#feeling very good and faggy and wanted and loved

[genderwizard]

im literally hanging out with my guy :)

[the-soliloquies-of-sadists]

#372

“Well look at you.  Let me see.  Turn around.  Damn good job.  No stubble.  Let me see your pits.  Hell yeah.  Bend over I want to feel your crack….  Whew!  That’s smooth.  I’m glad that horrible faggy goatee is gone.  Now you look right; you look like a cunt desperate to take load after load….

“Did you get your friend to help shave you?...  And did you offer him your holes afterwards?...  Good boy.  Which hole did he unload in?...  Too bad.  I would have counted it towards your 10.  You cleaned out?...  Deep clean?  Good.  Good.

“All your shit secure in your locker?...  Did you put your phone on silent?...  Good.  Give me the key….  You won’t be needing this until I tell you that you are done here.  Until then, I will have it in my locker. 

“Speaking of locking things up, this is your new pecker cage.  I got you a size smaller.  That last one was too loose on you.  This is going to go on real tight.  Stop squirming.  It needs to be very constricting.  I don’t want you even remotely getting hard.  Today is about your urinal mouth and your cum dump cunt….  There!  The key to the lock will also be in my locker.

“Do not hide your cage.  Your towel must not be wrapped around your waist.  I want all the men back there to know that your caged pecker is of no use to anyone.  You are going back there to serve men.  Your holes are for their use as they want.  Your needs and wants are irrelevant. 

“I told you that I expect ten loads in your cunt by the time we are done here.

“Now, to get this going right, we are going to go to the dry sauna.  I was just in there, and there’s about five or six guys getting really sweaty, like I am.  In fact, rub your hands all over my chest.  It’s wet and sloppy hunh?  This is how a real man sweats.  My hair just traps it.  And I love everything about it.  I love the way it feels, the way it smells, the way it looks all of it.  And I love it when a boy takes the time to lick it off.  One thing, I know I have said this before, don’t ever lick my armpits and contaminate their wonderful smell by your licking.

“Oh man, I need your fucking mouth now.  I’m going to go back into the dry sauna.  I will take my seat on the top row.  I want you to come in a minute or so later.  Don’t look at any other man.  Focus on me.  Don’t put your towel down or pretend that you are there for the heat.  Just dive between my spread legs and take me down your throat.  Put on a fucking show.  At times suck on my hanging balls.  I will push you down to tongue fuck my sweaty shithole.  Let the other guys see what services you are offering.

“At one point I’m going to shove my cock into your cunt, and let the men know that your cunt is open for business.  You ready to do this?  I the fuck am.

“But before we do, come here.  You see the magic marker.  You know what’s coming next.  Lean forward.  What should I write on your forehead this time?  We did ‘TOILET’ last time.  That was fun.  But your focus is on getting ten loads.  ‘CUM DUMP’ is too long.  But we need a word to signify that you are load taking cunt.  How about that?  ‘CUNT’ it is.

“…Hold still.  I want these letters to be seen….  There. 

“Now get up and show me your cunt.  ‘CUM DUMP’ above your ass is needed.  “This is a new marker.  I was reading on line not to use it as it can’t be washed off for days.  Oh! I should have asked if you were going to work tomorrow….  Oh well, not my problem.  Let’s go get you loaded up.”

[masculinerose]

Happy International Lesbian Day!

The lesbian community has caused me a lot of strife, if I'm being honest with myself. There's a good chunk of my fellow lesbians who don't accept my complicated identity with masculinity and butchhood, and anti-masculinity is a very real and scary issue in our community.

But throughout it all, I'm managing to find fellow lesbians, especially masc/butch/stud ones, who remind me why I feel so connected to this community in the first place. Why it's my home, regardless of how many people who want to exclude me to it.

So here's a shout out to the masc lesbians. The butches, studs, mascs, the racialized masc/butch/stud lesbians, the transmasc lesbians, lesboys, boydykes, butchboys, malesbians, lesbian men, the transfem/woman masc/butch/stud lesbians, the trans/non-binary masc/butch/stud lesbians whose gender falls outside masc/fem, the androgynous butches, faggy butches, dandy butches, stone butches, butch4butches, the disabled mascs/butches/studs.

I see you, I hear you, I love you. We are so misunderstood and diminished if we don't fit the cookie-cutter-mold of hypermasculine cis white physically strong abled butch lesbian.

Even within our own community there are people who ignore us, don't actively think about us, even hate us. You deserve better than that. We deserve better than that.

But even if it feels small, there's a community for us here. You just have to find it. I promise you, you'll find it. I'm part of it, and I want to share it with you.

I love you, lesbians. Have a wonderful day.

