#everything about this drawing is wack as hell

[dizzybizz]

YEAR 1, SPRING 19, FRIDAY, 10:00AM

[wishjacked]

u know what? fine. *draws my guys like they're a cartoon*

here's the lil antag crew too. they get to have more detail because they're special <3 (aka they show up less often so the AU version of myself that makes cartoons can afford to put more time into them)

[cvnt4him]

izuku or reader walking in on the other masturbating 🙀

guys i love him so much i’m gonna explode

It's late and I've been feeling very bad, I've been trying to animate for this man I'm in love w to get his attention but it's drawing as hell. So take some wack ass shit of my pookie sweetie honey bunches cutie patootie girly pop schnookums sweetie pie.

You were just making it home from work, tired and craving to lie in your husband's warm welcoming arms. Today was a long day and you had stayed a little later than expected, you texted izuku at the time you normally got off telling him you'd be home late and that he shouldn't wait up.

With a sigh and a low hang of your shoulders you unlocked your front door and walked inside, the smell of food barely present he had cooked despite having worked himself. It was sweet that he did little things like this to show you he cared and appreciated you.

You set the keys down on the key ring and took your shoes off, hanging your bag up as well. You were ready to jump in your bed next to your husband and call it a night, the thought of that sounded so good and had clouded your thoughts completely before you were snapped out..

You walked to your door and heard noises coming from behind it, your heart sank. What the fuck.... The sounds were lewd, moans and whines being heard. Your first thought was what any normal person would think. He was cheating on you, but just as you were about to slam open that door and beat someone's ass, you heard a pathetic high pitched whine of your name.

“ y/n~ please... ”

Everything started making much more sense now, izuku was masturbating! The thought made you chuckle, you wanted to see the sight of it. The sight of your precious husband lusting after himself, chasing his orgasm yearning to cum. For you at that, he kept moaning your name like a girl.

His moans were so high in octave and almost similar to a porn stars, hell they'd be envious. His sounds were so precious and alluring you wanted to see him terribly so. You slowly and quietly cracked open the door, just enough for you to see your husband.

To no one's surprise, he was touching himself. But it was the most delicious sight in the world, his head was thrown back in pure ecstasy his mouth wide open and such lewd moans were leaving like melted butter, they just fell from his lips so naturally all the slutty things he was murmuring to himself. Something about it hurting and how he wanted to feel his cock deep inside of you

None of those wonderful things could compare to how he was pleasure himself, it was the most pathetic and desperate shit you'd ever seen from him. And it's like hes just so accident prone to doing pathetic things, like whining and he doesn't get his way, or burying his face in your ass with a stupid whimper when you're lying on your tummy. He was just a pathetic guy sometimes.

Izuku had his thighs wide open, his cock twitching and leaking so much cum there was so much coating his hands his thighs and his tummy, from what little you could see it looked like some had even gotten on his face. His hand was hurriedly stroking his fat milk crying cock, his thumb occasionally grazed over his tip and smeared every little ounce of cum that prickled at his engorged and furiously red tip.

His cock was throbbing and aching you could tell, but that wasn't stopping him. He was desperate and he knew what he wanted, but that wasn't all, oh no. He was using his other hand to shove a dildo inside of his ass, he wasn't moving that hand ad fast as he was his dominant hand [his right hand, the hand hes jacking off w] but he was still shoving it inside of himself.

It was so cute you wanted to cry, he was so horny he couldn't help himself he wanted to feel maximum pleasure, as much as his body would let him. Who knows how long he's been going at it, who knows when he intended on stopping, if he even did! All you knew was this was far too delicious to let end so quickly.

You crept in the room closing the door behind you, you walked towards him silently your socks quieting your steps. You say at the foot of the bed right in front of him, he didn't even notice. You were fighting the urge to burst out laughing, he was being so sneaky lusting after himself like this.

With a small sigh you trail your hands up his cum covered thigh making him pull his head towards you with a wide eyed expression, he let out a small scream and jumped stopping both of his hand movements. He was so embarrassed he face had gotten even more red, you could fully see his fucked out face. The sweat on his forehead shining under the moonlights glow sticking some of his now dampened hair to it. His tear stained cheeks, all red and covered in tears and some of his cum that you could see. His lips that had clearly been chewed on plump and a deep shade of pink. His eyes were glossy and still leaking some kind of tears.

You giggled at the shocked expression on his face and the fact his cock was still twitching. You looked him deep into his sweet blown wide eyes, he bit his lip started shaking he whined loudly his eyes fluttering shut. You were confused, what could've caused this sudden reaction? You looked down to see his cock spurting out a fuck ton of cum.

“ fuck.. I'm c- cumming...”

He said defeatedly, not even going to hide it. You'd walked in at the right time, he was just so pent up and so close he couldn't help but to cum under your intense gaze. His poor cock just leaking out cum, it was basically crying.

He was so needy that he had completely ruined himself at the sheer thought of you. What a fucking whore. His hands were up and he stuttered on his words trying to find an excuse to explain what else was doing, touching himself in your shared bed his cum not only on the covers but literally all over himself too, not just that but a dildo still in his fucking ass. There was no explanation and you both knew that. There was no point in trying to explain something that didn't need to be explained.

“ m’sorry baby.. couldn't help myself... felt too good..”

“ shh baby, it's okay. I understand. you were needy and were all alone... what else were you to do, huh baby boy?”

Izuku whimpered and his lidded expression came back, his breaths were shaky and he was still just so hard. His cock looked so red and messy it was almost such a good look on him.

“ it's okay baby, I'll take good care of you hm? how does that sound?”

He whined in response a wobbly smile forming on his pink tinted lips, he was in for one hell of a ride and he couldn't wait. So eager to please and so ready to cum buckets more for you. After all it was your fault he was like this, you'd let him please you, right?

AN: yummers bro he is just so urghehab. I need him I just NEED to have him a withering mess for me bruv.

[newkatzkafe2023]

Can you imagine the monkey King's wife being exactly like chi chi from dragon ball 😂.

A monkey version of her

They are very scared of her, and she's the only person the monkey King is intimidated by.

I blame the Lego monkie kid voice actor 😅

OH MY GOD!!! THAT IS BOTH AMAZING AND TERRIFYING I LOVE IT!!!!!!🤩🤩🤩🤩

That's the weapon you have Below👇👇👇

(Lmk Wukong) Ohhhhhhhhhh he pisses you off every second of everything day, and it's scares him hell even Macaque is scared of you. It's bad enough that he tends to be irresponsible and Take everything even more difficult with his poor communication skills. Then if it were to cause problems for poor Mk, then that's where you draw the line, and with every life threatening event that is centered around your husband and son. Well both Mk and Wukong Would be actively running from you by the end of it🤣

(MKR Wukong) Man he would take the monk's anger over your anger any time That's how scared he is of you. You know his sh*tty attitude and personality and his habit of having bouts of violence but you. Oh no he would do whatever it takes to stay away from that territory of upsetting you, but if it happens anyway he would get his act together immediately. The pilgrims always gets baffled by his submission and Fruity would say that mama is scary.

(HIB Wukong) Well now at least he knows the Do's and don't's parts of your marriage, considering the results and Consequences. But unfortunately he has to come back home to you after 500 years and he'll have to make up an explanation for his absence. Even worse when you told him time and time again not to go and attack heaven On the count of that is not the best idea to handle the war. Wukong had stupidly disregarded your words and now he has to come home to you, he was right to be worried because you tore him a new one because he Deliberately Disregarded your objections as your environment shook and crack from your yells. the only reason you stop was because he came home with a little boy and baby girl.

(NR Wukong) Li and Su had dumbfounded looks on both of their faces. In the living room was Wukong cowering behind the couch as a female monkey also with a metal mask was screaming profanities at him. The was the day they met you Y/n L/N Wukong his wife, but boi were you quite Intimidating to them. Thankfully they quickly learn how sweet and kind you actually are and the two even fell in love with your godly cooking. You quickly explained that Wukong had fail to tell you that Nezha was recarnated as you stuff Li with food because That's where you always did 3000 years ago.

(Netflix Wukong) Man you used were so little, quiet and cute🥰 when you a cub now your tall, loud, and scary😨 and married to him. You are the more responsible and grounded of the marriage but his reckless behavior makes you both worried and angry. You usually wack him with stick because of his condescending attitude and he should know not to talk to you like that. Then the last straw was when he got to his head in his kaiju form and Lin had to get you and well.....you can imagine how shocking it is to see a giant male monkey to wimper as a tiny female monkey yells at him.🤭🤭🤭

(BMW Wukong) GOLLY!!! you were always the wrong one to mess with 😰. For him pissing off heaven will always be less terrifying than pissing you off😬. Especially when your as powerful as he is, and would have that large club bat you dubbed as Excaliborg That you would occasionally beat his ass with. Unlike Erlang whom he's more then happy to taunt and mess with he knows better then to do the same to you unless he wants to be an must be classified smeer on the ground😬🥶.

(Destined one) He wouldn't get on your nerves in the slightest, mainly because that's a terrible idea but he's a sweet mildly Obedient man to you. You get worried about him alot because he's so selectively mute, so you made sure to engage him in conversations. The one thing you do love is how much he loves your cooking 🍳 and you are more then happy to make large batches for him to eat. He's a good Quiet husband to you and that's good enough for you.

