#even though i wasnt born in the 80s

[ladyinbl00d]

sometimes i like to think im one of the girls john was seeing before claire n then after they get together john comes back to me n breaks up w claire💞

[bisexual-lemon1]

I wanna talk about the main four mechanisms albums, and the ways in which they tackle tragedy. This shouldn’t be too long, and I’m kinda new to writing essays like this, but it seemed like fun.

Firstly OUATIS, I could go on and on abour OUATIS, like how the tragedy of OUATIS is baked into the genre. from the get go it’s about war and trauma and fascism, all things that while not exclusively, lend themselves to death and murder. You can listen to the first half of OUATIS and realize “oh shit, everyone involved is gonna die” by genre and the thematics of it alone.

Because that’s what war does

That’s what war is

For UDAD it’s a little more esoteric, and I probably have the least to say about it cuz it’s not my least Favoirte, not bad, just my least favorite. I think the best way to describe it is the line from twisted threads “how can you expect to escape if you were caught in a web before you began.” It’s made clear from the base set up that the olympians control everything, and as much as a heroic victory and triumph would be nice, some things just truly are too big to fail. Though arguably, amongst all the albums it has the best ending, the Olympians may not be brought down(in the album), the city might not be saved

But Ulysses gets to die, truly die and rest.

Something billions, perhaps trillions had stolen from them.

HNOC is definitely one of my favorites on this, being such a distinct and fun story and narrative. The tragedy is of the people themselves, and in a way I think it makes it the “most tragedy” out of the four, all of its preventable, yet entirely understandable. Hell, “just this once there could be a happy ending” is literally a line in it. Mordred’s actions are deplorable and violent and ruin everything but they’re understandable. He lost everything, why should the world live? It’s a dip into true nihilism and whag could lead someone to feel that way. Sometimes worlds are saved, and sometimes they aren’t. Sometimes worlds are killed, sometimes they simply grow old, but sometimes they kill themselves. And I think what makes it the most special compared to the other three is when it becomes doomed. OUATIS is about a bloody war, UDAD they were born into a web, TBI yhe conflict itself was resolved 80 years before the modern day the story is told through. But HNOC wasnt doomed from the start, the station wasn’t guaranteed to die, the Saxons weren’t guaranteed to be slaughtered. Yet nonetheless they were.

And finally TBI, now it’s what rly got my brain going on all of this, because I had the question “where does the tragedy become inevitable?” And frankly, there’s a lot of answers. TBI is doomed because the nuclear chaos was on its way before lyfrassir was even before. Because Odin wouldn’t stop no matter what. Because even if they hadn’t of messed with kyvasir there would have been dozens of other bifrost trains. But more than ALL OF THAT I think that the tragedy is inevitable because, as the album says. “A day, a week, a thousand years, means naught to what the train draws near.” It doesn’t matter, even if Loki’s missile had killed Odin and stopped the bifrost, someone else would have come along. Even the victory we got in the album itself, it wasn’t a victory, it was merely a prolonging, inevitable death was merely stalled, that’s the closest thing anyone could ever get to victory against the roiling nuclear chaos.

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

Hi hello I watched all of carmilla in a weekend when I was 17 because a student teacher who in retrospect I had a bit of a crush on mentioned that she knew one of the actresses. also I am pretty invested in all your recent vampire stuff because I watched iwtv in 2 days last week because your edit intrigued me

oh hiiii 🫶 thank you for indulging me. thats so cool that you watched iwtv! did it live up to the expectation?

i also watched carmilla at 17! or like, 17-19. i found it when s2 had just started and followed it to the end. did something permanent to my brain but i think it was a good thing. on rewatch now im like, i was right to like this. like it's a solid show, it's good. it has its flaws obviously but it's well written, the emotional moments still get me, i can see why i liked it and i still like it now even when it's not anymore, you know, meeting every need that baby gay me didnt even know they had

what it doesnt reaallyy do though - i dont remember if i posted abt this or if i left it in my drafts but - is explore vampirism as a concept. their subject matter is more lesbianism than vampirism. which is great! thats what they wanted to do and they did it and it's very good. but reading interview with the vampire the book rn im realising how much potential vampires have to be metaphors for like so many things and i started wondering like 'wait, did carmilla just not really engage with it or did it all go over my head'. but it just didnt really engage with it all that much. which again is fine bc that wasnt what they were doing. im glad they were more about the lesbianism than the vampirism

but there's this interesting difference in framing, because in iwtv they keep calling armand 'ancient' right? and emphasising how old he is. and he's like 500? and i was like 'wait isnt carmilla like 400?'. she isnt, shes 340, but still, thats getting there, you know? and we know quite a lot about her history, but kind of just the Big Events. when she was turned, the events of the novella, coffin of blood, silas. thats sort of what we know. but none of the long lonely slog of history day to day you know? with armand i feel like we can really feel how much time everything takes. how every one of those years is made up of single days. with carmilla i dont feel that as much. i keep kind of thinking about daniel, when louis calls him a boy in the first episode, saying "im an old man, with all the triggers that come with it"

because carmilla might look 18 (or mid twenties at this point) but she has lived all that time. shes also seen her native land be claimed by like a succession of ruling powers, right? like armand. shes been buried alive, like louis. when lestat is born, shes already 80 years old, shes lived a whole human lifetime, and the entire adult part of it shes been a vampire. shes lived through 1680-1870 being a lure. i compared her to abigail hobbs in some tags on a post, i dont know if youre familiar with hannibal the tv show, but i do also kinda keep thinking about that comparison