[silly-lil-scribbles]

Introduction post!!

free

status: eepy seepy

lyrics that fit the current vibe:

current chance of a response if you dm me*: 0%

* does not apply to mousie cuz its my emotional support friend

- My name is Finn! You can also call me scribbles, soup, or really any dumb nickname will do. it/he <3

woah look at that.. its me.. on another website!! slight flash warning for spacehey btw ^^

if you havent read this in a while, i would suggest reading again cuz i update it a lot <3

- faggy but in the most aroace way possible

- as far as gender, boy-ish

- I MADE A JAIL ACCOUNT SO IF IM JAILED I MIGHT BE OVER THERE ‼️ @soup-has-been-imprisoned-noooooo

- I POST ABOUT BUGS A LOT! if you dont wanna see that …. sorry? i always tag if op didnt but just proceed with caution yk

- I post about the magnus archives/protocol and my chem frequently, though I also just reblog a ton of random shit. may be nsfw. Also I forget to tag for spoilers a lot so just know that there are magpod spoilers in general on my blog.

- Music artists I like: mcr, mother mother, lemon demon, will wood, dazey and the scouts, cavetown, fob, nova twins, that handsome devil, noahfinnce, qbomb, gum disease, sparkbird, mischief brew, poppy, be your own pet, pierce the veil, specimen, faetooth, the mechs, rabbitology, madalyn mei, scene queen, she/her/hers, femtanyl, leathermouth, baby queen, pansy division, the spook school, egg, the crane wives, and of monsters and men

overall i just really enjoy punk and emo and dark cabaret

- Shows/Podcasts/Other Media that I like! DANGER DAYSS, Malevolent, The Magnus Archives, Stranger Things, Welcome to Nightvale (though I haven’t finished it yet), the Osemanverse, Nimona, Adventure Time, Gravity Falls, ATLA, LOK, It, Hilda, Camp Here and There, Radio Rental, warrior cats, the silt verses, dead end: paranormal park, the saw franchise,,,, big fan of horror movies in general so id love suggestions, also there’s probably more but my memory is shit

- my blog is super messy so all of my art is under the tag #scribbles draws a thing and my original text posts (not the short personal ones typically, just the one i actually want people to see) are under #scribbles says shit.

- my body hates me very much (in other words im physically disabled)

- surprise, my brain also hates me very much! And yes also undiagnosed!

- tone tags are appreciated <3

- i post a lot! if you left an anon ask please check my #scribbles asks tag if you cant find it, sorry ‘bout that

boundaries n stuff:

- not ok with sexual or romantic comments

- platonic flirting is ok if we’re moots

- sex averse, feelings on romance fluctuate a lot but usually indifferent

continued:

- i have a tmagp fic i just starting writing! If you wanna know more, posts related to that are under #electric desires have unraveled all my wires :(

- I have 4 cats and a dog, also a gecko

- i have a queerplatonic partner!! hes awesome and swaggy and writes so much. so. much writing. wow. not saying wow in a bad way im just genuinely impressed. chou if ur reading this i love you <3

- SURPRISE i have another queerplatonic partner too!!!! its super fun and cool and pathetic /vpos. my favorite excitable soggy cardboard box ilysm <3 (if ur a regular around here im sure ur familiar lol)

- i love them both so much holy shit guys aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

- coyotekin therian !!

- i love bugs!!!!!!!!!!! please show me bugs!!!!!!!!!!!!

- My favorite colors are hot pink, cyan, neon green, and red

- I love interacting with mutuals and getting asks! plspls send me random shit in asks im begging

- I’m creating a cartoon called Catlantis (still in progress)

- I have a love hate relationship with writing but i do it anyways so oh well

- Frogs.

other tags i use a lot are:

#soup poorly draws gay people out of obligation; my series of promised dyhard drawings.

#soup gets pathetic about friendship; me when im a sappy bitch about my friends or partners

#objectives list; save file for when i say im gonna do something so i dont forget about it

#catlantis save; hoarding info for catlantis

#insomnia induced rambles; i cant sleep and im making it your problem

#our lady of sorrows; not the song, my mcr inspired goddess i made up for my dnd character to worship

#scribbles asks; asks

#info save; good to know

#scribbles liveblogging tmagp; exactly what it sounds like

#art save; resources for doing art

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[night-dark-woods]

currently feeling the evil grimace version of the penis comic smile about mizu's marriage. like. fucking christ.

you've been running and hiding your whole life you've been a boy and then a man for most of it because you "have" to be but also because it feels better in some way you can't identify, you're too soft to be a man and you're a failure of a wife, but the man your mother (who faked her own death and abandoned you!!!) sells you to like livestock so she can afford her opium (that your white father got her addicted to!!!) doesn't mind that, he doesn't push you, he likes that youre kind of boyish and faggy (gee i fucking wonder how he "transgressed" and ended up exiled to the mountains...), he wants to teach you to throw a knife even though you already know and you let him, he lets you work with his horses and then you fall in love with him for real because he seems to care for you even though you're stuck in-between in every fucking way. and he tells you he wants to see the real you. he wants to see who you are, not who you pretend to be.

and so you show him.

