hospital at night). I periodically try out new conversation styles and topics to see how those work. I find people I admire and I try consciously to emulate them.

I make a shitload of rules too that help me structure my behavior so I can act like a person I'm proud of. If I can't get something for a patient, I have to go back and tell them that instead of just never returning to the room. Whenever I leave a room, before I go, I make sure the call light is within reach and I ask if there's anything I can do before I go. If someone is sad, ask if they want hot chocolate, and if they say yes, ask if they want it with hot water or milk. If I have a patient that is very chatty and always on the call light, allot conversation time with them like I'm scheduling wound care in case they're lonely. Whenever I tell a patient that they can't do something, I explain the clinical reasoning for that. If the only reason I can think of to tell a patient why they can't do something except "it's against hospital rules", I reconsider the refusal. I've got so many rules and guidelines I've developed for myself so I can best act in a way that I think a good nurse should act.

(usual disclaimer that this does not mean I always accomplish this or that I always behave in a way I'm proud of. but I do think developing these rules and following them makes behaving like I want to more habitual.)

All this to say--I care tremendously about my patients when they're my patients, but I don't take most of them home with me. I feel often feel very distant from the emotions of the situation. I used to feel like I was watching the world through glass. Now I still feel like that, but not in a bad way. I don't get mad when patients yell at me. I can view their problems as quests to solve. I'm engaged but I'm not flustered by distress.

look alllllllllllllllllll that to say is have you considered making nursing a special interest? works for me. oh and YEAH. The job security is AMAZING. It's such a weight off my mind to know that if I don't like my current job, it's so easy to get another somewhere else.

[bonecaffeine]

helloo! this for the touchstarved matchups,,,

I go by either sam or amber (have been called samba .), she her he him ... whatever works .. ROMANTIC PLEASE !! I love love

ok got my friend to describe me yay.. hair is dark brown, they said it a wolfcut its just layered and stuff. ends right above the shoulders and I have bangs,,, nose is like. mix between button nose n snub nose and I am white. french😢 5'3 (5'2 and a half but I needed the pity points)

okay iLOVE biology especially when it comes to like viruses and stuff I find that so interesting yes please. drawing, writing, baking (but I have been compared to kuras in that aspect), and occasionally insects and flowers have piqed my interest. I dunno I really like drawing and writing

for dislikes um.... math is my OPP and I hate like. unpredictability I prefer rules and stuff when I have to do something but i confess i do enjoy slacking.OK THANKS SO MUCH

Hii! Thank you so much for your request! You where first to submit one, so congratulations! I've also read through other request people have submitted and I've got to say I am very grateful!!

☆ Romantic matchup for @jellynui !!

☆ tw - none

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Anyways, I decided to match you with Mhin!

Yours and Mhins differences balance you two out, whilst your mutual similiarities provide a deeper understanding of each other. As a result you two are not only good friends but amazing partners as well. Let me explain:

It's not a secret that Mhin hasn't had the easiest life. It's very obvious from their attitude and general distance they keep from people that they have seen a lot of things they wish they could unsee. But in the midst of the turbulence and the chaos they have to put with with on a daily basis, Mhin has you by their side. You are their peacemaker, someone who provides calmness in their otherwise disarrayed life. And Mhin is so, so thankful for that even if they don't express that often.

In return you get someone who'll always be there to protect you! If you struggle to stand up for yourself Mhin will do just that whether that be with a sharp tongue or a satisfying punch in the face. Mhin does not take any shits when it comes to you.

Mhin struggles with being vulnerable... like a lot. Yet I know you harbor enough patience for this person. Lay their head down on your chest or hold their face between your hands and you'll heal a part of Mhin that they thought would never heal. They like it when you "slack off" because Mhin craves some slowness in their life! And of course, during these moments Mhin can get a lot of attention from you, which is amazing, though they'll never admit that.

Mhin would love to hear you ramble about biology (or about anything, really) because they too are probably knowledgable in this subject since they know anatomy so well. Mhin will keep everything you say in mind and once they're out and about somewhere in nature they'll look at the flowers you talked to Mhin about and the flowers will remind them of you.

As for drawing and writing, Mhin will also try to support this aspect of your life the best way they can. Mhin finds it admirable that you create art and literature just from your hands alone. Reading your writings is like therapy to Mhin since they struggle a lot to express themselves verbally. They're quick to absorb how nicely you knit words into sentences and later Mhin finds themselves using the words you used in your creations in their own conversations with others.

For the baking part... well Mhin will try anything you make (as long as you didn't accidentally make poison) whether it's good or bad! Mhin is an honest personality though so you have to be prepared for that!

If that's what you'd want to do, I imagine you two going on a drawing date! Something like a picnic but you two get to draw. Since Mhin is a hunter I feel like they know where the most safest parts of Eridia are, and know exactly where to take you if you two need some peace and quiet.

Just like you, Mhin hates not sticking to rules and routine. While it may seem that Mhin has a rebellious nature at first, change makes Mhin anxious and frustrated. The freelancer is glad that you are the same and appreciates this trait of yours.

For my final point - and this may sound cheesy so bear with me. I like how different Mhins and yours hair colors are! White and brown go along so nicely, I feel like. It kinda reminds me of white flowers blooming on a tree, you know?

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Alriiight, I hope you like it, Sam!! This was fun to write ngl^_^ let me know what you think, only if you want to of course.

[rootsofdread]

Hiii! Always glad to see new dbd blogs!!

May i request Wraith, Nurse, Joey and Susie with a big tryhard s/o, who's pretty much throwing the game the moment they know it's them? Like they are a pain in the ass for every other killer, but for those they r just going around giving free hits n' hooks, never finishing gens, following the killer around and so on.

Feel free to skip this one if u don't feel comfortable writing it and good luck!! I'll be looking forward for all of your future posts :D

so glad to see you too! i hope i don't disappoint with my posts <33

Philip Ojomo / The Wraith:

Philip is always confused about it, to be honest. He knows you do it because you love him — that, he'd never be confused about. It's the fact that you let him kill you every time…Ultimately, though, he supposes that he prefers that over someone else killing you. He needs to protect you, and if this is the way he has to do it, then he'll accept it.

He does enjoy the help, though, like when you block exits for others when he uncloaks behind all of you. He likes sending you to be with the other survivors for just that reason. And to make sure you don't accidentally blow his cover.

Or he'll use you to draw out the others by either leaving you down or putting you on a hook. He cloaks and stays nearby to wait for your signal. That, and he prefers being close to you to watch out for you.

He will insist on you staying behind him when he's chasing everyone else around, to make sure you don't get in his way. Both so he doesn't hurt you when you don't expect it, and to ensure precision against everyone else.

He's always especially protective of you around other killers. He knows your antics must make you a popular target for the more aggressive of them. He's always looking out for you.

Sally Smithson / The Nurse:

Sally wishes you wouldn't offer yourself up for sacrificing, at least not so easily. She loves you and prefers not to hurt you. But she will, if you want it. She appreciates that you're willing to do anything to help her get ahead.

She will ask that you stay out of the way while she works, she rathers you stay out of danger until it's necessary. She saves you for last.

She does enjoy seeing you take a break from other trials with her, more free to run around and do what you like. She finds it sweet that you trust her so much.

She feels a bit bad when she blinks away from you on accident, and always looks back to check on you. She always does her best not to leave you too far behind, she doesn't like making you catch up with her.

It does make her feel quite special knowing you give all the other killers a hard time, and only give wins to her. She's not used to so much devotion from somebody. Loyalty. It means so much to her, honestly.

Joey / The Legion:

Joey loves it, because it gives him so many opportunities to show off, both to you and to other survivors, by getting you in on the trick he wants to pull off. He is delighted having a partner who'll just hand trials to him, it fuels his ego.

He will specifically tell you to give everyone else a hard time, knowing you’re already doing that and would just do it anyway. He just likes to encourage you. Plus, he kind of likes seeing all the other killers’ blood boil over how much of an ass you are. It makes him proud.

He kinda likes having a groupie that follows him around and helps him with kills. It brings him back to his brief days in Ormond before being taken into the fog: where he felt like he was on top of the world for killing someone, taking matters into his own hands.

He’ll use you to screw with the other survivors, try to earn their trust by seeming like he doesn’t have a favorite, downing and hooking you in front of them, only to viciously betray that little bit of trust he’d taken just minutes later.

It does amuse him when you try to be a pain before you realize it’s him in your trial. When you smack into and taunt the mysterious killer, you'll hear him chuckle a bit. He gives you a headstart before running after you, still laughing a little.

Susie Lavoie / The Legion:

Susie honestly finds it adorable that you'll do anything to give her a win but give every other killer such a hard time, it makes her feel special and she loves that. It sends her into a very huggy giggle fit when she sees you being such a pain in the ass for everyone else.

She probably uses it to tease other killers. "Well, if you weren't so mean, maybe you'd catch a break!" — things like that. She knows it's not true, she just hopes it frustrates them even more.

Like Joey, she really enjoys showing off in front of you by mindgaming other survivors, catching them off guard, mori'ing them. Anything she thinks you'll be impressed by during a trial, she'll do it and will always be looking over at you and waving.

She'll often ask you to go scout out where the other survivors are in a trial and sell them out to her, because she knows she can count on you to help her.

She always thanks you for taking hits very sweetly, and will thank you with a kiss when she throws you onto a hook. If there are other survivors alive, she'll hang around for a little while to make sure nobody comes to save you. And to chat.

