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Louise Glück, NYT
Louise Glück, photo by Charles S. Hertz
b. 1943
The Nobel-winning poet was pitiless to herself, yet fiercely generous toward her students.
By Amy X. Wang The New York Times
She stood barely five feet tall — slight, unassuming, you had to stoop low to kiss her cheek — but whenever Louise Glück stepped into a classroom, she shot a current through it. Students stiffened their spines, though what they feared was not wrath but her searing rigor: Even in her late 70s, after she won the Pulitzer and the National Humanities Medal and the Nobel, she always spoke to young writers with complete seriousness, as if they were her equals. “My first poem, she ripped apart,” says Sun Paik, who took Glück’s poetry class as a Stanford undergraduate. “She’s the first person whom I ever received such a brutal critique from.” Mark Doty, a National Book Award-winning poet who studied under Glück in the 1970s at Goddard College, felt that she “represented total authenticity and complete honesty.” This, he recalls, “pretty much scared me half to death.”
Spare, merciless, laser-precise: Glück’s signature style as a writer. It was there from an early age. Born in 1943 to a New York family of tactile pragmatists (her father helped invent the X-Acto knife), Glück, a preternaturally self-competitive child, was constantly trying to whittle away at her own perceived shortcomings. When she was a teenager, she developed anorexia — that pulverizing, paradoxical battle with both helplessness and self-control — and dropped to 75 pounds at 16. The disorder prevented her from completing a college degree. Many of the poems Glück wrote in her early 20s flog her own obsessions with, and failures in, control and exactitude. Her narrators are habitués of a kind of limitless wanting; her language, a study in ruthless austerity. (A piano-wire-taut line tucked in her 1968 debut, “Firstborn”: “Today my meatman turns his trained knife/On veal, your favorite. I pay with my life.”) In her late 20s, Glück grew frustrated with writing and was prepared to renounce it entirely.
So she took, in 1971, a teaching job at Goddard College. To her astonishment, being a teacher unwrapped the world — it bloomed anew with possibility. “The minute I started teaching — the minute I had obligations in the world — I started to write again,” Glück would confess in a 2014 interview. Working with young minds quickly became a sort of nourishment. “She was profoundly interested in people,” says Anita Sokolsky, a friend and colleague from Williams College, where Glück began teaching in 1984. “She had a vivid and unstinting interest in others’ lives that teaching helped focus for her. Teaching was very generative to her writing, but it was also a kind of counter to the intensity and isolation of her writing.”
Glück’s own poems became funnier and more colloquial, marrying the control she earlier perfected with a new, unexpected levity (in her 1996 poem “Parable of the Hostages”: “What if war/is just a male version of dressing up”), and it is her later books, like the lauded “The Wild Iris” from 1992, that made her a landmark literary figure. Teaching also coaxed out a new facet in Glück herself: that of a devoutly unselfish mentor, a tutor of unbridled kindness.
A less fastidious writer and thinker may have made their teaching duties rote — proffering uniformly encouraging feedback or reheating a syllabus year after year. Glück, though, threw herself into guiding pupils with the same care and intimacy she gave to her own verses. “There was just this voraciousness, this generosity,” says Sally Ball, who met Glück while studying with her at Williams and remained close with her for the three decades until her death. “Every time I moved, she put me in touch with people in that new place. She enjoyed bringing people to know each other and sharing the things she loved.” And as a teacher, Ball says, “Louise was really clear that you have to make yourself change. You can’t just keep doing the same things over and over again.” In that spirit of boundless self-advancement, Glück also taught herself to love cooking and eating. She once hand-annotated a Marcella Hazan recipe and mailed it to Ball, with sprawling commentary on how best to prepare rosemary. “She’s very beautiful and elegant, right,” Ball says, but “we’d go to Chez Panisse and sit down and she eats with gusto. It’s messy, she’s mopping her hands around on the plate.”
