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mnty-bubblegmyum · 3 months ago

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I miss my hoptal friends :(

#I miss Gracie #she was like my big sister #she was so nice 💔#finn yaps ��#and she was just like me fr #every day I hope she's better

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theblacktiecacti · 8 months ago

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jay went to clown school. let’s talk about that

#art by me #jrwi riptide #jay ferin #i was drawing wherever the wind took me #and it took me to clown school jay #the best destination i could’ve hoped for #i feel like so much could be explored or expanded there in fanon #but i barely see anything #welp if there is none make some #sound off in the comments if you ever think about how jay rarely retracts into herself when faced with conflict #but instead goes to clown school or hitches a ride with the loserest boy she can find #and it’s the rare (and most impactful) moments when she responds differently #shutting down after the phone call with her grandmother #or blowing up after learning about lizzie and ava #or crying as she’s told to shoot her friend in the chest #but the every day conflict almost always gets humor as a response #which leads to very out of pocket moments but we love jay for it #oooooough jay ferin the way you express emotions is so important to meeeee #ALSO the fact that often it’s insult based humor or overly confident in self humor #let’s dissect that jay how do you relate to your friends in the hierarchical structure of the navy academy #did you feel like your humor had to subtly place you at the top? or you would not be enough? jay?#your relationship with kira hinges on fixing this structure by being better than it hm? let’s talk about that #let’s talk about how your life centered a lot around being the best even if not directly or intentionally #should i do a full analysis on this?#i kinda wanna do a full analysis on this #jrwi

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bbugsy · 1 year ago

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need more sissy lore like * checks watch * yesterday

#the texas chain saw massacre #texas chainsaw massacre #sissy tcm #my art #likeeee #I’m sorry but I love her lmao #step aside johnny… using my skill tree points on miss agility herself #tip for new sissy players… MAX OUT HER SAVAGERY #she is a chase DEMON #she gets tired easily but fuck is she agile #and she can get everywhere #she’s better at tracking than johnny imho #plus she can block loops with her poison and I have two perks that increase my stamina regeneration and highlights victims when I attack em #and like… lmao… I 3-4k every match not flex #I hope that made sense… it’s 3am and I grinded this out on a stomach with nothing in it but half a day old monster #sorry anyways enjoy my fanboy art HAHA

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torahtot · 3 months ago

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i might just lay down and die just found out my ra for this year is someone my roommate used to be friends with til she posted a jews r the new nazis "becoming what you once hated- ironic" on her story and a whole thing supporting oct 7. like not even a post just her own heartfelt thoughts about how awesome it was.

#i never even saw the post bc i had unfollowed her by that time #i heard abt it from this crazy zionist i know who said she posted hitler was right #& i knew they're a liar so i asked for screenshots & they kept avoiding me #so for literal months i was in this horrible limbo every time i saw this girl i was like she *could* be a literal nazi.#but she could also just be a regular terrible person who said something shitty but not THAT #& that was horrifying the one time i was alone in an elevator w her i was not managing #finally someone else showed me the screenshot so i know exactly what it said #which like. really isnt much better. but hey #anyways idk who to email abt this bc i cant be alone in a room w her #& i dont think anything ever happened i dont think anyone said anything to her. shes on the board of a club #with another insane girl btw but im not even gonna get into that.#oh and shes living two doors down from me #oy. i need new friends terribly #& my friends from my first month of college also have their best friend living on this floor i hope they never set foot in it tho #if i see theater kids on a bad day its over #sigh #delete later

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woundedheartwithin · 1 month ago

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Back on my meds, making a damn decent paycheck despite how many days I had to take off this month, my mom’s feeling better now that she’s home and we’ve figured everything out, our neighbor’s gonna build us a wheelchair ramp for cheap, and my dad miiiiiiiiight be buying a new car as we speak 🤞 (my mom just can’t get into the truck anymore, and she hasn’t wanted to drive her two seater for a while now, so we’re trading it for something practical). Things are finally going fairly well, all things considered ❤️

