#especially over a girl he has known for MONTHS. his BEST FRIEND of like 15 YEARS at that point
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no one should ever worry about their house fic being out of character when the season four finale exists btw
#he would not fucking do that except its about stuff he canonically does in the show#this is about wilson nearly killing house with the deep brain stimulation btw#im sorry if you think mr âmy second wife left me because i spent too much time taking care of houseâ would do that to him#especially over a girl he has known for MONTHS. his BEST FRIEND of like 15 YEARS at that point#the man that cares out house more than anything. that constantly jeopardises his own life at the drop of a hat for him. sorry no.#got distracted by the word jeopardise#house md#james wilson#gregory house#malpractice md#I don't CARE that she's a stand in for house he would NOT sacrifice house for that.
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Established Relationship In High School (2) Masterlist
part one
Best Couple (ao3) - roryonice
Summary: Phil is a football player and heâs been dating Dan for two years. Itâs time for the senior class to vote for the yearbook superlatives, and Dan and Phil are nominated for Best Couple.
Doubt (ao3) - analester
Summary: When people see Dan and Phil holding hands in the hallway, theyâre confused to say the least. Especially since Phil has been known to be the type of guy who is only in relationships for sex.
... or the fic in which dan is having doubts about starting a new relationship with fuckboy!phil and canât help but listen to the whispers in hallways and feel insecure about himself
Freezing Lips (ao3) - oliviawrites (LauraLittlemiss)
Summary: Dan's lips were freezing and his boyfriend was doing nothing to help him.
Geography class (ao3) - orphan_account
Summary: Dan and Phil are two loved up boyfriends in highschool. A new girl comes to the school and struggles to take a hint.
growing up or just going down (ao3) - SylvesterLester
Summary: Phil is 15 years old today. He's going to have the best birthday of his life, to kick off the best year of his life.
Right?
I Got One Less Prom Without You (ao3) - ticklishpickle
Summary: Dan Howell, boyfriend of Phil Lester, has always cared too much about what other people thought of him. And so it's no surprise that despite his complete infatuation with Phil, it takes him months to finally muster up the courage to come out to his friends. But hey! They're surprisingly okay with it- except for the part where they want him to bring a girl to prom instead of his own boyfriend. (Because popularity and stuff, or something)
And so he becomes Dan Howell, ex-boyfriend of Phil Lester. Watch him as he tries to get rid of the 'ex' part of that title.
I'll Be There For You (ao3) - orphan_account
Summary: Phil gets sick in the middle of the school day. Dan needs to find a way to get both of them out of school so he can take of him.
It Gets Better (ao3) - ohhowellno
Summary: It's the last year of high school for Dan and Phil. They have been dating for a little over a year and they have it figured out. Phil is going to join the army just for a bit, sure he doesn't seem like the type of person who would be in the army, but he needs the money for Uni. Dan is going to start the first semester of Uni without Phil. The last year of high school is supposed to be the best. Little did they know that it would not be the worst year. Written in Dan's POV through a journal.
Maybe Only for an Hour (ao3) - AmeliaHollow
Summary: Dan and Phil are teenagers in love.
Conveniently, they also happen to be neighbors.
One night, Dan can't sleep so he texts Phil to keep him company. When push comes to shove Dan finds himself sneaking through the window of the bedroom of the boy he loves so he can spend 'Just one hour' with him without risking too much. If either of their parent's found out they were together... or gay at all for that matter- that would be it. But we all know love makes you do crazy things.
Pastel Sweaters, Red Varsity Jackets, and a White Wig (ao3) - Star4545
Summary: Dan and Phil have been dating for a few weeks.Within a few days, Phil realizes the truth of why Daniel Howell always wear a white wig on his head and Dan learns how hard it is to love.
School Photos (ao3) - rainbowchristy
Summary: School photos are tomorrow and maybe Dan should have questioned Phil's sudden obsession with his neck.
smoke. (ao3) - orphan_account
Summary: Phil smokes, Dan doesn't want him to.
Soft (ao3) - IWriteThingsSometimes
Summary: Phil Lester is always soft and cuddly when it comes to his pastel little boyfriend
Sometimes Circles Run Around You (ao3) - SylvesterLester
Summary: Dan doesn't care about exams. Phil cares a bit too much.
That Damn Project (ao3) - developerdaniel
Summary: the sequel to Class Partners that literally no one asked for featuring punk!virgin!bottom!Dan giving all of himself to geek!top!Phil with lots of fluff and some p great love making.
That's The Beauty Of A Secret (ao3) - softsocks (orphan_account)
Summary: Phil loves being the only one to touch Dan. But sometimes, keeping their relationship in the dark, facing all the rumors from his peers - it can hurt.
This Moment (ao3) - danrifics
Summary: Dan and Phil just want to dance with each other at prom
we could disappear for a while (ao3) - orphan_account
Summary: text messages between teenage dnp
Wonders Never Cease (ao3) - yiffandquiff
Summary: Dan and Phil were one of the 'it' couples at their high school until one day, Phil blindsides Dan with a break up. Hurting and seeking comfort, Dan befriends Tyler who helps him get through the first tough few months of the break up, mending his shattered heart. But Dan doesn't want to move on. He wants to be with Phil and maybe, just maybe, in the end, he'll still get to be.
(TW) You Can Drag Me Through Hell (If It Meant I Could Hold Your Hand) (ao3) - ctrling
Summary: Dan knows that he deserves better, but he loves Phil too much to leave.
#phanfictioncatalogue#phan#phanfic#phanfiction#masterlists#au#highschool#highschool masterlist#establishedrelationship#establishedrelationship Masterlist
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Am I the only one who didn't like that scene at all? It's because Feyre used Lucien's kindness and put him in a position where Tamlin could hurt him. She knows that Lucien is a victim of Tamlin's abuse and has experienced abused even before Tamlin, yet it was a scene that we were suppose to think "YAAASS GIRL"
Remember in acomaf (or acowar idk) when Feyre went to her room, she felt such a powerful force coming from Tamlin that could've KILLED a human and Lucien was in that room with him? Did Feyre just forget about that?
Sjm writes scenes that are suppose to be female empowerment but just aren't. That scene from Acosf of Nesta going off on Tamlin? I don't even like Tamlin but that entire scene felt like Sjm just wanted us to fangirl over a "badass" Nesta. ESPECIALLY when she mentioned things that didn't even happen in the previous books (= Tamlin didn't ask Nesta first to go with him nor did he even look at her in acotar so wtf is Sjm on about?! What was the goal??). I thought we moved on from Tamlin and him being more self aware of what he's done after acofs but apperantly Sjm just brings him in so the girls can have a punching bag and show off how badass they are. She does the same thing with the Illyrians and I bet my ass she'll have some Illyrians insult Bryce and Bryce will go all girlboss and the fandom be like "YAAAS QUEEN".
Yikes.
I'm with you. It was only 15 or so pages prior to that when Lucien told Feyre he had to perform the Rite with Ianthe and Feyre acknowledges that lines had been badly blurred for him. Yet she turns around knowing that and still uses him in a somewhat suggestively sexual manner in order to make Tamlin mad. Not that Lucien probably thought it was sexual however Feyre purposely staged it so it did look questionable to others. Then knowing that Tamlin has a temper and knowing how bad things were when she was gone, knowing that he has lashed out at Lucien before, yet she still didn't care what her scheme would do to Lucien? I know her only goal was to bury the Spring Court but.....I do find it ironic that Feyre was questioning Lucien's loyalty to her and their friendship later in the series when it's pretty evident Feyre wasn't all that concerned about what would happen to Lucien. And the difference is, Lucien was really between a rock and a hard place when it came to Feyre and Tamlin, where you could tell he was torn on how to handle things, whereas Feyre made the decisions she did for revenge and it didn't seem like she cared all that much or felt all that guilty over using him as a pawn. I still like Feyre however the line where Lucien tells her that she was a better friend to him than he was to her makes my insides shrivel up a bit because it's so untrue. Every decision he had to make was a difficult one. Regardless of how Tamlin acted in the months after UTM, Lucien had spent centuries feeling like he owed Tamlin loyalty for giving him a home, loyalty to Tamlin for being his friend when his family wanted nothing to do with him. It's a little odd that anyone would expect him to bend over backwards for a female he'd only known for about a year when it conflicted with what was best for the Court and a friend who was also his High Lord. Not to mention Lucien suddenly found himself on the end of Tamlin's threats and abuse when he did disagree. The decision Feyre made to use Lucien was for selfish reasons only, she could have come up with a scheme that didn't further put strain on Lucien's relationship with Tamlin and come with risk to his own safety.
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To Become
Barry Allen x Plus Size Oc
Summary: Christina Hall had learned a few hard truths in her life ever since she became a teen mom.
One: You can't always rely on family. Despite the saying that blood runs thicker than water, they can choose to drop you at a dime of a hat if you don't follow their rules.
Two: Young love is foolish. And promises mean nothing if the other person is just spitting out pretty words. That was taught to her by her child's father. And since then, it has only been her son and Christina.
And lastly, three: Always expect things to go differently than how you planned it. This last one was taught to her in the form of Barry Allen.
Part One: When Truths come to Light.
Christina had a distinct memory in high school. She remembered it happened in biology class, in that part of the semester where they always took the time to stop and talk about the importance of abstinence and safe sex, and above all else, how one mistake could ruin your life.
She remembered sitting in the theater laughing with her friends but also shooting her secret boyfriend (or at least, she thought he was) at the time meaningful looks as the speaker droned on about teen pregnancies impacting more than just the girl.
But it was the man's question that had been what really stuck out to her.
It wasn't as if it was something meaningful, or profound, or even a little bit genuine. And yet, she could remember the feeling of fear, dread, excitement, and anxiety as the speaker asked, " Ten years from now, where do you see yourself in life?"
Obviously, at the time, it was only supposed to show the impact a kid could have as they disrupt dreams of becoming the "next big thing", or in her boyfriend's case, a star football player, but it was the first time that it became real to her. That she was having a kid.
The reality of her situation was overwhelming at time. Because it was true, 15 year old Christina (even during her pregnancy) never expected her life to be like this. Sure, she wasn't expecting it to be easy, nor was she expecting it to go in any way shape or form the way she had intended for it to go. And yet, funnily enough, her life still was turned upside down.
And it's all thanks to one Bartholomew Henry Allen.
Nine months, she and her colleagues took care of him, and when he woke up he had made the impossible.... well possible. They felt responsible for what happened to him, it was because of the Particle Accelerator went online and failed that he was even struck by lightning and given powers in the first place. So of course, Christina and her colleagues helped him chase down Metas to the best of their abilities. Although, Christina was more of Dr. Well's secretary, she became more like the caretaker of the group. Making sure Barry ate a good home cooked meal, as well as Cisco. Helping Caitlin take care of Ronnie's things, up keeping his belongings and making sure that he still felt there for her when she needed him. And of course helping maintain Dr. Well's chair.
He wasn't particularly happy about just anyone touching it, but she could remember the shocked look on all of their faces when she had picked the grown man baby from the chair and carried him bridal style to the med bay where she propped and fluffed the pillows. Wheeling the chair over to him, as well as bringing the essential tools she would need for cleaning and tinkering, she looked up to him and suggested, "Since I'm not sure what to do from here, why don't you guide me through this and then I'll clean it. Once I'm done, I'll set you back in your chair alright?"
When she didn't get a response she turned to see all of them staring at her dumbstruck causing her to furrow her brows, "What? Is something on my face?" She subconsciously wiped whatever crumbs were left from lunch as her eyes shifted to Barry. She would hate to have had that on her this entire time and not have known, especially in front of the cute CSI.
She could only feel her cheeks darken when Barry asked, "Are you sure you aren't a meta with super strength?"
"Yeah, cuz like.. that was hot," Cisco added causing the team to look at him and said mechanic to flush as he back tracked, "Not that you aren't always attractive! Or that I'm attracted to you! Wait! No, that's not what I-"
"Cisco," Caitlin cut in primly.
"Yeah?"
"Please just stop while you're ahead," she advised as the embarrassment for her friend was eating at her as well.
Cisco only hung his head in shame, "Shutting up."
Christina huffed out a laugh before looking over to Dr. Wells for silent guidance. Thankfully he seemed to catch on and pointed out what needed some mending, so she got work as she divulged, "For the record, Dr. Wells is a healthy weight so he isn't too difficult to carry." She paused, glancing over to her boss who was looking at her in a way he never had before but nodded to her silent question before moving on to the next spot for mending. Giving the others a small smirk she said, "I used to work in an elderly home, I was one of the care workers who maneuvered the patients and kept them clean."
"That explains how you were so knowledgeable during Barry's care when he was in coma," Caitlin spoke as she snapped her fingers. Barry blushed a deep red beside her as Christina shot him a sympathetic look.
"What about how you know your way around mechanics?" Dr. Wells asked as his head gestured to her tinkering hands. She looked down at them once more before confessing, "I don't know much, but what I do know I learned from my dad, he was a car mechanic. I worked with him before I... Left home."
"Why'd you leave?' Barry asked.
Christina paused her busy hands, her thoughts immediately went to her son, that none of them knew about. And how could they? It wasn't that she was ashamed of her child, the very opposite in fact. She was just so used to people reacting negatively after finding out that she had a child only 15 years younger than her. It bothered so many people they couldn't help the snide comments about how young she was, or how stupid it was to keep him, how she threw her life away.
"Chris?" Barry prompted after a long moment of silence which caused her to shift uncomfortably where she sat and give him an awkward smile, "My folks and I had a falling out when I was 15, I made a decision that changed the course of my life, and they weren't happy with the choices I was making. So they kicked me out. The rest is history."
Barry, Caitlin, and Cisco all exchanged worried glances as Christina finished up with Dr. Wells' chair. When they looked over to him, they saw the concern written on his face as well, so Barry had asked, "What happened-"
What they weren't expecting was sweet, loving Christina to slam the rag down and get up defensively as she shot a glare at Barry, "Look I like to keep my private life, private. Please don't ask me to share more with you before I'm ready, I've been burned before and I won't make that same mistake again."
After those words Christina had left the Cortex to cool down and wait for Barry to leave. And since then, it had been a bit strained between them.
But now, all Christina wanted to do was cry she was so overwhelmed.
She dragged herself into work a week after the blowup, and was making her way into the Cortex where she heard the cheerful cadence of the team bouncing off the wall.
She felt like an outsider looking in on her own body as she used her hand to support her shaking frame. She knew she was barely holding herself together, and she knew that they would probably assume it had to be because of the small tiff she and Barry had that had seemed to escalate in tension.
But of course, like the rest of her life, her reality was far from what it seemed. And it only got scarier with the thought that she would need to share what was really going on with her life.
By the time Christina made it into the Cortex, and they caught sight of her, their laughter tapered off and all they felt was concern for the haunted look that overtook the strong twenty five year old woman. At first, they were confused, but once they saw her pale face bruised and cut up, all that was left was panic for their teammate. Especially after the last couple run in with Meta's lately being less than pleasant.
It was Barry who had approached her first, his concern for his teammate overruling their awkward and tense encounters over the past couple of days, "Chris? What happened? Who did this to you?" Her eyes linger his face when she felt his hands softly graze over her tender wounds. The tears that were freely spilling, were once again renewed once she saw the anxiety swimming in his hazel eyes. Christina's face twisted in anguish, her own hands seeking Barry's warmth, as she buried her face in his chest and cried.
Barry, exchanged worried glances with the other three scientists who were growing more disquieted by the distressing sounds Christina was making as she sobbed into Barry's chest. He rubbed her back soothingly and asked with an anxious tone, "Chrissy, you need to talk to us. Was it another meta? Did they do this to you?" Another painful cry wracked her body at Barry's questions making the CSI cool down on his inquires, focusing more on comforting her. Although he wasn't sure if it was really working as he himself was feeling rather distressed now.
After a few moments, Christina pulled away, her face tear stained as she looked at Barry and whimpered, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I treated you so badly for past week and now I need your help."
Barry shook his head, "Hey, there's nothing to forgive, I shouldn't have pushed into your life like that. That wasn't fair of me."
A hysterical laugh bubbled out of her chest and escaped her mouth before she could help it, but she took a step back from Barry, digging the palm of her hands into her green eyes as she paced in front of her team. The three scientists noted how the full figured woman seemed to pace around in agitation like a caged animal as she quietly ranted, "I can't believe I'm about to tell you guys any of this. I have always kept this part of my life a secret, not because I'm ashamed, but because of all the judgement that we get, and I don't think I could handle it if you guys just didn't understand. But I don't know who else to go to."
"Whoah, slow down, we can't help you if we can't understand you," Dr. Wells advised calmly.
Christina took in a shaky breath as she nodded, and paused in her pacing to stop in front of them again. Facing them, she looked at each one of them in the eye, all of them she'd grown to care for in some form or another as she finally divulged the last part of her secret, "Barry you were right. It was a meta who did this to me. But that meta, is my son."
#cw the flash#female oc#season 1 the flash#metahumans#cisco ramon#caitlin snow#ronnie raymond#eowells#eddie thawne#iris west#joe west#barry allen x plus size oc#barry allen x female oc#fanfic#original character#face claims
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đč Ë àŁȘâč â never a winner
pairing: mike wheeler x fem!reader
summary: inspired by something i saw on tiktok // knowing mike all these years you wouldâve thought he would finally realize and chose you, but not when someone else enters the picture
warnings: this could also work for byler but itâs reader
age of pairing: 14-15
i was fine,
being friends with mike wheeler was all fine and fun until one night he had you sitting on the ground against your bedroom door rethinking your entire friendship with him. all those conversations, small flirty moments, times he would hang back just to talk to you. could it be? no no you were being delusional. but then why would he say he has a crush on a girl to you. he asked you about girl advice, something the mike wheeler had never done in all the six years youâve known him.
he was saying if he should call her or go up to her, and after a long conversation full of doâs and dontâs, you finally convinced him to bring her tomorrow to the dnd meeting. you honestly thought he was going to bring no one and then say it was you. because you hadnât seen mike talk to girls and he canât even talk to girls.
he tried asking for an eraser to carly pent and stuttered so bad, the teacher gave one to him instead to save him from embarrassment. that was whatâ? like a week ago!
so you dressed your best with a smile on your face and biked over to the wheelerâs house for the meeting. you saw a few bikes, red and blue and the other colors that the party had. then your eyes fell upon a shiny silver one with the engravings âel,â one you had never seen in your life. maybe mike or will got a new one? or maybe itâs lucas? he was asking for a new one for months now. but what the hell does âelâ mean?
so you shrugged off the weird feeling and entered the house. you greeted mrs. and mr. wheeler as always and handed them a box of cookies your mom instructed you to give them. then you ran down the stairs with such excitement to tell mike how you felt and not feel awkward anymore. you were tired of waiting and you knewâyou just knew that you were the girl he was talking about.
but the second you jumped from the second to last basement step due to a habit you developed, you saw a sight from your nightmares. another girl. she had brown messy hair with a plain shirt and flannel. she held a blank stare and you returned it out of confusion.
when you came.
your mind went poofâ! and all your pent up excitement went out the fucking window. ây/n!â you group collectively greeted and you may have muttered a hi or two but your eyes were fixed on this girl. you prayed mike would say she was his cousin but no. the universe hated you. âso now that everyoneâs here, iâd like you to meet our new addition to the party, el.â mike seemed happy about this, like he arranged it.
the tone in his voice indicated that he wasnât trying to be funny or pulling a prank. he actually just invited this girl to join the party. the party that you helped create and max joined, but you didnât mind. she was funny and entertaining that she was easy to like but by the look on the other girlâs face you werenât going to like her as much.
and we fought
the next weeks were the most horrible weeks of your life. you never felt so useless, like you didnât matter. and you especially didnât know one girl could do all this. she didnât even do it on purpose, it wasnât like she was out for you. but she liked mike. she would cling next to him everywhere, whether it was school, meetings, lunch, hangouts. it got frustrating.
you found yourself crying yourself to sleep and asking why she had to come now! but you picked yourself up, you were not going down without a fight. so like a movie, you and el fought for mike. you didnât know who mike liked. sometimes he would favor you more but sometimes he would favor her more.
like it was all some silly game
your friends didnât recognize you. you disregarding almost everything else in your life for this. you couldnât lose! you couldnât give up now! you were so far in this stupid game. yet you were always tied, no matter how hard both of you tried to one-up each other. itâs be impossible and it wasnât even like mike made it easier! he didnât even notice you and el were fighting like lions for him.
over himâŠ
the rest of the party sat on the sidelines, waiting for this dumb feud to be over. they all knew what was happening expect mike. he was oblivious to the fact he would accidentally flirt with one of you guys then do it the other day to the other one.
who heâd chose
but it was obvious? you had been there for mike since he was little. you were there when he got injuries and learned new things. when he failed algebra and had to take it in the summer or when he fell down the stairs and had to get stitches. who had held his hand while he was crying and getting pulled into the ER? you. who helped him all night with flashcards for a midterm? you. who gave him almost all the comic books stacked among his bedroom? you.
and you handed over your win, time after time. you let other girls talk to him and like him. you werenât possessive or anything but wasnât this your final time to win? wasnât it finally your chance to have a happy ending? to put a stop to all those times to sat and stared mike look at another girl. why couldnât this be the time he looked at you like that!
after all those years,
so you werenât going to give up. you were going to make the first move if mike wasnât going to. you picked up the phone that was on top of your bedroom dresser and punched in mikeâs basement phoneâs number. you felt like you were running out of time. like if you waited another second you would die from drowning or run out of air. ïżŒ
the phone was silent and you nervously tapped your foot. but he picked up. âhello?â you sighed in relief, âmike! itâs y/n! i have something to tell you and itâs urgent.â you were desperate to just get out a few words and end this. all of it.
âwaitâwait y/n, can you tell me later?â he said. he sounded distracted but you ignored it, ânono! itâs urgent please!â mike finally agreed, ây/n iâm sorry but i have a date with el and i cant be more late, so just call me later!â he hung up.
iâd never thought iâd lose.
#*:ïŸâ§*:ïŸâ§scwheeler#mike wheeler x y/n#mike wheeler x you#stranger things#mike wheeler x reader#st 4 vol 2#stranger things 4#mike wheeler#mike x reader#finn wolfhard#finn wolfhard x you#finn wolfhard x reader#finn wolfhard x y/n#mike stranger things#st4#stranger things x reader#stranger things season 4
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The Bakugou Kids - Bakugou Katsuki
(Dad)Bakugou x (Mom)f!reader
Warnings: Fluff, Crack, Cursing
Summary: Bakugou and Y/N love their son with their entire beings, but sometimes, parents need a break. Especially when those parents are responsible for creating a literal demon spawn. He is kind, well behaved, and cute of course! But he does have Bakugou blood in him. With Y/N already away on a girls trip, Bakugou has to find out how heâs going to deal with his (now) many, many kids.
A/N: You passed down your duplication quirk down to Katsuo.
BAKUGOUâS MASTERLIST
âAre you sure youâll be okay?â You asked your husband as you stood at the doorway. âKatsumi may be a calm baby but sheâs still a baby. And Katsuoâs quirk just kicked in and it is mine. I would know how difficult it can be to manage.â
âStop worrying, Babe. Itâs just a duplication quirk. And heâs only 5, how powerful can it really be?âKatsuki said, wrapping his arms around you. âJust go on your little girlâs trip with Ponytail and Racoon Eyes. I can handle the brat.â
You looked at your husband with a raised brow and smile before rolling your eyes and giving him a kiss. âAlright then. Iâll see you in a few days!â
With that, you walked out of the house and into the cab to meet your friends at the resort. Katsuki chuckled before walking back into the house to find his son napping on the couch. His spiky, blonde locks were all messed up with bed head while his E/C eyes he inherited from you remained shut. Katsuki walked over to his newborn daughter and picked her up while he took a seat next to Katsuoâs sleeping form, rubbing at his soft hair until he woke up.
âCanât be all that bad, right Katsumi?â
The baby girl merely cooed with sparkling ruby eyes that mimicked her fatherâs.
â
Wow. Wrong. He was so wrong! It had only been 2 days since your departure but things had already gone so wrong! When you said your quirk was difficult to manage, Katsuki thought it would be difficult for Katsuo to manage. Not him!
Katsuki shouldâve known his son wouldâve taken the opportunity to act out while his mother was away. He had always been your little angel while Katsuki saw him as his little gremlin. With Y/N gone, Katsuo has been pushing all kinds of limits. Limits that had Katsuki beat.
Katsuo had been fortunate enough to inherit a quirk. And not just any quirk, but your quirk. Duplication. Basically, he can create copies of himself. When you were his age, you could only create 4, max. Katsuo was different though. He had Bakugou blood flowing through him. He was advanced the second he was born. So now, Katsuki was stuck looking after Katsumi, Katsuo, and Katsuoâs 16 other copies.
âAye! Number 15, youâre gonna break that lamp! 11 and 8! Donât wrestle in the mud! Go take a bath! NUMBER 3 GET OFF THE KITCHEN ISLAND! KATSUMI!â The adult blond screamed, looking for his infant daughter, eventually finding her sleeping in her little rocker on the living room floor. âOh right, you donât talk yet.â
Katsuki sighed as he slumped down next to his daughter, and leaned his back against the couch. He looked around the room and saw the 17 Katsuoâs making a ruckus around the house. All he could do was question how the hell is 3 month old daughter could possibly sleep through all this.
Katsuki almost lost all hope for humanity until a knock was heard on his front door. Knowing exactly who was there, he quickly got up from his place on the floor and ran to the entrance. âYou idiots are finally here!â
Katsuki pulled in his 3 friends, the boys of the Bakusquad, and slammed the door shut. The 3 friends all stood in shock at the sight of the house. Not that it was overly messy or anything. Itâs just that there were about 16 more figures in the house that arenât usually there.
âYou gotta help me!â Katsuki said, running infront of them, shaking his best friendâs shoulders. âI love my kids! I do! I love Katsuo, I swear! BUT I DIDNT SIGN UP TO BE A FATHER OF 18 FREAKING DEVILS!â
âOkay! Okay, relax man. Weâre here.â Kirishima said, patting his friendâs shoulder as he wept. âHow the hell are we gonna take care of 17 little Bakugous?â
âRight? We thought 1 Kacchan was a lot. Then you brought another one into the world, who apparently brought some unannounced friends.â Kaminari joked.
âTheyâre demons!â Katsuki exclaimed. âThis has to be some fucking Karma for the shit I did. I knew I shouldâve listened to my old hag better. Now shits came back to bite me in the- HEY! PUT YOUR SISTER DOWN! SHEâS NOT A FOOTBALL!â
Katsuos number 7 and 5 placed a sleeping Katsumi back in her rocker with an annoyed pout before running off to play something else.
âWelllll, thereâs nothing that 3 cool uncles canât fix!â Sero enthusiastically said. âHey kiddos! Whoâs ready to have some fun?â
All the mini blondes stopped their movements, some freezing mid-air, and looked to the slim man. They all shouted in joy at the sight of their uncles and ran to pounce on the 3 men, including their father. From the point of view of the boys in the Bakusquad, it looked like a Bakugou stampede.
âRun, run, RUN, RUN, RUUUNN!!!!â Kaminari screamed as the boys all ran for their lives to escape the herd of Katsuos. This was going to be an interesting day.
â
Safe to say after the day had passed, the boys of the Bakusquad were completely exhausted. Sero had half his clothes torn, Kirishimaâs hair fell from itâs great spikes and even lost some red hues, Katsukiâs eye bags had never been heavier, and Kaminari was just straight knocked the fuck out. They were all thrown across the couch as Katsumi rested in Katsukiâs arms.
âWhat do we do?â Kirishima exclaimed.
âI donât know.â Katsuki said, looking at his scrambling son(s). âThereâs just too many.â
âAnd weâve already lost a soldier.â Sero said pointing to Kaminariâs sleeping form. Katsuki and Kirishima followed his gaze and bowed their heads in respect towards the defeated Kaminari.
âWell now what? Is Bakugou just supposed to live like this for the next 3 days?â Kirishima asked.
âHell no. If I do, thereâs not gonna be anymore Katsuki. Iâll just be some body without a soul because my damn gremlins sucked it outtaâ me.â Katsuki said with his head dropped down.
âWell how do we get them to calm down?â Sero questioned.
âI donât know. Theyâre all mini meâs. Nobody could get me to relax.â Katsuki said in defeat, but thatâs when Kirishima had a lightbulb go off for him.
âExcept for Y/N!â The red head said, popping up from his seat on the couch.
âUh, if you havenât noticed Shitty Hair, this all started because sheâs away on her trip.â Katsuki said with sarcasm as he looked at his friend as if he was an idiot.
âI know that! But Y/N wasnât the only one to tame you, Bakugou!â Kirishima said in excitement.
âSo then who else?â Katsuki asked.
âYou know,â Kirishima smirked. âDenkiâs favorite person. Y/N and.........â
It took Katsuki a second before his eyes popped when he finally got it. âNo!â
âYes!â Kirishima said.
âNo way! Weâre not going to her!â Katsuki complained.
âWho?â Sero asked.
âNobody!â Katsuki screamed.
âOh itâs somebody alright! Somebody who was able to tame the beast in Bakugou the second he was born!â Kirishima said.
âWho?â Sero asked. Katsuki finally sighed before he gave in, realizing this was his only hope for sanity. He grabbed his phone and made a quick call before explaining to his dark-haired friend.
âThe demon of all demons...â
â
The door opened to reveal a tall standing brunette and an elder feminine blonde.
â...My mother.â
â
The boys of the Bakusquad all sat lined up on the couch as Mitsuki stood at Katsukiâs end and smacked her sonâs head.
âYou idiots! Y/N leaves for 2 days and all hell breaks lose?!â Mitsuki screamed at the 3 young men.
