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grntaire · 2 months ago

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generally i'm still pretty anti-singing live for movie musicals just bc filming schedules are generally so gruelling that even pro theatre performers would find it grueling however. the stark difference in quality between les mis and wicked actually so insane.

#a lot of it comes down to the post-production and a LOT more vocal production was done for wicked. however at the end of the day cynthia and #ari are just house down pros whereas the main cast for les mis was. vocally speaking. not #and ik hugh jackman has a huge theatre resume. however him saying he didn't drink water for 36 hours so he'd look emaciated just shows a #clear lack of understanding of the vocal mechanism and imo a lack of care abt the sound #maybe he was going for a more emaciated sound but that's not the point.#like the only people who sound good in the les mis movie are the barricade boys and sam barks #but even then i didn't even like her on my own that much. but that's not on her as much as the multiple hours of shooting in the rain while #singing live. like no wonder she mix belted instead of full belting the woman was exhausted. but it just loses its power and makes her seem #defeated when she's really quite angry. and i've HEARD her full belt the climax of it and it's so much more moving. idk #les mis movie they'll never make me glad it was sung live

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wildsaltair · 9 days ago

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guess my brain rot is really rotting today because all I can think about is how if I'm not kneeling over him in this position covering every inch of his chest in kisses life is not even worth living

BONUS (featuring the top of his shoulder / neck where my face belongs at all times)

#i've been staring at these photos for a thousand years now #stars careened overhead empires fell decades have passed in a blur #and all the while i sat drooling over this photo set #photos should not make me so desperately feral but here we are #i can't live without him i need him like i need oxygen #look at his chest!!! can you BELIEVE #he is so BROAD i swear #he is so vulnerable here unlike any other scene in the movie #delirious exhausted in shock and injured #i should be there!!! i should be there to tenderly caress his wounds and let him fall asleep with his head in my lap #LET ME TAKE AWAY HIS PAIN #if you look closely you can see me in the frame cuddled up with my head on his shoulder just as it should be #this is my view in bed after hours of wearing him out with all the passion i have for him #GDHFHKDSJH open shirt is driving me INSANE #he has NO RIGHT to look so good while he's laying there suffering #it's morally conflicting for me but what am i supposed to do??? NOT lust over him while he's laying on his back with his shirt open???#I CAN'T HELP IT #constantly thinking about this constantly begging for a chance to hold him tight and never let him go #gladiator #maximus #maximus decimus meridius #gladiator 2000 #russell crowe

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antique-forvalaka · 21 days ago

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I just want the real world to stop for a moment

#everywhere its getting so much worse #all of the shit happening in america is so fucking scary #and the eu has so often proven our politicians take america as a good example #everywhere is getting more and more right #it feels as if we're all screwed #as if we'll never turn this all around again #ai is allowing misinformation on an unprecedented level #social media algorithms have power even the creators can scarcely understand but sure use it for monetary gain #and money is for the most powerful who feel they have the most to lose and thus want us quiet as best as possible #and war can be so profitable #im so exhausted #there's enough shit going on in my private life how am i meant to deal with that when i lay awake at night wondering how i'd mercy kill my #beloved cats if war ever ends up coming here and my roommate and me would take care of our own pact #id rather die than live through war #but i want to live so badly #my dash is full of self harming minors posting ana inspo #and american politics #and palestinian fundraisers #and honestly ive been barely using tumblr lately but its frankly everywhere #everywhere you look its all just bleak

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tj-crochets · 8 months ago

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Hey y'all! I didn't get many requests for particular pride flags or pride plushies this pride month, but I did get a few requests for an intersex pride something. The intersex pride flag (like a few other flags) is more difficult for me to make, because a symbol is harder to incorporate into an oddly-shaped plushie than just stripes, and the circle will have to be* appliqued by hand so I'd prefer to limit the number of circles. So far, I have three ideas: 1. one of my pride bees (a very round bee consisting of three stripes) that's yellow with a purple stripe in the middle. There wouldn't be a flat ring, but the stripe would kind of form a ring? 2. a yellow dog plushie with a purple ring around its eye like the dog from Little Rascals. Idk how well known that dog is anymore or if it would be recognizable, but it's a one-applique option? I could also include purple patches on the back that are not rings, like the dog's markings in the show (in the movie? to be honest, I just remember the ring around the dog's eye) 3. a blue ringed octopus but the rings are purple. I think this would be awesome but I don't want to applique that many rings by hand and haven't found a fabric with the rings at quite the right scale and density for this project, so this is probably a longer-term one but I do want to make it eventually Do y'all have opinions on any of these, or any other ideas? For intersex pride plushies or for other pride plushies, I've had some work and some family things come up this month that mean I have not gotten as much sewing done this month as I wanted to, and I do love making pride plushies and would love more suggestions *yes, there are a few other ways I could possibly do that, but functionally with the way I make things it'd be by hand

