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fighting-these-demons · 7 months ago

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Divorce Saga Domon - A Haunted Honk Prequel

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Ended up outlining a completely different fic as a Segway for an explanation instead of making progress on the Royal Flush Haunted Honk AU's Clown Motel Fic like I wanted to but uh....

For y'all's review for the AU: A Prequel Outline - Divorce Saga Domon

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Hey real quick - I'm thinking of maybe changing the timeline to 2 years post canon as opposed to 3 years and change post canon.

The reason being: I had a thought that this scene could either be part if the fic or if it's getting to big then it could be a stand alone tie-in prequel fic as part of this AU but - like

Immediately Post Divorce Domon Needs Space and runs off. As one does. And he runs to Earth because he just wants to Get Lost for a while.

He has Argo smuggle him out to avoid detection.

Argo has Andrew help stow Domon in a storage hanger of a Neo Canadian supply ship that's returning to the US - they have trade often enough and share agricultural resources - which leads to Domon ending up in New York when he hits Earthside pavement.

He's privately worked on his English the last couple of months and after being dropped in New York with a different hairstyle, outfit, and accent he's unrecognizable.

He considers making his way west to get some solitude in the wilderness, but something about that initial plan feels off now that he's on the ground.

Chibodee is also Earthside for a special series of prize fights aimed at raising charitable appeal for the US in the eyes of Neo Americans.

Domon decides to hit up Chibodee for a fight on a day between matches hoping it'll clear his head and give him the clarity to decide on a course of action. What ends up happening is an unexpected heart to heart via blows and a breakdown.

Domon is happy for Rain and Kyoji, and he knows it's not true; but he feels like he lost a piece of himself when his relationship with Rain fell apart.

Domon's instinct is to run after that but Chibodee knows this city and Domon doesn't hide out for long before Chibodee drags him back to his place to stay and just "Chill out and breathe. You don't have to be anyone but yourself here. You can take as long as you need to find out what everything changing means for you." Friends and teammates stick together.

So Domon spends a few weeks with Chibodee sparring and hanging out in New York. Chibodee does a frankly awesome job at containing his feelings because he's focusing on Domons feelings and being a good friend first and foremost. Whatever he's feeling can wait until after Domon is done going though it.

There's a bit of a twinge in Domon's heart as he leaves that he can't really place.

After he returns to Neo Japan and gets settled back into life with his family, The Dreams start.

They're mainly set in New York. Small things first like noticing Chibodee's smile and his eyes. Then sparring sessions that begin to turn lurid.

He thought these kinds of dreams would stop after he was married.... he doesn't know what to do about this.

I just figure it gives more clarity and sense of time for the journey from Comphet Marriage Dissolution to Feelings to Confession. Idk.

But I got stuck on a bit and then had this thought and needed to get it down before I lost it and it was so long it made sense to make it its own post as opposed to several replies.

The Maize and Clown Motel will probably still be 3 years and change post canon for clarification.