Paik recalls spending hours each week decoding Glück’s dense, cursive comments on her work. “I was 19 or 20,” she says, “writing these scrappy, honestly pretty bad poems, and to have them be received with such care and detail — it pushed me to become a better writer because it set a standard of respect.”
“She was 78, and whenever she talked about poetry, it felt like the first time she’d encountered poetry,” says Shangyang Fang, who met Glück when he was at Stanford on a writing fellowship. Glück offered to edit his first poetry collection, and the pair became close friends. “She would talk about a single word in my poem for 10 minutes with me,” Fang says. Evenings would go late. They cooked for each other sometimes, spending hours talking vegetables and spices, poetry and idle gossip. “By the end, I couldn’t thank her enough, and she said: ‘Stop thanking me! I am a predator, feeding on your brain!’”
#predator#louise glück#nyt#goddard#marcella hazan#chez panisse#Shangyang Fang#x-acto#i am a predator#feeding on your brain#poetry#anorexia#been thinking a lot lately of how a father's profession influences the thinker
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Hello I love your art!!! I was reading through your changeling au and Felix mentions that fae are creatures of mirth. They literally need attention to survive. But what kind of attention? I guess I'm wondering because Adrien has been in the public eye for a while now, but has been personally neglected for even longer. What does that mean for him? Is he starving? Is he in danger of dying? Does he even know it? (I assume not given he doesn't even know he's Fae).
If he is starving / in danger of starving who is the first to realize this?
it depends on the mirth, on the attention, on what it is they seek. Without making things too complicated - I don't like to define everything into neat little boxes after all, there's fun in nuance - Felix is just explaining from his experience, the Fae he was with tended to be "entertained" by certain aspects of their playing, which was the mirth that kept them relevant. Relevancy more than anything is really what keeps their wheels greased.
In Adrien's case though, the reason he's cloying for so many names and to have so many thralls and attendants is because he SHOULD be a more social creature and has been kept woefully alone. He is kinda starving in the way a fae starves - he's relevant, but only in an image his father constructs OF him, which means it isn't REALLY him - and he has no one to play with. No friends, no lovers, and no rivals, makes a very sad fae
#replies#did this make sense ? I have very specific lore in my brain for how this shit works#and it can be sort of confusing to parse#starving doesn't work the same for fae as it does for people#being creatures of mirth#its why they like sweet foods generally. they dont eat it to eat#they eat it to taste something sweet#they take people's names to have people to play with#to feed their desire for entertainment and relevancy#how do i put this another way... anyone in the crowd have adhd? or the tisms? you know hyperfixations#like REAL hyperfixations. not just “I'm interested in this”#I mean “I am legitimately unable to focus on anything BUT this one thing”#“I have made this thing apart of my personality and I need it to survive and I know everything about it and I NEED to talk to someone it”#imagine you exist. but you're the hyperfixation#and you exist... MORE. in a real way. when people focus on you. some aspect of you#want to mimic you or are apart of you or are owned by you. now youre more real.#like that.
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AGH FASHION DESIGNER SUGURU AND MODEL SATORU W A NEW INTERN DESIGNER UNDER THEIR WING 😞😞☹️ - 🌺
WAHHHH I LOVE THIS 🥺🥺🥺 the pining and flirting and slowburn of it all… model!satoru and his favorite designer suguru geto, both of them undeniably skilled and born with an eye for fashion….. well-known and adored……..
designer!suguru who gets tasked with showing you the ropes, who’s always so patient and kind despite your inexperience. diligent with his teaching but also so laidback, so easy to talk to… he looks intimidating, but he’s so polite that you can’t help but swoon a little. and he admires your enthusiasm so much…… grows fond of you soooo quickly bc you’re just such a breath of fresh air compared to the divas he’s forced to work with all the time. he thinks you’ve got real potential and he wants to nurture it.
