#every one of the ot4 are important characters to me and it makes me so sad to see any one of them getting bashed

[seasurfacefullofclouds1]

To me 2014 was the year of the weed video. There was a reason that it was important to start the character assassination of the two guys in the video. All of my friends hated on Louis and Zayn. The cross wearing Harry who was already the most popular now became the can’t do no wrong personification of morality. This image has been carved into the brains of the 1D fans which can never change no matter what he does. This is the reason they will keep calling Louis a liar but will not for a moment consider Harry’s greed and selfish ambition. It was a platform being built for a Harry to go solo without repercussions. Suddenly the drunk Harry walking out of nightclubs of 2013 disappeared and instead came the notebook and guitar carrying Harry with his stupid hat. He was the Nashville singer songwriter instead of the London socialite he was months before. The others were put more and more in the background. The interviewers would ask 5 questions to Harry and 1 question to all the others. The cameras would be trained on Harry. It became blatant.

Do you remember the Four Hangout and the way that Ben Winston framed the questions for each of the boys, and the way that difficult questions about band rumors were targeted to Louis, never to Harry?

And of course, all the brilliant music videos Ben directed, as prequel to all the hamfisted, derivative, second-rate crap he would eventually produce. Even in 2014, Ben chose to hang out with Harry (see: Rio De Janeiro and Machu Picchu). From the Christ The Redeemer candids, Larries choose to remember the one photo with Harry and Louis standing together, but 90% of the time, Harry was separate from the other boys, choosing instead to hang with Ben Winston and his own entourage. Louis and Zayn were the two friends always together.

The character assassination also started with Syco/ Sony’s image of Zayn as the “dark, mysterious one” because of his ancestry, and the emphasis on Louis as the annoying disrupter instead of the intelligent leader. Both Dan Wootten’s 2015 article and Savan Kotecha confirmed that Louis spoke up for greater autonomy and creative control for the boys, and hence was a thorn in the side of the music label.

Even now, fans (Larries, OT4 and OT5, Harries, and others) can’t differentiate between those who hold real power— Sony and its affiliates— and hacks like Simon Jones and Modest Management. They do so because they will do everything to avoid connecting Harry to the players that broker the success and failure of him and his ex-bandmates.

This leads to a slippery slope where the men’s success was predetermined by access, power, and money, as everyone in the industry knows— rather than merely merit or talent. And every veteran Harrie is very aware that Harry was hand-selected by the powerful, and his rise was predicated on the fall of the others.

Otherwise, Harry wouldn’t need to make petty public jokes about Zayn, and Harries wouldn’t need to camp out on Louie blogs or send a billion copy-paste gnats into Louie inboxes (still!). Harry would rely on his talent alone. After nine years being solo and three Grammys, shouldn’t Harry have earned his own credibility? Besides the women and men who want to sleep with him, I think it’s pretty clear to everyone else that Harry hasn’t. In retrospect, he looks like a mean kid who grew into a soulless man.

[lastoneout]

okay I said I was done but I'm not I just gotta vent but pls if you liked it you're wonderful and this is not directed at you at all, I'm just processing my thoughts, feel free to ignore me and this <3

I also just like....is that what Wolfwood is like in the manga? Bcs in the '98 anime he was way nicer?? I liked his dynamic with Vash bcs on the surface they seemed like VERY similar people but when push came to shove they had fundamental ideological differences that brought them to conflict. They would both decide to help people because they believed in helping people, they just disagreed about how sometimes. It was interesting! You don't usually see conflicts like that!!

And every time Wolfwood was an outright asshole to Vash, insulting him and being genuinely mean, or just being an open, unrepentant ass to every other person around him I was just like "He would not say that!!" bcs Anime Wolfwood was yeah, a bit of a jerk, but he was NICE!! He helped people with a smile on his face out of the goodness of his heart!! He liked hanging out with Milly and Meryl!! He was goofy like Vash!!

In Stampede he just feels like every single bitchy anime boy whos the protag's foil he's like Keith and Bakugo and Sasuke all wrapped into one boring as hell burrito I just don't get it!! He was interesting!! Unique!! Now he's bland!! What the fuck!!

I def saw the appeal in and shipped Vash//Wood after the original anime, but Tri//Stamp Vash//Wood? I can't even believe they're friends. (And trust me, that's not bcs I like Vash//Meryl more or anything bcs this version of Meryl is just as bland as ever I much prefer their dynamic in the '98 anime over this. In fact, I much prefer the four of them in an ot4 bcs the original anime really sells ya on it.)

But yeah idk if I even want to read the manga bcs the Tri//Stamp versions of these characters kinda fucking suck??? Meryl literally just exists to be confused and say what's happening, she never is given any real agency or a chance to shine, her "defining" moment was pointless and was barely given any time to breathe or have weight, she's a sexy lamp with a voice box that goes "huh, what?" every five seconds I s2g, and instead of a partner who played off of her and made sense she's saddled with Generic Drunk Anime Detective/Reporter 11 who treats her like complete shit constantly right up until he dies!!

I don't understand how this is a better version of the story. I don't understand how waiting to introduce Milly does ANYTHING for Meryl's character. She had an arc in the '98 anime that didn't start with her being a baffled plot tourist, you can have her be competent yet out of her depth AND STILL GROW FROM THERE. And maybe I'm just reaching but I cannot get over the fact that it feels misogynistic as fuck to get rid of your well-written GNC female character in favor of an asshole guy and to take your other well-written female character, who was basically the POV character and nuke everything interesting about her until she can't do anything but go "huh what?", stand up for herself exactly once by deciding to do what some other guy tells her to do, and shout Vash's name.

It's bad fucking writing.

Like Trigun '98 was such a breath of fresh air in terms of shonen character writing. Two male protags who are upbeat and goofy and earnest and sweet and want to do the right thing but struggle? Two well-written, NOT SEXUALIZED, MAIN female characters who are confident and strong and have arcs and personalities and DO IMPORTANT THINGS ON THEIR OWN WITHOUT HELP? YOU NEVER GET THAT. I think my queer ass REALLY resonated with it, these characters felt so wonderfully queer because of how much they subverted traditional gender roles, bcs of how they were more than the tropes they came from, but Tri//Stamp just shoved them back in their boxes and it honestly sucks to see.

And as a woman(more or less) I have spent my entire life acutely aware that shonen anime and manga Does Not and Will Not make space for people like me, and so seeing the ONE THAT DID get NUKED in favor of again, a new asshole and an old character who's had all of his caring, soft, "female" traits dragged out back and shot so he can be EXTRA rude and dickish is so fucking upsetting.

We don't get characters like the Milly and Meryl and Wolfwood we got in the '98 anime. We don't see subversions of gender roles and archetypes like we did in that anime. But we should. And frankly, if this is all that Tri//Stamp can bring to the table, then I am not impressed.

[lukemichaelcalumashton]

2022 WRITING EVALUATION

i started answering these questions because hazel @allsassnoclass tagged me, but i took forever so now i’ve also been tagged by amanda @lifewasradical and taylor @jbhmalumm too lmaoo thank you guys <3

i’m gonna do as you suggested, hazel, and include my non 5sos fics here too instead of doing this again in my 911 blog @buckleyseddie it’s easier this way!

1. number of stories posted on ao3: 13 (9 5sos fics, 1 stranger things fic, 3 911 fics)

2. word count posted for this year: 73,269 for 5sos, 36,154 for 911 and 9,223 for stranger things, so a total of 118,646!

3. fandoms i wrote for: 5sos, stranger things, 911

4. pairings: i have malum (2), mashton (1) lashton (1), cashton (2), muke (1), ot4 (1) and my favorite luke/suffering (1) lmao, steve/eddie from stranger things (1) and buddie (3)

5. story with the most kudos/bookmarks/comments: overall it's the first buddie fic I posted, but for the 5sos fics bookmarks and kudos is Off-stage, comment threads is fueling the fire until we combust

6. work i’m most proud of (and why): i think it’s if i could say the things i want to say (i’d find a way to make you stay), my muke fic for the 5sos fic exchange at the beginning of the year, it was my first long fic and i was very happy about how it came out, there were many times when i didn’t think i would be able to finish it, also it was my first muke fic and i was nervous about getting the dynamic right and there was a deadline so. lots of pressure!! being able to finish it (and getting very nice comments and feedback on it) was very important for me

7. work i’m least proud of (and why): i think i’m actually proud of all of them because this year writing was a Struggle so being able to post every single one of these fics feels like something to be proud of! 

8. share or describe a favorite review you received: i can’t think of one in particular right now but anyone who has ever complimented my characterization or said that i got a ship/friendship dynamic right please know that i love you! this year i wrote quite a few fics for ships i’ve never done before and it made me very nervous whether or not i did it right so any comments like those made my day for sure

also i think the comments on mating call might be some of my favorite comments ever because, let’s face it, that fic is ridiculous svdfdf and people still read it and they left the nicest comments calling it funny and calling me funny and it was very nice to see people enjoying it, especially considering it was the most fun i had while writing a fic i think EVER 

9. a time when writing was really, really hard: can i say the entire year??? there were maybe 2 or 3 fics that i posted this year that didn’t give me a hard time, but the rest of the year i was Struggling either because i had no time or no motivation or writing simply wasn't happening. i’m actually impressed that i posted 13 fics because at times it felt like i wasn’t getting any writing done this year 

10. a scene or character you wrote that surprised you: well i definitely didn’t expect to end up writing for 911 or stranger things, so that was a surprise! i also didn’t expect to write lashton again! and i didn’t expect to write a luke/suffering fic! all of them were fun surprises though 

11. a favorite excerpt of your writing: i thought about this for a while and then i had to skim through my fics because i couldn’t remember what i wrote oops but i really like this excerpt from i wanna hold your hand while we’re growing up so let’s go with this one

Michael focuses on their hands.

The contrast between their skin, Calum’s chipped black nail polish, Michael’s finger tattoos, the difference in their size.

It wasn’t always like this. Calum’s hand used to be smaller, Michael’s fingers used to be less calloused, but it’s still familiar, after years of doing this.

And maybe it’s the fact that Calum looks tiny like this, hurt and scared, but his hand feels smaller in Michael’s hold, like it did the first time he held it. Back then, Calum also needed reassurance and a friend, and Michael was there for him, the same way he is now. Just like he didn’t let go of Calum’s hand then, during the entire field trip, he doesn’t let go of it now; holding tight to it while he talks to his mother, while they wait for the doctor, while she explains to Calum that it’s going to be a long road towards recovery and he’s going to need his friends.

Michael squeezes his hand to make sure Calum knows he’s here. Michael will always be here.

12. how did you grow as a writer this year? well apparently i wrote 45k more than i did in 2021? which feels so fake because like i said i felt like i didn't post as much and i felt like i struggled a lot. also i wrote 4 fics over 9k which was my highest word count for a fic in 2021

more importantly i also learned (or at least i’m still trying to learn) that sometimes you just can’t force writing. i have to admit i’ve missed writing 5sos lately but i’ve stopped trying to force myself to do it because it takes away all the fun and i don’t want that. i’m hoping that the motivation to write for this fandom will come back, but i’m trying to write what i want to write and right now that’s not 5sos and that’s okay

13. how do you hope to grow next year? i just really want to enjoy writing again and like, let go of the pressure because it doesn’t make the process enjoyable at all. even if i’m proud of what i accomplished this year i spent so much time stressing!! and life is already stressful, i want writing to be fun!!

