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#hacks#hacksedit#deborah vance#deborahvanceedit#mine#edit#*#callback*#i love callbacks#evidence*#p r o o f#tag meta#something so... sad? about this to me#like i'm sure it really was in part chosen for the business/legal aspect#but at the same time - deborah isn't marcus. marcus was so crucial to her business /for a reason/#deborah makes emotional and fear-driven choices and the fact that she chose singapore#which she had JUST been told was a demographic of people who appreciated her#when she's scared and afraid and needs her fix of laughter. she finds a venue where the data suggests she'll succeed#and it's the perfect amount of backslide for her i think - she's still not walking back her choice of ava over the show#but she also isn't ~brave enough to just forge ahead with a new path. she needs familiarity and security#she needs her old comedy and her old audience and her old carefree attitude#she can get the first two back and the fact that ava irrevocably changed the third is a big part of why she's spiraling so hard#how do you reconcile deep love of the person who made you someone that can never be satisfied with your old comforts again?
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Ok this is gonna sound fun but, did Timmy ever get any advice from "fairy mason" who was his fairy lawyer in the norm the genie episode. It would be cool to see Timmy have a mentor
Timmy practically lived in Fairy Mason's office throughout his entire schooling at Pixies' Academy. He had lots of questions and discussions and thoughts!!!! And Fairy Mason answered every. single. one of them.
Fairy Mason wrote the letter of recommendation to the Fairy Council to let Timmy work so close with Jorgen on Da Rules' policy changes! Timmy was able to hit the ground running by the time he entered the workforce thanks to it. He also quickly made a name of himself as one of the best lawyers of the Pixie Court due to Mason's tutelage!
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#asks#itty bitties fop au#uay778#after timmy got his job he still maintained contact with fairy mason#but as time passed he relied on his advice less and less#because sooner or later you just gotta make your own choices and rely on your own intuitions!#and fairy mason is very proud of timmy!!!#usually when someone constantly asks for your advice. theres that fear that what theyre hoping for is to become you.#or as near identical as you so that theyd never have to make their own choices or their own thoughts#but timmy took his advice and made it into his own and became his own fairy. he simply needed mason's guidance to understand things!#fairy mason was on call though when they had to re-release norm#thankfully timmy didnt have to call him but he was on standby
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Oh I misread that last post actually. While Jason's loneliness definitely resonates, I don't think it's self made in the slightest.
If anything he's guilty of reaching out at any cost - originally by using violence and antagonism to force interaction (UTRH and BiB, arguably the titans tower thing), and later by consistently showing up when called no matter how badly he's been treated, doing Bruce's bidding, and being 110% willing to sacrifice himself for the cause in the hopes that it'll finally be enough, even though it never is.
#jason todd#his isolation is a direct result of others actions#whatever your opinion of Catherine and Willis you cant deny that their choices left Jason isolated and lonely#bruce didn't let him join a team as robin and encouraged the prioritising of vigilanteism above all else#and then he's dead and when he comes back all his fears about not being important enough are confirmed in his eyes#the outlaws teams falling apart are obviously doylist fuckery#but in universe it's ends up looking like his teammates also just had different priorities too#i don't really know what my point is here beyond saying i dont think it's fair to blame a person for their own loneliness#when it's repeatedly the actions of other people that leaves him so isolated
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there is interesting johndean subtext and insinuations across kripke era, usually through an antagonist insinuating parent-child sexual violence in order to exert dominance over dean. this type of mockery exploits that ambiguous relationship between john and dean and reminds dean that he never had a normal relationship with his father, and that makes him gross and wrong. it doesn't actually matter in the end whether john was sexually abusive to dean. the core of their relationship was damning enough: dean was made to take the place of john's wife—to comfort john and raise sam—while simultaneously being his son. the codependent nature of their relationship implies the incest that underscores their dynamic. again, this is regardless of what literally occurred between dean and john because there is enough doubt toward the nature of their relationship that multiple antagonists can use it against them.
sonwife, brotherhusband—dean is stuck in a liminal space between family and lover and is unable to put his feet firmly on just one side and instead has to accept both together or abandon both together. he doesn't get to have a relationship with his family without it being simultaneously incestuous. he plays the role of wife to john and mother to sam as mary's replacement; he therefore becomes more than a son and transcends the boundaries of the familial into the incestuous. it's baked into the dynamic and he can't hope to escape the liminality in which he's stuck without abandoning his entire family altogether.
this ambiguous relationship is further acted out with sam, where people perceive them as lovers rather than brothers; where their mutual devotion trumps, neglects, and disallows any other close relationship outside each other; where their physical closeness is viewed through an unusually sexual lens despite no literal sex acts between them taking place on screen. once again dean is stuck in a liminal space, paralleling the ambiguous and uncertain relationship he had with john.
