#even tho I don't do that anymore I'm still scared
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rainofthetwilight · 11 months ago
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you guys finished finals? can't relate. <- still has finals in january and isn't ready for that shit
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kuromi-hoemie · 3 days ago
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hhhh talking about my writing was fun but 30 tags is not enough.. yes i have 3 major influences but i have minor ones too.. it is a lovechild of my favorite things.. writing is so fun and i have no self control or a concept of pacing myself i will sit there for 16 hours and get hit with every status effect but by god does it all just flow out of me. I've always been a music person yes but i also used to write a lot into early adulthood until The Incident™
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but i am ready 2 jump back into it. i think comics are a great middle ground between the two mediums so i don't get As into writing bc i kind of started going crazy last time 🫡 i can take a more structured approach to it that forces me to pace myself and think about it differently. i love art.... i love making things i love knowing how to do things i love knowing how to play things i love having so many creative outlets, even if i don't do a lot of them regularly lol. it is enriching 😳 and nice to know that it's always there to come back to when u want.
#if u want the tea my imagination at the time was like i could space out and straight up just be another person POV doing every little#thing as if i were them for hours and the experience would come together without having to even think about it.#different times/places/contexts/conversations etc. forced 2 to to my mom's lil cult meetings for 2 hours twice a week#i would opt to do these imagination exercises instead to rly put myself in a character's perspective. every step‚ stumble‚#riding in a carriage together for the entirety from point A to B etc. WELL i was working on a horror anthology somewhere 18/19#(that had a small local following 🫶🏾) and it its concept was like the Twilight zone but a lot darker. it was called interdimensional#and the main recurring character never actually shows up in the story. they r an omnipresent god of death who exists everywhere but#exists outside of our realm‚ and it picks random people to reveal itself to as a symbol. it can be apparent or just in passing that#the entry's MC sees it in‚ it will appear on something somewhere and once it's brought up it's a cue to the reader that this person#has just been sent to an alternate reality that leads towards their inevitable death. for the character nothing ever changes immediately#but the different starts to creep its way in‚ as does death's approach at its crescendo but the path's i took to get there were 😨#and after enough entries i started to see the symbol irl and hallucinate some other stuff from my stories and it really scared me#and made me stop 🫡 but i think in retrospect i just went too hard on the imagination exercises and wished i tried cultivating it instead#give myself time to settle and get in control.. but alas‚ she has not written seriously since. to this day it still flows out of me if#i just sit down to do it‚ but i don't think I'm at risk of something like that happening again anymore :3 so yeah ♡⁠ i am learning how to#draw and trying not 2 force it bc i want it to b fun as a little journey for me and i look forward to the day i can come back to actively#writing again too 🫶🏾 i miss it but i also want to b able to draw ૮₍ ˃ ⤙ ˂ ₎ა#learn the hard thing first then do the stuff that comes naturally.... i also want to get back into music sometime but clearly i got a lot of#other stuff to work on 💀 i burnt myself out on it learning too many things and not having enough fun with it anymore‚#but i have a better healthier with art these days and i know it'll be great to come back to when I'm ready 😌💕#i have been considering getting an acoustic or bass guitar tho 🧐 the beauty of physical instruments.. they're just there ready 2 go..#I've been doing mostly digital the past few years‚ when i was making music. it was also rly hard to when i was w my ex ૮ – ﻌ–ა#that's a whole other rant lol. but ugh digital is like u gotta set it up u gotta make space and then u gotta be in one spot the whole time#i just wanna lay in bed and vibe or something yfm.. walk around maybe idk. do something less structured.#maybe.. hm. hmmm 🧐#I'm going to guitar center lol c ya ✌🏾 getting a bass and amp and maybe a guitar too depending on the price
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zakubabbles · 6 months ago
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Maybe
just maybe
I should get back on anti deps
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adore-gregor · 1 year ago
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I feel so lucky
#even though i often rant to complain here#i never imagined my life to be this good as it is now 🥹#i have almost everything i ever wished for#i sometimes switch between this and feeling alone like no one gets me 😅#like sometimes i feel like i should be so grateful but also that doesn't mean everything is awesome#often i feel like no one sees my struggles from the people i'm close to#because everyone always thinks things are easy for me like when it comes to university or because i appear so happy#it feels lonely sometimes but anyways#like they don't know the expectations people especially my family have for me even tho they don't say it normally sometimes it comes through#anyways i do have a lot to be grateful#i never had such a good relationship with my parents 🥺 it's not perfect but it feels so much more normal like it should be#and i have so many friends and people i get on at uni and my sports it's amazing 🥹#i never thought that would be me it's like a dream :))) i struggled so much with anxiety#i was so scared to even speak to someone a few years ago 😅#it makes the experience so pleasant i also enjoy uni <3#(altough i still think of adding something to my major to give me more options but also i think i would like it)#my grades are good no worries of failing classes anymore atm (altough i will still worry 😂)#i even get great grades with minimal effort (though this one is only partly good as it encourages laziness haha)#and i found something i'm passionate about again i love tennis sm 🫶#when i play i'm so happy and it gives me drive to become rly good at it even though it's not like i wanna become pro or sth. haha#it would be too late for that anyway lol tho ofc it'd be great but i just enjoy the challenge and seeing progress it's so rewarding 😁#and tennis with friends >>#i also like football :) and it feels like the void ski jumping left behind is finally getting filled :')#like when gregor retired i kind of lost my love for the sport and yeah it's sad but i'm glad i have sth again 🥹#also the freedom i have i could never have imagined#i could just go on a little trip with friends if i wanted to and i talked about this with a friend and i got so excited abt it 🥺😍😍#to have the possibility to just travel when i want to :))#i earned some money from (mostly summer) jobs these last years and it's great#and i can just get myself whatever i want mostly (i don't want crazy things)#and my family is much better off i guess that doesn't hurt either
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sunprophets · 1 year ago
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someone needs to start a consipracy theory that mr beast is dajjal i think it would be funny
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starryarles · 2 years ago
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just got done playing games w my brother and a friend:[ i feel like shit for some reason,, i think i just need to sleep it off,, and i have an appointment tomorrow so i'm kind of excited abt that
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unluckilyimnot · 6 months ago
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hiîi, can you write bllk chara tera introducing their gf to the press or the press somehow finding you that the players have a gf
idk if this makes sense but pleaseee write it I love your blog sm <3
The press found out about their relationship - Rin, Sae, Kaiser, Isagi, Karasu
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Note : hii ! Thank you sm for your request! I take some times to go through some of my requests before writing with another media I'm really into rn, sorry some will wait a bit mor
Same as the others ! There wasn't anyone mentioned but don't hesitate to ask for your fav if you want ♡
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Rin
He's not fan of it
