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[suneslvr]

GRAPES OF WRATH. - Samuel T. Owen (Sato )

🎧 listening to - concrete jungle (bad omens)

CONTENT. - heavy themes of manipulation, sexual themes (consensual and non consensual ), mind break, humiliation (non-sexual), broken bones, yandere/obsessive behavior, unknown character death, infantilization, gun play, violence & murder, age difference, terrorism’

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The theory of immortality is confusing.

The idea that a living, breathing, human, can overcome the disease that is death is one that many have left to their imaginations.

To be human, to be alive - is to die. The process of your cells breaking down, once your heart beats one last time, is a fate which many of us will soon know. A fate that all organisms have known. Whether their heart stops beating or not.

So, what do we call these … Agins?

They simply cannot be human, they disregard every human being’s greatest goal. “death” but they were born human weren’t there? raised as a human? Speak like we do, eat like we do, is it a mimicry? Have they been faking the traits that all humans know? For what purpose?

so many questions.

They build up in the mind like a ticking time bomb, keeping you from doing the simplest of tasks. - Ever since you saw the news that faithful day.

A young reporter, one that even looked slightly like you. Stood in-front of what looked like a mental hospital. You and your friends gathered in front of the tv inside your friend’s little bedroom, watching in silence as the reporter confirmed that there are beings out there, who have defeated death. That one of them, resembling a human, a man, tall, dark, and almost cute had escaped one of these facilities that was meant to hold them. With the help of one of their other “Agin” buddies.

The confusion clouded like gas, thick. With an abundance of questions. Your friend was the first speak out, Naomi, the owner of the little room you sat in.

“I gotta call my parents! this has to be fake!” she said fumbling with her phone as she stood up.

“Nah, I don’t think it is,” Chloe started, they wouldn’t put a prank like this on national tv.” You shook your head in agreement,

“hopefully uhm, they catch them soon?” your voice comes out unsure, not helping with Naomi sopratic behavior.

“I hope they don’t.” Chloe leans back on her chair, pulling out her phone. “Who knows what they did to him in that lab, probably ran all types of experiments.”

Only if you knew the end of it.

Only if they had shown a photo of the Agins on that faithful day, the dark man who had escaped wasn’t the villain in your story, just another player on a chess board played by a wannabe god.

And the wannabe god was certainly was close to it.

He didn’t even bother tying your hands up the first time he laid you in that thin metal bed, you were stripped of your clothes, only left in a pair of pink cotton underwear and fluffy socks. He had laughed when you offered him money, combed his hands through your hair, when you tried to beg for your freedom, wondering why you were in that predicament in the first place.

The first night was your only night of peace, when you think about it. Waking up the next morning to the sound of playful shooting games and the heaviness of your swollen eyes. Slowly blinking open to the sight of a metal warehouse.

“your awake now sleepyhead?” He only glimpsed up at you from his chair. His constant clicking keeping his attention off of you.

The first thing you had thought of was how strange this whole situation was. Who was this strange man? Why hasn’t he even looked up at you! were you going to die? was he going to sell you off as meat to some old men around the world? Or is this some type of sex slave thing?!

Like he can read your thoughts, he sits up and stands next to you. Every nerve, muscle and bone in your body quakes at you to run. Flight or flight kicking in as your hand bunch up the much softer blankets below.

“your probably very confused right now? I’m not one for monologues but I uh don’t watch you to be to scared.” he’s much taller than you, now that you can see him up close and not under the dark moonlight. Much bigger too, more masculine than any man you’d ever seen. Older as well. But you can’t tell his actual age, not from the contrast of his face to his body.

You wouldn’t stand a chance.

“You’ll be staying here for a while with me, won’t worry I won’t keep you separated for long, I even had the bedsheets changed to be more comfortable.”

he pulls a piece of loose hair behind your ear, in an almost sappy way. Like in those romantic drama you used to love so much.

“I wouldn’t run either, I wouldn’t want to have to break one of your pretty arms, right baby?” You externally cringe at the pet name . The expression washing over your face. “I uh… sorry, I’m not used to this.” He looks almost… embarrassed? But that’s not the correct term. Almost pitiful, you would say. He even washes his hands over his face dramatically as he left you there on the bed. Fully unrestrained.

And you sat there. Unrestrained for days. Months probably. By yourself in a room. With nothing but the uncertainty and confusion of your situation.

In reality it had only been two weeks, The only human interaction was with that creepy old man and the quiet ginger who brings you food. The only time you’ve really spoken was with the latter, it was on one of the days where your fate weighed heavy on you. Your eyes becoming swollen and you couldn’t help but sob into yourself. The thin man had happened to come in around meal time, pushing a plate of rice and soup onto your dresser.

“Uh-uhm. Are you okay?”

He came up behind you, hesitant to touch you in your state.

“Hey I get it- I felt powerless before too. But trust me, Satos only going to help you!”

Sato.

The only real thing you took from that conversation.

Sato is the one who took you away from your life to put you in a playhouse with only metal walls, a bed and a tv.

And you thought the boredom was the extent of your problems.

The boredom that soon rotted away with the presence of the same man, the one you thought was too scared to even show himself around you.

“Whew I’m beat.” He starts.

You blink up. your body clutching around the covers in your defenseless state.

It takes you a second to adjust but you wish you hadn’t.

You certainly wish you hadn’t seen him covered in blood, his overalls stained with scent of ash and crimson.

You jump up, your bodies instincts failing you once again as he grabs you.

“Chill..” he whispers as he holds you down, his voice deep and low, your stomach filling over as his scent overtakes your being.

“what happened?” You manage to cough out, your voice seeming unrecognizable even to yourself, not even realizing why you asked the question.

“aww are you worried about me? Most of this blood was mine, so I guess you’re not far off.” He chuckles like he isn’t pressing you down into the bed. You quickly shake your head.

“Why would I be worried about you?!” You ask, with more venom than intended. “You’ve kept me locked up here like some patient!”

he’s not stunned by your outburst, not at all. Only laughing as he presses his head into your neck.

“Do you miss being outside?”

The words shock you more than his actions do, you don’t make a sound, however, shaking your head with less hesitance than you wished.

“How about we make a deal then?” He waits a moment before starting. He starts without words, with a kiss actually. A soft kiss to the soft of your neck. It’s sensitive, not from anything sexual but from the lack of human touch. “Don’t fight me, and I’ll let you outside?”

You’ve been bidding your time for a while. Every time he waltzed into your room. And laid in your bed without words, playing his little games or fumbling with the controller. You knew you couldn’t beat him, you knew that there was something different about him that ruined your chance of your body even trying to fight him. Now that it’s confirmed, with both his body language and the stains of blood he lays in, that If he tells the truth, this might be your only way out.