in the end, sex (and sexual violence) is just a symbol of this codependency and uncertainly incestuous dynamic. sex acts in kripke era end up being symbolic: misinterpretations of sam and dean's relationship; accusations of sexual violence; literal, on-screen sexual moments between the brothers and someone else. it's a literary device that highlights the incestuous themes of the show. dean hand-picks women for sam to fuck because it allows dean to be symbolically part of sam's sex life. henricksen accuses john of raping dean because it is a symbol of the unhealthy, codependent relationship dean had with his father. the samulet stays on during sex because sam is symbolically integral to dean's sexual gratification (seen too in the way both dean and cassie in 1.13 appear to kiss the amulet at least once in the dark room). sex is used to signify more than what's literally on the screen, and the connections between the literal sex acts and the blurred lines of dean's familial relationships allow for a reading of incest between both john and dean and sam and dean.
it never mattered whether johndean or samdean had a sexual relationship in the canon because that was never the point. the point is the liminality that permeates the narrative. sam, dean, and john all stand upon a threshold between acceptable and taboo. the point of it all is the doubt and anxiety, the are-they-aren't-they that is never answered. the absence of incest within the text invites the understanding that the incest was, in fact, always there.
#supernatural#wincest#samdean#johndean#i've been thinking about this yesterday since i talked about it with mac#figured i could share it here too and hopefully move on lol#i tried so hard to make this easy to understand but i fear that i will be misinterpreted nonetheless#i suppose that's what happens when your topic of choice is literally Doubt Uncertainty and Liminality#i focused this on dean's relation to the liminal incest of the narrative only because he's the common thread between johndean and samdean#obviously sam dean and john all equally occupy the liminal space here#dean simply worked as a good focal point through which i could make the argument#.txt#spn posting
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im trying to read post canon yoohankim fics and i can't be bothered to look for them on ao3 like...... im not going to lie a lot of it is really boring.... its fluff in a way that really doesnt appeal to my taste. uh oops I just wrote a bunch of shit in the tags
#i need them to stay codependent and silly and funny. i need kim dokja to try to break up with them. i need him to be scared of#his own sexuality and think that he's not a good romantic partner due to his problems#i need yoo joonghyuk to be afraid for kim dokjas wellbeing. as soft as they may have come to be after the scenarios#i think they get to have a few mental breakdowns#i need to see han sooyoung get angry and cry and have her fingernails dig inside the palm of her hands#i need them to kiss and be desperate. even in a peaceful world they still have their own issues that can just go away#kim dokja understands that he is loved by others but can he TRULY get rid of his fear of being loved?#yoo joonghyuk has found some meaning and purpose to their life of suffering but is that easy to live after only surviving?#han sooyoung has surrounded herself with a family but can she truly sleep at night with the selfish choices she made to save them?#like PLEASE.. i want more than just kim dokja learning how to be loved. it is fun but i want MORE. yhk is about deeply angsty characters#can we treat them as such#they're so traumatized and selfish. they broke the space time continuum for each other. several times#they broke the fourth wall together and youre only gonna make them CUDDLE? i want to see BLOOD EVERYWHERE#orv#orv spoilers#omniscient reader's viewpoint#yoohankim
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I haven’t stopped thinking about them since I first saw them stand next to each other in kakariko village
#tears of the kingdom#totk#tauro#paya#tauropaya#LISTEN#LISTEN TAURO IS BEEFY SMART NERDY AND SUPPORTIVE#having doubts about the ability to lead your village as its new head?#questioning whether you personally investingating the ruins was the right choice/priority?#FEAR NOT FOR TAURO WILL VALIDATE YOU#AND CALL YOU BRILLIANT WHEN YOU HELP SOLVE QUESTS
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February 27, 2018: Six years ago today, we recorded the first song we ever devised using what would become Corduroy Institute's signature methodology.

On that auspicious occasion, S.A. Morin arrived at the location which would subsequently be christened the O'Higgins Laboratory of Recorded Sound. There, W. Ruiz had prepared a makeshift recording setup centered around his Tascam DP-24SD Portastudio multitrack recorder.
W. Ruiz wielded a mixed array of machines consisting of the Moog Sub Phatty, the Volca FM, the Electribe ES-1, and the Volca Beats. S.A. Morin's tools consisted of a portable pedalboard and his newest acquisition, the Squier Bass VI. This six string instrument became our unofficial third member by appearing on every single song we have ever released.