I guess he adapted to it quickly, you being bring on a lot the first few weeks and things like that
But he's so tensed about it you have to calm him down a lot at first
He's upset all the time You have to remind him that's it's not only a bad things
And that people's reactions has been relatively good, that's already a good point
He's more worried about you obviously but in the end you're the one taking care of him
He feels a bit bad but yeah, he appreciates it a lot
Don't expect a lot of changes tho, he doesn't want his love life all over the internet
Sae
He's annoyed when the press found out, to say the least
He wish it could've stay private and doesn't want people to be after you
He hates the fact that he's ask about it now and has to be even more cold in interview than before
He tries to be unbothered but knowing how it changed your life it's impossible
Behind closed door at first he can spend a lot of time with you so make it up
He's famous so I think people tried to know more about you and invade your personal space
I don't think it necessarily goes wrong on social media, it's just trending a lot for a few days
You have to moderate your account a lot cause there's always hater
He still doesn't talk about you bc you asked him to
but he feel less pressure if some pictures of you two end up in the internet
Kaiser
He's ANGRY
Don't get it wrong, he thought about revealing your relationship a few times and you were still talking about it
But this happening without his consent or yours drive him crazy at first
Yet on camera he's cocky about it, telling he doesn't mind and rumbling about how gorgeous you are
He takes the opportunity as it is and posy about you more on his social media, without hiding you so much
He has his lawer ready to anyone spitting shit at you on social media tho
Don't mess with his s/o, he'll take actions
Isagi
He's lost poor guy
If you cry about it he does his absolute best to comfort you before contacting his agent to see what he can do
Honestly He's use to it but if you're not used to the fame, he's careful so your anxiety don't go crazy
He's sad if that change your life a lot but he does his best to not change a thing in your routine
The good point is that, like Kaiser, he can pray a lot more with you than before and he's really happy about it !!
He likes to share with people I think so it open a lot of doors
Karasu
He acts cool in front of the camera but he's annoyed
It was early in your relationship and he's scared it's gonna fucked it up
You have to be the one comforting him
You're not the type to make promises if you're not sure of yourself, but you assure him that the press and people finding out didn't scared you
You'll stay with him as long as possible, you don't see yourself leaving because of this
He's probably needed this more than he would've admit cause after this, being on camera is easier again
He's not upset anymore if they ask about you since you gave him a green light
He feels even lighter than before, in fact
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heartshapedbubble · 11 months ago
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Ello can I request a Norton Fools good x fem reader where she came across the blown up mines and sees Norton (in his hunter form) she’s scared at first but starts to recognise him and slowly starts to approach him reaching her hand up to cub his cheeks ( bro this man needs all the love! )
HOO BOY i agree tho... his release made me regain my interest in norton🫡🫡
[not to be a scum but i'm still open for sanrio emma comms btw😭😭]
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fool's gold: imagine...⛏️
cut for length!
paying the bills has become a hellish cycle. break your back to pay off the expenses, relax for the following twenty-ish days, and be sent into frenzy again, not knowing if you're going to have a roof over your head tomorrow or not.
you found yourself hopelessly skimming through newspaper, looking for any job offer possible that would easen up the burden on your wallet. The paper was plastered with offers from bars, post offices and restaurants, but those were a always gamble. will you get your wage or not? and if you will, when? too much effort for something so high-risk.
at last, a small offer in the corner of the page caught your attention. pressed in miniscule letters, it said: MINE RESEARCH. EMPLOYEES URGENTLY NEEDED. EQUIPMENT PROVIDED. underneath the text, an attractive number: $15,000 payed off immediately after the job is done.
not only could this solve the rent for the following 3 months, you'd also have some money left for yourself! you rang the number the second you got home and successfully scored the job, due to the urgency of the situation.
it took you a day or two to start thinking about the job. what do you exactly need to know for mine research? probably at least some physical strength and stamina, you thought. surely it can't be too complex.
you arrived at the mine right on time, the sun slowly slipping back into the horizon to let the moon take center stage. to your dismay, you realized no one else applied for the job. maybe this wasn't a good idea after all? crawling through the narrow, rocky terrain all alone doesn't sound like the ideal scenario. no living being in sight, and 20 minutes have already went by.
still, that money is way too good to pass up. you picked up one of the yellow helmets piled up at the entrance, prayed to whatever god out there that your flashlight has enough power to last the following 2 hours and mindlessly rushed into the collapsing mine.
for the following 10 minutes, your sight unfocused while your mind took the lead, in front of and all around you just rocks and grime, shadows dispelled by the flashlight held by your hip like a lance. only after a good 5 minutes of running did you realize that you, in fact, have no idea what you're supposed to do. what qualifies as mine research? mining, inspecting the ores, measuring the surface?
all sweaty and breathless, the tunnel led you to a large room inside of the mine, the roof extending towards what seemed like a pitch black abyss. carts messily thrown around, bumpy and unpolished geodes laying all over the place, when was the last time a living being stepped foot into this mine? it made sense that such a large sum of money was needed to attract volunteers.
you carefully moved through the rubble, trying to avoid stepping onto pickaxes and shrapnel splayed all over the ground. since you forgot about the gloves your bare hand now held onto the unpromising terrain, the other firmly squeezing the only source of light in this limbo.
the surface grazing your hand now seems like it became... smoother? no longer does it cut and pierce your palms. it's bumpy, but at least you're not risking an infection anymore.
moving inch by inch in fear of falling, the stone below changes its form. you don't even pay attention to the fact that you're now grabbing onto cloth and that, below your palm, a steady pulse is faintly beating.
it's already too late when you realize that you're not alone, and the stone below you starts to take shape and morph until it extends towards the ceiling, now towering over you, slouched like a ragdoll.
complementing the cold shades of grey, a face emerges from the shadows. pale, with defined cheekbones, although malnourished. only his bust passes as human, as below his collarbones there's nothing but a mosaic of pebbles and boulders forming his torso, arms and legs. it - or he, perhaps - is breathing with struggle, coughs interrupting his wheezes here and there.
you feel a sense of dread overcoming you. you freeze on the spot, but he doesn't budge, either. lifeless except for the fact he's breathing and his heart ticks like a machine.
you draw back a step, and he lunges forward, seemingly still not used to this monstrous body of his. he could harm me with ease if he wanted to, a thought suddenly manifests in your mind, and with newfound bravery you inspect the cryptid like a sculpture. your hand grazes over his bumpy and unfinished hands, tugs at the remains of his clothes around his chest. he groans, in annoyance, you assume, but doesn't resist. you climb up a cart to reach his face, your fingers pinch his stubborn hairstrands, inspect the cavity in which his other eye once laid. in a moment of either stupidity or courage you roughly pinch his cheeks - they're cold to the touch, but it's funny how naturally does his intimidating face mush like a little boy's. kind of cute. after a minute of cooing to yourself two of his rocky fingers gently pinch your wrists and put them back to your sides, but his one foggy eye doesn't divert its gaze from yours.
perhaps the flashlight can last an hour more.. you've just began getting to know him, and the mystery of the mine and his origin still lay cold for you to discover.