FEEL FREE TO REBLOG😈🍳

[gh0st-t0wn3]

Lmk ss edits + headcanons, Part 6 (Azure Lion, Peng, Yellowtusk)

(I originally made my own design of Azure and Yellowtusk but wasn't quite happy with how they turned out so I scrapped them, the designs for those two I used in these edits were made by @/erraday_ on twt, with a few minor changes, but Peng's design is my own :) )

- He/Him

- Pansexual

- Snores so loud, it's insane, Yellowtusk once thought there was an earthquake

- Feels bad whenever he's steps on a ladybug, butterfly etc

- Gives everyone and everything giant bear hugs because he thinks if Yellowtusk can take it, so can everyone else (They cannot)

- Mei once gave him catnip as a joke and he went fucking feral, he's not allowed near catnip anymore

- His hair/fur is actually very soft and curly

- Thought he saw an old friend while out in public and hugged them, it was a stranger

- Wakes up Yellowtusk in the middle of the night to ask stupid questions

- The Brotherhood asked to hear his roar but he got really nervous last second and it ended up being really meek, they never let him forget it

- Coughed up a hairball once and Peng refuses to let him live it down

- Has eaten cat food before and would do it again

- Cannot do the splits and is too scared to try

- Gets really confused by modern slang, MK and Mei abuse the hell out of it because it's funny

- Whenever he's rough housing with people he accidentally hits a bit too hard

- Whenever he walks past anyone playing a game that involves a ball (football, basketball, netball, etc) he somehow always ends up getting hit in the head with it

- If he wasn't sealed away and got a chance to babysit Redson as a kid he wouldn't know what the fuck to do and would be really awkward cause he doesn't know how to interact with children, he'd be able to bond with Redson better when he becomes a teenager though

- No one gossips with him because he always ends up unintentionally outing someone about something

- Ate moldy food once by accident and freaked out, he was absolutely disgusted

- Hates horror movies but loves slashers

- Drinks mouthwash

- Smells like catnip (trust me guys)

- Love language is words of affirmation

- Has horrible bed head, his mane gets tangled really easily and he tosses around a lot at night so his mane takes hours to brush out

- Absolutely refuses to wear shoes, they hurt his feet (paws?)

- The type of person to cry over a movie about a dog getting lost and then finding its owner at the end

- Can somehow eat an entire goddamn buffet and not gain a single pound

- His face always scrunches up when he smiles

- Lost his balance on a hill and fell down like a tumbleweed once, Peng still brings it up

- They/He (Canon, Peng uses They/Them in the show but is exclusively referred to w/ He/Him in the sets)

- Nonbinary (Canon)

- Starts squaking when he laughs too much

- If you throw a blanket over their head he'll immediately fall asleep

- "look behind you but don't make it obvious" Looks behind him in the most exaggerated, obvious way known to mankind

- Stole food from Wukong's private stash for several months when the Brotherhood was all still together, Wukong still doesn't know

- Wukong gave them cooked chicken once as a joke but he actually liked it

- Constantly argues with Wukong about Macaque not being able to hold his own, yes it got physical

- Their wings have a bunch of scars from the amount of weapons and shit they block with them. Has to consistently clean their wings in order to keep them from getting too damaged, yes this includes softening and preening his feathers

- If they weren't sealed away and got a chance to babysit Redson as a kid they would tape him to the wall like that one meme and call it a day

- Bit off a person's finger once just to see if they could

- Doesn't shop, just steals

- "I hate you so fucking much" as he's handing the person a gift

-  Tried to draw on Wukong's face once but got wacked with his tail

- Absolutely HATES beetroot, will actually gag if he smells it

- Kicks over kids sand castles at the beach

- Can't stand small buzzing sounds

- "I'm not that competitive" is that competitive

- Claims you can trust them with anything but will snitch the second they know it will benefit them

- Probably threatened to eat someone's baby once

- Goes to playgrounds to trip kids

- Smells like Lavender, it just feels right

- Love language is words of affirmation and acts of service

- Has tried sleeping upside down like a bat multiple times

- Hardcore wine aunt vibes

- Had a bunch of ducklings accidently imprinted to him and they followed Peng for hours

- You'd have to pin this bird down to get them to eat collyflower

- Jokingly pushed Azure off a cliff once then remembered they're the only member of the Camel Ridge Trio that can fly

- They have full on concerts at like 3 am, has woken up Azure on multiple occasions

- He/Him

- AroAce

- Is the calmest one in the Brotherhood

- He uses Peng's head as an armrest sometimes

- He and DBK were actually quite close, he knew and accepted that DBK was in love with a celestial but was very surprised to see they ended up having a child

- Very poor eyesight but doesn't like wearing his glasses because Peng made a joke about them once saying he looked like a grandma

- Uses ":3" and ":D"

- Loves soap opera's

- Hates seafood

- Peng once tricked him into eating fish nuggets once and he still hasn't fully forgiven them

- If he wasn't sealed away and got a chance to babysit Redson as a kid he would definitely be the most responsible one, and probably Redson's favourite uncle

- Eats a snack then forgets he ate it and will bet frustrated when he can't find it

- The therapist of the Camel Ridge Trio, and probably of the whole Brotherhood in the past as well

- Was the only one who felt bad about imprisoning the Demon Bull Family since he and DBK were very close

- He also reprimanded Peng for when they pinned and scratched Redson with their claws after they left the Demon Bull Palace (he's the protective uncle, trust me guys)

- Hates getting hiccups, he despises the feeling and it gives him heartburn

- Wakes up at ungodly hours just to raid the fridge

- Heard a story about a bug crawling in someone's ear while they slept and has worn earplugs to bed ever since

- Loves apples

- Smells like Lilies

- Love language is gift giving

- Is really big on safety, would be the type of person to make sure everyone is wearing their seat belts before the car is even turned on

- Actually really good at cooking

- Makes the best chocolate chip pancakes ever

- Is the kind of person who assumes everyone tells eachother everything and accidently exposes someone because he thought everyone else knew about it already

- Always hears things wrong but doesn't wanna ask anyone to repeat themselves

- Has the most elegant ass handwriting you will ever see, somehow

- The peacemaker of the Brotherhood,  they all would've disbanded way sooner if it wasn't for him

- Uses his trunk as a snorkle when swimming or sleeping underwater (elephants actually do this irl, I just thought it was cute)

[peachyfnaf]

haven't exactly watched the show in over a month but hearing what's going on. It's like everyone in it wants to ignore moon's health, plus fans just acting like he should die because of this.

he needs help first and foremost. not like a second death

FOR REAL- THAT'S PRETTY MUCH WHAT'S HAPPENING. EVERYTHING IS GOING WRONG AND NOT IN A FUN WAY, NOT ANYMORE. Not to mention that ever since his hallucination of Solar, Moon has been acting so incredibly out of character it's legit frustrating me. Hell, everyone's been out of character. He would not fucking say that. She would not fucking say that. None of them would fucking say that.

Imma use this ask as an excuse to rant about things that are making me Peeved now lmao.

First off, HERE'S THE THING, some people want this version of Moon to die rn? That, I get. I understand. Because this Moon fucking sucks. This Moon is so out of character compared to the one from like a month ago. He's acting like a villain about to twirl his damn oily mustache all like "I need to kill Ruin and Bloodmoon muahaha!1!". WHICH I COULD JUSTIFY IF HE WAS DOING IT FOR THE SAKE OF HIS FAMILY/DUE TO SHITTY MENTAL HEALTH. BUT NO. HE'S DOING IT OUT OF PRIDE AND THE SELFISH WANT FOR DEATH. HE'S NOT EVEN DOING IT FOR SOLAR ANYMORE.

And that just makes NO FUCKING SENSE because not only was New Moon's whole thing that he was going to be better, literally THE ONLY THING OLD MOON WANTED HIM TO DO WAS TO KEEP THE FAMILY SAFE AND HAPPY. AND NEW MOON IS DOING THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF THAT. I'm so upset rn jdkfhdsf

And then not to mention the way the other's are treating him- Sun is off my shitlist as of today due to the crisis he's having because, for some reason, the choice to whether or not we're killing New Moon is solely in his hands??? Wack. But. Earth and Lunar. Earth and Lunar. I'm not favorable to them right now at all. Earth, according to her, is supposed to be good at reading/understanding people, if not a "therapist". She should understand that Moon said what he said out of a place of fear, anger, ect. Not from his heart. She has every right for it to have hurt her, but for her to basically disown him? Also wack. The only thing I like about her rn is how she seemingly crushed Bm like a bug lmao. And Lunar? God, Lunar was just so unnecessarily bitchy to Moon in that one ""heart to heart"" episode. That "Fuck him!" pissed me off so very much. Dude, that is your brother who is going into a mental spiral over the death of someone he loved. That is your brother. Wack as hell.

AND not to MENTION everything going on w/ Monty- I literally love them 90% of the time but them deciding to NOT LISTEN TO PUPPET when she told them to NOT RESCUE EARTH ALONE literally made me sigh in frustration/disappointment. That is the one thing, the ONE THING she told them not to do. And Monty did it anyways. And Puppet is a MULTIDIMENSIONAL BEING WITH POWERS/ABILITIES/MAGIC FAR BEYOND ANYTHING MONTY COULD UNDERSTAND, AND THE ONLY THING SHE ASKED FOR MONTY TO DO, WAS FOR MONTY TO TRUST HER. And they Didn't. They didn't trust her, and they went alone, and now they're paying the price. Sighs.