[rozyowo]

One bed trope w sampo koski ❓❗❗❗

Fem!reader

"...I think i made a mistake while booking a room for both of us." You said awkwardly while looking at the bed. "Are you sure it was a 'mistake'? i feel like you did this on purpose..~" Sampo immediately responded. And well, soon earned a slap to the back of his head. "Oh for God's sake Sampo! Stop trying to make everything seem romantic, are you really that bad at trying to find a partner that you would rather make embarrassing statements and jokes?" You started pinching the bridge of your nose due to annoyance. Out of everyone, this situation really had to happen with Sampo. I swear to the aeons he's literally a curse for me.

"Ouch r/n... That hurts! You've shattered Sampo's fragile heart.." He said dramatically, putting on a sad face to try and make r/n feel guilty. But she wasn't having it. "And i hope that fragile little heart of yours stay shattered for the rest of your life." Was the last thing r/n said before leaving the room to book another room for both of them THAT actually has two beds instead of one.

But Sampo, the usual pest and nuisance he is decided to pull r/n back into the room, just great. "Wait..! Im sure the receptionist is busy taking care of other matters. For now, why dont you just relax yourself— or do anything that doesn't make you destroy everything near you..?" Sampo put on an awkward smile, trying to convince her. His tone was so rushed that she barely understood some part, but you get his point. "Whatever, and if you dare to try anything funny... I'll tell Natasha about your behavior, not only that— you'll also be taking a trip to her clinic." Sampo slightly shivered when you mentioned Natasha. The last thing he want is getting another long lecture from the nurse. "Alright— alright pal..."

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"Sampo, any ideas on who'll sleep on the bed and the floor....?"

"You get the bed, i wouldn't want my dear friend catching a cold because of the floor now do i?"

"...Weird but thanks."

After minutes of silence, you decided to lay down on the left side of the bed, tired from what happened earlier, before earlier, AND now. While trying to adjust comfortably, the bed sinked even more and you opened your eyes, immediately looking to your right. "Sampo what the hell?! I THOUGHT we agreed on me sleeping on the bed!" You tried to move away from him but you ended up falling off the bed. Making Sampo laugh. After ten seconds of struggling, you managed to stand up. "You didn't say where i would sleep though.. So i figured out that i could choose on where." He said, trying to sound smart. "Oh, and before you tell me to get off the bed.. It's too late for that my dear friend! So you either sleep on the floor... Or beside me if you prefer to be warm and not freeze to death.." Sampo grinned at the poor frustrated woman before turning around to sleep, leaving you frustrated. "fine. But remember what i said earlier, do anything funny and—" "Alright! Alright.. I already know." Sampo really cut you off.. But you let it slide since you're too tired to even respond. when you had the courage to finally lay down the bed, sampo mumbled something under his breathe. But you didn't dare to bother asking him anymore because you're already drifting to sleep.

Although you didn't know that sampo was still wide awake... Playing with your hair while giggling quietly as if they just got accepted by their crush, which is you. <3

i didn't proofread so don't make fun of me if there's grammar or spelling error >:(

+i wrote this while it was 3am

( please this is so old get out)

[armpirate]

Kalla | Choi San || Chapter 31

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Pairings: CEO!San x fem!reader

Genre: smut, angst, fluff, strangers to lovers.

Warnings: dom!San, sub!reader, voyeourism, use of sex toys, bondage, dirty talk, BDSM, exhibitionism, rough sex.

Summary: She was surprised by how fast her life went from the perfect fairytale to the destructive mess it had turned into. Dealing with a cheater ex boyfriend, having to move out to a different place because the house she lived in belonged to that man she once dreamed of spending the rest of her life with, while continuously being underappreciated at work... It was as if life was telling her to stop dreaming big, to go back to her small town, Bibury, and help her parents run the small farm her family had owned for decades.

At least until she received a call from her friend.

A sudden vacancy as an assistant showed up on one of her friend's system, having her being encouraged to take that big step and apply for it. She had no hopes for it. Mainly because she didn't have any experience on the field, and she didn't comply with most of the requirements that were added on the offer -and which most of them sounded ridiculous and exaggerated for the position, making her wonder who was the freak who needed so many guidelines in order to hire someone to pick up the phone and schedule events. 

Although that hotel she'd be working on was much more than anything she could've come up with. 

Choi San wasn't someone easy to deal with. After his previous assistant presented his resignation letter on his desk, he felt forced to start the whole selection process again -after merely two months. 

Sure that he was being way too strict, enough to find that anyone who applied for the position wasn't enough, he asked one of his friends to be in charge of the interviews and the selection of the most adequate candidate. 

Little did he know Wooyoung would hire the imperfectly perfect candidate for him, sure that she'd help him in many ways other than just in dealing with the responsibilities of his position. 

A new challenge will come their way as soon as she steps inside the hotel. 

Y/n will have to learn how to mold onto him and deal with all his small habits and requirements, and San will find himself trying to open up and let out all those same things that turned him into the person he was. 

The more she digs in Kalla and all of its secrets and exciting corners, the deeper she'll dive into San's heart and soul... Although, maybe, she won't be able to take it. 

Kalla opens its doors to you, sharing the vast amount of filthy and erotic plans it offers, and that you can join with a partner... Or maybe just by yourself. 

Hope you enjoy your stay.

Chapter duration: 21 minutes

Chapter warnings: smut, dirty talk, dom!San, use of collar, symbols of BDSM, marking, rough sex, protected sex

Her eyebrows frowned as he passed the street to her place, instantly dedicating a confused look at him while she waited for an answer without asking the question.

—I told you I had a surprise for you —he momentarily looked at her—. And it's not in your house.

—Can I get a hint of what it is?

—No.

Y/n thought he'd be easy to convince, she thought his denial would go along a playful tone that gave away that if she insisted a little, he'd say what the surprise was. But there was none of that in his tone.

—Can I try to get a hint of what it is? —her voice turned suggestive as she slipped her hand over his inner thigh.

San didn't move, he didn't even flinch, yet he was fighting all her inner needs to let her unzip his pants and do wonders with her mouth. And even then, he wasn't going to ruin the surprise by telling her what he had bought for her.

—Do you want to be kneeling facing the corner with your hands up high? —he warned her, instantly getting her to move her hand away— Patience is a virtue.

—Said the person who spanked me in his office —she mumbled.

—And if you keep on like this, the person who'll spank you in his car.

Yet his gaze didn't show any kind of threat, there wasn't a trace of it, instead he smirked when he saw her smiling, playfulness radiating through his pupils for a brief second before his eyes were back on the road.

—I can't believe you had me naked with you inside, with the door open —she scoffed, looking through the window.

—Yet every time I moved, I could feel how much you enjoyed it —he teased back.

—What would've happened if someone had knocked?

She didn't think about it when he was balls deep in her. She was too lost in his scent, the speed of his fingers on the keyboard and the way he tensed his muscles under her whenever she unconsciously clenched around him. But now she did think about it, aware of how she'd have had no escape if someone had tried to step inside.

—I'd have told you to kneel under the table and take my cock in your mouth —his eyes were briefly back on her, eyebrow raising with mockery—. A bit late to think about that though.

After a long way back home, they finally arrived at San's apartment, the low hum of city noise fading as the door clicked shut behind them. Y/n slipped off her shoes, her tired feet grateful for the plush carpet beneath her. San walked over to the kitchen area, turning back to glance at her with his usual calm, collected expression.

—Can I get something to drink? —she asked, her voice gentle as she walked towards the isle.

—You don't have to ask —San motioned towards the fridge, signaling for her to help herself.

She grinned, pushing her body away from the counter, her eyes scanning the pristine kitchen, everything perfectly in its place. As she opened the fridge, though, she was met with a sight that caught her off guard: almost nothing inside. A bottle of water, some leftover takeout containers, and a lone carton of milk. She chuckled softly to herself.

—So... —she teased, raising an eyebrow as she turned to him— I don't have to ask because there's nothing?

The fact that he wasn't even aware of how empty it was just took her to the realization that he didn't open it, at all. And if he did, he probably was too into his business to take a deep look at it.

San, who had been leaning casually against the counter, offered a small smirk, but there was a flicker of something else -an almost sheepish look.

—It's not like I'm here too much time —he admitted with a shrug—. And, in my defense, I'll say it's been a crazy week.

Y/n grabbed the bottle of water, pouring herself a glass as she mused aloud.

—You know, going grocery shopping can be fun. Some people find it... romantic —she casually mentioned, remembering their drunk conversation.

—Romantic? —San raised an eyebrow at that.

—Yeah —she nodded, her tone playful—. Yeah. Like, planning meals together, picking out ingredients, and walking around the store, hand in hand. It's kind of cute, don't you think? You'd be surprised how much it can feel like a couple's thing. You get to really know a person with how they act in a supermarket.

He knew she wasn't being serious when she said that, but still he felt tempted to give it a try. He considered her words for a moment, his eyes narrowing slightly as if a plan was forming in his mind. Then, out of nowhere, he suggested:

—How about tomorrow we go to the supermarket together?

—Now? —Y/n blinked, caught off guard by his sudden proposition— You want to go shopping together? I thought you had other plans.

—Not now —the corners of his mouth twitched upward, while he shook his head with amusement—. Tomorrow, maybe—he gave a light shrug.

The image of San strolling through the aisles, pushing a cart and debating which fruits to buy, seemed absurd in her mind. She couldn't help but laugh.

—You, grocery shopping? I can't picture it.

—You will —he countered, his voice cool but tinged with a playful edge—. Tomorrow morning, actually.

Her laughter softened, a smile lingering on her lips. There was something endearing about the way he was trying to meet her halfway, despite how out of character it seemed. She'd never imagined San -the meticulous man he was- doing something so mundane as grocery shopping. But the thought that he was willing to try it, for her, made the moment feel unexpectedly intimate.