14. who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc)? oh there’s quite a few! i think i owe most of the fics i posted this year to my friends??? like, maya @calumsash was so supportive while writing my muke fic, she gave me great ideas, listened to me complain and hyped me up so much when i would send her snippets (which she always does <3), her and jess @daydadahlias never fail to hype up my cashton fics or ideas!! talking with amanda was what made me write a lashton fic again!! and she gave me ideas/feedback on one of my malum fics too!! then there’s taylor of course who’s always down to talk about ideas that may or may not turn into fics and i’m not only lucky to be able to talk about 5sos fics with them but they also encouraged me to write my stranger things fic and had very nice things to say about it and then i managed to get them into 911 (maya too!) and now i get to talk to them about fic ideas for buddie too

15. anything from your real life show up in your writing this year? hm i don’t think so? all i can think about is the fact that calum loves chocolate milkshakes in one of my fics and michael doesn’t get why (which is based on me and taylor having that same argument once lmao) 

16. any new wisdom you can share with other writers? write what you want but also accept that sometimes a fic idea doesn’t have to become a fic, sometimes it’s just fun to talk about it or daydream about it or make a moodboard for it! it’s not exactly writing wisdom but it makes having fun a little easier!! less pressure!!

17. any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year? i have two long cashton fics that i really want to finish but like i said the motivation to write for the boys hasn’t been there, but hopefully at some point. i have quite a lot written for both so maybe i can make it happen. one is a fake relationship au and i’ve always wanted to write that trope so i really really want to finish that one!! and the other one is the one that me and maya affectionately refer to as the storm au, i’ve sent her so many snippets and there’s so much that i love about what i have written and that i really want to share!! also i have a few ideas for buddie that i think have a higher chance of happening in the near future because i’m so obsessed with them right now lol there’s one that i want to post before they come back from hiatus so i’m hoping to focus on that one for now!! we’ll see!!

18. tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read: pretty sure everyone has been tagged already, but if you haven’t and you want to do it, then i’m tagging you <3

[nemainofthewater]

Halfway roundup!

Currently Li Lianghua/Di Feisheng/FangDuobing are winning with 33.1%, followed by Xiao Jingyan/Mei Changsu/Mu Nihuang at 15.1%, with Dongfang Qingcang/Xiao Lanhua/Changheng in third with 13.9%.

Tag propaganda under the cut:

Li Yan/Ying Hecong/Yang Jin

#oh I love MANY of these#(understandable since me and Nemain share a brain)#but I had to go for the three idiots from legend of fei#I hope all my other ot3s to solve love triangles forgive me but those three are canon by @jianghushenanigans

#this is the hardest poll yet#god I love an OT3#I would be happy with any of the ones from shows I've seen winning buuuut I think my vote has to go to the one braincell trio from LoF by @sinni-ok-sessi

#ying hecong throuple mentioned!!!! theyre everything to me#all of them but to me.ying hecong is the most important and i didnt feel like typing out all the names#polls by @natsunes

Wang Mowen/Lan Peizhi/Zhang Ping

#oh no it was so hard to decide!#ended up going for league of nobleman trio#though sleuth came close#but LoN trio really do give the mood of one guy with his new bf and his husband by @unfortunatelycake

Emperor Wen/Empress Xuan/Consort Yue

#ok prev is right:#3zun#but also i voted emperor/empress/consort from love like the galaxy#i love them and i want them to be happy#TOGETHER by @wanderingthunderstorm

Li Lianhue/Di Feisheng/Fang Duobing

#LIANSANJIAO by @nutcasewithaknife

#difanghua is the only correct answer by @jiaoliqiao

#voted difanghua because what else was I supposed to do#but also shoutout to our lltg pairing because sooo much misery could’ve been avoided if they had been a loving throuple#also the clj throuple does tickle me but i honestly need changheng to only be there every once in a while#the throuple we’re missing is obviously from who rules the world#i can’t remember anyone’s name rn except the actors names so whatever but you all know who I mean#they were canon. to me.#polls#also story of kunning palace I see you but they would all be absolutely miserable together#xie wei would rather stab his other hand as well than even think about sharing jiang xuening with anyone but especially zhang zhe by @songofpurplesummers

Dongfang Qingcang/Xiao Lanhua/Changheng

#polls#gonna go with lbfad because a) difanghua is so canon already#and b) alon would be solved by a larger polycule XD by @bocje-ce-ustu

#extremely difficult poll#i put my vote in for#love between fairy and devil#but honestly so many of these are gold#the league of nobleman one i think is more like an ot4... or maybe even an ot5#there is too much excellent chemistry between multiple people#tumblr polls by @trisshawkeye

Xiao Jingyan/Mei Changsu/Mu Nihuang

#nirvana in fire of course#polls by @pachebelsheadcanon

Write in candidates

#3zun#are missing!! by @omgpurplefattie

#i voted other for 3zun from mdzs#however they aren't really the protags so maybe they dont count#but you don't have all the facts#which are i love them by @vergoftowels

#another write-in vote for 3zun by @octarina

#all the pain and suffering in yanxi palace that could've been avoided#if we'd gotten the wei yingluo/empress fucha/qianlong ot3 that we deserved#we were so close#they all have two hands!!! by @larks-and-katydids

#the singular time where im advocating AGAINST winter begonia anyone who votes wb on this post#needs to take media literacy classes and im NOT joking#the way i could go into a 5 hour rant about how throupling winter begonia would actually make the show worse#and overall would harm them more than fix them. omfg#LIKE URE MISSING THE ENTIRE POINT OF THESE CHARACTERS AND THE PLOTS IF U THROUPLE THEM#AND IM THE THROUPLE PERSON!!! I PUT ALL OF MY BITCHES IN THROUPLES#heres how fengtai/xirui/luocheng can win by @mingjue

Have you ever watched a love triangle and known with a bone deep certainty that no matter the final/offical pairing, they could solve so many problems by all getting together?

Alternately, has the drama got three protagonists and all of them have amazing chemistry with each other?

Do you just think it would be funny?

Instead of choosing between love interests, help to vote between OT3s!

Propaganda, examples, and write-ins are absolutely encouraged!

[mari-monsta]

It’s really discouraging to produce fun queer content out of my love for the characters and then have it re-purposed into salt type stuff... 

[pangzi]

Salty Ask List, 19.

What is the one thing you hate most about the fandom? go offfffff

Rin i love youuuuuu!!!

The thing I hate most about the fandom is easily how people treat Pangzi. I don't even know where to start explaining this to be fucking honest! There's SO. MUCH. I could write a whole essay on this. I’ve mentioned most of this before too but things haven’t really gotten better so...

The thing annoying me the most lately is the constant "*insert pangzi ship*'s friendship is sooo important to me" posts and remarks. Like no it isn't, you don't give a fuck about friendship you just don't ship them because you don't think Pangzi is shippable but cannot admit that? I literally see nobody mention friendship ever unless it's about a Pangzi ship? Everyone here will ship every single young skinny pretty character with any other character they just take a breath around, but Pangzi can quite literally confess his love to someone, kiss them, marry them and have sex with them On Screen and this entire fandom would still go: "their friendship is So Important to me :( just two Very Good Friends, only friendship going on here" besides why are you all out here pretending you can't have a good friendship with your significant other what the hell. Isn't it the dream to date your best friend?? I-... Like yeah Pangzi has very important and significant friendships and relationships but it's getting VERY transparent when the only time everyone goes 'FRIENDSHIP IS IMPORTANT AND JUST AS IMPORTANT AS ROMANCE' when it's about Pangzi.

The fact that people don't see him as desirable or shippable is also very obvious by how many fics I've already had to see where Pangzi is just a second choice. Characters date him but only because their first choice is dating someone else. It's so disgusting and he deserves so much better.

Everyone also goes out of their way to deny that the reason why they don't ship Pangzi with any of the characters is just fatphobia and him not being attractive enough for them to ever imagine anyone being in love with him. I've seen such ridiculous reasonings why people don't ship iron triangle ot3 for example, the reason being "pangzi liked piaopiao and yuncai and is therefore clearly a straight man" babygirl bisexual people exist and i've never seen a character more bisexual than wang pangzi.

Another thing I absolutely hate is how you will all ignore the one thing Pangzi is all about, which is being with the iron triangle, putting them first and always choosing them above everything (wu xie didn't give that fucking whole ass speech abt pangzi never leaving his side for nothing) and instead just going 'uhhh uuhhh yeah pangzi isn't here because uhhh he left us for reasons' so you don't have to deal with him when writing about your other little ships. (Suddenly the friendship isn't so important anymore huh...)

Also making Pangzi asexual so they can pretend their fic is iron triangle ot3 or even ot4, but this way we don't have to pretend characters think he's desirable or worthy of sleeping with and we can leave him out of the smut because he's ace and ace people don't have sex or can be sexy, right? Like I absolutely adore ace!pangzi hcs but jesus fuck once again TRANSPARENT AS FUCK and uh a bit aphobic if i may say so

Or people just solely focusing on moments where Pangzi messes up. If I have to read one more post describing the characters and it describes Pangzi as the one always getting them in trouble and clumsy and stupid I'm gonna stab myself in the eye, you're describing Wu Xie, not Pangzi. So many of you only see him as the silly fat man but he's so so so so so much more? He's so good at his job, he clocks danger early on so many times but everyone just ignores it (in ultimate note alone it happens several times in a few episodes), he's strong, an amazing fighter, he's smart, caring, funny, kind, loyal,... But it gets ignored because all everyone sees is 'funny fat man who also sometimes triggers a trap'

[calumthoodshands]

Hey, it's meeeeeeee. So yeah, I totally understand what you're saying and I agree. Like these boys actually chose each other to become a part of their lives and they've always been more than colleagues from the very first day and that's the best thing. I guess if they weren't a band, they could've made vlogs and all and it'd still be that full of life and amazing haha.

But I've a question here, does this fandom has the ships? I meant of course there is, maybe, and if yes, is there any one like superior ship? I guess all ships relating to Luke and Mikey might be dead now? And I'm not talking about bromance ships haha. I just want to know the fd better.

Also, I think you can call me Kia, i don't really have a tag as such and infinity is a not-so-great name, I think 👀

Well then hello kia!!

No ur right tho they could be unironically very popular on YouTube if they had made vlogs or smth like… we all know they’re fucking hilarious when they’re together. It’s practically inevitable. But yes your question. This fandom does have ships! There are actually a bunch of fics on ao3 and i for one am one of the many contributors to it (see my pinned post for example. Or my masterlist). I’m not sure where your Luke/Michael assumption is coming from but quite the opposite actually! statistics wise it’s at the top of the ships! From what i’ve heard the ao3 fandom used to be more active, but there are definitely still a lot and definitely very good writers around now. The circle might be smaller, but the quality holds up. Now idk if you know about this, but you mentioned bromance, and that brings me to a different topic actually, bc 5sos is the first fandom i’m in that has, drum roll, bromance fics! And quite a few actually, even ot4 has been a bit more popular lately. There are some extremely cute ones inspired by the show or just simple cute every day situations, and they’re all worth a read i think. 5sos really are such close friends people said ‘yk what. Lemme just write abt that real quick’ and i think… that’s pretty cool.