if youre not familiar, in the first episode of hannibal the murderer of the week is this guy garrett jacob hobbs who kills and cannibalises girls who resemble his daughter. and later on it turns out she was made to be his lure. like they'd go places and he'd sent her to the victims to make friends and maybe get them back to their home or smth. not sure if they specified all the details. but that's what carmilla did for mother. and in s2 we hear from mattie that while every couple of decades carmilla had to lure victims for the fish god, she also seemed to just enjoy humans between those times, right? like the doctor, gets lonely, gets a new companion. but we've only sort of got mattie's mocking word for it ("dont eat him, hes a poet! or her, shes got such a wonderful voice. or that one, shes just too pretty to ruin"), we don't know exactly from carmilla's point of view what she was doing or why. if mattie's talking about stuff that happened after the blood coffin, 1950-now, then i think it's a fair assumption based on what carmilla says in the s1 sock puppet show that after she'd figured out what the real situation was and what her role in it was, when she'd started trying to save girls from being sacrificed, that she mightve been doing the same trying to save people from becoming mattie's victims. it's probably more likely that she was just trying to find excuses to stop mattie from sucking someone dry rather than actually having like an aesthetic based morality. but it might be a bit of both. im still trying to figure out what her philosophy actually is, like i dont know what existentialism actually means ghkfjghkj but i will

i also found it pretty striking in the movie when shes turning back into a vampire she says like "this was supposed to be done, you know? the blood lust, the self-loathing, the sleeping tied to a chair in my own bedroom". thats what defines her vampirism, wanting blood and hating yourself for it (the third part is a joke/reference to s1 but also i think meaningful for how she sees her relationship with laura when she IS a vampire. little bit of that 'she will reject me for my monstrousness' shining through). and thats what defines vampirism for lots of vampires across the genre obviously, but i dont know, it struck me. we dont get a lot from carmilla's pov, we know a fair amount about her, but the story is always told through laura. we get laura's diaries, but just snippets here and there from carmilla, what shes thinking, how shes feeling

and i love that shes a philosopher. i love that thats how she seems to try and find something to hold onto, in a world that kind of moves around her, having been murdered, kidnapped, turned and groomed to be a lure on the cusp of adulthood, never having been properly loved (the relationship with her father wasnt good she says in s3, and her mortal mother i dont think has ever been mentioned (like laura's)). the only good relationship she seems to have had for the better part of 3 centuries seems to have been mattie, and mattie seems to love being a vampire. i can imagine carmilla just sort of going along with anything mattie wants to do just because shes so desperate for that friendship. not like, against her will necessarily really. but more like, she hasnt even had the space to develop her own will, you know? and philosophy lets you do that. philosophy gives you frameworks to understand the world and to develop your own opinions on it. and by the 21st century she seems to have developed those opinions, she has a sense of her own values, but shes also still stuck in that same situation. shes jaded and cynical in the face of laura's optimism and strong moral code a lot of the time in s1 because she feels probably pretty powerless. like she does what she can to save some girls but at the end of the day shes scared of her mother and she has nowhere else to go really, right?

i like how she grapples with that over the course of the series, in tandem with laura grappling with her black and white morality. she sort of jumps ship from her mother to laura bc theyve fallen in love, but then laura still stuck in her hero thinking refuses to see her monstrous side. not literally bc i think the biological vampirism never seemed to be a problem for laura, but morally. the having murdered. carmilla needs laura to see that and love her while seeing it bc the last girl she loved rejected her for being a vampire.

but you see her kind of swing back and forth in s2. she softens first with laura but then they break up and she leans back hard into the sarcastic cynic defense mechanisms, leans hard into "im a monster, dont expect heroism from me". but thats like, it's sort of learned helplessness i think. it's powerlessness, resignation. bc morally shes not a monster. maybe she doesnt have as strong a drive to help other people as laura does and is a little more selfishly hedonistic in that she just wants to enjoy her/their life, but she doesnt hurt people for fun, she never has. she just sort of didnt have another option for a Really long time. so she pretends she doesnt care. "im a vampire, this is what i do, this is who i am". but clearly from the way she talks about it when she turns back into one, she doesnt enjoy it

and i like how she goes even further in s3, where she starts swinging even more to the heroic side, bc she sees hope. shes like "wow if we kill my mother, i'd be free". theres hope and she becomes like a lot more active. and shes like that at the start of the movie too, a lot happier, a lot more relaxed, and then vampirism is back and bam depression gfhgkjh like shes immediately more gloomy, ashamed of her past and her self, retreats into herself

sorry i just took this as an opportunity to dump all the carmilla thoughts floating in my head on you. you didnt ask fhkghgjh consider this an open invitation to you or anyone else to come talk to me about carmilla

[athenaspeculiardaughter]

i had too many just to put in the comments. i dont know how much you wanted so... thats on you.

jason loves heavy metal and plays the drums. he's also gay and in a qpr with leo and piper. hes got a wolf cut and still has some of his wolf-like tendencies, having adopted them from living with lupa at a young age. when he went to camp jupiter, those tendencies dissapeared over time, people telling him that it wasnt normal to eat raw meat or chew on things. but he never quite learned to smile with teeth when he was happy, and growls when hes mad. also i think he has a peircing somewhere. and i think he used to be super jacked, like shredded unhealthy jacked, but when he went to college he had less time to work out and he got some fat around his muscles and he loves it so much, and he looks a lot cuter this way.

leo is aroace possibly gay as well, and loves 80s music, like huey lewis and the news, some billy joel, and some dire straits. he also is obsessed with back to the future (his fave is the cowboy one, bc of his texan roots). on him being from texas, i think he has a little bit of a texas accent, just bc he was mostly raised by foster families in the south. he used to have a spanish accent, but it faded after having spent so little time speaking spanish and being around spanish speaking people. i think he totally wouldve been a band kid except he never had the time and the time passed a long time ago.

piper has lots of peircings, her newest one is snake bites and she always has smudged eyeliner. she likes the cure and is kind of goth. shes a lesbian, but, again, in a qpr with jason and leo and says theyre the only guys she thinks are hot. she loved heathers and totally had a crush on winona ryder. she had an ed bc of how exposed she was to hollywood culture, but shes working on it. she has a tooth gap and an indigenous nose. she has this really loud pretty laugh and she loves to dance.

annabeth listens to arctic monkeys 24/7. shes unlabeled and strictly wears jeans. no jewelry besides her necklace, not even her ears are peirced. she forgets to eat, but only because she gets so engrossed in her work, and percy has to bring her food. at that point its pretty easy, if percy just puts the plate next to her she'll absentmindedly eat it, same with a cup of water. she's got lots of band tshirts too, a lot of them stolen from percy.

