#everything I touch turns to angst

[onejellyfishplease]

am evil

[discoknack]

Poor Lucas, man.

[kovalitics]

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Guess what, we only got 2 updates left :))

(Inspired by @abbeyofcyn’s Krang Infection comic)

[the-artist-grimm]

It's ironic how we are both torturing our overly attached but emotionally tone death Narinders in our lore posts. They aren't even that bad as their canon version, just... Really bad at communicating.

Yeah Crimson Angel Narinder goes through it lol. He grew up so used to being told not having problems was a 'good thing' and praised by Shamura for being the easy child that now as an adult he can't bring himself to tell people when something's wrong-like he thinks that will bother people/be more of a problem.

Which sidenote look I give my characters happy endings EVENTUALLY but they gotta go through the spirit-crushing wringer first. Like they gotta work for that happiness XD

Like hey sorry guys I love you blorbos but I have a THEME to express at the expense of your joy, please leave all complaints in the writer's journal thank you~

[thebad-lydrawn-sanses]

followers: oo soup

Soup: cat au

Ingredients: cute cats, fluff, literal fluff, drawing people/things too big/small, angst

Creator: (DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT)

<followers> hrngh

<followers> soup

followers tried to swim in angst

[max-the-silly-guy]

The moment I saw @theizzizzy 's doodle/lore dump I immediately dropped everything I was doing and drew something

TW: A bit of blood

why did I use a lyric from class of 2013 by mitski? specifically this one? cause I have a theory on who Newton is gonna "accidentally" kill... A GAME THEOR-

anyways, here's the version without the text

stop torturing him Izzy, he's been through enough :((

[one-winged-dreams]

AND FINALLY, PHASE THREEEE

Anyway, this sweet little romance (mostly sweet, it's still kind of fucked up on Nel's part since he's fucking insane) goes on for quite a long time.

Even into Nel's descent into -gestures wildly-

He is, again, FUCKING INSANE, but he's going to do what he's going to do anyway, ethics or morals be damned.

But more than anything, he doesn't want his precious lover to know about what he REALLY is. Not because he knows it's wrong but because he doesn't think it would suit him. Dia's too pure and beautiful, a true attendant to the sanctity of Life. He can't stain him with anything that's currently taking place in Abberus. And he does so well to keep it from him, but Dia KNOWS Nel. The further he slips into madness, the more Dia can see it. It's eating him up inside but, ironically enough, Nel is too obsessed with keeping him away from it to notice.

But he DOES start thinking. Nel himself is changing, every step he takes is turning him into something else. It's going to be ugly and violent and wrong, and he can't show Dia but he R E F U S E S to let him go. He will NEVER let him go.

And so he sets a contingency plan in case he ever finds himself in a state that Dia wouldn't be safe around. If he were to ever lose himself too early, he needs to keep Dia somewhere safe and somewhere he can NEVER be touched by whatever Nel is becoming.

And so he prepares, JUST in case.

And at some point during his madness in Abberus (or something, still working on the timelines), he doesn't even notice Dia had come to find him until he's standing right there in front of him, his eyes full of frantic tears and asking him why. He's begging him to just come home, please don't let yourself be changed anymore, where is his Earth Warder now? The Earth Warder that he loves so much that he'll do anything to just bring him home?

And it hurts him so fucking much, Dia looking at him like that is immolating him, he's in so much agony it's almost unbearable. And more than anything, the way his corruption is reaching out to brush its fingers against his Dia is enough for him to slam him into a containment chamber, touch the other side of the glass on which Dia is still frantically banging on and begging him to take him home, and smile that charming fucking Neltharion smile and tell him he'll bring him home after everything is over. And then, after an insurmountable amount of time has passed, Nel's last three descendants find a stasis unit with an untouched Ruby in it.

And they open it.

Okay, never fucking mind, I have brain worms and I need to get them OUT, so I'm gonna risk passing out in my chair and eating shit for the sake of this awful fucking man

Initially, this was just supposed to be the dragon version of the Prestor and swan!insert ship. Doe-eyed idiot falls hook line and sinker for a handsome powerful man and he just is like 'okay cool whatever' and has a lot of fun just playing around with him in his weird 'i love you but i don't' way.