and like every single other person alive who sees the bright burning core of you he calls you a demon and runs. he didn't want to see. he doesn't love you he loves an illusion. he wants a wife after all, not this frightening broken brilliant swordsman. he told you he wanted to know you and you were too much and too *wrong* just like always.

and then either he betrays you or your mother does and you'll never fucking know because they're both DEAD, he killed her and you killed him with a knife throw better than anything he could have tried to teach you.

its just. its so so so fucking GOOD. the way we see them JOYFUL for the first time in the whole fucking show while they fight their husband in what THEY think is a fun homoerotic spar with the single person they can trust, the single person who loves them, the person who hasn't once asked that they change themself- their face when they realize thats a lie.

the way the shots of mizu applying a full face of makeup to try to appease their husband are intercut with them being crushed into the icy mud under a door, surrounded by enemies.

the way they kill him with the very skill he thought he was teaching them when they are far, far better at it.

just. god. miserable miserable traumatized little bastard whose one experience of happiness and one attempt at true vulnerability crashed and burned so unbelievably spectacularly. i love them so much. i want to put them in a blender.

[pleuvoire]

me and the gang's judgment on gender configurations of blue lock ships:

nagireo - the ultimate applicable pairing that works as yaoi, yuri, or het in both directions. m!nagi+f!reo kind of builds upon and exaggerates the inherent "reo is the girl in the relationship" subtext of the original in a way that...doesn't super appeal to me personally but i can't deny it works on a narrative level and feels very fitting. on the other hand f!nagi+m!reo is EXCELLENT and me and the gc have latched onto it despite our usual heterophobia. what if a tall useless lazy gamer girl got discovered by a perky charming guy determined to make her the world's best soccer player... and what if they were t4t also.... and of course yuri nagireo fucking rules eternally

kunigiri - canonically het by default to ME (tgirl chigiri agenda 4 lyfe) but yuri kunigiri is also really good. butch x tomboy... gym rat muscle butch cis girl x androgynous bifeauxnen trans girl... i have no opinions on any gendered configuration of kunigiri that involve chigiri being a guy because that doesn't real to me.

isarin - dude toxic yuri isarin slaps so fucking hard. girls devouring each other and tearing each other to pieces with their teeth let's GOOOOOO!!!!! m!isagi+f!rin isn't viable to me though because if isagi acted that way to a woman i would have to fucking kill him. on the other hand f!isagi+m!rin with isagi being a deranged straight girl about it is kind of interesting like maybe straight girls should get to attempt to tear their love interest's throat out with their teeth as well except the problem is i can't really see any male version of rin being into women even in an au. and also if you want deranged girl isagi then yuri isrn is right there. have i mentioned yuri isrn rules

ryusae - tbh ryusae is eminently yurifiable because sae has all those elegant ice queen tropes going on and shidou is a faggy gyaru so it's really easy to just flip them over that line. and guess what? yuri sdse fucking rules. and furthermore i think it's really fun how much yuri sdse fanart gives off t4t vibes and we've got a whole t4t yuri sdse mind palace over there in the gc. het sdse is less good though because as oomf said, either sae is the woman and it just feels like the same pairing but less fun (also i would have to kill shidou for talking like that to a woman) or shidou is the woman and that honestly makes sae look kinda gay like wdym you have this super hot gyaru gf obsessed with you and you just act cold to her 🤨

that's all the bllk pairings i have any real feelings about. the conclusion of this post is that yuri fucking rules and het is only provisionally allowed sometimes. thanks for tuning in

[manicpixiedckgirl]

okay, so i posted a timeline. sue me! i quit all other social media last year and needed that dopamine hit. just a lil nicotine patch for online attention. seasonal depression is a bitch okay. i posted it here and to ig, bc ig is to late millennials what facebook is boomers. and people have all said some very nice things, but when you're posting a 10 year timeline, you're usually hoping for someone from your past to see it and go "woah! you're so different now"!

and whaddya know, this time it worked. one of my exes from when i was a teenager saw it. not one of the ones who turned out to be a lesbian, one of the ones who turned out to be a trans man. He just wanted to say hi - that he was so happy to see that i looked happy, and that i looked incredible, especially compared to the scruffy twink they had dated. (okay those are my words not his)

he and I didn’t have a great relationship at first - no one had a great relationship with me before i realized i was a trans woman obviously, but this was pretty young. I was really repressed and weird back then, and still very much without any social graces, and we were only like 16. they caught the full broadside of my emo fuckboy energy and got out fast once they saw that - i don’t blame them. I was crying in their arms about how much i hated my new body hair, and how i wanted to be able to wear dresses, and the next day i’d be completely emotionally unavailable and denying all of it. not exactly boyfriend material, not entirely boyfriend. They were very traumatized too in their own way, just realizing they were trans too, and engaging in a lot of ‘i want to be a gay man’ antics, fucking their way through the pain. He was frankly way too cool and sexually liberated to be wasting his time with that version of me. And it was very obvious to everyone who knew what that was 12-15 years ago that i was a closeted trans girl. we had a friend group that eventually fell apart, and we parted for the first time.

