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Thought Experiment: THE MULTIVERSE AND YOU.

I’d like to put my 6:30 am bathroom thoughts to good use so they don’t become a royal flush. So in lieu of that I want to do a thought experiment that will be an axe that will expose the roots of your empathy and sonder and thus help your soul wander. As they say “Not all souls who wander are lost.” Today when arising I thought about something that took me aback. Call it a parapsychological…

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I almost changed my Name.

It was the year 2012. One of those many years that was expected to be the end times. In that time I was going through a time that I will call a marked period of deep spiritual renewal and personal growth. Through various periods of deep effective spritual experiences I had the thought to change my name. I did this based off of the biblical tradition of God changing someones name after a time…

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I'm not Good at Blogging.

I’m not Good at Blogging.

Imagine deep within your soul you want to give gifts to the world..but then life happens and you get tired. Imagine having the passion of a Content Creator but not knowing how to put your thoughts into words. What am I protecting? Is this modesty.. its own form of honesty? In order to be a popular platform poster you need to “post every day” or at least a few times a week. Ah That might not…

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Therapy isn't "Following the Money".

Therapy isn’t “Following the Money”.

I’m nervous as all get out tonight and I don’t really know why but I can say for sure that part of it is exemplified in how long it has taken me to make another blog post. Cohesive senses of identity are difficult for neurodivergents like myself who have goldfish level attention to the present unless the deepseated passion quota within is met. As a father and a husband I find myself struggling…

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Settling into Solitude.

It is easier than people think for you to have an opinion when people are listening; contrary to the modern proverb “You can’t even have an opinion anymore.” I know this because I wanted to be heard for years. I had been glossed over. I had been forgotten. I had been passed over. https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10154434587539536&id=643959535 For about 5 or so recent years though I…

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Sometimes {Poem freeversed}

Sometimes poetry is the only thing that can get out what’s inside of me. The knotwork knowledge grease to unconstipate for dam release. What in damnation? Too much information.. The reasonable rationed sensation of the man of a micro nation. Set apart.. How great that ART. 🎨 Were we to do what we start by stating the finished point and reaching the saving arche. Archetypes are boat rides…

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I don't even Car.

I don’t even Car.

Blanco. Gringo. Malibu. Think yo. Hesitant hearts and minds DON’T BLINK YO. Listen to the hearts of your loved ones. It’s meditation. Got our car back from some thieves. Nice feeling. Wife and I are relieved.

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He who is sad should write.

Edenic unity, prefall nonutopia for falls sooner or later becomes (sigh), ‘a place’ … the shamed disgrace of no face to be saved.. sadly, indeed, is no saved face.. #Dishonor. Wear a mask they say and the brutes relent. And yet they won’t look you in the eye. They don’t look at you not because of masking but because they mask what’s behind the eyes. The only reason I divert my eyes is…

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Catharsis.

Le sigh for my se la vie. For my vitality you see I just need to just be. I often write to get my edge off when nothing else suffices, nothing else cuts it.. nothing else works. I don’t really understand this world sometimes but knowing it understands me sometimes is a real cure for depression. Yes I said cure and yes I only said it to spite the backlash of ‘factscism’. Sure it might not be…

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NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF EXHAUSTION.

Rain on the window pane washing pain away. Pains as from yesterday; yes I wash the pain away. I’ves and Eve’s and long ago stand me now here today. I’ves and Eve’s and long ago stand me now here today. My beginner Garden this time last year! https://musingsofapictureframeconversationalist.com/about/

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Getting you Trained.

He seemed as a man of vision. He settled in to the tenderness. The tenderness was the fragility of reality. The tension was the tenderness of time. He sought and he found the answers. He knocked and the door was opened. He was weak so he had great strength. Meek and modest, charismatic and honest. He knew the evils of hate. Yet he was loved.. Precisely by those he thought would never…

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MOTIVATION AND TRIALS.

We all have days where we want to give up.

In 2020 those days seem even more prevalent. It’s pretty ironic when you feel so dry you want to throw in the towel and all the while in this desert whetting ones appetite for one’s passions seems like a misnomer..as if doing what you were seemingly created to do is a mistake.

Of course to a mind on the mend such negativity seems pointless;…

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I'm not my Covid Dreams.

I’m not my Covid Dreams.

Paranoia, False-Evidence-Appearing-Real.

I’m definitely the hidden lesson good man.

I’m not my Covid Dreams.