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aniesvision · 4 months ago
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𝑺𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖
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𐂃 𝚎𝚡! 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚝 𝚜𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚘𝚕𝚘 𝚡 𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚛! 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛
𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜: 𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒔𝒕, 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌𝒖𝒑, 𝒄𝒓𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈, 𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒕, 𝒂𝒏𝒙𝒊𝒆𝒕𝒚, 𝒑𝒆𝒕 𝒏𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔 (𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒚), 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒚 𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈
𝚊/𝚗: 𝒉𝒆𝒚! 𝒊 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒐 𝒃𝒂𝒅, 𝒊 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒄𝒉𝒓𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒐 𝒍𝒆𝒕 𝒎𝒆 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚'𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌! 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒍𝒚 𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓: 𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒊𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒎𝒚 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒖𝒂𝒈𝒆, 𝒆𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚 ☕︎
𝚜𝚢𝚗𝚘𝚙𝚜𝚒𝚜: 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒈𝒐 𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒑𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒓𝒆𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑 𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆
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I take a deep breath, peeking through the curtains to see the place completely crowded with people. It was the last show from my tour, yet it didn't make it any easier to go up there and perform. I was supposed to sing two unreleased songs tonight, both of them being clear vents about my last relationship.
My dating life is not something I usually post about, but it's definitely one thing I can't hide from everyone considering I'm a public person now. The fans, paparazzi, and even sometimes cute little dates where I find myself posting to celebrate, just wanting to share with my social media things about my personal life like a normal person.
Me and Matt met a year ago, immediately getting along and going out a few times with mutual friends. Although we were both a little bit shy, the social skills coming from being "famous" people made it easier for us to decide to go on a date. Not exactly a date, but just a day together, just the two of us, in my apartment. We couldn't risk being seen alone now that we were starting to know each other, scared of people's reactions if they found out.
Two months later, we were officially dating, the only ones to know besides us were our close friends and family. We couldn't hide it for long tho, a few fans already picking up the news just by watching how we treated each other.
Matt and I made a deal not to post about our relationship unless it was an important date, but we did break that deal by posting some pictures of us now and then. Some people loved to see us together, shipping us, making cute edit videos, and posting about how they liked to see us together. Others not so much, but that's part of what we go through every day.
Being a singer was something I had always dreamed of. I posted lots of covers all over social media for years before finally getting acknowledged by one big artist. It helped me grow and go viral a few times, and I took that as my chance, posting a song I wrote and produced myself.
And now, two years later, I'm about to go on my first tour, with three albums posted and almost all tickets sold. It was such a scary yet exciting accomplishment to me, and all I wanted to do as soon as I hung up the phone with my assistant telling me about the road trip I was going on tomorrow for a tour was to go to my boyfriend's house and celebrate with him.
Unfortunately, I knew something was up as soon as my eyes met Matt's, and he guided me through the well-known hallway to his room. He locked the door behind him and scratched the back of his neck with one hand. He was nervous.
-We need to break up.
My eyes widen and immediately fill with tears, my eyebrows frowning, and my hands starting to sweat.
-What?
He sat next to me on his bed, looking at me with guilt as he confirmed his last words.
-I'm so sorry, but I just don't think we can be together anymore.
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Getting on stage for the last time after singing my songs, cheering with the crowd, even knowing I was broken inside, was harsh. Especially because me and Matt hadn't shared about our break up, people still think we're together, and I'm about to break the news for the first time publically. Sort of.
I haven't talked or had any type of contact with Matt for the last month. After I left his house that day, the only person I talked to was my assistant and she thought it was better for me to keep things hidden for now. It was not time for a breakup story or for me to be sad, I needed to be happy and ready to perform, but as much as I loved to just forget about everything, I couldn't.
I spent all the days on the bus crying myself to sleep, my assistant staying up with me and bringing in the idea of writing down my feelings. The words turned into lyrics, and eventually, I had two songs ready to go out.
Me and my team decided it'd be a good idea to sing them on my last show, ending my tour with my entire heart. I take deep breaths before walking to the middle of the stage, all the cheering and clapping filling the room. I adjust my posture and raise the mic close to my mouth.
-Hello everyone! I'm so thankful for all the support. There's so much I want to say, but even if I spend the whole night here talking, I can't thank you all enough. -I smile, my eyes scanning all the people in front of me.
-I've been going through a lot recently, so much going on in my personal life, the tour, and social media. I try to share a little bit of me through every song I write, and tonight I want to share how I've been by singing two unreleased songs I wrote during the tour. I hope y'all like it. Thank you so much, I love y'all!
Someone brings me a chair and I close my eyes, the instrumental starting to echo along the stadium. I tried my best to focus on the lyrics, my feelings were exposed to the crowd with the first song.
It was clearly about Matt, even though I don't mention his name, I share memories of us that are everywhere on social media. The first part is about how we met, how he made me laugh, how he always knew what to say to make my days better. The second part was about the ending, how I was so excited for something new, something I wanted all my life, and he destroyed the magic of it by breaking my heart.
It was made out of anger, disappointment, sadness, regret, and all the denial I felt at first. It was my way of showing him how much it ruined my mental health.
All the clapping made me open my eyes, I kept them closed until the song was over, and just now, I realized I was crying. Without having much time to process things, the second song comes in, and the melody is nothing like the last one. It was happier, more like a pop song.
The lyrics were so different from the first one. It was like an open letter to him, saying how much I enjoyed our time together, and how I knew that I needed to move on. This one was my acceptance of the breakup, one I wrote with a smile, remembering what we've been through and thanking him for showing me how much I was able to feel for someone.
It was obvious now that I was talking about Matt if it wasn't before. And for the first time, I made it clear that I was going through a heartbreak, and just like anyone else I was struggling to mask my feelings. My tears roll down my cheeks nonstop, and I cover my face with my hands when the crowd starts shouting "We love you."