No one is talking to each other. There's too much happening at once, aka the story is so bloated. This arc simultaneously feels too rushed and too slow. I'm so fucking salty. And now I'm gonna go eat food and draw sdkfjhds

[stepswordsen]

【FGO】 Beautiful Carnivore, the All-Ridiculing 💚🐈‍⬛

Beautiful Carnivore, the All-Ridiculing

一切嘲弄 美しき肉食獣

Original + Version with Gradient Maps

Quick Douman scribble 💚 Them!!! My evil NB GNC jester icon~ God eater clown! I love them so much!!! He is beauty, he is grace 💖✨

Douman coloured doodle WIP I did back in January 2023.

It's old, so I'd want to redraw it to make it consistent with my usual style, but I figured I'd post it for now since Idk when I'll get the chance to redraw it.

FGO popped off when they created an emotionally nuanced complex complicated jester who deeply loves the human they're obsessed with 💖✨ They are simply PEAK

Douman and LimGuda are EVERYTHING to me I've dedicated my soul to them since December 2020!!! 💚🧡🐈‍⬛🍊

"Beautiful Carnivore, the All-Ridiculing" is such a badass title for them oh my goddd I'm obsessed

I take lots of breaks from FGO but I'm always here to see my faves 👁️ Like awakening the slumbering beast...

Hasendow (Showichi Furumi), Douman's character artist is really good at harmonizing colours and working with green and yellow tones

I tend to use cooler tones and saturate pink/red hues in my arts (though it depends on the art for me). It also has nice contrast against their reds and greens! 💖

I already loved the colours of the OG that I chose but the others are so cool to see. It's fun to see the way low opacity gradient maps shift the colours in subtle ways WHOAAA

It's super messy but it's honestly one of my fave doodles in terms of colours 💗 I'm a big fan of the colours too hehe ✨

I used to airbrush the skin colour over the hair (which is a popular stylistic choice), but I don't do it anymore cuz I think my saturated art style looks better with higher contrast.

I think that Douman doodle has some of the best colour work I've done

It's a rough draft WIP so it's pretty messy, but I love the way the colours harmonize on this one 🤭 💗 I should do colour drafts more often…

I think it's cool to use the same green in their earrings and eyeliner, in their hair as well hehe

When I do these rough colour drafts, it's like if I took a bucket of paint and splashed it on the wall. Helps me get a sense of colours!

I love picking colours, and I think it'd be interesting to take this kind of painting style further whenever I get the chance to refine it more 💞

I definitely want to lean into this messy painting style. I wanna get stronger at the painterly style!

Because of Douman and Kuroha (KagePro), I've always wanted to draw mild horror pieces 🥰💞 It'd be super fun to draw Douman and LimGuda arts with mild artistic horror vibes in the future.

My cute kitty is so versatile. They can be cute silly and be peak horror all at once!

I need to get stronger at drawing them. Douman's design is the most detailed and complicated out of my faves, but I wanna draw LOTS of LimGuda... AHHH...

Check under the cut for the other versions (versions with gradient maps)

Other Versions

I think for some of these, I'd have to fix them manually cuz gradient maps and colour adjustment filters can throw the contrast out of wack so I'd paint over stuff later

Here's the rest of the batch of colour tests I did!

I did 18 in total but I only posted 10

Rambles

I've been obsessed with Ashiya Douman, the evil clown cat since December 2020. Didn't even take me a week to be obsessed. It took 5 days. Sen's Limbo December Descent 🙌

LimGuda is my comfort HC NBLNB ship 💚🧡 They've been one of my top fave ships since December 2020. The spice of a gay evil clown demon who hates humanity, with a karmic relationship of love/hate with the human they're in love with, is unparalleled.

I can’t get over how much I adore Douman. They’re simply the best. This chaos clown is a forever fave of mine~ I love how in-depth and nuanced this hot evil jester onmyouji is. The emotional nuance and complexity of this chara…

“WANTS TO WATCH THEM FALL TO HELL BUT UNWITTINGLY FALLS IN LOVE WITH THEM.” I’M DEVASTATED ABOUT THEM

The amount of detail that went into Douman's character and design is insane to me… Hasendow AKA Showichi Furumi (Douman's character artist/illustrator) has such a huge brain 🤯

My LimGuda collection is my pride and joy 🤭

My Douman/LimGuda merch pile pentagram from November 2022 LMAO. This isn't even all of it

(I tried to mimic the pentagram as much as possible. I scribbled out where I was standing on the bed)

When Douman first released on FGO NA in November 2022, I made a Douman pentagram filled with my Douman and LimGuda merch and fan-merch.

I did this back in 2022, so I have even MORE now to add to the Douman collection, so there's no way all of it is gonna fit on my bed

Douman merch summoning circle catalyst! We did summon an evil demon into my Chaldea~ Welcome home! You are now reunited with your BELOVED 🫶💚🧡

The clean up's gonna be hell with how detailed Douman's design is, but I love working with their colours! I wanna draw LimGuda in matching green and red Áo tấc so bad!!! Matching couple clothes~ 💘💞

Douman loves them with curses… LIKE A CAT TIPPING OVER VASES CUZ THEY WANT TO BE PAID ATTENTION TO. The whole “Limbo gets defeated/is overwhelmed by the power of feelies and their S/O’s Candid Sincerity" trope I love to see in their ship works that I wanna draw eventually btw… I wanna draw them lots!!!

Cinna said “Douman just reminds me of that ‘cat reacts to separation anxiety by trying to maul their owner’ thing I saw one time” LMAO

Ashiya Douman vs. Dioscuri Anthology Comic by AU

Source: (X)

(Context for my non-FGO mutuals following me)

Read the full 30+ pages above if you wanna check it out~

Reminds me of when I was rereading the Ashiya Douman vs. Dioscuri Anthology comic by AU (@/delete_au), that has huge amounts of LimGuda (Douman/Ritsuka) crumbs. DRIVES ME CRAZY...

AU (@/delete_au) is a popular Fate/Grand Order (FGO or Fate/GO) fan artist that's been commissioned to draw official works for Fate (including official merch)

AU’s art style is so intricately detailed and gorgeous. The perspectives, inking, and shading are so gorgeous. Huge art goals for me.

The Ashiya Douman vs. Dioscuri anthology comic has such beautiful art by AU (@/delete_au)

The way he sulks like a cat that wants to be paid attention to when Ritsuka hardly reacts when they sees the maimed shikigami 😭 Please give your kitty lots of attention!

Like once again Douman wants Ritsuka to pay attention to him and searches for reactions from them, but also, the way he refers to himself as their "loyal retainer"

Like a bird preening.

AU has a massive brain since the scenes, visuals, story and dialogue of this Anthology Comic were decided by them. It's also such a huge characterization surplus for Douman and such visual eye candy

Douman invited Ritsuka to fall into hell with them in-game in his My Room lines, and now they're the one inviting him, saying that they will drag him and take him along with them.

Douman tells them that the two of them are "bound by unbreakable/inseparable fate."

And the part where he sarcastically laughs at their speech by comparing it to Buddha's Great Vows, but also acknowledges their determination and tenacity... Aghhhh...

He makes this grandiose, deadly romantic speech back, telling them that they are "bound together by an unbreakable fate" (inseparable fate/karma)

JAW DROP??? THIS IS GAY AS HELL 🏳️‍🌈 LIMGUDA IS REAL!!! 💚🧡

I'm so glad for the fan-translation by u/kanramori

The EN fan-translation is SO good. I love the usage of Saṃvega at the end.

I got stuck on some parts reading the JP version cuz of Douman's vocabulary... I got to clear things up reading the VN fan-TL, and it was interesting to see how it was translated in Viet, but yeah the EN fan-TL cleared up so many things for me.

They drew the Ashiya Douman vs. Dioscuri chapter in one of the FGO anthologies. LIMGUDA ALSO INTERACT IN IT, AND THERE'S TONS OF LIMGUDA FOOD HEHEHEHE... Their art is so gorgeous. They're one of my favourite FGO artists, their works are stunning.

THE WHOLE THING IS SO DELICIOUS SO I'LL JUST SHOW A COUPLE PAGES FROM THE END, BUT OH MY GOD???

I LOVE THEMMMMMMMMMMM LOVE IS REALLLLLLL

LimGuda so good... NB evil clown demon and the human they're deadly obsessed with...

Douman is gigantic. Ritsuka's 200 cm tall (~6"7) bf that loves them!!!

AU'S DOUMAN COMIC FROM THE FGO ANTHOLOGY COMIC WITH DOUMAN AND RITSUKA IS MAKING ME SCREAM WTF /pos /endearing

LimGuda inspired SO much of my writing, including my writing for other ships from other interests I'm into.

"Black/white colour schemed meow meow mf with a bloodthirsty personality and violent tendencies, and/or deadly love/obsession, is paired with a warm empathetic s/o with a brighter disposition"

This Sen-core ship trope is present in all of my ships LMAO

Ashiya Douman vs. Dioscuri by AU (Viet Fan-TL)

The VN fan-TL is pretty much VERY similar since it's based on the same JP text as the source material, but I'll highlight some neat tidbits I noticed

Source: (X)

道満：これぞ弘誓のごとき大言壮語！

道満：そうでしょうとも！

Douman: Such boastful words, just like Buddha’s great vows!