percy is a skater boy. he wears baggy band tshirts and sweats or jeans and a couple necklaces and peircings. i think he has an eyebrow peircing and was really tempted to get cheek peircings before realizing that then he would have holes in his cheeks and that fucked with his brain too much to get them. he also wears eyeliner but likes doing annabeths makeup more than his, which he gets to do often, since she could never refuse his puppy eyes. hes got lots of sea animal stuffed animals on his bed instead of pillows. he wore a skirt once and wasnt opposed to them, but eventually decided it wasnt worth flashing people. in the summer he is a strictly no shoes no socks man, can only find him barefoot or with sandals.

hazel is short. thats canon ik but its important. she likes softer music like sleeping at last and music like tori amos. she also likes astronomy and stargazing, and youd think she believes in astrology but she thinks its all bullshit. she likes drawing objects like theyre sentient, not humanoid, but she makes them feel alive, like creatures. she loves stuffed animals too, and is in the process of learning the viola. she still uses old fashipned words (canon) but curses like a sailor and has very modern views for someone born in the 30s.

frank never loses his fat. hes still fat, i hate that they made him all buff like it was a part of his character arc to lose weight. frank is a theater kid. thank you for coming to my ted talk. he likes graphic novels like amulet and nimona, etc. he has a really infectious smile, wide, dimpled and too cute. again, theater kid, though i dont think he can sing very well, but he has fun trying.

i think thats most of it. honestly i got really caught up in it and made up some stuff along the way. if you dont like any of it thats fine:)

Honestly your headcanons are really interesting I never thought about 3/4 of them and I actually like them😄

[the-kinfesssional]

AALSO does it count as a kin dream if i am my kin in the dream but also some weird fucked up shit is happening like Why is this suburban family from the 80s making me eat Eucalyptus in their home. Why is Acht Aka dedf1sh from Splatoon guiding me. We do not even share a source. What the fuck is happening. Fun dream though wish I had more like that. OR does it have to be like Related to my source... beyond.... Me being Me. also the house started sinking. into water. and the floor started falling apart into metal pieces. which was weird I was also looking for phones (EEK) for some reason but I oculdnt let them know I was looking for phones and i do not know why? It was also past me? Like. Pre corruption. Uhmm I geuss thats why I was looking for phones. Is it cause I miss the 80s?????????????????????? (not bodily) (i wasnt born irl then) (womp. Im a baby Waah) (I still wouldve been like a kid in the 80s source-wise)

also sometimes i have memories(?) (Refer to last confess) with the sun in them even though the dark world is always dark like thats the point. but most of the time I dont. or i guess its like. probably just A bright light at best. Or maybe its remembering the Yearn for the sun.. the blue sky.. sigh...... now i got it. and like. i dont even give a fuck. Im chronically online I sit in my room all day I practically do live in the internet again nvm i do actually I love nature Oh maybe my nature obsession (mostly just the ocean) (its so free out there..) (its so beautiful...) and my I NEED TO LIVE INSIDE A COMPUTER AGAINNNNNNNN obsession can coexist I figured it all out. this is awesome. Thanks for coming To my ted talk. This was also way longer than I wanted it to be. SORRY for the confession spam.. (Hah..get it .. spam...) Ily mod Heart emoji /p sorry if all of these seem weirdly venty oh god i dont even know what im doing. Yes i do. I promise im sane

Sincerely, Spamton G. Spamton

Hehe, no problem.

Im fine with like 1-5 kinfessions in a row any more is spam to me.

And ofc!

[spongebobafettywap]

It might be because there weren't that many crazy changes between now and the 80s ? I know it sounds dumb but hear me about : Outside of technological and medical advancement, the past 10 or so years kinda looped back to the 80s-90s period especially for all the stuff relating to entertainment from music to shows to movies (remakes and sequels). The biggest hit show since the mid 2010's was Stranger Things whose story takes place in the 1980s. Slightly less blatant but still noteworthy are the clothing trends, vintage stuff got brought back a bit and the 80s attract a lot of people for the esthetic too

It creates a huge dissonance between the past and present

You're kind of right but you can't really discount the technological and medical advances as they do a huge influence on our cultures and lifestyles, especially if you were born in the mid to late 90s like me and witnessed technology change in real time with vhs and casette tapes and dial up internet going away in the mid 2000s.

So with technology, the 80s is when the home computer became a mainstream thing and back then computers were mainly used for working on documents or playing games. Although Emails have existed for much longer than you would think and a very primitive version of the Internet existed back then you can see a video on it here:

But I will say that 80s nostalgia has been huge in every decade since it passed, the 90s still held onto bright 80s colours for a time being, then the 2000s would make 80s throwbacks in media like with Grand Theft Auto Vice City paying homage to 80s movies, music and styles. The 2000s also had the major nostalgia boom for 80s Toy Franchises like Transformers, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Thundercats, He-Man etc.

Though whilst that nostalgia level was high and probably the highest of any decade, I still think things evolved from the 90s culture onwards, I'd say the 90s and the 2000s were quite similar for a majority of it, though towards the mid to tail end of the 2000s a lot of things we have today came from that time period. Someone said the other day online that in Grand Theft Auto 4 a game that takes place in 2008 there's actually not a whole lot about it that doesn't feel like it couldn't take place today, they have a in universe version of Facebook, Twitter and Youtube.

And I think thats the main thing that makes the late 2000s, the 2010s and the early 2020s just seem to blend together, what can we really point to came about from the last decade or this one that wasnt just a continuation or remix of something from the late 2000s? Its kind of like things have just been put on repeat since then. I'll admit I am more nostalgic for the late 2010s but I think a big part of that is it still felt like things could change even more the 2000s weren't all that long ago so it didn't feel like things needed to progress more.

