#feeling emo tonight lol

[greeneyezblackheart]

Song Of The Day

[holyfvkc]

[isdalinarhot]

When I remember that most people on earth prefer weed to alcohol I feel a very strange sense of othering similar to all the othering that I feel from being autistic tbh. Like yeah 95% of the population agrees This Is The Correct State Of Things and you are the freak for thinking otherwise……. Let’s throw tomatoes at this clown

[bones-n-bookles]

5.5 miles with Torch and Kit 💚🌕

[wickedhawtwexler]

i found out the guy i have a crush on asked out another girl from karaoke so lol i guess he’s not into me. i am giving up on being attracted to people ❤️

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

NOPE

NOPE

NOPE. NOPE :)

NOPE

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Sadder than I have ever been

Okay that's exaggerating but

With a tv show one of the saddest xd

A MEMORIALLLLLL 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

I AM NOT OKAY

I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU SHAUN

I'M SORRY I LOVE YOU BUT I DO NOT CARE

Okay okay I can calm down

About that at least

I swear Shaun if you focus on other stuff even to avoid your pain I will die

Yeah I get it Lea :'(( that sucks

And yeah I am sorry Shaun xd

Yeah

Ope???

WHAT THE HECK DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS

OH GOSH that's awful o.o

Lim????

Uhhh not this time xdd 😭😭💔

Oh noooo :'(((

Bro he literally can't operate xd

Oh gosh this is all so chaotic 😭😭💔 not good stuff xd

Not gonna lie kinda angry that we have a big event to be focusing on when Asher literally just died but maybe it'll help distract me xd

Well

The Good news is

The Rookie couldn't possible go worse

Knock on wood

I'm just sitting here in silence

My gosh

Huh

Wow

Gosh xd

Okay, that's the last my last thoughts, now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

. . .

I really loved this episode!! I don't think I can ever watch it again xdd

sigh

I want to do this while my emotions are fresh (and it'll distract me) but also I don't know if I can bear to

Especially sitting here (not literally) in the emotions of it all

Maybe a quick one

Idk

He deserves better than that though also xd

Maybe quick with a longer one later?

. . . I want to just go forget about it

But I think I need to process it

Because I'm still shocked and denial

I genuinely did enjoy this episode. I thought it was really well done, and I really liked the storylines in it. And, even though I am absolutely heartbroken, I'm glad Asher at least had good final moments, and the drama his death deserved.

Here's what I'll say about what I knew.

This morning, I woke up and saw and article along the lines of "'The Good Doctor' kills of lead. . ." or something along those lines. I quickly swiped it out of the way and stressed xd. Later, another one came (and here's the surprising part that I did not mention earlier, I believe in my review of last episode) that said something similar, "'The Good Doctor' kills of. . ." (something along those lines) and then, under that, something like "Related to: Jerome Martel". Genuinely, the most likely thing I expected was for Jerome to die. I later saw another article that I quickly avoided sight wise, then covered as I scrolled by down to swipe the notification away. And I glimpsed a picture and Asher and Jerome. I really thought Jerome might die.

I'm glad he survived xd.

But I also believe I thought to myself "I'd rather anyone else. I mean, not Asher, or" and then basically thought of "okay I don't want anyone to die" xd.

Hh.

It's been 25 minutes since I finished the episode xd.

Gosh

Okay, a few quick things about other people

So, I guess,

Onto the individual parts

Dom! Missed you today buddy ❤️. Sure you're slaying, see you again soon :).

Shaun and Lea! Oof on the what's-it-called-ing Steve xd. It's rough and I think they may want to let up sometimes but hopefully it helps them <3. I also hope the complaint doesn't affect Shaun too much, but at the same time, he has been treating Charlie unfairly. Anyway, love them.

Charlie! Segway xd. I feel bad for her. She genuinely was doing really good, and she just made a mistake at the wrong moment. I think Shaun should've been calmed, but I do think she needed to learn that that was not the moment to ask. It sucks, I hate the feeling of being told that I need to stop because someone's trying to focus and I just made a mistake. But she needed to, and I think this is an iffy thing to push her over the edge and make a report. At least I hope the report is on other things, not that specific event. She had some good moments this episode though, love her.

Park! Not too much going on, but he slayed on the case :). It sucks the way it turned out for the patients :(. Also, him at the wedding was sweet :')). Love him <3.

Morgan! Again, not too much, though her conversation with Lim was hilarious lol. Poor Lim in that conversation xD. Of course Morgan's hears all the tea though lol. I also like that she defended Charlie sharing her story :). Anyway, she slayed <3. Love her.

Kalu! He slayed today too :)). Glad that he too- well, not really defended Charlie, but was kinda on her side sometimes. Like they said, they're looking out for the interns :')). I really liked the bit where he quickly explained and she was cool with that - I think it just shows that she can be worked with, if you put in the effort and listen and be patient. Anyway, love him <3.

Glassman and Lim! I'm glad they worked everything out in the end, and that it did help Lim with her mom :'). I'm thinking this was mainly for that, and also so Glassman can have someone to be with in the last season. I still think it was a funky thing to do xd, but I'm glad they're happy lol. And I think it's good what he told Lim, that she can start getting closer with her mom :')). And I'm so sorry for Lim, that she and Clay broke up :((. Her line about being alone nearly broke me (though don't worry, I just had to wait for later for that) 😭❤️. I'm glad it's hopefully going to get better <3. Love them :).

Jordan! Didn't notice till she showed up that she hadn't been there, but I'm really bad at noticing that xd. I thought it was a cool way, a good scene and stuff, of working her in :). And her advice to and conversation with Asher was so good :'DD. I do wish she was here, considering what the episode was and how close and Asher are, but I'm glad we got to focus on his relationship with Jerome. And that at least she was still here ❤️. Love her <3.

So. It's time. I'm going to talk about the rest of the episode first, and then say a little bit. Then, I'm going to go cry a bit more probably, maybe have emo thoughts, and distract myself before I go to bed xd.