The show goes on and I try to ignore the pain in my chest as I sing all the other songs. It was also one idea of mine to use the last minutes of the show to answer some questions, the security guards walking through the crowd and choosing people to hand a microphone. I knew I'd have to talk about him, to talk about us, but it was necessary.
My eyes scan the crowd as I search for the next person to talk, sitting on the edge of the stage as I do so. What I didn't expect was to meet a pair of eyes I knew way too well. Some noises are being heard and ignored by me as my eyes widen in shock and my mouth opens in surprise.
-My question is: can you forgive me?
I was so shocked by it that my heart was almost ripping out of my chest and jumping out of my body, my mouth was dry, and my skin started to get pale. My eyebrows furrowed in confusion, it felt like I was being pranked, like nothing was real.
Everyone was expecting an answer, and after a few seconds, I knew I was going to look dumb if I didn't give it to him.
-You know the answer to that.
I keep my eyes on his and see him talking to the security guard. I immediately noticed what was happening and nodded to the guard, and just then, I realized Nick and Chris were next to him, all three of them being guided by the security guard to the backstage.
I sigh and shake my head, ending the show and the sort of Q&A session to go back to the dressing room. I sit down on the chair, the makeup artist starting to wipe out my makeup when we hear knocks on the door. The three brothers get in and I politely ask the artist to leave us alone so we could talk.
I look between all of them: Nick and Chris are sitting on the couch behind the chair, and Matt is standing, leaning against the door frame with his arms closed and jaw clenched. Didn't take long for Nick to start talking, going on about the show and how great it was, until Chris somehow noticed the tension and dragged Nick outside with a poor justification.
-They don't know. -It's the only thing that comes out of my mouth as I finally look at Matt again.
He shakes his head, taking a seat on the couch and resting his interlocked hands on top of his legs, looking everywhere but at me.
-So you're not here because you want to. -I almost whisper, connecting the dots and feeling the pain in my chest rising.
-Nick wanted to see you. -He says, in a tone I wouldn't even recognize as his voice.
I already felt my tears rolling down my cheeks, I couldn't help it anymore. I just nod, feeling a knot on my throat making it impossible for me to speak. He sighs, looking down at his rings and playing with them.
-Look, I'm so sorry. I should've explained it to you, but my reasons sound stupid now that I stopped to think about them. Nick and Chris were excited to see you. They didn't question it, but they noticed we hadn't talked, and I guess Nick pushed me into coming here tonight because he wanted us to sort things out.
Matt's voice cracks at the end, and I notice how his eyes look glossy, he is so ready to cry and visibly anxious.
-I was so scared to see you again because I knew I'd have to explain myself. But also, I needed to see you again, that's why I begged the security guard to let me ask you a question and why I asked to come backstage.
He clears his throat, looking away when his tears fall.
-I missed you, fuck, I'm so fucking sorry, I'm such an idiot for letting you go.
I wipe my nonstop tears, taking a seat next to him on the couch and keeping my head down, still thinking about his words. He glanced at me, his eyes were begging me silently to say something, but it was like I was incapable of talking.
-Please say something. -He whispers, and I can hear the desperation in his voice.
-Why did you break up with me?
He bites the inside of his cheek and I notice how tense he looked.
-I was scared. -He whispers, sniffing and passing his hand through his hair. -You were going away for a month, doing something you've dreamed of all your life, I just... I don't know, I guess I panicked. I couldn't stop thinking of all the things that could've happened.
I shake my head a bit, looking away from him.
-I know it's not a good reason, and I fucked up and ruined something important to you, but I'm so so sorry.
I scoff sarcastically, resting my back on the backrest of the couch.
-You were supposed to support me! I was always there to support you, your videos, your ideas... I needed you, Matt, you were the first person I told I was going on tour. I was so excited, that's not fair...
I feel my voice failing me, and suddenly, I just can't talk anymore. I close my eyes, trying not to burst into sobs.
-I know I was selfish and an awful boyfriend, and I'm sorry. I should've been there for you, and after hearing the songs you made, I know just how much I fucked up. But, please, if there's any part of you that still loves me, let me try again. I promise I'll be there for you. I can't live like this, I can't live without you, it's too painful, please.
He begs, slowly lifting his hands to cup my cheeks and make me look at him. He looked devastated, eyes red and puffy and tears rolling down his cheeks. I've never seen him like this before.
-I know I don't deserve it, you probably deserve way better, but I want to be better, I want to be the one for you, the best one. Being without you was the worst thing that has ever happened to me, I can't let you go again.
He pulls me closer, resting his forehead on mine, crying as I've never seen him cry before. My heart sank at the sight of him, and all I wanted was to hug him, but the other part of me wanted to just leave. I was so confused and didn't expect to go through this.
-I was so scared, I'm so scared, I can't lose you again, please baby. Just one more chance, I'm begging you.
Hearing him calling me baby again was enough for me to break down. I immediately wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him into a hug and burying my face on his shoulder, sobbing and letting go of all the feelings I felt during the month.
-I'm so sorry. -He keeps repeating over and over again, hugging me tightly.
-I needed you. -I say, between hiccups.
-I know, baby, I'm here now, I won't leave again, I promise.
He rubs my back gently, resting his chin on the top of my head, pressing a gentle kiss there.
-If you're leaving again, just leave now. I can't go through all of this again. -I say, pulling away slightly to look up at him.
He shakes his head, placing his hand on my cheeks again, cupping my face.
-I won't ever leave again, you understand? I'm not leaving.
Matt rubs his thumb against my cheek gently, scanning my face carefully. I do the same, studying his expressions and seeing nothing but honesty. He suddenly leans to press his lips against mine, pecking my lips quickly before pulling away, unsure if I'd kiss him back, but when I reach for his lips again he tilts his head to deepen it.
-I'm sorry. -He whispers against my lips.
-I know. -I nod slowly.
-Please be my girlfriend again.
Matt lifts my head gently, keeping eye contact, a smile finally growing on my lips.
-I was hoping you'd say that.
He giggles a bit, pulling me into another hug.
-I love you, I'm sorry.
-I love you, too, but please stop apologizing, it's okay now.
-Okay, sorry.
𝒕𝒂𝒈𝒔 ✍︎
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b0r3dtod3ath · 3 months ago
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requests for happy logan fics you say? 👀
i shall request happy logan, um i dont really have a good idea of anything tho
if u need a more solid idea maybe a younger grid kid reader x logan and um here are some possible prompts
"I don't procrastinate really, it's just that when I do, I prefer to do it last minute, that's all."
"I'm always right because who else will be?"