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#Domon Kasshu/Chibodee Crocket #Royal Flush #Chibodee Crocket/Domon Kasshu #Royal Flush Haunted Honk AU #mobile fighter g gundam #I imagine he hasn't had time for a Big Gay Crisis yet but the time is absolutely now #Kyoji absolutely helps him through this crisis because he had a normal environment and university to figure his own shit out.#Kyoji has to figure out WHY Domon is imploding and explosive and avoiding everyone a second time though.#This doesn't seem related to the Divorce but it doesn't seem immediately obvious either. 🤔#Cue Schwarz FINALLY getting a fucking break and immediately coming to stay with Rain and Kyoji at their place.#Domon was aware that they had been living together in Neo Japan briefly before Schwarz was called back to Neo Germany for questioning #Once his rank was stripped of him he was back with Kyoji for a short period before the Divorce as part of Kyoji and Dr. Kasshu's study of #DG Cells. Once they had a breakthrough - Schwarz was sent abroad with a small military group and Doctors Without Borders group to assist #With immediate infection cases on behalf of Neo Japan as part of reparations. So Domon hadn't seen him in quite some time.#Domon certainly wasn't expecting to see him in the garden when he rounded the corner of the Mikamura residence #Leaned over Kyoji who appears to have been working outside on his laptop. Fingers intertwined a hand on Kyojis jaw and locked in a kiss.#Which ends pretty much instantly as they sense Domon and break apart. It occurs to Kyoji and Schwarz that Kyoji never #Got the chance to actually tell Domon much about himself and the man he'd grown into while Domon was training in Hong Kong with Master Asia #This might be a pretty significant shock to him.#I can't decide between Domon running from his Gay Revelation or IMMEDIATELY Losing His Shit at the thought of Rain's SECOND marriage ending #And knowing for sure now the reason why his and Rain's marriage didn't work out. He really does prefer men.#Bu HOW DARE Kyoji do this to her!!! She's been through enough!!!! This will HURT her SO BADLY!!! (Projection of guiiillllttt)#Back to square 1 fir a moment like damn #And once he starts fighting Kyoji about it (Thank God the ressurection gave them the option to make Kyojis new build similar to Schwarz's)#It comes out that Rain cant go through this AGAIN and he won't let him do this to her! Her honor means something to Domon #And it should mean something to Kyoji too as HER HUSBAND #Kyoji and Schwarz catch on the Again bit and Kyoji makes it clear that Rain has known about his situation with Schwarz since they returned #That they're quite literally inseparable and that Rain married him knowing this. She's fully aware and an active participant.#Domon takes a leg sweep and doesn't quite make his recovery as Schwarz steps in #Pinning his arms and one leg in place so he can't run from Kyojis question. Kyoji grabs Domon's hair to turn his head and asks

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t8oo · 6 months ago

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there is some symbolism iv never considered in that one episod of pt5 where zenigata rescues fujiko before she kills lupin

#there are many timelines and variations in lupin as a serie so that every ship could work #in my own prefered timeline lupin finally gets the hint that fujiko plays him like a fiddle #to me she does like him but he is an instrument to her #she is cold hearted and calculating and always thinking about relationships in terms of profit #i got some ideas abt her background that justify this. essentially she kills the detective that is after her and with that kills #the soft part of her that she couldnt control before #eventually and despite his affection lupin gives up the objectifications and the desires he projects onto fujiko #whom uses his delusions like a master tbh #thus allowing himself to consider zenigata. he plays with zenigata the way fujiko plays with him #hes just not as calculating. he feels pity and remorse where fujiko doesnt #he finds the thrills and the doubts and the lack of trust and the risk of betrayal in zenigata. the things that he loves the most #he isnt about stability. he thrives in the unknown. he loves that zenigata could backstab him and does so sometimes #and in that lack of stabilty some form of stability builds up. there is familiarity #and most importantly there are rare times when they can put the game aside and just chill #just enough to gather the energy to go back to trying to kill each other #plus zenigata pampers him during those breaks and he loves that #he acts with carelessness but he does care. in that regard he looses to fujiko #at least thats how she sees it. he doesnt see caring as a flaw #and zenigata is so sweet. he really is. and lupin loves to stirr up the crazy in him #fucking loonies the both of them #so in essence zenigata doesnt really 'save' him from fujiko but he becomes lupins new favourite toy to throw around #fujiko is only upset that because of that ugly looser of a detective her grip on lupin is loosening #she does find ways to use that newly developed affection luzeni has to her advantage thou #lupin is still her instrument she just drags zenigata along now #fujiko is such a good and interesting character and deserves so much better honestly #despite my love for TWCFM i wish there was another serie centralized around her where her ruthlessness is examined #and her cunning is studied. and the proper law enforcement she should face the same way lupin does #shes like a million times smarter and more ressourceful than him. steals much more. embezzles. manipulate #lupin is just a small time pickpocket next to her. she isnt about stealing a painting shes about emptying the pockets of the richest men in #the world. her goals are much more ambitious

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uygfiug · 3 months ago

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how do you people study through extreme exhaustion? bc thats what always gets me during the exams & i cannot keep doing this forever