—Well then —she said, raising her glass to him with a grin—, I guess we have a grocery date tomorrow.

San's smirk widened just a fraction as he pushed off the counter and moved closer to her. Taking the glass from her hand, he gently placed it back on the counter, before he was able to trap her body in between his arms.

He was so close to feel her lips on his, to feel her warm breath on his cupid's arch, but she moved back before he could.

—No surprise, no kiss.

—No kiss, no surprise —he fought back.

—If I kiss you...

—If you kiss me like you mean it, I'll give it to you right away.

She didn't need to be encouraged with a surprise for her to do it, she meant every kiss she gave that man. It was impossible to fake how bad she wanted him, simply because she did want him, she craved him with every touch of their lips and every slick of tongue.

—Did I kiss you like I meant it?

Her question sounded husky, out of breath, while her fingers tried to hold onto his vest. Instead of answering, San intertwined their fingers together, guiding her to his room. There was a beige paper bag over the edge of his bed, and next to it a small black box.

She went for the bag first, surprised when she found an emerald silk dress on the inside, but losing her breath when she lifted her hands to see it completely, finding the buttons on the back.

—I know it'll fit your curves so well —he carefully took the dress from her hands, motioning her to get naked with one small movement from his head—. I just couldn't stop picturing you in this when I saw it.

Her breath was cut when she felt his fingerprints brushing her skin, moving from her wrists to her shoulders in such a slow pace that she was convinced he was torturing her, with the excuse that he was helping her with the thin straps..

—But do you know what I love the most? —he whispered in her ear when she turned around, her naked back facing him— You can't put this on yourself, and you can't take it off yourself either. Everyone who looks at you will know I helped you put it on, but they also will know I'll be the one taking it off tonight.

Y/n's lips escaped a sigh when the reverse of his index traced her spin all the way up, before he linked the two extremes of fabric that were hanging on her shoulders. He buttoned up the back slowly, enjoying every squirm of her body when his fingers subtly touched her skin.

That dress hugged her curves like a second skin, with the pencil silhouette falling right over her knee.

—What's in the box? —she finally turned to him— A personalized toy?

She was joking, but San's smirk let her know she wasn't as far fetched as she thought. Finally stepping back from her, he bent over to reach the black box and hand it to her.

Y/n looked up at him, curiosity glimmering in her eyes before she took his gift. She gently opened the box, revealing a stunning thin and polished silver eternity collar, its design sleek and sophisticated. The simple elegance of it made her breath catch for a moment.

—It's an eternity collar —San explained quietly—. Unlike the ones you saw in the clubs, this one is more difficult to put on and take off.

It was a statement, but not too bold -something she could wear every day without it standing out to anyone who didn't understand its significance. And its significance, she'd belong to him wherever she was, and that necklace would be a reminder of it.

—It's a symbol of commitment. I had it made for you —her eyes shined when looking back at him—. I know you aren't ready, and I didn't expect you to wear it yet. But I wanted to let you know that it'll be waiting for you, for when you're ready...

Before he could finish, Y/n cut him off, her voice soft but resolute.

—Put it on me.

San blinked, caught off guard by her words. For a brief moment, he just stared at her, as if he was processing what she'd just said. He hadn't expected her to be so sure, so immediate.

—What? —he asked, his voice a little quieter now, the seriousness of the moment not lost on him— Are you sure?

Y/n met his gaze, unwavering.

—Yes —she said simply, her fingers gently brushing the surface of the collar—. I want you to put it on me.

There was a long pause as they both locked eyes, the weight of the gesture sinking in. Then, with a slow, deliberate motion, San stepped closer to her, taking the collar from the box. His hands were steady, but there was a tenderness in the way he lifted it, the cool metal glinting under the warm lights of his room..

—As you please —he said softly, his voice barely above a whisper as he moved behind her.

Y/n tilted her head slightly, exposing her neck as San gently placed the collar around it, fastening it with quiet precision. She could feel the warmth of his fingers brushing against her skin as he moved his fingers to adjust the collar with the small screwdriver that came with the box, making sure it sat just right. The touch was intimate, even in its simplicity, and for a moment, everything else seemed to fade away.

When he finished, San stood back, his gaze lingering on the collar now resting around her neck. There was something unreadable in his expression -pride, possessiveness or, maybe, something deeper. Y/n reached up, her fingers lightly tracing the cool metal, a small smile tugging at the corners of her lips.

—It looks even better on you —San said, his voice softer now, as though he was speaking more to himself than to her—. Everything in you, from head to toe, screams that you're mine tonight.

Y/n looked up at him, her eyes warm.

—Just tonight?

—You have no idea how you're the one who has me under your control, and not the other way around.

—I love that —she murmured, the collar resting comfortably around her neck like a secret only the two of them shared.

The air between them felt different now, heavier but in a way that felt right. Neither of them said anything for a few moments, but words weren't needed. The gesture spoke louder than anything they could have said.

After leaving the restaurant, both Y/n and San felt a sense of ease between them that hadn't been there before. Dinner had been unexpectedly pleasant. Over dishes of delicious food, they had found themselves talking more freely, sharing little stories about their lives, likes, and random quirks. San, though usually reserved, seemed to soften with each passing moment, opening up about his experiences in London, and how he ended up where he was today. Y/n, in turn, had shared pieces of her life -her friends, her childhood, and her funny tales from work, earning more than just one disgusted look when hearing about her colleagues.

The conversation flowed naturally, laughter bubbling up between them as they got to know each other beyond the intensity of their usual dynamic. It was light, even fun at times, as San surprised her with subtle humor and sharp observations.

As they finished their meal, the comfortable silence that fell over them wasn't heavy or awkward -it was the kind of silence that came from two people who had spent the evening truly enjoying each other's company.

When they returned to San's apartment, the air had shifted slightly. The night had cooled, and the city outside his windows seemed far away, leaving just the two of them in the quiet space.

It was as if their connection outside of the bed had increased the way he wanted to surrender to her. And he made sure she knew, trapping her against the door at his entrance to kiss her passionately. And he only broke that kiss to start another one, holding her waist carefully as he stuck their bodies together, her arms immediately went up around his shoulders, making sure there wouldn't be a gap between them.

He squeezed her side one last time before he made her body turn facing the door. He first touched the place where her collar was locked, slowly moving down her spine to start unbuttoning her dress with such delicacy and intimacy she thought she'd faint.

—You should've seen the way everybody looked at you tonight —with every button off, his mouth left an open-mouthed kiss on the new exposed skin—. Everything in you screamed you were mine.

—I was aware —she answered, feeling San kneeling behind her—. And I really liked it.

She omitted a gasp when his tongue licked her entrance over her panties, before pulling from the last button and getting up to let the fabric fall in front of her. His hand rolled around her throat, forcing her face back on him to be able to kiss her, his tongue finding every corner and almost making her lose her balance. Y/n supported her weight on her hands against the door, although that didn't last long before he forced her hands back on him.

—I want your hands only on me —he whispered, before moving her hands up around his neck.

Feeling his soft hair on her fingers, as she made a mess of it, while his finger dug under her panties to meet her wetness gave her a new kind of rush she wasn't able to control.

A low giggle left her lips, at the same time her body moved further against his, rubbing her ass against his pelvis, his growing bulge was starting to press against his jeans with every move she made, and his mind was starting to get clouded with filthy thoughts.

Her cheeks were burning, her blood was pumping through her veins at a crazy speed when he broke the kiss to look at her while his fingertips kept brushing on her clit.

—The way I want you is so out of my control —he mumbled—. Shit, but if I don't love the way it feels...

His kiss was demanding, and even furious, barely giving her time to get used to the speed and intensity of it, after he made her turn around again. He lifted her easily, wrapping her legs around his waist.

San walked blindly to his room, making sure his lips would never leave her mouth until he left her on his bed. She looked up to him from that new position, waiting for a command, waiting for the instructions of what would come next. But instead, she saw him getting naked, with his heavy gaze never leaving her eyes, making sure she knew that he belonged to her as much as she belonged to him.

She squeezed the sheets under her, already feeling lost with her body responding involuntarily to his actions. Her back arched unconsciously, reacting to the way his tongue swirled around her hard button before his lips trapped it, offering herself to him, showing him how ready he was for anything he could give to her.

His eyes were closed as he sucked her in, moving from one breast to the other, while his hands held her by her waist to hold her and encourage her as she kept moving to feel closer. At some point, his teeth trapped one of her nipples. He kept teasing her, sucking, biting, licking, at the same time his fingers moved freely over her naked skin and messed around with her panties soaked in her arousal. She had been waiting too long for that moment, she needed him, and he only teased her, making her wonder how long she'd be able to go like that. But he wasn't testing her, he was enjoying every second he could have her body surrendering to him.

The environment in that small space was so thick, they both were sure they weren't able to breathe properly due to it. They both wanted each other, in a new way that crossed any meanings of intimate he had known until date. It was all visible on how sloppy their moves and kisses were, and how they didn't care about anything that wasn't the way the other tasted and felt.

It was so different from the way their sessions were, because he wasn't taking her to bed to dominate her and get her to let him have all the control. He was taking her to bed because he craved her, he wanted their connection to reach a new level.

They both released a relief gasp when he sank in her depths as soon as he wrapped himself. San moved his hips slowly, enjoying the feeling of her walls taking him in as if he belonged there. So wet, so warm, and so ready for him that if it weren't for the fact that he wanted to take her to the edge, he probably would've pounded into her like a wild animal that had been deprived from his pleasure for years.

