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Just finished Mass Effect...!
#I now need to finish me2 before da4 gets here haha#it was definitely enjoyable!#feels a bit surreal too#I think it's a bit funny that they threw in a Shepard death fakeout after the last fight with Saren#VERY funny considering how 2 starts#also like. I get it for continuity reasons considering foreknowledge of 3 I guess but who would honestly pick Udina at the end there ☠️#Mass Effect
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You were not meant to see the mess inside
#this might have got a bit too detailed idk#maybe i'll feel better about it later#surreal#femme nude#digital art#spiralshells art#horror art
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Crimson and Clover
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Hand-cut, mixed media collage
2024
#collage#dark art#collage art#paper collage#artists on tumblr#illustration#paper art#gothic art#dark aesthetic#surrealism#pop surreal art#pop surrealism#This is a message in a bottle for a girl who broke my heart in the city of angels#i waited for you#isn’t that silly?#I don’t know what’s worse: that you came and didn’t say hi or that you didn’t come at all because I’m a delusional mess.#Both scenarios are heartbreaking even if one was unintentional.#So I removed myself — a little bit for your sake but mostly for my own.#But there’s this nagging feeling that won’t go away.#A whisper of maybe maybe maybe.#You haunt me and I can’t help but wonder if I haunt you too.#If I do haunt you can we throw away the Ouija board?#Can we send the medium home?#I hear email is punk AF#All the cool ghosts say it’s the next big haunt.#anyways#I miss you
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a little birdie died in my hands this morning :((
#tw death#she hit my window and i went out to check on her#gently moved her somewhere quiet#but she went to sleep :((#this might be graphic to some hence the tag but it's like. a really bizarre/surreal feeling to feel something go limp#and i know birds are never great after hitting windows (even if they get up they usually fly off to die from internals) but :((#i hope at least my hands were warm </3#on a more positive note#ive been a bit on the fence about my course plans too#but this was weirdly affirming.. yes i want to help even if it's sad !!#locking in for my last two exams for the year 🫡🫡 good marks to help the birdies 🙂↕️#ok ada update over <3#𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅ 💌 ada’s psa’s
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Well, look at that, I’ve actually posted something! I joined Tumblr in May 2023, so this post is way overdue 😂
A first post is important in my opinion, so I had to think of something good to draw. A dragon seemed appropriate, as I always tend to use them in my usernames.
The reason it took so long for me to post something, is because it took me a long time to actually start this drawing and even longer to finish it (started in October 2023, finished yesterday!)
2B and HB graphite on 160gsm paper ✍️
WIP pics under cut.
Please don’t post on other websites without credit or permission, thanks 🙏
#it honestly feels surreal finally posting#like wow I actually did something I planned to do months ago#I love dragons but they have way too many extra bits#something this small should not have taken so long#my art#drawing#dragon#traditional art#black dragon#Schleich dragon#graphite#graphite pencils#graphite drawing#artists on tumblr#amateur artist#traditional drawing#pencil drawing#sketchbook#sketchbook art#Schleich#dragons#dragon art#original art
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Sorry to retype the exact same thoughts about Luna My Little Pony for the hundreth time but I'm not normal here.
I'm finishing off the last season and seeing another episode where Celestia and Luna fight in the exact same way is making me think about it even more.
Luna associated with the moon is seen as scary because she brings night time on and is seen in nightmares, and is also so so autistic coded to me vs Celestia who is revered for raising the sun and the safer daytime. Their conflicts always boil down to Celestia trivializing Luna's emotions, hobbies or job and then Luna retaliating because both to her sister and to the public, she isn't viewed the Same. And their fights are always wrapped up with them agreeing they were both wrong but I just literally cannot buy that, Luna strikes such a specific nerve with me so I'm biased but the way the story skips over the kinda tangle of emotional pain going on with her makes me feel dizzy.
Nightmare Moon emerges as a hyper destructive version of Luna's negative emotions. One big meltdown after years of subtle mistreatment. The story frames Nightmare Moon as a malevolent corrupting force that feeds off Luna's emotions, but to me I see that as a way for Celestia to keep the image of her quiet baby sister intact. My younger sister isn't capable of these emotions, sure we had bad days, but she's nothing like this, she has no reason to be so displeased. Again feels neurodivergent feels like masking and being Well behaved vs slipping. Nightmare Moon then is an aspect of Luna that Celestia is trying to ignore, and her method for that is locking her in the moon for hundreds of years, isolated for the greater good, for the safety of everyone and lamenting the loss of her dear sweet sister who's been replaced by a Monster. One that becomes a scary forewarning for children everywhere.