#the first time i had exams i kept going through pure desperation #bc i cared a lot more back then #but now i just dont see studying as important enough for that to work #redoing a year wont be fun but i know people the year below me & it wouldnt be bad either #anyways to pass this next exam i probably wont get any sleep #or maybe 2 hours #which i know is bad but since its only 2 exams this time im less worried about sleep & more about just getting through #so i need to know how to keep myself going #i have no available caffeine :( otherwise thatd be my first idea #but idk ive tried so many things #turning on the big light #movement breaks #short naps #sleeping a few hours & just getting up really early #music - which does help a lot but its not enough #mine #please no one ever taught me any of this i just keep guessing & hoping i get it right #like at school they do 'teach you to study' but really its just a few tips #mostly to take care of yourself & not pull all nighters #like okay. but what if i have to otherwise i will not pass? how do i manage that?#i never had to study before high school #& that combined with my horrible mental state at the time meant my grades went from really good to horrible #and yet somehow passing #but idk i dont want to be hanging on by a thread and just one mistake away from failing anymore #thats not fun #i think it was kinda good for me since i made peace with maybe failing & dont really care about that anymore? like if i fail thats okay too #but yeah anyway #im rambling so i dont have to start studying

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faaun · 3 months ago

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ok let's catch up quickly

#so i went on a few dates w this guy. long hair beautiful face kinda looked like a girl (good) said yes ma'am when i told him to do smth #(also good) film student great at photography including candids. made a sheath of leather for a sword pin i have . et cetera.#he asked to cuddle and i was like iggg and then i felt Nothing and i was like ohhh yh ok ok yep lesbian #like he meets almost all my criteria but. yeahhh no . also at the end of that date he had some weird takes. anyway broke up w him and told #him actually im p sure im a lesbian (again) and he was like yk thats the second time this has happened to me this week but its ok bc ive #fallen for this girl from berlin. and then we cooked together. anyway . met a beautiful butch lowk in love w her. weve been on (1) date.#have two exams in a few days havent studied enough going to like end it all basically. my research partner kicked me off our research #(expected(it was always skinda sketchy)) which was devastating + it happened in a lidl 15 hours into a journey from bordeaux #to go back to the UK. my friends were kinda busy paying for baguettes but also they heard this whole exchange and are kinda mad at him #my friend of 10+ years is coming over in a few days. my evil ex situationship person that i decided to stay friends w because i kept #insisting they are a good friend and not evil and also extremely beautiful? turns out shockingly enough they were evil. tried to fix them #and then i realised due to their entire friendship group being ppl like me (Every Single One of their friends are ppl they met on dating #apps then led on then dumped and proposed staying friends w) and are collectively extremely attracted to them and not over them they #keep validating the most diabolical shit they say/do to hace a chance w them. they broke up w their ex and the way they keep leading #this poor girl on and making her heartbeeak worse and saying that they want more power over her and want her to beg for them back etc...MY #JAW HAD DROPPED esp bc i didnt even know the ex was in the picture BECAUSE ME AND ONE OF OUR FRIENDS (that they also dated) HAD JUSR SLEPT #NAKED TOGETHER IN THEIR BED W THEM. GIRL. anyway that is the least of the diabolical stuff they said but no we are moving onnn #this was b4 the beautiful butch btw. anyways . i have a mitski concert tmrw i think?? idek anymore #i used to have a crush on this guy very briefly and then it disappeared and then i realised if he fundementally changed everything abt #himself then maybe id like him but ofc i didnt tell him that but i still think abt it sometimes but anyway thats irrelevant now bc 99% sure #even if he did id still not find him attractive (lesbianism). please recommend good overnight moisturisers btw i have super dry skin #right. the friend of 10 yrs. we had a hard convo abt why she essentially bullied me in year 8 and it made me highly bitter but i also love #her and ik things are diff now its been like . Many Years . and shes going to stay a while I HAVE TWO EXAMS I DONT HAVE TIME but i love her #its fine. i think i might just switch into medicine and do the whole become a neurosurgeon thing (which was my plan B) bc plan A is looking #kinda impossible rn. I WANNA TALK MORE ABT WHAT THE EX SITUATIONSHIP PERSON SAID but i wont bc i dont wanna be too mean but also . MY GOD #i had a conversation w a philosopher friend about whether i have a moral responsibility to try to fix them bc unleashing this on society #feels wrong and he said 'probably but...run' so yeah im not talking to them atm. second date w beautiful butch on monday btw IDK WHAT TO #WEAR. she said she likes fems. im just gonna wear the shortest ralph lauren skirt i have w the cute leg warmers and hope 4 the best #its 1:15 AM im abt to drink coffee and start studying bc what the FUCK man. also almost finished watching the boys its very good #one of my best friends is struggling rn it is breaking my heart i want to take the burden from her i miss her very much