JP uses 弘誓 (Guzei, “Buddha’s great vows”)

The VN fan-TL uses Tứ Hoằng Thệ Nguyện ("The Four Encompassing Vows") of Buddhism, the fourfold bodhisattva vow. Only difference is that it refers to it directly

道満：そう！あなたとこの道満を結ぶは断ち切れぬ「因果」にございます

Douman: Yes, that's right! You and this Douman are connected by an unbreakable “fate”

JP uses 因果 (inga, "cause and effect; karma; fate")

VN fan-TL uses "Unbreakable karma (cause and effect)"

Nhân quả = Karmic cause and effect in Buddhism

I love the wording of him describing the way he's bound to them as “Unbreakable fate”

It's so sexy and fits so well with Douman’s character, saying they have a connection of inseparable fate/karma.

道満：厭穢欣浄（えんえごんじょう）

Douman: En’e’gon’jyou. (“I abhor this tainted world, and seek rebirth in the Pure Land.”)

JP version has it as 厭穢欣浄 (En’e’gon’jyou, “I abhor this tainted world, and seek rebirth in the Pure Land.”)

The VN fan-TL translated it as: Yếm ly uế độ, hân cầu Tịnh Độ = "I detest and want to leave the defilement of the Samsara, and seek rebirth in the Pure Land"

...

厭離穢土 (Onriedo/Enriedo, “Abhorrence of [living in] this impure world”)

The antithesis of Onriedo is 欣求浄土 (Gongujyoudo, “Seeking rebirth in the Pure Land”)

These are Yojijukugo (four character compounds), and concepts of Pure Land Buddhism that became popularized in the Heian era.

The full term is 「おんりえど・ごんぐじょうど」 (Onriedo/Enriedo - Gongujyoudo). The two combined, make a pair.

The phrase is usually shortened to 厭穢欣浄 (En’e’gon’jyou/En’ne’gon’jyou)

In Buddhism, it means, “I am disgusted with this world (I want to leave the world of filth/suffering and stain), and seek the Pure Land [of Buddha]”

...

Both the EN fan-TL and VN fan-TL are super interesting to read! It's been churning in my thoughts all day...

[mrmoonytoonie]

Bendy and the Dark Revival Rant (negative and long)

Idk why I'm making this, maybe for just peace of mind and y'all can bash me in the comments if y'all want or tell me your own opinion if anyone actually reads this stupid thing. Warning I might be all over the place and this isn't scripted so expect foul language and emotion and unprofessional things.

So I'll like to start with that I'm a MASSIVE fan of Bendy and the Ink Machine and have since alpha chapter 1. That game is my childhood and what inspired me to take drawing more seriously.

The "Ink Demon"

So Bendy and the dark revival, literally disappeared and came back out of nowhere lol. I was actually excited and hyped as hell when it was first announced, glad to know Bendy wasn't forever dead (literally sobbed my eyes out when we killed him in chapter 5). But then nothing, no updates, no news, NOTHING, but I still had hope even when everyone was leaving. Then yay the game is here! But my stupidity and something I should have done was that I should have watched the trailer and someone play it to save my money. I got the game when it came out for the PlayStation and immediately played it going in there blind, even though I couldn't even see what I was playing 97% of the time due to it being too dark even with all the house lights off in the middle of the night it was fun at first! Then the fucking "ink demon" part came up, I was so damn excited to see him in better graphics only to have that THING show up. I had to do a double take to see if that was even the ink demon and to my disappointment it was, I'm not going to lie I don't see how people like it, to me it stripped him from all his creativity and made him into a basic ass demon to the point it's not even close to being Bendy related. I'm not gonna lie I did like the voice at first but later its so damn annoying! Like spit that shit out dude, there is no reason for you to do all that! Also how the programmed him is so lazy and annoying and broken "Oh no hide the ink demon is coming", now at first I was excited to have the chase of my life but NOOOOOOOOO, literally just tells you and you hope to God he decides to spawn in where he is supposed to because he will spawn when there isn't any hiding places. Oh and the hiding places are another annoying broken thing, when I'm trying to hide sometimes you have to look at it at a very specific angle and pray it works. Anyways, so at this point we saw little Bendy and ... The Thing, at this point we already know the "big reveal" was that little Bendy is that thing, like anyone should have seen that coming. ALRIGHT so the end, WHAT THE FUCK EVEN IS THE ENDING?! Like why is it just the same ending to BATIM?! Also trying to control Beast Bendy was so damn annoying and wacked! Also what was even his motive? Why the hell did he need Audrey to turn into Beast Bendy? He didn't need it before why need it now? But literally everything gave me more questions then answers and you could have made a better ending than whatever the hell Meetly gave us.

Honestly there is so so much about Bendy and the Dark Revival that I absolutely despise but that would end up making a whole book if I continue so imma just complain on how they massacred my boi. Also if you like BATDR then that's great! I'm glad that people can enjoy things even tho I don't. It's just I feel like I'm going crazy because I don't see anyone else who doesn't like it. Also I didn't expect the game to be easy but it was just so unenjoyable, I was expecting to have the thrill of being chased down hallways and stairs, to fight searchers and the butcher gang, to see old characters that I love and adore only for it to have none of that and just becoming a headache and a broken mess. For someone (Me) who played BATIM over a hundred times to only play BATDR only 3 is just sad. Anyways thanks if anyone reads this, this was just something to help me.

[normiematsu]

text based yuulore. relationship thoughts/her perception of the matsuno family... 🤔 it's not really edited/formatted and i wrote it on my phone but it's taking foreverrrrr to draw this stuff out so enjoy it straight out of my notes app. yippee

oso -> mostly friendly? thinks he's a funny drinking buddy. observes him like a bug. he's kind of an enigma to her since she's rarely seen him by himself so she doesnt know what makes him tick. he gives her shit for being into choro before she realizes she's into him, they bicker a lot abt this and he thinks it's fun to troll her in general lol. he has to be careful not to push too many of her buttons bc if she gets too frustrated she WILL cry and then everyone will attack him

kara -> mutually friendly! generally immune to his eccentricities, but also acts as an agent of chaos and eggs him on when it would be funny to make everyone else die of cringe. has no idea what he's going on about half the time but is a big supporter of him being flashy and weird bc she wishes she could be more openly flashy and weird. he's probably the only bro besides choro who knows the "book cafe" she says she works at is actually a manga cafe (she's too embarrassed to tell ppl this normally but she trusts him to be cool about it)

choro -> ITS COMPLICATED. rivals to lovers. they're into a lot of the same things so before they get to know each other they're constantly in a loop of bumping into each other reaching for the same last piece of merch which flusters the hell out of her. once properly introduced she thinks he's fun to mess with and has a really easy time doing so lol. trolled this guy so hard they accidentally fell in love with each other. she goes to extreme (and poorly hidden) lengths to hide her crush on him for a long time. when they're together she's usually serving as the voice of reason since she has more practical life experience than he does. they are pretty disgusting to witness in love, she's more open about pda than he is but u can feel it oozing off of them. they do almost everything together. ewwww cooties 🤓

ichi -> friendly but one sided mostly. she's nice to him but he's terrified of her because how can someone who looks put together and has a job be into the same shit as choro. he gets freaked the fuck out for a while whenever they have to interact but i think with time they could get along well. she could help him be a domestic party peep or whatever the hell normie stuff he wants to do bc unlike jyushis zany approach she encourages him to just go with the flow of the crowd

jyushi -> she's lowkey scared of him at first because... he's jyushimatsu and jyushi does things the jyushimatsu way. getting glimpses of his more serious side makes her realize his typical self is kind of similar to her approach of meeting her friends where they're at, he's just really out there in terms of trying to make the vibes fun. has considered egging him on like she does w kara but is too scared it would tear apart the fabric of reality

totty -> friendly but there is a little tension in the beginning. she heard about the sutabaa incident secondhand at a mixer and when she realizes this is the guy in question she's dying laughing inside but saves him the embarrassment of letting him know she knows. he picks up on this and doesn't know what to do with that vibe. other than that they get along well bc they're both normie passing lol. doesn't quite get her taste in fashion (too flashy for him) but it's interesting for him to see what she gravitates towards when they go shopping together. not afraid to join him in roasting the other bros when they're on some wack shit either

matsuyo & matsuzou -> girl is trying so hard to be so normie around them!! but they raised 6 neets so they see right through her act lol. they like her regardless and she's always acting super proper around them in the beginning, but being around her s/o's parents is stressful for her 💀 i think later on in yuucho era she would relax more and come over just to cook dinner with matsuyo. they'd both mostly just be thrilled to have a potential daughter in law hanging around in the first place lol

that's all i got for now. smiles

[meeblo]

TBWF Reread Ch0

Here it is, the start of my reread of the The Boy Who Fell, with analysis and an accompanying drawing or sketch each chapter. I'm doing this as a combination of a few things I want to do, namely reread TBWF and get better at art.

Not sure how I want to order this in the future, for now I'll do art first and then analysis.

Chapter 0 is fairly short so I don't have much to say. The striking solid red cover does a great job establishing the tone and prevents readers from getting the wrong impression from the majority of chapter 0 before Ren is pulled off the roof. Even while the basic school plot is happening, the reader wonders what that chapter cover was about and what the deal is with the ominous past tense narration.

It's interesting seeing Yuu's characterization here. You don't learn a ton about him in this one short chapter, but he's definitely different to how his characterization is later solidified in Springtime of Yuuth. Visually different as well, not just in art style which obviously shifted over time but in terms of body language and posing as well.

