#fearless anon

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - March 7

vibes anon (new), fearless anon, bi-awakening anon (new), mortified anon (new), on and off anon (new), midnights anon

Vibes anon

I have a... question

So when people just put like... "any/all" or "I don't know" in their bio for pronouns, what do you use? Cause like I appreciate the rejection of gender but I don't want to like... do the wrong thing. And being online, I fall into the trap of making up like vibes or even appearances for my friends kinda like I do with book people. So I don't want to get into fhe habit of thinking about people wrong. I just don't know how to handle it best. (Coming from someone who doesn't really get gender but doesn't want to make people uncomfy)

Honestly my first reaction whenever I'm unsure is to ask people. But if they really say I can use any, then I tend to switch it up. Because I think when someone says 'any' or 'idc' or whatever, and you tend to go with the pronoun they're like...perceived as by society, then that's almost assigning them a gender? At least it could be taken that way.

But I don't think it's bad to ask clarifying questions!

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fearless anon

hi cas it's fearless anon

so i read this term somewhere it's 'nimby-ist' i think and the meaning's basically a not in my backyard liberalist and that perfectly describes my parents

my mom keeps telling me that i shouldn't wear the fact that i'm gay "on my sleeve" like brother i don't, not really, like my friends know i'm gay and i talk about the girls in our year that i like/have liked with them with codenames and we never bother changing the pronouns so yeah people might've found out from that and the fact that they have no volume control and a few of them know because i actually told them but like i don't go out of my way to make it known, not because i'm secretive about it but like it's not really relevant most of the time so like yeah but like even when i first came out she didn't want me to tell a lot of people or actually anyone at all because i'd get "labelled" and shit and what if something changed later. she had a friend who dated a girl but got married to a guy so now she thinks that maybe somehow i could be the same despite me telling her that i don't like men and am honestly a bit repulsed by them bc the boys my age here that my friends and i have interacted with so far are shit and because she grew up with most of her friends being guys she thinks i just haven't met the "right guy" like tf woman. oh and when i told her that her friend was bi she said that everyone is and i'm willing to bet that if i was straight she would've never said that. and she actually mentioned in the past that i should think about it carefully because it might hold me back in life like it's literally a part of me i can't exactly change it??? also she read a book with a trans mc once but recently she saw a picture of her ex colleague's son who was openly gay already and he looked like he was transitioning or at least looked very fem which my mom obviously took to mean as transitioning and then she's like "yeah i don't have a problem with you being gay straight or bi but i still have a problem stomaching trans people" like she doesn't have a problem maybe but she's definitely not as comfortable with it as she keeps saying she is.

and then my dad. well we don't really talk much about this shit because he's focused more on my academics than any other aspect of my life and doesn't really talk or want to talk about the rest but when i was telling him about how gay marriages may be banned in one of the states, he was like "stop getting so worked up over it and it's not even our country" and no, it isn't legal in our country either which is actually one of the reasons i want to leave but sure whatever.

i mean they aren't homophobic but they're also not not homophobic like they don't have a problem with it in fiction but they, especially my mom idrk about my dad, doesn't really like it irl and unfortunately for her, her daughter is gay.

Okay I'd never heard this term before so I googled it and...yeah, that's so many people, isn't it? but this IS homophobia, because it's still wanting queer people to be treated differently that straight people. And it's believing stereotypes, not wanting to be around queer people, etc.

It sucks that so many people are like that, and I'm glad you can recognize that. I hope you know that no matter who you end up with, it's acceptable and valid and your happiness is what's important.

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Bi-awakening anon

i recently realised sirius black was my bi-awakening, being the androgynous king he is. then i realised he was also my brother's gay awakening. now im confused af. a little advice would be nice. our parents are 100% lgbtq-phobes, so that doesn't make it any easier either. we're twins and all we have for support in this matter is each other, because our friends think we're joking when we say we're bi/gay respectively.

Hi!

I mean a person (real or fictional) can be one than one person's queer awakening, and can make one person realize something different than what another person realizes. Especially in this case, where the person is fictional, it's completely valid for this to happen.

I'm glad you two are able to support each other. If you ever need to talk, I'm here!

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mortified anon

Oh my gosh Cas I was absolutely mortified earlier

I went to my maths classroom but my other maths teacher and a sub were in there so I ran and went to my friend down the hall and pretended I needed a pen and went into the room and one of the boys was like “is she meant to be in here” and my friend said I was just getting a pen and he kept asking if I was supposed to be there and my friend had a go at him like “LEAVE POOR XXXX ALONE” and honestly it felt nice to have someone stand up for me like that but I felt so awkward tho bc like I had to walk right past the teacher to get in 😭

Hi!

