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Chapter 13 - Everybody Hates Hitler

Addison lets out a low whistle as she climbs out of the Impala with Dean and Sam. They had made their way to the location of the coordinates that Larry Ganem had given Sam. There was a large building above ground. A door was built into the side of the bank. “When’s the last time somebody was in this place,” Dean questions.

“Sixty-five, seventy years ago,” Sam replies.

Dean pulls out the wooden box they had received from Henry and opens it to reveal a key. He looks between Sam and Addison. “Lead the way, Indy,” she amusedly says. After grabbing some flashlights from the trunk, the trio make their way to the door. Dean easily unlocks the door and they walk in.

The hallway is a bit long before they come to a railing. Flashlights shine around the room. Below them, were a series of communication devices. “Son of a bitch,” Dean lets out.

“Look at this,” Sam says, shining his light around the room. “Ham radio, telegraph, switchboard. This was their nerve center.”

“Henry did say that they ran dispatch on their own team of hunters,” Dean replies. His flashlight lands a table with a chessboard and ashtray. An dirty coffee cup was also sitting on the table. “Wow. Halfway through their coffee and a game of chess. Looks like whoever was manning the hub left quick.”

“On the alarm call that ended the Men of Letters,” Sam adds. Addison makes her way down the stairs and Sam follows her.

Addison pushes some of the papers away. “This table is a map of the entire country.”

Dean opens a fusebox to find two levers. He lifts one up and lights suddenly come on. He lifts up the other lever and more lights turn on. “Son of a bitch,” Sam breathes.

Addison walks over to him and her gaze widens. “Holy shit,” she mutters, looking around the vast library. Multiple bookshelves that were filled to the brim. Large wooden tables with lamps. Wooden floors. Music was playing from a record player.

“Sammy, Ads, I think we found the Bat Cave,” Dean tells him, looking around the room.

~*~

Addison laughs when Dean pulls her into a bedroom. The three hunters had spent most of the day, exploring the bunker. There was a full kitchen, but it needed to be cleaned out of the rotten food. A shower room. But most importantly, numerous bedrooms with thick walls. Dean kicks the bedroom door close and presses his lips against hers. Layers are stripped off and dropped onto the floor.

Shoes are pulled off. Addison falls back onto the bed and Dean quickly climbs on top of her. He slides his hand under the black spaghetti strap tank top she was wearing. His lips trail across the top of her breasts. “Dean, aren’t you curious,” Addison questions, looking around the room.

Dean lets out a groan. He buries his face in her chest. “Ads, babe, the only thing I’m curious about is thick the walls are. And that’s just because I don’t want to listen to Sam bitch about how the noise you make when I’m fucking your brains out.” He leans back and pulls off his black t-shirt.

“Okay, yeah, knowing how sound proof the rooms are is a good idea,” Addison begins. Dean grabs the bottom of the shirt and she pulls sits up enough to pull it off. Her bra joins the pile clothes on the floor. “But aren’t you curious to know what the Men of Letters may have known?”

Dean slides down the bed. He unbuttons and unzips her jeans before grabbing them and yanking them off. “No.”

Addison stares at the ceiling. “Clearly, the Men of Letters knew about the supernatural. And hunters if they had hunters working for them,” she says. He grabs the simple cotton panties she was wearing and pulls them down her legs. “And Henry seemed to know about the last descendant bloodline. But if Father O’Connor was part of some secret group that was tasked with—”

“Addison,” Dean snaps, pushing her legs apart. She pays no attention to him. He leans forward and runs a finger through her folds.

“Ensuring the survival of the bloodline, then who are…” Addison trails off as his tongue swirls around her clit. “Oh god.” She buries a hand in his hair. He smirks against her. Dean was always good at distracting Addison. His slides two fingers into her. The grip she has on his hair tightens. His tongues flicks her clit. She lets out a loud moan. She lifts her hips, wanting to press closer to him. She was close. He pulls back and she lets out a whimper. “Dean…” She opens her eyes to find him shedding the rest of his clothes.

Dean climbs back onto the bed. He rubs his cock against her folds. “You’re cute when you geek out,” he mutters, pushing his cock into her. His thrusts are slow and shallow.

Addison shifts. “I thought you were gonna fuck my brains out,” she says, pulling him down into her kiss. She could taste herself on him. She drapes a leg over his hip.

Dean smirks. He deeply thrusts and she lets out a moan. “Oh, I am,” he tells her. He picks up his pace, slamming into her. Addison’s nails dig into his back as her body shudders with pleasure. His thrusts are faster. Harder. He comes with a grunt and falls onto the bed next to her. The only noise in the room is their heavy breathing. “We can do better than that.”

~*~

Dean walks into the library the next morning. Freshly showered and wearing one of the bathrobes he had found in the shower room. Along with the matching pair of slippers. He had woken up that morning to find himself alone. Books were spread out over one of the tables with Sam bent over it. No sign of Addison. “Morning,” he greets.

“Morning,” Sam replies, not looking up at him.

Dean looks around. “The, uh, water pressure in the Letters’ shower room is marvelous.”

“Yeah. I still can’t figure out how we even have water…or electricity.”

“Yep. Well, I am putting that under the ain’t broke column.” Dean shifts. “Listen, little brother, let’s not go all geek on this stuff, okay?”

Sam glances at him before turning back to the book. “Geek?”

“Yeah. Yeah, I mean, don’t - don’t get me wrong,” Dean replies, picking up a scimitar from one of the display stands. “This stuff is awesome, and it looks like they ran a real tight outfit here, but I’m just saying, you know, don’t, uh, don’t think that they knew some big secrets that we don’t know.”

Dean waves the sword around as Addison walks into the library, carrying a cup of coffee. She had clearly showered, given that her hair was still wet. She was wearing jeans and a navy spaghetti strap tank top. “Dean, they were a secret society,” Addison amusedly says, sitting down at the table.

“Which means that they made shit up and wore fezzes and sashes and swung around scimitars. They probably didn’t even sharp—” Dean cuts himself off when he touches the edge of the sword and cuts his finger. “That’s very sharp.”

“Dean,” Sam begins, looking up. “I think we might have something here. Something that could help, help humanity. Henry certainly thought so. I mean, you know damn well we could use a break. What if we finally got one?” The room is silent for a moment. “Are you gonna take off the dead guy robe?”

Dean shifts. “It’s very comfortable.”

“And we’re gonna lay down some ground rules.”

Addison raises an eyebrow. She exchanges a confused look with Dean. “Rules,” she asks.

“No sex in common spaces,” Sam says, shooting Dean a pointed look.

Addison frowns. “Sam, I can’t believe you would think that we would do that.” Sam turns his pointed look on her and she shifts. “But-but-but…what about just one time against the bookshelves?”

“No.”

Addison leans forward, making sure to push up her cleavage. “What if it’s just one time, Sam?”

“No.”

~*~

Dean walks into the Bunker to find Sam and Addison sitting in the library at one of the many tables. Numerous files were spread out the table and each of them had a laptop in front of them. “Hey,” he calls, setting his duffle down at the bottom of the stairs.

“Hey,” Sam replies. “So, how’s Kevin doing?”

“You know. He’s okay, I guess. In his corner, hacking out his Da Vinci code. Nothing actionable yet,” Dean tells them. He grabs a beer out of the mini fridge they had put in the library and takes a seat next to Addison. “Garth says hi, but the way. Anything from Cas?”

“Not a thing,” Addison replies, grabbing his beer and taking a swig. Dean shoots her an annoyed look. “You?”

“No, he’s, uh, he’s not answering.”

“Right. Well, uh, so I have been trying to chart out the Letters’ network of hunters, their allies, uh affiliated groups they worked with, kept files on…” Sam trails off.

“Circa 1958?”

“Yeah. True. Uh, most are dead or defiant, but others…I’m not so sure and this one…you should definitely check out,” Sam tells him, holding a file with the Men of Letters’ logo on it.

Dean grabs it and looks through it. “The Judah Initiative,” he questions.

“They were a European team,” Addison brightly says. “Active during World War II.”

“Really? Hunters fighting in a war. That’s cool.”

“They weren’t exactly hunters. And they weren’t exactly fighting.”

Dean takes a closer look at the file. “Rabbis,” he asks, looking at a photo. “Rabbis? Really?”

Sam nods. “The Letter’s file on them is-is sketchy, but, apparently, they were hard core saboteurs. So I ran a search on the Initiative’s entire roster and I got a hit. One Rabbi Isaac Bass. He was seventeen years old when he joined the Initiative and eighty-five years old when he died…two weeks ago. In a college town back east, he was capped.”

Sam turns his laptop to face Dean. “Capped,” Dean disbelievingly repeats, skimming the article that talked about a freak accident on a college campus.

“Yeah. He was there doing research and according to eyewitnesses, he spontaneously combusted.”

“So…this is a case,” Dean questions. Sam stare at him and he lets out an annoyed breath. “I just got back.”

~*~

Addison softly smiles at the librarian. She and Sam had elected to check out the library while Dean went to the local pub to talk to some of the witnesses. “So, you both worked with the late Rabbi Bass,” the librarian questions.

“Yes,” Addison brightly answers. “We’re research associates of Rabbi Bass. And we’re trying to complete his last paper for publication. We just like to review what he was after here.”

“Well, that would be quite a lot of material. He was here open to close for almost a week,” the librarian tells them.

“Wow,” Sam says. “Um, how about just the stuff he was looking at…you know, the day he…uh, caught fight?”

The librarian hums. “That does shorten the list a bit.”

Turns out that Rabbi Bass had looked a very delicate book on the day that he had died. One that require white gloves, something that Sam and Addison were currently wearing. Sam opens the box and lifts up a copy of The Explorer’s Guide to North American Birds.

Addison raises an eyebrow. “This seems very anticlimactic.”

After returning the book, the two of them start to make their way out of the library. Sam pulls out his phone and Addison knows that he’s calling Dean. “Hey, so I, uh, looked into the rabbi’s research. It doesn’t make a lot of sense,” he says, pausing and looking around. Addison frowns. Sam slides a hand under the blazer that she was wearing. Her Colt compact was resting in the back of her skirt. His hand sits on the handle. She slides an arm around his waist, slipping her hand into his back pocket. To anyone watching them, they would appear as a couple engaging a little PDA. “Um, bird watching.” They continue walking along the street. “That would explain why I have something stuck to my shoe. Yeah, I think so.” Sam shoots her a confused look. “What? Yes, please. Got someplace quiet?”

Within half an hour, Addison is sitting at the trunk of the Impala with Sam. “Stupid keys,” she mutters, purposely dropping the keys on the ground. She kneels to pick them up. Then suddenly, Dean flies threw the air and hits the passenger side door, breaking the window. “Dean!”

Addison runs over to him. She kneels next to him. Sam swings a knife at their attacker, who was a very large man. The man wraps a hand around Sam’s throat and lifts him off the ground. Addison’s gaze widens. “Stop,” a second man commands, walking up to them.

The large man sets Sam on the ground and lets go of him. Dean lets out a groan and Addison places a hand on his arm. “Dean, are you okay,” she quietly asks.

“My spleen,” Dean groans.

“What the hell is that,” Sam questions.

“He’s a Golem. Well, he’s my Golem,” the second man explains.

“Holy crap,” Addison breathes, staring at the Golem in disbelief.

~*~

Aaron, the man who was in controlling the Golem, opens the door to a house he was staying in. The Golem pushes past the group. The trio follows him with Aaron bringing up the rear. “The rabbi who was murdered, Isaac Bass,” Aaron begins. “He was my grandfather. That’s why we’re here. When you guys started to follow up on his case, we started following you.”

“So, wait,” Dean says. “What you’re saying is that you and me…we, uh, didn’t have a moment?”

“No, man. I was tailing you.”

“Told you I was being followed. He was my gay thing,” Dean quietly says to Sam. Addison shoots him a questioning look. Dean clears his throat. “It was really good. You really had me there. It was very smooth.”

“Yeah, well smooth is just about all I got,” Aaron says. The Golem stares at him. “What?” The Golem grunts. “Yeah, that’s right. Keep walking, you chia pet.”

Addison raises an eyebrow. “That’s a Golem,” she disbelievingly states.

“Yes. Shaped from clay and brought to life by rabbis to protect the Jewish people in times of, I don’t know, general crappiness.”

“And he’s your Golem?”

Aaron snorts. “Hardly. My grandfather left him to me. I’m the last surviving descendant of the members of this…thing…this Initiative.”

“The Judah Initiative,” Sam questions.

“Right and he—”

“Who,” the Golem snaps causing the three hunters to jump and find that the Golem was standing behind them. Addison grabs Dean’s arm. “Who are they to know about the men of Judah?”

“It’s okay,” Dean tells him. “We are the good guys.”

“We-we’re hunters,” Sam adds. “Uh, Sam and Dean Winchester. Addison Sloan. We know about The Judah Initiative because our grandfather was a Man of Letters.”

“Yes. The rabbis knew the Men of Letters.”

Aaron walks up holding three bottles of beer. They each take a beer. “Take a seat,” he says, motioning to the couch. “So, your grandfather was into all this supernatural stuff, too?”

“Yeah, grandparents, Mom, Dad, truckload of cousins,” Dean answers. “The whole family was lousy for it, but we…never had a Golem.”

“We grew up in it,” Addison asks. “But you didn’t?”

“My grandfather’s adventures, the Initiative, the Golem, the war…they were the stories that he told me when I was kid. I thought it was make believe. So did my parents. You know, fantasies to help him cope with all the horrible stuff he’d seen, but every once in a while, crazy old Grandpa Bass, would come back by on one of his trips, hand me a twenty dollar savings bond and say ‘one day, you’ll inherit the mantle.’ Sure enough, a few days after he died, this big box shows up at my apartment. He always said I’d know what to do. Which was crap, because when I opened that box, this big, naked, potato face lunatic wakes up and goes crazy!”

“I didn’t go crazy,” the Golem defends, looking out the window.

“You trashed my entertainment center! And my water bed.”

“This boy knows nothing, observes none of the mitzvahs, labors on Sabbath, dines on swine.”

“Everybody loves bacon,” Aaron shouts. Dean nods in agreement.

“He’s no rabbi. Yifalchunbee!”

Aarons runs a hand over his face, clearly frustrated. “Oh don’t start with that stuff again.”

“Yifalchunbee!”

“Enough! Please! Quiet time!”

Sam shifts. “All right. What was that? What was he saying?”

“It’s Hebrew for something like ‘take charge’ but I have no idea what he means. Look, I grew up in Short Hills. I cheated my way through Hebrew school. I never really listened to my grandfather, what he was saying.”

Dean frowns. “So, wait, he just sends you this-this Golem and expects you to work it out?”

“He didn’t get much chance to prepare me, I guess. My parents…they did everything they could to prevent him from screwing me up with all his crazy talk. See, after the war, my grandfather spent the rest of his life trying to track down something he called the Thule Society.”

“The Thule Society,” Sam repeats. The hunters had no problem recognizing the name. “Right. They were Nazis.”

“Nazi necromancers,” Dean clarifies.

Aaron frowns. “Necro-who?”

“Necromancer,” Addison explains. “Witches, sorcerers, dark magic…mostly with dead people.”

“Okay. All I know about the Thule is that they were this twisted, secret fraternity, hell bent on world domination, that sponsored the early days of the Nazi party. My grandfather said The Judah Initiative was started to fight them.”

“And the Thule murdered your grandfather, boy,” the Golem snaps. “Find them so I can do my work!”

Addison gaze widens when the Golem smashes as end table. “Hey,” Aaron shouts. “Hey! We’re renting here! Renting.” The Golem walks into the kitchen. “Look, I think my Golem’s right. My grandfather…he left me this message on my machine the day he died and he said that he had found something that the Thule were willing to kill him for. He said he was hiding it here in plain sigh. He left me this weird…I don’t know…equation.” Aaron pulls out a piece of paper. “It’s not a phone number or an address or coordinates. QL673W38.”

Aaron hand the paper to Dean. “Is it a combination,” Dean questions, handing the paper to Addison.

Addison smiles and stands up. “We need to go back to the library,” she brightly says. She hands the paper to Sam before quickly walking out of the house.

~*~

“What,” Aaron asks, looking between the three hunters. After changing out of their business clothes and into more comfortable clothes, they had all made their way to the library. “Do you three just break in where you go?”

“Yeah, well, our dad wanted us to have a solid career to fall back on, just in case this hunter thing didn’t pan out,” Dean mutters, picking the lock on the library’s door. He gets the door unlocked and the group walks into the library.

Addison smiles upon seeing a directory hanging on the wall. She takes off up the stairs. In a matter of minutes, she finds the correct aisle. Heavy footsteps echo behind her and as she pulls out a large red book with scorched marks on the edges. She smiles at Sam. “Three years of working at the Yale library,” Addison brightly says.

Sam smiles, then a dart hits him in the jaw. He pulls it out. His skin start to turn purple. Addison turns around and freezes upon seeing a blonde man wearing glasses. “I owe you thanks,” he says in a heavily accented voice. He says something in German and Addison feels a pressure start press on her forehead. She shakes her head. “The rabbi got me this far, but you took me all the way. Now, give me the ledger.”

“Addison, run,” Sam groans, shoving a trolley full of books at the man. Addison ducks around and takes off through the library stacks.

“Dean,” Addison shouts, reaching the top of the stairs. Dean, Aaron, and the Golem were waiting at the bottom. She feels a dart hit her in the back of the neck. She stumbles on the stairs. “Dean!” Dean runs up the stairs and catches her. “Nazi. Necro…”

“Shit,” Dean exclaims. He pulls the dart of the back of her neck. There was a large purple bruise forming. He pulls out his gun. Aaron lets out a shout and falls to the ground. Dean looks back to see a dart in his chest. “Shit.” Dean looks at the Golem. “Hey, big guy, they’re both gonna die unless we get whoever cast the spell.”

The Golem runs up the stairs past Dean. Addison looks up at Dean. Her vision was blurry. “Sam,” she softly whispers.

“Shit,” Dean mutters, looking between Addison, Aaron, and the second floor of the library. He rests Addison against the glass banister and runs down to Aaron. He yanks the dart of his chest, before running up the stairs. Dean finds Sam lying on the floor in between the stacks. A purple bruise was on his jaw. He picks up Sam and starts to head back to the stairs. Dean stops upon seeing the Golem with a blonde man in a suit.

The Golem drops the man on the floor. He looks up at them. “Long live the Thule,” the man declares.

The Golem easily picks the man back up and snaps his neck. “Or not,” Dean says. Sam gasps and opens his eyes. The purple bruise on his jaw was gone. Dean helps Sam up and they walk down the stairs. Addison was sitting on the stairs, clutching the red book.

~*~

Dean shoots Addison a concerned glance as they ride in the Impala back to Aaron’s rental. “You okay, Ads,” he questions. The tray of coffee cups and box of donuts was sitting in between them. Sam and Aaron seemed to bounce back after the spell wore off. Addison didn’t seem like she was through.