One thing about this fandom is also — at least in this corner that i’m in (which is also restricted to slash) — that it’s very aware of the fact that slash is rpf. They’re real people. I know a lot of writers who sometimes struggle with that knowledge, bc many have read or heard that rpf is bad or wrong or whatever, but i really think that most writers here have found a good way to handle it, and know how to write them without… stripping them off their humanity and the fact that they’re actual people who deserve respect. It’s a nice thing to know that and be assured, bc i think it is indeed very important to remember that, especially in fic where you could theoretically write whatever. To me, really, it’s not even like i’m actively writing about them, to be honest. How could I really write about them? I don’t know them. Their fic versions to me are characters, i’m making up a character that is based on their irl person, but that’s… where i draw the line somehow. Fic is about creativity and writing stories and characters, and yes they are greatly based on the actual person, but you can never know if what you write what they’re doing is something they would actually do. Another thing in this aspect is also that 5sos straight up… seem to accept it exists? Idk where or in which interview it was. But they’ve never explicitly said that they think it’s dumb or weird or that fans should stop it. If they did say that, i would stop in a heartbeat. But they seem to be okay with it, and they don’t interact with it, so it’s not bothering them, and it’s very much only here on tumblr/ao3, so it’s like… who cares? And there really are some fucking amazing fics out there, no matter if it’s a hundred or two hundred thousand words. There are so many beautiful fics that handle the most interesting stories and issues and honestly, some of them are just straight up better than some books i’ve read. They make you cry and laugh and wish you could feel that feeling every day. If it wasn’t obvious yet, i love fic. So. Did this even answer your question i don’t know i’m sorry sojdlfjsjdl

I hope you have a nice day thank you for coming here i’m enjoying this!! 🧡

[astorytotellyourfriends]

(💜 I just wanted to say that I read your new ot4 fic and I loved it! It is amazing! Your writing is so good! I’m addicted to it!) Sooo let’s park Alex/Reggie sleepover for like one ask lol, because I want to send an asked devoted to my loves Reggie and Alex because I feel like I’ve been ignoring him but Reggie is literally my fave character lol, anyway! I had a new Luke and Emily thought and I had to share that first lol! So like a week later Reggie and Alex get detention together (Alex insists it was Reggie’s fault since he sent the first note!) and Bobby and Luke are making out in the garage after school because it’s usually band practice, and things are getting a little more heated than usual and Luke decides in the space between kisses for him to catch his breath that his inkling was correct and he’s actually head over heels in love with Bobby, and he knows Bobby would never ask to go further, he’s treated Luke like he’s a paper doll or something since their conversation last week, but Luke also knows that now that Bobby is part of their little group he couldn’t live without him, he loves him so much it hurts, and in a moment of panicked desperation created by his own thoughts of Bobby leaving and of not wanting to lose him he whispers that he’ll do something for Bobby that Bobby realises with a shock skips a couple bases and goes right to third he wasn’t actually sure what third was, but this seemed like it was somewhere between third and fourth and he’s shaking his head and saying “no Luke, you don’t have to” and Luke is saying “I need to prove to you I’m worth keeping around” and Bobby is sighing and pushing him off like “no Luke. You have nothing to prove.” And Luke’s face is suddenly way too hot and he feels the rejection creeping in and he’s angry with embarrassment and he bites back “I bet you let girls do that for you” and Bobby sighs and says “that’s different” and Luke is jumping to his feet, his face red as he yells “no it’s not you just don’t want me” and Bobby is calling after him telling him of course he does and he cares about him so much and he just wants them to take their time, but Luke can’t hear because he takes his bike as the humiliation and rejection finally fully settle in and rides home. THEN as soon as he gets through the door his mom is yelling at him saying he was meant to come straight home no band practice because he’s failing English and she stops when she sees Luke’s teary, snot covered face before he runs off to his room without even looking at her and she’s following him saying “Luke honey? What’s wrong? What happened? I’m worried!” And Luke is curled up under his covers screaming “leave me alone I want to die!” Like a dramatic teenager and Emily is sitting on his bed trying to get the covers off his head asking “did something happen at school? You didn’t have a fight with the boys did you?” And Luke is groaning out “no!” Every time and then she says “something with Bobby?” And Luke immediately goes red and Emily says “oh… something with Bobby…” and Luke is screaming “I totally humiliated myself okay?! Are you happy? I can never face him again!” And Emily is saying “can you tell me what happened?” And Luke is yelling “I can’t talk about this with you! It’s embarrassing mom! Why can’t you understand that?” And she’s stroking his hair and says “you can tell me anything baby” and Luke bursts into tears again and Emily says “oh my poor baby” and bundles him into her arms and rocks him like when he was little and he cries into her shirt for the first time in years. Things had been getting pretty bad between them lately, but this one time he just needed his mom! 🥺 (does he tell her? Does he call Alex or Reggie who convinces him to come out of hiding? Idk lol!)

aww thank you so much!! i love my dumb lil questioning babies.

yes let's set Alex and Reggie aside bc we def need to come back to them they're SO IMPORTANT (and also Reggie is also my fave, i love his dumb himbo ass so much)!!!

oh goddddd Luke realizing he's in love with Bobby and immediately panicking over Bobby leaving is so heartbreaking!! 😭😭 our sweet little babe is just so afraid of being rejected!!!

but omg i can just imagine them making out and then Luke whispering in Bobby's ear that he wants to Do Something for him and maybe Bobby's first thought is aww Luke is too cute but then Luke starts kissing his neck and is very obviously making his way Down South and right before his hand goes for the goods Bobby's like WHOA HOLD ON A SECOND!!! and like. yeah, okay, he's had girls do that to him so Luke's not wrong when he says that but it's different now. he doesn't want Luke to feel obligated to do that unless he really wants to and after the talk they had the LAST thing he wants is for Luke to rush into anything - but of course none of this comes out in the moment. Luke's upset, Bobby's head is spinning, and before he can even really react or try to explain himself, Luke's stormed out crying!!!

and Bobby probably runs out after him in a matter of seconds but it's too late bc Luke's already on his bike and riding away faster than Bobby could ever hope to catch him on foot. so ofc poor Bobby's just like, in the middle of the street cursing up a storm bc he's angry at himself for not being able to handle that well and for hurting Luke again and part of him wishes that Luke wasn't so Luke all the time and always jumping to conclusions about everything but... despite all of that he loves Luke just the way he is. so Bobby grumbles to himself as he makes his way back inside, probably to go call Alex and Reggie in the hopes that maybe Luke will pop up at one of their houses and he can go over and they can talk this out.

but obv Luke doesn't go to either of their houses, he goes home 🥺 he can't face Alex or Reggie right now, not after they spent so long trying to convince him the other day that everything was going to be okay. they'd hate him now, he's messed everything up again.

and as soon as he walks in the door he realizes that not only did he mess things up with his best friends, he also forgot that he was supposed to come straight home after school and so his mom's on a rampage. but her anger dissipates the moment she sees him, and somehow that's just the tipping point for Luke and he just can't let her - or anyone - see him like this right now.

so he runs to his room yelling that he just wants to be left alone, but Emily follows. she's worried about him. Luke's her baby and she hates that they've been arguing so much lately and now he's hurting and she doesn't know why! and he doesn't want to tell her. he's so embarrassed, he just wants to crawl into bed and pretend like the world doesn't exist right now. he's never going to be able to talk to Bobby again, he probably hates him.

but Emily doesn't leave him alone. she comforts him and Luke's so exhausted from the weight of his feelings that he just collapses into her arms and sobs and hugs her and she just holds him and tells him it's all going to be okay. he doesn't believe her, he thinks she wouldn't understand if he told her what happened, but he does start feeling a little better. he's not crying as hard anymore and the pain in his chest starts to lessen a little.

"I'm sure... whatever happened between the two of you... you'll work it out," she tells him, trying to be as delicate as possible. she remembers being Luke's age and how everything felt like the end of the world all the time. sometimes she forgets that, it's hard to think with a clear head when they argue, but she never wants Luke to forget that she's here for him. he groans and mumbles that Bobby probably hates him now, he probably never wants to see him again and Emily laughs softly and tells him "I'm sure that's not true" and ofc Luke just groans louder because she doesn't get it.

"Okay, okay," she says calmly as she continues rocking him back and forth. "you don't have to tell me if you don't want to." and Luke doesn't want to, not really. he's still so embarrassed and god telling his mom anything about the possibility of him having sex is just... too awkward to even think about. "do you want me to call Alex? or Reggie? would talking to them help?"

Luke pauses for a moment and then shakes his head. "no," he mumbles. he doesn't wanna talk to them. he tightens his arms around Emily, and she kisses his head.

"okay, baby," she whispers as she just keeps holding him. "it's all gonna be okay."

[bitchinbeverlymarsh]

Autistic/ADHD Adrien headcanons

(because I kin him and I need to self-project a little) +some little hcs about the other kiddos

Always stims with his ring. ESPECIALLY when he’s anxious or upset.

Love love LOVES when people play with his hair, but only if it’s the people he’s closest to. (SO many people have touched his hair w/o his permission that it would make him feel overstimulated the rest of the day. It drives him crazy)

Sometimes he’ll say things that he thinks are funny or relatable to try to keep a conversation going. But other people will either misunderstand him or just not get the joke and look at him weird.

Gets MAJOR rsd (rejection-sensitive dysphoria) from the littlest things. Even the slightest negative looking/sounding thing and BOOM, there it is. Though he tries his best to remind himself that these things aren’t what they seem and it’s all in his head.

When he and his friend group are having a conversation, sometimes he’ll start to zone out. Luckily, one of his friends will help him focus again.

When things get REALLY bad (either with his father, or after a tough akumatized battle) he’ll go to his room, play some loud music, and maladaptive daydream to escape.

^ Even though he’ll listen to his music at a kind of high volume when he’s upset, he actually HATES super loud noises. Which can kind of be a problem when he’s playing with Luka’s band from time to time. But fortunately, Luka always carries ear plugs with him in case Adrien needs a pair.

CAN. WILL. AND HAS TRANSFORMED INTO CAT NOIR JUST SO HE CAN STIM WITH HIS BELT TAIL AND BELL. YOU CAN’T CHANGE MY MIND!!!

Vocal stims a LOT. His most common ones are chirping along with the birds he hears or humming. He also purrs as a stim too, but it’s harder for him to do it when he isn’t Cat Noir.

^ When he and Ladybug are on patrol, sometimes he’ll purr-stim. (He once asked Ladybug if she found his stim annoying, and she said she didn’t. She actually finds it soothing and it helps her feel calm when her hero duties start to feel overwhelming)

Some people might think that because of the way he talks sometimes, he isn’t that smart. But he’s actually extremely intelligent. Especially when it comes to his special interests (ex. Chinese language, the piano, video games, fencing, etc.)

Even though this is kind of a stereotype, this boy has gotten SO distracted by things just coming into his peripheral vision. He’ll be mid conversation and something will catch his eye and he has to stop whatever he’s doing to figure out what he saw. The amount of times he’s gotten distracted by Ladybug or an actual ladybug is insane!

Every time he goes over to Marinette’s house, he’ll stim with whatever scrap fabric she has lying around. She ended up making him a plushie out of all of his favorite pieces of scrap fabric (somehow got Alya to casually ask Adrien what his two favorite kinds of buttons were so they could be the eyes). This ended up being his next birthday gift. And Marinette actually remembered to to put her name on the gift, too.