I knew this feels embarrassing now, but I PROMISE you that by tomorrow (a few days, tops), ten other embarrassing things will have happened to other people, and your moment will have been forgotten about <3 At least you learned you have a great friend!

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On and off anon

Hey cas

I have a problem

So I'm dating this girl right, we've been in a relationship for almost 2 years now

Its been feeling on and off like idk what to do right

And today this boy asked me out and it got me thinking, should I keep dating her or should I break up with her, should i say yes to him idk cas i don't want people to judge me either

And if I say no, idk how to let him down slowly either

Hi!

Honestly, I think if you're not sure about this girl and you're considering someone else, it's not fair to act like nothings wrong...like you at least need to communicate with her that things don't feel the same. It might be that she says she wants to work through it and when she says that, you decide the same, or maybe she'll say the same and you decide to break up. Or maybe you just decide to break up right away. But like...I feel like if I was in her shoes, and my partner was considering leaving me for someone else and I had no idea? I would be so sad.

And honestly it could just be that you two have grown apart, and that's okay. Sometimes relationships just fizzle, and that's sad, but it doesn't mean anyone did anything wrong. But you need to talk about it with her. It's okay to be confused about your relationship, but I don't think it's okay to like...keep all that from her.

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Midnights anon

Hello! It’s midnights anon! I’m really sorry for sending in another ask

Before I get into the annoying/bad stuff I have good news! I had a good weekend! I read, cooked my own food, listened to vinyl, and I felt content and did my homework in advance. I felt pretty good! I wasn’t all that tired or melancholy, and I even read/annotated for 2 hours straight!

But now that I have school again the bad stuff comes back

I don’t really know who I am honestly? I want to be quiet but I’m still so so overstimulated and overwhelmed at school and I love my friends but… sometimes they make me feel like I’m bothering them? Honestly it doesn’t matter, I just have to hide and push that bad stuff down for later, but it still hurts, y’know? I just wish I knew how to be quieter when overstimulated. I wish I didn’t laugh as loudly or acted the way I did. But it doesn’t matter, still. I have a plan for life and I’ll stick to it. My 5 year plan is mostly for me to organize life in general and learn to exist and be a normal person. The first year (this year) is to be normal. It’s to do my homework, go to school events, and cook, basically use willpower to beat depression, autism, adhd, anxiety, etc.

2nd year I’m not sure, probably physical stuff, like ways I really like dressing and expressing myself, what my brain thrives on when it comes to food and studying, etc., maybe get a job

3rd year is like, interpersonal relationships and stuff and unpack any lingering issues/trauma from it

4th year is my senior year, so it’ll mostly be about studying for SATs and college stuff (I’m planning on becoming a therapist, and I’m really excited. There’s this YouTube channel, cinema therapy, where a therapist and movie director watch and analyze the mental state of movie characters and how the direction interacts with the characters, and I’ve already learned SO much about therapy and the human brain)

And 5th year is (probably?) my first year of college (I’m probably not taking a gap year, but who knows) and I’m gonna use it to settle in to college, and get used to being on my own

Also, I’ve been reading a lot more (most of it being marauders fan fiction) and it’s comforted me so much? It reminds me of my own life in a sense? The marauders being in 4th or 5th year, with talks of a war arising, murmurs about a (clearly evil) guy rising to power and gathering followers, discrimination based on identity/birth status, etc.

And reading the sad fanfics have helped too. It’s like… if bad things happened to the marauders, the betrayal, the death, the breakups, the destruction, the trauma, the pain, the loss, it kinda shows me that good things can happen too? Even if there’s so much pain and anguish, Wolfstar managed to exist in the little moments that weren’t spent fighting a war. It’s made me less afraid of dying, which sounds stupid and weird but I… am not terrified of death?

Obviously I want to live (and I’m really really happy I’ve started to mean those words more and more), but dying doesn’t seem so scary. James and Lily died but their lives were good and exuded kindness and good

With all that said, I have a question

What’s it like being an adult? Like, you have a job and a wife and a life. That’s AWESOME, and I was wondering how different being an adult felt than being a teenager?

I hope you’re having a good day, and thank you for reading. You’re a kind soul and so many people are grateful for you :]

Hi!

I'm so glad you seem to be doing better overall, and you have a five year plan! Trust me when I tell you that nobody has themselves completely figured out- it's okay to not have yourself figured out either.