and ofc you end up running into model!satoru eventually…. bc he’s always hanging around suguru whenever he gets the chance. and he’s maybe a little jealous that you’re hogging so much of his personal designer’s attention, but… he also thinks you’re so cute . T_T like a little puppy following suguru around… so excited to be apart of what you’ve dreamed of for so many years……… he looks into your eyes and sees the same sparkle he had before he made it big, and it makes his heart race.
yeah . i’m just thinking abt the peaceful coffee breaks with suguru….. how he’d insist on paying for your drink, ”since he’s your senior” (he wants to be your favorite </3)…… and how he’d just be so protective over his little intern. don’t get me started on the close proximity with satoru when you’re taking his measurements, the glance and smile he sends your way during an impromptu shoot… the way he always calls for you with a sweet coo of ”how’s my favorite intern doing today?”
😔😔😔 yeahhhhhh. they make me feel ill.
#thank you 🌺 anon my beloved….. i am kissing your beautiful brain#😭😭😭😭 now i kinda wanna write this oh no#my anons keep making my wip list longer this isn’t fair T—T#(i love you all very much)#NO BUT THIS IS SO BIGBRAINED IT’S INSANE#fashion designer!sugu the loml…. model!satoru just feels so natural too#i think they’re both very mature!!!!!!!#there are some aus where i think satoru would lean towards his more bratty hs self#but here i feel like he’s similar to the way he is in canon :3 just. silly and goofy and passionate abt what he does#AND very fond of youth. of people with lofty goals and dreams and starlight in their eyes#(<- has gotten carried away)#YOU GET IT THOUGH i know you’ll see the vision 🌺 anon 🫂🫂🫂 we’re holding hands#i need them both#need suguru to buy me expensive coffee while satoru feeds me pieces of a pastry#for some reason i keep thinking of coffee breaks i might. just be hungry 😭😭😭#ask tag ✩#🌺 anon !! ✩#geto x reader#gojo x reader#stsg x reader#satosugu x reader#gojo satoru x reader#geto suguru x reader
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The posts about jc wanting to raise sizhui as his own doesn't only frustrates me but it is also hilarious cuz this man can't even raise jin ling without being physically and verbally abusive, he seethes at the very mention of a wen and you think he will raise wen yuan as his own cuz he like a son to wei wuxian so by your logic he is sizhui's 'uncle' now.
What a cruel joke are playing on a child whose whole family got slaughtered by the very seige lead by jiang cheng and the levels of suffering his Xian gege had to go through cuz of jc. Sizhui is polite but that doesn't mean he would tolerate someone like jc.
#Get your head out of your ass if you think either jc or lsz would want anything to do with each other#jc is a miserable asshole sore loser#get your brain out of your ass#the amount of pure bullshit you have to feed your own brain to produce a headcanon like that💀#the sheer levels of clownery🤡#canon jiang cheng#canon jc#lan sizhui#lan shizui#wei wuxian#wen yuan#a yuan#mdzs#mo dao su zhi#mo dao zu shi#mxtx#mo xiang tong xiu#mxtx mdzs
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Demise and ghirahim remind me of rose quartz and pearl from Steven universe
DO IT FOR HIM…..
#I cannot disagree anon#there are a couple.. themes that rose/pearl gets into that I don’t think fit them and I would not like to explore with ghirademi but#the vibes are simply immaculate#I don’t know if I could explain what I mean. my brain is fried. but I hope you all understand#the legend of zelda#skyward sword#ghirahim#ghirademi#demise#crossover#Steven universe#also I’m so sorry to the su tag for putting this bullshit on your feed but hi#I must tag appropriately#ask#anon
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EHEHHEHE little thief Mouse!Reader being caught in Xilonen’s Workshop
Xilonen who’s usually meticulous about her work seemingly leaving around a few pieces she could get easily because of her reputation afterwards
Mouse Thief falls for the trap every time unfortunately.