AND IT SORT OF STARTED THAT WAY???

PART ONE of the Nel and Dia ship progression.

(cut for length)

Step 1 ) Nel notices one of Alexstrasza's personal tenders is always stumbling over himself whenever he's around, he's wondering where he's seen him before but doesn't really think too hard about it.

Step 2 ) At some point Alex addresses Dia in front of Nel. He vaguely remembers the name from Dia's visage day when Alex asked him about his gender presentation because dragons respect trans rights in this house. He was just like "Oh, I don't know, I just let it happen. Does it look okay?" and everyone has a heart attack from how cute he is. Nel not entirely an exception but in a passing sort of 'that's interesting i guess' sort of way.

Step 3 ) Nel is progressively taking note of Dia whenever he's around because it's BRUTALLY clear that Dia is head over heels for him. Which, I mean, it wouldn't be the first time one of the regular drakes crushed on an Aspect, but he's cute and it's kind of fun to fuck with him. Because he's Nel and he's awful.

Step 4 ) At some point Dia gets sent on an errand to the Obsidian Citadel and Nel can't NOT eat the poor boy alive. The black dragons are just GLEEFULLY watching their Aspect tear this young Ruby's composure apart. Because Nel has always been described as super charming in the lore, old-god-crazy notwithstanding. And Nel, being such a CONSIDERATE and NOBLE Earth Warder, insists that Dia stay while the errand is completed. Wouldn't make sense for him to go back to the Life Shrine and then have to make the trip both ways AGAIN, right?

Step 5 ) Dia's soul leaves his body.

Step 6 ) Nel is absolutely bored out of his mind at any given moment so might as well get to know his little admirer. And the more they talk the more the cute aggression starts to build up and Nel's like "Oh I can't NOT fuck him." So he decides he's gonna shoot his shot but SLOW BURN IT.

Step 7 ) Suddenly Dia is making a lot of requests to volunteer whenever anyone needs anything from the Citadel. Alex doesn't really mind all that much but she IS squinting at Nel from across the Waking Shores.

Step 8 ) The progression of intimacy is SO long and convoluted, with one of the stages being Nel inviting Dia to sleep in his visage bed while Nel is away, he doesn't mind, he has things to attend to anyway and Dia is SO sweet and helpful, it's the LEAST he could do.

Step 9 ) Dia does VERY little sleeping that night. Nel knows this because the smell is EXTREMELY evident when he comes back. Experiment success?

Step 10 ) Little near misses of intimacy turn to intimate BONDING, turn into finally [EXPLITIVE EXPLETIVE EXPLETIVE EXPL-]

Nel is very pleased with himself, especially now that he's got a new toy that's ripe for playing with.

BUT WAIT- THERE'S MORE!

(continued in the next post)

[mercymaker]

i need soft malstarion in my life like a person waking up at 4am needs water

[phosphorescentspaceman]

Oh Xephiku we’re really in it now

[lem-argentum]

it took me until dt to change rudy's hairstyle, but i ACTUALLY think he would've cut it back in post-stb when he became a reaper. the trope of "character cuts hair to feel more in control of their life" is cliché but REAL. and also the visual of him cutting it with his scythe is fun

[ganondorf--apologist]

I'm writing a one-shot fic about The Collector...

[onejellyfishplease]

You cant hurt MIKEY THATS MY JOB. !!

hehehehehehe

what are u gonna stop me? i can traumatise anyone i want! not just Donnie :) /lh

[handfulofmuses]

Me when I first started writing Cheezi: just goofy shenanigans, my least Angsty muse and I don’t want to lean too much into angst territory, just want goofy stuff somehow always manages to avoid putting Angsty stuff

Me now: I want Cheezi angst

[firewoodfigs]

i downloaded shonen jump and have been snacking on SxF all night long and have been picking up my twiyor fic with renewed vigour omg i need to YELL about this

[offsidekineticist]

I see Theo lugging around a copy of one of his favorite books as a kid, mysteriously finding it in the ashes of Kenabras. It's always his favorite, no matter the timeline he's in.