Being an adult is complicated, lol. I think there's pros and cons...like I miss being a teenagers because being a teenager means you can kind of just...act silly whenever you want, and adults don't bat an eye. When you make mistakes, they tend to be easier to fix. And, if you're lucky, you have things like your housing, food, and basic needs paid for and taken care of.

But when you're an adult, you don't have anyone controlling you. You can make your own decisions and you have a lot more freedom. You have more responsibilities, yes, but you have so many more choices.

I don't know which I prefer in a vacuum, but I'd say I'm happier now.

[typingwithmyhandstied]

so.. how are we feeling rn

I am very excited about Jack Antonoff with Getaway Car mostly.

How about you?

[ask-spiderpool]

mod when are asks coming back for your main ☹️

when will the suffering end

Oh so you'd prefer me to suffer, anon?

[rickybaby]

Genuine question as I am curious — I know it’s pretty obvious with his expressions/ body language that Daniel seemed shy/insecure(?) about having his braces, but has he ever outright said anything about feeling that way with them? Just out of curiosity as I am new around here!

“I feel very different in terms of looks. Fortunately, experience also bought me better looks. I’m not really too fond of showing people photos of me when I was younger”

[blackwolfstabs]

heh, how would Samantha react when reader is rubbing her arms, feeling her biceps? Saying “babe, you really need to wear tank tops more often”

hmmm... i think this answer would sound better written, so i hope you take this:

WHAT A GIRL LIKE ME WOULD DO FOR SOMEONE LIKE YOU

sam carpenter x g!n reader ficlet

Sam bowed against the countertop, her elbows holding herself steady while her folded hands pressed against the back of her head. Her upper body burned with the amount of exertion she gave during her workout. A complete 45-minute upper body workout didn't just leave her muscles burning... it left them burnt out.

Luckily, you took it upon yourself to help her cool-down. Your way, of course, in which you let your hands slide up and down the upper half of her arm to give her a post-workout massage. You applied the perfect amount of pressure to her biceps, feeling the muscles slide beneath her skin in sync with your pattern. It was your pleasure to do this, because the sight of her in a tank top always made you unable to keep from staring. It was a win-win, the smile on your face growing as Sam gave a gratified groan.

You chuckled as she dropped her hands from her head and went limp against the countertop. "Babe, you really need to wear tank tops more often," you suggested as you travelled down her arm again, generous with the gentle squeezes you gave.

A delighted hum answered your actions, before actual words did your comment. "So, you can do this more often?"

"Hey, don't act like you're not enjoying it," you laughed. "But, yes, I'd be more than happy to do this a lot more, and not just after a workout." You slid your hands all the way down to hold hers and bowed to place a kiss on her bare shoulder. "It's a win-win."

She gave an amused scoff, lifting herself from the counter to turn around and face you. "And then, a few weeks later, you'll be suggesting I go shirtless more often, right?"

A tempting grin pulled at your lips and you raised an eyebrow, "So, now you can see the future?"

She shrugged. "Or I'm a mind-reader," was her counter with the same amount of playfulness.

"What am I thinking right now, then?"

She didn't hesitate. "I love you."

And she was right.

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i hope you enjoyed this, anon!

thank you for asking! 🩶

[stillgotscars]

i can't believe this might be the last time we'll hear fearless (song) on a setlist again

i can’t believe it either, but i’m sooo glad that it got its moment to shine on the eras tour and that we were lucky enough to see taylor spinning around in cowboy boots in the years 2023 and 2024.

[welcome-to-green-hills]

I wonder what they could put in a second trailer for Sonic 3. The first one gave us enough info to put together a basic premise, I feel if they give us anything more they might get into spoiler territory.

Hi Hon!❤️✨

Ooh! I have a cool thought! Earlier this summer, one of the filming expos in the UK had Paramount hold a panel where they did tease Sonic 3. However, it was a “Meet Shadow” trailer where they showed some scene and teasers of Shadow to the audience. I think that it would be cool to see that.

If we’re gonna do “Fearless: Year of Shadow,” we should really go all out with SCU!Shadow, right?