His hands moved over her body, one on her right leg to keep her spread for him, while the other traced caring touches all over her body. And it was such a delightful sight to see her that way. Losing herself to him, giving up on every bit of power she had because she put herself in his hands was astonishing, but her knowing he would take care of her the best way no one ever has added a new perspective on sex he had never known.

He wasn't even fucking her the way they both needed, it wasn't the type of sex they both were used to, but it felt so good either way only because they were doing each other.

Y/n broke one of the several kisses to speak, voice shaky from pleasure.

—I want to mark you.

San was sure she felt him twitch when she said those words, feeling excited to know they both were on the same page.

Instead of answering with words, San moved a bit lower, hiding his face in the curve of her neck.

—Do it —he bit her earlobe—. I will wear all those marks with pride.

Y/n bit her lip, moving her hands up his wide back, before she tilted her head to bite and suck on one spot between his shoulders and his beck, earning one hard thrust from him that made their bodies clap.

Feeling encouraged, she only moved up, trying to leave all those marks like a road from his jaw to his collarbone. Every time he felt her teeth on him, he pulled back, almost taking his tip out, before he sank into her again.

—Do it again —he dared her.

—Hmm, I think it's enough with that...

While she parted her lips to speak, her voice got stuck in her throat as two of his fingers rubbed against her clit in circles, slowly driving her to her peak, only to be pushed back down as soon as she was able to touch it with the tip of her fingers.

—I could do this all night, Y/n —San threatened her.

—Why do you want those marks so bad all of a sudden?

—Because I want everyone to know I already have someone giving me all that I need without having to speak to them.

If he had said that since the very beginning, she'd have covered him in red marks from head to toe.

She did as she was told, imitating the same kisses on the other side of his neck, dragging her nails down his back when his thrusts went back to the same power he started with.

Their moans, the bed squeaks, the skin clapping, and the desperate gasps for air were only a small hint of how intense it all was. She felt like floating with every thrust, feeling her lower back hitting the mattress with each move, forced to hold onto his wrists for some stability as she slowly went insane.

San held her hand at some point, intertwining their hands together over her head, prolonging that limbo state that wouldn't allow their brains to function properly until it was over. And he kept her in that position, folded as he fucked into her, easily accessible for him to kiss her lips and close enough to get drunk of all of her expressions as pleasure ruled over her.

Able to recognize the way her neck tensed, and how her walls clenched around him, he kept her from reaching her high before she was even able to ask for it. He demanded her to hold it back for a little longer and wait for him, squeezing her flesh by how close he felt as soon as her hands moved towards his ass cheeks to feel his muscles tense every time he pounded.

—You're so good waiting for me —he groaned.

Her fingers moved up over his shoulder and back, reaching a soft spot on the back of his neck the moment she squeezed his nape.

—San, I can't wait much longer —her voice cracked.

—Cum now —he groaned, resting his forehead against her chin while her head was thrown back.

The sync of their sounds made them both feel eager to go back at it again, not even bothering to get some energy or air back.

They found themselves walking down the aisles of the local supermarket. Y/n pushed the cart while San walked beside her, scanning the shelves with his usual intensity, as if picking the right groceries required the same focus as running his business.

They moved through the store, filling the cart with essentials, but it wasn't long before Y/n noticed how serious San seemed about it all. He studied each item they picked up, occasionally asking her opinion, making sure they were choosing things they both liked. She found it oddly sweet, how he was putting so much thought into something as simple as grocery shopping.

When they reached the snack aisle, she couldn't help but let out a small laugh as San reached for a box of her favorite snacks -something she hadn't even mentioned to him.

—How did you know? —she said, raising an eyebrow.

—I pay attention —San shrugged casually, though there was a hint of a smile on his face—. You always have a bag of these on your desk.

They continued through the store, their conversation light and easy, filled with playful teasing and laughter. It was surprising, how natural it felt -walking through a supermarket together, picking out groceries like any other couple. And despite the simplicity of the situation, there was something intimate about it. Y/n felt herself growing more comfortable around him, more at ease with this new side of him.

—Do you want some ramen? —she suggested.

—I don't really eat processed food.

She was aware.

The inside of the cart consisted of meat, vegetables and spices. And the only snacks they got were the ones he picked for her.

—Oh...

—Why? Do you want?

—No —she shook her head—. I was just thinking that maybe we could cook some ramen, eat those snacks and watch a movie tonight, but...

She didn't have to say much more before his hand picked up two packs of the ramen she had pointed out, leaving them on the cart without saying a word, before he pulled from the other side of the cart to get her walking.

Although that smile didn't last long, before they heard a feminine voice calling his name again.

—Oh my god, San.

In front of them there was a woman, who probably was their age, caressing his upper arm fondly, with a kind smile while she looked at him with loving eyes.

Y/n didn't want to inaugurate that new side of their relationship with a jealous scene, but why was her heart pumping against her chest so fast? And why did her skin feel hotter with every rub of her thin thumb on the thick fabric of his gray coat?

Only after a few seconds, she had noticed how disconnected from the conversation she was.

She wasn't sure if she should interrupt that moment, or just wait. Although she didn't need to hawk or do something to catch their attention, because San made sure to involve her in the conversation.

That insecurity or fear suddenly washed away when he looked at her with those loving eyes, slightly closing over the edges when he smiled as he stretched his hand towards her. She took his hands confused, feeling pulled towards his body slowly, giving her the space to walk to him and stop whenever she thought it was too much. She went from feeling left out to feeling embarrassed when she remembered all the marks she had left on his neck.

—It's Y/n, the person I told you about —he introduced her, holding her close to his body.

They didn't talk a lot, but he for sure had managed to bring up Y/n onto the conversation. And, just one look at her particular necklace, while judging the purple marks on his neck, it didn't take Hyori long to know that the woman next to him behind the cart was the only one responsible for those. It was something that he'd only allow from someone he radiated devotion to even through texts.

—Nice to meet you —the woman bowed, with a wide smile making her features seem even cuter.

—Nice to meet you, too... hmm —Y/n hesitated, looking at her as she waited for her to introduce herself.

—Oh, sorry. I'm Hyori.

Why did that name sound so familiar to her?

—I have something to discuss with you, and I was planning on calling you for it —she continued, turning back to San—. Can we meet later?

Y/n's eyes flashed back to San at the speed of light, hoping he'd reject it and tell her he had something important to do later, but instead, he nodded.

He took her home that morning, he gave her a goodbye kiss, and told her he'd pick her up later in the evening so they'd be together.

Yes, the plan of spending the day together was over, because he was going to meet with someone else instead. 

Taglist: @brown88

[ruvviks]

// ocs as types of suffering. [x]

tagged by; @adelaidedrubman, @shellibisshe, @thedeadthree, @katsigian, @devilbrakers, @dameayliins, @envergothash and @hibernationsuit, thank you so much!! tagging; @reaperkiller, @dickytwister, @velocitic, @secondsundering, @ncytiri and YOU!

SELF INADEQUACY.

you crack under the weight of your own percieved inability. how can you be enough for anyone else when you're just barely enough for yourself? insecurity causes you to have little back-bone, and so you fail to reach your full potential when it comes to what you're best at. you sabotage opportunities with fear you'll fail before you've begun. it hurts to never feel like your best is enough, but setting your standards too high or too low ensures it

director's commentary: aubrey very much lacks self confidence even if it might not be apparent from the way he acts. he puts on a performance so people won't truly know the real him in hopes they won't be disappointed by what they find; but because of that he struggles making the connections he so desperately wants to have with other people

YEARNING.

the pain in your chest bubbles knowing that what you want may never be yours. you're lost in a fantasy world, or consumed by what you wish you were or had as opposed to what you do. it's hard to appreciate what's around you when you're appreciating the hope of what could be instead

director's commentary: cassidy has always been yearning for everything. to get his family back, to have friends, to have a partner, to just be able to live in the way everyone else is able to live, to not have to be scared of dying at a young age. he can get envious easily because of it and gets stuck inside his own head a lot that way, but this settles down when he finds people who finally stick around

LONELINESS.

your heart feels full of the connection you feel you lack. no matter how many people are around you, strangers or not… someone is missing. you don't know who, what, or if you'll ever find them. you're unsure if there's a person out there who'll really satisfy your life, so really what's the point of continuing to look?

director's commentary: in a very literal sense, hanan is living parallel to the life she always hoped she would have. the two people that matter to her the most are right there with her but both of them are in love with someone else; and with her too to an extent but it's not the same as she had hoped for

THE GIVER.

your energy depletes as you hand it out to anyone passing by your basket. people walk by and take, but no one ever leaves. you're constantly running on low when people keep asking you to give. you'd give your soul away for free, and then what left do you have of yourself if you can't say no?

director's commentary: luna has a tendency to put other people's needs before their own and it causes them to be running on fumes way too easily these days. she loves helping out; but letting other people in is still difficult for her and it doesn't really occur to her she's only got so much left to give until it's already too late

DESPAIR.

the tunnel never had a light. you wish for nothing because you know you'll receive nothing, and your hopes died out long ago. the only thing that keeps you going is the thrill of emptiness you feel when things don't turn out your way. it's bitter. it's proof. proof that you don't feel this way for nothing

director's commentary: for a pretty long time, reid is stuck in a pit of despair of his own making, consequences of his actions as well as a self-destructive thought loop he's stuck in because of his grief, regret and shame. and in a way it's addicting; proven to be right, even in the darkest of times, feels good, no matter what that means for the rest of his well-being

[itzy0megaverse]

Dude alpha nerd yeji would be so cute like this hot ass alpha with glasses who just gets so shy any time you're in the same room as her -D

I loved this idea so damn much 😭😭😭

Science Classes (A!nerd!Yeji)

Requested : ✔️

Reader : Gn / I also left this ambiguous in terms of a/b/o assignment

Tw : none

New semester and new classes. New subjects and new topics. New seating and new bench partners.