STIMS👏WITH👏THE👏LUCKY👏CHARM👏BRACELET👏THAT👏MARINETTE👏GAVE👏HIM Sometimes he’ll just roll it around in his hands to hear the beads make that nice click-clack sound.

Occasionally, at night, this boy will get random bursts of e n e r g y. So to get it out of his system, he’ll just turn into Cat Noir and run on the rooftops. Or he’ll play video games and try to keep it quiet.

Executive functioning is practically nonexistent with Adrien. Luckily, with being on a tight schedule and having Nathalie telling him what he has to do every day, he can get by okay. Once he’s done with his scheduled stuff though, if you wanted him to do something important, he’ll say he’ll do it and instantly forget.

Has a REALLY sensitive nose, and hates even the slightest bad smell. Which sucks because Plagg has to have his camembert close by at all times. But since the container is sealable, he can tolerate it (so long as he holds his breath, or plugs his nose). If someone near him is eating something that smells bad to him, he won’t move away because he doesn’t want to seem rude. So he’ll just try to hold his breath or subtly cover his nose without them noticing.

Has sort of a love hate relationship with the clothes he has to model. Some of them are pretty comfortable, but others are absolute sensory hell. I feel like Adrien likes clothes a little on the looser side, like me. Whatever clothes he found comfortable, he’d ask his father to keep for him.

^ Oddly enough, he actually doesn’t mind how his Cat Noir suit fits him. I guess since it’s magic, he can’t actually feel how tight the material is. Unless he’s had a bad sensory day and is feeling overstimulated. Then EVERYTHING feels bad and he’ll need to stim to get his mind off it.

When Cat Noir is feeling overstimulated, Ladybug will let him stim with her hair ribbons. Sometimes she finds it a little annoying, but she knows that it helps him, so she’ll just let him do his thing.

+Bonus ot4 hc

Adrien, Marinette, Luka, and Kagami always talk about their favorite or least favorite textures/stims. (ALL OF THESE CHARACTERS ARE NEURODIVERGENT IN SOME WAY, SHAPE, OR FORM! FIGHT ME!!) Some of them can agree that certain textures/stims are good, but other times, these four will argue about why some of them suck. Sometimes it’s hard for one to understand why the other does/doesn’t like a certain thing, but they’ll support them either way.

[fuck-you-i-am-spiderman]

Spideyyyyyyyy!!! 🕷️♥️🧡💛💚💙💜 hello

*stretches fingers* where to begin, where to begin. WELL, one of the things that stands out to me about your writing is that it’s the embodiment of the “is for me? 😳👉👈“ meme in which me is….. me jkldjakljgklsdg. Like, this is why we can just plot an entire novel-length fic together off the top of our heads on VC, just give us like five minutes, because we share perfect taste in ships and tropes. The beautiful thing about this is that I always know I’m GOOD going into your fics. Like, you know what I want without having to ask. And so your fics are always a safe, familiar place for me to go and yours is some of the work that helps me calm down and sleep if I’m having a bad night and just need to read something that’s like a virtual hug.

Another thing that shines about your work is you do such an amazing job of ensuring equal parts love and attention to all the OT4/Core Four. I think it’s really sweet how you take the time to write stories where each one of them gets the spotlight for a while and has their trauma addressed, like with Lost in Lace and Baby Dragon, for example. You offer representation for everyone who relates to these characters and you very tenderly craft that representation and treat the characters with the respect they didn’t get from canon. With your multi-chaps, you do a wonderful job of honouring all the dynamics and never letting the BROTPs feel less important. The bonds are SO strong whether romantic or not.

Stemming from the above actually, I feel like the way you write the Core Four reflects a lot about you as a person (all good things!) and I see that in HD since we’ve become friends. You treat your characters with the same respect and attentiveness that I feel you treat people, not just me but others I see you interact with. Your people skills translate into your writing, if that makes sense. Like what I say above about how you take the time to ensure everyone gets the spotlight for a while, especially when they need it most, and I think that’s just something you do as a friend, too, and it’s a really great thing about you! You have a very big heart and your sensitivity makes you extremely empathetic, which allows you to get deep into these characters’ heads and write beautiful, believable relationships that are full of feeling.

Your passion and drive to overcome all the hurdles of life and keep creating is very inspirational, my dear. Truly, truly, I cannot say it enough that passion ALWAYS shines through and IMO it’s one of the most important things a writer can have ‘cause it’s the fuel for everything else, but also it’s just something that can be *felt* and I always feel your passion in your work and in everything you do. There is so much of the essence of Spidey in your work and that’s a very good thing! There is an inherent value in that, as in you. It is certainly a gift to this fandom.

Anyway anyway I honestly just think you are a natural born storyteller and that’s just something you have to accept. I’m very fortunate to be privy to all the fun ideas you help bring to life over VC. I would gladly listen to you narrate Rotten OT4 fanfic to me. You have good energy and you always make me laugh and I love that I can just interrupt like “OH MY GOD WAIT WHAT IF” and you’re just like “FUCK YES WRITE THAT DOWN” and then we don’t jdklajklsgjlkg but it’s so much fun tbh. Our VCs are probably the reason I haven’t gone completely insane without regular human contact outside my family jkldajkljglsdg. It’s easy to forget we’re in a pandemic with good company.

in true ADHD fashion this has ended up a little left of the point, but you get it, you get it lmao

SO MUCH LOVE ♥️🧡💛💚💙💜

(shout out to tumblr for letting me write essays in people's ask boxes now...... y'all are gonna live to regret this experience jdklajlgjdsklg)

BABE, ILY ♥️🧡💛💚💙💜 

I cannot fully explain how happy it makes me that you think of my fics as a safe space. Like YOUR fics do that for me, they’re like a breath of fresh air that uplift my every mood. whether they’re soft and silly or more indepth and angsty, like you got me and it’s like my own personal library of comfort fics for every occassion and mood. Honestly yeah, we have such good taste in ships and our VCs are one of my absolute favourite things, they always stem the best and most glorious ideas.

Thank you so much, for me - I love all of the different dynamics within the rotten four so much and it’s super important to me to get the balance right and show equal amounts of love to all of the dynamics, even when a specific dynamic is more of a central focus. Like the others don’t just disappear and what compells me the most with ot4 is that they’re all so important to one another and they’re all so interesting in their own right, I’ve read and seen far too much media for poly ships that try and ignore parts of the ship and that’s just not what I’m about. Seriously I keep saying thank you but truly, it means a lot to me that you feel like I write something that offers representation, that’s something so very important to me and it’s so validating to hear that it’s coming across in the intended way.

Have I said this before? Um I love you !!!!!! But seriously, you constantly say how lovely I am but you are such a wonderful person, like I’m so glad we’re friends because you are one of the most kind, genuine and glorious people I know. You are truly fantastic and I feel so blessed to have you in my life 💖💖 💖💖 💖💖 💖💖 

I can’t believe you think I have people skills :’)) I mean...like I try very hard to make sure people feel respected and loved and heard. I try really hard to make sure my friends know how much I care and yes mutuals, you are all my friends and I love you very much! But something that is important to me within my writing is to really show that love and care. So I’m so relieved that that translates well into my writing. Thank you so much, that’s such a high compliment.

(lol side note I now am imagining “essense of Spidey” as a little potions bottle with like a gradient shimmery colour 😂)

I’M NOT CRYING YOU’RE CRYING. You think I’m a natural born storyteller? 🥺 I have so much anxiety when it comes to my own capabilities and this means so much, I can’t even fully take it in but wow just thank you, it means so much more than I can express. Babe, I will gladly narrate ot4 for you any time!

🙈 OMG no, we are the worst when it comes to not writing our ideas down omg dheruhrgefvgvfehwgwvey like I legit just want to record everything on our video chat so I can savour it. We truly have some of the most fantastic ideas and I love crafting them with you, it is legit so much fun and it gives me so much serotonin. I think we need to video chat more!!!!!! Because legit, you make me feel so much better and you just have this way about you, like you are a gift and you radiate such soft and warm energy, like you and your writing and your art and everything are a ray of sunshine that I never thought I deserved.

and you know I love your rambles because oh would you look at that? my reply is just as rambley and I love that for us so, so much. and anyway, I love you very much and reading this made me so happy ♥️🧡💛💚💙💜

[elfyourmother]

Fic Writer Meme

I was tagged by @kunstpause and @elveny

Name

Fandoms

Most popular oneshot

Most popular multichapter

Actual worst part of writing

How you choose your titles

Do you outline

Ideas I probably won’t get around to, but wouldn’t it be nice?

Callouts @ Me

Best writing traits

Spicy Tangential Opinion

Name: Bisho (bc of an ancient blog url), kylenne on AO3 (ancient ancient LJ etc), queensurana on twitter (nsfw acct for spicy crimes). Aurora is my preferred name atm but no one uses it tbh

Fandoms: Final Fantasy XIV is the only one I care about rn. But I write Final Fantasy in general though, emphasis on IV and XII. I don’t fuck w Bioware anymore except Mass Effect (the trilogy) but that and Dr*gon Age is where most people here know me from. I also wrote Warcraft until Blizzard pissed me off so badly that I couldn’t even really engage with my massively overhauled shared WoW canonverse with Dandy anymore.

Most Popular Oneshot: Of all time? First and Last and Always, the Garrus/Thane smut. People really dig that one.

More recently, No Sweeter Warmth, which was a Kinktober prompt about the OT4. It’s pretty much pure me (bathtub smut, polyamory) but there was some really fun banter with Estinien and Haurchefant in this one

Most Popular Multichapter: Of all time? Heart of the Phoenix, my basically abandoned re-write of WoW Burning Crusade, centered on the Illidari (not the demon hunters, fuck Blizzard’s stupid retcons), and specifically through the lens of Kael/Illidan/Vashj’s tumultuous relationship. Every comment I get on this one makes me feel guiltier that it’s still a WIP because I had some really phenomenal world building and character development going on in it and I really miss writing those three characters specifically but I just don’t know if I can ever get into the headspace to do this again. I also had to overhaul the entire first Act and felt overwhelmed by it.

More recently, A Warmer Hearth, which was a much shorter one about how Gisele and Haurchefant got together, in the wake of the Monetarist coup in Ul’dah. Smut and angst and sweetness. It was fun.

Actual Worst Part of Writing: Silencing the inner critic that’s merciless and hateful and sounds an awful lot like my abuser. The perfectionism that paralyzes me.

How You Choose Your Titles: with great agony pain and suffering

Do You Outline? Never. Heart of the Phoenix is the only exception because it was just too massive an undertaking not to, but otherwise I’m one of those write as it comes and let the story take me where it wants to go types. I’m constitutionally incapable of advanced planning when I write.

Ideas I probably won’t get around to, but wouldn’t it be nice? More Gisele/Thancred in general tbqh.

Callouts @ Me: The fact that your work doesn’t fit the popular mold of certain ships and fanons and notions of what’s acceptable doesn’t mean your work is bad or inferior. Having fun is more important than being popular. Being true to yourself and your cherished ideals is what matters, because that’s what you think is fun and authenticity is always what is most gratifying. You have never, ever prospered or felt good about yourself when trying to contort yourself to fit mainstream anything. There is a place for you wherever you make it and you have an audience that deeply appreciates and loves what you do. If you need to write for anyone besides yourself, write for them.