“Uh, yeah, I’m fine,” Addison mutters. She presses a hand to her forehead. “I, uh, I just have a horrible headache.”

Dean parks the Impala in front of the rental. “You sure about that, Ads?”

Addison shoots him a smile. “Yeah…” She trails off at the look on his face. “What?”

“Ads, your eyes.”

Addison pulls down the visor and looks in the mirror. “What the fuck,” she lets out upon seeing her glowing gold eyes. Dean opens the door and climbs out the Impala. He grabs the coffee and the doughnuts. Addison quickly follows him. “Dean, I’m fine.”

“Your eyes are glowing, Ads. That’s not fucking fine,” Dean snaps, walking into the house. Sam was sitting at the table with Aaron. “What’d you find out?”

“I think it’s a log book from a Nazi compound in Belarus. It was run by the Thule,” Sam answers. He’s taken back upon seeing Addison’s glowing eyes. “Ads, your eyes.”

“Yeah, I know,” Addison softly says. “But I’m fine.”

“This is the red ledger,” Aaron tells them. “It was lost in the fire that destroyed the compound, but my grandfather was convinced it had been found after the war.”

“Well, it describes the horrible experiments performed on the camp’s population,” Sam adds. “Magical experiments. Including one to find the bloodline. Which seems to be what Addison is reacting to.”

Addison shifts. “He did say something in German. And I-I felt like I was getting a bad headache. But I kinda brushed it off.”

“Great,” Dean mutters. “Now, we’ll have Nazi necromancers are looking for Ads and this book.”

“The experiments were more horrible than words,” the Golem says, walking into the room. The Golem had taken to pacing around the rental.

Sam shifts. “You were there, weren’t you? At the camp?”

“I was made in the ghetto of Vitsyebsk to tear that hell down. I broke its walls, its men. The commandant burnt the place to ash around me.”

“Okay, um, what does it mean when-when you tell Aaron to take charge,” Sam questions.

“The boy would know. If he could consult the pages.”

Dean frowns. “Pages? What pages?”

Aaron sighs. “When I was…” He trails off. This was a story he clearly didn’t want to tell them. “When I was bar mitzvahed my-my grandfather gave me this little old book. It was in Hebrew. It was like an owner’s manual for a Golem.”

“Okay. Great. Get that then.”

Aaron shifts. “I-I can’t exactly. When I went to high school, I sort of…drifted. I started getting off the academic track, and, uh, I know of, um, I kind of smoked it.”

“The boy smoked the pages,” the Golem disbelievingly repeats.

“They were these thin, vellum-y pages,” Aaron defends. “I mean, it was perfect for rolling. Look, they were driving instructions for a clay man. Okay? It was nonsense. Right. I mean…I…Okay. All right. Look, I’m sorry, okay? Why can’t you just tell me what I don’t know?”

The Golem slams his hands onto the table and leans in close to Aaron. “It’s not my place to guide the rabbi, to teach the teacher! It’s not my place! Yifalchunbee!”

The Golem resumes his pacing. “That’s not super comforting, got to say,” Dean says, taking a sip of coffee.

“So, as far as I can tell, these experiments…The Thule were murdering Jews, gypsies, just about anybody and everybody then trying to magically reanimate them,” Sam says. “They were trying to figure out a way to bring their own dead back to life…which I’m guessing they figured out because this.” Sam turns to the last pages of the ledger. “This last page is a roster of every dead Thule member who was reanimated.”

“This is why they killed my grandfather,” Aaron questions.

“Anything in there on how to kill it,” Dean asks.

“Apparently, they experimented with that too. Um, headshot. But if you don’t burn the body within twelve hours, it reanimates again,” Sam explains.

“Nazi bastards.”

“Nazi zombies,” Addison corrects. She shifts. “Since the Nazis were meticulous at their record keeping, did they happen to write down why they wanted the Last Descendant?”

Sam shrugs. “I’m assuming because of power.”

“What’s the Last Descendant,” Aaron questions, looking between them.

“Nothing,” the three hunters simultaneously say.

~*~

Addison lets out a yawn. She was sitting at the table with Sam. He was researching the Golem, while she was researching the Thule Society. She wasn’t concerned with the Golem and as far as she was concerned as long as the Golem didn’t hurt anyone innocent then it was Aaron’s to deal with. “No, no, Garth, not a tool society,” Dean says, walking in with a duffle bag. “Thule. T-H-U-L-E. Yeah. All right. Call me if you find anything.” He hangs up and sets the duffle bag on the table. “All of Garth’s contacts are stumped. Nobody on the circuit’s ever head of the Thule Society. Whoever these people are, they’ve been flying beneath the hunter radar. Anything?”

“I called Sarah,” Addison says.

“Let me guess. The bitch didn’t pick up.”

Addison rolls her eyes. “Uh, actually she did. She said did run into the Thule Society during the war, while she was in Paris and hanging out with some French resistance fighters. They tried to attack her and she got the French resistance fighters to take some out while she took off.”

“No surprise there.”

“She hadn’t heard of anything since then. But she did say to stay far away from them and that they have a spell that made her eyes glow gold a few days. Because they want last descendant blood. For what? No idea.”

Dean lets out a frustrated breath and turns to Sam. “You have anything better?”

“Nothing solid,” Sam replies. “I mean, the lore is all over the place. Uh, according to one legend, um, it can be shut down if you erase one of the letters off its forehead.”

“I didn’t see any letters on Clayface.”

“Exactly. So, side burner that. Another one…” Sam pulls up a website. “Some have a scroll in their mouth you’re supposed to rip out.”

“Wouldn’t that give him some sort of a lisp or something?”

“Well, classically, they’re not even supposed to speak. We do know that he took on an entire camp full of heavily armed German soldiers and Thule necromancers and won.”

“One badass Hummel figurine.”

“That we have no idea how to put back in the box.”

“Great.”

“So, that’s your plan?” The hunters turn to see Aaron standing in the entrance of the dining room slash kitchen. “Taking out my Golem?”

Sam shifts. “It’s not a plan.”

“We would just feel a lot better if we knew how. That’s all,” Dean tells him.

“What makes you think you have any right to make that decision?”

“Believe me, if we need the right, we will take it,” Dean coldly says.

“Look, he may be a pain in the ass, but he’s my responsibility.”

Sam sighs. “Look, the Golem was built to go to war. You’re not trained for that. How are you gonna take that on?”

“I don’t know.”

The door flies open and they turn to see a man wearing a black suit. Dean grabs Aaron and shoves him behind him. Sam grabs the ledger and quickly hides it under his laptop bag on the floor. Addison quickly moves back. The man punches Dean and sends him flying through the air. The man then points gun his gun at Sam. A third man grabs Aaron and a fourth man wraps an hand around Addison’s arm. She moves to punch him, but he backhands her and she falls to the ground. The Golem runs into the room. He flips a table over and grabs one of the men.

“Enough!” The room turn to see a man wearing a suit and expensive black jacket walk into the room. “There you are, you grim piece of work, after all these years.”

The Golem drops the man and turns to the man. “Eckhart,” he coldly says.

Eckhart holds out a hand to the Golem and says something in Latin. The Golem freezes and his shoulders sag. Eckhart pats the Golem on the shoulder and walks past him. Sam is shoved against a wall and he slides down it to the ground. He holds up his hands. The second man points a gun at Dean.

Eckhart walks over to the Golem. “I command you by the covenant of your makers, Clay of Adam, surrender your bond onto me,” Eckhart commands. The Golem opens his mouth and a small scroll falls into Eckhart’s open palm. He looks at Aaron. “So, you are the Golem’s rabbi?” Eckhart unrolls the scroll and amusedly smiles. “You woke him, but you didn’t take possession of him. You write your name on the scroll, boy. That’s how you…Yifalchunbee.”

“I didn’t know what he meant,” Aaron defends. Addison shifts from where she’s lying on the floor.

“Knowledge is power, isn’t it?” Eckhart backhands Aaron and knocks him against the wall. “Now, which of you is going to tell me where I can find a certain red ledger?” Eckhart grabs Addison and pulls her up off of the floor. He tightly grips her jaw, but Addison just glares at him.

“How about you go fuck yourself, Nazi bastard,” Sam snaps.

Eckhart sighs. “Can we…could we put the Nazi thing aside for the moment and just talk about this like—”

“Nazi necromancer dicks,” Dean interrupts. “Pass.”

Addison notices the ring on Eckhart’s hand. “You’re the commander. You’re the necromancer Mengele. You authorized all those experiments on innocent people,” she coldly says.

Eckhart coldly smiles. “Invented those experiments, thank you.”

“So, what about you,” Sam questions. “I mean, you’re not…undead. So what did you do? You cast a forever twenty-one spell on yourself, like your little friend at the library?”

“His name was Torvald. And you will suffer for that.”

One of the men, who was searching the rental, finds the red ledger that Sam had hidden. “You know, I got to say, spell or no spell, he broke easy, so…” Dean trails off as the ledger is handed to Eckhart.

“I’m sorry,” Eckhart replies, flipping through the ledger. A satisfied smiles appears on his face. “So, let me tell you what I see. A magic Jew at my feet, not a master in sight, the long sought after Last Descendent, and finally our secrets secret once again. Which reminds me of a story. A Jew, two gentiles, and a Golem walk into a bar…and it doesn’t end with them coming out.”

Aaron, who had managed to grab a piece of the broken side table, smacks the table leg into Eckhart’s back. Addison drops to the ground and reaches for the shotgun sticking out of one of the duffle bags. Dean and Sam manage to both dive for their respective guns. Two gun shots are fired and two of the men fall to the floor. Addison fires the shot gun at the fourth man and he falls to the floor. The third man release his grip on Aaron and runs out of the rental. Addison stands up and aims the shotgun at Eckhart as Sam and Dean do the same.

“Fools,” Eckhart shouts. “You can kill me. But you will never kill all the Thule.”

Three gun shots go off and Eckhart falls to the ground. “Well, that’s a start,” Dean says, walking over to Addison. “Ads, you okay?” She nods, rubbing her jaw. He turns to Aaron. “You okay?”

Aaron nods. “Yeah. Yeah.”

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Addison bites her lip as she pulls the pie out of the open. After disposing of the body of the Thule and ensuring that Aaron had gained ownership of the Golem, the trio had left and headed back to the Bunker. Sam had taken to creating new entries into the Men of Letters’ catalog. Addison decided to try her hand at baking a pie with the newly stocked kitchen. “Did you bake a pie?”

Addison turns to see Dean standing in the doorway of the kitchen. She lightly smiles. “I attempted to,” she tells him.

Dean walks over to her and pulls her against his chest. He presses his lips against hers. “Have I told you how much I love you,” he mutters, sliding an arm around her waist. Her back hits the refrigerator door. His lips slide down her neck. His hand slides under the henley she was wearing.

Addison shifts. “Dean…” He slides a hand into the front of her jeans. She places a hand on his wrist. “Dean, stop.”

Dean lets out a groan. “Ads.”

“I…I…” Addison trails off. She had wanted to talk to him about reconsidering doing the spell. But she couldn’t. She knew exactly where he stood. And she didn’t want to ruin the happiness they had managed to find. She wraps her arms around his neck and softly kisses him. “I think we should take this to the bedroom while the pie cools down.” Dean scoops her up and she can’t help but laugh.

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so real and true supernatural really is thee most show ever. absolutely insane viewing experience, 10/10

and like i watched the entire series in 3 months the first time, but i've been rewatching it for the last like two years and i keep ignoring wherever i am on my rewatch and going and watching random early seasons episodes too so i feel that. you're rewatching some GREAT episodes too, i've seen mystery spot sooo many times as well, it slaps every single time

after s5 it definitely goes downhill like. objectively speaking. but the later seasons introduce some really good characters and some very enjoyable plotlines and it's all definitely a worthwhile part of the experience (except for the finale. the finale has no redeeming qualities it's very bad. you would not be missing anything if you never watched the finale lmao)

but yeah every single one of the things you listed did technically happen and. yeah. some of it is great, but it sure is wild. my favourite pastime is telling my friends who've never seen spn increasingly wild plot points and seeing what breaks their brain

anyways please never apologize for rambling about supernatural, i am obsessed with supernatural the rambling is great <33 what season are you on currently?

haha oh i'm glad i wasn't annoying! i'm on season 8 right now, up to episode 13 Everybody Hates Hitler (it's been about 3 months since i watched the one before it XD), and yeah as you said i really do think it went downhill after season 5 and seeing sam and dean change their point of view on so many things that make NO SENSE (like sam in season 2 almost immediately making an exception for some nice vampires and trying to get dean to see reason and then in season 7-8 just randomly deciding "no, they are MONSTERS and they WILL kill again that's final", only for DEAN to this time be the vampire apologist) is driving me bananas. it feels like they just ran out of arguments for the two to be having and decided to throw darts at a wall about it.

i'm glad to know that my jigsaw puzzle of information about the last few seasons is correct(ish) though, like i wasn't going to google it in case i was wrong and accidentally found out MORE spoilers but like. thank you for confirming. i'll find out the details... atttt some point i'm sure :D

i got my friend into it (they haven't finished it either), and it is so much fun telling them about stuff they haven't seen yet, also i hyped up both lucifer and cas so much i think the expectations for them are a little high now lmao. on the plus side my friend saw cas in 4x01 one (1) time and decided he's the most precious special little guy in the whole show though, so that's fun :))

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lesfeldickbiblestudy · 2 years ago

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Through the Bible with Les Feldick LESSON 2 * PART 3 * BOOK 70 ADULTEROUS ISRAEL TO BE RESTORED – PART 3 Hosea 2:14 – 4:14 Once again, it’s good to have everybody back from the coffee break. We’re doing program number three this afternoon. We’re going to go right back and pick up what I didn’t finish in the last program. For those of you on television, if you’re just tuning in, we’ve been talking about Israel being scattered into all the nations of the world. We started with our references in Deuteronomy, and now we’re back up into Ezekiel. That’s where we’re going to pick up – right where we left off in Ezekiel 37, how the Nation of Israel is out there scattered into every nation under heaven, but the time would come when they would start coming back to their homeland. Now of course, it didn’t happen over night. It really started in the late 1800’s, 1890-95, somewhere in that neck of the woods when Jewish leaders started talking about a homeland. They and Great Britain, of course, who had the empire that circled the globe, were the major players. So, a politician in England by the name of Balfour (Arthur James) and the Jews made the Balfour Declaration--that was that the Jews could have a homeland in the Middle East. First they had it drawn clear across the Jordan Valley and on into what is present-day Iraq and Jordan, but the Arab world put up such a howl that Great Britain backed off. Instead they designated it from the Jordan River to the Mediterranean. So anyway, the Jews back then were being forced by persecution and every other which way, that was long before Hitler came on the scene. So, a lot of the Jews started making their way back from North Africa, Morocco and in that area. Then the rest of the Arab world started persecuting them unmercifully, so they finally left Syria. I don’t think there’s a Jew left in Syria, certainly not in Iran. As a result of all that, they gradually made their way back to the homeland. In 1948 they declared themselves a Sovereign State. Okay, so all that has come in fulfillment of this. Come back with me now at the opening to Hosea chapter 3 verse 4, so that we can be where we want to start every program in Hosea. Back to chapter 3 verse 4 where we’re talking about the dispersion. How that for a long time they’ll be out there in all the nations of the world, verse 4. Hosea 3:4-5a “For the children of Israel shall abide many days without a king, and without a prince, and without a sacrifice, and without an image, and without an ephod, and without teraphim:” In other words, they had nothing of their religion, as much as I hate to use the word. All right, then the key word in verse 5 is—“Afterward…” All right, but we’re not going to look at the “afterward” yet, until we go back and finish some of those verses with regard to all those 1900 and some years that Israel was scattered into the nations of the world. All right, come back where you were with the dry bones in Ezekiel 37 verse 11. Here’s where we have the interpretation of this vision. Ezekiel 37:11 “Then he (the LORD) said unto me, (the prophet) Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel: (Now that tells you right up front that ten tribes are not lost. All Twelve Tribes are still involved even at this point in time.) behold, they say, Our bones are dried, and our hope is lost: we are cut off for our parts.” In other words, that was when they were out amongst the Gentile world--verse 12. Ezekiel 37:12a “Therefore, prophesy and say unto them, (these scattered Jews) Thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, O my people, I will open your graves,…” Now, the best way I can explain that in recent history was when the Soviet Union collapsed, and one of the first results of that collapse was permission for the Jews to immigrate out and down to Israel or wherever. It was a providential thing. As soon as the Jews had the opportunity, I think in the first two years of the 90’s--1990, 91, 92, something like two million Jews left Russia to go to the Nation of Israel.

In fact, Iris and I ran into a family of them down on the Dead Sea. The parents couldn’t talk English but the kids could. So we could communicate with the family through the kids. But it was typical of Russians who had left Russia because now the bars were lowered. All right, that’s exactly what I think of when it says here “I will open your graves.” When the Gentile world would finally give permission for Jews to leave their nation and go wherever they wanted to go. Of course, a lot of them ended up there in their homeland of Israel. All right, reading on. Ezekiel 37:12b “…O my people, I will open your graves, and cause you to come up out of your graves, and bring you into the land of Israel.” Now, do you see how providential that is? You know, I’ve shared it on the program before, and I’ll do it again. The first time Iris and I were in Israel, we came out of the hotel restaurant that evening and a well-dressed businessman approached us. He said, “You’re from America, aren’t you?” We said, “Yes.” He said, “What do you think of our little country?” I said, “It’s fabulous what God has done!” He said, “God didn’t have a thing to do with it. We did it!” “Well,” I said, “I beg to differ. But I’m not going to argue with someone in his homeland.” But see, that was their idea, that they did it. No, they didn’t! God did it! Against all the odds. My goodness, Great Britain did everything in their power to keep any Jews from coming to the land of Israel. But they got there. And then the Arab world consorted to drive them into the sea, but it never happened. Even to this day, they talk about it. It’s not going to happen, because God has sovereignly designated that they are going to come to their homeland. Okay, so now they’re back according to Ezekiel. Now, let’s just stop at one verse on our way to the Book of Acts, so that you’ll see what James was referring to. Turn to the Book of Amos, that’s right after Hosea--Joel then Amos. Amos the last chapter, chapter 9, this is an interesting verse. Yet, it was in such a veiled form that Israel’s prophets didn’t catch it. Jesus, of course, never alluded to it. But now as we can read and look back, we know that this is what the prophet was talking about. Amos chapter 9 and again, we’re talking about the dispersed Nation of Israel in those first nine – ten verses. But now look at verse 11. Amos 9:11 “In that day (When God will finally have His people back in their homeland.) will I raise up the tabernacle of David that is fallen, and close up the breaches thereof; and I will raise up his ruins, and I will build it (Now remember, we’re talking about King David’s day.) as in the days of old:” Now, you remember what I said in one of the earlier programs this afternoon? When did Israel reach the pinnacle? During David’s and Solomon’s reign. The glorious Kingdom of David. What did the Queen of Sheba say? “The half has never yet been told.” Of what? The glory of David’s kingdom. All right, so this is the analogy. It’s going to be restored with the glory that it was in David’s day, only far, far greater. Amos 9:12 “That they (the Nation of Israel) may possess the remnant of Edom, and of all the heathen, (the Gentile world) which are called by my name, saith the LORD that doeth this.” In other words, God is going to bring Israel back to the homeland at some point in time. He’s going to return and set up this glorious kingdom promised to Israel. All right, now I made mention of Acts chapter 15. Here we have the record of the Jerusalem Council. And I think, according to some of the ancient writers, this was in A.D. 51. Now get your numbers – Christ was crucified in A.D. 29. I feel that the Apostle Paul was converted in A.D. 37. He began his ministry in A.D. 40. Now, he is being confronted by the Judaizers from the Jerusalem Jewish church and told that his converts had to be circumcised and keep the Law of Moses. That was the whole purpose of the Jerusalem council.