Even when Luna comes back, Nightmare Moon is still used for scary stories and halloween party games. No one let's her forget this, the root of her breakdown isn't addressed and it can never be addressed because now she's forever associated with a monstrous version of her own pain forever. They're not her feelings that's been taken away from her, her emotions are defined by how detrimental they are to others and more importantly her sister. They're always waiting for the moment she turns back into her, most of her episodes are about her turning back into her. The fact Luna's duty is to stay up all night patrolling the nightmares of ponies because she's scared Nightmare Moon will take over her again if she Rests or lets herself forget that happened. This actual legitimate guilt and self harm spiral she locks herself in, the fact some of these nightmares Have to involve seeing even more distorted versions of her, the ways Other ponies see her? Thinking that even if they like her, as Luna, even if they stop seeing Nightmare Moon, Nightmare Moon is also You. How much can you compartmentalize. How can you figure out if you're Good or not when this is how you live. And everyday you wake up and you see your sister and you hold your tongue. When you fight with her over things like her thinking your hobbies are boring, that you're lucky to not have any Real work to do, No reason to be tired. All these ideas of the most surface level qualities of you that she doesn't like. And the only option is to concede?
That's crazy. That's crazy crazy crazy.
#mlp#NORMAL GUY OVER HERE#idk she's not Like Hollyleaf but I am fixated on female characters who both have a really gruesome emotional state and#are also kind of underplayed by the story in really bizarre ways.#it's so surreal to me it really does make me feel a little bit crazy that they act like Luna is deeply displaced and still resentful of#All of this.#it actually just hits far too close to how my parents treated me and my emotions and also gaslit me okay So Lock Me Up
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Well, it's one of those midnight where I stay awake, blinding my eyes with some contents of the phone that content me, comfort me. And I happened to stumble across your works, no scratch that, they aren't mere works anymore. Im not here to disturb you or distract you. I'm well aware of the goodbye that you bid to us. But...I don't know, I feel so connected with your words? Connected with the way you wrote? I know I'm blabbering, but I don't know, something in me said that I should definitely write this for you. I'm just thankful for whatever you left here for us, im thankful that I found you, your blog. Something about your whole blog is delicate, comforting, welcoming. And I happened to need that to fill my heart with some sort of reassurance even though I have this accompanied bittersweet feeling. I'm just truly, truly, grateful for the miracles you wrote. I was honestly crying, it made me feel better. I don't know how to evince this huge reverence I suddenly got over you.
But I'm just, thankful. So,so, thankful.
(this is a long reply, i'm extremely sorry)
“I don’t know how to evince this huge reverence I suddenly got over you.”
at 8 in the morning when you wake up, after the glaring indian sun hits your face and you read such words woven together into such a string of emotions, to be fair, what did i even expect to feel other than bittersweet happiness and a bit flabbergasted?
i wish there were words more meaningful than the boring ‘thank you(s)' because truly, you’ve left me speechless. all i can say is that my imperfect heart receives your praises and thoughts with all the warmth in the world and i hope even the lil bit of that warmth traverses through all the time zones that divide us against our wishes and gives you strength to carry on with your life, @tannedami.
regardless of my absence, i still want my blog to be one of the many corners for a breath of relief for all of you. this was once my escape, i'm grateful that the place i escaped to, a home i built amidst all my griefs became a shade under which you all take a breather from the glaring sun that represents each and every one of your lives.
it was the sole reason i left my blog untouched. i deleted not a single one of my letters or fics. i kept them all, even the unfinished and imperfect ones. my only hope was that in my farewell in every sense, a piece of me will always stay on the internet to give you all solace. in a world that flows parallel to yours, mine and all of the others, i hope my words move close to your home just to feel the air that surrounds you. in that world, my words carry all your griefs and your shortcomings like wearing rings that have all of your's names engraved on the insides.