Asher and Jerome!! Y'allll I loved the content we got for them this episode :'DD. I mean I hate a fight but, hey, I love angst too lol 👀 xD. Still, I love any screen time for them <3. I certainly didn't agree with Asher's wildin opinions in the beginning xD, but I was still having a fun time. And I'm glad everything worked out (regarding the fight and that stuff). Asher helping with the wedding was so sweet 😭😭😭💔❤️❤️🥺🥰. And the talk he had with the rabbi :'DD :')). I loved that, I know that feeling <3. Also AAAHHHHH their kiss after the wedding 😭😭🥺❤️. I'm not okay <3. At least they got a kiss at a wedding :')). Where the arch thing was and everything xd. Random note that I mentioned in the liveblog, I love that they cook together so much. Anyway, AAAHHHHHH JEROME WAS GOING TO PROPOSE!! HE WAS HIDING THE RING!!! AAAAAHHHHHH :DDDD WHOO 🥳🥳🥳🎊🎉🎂🎂🎂🎂!! Asher found it too 🥰🥰🥰. He was stressing, aww poor babey <33 :'(, but I'm glad he finally made peace with it and made his decision :')). Also, regarding. . . everything, I'm glad that he knew <3. Also, Asher immediately going to get Jerome a bandaid was so good <3. Loved it :')). They were seriously so good this episode, it was great :'D. I love them so much <333.

Now.

The stuff xd

I was freaking out at the end. Until that yelling (even for a half second into it), I thought it would be Jerome. I was honestly terrified as well that it was a mislead and it still would be. But even more scared for Asher.

I like that he came full circle. I think he deserved that. Deserves.

I read a few articles after finishing the episode, and one, I think something from a writer, said "His last line is "I am a Jew. A gay one, too, and I'm calling the cops" " (or something like that). That he finally truly accept both parts of himself. I'm really proud of him for that, and I'm glad that's how it ended for him <33. It also makes me think of how his literal first line was about that very thing. He grew up Hasidic, before he decided that "if there was a God, He was nothing but a cruel being that I held nothing but contempt for". Then he says "That's when I started going to medical school. And also dating men". Or, something along those lines for all of that. I like the symmetry.

I do appreciate the commentary of it being a hate crime. We as queer people, and Jewish people (though I am not Jewish) are still facing so much bigotry. But I do kinda of wish that I didn't have to see it in the show as well. Sometimes I like it, sometimes I like to just feel that catharsis, and sometimes I just want to see the good sides. That it's not a tragedy.

Like I've already said though, I do appreciate that it got the drama it deserved. Asher went out fighting for what's right, accepting himself, and standing up for people. That's kind of what he's always been about :'). He also went out with an episode that focused largely on him and his journey, along with his relationship, and he got a good music moment at the end lol. Not to mention the angst of it all. And, of course, in the next episode his funeral. Though I do wish there wasn't a huge emergency as well. But (especially with the description specifically saying they'll all be dealing with their personal tragedy as well), it should be interesting to see at least. And again, it'll distract me and then xd. I just think it would also be interesting to see them trying to go through their normal lives as if this huge thing didn't just happen.

Also, something more lighthearted lol, imagine being at a funeral and then half the guests get up and leave 💀. Even knowing they're doctors it's awkward xD, especially since they're some of the people who cared the most about him (😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔❤️❤️❤️❤️). But it's like, that's what happens when you're a doctor xD. I just find it kind of funny lol.

Anyway. I think, if he had to die, Asher went out the best way he could here. At least he was fighting for something, unlike the tragedy of Melendez's pointless death. It's still absolutely heartbreaking, but that does bring some comfort <3.

Also, in those articles, I saw that the reason Asher was killed off is apparently because Noah Galvin wanted to move on from the show.

I love you sir but I am kinda angry xD.

Nah but for real, I do understand it, and I'm happy he gets/got to go back home and stuff, but I am like ". . . it's the last season" xD. Maybe he asked before it was cancelled lol, I don't know. If that's the case that kinda upset some more, because he might have been willing to stay for just like 5-19 more episodes xd. Anyway, slightly salty about that lol (how could you do this to me Mr. Galvin <33 😭😭😭😭💔💔❤️❤️ :')) :'(( ), but I am happy for him. And he's had a great run on this show, as has Asher <33.

. .

I want to say a little bit.

I know I've said a lot xd, but something specific.

I wish Asher was still alive.

I know that's obvious, and it makes sense, but there's layers to it xd. Yes, he was my favorite characters (nearly said one of lol - he is, but my favorite in the show). Is, that is. Yeah, correcting the opposite way of what you'd expect there lol. Anyway. Yes, he was my favorite, and I absolutely wanted him and Jerome to get married. It was something I was sad about missing with the cancellation, but apparently we could have had it (which I did think of earlier xd). Or at least the engagement xd. We really tried on that one lol - we were so close xd. But, I also just wanted him to live. And I wanted to continue seeing him xd :(((. I still do.

But beyond all that, Asher means something to me. Every character in anything I love does, but he is a very specific character.

He's a character I don't have anywhere else.

We are not exactly the same. But I don't think I can express the importance to me of a queer religious character. Even though he scorned religion, even though he was no longer practicing, it meant something to me. I said a lot, especially in this episode, that I understand it. I do. I understand questioning if you can live your life in your religion and be queer. I understand doing more research than most cishet people ever have to do, finding the scriptures that cry your acceptance and not your punishment. I have watched my religious community on Tumblr receive disgusting death threats because of what we believe. I have heard my religion made fun of my friends. I have fought to defend myself and my culture and my beliefs at every turn, from queer people and religious people and people in between. I have hidden and kept quiet because I was scared.

I am very proud of Asher for what he did.

And I hope that, if I were in the same situation, I wouldn't hesitate.

But especially after an episode where I was starting to see a character that I could maybe relate to even more. A queer character who wanted to keep religion in his life, who was going to maybe re-explore it. After that, I mourn him even more.

There will never be another character that can replace Asher for me. And that, at least, is an honor to him.

Thank you Noah Galvin for giving us this beautiful, wonderful character over all these years. About 3 or 4 now, gosh xd. I truly appreciate it, more than you could ever know.

And I thank you to the writers and everyone else on The Good Doctor. Even if I am not happy with Asher's death, I have been given storylines of him for 4 seasons. I miss him already, but at least I have the time we had <333.