All right, now I’m not going to take the time to take you through all that. As you come to the end of that council, the leadership of the Jerusalem church recognized Paul’s Apostleship and that he would be going to the Gentiles, come in at verse 12. Acts 15:12 “Then all the multitude kept silence, and gave audience to Barnabas and Paul, (Who had been ministering up in Antioch, remember, as well as in Turkey and so forth.) declaring what miracles and wonders God had wrought among (What people?) the Gentiles by them.” Now this is unheard of. God had done all kinds of miracles in Israel, but amongst the Gentiles? Unheard of! All right, so they took this all in as the argument is now being kind of put to rest, because they are recognizing that Paul and Barnabas do now have a ministry with the Gentiles that Israel was never permitted to do. All right, now verse 13. Acts 15:13 “And after they had held their peace, (The tumult was quieting down.) James answered, (We know from Galatians chapter 2 that James was the moderator of this Jerusalem council.) saying, Men and brethren, hearken unto me: 14. Simeon (Peter) hath declared how God at the first did visit the (What?) Gentiles, to take out of them…” Now keep your pronouns right. Who are the “them” now? The Gentile world. Paul has been designated to go to the Gentiles. Acts 15:14b “…to take out of them a people for his name.” Now, Acts can’t tell us what it is, because it really hasn’t been totally revealed. But you get to Paul’s letters and what do we call it? The Body of Christ. The Body of Christ is that called-out group of Gentile believers under Paul’s Gospel of Grace that has believed for salvation that Jesus died for their sins, was buried, and rose again the third day. The Body of Christ is totally insulated from all the promises of Israel. Now, let’s see my timeline again. Here we come past the rejection now. All the promises concerning this glorious kingdom over which God the Son, Jesus the Christ, would rule and reign, but Israel rejected it. Then they hit the prime of their rejection when they did what? Stoned Stephen. Stephen was still appealing to the Nation to repent of having killed that promised Messiah. But they would not. So they stoned Stephen. All right who were we introduced to at the stoning of Stephen? Saul of Tarsus All right, now we get back to our timeline. After Christ has ascended and Israel’s rejection, now God is going to do exactly what Amos is referring to. That after a period of time, which would include our Church Age and the Tribulation, the King and the Kingdom would still come in and bring back the glories of David and Solomon. But here’s what we have to realize. God’s time clock stopped. He sent Paul out into the Gentile world to call out a people for His name, which like I said, we call the Body of Christ. All right, come back with me a minute to Acts chapter 15 again, now verse 15. Acts 15:15 “And to this (James says) agree the words of the prophets; as it is written,” But you see, they didn’t have a clue what Amos was talking about. They didn’t have a clue that after 1,900 years of being scattered into all the nations of the world, they would come back and reappear as a Nation and yet have the promised Kingdom become a reality. They didn’t know that. In fact, how many times have I done this before, and I’m going to do it again. Keep your hand in Acts 15. Go to I Peter, because I think this is so interesting that now, after the fact, Peter can write just exactly what I’m saying. They couldn’t put it together. Oh, it was back there, but in such veiled language they didn’t understand. And they weren’t supposed to. All right, back in I Peter chapter 1, I usually like to start at verse 9. Now remember, Peter, too, is addressing fellow Jews. He says that up in verse 1. I Peter 1:1a “Peter, an apostle of Jesus Christ, to the strangers scattered throughout Pontus, Galatia, Cappadocia…” Well, Gentiles weren’t strangers in their own land, but Jews were.

So, this is who Peter’s writing to. He’s writing to Jews of his own day and who were fellow believers that Jesus was the Christ. All right, now verse 9. I Peter 1:9a “Receiving the end of your faith, even the salvation of your souls. 10. Of which salvation the prophets (the Old Testament prophets) have inquired…” They were just constantly questioning – what about this? How is this going to happen? What is it? You can just about cook up as many questions as I can. I Peter 1:9b “…have inquired and searched diligently, (What were they searching? The Scriptures! The Old Testament Scriptures. Trying to put it all together. And they couldn’t. They weren’t supposed to.) who prophesied of the grace that should come unto you:” Well, when would it come for the Jew? When their Messiah would return, see? But the Old Testament Prophets didn’t speak of it as a second coming. They just spoke of it in veiled language that He would come and suffer and die. But on the other hand, there were prophecies that He would rule and reign. I’ve covered this before on the program. My, they questioned--how is this going to happen? Are we going to have two Messiahs? Will one suffer? Are we going to have a second Messiah that will rule and reign? They certainly couldn’t put together that the same One would be both! All right, that’s what Peter is talking about. All right, reading on in verse 11. I Peter 1:11 “Searching (the Scriptures) what, or what manner of time the Spirit (the Holy Spirit) of Christ who was in them (the writers of the Old Testament) did signify, when it (or He) testified beforehand (Now here they are, the two aspects of the Messiah.) the sufferings of Christ, (the Messiah) and the (What?) glory that should follow.” Now, can you see their dilemma? Here we’ve got to have a Messiah who suffers. But we have to have a Messiah that’s going to rule and reign. How is He going to do that unless we have two? They could not put it together that it would be one and the same. That’s why the normal rank and file Jew of today, is he looking for the Messiah the second time? No. The what? The first! They can’t reconcile the fact that the Messiah that suffered is the Messiah that’s going to rule and reign. That has been a dilemma for the Jew down through the centuries. All right, I think that’s sufficient there. Back to Acts then a minute. Now James and Peter and John, after the fact of the suffering, have now seen Him ascend back to Glory. Now they’re beginning to get the picture that this same Messiah who suffered would return and be the Messiah who would rule and reign. But, now here’s my question. Did they have any idea it would be 1,900 and some years? No way! So Peter and James and John and Jude and Revelation all speak in language as though it would be in their lifetime. They had no idea it would be such a long extended period. But yet, you see, Hosea is talking in the same language that the Nation would be out there for a long time. Until the “bones were white with age.” And then they’d come back. All right, verse 15: Acts 15:15 “And to this agree the words of the prophets; as it is written,” Now they can put it together. This is what Amos was talking about. After the calling out of a people for His name up in verse 14, after that long period of dispersion, they would be back in the land, but they would still have to wait for the out-calling of that Body of Christ, the Gentiles. Acts 15:16 “After this I will return, and will build again the tabernacle of David, which is fallen down; and I will build again the ruins thereof, and I will set it up:” Now, get the “after.” After what? The calling out of the Gentile Body. That’s why I maintain it has to be a pre-tribulation rapture, because God is not going to be dealing with the Gentile Body and the Nation of Israel. No, He’s going to be dealing with the earthly people, the Nation of Israel, first in the horrors of the Tribulation and then in the glory of the Kingdom.

But it won’t happen until the church is complete and is taken out of the way. All right, now I’ve got a few minutes left, yet? Well, let’s go to verse 17. Let’s not skip that. Let’s stay here a minute. After the calling out of the Body of Christ, “he would raise up again the tabernacle of David, which has fallen down;” That’s why we read it in Amos before we came to Acts. “And I (God says) will set it up.” Set what up? The Kingdom of David. Now verse 17. Acts 15:17 -18 “That the residue of men might seek after the Lord, and all the Gentiles, upon whom my name is called, saith the Lord, who doeth all these things. 18. Known unto God are all his works from the beginning of the world.” Well, He certainly worked only with the Nation of Israel, but I had one writer say, “He must have been a racist!” No, He’s not a racist!! What a stupid comment. But see, that’s the mentality of the world. Just because He dealt with Jew only. I guess they were commenting on that verse in Matthew 10:5-6 where the Lord told the Twelve, “Go not into the way of a Gentile or house of a Samaritan, but go only to the lost sheep of the House of Israel.” That is when he wrote and said, “He must be a racist.” No! I’m going to write back. The letter is still on my desk. I’m going to write back that Christ was on Covenant ground! He could not condescend to Gentiles until the covenant promises were fulfilled. But He’s going to set those covenant promises aside for 1,900 years and turn to the Gentiles without Israel. Is He being racist by now setting Israel aside? No! It’s in His Sovereign design. All right, now let’s go to Romans chapter 11. We have the same concept in different language. It’s the same thing. That after God has called out the Body of Christ, He’s going to return and deal with His covenant people. Romans chapter 11 verse 25 and then there are people, famous people, highly esteemed people, who say that there’s nothing to do with Israel anymore. They say that the people who call themselves Jews aren’t Jews at all. How ridiculous can people get? But here’s another verse that shows that God is not through with Israel. Romans 11 verse 25. In fact, the whole chapter 11 is dealing with God coming back and dealing with Israel. Romans 11:25a “I would not, brethren, that ye should be ignorant of this mystery, (Or secret or something that no one previous to Paul understood. And what is it?) lest ye should be wise in your own conceits; (In other words, puffed up with your own ignorant knowledge. And here it is.) that blindness in part (Not forever, but for a period of time. And I suppose even Paul, after the Holy Spirit inspired him to write that, was thinking in terms of 10 or 15 years, instead of 1,900 and some. But nevertheless, here we are, and it still holds.) that blindness in part (for a period of time) is happened to Israel,…” It is a spiritual blindness that the Jewish people, as a multitude, cannot understand. So they’re spiritually blind. Oh, we get a few. I’ve got a fair amount of Jews in my audience, and they’re interesting. I could sit here for another hour and tell you about some of them, but whatever. Here we have it that the rank and file of Israel are spiritually blind to this Age of Grace. Romans 11:25b “…that blindness (Sovereignly) in part is happened to Israel, (Then what’s the next word?) until (At some point in time that blindness is going to end, and God is going to be able to deal once again with His covenant people. When will that be?) until the fullness of the Gentiles has come in.” All right, now you compare that with what we just read in Acts 15. When will the fullness of the Gentiles come about? When the Body of Christ is complete. When the last person, I feel, has been saved and has become a member of the Body of Christ, we are out of here! And God picks up where he left off with Israel. Now, I can’t understand why that’s so hard for people to see. I had one lady that saw it in just 15 minutes of a phone conversation.

And she said, “Les, it’s all so logical!” Yeah, that’s exactly what it is. It’s so logical. God has set Israel aside for 1,900 and some years. He has fulfilled the prophecy of bringing them back, and He is filling up the Body of Christ. And one of these days it’s going to be full. The trumpet will sound. We’re out of here, and God will start dealing with Israel. Oh, it’s going to be horrible for seven years. But He's still dealing primarily with Israel. As a result of all of their chastisement and the wrath and vexation of God, here comes the Kingdom. And for the Jews who have survived and are believers, they’ll go into that Kingdom. They’re going to enjoy all the promises of God that have been spoken for the last 4,000 years. It’s just going to come rolling in on the Nation like a flood. As the Old Testament puts it, “They’re going to blossom like a rose in the desert.” So, don’t ever give up on the Nation of Israel.

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Part Two: Pick On Someone Your Own Size. (Everybody Hates Hitler S08E13)

Episode Summary: Sam, Dean and the reader investigate the death of a Rabbi who spontaneously combusted. The case becomes ever more confusing when they learn that the Rabbi was researching Nazi Necromancers. The trio are attacked by a Golem who turns out to belong to the Rabbi’s grandson, Aaron. The key to the case lies with the Golem but Aaron doesn’t know how to control him, which leaves everyone in danger. Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader Word Count: 5,904.

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The next afternoon you and the boys arrived in Pennsylvania to investigate more of the death of the rabbi to see if it might be supernatural, or just the circumstances of something that science had yet to figure out. Spontaneous human combustion was a thing that happened a few times before to people with no sort of explanation, however you had students who witnessed the man's death and might be able to shed some more light on what happened. Sam parted ways with you when he decided to check out the rabbi’s research and figure out if it might be linked to the reason of his sudden and unexpected cause of death.

You and Dean headed off to the college campus to track down the eyewitnesses who saw the sight first hand. Almost everyone had the same story they repeated to the cops about Isaac Bass; an old guy who hung around a lot at the library and chatted up students about stories that made little sense, only to someone who was probably losing their mind due to old age. Most of the people you talked to couldn’t elaborate more on the stories Isaac went on about due to needing to get to class or didn’t want to. Lucky for you and Dean, when you got the campus pub there was a few students who had lent him and ear from time to hear about his wild stories. And got a front row seat of Isaac’s death the night it happened.

“He was a really nice old kook.”

“Really nice.”

The two college students who witnessed Isaac's death first hand were two volleyball players that shared more than just their peppy attitudes and outfit. They sat across from you and Dean while they told you about Isaac. You smiled slightly as you raised your brow slightly from their wording about how they described the man as you repeated it, asking what they meant by that. The blonde sitting across from you look at her friend before back at you to elaborate more.

“You know, he’d talk a lot to us, to himself, to anyone who’d listen.” The blonde said. “He was always talking about this secret war that nobody knew was going on.”

“Conspiracy stuff.” The other one added. “He was obsessed with Nazis.”

“But he said they were ‘special Nazis,’ you know…” The blonde turned her head slightly over her shoulder to take a quick glance around the pub to see that all of the students were either talking among themselves or too engaged with their phones to care much about what all of you were discussing about two things that never should go together. “Necromancers. Like, from what world of whatever-craft that my little brother is always playing.”

You dealt with a lot of weird stuff in your time while hunting and came across many forms of evil, but you weren’t lucky yet to come across a couple Nazis and put a bullet in their brain. But you had your fair share of people who tried to raise people from the dead with consequences. You wrote the two words down on the small notepad you had opened and outlined it, knowing there was going to be a fair bit of research tonight for you and Sam to figure out how the two worked in together. You knew well enough it wasn't going to be something for the greater good if it had one of the very worst forms of humans the world had ever seen.

“It’s sad, isn’t it,” The student sitting across from Dean spoke up. You looked up from the paper to hear what she had to say about the poor soul who she thought was losing his mind. “That old people have to go so crazy.”

“I know.” Her friend said. “It is sad.”

You nodded your head in agreement as you kept your gaze down to your notepad while you wrote down a few more things that would be useful for you in the near future. Dean peered over slightly to see what you were writing, but he found his attention lingering away from the table when he felt someone’s eyes on him, like before. He casually glanced around the pub and made eye contact with a man sitting across the room. The stranger gave the man a little too friendly of a smile as he waved. Dean turned his head slightly to see that you were still engrossed in your writing. He realized the man wasn’t waving at you...but him. Dean found himself slightly taken aback as he turned his attention back to the two college students. “You, um...” The older Winchester found himself trailing off for a second, his eyes wandering back to the stranger across the bar, but the man looked away from him. You gave him a slightly confused expression before he pulled himself back to normal. “I'm sorry. You, uh, you both saw the accident?” “I can still hear his screams.” The woman sitting across Dean said, giving you a visual for what the both of them had to witness. “It was like the fire was alive, like,” Her friend continued on. “like it was attacking him.” The other woman nodded her head on agreement. “It was like that.” Dean found himself drifting away from the conversation and to the man across the bar when he realized he was still being stared at, in a way that was making him grow skeptical something was going on here. He excused himself from the conversation, leaving you alone to the volleyball players he might have stuck around to talk to a little while longer if he was single. But his focus was on the stranger who had no business following him around campus. And it was starting to get under the man’s skin. Dean caught the guy off guard when he was drifting off to space and staring at someone else in the bar to make himself look a little less conspicuous. The older Winchester knew better than to think this was anything more than something serious. Dean got the man’s attention when he slapped his fake badge down on the table, making the stranger look back at him, slightly startled at the introduction he wasn’t expecting so soon. Dean introduced himself as Special Agent Bolan, the same name to the rest of his fellow classmates he’d been talking to for the past few hours. He expected the stranger to grow a little nervous out of fear for why the FBI was lurking around campus, but the man’s reaction was anything what he was expecting. He stared at the badge with a sort of bashful smile on his lips, the kind Dean saw on many females faces when he told whatever sort of authority role he was playing to impress them. “Oh, really? Wow.” The man said, smiling slightly as he let out a chuckle. “I thought you were like a headhunter or something.” “This is the second, maybe third time I'm seeing you today?” Dean wondered, bringing up the numbers of times he saw the man's face around campus that was more than just a coincidence. His tone of voice might have been casual, yet the serious expression on his face was anything but. "Why you following me, Gingerbread?”

"Oh, so, we, um..." The man found himself growing slightly embarrassed at what was going on and the miscommunication between the both of them. "we didn't have a thing back there, huh?"

Dean felt himself being thrown through a loop at what the man was talking about, things weren't clicking just yet. "Back where? W-what now?"

"I thought we had a thing back at the quad, you know, a little 'eye magic' moment," The man explained to the older Winchester. Dean suddenly felt the wheels turning in his head. He slowly retracted his badge and flipped it closed. He slightly peered over his shoulder to see that you were wrapping up the conversation with the two students, not having a single clue of what was going on. "and I saw you here and I figured I'd wait until you were done with your meeting and maybe we might, uh..."

Dean had his fair share of flirtatious talk to know what was going on here, hell, he was the one normally giving it to the person that caught his eye. And plenty of women have tried it on him when he was single, even taken. But never in his time had this happen. "Yeah, uh, okay, but no—no moment. This is a...." Dean was normally casual and collected under these kind of situations, but he found himself growing like a babbling idiot. "federal investigation."

"Is that supposed to make you less interesting?" The man tried to make a joke as he chuckled. Dating was hard for everyone when you weren't sure who liked who, but Dean had to give the man props for having good taste. "No, I'm sorry, man. I hope I didn't freak you out."

"No. No. I-I'm n-not freaked out. It's just a, you know...a federal thing. It's a..." Dean realized that he was rambling on like an idiot, the exact same kind of way he used to behave when he was a young teen. He cleared his throat to try and compose himself before he could make himself out to be any more of an idiot. He was saved by the sounds of your approaching heels clicking away. "Okay, citizen. As you were."

"You have a good night." The man said, watching as Dean began to walk away.