After recording three layers of multitracked improvisations, we consulted the B. Davis Archive. We made stanzas using only cutups taken from across the spectrum of print media. This has remained our sole method for generating lyrical content for our songs. Then we sang, and then the session ended.
The recording we made on that occasion six years ago today became "Fear is Your Choice." It became the first song on the first EP we ever released to the public. Bandcamp download codes for this EP are available upon request for the rest of the month.
https://corduroyinstitute.bandcamp.com/track/fear-is-your-choice
https://music.apple.com/us/album/fear-is-your-choice/1448639683?i=1448639690
https://youtu.be/1ORg10-Topc?si=GGpqDZhuNGY-9gCZ
https://open.spotify.com/track/5KFJwXxLAd3k2EK10nqSUj
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Merlin (BBC) // Anne Carson, The Beauty of the Husband
#they. make. me. fucking. crazy#merlin loved Arthur to the point of fear. the choice between fear & love as a drive for your destiny into self fulfilling prophecy#Merlin#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon#king arthur#arthurian legend#bbc merlin#Anne Carson#parallel#parallels
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Imogen Temult, Exaltant Hope of the Red Storm
Heroes and Monsters by Penny & Sparrow // Critical Role Campaign 3
#thinking about the 4sd where laura was talking about how all the hells titles are good but imogens sounds like it has a double meaning#that shes the storm's hope rather than just the intended a hope that comes from the storm.#and all of imogens 'i am the storm' esque responses#something something what does it mean to turn away from the storm when the storm is inextricable from who you are on both a psychological#and metaphysical level. how do you turn away from your fate when its already in your veins#imogen answers: you don't! you take it into you. and i think that's fun!#me holding imogen's arc in my hands so I can look away from the context it exists in: this is wonderful#critical role#imogen temult#cr3#bell's hells#predathos#liliana temult#also god. i really miss fcg and imogen. not only was fcg the only witness to a lot of imogen's most significant moments of internal conflic#he was also often the only one that could successfully get her to elaborate on vague claims she would make about how she feels about#the moon and the storm and their fight and all her fear and her willingness to be scared and still do the Right thing even if it risks her#life. and I remember how much fcg's presence was often imogen's impetutus to take seriously that the gods matter to people. because imogen#was the first and often the loudest one to insist fcg had a soul. but it wasn't until the magic of the everlight through pike and their#realization of a meaning through the changebringer that fcg really began to value themself. and she saw how much the gods really could be#this powerful and good force in a person's life beyond just granting them magic. and it led to her often pushing back against (thought ofte#in over delicate and tentative ways) ashton's claims against the gods. but fcg is gone and he died for the hells. and imogen doesn't have#that ever present reminder amongst the storm that the choices she makes will echo out farther than the people she cares about.#also just. they were besties 2 me. they bullied each other but also put the most effort into both challenging and understanding each other.#actually. now thinking about it. fcg and imogen had maybe the most illustrative dynamic of what bh could've been and failed to be. alas ala#cr spoilers#my post#long post#web weaving#web weave#cr edit
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For the first time since your fateful meeting, you're really and truly mad at him.
Of course you know what you want to do is foolish, dangerous. But this is your risk to take. Despite his teasing, Sylus doesn't own you.
He doesn't even look up from his paperwork. "No."
It was a courtesy to tell him why you wouldn't be home tonight. He doesn't get to tell you no.
You give him a chance to rethink it. "Excuse me?"
He turns the page. Makes a note. As if the conversation wasn't even worth his attention. "I'll handle it tomorrow. Just go to bed, sweetheart. I left out a new pair of pajamas for you."
Seething, you steal his bike, leaving the estate with big plans to show him exactly what you think of his high handedness.
That plan doesn't come to fruition, though. Because someone tipped off the mark.
They're waiting for you when you arrive. You're taken down in seconds, a week of careful plotting gone to waste.
Bound and gagged, they leave you alone in the dark. Just waiting for whatever punishment will be mete out. They'll kill you for this. But first they'll hurt you.
It's all you can do, cycle through fear after fear. A rabbit in the snare.
The light of dawn is red as it floods the room and your fate steps through the door.
"We'll have to work on your manners, darling," Sylus tells you. "We don't bite the hand that feeds us."
#Sylus posting#tw yandere#cw yandere#I think if you try to leave him hes deceptively calm. but then you find your life falling apart in the worst of ways#whatever you fear most. you're faced with it#and of course Sylus knows how to break you. you're the love of his life.#and of course you know it's him behind all the terrible things happening to you.#but he does it all with such surgical precision. you have no choice but to come back to him. even if you hate him.#he's tamed you.