#she speaks #after the absolute hell we’ve been in all October I think we deserve a fucking break #hopefully this post doesn’t jinx the car lol #we’re keeping the truck obv cuz like we got livestock #but the lil beamer has got to go unfortunately #sad it’s a fun lil car #but it hasn’t been getting the love it deserves and it’s time for something more suited to our needs as a family #kinda exciting really I hope we get it #we all fucking hate spending money so both my parents have been waffling on it for a couple of days #but like I told them mama you got a doctor’s appointment next week for your g tube #and then a hospital follow up with our pcp the week after that #and you’re gonna have to see a gi and a nutritionist pretty regularly #and there’s gonna be more surgeon follow ups I’m sure #and eventually we’re gonna need to take you to outpatient pt cuz we can’t have a home health pt forever #cuz insurance only pays for it for like six weeks #so either we’re gonna have to rent a car every time you go to the doctor #or we gotta buy one #and like this isnt going away you’ll have to go to the doctor often #cuz you’re missing like half of your small intestine #so getting a rental all the time is gonna suck #it would be better to have a car you can get in and out of easily just on hand #not to mention eventually you’re gonna wanna get out of this house just for the hell of it #and it’s not like we can wake up one morning and decide hey let’s go on a day trip #and then waste two hours driving back and forth from the nearest enterprise #which is on an extremely busy two lane highway and is FUCKING terrifying to get to lmfao #so with any luck my dad will keep that in mind and not back out at the dealership lol

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greensaplinggrace · 3 months ago

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unfortunately i'm like 160 episodes into tma and still don't get the obsession with martin. like i don't hate him but also- literally every other character and relationship is more interesting. also fanon version of him sucks lol. canon version of him is actually appealing to me in some ways, but considering fanon martin makes 90% of tma fic unreadable, i'm not too stoked about even having him tagged half the time.

#the magnus archives #tma #tma lb #jonathan sims #anti jmart #anti martin blackwood #i mean kinda?#it's just like ugh #he's the absolute worst fandom fave i don't carrree #and its even worse when somebody writing fanon martin thinks he's being good and 'healthy' for jon when he's acting like a right cnt #this is why characters and ships deemed 'pure' 'sweet' and 'wholesome' by fandom usually suck #because it's somehow the most oblivious showcasing of terrible relationship dynamics ever #anyways there are a select few jmart shippers that actually make the ship appealing - the ones that acknowledge how fucked the ship is lol #but sadly they are few and far between #unfortunately i still cannot bring myself to like elias either #so there's no safety there #honestly jon should just join a qpr poly relationship with every single character and be done with it #or even better #just a bunch of friendships #anyways if you can't tell im rooting through the friendship tags like a madman rn #platonic jondaisy save me fr #jongeorgie and jonmelanie friendship fics you are literally my only hope #polyarchives both platonic and romantic u are so so precious to me #also you should have seen me scouring the jon & avatars tags the other day lmfao #never thought id be so obsessed with jude perry but here we are #jude perry save me #she's such a freak lol

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elytrafemme · 9 months ago

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and obviously this is by far the least important part of ANY of this, but i'm going to pretty strongly dissociate myself from anything relating to that smp-- mostly for my own mental health (again, not to center myself here). as for CS, i would like to continue it, though obviously the disclaimers again will be heavy. it is a story i wrote to cope with abuse, and if fanworks like that are called to be stopped then i will obviously rethink things. but i will give it a lot of time to figure out how to meaningfully create something from a piece of media created by unfathomably shitty people, and i'd like to be able to continue writing for the message that CS was set to convey.

again, this is not the focus of the conversation, but i just wanted to say that since i am online for once and i figure i may get an ask or two about it.

#nightmare.personal #nightmare.cough-syrup #as an update for folks since i do typically discuss my own personal life on this blog #i'm currently in the stages of questioning whether or not i have CPTSD #and after a few conversations occurring the last couple of months i've been keenly in touch with the various-#-abusive relationships/situations i've had in my life that i did not ever recognize consciously.#people seem to be handling this situation far better than past occurrences in this general sphere.#but i cannot emphasize enough how fucking difficult it is to speak out about these things.#those in my life were very selective about what abuse they let be shown publicly versus what i could never speak about #and i again am so in awe of shubble's strength in acknowledging something like this given how public of a figure her abuser is.#i hope he rots and i hope she heals. that's about where i'm at as i hope everyone is.#(and also if i post a bit about my mental health in coming days note that that is not an attempt to detract from-#-another victim's story. i want to make it very clear that while there are parallels in stories of abuse-#every abuse victim's story is theirs and is not to be trivialized or collapsed in any broader way.)

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petyou · 3 months ago

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i have to talk to a psychiatrist friday and im so nervous……..