"You—You..." Dean turned around to face the man to give him a nice farewell, but he found himself forgetting to stop walking. He accidentally felt his backside hit a table with a few empty glasses on the table, his collusion made them clank together, causing a few eyes to wander over to him to see. Dean felt his cheeks beginning to grow warmer. "have a...okay."

Dean managed to get far enough away without making an idiot out of himself again. You stood waiting for him at the front door with your arms crossed over your chest, wondering what was taking so long. When you saw him approaching, you were ready to head out, but you found yourself lingering behind at the sight of Dean you didn't think you've really ever seen him before. You furrowed your brow slightly at the sight of his cheeks, that were the slightest tinge of pink.

"What's with you? Someone mistake you for a college student?" You joked with him, knowing the both of you were well past the prime age of your youth. Dean shook his head and said nothing more. You furrowed your brow slightly as you looked around to see who he was talking to that was making him so...bashful. You didn't see a young woman that was ten years younger than you on her own, but you did happen to spot a familiar face you noticed while roaming around the campus. "Hey, doesn't that guy look—"

"Yeah. Don't worry about it. Turns out it was just a...misunderstanding." Dean said. He smiled, the kind of way as if someone had told him he was cute. You looked at him before back at the man sitting by himself with a drink. It took you a second before you realized what was going on. It seemed someone had tried to make a pass at him, but it was the opposite gender this time. You let out a quiet chuckle, finding this a little too amusing. "Let's get out of here, huh?"

You nodded your head in agreement as you pulled out your ringing phone from your pocket to see that it was Sam calling. As the both of you made your way out of the pub and back on campus grounds, you looked back over at the man one more time to get a good look at him, thinking you wouldn’t see him ever again. "Eh, he's cute. But you could do better." You muttered. Dean gave you a look from how you were still keeping the topic going, you smiled to yourself and answered your phone before it was too late. “Hey, Sammy."

"Hey. So I looked into the rabbi's research. It doesn't make a lot of sense. Um..." Sam fell silent for a moment over the phone, making you wonder what was going on with him. He spoke up a few seconds later to tell you what he found. "bird watching."

"Huh. Well, the two co-captains of the women's volleyball team Dean and I talked to agreed that the rabbi's death was very unnatural." You told the younger Winchester. "I think we've still got a case."

"That would explain why I have something stuck to my shoe." Sam said. You furrowed your brow slightly as you looked over at his older brother that was standing next to you, prompting you to ask if he was being followed. "Yeah, I think so."

"That's weird." You said, starting to walk to the Impala with the older Winchester. "Dean thought him and I were being followed earlier."

"Turns out it was just a gay thing." Dean felt the need to add that detail to clarify loud enough for his brother to hear over the phone. You stared at the man for a second from what he felt the need to announce, Sam's voice on the other line echoed a 'what' at his brother's confession that dismissed the situation as nothing to worry about. Dean ignored your look as he snatched your phone away to talk to his brother. "Nothing. You need a hand?"

"Yes, please." Sam said. "Some place quiet?"

“Visitors parking—the boonies. I’ll park in the back. You meet up with Y/N." Dean said, coming up with a plan of action. You made your way to the passenger side as Dean got himself behind the wheel. “Thirty minutes.”

+ + +

It was growing darker when you met up with Sam in front of the library and spent a few minutes talking to one another, pretending to be engaged with something that sound important to throw his shadow off. You and him started to make your way back to the Impala that was parked a good distance away where you met up. The metal ring that held the keys to the Impala dangled off your index finger while Sam walked in sync with you, both of you pretending to be oblivious about your surroundings as you carried on a conversation. You complained about your feet hurting you, Sam told you to wear more practical shoes on the days where it required a lot of walking. You tossed him a dirty glare as you made your way to the trunk of the Impala, pretending to fetch a different pair of shoes. Sam made it seem like he was about to make his way to the passenger side, but he stayed close. You began to casually flip through each key, trying to remember which one went to the car. However, due to your slippery finger, you accidentally dropped them to the pavement. Instead of picking it up right away, you looked over at Sam, giving him a small smile from what you were about to do.

"Oh, no. I’m such a klutz. Sammy, can you help a pregnant woman out?” You asked him, loud enough for him to only hear. “My back hurts when I bend down.”

Sam pretended to give you an annoyed look at what you were asking of him, he did it anyway. It wasn’t a total lie. You turned your back to the bushes that were behind you, a perfect spot for someone to be crouching down right now and spying on your every move. If you had to guess, Dean was making his move as you and his brother distracted the stranger. And that’s where you ran into a slight problem. Well, more of a huge one.

The Winchester boys were rather tall; Dean was a good six feet somethin' while his little brother had three more inches on him that caused him to tower over most, you especially. However the person following Sam wasn't someone that compared to his height...not even close.

Sam was about to push himself up back to his feet when something unexpected happened that sent you and him to look behind you. It started off with the sound of someone screaming, which you quickly learned was Dean after you saw him go flying in the air—and land directly into a parked van that made you wince at the impact it had. Broken glass from the windows cushioned his fall as he dropped to the pavement.

You called out the man's name in a panicked tone as you saw him curl up at the pain settling in his body from the impact that you knew had to cause some damage. Your first instinct was to go running towards him to make sure that he was all right. But what you saw emerging from the bushes, who had thrown a man very much heavier than you through the air like he was nothing more than a rag doll made you rethink your decision.

"Oh my God. Oh my God." You weren't the type of hunter to panic when you saw a dangerous hunter coming your way. Hell, almost all of the time you went running towards it, ready to take it down once and for all. But who you saw charging forward at you made you realize this was something you hadn’t really ever dealt with before. You found yourself acting like a deer in headlights, your mind trying to wrap around the fact that a giant was coming your way, probably ready to give you the same treatment he gave to Dean. "Sammy…”

You had gotten pretty lucky from the tumbles you took here and there while hunting that didn't disrupt the baby. That was when you went up against monsters you knew like the back of your hand. But what you saw approaching you...it was nothing you've seen before. And didn't want to be near. Sam tried his hardest to work quick as he could to unlock the trunk and retrieve a weapon he could use against the thing coming your way. He snatched a machete and yanked you by your arm, getting you behind him so you were out of harm's way. Sam swung the weapon to the arm that was coming in his direction to try and slow the giant down.

The blade sunk into the forearm of the monster, the one that was sharp enough to slice through a human neck, but it didn't do much of anything. You felt your eyes grow slightly wider as your mouth fell open at the sight of the machete in flesh without needing more than one swing. But the machete didn't do much of anything to slow the creature down. You felt your eyes grow slightly more wider as you mouth fell open at the sight of the blade stuck in the monster's arm, nothing more than just a dent. No blood, no cut.

Sam had to use all the strength he had to yank the machete out from the creature’s arm, but before he could take another swing, it seemed the creature wasn't too happy with what the younger man had did. You could only watch as Sam was grabbed ahold by the neck from a hand that had to be big as your head. Without even breaking a sweat, the thing lifted up Sam off the ground, letting his feet dangle for a good few seconds as the man struggled to breathe. Your mouth was wide open and your brain was screaming for you to tell the creature to stop hurting Sam, but the fear of what you were staring at made you fall mute. However it seemed someone had come to the rescue, ordering for the creature to stop.

Sam felt his feet hit the ground after only a few seconds as he inhaled a much needed breath after his neck was squeezed tighter than he’d ever felt before. You knew there was another man standing next to Sam, who had commanded for the enormous giant to stop hurting Sam, but you couldn’t keep your eyes off the thing that towered over Sam and made you feel like Thumbelina. The thing you were staring at...he was nothing you've encountered before. It was like the Incredible Hulk.

"What the…” You brain began to finally start working when it began stuttering out words as you continued to stare up at the giant in front of you. Your neck was starting to grow sore from having to look so high up. The creature stared down at you and Sam, showing no sort of emotion to indicate what he was thinking, or if he was planning on killing you with his bare hands that could easily snap your neck like a twig. "What the hell is that?"

“He’s a golem.” You found your gaze lingering away from the monster that now had an identity. You looked over to see a face you spotted earlier today at the pub. The man who tried to make a pass on Dean. "Well, he's my golem."

You managed to force a smile at the bit of information that didn’t make you feel any better about this situation. The man didn’t seem like he was here to harm any of you, despite the fact that the golem had thrown Dean across the parking lot, where he remained almost forgotten—until you heard him mutter something about his spleen. You quickly looked over to see him still on the ground curled up in pain. You winced slightly as you made your way over to him, wanting to make sure he was all right and there was no broken bones you needed to worry about.

+ + +

At first things seemed to be going in a bit of a strange direction in this hunt; Nazi necromancers, a rabbi who burst into flames with his last book checked out for his research about bird watching and a golem that belonged to a guy named Aaron. But all of it was connected together. You and the boys were invited back to Aaron's’ motel he was renting to discuss things in a more private setting. You were the last one inside while Aaron intended to be the first after he unlocked the motel to his motel room, but his golem pushed him out of the way, wanting to scope out the place for any more potential danger before all of you were heading inside.

“The rabbi who was murdered, Isaac Bass, he was my grandfather. That’s why we’re here.” Aaron explained the situation that lead all of you here. “When you guys started to follow up on his case, we started following you.”

“So, wait. What you’re saying is that you and me—we, uh, didn’t have a moment?” Dean couldn't help himself but linger back to the first encounter he had with the man that gave him the wrong impression. And made him fumble around like an idiot. You couldn’t help yourself when you rolled your eyes as you let out a sigh, wondering why he had to bring it back up in the first place.

“No, man.” Aaron said, his face scrunching up slightly. “I was tailing you.”

"Told you I was being followed. He was my gay thing." Dean turned his attention to you and his brother. You raised your brow slightly as you gave him a look, wondering why he was still going on about it longer than he should. Dean seemed to have gotten the hint. "That was really good. You really had me there. That's very smooth."

"Yeah, well, smooth's just about all I got." Aaron said. You found your gaze lingering away from the man and to the golem that had been circling around the motel, keeping a watchful eye on things. You weren't sure what to make of the golem, but it seemed his relationship with Aaron was anything but pleasant when he stared down at the man with an almost disapproving look. Aaron stared back at him, showing the thing that he wasn't in the mood to take any of his crap tonight "Yeah, that's right. Keep walking...you chia pet.”

"So, that's a golem?" Sam asked, pointing a finger to the creature that began walking around the motel once more.

“Yes. Shaped from clay and brought to life by rabbis to protect the jewish people in times of—I don’t know—general crappiness.” Aaron said. You've heard a few things about the creatures from time to time during your search, but not enough to realize they were real. Or would have been so large. You couldn't help yourself but to clarify if the one lingering around here was his. "Hardly. My grandfather left him to me. I'm the last surviving descendant of the members of this...thing, this...initiative."

"The Judah Initiative?" You asked him, wondering if that’s what he was trying to remember.

“Right, and he—”

"Who?!" You suddenly felt yourself jump out of your own skin at the booming voice coming from directly behind you that took you off guard. You peered over and then up to see it was the golem hovering over you, You smiled slightly, hoping he would get the impression that you weren't much of a threat. "Who are they to know about the Men of Judah?"

“It’s okay.” Dean reassured the golem in a slow tone of voice for him to understand. You could only presume it was more patronizing than helpful. “We are the good guys.”

"We're hunters. This is Sam and Dean Winchester. I'm Y/N Y/L/N.” You introduced yourself to the golem in more detail to let him understand you weren’t here to cause any harm. "We know about the Judah Initiative because their grandfather was a Man of Letters. My father was one, too."

“Yes.” The golem said, recognizing the title as he stared down at you and the boys, with the type of look that reassured you he wasn’t going to do anything to hurt you. “The rabbis knew the Men of Letters.”

Aaron offered all of you something to drink along the line of beer, much as you would have enjoyed one, you forced yourself to politely decline. You weren’t much of a drinker, but you liked to have the occasional one, but that wasn’t going to be possible for another several months to a year. You did however take a seat when he gestured to a couch that you happily sank down on to rest your aching feet and back. You leaned back as the boys cracked open their beers. “So...your grandfather was into all this supernatural stuff, too?” Aaron struck up a conversation when he took a seat on the chair across from Sam.

“The whole family. Mom’s side was hunters, Dad was a Men of Letters.” You told him about your history that was somewhat similar to the boys. “However they tried to hide it from me. Obviously didn’t work out too well.” “Yeah, grandparents, mom, dad, truckload of cousins—the whole family was lousy for it, but we...” Dean said, giving the man some background about his and Sam’s family to tell more about himself. While he went on, he found himself trailing off for a moment, finding his attention lingering to the giant man roaming around the room, his heavy footsteps echoing through the place. “never had a golem.”

"Right. Yeah, we grew up in it," Sam said, nodding his head to his brother. "But you didn't?"

“My grandfather’s adventures, the initiative, the golem, the war—they were the stories that he told me when I was a kid. I thought it was make-believe. So did my parents. You know, fantasies to help him cope with all the horrible stuff he’d seen,” Aaron said, giving you and the boys some context to his own past. It made sense that Aaron would have thought the rambles he heard was nothing more than stories.. Being a survivor from one of the worst genocides in human history, witnessing things that you only learned about from pure evil. “but every once in awhile, crazy old grandpa Bass would come back on one of his trips, hand me a twenty dollar savings bond, and say, ‘One day you’ll inherit the mantle.’

Sure enough, a few days after he died, this big box shows up at my apartment. He always said I'd know what to do, which was crap,” Aaron went on, growing angry as he pointed a finger to the giant that was his responsibility. “because when I opened that box, this big, naked, potato-faced lunatic wakes up and goes crazy!"

“I didn’t…” The golem stopped at the window for a moment to examine the empty parking lot to make sure there was no lurking danger in the darkness of the night. It seemed he would have begged to differ on the harsh words Aaron was speaking about him. "go crazy."

“You trashed my entertainment center!” Aaron shouted. You furrowed your brow slightly at how worked up he was getting about things that could have been easily replaced. Maybe with something better since it wasn't the nineties anymore. “He broke my water bed.”

“This boy knows nothing.” The golem said. It seemed he was growing tired of being spoken down to by the man who should have known more about his religion and took pride in after what his grandfather and others like him went through to freely practice their beliefs. “Observes none of the mitzas, labors on sabbath, dines on swine."

“Everybody loves bacon!” Aaron defended himself against judgement.

“He’s no rabbi. Yifalchunbee!" The giant shouted a word that didn't sound German from the words that you remembered, it had to Hebrew. A language you knew nothing about. Aaron seemed to understand somewhat of what it meant when he rolled his eyes, muttering about how he didn't want to start with this again. The golem didn't listen as he repeated himself to try and get through to the younger man." Yifalchunbee!”

“Enough! Please!” Aaron shouted once more in annoyance. “Quiet time!”

The golem stared down at the man before he went back to pacing around the motel. You let out a sigh from how well none of this was going for any of you. “All right. What was that?” The younger Winchester asked. “What was he saying?”

"It's Hebrew for something like 'take charge,' but I have no idea what he means." Aaron admitted to all of you. He was in the dark about all of this much as you and the boys were. "Look, I grew up in Short Hills, I cheated my way through Hebrew school. I never really listened to my grandfather, what he was saying."

"So, wait—he just sends you this golem," Dean began speaking, but dropped his voice to a more quieter tone when he noticed the very man he was talking about cross through the small living room area. "And expects you to work it out?"

“He didn’t get much chance to prepare me, I guess. My parents—they did everything they could to prevent him from screwing me up with all his crazy talk.” Aaron said. “See, after the war, my grandfather spent the rest of his life trying to track down something he called the thule society.”

“The thule society. Right." Sam said, recognizing the name. "They were Nazis."

You and Dean looked over at one another when you realized how this connected to what the two college girls you were speaking to earlier today about the hate group. "Nazi necromancers."

“N-necro-who?” Aaron asked, stuttering out the word he heard you mention.

“Necromancer—witches, sorcerers, dark magic, mostly with dead people.” You explained to him in more of a definition with the word that he would understand

"Okay." Aaron muttered to himself, not sure if he really knew what was going on here and how the two went together. "All I know about the thule is that they were this twisted, secret fraternity hell-bent on world domination, that sponsored the early days of the Nazi party. My grandfather said the judah initiative was started to fight them.”

"And the thule murdered your grandfather, boy.” The giant said, putting the pieces together himself from the knowledge he knew. “Find them so I can do my work!"

You weren't the type of person that scared easily considering the things you've seen in your time of hunting. But an almost seven foot tall person with arms bigger than your head made you a little jumpy. Without warning, the golem smashed a table into pieces slamming his fist down. His outburst made you jump slightly in the air as you subconsciously reached out a hand to grab a hold of Dean's arm, as if the giant was about to attack all of you. When you made sure that he went back on his way of roaming around the place, you calmed down slightly and composed yourself back to somewhat normal.

"Hey! Hey! We're renting here! Renting." Aaron shouted at the golem to try and get him to calm down so he wouldn't be spending any more money than he had to replace things. He let out a sigh and began rubbing his forehead out of frustration. "Look...I think the golem's right. My grandfather-- he left me this message on my machine the day he died, and he said that he had found something that the thule were willing to kill him for. He said he was hiding it here in plain sight."

Aaron pulled something out of his back pocket that appeared to be a folded up post-it note. "He left me this weird—I don't know—equation. It's not a phone number or an address or coordinates--Q-L-6-7-3-W-8?"

Dean grabbed the piece of paper from the man to see if he might be able to figure it out for himself about what it could have been. His guess was a combination, when you looked over to see what it might have been, it took a second before you realized what the letters and numbers really meant. And where you could use this information for your own benefit.

“Oh, it's a call number. Library of Congress—their filing system, they use it in college libraries. Uh, Q-L-6-7-3—that's...sciences.” You started thinking out loud about what the rabbi wanted his grandson to see and where it was stashed. When you thought back to the last bit of research he did at the college, you looked over at the younger Winchester. “Wait, Sammy. Didn’t you say the last thing Isaac checked out was bird watching?”

When Sam nodded his head, you felt your lips stretching into a victorious smirk as you snatched the paper out of the older Winchester’s hand to hold onto. You didn’t even say anything else to give the men a clue of what you were thinking about. You pushed yourself up to your feet and made your way out of the place, heading to the Impala to make a quick stop at your own motel to change clothes and then to the college library. That’s where you found find the research that caused Isaac Bass’ life.

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queen-of-deans-booty · 2 years ago

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Season 8

Season Summary: A new threat looms over your head when you get your hands on the Demon Tablet. It possesses the one thing that will make all your nightmares go away: shutting the Gates of Hell forever along with every black-eyed bitch there are. Along the way, you find out what it means to be the ultimate witch. What untold powers do you possess? How can you use them to protect your family? Pain, loss, and suffering comes with the job, but no mother should have to ever go through the obstacles you try and overcome. How will you come out on top?