[disco-cola]

dude i literally cant deal with living in this generation and times anymore i wish i had at least been born like 20 years earlier and been a young adult in the 90s and early 2000s if i couldnt have had the 70s or 80s i mean by being born in 96 im glad i was part of probably the last generation who had a real childhood (which of course wasnt perfect either but still) but social media is the worst most toxic thing that could have happened to us so much narcissism disguised as confidence and a new trend every other day and all these woke warriors who literally cant let people enjoy anything and cancel culture and being chronically online and everything has been seemingly done and is just recycled and warmed up for the umpteenth time like i know 70s 80s 90s fashion is popular but its just not the same and not enough for me its just all so fucking toxic and even though i am trying so hard to only stay on sites of social media where i am not confronted with such stuff there literally is no way around it i am not using ig anymore and tumblr to me is literally the least toxic website at this point bc i am purely using it for inspiration and dont see anything i dont wanna see really and as a lil diary to get some thoughts out but tiktok is literally hell it makes me hate the human race and made my era struggle like ten times worse than it has been before already and i know i could just delete it but that wouldnt change the world and people around me i just wish so hard to live in a time again before social media where you panicked when you accidentally hit the internet button on a phone that could survive a fall from the empire state building

[beachesgetpeaches]

whats your roman empire this whats your roman empire that, ill fucking tell you like history wise

surprisingly to no one my roman empire was the actual roman empire

though i have always preferred the lore of alexander the great, cuntiest bi rep we will ever have

mf french revolution, whichever. (ive read les mis twice do not speak to me) to this day i tell people on 14th of july that it is the bastille day, it is one of those fun facts i start conversations with

the lost generation???? like yes please????

the 80s in ex-yu bcs my mum has talked this up so much that i will forever have fomo and i wasnt even born yet

[two-sides-samecoin]

I sent something like this to someone else but I also want to know your thoughts

It's frustrating when people try to use the different standards of the 80s an excuse for Jonathan "not realizing" the weight or impropriety of taking the photos of Steve's house and of Nancy (ignoring that he zoomed in on the window to clearly see Nancy), and it took Nancy calling him out (and not, apparently, being confronted in the parking lot and his camera smashed by the three other living people in those pictures) but then refuse to concede that when Steve calls Jonathan queer it's done in a way to work him up and pick a fight, and for the period is generally mild as far as homophobia goes.

Both actions were wrong but to say Jonathan didn't know better because of the period but Steve was an unrepentant homophobe for one instance in a period that had excessively violent homophobic rhetoric and atmosphere, just seems like the people making that argument are trying to make excuses for Jonathan (despite saying they aren't) and don't like Steve. I don't think either of them were right in these instances but I do think Steve was more provoked (though his gf cheated on him with guy that took creepy pics of them) in a way that makes sense for a teenage boy and went too far insulting Jonathan's family while Jonathan literally just wanted to take pictures of a party he wasn't invited to and claimed he was looking for his brother (but stayed there at least ten minutes?) Idk it's just like. Why use the societal expectations of the 80s to contextualize one and not the other

okay i am sorry for the late reply. but you are absolutely correct! the fact that people say "it was the times" for what jonathan did is honestly yikes, especially because it wasn't for those times at all. people taking video/photos of people are wayy more present in now times then in the 80s but also i wasnt born/around in the 1980s so i could be wrong. what Jonathan did is wrong regardless of the time that he is in - why do people think that it is okay for him to take pictures of people that do not know he is there and that are getting naked? like it's not goof that jonathan stans use that excuse.

lol gonna sound like a hypocrite but what steve says is way more of the thinking of "it was the times back then". it's still not right but what steve says is way more telling of the times then what jonathan did. also yeah those people who don't even think of this are just weird, because how can you justify the pictures by saying "it was just those times" and not say that about what steve says in a fight where it was a throwaway line? steve's line is just a throwaway line and honestly not too deep - jonathan himself doesnt even get angry at all that steve said it. you're sooo right about everything that you just said. honestly it's insane how one line that steve said is somehow more damning to people in this fandom than jonathan taking photos and only giving an apology because he got caught

[apencilandpen]

MAC Movie Reviews 7 (8? 9? Hell if I know)

In my attempt to watch every movie mentioned in They Shouldn't Have Killed His Dog: the Complete Uncensored Ass-Kicking Oral History of John Wick, Gun Fu, and the New Age of Action, I have listed and cross categorized each movie in a spreadsheet, and am watching them in whatever order I feel like, adding other action movies that weren't mentioned but pique my interest as I see fit. Most recently (last night) I watched Predator (1987). And I have Thoughts!

So very Movie. Like, so very 80s Man Movie. And that's not necessarily a bad thing! Just very Macho Man Fight Monster 😄 Not a lot of emotional nuance but like, not every action movie can be First Blood.

SPEAKING OF this movie felt really influenced by First Blood (1982). Like take Rambo and make him an alien killing machine bad guy instead of a highly traumatized and villainized Vietnam War vet (but that's a post for another day, it's still stewing). And then you sick Rambo on him! It's like Rambo vs Rambo! Though I do find it super interesting that Dutch and his team use super sized guns while Rambo uses a knife for most of the movie. Something something American military power something something American guns woo-hoo. BUT ANYWAY I'd really love to learn more about the making if Predator and see if/how much First Blood influenced it

I'm not a huuuuuuuuge fan of Schwarzenegger. Idk, I just don't get it. Well, yeah I do, again, something something American bravado/machismo/yada yada (I know he's wasnt *born* in America but like most of his movies are American). That being said, I think his style of acting works pretty well for this movie, and his physicality really sells the match up between him and the Predator. Love hearing "get to tha choppa!" In its natural habitat 😄

I loved loved loved the Predator. His design is so cool and instantly iconic, I love that it's all practical, I loved that we saw him have to perform field medicine on himself, I loved that his blood glows!!! I'm also an enormous fan of the Jaws tradition of "don't let them see the monster too much" bc it means you have to get clever with your storytelling and tension. The first time we see the Predator's hand in his heat vision was so cool and genuinely kinda scary! The fact that they plant the idea that he can also mimic voices was so well done and raised the tension, esp when the CIA guy (I'm sorry Carl Weathers I don't remember your characters name) is following Mac and we hear him but can't see him and we're like "oh no! It's the Predator!" And then it ISN'T! Really good storytelling. And then at the end when the Predator laughs! It's a messed up version of Billy's laugh! So wack!