Asher is a passionate, strong-willed, brave, often inexperienced, and caring character. All of that is a part of him, and all of it is important to me. I love him so much 😭😭😭💔❤️ <3. And there is truly not another character like him :'). I will truly miss him, so, so much <33.

Overall, I really enjoyed this episode. I also despised it with my entire being and will not be able to rewatch that horrific ending for years xd. But I'm glad he got what he did, plot wise and drama wise. I know I've already said it a thousand times, but Asher deserves that. He deserves drama, horrific, even if I do want him to have nothing but happiness. He deserves that, he deserves to live, but he deserves to go out with the importance that he had, and I'm glad he did <3. I understand losing someone close, and I am absolutely devastated for everyone else as well :'((. I'm scared and kind of excited (for the angst and the catharsis lol) to see how everyone reacts and copes next episode. If they show me the immediate aftermath I will die, but I will love it. I will also despise it, so I'm glad that I don't think they will xd. Loves everyone this episode, I hope the Shaun and Charlie stuff gets worked out soon, and I'm glad the Lim and Glassman stuff started getting sorted out <33. And you know what? I'll say it. Asher and Jerome got engaged :')). I'm so happy for them <3. AAAHHHHH YAYY WHOOOO 🥳🥳🥳🎊��🎂🎂🥰😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️🥺🥺🥺❤️🥰🥰. Because I can celebrate their love if I dang want to. I'm gonna miss them so much <333 😭😭😭😭🥺💔💔💔💔💔❤️❤️❤️. Nonetheless, it was a really good episode. I really loved Asher planning the wedding and the conversion ceremony, it was just so sweet of him to do that :'). And seeing him connect with his roots was great <3. I'm glad the ending- no autocorrect. no. . . lol. I'm glad the wedding worked out :). Everyone was great this episode <3.

So yeah! I absolutely loved this episode, it was so amazing. I also hate it and will never forgive it and them lol. Still, I'm hanging onto that engagement! I am so devastated and excited for the next episode. This has been my review of. . .

The Good Doctor, Season 7, Episode 5: Who at Peace

It was so beautiful. The next episode looks super interesting, and emotional, so I am excited to see it! I think it'll be really good. I'll be back here next week with my review of. . .

The Good Doctor, Season 7, Episode 6: M. C. E.

See you next week!

[harrylights]

do u ever wish u could go back to the first time u heard sott

[urbanfiltered]

exhibiting never before seen signs of self actualization/mental illness

[jackass-jones]

My hair has gotten long enough to where I can somewhat put it in a ponytail. You fucking clowns. Unable to comprehend just how pretty I am. Pitiful

[cellephane]

The words I long for are visceral in their rawness, decisive in who they are. Yet that is not remotely who I am; I think this discrepancy (of who I want to be and who I innately am) is what makes it so hard to write things I feel proud of.

When I want to be bold and unapologetic, I am tentative and constantly looking over my shoulder. I don’t have the confidence to stand on my own two feet without fear of tipping over, let alone speak words that wield any sort of power.

[banquetwriter]

can u write a smut of an insecure plus sized goth reader x johnnie please? she's a virgin and after being together for a few months she asks him could they do it, and he eats her out n fucks her n stuff 🙏🙏 make it really soft pls and thank u i love ur work btw 🖤🖤

୨୧ Batty love ୨୧

pairing: Johnnie Guilbert ♡︎ goth!fem!Reader

warnings: ୭̥⋆*｡ smut, losing virginity, getting eaten out, general shenanigans

summary: ʚ johnnie isn’t gonna let you being inexperienced stop him from devouring you ɞ

Words: 2234

An: i know this isn't the best but I'm legitimately do sick rn 😞

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You haven't stopped looking at your phone for at least two days. Johnnie, your boyfriend, had just hard-launched your relationship for the first time on Instagram. And to your shock, 95% of the comments were so positive. Everyone complimented your goth appearance.

This much praise was addicting. Being plus size meant a lot of insecurities made by the pathetic losers of society. There were of course a few nice comments… those weren't the ones you kept staring at. Criticizing your looks or body.

Johnnie had warned you about this happening, and you promised him the world knowing about you two was worth it, and it was, but god did it hurt. Johnnie Was out streaming with Jake today so that left you alone for a good few hours.

It was useless trying to wait around crying over some loser online who couldn't handle the fact their celebrity crush didn't pick them. You sat up rubbing your face carefully not trying to hit your piercings at all. You scrolled around on your phone’s playlist before connecting to a speaker.

You started to shift through your closet to come up with an outfit. Maybe you and Johnnie could go out tonight? It was hard to get dressed in full goth normally, especially when you weren't feeling good about yourself.

You settled on a long black skirt with silver shiny bats that were sporadically speckled on it and paired it with an ‘i ❤️ emo boys’ t-shirt with a corset. You put your outfit on by pairing your black stockings and fishnet top for your arms.

You sat down at your desk singing along to your beloved playlist. You turned your light on your mirror searching for your hair clips. You managed to locate them by clipping your hair out of your face. Your music was briefly interrupted by a text notification.

You pick up your phone and it is from Johnnie, ‘should be done soon. Just filmed for Jake's, we're gonna do mine now. Probably just dick around Walmart or something. See you soon love 🖤’ you smiled at his text.

You responded back within seconds ‘Have fun filming (but not too much fun without me lol) 🖤🖤’

You sat your phone down, adjusting your shirt, and you started on your makeup. You put on primer, then foundation, the concealer, and to finish your base off you pack on some powder letting it sit on your face. You pulled out your phone and snapped a selfie of your half-done make-up.

You stuck your tongue off a little for the picture. You posted it on your main Instagram story with a goth song of course. Your Instagram gained quite a few followers from Johnnie’s post. It was exciting and also very scary.

You decided the powder baking on your face was about done so you brushed it off. You grabbed your contour brush and packed some onto it. You started to carve your face onto the white base using the black powder.

Now it was time for your eye makeup. It was the hardest part. You spent a good while meticulously adding your eyeliner and eyeshadow. Once you were done, sufficiently looking like a bat, you finished it off with black lipstick and some setting spray.