We Need To Talk About Kevin: Part One // Part Two // Part Three // Part Four // Final Part

What’s Up, Tiger Mommy?: Part One // Part Two // Part Three // Part Four // Final Part

Heartache: Part One // Part Two // Part Three // Final Part

Bitten: Part One // Part Two // Part Three // Part Four // Final Part

Blood Brother: Part One // Part Two // Final Part

Southern Comfort: Part One // Part Two // Part Three // Final Part

A Little Slice of Kevin: Part One // Part Two // Final Part

Hunteri Heroici: Part One // Part Two // Part Three // Final Part

Citizen Fang: Part One // Final Part

Torn and Frayed: Part One // Part Two // Final Part

LARP and the Real Girl: Part One // Part Two // Part Three // Final Part

As Time Goes By: Part One // Part Two // Final Part

Everybody Hates Hitler: Part One // Part Two // Part Three // Final Part

Trial and Error: Part One // Part Two // Part Three // Final Part

Man’s Best Friend with Benefits: Part One // Part Two // Final Part

Remember the Titans: Part One // Part Two // Final Part

Goodbye Stranger: Part One // Part Two // Final Part

Freaks and Geeks: Part One // Part Two // Final Part

Taxi Driver: Part One // Final Part

Pac-Man Fever: Part One // Part Two // Final Part

The Great Escape: Part One // Final Part

Clip Show: Part One // Part Two // Final Part

Sacrifice: Part One // Final Part

#supernatural series rewrite #spn series rewrite #seaosn 8

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I've gotta say, I find the concept of Bedlund trying to Ben-Hur Jensen absolutely hysterical. I'm just imagining Jensen getting a script and being like "Ben?? What's this? Is this gay? This seems gay????" and Ben just soothing him like a frightened horse.

Hahaha - Look it wouldn't be the first time. What is this verb we're working with? Okay. Strap in everyone. The Multi-Oscar-winning 1959 movie 'Ben Hur' had a bunch of gay subtext. The writer, the director, and the second lead actor all knew that Charlton Heston's character, Ben Hur, was gay. However, one person didn't find out until the 1990s: Charlton Heston. The consensus on set was "Don’t tell Charlton, because he’ll freak out." and when Heston found out in the ninties, freak out was exactly what he did. (x) [the movie may have gotten a reference from Misha back in season 6 (x)]

Whether this happened with Jensen on SPN depends on two things.

Was the character of Dean intentionally written as Bi and, if so, at what point did that become true?

Did anyone tell Jensen? Did he figure it out? if so, when?

I personally DO believe at this point, I really do, that Bedlund - Ben Hur'd Jensen. I think it was part of the writers room but not all of it, until it was. (Which RN I believe finally happened under Dabb.) I think Jensen wasn't in on it, until he was. So for me? I think he really was in the dark at one point. But at what point that changed? Probably only he can answer that question. and RN? He ain't talking.

In the meantime we can only look at things Jensen has said on the subject - Like this unbearably ambiguous GIF set from @nikadd. Was this tongue in cheek? Legitimate ignorance? You're killing me, Jensen. That cheeky lil smile, Jensen. Nvm - I'm going to kill you instead. It's for my own survival. No hard feelings right? You understand.

UH OH HERE COMES A CUT TO HIDE A LONG DERANGED POST...

We can look at the text for number 1 - and I do that uh - a lot - see the blog name #Dean Was Always Bi

For number 2 we can look over some points when we got clues from what Jensen thought was going on [regardless of whether they make sense based on his jacting or directorial choices I guess] and get left wondering whether at any point he felt pressured to lie for his career, for self protection, or to protect the narrative from the network:

2010 - 'We're missing the gay angel' (x) (Season 5 gag reel) (x) “Sorry man, not what the show’s about.” Jared: One of the good and bads about playing the straight [non-comedic] character on the show… Jensen: What wait? I’ve been playing him so wrong

2012 / S8 - Trenchcoat - Jensen talking about how sometimes they change the lines because they're way too gay. Calls Cas a third brother

2012 - "What's Destiel?" Ben Edlund: That’s some weird shit. Jensen: Is this something that you created, Ben? Ben: You don’t want any part of that.

“Don’t ruin it for everyone now” “I still don’t know what the question was. I’m going to pretend I don’t know what the question was.”

2013 @ JIB, re Dean’s reaction to Aaron’s flirting in the season 8 episode Everybody Hates Hitler, (x)

“And the scene wasn’t written to be that kind of - I mean - It was written to be awkward. Ben Edlund wrote the - my favorite line in that scene was ‘carry on . citizen’ that was - I almost couldn’t say that with a straight face I was laughing so hard. But it was - you know - it was comedy. It was a comedic moment in the show and fortunately Dean gets a lot of the comedic moments in the show and it was just, you know, Ben was poking fun at the fact that - you know, how can we make this very kind of manly, heterosexual guy uncomfortable - uh -you know, or or have him back on his heels and throw him off his game a little bit.”

The thing is - Bedlund and Phil Sgriccia made very clear on the commentary track that THEY saw this scene as a 'romantic comedy kind of fluster' "This potential for love in all places."

Ben Edlund calling the writer’s room a boy’s club in 2013 (x)

Misha Collins telling Destiel fans they aren’t Crazy in 2013 after some executives said they were (x).

2014 Jensen says he was glad there wasn’t much Dean and Cas in season 9 - HA Hah HAH (x)

“I think the whole Cas and Dean thing has gotten out of hand” “I don’t think there’s anything secret to their relationship even though a lot of people wish there was” REMINDER - that season we got the nightstands acknowledgement and “play him like a jilted lover” and the “he dumped me James” cut and -

I certainly know that Misha and I don’t play that. SIGH. they Ben Hur'd Jensen.

2014 - the fan fiction joke - 10.05

“I didn’t have a positive reaction, The first time in I think 200 scripts I went and sat down in the showrunners office and said, ‘What in god’s name are you doing?! Why? I need to understand why this is happening.’” “[Carver] gave very eloquent answers and did a great job of explaining why we were doing what we were doing, I guess I had been aware of this ‘fan fiction’ for a while and I felt like maybe if I ignored it, it would eventually go away. When I read it in the script that is what I do for a living and is my work—I’m very protective of these characters and the story and I think we have a right to be—I wasn’t angry. I just wanted to understand why and what was the message we were ultimately sending with this script and story. By the end of it, I felt good and it gave me all the confidence I needed. It was better than I could have ever hoped.”

But then there's Jensen in 2015 talking about all of Dean’s bromances. (x) [gifs at the top] Could go either way - starting to figure it out? or No?

What had changed if anything? the entire Crowely season 10 story line? This was July 2015 - the same day as the SDCC 2015 panel where Misha talked about Destiel (x @ 13) Carver and Dabb were there -

By this time Jensen and Misha were nominated for a teen choice award for best chemistry against various tv couples (and one ensemble cast, but the award nomination did NOT include Jared) .... Misha and Jensen would go on to WIN this award one month after the panel.

At the Panel Rob and Rich ask the question: “You two have branded yourselves as TV’s greatest team since, ... idk who.... Ernie and Bert so.” [Misha says to Jensen & Jared, half not on the microphone: “I really didn’t expect them to throw us under the bus.”] “are we going to see that continue? Is the Castiel Dean relationship still aflutter and still growing as we move into season 11?” Jeremy Carver: “Ish.” [mocking from panel ensues] “Yes. Of course. I mean Yeah. Absolutely. Yeah. There’s no doubt.”

Jensen Directs 11x03 and the choreo mimics Goodbye stranger (x)

2016 - Jensen: Dean could have a huntress, but you’d kill her.

Jan 2017 Con the infamous - no hedge - harsh - “Destiel doesn’t exist.” (x)

I would hope that if he knew he wouldn’t have been so harsh with it. So by that point either he still didn’t know - OR - to him ‘Destiel’ was specifically about internet porn/sex and not like - the potential for feelings / a relationship. It makes me think about something Misha had actually said, around 2013, “It’s called ‘Destiel’ and it’s about the romantic interludes between Dean and Castiel.” (x)

2017 - jib8 Jensen called Dean a lover of the ladies

May 2017 - After filming the end of season 12:

2018 - Misha confirms he and Jensen have talked about Destiel (x) - also 2018: The Bisexual Dean essay "? No." (Oh god was this really this recent?! I can't deal with this.)

Well. SOMETHING happened in 2019. cuz here it comes

2019 - "Dean has no taste, clearly." 2019 - 'So, tell us just a little bit about what you're most excited to tackle with your character this final season.' "Cas. Just like a full football form tackle."

Look at this face he gave Dean when Cas told him he loved him and tell me he wasn't playing into it here. You can't. (x)

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huggybearsunshine · 3 years ago

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The Things We Left Behind Part 14

[Part 14] Takes place during the second half of 8x13 Everybody Hates Hitler.

Getting into the library was easy enough, and finding the book was easy too, which should have clued them into the fact that everything was about to fall apart.

And sure enough…

“Help,” Sam’s voice burst out as he practically fell down the steps toward them, “Necromancers…”

“Stay here,” Dean barked to Aaron before he was on his feet, taking two stairs at a time, but stopped as he noticed the discoloration on Sam’s neck, “Crap…”

And about that time, Aaron winced as a dart hit him in the chest.

“Ah,” he started to stumble backward.

“Crap!” Dean yelled as the golem just watched him fall, “Hey big guy! They’re both gonna die unless we get whoever cast the spell!”

It growled in response before rushing the stairs and disappearing out of sight, and within a minute or two was back dragging the Necromancer behind like he was nothing.

It dropped his limp body onto the landing at the center of the stairwell and the nazi’s head rose.

“Long live… the Thule,” it seemed a labor to speak until the golem took away that problem for him in one foul swoop.

Suddenly, the discoloration began to drain from Sam and Aaron’s wounds, and their skin grew less pale by the second until they were back to normal again.

“Or not,” Dean quipped before helping Sam to his feet, “Hey, um… you wouldn’t be willing to get them to the car would you?”

The golem looked to him before nodding solemnly.

He carried one on each shoulder, to Dean’s absolute delight, and they drove off to a secluded place to bury the body.

“I don’t want to,” Cas heard his voice speak, but his eyes were taking a moment to work properly.

He wasn’t even sure what he was referring to until his vision cleared and he could see Dean in front of him.

It wasn’t him, of course. Castiel knew that instantly. He would know Dean Winchester’s soul in an instant, and this was not his Dean- though an impressive copy, he could admit.

“Kill him, Castiel,” she repeated firmly, and he found an Angel blade dropping into his hand.

His feet moved without permission, and he was forced to watch himself slaughter that copy of the man he loved.

“Well done,” Naomi commented as she approached him and the lifeless copy.

“I don’t understand,” his voice cracked as he looked at his hands, “I don’t…”

“Again,” he heard her say in exasperation.

“Hey, you ok?” Sam walked out onto the porch later that night once they had returned to Aaron’s rental.

“I’m uh… I’m not, no,” Dean ran a hand over his face, “I don’t think he can hear me, Sam. I don’t think… I don’t think he’s okay… And I-I’m not okay…”

“Dean, you can’t think like that,” Sam shook his head.

“But Sammy, what if he’s just… gone, and I never find out what happened?”

“Im not letting that happen,” Sam shook his head, unwilling to even entertain the thought, “Cas wouldn’t let that happen.”

“Who’s Cas?” Aaron had appeared in the doorway.

“Oh hey,” Dean stiffened uncomfortably.

“Sorry, you were having a serious conversation that’s none of my business…” Aaron seemed to realize at once that he’d interrupted something important.

“No, it’s fine,” Dean turned away again and drew from the bottle in his hand, “Cas is…”

“Family,” Sam swept in for him, “He’s missing…”

“Oh, I’m sorry…” Aaron looked even more apologetic.

“It’s fine,” Dean pushed passed him with a look back to his brother, “I’m fine.”

“Dean,” he tried, but the other man was gone.

“I’m so sorry, I didn’t realize…”

“Not your fault,” Sam reassured the other man, “Dean’s just worried, and Cas is… important to him.”

“What happened?” Aaron ventured cautiously.

“We don’t really know,” Sam explained, motioning with his beer toward the house as he added, “Think that’s the hardest part for him…”

“Do you think you’ll find him?” Aaron’s voice was quiet.

“He’s come back from worse,” Sam smirked.

“Again,” Naomi called out as Cas knelt tearfully on the floor with copy after copy lying lifeless around him.

“Please… no more,” his broken voice shook.

“It will get easier, Castiel,” Naomi assured him confidently, “What ever this attachment is, we can and will find a way to break it and get you in working order again.”

“I don’t want it broken,” his voice came out on a breath.

“That’s why we have to keep going,” she smoothed down her blazer, “Again!”

Another Dean walked out and Cas felt his body move toward him like it did every time only this time, Cas’ hand reached out and cupped his face.

“I’m so sorry,” he whispered, saying what he wished he could to the real Dean, “I miss you so much.”

“Castiel!” Naomi’s voice hardened, and the Angel blade swung forward.

He closed his eyes as the face within his grasp twisted in pain before falling to the floor.

“I think you need more time in the chair,” her voice was suddenly right beside him, and then everything went black.

Dean popped in first thing the next morning with coffees for everyone, “What did you find out?”

“Sleep in the car again?” Sam asked simply if not a little sadly.

“Yeah, it’s fine,” Dean’s brows furrowed as a defensive look touched his eyes, “Did it for years. You want your coffee or not?”

“Yeah, yes I do,” Sam nodded, letting it go for now, and the elder Winchester set the caddy with the coffees down in front of him.

“So again I ask…”

“Right,” Sam looked back toward the computer after retrieving one of the drinks, “I think it’s a log-book from a nazi compound in Belarus. It was run by the Thule.”

“This is the red ledger,” Aaron added as Dean handed him a coffee too, “It was lost in the fire that destroyed the compound, but my grandfather was convinced it had been found after the war.”

“Well, it describes the horrible experiments performed on the camp’s population,” that was enough to bring the Golem into the room as Sam spoke, “Magical experiments…”

“More horrible than words,” the Golem replied sobering the room more than it already was.

“You were there, weren’t you?” Sam asked as realization hit him, “At the camp?”

“I was made in the ghetto of Vitsyebsk to tear that hell down… I broke its walls, it’s men… The commandant burnt the place to ash around me.”

“So what does it mean when you tell Aaron to take charge?” Sam tried.

This seemed the wrong direction to take the conversation in, however, as an argument broke out between the golem and its would-be master.

Sam tried to go on talking about the case after the Golem had left the room in anger, having pieced together the purpose of the experiments.

“They we’re trying to kill and magically reanimate.. pretty much anybody they could…” Sam informed the two suddenly quiet men, “Trying to figure out a way to bring their own dead back to life. Which I’m guessing they figured out because this… this last page,“ he opened the book and turned it toward Aaron, “Is a roster of every dead Thule member who was reanimated.”

“This is why they killed my grandfather…” the other man asked.

“Anything in there on how to kill it?” Dean cut in, ready for action.

“Apparently they experimented with that too,” Sam confirmed, “Headshot… But you gotta burn the body within 12 hours or it reanimates again.”

“Nazi bastards,” Dean huffed as he sipped the steaming coffee in his hand and fished out his phone.

After a call to Garth and Charlie, their search was widened.

“Thule, yeah,” he spoke into the receiver, “T-H-U-L-E… okay, call me if you find anything…”

The information was all over the place though and sources weren’t consistent, leaving Dean feeling just as useless about this as he did about finding Cas.

It was almost at a blowing point when Sam was overheard talking about a way to shut down the Golem if he got out of hand.

“What makes you think you have the right?” Aaron asked from his place in the doorway.

“Believe me,” Dean closed the space between them, “If we need the right, we will take it.”

“Look, he may be a pain in the ass, but he’s my responsibility,” the other man stood his ground.

“The golem was built to go to war,” Sam tried to calm the men, “You’re not trained for that… How you gonna take that on?”

“I don’t know,” Aaron relinquished, receiving a nod from Dean in understanding, but the moment was quickly interrupted by the door being kicked in behind them.

The fight came and went, and Dean was finally able to get out some of his aggression with a few shots from his gun.

“You ok?” Dean asked Aaron as soon as the bodies fell.

“Yeah,” he nodded, mouth hung open in shock.

“Alright, let’s make sure these ass holes stay dead…” the eldest nodded to his brother, and they got to work.

It was dark by the time they finished, and the golem looked even creepier as they came in to find it still frozen in place.

“Well, now we know- paper beats golem and fire beats undead nazi zombie freaks,” Dean voiced as he moved passed the eerie figure.

“So, what do you say Aaron?” Sam added, “I mean, we got a place we can keep him…”

“No, I mean… Eckhart might be dead, but you heard him,” Aaron stared down at the scroll in his hands, “The Thule are still out there… hidden, active,” he sighed, a sudden weight on his shoulders that Dean could relate to easily.

Unrolling the scroll, a small gasp escaped his lungs and his fingers traced something within.

“That’s my grandfather…” the softness of his voice caused a ping in Dean’s heart as he thought of Henry, “He left me something important… Something only I can do…”

Dean nodded to him as their eyes met and the other man pulled out a pen from his coat pocket to scribble his name onto the scroll.

He wrapped it back up just as gently as he had withdrawn it and approached the golem purposefully.

He slipped it into the beast’s mouth, bringing life back into the being and was graced with a look of fondness from it.

“Looks like I’m the Judah Initiative now,” Aaron’s eyes rose to the creature’s own with a respect that had not been there before.

“Yifalchunbee,” the golem acknowledged.

“I thought I did,” his face turned in confusion.

“Yes,” the golem nodded proudly, pulling a smile to the man’s face.

“Well, you seem like you’ve got this covered,” Dean approached but was beaten to him by Sam.

He shook his hand and nodded to the Golem before walking through the front door.

“What you’re doing,” Dean took the man’s hand next, “Just my opinion, but you’re doing the right thing.”

“Thanks,” Aaron let out a held breath, “For everything really.”

“Hey, anytime,” he smiled and started for the door but the man’s voice gave him pause.

“I do, you know…” Aaron looked down at his hands before locking onto the green eyes that turned back to him.

“Do what?” Dean’s brow furrowed.

“Find you interesting,” he added.

“Yeah, you too,” a slight tug at the corner of the hunter’s mouth won out as he exited the house to join Sam.

“What are you grinning about?” he asked in amusement.

“I still got it,” he winked at him before dropping into the car, “Let’s get home.”

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waffles-for-brunch · 4 years ago

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This project began as an indirect response to a few negative tweets in the days following the Valentine's Day Destiel wedding. During such time that “certain sources” chose to speak against the impromptu "wedding" and state that the direction of the show never included sexuality or romance. Since this argument has sparked a bit of discourse as to the validity of Dean Winchester and Castiel's relationship and sexualities, I began this edit as an exploration of observations throughout the entire 15 season run of the series. (That's not to say that Sam does not also have his own impactful romances throughout the show -he does have several notable ones- but in his case they are never debated upon or erased.)