I thought the use of the heat vision was so cool and well done. It instantly keys us into the fact that this isn't just some guy, but something else! It's also a cool stylistic technique. It reminded me of Pitch Black (2000) where they use not only the colors of the different suns to tint and blow out the frame, but also Riddick's goggles and how he sees. The use of sight to set creatures and people apart is such efficient storytelling in my opinion. And then is you wanna work in sYMBOLISM OF SIGH- (is dragged offstage).

ANYWAY, this movie areally reminded me of Pitch Black a lot actually. If Predator is Rambo -> the Predator, then Pitch Black is the Predator -> Riddick. Like, Riddick is the Predator if you turned him human and gave him back part of his humanity. Pitch Black is even shot like Riddick is a predatory character (psst its because he is!) He's not the protagonist for most, if not all, of the movie, and he sneaks and slinks all over the place, hiding and watching and stealing bits of hair before becoming useful and stepping up. He's a known violent killer and criminal who is the top of his game and the best at what he does who also happens to have wack eyesight! Rambo -> the Predator -> Riddick. I rest my case. (Oooo Riddick vs the Predator...move over Alien vs Predator that's the movie *I* wanna see 😄)

I feel like I had other thoughts, but this mightve been it. Will update if I remember

Predator (1987): not as good as First Blood, about as good as The Terminator and Pitch Black, and I'd need to watch the original Alien again before making comparisons. I'm not feeling compelled to watch any of the sequels or crossovers, but I *will* be watching Prey (2022) bc that movie looked AWESOME

I'd say 6/10 burned trophy skulls, and I would a) have it in my collection and b) would watch it again

[chernobvl]

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[nixonio]

Bakugou Apologized and I Have Some Constructive Criticism

So, I read the fan translation for Bakugou's apology, and I figured I'd analyze it to the best of my ability. Well, not analyze, more like give my opinion on it.

I want to start off by saying that I'm not an anti. I'm I'm a stan either. I'm tagging this as both, though because I want to hear every side, and think about everyone's opinions so that I can make sure mine is the best it can be.

Also yes, I know it's fan translated and that the official will probably be different, but I wanted to have fun and do it anyway🥰

Please note that this is my opinion. You are more than welcome(in fact encouraged) to tell about your own opinion in the replies, but please be respectful.

Everything I write here is to be read in the most respectful and kind tone. It's how I was meaning for it to be read. I'm sorry if it doesn't come off that way, but please know I am in no way trying to be rude with anything I say.

Now then, let's get started.

First of all, he starts out with a bit of an insult "you were always far behind me" thats not true, but it's Bakugou's opinion. I'm not sure I like how he states it as fact. "You were always so far behind me." Rather than "I used to think you were always so far behind me." or "I thought you were so far behind me."

Bakugou does, however, imply that him looking down on Izuku because of him being quirkless is wrong, and I think that's awesome.

After this, he starts giving a reason(a pretty illogical one, in my opinion) as to why he bullied Deku. Bakugou felt that Izuku was somehow miles ahead of him. Next he goes into what he felt, why he felt the need to hurt Izuku. It's because of something he was feeling. And of course, how could you talk about that with someone? Especially being immature and at that age(around five or so). He didn't have to talk about it, but hurting someone is never the option(we knew this already).

Next he talks about how he was distant. And OK, that's good. He should have been distant.

Except he wasnt distant.

I can admit that on normal circumstances Bakugou didn't go out of his way to speak to Midoriya, but when Deku would speak to/compliment him, insults were thrown. Bakugou should have been distant then. Also, "I grew up distant and always tried to beat you down" are contradictions to eachother, imo. Bakugou, back in middle school, went out of his way to bully deku. That's not distant. Now back when they were small, yes. I'd say Bakugou was kind of distant. He still made fun of Izuku though, so he probably wasn't as distant as he thinks he was.

Next he talks about he could never truly be superior to Deku, how he always lost. But this is(in my opinion), unnecessary. He's giving all these reasons as to how things didn't work out for him, and that last part being placed well....last kinda makes it seem like because everything didn't work out right, he's sorry. I know this isn't how its meant, but I feel it could have been worded differently. I can't help but wonder, though, if Izuku had submitted, if Bakugou had been superior in his own eyes, if he'd succeeded, would he still be sorry?

In alot of cases, though, Bakugou succeeded in beating Midoriya down(temporarily). Physically anyway(the final exam, and when he impaled Izuku with his headpiece).

(Note: A differing opinion has lead me to think differently about this. Bakugou had become distant in an emotional sense, he and Deku weren't as close as they were before. No longer besties, if you understand me.)

At least, after this, Bakugou explains that he realizes nothing he said really matters. I like that he can understand this, and I appreciate that he feels Izuku is owed an explanation at least. The one thing I hate about this is that his reasoning for doing what he did is longer than his apology. His apology is one line.

It's just one. If someone told me that they put me through hell because of an idea they'd placed in their own head that was so incredibly far from the truth(like Bakugou saying that he thought Izuku was looking down on him during their first battle at Ground Beta), I wouldn't feel any better. As a matter of fact, I'd feel worse about it. There is literally nothing Izuku could have done to prevent the bullying. Even if he wasn't quirkless, Bakugou back then, might not have been able to fathom the idea of someone being even a little better than him. So he probably still would have bullied Deku. Only this time Izuku might have been able to fight back depending on the quirk he would have been born with.

If someone murdered my mother, and stood in court explaining why, far more than being sorry, I wouldn't be any happier. Yes, the reason matters, but the amount of time you spend explaining the reason should be virtually nonexistent compared to the time you spend showing remorse and sorrow.

I very much enjoy how he understands that Izuku wanting to leave UA and go it alone wasn't necessarily wrong. I think Bakugou is correct here. Nice Bakugou, very cool.