Later, in our late teens/20, we would end up fucking - i had started to accept and announce that my gender was complicated, and i was starting to be kinda faggy and loud about it, and not everyone hated that, and they had just started T and were boy horny. We split a bottle of wine (or was it two? It was probably two) and started watching an ashley tisdale movie. Looking back on it, how it went must definitely have been his plan, but i’ve always been blind about this stuff and was that night. It was definitely bad sex, but it was also fun sex - the first time I enjoyed myself,  and the pressure of having to be a guy wasn’t so overwhelming i didnt effectively black out. he’s one of the first people i ever talked to about feeling complicated about gender, and i think by then he had figured me out, and was just letting me get the rest of the way on my own. I still couldn’t top for him, i never rly could top for anyone, even before estrogen. but we still had fun, with our hands and with our mouths. and then after that, we'd go to art shows and poetry readings and hang out again occasionally, like we talked about doing when we were literal kids, putting on rocky horror in our front rooms.

but life takes you away from people, and he got into film school, and i somehow graduated my chemistry program and moved to the US. he moved to Germany for a while, although i hear he's back home. i got married, got separated, there was a global pandemic. we hadn't talked in years, although i had snooped on him once or twice. He’s a director now - he’s made some impressive arthouse films, all horror and gender and kitchy campy cerebral themes. He’s got a big tv writing credit on the way in irish tv. Idk - it felt rly good to impress him, to say hi, to remember. it's really cool to see other trans people thriving and living life, always. anyone who cleaves reality to themselves and fashions themselves into someone they can love is someone who impresses me. but it's different when it's someone you've known for almost half your life - someone you were a fucked up kid with, not sure if either of you would make it to 18. and to be smiling at each other, looking at 30, and wondering what's next. i'm really proud of the both of us actually. and i needed that today.

[sheydim]

hey. (trans people.) i feel very foolish asking this, but it comes from a genuine place of nervousness and i hope you can help.

the short of it: can you offer me a reality check / any safety advice i need as a trans person traveling to Missouri? i literally don't even know what to expect.

i've been to the south before (Georgia, and Florida if you count that?) and spent a little more time in the midwest. but i've lived my life on the coast(s). what this means is: i know how to be trans and survive here. i don't know how to do this in the south. the last time i went, i was a trans teenager, and this was like 10 years ago. the political moment in this country was simmering viciously, but sliiightly less openly terrifying.

since then: explosion of very open hostility, as you know, and also covid. so i have been avoiding travel and have ig regressed a lot in terms of... my confidence being myself in public, especially in new places. not to mention: my trust in the goodness of people in general is really broken.

BUT. i don't want to be stuck in my concept of a place or its people. and i don't want to flatten an entire region to my assumptions / northerner bias. and i know we are there, you are there.

so if you have any advice for a trans traveler, I'd love if you would share that. should i be trying to fly under the radar? how do i engage with the culture of the area without being a complete fool? how can i avoid trouble? i am really squishy, really anxious, and often NOT passable. even when i pass i look..... really faggy and "off" somehow. yknow?,,

thank you. i love you.

[dandyshucks]

ooooh babeyyy who's the best headmate? yeah, that's right - it's me LMAO. hi everyone, how y'all doing, it's Chase again 👋 in an effort to be somewhat social and also to brag about my capabilities, I am making a post on this blog lmao.

Look at this shit y'all (idk what mobile formatting looks like so uh. use desktop maybe):

You get a secret sneak preview to this lmao, the link isn't anywhere on the main page yet.

Anyways in the past three days while Juno's been AWOL, I've figured out how to add an audio player; how to layer elements on the webpage; and how to align the text and images beside each other inside the scroll box while maintaining the vertical scroll (it kept lining everything up horizontally for a while lmfao).

The text beside the images is just some bullshit that Lake and I came up with (based off of stuff Juno's written/brainstormed in the past) to test the text alignment out since Juno isn't around to give me any input, but I feel like we did a good job making it sound like some shit they'd come up with lol.

I'll give a small update on The Situation while I'm here in case anyone's wondering what's been going on:

I never know how much I'm supposed to say about anything lol uhhh.

TL;DR is just that Juno was having a very difficult time the past week because of Things, and is now unreachable and thus won't be fronting for an indeterminate amount of time - they could be back tomorrow, they might be back in a week, I have no fucking idea tbh. So this blog is on semi-hiatus until they're back because the rest of us either don't have a lot of interest in the s.elfship stuff ourselves or we just don't want to like... intrude on this space.

slightly longer version of it (TW abuse and suicide mention):

some emotional abuse stuff at home has been ramping up significantly, and this has been having an extremely bad effect on Juno (understandably so) especially since they've been trying to handle this shit without our help, so we've had to put them on lockdown essentially so we can like. remain alive lol. I'm trying not to be too flippant about it but uh yeah. that's the gist of it. love a good suicide scare, amiright? I'm not in charge of the decision to put them on lockdown, I have no say in how it all gets handled, I'm just here to fill the host role while Juno's gone.