There are three complete edits linked below. The differences are explained in their descriptions. (I also recommend downloading for best quality rather than simply watching in the browser, but it’s your choice)

BiDeanEdit: (Click here to download)

Runtime: 18:04:44

File Size: 10.0 GB (10,741,415,805 bytes)

Series long compilation edit (in sequence) of Dean Winchester and Castiel’s relationships and intended expressions of their sexualities (ie interest in both genders). This edit focuses on their relationship as it develops with one another, their other notable relationships (DeanxBenny, CasxMeg, DeanxLisa, etc), and the framework around their sexualities with small scenes of expression (ie Dean in ‘Playthings’ or ‘Everybody Hates Hitler’, or early seasons Dean & his transgressions with women, or Cas in ‘Caged Heat’)

BiDeanMLMEdit: (Click here to download)

Runtime: 14:40:57

File Size: 8.05 GB (8,649,798,685 bytes)

Series long compilation edit (in sequence) of Dean Winchester and Castiel’s relationships and intended expressions of their sexualities. This one is the same as the last but with only MLM content (Otherwise referred to as ‘only the gay parts’). We focus on this more repressed side of their sexuality and see these clues laid out altogether in one fluid edit (these examples are also available in the previous edit, however are just not aligned beside any heterosexual content). DeanxCrowley, DeanxBenny, DeanxLee, DeanxCas, etc.

DestielOnlyEdit: (Click here to download)

Runtime: 13:08:49

File Size: 7.17 GB (7,709,560,696 bytes)

Series long compilation edit (in sequence) of only Destiel related content. The same as the above edit, just simplified even more to only focus on Dean and Cas’ relationship over the years.

Keep reading below to find my full analysis of the complete edit regarding these guys sexualities, relationships, and the parallels we can draw.

To understand why it is that so many queer fans of Supernatural and other similar shows read queerness in characters and their relationships, we should look at the hays code established in 1930. At this time this certain code was established to monitor what was allowed to be depicted outright on film. Within the margins of what was to be stifled, was homosexuality. As such, filmmakers had to plant “queer-coded” seeds into the writing and subtext so that queer audiences watching could interpret these characters and relationships in this manner without the words and actions stating so outright. (At this time homosexuality could be depicted on film as long as said gay character was either a villain, caricature, or met an untimely end- feeding into the blossoming of the kill-your-gays trope. But that’s another topic for a later time.)

As film changed over the years and times became more accepting of lgbt characters portrayals on screen outside of simple coding, this did not make the code obsolete. Queer-coding and queer-baiting are often used in media in present day as a way to pull in viewership. Networks are able to garner the best of both worlds, in a sense. They can draw in heterosexual audiences that may not want to watch queer media, whilst also drawing in queer audiences by coding some characters and relationships just enough to pull those viewers in. This works simply because there is such a lack of queer representation in most media that we’ll take what we can get.

This is where Supernatural comes in. There is a reason that Supernatural and thus “Destiel” is known by some as “The Great American Queerbait.” This twelve years long gay slow-burn between one overly masculine character and his awkward angel best friend did not begin with the intention of romance or baiting, as many of these things generally don’t. However, once fans realized the chemistry between these two particular actors and characters, it became something blatantly written into the show. Sometimes jokingly, other times as legitimate moments of emotional intimacy between two characters. So to say that the show’s direction never included sexuality or romance is, to put it bluntly, bullshit. Just because something is not written in clear and concise wording right in your face, does not mean that it is nonexistent and that the writers did not know what they were writing into the show. (Not even to mention the actual love confession in 15x18, but I digress).

We know very well that queer content has been written subtextually into media for the better part of seventy years. It is a language in media just as much as lighting is a language, just as much as certain camera angles, color design in costumes or set decor, and music design are languages. All of these, outside of the simple words said on screen, make up our media and these characters and our shows. Tv is a world of color, not black and white.

[[ further readings on the above topics: X X X X X ]]

I decided upon this full edit encompassing both the female and male aspects of Dean Winchester and Castiel’s relationships & sexualities because oftentimes when we’re looking into potentially queer characters we tend to focus on the same sex attraction and neglect the opposite sex attraction. Both are very important to acknowledge and compare, if at the very least to view where they may overcompensate, where toxic masculinity may come into play, compulsory heterosexuality, trauma responses, etc. Sometimes what a character doesn’t do is just as important to interpret as what they do do.

For instance, Dean Winchester. If we are to operate under the assumption that he is bisexual, any repression we witness throughout the series as to his male attraction is likely to be a result of his difficult upbringing, similar to most queer identifying people with childhood trauma. His father is a marine, the picture of manliness in which Dean himself blatantly embodies in an effort to impress and make his father proud in any way he can. Dean is already unlikely to seek out activities in any aspect of life of which might make John look at him in a different light (ie, in an every day setting, even simply watching Finding Dory- this is not something S1 Dean would have admitted to liking, but we see Dean in later seasons standing up for himself and his appreciation for it).

Is it perhaps for this reason that we see Dean as an overly blatant and flirty ladies man in season 1 when John is still alive, while this side of him steadily declines as the series continues? It even becomes established in season 3- in light of Dean’s fears surrounding going to Hell, he enters an attitude for coping that Sam recognizes- hypermasculinity, promiscuity, deflection. Heightening the idea that this caricature of himself that he embodies is a mask that he wears in order to cope with something else. He is donning the image he assumes others think he should fit into. Sam calls him out on this through the years, and eventually this becomes something we see in him less and less as he feels more comfortable simply being himself.

If we take into account the time of which this first season is filmed, this is 2005, a time where gay jokes were still funny and an overcompensating character was a joke attached to it. We see Dean built up in these first couple of seasons through this lens of jokes about a hyper-masculine character being mistaken for gay, however instead of this building up the masculinity to encourage a raging heterosexual characterization, this overcompensation is exactly what inadvertently sows the seeds of queer-coding. To queer watchers this reads as a deeply repressed character with childhood trauma who overcompensates when faced with observations of gayness and uses hypermasculinity to counteract these accusations.

It is through circumstances such as “Bugs” in S1 or “Playthings” in S2 that we first see these ‘jokes.’ The brothers are mistaken as a gay couple. Dean being the more “masculine’ of the two characters has a blatant reaction to these situations (Overcompensating), and Sam’s lack of a reaction is what solidifies his own straightness all the more. Neither brother is homophobic (this becomes established as time goes on) so why would either have a problem with this mistake? Sam wouldn’t care because he’s clearly not gay- in fact, he usually just laughs it off. Dean would care because he wonders what about him looks gay? Do other people see it too? Do they know? What’s wrong with him?

We also see another blatant example of this type of freakout in season 8. “Everybody Hates Hitler.”

(Images: “Playthings” S2xE11)

(Image below: S8 “Everybody Hates Hilter”)

We frame these situations in early seasons around girl of the week scenarios and brief bar flirtations. Have to make it clear that our manly straight character looks as manly and straight as possible. Dean is also in his 20s, he’s more carefree/not as traumatized yet, and he is a sexual man so he does sleep around quite a bit. What is notable, however, is how much this drops off in later seasons. As time goes on Dean seeks out less and less the fleeting encounters of one night stands, in favor of genuine connections- even if he himself frequently doubts his own ability to ever have a settle-down type of relationship or life. Lisa is the only long-term female romantic relationship Dean ever has throughout the series run, and this tentatively begins in season 5 and ends in season 6.

Dean and Lisa’s relationship is founded more in a dream of something that Dean wants to be rather than who he actually is. Although he loves her, their bond is made through trauma and their relationship overall is reminiscent of a soldier who returned home from war with heavy PTSD and begins to burden the family that he will come to realize he doesn’t quite fit within anymore.

Outside of this, his closest relationships from thereon out are between Benny, and Castiel.

Let’s start with Benny. Throughout season 8 Benny is framed as an ex and his relationship with Dean directly parallels Sam and Amelia’s. Both brothers must confront their relationships with their ‘significant others’ and decide whether to cut them off or proceed. Both brothers found these people under circumstances in which they did not get along with them at first but were pushed together. Another person comes in the middle of their relationship (Amelia’s husband for Sam, or Cas/Sam for Benny). The brothers each resent the other’s significant other or the circumstances surrounding the relationship. Sam hates Benny because he is a vampire and Sam does not understand why Dean continually trusts him (which is a circumstance inherently queer-coded in itself for comparability to an unaccepting family). Dean does not care for Amelia simply for the fact that Sam chose her over looking for him in purgatory.

Other instances we see parallels between Sam’s romances and Dean’s:

“Sex and Violence” S4 siren: Nick(Siren)/Dean parallel to Sam/Dr Lady

Season 4: Ruby/Sam and Cas/Dean teamup parallels

S1 Dean pulling Sam from the fire away from Jess vs S12 Sam pulling Dean away from Cas who may die approaching Lucifer to fight

Season 8: Dean/Benny vs Sam/Amelia. Dean and Benny, since they’re essentially going through a breakup, are directly paralleled to Sam and Amelia and their breakup. See “Larp and the Real Girl” for Charlie and Dean’s conversation about Sam’s recent breakup and Charlie picking up on the fact that Dean might also be going through one.

1x05 vs 8x07: Sam seeing Jessica on the sidewalk as they drive down the street vs Dean seeing Cas on the side of the road as he drives down the street

S11: Perhaps this one can be interpreted loosely and not necessarily romantic (esp on Sam’s end), but “O’ Brother Where Art Thou” both brothers are drawn to forces they actively fight against being drawn to. SamxLucifer and DeanxAmara.

S11: “Beyond the Mat” not a relationship but with crushes/infatuations. Dean with Gunner Lawless and Sam with Rio.

S15: Cas telling Dean that “We Are” real. vs Eileen being unsure what’s real and Sam kissing her and saying “I know that was real.”

S15: “The Trap” Dean loses all hope following the death of their friends and primarily Cas. Sam loses hope after Eileen’s death. Directly paralleled in the episode. (We also see Sam lose Eileen in 15x18, where Dean also loses Cas)

Additional parallels between Dean/Cas with anyone else:

Season 9/10: Cain/Colette vs Dean/Cas. “She only asked for one thing. To stop.” vs Cas asking Dean to “Stop”. Both circumstances referring to the Mark of Cain.

S12 “Lily Sunder Has Some Regrets” Lily (human)/Isham (angel) vs Dean (human)/ Cas (angel)

Led Zeppelin: This music means something within John/Mary’s relationship, which Dean directly acknowledges in 12x01 with Mary. We find out Dean has gifted Cas a mixtape of his “Top 13 Zepp Traxx” in 12x19. (the implications of Dean having made a mixtape for Cas, being its own point in a different discussion)

When Lucifer contacts a person to try and get them to open up to him, he uses their dead lover as a ploy. SamxJess, NickxSarah, VincexJen, DeanxCas - 15x19 when Lucifer calls Dean using Cas’ voice.

The parallels of unreciprocated love/infatuation. DeanxCrowley and CasxHannah. Dean likes Crowley but clearly not the way that Crowley likes Dean. Cas likes Hannah like a friend or sister, but she keeps putting the moves on him for awhile and he appears deeply uncomfortable and has to shoot her down more than once.

Parallels between Dean’s own relationships:

Dean in “Let it Bleed” torturing demons to find the location of Lisa and Ben vs Dean in Purgatory torturing monsters to find the location of Cas “The angel”

“The Rapture” opens in Dean’s dream which Cas visits and says he’s in trouble and gives Dean an address to go to immediately. “The Song Remains The Same” opens in Dean’s dream which Anna visits and says she’s in trouble and gives Dean an address to go to immediately.

S6 Dean dodging calls from Lisa vs S12 Dean dodging Cas at the beginning of “Lily Sunder Has Some Regrets” (notable also how Sam treats both circumstances the same)

S11: “Into the Mystic” 11x11 Mildred tells Dean the key to living a long and happy life is to follow your heart. Later in the season “All in the Family” 11x21 When Casifer is still captured by Amara, she puts her hand to Cas’ heart and is able to connect with Dean to contact him. Hinting at the link between Cas and Dean’s “hearts.”

Not necessarily a parallel but an observation. 7x01 when Cas is loaded up on God juice, and Dean has given up but Sam hasn’t and wants to talk to ‘the guy’, Dean says, “He’s not a guy, he’s God.” But in 11x18 Dean refuses to give up on Cas and let him continue to be possessed. Sam keeps speaking about Cas like he’s just a vessel and Dean says, “It? It’s not an it, Sam. It’s Cas.” Mostly this shows the development of their relationship and Dean’s willingness to continue to fight for him.

Dean’s dream world with Pamela in S14, she says to Dean “How come you only want what you can’t have?” and in S15 during Cas’ confession scene he says to Dean, “The one thing I want, is something I know I can’t have.”

Before we delve into Dean and Castiel specifically, let’s explore a few more things regarding Dean.

Let’s start with Cassie. This is Dean’s first romantic relationship we see on the show, and is arguably his first love. What is notable about her is her characterization and Dean in relation to her. We haven’t seen him in a relationship before, and thus this is the baseline to which we can draw how he is in this type of vulnerable state.

We see here that he is drawn to strong individuals. Cassie is a very strong willed character and can hold her own. She has a boldness about her. Dean appreciates that. We see similar in his next framed love interest: Jo Harvelle. Jo is another strong character, and though Dean sees her more as someone he needs to protect because she doesn’t have as much experience under her belt, he respects her intellect and strong will all the same. They connect through a love for hunting and mutual daddy issues. Personally, this is a relationship I view more as a little sister dynamic in a similar vein to Dean and Charlie, however this pairing is still worth noting because as it was written it was intended to potentially flourish into a romantic relationship. This did not pan out, though the seeds are still there.

Next up is Anna. Again daddy issues are a solid connection these two hold, and while this relationship is more of a one-night-stand than anything else, there are still important points to be taken from this encounter. The first is just how much Dean cares. We don’t see very many sex scenes with Dean throughout the series, but of the ones we do see, it is apparent that he is a gentle and tender man. He cares. About even a single night with a woman. (Cassie, Anna, Lydia ’The Slice Girls”) This is a contrast to Dean’s general persona of the masculine straight promiscuous lady’s man. He has all the bravado of a man who ‘loves em and leaves em’, but in reality that is not who he is. This is another example of the faces Dean wears in front of certain people (and what he thinks they expect of him), and the person he is once he lets that mask fall.

It may be important to note as well that Anna, (it is rumored) was originally meant to be more to Dean than this simple one night stand and connection. She was intended to become a romantic interest but, as it turned out, Dean and Cas had more chemistry so the arc that Anna was meant to follow was instead given to Castiel.

It is another year until the apocalypse comes along, Sam dies, and Dean falls back into Lisa’s lap. While Lisa is another strong-willed woman who rolls with the punches, her lifestyle deviates from Dean’s usual romantic interests simply because of her offering of a normal life outside of everything he’s usually known. A life with her is dipping his toe into a life he could have had if he didn’t hold the weight of the world on his shoulders and hunt the things that go bump in the night.

This is Dean’s last “official” relationship of the series. After putting Lisa and Ben in danger by being someone that he cares about, Dean accepts that he’s simply not a guy that can have a normal life or a normal family. He cares about people and they get hurt. This is a weight he holds on his shoulders for the remainder of the show. He loves someone, or more accurately, they love him, and they’ll get hurt. End of story. It doesn’t help that immediately following this, Castiel “dies” too.

Maybe it’s Lisa, maybe it’s Cas. Maybe it’s a combination of the two at this point in time, but Dean is never again the same when it comes to relationships after these events at the end of season 6. He becomes more cautious, tries to keep people an arm’s length away, and we even begin to see less and less promiscuity and flirting with miscellaneous women from this point on.

Let’s talk about Castiel.

Although Dean has had various queer-coded moments throughout the beginning of the series and up to Castiel’s entrance in season 4, his minimal relationships up to this point have all been with women. Simply exploring the evolution of this relationship from Dean’s side of the picture, Dean doesn’t start to truly warm up to Castiel until perhaps the end of season 4. He begins the season unsure of the angel, perhaps even a bit afraid of him, before the two garner a sort of mutual respect as Dean begins to see that there’s more to him than simply an agent of heaven.

They’re friends in season 5. The quirky, strange angel that doesn’t understand social cues, stands too close, stares too much, and says things like “we’re making it up as we go” and “tonight you’re my little bitch.” He’s a far cry from the ethereal entity that showed up in Bobby’s kitchen just a year ago and threatened to toss Dean back into Hell. What really turns the curve, however, is “The End.”

5 years in the future in the midst of an apocalyptic war, Cas is still around. He’s human and he’s stuck by Dean’s side through it all, even though this Dean is just a shadow of his former self. Then again, so is this Cas. But still, they stuck together. Dean isn’t used to that. He has very few people that have stuck by him for this many years. Could probably count them all on one hand at this point. Bobby and Sam at the top of the list. Everyone else either dies or leaves. And in this future, Bobby and Sam are dead, but Cas is still there.

Dean has abandonment issues. His mother died when he was four, his dad was in and out emotionally and physically his entire upbringing, Sam left for Stanford the first chance he got. He’s got strings of dead friends and lost relationships surely in tow for years at this point, and half the time Dean has become accustomed to pushing people away before they have a chance to push him away first. (Ie Cassie, Lisa, often even Sam too at times). Cas won’t make these issues any better during their run together, but up to this point Cas hasn’t let him down. The simple fact that in this one future universe Cas had stuck by him, I’m sure that makes a big difference to Dean and actually may be imperative for their relationship going forward and the trust that forms between them.

Something that becomes a large part of their relationship is Cas and Dean’s ability to have conversations with just their eyes. This is a shorthand that Dean is known to have with Sam on occasion, especially during times of combat. It takes a certain amount of intimacy and knowledge of the other person to be able to have a shorthand like this. The first instance we see this between them is quite possibly “It’s the Great Pumpkin, Sam Winchester,” when Dean convinces Cas that they can save the town. We see it again in the ‘beautiful room’ when Cas slams Dean up against the wall and Dean seems to understand what’s happening. Another instance, “The Song Remains the Same.” In a way, it’s a locking of eyes that just seems to say “trust me,” and they do.

Sam wonders if Anna may be right. If killing him and scattering the pieces will stop this whole Lucifer vessel business. Sam asks Cas, Cas looks to Dean, they share a look, and Cas shuts Sam down. In all likelihood that plan could have worked, but Cas wouldn’t do that Dean. He wouldn’t do it to Sam either but at this point he’ll do anything at all for Dean.