But actions speak louder than words. So commences. You were unsure if you’d let him rape you if he’d wanted to, but you were unsure if that would even be considered rape. Especially if you moan whenever his harsh lips meet your skin, sucking red and blue bruises into it. His knees in between your thighs as you held onto his blood-riddled shirt. You would almost hump his leg if let alone for another week.

“Have you had your first kiss yet?” He says softly, his voice is still so deep, and almost exhilarating as he grinds his knee against your clit.

“N-no” you whimper out, and he laughs at you again, it’s probably his favorite thing to do, giggle at your expressions or your cries.

The memory after it, kinda flutters in your mind. But he definitely keeps his promises.

Letting you outside to watch the buzzing city life. Not without the repayment of your body, not always sexual but your time as well.

Listening to him yap away about his video game rants. His playful energy would be almost delightful to be around if not your predicament. And the more time you spent with the others, the more your head cleared from the delirious state he had previously kept you in. Now gathering pieces of your old self.

Your old mind and humanity.

He loves to keep you entertained, wresting as a form of foreplay, before he ripped the peices of clothes he was hesitant to give you in the first place, (until he remembered that if you were to be around others, you had to be some-way decent). You could even inflict damage that would surely leave a scar, and as long as it lasted you found yourself using your full strength against him. Always to end up face down, with him whispering the filthiest things in your ear and his large hands creating bruises around your hips.

The constant drive in your mind grew as soon as you found out what his true nature was.

Which happened in a way, most might deem comical.

You were sitting in a larger room with two of Satos friends, unnamed and unimportant when a familiar face walked right through the door. Not familiar in the way as someone you would’ve known but someone you had wished to avoid in your normal life.

Tanaka.

An agin.

A creature. One that couldn’t be considered human, who broke all laws that surrounded human nature,

Your body had been conditioned around blood and violence, consistently filtering out the names of government officials, high towers that were continently destroyed on the news the next day, or the room, the constant location switches, the metal door which you had believed wasn’t filled with guns and weapons of war .

Everything clicking in your mind, from the first time you saw Tanakas escape to when they had bombed a pharmacy and Sato had turned off the tv before you had the chance to only see the familiar gray hair and thick eyebrows, in your heart maybe you’ve even heard his name before!

How could you be so stupid!

So stupid to believe that everything had an explanation that you didn’t need to be told. That all you had to focus on was gaining Satos trust even if that mean cockwarming through long matches of his games. All of it was for nothing because the people you had sat along with, were a different version of monster.

And before you knew it, your barefooted feet, were hitting the metal of a door; locking yourself in with only two ways out. A locked back entrance and the door you had just came out of. Even that escape was lucky, you didn’t know what they were capable of! And now that you’ve locked the door, what will they do to you? But it won’t matter because you won’t be there to find out! Throwing yourself, slamming your fist until their dark and blood. You don’t even get to savor the satisfaction of getting the door open.

Only him. A known terrorist, someone you’ve let violate you, even after he took you from your home, and killed all of those people!

but it’s not time to wallow! You try and push past him the best you can. Small fists being gripped and pushed behind your back, but you continue to struggle, to fight, to kick and push and headbutt. To scream and wallow and cry like the first time you were brought here, like after the first time he had kissed you and stolen your innocence. But it’s all useless.

As soon as the others get the door open, you’re pinned to the floor; your arm snapped in half and your eyes clenched shut in pain.

“Such a sorry sight, almost kinda feel bad for her,”

He doesn’t even speak; no response but another laugh. One that rings in your ear at the sound of your arm snapping,

Snap, and his laugh,

As he carried you back to another room.

Snap and his laugh,

As he stripped away your clothes until you laid naked on the cold floor,

Snap and his laugh,

Is all that replays when he finally mounts you, and doesn’t stop until there’s blood.

Snap and his laugh.

As he toys with you, throughout the days.

But maybe this feels better than before,

Knowing you’re not letting this happen, that you fought and lost.

That you didn’t enjoy the constant jokes and conversation.

Or enjoy him in anyway. That you weren’t craving his attention and touch on particularly cold night. Praying no God could hear you moan out his name as he spelled his name with his tongue.

Or enjoy his comfort. That you didn’t bat an eye when he told you not to worry about all the bad things he did.

You knew it all along and him being an Agin wasn’t the breaking point.

It feels good knowing that they laugh at you and believe your weak, that they can hear when your moans mix with cries when you call him a monster he forces a gun inside your little hole,

It feels good knowing that you’re helpless and it’s not your fault.

The confusion of it all wipes away, you won’t ever be pliant, you think. Only a mixture of sorrow under the rough hands of the man who shapes you, someone who couldn’t be considered a human, even though he acts, talks and sounds like him. No human would ever treat you like this, or be so cruel, to pretend like you love a real human girl, but all of it is lies, you lie to yourself to feel better about your delirium, to mend the cloud that forms whenever you whisper back “i love you toos”,

A sick joke, played out by an even sicker thought .

[atlabeth]

now that the dust has cleared from the chaos for me irl, i want to officially thank you all for 3000 followers!! because wow. where do i even start?

this isn't a milestone i thought i would ever reach. i made this blog during my junior year of high school when i was bored as hell in online school, not knowing what would come of it, and honestly not expecting anyone to read anything i’ve written. i exclusively wrote avatar fics (kind of embarrassing that a series i started at the beginning of my blog still isnt finished huh?) because it was what i had been watching most recently. i started to gain some recognition, made some friends, and slowly but surely i carved out my little corner of the internet. and now, 3 years, 3000 followers, and almost 500,000 words later, i’m going into my junior year of college with some of the best online friends a girl could ask for (shoutout to my day 1 @simplysolo for still being around and still being the best ever, and shoutout to all my other tumblr friends that have deactivated over the years</3 i miss you guys) a whole array of fandoms that i’ve dabbled in, and a newly discovered thing for middle aged men. cool 

i truly cannot thank you all enough. i’ve always been a writer, but this blog has given me a sorely needed creative outlet and made me more confident in my writing skills than ever. at the end of the day i’m just writing silly little x reader fics, but i’ve truly had so much fun doing it! every single fictional man im in love with is also in love with me isn’t that crazy!!!