[notyouraryang0dd3ss]

I'm a hater so I wouldn't know, but is this first time one of her albums hasn't had plagiarism issues? She's always stealing songs and artwork; is this the first album she's genuinely written all by herself?

nope she has jack antonoff and aaron dessner as cowriters for almost every song on ttpd 😭 swifties really need to stop peddling her solo songwriting genius because she hasn’t written an entire album completely solo since Speak Now (2008) 16 years ago 😭

here’s what I could find about her plagiarism allegations by album:

Taylor Swift: Couldn't find anything

Fearless: Couldn't find anything

**Speak Now: A deleted reddit thread suggesting plagiarism by** Taylor Swift from the German artist Madeline Juno I misread it, the thread was about Madeline Juno plagiarizing Taylor Swift, not the other way around

Red: "Shake it Off" lawsuit from 3LW alleging she stole lyrics from their song, "Playas Gonna Play" (but this suit was filed after Taylor's re-recording, not during the original release)

1989: Ally Burguieres sues Taylor Swift for using her art on the 1989 merchandise, without proper credit or compensation to Burguieres

Reputation: Couldn't find anything

Lover: Poet Teresa La Dart sues TS for copying the concept and aesthetics of her chapbook of the same name

Technically related, but some people pointed out "Cruel Summer" chorus sounds extremely similar to LOONA's "Stylish" which came out a year prior

Folklore: Stole logo from Black-owned brand Folklore for the album merchandise

**Evermore: hit with a lawsuit from Evermore Park for infringing on its trademarks; However, its a messy situation because the park had been using TS songs without her knowledge/permission (which prompted TS to countersue) and its *speculated* that the park (which was financially struggling) saw an opportunity to make money by suing her. The lawsuits against each other were simultaneously dropped in March 2021.

Midnights: Latina-American musician Manuela Torres points out the striking similarities (implying plagiarism) between her "Glimmer" MV and "Anti-Hero" MV

The Torture Poets Department: Nothing (so far...)

**Corrections provided by @bunnythevampireslayer thank you so much for pointing out these mistakes!

[robinsgrl]

a part of me wants "fearless" to have a ch where rafe does the "jacked and kind" trend with her, as a plus size this is just heaven

i can definitely write a little blurb/extra but not until i delve deeper into their relationship!!! but it’s on my list babe

[starcollectorsilas]

I love seeing people compare music to their favourite characters and go like 'oh yeah this verse might be this character... and then this one is the other one... and then this little bit here is them both honestly. Or something like that' because I HAVE gone through every taylor swift song on evermore and folklore and compared it to skk. Sorry to be autistic on the writing account, but this is a fanfic writing account and I'm writing my second novel length fic about them so what did you expect.

folklore/evermore are very canon skk, and verge into fanon and some songs are the reason for very specific head canons, or some of the ways I write the way they perceive each other. 1989... DON'T GET ME STARTED OMFG HAVE YOU EVER LISTENED TO BLANK SPACE? I THINK IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO NOT HAVE AND OMG IT'S SO SKK CODED LIKE WTF. I HAVE VERY FIRM OPINIONS ABOUT WHICH LYRICS ARE THEIRS. Also the vault tracks literally exist what more do you want from me. 'i think about jumping off of very tall somethings just to see you come running and say the one thing I've been wanting' okay dazai pack it up you did that already, beast exists. 'i call my mom sister she said that it was for the best remind myself the more i gave you'd want me less' yeah yeah chuuya we know he left you get over it, it wasn't personal(think that line could go for either of them but the other line 'the way you faded till i left' feels more Dazai personally). Plus suburban legends. For personal reasons I struggle to listen to song without SPIRALING FUCK YOU THAT ONE PERSON SEHDHSSJNS but very skk as well 'we were born to be national treasures' is very soulmates of them. And out of the woods screams them in fanfic when they try to get better. Red, straight away all too well. They both remember it all too well. All too well skk cover with switching vocals anyone? The last time. The one with gary lightbody. Underrated song, is my favourite on that album, and SO THEM. 'this is the last time you tell me ive got it wrong, this is the last time i wont hurt you anymore' because they're fated to be together and are constantly drawn to each other and yet keep HURTING EACH OTHER RAGH. also 'we are never getting back together' is pretty funny and nice when applied to them. also state of grace. any taylor song with a mild drop of religious imagery is them cause yeah. but 'i never saw you coming, and I'll never be the same'... okay pack it up, we don't have time for your yearning. 'you were never a saint' (dazai abt chuuya) 'and i loved in shades of wrong' (bc hes toxic and doesnt know how to healthily like people) 'we learned to live with the pain, mosaic broken hearts' (bc they continue anyway and stick it out, living with the pain of being bad for each other because of how deeply they care). I almost do. Dazai after leaving. moving on to more religion, holy ground. 'for the first time i had something to lose' 'and i guess we fell apart in the usual way, and the storys got dust on every page' AAAAAA IT'S THEM. Can't really speak on debut- but I've listened to our song and picture to burn and if picture to burn isn't a vengeful chuuya idk what is. BOY OH BOY SPEAK NOW.

excuse me. one moment.