âYou old hag! Quit hitting me! Imaâ grown man for crying out loud!â Katsuki screamed as he rubbed his head. Masaru simply bounced the sleeping Katsumi in his arms as he watched the scene play out.
âWell if youâre such a grown man then why canât you manage your own kids without your wifeâs help?!â Mitsuki argued, leaving Katsuki silent as he grumbled. The eldest blonde sighed before continuing. âAlright listen, Iâll watch these little devils for the next few days until Y/N comes back. Iâd love to spend some time with my grandbrats. Why donât the 3 of you go take a break and-â
âTHANKS! Letâs go losers!â Katsuki said dragging his friends to the exit. Mitsuki and Masaru only laughed at their sonâs behavior as they began tending to the kids.
The boys of the Bakusquad all quickly walked out of the house and headed for their cars as they all walked together.
âSo, where to?â Sero asked.
âWe could go head up that new resort in Tokyo!â Kaminari suggested.
âNaahhh. Thatâs where Y/Nâs having her girlâs trip. Wifey would kill me if she saw me there instead of at home with the kids.â Katsuki said with his hands in his pockets. Kirishima raised his brow at this.
âOh? So then, maybe we should go back and-â
âYou know, on second thought,â Katsuki said with wide eyes once Kirishima made the suggestion. He took his hands out of his pockets and placed them behind his friendâs backs to keep them moving. âMaybe she wonât kill me..if Iâm lucky..and wish..upon a shooting star....a million times over. Hah.....yeah. TO THE RESORT!â
As they walked, Kaminari attempted to look at the house once more, prompting Katsuki to turn his friendâs head back around. âNo, no, no, donât look back, they can smell fear.â
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I want to share some of the experiences of my loved ones and myself that started leading me to radical feminism
One of my best friends (currently a 19 year old college student) used to have an onlyfans and currently sells underwear online. She says that the most humiliating moments of her life happened on onlyfans and similar websites. She had guys ask things like would she have sex with her brother, could she cry on camera, or if she would piss herself for them. There were two men she encountered that still make me sick to think about. The worst one was a man who regularly paid for videos of her pretending like she was being raped by him without a condom. She would beg for him to stop, not to impregnate her, and she cried and screamed. She was not allowed to get any pleasure from it or she wouldnât get paid. The man only found pleasure in the idea of a teenage girl being traumatized and abused. The other man paid her to dominate him over the phone. He wanted her to control every aspect of his life. He was nearly 30 at the time while she was 18. The worst part of this ordeal was that they knew each other from when she was around twelve or thirteen. During this time I watched her mental health rapidly decline. Her poor mental health ended up causing her to quit less than a year after starting her account. Now she sells underwear and the conditions are no better. Sheâs been asked to sell worn underwear, underwear sheâs pissed in, underwear with her period blood in it, and underwear sheâs worn while masturbating. She has been masturbating so frequently that her skin over her clit has begun peeling. The idea that this is empowering her as a woman makes me sick. Itâs basically a form of self harm. Anytime I mention that she might need to slow down she explodes, ranting about how she loves doing it, how itâs good money, and that itâs her choice. No woman should be brainwashed into that mindset.
Two of my other friends have been coerced by their boyfriends into sex that they didnât want. One of them was guilt tripped into having anal sex by her boyfriend. She didnât want to have sex until marriage, which he already knew prior. She said he looked so disappointed that she felt like she had to let him do anal. She also said this was easily one of the most painful experiences of her life. She ended up being pressured into vaginal sex only a few weeks later. Another friend was VERY adamant about saving any kind of sex until marriage. Her boyfriend pretended like this was totally fine until around a year into their relationship. He starting persuading her into giving him handjobs and blowjobs, insisting that they were meaningless acts and no big deal. She complied but still wouldnât let him do anything sexual to her. Eventually he got impatient and decided to touch her while she was asleep on a school trip. She admits to being scarred from this, but insists that he didnât mean any harm and that he wouldnât do it again. In March, they were at a party together and had a fight. My friend is known for being a lightweight. While she was furious and drunk, her boyfriend was barely tipsy. He apparently decided that the best way for her to get over it was to push her into a room and have sex even though she was fully unable to consent. At some point, someone walked into the room, saw them, and told everyone at the party about it, including complete strangers. People still bring it up to her like itâs some funny story. Neither of my friends see anything wrong with their boyfriends or their actions. I, along with mutual friends, have tried to bring it up but they insist that it was a one time thing, their boyfriends didnât know any better, and that weâre being over dramatic. It hurts me to know that theyâre just one of many girls who dismiss sexual assault just because theyâve never been told what is wrong in a sexual relationship.
My mom was raped by my father while they were dating. My mom was raised in a very religious family so she saw premarital sex as one of the ultimate sins. She was okay with everything except penetrative sex. At some point, they were naked together and he saw that as an invitation. She froze up and couldnât bring herself to stop him. That was how she lost her virginity. It wasnât until she told me that she realized he raped her and that was only because I told her. She didnât know she was raped until over 30 years later. She said she always thought she asked for it since she was naked around him and let him get close enough for it. She didnât know that there are multiple types of rape until much later in life, so she never connected the dots. If she had known, she mightâve been able to save herself from the abusive marriage that followed.
Speaking of my mother and her marriage, she was also taught that getting a divorce was a sin in the eyes of god, especially if the wife initiates it. My mom couldnât bring herself to divorce him in the beginning and then once she had kids she couldnât divorce him until she made sure he wouldnât get joint custody of us. She suffered through 35 years of abuse all because of some bullshit she had forced upon her since she was young. My grandma on my moms side experienced the same thing and wouldnât divorce my grandfather who cheated on her and had a child with another woman.
These last ones are my own personal experiences. I, like many women, have faced sexual assault multiple times. The first time was when I was 12 and sexually assaulted by my long time family friend who was 15. He was best friends with my cousin who I am very close to so he also became a friend of mine. We also went to the same school. One day the three of us were at my cousins house and I was sharing a blanket with the friend. Under the blanket, he began to brush his hand along my ass which I thought was an accident since we were on a small couch sharing a blanket meant for one person. It soon escalated to him grabbing my ass under my jeans and through my underwear and then cupping my boobs. This was all while my cousin sat five feet away. When I finally got the courage to get out I got a text from the guy begging me not to tell my cousin. It took me nearly a month to tell my family and the school. My family said they would cut all contact with his family and the school said they would make sure I never had to be around him in a school setting. However, almost immediately, my family went back to being friends with his family and my school went back on their promise. Even though the guy confessed and I had the texts as evidence, he faced no real repercussions. Another guy continually harassed me over the course of our freshman, sophomore, and junior year. Heâd do things like grab me, slap my ass, stick his hand down my uniform, grind against me during class while I was bent over, and he always found new ways to contact me after being blocked. When I finally told a teacher mid junior year, the way the school âpunishedâ him was by having his football coach talk to him. This is the same football coach thatâs known to indirectly slut shame girls in front of everyone. The guys behavior towards me didnât change so I just gave up. I was never taken seriously when these incidents came to light. Everyone just assumed it was something to brush off. That itâd go away after a gentle scolding. Even my peers who say theyâre all about protecting and defending women basically responded with âthat sucksâ and moved on.
I turned to radical feminism because itâs given me a place to be heard. I can speak my mind. Even if someone doesnât agree with me, theyâll have a civilized discussion or simply move on rather than start an argument.
#and thereâs more obviously#radfem#terf safe#terfs do touch#gender critical#terfs please interact#radical feminism#drop the t#lgb#long post#sorry#mine
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UP IN SMOKESÂ â DOYOUNG
psych student! kdy | tw. college au, violence, a knife, GASLIGHTING, hallucination, psychosis, swearing, just pure manipulation, minor charac death, there's a court scene, this is a repost! | wc. 10k she a beast
life couldâve been simple;
you shouldn't have met kim doyoung.
what does a freshman in college hate the most other than the high-stress levels of moving into a new dorm? a shitty roomie and a smelly, moldy mattress. the girl you call roommate refuses to help move the mattress because it will ruin her new manicure. what a fucking classic.Â
"sounds like a 'you' problem. figure it out yourself, plain jane."Â
she said before heading out, annoyingly popping her bubblegum as she kicks a few of your scattered boxes by the front door. you roll your eyes; classes haven't even started yet, so why is she already making your life miserable? as much as you'd like to snap at her, you don't, merely glaring daggers at her back as she finally turns the corner of the hallway and disappears.Â
"bitch," you mutter under your breath.Â
you eye the abomination that is supposed to be your bed, cursing how you shouldn't have made a 15-minute pit stop to starbucks for a drink when you could've just bought one from the instant coffee vending machines in every corner of the hallway of this dorm building because if you didn't, maybe you could've beaten regina george wannabe from taking the better bed. sighing, you suck it up and start getting to work. life's full of shit, anyway; no point sulking.
moving a moldy mattress is easier than you thought, to say the least. you can't ask for help from the other freshmen you bumped into in the hallway because they, too, are under a huge amount of stress from the move and are busy getting their affairs in order. it was a good thing, though, that a committee was formed specifically for this day to help out the freshmen if they were to stumble upon problems or mishaps with moving in. they were all around the campus, and they prove to be way friendlier than your batch mates. since this morning, three people have already offered help in carrying your luggage â which you have politely declined.
"hey, uhm⊠is this the stall for the welcoming committee? oh, wait. i'm sorry, there's a sign right there â"ugh.
you mentally shut your eyes in humiliation. why do you have to be this bad, this awkward at communicating with strangers? why couldn't you be born like all those socialites who already (probably) got their contacts filled with new numbers on the first day of school or something?
"yeah, this is them â welcoming committee, i mean. how can i help you?" he smiles, sweet, radiating the epitome boy next door aura as he looks up at you from where he's sitting behind the stall. your eyes quickly land onto the name tag stuck on his varsity jacket before meeting his eyes again.Â
"i have an issue with my mattress. it has mold, you see..." your voice slowly trails, becoming quieter as you feel small under the weight of his piercing stare. oh, come on. he's just a guy with a beautiful face, woman the fuck up.
"really? let me see..."
he needn't finish rounding the stall when his nose is hit by the pungent smell brought forth by your mattress. frankly, you weren't that picky. you could've covered it with bedsheets and call it a day, but the odor is too strong to ignore. you mentally hope the smell didn't latch onto your clothes, especially not when someone so cute is around â what a bad first impression.
"oh, god!" he exclaims the moment he lays eyes on it, taking a step back. ânow, that has to go. and you lugged it from the fourth floor?"Â
ah, yes. according to tradition in these dormitories, which you've only found out today, freshmen get the curse of climbing four flights of stairs up while the seniors strut into their rooms on the ground floor like the hallway is a goddamned runway.Â
"doyoung! help me carry these!"
someone calls his name as you both turn your head to spot a chestnut-haired girl clad in the same varsity jacket he's wearing. you grimace at the sight of her. for someone so small, she just had to volunteer to carry all those heavy bags. however, he doesn't move in front of you and brushes her off as if she doesn't look like she's carrying rocks over her shoulders. "i'm already helping someone else! go find taeyong or something. i'm sure that shit's loitering around here somewhere!"
"oh, it's okay, you can go help her. i'll just look for someone else â"
"nah, it's fine!" you try hard to school your face into indifference when you notice his gummy smile. "plus⊠trust me when i say no other person from the committee will help you with this. this shit smells like my roommate's sweaty basketball socks!"
you can't help the smile forming on your face as you help him carry the mattress off to the side of the hallway, the stinky thing leaning vertically against the wall and behind a huge terracotta plant pot. "don't worry, let's report it to student affairs so they'll get you a new one. congrats! you'll have to share beds with your new roommate tonight, freshie. it'd be a great ice breaker."
the universe truly hates you.
your expression must've been a dead give away because he's suddenly patting your shoulder, regarding you with utmost sympathy. "been there, done that. i hated taeyong, too, when i met him last year. still, for some mind fuck of a miracle, we've grown to be friends and developed a talent of not wanting to kill each other every two seconds."
"highly doubt i'd be friends with a regina george-level bitch, but thanks, anyway," you mutter under your breath. suddenly, you whip your head towards him after internalizing what he just said. "you met your roommate last year? you're a sophomore?"
he scoffs, leaning down to your height to lowly mutter against your ear as he eyes the lobby's front desk. "why? do i look like some 4th year who radiates 'don't touch me' energy?"Â
you feel the heat on your cheeks with how close he is, only releasing an exhale when he finally gets out of your personal space. "i'm kim doyoung. you've heard it from wendy earlier, but anyway â i'm a 2nd-year psych major."
"no way!" you exclaim, a little too excited. "i'm taking psych, too!"
"oh, you are? well, if you need anything or if you don't understand stuffâŠ" he winks. "feel free to approach me anytime."
hmm⊠how sweet of him.Â
it was only hours later that you found out who kim doyoung is in your department during the acquaintance party. and for god's sake, you found out from your best friend who is a major in english lit and has never even seen the guy. "seriously, you didn't know he's a genius? i hear the professors call him a prodigy, girl! a fucking prodigy. if i were you, i'd ask for his help in every subject."
"you know i prefer keeping to myself. how'd i know stuff like that when i have no one to talk to in the psych dorms?" you look down, making the ice cubes in your drink clink against each other. "i didn't think he was this big shot or whatever. he looks normal, and everyone treats him normally."
"well, what do you expect?" she hisses, hitting your arm. "the other students don't want to make him feel alienated or something just because he's tons smarter than them. but anyway⊠the real question isâŠ"
you roll your eyes when she pauses for effect, tentatively leaning closer to whisper under her breath.Â
"is he cute?"
you didn't want to answer her question, but he's been stuck in your head since he offered walking with you to the student affairs office. doyoung had smiled his cute gummy smile and had even ruffled your hair before leaving you for committee duties â saying he's cute would be an understatement.Â
"you have no idea."
for his first act;
he gains your trust.
fast forward to one year, many things have changed, but the only constant remaining is the handsome sophomore â who is now a 3rd-year, by the way â whom you've met on your first day. coursework has been pretty tough this year. instead of the content written in your textbook, your mind is plagued by the horrible twist of fate your best friend had encountered; she didn't have enemies. or so you thought.
she disappeared in the middle of christmas break last year. her beaten up body was found only a month later, in january, floating around the university's lake. happy fucking new year.Â
the first time she chose to spend the holidays with you instead of her family back in her hometown, and that happens? some rotten luck you both have. it's why you didn't put it past her family to hate your guts with strong convictions. it's okay. the feeling's mutual. after all, it had been your best friends' own family, the same ones who had been so willing to take you in when you got kicked out, that were so eager to pin you as the murderer of their child. all under the argument that you have been the last person seen with her.Â
oh, the things her mom said about you when she had stormed into the police station, red in the face, tears streaming down her cheeks..."i warned my baby not to hang out with that â that bitch. came straight out of a cursed family, that one. abusive dad, a nutjob mom. that bitch is a danger! probably got her dad's nasty temper and beat my baby to death! i want her on the electric chair!"
in those times, you once again realize this world is fucked up and cruel in every bit of its glory as you fought tooth and nail to defend yourself. but even then, they never believed you â the law will only favor the rich . the prosecution had been so sure it was you until a certain witness appeared and presented himself before the jury.
"do you swear to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth?"Â
doyoung raises his right hand, fixing his stare straight at the judge. "i solemnly and sincerely declare that the evidence i shall give will be the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth."
"how long have you known the defendant?" the prosecutor asks, arms crossed in front of her chest as she paces in front of the witness stand.
the boy briefly meets your gaze, and it's enough to make his heart sink. doyoung can't bear seeing you in those grey overalls when he knows it himself. you're being accused of a crime you didn't commit. "i've known her for one year."
"how'd you meet?"
and the questions went on and on; your defense attorney isn't all too keen on winning the case and had never once yelled "objection!" in her seat, but what could you expect? all the evidence kept stacking against you, and some of those you knew were even fabricated. you've never felt this hopeless in your whole twenty years of living.Â
"what's the point in this, anyway?" doyoung snapped in the witness stand, fiercely glaring at the prosecutor. "how is my history â or lack thereof â with the defendant any relevant to the case? you're not even asking me about evidence nor what my statement is!"
"easy there," the prosecutor retaliates, jaw locked. "i have to first measure what exactly your relationship is with the defendant for us to think twice about your statement. who knows..." the prosecutor makes a grand gesture of turning her head in your direction, affixing you with a condescending stare. "she might've just hired you to say these things."
your attorney doesn't come to your aid.
"perjury isn't my thing."Â
the prosecutor seems to have taken offense by the tone of doyoung's voice, but he doesn't let her speak further. "the victim isn't all sunshine and rainbows, you know. she'd been a part of a sorority and one with quite a nasty reputation in the college, too. i have to say she made very poor decisions, ones i'm sure her family didn't even know about. you see, they take their oaths and pledges very seriously. the victim wanted out. they didn't like that."
"and you have evidence to support this claim?"
without a moment to waste, he digs around the front pocket of his jeans before proudly presenting a black usb between his slender fingers. "knock yourself out."
the professor calls your name, snapping you out of your reverie. this isn't the first time your mind had transported you back to that particular day in the courtroom, where doyoung had swooped in and saved you from a lifetime in prison. the whole ordeal had been so scary, so frightening that you remember everything vividly as if it had only happened yesterday.
the classroom is empty. even your social psych professor has long packed up his stuff and is already standing by the classroom door. damn. were you that out of it?
"i'm so sorry." you mutter under your breath monotonously as you walk past him and out the door without another word. this is bad, very bad. no one would help, much less lend their notes to someone charged with murder â especially of their very own best friend. whether you were innocent or not doesn't matter to the student body. you've been ostracized, gossips of your problematic family spreading like wildfire, and the ridiculous part is only a fourth of the gossips are true.
the damage is done.Â
at this point, you realize with a heavy heart that you have to face doyoung again sooner or later. you haven't talked to him at all since the start of the new school year, ignoring his lighthearted greetings in the hallways, rejecting his calls, ghosting his texts. you are afraid people would judge him harshly for hanging around you. frankly, you were embarrassed to ask any more favors from him with how much he's done for you already and the fact that he had seen you in such a state of vulnerability.
but you also didn't want to fail your subjects and lose the one thing holding your life together â your scholarship.
that is why you found yourself standing before him, in his favorite spot in the library tucked behind shelves upon shelves of books, next to the windows overlooking the empty football field. he's wearing black-rimmed glasses and is clad in the usual navy blue sweater as his head turns to and fro between a textbook and his notebook. the air had been so silent, you hear the aggressive scratches his pencil makes against the paper.
you feel a little hurt when he makes no move to acknowledge your presence, but you think back to what you have been doing and figured he has a right to act this way.Â
"hey, doyoung." your voice is meek, hesitant.
"if you're not here to explain nor give me an acceptable reason why you've been ignoring me for the last few months, then please get out of my sight. i'm busy, as you can tell." he is brutally honest, knocking down the remaining hope you have left of ever reconciling with him.
something within you snaps, the steady streams of tears running down your cheeks as you pinned your stare on doyoung's open pencil case lying on the table. you have nobody left. your family â father, specifically speaking â has disowned you for taking a course your heart wanted, and the one friend you have lies motionless in a white coffin buried six feet under the ground. you didn't want to lose doyoung, too, no matter what role he plays in your life.
"i'm sorry," your voice cracks. "life's been⊠fucking shitty, and i'm sure you of all people know what i've been through. i've thanked you before for â for what you did, and i'm thanking you again right now but â i'm sorry, i'm really â"
your voice cracks when you feel him pulling you into an embrace. you feel the tension in your body breaking loose as you crumble in his arms. all those months grieving and wallowing in self-pity took such a heavy toll that you can't help but tightly clutch the sides of his hoodie, scared he'll slip through your fingers.
one of his hands comes up to push your face against the crook of his neck, muffling your cries in the silent library. doyoung felt like a jerk for snapping at you the way he did. how inconsiderate can he be? however, he felt elated because you sought him out yourself and wanted his help of all people.
his eyebrow raises in amusement.Â
well, not that you have a choice, anyway.
it took you a few good minutes to calm down, cringing when you see the wet patch on doyoung's sweater because of your tears.Â
"why don't you tell me everything, hmm? i'll help you as much as i can."
you sheepishly look down, fiddling with your fingers as you sit across him, the open textbook and notebook before him long forgotten. "well, i've been so out of it lately? my mind's just a whole bloody mess and i can't focus on any of my subjects at all and if i can't, then i'll lose the scholarship and it's the only thing i have in my life right now â"
"hey," doyoung cuts you off, placing a warm hand against your forearm to calm you down. "you won't lose that scholarship. trust me, okay? why don't we arrange tutoring sessions and i'll even lend you some of my notes from last year. what do you think?"
"okay... thank you, doyoung."
"for the record, you have me in your life, too. i'll always be here for you."
in the first session, you woke up from your deep slumber with only 15 minutes to spare from the scheduled time, but thankfully, your tutor only lives one floor down with the rest of the 3rd-years. bringing nothing with you but a pen and a pad of paper, your textbooks were destroyed as some students from your batch thought it'd be fun to throw them into the lake to "honor" your friend.Â
you offer a small smile when taeyong opens the door, sporting an oversized shirt and track pants, eyes wide in shock when he sees you. "hi? can i help you?"
"hello! i'm here for doyoung. he's tutoring â"
"he doesn't live here anymore. his mom bought him a place outside the campus."
what?
"i'm sorry for disturbing you, then. do you by any chance know where he lives?"
that's weird. doyoung never mentioned he's already moved out. you feel a wee bit irritated that he forgot to tell you; it would've saved you the embarrassment of interacting with the varsity player. you weren't stupid, you can see the hints of repulsion in taeyong's eyes the moment he opened that door and saw you standing before him, no doubt thinking about: oh, look, it's the crazy murderer with a fucked up family standing in front of me.
he had shut the door in your face. you stood awkwardly for a good minute in the hallway until the door reopens, taeyong handing you a small piece of paper with doyoung's new address scribbled hurriedly in black ink. he doesn't give you a chance to thank him for he's already closed the door again without another word.Â
you opted walking to his place instead of catching a ride because the money you have on you is enough to buy yourself dinner. to say the least, the apartment building is mediocre, not too grand, nor is it too rundown. double-checking the floor level written on the paper before pushing the elevator's button, you then realize doyoung lives on the very top floor of the building.
the hallways are painted a boring brown. some acrylic number signs plastered on the doors are broken, hanging vertically with one screw left. it says on the paper he resides in room 720. taking the right hallway, you mentally count as you eye the mahogany doors. 718⊠719⊠there it is!
when you raise a fist to start knocking on his door, there is a tinge of hesitation surging through you. perhaps being alone with a boy in his apartment is not the best setting for a girl like you should end up in, but this is doyoung we're talking about. if he had ill intentions for you, it would've manifested a long time ago. you shake your head, feeling bad for thinking of him that way as you slowly knock on his front door. not long after, it swings open, revealing the 3rd-year in a white shirt and boxers as he lazily dries his hair off with a small towel.Â
"you're late," is the first thing he says to you before spinning on his heel to disappear further into his humble abode.Â
"you didn't exactly inform me you've moved out of the dorms. so, whose fault is it?" you retaliate, inviting yourself in and closing the front door shut.
"whatever. let's get started!" he plops himself on the floor, coffee table filled with loose papers as he struggles to find a specific one amongst the mess. "i've already scanned, exported to pdf, and emailed you my notes. it should be in your inbox by now. anyway, answer this quiz i made so i know what i'll be working on."
"you didn't really have to send your notes, doyoung. i could've just read everything from the textbook," you sit down across from him because otherwise, you'll be too distracted to remember information.Â
a thought crosses his mind. with what textbook?
"i just think it's missing some essence. that's why i love reading over other psych books in the library for fun. be grateful, those notes are like my babies and i don't simply give them to anyone," he looks at you pointedly. "they've all been summarized and explained in layman's terms so you wouldn't have to spend grueling hours of reading and trying to make sense of the big words as i did â i know that's not the definition of 'fun' normally, but it is for me, and that's why i do it."
"okay, doyoung. you sound so defensive when there's nothing to be defensive about," you tease, feeling pleased with the hint of red on his cheeks as he averts his gaze from yours, muttering incoherent words under his breath.
you spent the following tuesdays, thursdays, and sundays like that; hours upon hours with no one but your tutor, laptops with tangled chargers, a printed copy of his babies, and a mountain pile of loose papers filled with the specialized quizzes doyoung makes to measure your progress. the location varies from a cafe or his flat. but in what you've gathered from the time you spent with him, doyoung's a homebody. cafe tutor sessions are rare, and he always complained about how "noisy" the atmosphere was â "i can't stand it."
but the conversation hadn't always been about academics.Â
sure, for the first few sessions, doyoung kept an image of professionalism and had heavily insisted on it â "it's for your learning experience!"Â â despite your lighthearted teasing. but as time passed and he eventually grew more comfortable in your presence, you find the strict 15-minute break he had initially imposed between 45 minutes of studying turned into hours of talking about whatever; how he likes his eggs in the morning, your favorite coffee brew, his favorite show, your strongest pet peeve.Â
and you wholly welcomed the change, not minding that it's practically dark out whenever you go back to your miserable dorm. you feel butterflies in your stomach whenever doyoung offers to walk you home but never had you taken his offer, still cautious of other people seeing you both together despite his constant reassurances. you've already thoroughly ruined your image. you didn't want to ruin his, too.Â
kdy the cute tutor, 2:14 pm âlast day of midterms! & its all majors today âgood luck âremember what i taught u âlets get ice cream after u cant say no
you shake your head bemusedly. his texting style is the most doyoung thing he does and it's as if you can hear him say these things to you in real life. too caught up in your own world, you fail to detect another student sitting next to you and had nearly fallen off your chair in shock when they spoke.
"why are your notes like that?"
you fight the urge to glare at the person, especially when you turn your head and see lee jeno looking at you in genuine curiosity. he's the only batchmate that treats you a wee bit nicer among the rest. although he isn't technically your friend, at least he doesn't look at you like you're a piece of bubblegum stuck under his shoe like all the others.
"what do you mean?"
"they're⊠the definitions are all jumbled up. where did you even get that?"Â
what? jumbled up? doyoung himself said these notes are a combination of most of the psychology books he had read last year concerning his subjects. how would it be jumbled up? then again, lee jeno was not tutored by the prodigy himself. maybe things are bound to seem "jumbled up" when information is too great to understand for a feeble mind.Â
just as you were about to claim these notes aren't yours, the professor has already waltzed into the classroom with a thick wad of papers â the exams. after one last concerned glance directed your way, jeno averts his gaze with a confused tilt of the head.Â
hours later, you walk out of the classroom with the biggest smile on your face. aced it, you thought. your hands feel numb with how much you wrote on the essay portion but it's worth it if it meant you get the full 25 points, which you no doubt will as it was a topic you surely tackled with doyoung. speaking of... he sure is a man of his word.
"what are you doing here?" you hiss, head ducked with hair framing your face as to not draw attention from the rest of the students filing out of the testing hall.
"i texted you that we're getting ice cream. remember?"
"i did. but i didn't remember agreeing."
he shoots you a comforting smile, planting his hands firmly on your shoulder. âi told you, y/n. i don't care if they all see us together, so what? we all know you didn't commit that crime and it wasn't your fault you were born into the family you had. i don't care about the trivial things, baby, so don't shy away from me, okay?"
how the fuck can you say 'no' when he's looking at you the way he is as he brushed a loose strand of hair behind your ear? doyoung's just so bewitching that he has you wrapped around his slender fingers. he seems pleased when you stumbled over your words as you come up with a reply, caught off guard by his bold gestures.
"i just â you, uhh â fine..." you gave in, rolling your eyes out of pretense.
he just had to call you 'baby' and erupt the butterflies in your stomach.
it had been doing that for the last few months now and it had only truly manifested today when he took you out for ice cream to celebrate the end of hell week. and since you didn't want to go back to your dorm yet, you asked if you guys can watch some movies in his house but it had simply become background noise to your heart-to-heart talks. and what better accompaniment than the classic, chicken and beer?
you listen to him drone on and on about the little realizations he had on some of his past lectures even when you barely understood anything he's saying. doyoung's so lucky to be extremely good at something he's so passionate about, talks about the human mind and the complexity of a person's behavior will never fail to make his eyes light up in interest.
he calls out your name.
your eyes snap open.
"why don't we get you home? it's past 10 and it's alright, stupid, you don't need to pretend to be interested in my psychological findings." he chuckled light-heartedly, stealing the can of the now room-temperature beer from your hands before you can protest.Â
"i wasn't dozing off, i swear."
"i caught you in the act. stop lying."
like all the other times he has you as his guest, doyoung once again offers to walk you home and you decline for the thousandth time. it really isn't that much of a long walk anyway. you don't see the need for him to go out of his way to secure your safety. plus, you were the one who insisted on hanging out in his house anyway. you weren't that thick-skinned to let him take you home, too.
"you're drunk!" he scolds.
âno, iâm not. i can perfectly handle myself."
"but â"
"bye!"Â
you feel a little guilty for shutting the door in his face. still, a minute longer of his persistence and you would've taken his offer. unfortunately for doyoung, you are one stubborn girl. only if you don't make brisk movements with your head, then you won't see doubles. you'll be fine, it's just a quick walk and it's not as if you're stupid enough to pass by deserted alleys.Â
but you had underestimated the divine prowess of your fucked up fate.
everything happened in a matter of three seconds; one, the blinding headlights illuminate your path from behind; two, you hear the loud honk, and as you turn around â three, the vehicle sends you rolling against the asphalt.
you should have taken the alleyways.
for his second act;
he alters your reality.
when you open your eyes, you thought you were dead and your spirit is wandering elsewhere â because you don't believe in trivial things like heaven and god â until an agitated doyoung comes into view. for a split second, you thought, is he dead, too?