a special, extended shoutout to the loveliest mutuals i’ve picked up over the years. i wouldn’t be half the writer i am and i wouldn’t have half as much fun on here without you all. @simplysolo for being around since the beginning and truly being the greatest person on this app, i love you intensely, @sokkadora for being another one of my ogs (we dont talk anymore but i see you every so often on my dash and you’re doing great!!) @mcallmestiles for being one of the first avatar fics i ever read, traitor encouraged me to be a better writer and i hope you’re doing well with your medical career!! @tangledinlove for being my most famous mutual, the kindest person in the world, and being brought together through the power of lockwood, @giyuji and @milkiane who are both inactive but who i have to tag because i love them and i hope they’re doing well; naomi you got me into the grishaverse and liane we were in the trenches of the stranger things revival together, @boneblushed for dealing with so much but still being phenomenal and lovely in every way, @tommymcartney for being so sweet all the time, my biggest cheerleader and encouraging my insanity in every fandom ive been a part of, @nghtwngs for being the only person who loses it over nikolai lantsov as much as i do, to all my new/more recent mutuals @hotchfiles @ma1dita @moowithmidnight @emiliehornby @supercutszns i can't wait to get to know or keep getting to know you!!! you're all so lovely!!! and all the mutuals i don’t talk to as much as i should, i love you all and cherish you in my heart regardless of if we talk every day or have never said a single word to each other!! i don’t want to tag you all because i don’t want to bother you, but if you’re looking at this and thinking am i talking about you, i am. i love you. it takes a village and im so lucky to have you all as mine 

i can’t believe it’s been 3 years, i can’t believe i’m halfway done with college, and i can’t believe we hit 3,000. truly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for reading my fics and letting me be some small part of your lives. i can’t wait to write more for you all. keep a lookout for my 3k celebration post! 

[chemicallady]

I LOVE YOU TO DEATH BUT IM DROWING

Part 1

Couple: Noah Sebastian x Fem Reader

Content Warning: smutty content; implies sexual situations and strong language. Also, mentions to mental issues (anxiety, primarily).

Summary:  this your first job as merch girl in tour with a band. Its also the first time for you to fall in love so dramatically for someone that is almost a stranger to you. Someone that you really aren't able to get out of your head. What is Noah Sebastian hiding behind his dark eyes? This description is so cringe that I'm embarrassing myself. Its hard to keep up with the tour routine and your feelings at the same time.

A/N: HI HI HI SWEET LEMON PIES! so I beg you to be gentle because 1. this is my first smut ff and I dont know if I got it or not and 2. I'm not a native speaker. I'm trying my best to find my own place amoung the INCREDIBLE writers of this fandom. Of course what I'm describing is all fictional, I (unfortunately) don't know Noah personally , neither the rest of the band and crew. I have a lot of respect for them all and admiration for the work of art they're doing on tour rn. My intentions are far from being offensive towards them, I only want to deliver some good time to Noah's bitchies like me here on tumblr. I really hope I will! My pm are always open for opinions or talking about the band. Have a good one!

Enjoy

One hands slowly caresses every inch of naked skin on your back while the pace of the pounding slow down a bit. Your body is covered in a thin layer of sweat; you're heavily panting, your legs and arms shaked by a slight flicker. There is nothing that can stop your hair from falling on your face, but your vision is still clear enough to get another quick look the mirror on front of you. The sight brings you to repress a moan, biting your lips. Bended on the small table, partially , you look like a desperate mess. The pleasure you're experimenting is unbearable at this point. You could fall any time soon if it wasn't for the man that is taking you from behind. Noah looks merciless in this moment, while he is holding you still with a firm grip. His hips inconter you naked skin in an harmony of slaps, while he is fucking you. And that's the only sensible sound in the room because you have to keep it quiet; the green room is one wall next the small fitting room in which the two of you are hiding.

You don't have much time. Someone eventually will notice that one of the merch girls is not around before the opening of the gates and your colleague can't cover for you forever.

But in this very moment you're unable to think about anything but the gorgeous man that is rearranging your interiors. His eyes look pitch black in the soft light of the dressing room, his whispers and exhalations are low and scratchy.

He's the hottest thing you have ever laid your eyes on and he is only for you now. You're feeling like he is consuming your soul along with your body.

In a crescendo of intensity his hand comes between your legs, rubbing your clit in a hurry, following the movements of his hips.

He is close and so you are. For you its gonna be your second orgasm in less than fifteen minutes and its mental.

You can feel a pool of familiar warm forming inside your belly while your body starts to tense. The ecstatic pleasure of the orgasm starts to run through your veins, your walls are getting tight around his erection. When you come, it is impossible for you to hold back a sob.

For a second, your vision blurs, and your legs are about to give up. With your last strength, you hold yourself up on the table just enough to let only your breast touch the cold surface of the table while the pounding becomes erratic. His body tenses, rocking in you just twice more, and them he releases. The grip on your hips gets loose but still firm enough not to let you go on the floor.

Ironic enough, this is your favourite part; he gives you the time to get yourself together, landing his head between your neck and your shoulder. The scent of his hair is intoxicating, and all you want is being able to turn around and give him a passionate kiss. But you know it won't happen. Not today, at least, because in the moment he is sure you gained enough strength, he pulls out and starts to fix his clothes. You do the same, still in silent. With the side of your eye, you watch me taking off his condom, while he is cleaning himself with a paper tissue. He hands you one for yourself, avoiding to meet your gaze, and them he fixes his jeans.

《 Are you feeling good?》 , he asks with a raspy voice. It seems like the first time you've heard him speaking today. You are able to nod while you're fixing your panties and skirt, but you're not really into small talks.

He nods as well before leaving the room first, after sharing a shy smile that makes you uncomfortable for a second...

《 y/n? y/n??? You have a costumer.》

Steve's voice brings you back to reality. You guys are pulling away all the merch unsold but some people are still leaving the place, so with a smile that is a bit forced, you turn to them, asking which t-shirt they like to see closer and the size.

It happens all the time. You zone out without any intention since Orlando. That tour date was the one who changed everything.

It was an easy job, in the beginning. You simply know a guy that knows another, who knows Steve, the sales manager for Bad Omens, a metalcore band you kinda like since a while now. Easy job, maybe a bit too much frenetic, but nothing unbearable. You can see different cities, gigs and get a decent pay while having some fun, since you're have no responsability except smiling and selling as much as possible.

Noah got you the evening you met him, a couple of days before the first tour date. You were miserable after a long flight to Los Angeles but he had eyes only for you. He was kind and funny, almost goofy in a couple of occasions. All the members of the crew and band gave you a warm welcome, but Noah was the nicest one. The two of you clicked immediately. He has a lot in common with you, not only music and gaming.

He was the first one to make you feel like you have always been in the crew, part of their big family. What was born as a nice friendship evolved quickly into something even closer, and that's the deal, for you. It was too quick. You couldn't help but look for him any minute of your waking time. Before you could even realise it, you were sitting on his lap, starting a kiss. The kiss you started was followed by his hands on your body and then to a lot of pre show sex.