Mine- literally a skk au

Sparks fly- 'the way you move is like a rainstorm and im a house full of cards, you're the kind of reckless that should send me running' that entire verse screams dazai's fascination with corrupted chuuya, and the whole song is well yeah

back to december- dazai when they reunite just trust me on it just trust me on it. the repetition was intentional, that's how serious i am. 'i go back to december all the time' 'I got back to december to make it all right'

speak now- might just be me but it really makes me think of teen skk in fanfic harbouring urges to ruin the others relationship for 'some reason. I don't know, seeing him with her just... irks me'.

the story of us- first verse is chuuya, second verse is dazai, and the third is them both because they're LOSERS and they LOVE EACH OTHER and FUCK I'm CRYING NOW. 'id tell you i miss you but i don't know how' EMOTIONALLY CONSTIPATED BASTARD.

enchanted- self explanatory. for more context, i really think it's from dazai's pov in this case, could probably be both, but dazai fell first and harder so it's really like god he's been in love ever since he got kicked into that wall he wants him around forever. He held Chuuya's hand in the fight with rimbaud and then had all those close moments in the manga and went home to lie on his bed kicking his feet and giggling don't lie. (god im still crying this isn't helping)

better than revenge- they're both pretty vengeful idk it makes me think of iwsynttr for some reason

haunted- chuuya pov. 'i thought i had you figured out, something's gone terribly wrong' 'stood there and watched you walk away from everything we had' they're so sad, but the general idea of chuuya thinking he has figured out dazai and knowing how he thinks and then dazai just leaves suddenly and he's like 'Wow! I thought i knew you. How do i forget this'. 'wont finish what you started' bringing chuuya into the mafia then leaving it.

last kiss- 'you told me you love me so why did you go away' chuuya pov again oh god it hurts why am i doing this to myself? 'never imagined we'd end like this, your name, forever the name on my lips' yep yep ow.

LONG LIVE.- LISTEN. TO. THE. SONG. AND TELL ME IT'S NOT DAZAI AND CHUUYA. I COULD DO A WHOLE ANALYSIS ON JUST THIS SONG. 'promise me this, that you'll stand by me forever, but if god forbid fate should step in, and force us into a goodbye...please tell them my name, tell them how the crowds went wild, tell them how i hope they shine, long live the walls we crashed through, i had the time of my life with you' FUCK IT'S DAZAI AN HE'S IN LOVE WITH CHUUYA AND DOESNT KNOW ODAS GONNA DIE YET, JUST THINKS HE DOESNT GET TO KEEP ANYTHING HE WANTS. FUUUUUCK. THEY'RE IN LOVE AND DAZAI WANTS IT REMEMBERED PLEASE I'M SO SAD.

anyway, i can't pretend I'm normal about skk anymore i haven't even covered fearless, reputation, lover or midnights please somebody encourage me to actually write full things dedicated to each album and the most fitting songs from said albums please i'll do it and plus i need to actually gather proof for my autism diagnosis appointment so this would be a good way to to that probably. anyway yeah this'll never make it out my drafts lol

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - March 17

compression anon, fearless anon, vent anon (new), ambulance anon, 14 anon

compression anon

Hi cas! it’s compression anon again :)

I haven’t asked my mom about a compression sports bra yet lol, but I like almost started crying earlier looking at my gender envy board on Pinterest because I’ll never be a blond boy with wavy hair and ugh. Sorry but it’s made me so sad and. That’s all sorry have a great day :)

Ugh I get this feeling. There's definitely people I really wish I looked like. But remember that there ARE ways to achieve at least some of the gender euphoria you want in the body you have. Play with things like contour, different shapes in clothing, different ways of styling your hair, etc. I know it's hard to not be able to look exactly like a picture, but you CAN do some things, I promise <3

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fearless anon

if this got sent for the third time, i'm so sorry. it's fearless anon, i saw your post about having an anxiety day a couple of days ago and i hope things have gotten better.