You put on accessories and teased your hair to high heaven. And you were all ready. You sprayed some perfume on and looked in the mirror. Fuck did you look good. You posed a little admiring yourself, you took your phone out again and decided to take a few pictures.

This time you posted them as posts and not a story so anyone could say anything. It scared you but you couldn't hide forever. You were dating Johnnie and no one could change that.

It took only a few minutes before the comments came rolling in. All of which were positive, it made your heart soar with all the compliments. You were smiling until you read one: ‘Johnnie eating good tonight’ . It was a nice comment and funny naturally.

There was just one issue. You and Johnnie haven't had sex yet, and furthermore, you have never had sex. Ever. Sure you used a few toys here and there but never has another person shared such an intimate moment with you. You had already worried yourself sick about this. Johnnie Was sexually active and therefore, inevitably he would want to have sex with you.

You were ready… you think at least. You wanted to, of course you did, have you seen your boyfriend? He was such a fucking hottie. You had plenty of dreams of ripping his clothes off and going under the covers. You were just nervous.

You did actually weigh a lot more than your boyfriend and no offense to him he wasn't exactly built to handle all you could offer. The nerves rattled through your body. But you were a full-grown woman and there wasn't anything wrong with taking your time to have sex.

If Johnnie didn't understand that (which you're sure he would) then this wasn't the relationship for you. You shook your thoughts of breaking up with Johnnie away. This wasn't a time to worry.

It was only a few more minutes before Johnnie came home. He stepped into your apartment, and he stopped when looking at you. His jaw faltered open. “Wow, how are you mine?” he asked, closing the door, his hands wrapping around your waist.

“From your strapping good looks and charm of course.” you purred, moving a strand of his hair from his face. You planted a small kiss on his now-exposed skin. “Yeah sure,” he murmured against your hair, planting a small kiss on the top of your head.

You smiled at him, your eyes holding each other. His eyes seem to almost darken looking at you. You pull him into a kiss, one he gladly returns. His hands are holding onto your corseted waist. Even through the thick fabric, you can feel him clutching your body.

Your kisses got more heated as he started to move his hands down your body. You had done this with him before. It didn't scare you much anymore. Of course it was nerve-racking, but not scary. His touch felt so nice even if it was through your clothes.

He slowly moaned into your mouth as you gently tugged his hair. “Fuck,” he muttered slowly pulling away from you. He wrapped his hands into your pulling you towards your couch. Your nerves jumped into your throat knowing what was coming.

And yes you wanted to so fucking bad, you needed your hot boyfriend inside you. He gently pushed you onto the couch, you fell back ruining your cute decorative pillows. He positions himself between your legs, his mouth hungry to devour all of you.

You wanted to enjoy him you really did but your heart was pounding out of your chest with nerves. “Johnnie-” you asked quietly against his lips. He pulled back sensing your worry. “We haven't done anything yet-” you started, unsure how to keep going you stayed silent.

“It's fine if you don't wanna, you know, tonight.” he spoke softly, “No trust me I want to. It's just that I've never done that before. I've never had sex before.” you confessed. You could see his eyes widen. You felt like you were holding his breath.

“Woah, really?” he asked, leaning towards you, a small cheeky smile plastered on his lips. “Yeah, not that I’m waiting for marriage or something but I don't know I just haven't yet,” you said shrugging. “That's ok, are you still down to or?” he asks, staring at you sheepishly.

“Of course I am, I just need you to be slow I guess,” you whispered to him. He glances at your lips for a minute, “I can do that.” he says before your lips crash onto one another.

His hand crept down to your ankle and slowly started to run his hand up your legs, he reached the end of your stocking. He hooked his fingers over the clothing and pulled them off your body repeating it for your other leg.

He looked into your eyes as he slipped his hands back under your skirt, hooking delicate fingers over your panties and slowly pulling them off your body. The feeling of his hands on your thighs was sending waves of pleasure to your core.

You've been horny before but nothing compared to the feelings you felt as your boyfriend slowly lowered to his knees. Kissing up and down your legs. “Are you doing ok?” he asks between kisses up your thighs.

“Y-yeah I'm good,” you said quietly, eyes watching Johnnie like a hawk. He smirks against your skin. He slowly pushes your skirt up your body revealing your bare legs. He placed a tender kiss on the top of your cunt.

You swore you could see stars with the amount of pleasure That coursed through you. The end of your fingers and toes felt tingly and cold. Johnnie moved up to face again, he slowly started to kiss you again. “M’gonna move my hand now. Like my fingers ok?” he said against your lips.

“Ok,” you whispered back, and you spread your legs widely for him. He slowly dipped his finger into your sopping cunt. You let out a gasp at the sensation. He slowly pumped his finger in and out of you. It felt good but it wasn't enough for you.

As if Johnnie could read your mind, he pumped out of you once again. When he entered back in he had two fingers this time. It stung for a second or two then pleasure returned to your body as he started to curve his finger into you.

“Oh fuck.” you moaned out, you can guess how people get addicted to this feeling. You felt like a little pervy teenager with raging hormones. The feeling of Johnnie hitting your G-spot repeatedly was sending you over the edge.

“Johnnie.” you mewled out, to nothing in particular. “I need more please,” you begged, having a sense of missing something. “If you insist on it my love.” he pulled out of you, his fingers dripping wet. You watched as he crouched down further.

He kissed slowly on your thighs before reaching your clit. He pressed a soft kiss right on your spot. You felt yourself clench over nothing and it drove you wild. He continued kissing down until he reached your hole. He slowly prodded his tongue into you.

Very gently at first to help you get used to the feeling. You felt the pleasure tenfold as soon as he began to rub your clit, fully pumping his tongue in and out of you. “Oh fuck hold on,” you murmured to him.

He stopped cocking his head slightly. You quickly snap off your corset, immediately releasing tension in your gut. You quickly pulled your shirt off, your bra going with it.

You were now naked minus the skirt bunched up around your waist. “M’fuck.” he whispered looking at your tits. He had what looked like a painful erection at this point. His skinny jeans looked like they were gonna burst open.

“You ready?” you asked him, gesturing to his painfully hard erection. “Fuck yeah,” he whined undoing his studded belt, he started to further undress himself. You followed suit pushing your skirt down.