"i'm not dead, you idiot." too dazed, you hardly register his anger. "i can perfectly handle myself, she said. i'm not drunk, she said. this wouldn't have happened if you had simply let me walk you home! you're damn fucking lucky you're alive and breathing right now!"
a person clears their throat.
"i don't think it wise to⊠nag at the patient the moment she wakes. don't you agree, sir?"
pink splotches on doyoung's cheek as he looks down, embarrassed at getting scolded as he stands closer to your bed. "i'm sorry, doc."
you didn't know when your vision cleared or when you started hearing normally again, but it was enough to find out what exactly had transpired on the very night of your tragic accident. a hit and run. fifty-fifty chance of surviving. doyoung getting a call from the hospital in the middle of the night â"they were trying to contact your dad, but he wasn't answering. i was the last person in your call history."Â
six months in a coma. but today, you wake⊠only to find out your world has crashed and burned.
"what do you mean i lost my scholarship?"
"baby, listen to me â"
"why did they take it away? is it because of my accident? i'm behind by one term only and i swear i can catch up. they need to let me back in the program. there must've been some mistake â"
"your gpa didn't reach the cut-off grade."
that can't be possible.
"but you tutored me!" you claim with conviction, pointing an accusatory finger at him until you groan, bowing in pain as you clutch your head.
doyoung springs into action. the chair's legs screech against the tiles as he jumps to your aid, ushering you gently back against the hospital bed despite your refusal. "you're not well. lay back down, please."
you don't hear a single word he says, not when you had lost something so crucial. "i put in the effort and learned everything you taught me... i aced those fucking mid-terms! i know i did!" you were on the brink of tearing up as doyoung settled himself in front of you.
"i⊠i actually saw your papers," his lips set in a thin, hard-line. "everything was all wrong, sweetheart. what happened to you? i tried reasoning with the professors, mentioned your state â you know, with your best friend dying â but they didn't relent. i'm sorry y/n. i'm so â"
gone. everything is gone. the money. the dorm. what if they ask you to pay the fees from last year? what if they ask you to pay the tuition fee for this year? you have no money, no family, no relatives. no one to help. who's even going to pay for the hospital fees?
you weren't able to process anything after that. not with the sudden news of your now revoked scholarship. doyoung pulls you in a tight hug. "i was a bad tutor," he says, snapping you out of it. "maybe i shouldn't have pushed you that hard to learn them. why were your answers even mixed up y/n? i thought you knew those topics alreadyâŠ"
he pulls away, observing your confused state as your eyes dart everywhere in the room. "what â how are they mixed up? i know i got them right. there has to be some mistake. you taught me those topics, remember?"
"i did... "he averts his gaze. "but i don't remember teaching them to you mixed up, darling. i think you did that all on your own."
"but⊠why would i mix up my answers? that's â"
"see, what i mean?" he cuts you off, raising a hand to give your cheek the most delicate caress. "you're not well, baby. you need to be treated, especially with how much you hit your head during the accident. don't worry, i'm here. we'll try asking if you can stay in the dorms at least until you find another place â"
"am i a charity case to you?"
oh, the surprise on the junior's face when you push him away as you pin him with a hard stare. you just don't get it. why is kim doyoung so adamant about helping you? in becoming your hero, even when you never asked him to be? if you let him help you this time around, that'll be the 3rd time he came to save your ass. it's not as if you're ungrateful. simply, you've had enough of his help. you don't know how a person like you, who literally has nothing, can return the favor to someone like doyoung.
"what are you saying â"
"i'm sayingâŠ" you fix him a hard stare. "you helping me out doesn't even benefit you in the slightest. so why do you do it?"
he pauses, staring at you with hesitance in his eyes as this seems to be the very first time you've truly seen him speechless. when doyoung opens his mouth, he mumbles, and you hardly make sense of what he said.Â
"do you really want to know why?"Â
you urge him on with an arched eyebrow, his softened tone creeping into your heart.Â
"you're someone special to me y/n. i don't know how or when i admitted it to myself, but you are, and it hurts me to see how shitty your luck is," he cracks a small grin, slowly settling back onto the hospital bed as he grabs your hand. "it's okay to seek help from others. it isn't a sign of vulnerability or weakness. i help you because i want to, and i'm more than willing to take care of you. will you let me?"
you're not blind. you've noticed the way he had slowly started coming closer as he continued to speak, hands held securely in his as he looked straight at your eyes then down at your lips. and so, you act in a way you know that will surely answer his question â with a kiss.Â
the man before you immediately reciprocates, overpowering your own eagerness as he curls the tips of his fingers into the roots of your hair. he pulls you close, cradling you against his chest. you can taste his desperation in the way his tongue dances against yours, the kiss transporting you into an alternate reality where your world revolves around doyoung and doyoung alone.Â
when he pulls away bleary-eyed, both of you ignore the thin strand of saliva connecting your lips. "how about you come live with me for the time being, my love?"
still high off his kiss and natural scent, you hardly mull over the question he asks you. "okay."
days later, after you've been discharged (he wanted to chip in for your hospital bills but you had given him a firm no), doyoung had been the one to show up at the dorm to collect all your things after leaving you in his apartment. the cutie had refused to simply drop you off and had deliberately accompanied you up the elevator, through the halls, and finally into his apartment.Â
"i'll be out for just a minute, sugarcube."
"oh, can you get take out?"
doyoung had smiled, playfully booping the tip of your nose. "no, because i'll be cooking for us tonight as a little celebration for you getting discharged. you'll love it; i'm making your favorite!"
it was funny how the night had been nothing but utter bliss. the foreign feeling of being taken care of sprouting in your chest as you watch him cooking from behind the counter. it felt⊠nice. but funny enough, as if doing a 360, you both had immediately gotten into an argument the next day.Â
"i don't see the need for skipping another day if i feel perfectly fine! i'll figure something out once we get there, doyoung, so can we just â"
"you' re not fine, babylove â hell, you got discharged yesterday! i'm not just about to let you back into the arena with those students. they've only grown more immature since your coma, love. i seriously don't want you near them."
"fine! then i won't talk to them. simple." you throw your hands up. "there. problem solved. now, can we please just go to uni? i need to talk to the dean and the head of student affairs, too â"
"i'm going to uni, not you."
maybe it had been the way he firmly stated his claim, the way his eyes pierced through your soul as if daring you to argue further with him that made you snap.
"i'm not a prisoner in this apartment, doyoung! don't treat me like i have the plague! i'm perfectly capable of taking care of myself â jesus christ, i've been doing it nearly half my fucking life!"
too caught up in your anger, you've failed to notice the tears pouring down his face as he sets his gaze on the floor.Â
"you're right," his voice cracks. "i shouldn't be pushy like that. i'm sorry. you just mean so much to me and i'm so scared of losing you again. with your coma â i just â it's like i was fighting a losing battle each day that passed when i saw you in that hospital bed. i've never felt so scared in my whole life and i hated myself for not being able to protect you that night."
his tears run like waterfalls, and when you step forward with your arms wide open, doyoung sobs harder as he pulls you against him. you hardly comprehend what he says as he spoke, shaking against your frail body as you felt his tears stain your blouse. "i'm sorry, i never should've dictated what you felt â i'm so sorry."
"no, it's okay. i was feeling a little lightheaded, anyway. i'll stay here and i can come back to school next semester, right? doyoung? just⊠please stop crying."
he lifts his head, staring at you with bloodshot eyes before giving your forehead a kiss. you let a relieved sigh escape your lips, melting into his warmth as you prop your chin on his shoulder. if you had only been more attentive, you would've seen the reflection of his wicked grin on the tabletops. too easy.
living with him became a blur after that incident. everything fell into a routine for the next four days as you spent the day watching netflix, eating, reading, sleeping. nothing felt fun anymore. but your peaceful life had ceased during the fifth night â the whispers, they woke you up. you can hear them from behind your door at night, and when you rouse awake, you see doyoung walking around the hallway from the tiny gap at the bottom of the door. you had sighed, falling back into your plush bed as you pray to god, he keeps it down.Â
but what he told you the next day rendered you speechless. "me, walking around the hallways? whispers?" he says, confused. "i was already asleep, love. knocked out cold the moment my body fell on the bed."
"butâŠ"
he doesn't spare you a glance as he takes his sweet time skimming through his notes on the dining table, coffee in one hand. "maybe it's just the meds kicking in."
"no, surely it was real! i literally woke up in the middle of the night," you repeat. "it's okay if it was you, doyoung. i'm not mad."
he sets his coffee mug down a little too loud.Â
"well, you can't be mad at me, sugar, because like i said â it wasn't me," it doesn't take a genius to notice he's awfully cranky today. you observe him, dark half-moons under his eyes as he relentlessly reads his notes with instant coffee in one hand.Â
"you're just imagining things, okay? stop acting crazy."
for some reason, the way he had uttered certain words like 'imagining' and 'crazy' made you curl into your seat in embarrassment. he was right that your doctor did prescribe a generous amount of pills per day, but his tone made it feel off, made you feel like there was something wrong with you even when there wasn'tâŠÂ
right?
you didn't say a word after that and had hesitantly pecked him on the cheek before he left for school. with the amount of time you're with him, two things stood out to you â his keen sense of observation and his knack for reading people. you highly doubt he didn't notice a shift in your behavior but a part of you thinks it's just the stress talking. he is about to take his finals and had recently started on his research paper.Â
every psych student is required to present a paper in accordance with the department's annual theme. it could be anything from proposing a theory (if you dare) to constructing a well-developed psychology model. if you don't turn one in, you don't graduate â the paper's that important, and you've been bugging him for so long about sneaking a peek on what his study is about. but he always refused.Â
the next week came rolling around, and both of you had been spending every day together due to the semestral break. the arguments have significantly lessened, but your episodes â eventually, you started calling it that way because that's how doyoung labels it â have only gotten worse. you end up moving out of the guest room and into his. privacy be damned. the whispers stopped momentarily but what came next became your imminent downfall.
the first time you heard it, you thought you were dreaming. but the doorknob kept rattling aggressively even as you sat up. just as you climb off the bed, your half-asleep boyfriend asks where you're going.Â
"bathroom," you lied.
you were always the one to snort when it comes to the supernatural, claiming it's all bullshit. yet, as whatever outside continues to fight its way inside the room, the rattling progressing into loud bangs against the door, you're not so sure of your beliefs anymore. you're not crazy. nothing is wrong with you, and you're perfectly fine. this apartment is cursed, and you are going to prove that to doyoung.
grabbing your phone from the bedside table, you turn the flash on, pointing the camera at the door as you take a footage of the mad entity that has been playing games with you. a squeal escapes your lips when a particular bang! reverberates louder in the room than all the others. the phone slips your hand, falling onto the floorboards. you don't bother to retrieve it as you scramble to get yourself back under the blanket and into doyoung's comfortable warmth.
you snuggle yourself plush against his chest, shaking as you wrap your arms around his waist, inhaling his natural scent to anchor you back.Â
bang! bang! bang!
you didn't get a wink of sleep last night.
"can't the video wait? there's a new episode of start-up, and i want to watch it already!" he whines, shoving his face further on the throw pillow situated on your lap.
you giggle, shaking your head as you scroll through your gallery to find the video. i'm not imagining things. i'm not hallucinating. i'm not crazy. "here! watch... i'm telling you this apartment is haunted, and the ghost probably likes you, which is why it doesn't bother you â"
your lighthearted rambling cuts off when you notice no sound emitting from your phone. weird. you could've sworn you started recording right when the loud banging has already started. your heart drops upon the wary stare doyoung shoots you before he continues to watch the video.Â
no, no, no, no â please!
you quickly scoot over to his side, watching as the video unfolds before your very eyes. the shot was messy as the phone was handheld, not to mention you were panicking at the time. but the video is silent. not a single noise of a rattling doorknob or banging on the door can be heard through your phone's speakers.Â
"maybe â maybe you didn't turn the volume up?"
you hardly contain the mortification in your face when you realize the volume's at 100 already. and as if on cue, your squeal is heard in the video and the noise of the phone hitting the floor.
doyoung's silence shakes your whole being. as you kneel before him teary-eyed, your voice breaks. "i swear, i'm not crazy."
but at this point, you don't believe yourself anymore.
for his third and final act;
he triumphs.
his deprivation began in minuscule ripples.Â
it didn't take much effort on doyoung's end to convince you to stop studying for a year or two, at least, only until your hallucinations aren't as severe anymore. everyday felt like hell on earth as the fine line between what's real and what isn't has blurred over one too many times. in sheer paranoia of accidentally hurting him in his sleep, you moved out of his bedroom and had started sleeping in the guest room again â much to doyoung's frustration.Â
but he's a smart man, one that recognizes an opportunity amidst the hurdles thrown on his path.
"why does my door need a lock outside again?"
he approaches you, whoâs sitting cross-legged on the bed, after screwing in the last of the screws that came with the new doorknob. doyoung is familiar with the look written on your face, has observed and studied you enough to navigate his way inside your pretty little head with ease.
he can't have you doubting him, can he?
"you know i'm all about protecting you, right?" he starts. you nodded. "i've been doing it for a year now, and i will continue to do so until you need me to. the world is a bad place, sweetheart, remember? your own best friend's mother tried framing you. your dad disowned you. you've been ostracized in the whole college... do you think i'm just like the rest of them, baby?"
doyoung has already mastered the perfect expression of a kicked-puppy, one that easily pulls at your heartstrings and has you cooing at him.
"no!" you say with conviction, reaching forward to thread your fingers through his. "i know you're different, not like any of them at all. i know you're only doing what's⊠best for me."
he ignores the underlying hesitance in your tone. that will be corrected, sooner or later.
doyoung tightens his hold as he kisses the back of your hand. such an innocent gesture â but such ill intentions.
"the outside lock helps me in protecting you, love. you don't need to worry about anything. just focus on getting better, alright? i'll keep the bad guys away from you."
it was during his first semester of senior year, a few months back, doyoung and a good few students of his batch had been granted the opportunity to intern for a mental hospital located near the edge of the city. he was supposed to decline the offer but you convinced him to take the spot. it had only been a two-week âjobâ yet it was enough for doyoung to conclude â heâd rather kill you than subject you to the horrors of what the patients have to go through in the loony bin.Â
eventually, the small ripples shift into unforgiving waves, dragging you into the depths as everything comes crashing down before your very own eyes.
it should have been like any other day inside the apartment. doyoung's already gone in the morning to attend classes. though not before setting a tray of your brunch on the nightstand, making sure to lock your door on his way out. he knew your nightmares and anxiety kept you up at night, resulting in longer hours of sleep during the day.Â
turns out, you moving out of his bedroom had been a blessing in disguise. coming home to an empty apartment has become his biggest fear yet, and you unconsciously found a solution for him. one that doesnât have him fidgeting on his seat as he counts down the minutes âtil heâs back by your side.
doyoung smiles unconsciously as he listens to his professor drone on and on in front of him â his mind at peace, knowing you're safe and sound in your little prison.
until he received a text that made his blood run cold.
ty, 11:34 am âim done.
meanwhile, you rouse awake once more to thunderous poundings against your bedroom door. oh no, you thought. it's happening again. this time, there'll be no doyoung barging into your room, half-asleep and hair messy, as he tries to calm you down. you throw the blankets over you as you sob, hugging your legs against your chest as you try to 'wake yourself up' from the hallucination.
the person outside calls for your name, the desperation in their tone alighting a new-found fear in your heart. you don't know what's real anymore. is this truly happening, or is it another hallucination your fucked up mind has conjured up?
"please! it's taeyong! y/n, can you hear me?"
taeyong?
slowly, your head peaks above the blanket, warily staring at the door. doyoung has warned you about these kinds of things, has practically ingrained in your mind that whoever comes looking for you will take you away from him. not to mention, doyoung slipped one time and said he isnât friends with taeyong anymore.
the banging on the door progresses.
âare you in there? answer me! i canât find the key!â
you donât say anything, merely pushing the covers off your body as you keep your eyes fixed on the beating door. it looks like itâs about to pop out its hinges as taeyong relentlessly fights his way inside your room. what are you going to do? do you open the door? oh. right. you canât do that on your own accord. the key is with doyoung and he isnât in the apartment at the moment.
all your thoughts come to a halt when the boy outside sends the door flying open, finally breaking the lock with one powerful kick. you flinch back, his actions pushing you on your feet, wanting to place a maximum amount of distance from the intruder.Â
taeyong looks frantic, disheveled as he immediately notices your alarmed state. he approaches you cautiously, hands up to show his empty palms. âhey, hey⊠itâs just me, y/n. iâm not going to hurt you. iâm not the enemy here.â
âdoyoung doesnât know youâre here, does he?â
the look of surprise on his face is an answer in itself. for someone doyoung had proudly claimed to have âbrokenâ youâre still quite quick to catch up on things, taeyong observed. and he doesnât know what to feel about it â pity? guilt?
âthatâs not important!â he claims, boldly surging forward to grasp your shoulders with a firm grip. taeyong felt his heart dropping when you flinch under his grasp.Â
âlisten to me. we need to get you out of here. doyoung isnât â he isnât everything you thought he is!â he canât help but raise his voice, panic surging through him because thereâs not much time left and you arenât exactly cooperating. youâve been trying to shrug off his hold the whole time.Â
âdo you think he actually loves you?â
âhe does! stop saying bullshit!â
âdoyoung never loved anyone and you want to know why? because heâs too in love with his research to care for anything else!â taeyong felt bad to have been so direct, especially when he sees the tears now falling freely down your cheeks. âlisten to me, y/n! iâm not the enemy! if thereâs anyone you should be pushing away, itâs doyoung! he turned you into his lab rat! you are nothing but a variable in his study! donât you get it?â
taeyong grabs a firm but gentle hold of your head, trying to make you look at him straight in the eye for the gravity of what heâs about to say to you.
âdoyoung had his eye on you since sophomore year. i told him this was a bad idea and that he should change the topic of the research and he was. fucking hell, he was about to scrap the whole thing until your bestfriend died and did you know what that psycho told me? that it was a sign for him to continue the research! and iâve been pestering him so much that he moved out because he claimed i was going to get in the way of his discovery.
tell you what, if you can tell me right here, right now, that he has mentioned anything â anything at all â about his study to you then everything iâm saying is a lie.â
you have asked doyoung for the longest time about that research but the answers have always been the same. ânot yet, my love. itâs not time for it to be seen with your eyes. soon, okay?â
with a voice not louder than a whisper, you ask. âwhat⊠whatâs his research about?â
you fail to see the sorry look on taeyongâs face. âin psychology, they say a person only develops psychosis mainly through genetics or drugs. although youâre technically already a worthy âlab ratâ considering your mom and upbringing, he wanted to expand the external factors of what causes the disorder â grief, grades, toxic family relationsâŠâ
you hear a ringing in your ear and a sudden urge to throw up. only, you didnât have anything to hurl because your brunch remains untouched on your bedside.Â
âbut he hadnât been successful. and thatâs⊠thatâs where i came along. doyoung thought the medications heâs been giving you isnât doing what he wanted it to and he knew he needed a little push. i was⊠i gave him that push. remember the whispers, the banging on the door at night? it was all me. he made me do it. you know what that means, right? youâre not crazy. you donât need to stay here cooped up like some kind of pet, believing all his lies as if itâs written in a fucking bible ââ
he stops. and if he hadnât, you wouldnâtâve heard the familiar beeps of the front doorâs automated lock going off. doyoungâs home.Â
in lightning speed, taeyong has you sheltered behind him, throwing his warm coat over you in the process, hoping to give the smallest comfort amidst the chaos thatâs about to erupt. thereâs no point in pretending or hiding â one look at that lock and his crazy friend would know somethingâs off.Â
taeyong feels you flinching behind him with every heavy footstep against the floorboards as doyoung wastes no time in getting to your room. and when he finally appears, hands braced against the door frame, youâve never been this scared your whole life. his eyes are drawn into slits, fixated on taeyong alone. âhow fucking dare you?â
âitâs over, doyoung. give it up or you wouldnât have to suffer a longer sentence than youâll already get.â taeyong tried with his whole being to appear intimidating.
âwhatâre you saying, yong? i meant, how fucking dare you barge in here and disturb my girlfriend in her sleep? thatâs not very nice of youâŠâ doyoung sports a disarming gummy smile as he approaches, hand outstretched and beckoning towards you. âcâmere, baby. i donât think youâve eaten lunch yet?â
âdrop the fucking act, you psycho!â
âwhat act?â doyoung tilts his head innocently, gaze shifting from taeyongâs and yours, who keeps peeking from over his ex-friendâs shoulder. luring you out is a piece of cake unless taeyong decides to make things a wee bit more complicated, doyoung thought. âiâm just concerned for my darl ââ
âweâre leaving.â taeyong cuts him off, breaking eye contact as he places a firm grip around your wrist. he pulls you towards him, farther away from your supposed lover as he tries walking past doyoung.Â
but the said man pushes taeyong back with a humorless smile on his face. âand who told you that you can do that?â
a pregnant silence befalls the room as the two men size each other up. they regard each other with such hostility, you can't help but unconsciously fist the back of taeyong's sweater in nervousness, prompting the man to turn his head over his shoulder for a swift second to check up on you.
but a second is all that doyoung needed to deliver the first kick towards taeyong's legs, throwing him off his balance. if it was one thing doyoung knew, is that he needed to eliminate taeyong's agility all together if he wants to win against him.Â
but taeyong isn't one to back down. the moment doyoung straddles him on the floor, with a fist raised to throw a punch, taeyong grunts as he rolls them around. doyoung now receiving taeyong's rain of fists as he yells. "fuck you! you manipulative asshole!"
you sat on the corner, horrified of the scene happening before you. you've never seen doyoung this way. he has always been your sweet, caring bunny, but after everything taeyong said, you aren't so sure you even know the man you've been living with.Â
"everything i did, i did it for her!" you flinch at the sound of bones breaking as doyoung kicked taeyong's ribs. "she had nothing to lose! i saved her!"
the door is open, you noticed. wide-open and inviting you to make a run for it. and you would have made a run for it... but taeyong. you can't leave him behind, not when he lays there bloody and grunting in pain as doyoung lets his anger take over him. so, as stupid as may be, you did it. you had to.
"you didn't save me," you say, schooling your face into indifference as doyoung whips around, forgetting about taeyong in the bat of an eye. "you caged me in here, treated me like there's something wrong with me, gaslighted me into believing everything you said! and... what did you say? 'saved me'? you made me go through hell!"
the whole time, taeyong tries his hardest to stand upright, but his broken ribs don't allow him to. the pain too great that he had no choice but to crawl instead, arms pulling his weight as he drags himself across the floorboards, desperately trying to get doyoung's attention back on him even if it meant getting beaten to death.
meanwhile, he had his eyes trained on you the whole time you spoke, sobbing as you walk backward in fear as doyoung approached you with a dark glint in his eye. he doesn't like what you're saying; that much is very clear. he wanted to yell at you, to scream of your ungratefulness despite his constant care but instead, he says.
"i thought we were making progress, baby. i guess i have to drill everything in your brain again. you're not okay, but you will be after i treat you."
you try to fight the urge to look at taeyong as he finds his strength, silently rising up from the floor to ambush doyoung while he's so busy preaching about you.Â
"what i said is true, baby. do you actually think this scum over here is doing this to save you? do you actually believe everything he said? i've been here since day-1, my love. literally. and have i ever let you down? no. everything i'm doing is for us. even this damned research!"
taeyong surges forward to put him in a chokehold, but everything happened so fast, and the next thing you knew â
"did you actually think i'd fall for that?"
you didn't know the sound of a knife cutting through flesh could sound that loud, but nothing could beat the strained gasp that tumbled through taeyong's lips as he shakily held the knife pierced through his heart. you would've been concerned about how doyoung got it so accurate in one go or where the knife even came from. but you were too busy screaming, collapsing against the wall as you let out a broken sob.Â
"no," you mutter. "no, no, no..."
you can't bear to avert your eyes from taeyong as he lies dying before you. the look of fear in his eyes would forever be ingrained in your mind, and no amount of brainwashing or gaslighting would ever make you forget.
doyoung killed him. you lost.
the knife clatters loudly on the floor as he slowly turns around as if he himself has yet to register what he did. you didn't know what to expect from doyoung's reaction but certainly not the eerie smile that starts spreading on his face.Â
"now... how about that lunch, baby?"
â : a repost no one asked but i respectfully dont give a fuck <3
#hmu if i missed a warning#yandere doyoung#yandere kpop#yandere nct#yandere nct 127#tw swearing#tw manipulation#tw violence#tw knife
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soft spot | Bucky Barnes x fem!reader
summary: Bucky, the diner owner pining for the reader, a regular at the diner and best friend, for years.
a/n: i wanted to post a Peter Parker fic but i had writer's block until i came to this idea. it's based on a few of my fav Luke and Lorelai moments from Gilmore Girls combined into this one fic. i hope you enjoy! as usual, feedback is very much appreciated and my requests are open. (you don't need to watch Gilmore Girls to understand it)
warning(s): fluff, teen pregnancy, absent father, pining.
âCoffee, coffee, coffee, coffee,â you repeated, your chest pressed against the counter, an evil smile on your face. He turned to face you and placed his hands on the counter, the chanting stopped. You purse your lips trying to contain your smile.
âYou know it ruins your body, slowly corrodes your insides, and makes you die really really young, right?â he says squinting at you as he makes hand gestures.
âThatâs the intention,â you say smiling up at him showing your teeth. You both stayed like that for a few seconds until he turned around, grabbed a mug, and the kettle from the coffee machine. Still squinting at you, he poured the coffee in the mug and slid it over the counter to you.
âI really hope itâs soon,â he grumbles, throwing the kitchen towel on his shoulders, and walks (or stomps) back to the kitchen. You sat there, coffee in your hands, smiling as you took a sip.
The door rings open and you hear a familiar voice. âDid you get one for me?â you turned in your bar stool to look at the figure that walked up to you. The beautiful girl who you delightfully brought into the world almost 16 years ago, Leah.
You shook your head, fake-pouting. A grumble came from the teen, something you could very much relate to; caffeine deficiency. âI tried, I tried but Buckyâs in his element this morning,â you shrugged your shoulders, stretching to the left to see if he was still in the kitchen.
âIâm gonna get one myself. He likes me,â she turned to face the kitchen, chanting his name as you did earlier. You hear them arguing as you enjoyed the drink in your hand. It was white noise to you â the arguing, especially in Buckyâs diner. With him being the crabby man youâve always known him to be, it was basically daily routine.
âYou were right, he is grumpy this morning,â she said when he walked away again, this time to the back. âWonder what happened,â she said, shrugging as she took a sip of her coffee.
People in the town have always talked about how similar you both were; you and Leah. Sometimes it did feel like you were looking in the mirror and reliving your teen years as she told you stories about her day and it would scare the fuck out of you.
âHey, so birthday planning. Letâs go,â she patted your forearm, waking you from your thoughts, excited to turn 16. You sat up and giggled, feeling excitement running up your spine.
âOkay, so weâre gonna have it at home this year,â she nods. âAfter last yearâs event, I vowed to never again go to a Ms. Patty party,â you both shudder, remembering the massive drunken embarrassment you had to go through at your 15-year-oldâs birthday party. âBefore that, weâre going somewhere special, a surprise if you may. Then weâre going shopping, which thank god your birthday is the end of the month. Cause how could we have lux on your birthday without a paycheck. Weâve got a date with your dad, says he wants to finally actually give you your gift in person this year? And a massive birthday cake with your face on it by the one and only Sookie, as per tradition,â you yap, fast-paced.
âWait, weâre meeting dad?â she asks, cutting you off. You nodded fast, feeling the caffeine kick in. She smiled, looking down at her mug. And thatâs when you felt beat up. When it came to Christopher, it always put a smile on her face. Maybe they were right. You were alike. So easily manipulated by the one man in both of your lives, who is only always there when time and circumstances met his convenience. Something naivete and youth made Leah fail to realize.
âOkay, kiddo. Weâll discuss birthday matters this evening, itâs almost 8,â you picked up her bag, gravity pulling your hand down soon after. âWoah, wormie, what are you carrying? Bricks?â you teased.
âYou never know how much reading I can get done with all the waiting we do in school,â she whined after downing her coffee. She kissed your cheek and left the diner.
âGod, that kid is something special,â you hear Bucky say as you both watched her walk to the school right opposite the diner. You turned around looking down at your mug, Bucky noticing a frown on your face. âWhatâs wrong?â he asks, bending down to look at your face.
You looked up, smiling a little. âItâs Leahâs dad,â you scrunched your nose. You never talked about Chris with anyone in the town except with Sookie and Bucky, the name and subject a sensitive topic to you. Never saying his name as if terrified some sort of evil would be summoned. Your relationship with him was beyond complex. You were best friends before anything, you-me-against-the-world (or against parents and the rich community you were brought up in), you knew him like the back of your hand. You still see him as such but since you found out you were pregnant, it all took a different turn and it wasnât something you felt was right for either of you.
âHe called again,â Buckyâs voice annoyed, rolling his eyes. Heâd met him once and it was the most awkward, testosterone-filled conversation youâd ever witness. You snickered, knowing how he, as much as you, despised talking about him. âHey,â he touches your forearm with his leather-gloved forefinger. You looked up at him. âIf anything, you come to me,â you half-smiled.
Everyone in this small town knew about the mother-daughter dynamic you and Leah had. Hearing how she turned out great with just you raising her was something you heard very often, something you wished you felt through every fiber of your being. But you didnât. And Bucky knew you struggled with that, trying his best to remind you every time you doubted. More often than not, she reminded you a lot more of Bucky than Chris, since she grew up knowing Bucky more than her dad.
