#and now im more stressed bc im more behind and fml

[iron-niffler]

not me sitting at my desk staring off into space wistfully thinking about what im going to do on december 19 at 11am after my last final as if i don't have ten assignments to do, a paper to write, two exams next week and 3-4 finals to study for

[criminal-sen]

PSA FOR PPL ON TESTOSTERONE??? Or maybe I'm just wearing a fucking dunce hat bc fml???

So I've been on testosterone for over a year as most of you know. Well. Would you even believe me if I told you I JUST learned the vials, as far as the pharmacy is concerned, are fucking SINGLE USE? Like I was on .5 for most of this time, so I'd draw up TWO DOSES from each vial, leaving fucking Nothing behind for shortage concerns, and I JUST LEARNED I was supposed to draw up ONE dose then 'discard' the rest????? Like no one ever told me that til just now!!! And the only reason I found out is because I recently upped my dose to .6, so was wondering who was supposed to do the math on refills given the 2ml preset amount in the two vials!!! I.. like I'm not sure how to properly convey how fucking stressed out I've been over this, cuz if shit hits the fan and I no longer have access, I barely have a single dose saved up from alllllll the remaining vials I've hoarded!!!! And I JUST find out, I could've been saving AN ENTIRE FUCKING DOSE every two weeks!!!!

Like why didn't my clinic ever say anything??????? I've been refilling my script half as many times as I should be this entire fucking time!!!!! And no WONDER everyone else* has been so fucking flippant about this, they have like a year's worth of doses sitting there and just assume I'm being needlessly paranoid!!!! I'm like. I'm so fucking mad rn but I'm also... relieved??? I guess??? Like in the most bitter way possible??? Like thanks, random pharmacy employee, for letting me know, FINALLY, and only because an unrelated question was worded in such a way that it happened to come up🤦‍♂️

(This is not in fact everyone nor is it a specific person, just kind of a mood I've glimpsed here and there. and flippant is a very uncharitable word I'm using bc im pissed off, the more accurate word would be 'reacting from a different perspective than my own')

Anyway if this applies to you even remotely, all i can suggest is to check with your pharmacy. like I know absolutely nothing about this other than what I just learned on the phone

[softchink]

2nd gen kids deal with too much shit

the post office line to get passport stuff done was A HUNDRED PEOPLE LONG and we waited for SIX HOURS - since FOUR AM -- we were all immigrant families trying to renew/get passports to visit vietnam, china, the philippines, india, pakistan, el salvador, mexico -- like kids skipped school to wait in line so you know it was REAL

and the post office lady was like “yeah ur not gonna be able to book an appointment until after the trump presidency lol look at this line” and it was a joke but like...she was serious .. trump has made all this more urgent 

like all these families were desperate to do this NOW and it was all very very stressful and someone was talking about her mom waiting five hours in the cold only to be rejected bc her forms were done wrong?? and i was like hyperventilating bc figuring out my family’s forms WERE SO FUCKING STRESSFUL and like ? at nine am they started telling people to go home

and ALSO WHY DOES MY FAMILY NEVER LISTEN TO ME?? i helped them with forms and translating and i was like “ok i got this” and then my mom started criticizing me like “meimei, you’re doing this all wrong, you’re gonna get rejected, your aunt is never going to get to see her dying father in indonesia” et etc and i was DYING I WAS SO STRESSED and then when i tried to listen to music to calm down (IT WAS FOUR AM) my mom was like “meimei why don’t u care about us? y dont you ever pay attention to us?” and I WAS LIKE I DO SO MUCH FOR THIS FAMILy FUCK U but actually i just started apologizing and tearing up (I WAS STRESSED, my aunt didnt even know what papers to bring, my mom forgot her ID, she had to call my dad, oh my god,) and then WHEN I TRIED TO TELL THEM THAT U CANT LIE ABOUT CITIZENSHIP (that’s literally a crime oh my god) my mom was like “well i used to lie” and i was like FUCKinggG

and i was like.......YOU CANT?? and she literally said “oh..well u can,” and i was like U CAN BUT YOU SHOULD NOT!! and she was like “well im a citizen now” and i was like NOT BECAUSE U LIED Stop telling people to LIE just because YOU NEVEER GOT CAUGHT ARE YOU FUCKingG serious 

and then when i was telling them THE LAW and like what they should/shouldnt say my mom starts CALLING MY GRANDMA in line just to tALK SHIT about me like “oh meimei is trying to stop her own aunt from getting a passport, she is telling us false information” like NO IM SO DONE IM TRYING TO HELP ALL THE TIME I LTIERAYY CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE

and then she used her rusty vietnamese to shit talk me to the family in fRONT OF US!! and tHEN!!! some whtie lady assumed she was married to the asian man behind us bc she was racist and my mom was like “did u see thath?” and i was like yyes and i would commiserate if YOU WERE SO FUCKING MEAN TO ME oh my GOD im so tired why did i think break was gonna be fine there is SO MUCH HOMEWORK i have to do and i havent done any of it oh my god fml