They'll be gone until Kam and Lake decide they're okay enough to not do anything stupid and desperate the moment they get into front lmao, so in the meantime I'm the one who'll be fronting for the most part. And while I do like the idea of getting with G.uzma myself, I don't have much of an interest in posting about it LMAO - plus my own dynamic with the guy would be pretty fucking different from Juno's, and that's not what y'all followed for.

(Kam - "gatekeeper"/the one who's basically in charge of shit and also the resident lesbian; Lake - bisexual swag with big caretaker energy; Chase (me) - faggy freak who probably shouldn't have this much responsibility lmaoooo)

[professionalwaterbender]

VERY BIG ANNOUNCMENT FOR MY MUTUALS AND FRIENDS OF THEM

Bold are things I say, and normal are things Tabs has said (her internet is doing weird things)

@tabsters

HELLO PEOPLE

IN LIGHT OF ME FINISHING LMK AND TABS FINISHING TDP

We have decided to revive an old Avatar: The Last Airbender x The Dragon Prince x Lego Monkie Kid crossover fic we started last year!

Just so everyone seeing this knows, ANYONE can join in if you know the fandoms &lt;33

Details are under the cut <;33

Inspired by a tumblr post talking about the cartoon incarnations of jack de sena: Sokka from A:TLA, Callum from The Dragon Prince, and MK from Lego Monkie Kid

Since we have both seen all these shows, we feel that we are better able to characterize our children and write their interactions better

Let it be known that you do not have to have watched all these shows to participate, if you know at least one of them well, then you're good <;33

One slight problem: we're kinda busy with. well. not pointing fingers cough, kara, cough (hey) but we also have a number of unfinished fics we should probably finish

but we're not peasants so we will juggle them all

So for this three-way crossover fic, we are inviting any writers well versed in any of these shows who are also willing to help on this project!!

We are still working out the logistics of having multiple people from across the world working on a single document, especially with accounts being a problem for some of us, so if you guys have any ideas, definitely share them!

As of right now, we have a google doc!! Accounts only appear as anons, so thats good! But you will have to put "—[your pseud]" with any brainstorming sentence idea (if you want!)

You do not need an AO3 account to participate! We'll just use your tumblr url, or any other preference that you may have, and credit you that way <3

We, uh,

We also have no plot to this story, other than the boys get dropped into a room together!! so we need help with that too!! yay!

Okay, that's about it for the logistics so far :D I'll be tagging our mutuals here, so if those people have anyone they'd like to tag to, reblog and do that PLEASE

@filijester @cryptidwithaninternetconnection @maiawhimsicalt @mythicalmagical-monkeyman @thebritishdragon @freshstatixnow @hyperfixatezz @ghostshadowmx @hyperfixation-tangentopia @pumpkinspice202 @faggy-boy @demigirl-w01fwalk3r @history-obssesed-boy-over-here @somebody-random-lol @firerose @addrianastarflower @then-be-a-warrior

Remember, this is purely optional <33 DM me or tabs, and we'll like idk take you off the tag list for this or smth dunno lol

oh, yeah, and if you have AO3, reply with your name, so we can write it down

ALSO MY DISCORD IS PROFESSIONALWATERBENDER YOU CAN DM ME THERE TOO

Tabs does not have a disc smh smh

BYEBYEEE LOVE YALL

[genderqueerdykes]

i used to live with someone who told me things like "the entire point of being trans is to hurry up and transition so you'll never talk about being trans ever again, that's the whole point, you're supposed to hate being trans and never want to talk about it," and "creating media with trans characters who talk about being trans, engage in trans culture and have queerness as a big part of their character is poorly written and defeats the purpose, you're supposed to hide that a character is trans to make it more natural."

it took me until a few months ago to realize the sheer amount of damage that rhetoric did to me. i didn't have any trans friends or any other trans people in my life who could tell me about the joys of being trans, only cis people who told me it had to be all doom and gloom. that you had to rush to the end of transition and that you weren't trans until you passed. that if you ever wrote a character who talked about loving being trans, that they were "poorly written" and you just made "bad media".

it took me until a few months ago to realize just because they were confident doesn't make them right. just because they sounded sure of who they were didn't make their take on the experience right- this person was cis, proudly so, and did everything in his power to ridicule everything i did as a trans person, down to the flip flops i wore, or if i was being too faggy. i was the only trans person he ever knew and of course he took the opportunity to try to scare the queer out of me. he didn't know any other trans people, either, so were as this info coming from?

this person wasn't right. the "point" of being trans is to live as who you are. every trans person has a different goal in their transition and identity. some DO want to hide the fact that they're trans. that's okay, for those people, their dysphoria is very crushing and they deserve to be addressed how they feel. that's alright. for many of us, being trans and talking about transness and being involved in the trans and queer communities is what saved us. being openly, proudly, loudly, unabashedly who we are gives us the passion and the fire to inspire others to do the same.

these are good things. being openly trans isn't bad. having characters who are openly trans isn't poor writing. telling people you're trans with pride is a good thing. having trans characters who discuss trans issues is a good thing. if people are telling you things like this, please take a moment to be kinder to yourself and realize that just because they are confident doesn't mean they are right- they are projecting hatred and internalized fear from thinking about how "they would feel if they were like that". it's not an accurate view on the experience, it's speculation, and it's attempted violence. it's weaponized, it's pointed, it's effective, but it's not correct. it's an attempt to brainwash.