Best writing traits: Banter and ability to capture characters’ voices. Dialogue in general. Dreamy, immersive prose.

Spicy Tangential Opinion: There is absolutely nothing wrong with wanting your OC to be the center of the universe, much less in a game where the Player Character is written that way canonically, and for marginalized OCs written by marginalized people it’s absolutely a revolutionary act of healing and self-love. Centering chromatic (and particularly Black), fat, trans, queer, disabled, etc characters is always going to be a powerful, radical act in a sea of Whiteness. Writing these things will feed your heart. And ultimately that’s what creating is about to me. Feeding myself and others w love.

[ironstrange-is-the-endgame]

002 for ironstrange, clintasha and stucky. Is it too much for the same ask? You can just pick one of them 😁

Three is the magic number, no problems! The only thing is that I don’t ship clintasha romantically so it’ll be a bromantic thing (?)

002 | Ironstrange

when of if I started shipping it: Since 2016, aka when I watched Doctor Strange. At first, it was just because of the Sherlock inception thing. As a lot of you probably know, I’ve a thing about everything related to Sherlock Holmes, to the point when before DBH the only video game I’ve ever played which wasn’t The Sims was a Sherlock Holmes one (and Dante’s Inferno, but I’ve never finished that one). (If you need a confirmation @filvet knows ‘cause I’ve been bothering him with the Sherlock Inception - as I called the ship before - since I found out he was into Marvel). Though I’ve never looked for fics about them until I saw Infinity War. My brother doesn’t have a Tumblr so I can’t tag him, but he was seated by my side at the cinema and he knows that when Tony asks Stephen “why would you do that?” I kind of yelled in his ear “Because I love you, Tony”, which didn’t happen, but it would have been a great line. [sorry for the TMI]

my thoughts: I’ve known since the first moment I watched DS that their characters match wonderfully. And yet, they are different enough to call out each other bullshit and know when, instead, silence is the best way to face things. Another thing that had me immediately going for this ship is that them both know how much is important what they do (maybe for all the wrong reasons, aka proving they are not assholes), but still. They know that the superhero life is their second chance, and they need to prove it to themselves in the first place, and then to the others. 

What makes me happy about them: All the potential banter and intelligent conversation, the possibility of lab scenes like the one with Tony and Bruce from AOU and also how they compensate each other. 

What makes me sad about them: Endgame! 

things done in fanfic that annoys me: Stephen portrayed as the weak one in the relationship, I think. 

things I look for in fanfic: I don’t have preferences, as far as there’s a happy/bittersweet ending. Also seeing their psyche being deeply investigated. They are both so much more than they show, and I love when people go in deep. 

My kinks: breathplay, bondage, D/s, pillow-talk in smutty fics. In general them taking care of each other. 

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Tony with Nat or Bruce (the ot4 is strong here), Stephen with Christine, Nat or Bruce. 

My happily ever after for them: getting old together and happy

002 | Clintasha

when of if I started shipping it: I don’t ship them romantically, but I love their friendship since the first Avenger. 

my thoughts: We probably never have the real story, but I’m super sure that Budapest is more related to Natasha saving Clint that not the other way around. 

What makes me happy about them: the wholesome relationship Nat has with Clint’s family! 

What makes me sad about them: Endgame once again. 

things done in fanfic that annoys me: I never read fics about them

things I look for in fanfic: ^^^

My kinks: Ok, it’s not a kink in the real sense of the word, but I’d like to see them having a one-night-stand when they meet the first time and then deciding they work better as friends and Nat setting Clint up with Laura. 

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Nat with Tony, Bruce or Stephen (or the three of them), Clint with Laura. 

My happily ever after for them: The little scene in AOU having a strong and durable sequel. Like Sunday lunches and Nat in the Bartons’ Christmas pic.

002 | Stucky

when of if I started shipping it: I’ve seen CA:TWA for the first time years after it has been released, so I actually started to ship them during TWS/CW

my thoughts: Is basically the only Steve ship I’ll ever accept because it’s clear that they have had feelings since they were in Brooklin. 

What makes me happy about them: How they never give up on the other. I’d like to see some insight from Bucky’s pov of the time in Wakanda, when Steve was on the run, and they spoke via Skype, but I’m pretty sure this is something rooted deep in them. I also love how when they were younger was Bucky to take care of Steve and then how the things changed after Cap understood Bucky was the Winter Soldier. 

What makes me sad about them: How Steve treated Bucky (and Sam) in Endgame

things done in fanfic that annoys me: While I love them, I’ve never read fics in which they are the main pair, so I can’t tell. 

things I look for in fanfic: I’d love to see a fic in which they, especially Bucky, adapt in a world where same-sex relationships are accepted. 

My kinks: the entire “we have super-serum induced stamina” thing! 

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Bucky (only platonically/not sexually) with Shuri or Tony, Steve with Thor. 

My happily ever after for them: a double date with Sam and Sharon should be included in every possible happy ending. But the “real” one will be the one when Steve keeps being Captain America, but gives Bucky his shield and instead of going back in time decides to move in with him in some nice place in Brooklin. 

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[iamnotbrianmay]

(English is not my native language so umm sorry for any occurring mistakes? > <)

*shuffles awkwardly* Hi dear I come bearing writing prompts? *nervous laughter* I swear initially they were meant to be short descriptions BUT EVERYTHING GOT TOTALLY OUT OF HAND BY THE END. MY GOD THEY’RE SO DAMN LONG NOW. YOU DON’T HAVE TO DO THIS IF YOU DON’T WANT TO (you could take all of them, some of them, one of them or NONE OF THEM ok? Totally fine!) so please don’t feel pressured? :) And you’re welcome to put your own spin on the prompts, pass them onto other writers if they’re interested or to collab with someone else! :D

But seriously though you can also just treat them as littles “stories” from me (aka. your humble little anon fan) to you, intended for your amusement instead of writing requests alright? Sorry to bombard you so suddenly with all this LOL. BTW you’ll see mostly they’re Brian’s POV because that’s just how my brain is wired lol it’s been like that since day 1 I CAN’T HELP IT.

BTW the “His Majesty, KING!” series by chateauofmyheart (I think she’s most known for the Queen + Rare Words series and her Tumblr blog is chateauofmymind) is THE fic that completely changed my perspective on gender swap themes. After reading that I was fascinated by how good it can be in the hands of brilliant writers. Hence all you’re reading right now ahahahaha it’s like a floodgate been opened LOL.

Alright? Here we go with the first one - Modern day!AU, Poly!Fem!Queen(King) with supernatural elements? (I’m still gonna use male names and pronouns here to avoid confusion but at the same time it’s also because of I wanna see what female names you’d bestow upon them! Surprise me then? :D) Brian always has a connection with the “spiritual side” since he was a kid, sometimes he sees auras, energies, spirits and even on very rare occasions, deities. But it’s not as glamour as it sounds and he has learned the hard way to keep this solely to himself since no one will believe him. And to pretend to be “normal” is very important since not everything he sees is harmless, he has to find ways to avoid being haunted by evil beings, but it doesn’t always work; More often than not his health or mood is affected or he’s chased and stalked and has terrible nightmares hence the insomnia. By the time he got to college, though things still got really bad every once in a while but it felt like he has finally beginning to have situations under some semblance of control. Strangely, all these seemed to largely improved right after he became friends with Roger, Freddie and John, BUT inconveniently started pining after them real quick. His usual tactics were to keep his distance from the people around him but this time he’s drawn to them, feeling oddly alone when they’re not together; How sad is that? Falling in love for the first time in his life yet knowing there’s just no way it’s gonna end happily, but they don’t need to know that it’s fine he’s used to being the outcast. Although his first meetings with each of them does feel a little unusual? They sure are a weird bunch for example, who would own so many of candles? And why so many talismans as well? (Very beautiful though all seems to be handmade perhaps they’re just into DIY stuffs and craftsmanship?) Also the look they gave him? Gleam in their eyes akin to excitement and awe, almost predatory in a sense? Not to mention all those cryptic sentences and meaningful glances shared between the three. It sounds crazy but sometimes they gave off such strong “witchy” vibes as if they’re actual witches like the ones in the movies or something (NOT the Harry Potter kind but more like, The Craft? But in a good way?), that being said Brian does have this distinct feeling that they’re in on some kind of secret which he’s not a part of and it makes him feel a bit sad and left out, but he hides his feelings well(me: or so he thinks haha we’re all familiar with this trope yeah? MOVING ON LOL). These three are lovely together, but Brian’s afraid of screwing things up so he kept his mouth shut and just took whatever he can get. Plot twist LOL one night after a horrible near-death incident (caused by a horrendous curse aimed directly at him and much later on he learned that somehow it was powerful enough to break through the “protection ring” which Roger, Freddie and John had cast around him, WTH?!), he’s eventually saved by the other three and now he really wants some answers and perhaps the truth. It turns out that they’re all actual witches with different abilities and incredible powers including the oblivious Brian, Roger, Freddie and John had known this their entire life and all had proper training except for Brian who isn’t from a witchcraft family. Basically the other three have being protecting and guarding him ever since they’ve met (even though he doesn’t know a damn thing about his own gifts, they were very adamant that he belongs to them and their own “coven”). The four of them actually formed one of the most powerful witch coven ever and the curse was cast by another malicious one that’s jealous and afraid of how powerful they’re going to be once Brian realizes his own gifts, so they tried to get rid of him first. Cue a happy Poly!Fem!OT4 ending and a love confession + getting together yeah? :D And they all work on helping Brian to develop and harness his own powers. Love youuuu. (BTW I’m “obsessed” with Gothic aesthetics and vibes. This seems to be the perfect universe for this type of element to shine right? :D Literally everything ranging from character styles to witchcraft tools could be incorporate with it but I don’t think I did a good job in describing. Orz)