my relationship with my mom, actually both my parents, is a love-hate relationship to say the least. sometimes it's like they're the best parents, and then there are times when they're the worst part of my life and they're the reason i feel like i'm a fuck up. i was an extremely good student when i was younger and that just kinda made them set such expectations for me that i feel like i'm under this crushing pressure all the time and whatever i do it's just simply never enough no matter how much i try. the worst part is that they keep telling me that i have the potential, that i'm capable of it and that i'm smarter than everyone else in my year if only i put in more effort and that just gave me such a complex about me being better than everyone else, even when i'm not but at the same time it's like the more effort i put, the worse it gets and sometimes i wish they'd just get mad, but they're more disappointed than anything and honestly that's worse. they can't move on from it either and it's like a constant comparison with everyone else and i feel like i'm falling behind but i'm still above average so that's not exactly true and at the same time no one seems to understand exactly what the problem is and it's always about wtf is going on in school all the time at home. i finished my finals two weeks ago and i had been studying to the point of burnout for almost five weeks and they expected me to just start studying for next year after that weekend and then my marks turned out to be average and i had a shitty af week because of it and my parents just refused to let it go and i got so emotionally drained because i knew it was disappointing and what they kept saying just made it worse. i'm pretty sure that my fear of loud noises is because my mom kept slamming the door and she has a tendency to get extremely mad and say and do shit that she normally wouldn't do (pretty normal in our culture but still lowkey hurts). and all my dad ever seems to care about is my academics and nothing else and everything in his eyes is a distraction from it and i "keep finding ways to disappoint him" as he said a few months back. should i be used to it by now? probably. and it's just like nothing i do is ever good enough for him and he doesn't even get mad he just ignores me and that's worse than my mom's anger because i can take the anger and i can deal with it but i hate being shut out. my mom sometimes takes my side in arguments with my dad only to come back five minutes later and lecture me like i was the one in the wrong but she just took my side before and that's like whiplash. anything and everything i do just seems to be the wrong thing. the way i talk, the way i dress, the way i laugh - they literally find faults in everything. if it's not being done their way, they have a fucking problem. this stopped a few months ago but i don't want to get too complacent because for the last two years it's been "why are you acting like this", "fix your behaviour", "fix your attitude", "we don't feel like talking to you because of your rude behaviour" and then just being distant af until i confronted them like i just don't have any energy whatsoever how tf do they expect me to show "attitude" or whatever. and everything's just my fault in this house like even when my dad says something shitty i shouldn't have reacted like that.

oh and the wonders my mom does for my self confidence like she keeps telling me that my best friend doesn't care about me as much as i care about her, that she's only this attached to me rn because she has no one else, that she has abandoned me in the past for other people and would do it in the future like yes, she did that, but if i stopped caring about people who have chosen other people over me in the past, i'd only care about myself and she's changed, and she's the only reason i dragged myself to school for months because even at our friendship's lowest she was a better friend to me than anyone else at that time even if she cared more about another girl at the time. my mom knows for a fact that i only have two friends so when she says that, it hurts because my best friend does actually care even if literally everyone else seems to think that she's a self obsessed selfish bitch who doesn't. and she tells me that my ex best friends were there for me when i needed them and that i shouldn't cut them off but like, they abandoned me and they don't actually care so like no i don't want to keep in touch with them. also we were watching cobra kai together and it's basically about karate and as someone whose favourite romance trope is enemies/rivals to lovers, i obviously went "that's gay" at every rivalry fight and then there are two characters who went from best friends to enemies to best friends (long complicated story short) and i was just telling my mom that they would be so good together and they were definitely gay for each other and she was like "why do you have to make everything gay." firstly, woman, i don't have enough queer representation on tv because they keep cancelling everything with it. secondly, queer rivals to lovers is even rarer and i would literally die for that trope so obviously i'll root for fanon with that. then there's the "you don't have to say that you're gay right off the bat", "you may not be gay, you never know", "when you and your boyfriend or girlfriend" and "everyone in a girls' school says they're gay" bs. one, i don't. two, how do you know. three, can you like stop saying boyfriend before girlfriend like you expect me to get a boyfriend. four, it has nothing to do with my school. not to mention the overprotective bs. you can't go out to the mall without adult supervision (i've been to it over five hundred times by now), you can't wear makeup, you can't dye your hair (okay this one i'd still understand if it was only while i was underage), you can't participate in this festival because chemicals are used like just lock me into a glass cage and throw away the key atp. and every single time my mom comes to my room, she has some complaint or the other - "why did you do ___", "why didn't you do ___", "why are you doing ___" - like just give me a break. they don't have any faith in me either, like i don't have the best track record, but at the same time, shouldn't my parents at least believe in me).

my best friend described them as "asshole-y" and in a way that's true, but it's also not like i have shitty parents because they do go out of their way to do things i like and make me happy too but sometimes it just feels like their love and pride in me is a bit conditional even when they say they aren't and i hate disappointing them so much and sometimes it just hurts so bad that i have to physically make myself feel it. i can't seem to do anything right in their eyes and that's why i kinda relate to barty but i just can't bring myself to stop trying to please them even though the pressure they're putting me under is slowly killing me and i've just burnt out because of they had maybe let the pressure ease off in middle school, even just a bit, i could've stopped being so tired in high school and actually fixed my life. i put so much pressure on myself and i hold myself to unrealistic expectations because they do and then i just end up eventually disappointing them and myself and i hate the fact that they made me this person who is never satisfied and never thinks she did enough.