Hybrid AU on my mind 24/7 and the new posts on the Genshin Twitter aren’t helping
AWWWW LITTLE THIEF MOUSE READER! 🥺
Xilonen leaving her workshop in disarray because she’s lazy, so ofc she attracts the attention of a certain mouse who snacks on the crumbs and leftover food she leaves lying around. ALSO, idk if you guys know this story, but there’s a video on the news about a mouse cleaning up the clutter in this guy’s workshop and it reminded me of Mouse! Reader and Xilonen…
Imagine Xilonen coming back to her workshop and being confused because why is her cluttered work table suddenly put away and organized? Well, turns out it’s a little mousey who’s rummaging around her workshop and secretly cleaning things for her at night 😭😭 even as a rodent, Mouse Reader can’t believe Xilonen works in this filth.
Xilonen is sure to leave you some extra peanuts and treats for your efforts. Maybe even come up with a plan to trap you so she could meet her mysterious little cleaner 💕
#🫧feeding the fishes#animal hybrid au#xilonen trapping you would be so easy#you’d fall for her traps every time#your brain only has one neuron when it comes to food
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A million thank you's to the amazing @temeyes for bringing the enthusiastic menace that is Gym Rat Soap to life.
I can not begin to tell you how much I'm in absolute LOVE with this depiction of him.
I may let loose some very (VERY) NSFW Gym Rat Soap imagines/drabbles that embody Soap MacTavish from the game. But before he graces your screens and steals the spotlight of my inspiration, this is how he appears in my head.
Bouncing around like a madman while I'm trying to maintain some semblance of sanity.
And now he will forever be my snicker (attention) needing gremlin. Powerlifiting his way through the walls of my subconscious until I finally feed him and let him loose onto the unsuspecting Soap Squad.
So much love to you, Tim! 💛
#soap squad™️#gym rat soap#hes like the opposite of a gremlin#if i dont feed him he eats my brain#temeyes#youre amazing#and i love you#gremlin gym rat soap supremacy#ghost keeps him busy when i cant#johnny soap mactavish#simon ghost riley
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dreamy sigh... being hypnotized and trained until their commands are well and truly written in your subconscious... being so thoroughly corrupted that all it takes is a certain look or a specific word to make you weak at the knees... but best of all, seeing the love grow in their gaze as they shape and remake you into an object worthy of their affections <3
#thinkmin!#wrote this with our favorite curse swallowing cult leader in mind <3#oh to be his little lamb... the one that he coddles and coos over as he prepares you for slaughter#(<- slaughter = soul-staining mind-breaking moral-degenerating ruinous filthy corrupting sex)#he'd drape you in the finest silks and feed you nothing but the most rare of delicacies...#all to make sure you stay spoiled and silly while his mind control / hypnosis eats away at your brain...#he gets hard when you shudder in indescribable pleasure out of the blue because he knows it means another one of your defenses has fallen#and he's that much closer to corrupting you and keeping you forever... just a perfect little pet made specifically for him...#+geto#cw dubcon#cw mind control#cw corruption
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Sure, Sylas 'the Dark Urge' Morte is officially the party leader. But every choice will be passed by his boyfriend first, just to be sure.