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triglycercule · 1 hour ago

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eusgahhhhh goddddd the lazy urge to just beg the internet to mansplain killer's lore to me in baby talk so i can finally GET IT and then the other less appealing urge to actually do an analysis on him so i can form my own opinion and observations. fucj

#im so tired maaaan eudgahhhhhh #i need to come up with more asks to ask people #because apparently i want to do that now. whats wrong with you brain why do you want this #im so TIRED i could EAT a WHALE!#i need to DO IT. I NEED TO ACTUALLY DO A FUCKING KILLER ANALYSIS ITS BEEN TOO LONG #thanksgiving break is coming up will that be enough for me to want to study him with my magnifying glass #this feels like sans and papyrus are the energy controlling angel and demons on my shoulders #speaking of classic undertale this has actually nothing to do with undertale LMAO #but i can just imagine myself as chara in the murder time trio fangame fight #aaaahahahahahaha horror would be so maaad <33333 i DID just destroy his entire au after all :333 #and dust would be FURIOUS!!! BOTH OF THEM!!!! SO PISSED AT ME!!!!#i just took away one's place of achieving a goal and another's place of demented comfort #yeaaaah those two would be SO pissed heehehehehehe #horror never gets to have his potential happy ending because i took it away #dust never gets to honor all those he killed and put an end to what he did because of ME #the murder time trio fangame concept is SO underrated guys. touken-kamui's mtt is AMAZING #and because i look like a chara of course killer's got an entire internal conflict going on #FUCK alright sure. unsure of where this thought process will lead but we ball. me when thinking about anything killer related (i am unsure)#ANOTHER fucking chara messed up his life eruaghhhh and to make things worse they dont even seem to LIKE something new #touken-kamui's chara seems to be a megalomaniac instead of a shitty sadistic scientist #i would look so similar to the one that he doesn't know if he hates or not #should he fight alongside these 2 strangers or should he submit like he always did to his chara. to this NEW chara???#and this is all just assuming this is that 1 ending where killer kills chara and hasnt met nm yet (my favorite ending)#EFUAGH!!!! would killer stay back after the first few minutes. let dust and horror fight in steed of him as he deals w this #the two would be SO annoyed at him too. at this point if i wasn't there they'd probably kill eachother. or killer #well killer can't save or reset in the judgement hall that we got sucked into #so he actually has to put some value to his body and life if he wants to fight me #SEE WHAT I MEAN TOUKEN-KAMUI'S MURDER TIME TRIO IS AWESOME!!!!!#tricule rant #this got totally off topic from what the post was about but i should do it

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spearxwind · 1 year ago

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parents will literally blame insane shit on you

#im so fucking tired dude. i want to break something so bad rn holy shit #the gall they have to tell me i dont care about my future. just cause i dont think getting into another year of studies literally suddenly #like 'do it today because the time slot ends today and if you dont do it we're making u pack up ur house and move back with us' suddenly #cause if i dont do it i dont care enough abt my future #dude................. ive been working my ass off so hard the past few months????#thunderclap #im not gonna go on a rant cause ill get even madder but god im fucking pissed. great way to start the day dude just so fucking cool forever #love this love this love this #im not even home im at my bfs house and havcing to deal with this shit and then later today i have more shit

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estrellazzz · 8 days ago

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Dissociation is so protective. I do love it at times. Whatever seemed to be bothering me in the month of October or hell, even 3 days ago? It all seems like a foot note now.... drugs help speed up the mind-scrubbing process too.

#thinking about that dynamic i had with that online penpal btw that i cut off 2 days ago but feels like 2 months ago #he would treat me like a clinical mena health study object #he would ask about my alters and theorize about what archetype they are which was very. weird looking back #i cant lie that I did learn a lot from that short... online friendship.#learned that the amount of times i split isnt normal for example #or the “architect” archetype which rhere is not much literature on... i suppose its rare #he was horrifically abusive to someone and that person was brave enough to warn me.....#i feel like she saved me #bc if someone ever treated me that way again.. the things he said to her... id honestly break down....#it was very abusive. words cant describe. its so evil words can't even explain #if you use someones childhood trauma to purposefully dysregulate them... you are evil. full stop #im grateful she warned me... shes cutting him off too. i hope she will be okay #bruh. discord drama just came to a whole other level. what a weird month October was. im glad its over.#November is a month of cleansing. i guess #ive been burning my palo Santo incense regularly and bring my selenite crystal w me a lot #they clear negative energy and lots of negative energy has been released away this month #hard to not get whimsical and think my slight interest in.. pagan practices may have contributed #the logical side of me says no. you just got lucky. the crystal and incense has nothing to do w ur life clearing up recently #but let me stay whimsical...