âThanks, old man,â you said, snickering behind your mug. He backed away from the counter, his grumpy face showing again. His eyebrows furrowed and his cheekbones prominent. He hated it when you called him that. He may be over a hundred years old but technically he was your age, he would remind you. âThere he is!â you cheered, laughing at his frowned face.
âYou have a problem,â Bucky said, taking the mug from your hand, and you slid the bill across the table. Still maintaining your gazes, seeing a small smile starting to form on his lips.
You were known by the whole town to be completely oblivious, seemingly being the only one who doesnât know how Bucky has been pining for you for years. Even from Mars, the love he held for you in his heart could be seen. He tried several times to ask you out on a date, getting closer and closer each time he would try but something always had to happen right at the time he wanted to spit the words out of his mouth. A coward, as Sam, another regular at the diner, would call him when he realized he'd been staring at her.
You did, however, think about dating him once after having a moment with him in the diner. It was late, and you wanted coffee after a bad date. Nearly kissing until Kirk came into the diner to get his emergency late-night burger. You brought it to Leahâs attention, but to that she immediately declined, saying it might ruin the best coffee in town for the both of you.
Saturday rolled around; Leahâs birthday. You woke her up at 3 a.m., another annual essential where you would tell her the infamous story of the day she was born.
âWhat do you think of your life thus far, my dear?â you brushed her hair as your lied down next to her.
âI think itâs great,â she yawned.
âAny complaints?â you asked, and she shook her head. âI think youâre a great cool kid and the best friend a girl could have,â you said to her lovingly.
âBack at ya,â she answered.
âAnd itâs so hard to believe that many moons ago I was lying in exactly this same position,â you looked up at the ceiling, flashbacks playing in your head.
âOh boy, here we go,â Leah said. You shushed her and continued the story.
When you walked into the diner, you were greeted by Bucky at the front door. You frowned at him, being too close to you, your hands hovered over his chest. He opened an arm to gesture you to a table by the window on your right. When you looked, your jaw dropped. He decorated the table. He laid a beautiful lace tablecloth, with a vase filled with flowers in the middle and balloons next to one of the chairs and Leahâs favorite; a rainbow cake, with a lot of frosting.
âBucky, what is this? This isnât you. And flowers?â you looked at him, eyes in disbelief. He shrugged. âThis is amazing,â you touched the table cloth, mouth agape. âThank you, Bucky,â you hugged him, his face red to which you were too busy to see.
He walked away, knowing your order before you could tell him. The Y/N Special he printed in the new menu. Leah came into the diner, you sat up and smiled as you waited for her reaction. âWhat is all this?â her jaw dropped as well.
âItâs all Bucky,â you shook your head, as she caressed the lace tablecloth. âWhere he got this tablecloth? No idea!â you leaned in, whispering loudly.
âBucky, you big ole softy,â she said to Bucky who came with your regular. He blushed when she gave him a hug, quiet as he walked back behind the counter. Your eyes followed him, still surprised by his adorable gesture.
âHey, remember what I said about dating Bucky?â you asked her, still looking at Bucky who was taking orders. She hummed as she gobbled down her food. âDo you think itâll work out if we did?â you asked again.
âHonestly, I think it will,â she said, cheeks stuffed with food. âEspecially after this,â she gestured to the decorations. âBut yeah, I do,â she said after swallowing her food, following your gaze to look at him.
It was the first time sheâd ever okayed a man in your life other than Chris. You both loved Bucky especially after what heâs been through. The grumpy demeanor he displays justified.
Lane, Leahâs best friend walked into the diner, squealing as she hugged and wished her. You stood up with your order and walked to the counter to allow them to chat.
âHey, Buck,â you said, seeing him clean his toaster. He hummed, his back still facing you. âWith your expertise displayed on the very lovely table there, could you help Sookie out with decorating my place while Leah and I frolic about town?â you asked, chewing on your waffles.
âYeah, sure anything for my best customers,â he said as he grunted, fixing the toaster.
âWhy donât you use your tools?â you asked, pointing at the toaster with your knife. Stopping what he did, he turned to shoot a glare at you.
âMy toolbox is sitting in your lovely home collecting dust because you could not and will not bother to give it back to me,â he complained. You snickered knowingly since you purposely brought up his toolbox.
âWell, itâs the only thing in the house that warns burglars that there could possibly be a man in the house,â you said melodramatically as you enjoyed your food. He grabbed the knife and fork out of your hand, your hands up in the air and mouth open. You placed your hands on your lap and sighed.
âFine, you can have John back,â you said. His eyebrows crossed in confusion and frustration. You had a track record of being stubborn and playful. Something everyone who knew you grew to normalise.
âNot every non-living thing needs to have a name,â he said, putting the utensils back on your plate.
âYes they do. I could tell visitors that John is in the living room sitting on the floor,â and you continued to yap Buckyâs ears off until you left to bring Leah on her birthday adventure. Reminding him that you left the decorations by the couch at home and he could use the key hidden under the turtle statue.
It was almost 1 a.m., Bucky heard a loud voice from outside, he dragged his feet to the window and opened it, sticking half his body out. Flinching when he saw a stone coming in his direction. âWhat the hell are you doing?â he shouted at you in your pjs, holding a pillow under your arm. He was wearing short-sleeved t-shirt, something you barely saw him wear.
âIâm homeless! Iâve got nowhere to go,â you shouted back. You heard a window open at the next building and turned to face it. An old man appeared out of the window.
âHey, would you shut up? Itâs late!â the old man with his thick Boston accent shouted at you. You looked at him and then at Bucky then back at him and burst out laughing. âWould you please get her the hell outta here?â the man said to Bucky and went back inside. He went down to get you, groaning as he walked down finding you, still in a fit of laughter.
âThe resemblance? Uncanny!â you said, still laughing as he grabbed your arm and pulled you into the diner.
You helped Bucky set up the mattress after looking around his apartment and teasing him for things he owned. Being friends with him for years, youâd never been in his âhomeâ above the diner before.
âWhat made you homeless tonight?â Bucky asks as you fixed the bedsheet together.
âEveryone else passed out drunk, even Chris,â you said. Shocked that you brought up his name, he fiddled with his fingers as he sat by his dining table. âIâm still kinda drunk. That name slipped out of my mouth,â you said, laughing nervously, sitting next to him.
âWhat did he do this time?â he asked looking up from his hands.
âSurprisingly, he was nice. He was a dad for once but he hasnât left so weâll see what happens,â you sighed. Bucky knew the reason for your uncertainty with raising Leah was because of Chris. The seed of doubt sprouted after years of Chris reminding you that you couldnât do it alone which made Buckyâs blood boil.
âAt least sheâs not pregnant yet,â you said, running your hands against the wooden dining table.
âOh yeah, I forgot about that,â he said. âYou were 16?â he asked.
â15 and a half,â you pointed out. âRuined my 16th birthday, my mother said. What a disappointment it must have been for my parents to have me,â you looked at him.
âCanât imagine anyone seeing you as a disappointment,â he shook his head and you sighed.
âYou know, Buck. Seeing what you do for Leah, I bet youâll make a great dad one day,â you mention, examining his face. His eyes looked sleepy.
âYou make a great mom. This whole town can vouch for that fact. For how young you were when you had her, 15 and a half? Every parent makes mistakes but you make the mistakes seem like fun,â you chuckled. âYou were never alone in raising her. The town has played a part in raising her with you much more than Chris ever did so I donât know what the fuck heâs talkin' about,â he says, a lump formed in your throat.
âYeah, itâs just the daughter part I, uh, I donât have down yet,â Bucky exhaled through his nose. You thought about a recent fight you had with Leah about the boy sheâd been dating. Something you brought up as a problem because you were terrified of possible outcomes. But you knew he was a great boy, Dean. Sweet, charming and a gentleman.
âYou looked great tonight,â you placed your hand on his, you felt the cold metal against your skin. Youâd never really seen his metal arm, always hidden under the sleeve of his leather jacket and gloves. His signature look, even in the summer. You stroked his metal hand and even though he couldnât physically feel your touch, he felt goosebumps form on his skin. Physical touch was never a part of your friendship.
He smirked, raising his brow and tilting his head making you roll your eyes. âI donât mean you donât look great all the time, you do, and,â you groaned. âDonât be cocky now,â you clicked your tongue, laughing, still smirking at you.
âYou looked great too,â his voice cracked, coughing to clear his throat. ây/n,â he called your name, his voice lower and deeper.
âYeah?â you whispered. His eyes softer than you were used to, finally seeing his blue eyes.
âWould you want to go on a date with me sometime?â he asked, eyes looking at your lips then back to your eyes. He felt his palm get sweaty, heart thumped loudly in his chest he swore you could hear it. Heâd always have the words play in his head but he never thought the moment would ever come.
You felt your cheeks burn, you never thought heâd ever ask you. He studied your face to predict what you were gonna say, cringing a little expecting a bad answer or a laugh.
âI would love to, Buck,â you bit your bottom lip. He let out the breath he held, smiling as he shifted in his seat. After years of pining, he finally got to take his favorite girl on a date.
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from home 05 || jjk & reader
title: from home pairing: jungkook x reader genre: richkid!jk, baker!reader, fakedating!au, fluff, angst, e2l, smut in later chapters word count: 7.5k+ prompt: jungkook is the youngest of five boys, the last in line to truly inherit any his parentsâ money. but what if his mom suddenly cuts him off due to his current poor behavior and heâs forced to learn how it feels like to be part of the working class? a/n: i was really excited to write this chapter and i still couldnât get myself to make it longer... :( i suck...
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Stating that Jungkook was 'on edge' is an understatement.
His palms and armpits were sweaty from the moment he arrived at your apartment to grab you before going to meet your parents, despite the amount of layers of deodorant he has on. He's never had a real relationship before, let alone met any girl's parents, and he can't help but feel something churning in his gut. "Good to go?" You ask, and he merely nods, suddenly bashful because he feels like he is definitely not âgood to go.â "Alright, let's head out."
The ride on the bus to your family home is only 30 minutes away, and truthfully, he has never ridden on one before. Walking to yours, Hoseok, and his home were less than 15 minutes, the thought of taking the bus being the absolute last thing on his mind.Â
Jungkook isn't exactly sure how he feels about the bus. The constant starting and stopping makes him nauseous; then the unsteadiness of having to hold the bars and handles throughout the vehicle all around seems unsafe. When there's an available seat, you sense his fear, nudging him cautiously, gesturing him to take the seat. "Sit," and granting he wants to offer it to you instead, Jungkook complies to the demand because he swears he's going to vomit.Â
After getting off the public transportation that he vows to never take again, you guide Jungkook through a narrow road, he notices the neighborhood here was more concentrated than the ones in Busan; tightly knitted with homes that stacked on top of one another, side to side, and back to back. People hung their clothes on lines that stretch from apartment to apartment, piles of boxes stored on balconies, and plants resting on the borders with owners sitting idle on their porches, fixated on their hobby of people watching.Â
Jungkook is known to be popular to the public, from magazines, gossip TV channels, social media posts, and the types continue on to the point that you couldnât name them all on your own ten fingers. People don't often recognize him on the streets anymore because he's unrecognizable in regular everyday clothes but today, he learns that you're the celebrity.
The people in their homes say their greetings, making comments here and there as you entertain them with a response back, laughter dispersing in the air. There's an old lady that lounges on the steps of her home, a smile stretched so wide that her eyes disappear, all with a blanket laying across her lap, knitting away. "I haven't seen you around, I assume your mother is having a dinner party for the kids? I see you brought a friend!"
"Something along those lines," you retort indirectly, nose snug into your scarf. "You're not staying indoors? It's cold out."
"My husband keeps the heater on the home too high, I sweat like I'm going through menopause like Iâm forty all over again, so I much rather be outside here. Anyways, I don't want to hold you up too long, but please come by for Christmas, I do have a sweater I knitted for you as well!"
Then there's a grandfather, another grandmother, and a couple who seems just a bit older than the two of you, and the list just goes on. Despite the whisper exchanges at the supermarket mentioning that you're intimidating, mean, and scary, it's obvious that you aren't or else you wouldn't be swooning the hearts of these strangers.
But there will always be an exception. Especially when the two of you run into a girl who looks close in age, hair dyed blonde with her lips painted fusion red. He could tell how curvy she was with how tight the winter coat hugs her frame, swaying her hips toward your direction as she eyes you both suspicious. "I see our town loser brought a friend."
"Mm," You nod, attempting your best not to amuse her, or else youâd be pouncing on her back by now. "Jungkook, this is Somin. A classmate of mine when I was in grade school." He bows in politeness, zipping up his jacket further while stepping closer to you. "Nice to meet you, Somin."
"Oh, no!" She gasps, a hand on her chest in exaggeration, completely flabbergasted by something he said. "Don't call me that. I go by Bella, since... you know, I am an American now. Being an American deserves the right name."
"You got your citizenship there?"
"No, but, I spent enough time there to know." She grins, shrugging her shoulders. Spent enough time thereâyou want to call out on her bullshit yet again, knowing she barely spent a month there before dropping out of school and coming back, but it'd be humiliating to mention that with Jungkook standing by, a stranger that she had only met a mere few seconds ago. "You said Jungkook... Are you perhaps, Jeon Jungkook of the Jeon Corporation?"
You furrow your brows. "How do you even know that?"
"Well, daddy invests in their stocks, of course." Fluttering her lashes, she manages to make her presence known to Jungkook as she moves in his direction. "And I saw his pretty little face in a magazine and couldn't help but admire."
Possessively, your hand slips into his pocket, intertwining your fingers together, causing warmth to creep up his neck and into his cheeks. "Well, great to see you, Somin. Jungkook and I have dinner plans with my parents."
"Whoa, wait, dinner plans?" Somin nearly exclaims, shifting aside to block your way. "Also, it's Bella, get that straight, will you? And why is Jeon Jungkook with you anyway?"
"We're dating," Jungkook interjects, clearing his throat. The words are still unfamiliar on his tongue yet he loves to flaunt them anyway. "I'm her boyfriend." He adds, tightening the grip on your hand as if Somin could see it. Her mouth drops open, unable to grasp onto the fact that you were able to land on a hunk like him. If only she knew how much knowledge of basic life skills he didn't have... actually, she might still have the same perspective. "There's no way. This is fake, right? You realize how rude she is, don't you?"
"No, itâs not fake, and well, kind of," Jungkook admits, scrunching up his nose at the thought. "But it's endearing. Wouldn't be as exciting if she wasn't always trying to banter with me, so I don't think I'd have it any other way. People mistake it for her honesty. I love a woman who can be true to herself and genuine with her words."
Just then, your mother peeks out of the front door of your childhood home, waving her arm eagerly, calling out your name. "Well, that's our cue. Thanks, Somin, for congratulating us on our new relationship. Hope you find someone yourself soon!"
"Whatâ" Somin barely finishes her sentence before you're zooming past her, tugging Jungkook along.Â
"I didn't know you had so many enemies," Jungkook says jokingly, a playful smile upon his lips. You roll your eyes before squinting them at him, squeezing his hand hard as he winces. "Now you know how little I care for them, watch out because you might become one."
Upon entering the home, Jungkook observes too many things at once. Your mother is in the kitchen, frantically maneuvering through the junk that your family has hoarded over the years, searching for whatever it is she needs for the task at hand. Your father sits comfortably on the couch, feet on the coffee table with a controller in hand, dozing off with a combination of quiet and loud snores escaping from him. As a family home, Jungkook believes it's small considering that you had mentioned previously that you had two other siblings. To think that your parents are still living in the same home they grew up in is amazing to him, knowing that his parents moved at least five times within his youth while you only stayed in one home.
"Uh, hello," He greets your mom, bowing as she places her hands onto his shoulders, shaking him in excitement. She looks almost like a replica of you, except older and much brighter. "You must be Jungkook! It's so great to meet you, I'm so happy that my daughter found someone. She's known to be a bit... cold, so knowing that you were able to warm her up means that you're definitely special!"
"You make me sound like a bad guy." You hiss before your little sister walks in, in the midst of tying her hair up into a ponytail. She resembled your mother than you did, a delighted expression that matched exactly the one your mother had on. "That's because you are, and any guy who dates you seem to run away once they find out." She halts in her steps when she notices Jungkook's face. "Oh my god, you're that model."
"Model?" Your mother reiterates, glancing back at Jungkook and then your sister. "Yeah, yeah, that model in the new edition of Elle. He was in itâhe's listed as one of the 10 most desirable men under 30. No flipping way, how'd you even get him to even date you?" She pauses before pointing at Jungkook with a suspicious look on her face as his eyes widened. "Unless... you need her for something. What's she offering? It can't be her body, she's not sexy... is it her brains? You heard about herâ"
"Miyoung." Your mother says sternly, interrupting your sister. "Just because Jungkook is a model, it doesn't mean that your sister is incapable of being loved by a man like that."
"Actuallyâ"
"Oh, hey. You must be the boyfriend." A taller male enters the room, his hair messy and lids hooded from waking up barely minutes before. He's still in his pajamas, a loose grey shirt and red checkered pants, but from the outline of his shirt, Jungkook could tell this guy was built. "I'm Daehyun, also known as their big brother. It's nice to meet you." Jungkook is in awe, hand extending to shake with Daehyun's. He knows he's straight, but even as a straight guy he knows a pretty man when he sees one.Â
Jungkook was starting to pick up as to why your exterior was so tough. With a younger sister who didn't have a filter to an incredibly handsome older brother, of course as the middle child you had to protect yourself. "Uh, yeah. And that's my little sister, Miyoung, who basically just attacked me for all of my insecurities within a minute. Thanks, kiddo."
"No problem, Unnie." She grins cheekily, seated on the high stool. "Did mom tell you I was back home from college for the weekend? That's why you're here?"
"Something like that," you respond ominously, hanging up your jacket along with Jungkookâs. Despite her preceding interrogation, sheâs chewing on her bottom lip skittishly. "More like she forced me to come. Well, she didn't say anything yet but I felt a guilt trip coming so I just decided that I would come instead."
"Typical," Daehyun scoffs, leaning against the wall beside Miyoung. He sneaks a glimpse into the kitchen where your mother secretly runs back into, resuming in her work. "She's been desperate to get us all back together since the two of you moved out. Remind me again why I'm the only one stuck here?"
"Because you can't find a job." Miyoung and you remind him in unison and he frowns. The interaction between the three of you is crystal clear evidence that you guys are related. "Well, geez, hurt a guy, why don't you? See what I have to deal with, Jungkook?"
With some time left until dinner, the four of you crowd at your small dining table, conversing away about updates in your lives. Miyoung is in University an hour away from home, residing there for an easier commute, and Daehyun stays at home with an ambition to find a job that fits his degree. Daehyun still dates from time to time but he admits that he canât tend to his needs because well, his mother is a room away, and oddly enough, albeit Miyoung babbles on about other things, sheâs silent about her love life. Neither Miyoung and Daehyun are able to hold a steady job, he observes, and heâs starting to pick up as to why youâre so adamant about keeping both of yours. Jungkook learns that everything seems to gravitate toward one of the two phrases from your siblings when it comes to finances and they are: âMom can handle it,â or âIâm going to let Dad do it so I donât have to.â
From what Jungkook can gather, your siblings seemed to have different outlooks on life compared to youâthey still depended on their parents whilst you were already hunting for opportunities of your own before Miyoungâs age so you didnât have to ask for money.
âAre you still upset with me about what happened a year ago?â Miyoung finally asks you, chewing on her nails nervously. It seems to be something sheâs been holding back from you, Jungkook takes a note of the way her eyes were filled with worry. âOf course,â You reply nonchalantly, leaning back against your seat with your arms crossed. âHow could I not be? But youâre my sister, so I canât actually be mad at you.â
Miyoung begins to tear upâ glassy gaze with her bottom lip quivering, in spite of the previous aggressiveness she presented when you first entered the house. Before Miyoung could get another word in, your mom comes in with a guilty expression on her face. She calls your name faintly, a pout upon her lips. âCan you and Jungkook go out and grab me a couple things before dinner?â
Jungkook canât get the question that Miyoung brings up out of his mind. In the middle of an aisle at another one of his motherâs grocery stores, your lips are pursed in thought at which brand of soy sauce would your mom like more.Â
âWhat was Miyoung going on about?â He eventually asks, but he holds his breath in case you decide to sock him for querying you about something so personal. Strangely enough, you open up. âMiyoung fell in love with my ex. He told me they didnât do anything but he was in love with her, so we broke up. I thought I was going to settle with him butâ guess not.â
Jungkookâs eyes expand like a deer in headlights. âYour little sister is dating your ex-boyfriend? And they were in love with each other during your relationship? I wouldâve given her an uppercut if I were youâ are you seriously still buying the banana milk she asked for?â Heâs trailing behind you as you lead him toward the drinks; your face brightening from the lights from the fridges. How could someone who lost their boyfriend to their little sister seem so put together in the first place? Was this was Hoseok was talking about that your men streak was horrendous?Â
âBecause sheâs my little sister. At the end of the day, I want her to be happy.â Throwing a pack into the cart, Jungkook continues to push it while following you, mind still foggy and angry about the situation. Here you were, with a guy who youâd fallen in love with to the point of considering settling down, then finding out heâs been in love with your sister... he feels like this is all a fever dream and isnât an ounce real. âYouâre fucking with me right?â
You look at him with perplexity. âWhat do you mean?â
âThis sounds crazy. Youâre serious? Miyoung stole a guy from you and youâre just going to be the bigger person here and not do anything about it?â
âWhat am I supposed to do? Throw a tantrum? Get in the way of their relationship that is obviously blossoming in a good way?â
Jungkook pauses. Was this what it was like in another family? Or at least yours?
In comparison, he perceives that within his family, outbursts were everything. Getting attention and being recognized for any wrongdoing was immensely importantâ he knew that if he stole a girl away from one of his brothers, he wouldnât make it out of the house alive. His mother, including father, would never forget it. The chattering would be heard through the grapevine amongst the housemaids, drivers, and employees of the company. Even news media outlets would dabble a bit into the family drama, adding fuel to the fire. He could never react the way you did, at least, he hopes he would, but realistically speaking, he knew he wouldnât be able to do it.
Yet, with you, it seemed simple enough. Sure, your heart was broken, but how were you going to be with someone who didnât love you back?
âIf you love someone, you let them go.â You say calmly when Jungkook doesnât respond back. âKeeping them around for your benefit doesnât solve anything. If he wasnât truly happy with me, I want him to be happier with someone else. And if that person so happens to be with Miyoung, what am I supposed to do?â
âBut... youâre not happy.â Jungkook declares with no hesitation. He recalls the time where you felt bad for him for not having the best upbringing, and heâs starting to understand the emotion that ran through you. âIâm happier now,â You concede, placing the last ingredient your mom has on the list for you to purchase, turning your back at Jungkook. âNow that I met you.â
His heart flutters at the comments, and heâs desirous about bringing up the topic of the kiss again. Jungkook resists the urge to because he could tell from the way your silhouette begins to quicken its pace toward the checkout line that you really didnât want to talk about it.Â
When the two of you arrive back at your house, your father is jolted awake. Jungkook greets himself to the elder man who only grins brighter than the sunâsomething Jungkook is trying to grasp where your grumpiness comes fromâ and instantaneously directs him to the dinner table where your mom has a ton of side dishes laid out with six place settings for you all.
During the meal, there was nothing but exchanging stories, laughter, and elation that swarms the room. If this was what family meant, Jungkook wanted it. And the more he thinks about it, the more he wants it to be with you.
Nothing is working out for Jungkook.
This week, the pipe in his apartment burst. Something aboutâ itâs winter and when itâs cold, the water freezes within the pipe and it expands the material, causing the pipe itself to burst, he doesnât quite understand how the whole plumbing system works, but he knows that he canât use the water in his apartment and has to go to yours and Hoseokâs for the week for a shower until the landlord can get it fixed.
Then, one of the deli guys called off because he apparently had the runs which meant that there was a shift changeâ Jungkook having to cover since whomever was working that day didnât have the skills to do it.
Skills? Jungkook curses underneath his breath when he recites that word in his head repeatedly because he cuts his finger on the meat slicer as he winces, calling out your name. Coming to his side, you pull out the first aid kit and force him to sit down on one of the stools, tying elastic on a higher point of his finger to stop the blood from gushing out. âYou alright?â
âYeah, I just... I didnât need to be put here, right? Someone else couldâve done this, I have no idea how to use a slicer.â
âI know,â You coo, wiping some of the antiseptic on the wound as he whimpers at the sudden sting. âThe new shift manager panicked, she wasnât sure what to do since the guy with the actual food preparation license is going to be here a bit late so she put you here. Not exactly the best plan.â After bandaging him up, you wash your hands underneath the faucet as Jungkook slouches in the seat.
Nothing really was going his way.
It doesnât even stop there. Unexpectedly, his mother calls for dinner but youâre on shift, therefore you wouldnât be able to attend. Heâs tempted to down a glass of whiskey on ice, his signature drink, but when he opens the cabinet in his kitchen, he falters at the image of your face. Would you be disappointed if you saw what he was doing? And Hoseok? What would he say?
Retracting his hand back, he immediately slams the door shut at the thought of the consequences.
Dinner is the usual at the Jeon residence. Father sits at the end of the dining table, the typical beige cloth napkin spread across on his lap while in his usual work attire, glasses rested on the tip of his nose as heâs ready to dive in with a fork and spoon in hand. Mother is settled beside him, pretty as ever and calm in comparison to the hell thatâs going to let loose in a couple minutes. The unknown? Who is going to blow up this time and who will they be comparing themselves to?
The answer? Jongseok and Jungkook.
Jongseok is upset to the point that he articulates every word with spit nearly projecting from his mouth to the opposite side of the room. The vein on his temple is stressed to the point that all Jungkook can think about is when itâs going to pop. âWhy are you guys always babying Jungkook? You realize the kid is fucking working at a grocery store right? And not just any grocery store, either, but itâs motherâs chain.â
âOkay?â Father retorts, forehead wrinkling in puzzlement. âIsnât he trying to prove himself worthwhile? Didnât he find that job himself, despite it being your motherâs chain? Heâs paying for his mistakes, learning basic life skills along the way, and even landed himself a serious girlfriend who can hold his hand through these tough times, since, after all, youâre the one who suggested we cut him off. If Iâm being honest, I think we should give him access to our funds again.â
A scoff of incredulity comes from Jongseok. Heâs a ticking time bomb in this moment; jaw twitching in frustration with the tips of his ears heated red. Even though heâs the target yet again, Jungkook is sober now, mind clear of the fog and the ability to defend himself for once. âI donât get it. Why are you even mad at me? Iâm trying here, right? Youâre the one who wanted me to get cut off so desperatelyâ and congrats, by the way, because I did. I had to find a job myself, one Iâm not a fan of, and Iâm barely making it by. I lost water in my apartment this week, cut my hand on one of those deli slicers, sprained my ankle on my way to workâ and thatâs only a portion of my bad week. Yet here I am, sitting at the dinner table with people who claim that they love me when youâre here flipping shit at father. What do you want from me?â
âFor your name to be completely off the will.â Jongseok finally says what he has been actually feeling unperturbedly, not an ounce of affection in his tone with a gaze that could pierce through Jungkook. âYou have nothing to offer to this family. Why we keep you aroundâ I donât know. Why should you have any portion of our estate and company assets when all youâre doing right now is working at the supermarket. Tell me, Jungkook, why do you deserve to be part of any of this?â
Jungkook hates how childish heâs being, but he feels like he has the right to. The flickering colorful lights and music booming through the speakers of the club are tuning out the words his brother exclaims at his parents, and the amount of alcohol passing through his lips are numbing the pain that tears through his chest. Your face pops up in his head; your laugh, your smile, and the comfort in the underlying messages through your tough loveâ he wishes that all of that was enough to heal the sting in his heart and fill the hollowness that his family left.
He doesnât remember any of these people sitting at this table with him, even though theyâre hollering in excitement that âJungkook is back again!â The girl placing a hand on his chest with his arm around her shoulder isnât you, but he knows that if it was, youâd be so displeased at how wasted he is. Honestly, this feels wrong. Nothing sits right in his stomach and when another pretty gal with her dress hiked up to the point he could see her thong from where heâs on the couch, heâs not even attracted to her. All he could think about was you, and that scowl on your face when he tells you about this night. He could hide it from you but heâs not going to lie to himselfâ if he wanted to improve for the better, it meant being straightforward and authentic. Jungkook came here to let loose because the events that occurred at the estate tonight was something he wants to forget.
Turning to the girl beside him, his eyes are hooded and vision is blurry when he asks, âWhatâs your name again?â
When her rosy plump lips open, she says her name but the voice that comes out of it is deep and oddly familiar. âHyeri?â Why does she say it like a question, and why is her voice so low? Just then, a hand clenches the fabric of his shirt, pulling him up and he meets the proprietor of the response. Hoseok.
Hoseok drags Jungkookâs weak and frail frame out into the alleyway behind the club, fuming to the point that smoke couldâve been whistling out of his ears. âWhat the fuck are you doing here? And with Hyeri, of all people! I thought I told you to stop fucking around, dude! I-I thought you knew how much she means to me. Out of the people Iâve partied withâ you were my actual friend.â He clenches his jaw before Jungkook could even answer, a fist tightening in his hand. âYouâre such a fuck up, Jungkook. So much for a friend.âÂ
Then everything blacks out.