But this blind passion took off everything else. The laughs, the light chatting, the smiles. Your complicity came to an end, and you didn't see that coming. Noah can barely look at you now. He almost stopped talking to you. And this is heartbroken because you believed you were building something. You never hidden how much you like him, it's evident even without saying it out loud. But you've never thought that it could have been a problem.

Noah Sebastian is beautiful and successful, but he is a man made by flesh and bones. He is human. You are not the type that idiolazed famous people. With this mindset you made your move....

.... the move you're now regretting so much.

《 you have done an amazing job tonight, I havent see you keeping a break》 Steve congratulates you when your last client is served. 《 go and get some beer, I can finish with the boxes with Mandy, right?》

Your coworker barely nod, while she is closing one of the boxes. She is the one who covers for you every day, but she's getting bitter because you still have to tell her what exactly she is covering. The truth is that you're a bit ashamed. You feel like you're selling yourself to the devil, but nothing could help. There is no way you will stop having these incounters with Noah. Maybe in this way you have a chance to fix it. Maybe he will tell you one of these days what he is hiding from you.

What he's ashamed of.

Why hes holding up so much.

But it's not today, and you can tell by the look he gives you when you enter the room where the crew is gathering. Matt cheers you with a can of beer, asking about the tonight selling and if you had any problem. Then he invites you to pick up a slice of pizza and relax a bit. The obvious choice for you is sitting next to Folio, so you can listen to his excited chronicle of the show.

Noah is just a couple of seats away from you but it feels like an ocean apart. You don't even bother to look at him.

You know he won't exchange the gaze...

{ part 2 coming soon }

[snaxle]

you didn't even say it back. kys, i mean. i sent you such a thoughtful letter and all you do is malign me as a fanfic writer, who, even worse, can't even finish her wips. horrible. it wasn't a terrible guess given the demographics of your blog (or so i would conjecture based on halfhearted extrapolation based on crumbs of information absorbed counter to my will through social osmosis here) and the fandom inclinations of tumblrinas at large, though this is a cross i do not personally bear.

the charge levied against me by one commenter, namely that "[you] live rent free in [my] head" is false. a sizable proportion of your followers/mutuals/orbiters presumably are constituted of writers who don't finish their works (many such cases) as well the readers who are subjected to those half finished fictions and therefore cannot concieve of someone who looked at a couple posts, wrinkled their nose in distaste, and cranked out a "drabble" or whatever, closed the tab, and went about their day is out of the realm of imagination of the archetypal tumblrite, weighed down by a dozen half actualised ideas, splotchy faced and writhing around and waving their teensy fat fingered hands, shrieking and grabbing out to be given care and attention and to be nurtured so that they may mature into a finished work.

you may ask me what i am doing here if when i showcase such scorn for the character of the average tumblr user and the answer simply is 1) i don't care i just sound like this as a fixed state of being & 2) im like jane goodall if she was kind of a dick to the chimpanzees sometimes and if she was kind of stupid and insane and wrote screeds to one piece fans online.

becoming a one piece fan is an outstanding suicide prevention measure because it's just one final thing on the list to do forever. so im not really anticipating for any harm to personally visit you, nor do i have any personal stake in your demise or success but instead want for the environment of the internet to be slowly poisoned; first in small, enclosed environments like lonesome, neglected, and dying fish in places as toxic as a never cleaned fishbowl and then maybe, in some rosy dreams of mine, the sea dries up entirely and every whale is beached and terrifying krakens of the sea are brought to light crying and gasping and drying out in the sun and lethal pathogens unleashed when the artic permafrost melts and then evaporates and the sun beats down on all the sea creatures of the world, and bakes them, and the hole where the mariana trench once was reeks of rot for years on end. i wish people could be awful to each other, so so so badly. and you're a perfectly serviceable target, but so am i. i hate you, won't you hate me? why can't all the sisters and the brothers of the earth unlink arms in conjoint discord? if only.

and yet you don't see this vision at all, or don't value it. all this is heaped on you but you toss it aside without regard for the feelings and yearnings of the only anon you've ever received of substance. i wrap my undersized cold black ink secreting heart in some papers for you, crumble it into a ball and hand it to you, and you tag it as suicide bait without even doing suicide baiting of your own. tell me youve had an anon that has devoted 20 minutes to writing you before. repulsive. if it be your will for this to make it to publishing i would like to let the reader know that i would not recommend visiting to future hate anons.

[likesunsetorange]

Hey I was just wondering what are some of your favorite eremika fics. I was hoping to get some that were multi chapter :)

OMG I LOVE THIS QUESTION!!!! linking my bookmarks on ao3 bc i have a bunch of favs in there and then here are some others i remember!! also my fic recs tag here on tumblr has so many by my amazing writer moots!!!

literally anything by dark_titanium she writes the funniest fucking fics and they’re so fun!!! switch is mc and a fandom fav too!!! she’s also here on tumblr and her tumblr is so fun @sunlightandsuffering !!!!

how to coexist by spoiler_arlert is probably one of my all time fav eremika fics and karsyn was actually one of my first friends i made in the fandom :’) i hope she comes back soon i miss her sm!!!

the promised princess by @dead-dolphins i could write an essay about how amazing this fic is like it’s truly novel quality and ro is so fucking talented like i’ve cried so many times reading tpp it’s literally so special to me like i literally adore it with my whole little heart!! i never really read fantasy but tpp made me adore the genre and im even starting asoiaf bc of it!!! i also just love ro so much and i always feel honored to be apart of helping with such an amazing fic!! even if it’s just smth as small as helping with grammar :’)

how to be by infintify is another one of my favs it’s lowkey super angsty and not a lot of people talk about it but it’s super super good!!!!

can’t get enough and the entire 5 star universe by @irememberthedark is my roman empire actually!!! i remember reading that fic before i joined the fandom or wrote dol like i read it sm times and i love that universe sm i tell kb that all the time 😭

touch by fenroargreyfront this is the first em fic i ever read!! it’s only four chapters but im convinced it was the perfect intro to eremika for me and why i love them so much!!!!

degrees of sleeplessness a teacher au!!!!!

a beginners guide to destroying the moon by @darlingkirstein angsty but the em relationship is super sweet and i’ve always loved the summary of it it lives rent free in my head!!!

i could list so many more but if you want any specific recs feel free to ask :))

[joanna-lannister]

For the fandom ask! ->8,12,17,18,19,24! I might have asked too many, so pick and choose as you like!! No pressure of course

Hi! Oh no, don't worry, it's not too many! I had fun answering them! Thank you so much for the ask ❤️✨

8. Fandom you're a part of that's the most obscure?

Can I say the JC fandom? Because it's a very small, unpopular fandom, and not many people are fond of Jaime and Cersei together. So even if I'm very vocal about them, I think it's the most obscure one I can think of.