Ooh, I hadn't thought about it before, but it fits so well, especially with his "Someone else is the KC" timeline, that I was almost immediately able to say what book it was, so I'm gonna call that a 10/10

(Also I am so sorry for the novel length rambling that this spawned.)

CW: fratricide, abandonment issues, book burning, and the rise of a repressive regime

It was a heretical children's book about the death of Ihys, Asmodeus's elder brother. Without getting too deep into it, Ihys and Asmodeus had a war over free will (Ihys thought it was cool, Asmodeus not so much), pretty much all the gods got dragged into it, etc. It ends when Asmodeus and Ihys meet to talk, and Asmodeus extends his hand in friendship before running Ihys through with his spear. Then, having won the war, Asmodeus decided to pretend he lost the war and retreated to hell for...reasons (the explanation varies by source)

So Theo's favorite book tells this story, and it was written by a particularly radical (and subsequently excommunicated) priest of Sarenrae (arguably Ihys's successor the way Iomedae is Aroden's successor). It's heretical because it suggests that Asmodeus did not intend to kill Ihys, only maim him so that he had to surrender. The book further posits that Asmodeus allowed free will to stand because once Ihys died, free will was essentially his legacy - if free will was done away with, nobody would have reason to remember him, and Asmodeus couldn't have that because he loved his brother. The conclusion, of course, is that everyone, even the most wicked of devils, has some goodness in them. (Note that Sarenrae maintains Asmodeus retreated because she kicked the shit out of him for killing her mentor in a cowardly betrayal, and that she also thinks Asmodeus is too far gone for redemption, so the church of Sarenrae reeeeeeeally isn't a fan of this book, lol)

Why is this Theo's favorite? Well, he found it for the first time about a year after moving to Brastlewark, so it might have something to do with how his fear of abandonment made him assume Regill was only his friend out of convenience and would leave him as soon as he had the opportunity. Ihys was an example of someone in what Theo saw as a similar position who didn't let that get in the way of his duty to his younger brother. And the idea that Asmodeus might actually still love Ihys gave Theo some hope that maybe Regill did love him on some level, even though he was going to leave him.

(6-year-old Regill, btw, hated the book bc the pictures of devils gave him nightmares, and the ending made him cry. Don't bother asking him about it, he will deny this to his dying day.)

Fast forward 30 years. The Thrunes have taken over Cheliax and the Order of the Rack is burning books across the country. Brastlewark is shielded from the worst of Thrune's atrocities because...uh...I think the gnomes scare them? But the king of Brastlewark is firmly in Thrune's pocket, so I headcanon Brastlewark still has book burning, they just conduct it more like Guy Fawkes Day. And of course, one of the first books to go on the pyre is this heretical children's book. If Theoven isn't the Knight-Commander, he's right there: he's a librarian - he manages the public repository of books, specifically the children's books. Which means that, because the Order of the Rack isn't managing these pyres, part of his job is collecting the books and lighting the pyre. And, obviously, refusing is not an option.

And it's there, burning his favorite book, committing an anathema against his mother's favorite god, estranged from his brother who helped bring this world about, watching his father and neighbors happily enjoying "the festival," that Theoven Derenge begins to lose his battle with the bleaching.

[awkwardcourage]

@gingerspiice asked: just take a few deep breaths.

Hughie latches onto Frenchie's voice more than the actual words. He is trying to breathe, but it's like there's a stopper in his esophagus, there's vices on his lungs, they won't expand properly no matter how hard he tries. It was something so innocuous. It was nothing. Fucking nothing. Frenchie wasn't even in the same position Robin had been in. He was just walking out into an empty road, holding Hughie's hand; Frenchie had turned back to look at him and Hughie was back on the curb, blood dripping off his face, hands full lifeless hands that clung to him even in death.

He can't let that happen. Not to Frenchie. Not to his Serge, his fluer. Not ever again.

Hughie doesn't remember yanking Frenchie out of the road, hard enough to pull his arm out of his socket. He doesn't remember how he got to where he was now, sitting in an alley with his head between his knees. He knows that this is a panic attack, he isn't dying and neither is Frenchie, but that isn't helping. He still can't breathe.