#(dialogue as inspired by my dear friend kellan)#sylas has made wyll his moral compass since the moment they met#“oh hey! this guy is literally a hero and i can't trust my own brain to feed me a good idea that doesnt involve murder. perfect.”#outsourcing your moral compass like. “if you cant make your own store bought is fine”#bg3#baldur's gate 3#wyll#wyll ravengard#wyllmance#durge#the dark urge#wyll x durge#wyll x the dark urge#idle art#my art#oc: sylas morte
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a never ending saga of 📸
#rayan main feed is oliver pictures of him#and oliver denies he is his muse#there are pictures of everyone he says#yeah sure#rfp is bad for your brain#buddie#ryliver#oliver stark#ryan guzman
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i head cannon matsuda to be asexual
Hes just like me fr
#The only asset he cares for#Sorry that was gross#But also true#Ultimate brain have x Ultimate brain lover#Also made a post awhile ago about her view on herself and body#And seeing how Matsuda#One of the two closest ppl to her along with her actual twin#Doesn't gaf and still loves her when shes 'plain and boring'#I find that very sweet#He also doesn't comment on her body weight despite constantly insulting her in every other field#Which works wonderfully with the 'junko has an ed' hc#He doesn't want to trigger it </3#scarposts#yasuke matsuda#matsushima#Remember to feed your local Neurologist#scaranswers
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Tribute to @paynomindtotheinsanity Your Eyes Are Red on ao3
#from chapter 20#look nothing was said about them draping their legs over each other but hey#vampire dib#paynomindtorheinsanity#your eyes are red#vampire#invader zim#alien#art#dib#dib membrane#dib x zim#zim x dib#zadr#zim#zim and dib romance#fr tho this person w their fic and their art and animatics feeds my brain#they’re what i want to be
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re your tags on the doorframe post — any chance you remember the title or author of this article? it sounds really interesting
i am away from my laptop and therefore away from the syllabus from 2015 this article was in but am going to set a calendar reminder to check tomorrow at 10am pst. posting this because otherwise i will forget immediately. please tolerate the suspense
#''tumblr user z sleepnoises why do you not simply set an alarm to fish this out of your askbox''#i like my activity feed and i dislike my askbox. and that's how it is in my brain
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There's something about like. A certain genre of posts / Online Opinions about insecurity/depression/misery/complaints that are so unhelpful that they wrap right around to being straight up hilarious. and it's the ones that are more or less written to the tone of "Feeling bad? That's gross!" Like, just so you know, don't voice your insecurities/ have low self esteem, because that's offputting! You're gross and weird. Don't be insecure about that, though. That would be stupid if you felt insecure about people disliking you for being insecure. Not attractive. You should be thinking about being as attractive as possible. You shouldn't make comments about suicide, even if you're suicidal! Keep those thoughts entirely to yourself. Make sure nobody around you knows you're thinking about this. It would Make Them Uncomfortable. It's better to keep these thoughts in your head where they can fester. Don't post OR talk to friends with complaints about you feeling miserable or depressed. Tbh people who are sad/upset a lot? Kinda a red flag! You are probably miserable because you're a bad person and you've brought this on yourself. If you don't have friends, it's because you're awful to be around. Easy! Solved the problem for you. And no, there is no nuance to this, got it? So, make sure to feel bad about feeling bad, but don't feel bad about it, because, well, that's just gross. And annoying! You might've wanted your brain rotted thoughts to be Peer Reviewed, you might have just needed to vent- you might've been hoping for some comfort, to get things off your chest. Well, don't! Don't talk about thoughts or feelings that are negative with your friends, you'd be burdening them and that's only meant for THERAPY. #SponsoredbyBetterHelp #MentalHealth like, DAMN. that's so helpful. you're so good at helping. I um really liked the part where these are all hard and fast rules that encourage keeping feelings bottled up and keeping your friends at arm's length. That's really funny of you.
#I FEEL LIKE COMPLAINING RN in the context of this alternate universe these posts live in. that makes me evil rn. I may not even keep#the post up. but I Needed to complain about these bc I hate seeing them#really funny and good because it very much feeds into that part of the brain where you go wait am I stupid? am I horrible? am I annoying?#before you express any kind of personal feelings. from feeling insecure alll the way down the spectrum to feeling like your life is over#before anyone How Dare You Say We Piss On The Poor-s at me YES there is a nuanced version of this#which is. you can make someone feel like shit (A Fellow Sufferer Of The Mental Eelnesses) by using them as your dumping ground#in excess and usually with no regard for how they feel and without Regular conversations inbetween#and in a one-sided way where they can't do the same and complain with you as a sounding board in return#don't tell new friends you hardly know abt THE MOST personal shit you can possibly think of. there are steps being skipped here#right? we know this. we all know it. setting a boundary is a thing. overwhelming a person is a thing#on the other hand there is such a thing as a friend who IS okay to listen and wants to help. and friends who relate.#maybe talking abt personal stuff makes ppl feel closer sometimes. just a thought! maybe not everything is Emotional Labor. maybe just maybe#but like come on. these are almost intentionally unhelpful posts#long post
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Pro tip
go for a run
Do you feel like shit? Anxious? Depressed? general emotional muck?