Once he was completely naked, he leaned down and started to kiss you again. He wrapped his hand around his cock and pumped a few times attempting to get ready for your body. After about a minute he lined up his leaking cock to your entrance.

He slowly pushed into you. You let out a wanton gasp as he bottomed out. “Fuck.” he growled into your ear. He fumbled around trying to find your hand and brought it down to your clit. You started to rub to your pleasure.

At the same time, he started to push into you slowly at first then after a minute he began to push into you at a quicker pace. “Fuck your so tight. So glad I get this pussy all to myself,” he whined into your ear. You couldn't hold yourself anymore. The coil in your stomach was going to snap.

You felt The familiar feeling bubbling in your stomach and your limbs. “Im gonna fucking cum.” you whined out, grabbing at his torso and leaving a long scratch. Johnnie held your eye contact nodding at you.

The coil finally snapped, your walls clenching around him. “Johnnie-” you whined, your back arching. Your body shaking from your orgasm, sent him completely over the edge.

Hit ropes of cum splattered inside you as he fucked you through his own orgasm. Your breath slowly returned back to your body as you saw Johnnie cleaning your body up with a damp towel.

“Are you ok?” he asked quietly, tossing the rag into the laundry basket. He misses but he just took his girlfriend's virginity so he isn't particularly worried about where it landed. “Yeah I'm fucking great right now actually,” you murmured.

He giggles pulling his clothes back on. You did the same, pulling out your phone to see your makeup completely fucked. Your eyeliner and mascara dripped down, the sweat sucking your makeup into your skin, your lipstick beyond fucked.

You pulled out your phone and snapped one last photo for your Instagram

[withleeknow]

letters i didn't send to you.

pairing: ot8 x reader (ot8 in the sense that there's no name mentioned so you can imagine whoever you want. imagine the whole kpop industry if you want lol) genre/warnings: established relationship, long distance relationship au?, angst, fluff if you squint. unedited bc i am insane word count: 0.7k note: trying something new here! dunno how people are gonna like it but i don't feel terrible about it 🤷‍♀️ a product of my emo hours and i needed an outlet and i thought oh hey why not just project this into a fic lol

as always, i’d appreciate any thoughts or comments you may have, and please drop a like and/or reblog if you enjoy reading ♡

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3:29am, i've been dreaming about you for years. stars and moons and cotton candy clouds on fire at sundown. the whole universe resides in your eyes, it's almost unfair. sleepless nights because you're not here; restless days because i can't wait for you to be back. the clock stops ticking when you're not with me. the magnetic pull gets stronger during the witching hour somehow. i've always been drawn to you, even before i knew who you were. you're the only home i'd leave all my haunts for. it's summer solstice in most parts of the world but not in our bedroom, not when the only way i can have you is through a phone screen on your pillow. your voice is trying to lull me to sleep. it doesn't come close to replicating one tenth of your warmth. to love is to endure.

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i'm halfway through the day, and you must be dreaming of where you belong, by my side on a bed that's far too big when i'm the only occupant. or at least, i hope you're dreaming of me too. 1:19pm, i'm six hours ahead but days and weeks and months and years behind, still stuck in that airport where you left me for the first time. some days, my eyes get misty at lunch when i think about your alarm going off and your irritated groan as you roll over to make your phone stop screaming. other days, i don't have an appetite at all, not with you on my mind and the reminder that there's still oceans between us. when are you coming home? i know when you're coming home, and yet i ask anyway, as if it'll shorten the distance and make the time pass more quickly. to love is to wait.

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saturday morning, but i can't stay in bed past 7:12am. missing you a lot tonight, was what you had sent while i was asleep. that's a little cruel for a good morning text, don't you think? it's not your fault. i blame it on the oceans, on the time, on the distance. the coffee is still brewing, just enough for one steaming mug but it would've been nice if i got to make two. can we go back to new york? we always say we would, but can we do it now? i'll meet you halfway if you let me. there's nothing that ties me to this place. you're always on the move. my home is always on the move. we were happy on that trip, right? my fondest memories of you. skylines and the high line. to love is to risk it all, and i would risk it all for you. take me home, will you? let's go back to new york.

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the clock reads 8:18am, but the date is all wrong. you should be landing any minute now, but not for another two days. two more days until you're home, ten days that i get to be in your arms. and yet, all i can think about is your departure, about coming back to an empty apartment after you're gone again. i think about you leaving before you even return. the drive back after i've sent you off, it never hurts less no matter how many times we go through it. i can already picture the scene, it's almost routine at this point. your sparkling eyes when they find me in the crowded airport, your relieved sigh when i run to you, your hands clutching me so tightly like you don't want to let go either. it's always this damn airport. we should stop meeting like this. when the buzzing of my phone snaps me out of it, i know who's on the other end of the notification. a photo of your new polaroid camera, then a promise to make more memories to keep with us when you come back to me.

to love is to willingly weather this with you a million times and more. even if it hurts. maybe especially if it hurts. you're the reason i keep going. you're the reason why the sun rises in the morning. let's talk about new york when you're here.

all rights reserved © withleeknow. reposting, translating and/or modifying is not permitted by any means. [posted 02.07.2024]

[miniisunshine]

I got a boost of confidence publishing my first story, so here's another one!

Once again, not based on the movie Lord of Chaos and also not based on the real Euronymous, only Rory's portrayal!

Synopsis: "You're not that evil!"

"Shut up emo girl..."

Warnings : P in V, AFAB character, soft dom?¿, unprotected sex (don't do this at home), swearing

Like every friday after work, you made your way into the music store, looking at the new arrivals and in search of classics albums you didn't already had. Well, classics for you of course, because the young black metal enjoyer who worked there would tell you otherwise.

It was the same old routine: you would pick up a CD, maybe Pierce The Veil, or Bring me the Horizon if you felt fancy, he would ring you up, judging your music taste saying something in the line of :

"This is not real music"

You would scoff, telling him goodbye with a smirk and then go on your merry way.

But not today, after observing what you had brought, Øystein looked at you with a neutral face.

"Do you wanna come to my show tonight? See and hear what real music is?"

You laughed at his question thinking it was one unique way to tell you that your tastes were trash.