12. Craziest thing you've ever done as part of a fandom?

Oh, I think it would be getting my JC tattoo! It was so big on my arm, I was scared at first, but now I'm used to it.

17. Favorite blog(s) in your favorite fandom?

The JC fandom is kinda dead to be fair but I would say:

@musical-chick-13

@imnotwholewithoutyou

@alexcabotgf (she hadn't posted JC gifsets in a long time, but her old ones are 👌🏻)

18. All-time favorite fanfic?

"therefore each to other bound" by copacet! This fic gave me everything I ever wanted, and the characterization is perfect.

19. Fanfic you read again and again?

Hmmm, I read "therefore each to other bound" a lot tbh, almost religiously. But I'd say "Until Death Do Us Part" by my friend Annie. It's a Modern AU where Jaime and Cersei are married, and I love it to pieces and keep reading it over and over again.

24. Funniest fandom-related story?

OMGGGG Once upon a time, I blocked another JC stan on Tumblr. Her behavior was really "Meh", very childish behavior, and she kept trying to fight br*imes. And so, I blocked her because I didn't like the vibe she was giving off and she was annoying. Girly got MAD, like mad MAD and everytime she tried to make friends with other JC stans, she used to shit on me. Once, years later, she tagged one of her fics "it's better than most of the Pentos AU you'll read" or something along the lines, and it pissed me off, because you don't shit on your fellow writers, especially in such a small fandom, so I made a vague post about it on my blog. I didn't mention her, only in the convo I had with my friend in the replies. But Ma'am was STALKING MY BLOG, LITERALLY. And a few days later later, she wrote a WHOLE LONG ASS POST about me on her blog, saying I was insane and unhinged. I found out because someone send me the adress of her blog. And honestly? It was hilarious, to see her still being mad years later after I blocked her as if I had murdered her whole family. I didn't say anything about that post because it made me laugh and I don't know what she became, but I do know AO3 banned her for her behavior.

[jayflrt]

HELLO!

I like your work a lot like it's genuinely Hilarious so I thought you would be the best person to ask for this.

I want to make a writing tumblr for enhypen but I'm a little lost because I've never used tumblr (as a creator) before LOL just used twitter and AO3 to write/socmed for fictional fandoms (tbh this is my first time like being a proper fan of a kpop group as to occasionally liking a song or two).

Anyways! What I've gathered from my experience on twitter and the writers I've followed here is obviously your blog should have an intro about you (inc. what you're comfy with, what you write, etc.) and a master list of your works BUT some of Tumblr's mechanics are Confusing.

Like,

1) should I create specific tags for my asks?

2) on twt, usually you create a tweet like "Hi! New to #___twt, looking for moots blah blah" to get an initial burst of likewise new people to bond and communicate with, does it work similarly here and if so/not please elaborate TT

3) is the etiquette to reblog every work you like, or is that spammy and you should just like them?

4) is there any other advice you have for navigating tumblr (like odd quirks)

5) ALSO this is a small dumb question but in the fandoms I've been in until now we usually used socmed au instead of smau do you have any idea why that's different (low-key smau is smarter tho bcus it's a shorter abbreviation)

I think that's all. I tried going through your rules and intro again, but I didn't see anything on whether an ask like this was alright or not, but I hope it is! I didn't want to Like intrude, but I felt most comfortable asking you because you're also desi ❤️❤️.

Anyways!! If this is something you don't want to/don't feel comfortable answering or it's like annoying genuinely just ignore this, I don't want to be make anyone uncomfortable!

omg thank you so much ml, i'm so glad you enjoyed my works!! 🥹 welcome to the kpop community first of all!! did you recently become an engene? :') and welcome to the tumblr ff community too! honestly i feel like if you can navigate ao3 just fine then tumblr shouldn't be too difficult after a while but i'm sure it's confusing at first 😵‍💫

as for your questions i'll answer them in the same order you asked them:

1. honestly i'm not 100% sure if there's any real purpose behind specific tags for your asks other than organization personally LOL but it's pretty helpful if you want to go back to look through your asks for something instead of scrolling past all the posts on your blog !!

2. omg yes i love the twt intros 💗 honestly for tumblr i think i just started posting content right away whenever i made a blog 🤧 i think intros are usually just in your navigation anyways but if you want to talk to different authors then it doesn't hurt to send an ask!! usually people communicate with different authors via the ask box 🥰

3. all sorts of interaction is great but i think reblogs are preferred!! i typically use likes as my bookmarks and then reblogs to comment on work or share it to a wider audience. the algorithm for tumblr works so that your likes don't show for others (unless you make it public on your profile) but your reblogs are on the dashes of people who follow you

4. ooh i'd say make use of the tagging system!! using tags like #enhypen fluff or #enhypen x reader on your fics will make it easier for people to find your work 💘

5. HAHAH I USED TO CALL IT SOCMED AU TOO BEFORE I JOINED TUMBLR 😭 i still use social media au as a tag but i think smau is more widely used here!! not exactly sure why but im guessing its just easier to tag 🙂‍↕️ i get you tho bc i experienced the same culture shock

dont worry you're most welcome to send asks !! 🥰💘 and thank you for reading my rules and intro!! i definitely don't turn away anyone who's looking for advice <33 also omg fellow desi 🫶 welcome to enhablr !

[phdmama]

im not sure if this is the right place to ask this but do you have any advice about writing or posting fic after nearly a decade? the last time i posted fic it was a very different fandom and i was 13 ish. what i am struggling with specifically is that last time i wasnt really thinking about including themes or accurate characterisations etc. and the new fandom i want to write in is much smaller and has some incredible writers. the prose is so good with incredible diction, different styles and literary techniques.

so essentially i've stalled because im so focused on trying to incorporate these things that i just end up not writing anything. i think its also a general lack of confidence maybe?

thank you :)

Hi pal! Sorry it took me so long to answer you - I spent yesterday shoveling and today at work!!

I feel like there are maybe two different things in your ask here? There's the issue of writing (especially in a new fandom) and then there's the issue of posting and wanting people to actually read your stuff!

I know this is such a cliche but I really do actually believe this, which is - when it comes to writing, YOUR VOICE MATTERS! Sure you can absolutely emulate the work you're loving (and there's nothing wrong with that! I've certainly done it, I think a lot of us have, especially in the beginning), but it sounds like you're maybe forgetting the most important part. Which is this, in my opinion. Your story is valuable because it's YOURS. No one else can tell it. That's where all the stuff about "write what you want, for you" comes in.