If we take a moment to consider Dean and Cas’ relationship here, it is unlike any of Dean’s previous ones. Dean never has this same kind of shorthand with any of his other relationships, save for possibly Benny to a certain extent. Cas is an odd guy, and Dean frequently describes him as such, but he finds it endearing (if “Free to be You and Me” is any indication this early in their relationship). The previous women in his life all had the same thing in common, that they’re strong willed, brave, and don’t put up with Dean’s shit when he’s being a shit. Cas does fit all this criteria, but he’s also someone that Dean has a hard time reading. Cas is so literal sometimes that Dean can’t tell what’s literal, what’s deadpan, and what’s just Cas’ personality as an angel. But at the end of the day, simply put, he likes him and he trusts him. Getting Dean Winchester’s full trust as quickly as Cas gets it is an anomaly all on its own.

Dean’s female relationships are fairly surface level. They’re easy and fairly uncomplicated. Boy likes girl, girl likes boy. Girl gets mad at boy, relationship ends. Easy. Expected. His relationship with Cas isn’t easy. But the big endgame relationships seldom are. There’s blood, loss of trust, rebuilding, and there’s a pull that at the end of the day always brings them back to one another no matter how incredibly messy things get.

And boy do things get messy. If we touch back into the end of season 6 where things end with Lisa and blow up with Cas, Dean is at an all time low in the relationship department.

Dean takes Cas’ betrayal hard. Breakups are one thing. Leaving Lisa was expected. It was bound to happen eventually. Dean always knew that somewhere inside. He mourns leaving them, but knows it’s for the best. But with Cas’ betrayal at working with Crowley, he’s devastated all over again.

Dean never expects his relationships to last forever, but again there’s a choice few people in his life he lets take up space on the list of those who might stick around. Bobby, Sam, Cas. I don’t think Lisa was ever on this list, as much as Dean wishes he could tell himself she and Ben were. But they weren’t. That relationship was a ticking time bomb. And when they nearly die because of his life and the creatures surrounding him every day, that’s the end of it.

Fast forward, season 7 is a time of mourning. He’s lost Lisa and Ben, he gets Cas back for all of 30 minutes before losing him all over again and never being able to repair that relationship. But he keeps the trenchcoat. Fishes it out of the lake, bundles it up, and keeps it in the back of every single car that he and Sam drive that year.

Dean doesn’t keep mementos. Not of Cassie, not of Jo, Not of Anna, or even Lisa and Ben. No pictures, no items, just memories. You know what he does keep? He keeps his dad’s leather jacket, Bobby’s flask, pictures of he and Sam and his mom. Is keeping the trenchcoat in the back of the car for a year similar to those familial keepsakes? Maybe. But it’s also more than that. It’s covered in blood and lake water, and I’m sure Dean would explain it away that Cas was family and that’s why he kept the coat. Probably even believes that too.

Then we have purgatory.

Dean prays to Cas every night. He could get out of that place just on his own, but he stays there for months in full combat just to look for the angel and get him out with him.

“First we find the angel”

“Cas, we’re gettin’ out of here. We’re going home.”

“Cas, buddy, I need you.”

“Let me bottom line it for you. I’m not leaving here without you. Understand?”

“Cas, we’re gonna shove your ass back through the eye of that needle if it kills all three of us.”

“It’s gonna work. Nobody gets left behind.”

When we meet Benny, Dean’s only other primary male pairing of consequence, he is not trusted. This team-up is one of strategy and a mutual goal only- at least at first. Dean and Benny fight well side by side, but the trust only runs so far. That is, until during one particular fight with leviathans in which Cas nearly bites it, Benny saves the angel’s life. This is the main turning point for Dean’s entire trust in Benny from here on out.

“Benny has never let me down.” Dean says later to Sam. And he never did. He saved Cas, got Dean out of purgatory, and then later on he gets himself sent back to purgatory just so he can help Dean’s brother get out of there.

Dean and Benny’s relationship was “pure” in purgatory. They didn’t have to worry as much about the fact that Benny was a vampire and Dean was a hunter, they were just brothers in arms who earned one another’s trust, respect and love. There’s no way you let a man kill you and send you to purgatory to save his brother if you don’t love him.

Their relationship once they broke out of purgatory is where things began to sour, not because of anything either of them did to the other, but more the space they let grow. Regular Earth was different from purgatory and these men had to go back to their roles and say sayonara. “What happened in purgatory stayed in purgatory” and all that. Benny was a vampire and Dean was a hunter. That kind of thing mattered here despite the fact that they did care for one another.

Dean and Benny’s tumultuous relationship in relation to the people in Dean’s life could be reminiscent of a queer experience in itself. A lack of acceptance from Sam, Bobby, Martin- Dean’s family. Not because of who Benny was, but what he was. Pair this with the already established fact that Amelia and Sam were a direct parallel to Dean and Benny, Season 8 has been one of the most blatantly queer-coded seasons as of yet.

Which brings us to “Goodbye Stranger.” It is established early on this season that Dean feels that there’s something wrong with Cas, something off about him. The fact that they don’t know how he popped out of purgatory is just one part of it. It’s in the way he acts, how spacey he is, the fact that he doesn’t answer Dean’s prayers. “I always come when you call.” Cas once said. And he did. Until now.

This is another aspect of their relationship which is simply there and not spoken about much- similar to their staring and eye communication thing they do. Dean started their relationship unable to read all of Cas’ quirks very well and unsure of the guy. Now, he’s fluent in the language of Cas. He knows by tone of voice, by shiftiness, by his expressions- when something is up. Maybe he started paying more attention after the whole Rafael situation until he could read Cas like the back of his hand, or maybe he just started paying attention just to pay attention.

He’s known something is wrong for months while Cas has been under Naomi’s control. Just the same as years later, he knows something is up when Lucifer is taking a ride in Cas’ body. And he knows in 12x15 just by the way Cas speaks on the phone that something is off with him.

They come upon the angel tablet in the crypt, and Dean does fight back when Cas starts in on him, but he spends even more energy trying to get Cas to come back to him and fight whatever force has him under control. He never once stopped to think that this was just Cas. “This isn’t you! Fight this!” Dean would repeat over and over as Cas beats him nearly to death.

There was a moment he certainly thought that Cas would kill him, and it seemed like he was more bothered by the fact that it was Cas that would do it more so than the thought of dying.

Cas breaks through the mind control, heals Dean. Then he leaves. So, again, Cas leaves. He keeps doing that to Dean. I stated before that Dean’s abandonment issues come into play in this relationship, but unlike at the beginning where Dean saw a future that Cas stays in, this Cas keeps coming and going. This makes it difficult for Dean to trust him fully, to rely on him. But the fact of the matter is that he does still trust him completely, and that’s what bothers Dean.

When Cas does come back again, collapsed and bloody in the middle of the street, Dean puts up a wall. He’s hurt and he’s tired. He doesn’t want to trust him as much as he does and he definitely doesn’t want him to keep coming and going without a thought. (What’s interesting to note here, though, is Dean’s change in character as this occurs through the years. Because while here he may simply give Cas the cold shoulder and not talk much about his hurt in this situation, we see later on in 12x19 after Dean has been fretting for days about where Cas has gone off to, and Cas finally does return, he voices his side of things. “With everything that’s going on, you can’t just go dark like that. We didn’t know what happened to you. We were worried, that’s not okay.”)

Naomi hits the nail on the head when she visits Dean after Castiel disappears and she notices Dean still hasn’t warded the boat against angels. It is moments like these that we realize just how much everyone else around these two also notice their chemistry and their deep devotion to one another, always seeming to fall back to one another.

“I think you have me confused with the other angel. You know, the one in the dirty trenchcoat who’s in love with you.” - Balthazar S6

“The stench of that impala is all over your overcoat, angel.” - Crowley S6

“Castiel? Oh, he’s not here. See, he has this weakness. He likes you.” -Uriel S4

(to Dean) “Go ask him, he was your boyfriend first.” - Meg S7

“I have tiptoed through all your little tulips. Your memories, your little feelings, yes. I know what you hate. I know who you love, what you fear.” - The Empty S13

“And then after a rousing speech, his true weakness is revealed. He’s in love... with humanity.” - Metatron S9

“I’m sorry, did you just say that you lost a Winchester? Because, one, that’s... interesting. And, two, how is it that you lost Dean? I thought the two of you were joined at the... you know, everything.” - Kipling S14

“And for what again? Oh, that’s right, to save Dean Winchester. That was your goal, right? I mean, you drape yourself in the flag of heaven, but ultimately, it was about saving one human, right? Well, guess what? He’s dead, too.” - Metatron S9

“Don’t lose it all over one man.” - Hannah S9

“The very touch of you corrupts. When Castiel first laid a hand on you in Hell he was lost!” - Hester S7

“Oh, sweet. Almost anything. Castiel? He’s dead. All the way dead. Because of you.” - Miriam S13

“And then you’d kill the angel, Castiel. Now that one, that I suspect would hurt something awful.” - Cain S10

“He should know this- Lucifer, his favorite, isn’t doing so well. Say nothing of the vessel, your friend Castiel.” - Amara S11

“I’m gonna cure you of your human weakness, the same way I cured my own. By cutting it out.” - Isham S12

Bonus: Dean to Sam about Garth’s baby Castiel- Dean: “This Cas keeps looking at me weird.” Sam: “So kinda like the real Cas.”

It is time and again that opposing forces recognize the relationship between Dean and Castiel, and it’s commented on and used against them frequently.

As we move forward to the angels falling and human Castiel, this season opens up with dean in the hospital with a very ill Sam. The first thing he does before contacting anyone else is pray to Castiel. There’s a moment in 9x03 where Castiel walks into a church and speaks with a woman there. He expresses his lack of faith and she says, “I guess that’s why we pray. You need something stronger than yourself.” Dean never prayed until he started praying to Cas. He prayed to Cas during the apocalypse, in purgatory, when Sam was sick during the trials, now in this hospital. Dean might not have faith in God, but he does in Cas.

Castiel is human, and while Dean tears apart the grid trying to find him while angels are on Cas’ ass, he still watches him die, then has to kick him from the safety of the bunker the very same day. Up until this point, Cas has been a genuine part of their family regardless of their squabbles over the past months, but kicking him from the bunker damages that. Once the reasoning comes to light, however, Cas is forgiving immediately. He’d forgiven Dean even before that. That’s one thing about Cas that Dean never seems to get over either. Dean can get angry and take things out on him, kick him from the bunker, make stupid decisions and nearly kill himself, holler at him, blame him, but Cas comes back every time. He forgives him every time. It’s already overwhelming when Sam does this, but the ease at which Castiel consistently forgives Dean is a lot.

Dean gets the Mark of Cain. It’s a means to an end, he says. When he becomes a demon as a result, this is when his relationship with Crowley is deepened. This relationship is an interesting one because it’s essentially an unrequited example. Dean likes Crowley, and when he’s a demon he has a good time, but Crowley’s feelings appear to go much deeper- even if he tries not to show it.

It is very possible that Dean and Crowley’s relationship is a formation more as a result of a joke than anything else- where the writers are concerned. But whether that was the intention or not, this is a relationship that continues to affect Crowley’s actions towards Dean for the rest of the series. He doesn’t let Dean kill innocents as he’s a demon, he saves Castiel from certain death as his grace drains, he gives Sam the information to find Dean so he can be cured, and he aids in getting the mark removed from Dean even as Sam attempts to kill him in the process. In return, Dean gives Crowley the benefit of the doubt more often, and they share a sort of mutual respect. What differs here, however, from Dean’s relationships with Benny or Castiel, is Dean’s actions. It is clear that Dean doesn’t feel as deeply as Crowley does, so this is an interesting relationship to compare side by side with the others.

Not only this, but DeanxCrowley in these first few episodes can be seen as a parallel with CasxHannah. Two unreciprocated relationships which do not last long in this particular phase, but do result in a friendship within these pairings as time goes on.

Still with the Mark of Cain, Dean and Cain have a few things in common. Cain had said that his wife, Colette, before she died had asked him to stop. Stop the killing. It’s several months after that that Dean is going off the rails and Cas, behind Dean as he’s walking away, asks Dean to stop. He nearly kills Cas then, almost fulfilling Cain’s words just weeks earlier: “And then you’ll kill the angel, Castiel. And that, I suspect, would hurt something awful.” This is a direct romantic parallel written into the show.

When the darkness is released, Amara and Dean are immediately drawn to one another through some sort of connection as a remnant of the mark. This relationship is another interesting one, because it ties in to true desire and consent. Dean is drawn to her, yes, and she is sold as a sort of potential love interest this season, but Dean himself doesn’t want anything to do with her. He’s hypnotized when he’s around her, but as soon as he’s away this energy dissipates.

So in light of this storyline let’s talk about consent and the sexualization of Dean Winchester for a second, shall we?

Dean is an often highly sexualized individual. He plays along more in his younger days, but the older he gets the more frustrated he becomes with the whole situation. I’m sure there are more but here are some tentative examples (This is also something that happens to Sam a decent amount as well.):

Wendy at the psych ward in “Sam, Interrupted” kisses Dean

Pamela touching Dean’s inner thigh in “Lazarus Rising”

Ezra in “Time After Time” kisses Dean without consent

Gets turned into a vampire because he’s “pretty”

Pamela in “Dark Side of the Moon” kisses Dean

Almost becomes a vessel for Sandy’s mate in “The Thing” because she “enjoys looking at his face”

Amara kisses Dean in “O’ Brother Where Art Thou”

Mildred gropes Dean’s leg in “Into the Mystic” and continually makes advances even tho he’s uncomfortable.

Random girl slaps Dean’s ass in “The Last Call”

Ellie in S8 wants to sleep with Dean and even kisses him randomly

Meg kisses Dean as he’s being held against his will in “Sympathy for the Devil”

Granted, there aren’t a plethora of examples, but it’s still a lot and it is interesting to see how often Dean has been sexualized for someone else’s pleasure. It is bound to work into his characterization as well, and his sense of self-worth. He’s often described as the pretty one of the brothers, and seeing as he is the more promiscuous of the two, it is assumed that he welcomes all of or most of the attention that comes his way.

It is for this reason in particular that the situation with Amara is bothersome to me. Not only is Dean taken advantage of physically, but his mind is essentially hypnotized whenever she is near, not giving him total control over his actions or desires. Amara is in part meant to be sold as a romantic interest, but throughout the season Dean continually expresses his discontent. He’s even ashamed to admit these feelings to Sam and Cas, even though he knows it isn’t his fault he still feels responsible. (Which, if we think about it, this is could be a queer allegory too. The lack of choice, feeling shame, etc.)

What is notable, however, is the day that they attempt to capture Lucifer and speak to Cas to get him to expel Lucifer from his body. Amara makes a surprise appearance and captures Lucifer/Cas herself. Dean yells to Cas. This catches Amara’s attention and appears to confuse her, and even Lucifer, seeing as when Dean is around her he’s meant to have eyes for just her because of their “bond”. His link to Castiel appears to be stronger, however.

Amara uses this connection between Cas and Dean when she wishes to contact Dean, simply by placing her hand over Castiel’s heart. She says to Dean, “If you should cross paths, if (god) should reach out to you, he should know this - Lucifer, his favorite, isn’t doing so well. Say nothing of the vessel, your friend Castiel.”

If we backtrack a moment, Dean finding out that Castiel is possessed in the first place is a very emotional time for Dean. He doesn’t want to accept that Cas would make such a decision, put himself in that kind of danger, and choose to leave once again. Sam, the arguably more rational thinker at this current time, tries to rationalize that Cas may not come back willingly since he chose to let Lucifer in. “Not possible.” Dean says. It’s simply not possible that Cas doesn’t want to come back to them. It’s not something he can accept.

The next several episodes are begun with Dean either losing sleep trying to figure out what to do about Cas, or simply moping about. Sam has to comfort him each time. This is notable behavior as well, because Dean isn’t often one to wear his heart on his sleeve this frequently. Certainly he has his moments, but much of the time when he’s distressed he simply buries it all down and puts up a front. He doesn’t do that here. In fact, once they do begin to put together a plan with Crowley, Sam thinks they should still utilize Lucifer in the fight against Amara but thinks it’s foolish to move him into a new vessel.

((I actually counted up the mopey Dean scenes- between finding out Cas is possessed, to getting Cas back.))

There are four convos with Sam (multiple episodes) where Sam has to comfort Dean and say something along the lines of “we’ll get him back.” (Just as an aside, I don’t think there has ever been a scene in the series where Dean comforted Sam about Cas, it’s always Sam having to comfort a freaking out Dean)

Then, of course, there’s the scene where Dean comforts a victim and she says “I watched the man I love die. There’s no normal after that.”

There’s the “It’s not an ‘it,’ Sam. It’s Cas.” scene.

There’s Dean trying to get through to Cas when they capture Lucifer.

There’s the Dean yelling “Cas?” to Casifer when Amara is in the room.

There’s two more scenes where Sam comforts Dean again.

There’s “The Chitters” episode with the gay hunter couple. (This isn’t a direct relation, but more of an honorable mention because it seems abstractly relevant)

Amara connecting to Dean through Cas’ heart.

Dean freaking out about making it to Cas in time and again talking to Sam about it.

Dean asking “what about Cas?” as they’re planning the attack with God against Amara.

Someone has said once that you can tell that Dean is in love with Cas because Sam isn’t. It’s in moments like this that this becomes readily apparent. Yes, Sam cares about Cas, of course. But it’s just different than the way that Dean cares about Cas. When Dean cares about certain people, this love weaves into the very fabric of his being and he just feels it so completely and overwhelmingly, he can’t simply not fight for it.

“Dean, it’s a strong vessel, it’s held Cas for years, and we know what he’s been through.” Sam says.

“It? It’s not an ‘it,’ Sam. It’s Cas.”

Dean appears almost shocked that these words would pass through Sam’s mouth. He’s confused that Sam wouldn’t fight for Cas just as much as Dean would. The type of love they each have for the angel is just different. Visually, action-wise, reaction-wise. This conversation in “Hell’s Angel” highlights that.

You know what else highlights it? The fact that when they do trap Lucifer, it’s only Dean who gets through to Cas and talks to him to get him to come back and expel Lucifer. It’s Cas only seeking Dean’s forgiveness in S7 when putting the souls back in Purgatory. It’s Dean in S6 being the only one to defend Cas in “The Man Who Would Be King.” It’s Dean later in that same episode being the one to get through to Cas in the circle of holy fire. It’s “I did it, all of it, for you.” It’s Dean carrying around that trenchcoat for a year and mourning when Sam doesn’t. It’s Bobby checking in on Dean mourning Cas, but doesn’t check in with Sam about it. It’s Sam pulling Dean out of the apocalypse world in season 12 as Dean screams for Cas and physically fights against Sam to get to Cas. It’s Sam seeing Cas dead on the ground minutes later, but still able to walk away while Dean is frozen in place, frozen in shock. It’s Dean being the only one to wrap up Cas’ dead body. It’s Sam always having to reassure Dean that Cas is probably fine, whenever he goes missing for a little while. It’s Dean hardly able to function in S13 with this encompassing grief over Cas’ death and yelling “It got him dead! Now you might be able to forget about that, but I can’t.” It’s S15 when Rowena tells Dean and Cas to fix their quarrel before it’s too late, and later Dean in purgatory not sure of it is too late as he’s praying for Cas to be okay and crying against a tree.