#the person behind the yarn #the air conditioner being mostly broken has really taken a toll on me physically #before anyone chimes in with advice on how to beat the heat: thanks! but I am not looking for advice #I grew up in one very hot climate and moved to one that's only very hot during the summer #I know how to stay cool I just have health issues that make me very very sensitive to heat #I'm on meds for them I have strategies for managing it but nothing I can do will make me anywhere near as heat tolerant #as someone without health issues #I mean I guess the good news is I will probably never get true heat exhaustion because my symptoms are so dramatic #at such a low threshold I'd definitely go inside long before that point #(by dramatic I mean my blood pressure gets low and my heartrate gets high and if I get too hot I could faint)#(not at like. actually doing any damage to me levels of heat. my body just really likes to drop my blood pressure and takes any excuse)

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novafire-is-thinking · 1 year ago

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playing “loves me, loves me not,” except it’s for mutuals/followers/followed who keep ignoring posts I tag them in

#look I never know if the Tumblr cat ate my tags or if someone wants me to stop tagging them #I’m normally good at reading between the lines but it’s exhausting #pls communicate with me directly #also if anyone has tagged me in something and I haven’t responded please DM me #I give you full permission to do so #fandom life #fandom #tumblr #nf.note

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blujayonthewing · 5 months ago

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so in juniper's campaign we've just found ourselves in a high-stakes situation that I as a player do frankly find stressful and am anxious about, but hey hi also the DM was like 'okay here are the exact mechanics of how this is going to work because I don't want to surprise you with serious repercussions, also here are all the options you will have to try to do something about the situation-- [affected player] what do you think? honest feedback, I don't want it to feel unfair, I want to be clear that I am not just trying to kill your character, and if it ends up being badly balanced we can revisit it down the road' and oh my god I could COLLAPSE and WEEP with gratitude

#[tears in my fucking eyes] WHAT IF DND WAS GOOD!! WHAT IF A DM THAT'S GOOD!!!#LIKE I've said actually MOST of my DMs are good but because of the way this situation was presented specifically #where-- as NOT the affected player-- it does feel like the way it came up was a little unfair and I AM worried about the stakes--#I REALLY SPENT SO MUCH OF THAT ABOVE-TABLE TALK GOING OH WOW I FEEL LIKE OUR FRIEND ACTUALLY LOVES US AND WANTS THIS TO BE FUN!!#I DON'T KNOW THAT I AGREE WITH WHAT HE'S DOING HERE BUT I TRUST MY FRIEND AND IT'S SAFE FOR US TO TALK ABOUT THINGS LIKE THIS PLAYER TO DM!!#WOWIE THAT FEELS RELEVANT TO MY DND EXPERIENCE RIGHT NOW LMAO!!!#'I've looked at your stats and inventories to try to make this serious but balanced but if it doesn't work we can retool it'#'I want to be extremely clear that this situation could kill destal so I want to be extremely sure that you're comfortable with that--#-- and with how the mechanics are designed around it'#I am fucking. on my KNEES WEEPING. at the contrast with how punishing and DEEPLY unfun felix campaign has relentlessly been the whole time #and how little of a fuck it feels like THAT DM gives when he's like 'this random rolltable encounter was deadly :)'#'you guys didn't get hit last time and got all your spells back right?' uhhh wrong and wrong and we TALKED about that last time #are you gonna revisit the balance on your fifth in a row 'if you fail you'll TPK' scenario? no? yeah I figured lol #christ knows HE'S never invited feedback on his DMing. you KNOW I don't feel safe to say 'hey this doesn't feel fair or fun' with him #AND LIKE!! WITH A DM I TRUST I FEEL SAFE ENOUGH TO REALLY PLAY WITH SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAPPENING!! YAY YIPPEE STAKES AND PATHOS!!!#I don't just want nothing bad to happen ever! but I don't want it to feel careless or heartless or just... Not Fun #anyway. grasping william's hands so tightly. my beloved friend. my wonderful friend. what a relief to have a DM that's good #after the shit we've been through in our now most-frequently-run campaign #the thing I'm mad about is that destal has been making a mystery saving throw every night-- but this was imperceptible to the characters #so we weren't acting on it #and now that he's failed it three times the situation is 'okay NOW you will be maming a con save every night and accumulating exhaustion'#'which can't be removed by sleeping' [six levels of exhaustion Kill You]#so like!! well okay I wish we had had ANY way of knowing how urgent this was before we got to 'now there's a deadly countdown' BUT OKAY #but like I said. he clearly put a lot of thought into the math for the mechanics #he made sure that we DO actually have ANYTHING we can do to mitigate the condition and outlined several options specifically and clearly #he checked in with justin about whether that seemed fair and opened it for future retooling if necessary #so I'm just at 'that was kind of a rugpull dude :/' instead of DESPAIRING lmao #this is a level of Oh Shit that's juicy! this is a level of Oh Shit that might force dramatic character choices out of desperation!#THIS IS AN OH SHIT WHERE WE STILL GET TO PLAY DND ABOUT IT AND HAVE ANY AGENCY WHATSOEVER. WHAT A CONCEPT.#ANYWAY!!! GOOD DND SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!