Ren's characterization is very nicely introduced here. Throughout the chapter, the narration in Ren's voice is going back through the events that transpired and trying to think over what he could have done differently. The nervous self-doubt is mixed with self deprecation, as Ren states that he is "simply bad luck". Ren stating that "Yuu had nothing to do with it" and that it was just his own bad luck shows him solely blaming himself for negative occurrences that are—though not entirely out of his control—decidedly influenced by other factors; this stays true of his character up to late in the series, where he finally starts to accept that the things he was pushed to do are proof that he is a victim too, not that he has committed unforgiveable acts. This isn't to say that Yuu is at fault here; the roof edge was precarious, but an eldritch tendril from hell pulling Ren off is the problem, Ren would not have fallen otherwise. This is just an early indication of a larger part of his character. Ren is also shown to be someone with little to no social connections and a pushover when it comes to someone with more self confidence than him, other aspects of his character that are relevant early on though not as long lived as his self-deprecating blame.

My favorite panel of the chapter is the last one on page twelve. The composition is very striking, with the directly top down view as Ren is being pulled off the roof and is now parallel to the ground facing up at the sky. This wonderfully recontextualizes the very first page, the only color page of the chapter, which is devoted to a full view of the sky. Though not the exact view Ren would see when falling, page two (as the copyright notice is technically page one) definitely conveys a different tone with the context of how the chapter ends. Page twelve is also the best view of Ren in the chapter, providing a full body depiction. This is the moment when you see Ren in the most detail in chapter 0: right as everything goes to hell.

My Art

I was definitely overambitious here for my first time ever drawing a scene in a digital art program. The perspective proved to just be too tricky, so Ren and Yuu's sizes don't quite match up; Ren in particular has a massively wide chest, strange proportions I was not intending. I wanted to try and shade things with screentone to replicate somewhat the look of the comic earlier on, but I didn't actually reference and see how star tended to use screentone so it's not quite the same. Overall though, I think I had a good concept for the piece and that the composition is fine even if the anatomy and proportions are all out of wack. There are things I decided to not go back and fix because I don't want to strive for perfection on every piece; I feel like I'm more likely to improve faster if I keep making new pieces rather than tweaking one until I'm absolutely satisfied with it. Real missed opportunity though to just make the sun the sun, I realized afterwards it would have been really cool to have made it the Hell Kitchen logo.

I gained a lot more familiarity with shortcuts and navigating layers, so it's nice to already have noticeable improvement even just from when I started this drawing to when I finished.

[the-agent-of-blight]

Being an aro/ace can do some wack stuff to your sense of gender.

(In depth discussion of gender ahead: continue at your own risk)

//vent

So much of society’s definition of what a man or a woman is gets tied to romantic/sexual prospects. I’ll speak to the male perspective, as that’s the one I have. As a guy, i’m societally expected to chase after the prospect of dating a woman, i’m expected to have a strong desire to have sex. I’m expected to do things to make myself more attractive and more “manly” to draw in romantic prospects. I’m supposed to get buff, to be attractive, to be ‘fit’, to hide my emotions from others because “being emotionally vulnerable is not a good way to get a girlfriend”. I’m supposed to be athletic. I’m supposed to provide for my spouse with a job. I’m supposed to do this and do that and all of this but all of it ties inherently into either romance or sex. And i just. don’t want that. So i feel no need to do. any of that? What of masculinity is left? For the most part its just. physical traits that people associate with men. A low voice, facial hair, etc. Even then sometimes people treat these as means to get a romantic/sexual partner.

So it makes one think. Am I really a man? if nearly everything that society (and therefore everything that my brain) is telling me about what a ‘man’ is ends up being things that i have no desire of being? I feel disillusioned from my own gender. i know i’m a man solely because everything else feels wrong. I only wish that there were more ideas of what being a man means that isn’t so tied to romance or sex (also it’d be nice if there was more that wasn’t tied to misogyny but that’s a different can of worms.) it’d be a lot easier to figure out what the hell is going on.

And to think. that the reason that there are less aro or ace men in polls and the like is because they feel more pressured by their gender role to be romantic and sexual so they just. go through with it. performing something they don’t like or don’t want for the sake of their gender. Its depressing. it sucks.

[chiefweasel]

Weazols Rool (sneakpeak)

This is a draft. I'm only 2/5 completed. This is nit the finished peice. Since I paused everything else to write this, Im low on content

Benji is Chief, Leslin is Lesser

The low hum of the fluorescent lighting eventually buzzed to a stop. The whole house was dark. The bills hadn't been paid. He sat alone in the dark then, unspeaking, unmoving. Thinking. Thoughts were all he had. His thoughts.

When the lights went out, it was a shock. No one expected it to happen, and for a moment, nothing did. Throughout the home rang pure silence. It was the first time since their infiltration of the home that the entire building was silent. Someone ran to a light switch and flicked it back and forth. The lighting didn’t come back though. The hum remained absent. The silence was almost deafening.

The noise was worse.

Life for the Wild Wooders was never preferable. The animals lived in less than decent circumstances. Though most Wild Wooders were decently skilled hunters, most of their food was scavenged from the nearby dump. Other than the fact that they weren’t necessarily violent animals and didn’t rather enjoy stripping life from others, not many animals came round to the Wild Wood to give them a chance. Instead of homes, these animals lived in hallowed-out and dead tree stumps. They provided no warmth in the heart of the winter.

Life for someone like Mr. Toad was incredible. As if in a dream or a type of fairytale, people like Toad could afford to have anything they wanted. And they wanted everything they could afford.

Toad Hall was extravagant. The best house on the Riverbank- or anywhere else for that matter. Mr. Toad had anything he could have ever wanted in that mansion and more. He did not burn in his house during the summer, nor did he freeze during the winter. Any meal he could ever please for was delivered straight to his door.

It was never fair, how the rich- who always took pride in their indifference towards their own money- were given the special treatment of the world. The Wild Wooder's knew they had to do something about it, and that's exactly what they did. 

Mr. Toad was not a good man. Smashing and crashing things, wallop and wacking, pounding and cracking and whatever other childish things the Toad wanted to. He was never held responsible for a thing he'd done. He got away with absolutely everything. Until he stole a car.

It was the only time in Benji's life that he'd ever seen Toad show even an ounce of regret. He wasn't even regretful for the thing that he’d done. He was regretful that he'd gotten caught. Benji sat on jury while the Toad plead his case.

“It was as if the moter wanted to come with me,” the Toad lied, “You say the car was stolen, I say it was the other way around!” The Toad claimed the entire ordeal came about only 'as if it were a dream' and it was rather obvious he had no remorse for anyone. He didn’t care about the owner of the car, he didn't care about the people he'd hurt, and he sure as hell didn’t give a fuck about the people he’d killed. It was disgusting. 

When it was time for the jury to deliver their verdict, it was unanimous. This bitch was guilty and deserved to rot in the fieriest pits of the darkest dungeon in hell and suffer. Toad got 20 years.

Oh to see the look on his face. The pain, the anguish. None of it was even remotely related to the fact that Toad had hurt others. It was because he’d been caught and was getting punished. His face was drenched in sweat and tears and his breathing was rapid. He screamed out and flailed around, drawing more and more attention to himself despite all the attention being already on him. What a revolting, self-centered monster. It was hard to watch and it made Benji’s stomach twist. Why were people like this allowed to be in positions of power and material wealth? Benji was no braggart but he’d like to think that if people like him were in Toad’s life positions, the whole world would be a better place. People like Benji wouldn’t let anyone see the poverty the Wild Wooders saw. People like Toad wouldn’t care less. Just so long as they kept their money. He watched as the Toad was removed from the room and swore silently that if he’d ever seen that disgusting, lying, thieving, manipulative son of a bitch again.

He’d kill him.

Oh how the Wood partied that night. It wasn’t even a major win, not for the Wild Wooders at least. The animals on the riverbank would live a safer twenty years, but Toad’s absence had no effect on the Wild Wooders- positive or otherwise. Did that stop them from celebrating the minor win?

Foxes, weasels, and stoats ran about laughing. Benji loved the sight of it. His friends- his family- happy. Singing songs in the comfort of the trees. Quietly, he and Leslin slipped away from it all.

The dried leaves crunched as the two walked by, originally in silence. The autumn air ran through their fur. The sky was filled with millions of stars and just as many leaves browned under their feet.

 “What are we going to do now, Chief?” The Lesser Weasel spoke once they were far enough from the heart of the wood that the prancing and cheering was merely distant uttering. 

“Aye, We’re going to Toad Hall to find some grubs, Toad's got plenty of food and we won't have to kill anyone for it.”

Leslin nodded, blindly following the other. “Well, that makes sense,”

It was well into the night when the two weasels made it to the unlocked entrance of the grand home. Benji had planned on finding an unlocked window or forcing Lesser to break the lock. When they got to the gate, Benji hopped over without any issue, but Leslin’s slight mishap caused the gate doors to swing right open. They were never locked in the first place. When they made it to the door, a reluctant try at the handle gave way. They were in.

   

Benji was shocked by how uncared for the house had been- now, the inside of the home was fit and clean, but could the Toad not even be bothered to tell his butlers to lock his doors on the way out? Oh well. Made things a lot easier for the weasels to come in and grab whatever they pleased.

The Lesser Weasel made his rounds of the house first, to make sure the hall was safe. It really was a beautiful place, a bit old-timey, but it had a very characteristic charm They didn’t turn any lights on only because they didn't know they could. They’d never been in a real house- one with lighting and electricity- before. Still, with the exceptional might vision of a weasel, Lesser was able to explore the dark hall.