What would you write if you could let go of all of the expectations you're burdening yourself with, to live up to other people's writing, and just let yourself write?

In part - it's so much easier to edit than it is to write (at least that's true for me, my fellow writers, PLEASE feel free to add on to this). The first draft is just for getting it out of your head - from there, you can focus on the craft part of it (if you want to!), really honing your narrative and characterizations and whatnot. But write the first draft and let it be ugly.

In terms of breaking into a new fandom, especially a small one, well. I dunno, but for me, I do love some very rare pairs and when I find something new, I get really excited! So I'm betting there's an audience for your work - it might be small, but dang, I bet it's enthusiastic.

For connecting with people, well. @allwaswell16 has really great enthusiasm for self-promotion (and I'm so bad at it, but she's NOT wrong) - write your fic, make a fic post, post it and reblog it. Tag it!

I know for me, I'm probably too shy to reach out to people and say hey! pls read my fic? But if you haven't made some fandom connections as like, a fan, that might be worth doing as well - not to get people to read your work, but to have other fans to celebrate with! I've made some incredible friends simply by shrieking in the comments on the fics and then stalking them on Tumblr to yell at them some more about how much I love their work. (All in complete sincerity too.)

I am pretty bad at Discord and writers groups and stuff, but maybe there are people there to connect with as well?

And like, a thing I want to be really clear about is, it's 100% okay (and like, super normal?? I think??) to *want* people to read your stuff! I write for me, I share it because I want other people to like it too. it does take time to build up those connections usually, but again, I'm guessing that people who love that pairing are going to be excited for someone who's excited to join in.

Anyway, just some off the top of my head rambling - please please feel free to come back if I can be of any other support? xox

[malarkgirlypop]

Misc. Tag Game! ✨

thank you for the tags @1waveshortofashipwreck

Made by the amazing @ronald-speirs 💖

Favorite place in the world you’ve visited?

Just went to Japan and Korea and it was so fucking amazing.

Something you’re proud of yourself for?

Finishing my nursing, getting a job. Like go me, get that big girl job!

Favourite books?

Trial by Fire, I will never not brag about it!

Something that makes your heart happy when thinking about it?

This one person I'm getting to know at the moment. Ah they are the best, literally makes me feel so good.

Favorite thing about your culture? About being American?

Um I am not an American. But NZ is so cool, we are super chill, such a vibe. I'm here for bringing back Māori culture into New Zealand!

When did you join the HBO War fandom? What was the first show you watched?

I think it was August 2023. Band of brothers was the first show I watched with my friend.

Have you read any of Easy Company’s books? If so, which ones were your favourite?

No I haven't. I want to, but im so busy rn. Maybe later.

Favorite HBO War character and your favorite moment with them?

Ah all I have to say is Malarkey, and just all Malarkey things ever. Please and thank you.

Do you make content for any fandoms, if so; what sort of content?

A little, only a teeny tiny amount, only small, not much, hardly any, it doesn't fill my whole brain all the time. I don't constantly live in a fictional story i am writing, I don't know what you're talking about.

Favourite actor/actress and your favourite film of theirs?

Sebastian Stan, The Winter Soldier. like why he so hot. He also scared the shit out of me in Fresh, but that was also a good movie.

Favourite quote/s that you wish to share with others?

"I'm tired of this Grandpa!"

"Well that's too damn bad!"

Holes, 2003.

Random fact your mutuals/followers don’t know about you?

I have no filter on here so there is nothing I don't think people know about me.

If you’re a writer, do you need a beta reader (say yes so I can be your beta reader 🤭)?

what's that? I'm confused.

Three things that make you smile?

My friends

BoB

A really special person

Any nicknames you like?

Kate doesn't have any nicknames, but because of my hair my dad calls me Floss, like candy floss!

List some people you love to see around on tumblr!

@panzershrike-pretz @ithinkabouttzu @executethyself35 @ronsparky @venus-haze @joetoyesbrassknuckles101 @footprintsinthesxnd @mutantmanifesto @jump-wings @mads-nixon @blueberry-ovaries @b00ks1ut @next-autopsy @1waveshortofashipwreck @paula-912 @brassknucklespeirs

What would you do during a zombie apocalypse?

Be a zombie

Favourite movie?

All movies, any movie, I'm good at entertaining myself with bad movies.

Do you like horror movies?

I do, but I'm still scared.

No pressure tags:

@georgieluz, @b00ks1ut, @blueberry-ovaries, @next-autopsy @land-sh @grumpy-liebgott @venus-haze @goneandbackagain

[mihai-florescu]

i also told half my friends about that poll and it was like, kind of doubly insulting of a comparison because i watched II when i was like 13 and am actually familiar with it. and it getting so many votes was kinda shocking to me (beyond the size/prominence of enstars' fandom playing a part) because 1. i still thought object shows were relatively niche or obscure and didnt know there were enough fans to give it so many votes in the first place and 2. the entire story is constructed so badly that there isn't even like a story to talk about. if you asked me about the plot of II i'd have to explain the history behind its existence and then how there is no concrete plot because the writers are hobbyists who don't know how to make a comprehensive story. it's so bad, it was already bad enough but then sometime way in they introduced a plotline about a corn version of steve jobs stealing alien eggs to fuel his iphone production line. his name is steve cobbs. this was meant to be a total drama esque show, what are the writers on?

anyway i dont have to explain to you how greatly interesting wataei is but i hope you know my pain at that poll. discussing enstars is getting to talk about themes and ideas and how they interplay and contrast and parallel between characters, it's stuff you can chew on. discussing inanimate insanity is just talking about the 3 simultaneous ideas they had for a show that they tried to write and failed horribly each on an individual level and also it all just clashing egregiously in tone. they wrote an entire spinoff alternative show because they knew they couldn't salvage it and were sick of making it.

so yeah even as a former fan of inanimate insanity in my childhood they just ... it's not a comparison you can meaningfully make, it's like comparing a delicious pudding to nickelodeon gak. you can do it but what's the point? they aren't the same thing, you have to talk about each in a totally different way.

also lightbrush isn't even canon because there are no romance plotlines in II (thank god). i really shouldnt have felt so strongly about the poll as i did

It's all such a fever dream of an event... but i somehow feel like the enstars fandom on tumblr is very small compared to other social medias (good. Well, either this or i live in my beautiful bubble of very lovely followers & very lovely people i follow. It's most likely the latter). Yet i cant imagine it's smaller than the ii one... but i remember it breached containment and ii fans were promoting it on twitter. At some point it became less of a "looking at it objectively" and more of a "we should win because...we should?" on both sides. For us it actually made sense tho. Were the lightbrush fans writing thousands of words and bringing dozens of screenshots to compile a measly showcase of maybe 10% of their ship's canon relevancy like i was? (Or we were, probably, i dont think i was the only one but i only focused on doing My Part, didnt really look at what others were doing. My discord name is still "brave wataei warrior" to this day after that event) No. They couldnt. We all knew that. Which is why the whole thing was baffling and infuriating. They just wanted to win for the sake of winning something despite the objective evidence. Haha lack of objectivity in the object show fandom *badum tss* thank you thank you im here all day.