Your first science class of the year was both exciting and dreadful. It's fun to see who your new teacher and classmates are but the subject itself is always difficult to grasp. Walking into the classroom, you find a simplistic layout of the classroom and its tables on the board with the names of each student lined up to each table. You find your name, translate that to the real life classroom and take a brief look at who your seating partner is.

"Yeji..." You whisper quietly to yourself. One of the students that most people know the name of but don't know the face that applies to it. You recognise the name but still have no clue as to who it is you're expecting, other than you know you're looking for a girl. You dismiss the thoughts and move out the way of the board to find your seat.

Unlike normal, your head stays upright staring at the classroom. Watching each person as they leave the board and trudge towards their new seat, looking out for the one who'll sit next to you. Next up at the board is a small framed girl with glasses and brown hair holding a few notebooks up to her chest. She takes one look at the board before immediately landing her eyes on you.

You sit somewhat stunned as she beams you a beautiful smile and happily walks over to the empty spot next to you. "You must be Y/n?" She says as she places her books on the table and her bag underneath. This girl is an alpha!? you think to yourself. The scent is un-mistakable but her shy dimenor throws you off that scent. Your breath hitches in your throat for a second before snapping out of it with a light cough. "And you must be Yeji!" You gladly respond while offering your hand to shake.

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The class had begun 10 minutes ago and you're already struggling. Things tend to take a little longer for you to process so all the math-like problems and note taking takes longer for you than most. On top of that, the teacher going through things at Eminem speed was not helping. Thankfully, the teacher stopped talking shortly after and gave all the students space to solve some questions on their own. It gave you a chance to catch up on the note taking.

"Need help?" The whisper in your ear startled you a little and Yeji, the owner of the voice, began giggling slightly at your adorableness. "Eeehhh-..." Looking back at your notebook, you're a little too shy to admit you do in fact need that help and the only noise that comes out is a strange groan like sound.

Yeji ended your suffering and created an entirely new suffering by pulling her chair just a little closer to yours and leaning over to help you. "To balance an equation you need the same amount of atoms on each side of the equation." Yeji begins gently explaining each and every step much slower than the teacher did and you almost understand it.... but it's very difficult to concentrate when you have a really cute alpha practically wrapping her arms round you.

"See, that means you now have 5 hydrogen atoms on each side BUT it also means you've up the carbon atoms on the left side. So in fixing the hydrogen atoms you've ruined the carbon at-....o..ms....." A blush crawls across Yeji's face as she notices the already deep blush on yours and she finally registers just how close you both are. "OhmygodOhmygadOhmygod- I'm so sorry for that I didn't think. I didn't reali-"

"It's ok." Yeji had jerked herself away from you and back into her space after noticing the little distance and began apologising profusely before you cut her off. "I'm actually starting to understand this whole balancing equations thing now so thank you." You give her a genuinely happy smile but you're still a little to shy to turn and show her. So instead your book receives it.

You never were to keen on science classes.... but you could get used to this one.

[zodiactalks]

Zodiac Signs and Their LOVE LIFE

Dating is hard.

Though ultimately rewarding, putting yourself out there in hopes of finding a partner can be challenging and nerve-wracking, particularly if you don't know what you're looking for.

We can't tell you exactly what you want, but using your Zodiac sign, we can tell you a few things you should consider.

Pisces

Pisces's vulnerability is one of their greatest strengths and their greatest weakness.

Their empathy and desire to be there for their loved ones make Pisces a wonderful partner, but their sensitivity and need for recognition can create one-sided tensions that affect relationships.

Despite this, Pisces are quick to bounce back, and this resilience certainly works out in their favor.

Aquarius

Above all else, Aquarians desire mental stimulation, so even the most passionate relationship will fall flat if Aquarius doesn't feel challenged.

They enjoy adventures and whirlwind romances, and though they value stability, and they can't live without spontaneity and new experiences in their lives.

Aquarians can be emotionally distant from time to time, so they prefer the company of people who don't require constant validation.

Taurus

Though they can be dedicated partners willing to do anything for their loved ones, Taurus isn't good with words and tend to have an aloof personality, which can make others doubt their feelings.

Because of this, Taurus tends to prefer romantic relationships with independent yet like-minded people, as this tends to result in the kind of partnership that works great in the long run.

Aries

Arians are goal-oriented individuals who can't stand the thought of puttering around without a specific purpose. They know what they want and how to get it, and that extends to every aspect of their lives, including romantic relationships.

They can come off as arrogant and intimidating, which can scare away a lot of potential partners, but those willing to stay will be rewarded by intense love and dedication.

All that said, if you're an Aries and you're having trouble finding a partner, you may want to work on containing that passion a little bit.

Cancer

Cancers are sensitive and caring, which turns their romantic life into a double-edged sword.

On the one hand, they're dedicated to their partners and are clear about their emotions and desires for their relationship; On the other hand, people often take advantage of Cancer's ease of love and goodwill.

Gemini

Because they're contradictory down to their core, Geminis need a strong partner that's not afraid to roll with the punches and adapt to an ever-changing relationship.

This doesn't mean that Geminis can't be in a committed relationship, but rather than how they perceive that relationship or how they act in it can change at the drop of a hat, so Geminis work best with a self-assured partner that's confident in their relationship even though it may not be a picture-effect one.

Virgo

Their extremely analytic and critical nature can backfire on them tremendously, as it makes them have lofty ideals of what a partner should be like, and find fault even on those who meet their criteria.

There's nothing wrong with having high standards, but learning to relax and accept people just as they are is one of the best things Virgos can do for their love life.

Leo

Intimidating and captivating in equal measure, Leos have no problem attracting prospective partners, but keeping them is a whole other matter altogether.

Because they prefer to be admired than to be known, Leos tend to keep their emotional distance from others, which in turn makes them even more intimidating.

Leos require a strong partner who won't back down from them, but they also need to learn how to open up to others.

Libra

To no one's surprise, Libras value equilibrium and stability, so they often look for partners who'll compliment them without bringing any new drama to their lives.

Because of this, they don't rush into their love lives, which can make them seem boring, but really, they're just being careful. Once they find someone they want, they'll pounce without a second thought.

Scorpio

Strong-willed and secluded, Scorpios know what they want and aren't afraid to get it, but they're terrified to open up and show their vulnerable side.

They're the kind of people who will pull all-stops in their pursuit of their partners, but once they have them they'll struggle to make the relationship work; something that won't change unless they learn how to be vulnerable.

Sagittarius

Sagittarius values freedom above all else, and they hate the idea of being weighed down by social conventions and expectations.

They can settle down and be part of long-term, committed relationships, but only with people who will give them enough space to breathe and be themselves in the process.

To make a relationship work, Sagittarians need to learn how to live with some boundaries, but their partners need to avoid tightening their hold so much that it becomes stifling.

Capricorn

Usually, on the introverted side, Capricorns are meticulous and dedicated to their hobbies and crafts.

This can make them come off as aloof and boring, but only to people who don't take the time to get to know what makes a Capricorn tick.

Capricorns need a partner who can appreciate what they bring to the table, but they also need to make an effort to be an active participant in their lover's lives.

[south-of-heaven]

Dakota kai or Zelina Vega or the BRE (I can’t pick) x reader

Reader always loses her glasses and whoever you pick always helps her find them and like playfully tells her off for losing them

Lost || The BRE x Reader

Summary: You constantly lose your glasses around the house. Thankfully you've got four partners who'll help you look.

A/N: I can't resist the chance of writing BRE stuff because BRE4L.

Losing your glasses had become somewhat of a recurring theme in your life. It was almost comical how often you would misplace them, only to send everyone into a frenzy trying to help you find them. But one thing you were grateful for was having four amazing partners who were always there to assist you in your quest to locate your elusive eyewear.

The day had started like any other. You woke up, ready to tackle the day ahead, only to realize that your glasses were nowhere to be found. You sighed in frustration, mentally berating yourself for not putting them in their usual spot the night before. But you didn't need to wallow for long, because as soon as the others noticed your distressed expression, they sprang into action.

Mia, ever the playful one, raised an eyebrow and let out a mock exasperated sigh. "Again, babe? How do you manage to lose your glasses every single day?" Her tone was light, filled with affection, as she ruffled your hair.

Charlie joined the search party with a grin, her mischievous spirit evident in her eyes. "You know, we might need to invest in a tracker for those glasses of yours." She teased, earning a chuckle from the rest of you.

Shayna, always the pragmatic one, began scanning the room with a practiced eye. "Did you check the bathroom? That's usually where they end up, right?" Her words were accompanied by a smirk, a mixture of concern and playfulness in her expression.

Jessamyn, the gentle giant of the group, knelt down and started peering under the furniture. "Don't worry, we'll find them. Just remember to keep a spare pair next time," she reassured you, her soothing voice putting you at ease.

As you scoured the room, the atmosphere was a blend of amusement and camaraderie. It was incredible how these four strong, capable women could effortlessly transition from their fierce personas in the ring to caring partners on a mission to locate your glasses.

After a few minutes of searching, Mia triumphantly held up your glasses, a satisfied grin on her face. "Found 'em!" she exclaimed, and the room erupted into cheers and laughter.

You reached out to take the glasses from her, grateful for their unwavering support. "Thanks, guys," you said with a sheepish smile. "I don't know what I'd do without you."