As Lesser returned, A large green clock near the stairs struck, and eleven strong chimes rang into the large and empty home. Benji noticed that the fur on his partner stood a little taller. His was as well. Disregarding it, the weasels followed their noses into the kitchen, where all the food was being stored.

“He’s got everything…” the Lesser Weasel said to himself, astonished. He lit a strange-looking cigar he’d picked off Toad’s counter. He took a drag from it and offered it to his partner, who gently accepted. Benji drew from the cigar and coughed a bit. Something seemed odd about it, but he didn’t say anything. Lesser didn’t seem to be affected, so he figured this strange, paper cigar was just what was popular amongst the rich. It was insane how the rich found interest in the aesthetic of poverty. Benji had always imagined a rich cigar to be lined with gold, not made from haphazardly wrapped paper.

Leslin’s seemed to disappear, but he appeared soon after with a large bottle of wine. “Can we have some?” the lesser asked, “Just a glass or two before we go.”

“Aye, Toads not goin’ to miss it,” The answer came after a moment's hesitation. Who cared even if Toad did miss it? Leslin opened the bottle with his teeth. Benji drew again from the cigar and continued on to put food into bags to take back to the Wild Wood. 

It wasn’t long after that when the idea struck him, a beautiful, beautiful idea. Why hadn’t he had this idea before? It was much better than just gathering a couple of days worth of food from Toad Hall. He went to go share his idea with Lesser.

Benji awoke the next day with a pounding headache and an unnaturally strong hatred for everything. For a moment, he had no idea where he was, and even when he relized, he couldn’t remember why it was, he was still there. They were supposed to have gotten…

The more Benji tried to think, the more it hurt his brain- where... where was Lesser?  Benji stumbled a bit, in an attempt to get up, but stopped when he heard the sound of stumbling not too far out. “Les?” Benji called, then cringed. His voice rang in his head in an almost painful way.

“Chief?”

He didn’t hate that voice. He didn’t think he could ever hate that voice.

“Aye,” he called quietly

More stumbling. A shadow approached. 

"Just.." The weasel rolled to his side a little, trying to block out the light, "just give me a couple minutes. My head hurts like hell.'

They left Toad Hall a mess. Throughout the night, two empty bottles of wine had been smashed into the ground. One not so empty bottle had somehow shattered on Toad's couch. Red stains solidified their forever home on the ugly green couch. Lesser had flipped the cushions over, but it didn't do much to hide the fact that the wine had gotten everywhere. Other than the wine, someone had spilled popcorn all over Toad’s bed. Not to mention the two had tracked in quite a bit of mud. 

As the weasels snuck away from the riverbank and back into the Wild Wood, Benji racked his brain. Something told him that he’d forgotten something. Yes, the events of the last night had fleeted his memory, but something told him he’d forgotten more than just whatever he and Lesser had done. Something important.

When they made it back to the Wild Wood, Benji burrowed into a small, hollowed-out tree trunk. He was tired. The rest of the wood was quiet. Despite the sun’s position in the middle of the sky, weasels, stoats, and foxes were entirely tuckered out from the excitement of the previous night. The few animals that were awake trod very lightly so as to not wake their comrades and companions. About half an hour passed and Benji felt the warm presence of someone. Judging by the amount of warmth- and her scent, Benji could assume it was his partner.

“Aye, Kit,” He greeted her sleepily. His eyes stayed shut and he didn’t turn to face her, but his smile carried through his words. She sat next to him, running a hand through his fur. Benji eventually sat up, Sheryl took the chance to plant a small kiss on the edge of Benji’s nose. 

“Leslin’s on his way.” Sheryl took Benji’s paw in her own. “He told me about your idea. Your wonderful idea,” Sheryl laughed a little, “You’re a genius, Benji.” Patting the Chief’s head, she added before a quick kiss. “My genius.”

Benji nodded and took the praise. He had no clue what Sheryl was talking about, but he liked the treatment. Leslin ducked into the treestump as Sheryl broke away from the kiss. Benji shuffled and Leslin sat. It was a cramped fit for the three, but they didn’t mind to sit close. 

“You look tired, Les.”

“You look worse.”

“You do look rough, Ji” Sheryl chimed in.

“Just tired..” Benji smiled a little, “Whats the meeting for?”

Sheryl smiled to herself and squeezed Benji’s hand, “Just to make sure we understand your wonderful plan.”

Benji knew not of any plan. “Alright, well.. Why don’t you tell me what all you know of it.”

And it was a great plan. The question of weather or not it would work had not crossed their minds. Leslin and Sheryl understood and executed. 

They didn’t want it to be a slow process, they told everyone the plan and began their move that very night, and they'd completed by morning. The otter pup they’d taken in just before Toad’s court date only slightly protested. She had begun to come terms with the fact that the wooders did not genuinely plan on eating their fellow mustelid. They only had a reputation to uphold.

It wasn’t a lot of work for the animals, they didn’t have any possesions to move, just themselves. They only needed to make it- preferably without being caught by the riverbankers.

And that they did. Parent animals carried their sleepy children out of the Riverbank, and slowly, in a very scattered manner, each group of Wild Wooders took a slightly different route to Toad Hall. Most Riverbankers were asleep at the time, and those who did awake in the hours of the night typically had a policy of keeping to themselves. The doors were just as the Chief and Lesser left them. Nothing had been touched since the two's entrance the previous day. Benji and Leslin had kept an eye out all day to make sure none of Toads henchmen returned.

If any of them returned now, they'd have an army of Wild Wooders to face, and a few foxes had already made remarks hoping for some rabbit meat.

When the sun rose, the Wooders were all moved in. None of them minded the mess. They were excited for the warmth that being in the home In the coldening autumn months brought. They explored Toad Hall, which was right then and there renamed by Benji to Weasel Hall, a change that made Lesser strangely excited.

The Wild Wooders were tired, and thus saved their party for the next day, giving themselves a little bit of time to rest- richly deserved rest.

Benji slept on the couch again. Something about sleeping in Toads bed felt wrong to him (and awfully Animal Farm-ish) instead of ruling that no one could sleep in Toads bed, though, he gathered up all the tired pups and kits and allowed them to sleep there. They were much too sleepy to understand what was happening. They'd get it tomorrow.

Besides, If Benji messed with the couch enough, he'd found, IT turned into a bed. A smaller one that was less comfortable looking, but that was fine by him. Sheryl laid the mattress that was stored behind the couch down onto the bed bit of the curious thing and she, Leslin, and Benji slept there.

It wasn't very long after that the parting came. The real partying, and the exploration. The fun of learning of the things in Toad- in Weasel Hall and learning what they did. 

The stove, they learned, could be hot if you moved the notches. The water in the bathtub could be hot or cold, depending on which way you turned it. They learned of the light switches and the fireplaces and the way the liquor and funny paper cigars could really make life feel wonderful. Especially the paper cigars. 

“Don’t think you’ve had enough?” Benji asked, taking the bottle from Leslin and lifting it to his own mouth. “You’re going to have a headache in the morning,”  he continued.

Les had had more than enough. Much, much more than enough. Not that anyone was counting. That’d be a waste. Almost as much of a waste as the sheer amount of liquor that ran down Leslin’s throat only to come back up the next day. It’d only been a few days though. Things would die down. You couldnt get mad at him for partying when it was, after all, party time. 

Night fell and the partying didn't stop. The Wild Wooders chattered loudly and plaid games. The ones who did sleep slept like babies through the noise thanks to the comfort and darkness of the individual rooms in the hall. There were many. Many more than enough for one measly Toad. When day broke, they continued. A lovely cycle.

"Aye, you don't think you've had enough of that?" Benji took a small cup from his partner and downed it, causing the smaller weasel to growl and playfully jump at him. His movements were slower and less calculated than they typically were and the play fight was over all too quickly. "C'mon Les, let's get you in a bed."

Leslin did not want to get in a bed, and he fought back to the best of his ability, but it much and Benji had him very quickly up the stairs and in a dark guest bed room. One that didn't seem to had been used yet.

"Stop struggling," Benji growled at the smaller weasel, who for some reason refused to let him put the blankets over him.

"Let me go, I'm not even tired!" Despite this claim, the teary look in the weasels eyes read desperation. Not desperation to be released, no. This weasel was desperate for a nap. 

Sometimes, when you know what's better for someone you love, you have to be willing to hurt them in the short term to help them in the long run. Leslins struggling lessened and lessened until he was too tired to fight back. Not long afterwards, he fell asleep. Feeling accomplished, Benji left the room so his partner could sleep in peace.