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starlene · 6 months ago

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starting to feel really complicated about the upcoming Finnish production of Moulin Rouge!

#like. on the one hand I'm of course looking forward to it #but on the other hand. well. it's just that this is hardly my first rodeo.#I've seen some of my all-time favourite productions being redone by other theatres before and they're never as good #(with the possible exception of the Karlstad/Jönköping Les Mis I guess)#(but that was all about Alex being my fav + Philip Jalmelid delivering the most out of this world rendition of Stars I'll ever hear)#and then I'm just very prejudiced against the theatre that's staging the Finnish MR!#with one notable exception every musical I've seen on their big stage has felt... just a little bit soulless to me I guess #maybe it's just because that stage is so big and it always feels like theatre set up in an airplane hangar #or maybe it's because the type of audience they attract almost always gives off a certain slightly detached vibe #or maybe it's something about the way they work itself #or maybe it's all three!#but I'm a little worried that though it's by the same director the Finnish MR! experience simply won't compare favorably to the Swedish one #and then there's the weird feeling you get when it comes to these things... or at least *I* get when it comes to these things #if I'm right in my premonitions and I'll walk out thinking it doesn't hold a candle to the Swedish production that is #inevitably Finnish people are going to love the Finnish MR! and praise it because it's a good production no matter what #so then I'll be stuck in that weird mood #where I'll feel like everyone around me is watching the shadow and I'm the only person who's been outside the cave to see the Real Musical #and I know it's stuck up and silly to feel that way! and yet #oh man. just please let me see the u/s Zidler and I'll be too happy to even compare the rest of it to Stockholm #anyway!! I guess this is something I'll need to work through myself as a musical fan before I go see it #also maybe some fanart of the Swedish production? I've honestly been too exhausted the entire spring and summer to even think about that #but I'd like to draw something #maybe one day?#Moulin Rouge! posting

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cidnangarlond · 9 months ago

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going on a clothing website because the youtuber I'm watching was sponsored by them for a video and knowing I'll never look good in any of these clothes >>>

#listen inside me is a fashion girlie because my whole general vibe and build does not match it. has never lined up #whenever I wear cute feminine clothing I feel like I'm playing pretend and ugly and shit like I want so bad to think I look good in that #kind of stuff but I can't and I never will it's fucking EXHAUSTING... like I want to wear all these cute outfits I see and can make up #in my head and wear cute makeup but I feel like such a fraud and a fake while done up like that #I had a dream the other night my hair was longer again and I was in a dress and flat chested and it was referred to as drag #like me in those clothes and makeup it was said I was in drag. like hi hello #IT FUCKING SUCKSSSS I want to be able to wear all this stuff but I just. fucking hate how much of an imposter I feel when I wear them

