#esp with chronic pain

[savage-rhi]

Daily Highlights #1 (1-10-23)

3 Things That Made Me Happy

Taking the day off to rest from a fibro attack

Bundling up in fresh sheets 

Listening to an audio book on philosophy 

3 Productive Activities I Performed 

Updated my peer support business website 

Worked on my crochet/craft store website 

Updated my blog on tumblr 

3 Self Care Activities I Accomplished

Hauled myself to the bathroom to bathe (I crawl like a champ!) 

Tried out the new foot spa bath my ex bought for me 

Didn’t force myself to write or do chores for the sake of being or looking productive 

3 Emotions I felt Today 

Contentment 

Frustration 

Joy 

Overall Day

6/10 Jeff Goldblum's 

[garaks-padded-bra]

bros not to get personal but please take care of your circulation and don't sit down for too long without getting some exercise

- sincerely, dude who got a blood clot last year from sitting at his desk too long working and is still hurting about it

[aritany]

"do it scared" is all well and good but may i also put forth "do it exhausted" and "do it hurting"

where are my chronic pain baddies

[daisyjohnsn]

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[rigormortisangel]

"ohh i wish i was as sick as you so people would have to take care of me :<<" shut the fuck up and kill yourself

[rosquinn]

Lo del dolor crónico es increíble porque cuando llevas varios años yendo a un montón de médicos a ver quién coño te puede ayudar resulta que todos tus médicos anteriores se han pasado un montón de información y pruebas relevantes por el forro de los cojones y llevas 3 años sufriendo un dolor de la hostia porque a la neuróloga no le apetecía hacerte un test de dos minutos

[sunset-synthetica]

I think there's already a post abt this going around but I can't find it

I really wish disabilities were more incorporated into transformers media because, in general, the rep would be nice, but it's also a very interesting topic.

We know that Transformers are nowhere near indestructible, but they are more resilient than humans, and it's easier for them to repair severe injuries, like missing limbs.

I want to see like... how disabilities would be treates given these circumstances. I want to see robots who could get themselves 'repaired', but choose not to. I want to see robots whose disabilities are difficult for humans to comprehend, because we do not have an equivalent to compare it to.

I want missing body parts to be replaced with weird gadgets, I want scars turned into fashion statements and incorporated into one's design the same way the color of a paintjob would be, I want blind and deaf mecha who have adapted to their disabilities and tuned their other senses to make up for them.

[choixsimple]

the incredible hubris I get when doing some low impact exercise helps me feel better... and then I do some rowing and a 20 min treadmill walk in quick succession thinking "surely this time I'll be fine" and I'm bed-bound the next day 🥲

[opalsiren]

a fun thing that has happened to me in recent months is that i feel like i can't go outside by myself anymore. like i'll be out and suddenly feel like i'm going to pass out from pain and fatigue, and if i'm not alone i'll pass my phone to someone and get them to orchestrate a taxi home for me. but then if i'm on my own i won't have anyone to sort a taxi for me, and the fatigue and brain fog and overall cognitive impairments will be so disabling in that moment it's hard to do anything. not to mention if i can't find anywhere to sit while i wait for a taxi it's even more frightening, plus sometimes it takes over half an hour to get a taxi even at off-peak times in areas that really shouldn't be that busy. lol. lmao, even.

[realbeefman]

Your tags remind me of my most personal issue about House and how contradictory it is, namely that half of the time it really understands both chronic pain along with addiction while other times it has zero clue. I became disabled with chronic pain in the middle of season six (I distinctly remember trailers for that season lmao), and on the one hand you get the regret and the anger of disaster dominoes that led to the illness in the first place and the running away from pain even emotional, but on the other you have everyone psychoanalysing that the pain didn’t change who House was when it couldn’t not, slapstick falls and this cop mentality with addiction. Anyway! That was a ramble you didn’t need! Sorry!

sticking my response under a readmore because i've responded to your ramble with a longer ramble of my own

i've been trying for ages to find a much more eloquent post someone else made about how house's cop mentality ties into his character but i can't find it. it's simply lost forever to time.

my (much less coherent) take of house's cop mentality is that his attitudes towards addiction and the way he chooses to manage his own pain can be explained in-universe as an internalization of ableist rhetoric, capitalist "i'm worthless if i can't work" mentality (5x04 birthmarks "[house's dad] saw his work as some sort of... sacred calling), and as an act of self-harm (eg. purposefully using the wrong hand for his cane, even though it's established in canon that he does experience more pain when using his cane this way and still actively chooses to do so) which is an interpretation of house that i think makes the show a lot easier to engage with in fandom/ from a character analysis pov.

but i do have to agree because the overall message the show sends on chronic pain is contradictory at best and actively ableist at worst. i really really hate that the show frames house going into withdrawl as proof that he's using vicodin to get high as if. withdrawl is not just. What Happens when you stop taking the medication you've been taking every day for years cold turkey. the s6 pain management with ibuprofen arc is my most behated arc in any medical drama possibly ever.

i think the characters psychoanalyzing away house's pain as psychosomatic is particularly insidious because ultimately i think the message the average person is going to take from it is that house's pain isn't reasonable BECAUSE it's partially psychosomatic. as if pain's origin matters? as if house isn't entitled to proper medical treatment just because his pain has a psychological component?

i know deep in my soul that at the end of the day House MD is a medical drama that is ultimately going to reflect attitudes prominent within the medical community and discuss social issues that the culture is actively discussing at the time, which is why house is constantly psychoanalyzed and the question of whether he is a "real addict" comes up over and over again. but i think the conclusions that the show comes to from there are overall very poorly thought out. surely a show that had this large of a budget could've and should've done better!

[twodiamondhoes]

Where we're at:

19 hours and counting on Very Little Sleep (thank you Mr. Dog)

My mind has been focused so much on Only Silver that I apparently conjured up a memory of running an idea past my partner that never... actually occurred.... (I fully remember talking to Jim about something in the car. I can picture exactly what intersection we were at and what we were listening to. We did not actually ever discuss this plot point. I felt like my brain was melting. Good to know that Dream!Jim is also an excellent plot snarl rubber duck?)

Dog has given me a headache

Room is starting to spin

Update will happen tomorrow first chance I get, so that I can look over it properly without my eyeballs melting out of my skull. 👍

[thekidsarentalright]

i rly do think kintsugi kid hits incredibly different and deeper from the perspective as a chronically ill person than it ever would otherwise. absolutely guts me

[riggedbones]

got so annoyed at my laptop that i think my arms decided to start having a chronic pain flare up because of it. the timing is suspicious as hell

[daz4i]

did y'all know that apparently i'm a good dancer. who'd have thought