[overheaven]

final update for now: so gf is racing home after work to take me to bring my computer to a repair shop before they close just to see what’s wrong, i try to set up a guest account on it so my files will be extra safe (backed them up & removed sensitive info but yknow you can never be too careful about privacy) and my microsoft vs local accounts got wack as hell, had to troubleshoot passwords and admins and a whole bunch of bullshit but that’s fixed now and you know what’s the worst thing about this?

the screen started working again

i was already texting her like “hey i don’t think i can do this today, just come in when you get here ‘cause i’m still in crisis mode about it all and i don’t think i could even begin to tell them what’s wrong if the screen started working again” and just. like it fixed itself and now i’m like sitting here felling drained and hollow, it’s not relief it’s just shame and bitter humor about having a fucking silent meltdown about what apparently amounted to a non-issue.

idk more rambling below about this whole thing cause it’s been a wild couple of days and i’m at some sort of breaking point, but the TL;DR is:

i mean how long it will stay a non-issue is. hm. but for now i’m just. i guess i sit here contemplating how much subtle suffering i need to endure in order to feel justified in upgrading this device (which is a necessity and big part of my life) or getting it professionally repaired etc etc. or even aside from justification, how do i even prepare to get that done? i don’t know how to explain the whimsical contraption that is my computer if i were to bring it in and have everything be in more or less working order aside from a couple inconveniences (the trackpad has been busted since day 1 which is another issue with this particular model iirc but it doesn’t bother me cause i use a mouse anyways, i had to replace the keyboard and i think i was sent the wrong one because the keys aren’t quite the same & some don’t work but again i’ve learned to live with it).

it’s just funny how this whole thing mirrors my struggles with keeping my own body and self in working order like. so many little things are wrong with my computer, but it still works pretty good more or less. do i just bring it in and flop it onto the counter and say “yeah it’s a bit of a goofy old jalopy and you’d laugh if i tell you all the little silly things that are wrong with it so can you just crack it open and tune it all up?” ?????

my body and my mind are the exact same, i’m starting therapy soon (as mentioned above i was supposed to start yesterday) and i’ve been watching youtube videos and reading reddit threads about what to expect from therapy (i’ve been to a few sessions as a kid but never anything substantial for Reasons that i hope would be addressed in said therapy) and yknow one of the things you can expect at your first appointment is talking about goals, history, etc. i don’t know my personal history, there are so many things wrong that i don’t know what my goals are. same for physical health like there are just so many aches and issues but i don’t know how to go about pinpointing what they all are, much less what i could tell a doctor. i’m literally always uncomfortable if not actively in pain so it’s like. “hurting” is baseline. “how are you today?” “i’m okay” = my jaw probably hurts from my tics and i’m picking my nails and my back is aching and i probably am having some lowkey tennis elbow pain and my teeth hurt and i need a new eye exam and i haven’t been able to fall asleep til 5 AM and i don’t get out of bed til 1 or 2 PM and i’m going bald and i still get mouth sores but yknow that’s all normal. i’m still “running” fine. good, even. i’m drawing and writing. i’m interviewing for jobs. i’m running fine.

i’ve been neglected for far too long and it’s just. i don’t know how to start fixing myself now that my eyes have been opened a little more and i’m beginning to realize hey maybe you don’t have to suffer these little owwies every day. maybe your little owwies are actually big pains and you’ve just been taught to minimize them behind masking and toughing it out. maybe you deserve to be pain free instead of just ignoring it all.

god. yeah. it is what it is i guess.

my laptop screen is finally just broken! i feel like i should start sobbing but i can’t so i’m just sitting here trembling! girl help!!!

[dadr0ckmusic]

stranger things headcanons because i said so part 2 (the kids)

max mayfield

only eats green skittles

billy has told her multiple times that she needs to improve her taste in men

tried to get will to be treasurer of the mike wheeler hate club she founded. he said no

"are you ready to fucking rage?" "max we're only going to the dollar store."

she definitely takes those 6-hour, sweaty, bed-lined naps like everyday

makes those jokes like "why'd you turn the lamp on? to look at men? cause you're gay?" to mike

avid girl in red listener. "i thought you'd swing the other way since..." "WHAT THE FUCK BILLY"

"my bisexual bf and i in our straight passing relationship"

doesn't know how to spell courious,,,,, couiours,,,,, the thing george the monkey is

has zero school spirit. i don't blame her i would hate that school too

this girl LOVES hot wings and will murder everyone if they don't order wings when they get pizza

she got drugged REALLY BAD one year on halloween in cali. like girl was in third grade watching the wallpaper melt while being lectured for staying out late

would totally beat your ass if you went thrifting and found something cooler than her

she would totally get into metal/glam rock for approval from eddie and billy. eddie def took her to metallica's fort wayne concert in '86

i know this gal has a wagon full of ice and water balloons and she skates around hawkins and fucking hurls these water balloons at people she knows

dustin henderson

likes mint chocolate chip ice cream

he tried to learn a cool bike trick when he was in 4th grade and ended up breaking his arm and the bike. he never tried it again

his collection of hats is so dear to him you have no clue

takes care of a fake plant and doesn't know it. steve made robin and eddie vow to not tell him. dustin named it kevin

if he likes you enough absolutely NOTHING will get him to change his opinion on you. you killed a man? that's sick as hell. you beat steve's ass at some point? he needed sense knocked into him. you're cool as hell no matter what.

is a literal SLUT for gummi worms

call him 'casanova' or 'hot shot' and he'll be your best friend. his self-esteem would go through the roof

confuses people with facts and logic

total animal lover. he tried to be vegetarian once and gave up after like three days but its the thought that counts

him and eddie have an elaborate handshake (kind of like his and steve's in s3) and its so out of wack sometimes but always ends perfectly

he has a little photo album he hides in his closet and lucas found it one time and STILL gives him shit for it and blackmails him. "remember what i found in your closet dustin? it'd be a shame if someone were to know about it..." "okay FINE here's $20"

he cries wayyy more often than he wants to admit

he would have a crush on any steve-aged girl that ends up in the group. and when he met suzie he told the steve-aged girl that he was sorry he was off the market

he has so much gaydar its actually baffling.

will byers

he's just.... the sweetest kid on the planet

if you're apart of the lgbtq+ community, he'd be so understanding because he's gay (obvi) and he loves you! so much!

i know this mf would've made eddie postpone hellfire to go to lucas's game and watch him make the winning shot

he gets the most bitches in the party despite being gay. i do not make the rules.

he would be on the track team in high school

brings a camera with him EVERYWHERE and documents everything and makes a photo book for each person in the group

always always always worrying about your well-being especially after any upside down madness

him and max are BEST BUDS and it terrifies the party.

he would spend HOURS on a drawing for you and the meaning will make you cry. "it took a little while... but it's worth it because you mean a lot to me :)" tears ensue. "WILL BYERS YOU MEAN THE UNIVERSE TO ME"

talks to eddie for hours upon hours about lord of the rings/the hobbit. HOURS

always rides shotgun. he totally has the widest taste in music and it actually shocks people sometimes

THE. BEST. HUGGER. let me tell you. if you've been through it and he hugs you? the goddamn waterworks. no doubt about it.

makes mixtapes for everyone in the party. mixes in some prog rock for taste to 'widen their musical knowledge'

he's ticklish. but if you tickle him he's beating you to a pulp

sometimes he's SUCH a little shit and gets away with it so often

lucas sinclair

will made him a friendship bracelet and he hasn't removed it in three years.

he has really weird dreams. like when the party all stay at someone's house they always wake him up early and ask him what he dreamed about.

he likes apple juice and is very ashamed of it

if they ever go to a waterpark, lucas is FORCING mike to get on the biggest slides with him just to see him freak out

can't look at a waffle without thinking of el

threatened to sell mike to the commies once and mike didn't speak to him for a week

when max was in lucas's arms after vecna attacked her he remembered the "do you accept the risk" conversation and he broke.

one time during d&d he missed an attack against a dragon and punched the table so hard he fractured his wrist

when he shot billy in the face with the slingshot he was actually so proud of himself that he looked to see if anyone was watching and then he remembered the situation they were in

would listen the SHIT out of frank ocean.

is the opposite of "no homo" this fucker says "full homo bro" and leans in to kiss dustin lmfaooo

just so confused 24/7

him and will are absolute menaces. like they'll be getting yelled at by steve and they make eye contact with each other and fucking lose it

eleven

lesbian el ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

she loooves watching will do anything art-related

just so curious (i know how to spell curious i was joking earlier) about everything! wants to know everything about everything and will spend hours reading library books about a subject

had will braid her hair when it was long

has girls nights with max, nancy, and robin

learned about the concept of death later than normal and she sometimes says "i'm gonna miss you when you die" to someone in the party and it freaks them out

the party taught her how to ride a bike and now she BEGS them to go on bike rides even when its snowing

collects LOADS of funky socks cause she's a funky little lesbian

love love loves writing letters!! when she lived in lenora she sent soooo many letters to everyone, even steve

after the first time max painted her nails, it became her favorite color over time

keeps candy in her pockets ALL THE TIME just in case someone needs cheering up

remembers specific times and dates like when she got to california, when she met robin officially, and when joyce told her to trust her and that she's safe

gets everyone out of trouble at school because all the teachers love her

loves perfume so much. she's always asking max which ones she likes best so she can try them

mike wheeler

him and nancy fought over who got to name holly

i just KNOW this mf uses axe body spray like deodorant and its probably the reason el breaks up with him (besides the fact he's totally in love with will)

prefers coke over pepsi

eddie always compares mike to a spider and calls him skinny and gross and lanky and it sometimes makes mike sad but eddie truly doesn't mean it

scared of ladybugs

fucker hates pickles

he cried when xxxtentacion died when he really never listened to him before he died. mike even made him his lockscreen he was that devoted to being a fake fan

an asshole towards anyone he isn't friends with. even if someone in the party really likes this person he is NOT giving in

this little fucker needs his mommy to cut the crust off his sandwiches cause he's a BABY. he needs his mommy to tuck him into bed cause he's a BABY.

i know this dude's middle name is anthony or some shit

i know s2 mike would beat the FUCK out of s4 mike

his favorite animals are frogs and lizards cause he reminds me of a lizard

[sartetsu]

As your wife, it’s only fair I send you your first ask on this new blog.

Anyway, how about Noya with a tutor who helps him during exam season?