"I have a confession to make, and it's not going to be easy to hear. You just can't get mad okay?" (cue the confession being of the stupidest thing imaginable)
sorry theyre bad, my brain is literally refusing to function right now. have a nice day!
an: thank you for the request! i went with the third prompt. i hope you don't mind changing it so reader is a driver (it just suited the story better in my head). it's quite short as i haven't been writing for a while.
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The rookie trio of 2023 was inseparable. Oscar, you and Logan knew each other since you were kids and joining Formula 1 at the same time made the bond between the three of you even deeper. But what many people didn’t know, you and Logan have been dating since the end of the season. One of the people that didn't know was Oscar.
At first the rush of adrenaline that accompanied hidden glances and stolen moments was exciting but for the long run it became exhausting. You couldn’t shake off the feeling that you were constantly lying to one of your closest friends.
As the clock struck midnight you heard a soft knock on your hotel room door. A shared tradition between you and Logan. Within seconds you opened the door just wide enough to let him slip inside. “I missed you today,” he whispered, his voice barely audible, as if scared to be heard by others in this silent hotel. His hands slid down your back, pulling you closer.
“I missed you too. But we can’t keep sneaking around like this forever, you know.” you ruffled his hair as he looked at you. “I know, We have talked about it. We are not teenagers anymore, but I’m scared of how Oscar will react”. Logan laid on your bed and set an early morning alarm to leave your room unnoticed. “But it’s starting to feel like we’re living two separate lives. I don’t want us to keep hiding who we are from everyone, especially Oscar. We’re not going to lose him, we just have to trust that he’ll understand. That he’ll see how much we care about each other” you responded.
Logan’s arms wrapped around you, pulling you down beside him. He held you close, his chin resting on top of your head as you laid together in the quiet room. The steady rhythm of his heartbeat under your ear was a comforting reminder that you were in this together. “We’ll talk to him before the summer break starts.” Logan murmured after a long silence, his voice filled with determination. Logan kissed the top of your head, his arms tightening around you. “No matter what happens, I love you,” he said softly, his breath warm against your skin. “I love you too,” you replied, scared of your friend’s reaction.
Later that month, the three of you sat at a nice restaurant as a way to close a race weekend. Oscar had been in a good mood all night, cracking jokes and telling stories. You and Logan shared a few anxious glances as you sat at the table, trying to enjoy the lighthearted atmosphere before everything changed.
As Oscar finished recounting a particularly funny story about his engineer Logan squeezed your hand discreetly, offering silent support. "Oscar," you began, your voice steady but your heart racing. "I have a confession to make, and it's not going to be easy to hear. You just can't get mad, okay?". Oscar raised an eyebrow, the smile fading slightly from his face as he sensed the seriousness in your tone. He looked at Logan’s still face, suspicion slowly creeping in. "What’s going on?" he asked, his voice cautious. Logan brushed your hand with his thumb to ease the nerves a bit. "Logan and I... we've been seeing each other, like romantically. For more than half a year now”.
There was a moment of stunned silence as the words hung in the air. Oscar blinked, slightly taken aback. "What? You and Logan?" He leaned back in his chair, processing the information. "And I didn't know?".
"It’s not that we didn’t want to tell you," Logan cut in, his voice calm yet apologetic. "We just… we didn’t want it to change anything between the three of us. We didn’t want to risk our friendship. It is very stupid of us”.
Oscar stared at the two of you, his expression unreadable. You felt a lump form in your throat, fearing the worst. "You two have been together all this time, and I had no idea”. A few moments passed before a small smile tugged at the corner of Oscar's mouth. "I can’t believe you managed to keep it a secret for that long," he said with a hint of admiration. "You know, I thought something was going on a few times, but I just brushed it off. You two did a good job hiding it or I’m just really stupid to not notice two of my best friends dating".
You let out a breath you didn’t realize you had been holding. "So… you’re not mad?". Oscar shook his head, his smile growing. "Oh, no, no. Don’t worry. I’m not mad. I’m happy for you both. I mean, it’s a little weird now knowing you are dating, but as long as you’re happy, that’s what matters”. Relief washed over you as Logan grinned "Thanks, man. We were really worried about how you'd react”. Oscar rolled his eyes, but his face projected warmth "I’m not that scary, am I?". 
August 14, 2024
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transmascaraa · 7 months ago
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hi its 🍓 anon, can I request comfort with Gaming, Bennett, Scaramouche, Cyno, and Tighnari?
I accidentally hurt my cat's leg maybe like 20 minutes ago from when this is in your inbox but I've honestly just been crying and curling up on the ground where she's laying underneath my desk. I feel awful even though it's an accident ☹️
I'm hoping she's okay and it's not bad but I'm scared I permanently gave her a limp or that she will hate me and no longer want to be around me anymore
multiple characters headcannons!
you accidentally hurt your pet.
characters: gaming, bennett, wanderer, cyno, tighnari x gn!reader
author's note: hi 🍓anon i'm sorry i'm doing this req so late but writer's block is there for some reason🤷‍♂️ I HOPE YOUR CAT IS OKAY NOW THO AND THAT SHE STILL LOVES YOU IK HOW IT IS😭 anyways i decided to write this cuz i was bored lmfao enjoyyyy🔥🔥
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♡ Gaming
-definetly gets worried after he sees you on the ground crying like that.
-"no... my love, what's wrong? you can talk to me, okay?"
-all while the pet was in the corner of the room, unphased.
-if left the room soon enough, but that was unnoticed by gaming.
-after you did your best at explaining the situation to him, he understood what you meant.
-a bit confused as to why were you thag worried about it, but he reassured you that your pet was fine and that they most probably forgive you.
-he's going to cuddle the pet with you to help you "apologize" to it.
-with gaming there, your pet will forget about what happened and just cuddle with the two of you there like nothing ever happened<3
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⑅ Bennett
-now, he's hurt a fair share of animals in his life due to his unluckiness.
-and he always feels really bad for them afterwards, so he would understand after you vent to him about it.
-"hmm... yeah... i get it.."
-but him, knowing that you're not as unlucky as he is, he reassures you that your pet is okay and still loves you.
-he'll prove it to you too.
-but first he would first make you take your mind off of it for a bit.
-and then feed the pet together as some parents to their 3yo child.
-now, speaking of him proving it to you, he'll just let you pet it and let it slowly lean into your gentle caressing of it.
-the only time he was lucky in his life was when he got to be with you.
-you just looked to precious being happy that your pet has forgiven you.
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✧ Wanderer
-he just doesn't get it.
-why the hell are you rolling on the floor, crying, because you THINK you hurt your pet?