[glassyeyedblinddivine]

sorry for going off about gender pol again lmao i just get very annoyed when The Teens organically arrive at a nearsighted conclusion over and over and over again. you gotta, like, take a step back and look at the whole situation holistically.

the thing that society, at least western society, is always concerning itself with is policing expression of femininity. men are policed under this umbrella too- masculinity is defined in terms of how not feminine it is, more than anything else. and that lack is enforced in much the same way women are punished for not being feminine enough. it's the same damn thing and trying to pretend it isn't, that there's some special oppression happening that you can claim as your very own, does not actually help anyone. if we understand how the same forces push on everyone, that universality can give us power and allow us to change it. pointing to a thing that happens to not just me, but to you and someone else and etc etc, is a good way to explain the situations of hegemony we live under and get people who may not otherwise understand to start to Get It. and when more people Get It, that's when things change.

i'm sure some people feel weird about their lived experiences of this punishment/oppression being lumped in with people who have lived very different lives. we want to believe that the troubles we face are entirely unique and deserve their time in the spotlight. we want the sympathy and the attention of others, we want to be allowed to say Look How This Hurt Me and have that hurt be recognized on a scale larger than our immediate community. but to muscle our way to the front of the line and ignore that our hurt is just another reflection of what has hurt and is hurting many, many others only serves to further fragment our cause and steal its power. use your pain to understand and empathize with the pain of those around you. uplift not just yourself and people like you, but those who need it just as much.

all this to say that while yeah it kinda sucks that being transmasc and its Troubles is a thing that nobody really seems to care about talking about in the public sphere, that doesn't mean we have to harbour resentment. i firmly believe visibility, while useful, can be a trap. we should be using our relative invisibility to aid those around us who are hypervisible, rather than allowing resentment and anger to grow. maybe that's a crazy thing to read but man i know a lot of trans women and i love them dearly and i would not hesitate a fuckin millisecond to use my apparent privilege to help them in any situation. i will use my masculinity as a tool for love and change and if i get misgendered once like every 2 years by an old lady who left her glasses at home and can't tell what's goin on because i have long hair and dress kinda faggy, i mean, that's fine.

[alaskan-wallflower]

I know Kyle's your favorite but do you have any Butters headcanons you want to share?

ooooooo do i!

He loves baby animals, he has a baby animals calendar that’s like 6 years old but he doesn’t care that it’s outdated, he really only uses it to keep track of his friends’ birthdays and to look at the cute little baby animals

He’s in choir 100%.

He’s unironically a Bluey fan. Wishes he had parents like Chili and Bandit, though his parents are always telling him he needs to grow up, but he doesn’t wanna

Panromantic asexual, but he doesn’t think about dating much. He’s much better at friendships than relationships.

Physical touch is his love language

He chooses not to lose his lil’ southern drawl because it makes him who he is, and he doesn’t wanna lose any part of who he is

He sometimes dyes his hair with streaks of color, but he doesn’t do it much because his parents would ground him

Him and Heidi are very tight, they’re very good friends, he’s basically her little brother

He’s very good at comforting people, he’s always got his arms ready to hug someone and he’s got a little comfort plus for whoever needs it

He owns a sort of cat cafe in the future. Here’s good at business and he seemed to be doing great in the food industry, he loves baking and animals, so an animal cafe is perfect for him in his eyes

He isn’t a good swimmer, he likes wade pools

He loves spring because of the pretty flowers and baby animals, but poor boy has such bad allergies, he gets so sniffly and sneezes a lot

Speaking of, he sneezes like a kitten (think Dipper from Gravity Falls)

He likes listening to heartbeat same while he sleeps, or if he’s cuddling, his favorite place to be is over the heart because “it’s where all the love comes from”

‘He’s actually not a terrible student. Straight B’s, some A’s.