[ID: “Even without knowing each other’s stories, we create moments of love that bridge the gap.”]
thank you for making me remembered as someone whom you pass by once in a while when you’re walking back home and that will always be enough.
this ask of yours reminded me a lot of some of those memorable asks from the past in this blog. an anon once wanted to write down the 2-part dad!hobi fic i wrote once as requested by them (tbh i found it a bit silly but at the same time quite endearing), another once sent me a dm about how they have screenshotted a letter they requested once during my talk to bangtan requests and now or then they would go back and read it for comfort. i also remember someone a year or two ago said how i almost saved their life during a low moment of their life and i still cannot for the life of me comprehend all these affections that i once and still now get from readers like you who take strolls through my little humble blog. you all should know that as much as you guys tell me how much i comfort you, these words from you all give me the strength to push the stubborn boulders that stand in my wretched life's road and keep walking on. life will keep happening and i will fight on as much as i can. i might always still wish i didn’t stay to see the new morning of the next day, but i want to keep myself going till there’s nothing left of me.
and, you and everyone must do the same. you have to. after all, there must be a reason why we were born into this damned world, right? even in passing, we must live a little in the minds of humans around us (and if you are lucky enough to have a pet, your existence is a miracle to them. trust me.)
i don’t know much about the reverence you talk about, Ami, perhaps it’s simply your emotions that has been catalyzed by my works. but really, i don’t feel myself to be deserving of any of it (this is my self-conscious, self-loathing persona talking, don’t mind her). i wish you a healthy life above anything. happiness will come and go but life will keep going on in various different shapes. we simply have to fit in. so be well because you will need a lot of strength for that, Ami.
sending all my love.
―K
#took me 2 days to stitch everything i wanted to reply to this ask#feeling simply surreal...considering it's been a long time#kind of like “oh ppl know a blog like this exists? ppl know me???” love myself being perceived as a ghost irl & on the web#anyway ami this was heartwarming....and a bit emotional#no regrets though all of these are happy tears#thanks for your thoughts#tannedami#a:pffbts#ask answered#(sorry again if this was too long to read...i just have a terribly inability to take in compliments)#bit of a hardcore self-critic myself
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guys.
#i brought the mqd dog out at the function. so nice seeing everyone#we only chilled until midnight there at the bonfire#and then i said to him. hey the beach is right there and todays the last hold out for warm weather#so we grabbed a blanket from the car and laid there stargazing and talking#and i started deflecting but this time intentionally#every time he was about to kiss me id start doing a new bit and he said we was so curious to see how long id kewp doing it#but eventually i let him kiss me and we cuddled and i asked him when it was that he first became interested in me#bc i need to feed my ego#but it was a lovely conversation#and then eventually cuddling turned into something more than that and ohhh my goddd#it's so surreal and half of the craziness of it is that its just nice and uncomplicated#like him being 12 years older than me is the only weird thing and even so i dont think its that weird#we were in the car talking about it and he was like. yeah even when i wasnt sure if you felt the same it just didnt matter#i just felt GOOD around you regardless. and i said pretty much the same#its just kinda safe and warm. fascinating#and the whole little friend group thats come into being is SOOOO nice too#seriously this is an october for the fucking record books#i feel GOOD
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UR GETTING TOP SURGERY IN A WEEK!?!?@?,$?% CONGRATULATIONS WTF
YEAH ITS KINDA INSANE MAN ty so much!!!
#asks#zymstarz#technically its a breast reduction but ive been calling it top surgery lol#i decided to go w this instead of full top surgery so i had a bit of choice on what to emphasize#so i can either bind or use a pushup bra :]#itll also be super nice bc rn im too big to bind regularly (and its extra gnarly w eds so my time limit is even shorter than normal)#i honestly dont know how to feel abt this it feels so surreal 🧍♀️
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#i'm going to be tidying my follower list this weekend#i feel like i'm constantly pruning but it's all to make sure i don't get overwhelmed#i'm feeling a bit burnt out at the moment#my best friend's dad died very suddenly this week#he called me his adopted daughter#and during my very tumultuous teenage years and early 20s i always knew i was welcome in his home#it's surreal to think he's gone#unsurprisingly i'll be producing very little ic content over the next few days#my husband is away all weekend managing a running event too so i'm doing all the household and childcare duties myself#i dropped into a couple of inboxes this morning#and i'm still trying to catch up with dms#i realise i'm painfully slow at all that i do#and i only hope i'm worth the wait#i'm going to focus on a handful of threads to try and narrow my attention#if there's an interaction you want me to prioritise please let me know#i'll be giving precendence to threads that i feel offer mutual character development#i shy away from those that make me feel like my characters are only fillers#i know i say it all the time but i try to match my partner's energy#if you're sending or reblogging things that remind me of our muses / if you're popping into my dms (despite my slowness)#i'll do my damnedest to match that#anyway i guess i'm feeling out of sorts#take care#ilu all ♡#◈ — ooc; puffin speaks#cw: death