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Thinking how Lane’s descriptor of Ethan being a Gambler sticking for the rest of the franchise
#technically spoilers I guess so I’ll tag it#mi spoilers#mission: impossible#mission impossible the final reckoning#mi tfr#I watched the movie again tonight and mmm thoughts but also tired and have work tomorrow#but basically I’m fascinated by lanes accurate analysis of Ethan being a gambler being something that everyone else is in fear off#you’re gambling the lives of millions on this thing that’s basically impossible#and it’s also the through line from rogue nation: Ethan is the one who can see the only way#a very take the third option protagonist#and then when Ethan talks to Sloane and is like: your choices are really shitty right now#but I was also thinking another how Gabriel and Kittridge think they know how Ethan will act#Kittridge having the benefit of experience but still miscalculating because idk he just lacks human awareness for the one unpredictable guy#and then Gabriel who likes to think himself a chess master when in reality he pisses Ethan off so much#like they both force his hand but not through any sort of genuine understanding of him but by putting him into corners#and like they can both clock Ethan’s motivation: protect his team and do what he thinks is right#but they can’t use that to predict his next move accurately because Ethan’s whole thing is having to take the third option
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Saintly 'destroyed by your own devotion', part 2. Angled photo and WIP below.


#hugin scribbles#gravity falls fanart#gravity falls#fiddleford fanart#gravity falls fiddleford#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddauthor#implied... as is billford#really like how the little bill ended up#anyways... oooops! your old college buddy you definitely didnt have a thing for called and you drop everything including your family to be#there with him except aliens and mythical beings are real and Threatening and you just saw your worst fear because your#definitely-not-a-crush has no sense of self preservation so you do what any sane person does. make a gun to erase your memory cause#godforbid you leave this man to go back to your family. im sure its fine! even though your crush is horrified when he found out but hey no#now he doesn't remember so its okay! also the thing im working on for him definitely is ominous. but hey its fine.#also totally started a community help group surrounded around the memory gun! i have strong convictions that my choices are the right ones#theres nothing to worry about. i dont even remember that there was something to worry about!#stanford pines fanart
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FANFIC TIIIME
I've only read a few sentences yet and I'm already hyped!! Rambling in the tags below (part 1)
#💬 rory rambles#puppeteer au#YES we WERE in dire need of Pomni-centric content thank you dear author#the ribbons being endless and everywheeere. based#PASSENGER IN YOUR OWN BODY MENTIONED#girl I love the determination (though we all know how this will end)#THE REFERENCING THE DAY ONE COMIC AAAAAAHHHHH#I AM FREAKING OUT RN#and the allusions to The Incident hehehehehehheh#ohh Kinger... never change#the hinting that maybe Gangle stayed away from Jax because she feared getting injured. because she wasn't powerful enough yet#hmmm oh yes yes I am considering it#MY SECOND ONESHOT'S EVENTS fuckkk I really don't like that one anymore. really don't like it#but I respect your choice to include it#I didn't give you guys much “canon” lore to go off of after all#about certain events#...because I didn't HAVE very certain events in mind. just a vague direction for things to go tbh. I was just fuck it we balling it#STRUNG UP LIKE AN ABSTRACT ART INSTALLATION#exactly exactlyyy#HAHAHAHAH OHH WOW THAT IS HORRIFYING#HER SPEAKING THROUGH ZOOBLE#I LOVE THAT#yeah Pomni is a nervous laugher I getcha girl#fun fact (just remembered this from Jax showing up brandishing scissors) I have thought of a sort of “bossfight”#between Gangle possessing Ragatha vs Jax and Pomni. for funsies. whenever I listen to a specific Spider Dance remix I imagine it#GANGLE HAVING A MONSTER FORM???? YES PLEASE#“She'd never thought that Jax could scream like that. She never thought he was capable of begging like that.”#I am grinning like a sick sadistic freak rn#THEM BOTH SPEAKING AT ONCE ohh haunting. I enjoy it#I'll wrap it up on this post bc there's a tag limit BUT I'M STILL GOING
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stg, being an enjoyer of jane twdg is like being forced into an expert-level course on the way misogyny manifests in video game spaces.
god forbid a woman be complex or difficult or provably mischaracterized (see tags) at the end of her arc to service the culmination of a man’s storyline.