"No I'm dead serious! I can write your name on the vip list. Free show, who could say no?"

You thought a little bit, you had nothing planned really, what could go wrong?

"Fine. But if I hate it, I'm never coming back at this store"

"Shut up emo girl..."

He laughed, took your name and number for the list and bid you farewell, letting you go with your stuff.

You didn't know why you went, but there you were, surrounded by angry and sweaty men.

The band entered the stage and you could see Øystein to the right, hair covering his face while he played his guitar.

You couldn't lie, he was one good looking mother fucker.

The new sound intrigued your ears, but you didn't hate it. The lyrics were, non understandable, but the beat and the feelings were there, angry feelings mostly.

After the show, you scurried your way out the venue before receiving a text message.

Its Øystein. Enjoyed the show?

I can't lie, it was impressive..

Wanna come take a beer at my place to talk about it?

I can't say no to a free beer lol

While in theory it was a bad idea to go to a stranger's place at this hour, you had a feeling this man wasn't a threat, even if he was considered the "Lord of Destruction". You were also quite attracted to him, so...

Knocking on his door, you began to feel nervous, regretting the easy going girl you were 15 minutes ago.

He opened the door, greeting you with wet hair and only some pyjamas pants on.

"So.. The emo girl do like true Norwegian Black Metal!"

You scoffed at his statement and entered his appartment, blushing at the little clothes he had on.

"It was fine! A little bit too angry for me, but it wasn't AS bad as I thought"

He brought you a drink, leading you to his couch, before taking a swig of his beer.

"Well that's what we proclaim! Anger, rage, death, violence-"

You burst up laughing

"Yea right! All I could see tonight was a young music shop worker playing pretend with his little friends! But the music was good.."

Øystein looked at you with, once again, no emotion. You couldn't see if he was mad or sad, but you knew he wasn't laughing with you.

"Wanna see the real dark side of me?"

That's when your curiosity entered the room and the excitement made you kinda hot.

"I'm all yours for the night baby!"

He took you by your wrist, making you following him in his bedroom before throwing you on his bed.

You were quite shocked by his feriocity, but you were in for it. You ankered both elbows into the mattress, looking at him with envy.

"Strip for me beautiful"

And you did, but slowly, making him longing for your body while he rubbed his erection over his pants

Piece by piece, you reveal your naked self to him.

Øystein waisted no time before hovering you on his bed, pulling you in a passionnate kiss while exploring your body.

He released his lips from yours, trailing his mouth on your neck, your collarbone, nibling and leaving marks on your skin before beginning torturing your breasts.

You started panting, your breath going faster and faster. Your hands travelling and scratching his back before stopping at the waistband of his pyjamas, pulling them down so you could offer him pleasure as well.

You could feel his moans vibrating on your skin, making you want more of him, so you lead his member closer to you, letting his tip go back and forth in between your wet folds.

Understanding what you wanted, Øystein stopped what he was doing, replacing your hand by his on his dick, guiding himself slowly into you, making you melt under the sensation.

You crossed your arms behind his neck, pulling a little his long black hair as he thrust into you, finding a comfortable pace.

Your moans interweaved together as he went faster into you.

"F-fuck Øystein.. Don't s-stop!"

He watched you slowly coming undone as he rubbed circles on your clit, making you cry out of pleasure.

"So fucking hot"

Watching you squirm under him while your tits bounced to his rythm was to much for him, so without warning he came into you, you following not long after.

Øystein collapsed onto you and you took this opportunity to play with his hair while you both catched your breath.

He made sure to clean you all nice before pulling you onto his chest.

"You're really not as evil as you claim to be"

"Shut up emo girl"

I'm really tired this may be not as good as i thought it was gonna be lol

[devsholocommdiaries]

I watched JJK for the first time tonight and all I gotta say is:

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Yuji Itadori deserves all the wonderful things in life 🥺 (I swear if he doesn’t make it to the end of this series I’m gonna cry for eternity)

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My anime knowledge is SUPER BASIC and it’s always been something I’ve wanted to embark on.

A few years ago I started Demon Slayer (I haven’t made it past Mugen Train 😢 because holy shitake mushrooms the EMOTIONAL DAMAGE💔) and I have yet to finish it.

All I’ve ever known of JJK is what I’ve seen in fan edits. Now putting faces to names— thank goodness, because I was calling Sukuna “Face Tatts” and Gojo was “Mr. Manga Targaryen” for a good while— I’m REALLY excited for more!

I watched the first 4 episodes of season 1 with a fellow nerd friend and now I fear this may become another nerd fixation of mine.

So far my faves goes as follows:

1. Yuji Itadori🌟 - MY SON! MY CHILD! MY SWEET BOY! 😭💗 I feel about Yuji Itadori, the same way I feel about Tanjiro Kamado from Demon Slayer: That boy is MY SON! • Now, I’m a proud villain girlie through and through— always have been & always will be— but one thing’s for certain: my heart will always, without fail, cheer for the characters that witness/experience adversities during their young lives but make it THEIR BUSINESS TO LIVE by putting up their bloody fists and getting in a stance. The characters that still lead with their hearts despite the sorrows they’ve suffered— the one’s with all grit AND all heart // I swear if something happens to Yuji I’m gonna CRY & THROW UP 😭

2. Satoru Gojo 🤍 - I had seen so many edits of this character that I didn’t think he’d surprise me the way he did but his cheeky intro as he’s dodging Sukuna & “showing off for his student” — 🫢🪭🪭🪭 Ummm MARRY ME? 💍🤵🏽‍♀️ Just an all around fun character! I love how kind and direct he is with Yuji upon bringing him into the group. Yuji only had his grumpy Grandpa to lead him through life so it’s nice to see Gojo be a mentor/big brother figure to him.

3. Nobara Fugisaki 🔨💗 - Nobara has such unhinged older sister energy and I LOVE HER! Her and Yuji’s interactions had me in stitches these first few episodes. I have a feeling her backstory is gonna break my heart as it unfolds more and more. I’m already heartbroken that her childhood friend was ran out of their little village.