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mad-hunts · 4 months ago

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19. entry made talking about a simple / normal day.

'dear diary' prompts...

[TRANSCRIPTION: so, i'd like to start this off by saying that i sometimes crave a sense of normalcy more than ever in my life... though i know that people might not expect something like that out of me. you know, because i seem so devoted to my work, i guess. but i have to say that after getting a taste of it today, it's probably when i'm at my happiest. me and jack had spent the day together, which is something we actually rarely get to do. he had told me about this crepe place that had opened up a little while ago and he seemed really eager to go there. so i invited jack to do that this morning and i swear, i hadn't seen him smile that big in a while. which did something funny to my heart.

and by that, i mean you know that feeling you get when you can't contain the love you have for someone? yeah that was pretty much what ended up happening to me; a fuzziness had hit me in the chest. but after we went there, and jack ate an impressive amount of crepes (he was really fond of the nutella and strawberry ones), my son suggested that we see this new movie that came out recently. and it was hard to pass up so of course i said yes. we snuck in some candy and drinks because, honestly, who wants to pay for the overpriced candy they have? not us so we did that and just like i expected... the theater was pretty packed since it was for the new hunger games movie. it was good though!

anyhow, after that, jack wanted to spend some time just hanging out by the water when he did something that surprised me. jack hugged me. and it was really nice, because i can't remember the last time my son gave me one like that. he went on to tell me that he missed 'this part of me.' this got me to thinking that, yeah, i have been treating him not so well for a while. so maybe i ought to change that. jack deserves to have a father who doesn't switch up on him every day, from being mean to being nice.

maybe i'll call my therapist back and tell her i want to start seeing her again. she might've said some things that i didn't like the last time, one of those being that i exhibit behaviors that are typical of sociopaths — but i guess i can make an exception for jack, because he's my little bug.

signed, barton. ]

#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study.#tw: allusions to mistreatment of children.#sighs... y'all already know what i'm going to say here: barton's relationship with his kids really is complicated because he seems-#to love them in his own 'barton-like' way and this could mean various things from calling them things like 'his little bug' to being-#emotionally manipulative to them and it's like 😬 i just. the fact that barton could acknowledge here that he has treated him TERRIBLY-#in the past does imply that he does hold some sort of self-awareness about how he is severely lacking in the parent department-#but it's not enough for him to make any real changes unfortunately because barton is STILL like this to this day.#with him being super temperamental and hard to predict which is typical of emotionally manipulative / abusive people.#and although he is is pretty much a big ball of anger + unresolved trauma that has helped twist him into the man he is today-#AND it is also a fact that barton has experienced psychotic depression... that doesn't mean that he can blame his past for becoming-#a bad person. i just want to talk about the comment he made here about feeling a 'fuzziness in his chest' though because that is just.#it makes me want to WEEP alright because it makes it clear that barton does have the capacity to love his children in an actually-#healthy and understandable way but he doesn't most of the time and it's like... WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS GAHHH #tw: emotional manipulation.#tw: emotional abuse.#plus i honestly think that barton DID call his therapist at the time back and started to go back to her buttt being told by a mental health #professional that they noticed he lacks empathy is impulsive and seems to take enjoyment out of disrespecting people + breaking laws-#changed his relationship with them. so things were likely never the same again and barton didn't trust her anymore

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arc-archernar · 10 months ago