And so, this routine has been going on for a while. Until Noya realizes he’s caught feelings.

(Bonus points if Tanaka’s part of the study group and caught on early on and has been trying to set up his friends for months, but they’re both oblivious shits)

CATCHING FEELINGS FOR THEIR TUTOR

characters. Yū Nishinoya

authors note. you read my mind with the tanaka bit wifey

warnings. like one swear word 

You and Tanaka have been pretty good friends since middle school. You always helped with school in which you succeeded, and he did not. 

Exam season was approaching, and of course, Tanaka was going to seek help from the smartest person he knew, which was you. 

Originally, it was only supposed to be you and him, but all the second years hopped on forming a little study group.

In return for each session, a different one would buy your dinner.

Now Noya had the most trouble. He wasn’t understanding half the shit coming out of your mouth, so he’d stopped paying attention. He started randomly leaving the room, drawing on everything, going on his phone, etc., you get my point. 

this study group ended up becoming a regular thing and you ended befriending them all but seemed to spend the most time with Noya.

You always sat next to him during studying, not only cause you were the only one in the group to get him to chill tf out, but you two became really good friends, even hanging out at school. 

Many found you balanced each other out- Noya was a hyperactive wild ferret, and you, well, were not. 

Hell, people thought you two were dating now.

You honestly enjoyed his company and thought he was a good person. He had a good heart and stuck up for not only his friends but what he believed in. 

Tanaka, of all people, was the first one to notice that spark between you both. His two best friends were falling for one another and didn’t even know it- and he’s the dumbass

So for his job as one of your best friends, he was going to try and make you admit your feelings. 

Now Tanaka would do the basic “best friend trying to set up their two best friends” thing, often bringing one of you up to the other or constantly asking about one of you. A few times he would make plans but suddenly “couldn’t make it,” leaving you too alone

Spoilers: it didn’t and it actually made you both think he liked the other.

Noya ended up asking Tanaka if he liked you, and that made him realize his plan failed. 

Tanaka ended up explaining himself and then told Noya he thought he liked you. 

“Do you like Y/n?” 

“..No?”

“Are you sure?”

“...”

Basically, that's how that convo went...

But obviously, Noya wasn’t going to admit it- sure, he thought you were smart and attractive. He was shit at memorization, but he remembers your favourite food and song. He noticed that your eyes would light up when you talked about your current obsession and how excited you would get when someone was interested in it too. 

But that doesn’t mean he likes you.

Right?

Noya being Noya would be in denial for weeks but suddenly, at 3 am while he’s on his phone, it would just hit him. Instantly would call up Tanaka, screaming that he liked you- both his mom who he woke up and Tanaka would tell him to shut up and that they could have told him that months ago. 

Now it was time to tell you:)

There was no plan, as soon as he realized he wanted to tell you right away. Noya was going to call you that night, but Tanaka told him to wait in person. 

So that morning, we all know that man's sleep schedule is wack cmon, he was so excited to go to school, omg-

When he got there, he practically ran looking for you. 

You happened to be at your locker when you heard your name being screamed down the hallway, and when you looked, you saw him running at you at full speed.

Before you had time to process what was happening, Nishinoya screamed, “I like you,” slapped his hands over his mouth and ran off in a panic.You kind of just stood there, and people walked past you with the most confused looks, and you just smiled before rushing to go find him. The first place you looked was the gym for obvious reasons, and you were right- Noya was leaning against the side of the building. 

You walked up to him, proceeding to scare the shit out of him. Leaning against the wall, the two of you sat in silence. 

It was killing you, so you had to say something,

“Noya?”

“Yeah..?”

“I like you too.”

No one could ever describe the pure genuine shock and excitement on his face. 

Oh, you definitely bet that Tanaka dragged the whole team to watch this go down.None of them were impressed.

They were just like, “well fucking finally.” The two of you caught them, and together, you beat up Tanaka but also thanked him at the same time.

a few months ago you were helping him barely pass math finding him the most annoying thing ever and now you were happily in a relationship with him;)

[mokutone]

sorry if this is random but i was just curious about your thoughts on sai? i know you have a lot of thoughts on yamato fhdjdlfn and his and yamato’s relationship always seemed so interesting and really underdeveloped :[ theyre both really similar but yamato was able to get out of ROOT before sai was, and i was just wondering if you had any thoughts on that/him to share. sorry if this is weird or out of the blue djshfkfj love your art!!

that's not weird at all!!! actually the day u sent this question in i had finalized the thumbnails (and started on the pencils!) for a comic wherein Yamato comments on how Sai is handling his transition out of ROOT differently than Yamato himself did! I don't want to lay all my thoughts on that out here, because I think i'm much more clumsy with textposts than with comics, but I appreciate the question and I will share some thoughts!

under a readmore tho bc. this got Long...comics force me to be concise but w/ a keyboard under my hands i just chatter

here's something I've been thinking abt! I think they had fundamentally different experiences in ROOT, and this is reflected in their attitudes towards Danzō, as well as the way they interact with the people outside of ROOT.

Sai seems to have no real loyalty to Danzō. He does what Danzō says because Danzō gives him his orders, when he practices his fake smile in front of Danzō, Danzō immediately tells him to cut that shit out. I don't think there's a lot of love lost there—when team Kakashi catches up to him in orochimaru's hideout, and they kind of confront him, and. also kind of. "give him the option" of abandoning his mission (and ROOT along with it) or. you know. facing shinobi consequences. he doesn't really seem to think much of it? honestly. i imagine he was probably a little more relieved than anything else. Add to that him remembering how he wanted to finish the drawing of his brother—

actually wait hang on thats another point I want to talk about. Sai was pitted against the person he was closest to in order to traumatize him into numbness! wack! I think that's kind of at the root (help.) of why I see him as a fundamentally angrier character than I see Yamato—and why I interpret some of his behavior not just as Not Knowing How People Work (although he does have trouble with this! it's a very different vibe. like. him trying to comfort Naruto and Naruto thinking Sai was coming onto him was an entirely different kind of situation) but as like. intentionally inflammatory sometimes...like. he's insulted the bodies of most of the people around him in one way or another, he knows it pisses them off, he does keep doing it. I think him Causing Problems On Purpose is sometimes just a way for him to try and experience catharsis for a fury he doesn't really know he's repressing. Like. idk. it's one thing to be forced to hurt yourself, that's deeply upsetting, disembodying, traumatizing, but it's another to be forced into a situation where you're to hurt somebody you love (regardless of the outcome) like. idk. its a kind of powerlessness that hits different at least ime, and frustration and resentment are extremely normal reactions to a situation like that. i think. a number of things could be appealing to him abt trying to get others to get angry at him—whether it's Him being the one to Cause another persons anger (which could confer a kind of. feeling of control) or him seeing himself reflected in their anger (like a "boy howdy i recognize this emotion. it's very clear. very understandable") or even seeing how they handle the anger. kishimoto definitely doesn't care nearly as much about Sai's anger. but i found the implication of it compelling as a kid, and I find it more compelling as an adult! anger can be an incredibly healing and protective force sometimes when dealing w/ trauma...and I wish kishimoto knew what he was writing about or that we got to see it explored more!!! ack!

yamato (as kinoe) had a wildly different experience when he was in ROOT.

we know he knew how to fight against sharingan, which. I think implies he was training in combat with Danzō, or that he worked closely with Danzō, or at the very least that Danzō used his sharingan on him. We also saw that (unlike Sai, who was rebuked for even fake-smiling) that Kinoe (at first) was not told to feel nothing, but instead instructed on how to feel by Danzō specifically. Like, mostly telling him to Feel Grateful etc, but I think him being told to experience specific feelings according to what Danzō thought was appropriate would lead to a different relationship with his emotions than Sai, who was told explicitly to repress them all at all times, and to not even attempt to preform them.

He also like. Thought. Highly. of Danzō, not just as a leader but as a person...it's kind of undeniable that Kinoe saw him as right, was willing to brand his own feelings and intuition wrong if it crossed Danzō's, openly sought Danzō's approval, when he fails his mission to secure Kakashi's eye, his reaction is. essentially immediately to return himself to Danzō to face whatever new dehumanization Danzō's got for him— even when Kakashi and Hiruzen drag him out of there he thanks Danzō for everything, and he seems genuine about it, despite. everything. He's more expressive than Sai for sure, He had like. a moment of anger, when he said that he wanted to be Tenzō, and Danzō denied him that basic self identification...but it's quickly squashed. Messy. Messy. I think. I think he has a little more trouble getting in touch w/ his anger than Sai bc of his emotional closeness to Danzō.

i think. because yamato knows that he was something more like Danzō's favorite, and that conveyed a vastly different experience than Sai's, he might feel a little complicated about being like "So...ROOT trauma, huh? Hell of a thing!" but. i also like to think that he's very quietly kind of trying to observe and support in a way which mostly allows Sai to figure himself out—I think when they are older they would probably talk about it more (also because then their tongue-seals will have finally disappeared. Thanks sasuke!), once Sai has close friends in the village and everything

Just a lot of like. "I have friendships down. I have teammates down, easily—but what am I to the old woman I buy my cabbages from. What degree of friendliness do I exhibit to her."

"I think...whatever you're comfortable with is fine. I know neither of us had particularly normal upbringings, but you don't have to execute every interaction perfectly for people to care about and respect you."

anyway god this is so long and soooo based in my own personal HCs. I hope there was something in here that was interesting to you!