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Bout to sit down to watch DW with the folks already internally cringing bc I saw it this morning and they are gonna haaate it
#I'm not even sure I liked it!#i like bits of it#but it's definitely upped the Silly Factor in ways that often feel more clunky and cringey than fun and camp idk#I feel like I'm being the fun police but is it too much to ask that my silly campy spacetime fun also be good???#i feel like it used to be#it was stupid and we had farting aliens and shit but like#very little 'oh i am actually kind of embarrassed to be seen watching this'#believe me i do not WANT to ve cringing about it I'm all for 'cringe is dead'#but I just think there's a difference between low budget surreal but grounded and deceptively well-made/written silly TV#and high budget cgi saturated awkward dialogue fest that barely hangs together and keeps making me wince#it's like I'm getting the wincing feeling from that one awful clunky 'like some kind of volcano' line from fires of pompeii#but ten times an episode minimum#i want to like it!!! i want it to be good i want ncuti to have an absolutely killer era!!#and it defo has its moments!#but bro....... so much tv is just. Bad now.#and it's probably a mix if factors#effects of writers strikes and producer meddling and whatever else#but I'm sick of tuning in to watch a new thing and finding them all riddled with the same brand of very fixable clunkiness#things that could have been fixed with very minor revisions more often than not!!#anyway not posting this in the tag bc i do NOT wanna be a hater or start fucking discourse about this#I just miss feeling excited about tv#i miss having some flimsy sense of trust that things might feel well put together even if i disagree with how they take the story#mr. bees speaks
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what it feels like when staff and students at work come to me saying “i heard ur the one who knows everything and can help me” Thats nice considering i’m forced to leave in 2 weeks .. ❤️
#p#i’ve never been in this kind of situation before it just feels a bit surreal#being told by everyone including leadership team and my own manager#that they don’t want me to leave and i’m doing a great job#As if i made the choice to leave …?? 😭😭😭#and they’re severely understaffed too they don’t need to let me go#this goes beyond british face niceness where they say you’re doing ok trying to subliminally make you understand you need to pick up#the slack cause i Know i’m doing shit way above my pay and doing it well and i keep being trusted to do those things#so genuinely What do i make of this#girl good riddance ! if i don’t leave asap i’m ending my shit its miserable
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my main criticism of barbie is that i just wish the very direct stuff said by america ferreras character didnt feel like them reading off a buzzfeed feminism 101 blog post then going “see look we did the thing” like yes keep the sentiment in there and even the specific quotes i just think it could have been written/integrated in the script in a way that felt more diegetic
#it also eeked its way towards doing the hand-holding ur way thru a joke thing a lot of comedies do now#plus like a bit of the whedonspeak but both were very very minor instances of it#tbh a lot of the shit that was funny was genuinely funnt#*funny#also i felt like it didnt really give you enough time to feel like you were getting into the world#before doing all the extremely obvious ‘ok heres the heros journey heres the matrix reference’#like i GET IT but also doing it too soon + thru a reference just feels like speed running thru some important establishing urself to the#audience#but like it was good! it felt like a truly live action cartoon in an actually good way#i also loved the surreal parts
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OMG! I was scrolling through older parts of my blog and look what just found!!
This is like, one of our first interactions! XD Wierdddd..
I realised I didn't respond to you asking if I consider you my friend! Yes I consider you a friend, haha XDD
Anyway, just wanted to share that with you 😆😆 Hope you enjoy the rest of your day! ^^
Oh wow! I didn't know you could go that far! XD if I tried, I'd be scrolling for the whole day at least XD
I'm happy you consider me your friend ^^ I consider you mine too. I'm glad we got to meet and start talking 🩷🩷🩷
I hope your day was good too!
#asks#friend history#it feels so surreal seeing this now#just a couple of years ago i was awkward and anxious about chatting with you (because i thought you were too cool- and still do)#and now we obsess over weasels together and ive grown more confident bit by bit thanks to you (and my other friends) ^^
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Went to Amsterdam yesterday and picked these two thrift books 🇳🇱🇱🇹🇱🇻🇪🇪 hou van jou A’dam.
#Netherlands#Nederland#mine#books#langblr#Amsterdam#life#language blog#dutch#speaking dutch in amsterdam feels surreal#a bit too touristy in my taste#but I mean how can it not be#it’s so beautiful
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They named a lower classification of bees after the phrase bazinga, also they look like hummingbirds kind of??
They also named an asteroid after Sheldon ( 246247 Sheldoncooper (2007 SP14) )
Here's some information about it if you'd like to look at it
#bees#asteroids#bazinga#sheldon cooper#big bang theory#this feels very surreal#I spent way too much time looking to the subject#but hey I was bored and I cured my boredom a bit
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