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#just turning over the idea of executive functioning issues in my head part by part. impulse control. im extremely tightly controlled. im the #best at control. the only times im impulsive is when someone asks me something and my brain doesn't work well in the moment so i tend to b #like fuck it: says something that might fuck me over later bc im like whatever itll prob b fine lol. but mostly not an issue. emotional #control. i dont lash out at ppl except myself i guess. ill sometimes have freak out meltdowns bc i get so frustrated with myself plus mood #weirdness. so not great. flexible thinking. im pretty rigid. if plans randomly change theres like a 1 in 3 chance ill freak out and start #crying and it takes me a long time to adjust to the idea that i have to chsnge something. and things tend to have to b a certain way #not for any reason in particular. thats just how it has to b. i have to eat the same foods. operate at the same times. do thr same things.#thats just how it is. and i find it difficult in social situations to adapt to the flow of convention bc its like but we're talking abt thi #now but something just interrupted and we aren't going abck to that thing. i dont make it other ppls problem but its uncomfortable for me.#working memory. my memory is pretty fucked. self monitoring. im good at that. too good. im pathologically self reflective. planning &#prioritizing. i can plan but i cant prioritize for shit. i will spiral for hours doing nothing bc i can't decide what comes 1st.#task initation. im good at torturing myself into getting things done but i anxiously avoid a lot of things but once i start its like: im in #this mode now. no i cant fucking stop i need this to b done. i need to sit here and finish it otherwise i wont come back to it. i cant do #moderation its all or nothing. all school and nothing outside of that. cant send mail. cant clean sink. i see it and kno i need to do it an #then i just walk away from the disaster area. organization. is ok. it looks a disaster but i only exist in like 3 places so i dont lose #things often but i dont remember where i put things once i put them down i have to deduce where i would have put it. does that paint the #picture of executive functioning issues or rigid and restrictive compulsive behavior paired with self destructive impulses leading to #absolute mental exhaustion which is y things arent getting done? could b either or both. idk my ability to do things 95% of the way and wal #away leaving a mess that ill never come back to strikes me more as the former but what do i #still its worth considering bc i do have an amazing to control myself in a way that's completely out of my control. maybr my start/stop #switch is just fucked idk. slow down and reorient says my counselor u never stop to rest. shes right but also im a grad student stopping #would mean death u gotta keep swimming and doing more than u should. thats how it is #but im so tired and i only get more and more tired. so somethings gotta give eventually #unrelated #i forgot focus. my focus is good sometimes and sometimes my brain is moving too fast and i cant focus at all. its static #but focus is not a thing i cna control

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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 2 years ago

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i actually should be more confident in my skills in most things like i really cleaned a decrepit bathroom that had shit all over the walls and crusty old towels stuck to the floor and beard hair in the sink and a toilet with 10 year old shit and a billion bugs cultivating a whole habitat in there in just like... 5 days of work. and that's saying a lot as a fat girl who has a bad back and knees with genuinely negative attention span and motivation who quit two janitorial jobs after a month. like... maybe i should be more confident about what i can do and actually step up and do more instead of wallowing in my misery actually 🤔

#'the time will pass anyways' has been helping me realize that it doesn't matter how long it takes to clean a house as long as it gets clean #like i'll fr probably be ready to move out by the time everything is working and looking good again and my parents are very close to #crossing the threshold of being elderly so like. not really even sure why i'm cleaning except for my own peace of mind & feeling of freedom #but it still makes me happy to put so much work in and actually get something out of it. genuinely not used to that feeling #because it school i was so smart and everything that i honestly just gave up most of the time to feel something. except chemistry #i actually failed that because i sucked at it BUT i never claimed to love science so.#anyways. i really want to start going scorched earth on this house and working on everything but it's so exhausting to do alone #and my mom always tries to help but we get side-tracked a lot when we're together and just go through things and remember stuff LMAO #which is sweet but not very productive. i love her to death tho #anyways. i might try to do some work on my bedroom even though it's 3:30am rn. 😵‍💫

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wildsaltair · 19 days ago

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