I'm also very happy that Izuku apologizes for saying that everyone couldn't keep up. Very cool, Izuku.

Please don't get me wrong, though. I'm proud of Bakugou for even bringing this up regardless of how he did it. I think that Bakugou apologizing is a huge step in the proper direction. I cant help but be concerned over how he'll be different in the future though.

Well, why would I be worried about this? Because he's shown promise before, but soon after goes back to being pretty rude. Bakugou explained to that child that looking down on others would prevent him from realizing his own weakness "If you keep looking down on everyone, then you won't notice your own weakness."(My Hero Academia Episode 80(sub): Relief For License Trainees -16:00). Yet, he continued to look down on others in a sense, even as recently as the Endeavor Training Arc. Bakugou's arrogance continues, even when he realizes that looking down on others is wrong. He claims that Todoroki could never notice something he didn't already notice(My Hero Academia Episode 103(sub): One Thing at a Time -7:18). And when he claims that Endeavor, the Number 1 Hero, is ripping off of his style "He's copying my Explosion" (My Hero Academia Episode 103(sub): One Thing at a Time -6:50).

Truly, I hope Bakugou's arrogance and negative confidence will subside, and we'll be able to witness him being blatantly and openly kind to others. I'm not asking Bakugou to change his character, he could become an Inosuke(Demon Slayer) of sorts. He could even become a more obvious Tsundere, with the narrative showing his thoughts and agreeing with him actually caring in a more obvious fashion.

But, that's just what I think

Once again, feel free to comment your opinion on my criticisms of Bakugou's apology, or even tell me what you think about it! I love hearing differing opinions.

[glitch-in-the-code]

ok ok ok but heres the thing with my au

the reason that Willy boy over here started experimenting on remnant/agony stuff waay before any of his kids died or anything was because his wife was dying (of lung cancer, remember?) and he wanted to fix her,, chemo is not only very expensive (could easily bankrupt even the wealthiest of people) but it has a lot of side effects for the patient as well, esp in the early 70s-80s when it wasnt as well understood either

so his solution was idk reading a bunch of cult writings about sould and stuff and then going from there to experimenting with harvesting agony/souls to create remnant to prolong one's life or something. so, he !initially! started with 'good' (?) intentions to save the woman he loved but when he started his work, he experimented on himself first (this is before Liz and CC were born) the remnant affected him where it started messing with his emotions and mental state even more which made him more and more unstable,,

eventually it made him paranoid about death which made him justify killing more people to create more remnant (leading to constructing Circus Baby and death of Liz which just made the paranoia WORSE) and the cycle continued as more of his family died around him.

the reason i bring this up, is because he became more unstable and paranoid he started blaming others for the deaths (Mike and Henry) so that led to a complete emotional disconnect on Mike which is where the experiments on him started happening (without his knowledge ofc)

i just think its interesting to have this arc of a person wanting to save his loved ones through any means possible but quickly devolving into madness and fear because of the circumstances around him and what he did to himself and others. also, consider Mike who had to watch all this happen from the start, but not knowing anything that happened behind the scenes... what with everyone that cared about him gone and his father hating him and blaming him for every second of every day, how could he not start to believe that it really was all his fault? blaming himself and feeling guilty for things beyond his control? in my experience such an abusive and turbulent childhood and upbringing takes a lot of work to undo, if it can be done at all due to the extent of the situation... it just explains a lot is all

also sorry for the long absence it might happen again, theres a lot of stuff happening these days lol

-music anon

MUSIC ANON!!! Hello, hello!! It’s nice to hear from you again! You don’t need to apologize! Remember to take care of yourself!

also - OH MY GOD?? THIS IS BRILLIANT!! I do absolutely love it when a character starts off with good intentions (even if the means are questionable) only to end up on a path they shouldn’t be on

I really love how Mike becomes a test subject (albeit unknowingly) for his father, it really just adds to it, ya know??

But it’s really no surprise that Michael starts to internalize the things William says to him, even though all of it was outside of his own control

Your au fucking slaps, music anon!!

[soup-du-silence]

Do you think the DT17 show suffered a lot from the inclusion of Darkwing Duck? It seemed like the show really focused on the inclusion of other Disney Afternoon elements after that at the expense of everything else. It also seemed like the creators were way too confident that they'd get to helm a Darkwing Duck reboot, so all the buildup in DT17 feels kinda pointless. I also feel like there was a lot of toxicity coming from fans of DWD in Ducktales, particularly Drakepad fans.

i think DT17 suffered a lot from the inclusion of a lot of characters. The cast became so bloated there there simply wasnt enough time to devote to everyone, so we ended up with like, 10 different subgroups in the show, all of whom had rushed or short or unsatisfying arcs. I dont think DWD took a particularly large slice of the pie, but when you have enough little slices coming out of the pie, it doesnt leave much else left anyway. 

But also? It was absolutely delightful to see some lesser known characters, and I was still really hoping we’d get answers about Hortense and Quackmore. I wanted Donald and Della’s age explained. Were they born in the 80′s or were the born much earlier and spent all their youth unaging at castle mcduck? I wanted to see Grandma Elvira, who I guess this continuity didnt have a place for, on account of D&D spending their youth with Scrooge, I guess. I know other folks wanted to see Launchpad’s family, and if we were going to get DWD stuff, then we also wanted to see Morgana or some of the other villains like Splatter Phoenix. We got to see Poe and they set up some cool stuff with him, but only in the 11th hour when they weren’t going to follow through with it. People were excited to see Kit even though he only had one episode and didn’t really add anything. People like to see the familiar, its exciting, and its good PR. But also the original stuff like Lena and Boyd were also super good and could have had more time and attention spent on them instead.

So how do you win?

And the DWD stuff was....yeah, I think they did do it with the hopes they’d in particular get that green light, because what we did get didnt really go anywhere. We never saw Negaduck again, and we didn’t get to see what made DWD really great: Drake and Gos and LP at home, as a family unit. So...I guess maybe that WAS wasted time or potential. I can’t really say. If the show had gone on for longer and if they’d KNOWN it would go on for longer, maybe that would have meant more breathing room for all these characters and arcs. But waiting for each season to be renewed and writing “each season as though it would be the last” means you can never look forward to the future or plan things in advance, you have to just take what you’ve got and made the best of it.