-"but are you sure you've actually hurt it? y'know, if you actually did, then its anger is justified-"
-until you started crying more.
-"b-but you probably didn't. so don't worry. you'll be fine, just like that like creature you call your pet."
-i mean you stopped crying so it was something????
-you'll have to beg him to cuddle you w your pet but eventually you'll convince him.
-the funny part was the fact that the pet was just more fond of wanderer, rather than you, despite forgiving you for anything and everything.
-for some unknown reasons, all animals like him, really.
-(if your pet is an aranara in some type of this teyvat au then it's even cuter)
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๑ Cyno
-he doesn't react much, really.
-not like alhaitham, but just more of his canon personality when he's not making dad jokes.
-i mean if anything, he's confused, but yeah.
-he just stares you on the floor.
-"what happened?"
-in the most monotone voice ever.
-and then after he understands why you're doing all of that, he shows a bit more of emotion.
-hardly spotted, but it's there.
-"well... i know something that can improve your mood. what do you call a-"
-you just give him a death stare. he doesn't continue speaking from there.
-afterwards, you'll feel the little cutie together and see that it's totally fine!
-you will get to hear the joke he was meaning to say sometime later, now he just doesn't wanna irritate you, he feels as if you need happiness now, not his dumb dad jokes.
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✿⁠ Tighnari
-he genuinely gets worried.
-but worried in a mom way.
-"you're crying because of something you THINK? are you hearing yourself right now?"
-he's sassy, even when genuinely concerned.
-now, after telling you to take a few deep breaths, calm down, and drink a glass of water, he sits you down and lets you explain everything in great detail.
-then he brings the pet to the both of you, while he checks the pet for any scars, but they fortunately aren't there!
-you get incredibly happy and hug both tighnari and the pet, but he still doesn't understand if ut was worth the crying on the floor.
-your pet literally still loved you.
-but at least he was happy to help.
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okay i think this wasn't that bad
i really like cyno's and tighnari's tho
but this was fun to write overall tbh lol
| 🍓anon | @mariaace <3
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Roll the dice ¡!
pairing: bnd legal line x reader.
warnings: +18, smut, breeding, mentioned of birth control and pills, idk.
summary: bnd legal line mtl to use condom/ like breeding.
note: this came to me in a vision fr fr.
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sungho; he is a certified lover boy, like a husband material type of guy so i personally don't think he would like to breed you :( unless ofc it's to actually have a kid and not for the fantasy if you know what i mean. he would get worried about you because he knows how pills or birth control might affect you and he wouldn't like to purposely put you through that. it might happen accidentally tho and i can see him with wide open eyes and looking at you in panic after he finishes inside by mistake, he couldn't hold it this time and he is so ashamed and sorry :(( constantly whispering against your cheeks littles "i'm sorry, baby, so sorry" it's mainly because he feels guilty but you reassure him that is fine, you are under birth control for a reason!!
riwoo; i think he would do what you think and what you like, you like him to wear a condom? he will. you like him to come inside? he will. you like both but it depends on your mood and the day and on the weather and the conversations you've got that same day??? he's fine with that too!! just let him know please because otherwise, how would he know? riwoo is very similar to sungho's case but this one is kinda nonchalant about the why itself, he just knows he will do whatever makes you feel and be good. he just loves you so much but he is also kinda scared to ask because he doesn't wanna be nosey or you to think he wants to do something you don't :')
jaehyun; well, i got you news. bad or good it'll depend on your own perspective. but this dude??? he would want to breed the shit out of you (or into you) he could and will get so into the moment that it would just come naturally, he couldn't hold it or he didn't want to, i see him as a very submissive person when it comes to sex but he definitely also have his days where he would take control, still having you ride him as usual but controlling your pace and holding your hips on place when he felt his dick twitch and his orgasm so near "please, stay put, let me come inside this time" but it was more of an announcement, he was just letting you know because even though you let him, he wasn't able to hold it anymore :( poor boy is just so sensitive and so into you.
taesan; i think he wouldn't directly be into it bUT taesan is also a very curious boy so i just know he would like to try it at least to know what it is about. one time won't hurt anybody, right? problem was it wasn't just one time. he is not the type to be angry often but he is one to hold hard feelings for a while afterwards so i strongly expect angry sex w taesan after an argument probably over some jealousy or a disagreement about something in the house and he just has to demonstrate you that he is the man of the relationship, having sex with you and looking right into your eyes before coming deep into your pulsating cunt. you wouldn't say anything about it because honestly?? the way he looked down on you, how his cock throbbed inside of you and the way his wet lips kissed yours was so hot and endearing that you just enjoyed.
leehan; "jaehyun does it sometimes" he would say when trying to convince you "his girlfriend let's him, she doesn't mind" and you would just laugh a little bit before answering "well, i do, so forget about it and help me with this, would you?" he would be pouty all day long, complaining about how unfair it was for you to not let him try it at least once!! he was dating you and he was not planning on leaving your side so that means he will NEVER get to try it. omg, he was gonna faint. but you were too soft, too into him to forbid him and take that away from his grasp without even letting him taste it once. "babe" you called "about what you said earlier" his eyes flew to yours when he lifted his eyebrows in expectation "i am willing to do it, but just this time, yes? it really gets uncomfortable with the pills sometimes" and he would be so happy and grateful for you, fucking a baby into you all night long, because yes, you said just this time, not how many times.
so after giving you my thoughts on each, I'll go as it follows:
MOST.
jaehyun. yeah, for the first time in those mtl things i do the #1 is not leehan but goddamn it, jaehyun just screams "breeding" and then sobbing when he comes down of his high and thinks y'all are gonna have triplets (not that he doesn't want to but nOT NOW)
leehan. been there, done that, he would like to do it just to laugh about it, for the sake of it. he would enjoy it so much too omg (i need him!!)
taesan. already explained this one but he is basically with one foot on each side, is not that he doesn't like it but he won't do it on a daily basis because he doesn't think it's that big of a deal.
riwoo. like taesan, it's not that he doesn't like it but he would just go with the flow of whatever you want.
sungho. yeah, how bout no? <3 he ain't dealing w shit after that and he cares too much about you to make you worried or through some pain or something w the pills so yeah. but he does kinda like it, he just can't enjoy it fully because all the preoccupations won't let him.
LEAST.
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Warning ⚠️; Blood and bad jokes
Pairing; Ghostface x gn!Reader
Summary; It is almost the Devil’a hour when you get a phone call. You know who it is and if this is to be yours last night, then you’ll make your caller work for it.