Charlie chuckled and wrapped her arm around your shoulders. "Probably squint your way through life," she teased, earning a playful swat from you.

Shayna leaned against the wall, a fond smile on her lips. "Just one of the many ways we've got your back," she remarked, her gaze warm.

Jessamyn nodded in agreement, her eyes sparkling. "Yeah, we're a team, even when it comes to finding lost glasses."

As you slipped your glasses back on, your vision instantly clearing, you couldn't help but feel overwhelmed with gratitude. These four amazing women were more than just partners – they were your pillars of strength, your support system, and your heart. And even if you continued to lose your glasses from time to time, you knew that with them by your side, you'd never truly be lost.

[h-doodles]

oh, so many ideas so little energy and time,,, so ummmmm authors feel free to take a spin if you find something u like <3!!!!

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1.) inspired by Loving you is beautiful (darkfic) by @rippersz — wherein reader learns to enjoy Larissa's red flags rather than slowly wilt from the distinct skewed version of love :)

Excerpt:

You've been hurt by the world.

Pain is the only thing you remember, ever since you were young. Always remembered a yearning hunger deep inside your heart. Wishing to be loved, to be saved by someone.

But humans were monsters— it wasn't until you've found yourself on the gates of the so called Monsters' precious academy that you've found what seemed to be the shelter from the storm that is your life; found the answer to your prayers.

Found her.

Your savior, your goddess, your beloved.

You won't lie, trusting such a vision was a bit hard to bear, because to be so lucky was not in your nature. But oh, Larissa is so tender, is so sweet, is so caring, and is ever so patient— to stay by your side, equal parts loving and protecting you from harm. You feel a little silly now, asking all those questions then, about her kind; of how outcasts like her lived.

Isn't it such an irony, that it took you finding 'monsters', to find humanity?

Well. Well.

--and thats all ive got for it rn lol--

2.) ICE SKATER AU or wherein reader was a former ice skater but has since been retired, and is a part of their past they'd just occasionally brush off for stress relief. Can either be a new teacher for Nevermore or the new barista in town, who gets pestered to sign up by their former partner & still best friend (also a new hiree crushing majorly on one Coach Vlad :]) to a local skating contest. They didn't initially plan to, but after overhearing that a certain principal was interested in seeing the performances, well... local disaster gay brushes off the dust off their skates ;3

"You. Me. The lake, with your skates. NOW."

"Woah woah woah Y/N, hold on a moment. I thought we were going to the booth to cancel—" Elijah says, but I whap him with a rolled up newspaper.

"Well, that was BEFORE I learned SHE was looking forward to watching the event." I start. "And since we both know I am a small, disaster gay with 0 rizz and speaking skills, THIS is my chance to get her attention! It's brilliant! It's foolproof! She'll never see it coming!"

"Who'll never see it coming?" Coach Vlad pops up half dressed behind Eli, and I blink.

"Hold up, are you guys—"

"Yes." "N-Um." The two men look towards each other, before looking back at me. Eli mouths a yes.

"I cannot believe YOUR fucking luck!"

Bestie in Christ I WISH I had the luck, skills, AND charisma of THIS manwhore of a bestie-slash-longtime-skating-partner I have. Maybe then I COULD grab a whole fucking date with one Principal Larissa Weems. Is it too much to ask???

3.) academy time! Morticia/Larissa/Reader or where before everything went downhill, three girls had a secret worth keeping. bc i need the "and they were roommates + they're galpals <3" soooo bad

4.) 5 times they kissed + the 1 time they didnt FLUFF & then major angst >:) bc i love me a relationship establishment fic and then the worst pain imaginable to man aka Wifey death /// or if more fluff, just 5 dates and 1 wedding (BUT OFC THEY HAVE MORE DATES) :)

5.) Sleepy reader being a clingy mess and touch starved Larissa sooooo torn between having to get ready for the day vs staying in bed for 5 more minutes just to savor r's presence :')

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...and then the NSF ones

6.) Reader is being more of a brat than usual so Larissa punishes them the next day by making them wear a remote controlled toy for the WHOLE day & getting teased at the most inopportune times but they are not allowed to cum >:)))

7.) OH GOD TRADE OFF where usual brat reader has been a V good girl™ for some time and in turn Larissa allows them one (1) wish...... and R picks revenge by having mommy wear the accursed toy and being teased 👉🏻👈🏻

8.) R making Larissa jealous soooo bad they need to be taught a lesson, marked & properly bred to appease the green eyed demon in Larissa's mind :) :) :) (and it works out bc R has been. entertaining v v filthy breeding kink thoughts oop)

9.) R has quite the closet of costumes and they find a cat maid cosplay 👉🏻👈🏻 practicing their meows and nyas and being all cute not knowing Mommy's been watching from the door the moment they started meowing

10.) oblivious reader unknowingly teasing Larissa all day and the woman is abt to FUCKING burst in horny except oh no???? reader was not oblivious and this has been part 7 of the 10 step plan to get Larissa as her gf >:))))))

[a-dauntless-daffodil]

blargh blargh BLARGH. bloom into you rant touko my aro-coded theater queer im suddenly salty for you

the live reaction experience of getting to the last chapters of the Bloom Into You yuri manga as they were being released and thinking with increasing baffled passion that Yuu and Sayaka should've jumped from mutually respectful rivalry over how to best be a friend to Touko, to cozy not dramatic very competitive girlfriends with each other while their tall dark tragic theater girl realizes her one true love was the stage all along

Touko's story arc was so much bigger in scope than a confession of love to someone who's ancillary to all of it could ever satisfyingly wrap up (to ME) (my opinion means nothing except to me sself) she felt like a fully completed character with romance slapped on top last minute like a discount price tag sticker

her whole thing about being the one declaring her love and asking for kisses specifically with a girl who thinks she can't love anyone and then we find out Touko's been an actress this whole time not coping with grief by pretending to be her dead big sister only to find out said sister wasn't so extraordinary actually and Touko's perfect persona is almost nothing like her and Touko's need to do and be everything her sister couldn't is a whole thing

and who better to act out the quintessential highschool love and lust that you think you should be into but just can't bring yourself to try out, than with a partner who'll never be hurt by it not being real. What is more ace or aro than experiencing things you personally don't click with via a fictional character you can inhabit without worrying about long term real life consequences or connections to the real you, and finding out that it CAN be fun in that situation, with that distance

Touko's attracted to someone who says she can't fall in love and Touko makes that a requirement of their relationship that Yuu won't fall in love with her

(i know i know there's a Lot of reasons for her to do this i don't care im lost in the aro vibes)

but then Yuu does fall in love because whoops maybe she was gay this whole time after all and just didn't feel anything for the guy who asked her out

meanwhile Touko's long time bestie confesses HER love for Touko too

and im reading this screaming LET THE ARO-CODED GIRL ESCAPE THIS MADNESS LET THEsE TWO DATE EACH OTHER AND LEAVE HER BE!!!

by the end theater girl is out there moving past her trauma living her best normal girl life as a stage actress who's allowed to be imperfect off stage, and she has no idea her bestie had gotten a girlfriend until Yuu tells her

then a side story comes out and Sayaka the former Touko unrequited romantic suitor ended dating a girl who looks Exactly Like Yuu

in my head there's a sequel when they're in their thirties figuring out Hey Wait A Second with a dash of Maybe The AroAce Who Likes Having Girlfriends Was Touko All Along

(maybe Yuu and Sayaka should date about it) (maybe Touko can kiss her friends sometimes and go on dates with them for fun without it having to be romantic) (maybe Yuu's athletic childhood bestie meets the Yuu look alike and Sayaka finally gets one amicable fully mutual break up under her belt)

maybe my problem is that writers put so much effort into the pre-relationship but then treat the confession as the end, the resulting happiness a boring given, and almost never reward me with actually getting to see what the relationship itself looks like, when it's the whole thing I spent all this time waiting for and cheering on. Which makes the relationship feel empty and hollow (to me) compared to the other connections that DID get shown and established and grown into

maybe that's a silly thing to think about a highschool romance story.

maybe this is why im more and more only reading stories with relationships already established pre-canon so i don't have to worry about burning energy on something that won't make me go !!! by the end of it

maybe there's also stories where, even though the characters aren't officially together yet, they're still together enough for their dynamic to shift and settle into something that FEEELS like what they'll have for the rest of their lives no matter if they've confessed to each other or not

maybe bloom into you was very well made and STILL missed the mark for me so hard i stopped reading the entire genre, because if something THIS GOOD still could fundamentally not work for me, im just probably reading in the entirely wrong section of the romance isle

maybe i need to start sleeping again my brain feels like a gently poked sunny side up egg in a frying pan

[the-black-manor]

I don't go here (I don't follow your blog, I just saw someone reblog your posts and went to check you out) but I saw the thing about needing reassurance about struggling with your confidence. Please feel free to disregard if this seems weird. Just wanted to letcha know that there's a lot of people who find people who're overweight to be sexy. I've loved plenty of overweight people. I'm overweight myself. As someone who has loved all kinds of bodies, there are a lot of people out there in the world who see you for who you are, and every fold and sag of fat is just another part of you to love. I once had a partner who was overweight, who was really nervous about his size. Dude apparently hovered around 300lbs, and struggled really hard with more weight when he was younger. I would kiss his stomach when we were snuggling, and I would caress my fingers along every round and fold of his body. The way he'd shudder and whine and react to every touch was some of the most amazing interactions I've ever had with a lover, and I delighted in getting to explore him more. He also struggled with a condition that made polyps bubble in his armpits, and he was scared that it would freak me out, but once I knew it wasn't something that could hurt me, and I knew it wasn't painful for him, I took the time to kiss them and tease his armpit (Which was particularly sensitive for him) So from personal experience, I can tell you that there's people out there who'll delight in all the imperfections you're afraid of. As for physical disability and not being able to support yourself, I'm a disabled person whose brain and body are all kinds of weird, I can't drive, but I'm also incredibly dominant in the bedroom. It's an ambiance thing, and you create that ambiance with your confidence. I've had partners who had jobs and could drive, who had to drive me to all our dates and whenever we'd go out with friends, who also had to buy me food when the group went somewhere expensive that I couldn't afford (Most places), who would also melt in my hands when they'd come over to my place - And I still lived with my parents for a lot of that. Dominance is about making the other person feel desired and sexy and cared for, and as long as you can bring that to the table, you'll be an amazing dom. Everything you're worried about, I promise, it's not as big as you might think - And anyone who makes you feel like it is? Not worth the time or effort. Stability is a luxury few can afford - You don't have to wait until you've got it to feel confident and sexy. You're already doing an amazing job, it looks like. Also carbs are awesome and delicious. It sounds like you've got great taste. Don't worry about it, and just let the soft animal that is your body love what it loves.