Hi <3

Unfortunately, I think this is a really common thing that happens with kids and their parents. Parents want the best for their kids, so they put a lot of pressure on them. But they forget that putting so much pressure can actually make things worse. That they need to love their kids as they are, not just for what they can be. Sure, as a parent, it's important to have expectations for your kids and push them to be the best they can be, but it's also important to create a safe space for them to be able to push themselves, and parents miss that part.

It seems like your parents love you, but they might not know how best to show that all the time, and that's super frustrating. So I think as you get older, you need to start thinking less about THEIR expectations and more about your own. WHat do YOU want for yourself? What do you expect from you? And then, rather than basing your self esteem on your parents' expectations, think about your expectations. If you can tell yourself that you met YOUR expectations, feel good about what you did, and fuck everyone else! because when you're an adult and living on your own, your parents' expectations won't matter. It's YOU that matters.

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vent anon

Sorry to vent.

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I feel worthless now.

One choice, especially this choice, does NOT make you worthless. Those ten months still exist and nothing takes those away. You are important, your effort matters, and you should be so proud of all of the steps you've taken in the past year to get to this point.

This is a road bump, not a road block. You can keep going, and you are worth so much. I promise <3

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Ambulance anon

Ambulance anon,

Thanks!! I am alive, I will have to stay at hospital for a few weeks, but I guess I can manage that! I need to have a surgery, something is wrong with my chest area (sorry I don't know the health issue names in English).

But I will live and heal I believe!! If we look on the bright side, free top surgery lol-

Anyway, thanks! Writing helps to spend time while resting, and your fics are always a good way too!🩷💜

Omg that sounds so scary! I'm glad that you seem to have a positive outlook and you're safe now. I'm sending you happy healing vibes, and keep me updated if you want to/remember to!

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14 anon

I’m fucking terrified they’re taking all our council benefits away from us

Council benefits are basically payments of money we get for certain things. so like we get one that covers most of the rent and housing benefits etc. well before Christmas everything switched to universal credit and they’re taking all the extra money that we need bc my mum doesn’t work away from us. We’ve lost more than £400 a month and they’re just gonna keep taking.

What if they take my disability living allowance away, Cas??!! That’s £549 and that can already go down when I reach 16/18.

We’re gonna be properly poor at this rate and I don’t know what to do. We have to buy specific foods and water because of my eating issues and we won’t be able to afford that very soon, I feel.

14 anon

God, that's terrifying. It sounds like you don't live in the US so I'm not familiar with specific programs that are available but are there other programs available? Are you able to ask your doctor? Can you look into reasons WHY they would do these things? When I'm anxious, I find that figuring out as much info as possible helps me.

I'm so sorry that you have to worry about this now. You don't deserve that. It's absolutely awful.

[typingwithmyhandstied]

it might seem crazy what i'm bout to say..

i'm from austria😭 so! we know how that went

-💛

(now everyone reading this knows who i am so i shall run)

Oh that's sucky, but I am glad that you were okay in the end. 💛💛💛💛

[gaveyouigaveyoui]

fave fearless album lyrics for it's annivesrary?

ohh i love this! okay let's go:

back then i swore i was gonna marry him someday, but i realized some bigger dreams of mine

and i love you for giving me your eyes, staying back and watching me shine

it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

i was a dreamer before you went and let me down

all those other girls, well, they're beautiful but would they write a song for you?

and i don't know why but with you i'd dance in a storm in my best dress, fearless

[writingfics-passingtime]

Hi!! I'm so happy to read your new stories after your hiatus, it's amazing to see that you've only gotten better! I actually wanted to send you a message for months, about how your writing helped me through some very difficult times this last year, but I wasn't sure you were still around to read it so I waited, and then I didn't know how to phrase what I wanted to say for so long so here we are months after 😅 (1/4 (lmao this is long, sorry))