Note; I am currently sick with the flu and pretty high on meds so hopefully I didn't correct like shit. Sorry if I did :(
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Sitting in your living room you enjoyed a good horror movie. The bowl of popcorn and potato chips on your lap was getting lighter with each minute that passed. You chuckled, knowing that movie by heart and whispering the quotes as they came. The jump scares didn't affect you anymore even tho you still appreciated them. Your eyes turned to the clock and realized it would soon be 3:00 in the morning. The Devil’s Hour.
And what a crazy time it was lately. The town was plagued by a series of murder featuring the sadly known Ghostface of Woodsboro, California. You grew up there as a kid and moved away to here. As an adult you didn't leave, yet, but with all those murders? Might be safer to take a plane to somewhere else.
You chuckled at the thought and shook your head.
Nah. You didn’t really fit any criteria to become the victim in a horror movie. Quite the contrary in fact. You lived a quiet life and enjoyed the calm that came with being in a small town. Well, maybe enjoying horror wasn't smart for the moment.
And you were careful; locking doors and windows and always keeping your best friend the blinky with you. While you weren't usually one for firearms, you did get one after the first murder. It was safer this way. While not wanting to give in to the paranoia, you also knew it wasn't worth the risk of staying harmless.
Your phone rang, stopping you from shoving a handful of popcorn into your mouth. You eyed the phone, wondering if you should answer or not. The caller was masked, and the number not showing and a shiver ran down your spine.
It could be anyone.
The killer.
Or kids wanting to make a prank.
With a shaky finger, you answered your phone, pressing it against your ear as you said as soft “Hello.”
- “Hello.” The voice of the caller replied. There is something sickly sweet about it. “Who is this?”
- “Who are you trying to reach?” You asked back, frowning as you get up to make sure all the doors and windows are locked.
- “What number is this?”
This time you freeze in your track, a shiver running down your spine. The conversation sound familiar. Too familiar. A feeling of dread fill your heart and you hold your phone tighter deciding to keep going, just to make sure.
- “Well, what number are you trying to reach?” You tried to keep the shaking of your voice discreet, but you are bad at it.
- “I don't know.”
You can hear the amusement in the other's voice, can almost imagine the smirk and hope this is a prank.
- “I think you have the wrong number.” Your voice has an edge to it now. You only want to cut the conversation short.
- “Do I?”
- “It happens. Take it easy.”
Enough is enough. This prank had lasted for too long already and you could feel your hand shaking. You stare at your phone, ready to hang up but the voice keeps talking.
- “You still haven't told me your name.”
- “Why do you want to know my name?”
- “Because I want to know who I'm looking at.”
The answer almost made you drop your phone. You looked around you frantically, trying to get a glimpse of where the fucker was. But all your curtains were closed.
- “What do you want?” You asked, returning to the sofa to grab your gun.
You heard the caller, Ghostface chuckling on the other side of the line. You wanted to throw the phone away and smash it in the wall. There was no way…
You clenched your jaws deciding that if this was real… you were going to make the fucker work for it. You'll be his nightmare and make him regret picking you for his next victim.
- “What do you want?” You asked again, slightly raising your voice.
- “To see what your insides look like.”
- “That sound kinky.”
- “What?”
You hit your head with the barrel of your gun, cringing at what you just said. It came out without you thinking about it. At least the killer sounded astonished, not expecting you to say something so… so… yeah. You decided to roll with it. At least you would die making fun of him.
- “You heard me, you kinky bastard. At least you could offer me a drink before wanting to jump to see my insides. For what do you take me? A harlot?”
- “Listen here you bitch…”
- “Oh, now I am the bitch?” You interrupted him, walking around your house and still making sure everything was locked. “Yet you are the one thirsting over my guts.”
You felt pride as the killer fell silent, as if he didn't know what to reply. Almost. Almost because you knew he was probably pissed off at you and God knew what he would do now. You weren't wrong, however. That fucker really was a kinky creep.
Walking around your house, you made sure everything was still locked. The killer wasn't talking anymore, but you could still hear his breathing. You hated the silence. It felt like a knife being held above your head, ready to fall and stab you.
- “You think yourself funny, don't you?”
Ghostface’s voice almost made you jump out if your skin. You didn't expect him to talk so suddenly nor to have such a cold voice.
- “Yeah, I am.” you replied with a chuckle, moving the curtain of the last window you checked. You saw a silhouette standing next to a tree. “I see you there, Micheal Myers wanna be.”
- “I see you too, future victim.”
You saw the silhouette waving at you and snorted. He could have at least given you a better surname than that!
You jumped away from the window as you saw the silhouette sprinting toward you. Raising your gun, you were ready to shoot the second the killer tried to touch the window. But instead of the sound of glass breaking, you heard something hit it followed by a loud thud. Moving the curtain again and looking toward the ground, you found the killer lying down. On the phone, you heard him groaning in pain.
It didn't take long for you to understand what just happened and you couldn't resist but laugh. All fear had left your body as you realized just how clumsy he was. Did he step on his dress? Did he stumble over a root?
- “S-shut up!” You heard the Killer’s voice growling on the phone.
But you didn't stop.
You fell on your ass laughing, holding your ribs for a few more minutes before putting the phone back to your hear.
- “Go home mister killer, you are drunk.” You chuckled, shaking your head. “Maybe stop at the hospital first, you might have a concussion.”
- “Fuck you!”
- “Fuck me yourself, clumsy boy.”
You heard him cursing at you and you only replied by making kissing sounds. You sighed as the killer hung up on you and there were no more sounds. You closed your eyes, pressing your back against the wall and waiting for something, anything.
But he was gone. Humiliated by his own clumsiness, he had left you. Hands shaking, you laughed again, this time nervously. Guess you were going to be in his sequel if he survived until then.
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mariaace · 6 months ago
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HIII IT'S ME HRU OMG WAIT IM GONNA GO DM U ON DISCORD BUT BFR THAT
gut wrenching angst. rin. insecure rin. do it. PLEASEEEEE 😭😭😭
A/n:HELLO SANA!! I'M NOT SO GOOD BUT THANKS FOR ASKING, YOU?? ALSO ANGST RIN?? IS THAT HOW YOU ARE GONNA DIVORCE ME?? anyways i hope you like it<3
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Genre:Angst (w/comfort) Type:one-shot
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'Was it really worth it?' 'What if i never make it?' 'What if Yoichi is actually better?' 'What if...' What if. Those were the thoughts running through Rin's mind right now. Did he often think about that? Yes. Does anyone know? No, well at least he didn't want anyone to know. But at the same time...