I would not have wanted a fourth or fifth season of ducktales in that fashion, where they keep tying up loose ends and then repicking them over and over again. I dont think it would have been good.

And I know plenty of drakepads who are lovely people. Its a very old ship, much older than the toxic fans who made it their mission to be as ugly and cruel and ruin as much fun as humanly possible. I try not to associate it with them, but i understand how it happens. I myself have found it harder to get excited about DWD in recent years because of the negative associations.

[incorrect-elder-scrolls-shit]

I got sum of myy... Uhhhh... Ancient Falmerrrr/snoww elfff headcanons sss

Agagag here /a go

I like to think that Ancient Falmer/snow elves authorities usually tend to want to be friends with a lot of neighbors and other races/beings around them. Unless theres some previous stress they usually stay acquaintances or neutral towards each other

Authoroties or preists/the high priestess tend to have longer hair to signify peace. Although not important, if someones hair is extremely long they are usually seen as a peacful and kind person. The practice is somewhat uncommon with only around 1/4 of the leaders doing it.

Ancient Falmer/Snow elves could withstand the lowest temperatures because of their skin and natural abilities. If the temperature is cold enough an elves skin would get glossy and look almost iced over, the more cold the more glossy/iced over their skin would look(lowest they can survive in is about -80°F[-62.2°C] to -90°F[67.7°C] depending on where they were born)

Now for hotter temperatures, they couldnt handle. The hotter the temperature the more uncomfortable an elf would be and of its hot enough, they either; get heatstroke, feint, or even die. They get these affect much sooner than other races(maybe around 70°F[21.1°C] to 90°F[32.2°C]).

Elven stereotype Canadians

Had annual "new dawn" ceremonies where many of the preists and nobles from other groups or settlements would come to the main settlement, somewhere near labrynthian.

Builders and other high ups are able to use a type of tonal architecture solely based on their magic skill and strength of mind.

The night of tears wasnt a decision of the authorities of the elves, but a rouge group who werent as kind and open-minded as most others.

The Ancient Falmer/snow elves lives were ones to rival the altmer. A happy lifestly filled with wonderous magic and acceptance. There was hardly any discrimination towards other races or people of their kind.

Their magic was extremely widely spread and detailed. With tiny spells for making plants grow better to the largest spells able to make buildings and castles and even a spell to change small things about yourself over a period of time. Some spells were for fighting albeit not very many as they didnt tend to get into a lot of wars. The spells for fighting though were mainly used by the higher ups during attacks and ambushes. They were usually only used for protecting others in their group or families.

And that is all! Tank you for your tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiimmmmmeee

[madiiko12]

new york’s very own madison ‘madi’ ko was spotted on broadway street in chanel sneakers . your resemblance to kim chungha is unreal . according to tmz , you just had your twenty-first birthday bash . while living in nyc , you’ve been labeled as being obsessive , but also ambitious . i guess being a virgo explains that . 3 things that would paint a better picture of you would be glittery eyes, dangling earrings, & chanel draped in pearls.  ( cisfemale & she/her) + ( kale, 20 , she/her , est. )

hi honeybuns !! im back and with child. there is a brief mention of an ed under the cut but i block it off with a tw start & end.    if you’d like to plot pls leave a like and i can dm you or hit you up on discord !! my discord is kale#3079  

BACKSTORY

haneul madison ko was born september 18, 1999 to two immigrant parents from S.K. her birth name is haneul, but she went by the name madison since it was easier to pronounce + madi began to almost detest her culture??

it was just that growing up she would sometimes get bullied for looking different at her school, for the way her packed lunches smelled/looked, the way people would stare if she spoke korean to her parents, how other kids would make fun of her english since she didn’t pick up on vocab/grammar as quickly since she didn’t practice at home with her parents. she just became SO insecure about it that she rejected her culture. she wouldn’t bring her mom’s food to school, if her mom ever forced her to take it she’d throw it away  and choose to starve instead. she wouldn’t speak korean back to her parents in public, barely even in private (which reeaaallly upset her parents). this also REALLY destroyed her korean language skills. she can understand still, but she can barely hold a basic conversation anymore.

as she grew up, and continued this sense of distancing herself from her culture, she ultimately distanced herself from her family. which left her feeling -  - alone often, even though it was all due to her own choices. in this loneliness, she found her escape in music. she would wear headphones constantly through the halls, in car rides, in her room when her parents yelled at her to turn the music down. she just loved music. she saved up the money her parents gave her whenever she worked at the nail salon (her parents owned it!!) to thrift an old keyboard. she became self-taught by trying to copy melodies of songs she’d listen to, thrifting piano lesson books, staying after school with the music teacher learning to play. sometimes she’d even skip lunch to sit in the chorus room with her choir director and play.

it’s not that she had a LACK of friends growing up, maybe just that she lacked a best friend. she had a lot of friends, but no one that she felt so connected to in the way she felt connected to music. perhaps, she was addicted to her loneliness.

she spent a lot of time playing the piano and dabbling in writing music that her grades started to fall (not that she was ever the BEST student) and her parents literally took away her piano. they said it was a waste of time because they wanted her to focus on doing well, so she could get into a good university, and then live a good life. music was just a distraction

but that didnt work

she would sneak out into the city to go to concerts and poetry readings. she’d sneak out and go to indie songwriters scenes while her parents thought she was at the library with one of her school friends

This underground scene had her full heart!! she was surrounded by likeminded people who just lived for music. she was hearing all of these incredible people who were all looking for their start. maybe not looking for anything at than just to sing their songs. tbh i think this was the point she was happiest. she was completely enveloped in music, just for the sake of music. There wasn’t any pressure, just music. Just the songs. she was wide eyed looking at this whole underground scene of artists. So maybe some plots from these underground charas?!

she’d perform some songs at karaoke nights and the indie sessions, and a producer took a keen interest in one of her songs. basically im kind of stealing halsey’s career start, but she posted a song Came in Close on SoundCloud and just blew up overnight. in the morning, she woke up to a record label asking her to fly to LA for a meeting.

and thus, Madison Ko began a career as Madi Ko where she’d release her debut album, Honey, a few months later. (DISCOGRAPHY HERE). her music is very 80s synth inspired!

new album that is most definitely CRJ’S EMOTION is coming soon...