Sam’s reactions are important to take into account. Sam cares, yes, but Cas isn’t as wholly encompassing in his life as he is in Dean’s. If anything else is to prove that, it’s the way that Dean grieves (I mean, if you were to put Sam in Dean’s place in 15x09 in Purgatory and their fight, there’s no way that Sam would react this extremely).

There are three different points to highlight Dean’s grief. The first is season 7 with the trenchcoat, which we’ve already talked about. The second is when Cas is possessed by Lucifer, which we have covered as well. The most damning, however, is Dean’s season 13 grief arc following Cas’ death. Dean also loses his mother during this time and a few other friends, but considering how he reacts when Cas comes back, a great amount of this grief has to do with Cas. Dean completely loses hope and faith in anything at all during this time. He hates Jack for giving Cas false hope and getting him killed. He doesn’t believe in their mission anymore. He doesn’t believe anything matters at all. “Right now, I don’t believe in a damn thing.” Dean admits to Sam. When Cas comes back from the dead, however, he pulls a complete 180. He has hope again. He has faith. And all of it begins with Cas.

Lastly, Dean never hooks up with anyone again after Castiel’s final resurrection. We can go through an outline of the steady decline of Dean’s hookups and relations outside of Cas as the decade goes, but during this three year window specifically, Dean’s only pairing is Cas. Sure, he might flirt with someone every now and again, but this never goes anywhere. (Arguably the person he flirts with the most in any episode in these final three seasons is Daphne, but idk if that even counts much considering she is a cartoon.) And as Pamela says once in Rocky’s bar: “Besides, you don’t want me. You just like to flirt. I’m psychic so I kinda know.” And that was just in Dean’s head anyways so it’s probably even more true than had Pamela actually said it herself.

When Jack comes in the picture in season 13, and Castiel comes back from the dead, this makeshift little family is formed. All three men act as father figures to this half-angel kid at different capacities, and amongst this dynamic another is formed a bit further between Dean and Cas. They’ve already been acting a bit as an old married couple in recent years (Lily Sunder Has Some Regrets, anyone?) but this co-parenting scenario they’ve found themselves in has solidified this dynamic all the more as they collaborate on the issues that arise with Jack. In “Lebanon” when John Winchester comes back for a brief period, John even says to Dean that he’d hoped he would get a family someday and get out of hunting and such. Dean replies, “I have a family.” Sam, Cas, and Jack are his family. Cas has been family for a long time, but here and now Dean just isn’t looking for anything else or anything normal. He’s happy with himself and the people he’s surrounded by. He’s not looking for anything else or anyone else.

For a change of perspective, let’s check out Castiel’s relationships over the years.

Unlike Dean, Castiel’s queerness and interest in Dean has been officially canonized. We can speculate all we want on the legitimacy of Dean’s love for Cas, but we can speak in certainties about Castiel. Castiel is in love with Dean Winchester. Speculation can come in when we consider, just how long has this love existed for him? Let’s start from the beginning.

Right off the bat when we meet Castiel, he’s a semi-emotionless soldier of heaven who works under strict orders and doesn’t have much free-will. Dean begins to change this. We can see even in their first couple encounters that Castiel is interested in Dean- in what he has to say, intrigue in the fact that Dean talks back to the angels (despite that these angels are unkillable beings and could smite him on the spot), the fact that he’s snarky and brave and questions everything. Where Uriel finds Dean annoying and blasphemous, Castiel finds the back-talk fascinating. Dean’s words impact Cas, and it’s not long before he starts to have doubts about Heaven. Following these orders blindly and unquestioningly starts to seem foolish when Dean puts things in a different perspective.

Even after Cas undergoes what some have funnily dubbed “conversion therapy” in “The Rapture” (when Cas had finally decided on going against Heaven and to help Dean stop the apocalypse) it’s still not enough to stop him completely. A bit more time with Dean and he’s convinced yet again to help this one human man stop the apocalypse with his brother. He even dies for him and this new mission of his.

Castiel throughout this first season is interesting because we see firsthand his struggle to understand beginning to feel emotions and accept thinking for himself. “For the first time, I feel...” He says to Anna. He wants her to tell him what to do. He wants orders because that’s all he knows, and he doesn’t understand why suddenly he cares. It hurts him to send Dean in to torture Alastair. It hurts him even later when in the beautiful room Dean dismisses him with a “What do you care, you’re already dead. We’re done.”

It’s possible that in these first several months, or even these first couple seasons, that Castiel follows Dean around and does as he asks because he’s allotted Dean as the new being he serves. Because serving is what he knows. But it’s also through this that he begins caring more and more. He learns more how to express certain emotions, he learns more about humanity, he learns more about what is important in life and what is worth fighting for. As Cas will admit himself 12 years later, “Ever since we met, ever since I pulled you out of Hell... Knowing you has changed me. Because you cared, I cared. I cared about you. I cared about Sam. I cared about Jack... I cared about the whole world because of you.”

We start to see sprinkles of this especially throughout season 5 as Cas begins to come to terms with caring and adopting Dean’s mindset to care. Consider Sam for a moment. He and Cas don’t necessarily get along a lot and mostly just tolerate one another in these early days. However, as we see in “Abandon All Hope” when Castiel is captured by Lucifer, Cas gets visually upset at the concept of Lucifer taking Sam as his vessel. “You are not taking Sam Winchester. I won’t let you.”

Sam and Cas don’t have much of a relationship at this point, but Cas cares because Dean does. In “The Song Remains the Same” not long later, he even refers to Sam as his friend.

By the time S6 rolls around Castiel is in the midst of a civil war in heaven entirely because he has adopted the Winchester’s all encompassing mindset on the importance of free-will. Castiel is making his own choices, and he does everything he can to protect the Winchesters from harm as he does so. He decides not to seek out Dean’s help while he’s raking leaves because Dean had already sacrificed too much in Castiel’s eyes. He raises Sam from perdition because he feels it the right thing to do. He re-sinks the Titanic to keep the boys from being killed by Fate.

Personally, I think Castiel has been slowly falling in love with Dean this entire time, he’s just not aware what this feeling is. But this becomes even more plausible to me when we get Castiel’s perspective in “The Man Who Would Be King.” Cas cares what Bobby and Sam think of him, sure, but all he focuses on is Dean. Dean’s happiness and ensuring he not sacrifice more. Dean’s loyalty even as Cas seems to be guilty. Dean’s words when they capture Cas in holy fire.

The problem is, their relationship this season is also rocky. Cas seems to think that he’s merely a tool at the Winchester’s disposal and not much else. But he doesn’t mind because he cares about them so much, so what do his feelings matter? He sees himself as their protector. Their guardian angel. A role he’s fine with filling regardless of how they feel in return.

But when things get bad, Dean says to him “Next to Sam, you and Bobby are the closest things I have to family. You are like a brother to me. So if I’m asking you not to do something... You’ve gotta trust me, man.” and Cas seems genuinely surprised at this admission. Emotional, even.

As time goes on, Castiel’s actions nearly primarily revolve around Dean

After Cas realizes his error and is sending the purgatory souls back to their place, he tells Dean repeatedly that he’ll find some way to redeem himself to him. That’s the most important thing to him then.

When Cas smites the demons outside of the mental hospital in 7x17, all of his flashes of memories coming back were memories of Dean.

Partially to aid Sam and partially to redeem himself to Dean, Cas takes on Sam’s Hell brain in the asylum and goes crazy.

Cas runs in purgatory to keep the leviathans away from Dean.

Cas breaks out of Naomi’s mind control/brainwashing because of his feelings for Dean.

Let’s talk about that final bullet point for a moment. The Naomi chapter is damning in “Goodbye Stranger.” It isn’t copies of both Sam and Dean that Naomi trains Castiel to kill hundreds upon hundreds of times. No, it’s ONLY clones of Dean.

“What broke the connection?” Dean will ask after Castiel heals him in the crypt and takes control back over his mind. “I don’t know.” Cas will say. It wasn’t the angel tablet. That may have unwound the last of Naomi’s control over him, yes, but he’d dropped that angel blade before that. It was Dean that broke that connection. Even if this remains unsaid, it doesn’t make it any less true. Maybe Castiel starts to have an understanding of what his feelings are and what they mean here, but he won’t be truly sure until he soon becomes human.

Before we get there, though, we’ll take a brief pause to explore Cas’ heterosexual explorations and connections.

First is Meg. Cas’ relationship with Meg is born of sexual exploration more than anything else at its conception. He’d just been watching porn in his downtime and when Meg kisses him, he goes with it enthusiastically. Later, he seems to have a certain infatuation with her in his “crazy” state, and seems to trust her perhaps simply because she had been watching over him in the institution.

This is interesting because in his “crazy” state, Cas is a lot more raw and unfiltered and optimistic than he ever has been before. He compliments her, is concerned with her safety, and trusts her. On the contrary, with Dean, Cas is a lot more hesitant and even fearful when talking about certain subjects with him because of his past failings. He tries to keep the peace without directly getting involved because his direct involvement in the past had failed them all so spectacularly.

He and Meg continue to have a sort of connection whenever they cross paths until her demise the next season, and he still holds a respect for her years later, continuing to use her nickname for him “Clarence” as an alias at various times.

When Castiel becomes human in S9, he’s a bit lost and overwhelmed. April takes him in for the night. Although this is a short-lived romance considering she tortures and kills him the next day, for a brief enough time Cas starts to become acquainted with human romance and sexual desire. He loses his virginity to her. It is estimated by some that this is merely sexual experimentation on the part of a very confused newly human Cas, and others have used this to say that Cas is not gay but pan or bi. The conclusion in any regard, in my opinion, is purely up to the viewer.

If I’m to offer my opinion, however, seeing as he has shown interest in both sexes, though remains unlabeled, I consider him simply an unlabeled queer person. Sexual identity and orientation has never seemed to matter much to Castiel, so I don’t see why it should matter to me. He loves who he loves, simple as that.

When we get to Hannah, she provides an interesting foil to Castiel for a time, and an emphasizing expression on just how much he’s changed since his introduction to Earth and the Winchesters. Where Castiel has been open to a plethora of new emotions and experiences through the years which have made him a bit more human than angel at times, Hannah is still new to humanity and the range and movement of emotions that come with it. Just how little she seems to understand proves how much Castiel has grown and does understand by comparison.

As such, he seems to pick up on the fact that Hannah has an attachment to him that appears to be forming into a romantic or sexual interest. He gently turns her down multiple times, not expressing interest in her behavior although he does respect her greatly as a person. Though this relationship isn’t considered romantic from Castiel’s perspective, its unrequited nature again is a good parallel to Dean and Crowley’s relationship at this same time. Angel x Angel and Demon x Demon. Both one sided.

Now, let’s get back to Dean.

Up to the point that Castiel turns human, for however brief a time, he finally gets a look behind the curtain of human emotion. Now, we all know that Cas is in love with Dean already here- and probably has been for some time. Years, even- but it’s my personal belief that during this time turning human is when he actually realizes it and understands where these emotions come from.

Maybe it’s the heartbreak of Dean kicking him from the bunker, maybe it’s seeing Dean again when he shows up in line at the Gas n Sip, or maybe it’s somewhere in between when he sees two people on the street looking at each other and realizes “oh, that’s love. I know what that is. I felt that, too.” And every moment from then on he realizes what that feeling was in his chest when he looked at Dean for a little too long, or why it hurt so much to see the pain in Dean’s eyes at something Cas had done, or why hearing Dean’s prayers to him just felt different than they did with Sam’s. Why everything that he’d done since he rebelled from heaven was in the name of doing the right thing, muddled alongside doing the right thing for Dean. Caring because of Dean. Caring for Dean.

It’s during this time when he realizes what these feelings are, that he also must come to terms with the fact that they’re unreciprocated (or as he believes, anyway). This is for two reasons. The first, he still believes at this time that Dean kicked him from the bunker just because. And the second, if there’s anything that Cas took to heart from Dean’s example as strongly as the concept of free-will, it’s self-loathing. He doesn’t see himself worthy of love. Dean doesn’t see himself worthy of love either. They’re both messy piles of self-loathing that breeds into a blindness to the depth of care they hold for one another.

Now that we’re on the topic of self-loathing, this leads into Castiel and his decision to become Lucifer’s vessel in season 11. Much like Dean, Cas has a consistent issue with seeing his own personal self-worth, so when the opportunity comes along to “be of service to the fight” and become Lucifer’s vessel, he takes it on easily. He considers himself expendable, and he won’t see just how much Dean struggles with this fact while he’s possessed. In fact, Cas never knows just how much Dean struggles with his absence at all, which is just one of the many divides between the two of them that could easily be resolved with communication, if either were ever good at that.

Once Lucifer is shoved from Cas’ body, however, Dean makes a point to let Cas know just how important he is in his life. He’s said Cas was family before, but that was before the falling out at the end of season 6. Dean makes it clear that he and Sam both consider Cas family, once again, during a ride in Baby. “You’re our brother, Cas. I want you to know that.”

Now, here, simultaneous heartbreak and love occur. Because while Cas is likely very much in love with Dean here, and very much aware of it, to hear that Dean simply thinks of him as a brother must ache a bit. However, we’re also talking about Dean Winchester, and for him to call someone a brother is an immense depth of love, probably the most the man is even capable of. Dean never says the words “I love you” to anyone, so this is about the closest anyone could get. Cas knows this, he’s well-versed in the ways of Dean Winchester by now. So, while it aches, his heart is also full.

Comparable to:

“We need you, Cas. I need you.” 8x17

“We’re gonna shove your ass back through the eye of that needle if it kills all three of us.” 8x05

“Don’t make me lose you, too.” 7x23

“Don’t do anything stupid”

The entire purgatory confession/apology prayer in 15x09

Cas returns this love just hours later, offering to go with Dean to die taking out Amara.

If we jump forward to the divorce arc of season 14-15, we can hit upon the next great heartbreak of Castiel’s sad little love life. While the Winchester brothers, Castiel, and Jack have all become a family unit, Castiel never wants to lose that. But two things happen. First, Cas’ deal with The Empty is made, and somewhere along the line, silently, he becomes aware that allowing himself to be happy, and that happiness, somehow involves Dean. The second thing that happens is Jack kills Mary Winchester, and Dean says Castiel is dead to him.

So, The Empty won’t take him, but his family is broken apart. Castiel never gives up on a single family member, though. That’s the thing about Cas. The same way he consistently forgives Dean for all his behaviors over the years, he never loses faith in anyone in this family. And when they come to reunite, he’s happy simply in appreciating any and all time they have together, however brief.

Then, in true Castiel fashion, he sacrifices himself for Dean Winchester in 15x18.

Their relationship has always left things unsaid, but I don’t think there’s ever been a question on whether Dean loves Cas or Cas loves Dean even if they don’t talk about it. You can’t look at Cas and Dean’s faces seeing each other again for the first time in weeks at the end of “The Last Call” and say that there wasn’t love and heartbreak there. On some level I think that Cas knew that Dean loved him back, but Dean was so buried in trauma at that point that it might take him years more to realize what he actually felt and what he needed. But Cas is such a selfless lover that he was absolutely 100% fine with just being around Dean for the rest of his life, even if he never got a chance to tell him how much he genuinely cared for him, and never got that reciprocation back. Castiel’s love for Dean is so pure and selfless it’s overwhelming to even consider, but for someone like Dean it would be a hundred times harder to accept or even fathom someone caring about him as much as Cas does.

So Castiel never pushes Dean further, never suggests, barely even touches him. The only liberties Cas takes are small touches to heal him (even though he doesn’t need to touch a person to heal them), a few small hugs through the years, just sharing comfortable space inside the impala, small moments watching Dean’s favorite movies with him, or sharing a moment over beers in the kitchen. And Cas’ happiness was in telling Dean how much he loved him likely because then maybe Dean would actually see how much he was worth. Cas wanted Dean to know how much he loved him and how he viewed him, because Dean deserved to love himself and was worthy of it.

The five types of love languages are as follows:

Words of affirmation

Physical touch

Gift giving

Acts of Service

Quality Time

One of the reasons Dean and Cas miss the mark with one another so often could simply come down to love languages. A lot of the time, what a person needs in love language is often what they also give. I don’t think this is the case where these two are concerned, though. They’re both so sacrificial that it’s difficult for them to accept this in return, even though this is what they each offer to the other and anyone else around them.

Both Cas and Dean’s giving love language is “acts of service” which translates into sacrificial actions much of the time, though it can also be more domestic than that as well. It’s Dean grabbing an extra beer for Cas or making food, or it’s Cas healing Dean without any prompting, Cas loading up on pie and beer at the Gas n Sip when Dean’s mad at him.

What they each need, however, is different. Dean needs “quality time.” He needs his people close, he needs them to answer calls, and he needs to know where they are. This clearly ties in to his abandonment issues, and it hurts his relationship with Cas significantly when the angel just keeps leaving, or disappears without answering his phone for days at a time. And when he dies, obviously. He always comes back, though. And half the time when he’s gone it’s because he’s trying to get a win for Dean against whatever issue the team is facing at the time.

What Cas needs, best I can tell, is “words of affirmation.” Cas has a consistent problem with thinking that he’s worth less than he is, and is less important to the people around him than he is. Dean obviously has this issue, too, but with Cas it’s somehow infinitely worse, if that’s even possible. Frequently, what he needs to get him going in low points is a few words from Dean or encouragement in general. To name a few:

“Maybe to fix it.” 7x17

“I’d rather have you, cursed or not.” 7x23, Cas then goes with Dean to find and kill Dick Roman

“I’m not leaving here without you.” S8 in purgatory when Cas wanted Dean to leave him behind but Dean was having none of it.

“You’re our brother, Cas.” 11x23, after Cas was possessed by Lucifer and thought he was expendable.

Over time, Dean does get a bit more vocal with Cas about issues he’s having or just with encouraging words as well. Cas, too, sticks around a lot more. They’re not perfect but they do begin to grow and work with one another in these later years to give one another what they need most to see how much the other is loved.

In conclusion, there is a significant amount of romance and sexuality written into this show, and simply interpreted as well. And that’s the thing, when a queer person says that they interpreted a certain piece of media as queer, it’s not up to someone else to say that they can’t, or shouldn’t, or that they’re interpreting something wrong. That’s the thing about media, it can have so many different interpretations and meanings to so many different people.

It’s my personal interpretation to see the queerness embedded in the text here. Maybe it’s not there for another person, and that’s cool too, just don’t tell me how I should see it. The fact is that it was written into the show to be interpreted, and interpret is what we did.

I’d love to hear any feedback that others may have regarding this. Any other theories, different interpretations, things I may have missed. I hope you enjoy the edits, and the endings I put together for them. We all need a little bit of happiness after that ending, so I hope it leaves you with a lighter heart. :)

Much love,

Taylor

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