He likes watching cartoons more than live actions

He gets deeply invested into certain fandoms, def made a Hello Kitty OC, it helps him escape reality for a bit while he’s grounded

Hes an amazing artist, he’s really encouraging as well to other new artists

Nearly cries almost any time someone gives him a compliment. He gets nearly no compliments at home, so hearing something positive from someone else’s mouth makes him feel like he’s gonna die of happiness

Hes a happy crier, he’s really emotional but doesn’t care. Like he said, “he’d rather be a crying pussy than a faggy goth kid anyway”

He ends up growing to around 5’10’’ and towers over Cartman, it’s kinda cute how he towers over people like that

Hes kinda malnourished because his parents don’t feed him often

His favorite food is Spaghetti-O’s

He would definitely be a hardcore pokémon fan, what’s not to live about cute monsters (most of them anyway) and going off on your very own pokémon journey?

He loves reading. He’s a big Harry Pottrr fan, he relates a lot to Harry (mainly because they both have horrible guardians)

he loves fantasy settings, they help him escape reality and they fuel his imagination

Hr adopts a dog a-named Waffles. It’s a Border Collie and he gave it a purple bandana with white spots. He loves her to death

hope these are good enough-

[rottingsam]

happy wincest wednesday <3 what are your fave headcanons to do with sam and deans gender and sexuality and their relationships with queerness (or lack thereof) and each others relationships to the others queerness (or lack thereof)

hiiiii ‘anon’!!! im very happy about this ask, i have lots of thoughts and opinions! they aren’t typical in the sense that this has a lot of homophobia/ transphobia; don’t like, don’t read!

firstly, in any context i do not think their relationship with their queerness would be overly positive in any way, shape, or form. My personal head canons about sam and dean’s queerness is this: dean is bisexual/bi curios and sam is bisexual and gender queer! i think sam works well as any gender or any trans identity. now, my favorite pairing (transmasc! sam x dean) is mostly what I’ll be talking about it.

sam and dean aren’t progressive. they hate the woke liberal left and forced representation in the media. dean complains about that the most, he’s fine with gay people he swears! he just doesn’t get the whole gender craze because it’s “literally decided for you when you’re born”. he’s quick to exclude sam from that line of thinking, sam will always be an exception to any of his own personal beliefs and values.

dean personally believes that he isn’t a faggot, even though he’s regularly taking it straight up the ass on sam’s strap like clock work on the regular. sam, is more loose about it though, but not by much. what he and dean are doing is most definitely some type of fruity but other than dean, he’s not very interested in other guys so he considers himself straight for the most part. sam doesn’t think about what their relationship would be categorized as because he feels the incest aspect overrides that.

while sam is transmasc, dean doesn’t necessarily understand (or go out of his way to try to) all that comes with it. sam is sam regardless of what he does to himself to change, he’s still over the top, uncontrollably, erotically, codependent and in love with him. when they’re getting breakfast at a diner, dean will rattle of his and sam’s order. ex: “i’ll have the lumberjack grand slam with extra bacon and hard on those eggs, and she’ll have an omelet. she wants extra chives in that too.” and the waitress will give him a strange look because all she sees is two butch guys sipping coffee.

sam tease dean about being the more faggy one out of the two, which gets on deans nerves to no end. he gets highly irritated when sam makes a comment about dean being “the girl” in the relationship because of how he acts in the sack. and sam will insists that not straight guy would be on his knees begging to suck his real cock, and present himself so nicely, even after he puts up a good fight for the top. they both consider themselves straight guys who just happen to do morally questionable things with their brother.

in other words: they are the most homophobic faggots i’ve ever laid eyes on

[cielsosinfel]

here are my thoughts on all BG3 companions up through the end of Act 1 and very beginning of Act 2:

Astarion: light of my life, I am actually spoiled for probably 95% of his story, he is such a disgusting and rancid poor little meow meow and I want to see him grievously mutilated and tortured and then gently put back together again (repeat). As a faggy bi man he is the best #representation I have seen yet from mainstream media lmao. If i speak too much about him this whole post will be about him, sorry. Guro noncon yandere kink fanfic material out the wazoo, tho (Also of course I have many many thoughts on his character's narrative around trauma and healing or the lack thereof, but, too many words)

Shadowheart: I LOOOOVE HER I love her. I kind of wish they'd kept her as initially hostile and cruel as in EA after viewing video of it, but I also enjoy how she seems low-key and almost normal, though an asshole, and then BAM suddenly she's waxing poetic about committing terrifying emotional and physical torture in the name of her beloved mommy goddess. She is such an asshole and I feel like she gets soft on the PC weirdly fast, but I also do enjoy how playing Dark Urge informs the relationship dynamic as her backstory and personality unfolds, how the fact she becomes Best Friends with them despite the whole blackout-frenzied-murder and urges to eat corpses plays into her own issues and desire for understanding and connection (the memory loss and disconnect from her previous life and sense of self, the god devotion, wanting to make herself an even worse person in the name of her god, how completely committed she is in the art of torture and causing suffering, how she's simultaneously disgusted by and intrigued by Dark Urge's whole murder cannibalism urges.) Anyway yes she's great, I love her turmoil about not living up to her potential as a Shar-loving religious zealot and expert torturer.