His entire body hurts. His head is pounding, he can barely open one of his eyes, and his legs are so sore he can hardly shift on the bedâ on a bed? He doesnât have a bed. He has a futon but not a bed. Startled, he attempts to sit up against the bed frame, the other eye opening to skim through the room.Â
Heâs never been in your bedroom before, but the pictures of you graduating college hanging on the corkboard above your desk, concert tickets, Polaroids, and holiday cards thumbtacked beside them is all the evidence he needs to know itâs yours. Jungkook wants a closer look at them, he can scarcely make out the cute little smile on your face with your family in attendance in the picture, but when he puts weight onto his arms, he groans. Seconds later, youâre bursting through the door, out of breath and worry in your eyes. âAre you okay? Did you hurt yourself?â
âYeah, yeah, Iâm good,â Voice hoarse, he realizes how dry his throat is and you lean over to the bedside table to hand him the glass of water you had there originally. âDonât move, idiot. Youâre actually really torn up if you didnât feel it with all that alcohol in your system.â Inviting yourself onto the foot of the bed, Jungkook frowns after he finishes the entire glass, much more dehydrated than he initially thought. âTrust me, itâs gone now. I feel every ounce of pain. What happened? I blacked out.â
âNo shit,â you retort harshly, rolling your eyes at him. âYou were drunk as hell, but you didnât black out from that. Hoseok saw you getting all cozy with Hyeri and knocked the shit out of you. What happened, Jungkook? Why were you there in the first place? Did something happen?â
Reading the expression on your face, he fears for the worse but he doesnât see any hint of dissatisfaction anywhere. Thereâs no anger, no resentment, no frustrationâ none of that. Just curiosity smeared across, genuinely worried about his well-being. âAre you upset that you found out I was there?â
âI was mad that Hoseok called me to come grab you, at first, so kind of, yeah. But if youâre trying to figure out if Iâm disappointed in you, then no, Iâm not. Old habits are hard to kill, so I understand that youâre trying to cope with something. I just want to know why you were there in the first place and why were you getting all lovey dovey with Hyeriââ
âI wasnât getting lovey-dovey with Hyeri,â Jungkook exasperates, head falling back against the headboard, closing his eyes shut, interrupting before you lead the conversation into a lecture. âShe was just some girl that sat down and claimed a spot next to me. I didnât even know she was Hoseokâs girl.â Thereâs a pregnant pause in his explanation, and you donât break off his train of thought. âI... I went because Jongseok called me useless tonight, yet again. It didnât bother me as much as it did before, you know, before I met you, and itâs probably because I wasnât intoxicated or the fact that Iâm actually trying now and he still thinks Iâm useless. He wants me out of the will.â
âHeâs jealous that heâs the problematic child now, not you.â Making your way up the bed, youâre seated on top of the covers, settled adjacent to Jungkook. âIf it makes you feel any better, I think youâre way more useful than you had been initially. I usually do the dishes at my parentsâ house, mostly because Iâm the middle child, but you did it for me instead. I consider that a huge accomplishment from who you were before.â
As much as he hates to admit how warm and fuzzy he feels inside just from that small achievement, itâs a resemblance of the time when he was younger and won an award for being most creative in his kindergarten class. How are you able to lift up his mood so easily by just saying a few words?
âI⊠is Hoseok really pissed?â
âA bit,â you reply sincerely and apologetically, even though none of this had been your fault. âHeâs been in love with her even before I met him. She was all he could talk about, and I guess she finally gave him a shot, only to drop him a month later. I donât know much about her, but I know sheâs a gold digger from the stories he shared.â
Jungkooks face drops when his gaze meets yours. âHave you ever told him that?â You laughâthe melody that practically heals his wounds on the spot. âNo, are you crazy? Heâs blinded by love, Jeon, and any interference with that, Iâm done for, probably cut out entirely from his life. Have you never been in love before?âÂ
He wants to say that he hasnât, not until he met you, but you continue without expecting a response from him anyway. âWell, thatâs just how he is. You could tell him a billion times that this girl isnât for him but heâs never going to care about what I say until something actually happens.â
âI really care about Hoseok, though, and I want the best for him.â His doe-brown eyes are glossy, full of cherish for his friend. âAnd he cares for you too, Jeon. Just give him some time.â Quickly, Jungkook twists away, gaze avoiding yours as he clears his throat a couple times.
âAre you... okay?â
âY-Yeah,â He says, choking up on his own words. âHurts a little. Hoseok is strong.â
You furrow your brows. âHey, look at me.â He doesnât react. âJeon,â
âCan... you give me some space?âÂ
Pulling your lips into a straight line, you contemplate whether or not to listen to his words or go against him. Heâs been living in a home full of people yet still feeling alone, with no one to listen to his perspective on things. Maybe itâs time you change that.
Abruptly, you swing your leg over his thighs, hands cupping his cheeks just like you did that fateful night. He swore his heart stopped beating. âWhat are youââ Thereâs tears brimming in his eyes, you realize, with some escaping, trailing down his cheek. He sniffles. âYouâre crying?â Youâre stating the obvious, yet somehow it comes out as a question. âDonât cry. Why are you crying?â
âIâve never had a friend love me before, a friend who actually liked me for me and only wanted to spend time with me because of who I was, not who my family was. Did I really fuck up with Hoseok?â You frown, thumb rubbing against his cheek to wipe away his tears. Truthfully, you never really knew how to react when someone fell apart like this, but with Jungkook, it felt natural, the comforting. It mightâve been the sunlight peering through the windows of your room that made everything toasty, thawing out your cold heart, or it was just Jungkook. âMaybe. But I doubt he wouldnât give you a chance to explain yourself though. I mean, yeah, youâre bruised all over because he really beat you up... but, Iâm sure this evens things out. Plus, Iâm your friend and I love you too.â
He sighs, shoulders plunging with his hands creeping up to your waist unconsciously, tenderly steering you to sit on his thighs. Swallowing at the feeling of his body flattened against yours, youâre attempting to shake your head from the dirty thoughts. Jungkook feels at ease, detecting the words come from your mouth, yet he wants more. He craves for more, especially since that night in Busan and he isnât sure he can hold himself back anymore.
âI... What happened that night in Busan?â Lifting your weight off him, he only stops you by putting down more pressure to stop your escape. Despite being in an awful lot of pain, he still manages to overpower you in strength. âPlease donât avoid this. If Jongseok didnât come to our door that night, it wouldâve led to something more. I want to know, please, what does it mean?â Cheeks burning, you stare at the wooden headboard behind him, except Jungkook knows your next steps before you do because his finger is already on your chin, guiding your view back onto him. He doesnât need to say anything because the look he gives you says it all, tell me.
âOkay, okay,â You cringe, the idea of talking about this makes your stomach feel queasy and want to recoil in dread. âWhite flag. Iâll talk.â
âEnough of this white flag nonsense, just tell me.â
Belatedly gathering enough courage, you spill. Although your heart feels like itâs jumping through hoops from suspense, you realize that you canât hold yourself back any longer anyway. âIâm... attracted to you, alright? I mean, Iâm not sure how I feel about you 100% emotionally, because I still feel like weâre on different pages here, but I feel like I kind of like you? If this goes any further, I wouldnât necessarily be opposed to it.â
Thatâs... it? Admittedly so, Jungkook was hoping for more of a confession, something along the lines of, âI really like you, Jungkookâ but heâd have to settle for this. This was definitely a step closer to where he wants to be. âSo... youâd date me, that is. Thereâs still an opening somewhere.â
âI-I mean, I guess so... why?â
âBecause well, I canât stop thinking about that night, and I know that for sure that I like you.â He discloses. âAnd if thereâs even a bit of an opening, I want a shot at it.â
You scoff. âWith me? You want an actual shot with me? After spending time with my family, you want to still try to swoon me?â Thereâs a smile tugging on Jungkookâs lips; thereâs a blackish-bluish bruise underneath his eye, the side of his lips red and blotchy and the entirety of his body is either swollen or bruised, and yet, he still endures the pain to be beaming brighter than the stars. âOf course, you met my family, right? Yours is nothing complicated in comparison... well, maybe your sister. But for once, I feel like I belong here, with you, I feel like Iâm home. So, will you give me a chance to win you over?â
âDonât you think youâre rushing this whole thing? This... you thinking you like me kind of thing.â
âAre you going to keep wasting your time?â He blurts, a hint of annoyance in his tone. âYou wasted how long with some guy only for him to ditch you for your sister. What about your happiness, and what you want? None of this is fair to you. What if I could possibly give that to you, that happiness? Would you actually give me a chance?â
Sincerely, you didnât know what the relationship with Jungkook held and what it would mean in the future. But what he asserts is right with the things he repeats in Busan about being selfish for once replays in your head again, and you finally decide to take a shot at it.
Was it the high of saying âyes, okayâ to Jungkook or the painkillers he took earlier because when your lips meet with his, he feels like heâs floating in mid-air. Your tongue is wet and soft when it fights with his, and when his hands on your waist pull you in closer, the bulge in his pants isnât discreet, raging for attention, twitching against your thigh while your fingers knots through his hair tightens in response to your bottom lip suddenly tucked in between his teeth. The room feels steaming hot, especially when your hips start to move against his, emitting a groan from him as hand trails down to your ass to give it a harsh squeeze in consequence. His jeans from last night are still on and theyâre straining in his crotch uncomfortably.
This is escalating so fastâjust as quickly as his heart is beating in his chest, almost popping out of his chest cavity. Your natural scent is intoxicating, clouding up his mind to the point that he doesnât think he needs the alcohol to forget the pain his family has caused him anymore, because youâre mending the pieces of him together. Your hands trail down to his neck, tugging him closer before they wander down to his biceps, giving him a gentle squeeze that releases a wince from him.Â
Just as abrupt as the kiss, you pull away with a concerned and panic expression, with your mouth open in aghast. âOh my godâ I forgot you were still injuredââ As youâre trying to move back, you stumble on his legs and collapse onto the floor.
âWhatâ hey, are you okay?â He says, breathless as he leans over to check on you sprawled on the floor. Swiftly hopping back on your feet, he observes you clearly with your hair disheveled, cheeks tinted pink, and swollen lips. Thereâs a look of achievement on his face from the sight of a disoriented you. âUh, um, yeah. I-Iâm good,â Flustered, you push a strand of hair behind your ear. âIâm... Iâm going to get dinner ready for the both of us, uh, Iâm going to leave you to it,â youâre awkwardly gesturing his crotch before rushing out the room and slamming the door shut.
He can only laugh at your reaction. At least his week wasnât that bad after that kiss, right?
Jungkook stirs awake from the sound of chatter in the living room, voices familiar that he can associate them as yours and Hoseokâs. Unexpectedly, he sounds melancholic, the muffled sounds from your walls, almost to the point of whimpering mixed with your soft assuring words. He figures he should get a closer perspective of this, maybe enough where he can make out what the two of you are conversing about.
Heâs not far off from shrieking when he angles his leg too far, but he bites his bottom lip in prevention of any sound, eyes rolling to the back of his head at the torment. Careful, he reiterates like a mantra in his head, chanting it until itâs engraved in his brain. When he reaches the door, he opens it slowly and just barely, to peek out and see the scene unfold before him.
âShe told me that they didnât do anything,â Hoseok exclaims, face in his hands as his elbows are resting on his knees. âThat she chose to be there, and Jungkook was just lounging on the couch. That if anything, she wanted him to fuck her. Isnât that ridiculous? How could she say that?â
Youâre seated on the armrest of the loveseat, hand rubbing against Hoseokâs back soothingly. âI know, Hobi, I know. You mightâve been the right one for her, but at the end, she wasnât the right one for you.â
âI couldâve changed,â He emphasizes, spinning his gaze to meet yours. His eyes are crimson and swollen from his tears, restlessness fills in those orbs. âI love her so much.â
âWell, and you love Jungkook. Heâs in the other room, beat up and crying because he thought he lost you. He didnât do anything wrong and you tore him to shreds! Earlier when we were makingââ You pause, clearing your throat when you realize where you were leading the conversation, Hoseok raising a brow in confusion at the action. âEarlier, I mean, I went to check on him and he was whining in pain. You really hurt him, Hoseok, and not just physically either. Heâs both hurt emotionally and physically.â
He frowns. âI mean, I guess... I guess it wasnât his fault.â
âThereâs no guessing, idiot. It wasnât. He was honestly too wasted to even realize that she was sitting beside him. Poor kid reeked of alcohol that I almost made him sleep on the porch. But he wouldâve gotten robbed so... I let him stay in my room and I slept on the couch.â Jungkook glowers at the thought of you struggling to find comfort on the small sofa, wishing you wouldâve chosen to sleep by him instead.
âCan I... talk to him?â Hoseok finally asks, looking down at his hands in embarrassment. His knuckles were red, contused from the one-sided fight he had with Jungkook the night before. âI fucked up, and Iâm sure he thinks that he really fucked up.â
You hum for a moment before an idea pops into mind. âHow about... you go out and get takeout? Iâll check on him, prep him for your appearance, and then you guys can hash it out?â
You donât take no for an answer, pushing Hoseok out the door shortly, and a soft smile tugs on the edges of Jungkookâs lips before he lightly shuts the door and tip toes back into bed, pretending to be deep in slumber.
When you come into the room afterwards with a wet rag in hand and a bucket of warm water, his heart swells. Patting the towel against his wounds while seated at the edge of the bed, he hastily has a hand wrapped around your wrist, shocking you in the midst of your activity. âOhâ youâre awake?â He gingerly kisses the palm of your hand, heat clogging your face . âYeah. And, thank you. For everything. I owe you a lot.â
âIâuh, maybe youâll reciprocate this for me as well, one day?â You respond dubiously. âBut... you also might not know how to do it soââ
âAre you still trying to make jabs at me after I made such a sweet comment?â
âWell, Iâm just being honest, do you even know how to take care of another person?â You shoot back. âYou couldnât even get yourself back home, I had to be called and drag you back here myself, and my god, youâre heavyââ He hauls your arm closer, dragging you along with it until your nose is inches away from his. âCan I kiss you again? I miss the way your lips feel with mine.â Even when he says the words in a volume thatâs barely a whisper, his breath fans against your skin harshly, causing goosebumps to crawl up your spine.
The door pounds shut and before you can tear away from Jungkookâs hold, Hoseok is already standing in the threshold of the bedroom, mouth wide open in shock before it immediately fades into a mischievous grin. âWhat did I tell you, Kook? Which one was it first? You or her?â
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TEENAGE LOVE AFFAIR [ BTS ]
group: BTS
pairing: BTS x daughter!reader
warning(s): swearing
request: can you do BTS reacting to their 15 year old daughter having a boyfriend/girlfriend?
requested by: @mela3340
oomfggg this was so fun to make!! thanks for requesting the first request of 2021 :) hope you enjoy love <3
âïž jin
heâs literally dramatic af.
#dramaking
but no really, heâll be shook to the gods.
like huh??? his child got a partner?!!!
my kid?!!! IN THESE STREETS?!
he would faint, then wake back up and shake her til sheâs dizzy.
ok but on a more serious note, i think if he saw his daughter have genuine feelings for this person theyâre with, he would support a 100%
definitely wants to meet them asap
would chaperone their dates but in a way thatâs soooo clichĂ©. i mean ugly ass disguises clichĂ©.
will definitely have a heart attack if his daughters partner used the fake âyawn-over-the-shoulderâ move while at the movies.
all his daughter would hear is someone choking horrendously a few rooms behind them and instantly know itâs her dad.
will call the boys up every time she asks him to go on a date with their partner or if they can come over to hang and study.
âiâm at a lost here! itâs like iâm in the war!â jin exaggerates on the group call with his friends.
âhyung, i think youâre over exaggerating.â jungkook would say sheepishly.
with the straightest face, jin would hang up and contemplate his choice in friends.
after about the sixth month mark, i do think heâd let up a tremendous amount.
like heâs no longer breathing down her neck about them and allows them to go on dates without him, so long as she tells him where theyâre going.
10/10 is the dramatic dad that goes through a midlife crisis when their daughter starts dating.
âïž yoongi
mans does not care.
ok lemme clarify, he doesnât care to the extent that jin does. he trusts his daughter and her decisions and understands that this is an important part of her life. heâs gonna try his hardest to not overstep.
but deep down, he definitely is having a hard time coming to grasps that his daughter is in love and starting to enter the dating world.
he understands the pressures surrounding dating too, especially at fifteen. so heâs definitely giving a nice lil lecture about sex, safe sex, consensual sex, and commitment.
and yes, yoongi knows that most of these young love relationships donât last long, but he wants his daughter to know that her relationship is legit to him. no matter how old she is.
will look intimidating af to their daughters bf or gf. he definitely overhears them discussing if yoongi likes them or not đ
looks like he could kill you and will but is also such a sweetheart once you actually know him.
doesnât do no undercover brother shit but will follow his daughter on their first few dates just because heâs worried. isnât overbearing and keeps a good distance.
honestly, if anything it brings his daughter a lot of comfort to know her dad is there to back her up đ
100%!is the father that seems like theyâre chill on the surface but on the inside is working overtime to not be overreactive when their child starts dating.
âïž namjoon
is literally the đŻ emoji
when his daughter tells him that sheâs got a lover, he literally looks exactly like that emoji.
heâs like âlove? what you know about that?â
is extremely confused the entire time. yes, he knows that at her age, children start experimenting with dating but he never actually thought heâd have to deal with it.
was definitely worried that heâd lose out on daddy-daughter time once she started dating.
that was his biggest fear. that his daughter wouldnât need him anymore. she would no worries.
is deathly afraid of his daughter experiencing heartbreak. their s/o could be the perfect match for his kid, he still wouldnât care. namjoon is going to be worried regardless.
constantly asks for updates on their relationship to see if he needs to give any advice on how to keep the relationship going.
he doesnât see their love as something immature. namjoon values it the same way he would value an adult relationship.
which meansss giving them the birds n the bees. same as yoongi, a thorough talk on sexually transmitted diseases, birth control, safe sex, you name it.
was incredibly nervous to meet the person their daughter was dating đ like how you supposed to be the daddy but more scared than the actual date.
chaperones his daughterâs first couple of dates. doesnât get in their way but definitely makes his presence known when does attend.
has a strict âhave her home by 9 or elseâ policy.
wonât ground their child if they give them a heads up on why they would be late.
is 100% the type to be the âwork in progressâ dad that wishes there was a book on what to do when your teenage daughter starts dating.
âïž hobi
mans was like âawww my wittle baby likes somebody!â
was wayyy more excited about meeting their childâs s/o then what is deemed normal.
donât get me wrong, heâs definitely protective of his kid but hobi understands that these things happen.
it was bound to happen that one day his daughter would start dating.
doesnât hound his child with questions but is very curious to learn more about this bf/gf that their daughter has.
when he meets them, heâs very scary looking at first. switching into serious hobi, he intimidates the kid just a bit before breaking into a grin and letting them know he was kidding.
is the type of dad that would make their daughtersâ s/o fall in love with him đ
hobi gets along with virtually anyone so it wasnât hard for him to bond with the s/o.
however, he does make it known that he is a father and while the kid seems to be an alright choice for his daughter, he still lets them know that he will go liam neeson on a motherfucker if necessary.
doesnât follow his daughter on dates but somehow ends up attending some of them because they both want him around.
on the times he doesnât go, there is a curfew in place and itâs 8 oâclock đ
hobi is 100% the dad to become friends with their daughtersâ bf/gf but still be a force to be reckon with when needed.
âïž jimin
probably the one who meddles in their daughters love life.
sees their daughter walkout of school with a guy and is asking fifty million questions on who he is and if she likes him.
all for her to turn around and be like âdad, iâm gay.â
and heâs like đ„șđ„° âgood, boys are disgusting anyways.â
so now heâs scoping out girls that could be a potential match for his kid đ
âwhat about her?â
ânah, sheâs a little rude to me.â
âyou know what they say! she likes you!â
âno dad. just...no.â
was not expecting the girl his daughter chooses but can totally see it once he actually gets to know her.
is constantly giving his daughter cute date ideas for her to do w her gf. definitely has a pintrest board of places for them.
will happily be a chauffeur for his daughter if necessary. this can be good and bad. good bc yayay free rides. bad because she has to deal with a jimin that wants to be on time or a jimin that makes them ten minutes late to a movie showing. there is no in between.
he doesnât follow his daughter around. mainly because heâs always driving them but if he doesnât, she still gives him a heads up on where theyâre going.
doesnât mind them hanging sleepovers or leaving the door closed but will totally pop up at random times to be nosey.
is definitely in his daughters corner anytime someone tries to give her and her gf a hard time for being together.
a 100% the dad thatâs constantly involved in his childâs love life but not to an extreme point. is totally just excited to be there and apart of her world.
âïž taehyung
the motherfucker is all smug and shit talking about some â i know â đ when his daughter approaches him about her new partner.
lets be real; taehyung would know his daughter like the back of his hands. he would have suspicions that sheâs seeing somebody but wonât pressure her to speak until sheâs ready.
acts like the fbi when he finally meets their daughterâs partner.
is stalking all social media, finding where they work, who they guardians are, and where they grandma stay đđ€Ł
but itâs really because he knows how dangerous people are and the last thing he wants is for his kidsâ life to be in danger.
is definitely a hard ass to whoever his daughter ends up dating regardless of gender. will go major payne on a motherfucker real quick.
does not care if he gets caught watching out for his daughter while sheâs on a date. will deadass sit there and stare them down as they look at him, completely unbothered.
after meeting their partner a few times, heâll become a bit more loose in regards to their relationship but will still eye them wearily.
his daughter is very important to him and heâs just worried about any potential heartbreak she may experience.
âhave you ever killed?â
âuh, no sir. i-iâm only fifteen...sir.â
kisses teeth, âwould you kill for my daughter?â
*beat of silence, two horrified teenagers*
scoffs, âpathetic. d/n choose a new partner.â
âdad!â
seems like a hard ass and is a hard ass but itâs completely out of love.
is 100% the dad that gives their daughterâs partner a hard time and will hold such a passive face that theyâll never know if he likes them or not, but overtime will start loosening up and accept them for who they are.
âïž jungkook
he was thoroughly surprised.
like...she might as well had told him she was pregnant.
jk needed a moment to comprehend that his daughter...his precious jewel was dating.
just the thought sent chills down his spine with his dramatic ass.
immediately demanded to meet the person who stole his daughter from him. and when he found out it was the bad kid from school??!!! mans was heated.
i mean really? the juvenile delinquent of ALL people?
he feels this way mainly because he remembers how he was as a kid and he knows how anal teenagers can be. really just wants the best for his kid.
is present for their first date. why is that? because it was at their house with him sitting on the opposite couch, watching them like a hawk as they attempted to watch a movie.
after that, his daughter had a serious talk with him about personal space and independence.
jungkook didnât like the fact that he had to have this talk, but he understands itâs importance. him and his daughter have a sacred bond with one another that he doesnât wanna risk breaking all because of his overprotectiveness.
that overprotectiveness does come in handy though because their daughtersâ partner is always on time when it comes to getting her and dropping her off. honestly, if his daughter ever tried to convince their partner to skip curfew, their partner would text jungkook to snitch đ
âso...you tried to skip curfew, eh?â
âwha-? how do you know this?!â
smirks, âi see all d/n. besides, your partner knows not to cross that line with me.â
âi literally cannot stand either of you.â
this has definitely led the daughter to question if she has a relationship or if her dad has a relationship with her s/o.
after about three months of them dating, jungkook turns into a pretty chill dad to be real. at that point, he understands that he canât protect her from pain. so, he might as well just try his best to support his daughter through everything she does.
is 100% that is overly dramatic at first and comes off as incredibly scary but eventually comes down to earth and becomes a big teddy bear đ„°
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Hiii! â€ïž I have a request pleaseeee with Remus (young) and a hufflepuff reader đ„°
could I possibly be where the reader is super shy and always has their nose in a book, wallflower like but is in a relationship with Remus and one of the other guys upsets her? â€ïž
I absolutely love when a x reader reflects me personally like this! I would adore to write it ! I hope you enjoy.
paring: young!remus x hufflepuff!reader + platonic! with the marauders and lily.
warnings: angst. swearing. sirius being kind of an asswipe, m*dblood mentioning, panic attack.
You loathed potions, its was the absolute worst. You could have sworn Slughorn had something personal against you, especially when he had assigned permanent seats to everyone, after a rather eventful prank, obviously carried out by Sirius and James. That was unbeknownst to Slughorn, as nobody had come forward in who had slipped his morning coffee with tainted, dog haired polyjuice potion. Thus leading to an assigned seating.
You were perfectly fine where you had been sitting, with your boyfriend, Remus. He made you feel comfortable, especially considering the class was always so utterly loud. Many times you had wished to leave, the sensory overload being too much to handle at times. But Remus would place a hand upon your thigh, calming you down through the loud laughter that came from the rest of the table.Â
Not often were you participating in âThe Maraudersâ shananigans, but of course you had been pooled within the âgroupâ losing your seat next to Remus, who was now at the very back with Severus. You gave Remus an apologetic look as Slughorn continued to separate everyone from their tables.
James was forced to sit off to the side, closer to the front, making it almost impossible to admire Lily, whom sat near the back.
Peter was now sitting on the opposite end of the front, from where James was situated.
And you were situated in the middle table, with Sirius. Obviously Slughorn had trusted you enough to keep an eye on the rowdy boy, but sitting next to Sirius everyday?
That would be pure torture.
You loved Remusâs friends, because they loved him. But you had never really felt âapart of the group.â Half of that being your own fault, nose always caught in a book in any given social functioning that you had been invited to. Too shy to speak, or even play truth or dare. You sat amongst his friends, listening intentively to their many conversations in which you were never apart of. You enjoyed it that way, it was who you were.
But some days they didnât understand why you had been this way. Annoyingly so, they would often talk behind your back when they hadnât thought you could hear.
â She doesnât say a word to us!â
â What does Remus even see in her?â
â Shut up you lot! We should just be happy for him.â
Overhearing this had hurt you many times before, but you had always hid your hurt behind your kind eyes when assuring Remus that everything was alright. But this only made it harder to talk to them, you felt as though they hated you enough already, that the effort didnât seem like it would have been enough.
Needless to say the uncomfortable and overwhelming silence, and glances between Sirius and you was enough to make you nervously and slowly grab your muggle book from the bag that sat amongst your feet. Opening it where the bookmark had been, hiding half of it with your potions book, as you pretended to follow along to the lecture.Â
It had been not even 15 minutes before Sirius was tapping your shoulder and complaining to you, â Who does he think he is eh? Moving all of us.â You shrug at his words, barely picking your eyes up from the page within your book as he continued on.
 â Canât he take a joke?â You didnât feed into his desperate attempts at conversation, too scared to get caught by Slughorn, and too invested within your book.
 Sirius went quiet for a moment, realization washing over him as he came to the conclusion you wouldnât dare utter a word. It had been his final straw. It wasnât that he was angry at you, or particularly had it out for you, he just had assumed you were stuck up, perhaps even more than Lily had been, and then again, she didnât ignore the boys, she played along.
â Do you ever fucking talk?â He said this a bit louder than he had expected. And it stung more that he had chosen such a foul Muggle word to spit at you. You couldnât look in his direction, your whole body froze at his words. Surely it hadnât been that bad, he was simply frusterated. It still stung, considering the other judgemental things he had uttered behind your back.Â
â Seriously? What is wrong with you?â He spoke again, this time sparking you to stand up, quickly pushing your belongings within your bag, and rushing out. Ignoring Slughornâs call of your name.
You ran through the corridors, a panic settling itself within your chest as you searched for somewhere to be alone.
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Remus would have ran after you, he tried, but Slughorn warned him against it, threatening to take away house points if anyone else moved from their seats.Â
After class though, he rushed after Sirius, blocking him in the corridor, against a wall. â Bloody hell Sirius- What did you say?â He questioned, far too aggressive. But Sirius didnât hold back.Â
â Get- off of me-â He pushed Remus, only causing Remus to get more aggressive, pushing him back to the wall.
â Tell me Sirius!â Sirius couldnât help but laugh at Remus attempting to protect you of all people. The one that ignored them, that acted as if she was as odd as Severus. Perhaps if Remus hadnât been blind, they would bully you as they did him, Sirius thought.Â
Remus could see James and Peter out of the corner of his eye, James attempting to wedge himself in between his two best friends.
â Merlinâs beard!â He exclaimed, getting in between, â Get off of each other!â Remus stood back, still seething with anger, watching Sirius still having a playfully mischievous smile dancing upon his lips.
James turned to Remus, calmly, still in between them, â What has you peeved Moony?â Remusâs eyes landed back to Siriusâs form.Â
â He made y/n rush out of class!â James turned to Sirius, sighing.
â Padfoot- what could you have possibly said to the poor girl?â Sirius wasnât afraid of telling them, in fact he had wanted, no- yearned for months to give you a piece of his mind.Â
â I asked her what the bloody hell was wrong with her- why she ignores us like weâre bloody mudbloods-â That really set Remus off, but he couldnât help but to rush to find you rather than fight with his ignorant best friend.
âIâll be havin a fucking word with you later.â Remus spat at him, before rushing off to find you.Â
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He had searched nearly everywhere within the castle for you, it would have been much easier with the map, but it was within Jamesâ possession. He had no idea where you were, missing his other class in attempt to search.Â
He neared an empty classroom with caution, soft whimpering coming from inside, a cry he was almost sure had to be yours.Â
 Slowly opening the door, stepping in with the lightest foot, before calling out your name, ây/n? love?â You didnât call out, or make yourself known, waiting for him to come to the corner you had situated yourself in.Â
When doing so, he acted fast, wrapping his arms around you. Saying nothing, just rubbing his hands up and down your back, attempting to make you focus on his touch rather than the panic attack that washed through you.Â
Actions had always spoken louder than words between the two of you, and in this moment it had spoken volumes, as you shook and sobbed against him.Â
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This was really emotional for me to write and Iâm sorry it lacked of any fluff. I needed some angst tonight. It isnât too descriptive either, as I have exams next week and a project due in the morning but hopefully this suffices. Perhaps I could write a part 2 to this? Also I didnât mean to make Sirius act like such a prick, I just needed some angsty plot.