#idk how to like. talk #i’ve been so weird after the Not cancer and idk how to be like also. 20 years of intense trauma…….. but like back to the main thing #i’ve also never been Formally diagnosed with autism and i’m scared i’ll have to like defend it #and idk how to talk about the fact that i did LSD every single day for an entire year and that in fact did not cause my craziness it made #it a little better but now i’m SO autistic and can’t talk to people #he’s a MAN too …………………… i hope that will make things easier but im scared he’s like. dumb #there’s NO info about him online but the scheduler said she sees him and he’s really good #what does THAT mean???#idk i’m just rambling now #my official diagnosis as of right now is depression with psychotic features…… it makes it feel so real :/#context: i had a 20lb tumor in my ovary and they thought it was cancer for 2 months but it wasn’t and i got surgery and im fine now but im #depressed and dissociative #advice/encouragement PLZ

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anchorandrope · 2 months ago

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#regarding the liam and maya situation: i have a lot to say that i cannot express in tags and some of yall are still in a huge denial phase #but as i said the day we first knew about maya's book - im believing her. i believe she is a victim. im believing the victim.#i do trust women who make allegations without explicitly showing proof on social media because thats what i stand for. i rather believe a #liar than believing and abuser. with her; with you; and with every women (and everyone) out there even if i don't like her.#if you have a problem with this value i have: i recommend to unfollow me. because i believe her and that won't change.#and the tiktok she posted acknowledging 1d's fanbase behaviour is not only well-worded; but her non verbal language does match what she is #saying. i hope liam can get out of his addiction and i hope he can recognise his actions to be able to change for good; yes. but that doesn #change what he already did. i have plenty of reasons to believe maya - and seeing so many fellow fans saying shit in her comments like #“you're a liar until you post proof” “if you're saying the truth then sue him” “this is pr for the book” etc etc. insane and concerning.#yall talk like cishet men defending their friends btw. the exact same “arguments”...... is sad to see other women saying this. it breaks my #heart. and as someone who is studying PR genuinely fuck yall ???? yall don't even know what tf we do yall just blame us for every shit in #the industry when in reality its not our fault all the amount of crap yall say it is our fault. if i ask yall to even define what we do #im sure 99.99% won't even know the difference between PR/Marketing/Publicity. get my name and my fellow PR people out of your shit ??? wtf?#its diabolical to blame this on PR. seriously whatin the actual fuck. it doesn't even make sense????? fuck offffffff #i hope maya henry may find peace; i hope she can recover and overcome as well as possible. im disgusted by the behaviour almost everyone is #having. im not praying for a downfall or hoping bad things on liam but i definitely won't defend any of this. and tbh yall shouldn't either #on the other side: i hope she better not talk in any kind of way about louis/harry situation #but because that would mess stuff up in multiple ways. they don't need to be dragged in this. at all.#we don't need “official” denials nor confirmations of people that are not them in any type of way.#anyway... how's the weather i guess #maya henry

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burger-goblin · 10 days ago

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#i got the job i was hoping for #i'll be starting mid-dec!! so i need to sell the rest of my crap asap LOL #but man. this time of year is always hard for me. the loss of three very important people‚ all during late fall & winter makes this already #depressing part of the year so much worse #but.... with this new job‚ i'll be moving to nc much more quickly than anticipated #and i'll be able to make better‚ happier memories during these seasons with my favorite person #she has given me the strength and motivation to do what i need to so. she cheers me on every day #no more 'i'm trying'-- i'm DOING. i am doing it‚ goddammit!!! i will continue to do whatever i need to do to live a better‚ healthier life!!#WATCH ME‚ BITCH #(me yelling at myself)

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swagging-back-to · 6 months ago

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people who look down on GEDs are repulsive filth actually <3

#'it's better than a GED' she says about someone who stayed in highschool till they were 21 years old #'no wonder you couldnt graduate highschool and had to get a ged you have horrible reading comprehension'#neither of these things were said about me but they were said in front of me. one of these people knew i have a GED.#it took me 12 days to get my GED vs 12 years fucking around in highschool.#I failed almost every single class in highschool yet when i took the GED i scored 18-20 on every single test. this is OUT of 20. 20 being #college-level understanding.#highschool is a major waste of time and guess what... some kids genuinely need to drop out to take care of their families #to get jobs. to babysit. to care for their grandparents #you are so incredibly classist when you look down on GEDs. bc guess what? employers do not care.#colleges do not care.#no one fucking cares.#and if they do? they dont need the time of day #or really even oxygen. bc theyre wastes of space <3 #hope this helps

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deadandphilgames · 6 months ago

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oversharing in the tags time :)