Wyll: Wylllllllllll I feel like he was done so dirty by the writers between Early Release and Release. They should have continued to let him be an asshole warring with living up to heroic ideals, who just made a deal with a demon out of desperation for respect and appreciation. But he's fun in release too, just too low-key for me? With Dark Urge it's interesting because he is truly the most morally Good-Aligned party-member, probably, and I think about how he must grapple his morals with aiding and growing close to a murderous gore-loving freak. He's constantly having to compromise his own deeply-held ideals in the name of getting the tadpole out of his head, and I wonder about that constantly. At the same time, he's so focused on doing good and the cause of justice but is REALLY REALLY DOWN FOR GOBLIN MASS-MURDER... Like OK Wyll!! They kept that from Early Access at least lmao. His relationship with Mizora and the angst and regret he feels at signing a contract with her, for making this one major ill-thought decision while in a high-stress "do or die" situation, gets me, the way he's like, so resigned to it... How he's so resigned to being transformed into the very thing he'd dedicated his life to culling existence of (demons.) (The constant metaphors to being a pampered pet on a leash get to me.) Though you know, it still gets me he's lamenting how ugly he looks with horns, claws and fangs, in the middle of a party full of Tiefling who just faced a lot of life-threatening discrimination for looking like demons... lmao... especially when he's venting these things to a Tiefling Durge lmao... oh wyll...... Anyway I think he's sweet, and I have even more thoughts on him and Astarion being foils who need to fuck. I want to learn more about his daddy issues so I can give him a proper daddy kink. Wow, how is this the longest part of this post.

OK THIS GOT TOO LONG AND ITS ONLY THREE CHARACTERS!!!! I am going to an indie comics and arts festival today, I will come back to do the rest of the characters later.

[ignitesthestxrs]

embarassment is cringe who's your bias

oh LOL dw dw i am not literally embarrassed! more just, mindful of audience u know? but also ur my audience now

i am not really a person who tends towards Biases, but here are some guys that i really love atm!

SHINee's Key - look i love all members of shinee, they probably are my ult group these days, but if you forced me at gun point to pick one it would be This Guy. key is kind of the embodiment of the tension of how faggy can you be in public without ever coming out and - well, coming out. i also have a deep respect for how much effort he puts into his solo career, and how interesting and innovative his album concepts have been esp since he got back from the military

Exo's Kai - ah my precious Nini who is here with us largely to vibe. i think he's such a great example of like, how you can be totally hands off in terms of the creative direction of your albums LOL and still be a great performer? this man lip synced his way through his own concert and looked great doing it, 10/10. but i also love just how much he clearly loves his job and meeting other idols and getting to go on tv shows and learn new things about people and the world LOL a giant puppy of a man

TXT's Soobin - speaking of giant puppy men, this is one of my Large Son's Whom I Adore. my fave thing about soobin is that he's like. never held more than a single thought in his head at one time, and everyone he has ever met adores him? like every 4th gen group has a member who is just completely enamoured with soobin, and soobin does not appear to have done anything in particular to have earned this other than being a big guy who likes anime and hedgehogs. i also enjoy how everyone in his group agreed that he needed to be the leader, especially the guys (yeonjun and taehyun) who might have preferred to be the leader themselves, specifically because they knew giving it to the guy who didn't want it the way that they did would probably be a better outcome for the group. amazing head empty man. he's so tall.

Zerobaseone's Hanbin - something is wrong with this man (positive) (fond). no uh, this is a man who has gone to great lengths to change both his physical appearance and personal affect in order to take one last shot at achieving his kpop dreams and something is wrong with ME for how feral this makes me. another guy in the 'legibly queer' column (as in, he was a competitive waacker and faggy as hell doing it lmfao like, sure i'm sure there are straight guys who waack but at a certain point you're allowed to start assuming Gay instead of defaulting Straight ok). he is a control freak. he said his favourite type of person is someone who is competent but pretends not to be so that he can do things instead. one time he was so horrified by his member wearing socks on the bed that he REMOVED THAT BOY'S SOCKS FOR HIM? ON CAMERA? HANBIN WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU

WayV's Kun - the dad to end all dads. i have endless leader feelings about this man, who is the leader of SM's final push to conquer the China market that was actually going really well until [redacted], and suddenly Kun is the leader of a group that has members in different countries, that cannot promote in China while the pandemic is going on and cannot promote in Chinese while in Korea. technically WayV is under the umbrella of the broader NCT group, but xenophobia will have stans staying 'they just don't vibe for some reason'. this man's group was shelved for over a year due to international geopolitics and he held it and them together admirably, and it's been SO good to see WayV employed in 2023 and gaining momentum again. also he can fly a plane ( a real one), somehow made PUBG hot by being very good at it, and one time he was live and you just heard from the background one of his members yelling from the shower KUN GE THERE'S NO HOT WATER, like, every man in this group just has it hard wired into their brain that if there is a problem, kun ge will fix it. and he does.

honestly i could probably go for longer, there are a lot of boys i have a lot of feelings about s o b.