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Kinktober day 15 - Virginity kink
Please note that my work is not to be reposted or published anywhere other than my Tumblr or AO3 account without my permission. Reblogs are most welcome though!
Note - So anon asked for step dad Steve and I can't do that to Steve. This started out as step dad ransom but then me being me couldn't go through with itđ€Šââïž so he's supposed to be your stepmoms husband which still makes him your step dad, I think.
Dividers by @whimsicalrogers
Warnings - 18+ONLY! smut(m/f), dub conish, painful sex, unprotected sex, implied age gap, loss of virginity, bloodplay.
Pairing - Step dad!Ransom Drysdale x reader
Word count - 2.3k
Masterlists are linked in the bio!
âOh! Donât act like you care. I can tell you wouldnât give a shit if I left for an entire year. Iâm not one of your barely legal bimbos you can manipulate however you like,â Karen ranted on and on to Ransom. You didnât know what they were fighting about today - you didnât care to find out either.
âGod! Would you fucking give me a break? All you do is yap your trap all day long,â he snapped at her.
You looked at the main door, to leave your house you would have to go through the hallway where both of them were having their âlively' discussion, which you had no intentions to be a part of.
Karen gave him a deadly glare - which literally gave you chills even though you werenât on the receiving end of it.
She walked closer to him, until she was only inches away from his face, âFor your own good,â wrapping her palm around his chiselled jaw âdonât forget your place. You do not curse at me or yell at me.â
He didnât say anything back, simply holding her unwavering glare.
She looked at the stairs, her face instantly lighting up into a faux smile upon seeing you. âDarling, what are you doing there? Come here,â she said extending an arm to you. You walked down to her, she engulfed you into a hug, soothing a hand over your head, âMommy has to go away for a while, to Paris for fashion week. I know thatâs not something youâd be interested in.â
You shook your head. No, those events were a bit too stuffy for you. You dared to sneak a glance at Ransom, he was fuming. His jaw clenched hard, his face and neck flushed as he heaved. You werenât sure if that rage was directed towards you or your stepmother.
âFuck this shit,â he spit before leaving and slamming the door behind him. You cringed at the loud noise it made. You were relieved that he was gone, given what he had done in his impulsivity and rage, you didnât want to be around him when he was that angry.
âWell?â Karenâs question snapped you out of your thoughts.
âIâm sorry, what did you say?â
âYou better not be going to meet that Jack or John or whatever.â
âHis names Jeremy, Karen, and I really like him. If you got to know him - â
âI donât need to know him. He does not bring anything to the table. He doesnât even deserve to breathe in the same air as you.â
âA rich guy can treat me badly too. I donât know why you think I canât be happy with a normal person.â you shook your head. She of all people should not be questioning your taste in men.
âHis fathers a fucking high school teacher, honey,â she scoffed. âNo, I wonât have you dating a nobody.â
âWell, Ransoms a friggin' murderer!â you screamed. âWhat kind of man conspires to kill his own grandfather?!â
She had married him just months after he was declared 'not guilty' of not one, but TWO murders. Although, everyone knew that he definitely did it.
You begged her not to marry him. But she seemed to be completely smitten with him, besides she had never really valued your opinion or seen you as an adult.
âSay what you will about Ransom. But he has the name - heâs a Thrombey, he comes from old money. As annoying as he can be - heâs not hideous to look at either, I suppose.â
That was the only thing you might be inclined to agree with. You hated that some part of you was attracted to him. Even though, he was a terrible person. He treated âthe help', the people who raised you and cared for you as if they were beneath him.
He treated Karen like shit - which she may deserve, you knew of her affairs and the one French boyfriend she was visiting under the guise of business.
He was however, completely indifferent to you. He never got in your way, sometimes you could feel his eyes on you, following every move you made. Sometimes you wondered... if maybe... some part of him found you attractive as well.
You knew you werenât much to look at, especially compared to your stepmother, but then why else would he be staring so much?
Was he plotting to OFF you as well? To get you out of his way. Youâd be inheriting most of your late fathers estate.
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You closed the door behind you, as quietly as you could so as not to wake anyone. You got home a little later than midnight. You werenât used to staying out that long but it was one of your best friends birthday.
âWhat were you doing out so late?â You yelped as you heard his voice.
âRansom! Oh my gosh, you scared me,â you tried to catch your breathe.
âItâs after twelve. Who were you out with?â he raised a brow. âAnd what the hell are you wearing?â
âHuh?â you looked down at your bodycon dress. You werenât used to wearing clothes that tight but this one just seemed so pretty and perfect to capture Jeremyâs attention. âItâs Karenâs design,â you shrugged. It was provocative but classy and respectable which was your stepmothers brand.
âWhat kind of message do you think youâre sending dressing like that? If you want to be the talk of the town - â
âRansom, oh my god! Itâs just a dress and Iâm - Iâm a virgin!â you confessed. It wasnât something you were ashamed of - why would you be?
âWhat?â his eyes widened and his mouth gaped.
He had known you were a pretty little thing since the moment he met you. So shy and demure and pure. Of course youâd be a virgin. Like a perfect present waiting to be unwrapped.
You almost smiled at that. Stunning Ransom like that made you feel smug for some reason. âYeah. Iâm saving myself for the right guy.â you replied in a small voice, averting his gaze and looking at the carpet.
He took two long strides and walked over to you, before you knew it he had a firm grasp on your waist, pulling you against his hard chest. âAnd whatâs the right guy like, sweetheart?â
âSomeone - uh,â your brain blanked, having him that close to you, feeling his warm breath on your face almost made you black out.
He bent his neck till he was closer to your ear, âWell, donât lose it to Jeremy or whatever. He wonât even know what to do with a sweet thing like you.â
You gasped, trying to push him away but his stance was unrelenting. âThat is so inappropriate, Ransom! Youâre married!â
He grabbed at your failing wrists, pinning them behind your back, âDonât you worry your pretty little head about that. Karen and I have an arrangement. You ever been kissed before?â he asked, his tongue peaking out to kick his plump lips.
âWh - â you swallowed a heavy lump of air, looking away from him, âNo,â tears streaming down your face.
He chuckled, licking a firm stripe up your cheek, moaning at the taste of your tears. âWeâll fix that tonight, princess.â
You shuddered in his hold, it finally hit you. He intended to have his way with you. âKaren!â you screamed at the top of your lungs.
âSheâs not home, sweetheart,â he smirked, pushing his knee between your legs, âI thought you wanted this? I heard you saying my name while touching yourself. Iâll do better than your little fingers ever could,â he grinded his knee against your core.
You whimpered, scared out of your mind for your life and ashamed. Ashamed of being caught, of being aroused and getting more and more wetter. Your hips rolling against his knee to seek more friction.
âThatâs a good girl,â he praised, pulling your bottom lip between his teeth till it hurt and then releasing it with a pop. âIf you keep being good and take what I give you - Iâll make you feel good too.â He held on to your forearm, dragging you up the stairs towards his room.
âNo, no... not in your room. In mine, please,â you whimpered, his nails digging in the flesh of your arm. They might have an 'arrangement' but you doubted Karen would appreciate you doing the deed in her bed.
âFine with me,â he dragged you along, locking your door behind him as he pushed you down on your mattress.
He pulled his t-shirt over his head, quickly discarding all his clothes. You couldnât help but shamelessly ogle him. His broad shoulders, defined chest and abs. He was bigger than any boy you knew. Your jaw dropped at the size of his cock, slapping against his abdomen when he pulled down his boxers.
âLike what you see, princess?â he smirked.
Hovering over you, his hands tearing your dress apart, you feebly tried to stop him, âThat was expensive, Ransom!â
âI can just buy you another one,â he winked, rolling your panties down your legs.
You rolled your eyes. Yeah, with my own money.
Your arms flew up to your naked chest and mound, to cover up and save your modesty.
He growled, pulling them away and pressing them on the mattress above you. âThese better fucking stay here all night, understood?â
You were too afraid to do anything but nod.
âNever popped anyoneâs cherry before... this should be interesting,â he snaked a hand between your bodies, pinching your clit causing you to jerk away from him.
He didn't bother fingering you or preparing you, he knew you'd be tighter without it - he had about enough of foreplay anyway.
âPlease, be gentle,â you requested, looking up at him through your doe eyes, pleading him - you had never felt so utterly helpless.
He cruelly laughed at your misery, his lips curled up in a devilish smirk, âI don't do gentle, kitten. You'll take what I fucking give you - â he growled positioning himself between your legs, brushing his leaking tip over your chaste, untouched folds âand then thank me for it. Like the slut you are.â
You couldn't even begin to grasp or point out the logical fallacy of a virgin slut as his cock plunged into your heat, piercing through your virginity, splitting you in half.
Your back arched off the bed, you slapped your hands over your mouth to keep from screaming. It was painful, that was all you felt - pain. As he held onto your waist, his fingers digging in your flesh, his hips pulling out and then driving into you with an unrelenting pace.
You could not stop crying, or twisting your head from side to side. Knowing it was all you could do - he wouldnât stop - no matter how much you pleaded. You werenât sure you wanted him to stop.
He pressed a few kisses and nips to the crook of your neck, sucking on a spot as you held back a moan.
He propped himself up on his elbows to look down at you, your eyes and nose swollen, your make up running down your face - you looked more beautiful than you ever had before.
âYou look so pretty when you cry, kitten,â he cooed, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to your lips.
He kept driving his cock into you, searching for that special spot as you kept mewling under him.
His heart swelled with pride, nobodyâs ever fucked you before, heâs the first man thatâs ever seen you naked or to be inside you.
âDo you want me to stop?â he stilled his hips, âJust say the word then.â He knew you wouldnât.
You sniffled, shaking your head, âNo, keep going, please.â
His lips curled up in a grin, taking some kind of twisted pleasure in your misery, âYouâre something else, kitten.â
âOh,â you closed your eyes, your toes curling, your legs holding onto his waist as you felt your orgasm creeping up on you.
Ransom leaned over you when he felt your heat convulsing around him, pulling your earlobe between his teeth, âThis is the tightest little cunt Iâve ever fucked,â he grunted, driving each word home with a powerful thrust. âYou like that, kitten?â
All you could do was nod, the pain was well as much more subdued now but you were still sore and exhausted. âYes, I like it.â
âWeâre going to do this every night from now on.â
He pulled out fisting his cock over you - he wasnât going to impregnate his newest plaything - his white, hot spend painting your stomach and titts.
Your fingers swirled the sticky substance around on your skin, you were curious to see what it tasted like. You clenched your legs shut, your pussy still tingly. This was not how you planned your first time to go but you had no regrets.
You knew you were absolutely wrong to think so but being desired by Ransom gave you a strange kind of pride.
You gasped when you heard a click, sitting up on your elbows you looked at Ransom clicking pictures of your pussy with his phone.
âWh - whatâre you doing?â you tried to close your legs but he kept a firm hand on your knee.
âJust need a souvenir,â he responded, taking some more of his cum on your body and then putting his phone in his pocket. He swirled a finger around the blood on your inner thigh, bringing it up to paint the crimson on your mouth, âGo clean yourself up. Iâll be back tomorrow.â
You smiled as he kissed you, âOkay, Ransom.â
Even with your pussy freshly fucked - you couldnât wait for his next visit.
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PLAYING CUPID / 01.
SYNOPSIS / Consistently overshadowed by your older sister, you expect your days in high school to be filled with plastic smiles and apathetic peers with hidden intentions. Everything changes when four of the most popular guys in school join you and your best friend for lunch on the first day of school.
FEATURING / Kim Namjoon; appearances by Jung Hoseok, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung, and Jeon Jungkook.
GENRES & TAGS / high school au, freshman reader, senior namjoon, student council president namjoon, best friend jungkook, lots of fluff, and some angst.
WARNINGS / Graphic and mature language, slight age difference/gap (to clarify, oc is 14-15 yrs old and namjoon is 17 - first part is rated pg); list will be updated as fic is updated accordingly.
WORD COUNT / ~10.3k
NOTES / I am a day late in posting this and I want to let you guys know that this is... not edited at all and I will be looking through this every now and then to correct any errors. But I hope you enjoy the first part of this series! I wasnât expecting this to be relatively long, but it was all to set up the characters dynamics and the history behind the reader and Namjoonâs relationship. Any feedback is appreciated. To repeat, Iâm so sorry this was super late. Please expect part 2 to be up in ~2 weeks. (ÂŽïœĄâą á” âąïœĄ`) âĄ
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âYouâre Senaâs little sister, right?â
Youâd be a damn millionaire if you made a dollar for every person on campus tried to break the ice with you. It was a severe understatement to say that your older sister was known around town. She was vice president of the student council, president of the debate club, and the best player on the varsity volleyball team. All of the teachers and faculty adored her, every girl wanted to be her, and every guy wanted to be with her.
For the longest time, you assumed your sister was a celebrity on campus.
You were so wrong.
It was because you never met him. Youâve heard his name so many times whenever your sister had sleepovers with her friends or when she was on the phone with a friend, whispering so softly into the receiver, afraid that someone would find out about that she had a crush on him. You were perplexed because you thought your sister was a very forward person; she had so much confidence talking to so many guys who desperately wanted her attention yet somehow her palms would sweat over him.
âHey, you know who Kim Namjoon is?â You would sit at the cafeteria for the first time with your best friend, Jungkook, who had devoured half of his ham and cheese croissant sandwich. He looks at you and he would raise one brow.
âOh no, donât tell me youâre one of those girls whoâs obsessed with hyung.â But Jungkook sees the genuine confusion form on your face. You catch a glimpse of your older sister who sat on the other side of the cafeteria, thumbing a reply on her phone while her friend nudges at her when she sees the notorious posse that every girl swoons over.
It was a scene right out of a movie.
At that time, you had the faintest idea who they were, but you were quick to find out why they were so well known around campus. Jung Hoseok was the senior of the group; he was a dancer and was featured in numerous music videos by well-known artists and he had an extensive list of choreographers willing to work with him. Kim Taehyung and Park Jimin were inseparable; they were juniors who ran the school newspaper and the school yearbook â Taehyung being in charge of the photography while Jimin being in charge of the organizing the yearbook staff. Meanwhile, there was Kim Namjoon; student council president, valedictorian of his class, member of the honor society and numerous organizations on campus.
âWait, you know who Namjoon is?â You were curious whether Jungkook knew of him, not exactly knowing the guy.
âYeah. I mean, heâs been my next-door neighbor for god knows how long. His folks and mine go out for golfing twice a month.â You just nod to his answer when you are shoving a chocolate moon pie into your mouth.
But your mouth instantly goes dry when the four guys appear right across from you and Jungkook are seated.
âGukie!â Hoseok exclaimed at the sight of Jungkook still devouring his croissant. âLook at you! Finally, youâre with the hyungs in high school.â The tease made Jungkookâs ears go pink and you feel your own face get hot; not because of second hand embarrassment, but because you can see everyoneâs eyes on you â the two freshmen who had no right to be sharing a table with, what you can only assume, the four most popular guys on campus.
There were many times where people would only want to get to know you because of your sister; girls wanted to get close to you because you were had a cool older sister and boys wanted to be with you because they were so eager to come over to your place and obsess over Sena.
Jungkook, on the other hand, had no interest in her. As a matter of fact, you met Jungkook when you were in middle school and took a swimming class and later found out that you two were in the same class and bonded over your competitive nature in swim class.
âWhoâs this? You got a girlfriend on your first day already?â You and Jungkook exchange a look of disgust with each other and create a sensible amount of space for each other to establish that you both see each other as friends.
âOh my god, wait â youâre Senaâs little sister, right?â Hoseok corrected Jimin who had made the assumption you and Jungkook were an item. Jungkook can see the way you scrunch your nose from his periphery, and he decides to answer for you instead.
âThis is YN. Sheâs⊠literally been my best friend since middle school.â Jungkook introduces you to the four people right across from you. âYN, this is Hoseok â well, I call him Hobi-hyung. This is Jimin-hyung and Tae-hyung. Iâm pretty sure you know Namjoon-hyung because ââ
â â school council president.â You interrupt because you didnât want Jungkook to reveal that you had been inquiring about him earlier. âI remember because you made that welcome speech this morning at the assembly.â
Namjoon is rubbing the back of his neck in embarrassment and you resume eating your packed lunch, despite losing all appetite because you are surrounded by so many people did not know. They werenât terrible people, but you werenât mentally prepared for such strong personalities and dynamics to be introduced all at once. You felt like an intruder â a fly on the wall â because everyone carried on with their normal conversations; Jungkook and Hoseok were talking about plans for the weekend and then Jimin and Taehyung were already drafting out ideas for the yearbook. Meanwhile, you sat in silence as you ate your tuna salad sandwich, reading a new book you were gifted over the summer by your parents.
âLet me know when youâre done.â A voice catches your attention, and you stop all chewing. âThe book, I mean.â Namjoon clarifies and he sees that you are already halfway done with it. âI read it a year ago and Iâd like to hear what you think of it.â He offers you a heartwarming smile and you nod once, returning the same grin.
âI started it a week ago. I really like it so far.â The conversation is light and drowned out by the loud voices beside you.
You never really pinned him as a reader.
âSo, howâs your first day so far?â He inquires and you honestly thought that the conversation was⊠over. Normally, thatâs how all the conversations go when people find out your Senaâs little sister. They feign their interest in you and instantaneously ask about her.
âItâs⊠nothing special.â You admit, smoothing your fingers on the pages of the book. âMost of the classes I have before lunch, Gukâs with me. Now ââ
âNow, her large, wrinkled brain is going to abandon me and get into those advanced program and honors classes.â You are rolling your eyes at your best friend who whines that you decided not to take the same classes as him.
âWe literally have homeroom, social studies, and PE together and then we see each other for breaks and lunch. I think youâll live.â The group laughs which earns quite a bit of stares from outsiders, but they seem to be completely unfazed by it. Everyone turns back to their own conversations and, usually, your social presence isnât necessarily sought out by people.
It wasnât until you hear another inquiry fall out of Namjoonâs mouth.
âWhat do you have right after lunch?â
âBiology.â
âHonors biology, by the way. Canât you spare just one regular class for me? Or does your GPA really matter that much to you?â Jungkook complains and you are left ignoring his comments.
If there was one thing that your older sister taught you (something you actually agree with) is that colleges love a good GPA and joining as many clubs as possible. You even remembered how sheâd phrase it for you; college admissions officers will cream their pants when you score that 4.0 GPA and do something out of the box from the rest of your peers.
âOr just get smarter, Guk.â Hoseok poked fun at Jungkook, earning a shrug from Jungkook. Namjoon, on the other hand, is smiling from ear to ear at the dynamic between the elder and the youngest of the group.
âLet me see your schedule.â Namjoon urges as he spots your clear binder which has your printed schedule on the cover. You push over your binder to Namjoon who is scanning your binder; he reads through your name, your birth date, the list of teachers you had for the semester and the classes assigned to you.
You feel indifferent about the sudden attention on you, especially from Namjoon; a mere stranger who everyone obsessed over was so piqued by you. You observe the way the corner of his slips curve into an impressive smirk as he glances over at Hoseok.
âGuess who we have for calculus at the end of the day?â He slides over your binder where the rest of the group examine the rest of your schedule, only for Hoseok to find a coinciding class with you.
âHow the fuck are you in a seniorâs class? Are you some math whiz or something?â Taehyungâs eyes widen at the sight of an advanced calculus class on your schedule. It was one of the things you were proud of you; you were good at math â it happened to be Senaâs worst subject and your parents often joke what she lacked; you had gained immensely.
âYeah, YNâs cracked, hyung. I donât understand. I remember in middle school they had to make arrangements for her to get into a pre-caclulus class or some shit like that.â Jungkook finishes his fruit cup and gathers all of the trash on site to toss over to the closest garbage bin.
Namjoon is sliding your binder right back at you, brows raised at you with the same grin he had on. He stares at you for what seemed like a long time â to you, it seemed like a long time and he is glancing back down at where your fingers brush against each other and he pulls away, not wanting to make you feel uncomfortable.
âI â um, saw that you were taking orchestra too.â
You nod and chew on your cheek, self-conscious all of a sudden about your appearance because you are very much aware that Namjoon is examining every aspect of your face.
âYeah. I mean, I already know how to play the piano, so I might as well learn how to play another instrument, right?â
âNo â yeah, youâre right.â He stammers and he folds his hands together only to be interrupted by Jimin tossing over a bag of pretzels at Namjoon.
âBellâs about to ring. Pretzels was all they had left. We need to head to physics soon.â Taehyung and Jimin are swinging their bags over their shoulders. Hoseok is too busy on his phone, showing Jungkook a video of his new choreography.
Suddenly, you are receiving a plethora of notifications in the depths of your jean pocket. Your fingers unlock your phone only to reveal a series of text messages from your sister.
Sena [12:29]: Did you just spend your entire lunch with Kim Namjoon?
Sena [12:32]: Earth to YN?
Sena [12:39]: GUK IS FRIENDS WITH ALL 4 OF THEM.
Sena [12:41]: You have officially made a fucking impression to this school. Iâm so proud of you. Youâre sitting with us at lunch tomorrow.
âGuess Iâll see you later, YN.â The bell doesnât descend you back to reality. Instead, it was his voice that brings you to pack up your things into your bag. âYou might want to sit at the back for Mr. Luâs biology class; heâs a spitter.â Namjoon swings his backpack over his shoulder. âHe reuses the same lesson plan every year. If you need any help with them, you know who to look for.â
As youâre swinging your own bag, Namjoon leaves you with a wink as he is exiting the doors of the cafeteria into the school hallways.
Now, you understand why the entire world was obsessed with Kim Namjoon.
âAlright, letâs get started,â Mrs. Kang, your calculus, is a middle-aged woman who didnât look like she had aged past thirty. You found it incredibly hard to believe the woman was nearly in her mid-forties who had three kids of her own. She looked like a stern woman but had a good heart from what you remembered; she only wanted what was best for the class even though it meant tormenting them with a shit ton of homework. âI donât need to go over the syllabus with you bunch. As you can see, this is a much smaller class than a regular class because not a lot of people pass this class.â
Silence fills the room from when you had first arrived. You were one of the last few people to find your seat because your class was all the way on the other side of campus. It seemed like everyone in your class were juniors or seniors. There were so many of them who knew each other from previous classes; they were all huddled in their own designated spots in the class, so you sat at the front of the class because all the seats at the back had been taken and it may help that youâre at the front because itâll force you to pay attention.
âThereâs a lot of material to cover and thereâs only so much I can do. Since weâve implemented the new block schedule, weâll only be seeing each other for an hour and a half every Wednesdays and Fridays. First thirty minutes will be on new material, next thirty minutes will be spent on practice problems, and then the last thirty minutes will be working with your partner on getting your homework started. Iâve figured getting a head start on the homework for the last thirty minutes will be helpful just in case you or your partner are lost, you have me to ask for assistance.â
Someoneâs hand raises up in the air out of your periphery.
Mrs. Kang points to them. âYes, Namjoon?â
âHow do we determine who are partners will be?â
âPlease tell me we get to pick our partners.â Mrs. Kang is already turning her back to the class as she searches for a box that had been hidden behind her computer monitor only for her shake the contents of the box.
âThe last time I gave the students the opportunity to choose who their partner was, Iâve written a disciplinary notice for academic dishonesty twice a week.â Mrs. Kang prefaced, and the room goes silent. As she continues ruffling through folded papers inside the wooden box, you are already aware of how the partner system is going to work.
Everything was going to be randomly assigned.
âWe have 26 of you total which means there will be 13 pairs.â Mrs. Kang announces, and she walks around the class starting from the left where the person is picking a folded paper out of the box. Each person who had unfolded their paper sat patiently until Mrs. Kang had completed distributing the paired assignments around the room. She is fetching a pen and paper as she sits on her desk.
âAlright, our first pair is ââ Mrs. Kang looks up to see two people raise their hands; it had been Hoseok and a girl with the prettiest bangs named Mimi. Mrs. Kang continued jotting down the pairs until you scanned the number on your own paper; a large 12 inscribed on your already tattered paper.
You hear Mrs. Kangâs voice as she calls out for the twelfth pair and you raise your hand. You donât see anyone in your periphery raise their hands, so you turn your body around to search for your partner.
Your body turns cold and still, but you can feel your cheeks get warm at the sight of Namjoon seated down at the back with Hoseok with his hands raised, revealing that he had pulled the same number as you. The thumping in your heart is loud and it beats hard as each moment passes.
Both your hands lower and you are trying to turn your attention back to the front of the class where your teacher stood, but you can feel his eyes on you. You remembered scolding yourself, unaware of why you were so nervous and so shocked to be his partner â he saw you nothing more than another classmate; someone to help him with his assignments.
âPerfect! Since we have our pairs, everyone will be sitting next to their partner from now on; I donât care where itâll be. I just need you to sit with them, so weâre not scrambling at the last thirty minutes of class to find them.â Mrs. Kang says sternly, clearly not wanting to waste time in this class. âShall we begin?â
âHow do you already have so much shit to do?â Jungkook laid comfortably on your bed, shoving down salt and vinegar potato chips that your parents had bought from the store last weekend. âDo you like never take a break from reading or what?â
âItâs just a really interesting book.â You say as you flip through the next page and bite into an apple.
You two laid on your bed, basking in the afternoon sun. Normally, you two didnât have this much down time. Last summer, you two volunteered to be camp counselors to lessen the boredom you two would endure. It was either that or spending every goddamn weekend on the golf course with Jungkookâs parents and yours.
âI was thinking of trying out for the track & field team.â Jungkook informs you and you resume reading. âNamjoon-hyung tells me that the team runs right after school and it sounds fun. Events are early though, and we all know Iâm not an early riser.â
The mention of Namjoon urged you to reminisce back to your last period that day. Mrs. Kang mentioned that she wasnât going to let the class immediately sit right next to their homework partner â thank god. You just wouldnât know what to talk about with him; you donât really know what to talk about with people because they always somehow led the conversation back to your older sister.
But, at the end of class, he did manage to keep up with you as you hastily packed all your items into the bag before you darted outside of the classroom. You planned on walking home with Jungkook and you two would meet at the front of the school. Namjoon, somehow, caught up to you in time.
He had grabbed your arm and greeted with you with his million-dollar smile. âHey,â He breathes, and you stop to offer him a meeker and shier smile.
âHi, whatâs up?â
âYouâre meeting with Guk?â
You give him a single nod before he hands you two pieces of paper. Youâre curious as to what they are, and you see the words parentâs consent form along with the health forms to give to a doctor â for a physical.
âHeâll know what theyâre for.â He reassured you and you hold onto the forms. âThanks for that. I have to go; I have a meeting in five minutes with the student council.â
âIâll be sure to give it to him. Was there anything else you wanted to tell him?â
He shakes his head, and he starts reversing his steps, clutching onto the straps of his bags. âI â um, Iâm really looking forward for calculus â you know, the whole partner thing. I must be really lucky to be partnered with a cracked, math whiz like you.â
Now, youâre blushing because you werenât really sure if you were supposed to be flattered or offended.
And he read you so well because he is suddenly panicking but he hid it. He stops his reverses, and he takes one step closer to you.
âIâll see you and Guk at lunch tomorrow, if thatâs alright?â He hums; his voice sounded so soft and clear to you â no one can hear a single thing he had said to you, but you heard him bright as day. Suddenly, you feel a grin creep up to your mouth and you nod once. You had regained some of your confidence back and Namjoon can see it. âCool, well, Iâll see you âround, YN.â
âEarth to YN.â Jungkook snaps at you and you pay attention to your friend who is lying next to you. âDid you hear a single thing I said?â
âSorry âbout that. I dozed for a couple minutes.â You admit and he scrunches his brows, dismissing your moment of silence.
âI was asking how it was like to be in a class of seniors.â
âThereâs no difference, honestly.â You begin your thought. âIt sucks just because I donât really know anyone, and everyone knows everyone.â
âYeah, but you have Namjoon-hyung and Hobi-hyung.â Jungkook reassures you. âTheyâre basically your friends now because weâll be hanging around them a lot.â
You werenât sure if you were looking forward to or nervous to be spending a lot more time with the older guys. They made a good first impression on you though; theyâve probably only mentioned your sisterâs name once. Granted, it was only thirty minutes spent together, but it was so much better than most of the conversations youâve had with everybody else.
âThatâs true. I have Namjoon as my homework partner, so Iâll⊠definitely need to get along with him.â You chuckle under your breath as you read through each line without comprehending a single thing. Your mind had been so clouded with the idea of Namjoon and you werenât sure why.
Jungkook decided not to stay for dinner that evening even though mom made two pans of lasagna to feed a village. However, he did help you and your mother prepare it. Your mom was pretty insistent on it, so you promise that youâd be giving him some leftovers for lunch the next day. Your dad arrived home next; it was a typical evening â he beelined to your mom, planted a kiss on her cheek and patted your back before he hastily moved to the office to continue working. Sena arrived home from school at a later hour than usual before she was already setting the plates on the dining table.
âAlright, Guk, final offer.â Your mother says as she is pulling out two piping pans of lasagna out of the oven.
âNo, thanks, Mrs. LN.â He respectfully declines before he is swinging his backpack over his shoulder. âMomâs expecting me home right about now for dinner. Iâll definitely ask YN to pack me up some leftovers though.â
âAlright.â She waves him a goodbye before you are showing him to the door. âWalk home safely.â She bids him a goodbye softly as she pulls the foils off the pan.
âPack me an extra serving, please.â Jungkook pleads and you roll your eyes before he already made his way out of the door.
âHoney, dinnerâs ready!â
âYou did not tell me Jungkook was friends with Namjoon.â Sena settles herself on the dining table and you sit right across from her, waiting for your mom to begin serving everyone a slice of lasagna.