Ugh he couldn't keep up like this anymore. *Can you come over?* Was the texts you got from him. *Yeah, sure.* Rin is currently sitting with his legs crossed on his bed thinking and thinking and thinking...
What if things don't turn out the right way? What if Sae hates him forever? What if he fails to be become the best??? What if?? What if... "Breathe." He said to himself. He took a deep breath, bust still couldn't get these thoughts out of his head.
They just kept going. It was like he was having flashbacks. Was he all alone? Against everything and everyone? No. He had you- he thought and suddenly his eyes widened. What if you leave him? What if you think he can't be good enough? What if he isn't good enough?
This wasn't the first time he have these kind of thoughts. About soccer. But now it about you. You, who were with him all the time. You, who always spend your time with him. You, who supported him in everything at every moment. So what if he loses you know?? What will he do?? What if... He started panicking. His hands started to shake, his breathing got heavily. Oh no-
"Rin!!" You quickly shut the door, when you saw your boyfriend in that state. What was happening with him? He got up and walked up to as soon as he heard your voice. You were suddenly wrapped in his arms, that were still shaking. His head rested on your shoulder, he was squeezing you tightly.
As you putted your hands around him, still in shock of the situation, you heard him. Was he... crying? What happened? You knew Rin tho. Things should not be punched with him. He will tell you once he is calmed. "Let's sit on the bed, okay?" He nodded as you both sat and you took his hands, that were still a little shaking.
"Rin?" "Yes?" "Do you want to talk?" You asked hesitant. If he didn't want to, you wouldn't force him to, but how could you help him without knowing what's happening?
Rin took a deep breath and he started explaining the situation. All the times he had different thoughts, about everything that could happen, about soccer, his competition, Sae... How he didn't know what to do, how he was scared of what might happen. His voice was shaky as he spoke, eyes watery.
"Now the thoughts were even about you." Your eyes widened. "Me? But..." You would never hurt Rin, you would never leave him. And he knew it. "I can't control it. There are just some times i can't stop thinking about things." You suddenly pulled him into a hug. "Things like this would never happen, okay? I will always be here with you." "You promise?" "I promise."
He smiled as you kissed him. "Never hesitate to tell me when you think about this, okay?" Rin nodded and you smiled.
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I don't know girly what do we think? @sanaexus
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connormccafferyhater · 7 days ago
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what teams i love and hate for paige and why.
washington mystics - i rlly do love the mystics, they have tons of great pieces. i have newfound hope now that they don't have their shitty ass coach anymore + the overall management of the program is the best out of all 4 of the teams in the lottery. they're one of those teams that just need someone to distribute the ball well and i think paige could rlly provide that along with scoring. they have amazing talent, they have brittney sykes, julie vanloo (one of my favorite rookies), walker kimbrough, (tw) emily engstler, shakira austin, stef dolson, aaliyah edwards (another one of my favs), and they might even get elena delle donne back for one more season (that's if she doesn't go to the aces but i don't think she'll go if kp leaves). she's already gonna have some familiarity on the team with the uconn alumns and lili being there and i think it would just overall be a great fit + they'd be a force to be reckoned with in the playoffs.
la sparks - i actually liked the sparks at the beginning of the season, they were pretty good they beat the aces 2/4 times, again they're just one of those teams that just need a pg and someone that can score consistently. they have great pieces like hamby, rickea, and cam. with cam back they'll be much better + they're rlly young and have a good amount of potential. i'm kind of on the fence about this team because their management seems kind of all over the place, they were the first team to fire their coach and they still don't have one and apparently rae burrell has beef with paige??? don't know what happened there but that wouldn't be so great for team chemistry!! but they have nice uniforms and they're purple!
chicago sky - not too enthusiastic abt the sky, if they get paige they'd have a lot of young talent + we'd get paigegel content. the light's are on but nobody's home management wise + i hate their fuckass blue ombre 2016 uniforms. the apparent problems in the locker room scares me and i love chennedy but she's a problem child so that makes me fear for paige's life a little bit! lindsay allen's already a decent pg for them but paige would be a huge upgrade from d*na ev*ns i fear. i can't rlly see paige in a sky uniform but we move ig.
dallas wings - ngl i just don't like this fuckass team, their uniforms are ugly as fuck and their management is rlly something. their scoring is rlly efficient but they're terrible defensively. the only player we KNOW they'll have is arike and we don't even know if satou's coming back. i love arike i think she's so good but she's a huge ball hog, i can't see paige fitting in well with this team. if i'm them she's not rlly the type of player i would want. personally i think if i got the #1 pick i would go with kiki instead. i think she'll fit in the best with their system even tho she's not the best player in the draft. they're not the worst team out of the 4 but they already have people that can run the point position effectively.
that's my coke rant guys lmk your thoughts!
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barrenclan · 3 months ago
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hi!! I absolutely love patfw, and blacknose is one of my favorite characters. I work with dementia patients, and I can assure you that your research paid off and your portrayal of her is very accurate and respectful. it’s nice seeing a character be so humanized (even tho she’s a cat lmao) and given many different dimensions when so much media falls into inaccurate stereotypes. thank you for taking the time to do her story right :)
one ask about her once said that she’d forget mallowstar after he died and the remainder of barrenclan fled the wastes, but (no shade to this person, it’s a common misconception) this isn’t entirely accurate. a lot of people with dementia, even in later stages, still remember key details about their lives. they remember where they used to live, what they did as a career, and important people they knew, but forget that they don’t live/work there anymore or that those people may have passed a long time ago. I know residents at the memory care facility where I work who spend a lot of their days in a daze, have prominent physical or vocal tics, and frequently get agitated at the workers or other residents, but are still able to tell me all about their spouses/children/siblings/etc.
essentially, the more accurate way for this to impact her dementia would be for the severe psychological distress of defiance’s attack to cause her dementia to rapidly progress, leading her to become confused and scared on the journey and at wherever they may settle when she isn’t sure why she isn’t in barrenclan’s camp or where mallowstar is. I’m intrigued to see where things go from here and how the surviving members of blacknose’s family and the rest of barrenclan handle this in the midst of everything else they’re dealing with
Wow, thank you for sending in such an interesting and informed comment! I'm so glad that my writing holds up, and I'm especially glad I managed to nail the aspect of Blacknose's progression in her memory loss after Mallowstar's death. I don't exactly remember the ask you mention, but I did never intend for her to forget about him entirely, but instead to forget what happened to him and why he's not here, like you can see in Issue 40.
Blacknose will not disappear from the story as it closes up and I'm looking forward to getting to the last bits of her tale. I hope you like it!
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