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#vent #it feels awful #not knowing what the fuck to do #i WANT like a fucking gluttonous beast #i wanna be good at everything #i wanna be good at art and singing and worldbuilding and writing and editing and animating and academics #and i never feel satisfied #and no ones forcing me to do any of this #i just fucking want to for some reason and its destroying me #i just end up being not good at anything. im shit at studying and sleeping and keeping to deadlines #i want there to be enough time for me to explore everything #for me to learn everything at my own pace and perfect my skills #but it just feels like i have no time for myself anymore #everything i have i must dedicate to studying for a levels and its so tiring. i wanna draw and be creative too but theres so much course #content that its killing me. i want my free time back #and im forever thankful to my parents for moving with me all the way to the uk so i can learn about things that actually interest me but #even that doesnt really mean anything anymore thanks to the standardization of education and especially exams and exam boards #so my parents spent all that effort and money for nothing and i really just want to break down and cry and say sorry #but that would just hurt them even more and even i dont have the heart to do that so im stuck with this and im so goddamn tired #and of course by spreading my attention and efforts so thin everything i do is lackluster so of course my grades are shit #and i get sick often so my attendence record is also shit #it just feels like im a burden for existing like a malignant tumour #and i have to relearn how to cry. imagine that. a grown adult not knowing how to cry #i never knew there was supposed to be emotional relief when crying sometimes because whenever i cry when im overwhelmed...or anytime really #i get told to stop immediately so i got trained to hold everything in.and i get that its easy for the adults to deal with a not-crying child #but i kinda feel cheated #i want that emotional catharsis that comes with crying your feelings out and i have to teach myself how to do it #how pathetic is that #had to get this out there its just too much for me #arc 3am logs

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airenyah · 9 months ago

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Hi, regarding your JD vampire agenda, did you watch the latest Hidden Hangout? Joong has a very vampire-y moment and Dunk is very unbothered by it 😂 You were my first thought when I saw it, so congrats on the legacy 😃

hiii, i've been busy all day and haven't had the chance to watch today's ep yet 😭😭😭

but omg good to know 👀 you've got me really curious now fjcjjfjf

also YES i love that this is my legacy on here!! my personal hidden agenda is to slowly turn everyone into a JD vampire bl supporter 🤭 glad to have you on board, anon, and i'm absolutely delighted that i'm the first person you think of when there's anything related to JD + vampires. all is well in life 😌😂😂

#anon #asks #hidden hangout #sexy joongdunk vampire bl #adrm #my semester break ended and i'm currently back on my way to the city where i study #normally i'd use the time on the train to watch today's ep of hidden hangout #but unfortunately i desperately need to revise for my exam tomorrow #i'm so underprepared for it rip #i just didn't manage to find the motivation to study and even when i did look at my notes i didn't retain shit rip #i have two exams this weeks that are mostly about memorizing which person came up with which concept during what time period #it's so fucking dull ughhh i don't wanna know this shit #i don't wanna make translation my career anyway in fact it's a plan b. if not plan c actually #whoops that turned into a rant sorry #maybe i should just go watch the new ep of hidden hangout instead after all fjcjcjfj #fingers crossed i'll manage to bullshit my way through the exams well enough to get a D that's all i need tbh

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born-to-lose · 8 months ago

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God I miss this bar, I wanna go back so bad

#but first i'll acclimatize to the kindergarten where i'm starting my internship tomorrow #and then when they don't have a big event where it will be packed i'll visit them to see if they missed me and because of the withdrawal #once i start school in september (for three years) i'll have enough to do so i won't be able to work there anyway #same with this internship. but maybe afterwards in summer i could offer to work again or at least come in on busy days #we'll see what i'll do in summers while studying but i'll probably go for some student job or summer camps or something like that #idk about the time after those three years but depending on where and how much i work then i could pick up bartending again #apparently other people who have worked there took a break for school/main job and then came back #if not i can still go there way more frequently or try dj-ing like some other regulars #this kindergarten seems great but they're moving to another place in the county next year which is really shitty to get to from where i live #both with public transport and by car :// which is why i'm saying depending on where i work in three years #some kindergartens/schools etc are only hiring part time so in that case i would probably work some hours at the bar but if full time not #mel talks

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iron-niffler · 1 year ago

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not me sitting at my desk staring off into space wistfully thinking about what im going to do on december 19 at 11am after my last final as if i don't have ten assignments to do, a paper to write, two exams next week and 3-4 finals to study for