[konigceo]

i rlly like ur blog and ur writings r rlly good! but im just confused on how ur a minor writing nsfw.

(i don’t wanna be that person but i needed to ask. and also sorry if u have spoken about this before)

like ik when i was a minor (im saying that like i didn’t just turn 18 lmao), i read nsfw + had sexual feelings/desires/whatever and wished there were more minor ran fandom/cod blogs (because seeing mdni in someone’s post/bio rlly sucks), but i’m just confused on ur situation. like u can do whatever u want and if that’s what u wanna be doing, all power to u dawg!

sorry if this explanation was unnecessary, i just wanted to get context and explain myself. 😵‍💫

hi anon !!! thank you so so much for the kind words, it means the most :) to answer your question, i've been writing for fun since i was 11-12, and i read smut for the first time when i was around 10, so safe to say i've been exposed to it for a long time. and then i eventually got into mw2 and stuff around summer of this year (mostly because of the edits i saw on tt) and that turned to looking for fanfics on tumblr !!! i actually found one of my current mutual's blog, and was surprised at how someone like me (a minor) could write nsfw content and get so many nice people supporting them !!!

before i ever found any cod writers, i read a lot of fics about genshin and that pushed me to start writing a small fic, but i never got the nerve to upload it. but because i found 15-17 year olds who wrote SO GOOD and were getting lots of support, i figured i might as well try !!! as you can see if you scroll down on my blog, i started off writing some fluff, and once i got confident, i started writing smut, and that's where we are today :)

sorry for rambling on for so long anon, but i hope this answered ur question :) have an amazing day/night !

[indigosabyss]

WebNovel has New Tactics

Ok. Shit. I never thought they'd message me about this.

I'm assuming you've all seen the screenshots of AO3 comments, telling the writer what a great fic they've written and how they can totally put it on WebNovel for $$$ bc it's just SO impressive.

I got something like that. But a little different.

Okay. Weird. Whatever. Even if someone's too formal, I'll still join a server yk?

AJAJSJS

THIS WAS THEIR OFFICIAL DISCORD WTFFF

This feels almost like a bait and switch atop a bait and switch. They'll get you in the server, make some chill friends, offer you a contract, and then trap you for fifty years after your death to work on a story!!!

Or maybe I'm being conspiratorial here.

I've always written niche crossovers and small fandoms, and The Last Surviving Members was my first BIG fic, so of all fics I'm not surprised that this is what got them.

So, I stayed some. Looked around. There's a fanfiction-only channel. Suspicious.

Oh, and no surprise, you can easily be banned just for talking shit.

Which a lot of the newbies were doing so I'm not going to be surprised if they're all gone by today. I just stayed to get all the screenshots that I needed.

There's a LOT of emphasis on making money. Competitions, rankings, classes, guides. And it all comes from them. I wouldn't have a problem with that, but there's an interesting lack of outside opinion and legal support.

They call this style of media distribution "web novel/fiction", which gives them a layer of credibility because they are THE WEBNOVEL SITE.

(I had to change my original fiction tumblr's name bc of this and no im still not over it)

In case you don't know, WebNovel has very predatory tactics in sourcing writers and their contracts are BAD. Like, really bad.

I want to make a career in writing my own stuff, and I was able to get a heads-up before the early whistleblowers started on AO3. If you haven't heard of it, this is a warning to you. And maybe do some of your own research as well.

And... Real talk here. I get it. I get why people go for these contracts. I'm in desperate need for money as well.

My mental health has been very shaky recently. As has my physical health. And I'm not in a position where I can pay for figure out what has been going wrong with me. All of these things have been referenced in author notes on the fic they commented on. It was the fifth chapter, too, so it's not impossible that they read those notes.

I'm hoping that they're not so callous as to do that intentionally and just skipped to the last chapter to make it seem like they read it all, but... This really hurt. Sorry if that's too personal.

[kanda-franca]

anyone want to discuss a dilemma i have with an ao3 writer about the content she's posting? im not looking to be right, i just want to see a differing opinion or advice.

under the read more because this is long and complicated and i know some people dont like getting into this

so it's a small fandom about a tv show, the fandom tag can go a few days without updates. it's also kids tv show with child/young teen mcs.

this user has been spamming fics about an incestuous ship, one underage while the other is an adult. some works are explicitly tagged, but there are some rated gen under the warning of underage. it's been going on for a week and they have posted 30+ works on the same topic.

i felt uncomfortable that some of these works were given such low ratings making it easy to access (and it being very prevalent in the tag) but i understand that works like these don't violate any TOS.

i commented on one of their works if she would be willing to raise the rating and/or compile these one shot works into a singular work as to prevent spam. my comment was deleted without any response. again, also valid. but sucks because I'm just lost on what to do.

like on one hand i shouldn't really be excluding any work from existing. but on the other some tags are very concerning to find on teen or gen rated fics- using terms like 'brocon' 'sex pest' or the summaries containing sexual innuendos. considering the demographic and those exploring the tag.

unrelated and i know im going to sound whiny but her works rarely go above 300 words, some with the same premise just slightly different. so it being collected into one work would help so much. i know as readers we shouldnt be policing how a writer posts BUT DEAR GOD.

the very small community on tumblr talked about how traumatised/disturbed they were when opening up this fandom tag. and like i know we are responsible for cultivating our own experiences but it just sucks that filtering out the ship tag is the first thing a user has to do, what about the first time users yk? i dont want them to be driven away from ao3 because of this.

i feel like this could be an issue of spam and misleading ratings. but the TOS FAQ state this:

What's the difference between "general" and "teen and up" or "mature" and "explicit"?

This is left to the creator's judgment. People disagree passionately about the nature and explicitness of content to which younger audiences should be exposed. The creator's discretion to choose between "general" and "teen and up" or between "mature" and "explicit" is absolute: we will not mediate any disputes about those decisions. Instead, we encourage creators to consider community norms, whether fandom-specific or more general (such as how you'd expect a video game or movie with similar content to be rated), in selecting a rating.