Anyways, I wanted you to know that your stories made me smile when I was in the middle of some dark times. I've actually said this before in other asks, that stories like Instinct made me feel so seen in my own insecurities (this last year I've truly felt so lost and like a fish out of water), and then others like Fearless, Innocent or Midgardian weaknesses always lift my mood (and obviously you have other genius ones like Off the record). Soo just wanted to say thanks for that, truly :) (2/4) I really hope you keep sharing your writing if you want (I've gone through writer's block myself for a long time, it sucks). Also, if I remember correctly (I may be wrong lol) you once said you were working on fearless part 2 and had a big part of it written down but didn't have yet a storyline/conflict/something like that to begin the story. I had thought some time ago about something that I think could be a good idea for that (3/4) If you're still interested in the story, I'd love to send it if you're okay with it, just in case it may strike some inspo :) I made it so it fit the themes of part 1 and your writing in general as well as the sneak peeks you posted of fearless p2, but obviously, no pressure if you're not interested in continuing it ^^ Either way, just wanted you to know that your stories have brought me so so much joy and comfort and a safe place, so really, thank you, hope you have a wonderful day :) (4/4)

Anon! Thank you for your indescribably sweet message(s). Hearing these fics have helped people through dark periods is always mindblowing, and such an honour. I'm touched, truly.

I do still have Fearless pt 2 in the drafts - all fluff and no backstory - so I'd love to hear any ideas you'd love to share :)

Again, thank you for your words. You are a treasure <3

[maylorscardigan]

Reputation & TS11.

do you think Taylor will announce or drop Reputation in a few days? Do you think we will see TS 11 soon? I’m curious what your thoughts are with these because there’s been a lot of speculation with it lately. I don’t think she would do 1989 TV dirty like that. Please… thoughts.

*mumbles under breath*

NO.

I do not think we are getting Reputation as an announcement or as a drop this weekend. 1989TV is quite literally her most successful album debut of her career. She is NOT going to disrespect that album by doing that. 1989 TV / SV is her baby. It’s the album that changed her entire career.

So no.

Besides - anyone who truly knows anything about Reputation knows that she is not going to make it obvious. That’s the entire point of Reputation. It’s like the Reputation fans who thought she wasn’t actually going to release 1989 TV and just drop Reputation instead. There are so so so many things that would have gone wrong with that.

SNTV got a short period because when you look at it… while it didn’t have a long Era like Red TV or Fearless TV… it got A LOT. It got a night dedicated to it with the guest appearances and the music video etc. Red and Fearless were released outside of the Eras tour so they got a longer stretch. That being said - she is giving 1989 TV longer.

When she announced 1989 TV she performed “New Years Day” from Reputation and that in itself could be an Easter Egg. If she was going to stick to the 112 day thing then she could announce Reputation on New Years Day and release it for February 16th, 2024. This would give it 46 days of promotion before a release.

Is it possible she just drops Reputation on New Years? No. It’s a Monday. Not to mention a holiday. Logistics nightmare if you ask me.

I am to laugh my ass off if the next album announced is Debut, closing with Reputation towards the end of the tour. Why? It’s exactly something that Taylor would do. Reputation Taylor at least. But I won’t get into my theories as to why I think Debut could be coming next.

As for TS 11…. I don’t see it coming before Eras wraps. The entire concert if designed around her first 10 albums. A LOT would need to be cut and redone to fit a new album into the concert. Not to mention all the work that has already gone into it with the movie and all that. She has a year left of touring with 2024. Two re-records to still get released. She is finishing off the Eras tour with those released then anything going forward will be TS11 and beyond. Releasing TS 11 during Eras would be such a bad business decision. New Albums deserve their own time. Just like Midnights had separate from the tour.

I think fans have become extremely greedy. She dropped two albums in a year with folklore and evermore because there was literally a pandemic going on and she had nothing else to do. Fans want all the re-records on top of each other. They want a new album - all while a world tour is going on. Like… come on guys. She is Taylor Swift, yes. She’s a bit of a super hero. I get it. But she’s still human all the same. Stop demanding so much from her all the time.

Since 2020, we have gotten:

• folklore

• evermore

• fearless tv

• red tv

• midnights

• speak now tv

• 1989 tv.

That is SIX albums. And fans just want more and more and more and more. Other artists… they’ve released one… maybe two if you’re really lucky. Some of released none and are working on one now. You also complain that the sound between 1989 tv and Midnights is too similar but you want TS 11 and Reputation like right now yet if it sounds similar you’ll complain about that… give it a rest and be THANKFUL fans for getting 6 albums in under 3.5 years AND a massive world tour with a three and a half hour show.

Disagree? Cool.

But the vultures need to back off.

((Note: when I say you in the post I do not mean the anonymous directly. I’m speaking about fans in general))

[welcome-to-green-hills]

Oh, this animation is gonna be as raw as Knuckles' Frontiers short…

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!