And off to the second prompt now! Shall we? :) Modern day!AU, Poly!Fem!Queen(King)? (Or no gender swap is fine too! Again I’m still using male names and pronouns here same reasons as above), It’s around 20:00 when Brian exited his plane. This past one month period of astronomy conference had been an opportunity of a life time and literally one of his biggest dreams. It’s a huge honor for him to be able to participate but after being away from his three lovers for so long, he does miss them terribly; The schedule of the conference is quite hectic and irregular with very little down time though the four of them do try to facetime or skype each other as often as they can, it still is nothing like being with each other in person, not to mention they’re all busy and more often than not had to resort to just texting in their group chat. His heart now flutters happily thinking about home and them. Just as when he’s about to call for a taxi someone’s hand came up around his waist – it’s John! And apparently John had arranged in advance for some people to come and take care of Brian’s luggage, Him however, remains firmly tucked by Brian’s side. Though they’re both not too keen on PDA Brian finds the urge to kiss him incredibly strong right now. John seems to be the same considering the heat in his eyes and if his smirk is anything to go by - “Wanna go for a ride? Our new car’s pretty neat.” “The one that Roger picked?” “Yeah.” “He agreed that you can drive it?” “Well he’s going to have to since the car keys’ being nicked.” “Oh my god John you stole Roger’s car keys?!” “It’s OUR car so technically it’s not stealing.” TBH John’s expression right now is kinda turning him on okay calm down deep breath they’re still in public god damn it. John proceed to guided Brian towards their ride and it is indeed a beautiful car. While John drove Brian asked Roger and Freddie’s whereabouts and got a mysterious smile and a vague “you’ll see” instead. It’s getting quite late and there’s not much traffic on the road so John might be speeding up a bit to enjoy the thrill. Normally Brian would fret over this but now he’s just happy, content and relaxed after coming home and reuniting with his lovers. He even let out an excited little shout and rolled down the window a bit to enjoy the night breeze when John sped up, which John beamed at him. “This isn’t our way home?” “We’re not going home yet.” “And are you gonna tell me where we’re heading?” “You’ll see.” Again with that cryptic-John-smile. They continue to drive up and deep into the mountains and eventually stoping at a lovely camping site with an elegant looking villa, John explained that they’ve booked this whole area exclusively for the next couple of days; They’ve missed him and all wanted to spend some alone time with each other. The weather is nice so it’s a clear starry night sky above and there’s a small bonfire crackling along with Roger and Freddie’s laughter, who are currently sitting beside it. Brian leaned over to John, planting a chaste kiss on his lips and whispered his thanks but apparently John had something else in mind. As soon as Brian began to pull back John shot out his hands and tugged on Brian’s hair just the way he knows how he likes it, that forced a surprised whimper out of Brian’s mouth and John took the opportunity to practically devour him with hungry kisses and tongue. Things heat up fast and Brian’s soft moans quickly became louder as John wasted no time opening up his shirt, caressing all over his chest and pinching his nipples. Brian let out a high-pitched yelp as John bit on his earlobe suddenly and at the same time dipped his hand into his underwear. Then Freddie showed up knocking disapprovingly on the car door window: “Tsk tsk starting without us already? That’s rude darling!.” Hearing this John let go of Brian’s lips, beamed at Freddie and opened the car door but didn’t retrieve his hand. Brian, now flushed and disheveled, looked up and gave Freddie a sheepish smile but abruptly let out another whimper as John started moving his fingers. He bit his lips in embarrassment, trying to contain his noise but quickly released them as John growled, demanding to hear his voice. Seeing this Freddie smirked and quickly bent down, grabbing Brian’s face and pulling him into another round of passionate and possessive kisses, full of teeth and tongue. “Oi! Stealing my car now John?! Wanker.” Roger appeared scowling but John just laughed and so does Freddie, letting go of Brian’s lips. Brian blinked a few times, willing his now distracted brain to focus on locating Roger and wordlessly held out his hands, beckoning him closer. Roger moved nearer and hummed his appreciation at the current sight on display, taking hold of both of Brian’s wrists with one hand, ran his other one over Brian’s exposed chest and suddenly pinched his nipple perfectly in time with John, who’s fingers just did something amazing inside Brian’s underwear. Brian moaned loudly and arched his back, feeling his orgasm approaching embarrassingly fast but soon let out a confused whimper when he felt John retrieving his touches. Roger laughed, nuzzled behind his ears and growled, “Only if you beg prettily enough.” Then he tugged him up and gestured towards the villa. “Let’s go and make good use of that giant bed.” Freddie nodded, agreeing with Roger, eyes drinking in the sight in front of him and licked his lips. “I’ll put out the bonfire then. Don’t start anything fun without me!” He kissed Brian once more, heatedly and full of promises of more to come, bit his lips playfully and quickly head towards the fire. “I was gonna make him come once before we go inside but your idea is quite tempting.” John smirked at Roger. “Will you do as Roger says love? Beg prettily for us? Should we allow you to come at all?” “Pleasepleaseplease.” Brian could only whimper, already feeling the familiar heavenly float that could only come from being cared for by his lovers. “Good boy. We’re gonna take such good care of you now, you can let go.” Roger began running his hand through Brian’s hair alongside with John, waiting for Freddie to return. Cue a steamy, sexy and loving Poly!Fem!(or not fem)OT4 night yeah? And there may or may not be a huge jacuzzi in the villa that they all made good use of. <3333

Okay now prompt number 3 is the standard type that one usually gets in their askbox if a writer is open for requests - Your take on in the Poly!Queen universe how would Freddie persuaded/convinced/forced?(XD) Brian to play harp for Love of My Life (and why Brian specifically? Besides all the rational reasons for him to be that person, you might be able to come up with something that’s outside the box? :D) and how the whole “Brian eventually constructed the song from piano onto acoustic guitar for live performances” business came about? Do you ever wonder why it’s not Freddie on the piano playing and singing like what he’s done with other songs? Or why not Brian on the piano while Freddie sings like the beginning of their live performances for Save Me? (AGAIN besides all the rational reasons behind it I’m still interested in your take. :P Have you read that Brian’s interview in which he says he thinks Freddie sees him as his own personal Jimi Hendrix and basically said that they’re gonna do this together? And those early year interviews regarding their album A Night at the Opera in which Freddie said he’s gonna make Brian play the harp until his hands drop off LOL and how Freddie describe the harp as the big thingy that angels play? Yeah Freddie we know that Brian’s your angel and SOUL BROTHER ahhhh I’m making myself emotional now QQ)

Ready for prompt number 4? Last one for now haha I think my brain is drying up lol. It just shows how amazing writers are! I salute you! You are wonderful. <333 Poly!Queen? Hot Space!Era (AUish)?, starting with them having a really rough time in the studio and it had been going on for quite a while (Prenter’s presence and words definitely didn’t help. It only gets worse and for some reason Brian has this feeling that he’s been singled out as target) and a particularly nasty fight broke out one day and even more unfortunate is that the fight got personal. And of course it has something to do with the infamous diss track: Back Chat (the fandom seems to think this song is aimed at Brian? though we will never know the truth ummm), Brian left the studio in the end (bitterly he denies the voices in his head calling him a coward for running away. He just wanted some fresh air, and maybe some alcohol in a bar that his bandmates do not frequent so he wouldn’t be found). Somehow, a band that’s also on the rise of fame managed to track him down while he was trying to numb himself quickly by getting plastered. They then offered a pretty sweet deal of him leaving Queen (“Since they don’t seem to love you anymore.” One of them murmured softly to him and hearing this is like been stabbed through the heart.) and joining them instead, not just as the song writer and lead guitarist but also as the lead vocalist of the band, basically saying that he could have everything; Strangely, it turns out that they actually had some “inside information” regarding of what’s been going on in Queen and had been following for a while, all of them keen on taking Brian’s side. Through the drunken fog in his brain his heart sank. Queen has already established the reputation of being a tight unit especially after their success, generally people respect their close bond with each other so there hasn’t been any “headhunting” propositions for a VERY long time; The fact of it appearing again now out of all times only brought out senses of dread, thoughts immediately heading to a dark place in which all the worst-case scenarios resides: is this actually his bandmates asking him to leave through a third party? Are they so fed up with him that they couldn’t even stand to break the news in person? Is this them breaking up with him? He’s suddenly so cold and dizzy that he started swaying unsteadily, the band then quickly offered to bring him back to their own brand-new recording studio for a tour and maybe some rest. Feeling drunk and resigned Brian just watched silently with half lidded eyes as they maneuvered him out of his seat. As they were about to usher him out of the bar suddenly all motion stopped as the band abruptly came face to face with Roger (eyes narrowed and fists balled, obviously fuming), Freddie (seemingly nonchalant with raised eyebrow but his coiled muscles as if ready for a fight totally says otherwise) and John (his face somehow even more unreadable than usual, eyes glinting ominously). Sensing the atmosphere shift, those who were around Brian all collectively took a step back and for some unknown reason, a few guilty looks appeared on some of their faces. Brian started swaying again without the support and Freddie quickly appeared besides Brian, wrapping tightly around him and helped carrying his weight. However, still feeling angry and devasted Brian tried to wriggle out of his embrace but found himself drunk and too slow and did not have the strength at to pry open Freddie’s “iron grip” at all (yeah how could he forget that Freddie is in fact a damn good athlete and a boxer, John also joined him in the gym these days these two often had great fun together). Sensing Brian’s struggle Freddie only wordlessly tightens his hold; Brian eventually gave up trying to get free after a few attempts instead just bit his lips (nervous habit kicking in now) and looked away, unwilling to face his three bandmates and lovers. “Where the hell do you think you’re taking OUR guitarist to?” Roger snarled, also coming up besides Freddie to help supporting Brian. After a quick check up on him, he frowned when he found that Brian’s skin is cold and clammy. “It’s great that you guys want to look out for OUR Brimi, but we’ll take it from here now.” There’s a storm brewing behind Freddie’s eyes, dismissal clear in his voice. Yet in the same time he’s very mindful of the drunk Brian now stiffly resides in his and Roger’s arms, careful to not cause him anymore physical discomfort. “It seems that a certain rat has been feeding you all kinds of information on us? Things that he’s not supposed to pry and definitely not supposed to blab about?” With a dark edge to his voice, John stepped forward, staring down at the few guilty faces in front of him, smiling cold and sharp. “Well he’s not around anymore, make of that what you will.” Slowly Brian blinked up at John through his drunken haze in surprise, it has to be Prenter that they’re talking about, right? But how— “Let’s get back to the hotel, Bri’s not feeling so well.” Roger grunted, tugging the other three out of the bar impatiently, his hold on Brian is steadfast and unwavering. “Come on guys, get in the car.” “Please come back with us Brimi? We know that you’re still hurting but I promise you, we’re gonna get through this together, alright?” Well now that’s just unfair, Freddie’s bringing out his nickname now in that soft tone AND looking at him like he’s something precious, really not fair at all. Brian could only nod, not trusting his voice yet but Freddie beamed brightly at him. “I’m sorry, baby. We’ll all have a long talk and fill you in on the details of Prenter after you get some rest okay?.” Now that’s just cheating. They’re in the car now and John’s petting his hair oh so gently, expertly lulling him to sleep. Cue the OT4!boys have a long hard talk about EVERYTHING and their relationship that involves lots of shouting, bitching, bickering, crying, apologizing and making up! HAPPY ENDINGS HELL YEAH and the other three explained how the whole Prenter thing came to light and with evidence, they fired him immediately. Also John may or may not have “convinced” (“I’d say threatened is more like it.” Roger snickered.) the other band’s manager to give up the location of the bar that they had sooo enthusiastically called him from, exclaiming Brian May’s about to quit Queen and join them and that they were trying to bring him back to the studio now.

I hope these brightened your day? Maybe if I’m lucky enough they could inspire you a bit? Perhaps they could be accepted as your writing prompts? :P Anyway I love you! Have a beautiful day and life hon. <333

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Also, you have a surprise coming for you in the next few days so stay vigilant of that!

[verycharismaticdragon]

juliankatzen replied to your post “Venom (2018) is a Romcom, and here’s why (or ”in this essay I will”...”

I’d like to see your thoughts on Venom’s feelings towards the ex girlfriend. Like when he admits he likes her, and then jokes with Eddie about how “we are going to win her back.” In my mind, it’s a poly romcom and I dig it.

First things first: Venom is absolutely polyamorous and bi, and loves Anne almost as much as he does Eddie. And that’s absolutely valid because a) Anne is amazing and b) as an alien, there’s no reason symbiote should be anything other than poly and bi.

