#find my way back to queue

[kylermalloy]

The true litmus test of a person is if they spend bill wurtz’s history of the entire world, I guess going huh? and whaaa? or if they actually recognize each of the events going on

[front-facing-pokemon]

[graff-aganda]

No no ikr. The ENT fandom is so quiet around here. And honestly I'm just excited to see art of my favourite dudes, because we rarely get fanart around here, and when we do it's usually Trip or T'Pol solely. Malcolm gets left in the dust quite a lot so I'm happy you drew him as well - and so well done too!

Anyway, ramble over, lol.

OMG... Well I think I can see why a lot of fanart is of Trip and/or T'pol (those two seem like they're doing some heavy lifting for the show/are just a lot of people's faves. I've got a few half baked ideas in mind for them myself.) but the rest of the crew as a whole do deserve more love I think! :]

[spotaus]

Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it 🫡

So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.

At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.

Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.

I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.

So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.

If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.

[kylermalloy]

#literally. #winchester family values #sam & lucifer #like so significant that the one thing we know factually about sam's hell is one of the more abstract metaphors on the show #I mean obviously there are layers of metaphor to dean's experience but 'put in an awful and targeted situation' #'where you have no meaningful choices but to do awful things in turn' has a lot of direct corollaries #whereas 'gazed upon what man ought not wot of' is a lot more open Imao #no and ALSO. clearly. dry run for purgatory. dean comes back scarred and angry and frightened #and takes that out on sam #and it's not like the show is indifferent to that or congratulatory about it. #but there is a very clear. when dean comes back changed and mean the correct response is for sam to understand and endure it #when sam comes back changed and mean the correct response is for dean to get him under control #and if that means violence and torture and risking sam's life then that's sad but acceptable (via @adihildilid)

also bears repeating that everyone needs to compare sam’s hell arc with dean’s hell arc.

dean: is given the option of ending his own torture by becoming a torturer himself. is part of a system and has a Commander (alastair) to answer to. we are told that he becomes highly skilled at it and we are given specific details about A) his hell timeline, B) what was done to him, and C) how he felt about what he subsequently did to others.

sam: no choice but to suffer endlessly. locked in a box with a violent and vengeful man. for Some Reason the narrative had his period of torture last for significantly (almost unquantifiably) longer than dean’s did. the timeline is fuzzy and the details of the torture - outside of a handful of Jokey allusions to rape - are a mystery. sam never talks about the specifics with anyone across the entirety of the series because A) he presumably lacks the language to do so, B) his trauma doesn’t tend to get spotlighted like that relative to dean’s, and C) who would listen?

dean was a Righteous Soldier who Tragically Broke, and this Wasn’t His Fault. sam was Paying For his Sins and he had the audacity to come out of the experience Wrong (soulless arc) and then Crazy (hallucifer arc).

[bingus-bing-bong]

I zoned out for a second and now there are like 50 barbie posts in my queue

[plusultraetc]

if I can find a way to squeeze 'Aizawa and Vlad King semi antagonistic work friends' into a fic I will

[kylermalloy]

Al returns to flesh. He gets a cat. Gets catnip. Next thing he knows, he's on the floor looking up at Ed, happy and woozy. Covered in catnip.

Somehow Al became affected by catnip despite being human

Well Ed definitely won’t get more catnip to have a repeat of this occurrence, absolutely not, no way

[kylermalloy]

#that last addition especially #not wanting to get involved in discourse is one thing #but i genuinely can't stand when people treat this stuff like it's trivial and act above it #you're not better for not giving a shit #also you're on tumblr!!! #it's all ‘i'm insane about this media’ #until someone brings up a pervasive fandom issue and suddenly it's all #‘i'm an adult who pays taxes 🤓’ #shut upppppppp #ok sorry i'm done Imao (via @exdeputysonso)

14 year olds shipping discourse is inbreeding with itself to make the discourse equivalent of a brachycephalic bulldog at this point. They're inventing new extremely vague moral purity categories at a rate nearly equivalent to the Mormon church

* For the record btw a paraphilia by definition is just any sexual desire classed as "unusual" by the dsm, which can include anything from apparently getting horny about imagining yourself as a vampire (?) to being attracted to fictional characters, to being attracted to trans people. It's not an issue unless it has the capacity to cause real harm to yourself or others, at which point it becomes a paraphilic disorder

[whitedahlia13]

That's Where You'll Find Me

a Stydia / Wizard of Oz AU

Lydia is out of Eichen House and ready to move on with her life. She is healing a little more each day, and Stiles has been with her through it all – a constant amidst the infinite unknown. They are closer than ever, getting closer by the minute…

But everything changes when what appears to be a nightmare turns out to be another descension into the supernatural.

Lydia wakes in a beautiful but dangerous new world while Stiles is in Beacon Hills, tirelessly trying to reach her. Can he help her find her way back to him?

(reblog or comment if you would like me to tag you when I post new chapters)

[ragnars-tooth]

One of my big compulsions is taking a fuck ton of screenshots Just In Case a piece of information is important in like 4 years and I can't remember it (sometimes the information is an instagram post that I might not remember later and of course needs to be recorded everywhere (I will Not be looking at that again)) so today is my transfer 16000 images off my phone admin day (woo)

Like yeah I never looked at any of them and they were completely irrelevant to my daily life, But what if I need them ✨️ later ✨️ (you'll see that the idea of Later is doing a lot of heavy lifting here) OR what if there's a vital piece of information in the mix somewhere that I'll lose forever if I delete them? So: onto the external hard drive they go

This is one of those cases where. Yeah. Ideally I wouldn't take 16000 screenshots in half a year. And YEAH ideally I'd just delete them and not transfer them somewhere else to never look at again. BUT at least I get a clean slate and I can maybe not mindlessly save everything for 2 seconds. It's like. Small wins? Progress. Yknow.

[fizzytoo]

while rosa is busy inside, danny takes the opportunity to have a chat with her parents

[kylermalloy]

#i’m going to chew my arm off #let me be your older brother for a moment so you can come back and be mine forever #let’s be monsters together but you have to be better than me #please love me because no one does it like you <-stealing my own gd tags because I said it perfectly the first time

The Originals 2.07 ‘Chasing the Devil’s Tail’

[talentforlying]

i've officially entered waiting mode for the new hellblazer, i'm bouncing off the mcfucking walls.

[write-it-motherfuckers]

🖤~Song Of The Day~🖤

The song of the day is:     How Fare the Gods? -by- Syven

The challenge is to write something based off of this song, be it the name, the cover, the lyrics, or the tune itself. Let your imagination go wild and see where the music takes you.

Have at it Darlings!

[truethes]

honestly think monday, especially this monday is a great reminder that I don't mind how many threads we start, if you need to drop any because you're not feeling them or if you want to start things with more muses while we're currently in the process of doing one or some. it really makes my day when people like my portrayals, and even more so when they like interacting with more than one.