What's the difference between "teen and up" and "mature"?

Likewise, this is almost entirely up to the creator's judgment. In response to valid complaints about highly explicit content, the abuse team may redesignate a fanwork marked "general" or "teen and up" to "not rated," as explained in the abuse policy, but our policy is generally to defer to the creator's decision.

the "valid complaints about highly explicit content" makes me hesitate. it's not really explicit but underage incest feels like it needs a stronger rating no?

and spam is normally commercial bots or copies of the same work. so just, stuck.

again, i just want to know someone else's thoughts on this topic

[herleaf]

RULES AND ABOUT

ABOUT THE MUN: First thing's first, let me introduce myself. My name is Shannon and I have been roleplaying on this hellsite since 2011. I've been through many blogs, one such including a Clara Oswald that I made after Rings of Akhatan aired on television. Only recently did I decide to raise back the mantle as I missed writing on tumblr and was watching the new Doctor Who and realized how much I missed writing in the fandom and writing as Clara specifically, so here I am. I am 28 and I use she/her/hers pronouns.

RULES, PROPER.

CANON COMPLIANT?: I write Clara as multiple things, being both in canon and out. I want to write Clara in multiple universes, so I welcome crossovers, be them having Clara visit your world or you being put with the Doctor! The TARDIS is great for being a bridge between worlds, and thankfully we have many TARDIS here.

REPLY TIMES: I am a full-time worker who is also acting in my free time. I am auditioning and filming on multiple sets in my free time and paid time off. I also am married and am trying to be better at having a social life outside of the internet so please do not expect fast replies. I am bad at either writing things super fast and hitting reply immediately, or I am trying to make a mold of my body on the couch and don't want to move. I try to queue things so there is that but I like replying to things and getting more things up.

SPEAKING OF WRITING, I am very bad at writing small things. Apparently I held back from writing for so long that whenever I begin a reply my brain decides I need to have at least 500 words minimum with no double spaces. Please never feel like you need to match length. I use small text and icons and do not care how you write or what your style is. If anything is hard for you to read on my page please let me know and I'll do my best to change things for our replies, but my default is small text, long replies, and icons that keep moving down my writing because where is Clara emoting the specific icon? It's a very detailed process.

SHIPPING: So, you know the joke about characters being boiled down to seeming like they're constant flirts? Like, you need to spritz them with water like a cat who is doing something bad? Yeah, that's not really what it is like here. Clara is a flirt always but, depending on verse and timeline wise, she might be more subdued about it. Flirting can be a coping mechanism and a defense, especially if it is post Danny. I feel like Clara absolutely uses flirting and romantic encounters as ways to numb the pain and to get information that is needed. THIS DOES NOT MEAN I AM FORCING A SHIP. Please note, over everything, I ship chemistry. If it so happens I have chemistry with a lot of writers, so be it, but I want it to be natural. Shipping doesn't have to mean romantic, it can be any number of relationship type things. Give Clara platonic friends, one-sided romances, etc. I just want to write and expand Clara's universe.

SPEAKING IF SHIPPING, WHAT ABOUT SMUT: I don’t write it. I don’t judge people who do but I have never been good at writing it and it makes me uncomfortable so for my own personal reasons I have decided that I will not write it. I will write what leads up to it and am happy doing fade to black and then picking up the next morning. Thank you for understanding and if anything, I’m happy talking over IM or something to decide if le hanky panky was like… good or not? So I can have the character act accordingly? Because it’s not great and mind blowing every time and I like discussing because maybe that’ll affect our story but also maybe not.

This blog is selective, but not fully mutuals only. If there is anything I missed, I will add it here.

Thank you for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day!

[gyunmireu]

😭😭😭OH MY GOD a best teacher baek writer…… you have no idea how long i’ve been waiting for one…. and your writings so good oh my goodness im gonna eat it so bad 😭😭😭do you do requests??? or no it’s fine either way but dear lord your writing is scrumptious… thank you for writing heonwon gang… hes so babygirl

AAA thank you for the sweet words! ㅠㅠ I'm so happy you enjoyed it.

I don't think I'm the first writer? I have seen some fics on Tumblr and ao3 but I get you, the fanfic writing side is still pretty small ><

To be honest, I didn't think about requests because I didn't think anyone would find or read my fic 😭 I have taken requests on my other pseud for a different fandom so I'm not against the idea if you wanna put in a request, but I'm just not confident if I can write the characters well so I didn't say anything.

And, I have exams till the 10th of April, so if you put in a request, I'll only be able to attempt it after my exams are over... If you don't mind waiting, then feel free to send in a request ♡

And so trueee omg, Gang is the babygirliest !! he's so silly I love him sm 🥹

[lindenforest]

i know im the sane one in this discussion as there are like, entire fanfic exchange formats, that hinge on anonymous reading and anonymous WRITING even - like the kink memes. people are aware they are not obligated to air their every kink to every internet rando. and not even every kink - i saw a bunch of entirely sfw works on ao3 and even good old ffnet with "kink meme deanon" in the title/tags. an anon requested each of them.

i do not tend to go there but i know of their existence and a bit about how they operate.

and they know their anonymous asker probably wont reshare your response to their prompt anywhere and give you clout, and they are fine with it. theyre happy with the anonymous feedback the asker leaves, without wanting their entire fic reading history. and theyre not frothing at the mouth that someone dare not to just read, but to ASK for fic without identifying themselves.

all i wanted to say is there are always people who are going to read quietly. even people who dont have a tumblr may, heavens forbid, read your fic! all i wanted to say is that if you say you will block people for liking, they would just prefer to not let you know they were here at all! thats it!

i was doing nothing at first on ao3. then realized just giving kudos is easy and does not have to put my name to it but still makes the authors day a little better. then trying writing small comments even if under an anon identity. baby kitten steps. if you dont discourage someone from just liking at first, then maybe later they can get comfier with leaving comments/reblogging/putting tags?? see my header 👆 small steppy is better than no steppy.

or they dont. but you know they went on your page and caught up with everything you have written - how cool is that??? someone didnt just find you on the dash, but went looking for you. thats so great?

those writers are giving the energy of that incident when si//ms pat//reon mods creators who put identifiers in their patr//eon downloads and put people on blast publicly for sharing with someone. except here, they didnt even take any sale or paid content from you. is there really a place for this behavior? for this fighting over who owes whom more? its fandom. freely given. freely taken.

to end on a positive note, i love the writers whom i left anon feedback, i love when they responded to it happy, and i know i could give them my love without having to give them my reading history, or interests, or the little notes about my life, and it doesnt matter that i didnt give them that. i gave the love and it was enough.

happy spring. 🐇