That said, I love that Eddie, as well as the narrative of the movie as a whole*, respects Anne’s right to:

be angry - not once did anything imply that she was unreasonable in leaving him;

move on - there was no shade thrown regarding the new boyfriend and he survived (aka wasn’t punished by the narrative for " “stealing" “ main guy’s girl)

and (my favorite one)

that she’s allowed to both care about Eddie and not get back into relationship with him

Like, don’t get me wrong, I love poly-ship content (and double love it if it also includes Dan because he’s honestly a good dude and deserves nice things). I would not mind in the slightest if that is the direction future movies go in!

But at the same time it’s extremely good and important that Anne gets a choice in this, and her decision to not rekindle the relationship is valid as hell. Eddie seriously violated her trust, and really didn’t earn it back yet. And if he does in the future, that still doesn’t mean she owes him the relationship. "The guy hurts the girl, the guy does something heroic, the guy wins the girl back” narrative is severely overdone. I’m really glad they didn’t make her insta-forgive Eddie because he and Venom saved the planet, you know?

I believe both the poly concept and the “it’s Anne’s choice” concept are valuable and worth talking about (and they aren’t mutually exclusive either). On one hand, it’s fantastic that Venom is clearly polyamorous, and getting a honest to god poly relationship on the big screen would be wonderful. At the same time, female character getting to choose her relationship, instead of being a prize the guy gets for behaving himself? Very, very compelling as well. 

As an aside, I really like that the movie is deliberately ambiguous on whether or not Anne still has feelings for Eddie - it would be awfully easy for them to use Venom being in her head to go “oh actually! she still loves Eddie so it doesn’t matter what she says he can still go after her”, which would be toxic as shit, thankfully they don’t pull that.

In the end, it’s a matter of which narrative appeals to you personally. I lean slightly towards “Anne doesn’t come back” one myself, but every single one of you who supports the ot3 (or ot4)? You are valid and I’m glad you are in this fandom. 

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* not counting that Stan Lee cameo, which is jarring as fuck (but not surprisingly so considering it’s a guy who openly talks shit about bi people)

[mari-monsta]

DnD ot4 Headcanons

Here’s some DnD ot4 headcanons brought to you by me and @megatraven who have never played DnD once in our lives. (and a short cameo from kellybuggachat)

Nino: would have some kind of magician guy, who knows cool spells and stuff

Marinette: would have a normal person but she punches really well

Alya: would make some crazy character whose super cunning and smart with a complex backstory and has all these weird abilities

Adrien: would make some dumbass furry character with a tragic backstory like a classic protag type, his guy is basically chat noir but like more extra, maybe a little bit mary sue.

nino: hmm magic is super rad i want a dude who can do wicked spells

adrien: I want to mash every cool protagonist I’ve ever related to together into one guy and that’s me

Adrien and marinette just FLIRT all game but like COMPLETELY unconsciously, and nino and alya are LOSIN IT!!!! Then by the end of the game they’re like accidentally fucking married or something probably because alya is the DM.

adrien's moves always involve him either:

a) doing something dumb

b) doing something dumb but for the sake of a pun

c) doing something dumb for the sake of one of his teammates

d) doing something just for the sake of doing it

adrien's always the one who tries to seduce the monster first, he fails his roles like 80% of the time

Adrien, with his HUGE brain: Adrien can’t be sassy and funny but his fictional DnD character can and NO ONE WILL KNOW

alya, nino, and marinette, who are sitting in the same room with him, roles their eyes as he attempts to first verbally assault the monster, and then try to seduce it, in that order: who knew adrien was this much of a fucking dumbass

(meg:)

 adrien: I roll to burn the orc

alya: 20!

adrien, in character: not even a mother could love that face

and then there’s marinette, whose DnD character is like, completely normal, except that she REFUSES to ever be mean to anyone, shes that person who cries if they pick the mean option in the video games bc she cant be mean TO THESE GENEROUS FICITONAL PEOPLE. But then in battles or whatever she always comes up with these super complicated moves that are like 7 layers of strategy, and alya is like "marinette wtf that'll never work" but then she roles for it and almost ALWAYS sticks her roles and alya is just??? HOW CAN SOMEONE HAVE THIS MUCH LUCK GOING INTO THEIR ROLES??

and because of that this completely normal pacifist girl DnD character going into fights with like large orc monsters and either manages to charm them into good almost every time, or PUNCH them so hard with her crit roles she one shots them and they are defeated on impact

adrien and alya both make their characters extremely sexy

nino makes his character reasonably sexy

mari's character is the least sexy but somehow she winds up charming the most people

marinette REFUSES to make her character specifically sexy bc she insists she doesn’t CARE but she still roles crit on every charm role

(meg:)

adrien who couldn’t seduce the dragon even w/ a crit 20 roll: fuck :(

marinette who did seduce the dragon after giving it a quick sketch she did of it: fuck :)

adrien and alya however?? they're SUPER sexy. dripping in sexy. they can never out charm marinette.

it s hilarious and everyone becomes just a little pissed at BOTH of them bc adrien always wastes his roles doing super dumb things, and when he actually roles for something important he always misses but he gets crit roles on his pun roles. Marinette however almost ALWAYS lands her roles,

so everyone is either pissed at adrien for being a huge fucking dumbass and not helping AT ALL or mad at marinette for lands all her roles and ARE YOU SURE YOU'RE NOT CHEATING

(meg:)

adrien: i roll to dodge the two swords swinging at me

alya: 1

adrien: shit... i roll to make one last pun before i die

alya: ......... 20

Kelly: Marinette goes into dnd all intimidated that she might do something dumb and Adrien would judge her for it but then it turns out to be the opposite

adrien on his very first role in the game: "I run into you guys drinking ale at a bar, I am chatting up the bartender when you come through the door, I turn and smile and you are blown away by my charm and good looks, I role to make a really clever and pun

[deaky-disco-queen]

(English is not my native language so umm sorry for any occurring mistakes? > <)

*shuffles awkwardly* Hi dear I come bearing writing prompts? *nervous laughter* I swear initially they were meant to be short descriptions BUT EVERYTHING GOT TOTALLY OUT OF HAND BY THE END. MY GOD THEY’RE SO DAMN LONG NOW. YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO THIS IF YOU DON'T WANT TO (you could take all of them, some of them, one of them or NONE OF THEM ok? Totally fine!) so please don’t feel pressured? :) And you’re welcome to put your own spin on the prompts, pass them onto other writers if they’re interested or to collab with someone else! :D

But seriously though you can also just treat them as littles “stories” from me (aka. your humble little anon fan) to you, intended for your amusement instead of writing requests alright? Sorry to bombard you so suddenly with all this LOL. BTW you’ll see mostly they’re Brian’s POV because that’s just how my brain is wired lol it’s been like that since day 1 I CAN’T HELP IT.

BTW the “His Majesty, KING!” series by chateauofmyheart (I think she’s most known for the Queen + Rare Words series and her Tumblr blog is chateauofmymind) is THE fic that completely changed my perspective on gender swap themes. After reading that I was fascinated by how good it can be in the hands of brilliant writers. Hence all you’re reading right now ahahahaha it’s like a floodgate been opened LOL.

Alright? Here we go with the first one -

Modern day!AU, Poly!Fem!Queen(King) with supernatural elements? (I’m still gonna use male names and pronouns here to avoid confusion but at the same time it’s also because of I wanna see what female names you’d bestow upon them! Surprise me then? :D) Brian always has a connection with the “spiritual side” since he was a kid, sometimes he sees auras, energies, spirits and even on very rare occasions, deities. But it's not as glamour as it sounds and he has learned the hard way to keep this solely to himself since no one will believe him. And to pretend to be "normal" is very important since not everything he sees is harmless, he has to find ways to avoid being haunted by evil beings, but it doesn't always work; More often than not his health or mood is affected or he's chased and stalked and has terrible nightmares hence the insomnia.

By the time he got to college, though things still got really bad every once in a while but it felt like he has finally beginning to have situations under some semblance of control. Strangely, all these seemed to largely improved right after he became friends with Roger, Freddie and John, BUT inconveniently started pining after them real quick. His usual tactics were to keep his distance from the people around him but this time he’s drawn to them, feeling oddly alone when they’re not together; How sad is that? Falling in love for the first time in his life yet knowing there’s just no way it’s gonna end happily, but they don't need to know that it's fine he's used to being the outcast. Although his first meetings with each of them does feel a little unusual? They sure are a weird bunch for example, who would own so many of candles? And why so many talismans as well? (Very beautiful though all seems to be handmade perhaps they’re just into DIY stuffs and craftsmanship?) Also the look they gave him? Gleam in their eyes akin to excitement and awe, almost predatory in a sense? Not to mention all those cryptic sentences and meaningful glances shared between the three.

It sounds crazy but sometimes they gave off such strong "witchy" vibes as if they're actual witches like the ones in the movies or something (NOT the Harry Potter kind but more like, The Craft? But in a good way?), that being said Brian does have this distinct feeling that they're in on some kind of secret which he's not a part of and it makes him feel a bit sad and left out, but he hides his feelings well(me: or so he thinks haha we’re all familiar with this trope yeah? MOVING ON LOL). These three are lovely together, but Brian’s afraid of screwing things up so he kept his mouth shut and just took whatever he can get.

Plot twist LOL one night after a horrible near-death incident (caused by a horrendous curse aimed directly at him and much later on he learned that somehow it was powerful enough to break through the “protection ring” which Roger, Freddie and John had cast around him, WTH?!), he's eventually saved by the other three and now he really wants some answers and perhaps the truth.

It turns out that they're all actual witches with different abilities and incredible powers including the oblivious Brian, Roger, Freddie and John had known this their entire life and all had proper training except for Brian who isn't from a witchcraft family. Basically the other three have being protecting and guarding him ever since they've met (even though he doesn’t know a damn thing about his own gifts, they were very adamant that he belongs to them and their own “coven”). The four of them actually formed one of the most powerful witch coven ever and the curse was cast by another malicious one that's jealous and afraid of how powerful they're going to be once Brian realizes his own gifts, so they tried to get rid of him first.

Cue a happy Poly!Fem!OT4 ending and a love confession + getting together yeah? :D And they all work on helping Brian to develop and harness his own powers. Love youuuu. (BTW I’m “obsessed” with Gothic aesthetics and vibes. This seems to be the perfect universe for this type of element to shine right? :D Literally everything ranging from character styles to witchcraft tools could be incorporate with it but I don’t think I did a good job in describing. Orz)

And off to the second prompt now! Shall we? :)

Modern day!AU, Poly!Fem!Queen(King)? (Or no gender swap is fine too! Again I’m still using male names and pronouns here same reasons as above), It’s around 20:00 when Brian exited his plane. This past one month period of astronomy conference had been an opportunity of a life time and literally one of his biggest dreams. It’s a huge honor for him to be able to participate but after being away from his three lovers for so long, he does miss them terribly; The schedule of the conference is quite hectic and irregular with very little down time though the four of them do try to facetime or skype each other as often as they can, it still is nothing like being with each other in person, not to mention they’re all busy and more often than not had to resort to just texting in their group chat. His heart now flutters happily thinking about home and them.

Just as when he’s about to call for a taxi someone’s hand came up around his waist – it’s John! And apparently John had arranged in advance for some people to come and take care of Brian’s luggage, Him however, remains firmly tucked by Brian’s side. Though they’re both not too keen on PDA Brian finds the urge to kiss him incredibly strong right now. John seems to be the same considering the heat in his eyes and if his smirk is anything to go by -

“Wanna go for a ride? Our new car’s pretty neat.”