#i think it’s time i go back to therapy #i keep having recurring nightmares about my ex best friend #or dreams where she reaches out to me. and explains why she cut me out #backstory. in high school had a lesbian toxic situationship with my #bestie. THEN i had another one. which kinda overlapped? the first one was open but also just messy #anyways. jade and i were like together for a year. then she got a boyfriend one day and i had a breakdown #it happened just after high school and i was sooooo … unwell. wasn’t out to my family felt like i was gonna die etc etc #(this is all pre dnp btw) anyways next year i found dnp. a couple months later she broke up with her bf #and we sorted dated for a while (this whole time we’d been just friends and i was still not really over it but hiding it)#and then she dated ANOTHER guy. they broke up and she had a breakdown and moved 9 hours away. i went #to visit her for a month. we like kinda dated again then and i thought we could make it work. then 2020. no travel #so she started dating a guy. didn’t tell me. even though we spoke every day. she moved in with him #then she breaks up with him mid 2021. i started dating my gf. but Jade was clingy and it was awkward #she started dating a sketchy guy who was homophobic. i went and visited her a few times #start of 2023 she tells me she wants to make more of an effort cause he didn’t like her friends so she cut everyone out. then she ghosted #in feb 2023. we had tickets for #mcr in march. i had to text her cause she’d blocked me on messenger and said im going to the concert whether she’s there or not #she said ‘yeah no worries! you can take someone else in my place too 😎’ she used that fucking emoji #and I haven’t spoken to her since. I think she quit her job . and that guy was not a nice man #so I still worry about her #writing this all down makes me realise she was a bitch and I deserve better #but I just want closure. it isn’t fair she replied so casually to my text when I said ‘you’ve blocked me’#it isn’t fair she HAS MY SIGNED COPY OF DANS BOOK #anyways. I need therapy to get over this #and I haven’t even written about my family issues (im #out and they’re supportive but my god they fucked me #up as a kid)#if you read this hi 👋 hope you are having a lovely day #don’t get in lesbian situationships!!!

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theirloveisgross · 7 months ago

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#Read the book detailed summary someone did #And well...#You know what I just re-read as well? Liam's post he did after watching aotv and the way he talked about louis #He mentions he's sorry for being so out of his mind and not being a better friend for him and that he's him again and will make amends #And how Louis was one of the few ones that dragged him out of something so dark and that he one day hopes to have the same approach as loui #This post was about a year ago #He clearly did not make amends with this girl and boi he should have...#I'm not saying every detail she wrote is the truth and she's completely innocent but he's the one with a dangerous addiction.#And I think a step of sobriety is making amends... And she should have been one of the first #Just because she was IN it. In whatever capacity... Idk #Edit: ah yes. A post he deleted btw... Because people were being nasty

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girlivealwaysbean · 2 years ago

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spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

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local-gay · 3 months ago

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is the bus the most expeditious way to get around town? absolutely not. is it the most fun? you bet your ass

#finding joy and whimsy in every day life #making the best out of a bad situation (my car dying)#last week it was the 44 bus driver's birthday and we all said happy birthday to her as we departed #another time there was a trainee who was Doing His Best but it still wasn't going well #he was all over the lanes and he missed his turn d/t construction #and hit a lot of traffic cones #his trainer got so frustrated that she had to take over for a while #poor guy i hope his following routes went better

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cuntwrap--supreme · 3 months ago

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Someone's tiny child drew a Something and they put it in their box saying the kid drew it for me. Which is cute, I guess. My mom did stuff like this when I was a small child who was obsessed with the arrival of mail. It's in the route's case to be immortalized forever.

Now to figure out how to read the drawing so I can find what I assume is treasure beyond my wildest imagination.

#girl if this isn't a treasure map i don't know what is #Lucas knows something i don't know. but he's three so he can't tell me in words.#i just have to interpret the drawing. somehow. at least it's color coded. that helps.#the back of the page says something about how he asks where the mail is every day #she wrote that he watches for my truck but they're in the woods so i know they can't see me approach #maybe she meant he listens for the truck. it's definitely loud enough to hear from a ways away.#whatever the case. little guy tried.#i always keep drawings from kids. even though i don't like kids. there's just something raw about what they draw.#no talent. no knowledge of fundamentals. but also no fear of being cringe or failing. just vibes.#i have so many things my brother and sister drew as little littles in a drawer with my art stuff and my sister wants me to toss it all #like. no dude. you drew a 'flower' when you were 4 and I'll have it until that paper crumbles to dust.#it's from a time before you could do anything to show you appreciate the people in your life in the same way you can now #a time when a shitty drawing was the best way to say 'hey. we're cool. i appreciate your presence'#i have one from my brother from when i broke up with my hogh school boyfriend that's a transformer (i think?)#and it says - in kid spelling - i hope you aren't so sad soon #like. he was 5 or 6 when he made that. guy didn't know what i was going through. he just wanted me to feel better.#something something humans find a way to communicate with one another despite language barriers and shit

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