This means a lot to me. Thank you for taking the time to write it all out and send it.

[somestoriessomewhereelse]

INKTOBER 2023

1 - DREAM

Once upon a night, I was able to close my eyes and vision fantastic worlds. I used to trip to beautiful places, and experience wonderful stories. But nowadays my dreams are collapsing, and they feel too close to the reality. I'm not sure if midnight is my friend anymore.

2 - SPIDERS

When he's there, I can handle it. I'm not scared when I see him, I'm scared when I saw him but don't see him anymore. When I know he's around, but can't predict the moment he's gonna try to trap me in his web.

3 - PATH

It is always the same dilemma: go right, or go left. I could think I already know which way is the best, but I will never be sure, not before choosing, and sometimes not even after. I only know my dilemma: go right, or go wrong.

4 - DODGE

I remember this time in PE when we were learning boxing. I didn't want to, but the teacher encouraged me to try, and try harder. So I hit my partner's glove with all my strength. And my own fist bounced back into my nose, and broke it. This day I learned the one person who'll never fail to hurt me, would be myself.

5 - MAP

You can't find the pirate's treasure if you don't know where to search, right? Well, the all life is this same hunt, and you always need a map.

Unless you have the privilege to be born with a part of the treasure.

6 - GOLDEN

You know what? Today is gonna be a good day. I have the feeling it's gonna be soft as a dawn, bright as a zenith, and warm as a sunset. Thank god it's Friday.

7 - DRIP

I've been a very bad girl, a very, very, bad bad girl. And I've still got some dripping at the corner of my mouth, and probably leaking somewhere somewhere else...

8 - TOAD

Toad is a playable character from Mario Kart. To play Mario Kart Wii, you need full charged batteries. I wish I had that last night.

9 - BOUNCE

Life is ups and downs. Sometimes you're on top, and sometimes you're in the bottom. Everything is a cycle.

10 - FORTUNE

The wheel of Fortune is a reminder that everything happens for a logical reason, whether we can understand its logic or not. We are all parts of greater patterns, which are always in motion. Only the past is already written, any future is still up to come.

11 - WANDER

Gender. Work. Family. Drugs. Projects and plans. Memories. Expectations. Preferences. Relationships. Art. Death. Identity.

I will always be looking for who I am.

12 - SPICY

Each flavor tells a story. Vanilla is the best friend who never lets you down. Cinnamon likes to offer Christmas gifts. Paprika dances in the club only during summer. Rosemary makes love to you in the garden. And so on. So tell me which spice is your favorite and I'll decide what I'll do to you with my mouth.

13 - RISE

Fascination. Temptation. Ascension.

I must rise to the occasion.

Aim for the moon, shoot in the stars,

Did you know you could go so far?

References made me, I can't stop.

Now from the top, make it pop.

Rejoice and love yourself today,

'cause baby, you are born this way.

14 - CASTLE

Once upon a time, the northern kid finally decided to take control of his story. He believed that his home, the House, would protect him from hate, loneliness and danger. Sadly he realized that he could not escape from himself, nor from anything at all.

15 - DAGGER

I thought blades were the most effective artillery. You stab, they bleed, you live, they die. Simple. Then I discover words. How much you can hurt with words, how long it might take before their wound heals. Impressive. However now I'm sure: the best weapon is silence.

16 - ANGEL

"What a cute guy", every girl said about him - and they were right. But the blondie wasn't straight, and had zero interest in these obtuse teenagers. The only question that completed his mind was: "do I have a gag reflex?"

17 - DEMON

And so the cute guy went looking for the answer, sucking cocks always larger and larger, to discover that no, he had no gag reflex at all. He was a true succubus, and sure an angel for those he was happy to kneel before.

18 - SADDLE

I have no inspiration today. What do you want me to say? Some depression drama like "you don't have a saddle for living life hurts". Or some optimistic bullshit like "when you fall down you get back up and keep on riding". Well, you got both, pick yours. I'm not riding horses anymore.

19 - PLUMP

I don't want to write about weight gain, food OCD, the way I dislike my body changes, nor fatphobia. And I don't see any other point of view for this theme. So relax, take it easy, and see you tomorrow.

20 - FROST

I was born during the coldest night of the coldest winter. It was so cold my heart turned into ice. But i'm not the frozen bitch they call me, I do have warm feelings deep inside of me. And they all are as unique and beautiful as a snowflake.

21 - CHAINS

When I'm looking at you, laid down naked in your bed, wearing only a leather harness and purple handcuffs at your wrists, I realize it's so good for once to be at the right place at the right moment with the right person.

22 - SCRATCHY

When your own body is too much to handle,

when you want to feel less and less yourself,

when your skin becomes the enemy to defeat,

when you need this burn to rise from your ashes.

23 - CELESTIAL

The truth is in the stars for whom is able to read it. However these days the night sky is cloudy, polluted, blurred; it's complicated to read it properly. The future is not so bright, I'm afraid.

24 - SHALLOW

I wish I was able to let you see all my layers, not only the most accessible but also the deepest ones below the surface. With that said, I also wish you wanted to dive inside of me to discover them.

25 - DANGEROUS

Is it worse to be a danger for others, or for oneself? (They answered "for others", I say "for myself".)

26 - REMOVE

You can't remove the milk after you poured it into the hot chocolate, you can't remove the bad text after they read it in the chat, and you can't remove a bad thought after it popped into your brain.

27 - BEAST

I know there is some beauty in everything, but I'm exhausted to try to find it behind all the ugliness in this world. And it's getting difficult to find it in me.

28 - SPARKLE

If homosexuality was a choice, I would choose it only for the lifestyle. I mean, being extra and fancy and colorful and not vanilla flavoured, it's a yes. But liking men... well, choices.

29 - MASSIVE

"Massive", of course I was going to make a joke about my dick. Some people will say I'm bold, but above all the truth is that I'm bald.

30 - RUSH

Life is like a bottle of poppers. It comes in different sizes and perfumes, it's not the healthiest but you kinda like it, and the more you take the hotter it gets ('cause, you know, global warming). And the ends comes before you know it.

31 - FEU

Au commencement il y avait le feu, et à la fin il n'y aura plus que le feu. Le feu est maître, juge, et roi. Le feu est naissance, mort, et renaissance. Qui joue avec le feu périra dans les flammes. Et je suis un grand joueur.

[scrumptiousrebelwonderland]

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Career Improve/Progression

People with a number of many years of Functioning practical experience often know that their vocation path slowly but surely results in being restricted, or even spares no room for Qualified progress. Some also explore that their skill established is not applicable for their discipline of exposure and subsequently go after unique schooling of their sector as a method to maneuver forward.

On many events, a rank-and-file worker might have currently acquired a well-informed comprehension of how a firm is managed, and could want to go after a supervisory place in the corporate or in Yet another business. Whether you are planning to change Professions or aiming for advancement, a graduate schooling can enormously offer additional flexibility.

Enhanced Income

Greater earnings instantly correlate with greater education. Management and/or supervisory positions in many cases are restricted to All those with State-of-the-art degrees, Therefore restricting your earning likely if you do not have these enhancements. Based on scientific tests, a graduate diploma holder in The usa can make a median of 33% over another person having a bachelor's diploma by itself.

Own Advancement/Intellectual Stimulation

Discounting long term occupation and income likely, Other individuals choose to go after graduate reports simply because they enjoy to understand and so are truly enthusiastic about buying extra expertise on their preferred subject.

II. Analyzing if Graduate College is the appropriate Choice for You

Graduate college is ideal for those who enjoy research and Finding out. It is not great for people who simply need to acquire much more courses, or for people who are inside of a hurry to acquire a task.

Undergraduate examine differs from graduate training in that it calls for far more of your time and energy, motivation, and effort. In addition it involves forming Expert and private associations with professors and other learners. Normally, it difficulties you in what you want to accomplish in your daily life.

III. The best Time for Graduate University

The correct time and energy to pursue an advanced degree is situational. You could embark on graduate university appropriate following you get your bachelor's diploma, a year soon after graduation, and even a number of yrs afterwards. When you are approaching graduation, and you've got made a decision that graduate university is the following phase for you personally, it could be beneficial if you check with on your own the subsequent concerns:

1) Are you ready for another 3 to eight a long time of finding out?

2) In case you consider day without work just before moving on to graduate university?

3) In order to get time without work, why?