Put on some good shoes, a tee shirt and some pants, go outside, especially if its cold out, and fucking run as fast as you can for as long as you can
Humans are animals. We evolved to fight against things like lions and bears and shit. More specifically we evolved to outrun the bastards. When you run, especially when you kick it into the highest gear, your brain floods your body with adrenaline and endorphins (Da Good Stuff TM). Those chemicals react directly with stress hormones to produce serotonin and dopamine. Bad stuff gets turned into good stuff.
The key here is the running fast bit. Humans evolved into the evolutionary niche of endurance. If a mammoth tried to run away, we chased the thing until it collapsed from exhaustion. HOWEVER those little bits of genetics that say the solution to "problem" is "sprint" are still there and still have a biological reward system attached to them.
So when you're anxious, depressed, etc. use the 2000 BC cheat code of fucking bookin' it and I shit you not it works.
Edit: and for the love of god, hydrate
#And then go back inside and eat something#feed into your mammal brain's instinct of “I just hunted something”#depression tips#anxiety tips
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so has anyone figured out WHY there is the Need To Share our Artworks™ or is it just the vibes and our Soul apparently
#ive been running on “two cakes. u aren't BOTHERING people by putting art on their feed they can scroll past it/if they dont they get ”cake“”#and we love “cake”#“cake” is picture on the internet in this case#like okay the contracts and transaction format is a me problem!! i need to get rid of the “utilitarian brain worms” bc they're boring#this is supposed to be a hobby and the “get a good grade in hobby” wolf in the brain is just crying bc that's how they understand the world#the “get a good grade in x” wolf has valid pain but needs to stop controlling my life because they don't need to earn “enough value to live”#ect ect ect#and the life of minmaxxed utility is a life of trying to appeal to a “correct” that doesn't exist yaddi yadda = boring#i love you wolf. also shut up. affectionate. concerned. you get it#ok so we remove tangible purpose from act of experience art because THAT'S not “the point”#because “the point” is the joy killer eccetera ecc#but then what? “here check out this labor of love. i drew this fucker 15 times. no there's no story* there it's just a guy”#*story in this case being an emotional engagement/a situation/a context in which to ponder/other#so it's just a Draw. no further analysis. what do others Get from that?#i know i deeply enjoy art because im a fan of the process of People Making Stuff. i love when there was nothing but now there's something!!!#THAT'S what's it all about!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to me!!!! right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so it stands to reason that creation is purpose enough?? to be experienced???? to be known????????#idk!!#this is a nothing burger of a thought people have always liked picture on the internet stfu maiora there doesn't need to be a reason#this is just the brainworms talking!!! because god forbid “something not have a purpose”??? blegh!!!!!!!!#sounds like unhealthy rationalizing instead of letting things be out of The Fear™!!sounds like depraving urself from joy bc of BRAINWORMS!!!#so like!!!!! picture on the internet doesn't NEED inherent value. creation is enough!! (plus there's the Attachment to Character. also.)#but then why are YOU *points at you* here? gen q!!#i made an image you like and now you are reading my word babble in some tags!!! what's THAT all about???????????#it's INTERESTING!! do you see what im trying to get at??#is it empathy??? person made something other saw something other made- other2other connection???? intrigue????????#.......all this is probably explained in some book or yt essay somewhere. oh well.#in the meantime thank you for your time! we can pretend we were stuck in an elevator together and then i started rambling#i hope you have a great rest of your day thanks for stopping by!! <3#maiora garrulates
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