PERSONALITY

right off the bat, madi is an absolute firecracker!! she’s loud, bursting with personality, has a lack of inhibitions that CHAOTICALLY mixes with her spontaneity

part of this is projecting her insecurities. she felt lonely as a child but doesn’t want to be seen as that to the world. it’s not so much a persona but an exaggeration of who she was. 

she likes to show off her glam bc it, once again, hides her insecurities. 

she just kind of is dramatic anymore

like everything about her

her persona as Madi Ko, upcoming popstar underdog, is like DUNKED in glitter, over the top stages and sets, draped in couture. basically her stages/outfits/dances/mvs are like Chungha’s but with Pale Waves and Carly Rae Jepsen VC. ex: 1, 2, 3, 4

also bc im obsessed with chungha’s famous diamond wink, IT’S GONNA BE MADI’S THING TOO. so basically madi has trended on twt a few times bc of her signature diamond wink bc she effing glues rhinestones and glitter under her eyes for performances !! she said fuck corneas !! ex: 1, 2, 3      ....god chungha is magical

so while madi is like a brand hypebeast n never shuts up, she can also get,,, easily annoyed. and heavily perceives ppl on first impressions despite that being the reason she felt misunderstood a lot growing up. 

definitely argumentative!!! will blow up arguments for no reason n then later questions why she made it such a big deal but cant own up to her mistakes

when she decides she doesnt like you, SHE DOESNT LIKE YOU. it’s done. bridge is burned, she’s not keen on second chances

fame has definitely given her a bit of an ego problem --- she’s a bit more aggressive, self-obsessed while intrinsically insecure, is too busy flaunting her material possessions and trendy life that she can...lose touch of reality. basically most of her high school friends cant stand her. HC that her high school bf broke up with her bc she was no longer was the madison ko he knew!!! so if anyone wants to be that ex lmk !!! she’s written songs about them!!!

definitely the type of girl who is so hype at a party, dancing in fallen confetti, standing on the fireplace mantle, but then midway realizes she’s lonely. sad at a party. 

ED TW STARTS!!!!!

....

she kind of always had body image issues growing up, but it was very off and on, but once she got signed and being by surrounded by cameras became normal she formed a full fledged ED. she’s passed out at concerts a few times bc of her ED, but they always brush it off as “not enough rest” or “she wasnt feeling well that day but pushed to perform anyway as to not disappoint the fans”

so feel free for ur muses to point it out !! she’ll get really defensive like “i eat i just work out a lot” and yeah it’s true she works out a lot but she...doesn’t really eat

it’s also one of the causes of her irritability ...

.....

END ED TW!!!!

idk why this is so long

always up for mischief! 

does love a good prank. asks weird hypotheticals 

is not scared of an ouija board

will get wasted off a few shots and drunk madi is UNSTOPPABLE 

one time drunk madi cried bc her siamese cat (MOCHI !!!) wouldn’t ever get to go to school and would never know chemistry..... the dramatics.....

she is sensitive and despises it. she does everything she can to not come across as sensitive

however, she’s so obsessive. so deep in feeling. when she feels something she FEELS it. when she is mad it boils through her. when she is in love it is all she knows. when she is sad it covers her like sweaters and blankets on rainy days. she doesn’t know how to half-feel. everything she feels stops her in her tracks.

HOWEVER she’s the most obsessive with her own insecurities — so in relationships she’s kind of known for tapping out early. she just gets scared and the fleetingness of her career and that she’s at her very core, lonely and disappointed in herself, makes her want to run away thinking that letting down her walls and being vulnerable could only be disappointing for her SO. so maybe she ghosted ur chara or gave some lame excuse

Kind of obsessed with how she’s perceived

terrified that at any moment her career could be thrown away, her deemed irrelevant, and she goes back to being Madison Ko, daughter of nail techs in Koreatown. and then her parents would have been right all along, music was a waste of time.

she’s just my little fallen angel who flew to the sun (fame) and it constantly eats away at her girlhood, at her heart.

anyways this is all i got rn <3 come love me sorry i kind of didn’t shut up this is long

WANTED CONNECTIONS

an ex from before she was famous who broke up with her because of how she changed!! PLEASE i have ideas for this. plus,,, you get a lot of songs about ur chara!!! could be from high school, maybe someone in the music scene she frequented before she was signed, anything!!

anothr ex/fwb/undefined relationship i’d love is one when she was first famous who just introduced her to everything. something like a whirlwind that was exciting and magical. she’s written songs about this person.

exes in general. 

hookups/fwb

romantic plots. pls i have songs who need meaning. friends to lovers, one sided (either way), slowburn, ANYTHING. love cruel summer plots, anything lover by tswift

PR relationships -- would LOVE one where she falls in love with the other despite how clearly defined they made their relationship

love triangles in general just get me going

best friend!!!! the one’s who know how the other feels just by looking at each other. they have countless sleepovers. tell each other everything. cry together on bathroom floors. pregame together. 

ex friends. for whatever reason -- maybe madi did smth shitty, maybe they did. maybe there was backstabbing, maybe madi sacrificed friendship for a career, maybe she made moves on their romantic partner/interest despite being fully aware. idk. gimme

People she knew from the underground/indie scene before they were famous!! they’d have bonded over their love for music, little indie dreams kind of vibe. just imagine a group of dreamers !! Would love if they made some kind of pact!!!

party friends

collabs !!

pranks. mischief. gimme

enemies. gotta cook up some drama, yknow

GIRL GANG. god i just want this so bad like make a girls dream come true