In the event the primary reason for getting day off is exhaustion, then ask yourself if The 2 or 3 months of getaway right before graduate faculty will let you revitalize by yourself. Should you be confident that graduate faculty is the subsequent stage in your case, then there isn't any cause why you need to hold off your software.

Proper immediately after Graduation

When the understanding you acquired in your undergraduate education and learning is especially relevant in your graduate software, then this feature may be the correct a person to suit your needs. Other motives for likely straight to graduate school contain your excellence to be a pupil; your current position of getting several (or no) obligations, both equally personally and fiscally; as well as your desire in pursuing a place of expertise that requires a graduate degree.

Get time making sure that graduate university is ideal for you. Innovative research calls for a substantial amount of motivation and the ability to get the job done independently. Occasionally, a trip from studying may well support intensify your inspiration and enhance your competencies. As such, you might want to take into account the next alternative.

After a Enough Relaxation Interval

A lot of graduates take a 12 months off before they begin their graduate system. You should utilize this time to operate, the two to assist you fund your research and to achieve knowledge. Potentially, you merely desire to vacation. Should you be touring, make sure to make an application for courses at the right time, preserving in mind that you may be questioned to attend an interview or an admission exam. You will have to prepare perfectly in advance, often providing eighteen months previous to software. In the situation of some overseas courses, it's prevalent for students To place collectively a timeline ahead of they start specializing in their time without work.

It is crucial to understand that pursuing a graduate diploma several many years following undergraduate review is not really unusual. A while off could be precious if it enhances your qualifications and primes you to the pressures and rigors of graduate college.

Immediately after Functioning Comprehensive-time

The reasons for obtaining do the job knowledge just before graduate university involve obtaining an improved knowledge of your Qualified objectives, acquiring relevant perform expertise, and establishing a far more accountable Mindset towards finding out. If you already know upfront that you intend to go after a graduate education immediately after many several years of work, try to look for an employer having a tuition reimbursement application. Normally, employers are prepared to finance element, or all, on the fees entailed in graduate research.

Though Working

The greatest share in the graduate school scholar population contains part-time college students. The idea of supplemental education is actually a expanding craze because fast sector adjustments impact Just about all fields of expertise. Continuing to work, no matter if on an element time or possibly a full time basis, can even be a means of paying for expenditures incurred in the system of your respective graduate study.

IV. Master's vs. Doctoral Levels

It is actually a typical misunderstanding that a future PhD college student will have to have a Master's degree to enter a doctoral software. While the greater part of graduate applications do require this, It's not always the case. It is better to carry out your own analysis and examine the degree prerequisites for a application versus earning an assumption. In this booklet, we offer many of the a lot more sizeable variations involving being a Masteral as well as a Doctoral prospect.

The Masteral Applicant

You'll invest, on the normal, about two years in graduate university. The objective of this application will be to give you solid instruction within a specialised tutorial discipline

Your Very first Yr The enrollment system is analogous to that for undergraduate review. You happen to be needed to satisfy the coursework specifications of your respective diploma. Nonetheless, the get the job done are going to be heavier, the training course subjects might be much more specialized, and much more are going to be envisioned from you than whenever you were being an undergraduate. Using your adviser's help (chosen by you or assigned by This system), you might start to solidify your educational focus.

Your 2nd Calendar year It's possible you'll consider much more Innovative classes to complete your program needs. Possessing decided your exploration direction, you will little by little spend additional effort toward the completion of one's thesis. Dependant upon your pace, you might require 1 semester or a complete academic 12 months so that you can end your masteral thesis, the target of which happens to be to show your mastery close to you of review.

The Doctoral Prospect

You will spend, on the average, five to 6 many years in graduate faculty. The objective of the program will be to provide you with thorough knowledge of your area, put together you to conduct original and sizeable investigate, and cause you to Prepared to become a member of a educating school.

Your Initially A few Several years You may enroll in classes to satisfy your degree specifications and acquire in depth familiarity with your field of research. You can little by little create your study route, generally consulting having an adviser (normally) appointed at the start within your graduate analyze. By the top of your next or 3rd year, you would've completed a thesis or taken in depth tests, or each. The thesis and/or examinations enables your professors To judge your abilities to continue with doctoral research.

Your Final A few Yrs Coursework gets a slight component within your tutorial workload, and may even disappear when you conceptualize your dissertation, a novel and important contribution for the obtainable knowledge with your specialization. You will train An increasing number of classes and gradually collaborate a lot more with senior faculty users. You can sort a close professional partnership which has a school member who shares precisely the same research passions as you need to do, and he/she is going to grow to be your dissertation adviser. Your plan will stop While using the completion of one's dissertation, which can entail an oral protection of your investigate just before a panel of college associates and/or experts in the sphere you will be in.

V. Choosing a Graduate Plan

The following are some of the extra significant components and inquiries that pupils will need to take into consideration and remedy when deciding on what graduate plan to apply to.

Specialty

This criterion will eventually rely upon your pursuits, but we often recommend position market thing to consider. Sure fields might bear positive developments after a couple of years, while the ones that are now encountering fast progress might develop into stagnant.

Rating

A graduate software's ranking is essential for many possible graduate students. They think that a program's rating signifies the standard of training they can acquire and the level of methods that could be accessible to them. Nevertheless, diverse sources of data - school Sites, released rankings, and independent rating corporations - all have unique requirements for analyzing a selected plan. Learners ought to consequently concentrate on the components that are deemed in deciding a system's ranking, as well as the evaluation approaches (if any) which might be applied.

Spot

Location can Engage in a big factor in your graduate faculty encounter. You might set up several ties in graduate faculty and will therefore contemplate if The college of your respective decision is situated in an area that you would take into account residing in. Alternatively, for those who are searhing for non permanent residence in a place you haven't any intention of living in permanently but desire to are in for any few years, graduate faculty can be an opportune time to realize that have. Anywhere you happen to be, you need to be snug with The situation as you is going to be (generally) staying in that spot for the following two to eight several years of your lifetime. Some inquiries you must question by yourself are the next: Do you think you're a lot more a fan of a small or large college? Urban or rural? Place or city?

Charge

Consider all immediate and oblique costs (tuition, miscellaneous charges, guides, and especially cost of living) and The supply of financial assistance. The quantity of economical help you receive typically will depend on regardless if you are pursuing a Learn's diploma or even a PhD. It's not unusual for just a university or faculty to waive tuition demands In case you are making use of for just a doctoral system. Additionally, a lot of PhD learners are given some sort of funding or stipend.

Admission Specifications

It is better to pick out a graduate program with stringent admissions specifications. Educational institutions with lower admission demands could give a lessen excellent of graduate instruction. The vast majority of colleges and universities make this sort of information available to the general public. Try to find The bottom specifications for admission; these usually include the mandatory undergraduate GPA and standardized exam scores.

Instructing Staff

Narrowing down your method alternatives will prove much easier If you're definite regarding your study passions. It is recommended you use to courses exactly where the school associates have study pursuits that coincide with yours.

It's got usually been said that a graduate software is just nearly as good as its college. It can be crucial to discover from and train under professors who are revered and acknowledged inside their picked out specialty. The easiest way To judge the standard of a application will be to consider the proportion of classes taught by entire-time school. Concurrently, indicators like the volume of scholarly publications and the Expert practical experience with the training employees could also deliver insights in to the reputation of the faculty.

Facilities

Check out if the program you want to implement to has the facilities/facilities that you just want. Can they offer you the tools essential for your investigate? It is necessary hunting mainan to investigate whether the "condition-of-the-art" amenities promoted by The varsity or College are truly as claimed.

Time for Completion

Question you how rapidly you would like to complete the program. Would you like to finish in two many years? A few? Four? Would you produce other programs soon after earning your graduate diploma and therefore have to complete it inside a specific period of time?

Vocation Arranging

In the event your cause of gonna graduate school is occupation related, then it will be wise to learn what types of Experienced improvement actions are available in This system/university you might be pursuing. Are there opportunities for networking or education with real practitioners in the sector of specialization you've picked out?

Lots of college students enjoy the sector of research These are in, but are perplexed with what particular positions they're able to submit an application for immediately after graduation. The program or department could have information concerning the average wage attained by their graduates and also the proportion of students who land Employment right after graduation. You can even Verify If your Office has connections with several corporations/firms to aid its students find employment immediately after graduation.

VI. Acquiring Top Graduate Faculties

Search for Out Fellow Graduate College students

In search of out and speaking to college students enrolled inside your software of interest is the most effective solutions to conduct study on graduate faculties. Obtaining the "inside scoop" on Anything you can count on on admission into a application will certainly allow you to get hold of "real-existence information and facts" about the program. Except for acquiring info on classes, tuition, and college customers, You might also be Blessed more than enough to listen to personalized ordeals with regard to the quality of instruction, the rigors of the program, and other factors that can help you in making a decision where by to use.

Graduate Faculty Rankings

Graduate school rankings offer a practical manual for finding The college that is certainly appropriate for you. Besides general rankings, facts including average grades and test scores are A part of these data. This will let you create whether or not your qualifications are aggressive.

In fields for example medicine, business enterprise, and law, rankings can be quite handy. Rankings in these disciplines are commonly identified based upon meticulous scientific evaluations, and when used adequately, these can immediate pupils towards Arranging their programs by enabling them to focus on the elements they will be competitive in. Nevertheless, these rankings are usually not the end-all and become-all of choosing the right graduate college. Lots of students target excessive on Worldwide or countrywide rankings. Coupled with mindful research, however, graduate university rankings can most unquestionably issue you in the best course.

VII. Applying for Admission

Materials

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