“The one that Roger picked?”

“Yeah.”

“He agreed that you can drive it?”

“Well he’s going to have to since the car keys’ being nicked.”

“Oh my god John you stole Roger’s car keys?!”

“It’s OUR car so technically it’s not stealing.” TBH John’s expression right now is kinda turning him on okay calm down deep breath they’re still in public god damn it.

John proceed to guided Brian towards their ride and it is indeed a beautiful car. While John drove Brian asked Roger and Freddie’s whereabouts and got a mysterious smile and a vague “you’ll see” instead. It’s getting quite late and there’s not much traffic on the road so John might be speeding up a bit to enjoy the thrill. Normally Brian would fret over this but now he’s just happy, content and relaxed after coming home and reuniting with his lovers. He even let out an excited little shout and rolled down the window a bit to enjoy the night breeze when John sped up, which John beamed at him.

“This isn’t our way home?”

“We’re not going home yet.”

“And are you gonna tell me where we’re heading?”

“You’ll see.” Again with that cryptic-John-smile.

They continue to drive up and deep into the mountains and eventually stoping at a lovely camping site with an elegant looking villa, John explained that they’ve booked this whole area exclusively for the next couple of days; They’ve missed him and all wanted to spend some alone time with each other. The weather is nice so it’s a clear starry night sky above and there’s a small bonfire crackling along with Roger and Freddie’s laughter, who are currently sitting beside it. Brian leaned over to John, planting a chaste kiss on his lips and whispered his thanks but apparently John had something else in mind.

As soon as Brian began to pull back John shot out his hands and tugged on Brian’s hair just the way he knows how he likes it, that forced a surprised whimper out of Brian’s mouth and John took the opportunity to practically devour him with hungry kisses and tongue. Things heat up fast and Brian’s soft moans quickly became louder as John wasted no time opening up his shirt, caressing all over his chest and pinching his nipples. Brian let out a high-pitched yelp as John bit on his earlobe suddenly and at the same time dipped his hand into his underwear. Then Freddie showed up knocking disapprovingly on the car door window: “Tsk tsk starting without us already? That’s rude darling!.” Hearing this John let go of Brian’s lips, beamed at Freddie and opened the car door but didn’t retrieve his hand. Brian, now flushed and disheveled, looked up and gave Freddie a sheepish smile but abruptly let out another whimper as John started moving his fingers. He bit his lips in embarrassment, trying to contain his noise but quickly released them as John growled, demanding to hear his voice. Seeing this Freddie smirked and quickly bent down, grabbing Brian’s face and pulling him into another round of passionate and possessive kisses, full of teeth and tongue. “Oi! Stealing my car now John?! Wanker.” Roger appeared scowling but John just laughed and so does Freddie, letting go of Brian’s lips. Brian blinked a few times, willing his now distracted brain to focus on locating Roger and wordlessly held out his hands, beckoning him closer. Roger moved nearer and hummed his appreciation at the current sight on display, taking hold of both of Brian’s wrists with one hand, ran his other one over Brian’s exposed chest and suddenly pinched his nipple perfectly in time with John, who’s fingers just did something amazing inside Brian’s underwear. Brian moaned loudly and arched his back, feeling his orgasm approaching embarrassingly fast but soon let out a confused whimper when he felt John retrieving his touches. Roger laughed, nuzzled behind his ears and growled, “Only if you beg prettily enough.” Then he tugged him up and gestured towards the villa. “Let’s go and make good use of that giant bed.” Freddie nodded, agreeing with Roger, eyes drinking in the sight in front of him and licked his lips. “I’ll put out the bonfire then. Don’t start anything fun without me!” He kissed Brian once more, heatedly and full of promises of more to come, bit his lips playfully and quickly head towards the fire. “I was gonna make him come once before we go inside but your idea is quite tempting.” John smirked at Roger. “Will you do as Roger says love? Beg prettily for us? Should we allow you to come at all?” “Pleasepleaseplease.” Brian could only whimper, already feeling the familiar heavenly float that could only come from being cared for by his lovers. “Good boy. We’re gonna take such good care of you now, you can let go.” Roger began running his hand through Brian’s hair alongside with John, waiting for Freddie to return.

Cue a steamy, sexy and loving Poly!Fem!(or not fem)OT4 night yeah? And there may or may not be a huge jacuzzi in the villa that they all made good use of. <3333

Okay now prompt number 3 is the standard type that one usually gets in their askbox if a writer is open for requests - Your take on in the Poly!Queen universe how would Freddie persuaded/convinced/forced?(XD) Brian to play harp for Love of My Life (and why Brian specifically? Besides all the rational reasons for him to be that person, you might be able to come up with something that’s outside the box? :D) and how the whole “Brian eventually constructed the song from piano onto acoustic guitar for live performances” business came about? Do you ever wonder why it’s not Freddie on the piano playing and singing like what he’s done with other songs? Or why not Brian on the piano while Freddie sings like the beginning of their live performances for Save Me? (AGAIN besides all the rational reasons behind it I’m still interested in your take. :P Have you read that Brian’s interview in which he says he thinks Freddie sees him as his own personal Jimi Hendrix and basically said that they’re gonna do this together? And those early year interviews regarding their album A Night at the Opera in which Freddie said he’s gonna make Brian play the harp until his hands drop off LOL and how Freddie describe the harp as the big thingy that angels play? Yeah Freddie we know that Brian’s your angel and SOUL BROTHER ahhhh I’m making myself emotional now QQ)

Ready for prompt number 4? Last one for now haha I think my brain is drying up lol. It just shows how amazing writers are! I salute you! You are wonderful. <333

Poly!Queen? Hot Space!Era (AUish)?, starting with them having a really rough time in the studio and it had been going on for quite a while (Prenter’s presence and words definitely didn’t help. It only gets worse and for some reason Brian has this feeling that he’s been singled out as target) and a particularly nasty fight broke out one day and even more unfortunate is that the fight got personal. And of course it has something to do with the infamous diss track: Back Chat (the fandom seems to think this song is aimed at Brian? though we will never know the truth ummm), Brian left the studio in the end (bitterly he denies the voices in his head calling him a coward for running away. He just wanted some fresh air, and maybe some alcohol in a bar that his bandmates do not frequent so he wouldn’t be found). Somehow, a band that’s also on the rise of fame managed to track him down while he was trying to numb himself quickly by getting plastered. They then offered a pretty sweet deal of him leaving Queen (“Since they don’t seem to love you anymore.” One of them murmured softly to him and hearing this is like been stabbed through the heart.) and joining them instead, not just as the song writer and lead guitarist but also as the lead vocalist of the band, basically saying that he could have everything; Strangely, it turns out that they actually had some "inside information" regarding of what's been going on in Queen and had been following for a while, all of them keen on taking Brian's side. Through the drunken fog in his brain his heart sank. Queen has already established the reputation of being a tight unit especially after their success, generally people respect their close bond with each other so there hasn’t been any “headhunting” propositions for a VERY long time; The fact of it appearing again now out of all times only brought out senses of dread, thoughts immediately heading to a dark place in which all the worst-case scenarios resides: is this actually his bandmates asking him to leave through a third party? Are they so fed up with him that they couldn’t even stand to break the news in person? Is this them breaking up with him? He’s suddenly so cold and dizzy that he started swaying unsteadily, the band then quickly offered to bring him back to their own brand-new recording studio for a tour and maybe some rest. Feeling drunk and resigned Brian just watched silently with half lidded eyes as they maneuvered him out of his seat. As they were about to usher him out of the bar suddenly all motion stopped as the band abruptly came face to face with Roger (eyes narrowed and fists balled, obviously fuming), Freddie (seemingly nonchalant with raised eyebrow but his coiled muscles as if ready for a fight totally says otherwise) and John (his face somehow even more unreadable than usual, eyes glinting ominously). Sensing the atmosphere shift, those who were around Brian all collectively took a step back and for some unknown reason, a few guilty looks appeared on some of their faces. Brian started swaying again without the support and Freddie quickly appeared besides Brian, wrapping tightly around him and helped carrying his weight. However, still feeling angry and devasted Brian tried to wriggle out of his embrace but found himself drunk and too slow and did not have the strength at to pry open Freddie’s “iron grip” at all (yeah how could he forget that Freddie is in fact a damn good athlete and a boxer, John also joined him in the gym these days these two often had great fun together). Sensing Brian’s struggle Freddie only wordlessly tightens his hold; Brian eventually gave up trying to get free after a few attempts instead just bit his lips (nervous habit kicking in now) and looked away, unwilling to face his three bandmates and lovers.

“Where the hell do you think you’re taking OUR guitarist to?” Roger snarled, also coming up besides Freddie to help supporting Brian. After a quick check up on him, he frowned when he found that Brian’s skin is cold and clammy.

“It’s great that you guys want to look out for OUR Brimi, but we’ll take it from here now.” There’s a storm brewing behind Freddie’s eyes, dismissal clear in his voice. Yet in the same time he’s very mindful of the drunk Brian now stiffly resides in his and Roger’s arms, careful to not cause him anymore physical discomfort.

“It seems that a certain rat has been feeding you all kinds of information on us? Things that he’s not supposed to pry and definitely not supposed to blab about?” With a dark edge to his voice, John stepped forward, staring down at the few guilty faces in front of him, smiling cold and sharp. “Well he’s not around anymore, make of that what you will.” Slowly Brian blinked up at John through his drunken haze in surprise, it has to be Prenter that they’re talking about, right? But how—

“Let’s get back to the hotel, Bri’s not feeling so well.” Roger grunted, tugging the other three out of the bar impatiently, his hold on Brian is steadfast and unwavering. “Come on guys, get in the car.”

“Please come back with us Brimi? We know that you’re still hurting but I promise you, we’re gonna get through this together, alright?” Well now that’s just unfair, Freddie’s bringing out his nickname now in that soft tone AND looking at him like he’s something precious, really not fair at all. Brian could only nod, not trusting his voice yet but Freddie beamed brightly at him.

“I’m sorry, baby. We’ll all have a long talk and fill you in on the details of Prenter after you get some rest okay?.” Now that’s just cheating. They’re in the car now and John’s petting his hair oh so gently, expertly lulling him to sleep.

Cue the OT4!boys have a long hard talk about EVERYTHING and their relationship that involves lots of shouting, bitching, bickering, crying, apologizing and making up! HAPPY ENDINGS HELL YEAH and the other three explained how the whole Prenter thing came to light and with evidence, they fired him immediately. Also John may or may not have “convinced” (“I’d say threatened is more like it.” Roger snickered.) the other band’s manager to give up the location of the bar that they had sooo enthusiastically called him from, exclaiming Brian May’s about to quit Queen and join them and that they were trying to bring him back to the studio now.

I hope these brightened your day? Maybe if I’m lucky enough they could inspire you a bit? Perhaps they could be accepted as your writing prompts? :P Anyway I love you! Have a beautiful day and life hon. <333

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First off, you don't have to apologize for any errors, english isn't my first language either and I didn't even notice any errors; your english is completely fine

Second, those prompts are lovely and I might write something for them once I have access to my laptop again (so far I'm only writing on my phone and while that works, it's not ideal) because it would end up a bit longer than what usually write for snippets.

Thanl you so much for this lovely, I really enjoyed this!