4. Megumi Fushiguro - 🤘🏽 honestly the emo boy I always wanted to be lol 🤘🏽☹️🥀🖤 I like that he balances out the friendship trio with his very ✨demure✨ personality (even though he’s lowkey just as unhinged as Yuji & Nobara).

**5. Ryomen Sukuna - Yes I put Sukuna last because I really want to hate him and I reserve the right to in the future but his character design is so freaking TOUGH 😤💪🏽🔥 His intro (also STOP POSSESSING MY SON, YOU LEECH!!!!) in the show made me feel the same way I did when I saw Darth Maul in Phantom Menace & he ignited his double bladed light saber: “Oooooooh shoot he’s evil………I like him” // The reason I reserve the right to hate him is because my gut tells me he’s gonna commit crimes that are going to ultimately effect Yuji. But we shall see——

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Tune in NEXT TIME for my JJK UPDATE!

[l0sercat]

MK Character intros with my OC

I know I don't write for OC's but I'm soooo in love with MK right now so. I wanted to write about MK intros with my MK OC! Background of her that is still in the works; Luci is one of Shang Tsung's experiments, he captured her from her house in the middle of the night and during his experiments she grew fox ears and a tail. He was intrigued by this and kept her for now. She has come to terms that she can’t escape him and fell to Stockholm so she is pretty fond of Shang and Shang is pretty fond her as well, in fact he can be pretty possessive. Sometimes she wishes she could go back to her normal life. She was close with Lui Kang, Kung Lao, and Raiden, but seeing that none of them have come to save her she holds some hatred for them. May do a part two of the other characters 😉 Please let me know how this was because I am so nervous posting about my OC because they are very personal to me and I get to self indulge with them. Um so I goofed and my mind had their looks based off MK1 (Except for Raiden and Lui Kang) but the timeline is like MK11 so yeah I'm sorry I'm stupid lol.

Shang Tsung: Come now Luci, you know fighting me is pointless, I’ve proven this many time

Luci: I’ve grown tired of being treated like a pet Shang!

Shang Tsung: *Chuckles* C’mon you know you like it

Luci: *points at Shang* Your soul is mine!

Shang Tsung: *laughs and shakes his head* I do not sound like that

Luci: I don't know I think that impression was spot on *puts hands on hips proudly*

Luci: Why did you do this to me!?

Shang Tsung: You simply caught my interest and I needed another test subject

Luci: Why are you so cruel?!

Luci: *Tail fluffs out* You, me, my room, tonight *winks*

Shang Tsung: Oh? What brought out this side of you?

Luci: Guess *shrugs shoulders not so innocently and giggles*

Luci: Can you please stop petting me out of nowhere?

Shang Tsung: Hm, no your too cute when your suprised

Luci: Of fucking course...

Shang Tsung: Stop flirting with everyone Luci... *Glares*

Luci: Make me *Sticks out tongue*

Shang Tsung: Your just trying to make me jealous, yeah?

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Johnny Cage: So do you go into heat or something?

Luci: That is none of your business! *Blushes while her tail spikes out*

Johnny Cage: Imma take that as a yes

Luci: Y’know I used to enjoy your movies..

Johnny Cage: Used to? What the hell happened?!

Luci: I was abducted

Johnny Cage: Here kitty kitty

Luci: I hate you so much right now

Johnny Cage: Don’t lie to yourself babes

Luci: Shang will hurt you for trying to romance me

Johnny Cage: Babe I am not scared of someone like him

Luci: You should be…

Luci: I'm literally one of your biggest fans!

Johnny Cage: *laughs* Do you want me to give you an autograph?

Luci: Yes please! Sign right on my chest!

Johnny Cage: What's cookin good looking?

Luci: *blushes* uh um heh..

Johnny Cage: Yeah I have that affect on people *Brushes off his shoulder*

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Noob Saibot: Stop calling me emo!

Luci: All I said was "Whatever Ayesha said about emo boys‼️"

Noob Saibot: I will make sure to put you in your place...

Luci: Would I technically be a necrophile if I were to fuck you?

Noob Saibot: ...What..

Luci: Don't act so shy now

Luci: So... do you and your clone wanna have a two man with me?

Noob Saibot: What about that sorcerer your with? Won't he be upset about you flirting?

Luci: He can join if y'all want *Tail swishes*

Noob Saibot: Death longs for you and your embrace

Luci: Tell death to wait a few more years

Noob Saibot: I'm afraid I don't have that much more patience

Noob Saibot: Come join me in the darkness Luci~

Luci: If only I could, how 'bout you come join me instead?

Noob Saibot: I do not like sharing much less with some sorcerer

Luci: Shang's not happy that your trying to recruit me into the darkness...

Noob Saibot: What he feels doesn't matter

Luci: Yeah well your not the one he is taking it out on...

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Lui Kang: Luci I'm sorry for what happened

Luci: Shut up and fight me

Lui Kang: I would redo everything if I could

Luci: I just want to know why

Lui Kang: Raiden said not too

Luci: And you listened to him?!

Lui Kang: I miss our friendship so does Kung Lao

Luci: As do I but you betrayed me

Lui Kang: And I will never forgive myself for it

Luci: Just leave me alone Lui I do not wish to speak to you again

Lui Kang: I will never stop until I make things right

Luci: Then prove you are truly sorry

Lui Kang: We should hang out again, I miss your company

Luci: I wish I could say the same about you, I'm more happy with Shang

Lui Kang: Shang has corrupted your mind!

Luci: I wonder if things could've been different

Lui Kang: If they could I would make sure it would happen

Luci: Oh Lui I miss everyone...

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Kung Lao: Come back to us I miss you, we all do

Luci: You should've thought about your actions

Kung Lao: We were just following orders!

Kung Lao: Just let Lui and I take you out like we used too!

Luci: How I will miss our hangouts...

Kung Lao: They don't have to end!

Kung Lao: Leave Shang Tsung and come with me!

Luci: What about Raiden?

Kung Lao: I will make him understand if he doesn't

Luci: Oh Kung Lao can we not fight anymore...

Kung Lao: I'm sorry but you made your bed you must lie in it now

Luci: I was forced into this role!

Luci: Y'know I used to like you

Kung Lao: You mean I had a chance?