âQuite frankly, I didnât know Jungkook even knew Namjoon either. Iâd say Iâm just as surprised as you are, but I really donât know what the fascination is with Namjoon.â You lied through your teeth as your mom serves herself first (she called dibs on the corner piece) and you decide on getting the smallest piece since you werenât so hungry that evening.
âAre you talking about Mr. and Mrs. Kimâs son? Is this the same Namjoon weâre talking about right now?â Your momâs curiosity is evident in her tone, taking small bites out of a side salad she had prepared.
âYes, and Sena is hopelessly in love with him.â You shove the lettuce into your mouth as you wait for your lasagna serving to cool down momentarily.
âHow can you not be in love with him?â She breathes out hastily. Your dad has his brows raised in disbelief; his daughter talking endlessly about her crush.
âHe is a nice boy; responsible, kind, gentle, polite, seems to get things done, really cute too.â Your mom lists his never-ending advantages, and you stray away from their eyes because you hate the admit that you find him incredibly cute.
âCan we please talk about something other than this boy?â Your father is already exhausted from listening to you talk about Namjoon and you donât blame him, really. âHow was the first day for you, dear?â He refers to you and you are still chewing on your dinner.
âI have three classes with Guk. I like all of my classes so far; I can already tell calculus is going to be⊠a lot of work. We have a test every week and we mandatory study sessions after school for the exam to qualify for college credits. Thankfully, I have a partner to work with just in case I donât understand anything. Thereâs also ââ
âWhoâs your partner? Maybe I know them.â
Your silence is defeating, and you look at your dad who is waiting for his answer and you dart your eyes back at Sena who is piecing the puzzle in her head, so she drops her mouth open, gasping at your lack of a response.
âNo fucking way!â
âLanguage, please, Sena.â Your mom scolds.
âI mean, youâve been in the same classes as him before! Iâm sure youâve been in a group project with him or something. You guys are in the same clubs. I donât understand why you havenât asked him out.â You werenât so sure what motivated you to blurt it all out because your sister was definitely a good catch, but the obsession with him was getting way out of hand.
âThatâs ridiculous, YN. I would never ask out a guy. I donât even know he likes me that way.â Sena is taking small bites out of her dinner and you sigh to yourself, chewing on the inside of your cheek. âIf there was only a way for me to find out. Itâs not like I have a sister whoâs partners with him in a class â oh, sheâs also best friends with his next-door neighbor! How convenient.â
She eyes at you where you decide to focus on your meal, but her eyes are pleading and desperate.
âI⊠am completely eliminating myself from this predicament, Sena. If you want to ask him out for yourself, you should do it. Besides, who wouldnât like you? Youâre amazing.â Your voice is sincere and genuine, and you hope she pushes all of her fears and insecurities to the side to do something about her feelings.
âIt would just be so much easier if I knew if he thought I was cute or something.â
âEveryone thinks youâre cute.â
âThatâs not the point, YN. Listen, how âbout this? You donât even have to drop my name in there; just ask what his ideal girl is like or something⊠or let Guk do the work! Iâm sure he already knows the answer. Just help a girl out, please, YN.â You sigh defeated because your sister was really good at convincing.
It wasnât really hard to figure out what type of girl Namjoon was interested in or⊠if he was interested in girls. All of this was easier said than done and you were going to rely on Jungkook a lot on this.
âIâm not going to prioritize this.â You surrender and she is giddy in her seat.
âYN, you are the best sister anyone could ask for.â
Several weeks have passed since you had last had your conversation with your older sister. You made an emphasis that you werenât going to prioritize delving into Namjoonâs personal life. You were purely on a calculus homework and best friendâs next door neighbor relationship with him. But you finally get an idea of what Namjoon likes in a girl when he had to leave early for calculus to get pep rally ready for the first football game that Friday.
Unknown [14:34]: Itâs Namjoon. Got your number from Guk.
For some reason, you feel your heart leap out of your chest at the text message. Youâre still seated in calculus class working on the first few problems of your homework without him. You look up to see that Mrs. Kang is too busy assisting other students confused with the problem. Honestly, you were confused too and were unsure with your methods, but your mind had been too focused on your cellphone the entire time.
Namjoon [14:35]: Shouldâve gave you the heads up about this. Sorry about leaving you alone to work. ):
You [14:36]: Itâs no big deal. Seems like everyoneâs confused, tbh.
Namjoon [14:36]: Fuck, mb. Itâs the first game of the night, so Iâm kind of required to be here. Iâll make it up to you, I promise.
Namjoon [14:37]: I have some down time after setting up. Maybe we can work on it then?
You [14:37]: Just tell me the time and place, Iâll be there. (:
Namjoon says that he had somebody covering his duties for the student council before the game began. You see him rushing inside a computer lab that remained open for students to use. You had reserved a table at a secluded corner because you wanted to be away from prying eyes. He spots you trying to reread your notes and erase the umpteenth method you had tried for a word problem you were stuck on.
He admires the way your brows knit together; lips pursed as you began redoing your method on a separate piece of paper. He keeps standing, not taking his place on the chair right next to you â too afraid that you would interrupt your flow. You feel a presence right next to you and he nearly gives you a fright and you realize just how tall he is.
âYou scared me.â You inform and he chuckles softly at how endearing it was. He takes the seat right next to you where he is already pulling out notebook and pencils from his bag.
âI left my book at my locker. Do you mind if I share your book with you?â You look at your open textbook and nod at once pushing the textbook closer for both of you to see. âThanks.â He scoots much closer than you had intended and when he strips his hoodie off of him, you can smell his cologne and how good it smelled on him.
You ignore your thoughts and scurry back to the problem youâre on.
âWhat problem did you end on?â He inquires and you point to the exact word problem you had been staring at for the past thirty minutes in class.
âItâs been bugging me. I didnât want to ask Mrs. Kang because I wanted to figure it out myself.â You were so stubborn, he thought to himself. You had only completed a total of eight problems when there was so much more to do for the weekend. For some reason, you decided to stay stuck on that problem for god knows how long and Namjoon found it adorable â one of the few attributes he liked about you.
He reads the word problem and begins trying to solve the problem on his own. After several tries, he had figure out what you had done wrong and he so desperately wanted to point it out to you. Just when he was about to open his mouth, you turn to him and shake your head, covering your ears with your hands.
âNo. I refuse to let you tell me what you did wrong. I can figure this out myself.â You whisper harshly. Namjoon canât help but respond with silenced laughter because this is exactly how your homework sessions have been going; just the both of you refusing to let the other correct each other until the other figured it out themselves.
âCan I give you one clue?â
âNope.â You popped your âpâ to accentuate just how persistent you were. You stuck out your lower lip as you examined the word problem again and he looked at the glossiness of your mouth and the softness of your cheeks; how he desperately wanted to lay his own petals right on yours as his fingers crawl to your face.
âSo, I have a question.â He starts.
âAnd I can try to give you an answer depending on what it is.â
âAre⊠you and Guk by any chance â yâknow?â His question is vague, but you definitely know what he is asking you because lots of people were never really used to the idea of a boy and a girl ever being best friends; for some reason, people assume they always end up dating and never talking to each other again.
âGod, no. I love him, but I donât love him like⊠Iâd date him.â Your cheeks were fully flamed, and you werenât so sure why you were so embarrassed to discuss this with Namjoon. All the times you had to clarify people on your relationship with Jungkook, you were almost disgusted and quick to reassure people that you two were nothing more than friends.
âWell, is there anyone you were willing to date?â Namjoon is pushing the boundaries here and he knows it very well. But he feels like he has gotten to know you well enough in the past few weeks to ask such a question.
âNot that⊠I know of really.â You try to remain composed when you respond to his question, but you feel his eyes burn into your soul, so youâre doing everything you can to avoid his stare. But Namjoon continues to stare right into you. He really canât take his eyes off of you. âHonestly, I donât think Iâve ever really experienced what itâs like to be attracted to ââ Just when you had mustered the confidence to look at him, he is quite literally staring so deeply into your eyes that it is taking your breath away.
He is making you eat your words right now; you canât take your eyes off of him.
âYou donât know what itâs like toâŠ?â
âI donât what itâs like to be attracted to someone.â You sigh softly; your breath fanning him. âOn the contrary, I donât think anyoneâs ever really been attracted to me.â A chuckle comes erupting from your mouth, shaking your head. âFortunately, thatâs not really my goal in high school.â
âYou donât know that.â He quips.
âI donât know what?â
âIf someoneâs been attracted to you before.â You shake your head in disbelief, chewing on the inside of your cheek knowing fully well that he was doing this because he wanted to seem like a dick for not disagreeing with your self-deprecation.
âWell, what about you?â You pose the question to him. âFrom what I understand, most girls and guys I pass by swoon every time you pass by.â He is chuckling to himself this time and he is very much aware of his desirability among his classmates. âYou have plenty of choices; Iâm sure you have the opportunity to date someone you must really like at this very moment.â
âThatâs what Iâm hoping on. Iâm just not quite sure how she feels about me.â You feel like you were unraveling his darkest secrets and you were happy he considered you close enough to reveal who it is or give an inkling to who it is.
âDo I know her by any chance?â Youâre hoping that you can narrow down who he is interested in. Because you barely knew anybody, you knew this would be a piece of cake.
âYes.â He replies simply and he is staring at you. âYou know her very well, YN.â He sighs, hoping you would finally understand what he is alluding to.
âIs she in my grade?â You were really hoping that the answer would be no or else youâd be breaking some terrible news to Sena that evening after the football game.
Namjoon nods slowly and he can see how you are not picking up his hints. He sees the slight disappointment in your face for whatever reason. Suddenly, he is perplexed because, in his eyes, he has made it pretty clear who he was interested in from the get-go. Many people should make the assumption, too, considering there was only one person he had his eyes on â only one person he was giving his attention to.
âIs it⊠that girl in Gukâs class who ââ
As you are trying to list out the girls in your class who has interacted with Namjoon, he is in complete disbelief that you have not figured it out at all. How much more clueless could you get? He is sighing now because is frustrated. He admires your persistence when it came to solving difficult word problems in calculus but itâs frustrating when you are unaware of his feelings for you.
Just when is about to confess his feelings for you, you are greeted with another presence calling for both your names.
âSo, this is where you two have been.â Jungkook ambles hastily towards your table and you grin from ear to ear when he is taking out his algebra textbook. âYN, one last chance, please. I didnât pass my last quiz which brought me one letter grade down and my dadâs going to make me quit track & field if I donât ââ
âI told you Iâd help you over the weekend, dumbass. Iâm busy getting shit done with Namjoon.â You breathe softly before he is hugging you on your side and you grunt at how much stronger he has gotten. âBut youâre buying me coffee for a week.â
âSick.â Jungkook simply replies before he begins unpacking some of his homework. âYou excited for the football game, Namjoon-hyung?â Jungkook queries and Namjoon is baffled because the moment is gone. One interruption from his next-door neighbor and the momentâs lost.
âFuck yeah.â Namjoon replies and he sees that youâve suddenly lost interest in the subject. You were subconsciously listening on their conversation while you are back to resolving the complicated word problem right in front of you. âWill you two be going to the game?â
âIâll go, but YN wonât go because she hates crowds and, honestly, she doesnât know how the game.â You exhale in response to Jungkookâs statements. Namjoon observes that you decide to move onto another problem, wanting to tackle the word problem at a different time. âEveryone you know will practically be there. Why not give it a shot?â
âWe usually have half of the bleachers reserved for the student council since weâre in charge of tickets and concessions, so it wonât be that big of a crowd.â Namjoon attempts to entice you with modifications to appease your concerns. âPlus, weâd all get to hang out with each other; no homework, no calculus talk â just⊠us.â
Jungkook is stunned to see you agree.
The night was a lot more enjoyable than you thought it would be. Namjoon waived off the entrance fee for the game the moment he mentioned that you and Jungkook were volunteers. Taehyung was already on the field taking photographs of the football players and cheerleaders while Jimin took photographs of the students on the bleachers. You even passed by your own sister who was busy with her own group at the entrance entertaining friends, families, and alumni into the bleachers. Meanwhile, Namjoon was overseeing every single aspect of the event; he was mainly at the concessions, not wanting to create so much traffic around it.
âIs there anything I can do to help?â You offer your assistance before he notices that you have your hair all tied up. âIâve washed my hands if that helps.â Namjoon canât hide his smile and he offer you a pair of food safe gloves.
âIâm usually one to decline help, but we really need it. Letâs see â Yuqi really needs to go use the bathroom, so you can be in charge of the drinks and chips right now.â You take your station at the drinks and chips stations. It was going faster than you had expected; people ordered too fast or too slow â there was no in between. There were people who were very certain with their order which you appreciated. Then, there were the people who were very fickle with their order and you canât help but stand awkwardly to wait for them to decide.
âI canât believe you roped me into helping.â Jungkook grumbles under his breath. âHey, I didnât rope you into anything.â You take the five-dollar bill from the student and offer them back their change.
âYeah, but you made me seem like a real asshole sitting there not helping.â You canât help but laugh at Jungkookâs pout because you knew just how much he wanted to just spend his time on the bleachers, watching the game with his hyungs. But he was stuck here helping out the student council while most of them were on their bathroom breaks.
âOnce someoneâs back from their bathroom break, you can go back to your game.â You soothe him and the chaos outside the booth is starting to die down. Less and less people were coming because theyâve all satisfied their craving and the game was building up â it was pretty close, so you understand why Jungkook was in there sulking with you. When you turn to look at Namjoon, hoping to convince him to let Jungkook off the hook, you donât see him there.
You look out the window to hear your sisterâs pretentious giggle. She laughed so differently around him â acted so differently around him. He stood right next to her with the rest of the council members, giving them a big pep talk. She looked at him like he was an angel who fell from heaven. Their conversation ends and the rest of the council members disband except Sena and Namjoon. They are having a personal conversation and you canât read mouths, but you canât tear your eyes away from their beaming faces.
âHey, can I ask you something?â You clear your throat, speaking so softly so only Jungkook can hear you.
âIâm all ears.â
âDoes â does Namjoon have a type?â You say out of curiosity. Jungkook raises a brow at you, curious as to what motivated you to ask the question.
âUh, I donât know. Iâve never really heard hyung talk about any girls⊠or his type, to be honest.â He hums and he is staring at you stare at your sister and Namjoon. âWhyâd you ask?â
âItâs⊠for Sena.â It was the truth, but your own curiosity was definitely a motivating factor. âSheâs been obsessed with Namjoon since⊠as long as I can remember.â You breathe out, hoping no one else can eavesdrop on your conversation. âSheâs been talking a lot about him more since she found out I knew him, yâknow?â
âHuh,â Jungkook leans on the table and folds his arms. âWhy doesnât she just tell him?â
âApparently, she needs some sort of confirmation that he thinks of her that way too, so she doesnât make a fool of herself.â
âWhy donât you just ask him then?â Your silence is clearly something Jungkook wasnât expecting because you never actually considered it once. âHeâs a pretty easy-going guy; just ask him and heâll be honest.â
âWeâre not on that level of friendship yet, I guess.â
âWell, I consider you guys close enough to ask that kind of question.â
âThen, heâd just assume Iâm being friends with him because my sister was using me.â
âWell, are you?â
âNo.â
Your own answer stuns you almost. Just a couple weeks ago, you knew nothing of Namjoon and, suddenly, you are on a level of friendship where you think you can confide him in anything. Perhaps, now, you really understood why everyone obsessed over him; why everyone wanted to be friends with him, why everyone wanted to date him, why everyone just wanted to be noticed by him.
âThen, feel free to ask him yourself.â
You hadnât really worked up the courage to talk to Namjoon about his dating life. You repeated to yourself that it wasnât really a priority to delve into what goes on behind the scenes with Namjoon. You were in a consistent state of going to school, doing your homework, reading books, and retraining your body to try out for the swim team next semester.Â
But the time came when you got sick for an entire week and missed so much material, especially calculus material.
But you were eternally saved by Namjoon himself.
Namjoon had requested to drop off the homework sheets and printed copies of his notes over to you. Everything was so detailed, and you were impressed with how organized everything seemed to be. You didnât know what motivated you to reach for your phone on your bed and dial in his number. Maybe you felt like it deserved a personal thanks rather than a typed one.
âYN?â His voice on the other line sounded so surprised and there was so much noise on the other end. âGive me a second.â He excuses before you hear him move to another location, somewhere much quieter.
âHow many times do I have to thank you for being an absolute saint?â Your voice sounded so stuffed. The flu was getting to you really bad, but you were recovering well. But he chuckles into the receiver and you are flipping through each page he had printed before you fall onto your bed, sighing blissfully. âIâm serious, Joon. Iâll say it a million times if I have to.â
âYouâve pulled my weight when I was off doing council work so much. Iâm sure if I got sick, youâd do the exact same thing. Itâs what partners do.â Namjoon is smiling from ear to ear; he was glowing, and no one was there to really witness it. âI â um, did you see my note attached at the back?â
You are now flipping through the pages frantically until you see a handwritten sticky note that read: âWe have a quiz on the Monday you come back. Iâm free this weekend if you wanted to study with me.â And there was even a little smiley face attached to it and you are experiencing a whirlwind of emotions.
âYou have got to be fucking with me.â You can feel the panic starting to bubble in the pits of your belly, but you were trying not to let it show. âYouâve already done so much for me. I canât rob you of your weekend. Itâs just â Itâs just too much.â
âIâm happy to do it, Ace. I promise.â The guy deserved everything in the world because he was too generous for the world and you werenât so sure what you did to deserve such kindness.
âAce?â
He chuckles embarrassingly into the receiver, chewing on his cheeks. âI â uh, itâs a nickname. I hope you donât mind.â Suddenly, butterflies erupt from your stomach and there is a glow on your cheeks that you are very much aware of and you are curling into your bed with a shit eating grin on your face.
âI â I like it.â You sigh and Namjoon leans on the wall as he observes the rest of his friends and council members enjoy slices of pizza, taking a well-deserved break from preparing for the pep rally event coming up next week.
âSo, is that a yes to a study session this Saturday?â
âYes.â Your voice is small and hesitant because it feels like youâre doing something wrong when you were just having a quiz session with your calculus partner.
âGreat. My place or yours?â
Namjoon insisted on coming over to your place because you were still recovering. Coincidentally, your parents had the weekend trip away with your dadâs work colleague for a wine tasting event. You debated whether you wanted to tell Sena that Namjoon was going to be arriving in an hour, but you soon realize that she was out with her friendâs house for a movie night session.
You had the place all to yourself and you were relieved and frantic all at once.
You busied yourself the entire day to make yourself look decent; brushed hair, brushed teeth, clean face, and fresh clothes. You throw used tissues into trash bins, changed your sheets, and kicked all of your dirty laundry into your hamper that had fallen on the carpeted floors. As you are jogging downstairs, you discover you have no food in the fridge, so youâd probably have to order a pizza or something to share with Namjoon.
Immediately, you question why you are so desperate to make the place and yourself so presentable when this was a mere tutoring session with your calculus partner?
The doorbell ringing prompts you to peek through the peep hole and you see him; he is wearing a regular white t-shirt, jeans, and sneakers. He has his hoodie thrown over his shoulder as he begins texting a message on his phone, waiting for you to open the door for him.
When you unlock the front door and open the door for him, you smile timidly at him.
âHi,â You greet him nervously.
âHey, Ace.â He waves before he examines how you look. Despite your red nose and tired eyes, he missed seeing your face for a week; he really did. You stood awkwardly fiddling with your fingers and he can sense just how anxious you are, so he decides to tread lightly. âMay I come in?â
His tone is so polite which effectively allows you to open the door wider for him to enter. You are nodding and you close the door shut behind him, ensuring that you have locked them. âI â um, I canât really offer you anything to eat since my parents are out of town, but we can order pizza, if you want. Itâs what my sister and I usually do.â
âIâm more than okay with pizza.â He permits and you nod and begin walking to the living room. âWill we be working here?â
âWe can work anywhere.â You announce. The conversation is so light, and you hate how quick yet reluctant you are to your responses. âI â I can get you a glass of water, if youâd like. Iâll just get my things from upstairs and bring them down to the living room.â You inform him and he nods as he is making himself comfortable on the couch.
You are scurrying off upstairs to go get your materials and catching your breath because you think you were holding your breath the entire time. Youâre stalling because youâre making a check list of every single thing you need for downstairs to avoid seeing him or talking with him. Just when you are about to exit, you see him at the bottom of the stairs. He is examining each family portrait on the wall.
Your face is hot because you can only imagine how terrible you looked like a child, so you jog downstairs with your study materials to gain his attention. âI never really realized how much Sena looks like your dad.â Namjoon comments and you stop in your tracks, only to examine the portrait he is looking at. âExact same nose and smile.â
You purse your lips into a thin line because you are reminded once again that he is probably only interested in getting to know Sena â there was always that possibility. You were so familiar with this feeling of discussing your sister with other people because â yes, she is absolutely beautiful and intelligent and there was no denying it.
âBut you are like your mother.â He comments as he takes a closer look at your mom who seems to be so much more youthful. âThe way sheâs smiling here looks so much like the way you smile.â He describes and you allow him to explain more by staying silent. âWhen you smile, your nose kind of crinkles and the corners of your eyes creases and your dimples are a lot more ââ
Your throat seizes because youâre flattered and aware that he has perfectly examined your appearance and all the features in what he sees. He grows silent and he is chuckling nervously, scratching the back of his hand to distract himself.
âSorry that was⊠super random.â Namjoon clears his throat, and you are shaking your head before you point towards the living room.
âI â Iâm ready now.â
Now, youâre desperately hoping Sena doesnât come home too early from her friendâs house.
Hours have passed since Namjoon have gotten you caught up with all of the materials and have assisted you through last weekâs homework sheets. Namjoon was impressed with how you can keep up despite your recovering condition. One minute, you were sneezing and wiping your nose clean and, the next minute, you have your lips pursed and brows furrowed as you are writing equations down on a separate piece of paper.
âI got a question for you.â Namjoon begins and you are still too busy piecing everything together for a specific word problem you wanted to master.
âShoot.â
âAre you always this focused?â You are typing things into a calculator before you are erasing things on your paper and you turn to look at him, showing him the calculator.
âIs this the right answer?â You ignore his question for a moment.
He nods and you grin at him before you proceed onto the next word problem.
âIf Iâm a weekâs worth of lessons behind, yes, Iâm focused all the time.â Namjoon is shaking his head and he is in awe at how you are so quick at writing all the information; he notices how neat your handwriting is too. Namjoon checks his watch and realizes just how late it has been and he clears his throat as he looks out the window to see the sun has gone completely down.
âWill your sister be coming home tonight?â Namjoon notices that you stop writing â you stop solving the word problem that you are tackling because you, suddenly, realize that he is asking about your sister.
âSheâs probably still at a friendâs house or something.â He senses the atmosphere has changed and you shift your mind back to the practice problem right in front of you. âWhy do you ask?â
âNo reason â well, I honestly thought she should be taking care of her recovering sister.â You snicker at his statement.
âSheâs a great sister, but sheâs not that great.â You quip, biting your tongue at how ridiculous he sounded. âI think we can all agree that sheâs smart, charismatic, and ambitious. I will admit sheâs a really considerate sister too, but she thinks caring for her ill sister is a parentsâ job â not hers.â
âOkay, okay, I get it sheâs amazing but not⊠amazing.â He raises his hands to surrender and his words coming out of his mouth urged you to inquire about his relationship with her.
âIf you think sheâs amazing, why donât you date her?â The words came spilling out of your mouth uncontrollably. Maybe it was the meds, you thought. You see the grin disappear from Namjoonâs face into utter confusion and he tilts his head for further clarification. âWhat I mean is that⊠youâve known her and worked with her for so long and sheâs a great girl â Iâm obviously really biased considering sheâs my sister, but you two would make a⊠great couple.â
You didnât believe that you were talking about this to Namjoon. You didnât think you would have the guts to discuss this with him, but the opportunity came up and you took it. But you are faced with such an unfamiliar emotion. True discomfort arises at the pit of your stomach as Namjoonâs brows furrow together and he is shaking his head with the same boyish grin he always flaunted to the world.
âAce, sheâs great, but I⊠honestly see her as a friend.â He isnât so sure how many times heâs reiterated those words before. Because little did you know, so many people have asked the exact same thing. Peers and colleagues in their class were very much aware of Senaâs not so little crush on Namjoon for quite some time.
âWell, I mean, isnât that how all relationships really start? Becoming friends and then possibly developing feelings for each other? Most people always see each other as friends until one of them is aware of the othersâ feelings, right?â Your tone was so quizzical. You were treating this conversation like it required rationale and logical reasoning to tackle the issue at hand.
But this wasnât a problem the mind can solve.
âThatâs the usual circumstance, yes.â He admits and he sees that you resume back to the worksheet. âBut Iâve known Senaâs had a thing for me and, quite frankly, Iâve been interested in someone else for a while, remember?â
âSomeone far more interesting than Sena?â You are in disbelief. You are trying to eliminate other people in school who is on the same social standing as your older sister. âThatâs⊠not possible.â You breathe.
âYouâre wrong.â You stop writing because you are retracing your steps on the word problem you are solving. He finds it so endearing how you canât seem to understand that he is utterly into you, but you are so lost in numbers.
âNo, donât tell me, Joon. Iâve told you this hundreds of times ââ You lift your head to look at him to accentuate your reminder; you didnât want to know what you wrong, you wanted to solve the problem yourself unless you demanded the assistance yourself.
Normally, Namjoon would comply with your request. It was so rare for him to point out your mistake, but he figured this was the perfect time to do so.
âYouâre so stubborn.â He breathes before he dives in.
You donât complete your sentence. Because when you turn your head to look at him with pleading eyes, you are met with his pillowy petals on yours. Your cheeks heat instantaneously, and you can feel your heart leap from your chest.
His kisses were soft and slow. You donât realize that he has already cupped your cheeks. Youâve never kissed anyone ever before but, for some reason, it was like you knew how to move your mouth against his. He was gentle but there was a certain control he possessed. You pull away momentarily to breathe and, suddenly, you feel the heat of his tongue swipe on your lower lip. A shuddered whimper leaves your mouth before you are regrettably pulling away from addiction.
âN â no, thatâs not possible.â Youâre still in denial from the events that occurred. âSena â sheâd be so⊠betrayed if she ââ Your brain is glitching and it didnât help that you can taste the mint of his lips on yours.
âListen, Ace, for one moment stop thinking about Sena and answer me honestly.â Namjoon positions his body to look straight onto you. âDo you feel the same way I do or not?â
âI donât â I donât know.â You shrug before avoiding his eyes. âI â I shouldnât like you.â You sigh defeated and you are covering your face. You were ashamed not because you like him, but because you didnât understand what you were really feeling, and you didnât understand what you wanted to do. âWhy â why do you like me?â
âYouâre hardworking and incredibly intelligent.â
âI know plenty of other girls who are⊠exactly the same.â
âYour tastes in book are impeccable. Youâre selfless to a degree that I canât quite comprehend. You keep to yourself, but when you speak your mind, it leaves a lasting impression. Listen, YN, I can keep going, but you canât⊠keep doubting my feelings for you.â Namjoon justifies and it was a tough pill to swallow.
You were too stunned to say anything. Too many emotions flooding your brain and it took too long for it to process, so you remained expressionless. Namjoon found it incredibly difficult for him to read your face.
âAce, itâs really hard to tell how youâre feeling right now.â He points out and you understand just how awkward you sat there; head spinning with so many things to say but very little coming out of your mouth.
âI â I donât know what you want me to say.â You admit. âIâm not sure what youâre expecting out of me with a confession like this. If I donât feel the same way, what wouldâve happened? If I do feel the same way, what â what was I supposed to do?â
âWell, for starters, do you actually feel the same way as I do?â
âI â I do.â You croak to respond to his inquiry. âI â I donât think Iâve ever admitted that to myself either, but⊠I think I like you.â
A wave of relief washed over Namjoon, but thereâs a bit of relief for you too. Itâs out in the open now, and you know that thereâs nothing really you can do about it. Thereâs a very content grin plastered right across his handsome face, but it slowly transforms into a frown as he realizes that, despite your feelings for each other, nothing will change between the both of you.
âNamjoon, we canât be anything more than friends.â You realize the unfortunate circumstances the both of you were in. âItâs not fair to my sister. I donât think itâs very fair to make me choose between you and my sister. I â I donât think itâs very fair that⊠youâre in this position.â
Your heart swelled just moments ago, and you can feel it crumble into pieces as the words come spilling out of your lips.
âI understand.â He agrees softly and you perk up at his acquiescence. âIâm not going to force you to be in that position, Ace.â The reassurance softens your tense form, and his fingers cradle your chin, lifting up to be at eye level with you.
âBut when youâre ready to reconsider... us, Iâll be waiting.â
âȘ Please stay tuned for the next part!
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My headcanons about Queen Angelina II
Majority of these can be seen in this fic, so if you like the idea go check it out ;)
Also- a handful of these are shared with the lovely @madelynartz, who also has fantastic takes on her, so be sure to check out their post too
If you want me to draw/write any of these specific headcanons/moments, just send an ask and Iâll probably do it
Iâll (likely) be making another, seperate post for William when i feel like it
Update: I have
This is gonna be a long post-
Early Life:
Her parents weren't very loving or caring, only ever wanting her to work on her studies and singing
Her mother was worse than her father, as she was egotistical and always critical of Angelina II and always seemed to find problems with things and people that made her happy
Her mother also always went by her full name (You had to refer to her as Queen Angelina Contessa Louisa Francesca Banana Fanna Bo Besca the First- she wouldn't let people shorten it)
Naturally- Angelina resented her mother and with that, her own name.