#help #def gonna buy myself a milkshake and some snacks when it's over then just nab an empty classroom and play video games for hours #thinking about winter break on the horizon is literally the one thing getting me through this final stretch stg #that and those mountain dew fruit flavored energy drinks #ofc my dad was asking if i wanted to get a job over break #like i would consider it but my break is 2.5 weeks long #yes the theater would probably take me back but it took me like a week and a half to start bc paperwork #haha im to busy to be unmotivated but too stressed to get to work #just looking at differential equations is making my head spin much less SOLVING them #why did my school decide that five days (counting the weekend) was enough for thanksgiving break #my elementary school siblings had more time off than i did ffs #how much longer can i tell myself just x more days #how much longer till i just...lose it #wrote myself a long ass to do list for now till break then had to take a several hour long break to calm dowb #and now im more stressed bc im more behind and fml #im too stupid for engineering #still holding myself to my high school standards which are just impossible to reach in uni #like when im doing high school shit i barely studied and always got above an 80 #now im just...average #like literally half my grades are at the class average #feels like im fighting tooth and nail for C's but oh well that's just mechanical engineering ig #it's just months of “just gotta get through this exam” over and over till a two week break then it's time to do it all over again

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kanene-yaaay · 2 years ago

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Hmmm life sucks so u know what that means

Time for the FLUFFIEST HURT/COMFORT hidden in my bookmarks

#I really wanted to re-read Throw me a goddamn rope just enough to hang myself w it or always and never and eventually #(or something around that. titles are v bad for me but it's Bakugou going back on time) because both of them have the cutest dadzawa EVER #but I don’t have energy for a not finished fic so :(#anyway took a bath and listened to Faroeste Cabloco because yeah best way to deal w feelings is screaming a 9 minutes long song #I don’t remember even studying that much. like. even w the preparatory course I had a routine full of breaks and quite balanced #now however I am still adapting so sometimes I just have to spend +12 hours on college w like a 2 hours break sprinkled somewhere around it #and do it again the next day #crazy #on a much lighter note!!! my classmates are nice. like. really nice. very very kind and cool and understanding and *nice*.#i know it's the first semester and everything but GOSH it's COOL to be in a class that isn’t always fighting w each other or w the teachers #it's been like 7/8 years since I've had that? so it's very very greeeat! and helpful #crazy how life works #back to the fic thing: wanted to read some atla stuff but I *really* need the trope of sad bean being adopted by Aizawa and getting to-#-to know what a family truly is #kanene being kanene #vent #also I fell from the college's stairs so BSHVSYWGS knees huuuurt. it was nothing bad and honestly I was laughing a lot because #it was just such a sudden and weird fall that I just agefyevehevhe !!! and a classmate helped to get up like BRUH #SHAKING U BY THE SHOULDERS HOW DARE U TO BE SO NICE #anyway high emotions maybe I should sleep earlier today #or look for comforting tk fics #👀👀 hurt comfort soft playful cheer up tickles imma coming for u 👀👀

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damiemontclair · 1 year ago

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Post about covid babies being in school now made me realise its no fucking wonder I'm burnt out. I'm 24 and I have been in the education system since I was 2 (and a half). 22 fucking years. 7 of them in higher education. I was supposed to be out by the time I turned 23 btw. Gods willing I'll be out before I turn 25.

#This has been. An unpleasant realisation.#Also very enlightening.#No fucking wonder I'm mildly fucked up rn.#And listen I don't... Blame the school system itself. I went in and out of school in the normal amount of time.#But it did fail me in that no one noticed the adhd. How much easier would it have been if I'd had the help I needed?#And now I'm here and failed my masters thesis and struggling to pull myself together enough to try again.#And maybe. Maybe if at 17 I'd taken a break and went off to travel; like my father kept pushing; I wouldn't be this way now...#My dad was ready to sponsor a year of traveling in japan for me.#(Granted upon looking back I realise he was probably also trying to get me away from my toxic partner.)#But a year not studying? Yeah it'd probably have done wonders...#damie talks

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ghosttownwherenoonegoes · 2 years ago

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I have the window open in my room so I can have some ventilation/I'm not stewing in my own sickness but it's cold so I'm probably gonna end up prolonging my sickness but idk how else to do it when I can't have my door open.😅

#tw; sickness #anyone know how to achieve a well-ventilated room when i can't have my door open?#the only option really is the window #but it's cold :D #i'll deal :))#i feel better as the days go on so i'm sure i'll be back at work soon!#saturday is the minimum though #i might end up with more days off depending on what work says #i finally feel better enough to study & write so between now & saturday i'm gonna be doing these things to my heart's content #eeeee kinda grateful for the break off work tbh uni was becoming dire again #i really miss eddie💔💔💔#maybe i can make some time for him this week

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