Luci: Yeah but you blew it, I prefer people who can actually protect me

Luci: It's a shame we meet in these circumstances

Kung Lao: Agreed I wish things didn't go as they did

Luci: Things will never be the same again

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Raiden: It deeply pains me that things turned out this way

Luci: Everything is your fault, you only have yourself to blame

Raiden: And I accept that and will never let myself forget it

Raiden: Do not give Kung Lao and Lui Kang hope

Luci: Fuck off Raiden you can't control us!

Raiden: I'll make sure you will listen!

Raiden: Please accept my apology I didn't want it to turn out this way..

Luci: You left me to die!

Raiden: I thought you were strong enough to escape!

Luci: I hate you! Go to hell!

Raiden: This will not take back what happened!

Luci: No, but it will make me feel better!

Luci: Just answer me this, why?

Raiden: I...I cannot answer that

Luci: You've disappointed me for the last time

Luci: Could we ever go back to the way things were?

Raiden: No, I wish but the possibility of you being corrupted is too high

Luci: Oh..I see *ears and tail droop*

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~Others mentioning Luci~

Johnny Cage: So you and Luci aren’t a thing right?

Shang Tsung: Don’t even think about going near her!

Johnny Cage: Sheesh don’t get your panties in a twist

Shang Tsung: I heard you tried going after my pet..

Johnny Cage: For one thing she isn’t a pet and also she was soo into it

Shang Tsung: Lies! I will make sure you never look at her again!

Lui Kang: You took Luci away from us!

Shang Tsung: Stop acting like you care, you didn’t even try to rescue her…

Lui Kang: Shut up!

Raiden: The things you've done to her, I'll make sure you will pay!

Shang Tsung: Stop acting like you care for her, I provide her with everything she needs

Raiden: You've forced her into that life!

Lui Kang: Why couldn't we have saved her?

Raiden: I..I have no answer...please forgive me for my mistake

Lui Kang: You have betrayed not only her, but I as well Lord Raiden

Lui Kang: I miss Luci very deeply, I wish we would've rescued her

Kung Lao: If I could go back in time I would ignore Raiden's warning

Lui Kang: As would I, this mistake will forever haunt me

Raiden: Us fighting will not fix what has happened

Kung Lao: Not but it will make me feel better

Raiden: Luci would not want this to happen!

Johnny Cage: I can't believe Luci found you attractive

Kung Lao: I can't believe she found your movies entertaining

Johnny Cage: Cause she knows talent when she sees it

Shang Tsung: Does it break your heart that she now loves me?

Kung Lao: She will never love someone like you!

Shang Tsung: Are you sure about that?

[lunaatthezoo]

This took me so long lmao. I made this playlist of random niche indie/alt songs that I associate with acotar characters/couples.

I am so scared to admit this on the Internet but I am just not a Swifty or Lana girly please don't hate me 😭 I have absolutely nothing against them it's just not my vibes! Please don't cancel me lol.

Here is a playlist for my alt friends?? With a lyric from each song below. Absolutely not exhaustive, just random brain wiggles.

Wings/Teeth Playlist

✨ Calm Down aka I Should not Be Alone (Ezra Furman)/Marigold (WHY?) - Tamlin 😬 after Feyre leaves him (yikes)

~Panic-stricken, sweating in my bed/could someone help me down/So I catch a ride instead/Never ending movie playing in my head/Of the dress you wore and all the shit you said

~She dyed this coat with marigold/But the stain is still visible/This mess is not repairable/And the aftertaste is terrible

✨ Reason feat. Lala Lala (WHY?)/Wait So Long (Trampled by Turtles)- Cassian when he's pining after Nesta

~I've been carving my elbows/I might just take flight/Give me a reason to go there/Give me a reason, I'll leave right now

~I could never pretend that I don't love you/You could never pretend that I'm your man

✨ Dark Bird is Home (Tallest Man on Earth)- Rhysand after he is taken and pre-mating bond

~And suddenly the day gets you down/But this is not the end, no, this is fine/We're still the towers in the valley/Still winds down this dream/Still we're in the light of day/With our ghosts within

✨ Metamorphosis (Infinity Song)/Every Feeling (Ezra Furman)- Nesta

~ And sometimes I don't like myself, can I be someone else?/Someone who makes their dreams come true and drinks from wishing wells

✨ Two Lovers (Delicate Steve)- Feysand

~instrumental (also the song I walked down the aisle to 😭)

✨ Atreyu (WHY?) - Feysand

~ In health or disease/You're here with me/My salty eyes/You kiss them dry

✨ Seven Devils (Florence + The Machine)- Feyre Under the Mountain

~Holy water cannot help you now/See, I've come to burn your kingdom down

✨ Into The Shadows Of My Embrace (WHY?)- emo Azriel (😭)

~oh, am I clean?/lord, please, why me?/I wish I could feel close to somebody but I don't feel nothing

✨ I Wanna Destroy Myself (Ezra Furman)- Nesta after the war (😭)

~I wanna destroy something/I wanna destroy myself

✨ Can I Sleep In Your Brain (Ezra Furman)- Nesta and Azriel (separately)

~Can I sleep in your brain tonight, stranger?/Can I spend just one night on your mind?/I can't live with this pain, with this anger/And I need some place else to go

✨ Cosmic Love (Florence + The Machine)- Elriel

~Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too/So I stayed in the darkness with you

✨ Wild Rosemarie (Ezra Furman)- Elain post-cauldron

~And I thought about Wild Rosemarie/How that was who you used to be/How the wilderness sprang up around us/This dry desert heat

✨ The Gardener (The Tallest Man On Earth)- Elain (it's literally about a gardener who grows flowers over the dead bodies of his enemies and listen if that's not our girly in her book idk what is)

~So now we're dancing through the garden/And what a garden I have made/And now that death will grow my jasmine/I find it soothing, I'm afraid

✨ Soon It Will Be Cold Enough (the entire album, Emancipator)- Winter Court

~mostly instrumental

✨ The Letters, Etc. (WHY?)- Elriel when they inevitably have drama before they get back together

~How strange to be strangers after what we was/In a soft separate life with heart we held the center part of us

✨ Bangarang (Doomtree)- Night Court IC

~Wings, fan the flames/Teeth, with the fangs