She hates it when people say her full name- "Just Angelina is fine"
But if she especially likes you, you can call her Lena ;)
Since the only thing her parents approved of was studying, she devoured the entire castle library as a child, which left her often more informed than her tudors, which left her bored during lessons and she quickly became a "smart-ass" as she liked to talk back and figure out the ways she could get out of lessons
She hated the idea of getting betrothed, and any time a suitor would come over, she'd attack his pride in any form she could think of to get them to hate her, and she was successful
One of the suitors was Prince Salazar
She hated Salazar the most
Despite her attitude being well known across several kingdoms, rumors of her beauty and wonderous singing kept them coming
Her father, King Harold the Eighth, died when she was 10, and she could hardly say she really grieved him, but it made her mother more distant and sometimes outright cruel
She met William when he was 15 in the royal stables when he was training to be a squire
He fell in love instantly, though Angelina wanted to get to know him first
They were the best of friends since they met, though it was obvious Queen Angelina I disapproved
However, after awhile Angelina just stopped caring about what her mother thought entirely and was much better off
She and William loved to garden together, and always planted new flowerbeds in the palace garden every spring
William proposed when he was 22 and she was 21
Obviously she said yes, but they had to keep it hidden from her mother, who would likely take William away
Luckily for them, Angelina I died a month after he proposed, and the two were quickly married.
Yakko:
Yakko was born 10 months after their wedding
Angelina fell in love instantly, declaring him to be the cutest baby she had ever seen
She's terrible with names, and never named her children until after they were born
She hated the idea of giving him a really long and convoluted name, or a name that was in her family (like Harold the 9th)
And so Yakko it was
She didn't expect motherhood to be so exhausting, but hearing Yakko's laugh for the first time made everything worth it to her
Yakko began babbling at a younger age than most, and he babbled constantly, even in his sleep. Angelina loved to just sit and listen to him try to tell stories in nonsense baby language
However, Yakko seemed to have a preference for hearing William give the bedtime stories, as when she tried to read he got fussy
Once he was able to explain he said "daddo does the voices" and that he preferred her lullabies anyway
It hurt at first, but she understood. William was an excellent story teller, though he did have a tendency to ramble at times
Yakko's favorite story was of how they met
She's very protective, and if he was sick or hurt, she'd never leave his side
Her hair used to be very, very long but once Yakko was able to grab things and kept yanking her hair, she chopped it all off and has kept it short ever since
Wakko:
Wakko didnât cry or breathe when he was born, so for the first moments of his life, Angelina and William feared he was dead
He wasnât dead though, and they rejoiced greatly, and cried a lot
Angelina refused to let go of him though, and they were only able to get Wakko away from her when she fell asleep from exhaustion
After about a week or so, she relaxed more, but she needless to say her protectiveness went to new heightsÂ
âLena, Yakko slept in a crib all the time, itâs fine-â âHow do you know that?â âLena, I was there.â
William did always have a way to reassure her though
However, the extra layer of protectiveness was kinda needed for Wakko, as he loved to bite and chew on everything and anything he could get his little hands on (including his own tail)
She eventually gained what William described as a âsixth senseâ where she could just tell when Wakko put something he wasnât supposed to in his mouth.
Wakko didnât talk much when he was young, especially when compared to Yakko, though his brother seemed to get him to talk even more than his parents could
They didnât mind though, whatever worked, worked
Wakko loved following Yakko everywhere he went the moment he could crawl. Angelina thought it was adorable.
Wakko had a tendency to hurt himself a lot (whether by tripping, crashing, bitting his tail too hard, etc.) which forced Angelina to learn that heâll be okay, and not to overreact or panic, as he was most certainly not made of glass
Angelina had a tendency to be a worry-wart
Dot:Â
Angelina became pregnant with Dot right before tensions with Ticktockia started to rise, but William was determined not to let that ruin their optimism about having another child that was hopefully a girl
Angelina really wanted a girl bc Yakko and Wakko didnât like dressing up and she really hoped a girl would, though she knew there wasnât ever a guarantee, but she hoped
Angelina went into labor in the middle of a meeting with an ambassador from Ticktockia, but forced herself to finish it bc she ainât a quitter
Despite Dot being her third child, she took the longest to actually deliver (two days), likely due to the exhaustion from countless meetings with Ambassadors and the stress of trying to avoid war bc King Salazar decided past treaties suddenly didnât mean anything
Angelina had originally been against giving her her name, as she still associated it with her mother, but William said that he only thought of her, and that she was a much better mother and person than Angelina I couldâve ever been, which changed her mind.
However, she had thought of the name Dot before she was born, and liked it to so she and William agreed theyâd just call her that for short, and if you asked them âhow is Dot short for Princess Angelina blah blah blah the Third, theyâd reply âit just isâ)
Though she wouldnât tell Yakko or Wakko, Dot was most certainly the cutest baby of them all
Wakko and Yakko loved to just... stand over Dotâs crib and watch her do things
Wakko also didnât grasp what a baby was, and would often try to make her do things, and when she wouldnât heâd get upset and Angelina or William would have to explain why she canât play with him with the toy soldiers
Sheâd often just ramble on and on to Dot as she slept while William watched the boys, talking about the new treaties going up, and how worried she was about what Salazar would do if he didnât agree with the new treaties and deals. It made her feel better.Â
To also ease her worries, she taught Yakko how to take care of his sister. How to burp her, how to change her, how to give her a bath, etc. She hated thinking about what could possibly happen, but knowing theyâd survive somehow made her feel much better.Â
Dot was three months old when the attack happened, and Angelina wished she had had more time with her before dying.
Misc. (bc I refuse to end on a bad/depressing note)
She had family portraits made after each of her kids were born bc she wanted to always remember how cute of babies they were
Her lullabies worked like magic in terms of getting the three of them to sleep
If you asked her, she thinks Yakko has her eyes, Wakko has her nose, and Dot has her eyes and face shape
In the space between her mother dying and their wedding, she met Hello Nurse, who was a childhood friend of Williamâs, and they hit it off quite well- so much so that Angelina offered her a job in the castle, but she refused, saying she had plans with some doctor in Acme Falls, which Angelina respected.Â
She one time tried to practice knitting in hopes of knitting the kiddos a blanket, but she was t e r r i b l e at it, and gave up after a week of trying
William and her liked to throw balls at least once a year, and everyone agreed they were the best dancers out there (what they didnât know was how much practice Angelina had to put in to get a sense of rhythm- she was a terrible dancer, and Williamâs natural grace when dancing far exceeded her own)
Despite others protesting, Angelina always suspected that the reason tension was growing with Ticktockia was because Salazar was jealous and upset that she married some random knight rather than him (a theory that was proven right to her right before her death)
Her favorite food was bananas
William was a huge cuddler, so theyâd cuddle close every night
she personally tutored Yakko on things like history and geography, as she felt those tended to be the most boring classes, and she wanted to have some part in his education, as she hated all of her teachers when she was a kid
She often didnât know when to shut up, which did end up costing her in the end, but she didnât regret a single word she said before her death, as Salazar deserved every bit of it.Â
#animaniacs#queen angelina warner#king william warner#wakko's wish#animaniacs fics#long post#headcanons#queen angelina ii#if you can't tell i'm in love with her#not even joking#dksfl;asjdl#I have a lot of thoughts lol#a lot of these could easily be fics#and I do want to write them lol#so seriously don't hesitate to ask
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Mistakes Like These
Summary: Kakyoin never paid much attention to the younger Kujo. Who knew stockings and short skirt were all it would take change that
Rating: 18+, nsfw
Words: 4877
Warnings: cannabis mention, alcohol use
Tags: afab, fem pronouns, modern!au , doesnât follow the canon like at all, very au, brother!jotaro x sister!reader, kakyoin x reader, soft dom kak, lots of pet names, plus size reader
Notes: I havenât written any fanfiction in over five years so this might be rusty. Iâm sorry for any mistakes made or if its not how the characters would act. Iâm still new to the Jojos fandom but had this idea pop in my head and decided to get it out. I want to turn this in to a multi part story and have several parts already planned out, I just want to have feedback to see if people actually like it.
âHave a happy Holidays. Make sure to check in with your financial advisor about the spring semester.â
A sigh escaped your lips as you read the most recent email in your student inbox. Patience may be a virtue, but it was sure one you didnât possess. At least not right now anyway. Tsking your tongue against the roof of your mouth, you moved the mouse over to the refresh button and clicked. Your eyes followed the downloading icon in circles, fingers tapping anxiously over the desk.
âHave a happy Holidays. Make sure to check in with your financial advisor about the spring semester.â
You exhaled angrily through your nose and leaned back in your chair. Your eyes fixed on the ceiling for a few moments before you looked over to your bed where your cat, Miso, had woken up from his nap.
âI know I should be more patient. But this grade is what determines if I move on to the next course which I need if I want to graduate soon and get out of this apartment.â You spoke as if your cat had scolded you for your impatience.
Your apartment was nice. Super nice. Your friends often described it as âapartment goals.â You could have never afforded it on your own. Hell, you couldnât afford it even when you graduated and got a job. Two large bedrooms with a spacious living room, modern kitchen, and a balcony that overlooked the cities skyline. There were only two major downsides: there was only one bathroom which had to be shared with your roommate and your roommate happened to be your older brother, Jotaro.
Now, you didnât exactly hate your brother. He was like any older brother, he thought you were extremely annoying and wanted nothing to do with you most of the time, though there were times growing up where heâd come home with scrapes and bruises after dealing with someone who picked on you at school. As you were both older, you found each other more bearable than you did when you were younger. That didnât mean, however, you wanted to live with him. Especially while you were in college, which was supposed to be your time to let loose and have fun while still receiving an education, of course. Your grandfather, however, had other plans.
Joseph Joestar was a real estate mogul and had some serious money to his name. He loved to dote on his two grandchildren and was upset that for the most part your parents chose to give you a ânormalâ life without the extravagance that he offered. Birthdays and christmas he would buy you each a present, until Jotaro turned 15 and started asking for money instead. He made your mother an offer that he knew she couldnât deny: he would pay for the entirety of your schooling, from associates degree to PhD if thats what you wanted, in order for the two of you to focus on your studies heâd also give you a weekly allowance so that you wouldnât have to work, and heâd buy you each your own apartment and pay to furnish it how you liked. Holly couldnât turn down the offer, what kind of mother would deny her children an opportunity like that? However, she did ask that her father only buy a single apartment for her children to share. Her hopes were that it would strengthen your relationship and it also meant she could see both her darling children whenever she desired.
You didnât want to seem ungrateful at all for what Jiji had done for you. You knew you were extremely privileged to have the opportunities that he provided you but, fuck, sometimes you wished you had your own place. You wanted the independence, to know you earned something but also because sharing a bathroom with Jojo was infuriating. He always moved your stuff, never cleaned the shower, and he never had patience for you to get ready in the mornings. A wishful sigh left your lips as you thought of your future, with just you, Miso, and the ability to use the bathroom whenever you wanted.
Your eyes moved back to the computer screen, clicking refresh, and rolling your eyes when you read the same email from the dean again. Like you expected anything different, you just turned the term paper in yesterday. You brought your cup of tea up to your lips but furrowed your eyebrows when you realized there was none left.
Pushing yourself up out of your chair you formulated a plan for the rest of your evening. You would refill your cup of tea, hop back on your computer to play Overwatch with your friends until the early hours of the morning, and then cuddle up with Miso and look at TikToks until you fell asleep. It was foolproof. No way that you would even think about your term paper grade.
And if you did, you could always refresh your email in between matches.
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Your finger tapped your lip as you looked over all the snack foods in the pantry. While waiting for your tea, you realized that the only thing that could make your plan better was a good snack. You had just gone shopping so it meant that all the poky, ramen, and chips you desired were on the shelves and it made the decision extra hard.
In the middle of your contemplation, you heard the front door turn and the sound of your brother and his friends entering the apartment.
âYou know it's true, Jotaro. Your apartments bigger. Its nicer. It has that view that drives the ladies wild. Our apartment is cramped and it smells like weed.â Polnareffâs voice was the first you heard as the trio entered the house.
âDonât forget the upstairs neighbors who are always playing loud polish music.â Kakyoin added, plopping down to sit on one of the chairs in the living room.
You heard your brother sigh and could feel his annoyance. You never understood how the trio became friends, it was a mystery to everyone including them but they had been together since their days in primary school and the bond they shared was one that intrigued you.
âYes, yes. The polish,â Polnareff nodded. âKnown around the world for their ability to ruin the mood with a hurdy-gurdy.â
There was silence, and you could tell your brother was not budging a bit. A party was not Jotaros thing. Kakyoin wasnât a partier either, from what you gathered heâd much rather stay at home playing video games and smoking weed. Sucking your bottom lip in your mouth, you made your decision, grabbing a bag of chips and a box of strawberry pocky. You did your best to hold those in one hand and your cup of tea in the other.
âFeel that Christmas spirit, Jo. Help Pol in his never ending crusade to get laid. The poorman is gonna end this year with, what, a batting average of zero. Heâll be a disgrace to French men everywhere.â The teasing tone Kakyoins voice almost made you laugh.
âHey! Batting average of 3. You know this,â Polnareff shot back, causing his roommate to throw his hands up in mock surrender.
âJotaro,â The french man turned his attention back to your brother, who simply turned on the TV in what seemed to be an attempt to drown out the sound of his friend's voice, âCâmon. Iâll buy your cigarettes for a monthâŠ..Two months?â His voice was getting more desperate, his head turned toward you. A smile stretched across his features as he jumped off the couch and threw his arms around your shoulder.
God, you just wanted to go to your room.
âNew deal,â Polernaff declared, squeezing you to the side of his body as you tried not to splash your tea all over the floor. Kakyoin looked away from the TV, eyebrow raised, Jotaros attention never faltered from the knock-off Viagra commercial. âIf you agree to a Christmas Eve party I will buy you cigarettes for three months, I will never ask anything of you ever again, and I will stop flirting with your sister.â
Kakyoin snorted, shaking his head and turning his attention to Jotaro. Since you had moved in with Jotaro, the frenchman hadnât stopped making comments about how beautiful he thought you were or just giving you flirty winks whenever you walked through the room. You found it annoying at first, but you quickly got over it when you realized he did the same thing with every girl, and boy, that he saw.
âGood grief,â Jotaro sighed. âIts a deal.â
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âI canât believe you agreed to this.â Kakyoin mumbled as he and Jotaro watched their friend place the final touches on the decorations and food for the party. Y/N had already put up Christmas decorations earlier that month, there was some snowmen set out on the dining table and a cute tree with some presents neatly wrapped under it. However, Polnareff had decided that wasnât enough. He had hung up snowflakes to come down from the ceiling, there was garland hung on every wall, and so much fucking mistletoe.
Polnareff had even requested that his friends dress festive. Jotaro, of course, didnât listen and wore what he always wore. Kakyoin decided to humor his friend and wore a Santa hat along with a dark green v-neck and dark wash jeans.
âYou donât need the money, right? Grandpa Joestarâs allowance has to be enough for cigarettes.â He continued, watching his roommate place a bowl of peppermints by the door.
âI just wanted to get him to shut up,â Jotaro said with a roll of his eyes.
âYou think heâll actually follow through on leaving Y/N alone?â
Jotaro shook his head, âOut of all the people in this city, youâd think heâd leave the only one of limits alone.â
Kakyoin simply nodded, taking a sip of his drink.
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You smoothed your hands over your outfit, turning to the side to get it from a different angle. You couldnât decide if you liked it or not. The sweater was cute, it was red with a deep green christmas tree that had colorful little puff balls as the ornaments. Your make-up and hair looked nice, too. Â That wasnât what concerned you. It was the white pleated skirt and tight red stockings that caused you pause. You grabbed at your love handles that spilled over the top of the skirt a bit and your eyes traveled to how your thighs looked in the stockings.
Polnareff had told you you could invite some friends over. Which, of course you could, this was your apartment and you didnât need his permission. You had told him as such and invited over your three closest friends.
You turned around to your bed and looked at Miso, who was comfortably curled up. âHow do I look?â You waited a moment before turning back to the mirror and smacking your lips together. You were tempted to take off the skirt and tights and throw a pair of jeans on but something changed your mind last minute. Instead of heading to your closet to change, you instead grabbed the reindeer antler hand band and slipped it on top of your hair before heading out of the safety of your bedroom.
You were so distracted with the new decorations that you didnât notice the pair of eyes that were glued to your form.
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Simply Having a Wonderful Christmastime was playing for what seemed like the fifth time. Kakyoin had never hated Paul McCartney more than he did now. He was just now starting to feel the buzz of all the drinks he had had but it didnât make the party any more bearable.
âShe,â Kakyoin pointed to a blonde girl in a Santa dress, âis gonna hook up with him,â He pointed to a dark haired main that had for some reason felt the need to take his shirt off.
Jotaro simply grunted before eyeing more of the members of the party. This was a game theyâd been playing for the past hour and a half, making bets on who was gonna hook up with who and who was gonna get the most shit faced.
âHeâs gonna end up passed out in my bathtub,â The dark haired man stated, pointing to the only person dancing to the playlist Polnareff had created.
Kakyoin broke a smile as he watched the clearly wasted man's horrible dance moves. His attention was brought away from the scene by the sound of Y/Nâs laugh. For what had to be the millionth time that night, the red haired man eyed her up and down. That outfit looked so fucking good on her but the smile streched out across her lips looked even better.
I wonder what the lipstick would look like smeared on my cock.
The thought slipped into his head and he couldnât stop from staring at the red painted on your lips.
Does she feel as soft as she looks?
He took a sip from his cup. He knew he shouldnât be thinking about his hands running over her thighs or his fingers digging into her hips. It was strange that he was having these thoughts. Heâd never viewed Y/N as more than just Jotaroâs younger sister. He never thought she was ugly, in fact there were multiple times that he thought she was down right gorgeous but it had never turned sexual. Something about that outfit had sent him over that edge.
The sound of Last Christmas brought him out of his trance. Kakyoin almost immediately rolled his eyes. He almost missed the hurdy-gurdy.
âGood grief,â Jotaro mumbled and grabbed the pack of cigarettes off the coffee table. âIâm heading out for a smoke.â
Kakyoin watched as his best friend got up but instead of heading for the balcony, Jotaro went out the front door. The red haired man was tempted to follow but as soon as that thought popped into his mind he heard the drunk voice of his other best friend call to him.
âKak, you gotta show these guys the cherry thing!â
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It was well past 3. The party had ended and most of the attendants took an Uber home. The only people in the apartment were you, Polnareff, and Kakyoin. Jotaro had still not returned from that smoke he said he was going to take hours ago. The buzz had long worn off and the reality sank in that you had to clean the disaster of an apartment that was left in the christmas partyâs wake.
There were red solo cups strewn about various surfaces and all over the floor, glitter seemed to have gotten everywhere, there were plates of food left half eaten, and there was a candy cane just stuck to the wall. Looking at the destruction, you almost wondered if the fun you had had was worth it. With your parents coming over tomorrow...or, well, todayâŠ..for Christmas, you had really no other option than to clean it, with that thought in your head you grabbed a garbage bag and started cleaning.
After a few minutes, you heard the familiar rustle of plastic as someone was opening a trash bag and you turned to see Kakyoin helping you with your task.
âThanks,â You told him as you threw a plate of half eaten cake into the bag.
âNo problem. Pol is passed out in the hallway and I gotta make sure Jo makes it home safe, so Iâm kinda stuck here.â
You simply nodded in response and kept about your task in silence. A silence which seemingly bothered Kakyoin because a few minutes later he cleared his throat and broke the silence.
âSo I, uh, noticed your man wasnât here tonight.â He almost smacked himself for asking the question. You thought he was just making small talk, the thought of him having more devious reasons behind asking if you were single hadnât crossed your mind.
âMyâŠ.My man?â You quirked an eyebrow, looking back over your shoulder at him.
âYeah, your man. I saw you with some guy a while back,â Kakyoin had put down the now full trash bag and was leaning against the counter top with his arms crossed as he spoke.
âOh,â You suddenly realized who exactly he was talking about, âYeah, um, we broke up six months ago,â You said with a laugh.
âOh...Six months?â He titled his head to the side, âAre you sure? Hmm⊠Well, sorry I didnât notice...I uh guess I should be more observant.
You shook your head, placing down your own bag and heading past him to the pantry to grab another. âIts alright, Iâm not offended. Iâm sure you find me as annoying as I find Jotaros friends.â
Kakyoin raised his eyebrows at your statement, âYou find me annoying? I mean, Pol, I get. Yeah. Heâs one of my closest friends and even I canât handle him sometimes. But me? I never talk to you.â
You had busied yourself with cleaning the rest of the cups off the counter, â I donât know. Youâre justâŠâ You looked up and noticed his eyes quickly flick down to your lips before making eye contact with you again. âI mean, you did one time give me oregano and told me it was weed.â
âFirst,â Kakyoin started, his body shifted so it was turned toward you, âThats not annoying. I would call that immature, maybe. But annoying? Nah. Second,â he threw up two fingers to emphasize his point, â In my defense, you were 15 and I was worried about you finding our stash under Joâs bed and I thought it would lessen that chance if I gave you your own stash.â
You laughed, setting the bag down and turning to look at him. You couldnât help but notice how good he looked in that dark green shirt but you quickly willed that thought away. Â âKakyoin, that doesnât make any sense.â
âHey, at the time it did.â
You tilted your head to the side, you had plenty of stories that you could use as proof that he was annoying, â What about that time you and Jojo left me stranded at school because the new playstation came out?â
âThats not fair,â He noticed the playful hint your voice was taking and it caused a small smile to tug at his lips.
âHow about the time that you threw up in my make up bag?â
âHey, that was all Frenchie. Not me.â
âOrâŠ..â You were silenced by Kakyoin pressing a finger to your lips. You hadnât noticed that the two of you had just kept moving closer and closer as you were talking. You could get a better look at him now, his eyes looked tired but there was a mischievous glint to them, proof to you that he found this just as amusing as you did.
âWhat about you, huh? You saying that youâve never been annoying?â He cocked an eyebrow, giving you a knowing look that let you know he had as many stories about you that you had about him.
âLook, I never once implied that I wasnât annoying. Iâll own up to it,â You shrugged, âI was a total brat.â
Kakyoin snorted, âDonât act like youâre not still a brat.â
âHow?!â You looked almost taken aback, âHow am I still a brat? You hardly see me!â
Kakyoin loved banter and teasing with his friends, it was kind of his thing. It was how he showed affection. If he didnât gently bully you how was he supposed to show that he cared? But this, this teasing between the two of you was different. It made the room seem hotter and his pants feel tighter. That coupled with how fucking cute you looked in that damn outfit, even if your make up had worn off a bit and the lipstick was smugged. He couldn't deny it was doing things to him.
âI see you now,â His voice was deep, his tongue sticking out to wet his bottom lip as his eyes trailed you up and down.
Your cheeks immediately turned a blushy pink and your skin was hot under his gaze. Your lips parted but no words came out. This was Jotaros best friend, there was no way he was flirting with you.
Kakyoin took a few steps forward so he was as close to you as he could be without touching you. âI see you now,â He repeated in the same low voice, this time keeping eye contact with you, âAnd I see a brat.â
He pushes a few strands of hair out of your face and behind your ear, a gasp hitching in your throat as his heated skin touched your check briefly, âUnless youâre gonna show me otherwise.â
âIâŠâ You swallowed the lump in your throat, suddenly weak at his gaze. âH-how?â
You look into his eyes and you can see it. You can see how much he wants you and how intense that want is. No one has ever looked at you that way before and it made your stomach erupt in butterflies. Quickly, you turn your head away not being able to handle the intensity of his stare. You feel his fingers on your chin guiding you to look back up at him, holding you there so he can take in all the features of your face. Its like heâs looking at you for the first time. His fingers move gently from your chin down to your neck, your breathing hitched in your throat when you felt the soft pad of his thumb move across your lips.
âIf you want me to stop, tell me sweetheart,â Heâs eyes had gotten a few shades darker and his voice seemed more strained than usual. Kakyoins free hand traveled under the sweater your were wearing, fingers lightly dancing along your side as his other hand stayed on you face, gently tracing the outline of your lips with his thumb. âTell me right now and Iâll go back to pitching solo cups and scrubbing counters.â
In the pit of your stomach you knew you shouldnât. You knew that if Jojo ever found out heâd flip, heâd always done his best to keep you and his friends separate. You always thought it was because you annoyed him and he didnât want to have to be around you more than you already were, Kakyoin knew that it was because no matter how the man acted, he deeply cared for you and would do anything to protect you. These thoughts of Jotaroâs reaction filtered through your mind but your brother wasnât here right now.
You acted on impulse, your tongue peaking out of your mouth to coax Kakyoins thumb between your lips. He watched with heavy lidded eyes as you gently sucked on the digit, swiping your tongue along the length of it. His breathing picked up for a moment before mumbling a quiet, âFuck.â
Almost instantly you were hoisted on the counter with his lips against yours and wasting no time to swipe his tongue into your mouth. His hands quickly traveled up your thighs, pushing your skirt to pool at your hips and quickly ripping the stockings down the middle. Your legs hooked around his waist, pulling him as close to you as possible as your fingers worked at undoing his belt.
He pulls away from your lips for a moment to help you pull down his boxers and jeans. You licked your lips as you admired his cock, already hard and glistening with precum. You felt his fingers on your face again directing you to look at him.
âMy cock needs to be inside you, sweetheart. Can I do that?â He was breathing heavy, he had never wanted someone so much in his life. All he wanted right now was to feel your pussy around his cock. Consequences be damned. âCan I fuck you, princess?â
You whine when you hear him speak, his voice is like nothing you ever heard before. Lust and want seemed to be dripping off every word. The whole situation leaves you speechless. At the nod of your head, Kakyoin pulls your panties to the side and slides inside you. His moan and your whimper are the only noises in the quiet apartment, his eyes watching your face intently for any sign of discomfort or desire to stop.
âFuck me,â You breath out when your vocie finally comes to you. âPlease, Kakyoin. Fuck me.â
He groans and happily obliges, rocking his cock in and out of you. Your small gasps and whimpers only egg him on more as he increases the speed of this thrust, your hands bracing yourself against the countertop. His eyes break from your face to watch his own cock slide in and out, the sight of his cock slick with your wetness makes him moan.
âThats a perfect fucking pussy, sweetheart.â He breaths out so soft you almost canât hear him over the slick sound of his skin on yours. His eyes find yours again, hand moving back to rest on your jawline and hold you in his gaze. He leans close and sucks your lip into his mouth, his teeth nipping at the soft flesh before soothing it with his tongue.
âYouâre such a good girl,â Kakyoin tells you before pressing his lips against yours again. He picks up the pace because, goddammit, he wants to feel you cum on his cock. He pulls aways, resting his forehead against yours. Your moans are soft and the whimpers that follow cause him to smirk.
âOh, fuck. That feels so good,â You whisper, looking into his eyes. He can see you getting closer and closer and its making it hard for him to keep composed.
âYou take a cock so well, princess,â His lips brush against yours, he tilts your head to the side so that he can kiss down your neck, and then back up again. His lips find the lobe of your ear and gently suck on it. Your moans are getting more and more erratic, every now and then youâll gasp out his name.
âYou gonna be a good girl and cum on my cock,â Kakyoin whispers into your ear, his lips brushing against the shell of it. âShit, sweetheart, I wanna feel that pretty fucking pusy come on my cock.â
Itâs the sound of his voice whispering those dirty things in your ear that sends you over the edge.
âThats it, princess. Fuck, sweetheartâŠIâm...shit. Can IâŠ.?â The red heads voice is ragged and incoherent but you knew what he was asking.
âFuck, yes, please,â Its all you can do to get the words out. âPlease, I wanna feel you come in me.â
You both come hard, his fingers digging roughly into the skin of your thighs and loud moans filling the space of the kitchen. The warmth of him spilling inside of you is enough to make you want a round two. After a few moments the two of you are left breathing heavy, his forehead resting on your shoulder as he tries to catch his breath.
You stay like that for a moment, trying to regain your composure and come to terms with everything that had just happened. This was a development in events that neither of you ever saw coming. Its you that make the move to separate, pushing against his chest and moving off the counter. You avoid eye contact with him, flating your skirt back down and picking up your, now ruined, stockings off the tiled floor. You could feel his cum drip out of you down to your thighs.
âThat wasâŠ.â Kakyoin broke the silence, buckling his belt and running a hand through his hair. You noticed he too was looking at anything but you.
âYeah,â You nodded your head in response.
âYou know we canât uhâŠ-â
âYup.â
âLike, ever.â
âTrust me, Iâm aware.â
âH-Happy...Happy Christmas.â
You just nod and quickly retreat to your room, throwing yourself on your bed and groaning into your pillows. After a moment, you crawled under the blankets and pulled your cat into your chest.
âMiso. I think Iâm a slutâŠ.â
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Kakyoin watched as you retreated away down the hallway, his mind still wrapping around what had happened. The fact that he was the one that instigated it. He was the one that made all the moves and god, he shouldnât have. But he had wanted to. He had wanted to get you in that position all night.
It was at that moment that Jotaro entered the apartment again, smelling of cigarettes andâŠ.perfume? Kakyoin was gonna have to ask him about that one later. â
âThe prodigal son has returned,â The redhead teased his friend, doing his best to hide the guilt he had for what he had just done.
âShut up,â Jotaro mumbled. He eyed his friend curiously, he was very observant and it was very naive of Kakyoin to think that he wouldnât notice the change in his friend. âWhatâs wrong with you?â
I just busted a big one in your sister. And would probably do it again if the chance presented itself. No biggie.
âIâm, uh, Iâm just tired.â
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Thank you so much for reading this! I appreciate it very much. Let me know what you think of it and if I should continue the story. Merry Christmas!
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