#“kenny was harrowed by loss in his family” so was jane. that is part of them literally being foils.#“kenny teaches clem more!” literally untrue a lot of clem’s combat style is rooted in what jane taught her (targeting the knees & basically#everything clem knows about knife combat- jane is also mirrored with lee in this sense as like was previously stated knife combat later goe#on to become a major element of how clem fights only outweighed by her use of firearms)#she teaches clem the gut trick & we see the innovative thinking that comes with being more independent & proactive influence the way clem#handles sticky situations & deals with feeling disempowered. like this is going to sound odd but the fact that her behaviour mirrors jane#at her best (even though her relationship with aj is more maternal the way she approaches him much more as an equal & capable of holding#agency over his own life is much more reminiscent of the way she was treated by jane & luke positively + the rest of the adults negatively#than how kenny or even lee treated clem [though lee did start to view her this way after the train] + her people reading skill.) & at her#worst (isolating herself + becoming cold + the fact she is [based on player choice] willing to leave aj behind for both their survival +#struggling with her need for community vs her sense of distrust in their lasting stability + her tendency to be unfeelingly pragmatic to a#fault except when it comes to aj + the fact that clem- at her worst is self-serving & somewhat uncaring in comparison to kenny’s possessive#hot-headedness etc) indicates that on some level- regardless of a player’s second season ending- clem considered jane to be a better#behavioural role model- this isn’t to say kenny was unimpactful but rather that his impact was different- where behaviourally we see elemen#of lee luke jane & even carver in clem’s later behaviour kenny’s impact is more so that of a cautionary tale- somebody clem cared for who#she witnessed lose himself entirely to his worst character flaws due to an inability to cope with the world she now lives in- something he#even admits to her in multiple endings iirc. kenny becomes the fate clem must strive against at all costs.#similar can be said of the ending where you go with jane regarding how it analogies clem’s fears & low self worth as a result of being#unable to maintain what she had with aj (in a manner that mirrors jane’s story in that she’s choosing to leave behind a living relative due#to no longer being able to be what they need- again depending on player choice*)#*my exact memory of the third season is hazier tbh. iirc it is dependent on player choice whether she is complacent with the decision to#make her leave the new frontier.#like the way the ending was handled was sloppy & jane was mischaracterized as a result of being shoved into a conflict that we know for#certain was not intended to go to her. calm down & just enjoy your man without being weird & misogynistic dear god.)#(also if you like clem & jane you will like holly robinson & selina kyle dc)#twdg jane#jane twdg#twdg
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im going Feral about how charles' mutation is always treated differently from everyone elses. charles (rightly) gets a lot of flack for only taking in the pretty mutants, but i think thats bcus he knows how isolating it is to have a power that is considered inherently a violation of consent. unless charles is 100% 24/7 a paragon of self control, hes GOING to hear your thoughts. asking him to stay out of your head is like asking him not to look at you, its just one of his senses like any other. and i think also thats why he snowballs so easily into huge violating acts like memory wipes and segmentation of identity - if everyone reviles him anyway for his natural, unconscious sensing of surface thoughts, feelings, vibes, traumas, etc etc, then why not do the huge messed up stuff they will also hate him for? he has to keep everything he knows about everyone a secret anyway, so as not to damage their sensibilities, whats one more horrendous secret? one more violation? and erik, of all people, who tells mystique not to cover up, who tells beast to be blue, tells charles "get out of my head".
#x-men#cherik#sort of#i think a lot of cherik fics fall into the trap of 'charles is really great at controlling his powers'#you fool you've fallen for his mask!!!!!!#the daily dilema that charles must struggle with - mostly alone - is how much to personally sacrifice for the sake of others' autonomy#when your natural state is a violation; how much of yourself must you strip apart#how much of yourself do you suppress#im not excusing deliberate choices he makes - especially memory editing#but i can see where the lines become blurred#when i subconsciously fancy a cup of tea and at the same time you spontaneously decide to make me one -#did i accidentally project my desire for tea? did i accidently psychically nudge you into making you one?#do i act on thoughts i hear or do i pretend i didnt hear them?#when people fight for me and my cause; are they swayed by my words or my emotions or my will?#when you're trying to save the world; does it matter?#and this burden of power and knowledge: do i share it and be subject to disgust and fear#or do i shoulder it alone and bear the isolation
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yk, v2 was supposed to be a security robot. what if she was looking after limbo before v1 pulled up
#specifically the drones#theory v2 painted the blush lines on the drones#those were her dumbass children#maybe kept the streetcleaners from burning her plants#v2 was toriel for the drones#i'd imagine she made it to lust#but saw the big ass corpse shambling around#and went “fuck that” and went back upstairs#there's a perfectly good house in limbo why wouldnt she take over#that or the mindflayers scared her#headcanon v2 fears women#either in the mindflayers are formidable opponents way#or in the lesbian way#the choice is yours#v2 ultrakill#ramblings of a madman#ultrakill
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